00:10:18.060This is the primary reason I will advise my kids to never, ever, ever risk marijuana.
00:10:23.840It is one of the most dangerous drugs you can take for this reason.
00:10:28.120And when I say one of the most dangerous drugs you can take for this reason,
00:10:32.180it's because while it may have a low chance of killing you,
00:10:35.900it may have a low chance of ODing you.
00:10:38.300As this person is seeing this increase in the rate of psychosis,
00:10:41.880you don't understand, if you haven't worked with people who have schizophrenia,
00:10:45.900how terrifying it is as an illness because the thing about schizophrenia is you don't know if
00:10:54.920you're born with the schizophrenia switch or not some people have it some people don't now if you
00:11:00.360have the schizophrenia switch and you don't do whatever ends up triggering it it doesn't trigger
00:11:05.980and if you can make it to like the age of 30 it's unlikely to ever trigger in you for your entire
00:11:14.340life you basically made it you're going to live a totally normal life however you can be as one
00:11:21.540of our patients was uh one of the top people in his class at john hopkins oh that you were studying
00:11:27.880when you were with yes okay i mean when we studied him he was a homeless person but he was in his
00:11:34.500early 20s one of the top people in his class in john hopkins something flipped the switch in him
00:11:39.380i don't remember if for him it was psychedelics or something else uh and then just after that
00:11:43.220he's not able to live a normal life in society anymore he hears people talking to him all the
00:11:46.560time he um uh he he struggles to understand what's real and what's not real he begins to develop
00:11:53.680intense fears um of things like being persecuted it is not a fun life living the life of a
00:12:00.460schizophrenic individual is perhaps what i'm talking about living horrors you wouldn't wish
00:12:06.740upon your worst nightmare uh enemy only second to um alzheimer's um and worse than alzheimer's i
00:12:16.180don't know in alzheimer's you kind of don't know what's going on i mean it seems like everyone else
00:12:19.580is being mean true yeah so it's worse than alzheimer's yeah uh yes one of the worst fates
00:12:24.520that can be fall upon in a human so even though the rate is low with a lot of this stuff it is
00:12:28.240increased and it's simply not worse the fun that any high is going to give you because highs are
00:12:34.800i'm gonna be honest as somebody who when i was younger and i didn't know about this did a number
00:12:39.260of different drugs actually it's not that fun i'm gonna be honest like hallucinogens are kind
00:12:42.880of boring i thought cannabis was more to help people not care about how bad things suck well
00:12:49.140that's the way some people use it but it's still a hallucinogen okay to continue here these folks
00:12:55.080typically become my patients by the way if you're older if you're like past 30 in your smoking pot
00:12:59.740whatever i don't really care um these folks typically become my patients by getting shot
00:13:05.400by the police during psychotic episodes so they fall into a unique category of committing serious
00:13:10.120crimes due to psychosis typically a they initially cooperate with police because they believe the
00:13:15.240police will help them they readily admit to their crimes yes officer i had to set fire to the couch
00:13:20.100in the lobby because the hotel clerk was trying to sex traffic me to the gas station patrons
00:13:25.240across the street and that was the only way i could create a distraction you have to help me
00:13:30.160arrest all the people trying to sex traffic me b they only resist when the police or people around
00:13:35.700them fail to go along with the delusion and note the delusion that she cites here having worked
00:13:40.480with people who have had psychotic breaks very normal for a psychotic break um that's like almost
00:13:45.340a typical psychotic delusion and and they they do believe them well actually i'll point this out
00:13:50.940have to hurt. And then C, the delusions do not resolve on their own. It often takes
00:13:54.700antipsychotic medication and a lot of time with psychiatrists. And even then they will often just
00:14:00.440play along, but still believe the underlying false beliefs are true. They just learn to not
00:14:05.860advertise and they hold false beliefs. In the case of Brian Spicer, perhaps it's possible for
00:14:13.260psychosis to resolve once a triggered substance has been metabolized, but I've never seen that
00:14:17.860in practice um yeah that's that's the thing that i wanted to note here is hallucinogens don't trigger
