00:01:44.760When I was 12, I was diagnosed with bipolar type 2, mainly really severe depression.
00:01:51.020When I was 21, I was diagnosed with idiopathic hypersomnia, which is basically narcolepsy.
00:01:55.700It's just like, we're not sure why, but you're sleeping all the time.
00:01:59.920I had rashes and I was getting sicker and sicker.
00:02:03.240When I was 17, I had my hip and ankle replaced from the arthritis that wasn't kept under
00:02:08.800control with the immune suppressants I was injecting myself with since I was eight.
00:02:12.680so I didn't like as a kid I guess if you're sick it's very because you don't know a lot of other
00:02:20.680kids it's hard to tell what the difference between your life and somebody else's is I had my brother
00:02:25.960to compare myself to and I was like well why me like why is that me and not him because he's like
00:02:30.280perfect example of health it's like how's that fair um and then when I was 23 and I kept getting
00:02:37.060sicker and sicker and I was on more and more medication and my skin stopped healing, I thought,
00:02:44.160okay, I have to figure this out or it's going to kill me. And I have second cousins and a lot of
00:02:52.560autoimmune problems on my dad's side. And some of those people were really sick. I had a second
00:02:58.320cousin who passed away when she was 30 from a skin autoimmune disorder or something. They're
00:03:04.220not entirely sure, but she had symptoms that were similar to mine, but her, she didn't have
00:03:08.860arthritis. So I thought, okay, I have to figure this out. So I never really thought about myself
00:03:13.680as resilient because I thought, what other option do I have? I'm just going to, you know,
00:03:18.980you either learn and survive or you're going to die. That's kind of how I thought about it.
00:03:25.940I'm also kind of prone to volatility and anger, which is, I think, part of actually what helped
00:03:33.160me get through the sicknesses instead of wilting away, I got angry. So if we want to talk about
00:03:39.740resiliency a little bit, I guess, and mindset and how to get through that was just the health
00:03:45.240aspect, right? Right? Okay, I'll rewind a little bit. So I got I started to get healthy because I
00:03:50.320went on this like insane diet adventure. And I kind of got raked over the coals in the media for
00:03:56.160that. I went super, super low carb, which is more, at least you hear about it now. And that
00:04:03.160helped a lot of my autoimmune symptoms. And then I ended up on an all meat diet, not because I
00:04:08.620wanted to be controversial or only eat meat because it's actually not fun. But because
00:04:15.260the alternative was having an autoimmune disorder and a mood disorder. And then at the same time,
00:04:22.020my dad went on the diet he lost a bunch of weight because he had autoimmune problems and
00:04:27.320and really severe depression he started feeling better and at the same time he got famous and
00:04:32.620there was all that controversy which was incredibly stressful uh i think even just a positive
00:04:39.300experience with fame is incredibly stressful but like my dad's experience was a lot of it was
00:04:47.100negative we figured out that a lot of the media sources were lying about him right and you can't
00:04:53.520really tell what they're lying about but when a story comes out about your dad about things he
00:04:58.140said that he didn't say it's pretty then you go well what what else are they lying about like is
00:05:02.980everything I read from them about other people a lie so I dealt with that um I had a baby pretty
00:05:10.640like some of these some of these things it seems I kind of brought on to myself I had a baby
00:05:16.160when I was 24 in a fairly new relationship. And that's my husband, but it was like incredibly
00:05:24.640stressful at the time. And then in the last couple of years, my family's gotten incredibly sick. So
00:05:32.220it was like, as soon as I got healthy in this insane way that nobody believed that the media
00:05:37.400get made fun of. My mom got this deadly kidney cancer, collecting dot cancer, and she almost
00:05:46.540died, but she made it, which wasn't supposed to happen, but it did. And then my dad had
00:05:53.280had an issue, you could say, with anti-anxiety medication. So it turns out if you suddenly
00:06:02.760kind of stopped taking SSRIs, people don't know about this, but if you suddenly stopped taking
00:06:07.460SSRIs, you can get SSRI withdrawal. And you're not really told that there's SSRI withdrawal
00:06:13.220when you go on SSRIs. People know about opiate withdrawal. They know about benzodiazepine
00:06:18.860withdrawal, but they don't really know there's SSRI withdrawal. So part of the neurological
00:06:26.140problems dad and I both had that drove us towards this low carb diet were from SSRI withdrawal.
00:06:32.760which he ended up treating with benzodiazepines turns out that's not a good idea um and he ended
00:06:39.780up with a side effect called akathisia and akathisia is the worst thing i've ever seen
00:06:45.900and i've seen some pretty gnarly things having a hip and ankle replacement isn't isn't great
00:06:52.300um but akathisia is a movement disorder and it's a side effect of some psych meds that people don't
00:06:58.420really know about. So then we dealt with that for two years. And it looks as if things are kind of
00:07:05.120on the upswing now. So like mom had her near death thing. Dad had his. I had mine for a really long
00:07:13.760time, although it was kind of slow and drawn out. And I wouldn't say it was as dramatic as mom and
00:07:21.120dad's, but we're hoping that there's a bit of a pause. But I think I got through it by using anger.
00:07:25.740so instead of being like this is going to flatten me it was really you know whenever I got that
00:07:34.040feeling like oh I can't I can't handle this like how is this happening this is too much you know
00:07:38.460I'm in too much pain this is too hard I can't handle this whenever I had that I can't handle
00:07:44.500this pop into my head then I'd have this surge of anger where it was like no fuck you this is
00:07:50.020not what takes me out like I don't know who I was swearing at but reality was just like this is not
00:07:57.060the direction my reality is going to continue in and then I'd kind of wrangle it back under control
00:08:02.180and try and push it in a different direction um and I'm writing a I'm writing a memoir at the
00:08:10.080tender age of 29 uh just about going through the autoimmune disorder and what happened with my dad
00:08:15.900and my mom and it was just a bunch of random things that happened to me and I realized last
00:08:23.300week that the kind of underlying theme was maybe resiliency and how to stay like alive if you get
00:08:33.240hit over and over and over again and I think especially nowadays even just experiencing
00:08:39.420lockdowns that people are uh it's really hard um and you can be you know you can you can be in a
00:08:46.300pretty good place and in a lockdown and your your life can still kind of suck but if you're in a bad
00:08:51.520place and then you put a lockdown on top of that like people need to find how to become resilient
00:08:59.580i guess within them nowadays or they're not going to make it um so and michaelia you you said you
00:09:07.220use the word resiliency, but what does that mean to you? Because a number of times we use these
00:09:11.820words and they mean different things to different people. To me, it means if you get hit, it makes
00:09:17.980you stronger. So it's not just limping around. It's if you get hurt, you can turn that into
00:09:26.660something that makes you stronger. You know, one of the things I've been thinking about is
00:09:31.860if if nothing bad ever happened in your life again you would still be like i've had my fair
00:09:38.140share of challenges right like that's how i feel just knowing some of the things you've been dealing
00:09:43.100with uh and i it struck me that's kind of like a big theme in your dad's work as well this
00:09:49.000idea that life is unfair and you have to learn to deal with it like how do you deal with the fact
00:09:55.140that life is unfair you have to you have to try and find the positives and situations
00:10:01.900and you'll get people who say oh god you'll get people who say you know you go to a funeral and
00:10:10.080then you come out and you're miserable and someone will go well they're in a better place now and you
00:10:14.640just like you just want to slap them so i don't mean like find find i mean find good things in
00:10:23.480like terrible situations I don't mean that the terrible situation is worth it I just mean you're
00:10:29.420you're gonna have a terrible situation happen to you like everybody is everybody experiences death
00:10:35.880from someone they love so that at least is probably gonna happen and then there might be
00:10:41.080more there might be disease which is horrible um or there might just be you know lockdowns which
00:10:46.860which isn't disease and death but it's it's not good and so you have to try and find the good in
00:10:55.040it so for me uh having having it's easier it's I find it's easier if it's happening to you and not
00:11:04.200to someone you love because that's really hard to wrap your mind around but if it's happening to you
00:11:09.600then you can say, well, assuming this situation, whatever I'm in is going to end,
00:11:15.500maybe I can stop this from happening to other people. So part of the reason I've been so vocal
00:11:21.340about the diet that worked for me is because I've seen it work for other people. So if I can stop,
00:11:27.060you know, one other person from having to live their life in chronic pain, then me having the
00:11:36.620chronic pain is more worth it. And the more people I can help makes it more worth it. And at the
00:11:42.040moment, I think that I've helped enough people that I wouldn't take it back. So I think the way
00:11:49.360you survive really terrible situations is you find the good in whatever happened and you make
00:11:55.900whatever happened to you worth it. And that's really tricky when it's like somebody you love
00:12:01.340dying. Like that's on another level, but I don't see any other way that you can psychologically
00:12:07.720survive. And it's a really, really good point. I mean, it becomes even more tricky when you
00:12:14.060factor in depression, when your own mind is ill. I mean, what can you, I mean, that is surely the
00:12:20.580ultimate, isn't it? Trying to overcome something when your own mind is conspiring against you.