00:14:23.020the psychotic episode while you're on the hallucinogens if they trip it they can trip it
00:14:27.060permanently um and and psychotic episodes don't happen all at once they happen in waves so you'd
00:14:31.600get one every couple weeks every couple months something like that which you know can make it
00:14:36.200even worse because you think you're safe to be around and then as one of our patients did
00:14:40.240saw somebody walking by them on the street with a witch and he had to kill them um uh you know so
00:14:45.520like the this this is why i was uniquely sympathetic to the psychosis argument having
00:14:51.320seen this in patients before right um the the other thing that i want to note here is this idea
00:14:58.500of like you really struggle to recognize something with a psychotic episode like i remember we had
00:15:04.260one patient who told us about the day when everything was free he's like wasn't that so
00:15:09.220cool a few years ago when you could just like go into any store and take anything and like everything
00:15:13.720was free that day um and you now know i mean as a sane person you're like oh so this guy was just
00:15:19.820like just spent a day stealing stuff wow you never told me about this before yeah you never
00:15:27.760told me about like your interviews that's crazy no um two her behavior in killing her children
00:15:36.080was a normal variant of female behavior seen nearly universally across cultures in history
00:15:41.120Mothers commit nearly all neonaticide killing of a newborn within the first 24 hours of birth, as I said, before weaning.
00:15:47.820A 2017 meta-analysis states they found that parents committed 100% of neonaticides, 0.6 to 100, if studies only considering parents were examined.
00:16:00.54013 countries had data, and the vast majority of neonaticides are committed by mothers.
00:33:35.400while they might be uniquely horrific in countries like Italy,
00:33:38.100they still happen in places like Germany and Scandinavia.
00:33:41.500um not in the united states mind you we are like uh if you want to know moral countries
00:33:48.360well hold on i mean there are still baby drop locations at places like hospitals and fire
00:33:55.180they were they when you when you when you push the baby in the baby drop it didn't go into like
00:34:00.260a blender or off a cliff yeah okay okay it's somebody was on the other side to take care of
00:34:05.840it yeah that's okay yeah um that that's the difference uh and the baby drop locations in
00:34:13.420italy they go to a trash compactor and the baby why did you tell me that oh because they're
00:34:20.160dumpsters yes oh okay continue i will note here for full disclosure when the while it is true
00:34:29.920that leaving the baby in the trash can or dumpster only resulted in the two years uh that baby did
00:34:35.560not die and in other cases where the baby has died in italy you have gotten harsher punishments
00:34:39.960um that said you know you see in other countries like this take france for example you have the
00:34:45.660case of veronica corcatel who in 2009 um she killed three newborns one she burned in france
00:34:54.020and two she froze in south korea while living there um she uh ended up only serving four years
00:35:01.740in prison then you have a dominic corterez uh 2015 she killed eight newborns um and it hid the
00:35:09.500bodies um she ended up serving only nine years in prison then you have romana content uh this was a
00:35:17.900spanish origin case tried in france um where she had five newborns that she either drowned or froze
00:35:25.340to death um and she only faced eight years in prison uh i i will note here that outside of
00:35:31.740brazil in latin america as we've noticed you know latin american women being less likely to do this
00:35:36.860of the the catholic populations latin america seems to be the one that takes this more seriously
00:35:41.740than the other ones not not the european populations as many people think of like the
00:35:45.340europeans are the good ones and latin americans it's like less simply it's the exact opposite that
00:35:49.420we see in in practice it's the europeans that act less civilized and the latin americans that act
00:35:54.060more civilized so the point i'm trying to elucidate here is in america we sometimes forget
00:36:01.580how different we are culturally even from many european cultures and when we freak out about
00:36:08.140something like this and we're like oh my god this is inhuman how could this happen we may
00:36:12.380not realize that this is because we imported cultures into america that are incompatible