00:12:25.560Yeah. So I have a few comments on that too. I had, so I had bipolar type two, but my main symptom was this severe depression. And when people asked what that was like, it was like, like, it was like a really heavy version of when you're in a bad area and you're walking down an alley and you think you're going to get jumped, but you had that feeling all the time.
00:12:48.260so it's like constant jumpiness and that's but it's way worse than that um it was like walking
00:12:56.720through tar all the time like everything was heavy to lift up except it's worse um I I always
00:13:04.520at the time when I was depressed I used to be like you know it's kind of like your dog died
00:13:08.280and you can go to a party but your dog just died so you always have that feeling and then my dog
00:13:14.220died. And I was like, oh, that was not nearly as bad as this depression. So how do you? I think
00:13:22.840that you have to figure out how to tackle the depression. Because when I was depressed, I
00:13:27.280couldn't trust anything I was thinking. It was always, you know, I'd have this wonderful opportunity
00:13:32.640present itself. And now I have a much easier time judging opportunity for what it's worth. But I'd
00:13:37.540have this opportunity to present itself. And then I'd think, well, these are all the 10,000 ways
00:13:42.140it can go wrong and then inevitably it would and i'd be like well why doesn't that happen to my
00:13:47.780brother like he just assumes everything's going to be okay and it is and i assume everything's
00:13:52.140going to be wrong and it always is wrong so i wouldn't i why wouldn't i continue assuming it's
00:13:56.520going to go wrong um but i think like this is why i'm a big proponent of diet to be honest i think
00:14:03.120that if you have a psych condition and you're walking around in pain you need to get the source
00:14:08.420of the condition under control. And generally speaking, unless it's situational, I think that
00:14:14.800a lot of that can be handled by less inflammatory diets, so less carbs. And people underestimate
00:14:20.600how much of a difference that can make because you go, oh, well, you know, don't eat as much
00:14:24.620sugar. And it's like, my depression is way worse than me eating sugar. But if you go low carb,
00:14:31.480I've seen that help a lot of people. If you're situationally depressed because someone near you
00:14:35.660is sick or dying, then you have to just truck through that until it's over. And you have to
00:14:40.480remember that these periods of time are awful when they're happening, but they will end. Just
00:14:45.880have to keep that in mind. Like this isn't forever. Especially like people have that with
00:14:50.460this lockdown, right? Like there's this number of suicides is devastating. People who are already
00:14:57.120kind of at risk and then they're just like, I'm isolated. I can't handle this. But people have
00:15:01.620to remember that this isn't forever there's like there's going to be a way out so just just wait
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00:15:46.920every month and the the one we did just a couple of days ago it was yeah people are really struggling
00:15:53.980with these lockdowns and I think as you say that sense of knowing that this too shall pass can be
00:16:01.240very helpful for very bad times like now but also actually for very good times sometimes you're too
00:16:05.880high on the immediate success and you also want to take a more measured approach to it I guess
00:16:11.980is what I'm saying one of the things I'm hearing Michele in a lot of what you're saying you're
00:16:15.780talking about anger and you're talking about finding solutions right and that takes us very
00:16:21.780neatly into something we talk about on the show a lot, which is the culture war. How do you,
00:16:27.160as someone who's been through all of that and has found that the best solution for your issues was
00:16:31.900to get into action, to do something? How do you feel about what I would describe as people being
00:16:38.660taught to be victims, being taught to have the exact opposite approach, to make their problem
00:16:43.940someone else's fault, that they just can be sad about instead of actually taking action?