00:36:17.900with american cultural values when it's just a normal thing oh you froze a few babies you burned
00:36:23.500one alive whatever that's another tuesday go to jail for four years you know we're in america
00:36:29.260we're like no this is like a very very serious thing because we see the world differently than
00:36:33.100they do this is not this is i'm not gonna sleep tonight i'm not gonna sleep tonight again it's
00:36:39.160important to remember not all cultures are the same and we should have some resistance about
00:36:44.200integrating some cultural groups into whatever society we aspire to build i can't do that
00:36:49.280it's like we're gonna have to burn it all yeah this is the thing simone you need this fire in
00:36:57.980you so that when we say we have to take care of x or y or z group because they're acting in a way
00:37:05.320that is incompatible with what you want to exist in the future when you're like i have to let the
00:37:10.020wasp go and i'm like the wasp lives in our house simone um then you give a gene drive to the wasp
00:37:16.260so the wasp can't wasp more than you know handle it in a yes we'll try to find the wasp lives a
00:37:22.580happy wasp life and doesn't sting anyone um i just i just want everyone to be okay why is it
00:37:30.440so freaking hard for humans to not be assholes because not everyone has our cultural values
00:37:38.480Simone okay great to continue here the prevailing modern beliefs that Clancy promoted that give
00:37:47.820cover to maternal filial side we're all familiar with the line my body my choice the my mother
00:37:53.520infant dryad is a concept in modern medicine that continues to describe the infant as part of the
00:37:59.900mother after birth in nursing school this is what I was taught that babies are not me but they are
00:38:05.900also not other. It's a new third category that exists as a part of the mother. In psychology,
00:38:12.160Daniel Woodcroft famously said, there is no such thing as a baby, meaning that an infant literally
00:38:18.100cannot exist or be understood in isolation from maternal care. He preferred to talk about a
00:38:24.760nursing couple treating the pair as the basic unit of early life rather than the infant alone.
00:38:31.820And in psychology, Margaret Mahler's developmental model described as early symbiotic phase, roughly the first few months of life, where the infant has not yet psychologically differentiated itself from the mother.
00:38:42.940The infant experiences itself and the mother as fused as if they were a psychological system without a boundary.
00:38:49.360Mahler's whole framework of separation and individualization is about how the infant gradually moves out of this fused state and develops a separate sense of self.
00:38:58.400Now, I think what's interesting about this is I don't disagree that these aren't healthy concepts to have.
00:39:03.640Well, and I relate to that, which is annoying.
00:39:06.680Like, I feel that way with infants, like that they're a part of me.
00:40:29.760I guess speaking on behalf of a hospital's maternity ward,
00:40:34.660was talking about their new hospital setup,
00:40:38.640which this same listener to Basecamp in front of ours
00:40:41.760has talked about being kind of messed up,
00:40:45.360this thing where the baby is always in the room
00:40:47.640with the mother and even to the point where the mother just cannot sleep sometimes just like wants
00:40:52.380a break and they'll kind of shame you for like asking for them to maybe take the baby to the
00:40:56.900nursery for a second so you can sleep for a moment um because they're like well it promotes
00:41:01.460breastfeeding and you this it's like this really big breastfeeding propaganda thing of like you
00:41:06.040have to do it you know you have to always be with the baby and you know sometimes mothers which is
00:41:09.820total bs by the way yeah anyway so she she brought that up to us maybe even a year ago um and here's
00:41:16.320lindsey clancy um being i guess a face of this for the hospital she was working at at the time
00:41:22.200being like in our rooms do this and it's it's better for the mother it's it's really not
00:41:26.220necessarily better for them it's about saving money they don't want to do the uh the the
00:41:30.180nursery yeah exactly i i do think it's a money saving thing i think she mentioned that too but
00:41:34.160yeah so that that's that's something she is very very aware of and um has a lot of experience with
00:41:40.240And then lo and behold, here's Lindsay Clancy actively talking about it, which also shows that she herself has been a part of this, you could say, propaganda wing in postpartum care where it's like, you know, combine and, you know, this whole thing.