00:16:48.240what do you what do you make of all of that yeah I think it I think that could be deadly like I
00:16:53.820think that that ruins lives like I was lucky enough to have my father as a father and when
00:16:58.980I was diagnosed with arthritis and I was diagnosed when I was seven so I was in grade two and I was
00:17:05.920really sick I didn't want to go to school I was really tired I was limping like um in grade three
00:17:12.360had a hard time walking and he told me never use your illness as an excuse and I had all the excuses
00:17:21.240because I had arthritis everywhere and I was pretty miserable and in pain but he said like
00:17:28.600err on the side of not using it as an excuse and I think I probably I think erring on the side of
00:17:36.480not using it as an excuse at all is safer, even though that's not exactly fair, right? There were
00:17:43.160times when I probably could have stayed in bed. But it doesn't help people. And people are taught
00:17:51.260right now, something unfair happens to them. And it is unfair. And unfair things happen to
00:17:57.320everybody. And some people, they hit a lot worse, especially people who are sick, right? But
00:18:04.240telling them, telling them so that there's a, there's a number of problems. One telling them
00:18:11.700that it's someone else's fault means they can't do anything about it. So it takes,
00:18:18.220it takes all the power away from them. One of the issues I had with, I've got issues with a lot of
00:18:25.300things, but I have issues with the medical system and how they treat chronically ill people because
00:18:30.360they say this is a disease and you're going to have it forever and it takes takes any hope of
00:18:37.060getting better away because they say that's not possible so you don't even look people don't even
00:18:41.300look they go this is you know this is just what it is i have to live with it uh and i think even
00:18:46.380in that respect it would be more helpful if you were kind of told oh yeah you're really sick and
00:18:51.520we can't help you so you're gonna have to figure it out and if and if people were told that for
00:18:57.600these other things that they say are unfair like if you're not born a white person if you're female
00:19:03.900if you're transgender whatever it would probably be better to say you know you might have a harder
00:19:10.840time in some aspects but you're gonna have to figure out what to do about it not this is the
00:19:16.940patriarchy's fault and you're screwed like when I took sciences in university and this was before
00:19:26.080things got really weird in universities. But every two months, I'd have somebody and it wasn't a
00:19:32.420science student, it was somebody from some student group come in, and they'd go, you know, we know
00:19:38.320all the women in this class worked really hard to get here. And it was just like, that is so
00:19:44.680condescending. Like, like taking away Yeah, I studied hard, as did everybody else. But being
00:19:51.800like i know it was extra hard for you and just like screw off with with your fake i don't even
00:19:58.520know what that is fake empathy but i'm i'm i think the victim mentality that people are being told is
00:20:06.700the right way to live life is really dangerous and i think it'll end up making people like harming
00:20:12.660people because they won't be able to escape it they'll just be stuck in this victim box forever
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00:21:22.560and why do you think we're being told that why do you think we're being encouraged to believe
00:21:28.800that narrative i don't have any like great conspiracy theories or or anything i don't
00:21:36.560know if it's coming from the top I think it's just easier like if you get sick lying around in bed it
00:21:43.340is easier than continuing to go about life pretending nothing's wrong um so I think it's
00:21:52.000an easy sell and it's easy for groups of people to feel sorry about themselves together um I don't
00:22:01.100know what do you do what do you guys think you think there's a reason we're being sold this
00:22:05.420yeah i think you've hit the nail on the head i think also uh people crave a tribe don't they
00:22:11.020we all want to be part of a group yeah and if you put all those things together and here's a tribe
00:22:17.200we can all be victims together we can all be oppressed together we can make that the thing
00:22:21.960that we talk about the thing that we quote unquote resist or whatever it is i think people really want
00:22:28.060that belonging don't they and i also think people like simple solutions to complex problems yeah
00:22:33.760Yeah. See, that's where I'd go. I'd say it's just it's easier. It's easier whining about your situation than trying to figure it out. It's really hard trying to figure out a problem. It's a lot easier being like, this is completely I'm not able to do this because it's somebody else's fault. And look at all the people around me who agree with me. Yeah. So I guess the tribe is a big part of it, too.