00:41:55.540And it's scary to see things go from that basically a suboptimal for mothers hospital policy, which she bought into, or at least was a mouthpiece for evolving into an ideology that this person is now this listener to Basecamp is now arguing has contributed to women thinking, well, look, I can commit I can harm my baby because it's just self-harm and I'm allowed to commit self-harm like that's it's so sick.
00:42:23.440it's so sick uh it is it is a uh logical what i'm gonna argue at the end of this and and we'll go
00:42:32.220into you know what are the chances that she was actually trying to end her own life is we'll look
00:42:36.800at cases where mothers do kill their infants at later stages because i think we need an explanation
00:42:42.040her youngest was like eight eight months or something like not not newborn definitely not
00:42:48.320yeah well you could just say like women are evil but i don't like that explanation i don't think
00:42:53.140that's a helpful explanation it's not i think we need an actual explanation as to why she did this
00:42:58.920right yeah um uh other than just one day she decided to become evil um and that's why i liked
00:43:05.660the psychosis explanation originally so if we bust the psychosis explanation i need another
00:43:09.720explanation yeah because also i just i can't understand it i can't under because also like
00:43:14.860if you're just evil look pregnancy is hard um even if you have a smooth perfectly smooth pregnancy
00:43:22.780it is not comfortable and it is not easy um and yeah you don't go through three pregnant three
00:43:28.520three of those and then then decide to to do and also i mean unless you're really screwed up i don't
00:43:36.700think i don't imagine that killing people is pleasant um just i'm gonna argue that um what
00:43:43.940we're seeing here is uh it appears now to me that she really did think she was gonna kill herself
00:43:51.680um and that she was doing a category of infant killing that is not uncommon um when a mother
00:43:59.460decides to commit suicide uh which is you decide to kill all your kids first um and it's it's called
00:44:05.360like you think you're doing it for like positive reasons or whatever um and i think that if she
00:44:10.880did it for that reason like that's even worse that is not psychosis that is something that
00:44:16.460it's murder suicide it's murder suicide which which makes it like way worse like when you hear
00:44:24.240some trans kid goes and kills his mom and dad and then kills himself you're not like well it's okay
00:44:29.580because he killed himself afterwards you're like whoa dude like what why do you get to decide to
00:44:35.200do that right and i think it's this internalization of the kid is being part of the mother um and the
00:44:42.020I mean, first off, in terms of crimes, I think a kid killing their parents is way morally lower on my, like, list of horrible things than a parent killing a child.
00:44:53.620That child has no ability to defend themselves.
00:44:57.140They played no role, in my opinion, in, like, hurting the parent.
00:45:01.040Yeah, this is where I think we need to go back to, like, if we're like, okay, we've got to have Aztec punishments, like, flaying someone or something like that.
00:45:08.100This is where I think that makes sense.
00:45:09.440no i don't i i fully disagree with you on that it's it's like the portal song i used to want
00:45:15.600you dead now i only want you gone they just need to not be here they just need to not be here
00:45:19.200no amount of pain or punishment is going to change that the research is clear
00:45:23.280like scary punishments are not a deterrent
00:45:27.180they just the only thing that matters is that they are not present that's all i understand
00:45:36.380And torture and pain, that is just you getting down to their level and being an animal, worse than an animal.
00:45:45.920So in the far future, when an AI based on Simone is running a spaceship, and occasionally people are just going to disappear out airlocks or something.
00:45:58.140Painlessly, there will be no – because also, like, dying out of airlock is an incredibly painful, if short, experience.
00:46:03.880no you will you will just not be there you'll just rapture it's just gone it just you're just
00:46:11.640um theranos uh not theranos thanos you're gonna be like walking along and somebody's just gonna
00:46:18.280like disintegrate and that's yes obviously it's that is the only correct way you don't remember
00:46:24.740them right we wouldn't want you to disintegrate no it would be fine for people to understand
00:46:31.060why people are no longer there. And they should understand why people are no longer there. But
00:46:37.140there is no benefit societally or morally for there to be additional suffering and harm on
00:46:44.280top of suffering and harm. The point is what makes us human is that we are capable of rising above
00:46:50.280that. There are two directions that homo sapiens can take with our prefrontal cortex. Either we can
00:46:55.720use the additional capacity of feeling suffering pain and joy and also massive intelligence and
00:47:02.740agency to do unspeakably worse things that animals can do or we can get rid of all the violent and
00:47:10.380horrific tendencies that animals had because we don't need those in order to survive and rise
00:47:16.180above and i only want to be a part of a society that rises above and i will remove everyone who
00:47:22.500is incapable of that period let's uh i and this is where um as much as i really like the nox you
00:47:33.160know that as a content creator and everything like that he always goes into this like thou
00:47:36.400shall not kill when it's thou shall not murder and in regards to like when somebody is an active
00:47:42.120threat to society um and other people and has done horrific acts like this like these are instances
00:47:48.160in which yeah like this needs to be right but when he says when he's referring to that he's
00:47:54.640obviously he's obviously referring to that shot not murder because the the bible the old testament
00:47:59.320especially is full of clear prescriptions on when people should be destroyed yeah um he's not saying
00:48:05.300i think some christians and some jews go at this from the perspective of uh they they really mean
00:48:11.980it like they're they're trying to like signal something to other people about like how extreme
00:48:17.140mean they are when they don't actually think through like when you take killing off the table
00:48:22.020one you you move to an anti-biblical position yeah um and and and two like i think we're in a
00:48:28.080society where for a lot of things um we need to be much harsher in the way that we handle specific
00:48:34.360punishments um and much harsher in the way that we deal with things and that means one um like
00:48:41.240in regards to the prison system and that significantly reduce a lot of these practices
00:48:46.000we have around like the death penalty to make it cheaper and easier to enforce um because yeah but
00:48:51.940also i'm so glad we're bringing back firing squads because that is genuinely more humane
00:48:57.220yeah i agree where where is that happening oh i can't remember which state i think it's like
00:49:02.480tennessee awesome brought back firing yeah there we go autocomplete already everyone's interested
00:49:09.840Idaho. Go, Idaho. Oh, also, several other states have it as a backup method when lethal injection
00:49:17.140is unavailable. I wonder if you can request it. I would request firing squad all the way.
00:49:21.220South Carolina, Mississippi, Oklahoma, and Utah. All right. All right. Make it happen in Pennsylvania.