00:22:55.420And for something like, like I originally saw this because I was sick, there was a lot of catering to being sick. And you see that too with the, say the fat acceptance movement. I can see where, I can see where it came from, but accepting being sick is really not good. You shouldn't make the norm or, or everybody will be sick and there'll be no reason for them to get better if they're just like, this is normal. It's dangerous.
00:23:23.900but we also glorify being sick now don't we if you see it you know you see it with
00:23:29.080in people's bios you know you know bpd depressive it's become an identity badge
00:23:34.400yeah yeah it's weird because okay so i remember in maybe like 2004 or something around then there
00:23:41.980was this big push for um anxiety and depression mainly and they're saying you know these are real
00:23:47.900things people are suffering from it's not just situational like this is a disease and i think
00:23:53.180that was important because it is a disease and it's not just people being feeling sorry for
00:23:59.920themselves, right? There's, there's different types of depression, but the inflammatory
00:24:04.320depression, that's a serious disease. And then it just went sideways. Like, um, I can understand
00:24:13.040again with the fat acceptance movement, a lot of these people who have tried to lose weight
00:24:19.480a whole bunch of different ways. And they're exercising, like I've known people who are,
00:24:26.020you know, 350 pounds and run all the time, and they're still 350 pounds. And so they go, well,
00:24:32.500I've tried exercising, it's not working. It's genetic, and it's not my fault. So why are people
00:24:39.240bullying me about it? And that's kind of where the fat acceptance movement came out of. And so I
00:24:44.420think it's partly it's just people aren't educated on being healthy. And I think the same thing
00:24:49.740happened with, you know, I have bipolar and now it's in my bio is they honestly don't know what
00:24:56.480to do about it. And so they're saying, well, that's who I am. Don't bug me about it because
00:25:01.400I can't change it. That's my opinion. I think I think part of the problem is people don't know
00:25:07.680how to deal with it. And that goes back to the issues I have with the medical system telling you
00:25:12.120that there's nothing you can do about it you have it for life here's the medication yeah because it
00:25:17.900does seem that very much that you know people are you're in medication a lot of them like
00:25:22.800relatives who are very very close to me just are medicated for the entire for their entire lives
00:25:28.600but you really believe that with diet that you can overcome it so could you just go into that
00:25:34.040a little bit yeah i'll go into it in like brief detail so i i was brought into like if you have a
00:25:41.500sick kid, generally speaking, and you're a good parent, you try absolutely everything under the
00:25:46.600sun to get them better. So I was brought to every holistic practitioner that my mom could find. My
00:25:53.100dad was like, that's, that's bullshit. But my mom was like, no, we'll try everything like muscle
00:25:58.600testing, like everything. And so I grew up and what I saw was my mom spending hordes of money
00:26:04.760and we didn't have any money at that time. Like we weren't buying magazines or anything
00:26:09.000because we had, we had like not enough money. My mom was a stay at home mom. And so I thought
00:26:16.000these are like quacks taking advantage of sick people and charging them money because they're
00:26:21.200desperate. And this is so wrong. And it made me really angry. And that drove me away from the
00:26:27.160more natural route. Plus the medical system was saying this is uncontrollable. And we're the
00:26:33.140scientists here. Those other people aren't scientists. But then when I started doing
00:26:37.840research. And I actually looked at the science because it turns out when a paper is written,
00:26:43.500it takes approximately 30 years to get implemented into hospitals. So if the people in the hospitals
00:26:49.460are saying they're scientists, they're also not, not right. They were scientists 30 years ago.
00:26:54.900So I started looking into it and it turns out leaky gut is a, is an actual thing. And that's
00:27:02.200Because of the diets people have nowadays, which are highly processed, high sugar, it does cause a level of gut damage.
00:27:10.340And when you get gut damage, foods you're eating can escape into your blood.
00:27:15.180And then that can provoke an immune response because your body's like, what the hell is a large protein of grain doing in here?
00:27:24.520And in certain susceptible people, this can provoke an entire immune response.
00:27:28.660So they found out that with people with arthritis, there are proteins called lectins, which are
00:27:35.200in grains, they're in legumes, they're in a lot of plants, and your body sees one of
00:27:40.420these lectins that escapes into your blood and then provokes an immune response, which