00:49:28.680Make it happen in Pennsylvania? Well, when we take over, we'll move to an all-firing squad
00:49:33.180justice system. Well, no, I mean, obviously, I would build better tech in general, but I think
00:49:37.680right now firing squad is best to continue here the partnership for maternal newborn and child
00:49:43.340health pmc hosted by the who published a piece explicitly titled the mother baby dryad why an
00:49:50.840integrated approach to maternal and newborn health in research and practice is essential for progress
00:49:55.240in which there is an emphasis on considering the dryad and evaluating outcomes not the individual
00:49:59.900mother or baby the baby friendly hospital initiative i've mentioned the bhmi on calls
00:50:04.900before pushes the dryad understanding of postpartum care. I hate the BHBFHI, its budget cut
00:50:12.880and thinly veiled as a quality improvement initiative. Okay. So that there she is
00:50:17.720Lindsay Clancy promoting it, right? This is the one that you were talking about. Just like we
00:50:21.540were saying. Yeah. Um, I think the modern idea that babies are extensions of the mother during
00:50:27.380infancy explains at least part of why women are so tolerant of Clancy's crime. I can see somebody
00:50:34.160who has bought into the BHMI propaganda like Clancy obviously had being less likely to see
00:50:40.080her children as fully human. I think this framing provides a modern excuse for women to do what
00:50:45.820they've always done and kill their babies. The maternal tendency to commit infanticide predates
00:50:50.880the dryad theory, but it seems to be part of the permission structure we use to excuse why this
00:50:59.240type of murder is okay. I think there are very different permission structures in different
00:51:03.380cultures and historical eras that have been lost to history the real question here that deserves
00:51:09.880to be considered about how society perceives and treats motherhood exploring how motherhood was
00:51:14.760understood in the past specifically in jewish and early christian culture and rituals within
00:51:19.580those cultures developed to protect infants from their homicidal mothers and note here a woman is
00:51:24.740writing all of this to another woman keep in mind how sane when people are like all women are crazy
00:51:30.520and evil base camp women aren't crazy and evil we have a lot of awesome women in our community
00:51:35.780who talk with my wife and not with me this woman has never reached out to me um she reached out
00:51:41.180to us what are you talking about well yeah but she talks with you well yeah sometimes but like
00:51:46.180you're not excluded you're not thrown out of the long house
00:51:50.220yeah the new long house the base camp long house the ruthless long house right
00:51:56.520um policing other women oh my god the three women who tried to get this one guy apparently there was
00:52:03.100just one guy who wouldn't quit on the jury right hold on i'm glad he didn't either and they were
00:52:07.620like he wouldn't do it just because of the brutal way she murdered her children and it's like
00:52:11.640and are you listening to yourself three haggard horrible looking women who apparently yelled at
00:52:18.900him so much people could hear them through walls if you're like this guy's gonna have ptsd from
00:52:23.140this but now the trial goes back to trial because it ended in a mistrial so uh she doesn't she
00:52:28.400doesn't get off automatically and we get to see what happened the real questions here that deserve
00:52:33.040to be considered about how society perceives and treat motherhood and exploring motherhood
00:52:38.140as understood in the past specifically in jewish and early christian culture and rituals
00:52:41.520which those cultures developed to protect infants from their homicidal mothers jewish and christian
00:52:46.880cultures seem to have successfully stigmatized infanticide and i think rituals around childbirth
00:52:51.640help to prevent infanticide. The practice of church women in Christian cultures after child
00:52:57.000birth was derived from Jewish traditions and closely follows the time frame that it takes
00:53:01.640for a woman's hormones to return to pre-pregnancy levels. Most women have an increased sense of
00:53:06.540well-being when estrogen is highest. Immediately after childhood, estrogen crashes from the highest
00:53:11.700levels normally experienced by women to almost nothing, which is why women commonly experience
00:53:16.340baby blues. It takes about six weeks for estrogen to return to normal or non-breastfeeding women
00:53:21.320uh of the woman to acclimate to this new normal if breastfeeding hcg is also completely cleared
00:53:28.960six weeks postpartum and here she goes over like a timeline of how this happens um which you guys
00:53:36.300don't care about but it is essentially explaining this she then says churching women takes place
00:53:41.280around 40 days after birth same time frame in the jewish tradition i think this ritual serves
00:53:46.460to mark the end of the psychological postpartum depression and signal to the woman that the
00:53:51.580community that she has spiritually returned to normal which makes a lot of sense when you
00:53:55.680consider hormonal fluctuation what the heck is churching women sorry i don't know uh to continue
00:54:01.880here presenting the child to the community in judaism this takes place on the eighth day after
00:54:08.420birth and involves announcing the name of the child in christianity this is done at baptism
00:54:13.640So the timeline varies based on the church.
00:54:16.140In the Catholic tradition, the baptism includes an exorcism prayer that the priest leads the parents in in front of the community.
00:54:24.180And after reading so much about infanticide, that seems like a good idea.
00:54:28.520Having traditions around naming children, acknowledging them as a person, separate them from you and created by God and presenting them to your religious community seems like it would be a relatively protective of the child.
00:54:40.560and now i want to get into her argument as to why this isn't true which i found really powerful
00:54:44.840um my argument is that basically the mothers killing their children seems to be an evolved
00:54:52.820trait that societies worldwide tolerate and excuse of course most of the jurors wanted to
00:54:58.080acquit clancy this is how most humans respond when a mother kills children somehow most societies
00:55:03.540seem to have evolved to be uniquely tolerant of this form of murder or so i don't understand
00:55:09.700how anyone was surprised by any of this. I think the my body, my choice is very problematic when
00:55:15.020paired with mother-baby dryad theory, which Clancy had to adapt because of her hospital's
00:55:20.120policy. It's the dominant policy in the United States, not sure about outside of the United
00:55:23.520States. But I don't think it leads to infanticide. I think it just helps individuals rationalize the
00:55:28.060behavior where they're already going to tolerate, condone, justify. So justify, yes, but fuel other
00:55:34.020cultures without this framework, tolerate infanticide. It's just a convenient way in
00:55:38.400women in the less to conceptualize this behavior is morally ambiguous. I do think that this
00:55:43.600particular justification underpins a lot of the current discourse, but all of this ignores the
00:55:49.120fact that human societies largely tolerate this behavior from others. In order to argue that
00:55:54.820infanticide is morally wrong in the modern American context, I think you have to engage
00:55:59.120with the my body my choice narrative um now one of the uh arguments she made here gosh i don't
00:56:09.760remember reading it do you remember me reading this because i found it really powerful when i
00:56:13.520first read her make it um is that she didn't think that it was uh postpartum psychosis because
00:56:21.320in postpartum psychosis everyone is always like uh oh i um no sorry in normal psychosis
00:56:28.560No, no, no. She said that someone who has postpartum psychosis, per her experience,
00:56:33.280would never ask for a lawyer, which is what Lindsay Clancy did apparently immediately right
00:56:37.000after murdering her kids, because per her experience, seeing people with postpartum
00:56:40.180psychosis, they're like, they don't trust anyone. Everyone's out to get them. Why on earth would
00:56:44.920they think that a lawyer would believe them? Well, not just that, but they think until everyone's
00:56:48.760out to get them, everyone would believe them if they just heard them, right? Like, of course I
00:56:52.740had to kill my kids. It was the, of course I had to light the couch. Of course I had to kill the
00:56:57.900witch who was walking by me don't you know she was a witch yeah yeah which is that is that is
00:57:03.780pretty compelling um and that's what convinced me well i don't yeah i don't i don't know the whole
00:57:09.280story of like how she was found or anything because i can't i can't engage with this but
00:57:14.120anyway to finish here i started really looking into this after learning about the dickinson case
00:57:19.860and learning that the maximum sentence for infanticide in south africa is three years
00:57:24.740oh south africa not brazil okay yeah tolerance for women who kill their babies is a pattern
00:57:29.100that can't be unseen and i've tried for so many years to understand where it comes from to no
00:57:34.140avail clancy is just one of the countless data points that falls in line with this trend if this
00:57:39.680is part of human nature my goal would be to understand it and then be able to better
00:57:44.840participate when where and how it occurs and how to build cultures and societies that are better
00:57:49.360resistance to these primal instincts. And I'm going to give my thoughts on how you build a
00:57:54.320society that's more resistant to this. And I'm going to move part from the beginning to here
00:57:57.620to better explain this. But the point I would like to make, Octavian, what do you want?
01:15:13.860why someone would do this i can't there's just nothing there's nothing in me even like it would
01:15:21.580be easier if there was some female serial killer but like to bring your own children into the world
01:15:30.080and also like something really snapped with me i mean this is coming from someone who i like i
01:15:35.720told you point blank before i had octavian that i wasn't sure i would love our kids
01:15:39.080she did by the way and she really meant it and i was like really meant it for you yeah i was i was
01:15:44.060i was genuinely concerned because i am not a kid person did i make you feel any better the way i
01:15:47.800responded to that when i was just like yeah i felt really safe about it um and i've always felt
01:15:52.040really grateful to you for all that and i've always i never had any doubt in my heart that
01:15:56.260you would adore our children and but what shocked me and what makes this even more disturbing and
01:16:01.880shocking for me is that after I had kids and especially more kids it got more powerful with
01:16:09.780each new kid I have I cannot I can't even like hear about other people's kids like I will watch
01:16:17.680an adult get hurt now and I'll be like that person was once a child and then I start crying
01:16:23.140That is how bad it is. The level of vulnerability and emotional care that having kids has opened up to me. I don't know how she didn't have that. There's this barrier that would prevent me from doing that.
01:16:44.160and so that's i can't wrap my head around that but then even just from a logical standpoint like
01:16:47.940let's pretend just something hormonally didn't happen to her that happened to me and she doesn't
01:16:51.900have that barrier that would prevent her from hurting her children why like why put your body
01:16:59.500through that and like all the stuff and all the investment and then do that oh by the way Simone
01:17:06.660this is i mean i think this is why there's that most of her defenders just think her husband did
01:17:13.240it because because they can't imagine well and again it can be hard like lindsey clancy i don't
01:17:18.540know if you are aware of this but she was a catholic um and if you're oh great oh great
01:17:23.340fantastic again and i genuinely patterns people like this is the thing i know that the patterns
01:17:31.160are there are you double checking i know i'm just getting a day since malcolm rails against
01:17:35.840catholics counter oh ours actually yeah hours since accident counter
01:17:44.820there we go yep oh you can oh that one's expensive led digital safety scoreboard days
01:17:53.300without accident counter no you're gonna put that in the background of the podcast it has a remote
01:17:58.440um but i can get oh there are battery powered ones that cost these are expensive what a
01:18:03.560oh man this is all for stupid compliance stuff they're charging way too much way too much i'm
01:18:10.180just gonna have to get a whiteboard or something what a 322 for a disgusting hold on i gotta i
01:18:17.200gotta use your your amazing podcast editing software so i can i can share um my screen here
01:18:22.980um because it's actually really good okay look at this this ridiculous for this disgusting eagle i
01:18:29.700mean i love i love patriotism but this is this is an affront to design 329 what what yeah what is
01:18:37.280this it is it is one like one of those stupid compliance things i bet it's like some people
01:18:40.800are statutorily required to have oh there we go oh no that's a countdown it's see look at this
01:18:48.920199 your safety starts here that this must be a statutory like people are legally required to buy
01:18:55.580of these so they make these horrible looking counters anyway i'll i'll maybe i'll get one
01:19:01.460like on etsy that's uh see this one would have been great this is fine 128 that is ridiculous
01:19:09.600shame shame anyway um really nice feature thank you for thank you for building that feature
01:19:17.420i appreciate it it's good this is this has been horrible i'm traumatized i but i but i think the
01:19:27.580core takeaways for me in doing this is one have strict prohibitions against it two yes it's useful
01:19:33.580to contextualize the kids as being part of the mother but the responsibility the mother has is
01:19:37.780to the future child who's going to be an adult not to the baby right yeah yeah it's it's um it's like
01:19:43.860a one-way membrane barrier i don't remember what those are called we're like you give your child
01:19:51.300every bit of self-preservation and defense and self-care you have in fact to your own detriment
01:19:56.360but none of your self-hatred and self-loathing and self-harm is allowed to pass and that's at
01:20:03.100least what i feel hormonally i just don't know how that's not passing to other people and what's
01:20:09.140disturbing and i don't know if you covered this but it's like the copycat cases that are happening
01:20:13.160that a woman who was very invested in their case