Classically Abby - Amanda Ensing SPEAKS OUT On #BoycottSephora ｜｜ Let's Be Classic Episode #1

00:00:00.000 Hello Classic Crew and welcome to a new series here on my channel. It's called

00:00:05.760 Let's Be Classic where I'll be interviewing different people and giving

00:00:09.540 you an opportunity to get to know them on a more personal level. I wanted to

00:00:13.560 offer conservative women the same opportunities that women on the left get.

00:00:17.160 Consider Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez. She was given the opportunity to talk about

00:00:21.840 her skincare and makeup routine on Vogue's YouTube channel. Can you imagine

00:00:26.340 them doing the same thing for any woman on the right? And of course Michelle

00:00:30.360 Obama was on the cover of Vogue while Melania Trump, who was a literal model,

00:00:34.680 was not given that same opportunity. But soon I realized I wanted to be able to

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00:00:44.280 really outspoken about them. I realized that both men and women needed a place

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00:00:52.320 get to meet the people behind the ideas. And now you'll get to meet these

00:00:56.220 fascinating people as they really are. And I'm really excited because that's

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00:01:42.700 kicking off these interviews with the amazing Amanda Ensing. Amanda Ensing started

00:01:47.560 her career as a beauty youtuber where she amassed almost one and a half million 1.00

00:01:52.540 subscribers. After speaking out publicly about being conservative she recently made

00:01:57.340 headlines when Sephora pulled a sponsorship from her because of her

00:02:01.240 views. That started the hashtag Boycott Sephora campaign which is still going

00:02:06.280 strong and Amanda just recently launched her new podcast Liberty Before

00:02:11.400 Lipstick. I had an amazing time interviewing Amanda so I'm really excited to

00:02:16.240 share this with you guys today so let's get into it. So thank you so much for

00:02:26.580 coming on I'm so excited that you're here. Yeah thank you for having me I'm so

00:02:31.700 excited we could connect through everything going on in the world and the

00:02:35.060 political climate I'm so happy we could connect and do this. Absolutely and it's so

00:02:38.840 great to have another fellow youtuber on my channel. I hope that all my subscribers

00:02:44.200 here I would love for you to go over and follow Amanda. Amanda Ensing is her name

00:02:48.600 on YouTube and that's also her name so make sure to check her out. But my first

00:02:53.240 question for you is how did you become a beauty influencer? Like how did you start

00:02:58.040 in this space? Yeah so I was in college and I was I majored in political science

00:03:05.460 and business administration. I was getting ready for law school you know I've always

00:03:08.980 loved beauty and fashion but I grew up in a really small town in Tennessee and I

00:03:12.120 thought well how am I ever gonna get a job and that no one knows me. So I was

00:03:16.300 getting ready for law school my mom had always pushed like work hard go to school 1.00

00:03:19.020 get education and my junior and senior year of college I just started digging

00:03:24.840 into learning how to do makeup outside of like powder foundation or like liquid

00:03:30.840 mousse foundation like you know makeup has advanced so much. So I just started

00:03:34.300 documenting my journey I said hey I'm gonna start learning how to review

00:03:38.480 products and I had discovered the whole YouTube beauty review community and I

00:03:43.760 was obsessed with it I just loved watching makeup reviews I loved reading

00:03:47.360 beauty blogs and I thought I want to do this interested in like taking pictures

00:03:54.020 like in the MySpace days I would always have my brothers like take pictures of me

00:03:57.740 for a new profile picture like I don't know I just I loved creating content and

00:04:00.980 pictures and videos so I started filming I literally stocked my school books up in

00:04:05.000 front of my window and if it was sunny I could film if not I had a little lamp and

00:04:09.040 you know in college like everyone's partying having fun and I'm literally like

00:04:12.040 in my apartment just editing videos all my senior year college classes I literally I

00:04:17.160 still got A's and a few B's but I was always reading like beauty reviews I was

00:04:21.940 just obsessed you could not get me away and I finally found something I was

00:04:24.720 passionate about and I loved sharing content and doing makeup tutorials. I love

00:04:28.520 that I mean I had a very similar experience in that I didn't know how to do a lick of

00:04:34.120 makeup until I was literally in my 20s I was 21 I think and I and I like all I'd ever

00:04:41.740 done before that was the worst kind of makeup which is putting liner on the lash my lower

00:04:48.120 lash line like that was all I did and that was like that was black liner wasn't the black

00:04:51.740 liner black liner that's like this is cool this is really hip that was my that was the extent of

00:04:57.420 my knowledge as far as makeup and then I hopped on YouTube and I found a few different

00:05:02.180 YouTubers that I just thought was I thought was so cool I thought of it as art and then I thought

00:05:07.380 oh I can start trying to do this myself and as I kept watching tutorials I really taught myself how

00:05:13.640 to do how to do makeup and then I just wanted to share that knowledge with other people on my channel

00:05:18.940 when I first started so totally makes sense to me and I I mean it's amazing how how you've grown so

00:05:25.940 how did you see your channel grow like what did that feel like because you have so many subscribers

00:05:31.940 which is so incredible well when I first started you know I used my webcam and I remember I uploaded

00:05:38.020 my first video and I think the first one I uploaded was five steps to a flawless face and I it was like

00:05:44.280 primer and foundation and I was so intrigued by the steps of makeup because before that the most expensive

00:05:50.340 makeup I'd ever tried is Bare Minerals from like a local boutique and you know I had like my Bare Minerals

00:05:55.520 powder my I did big winged liner super intense brows a lot of bronzer and lip gloss so once I found 0.58

00:06:02.940 out primer I was like oh my gosh I have to make a video on this this is going to change people's lives

00:06:07.480 and the contouring I was so obsessed with contouring so I made that video and whenever I made it I

00:06:13.200 started setting it to a few friends I was like hey watch this I don't I was just trying to get views

00:06:16.640 I'm like watch it I'm like yes I have five or ten views and for a long time it's very discouraging

00:06:22.120 because I really I mean I loved the beauty community they were so nice they were so kind

00:06:26.880 people grew together it was a very different scene then when it first started than it is now

00:06:30.800 the monster that it's become now is so different but whenever it was so innocent everyone was so

00:06:35.240 nice and I really just wanted to be friends with everyone I really was looking for friendship in a

00:06:39.100 community and just sharing my love of makeup and teaching people like you said because makeup makes

00:06:43.360 you feel powerful so when you get it and you love you're like I've got to share this I want other

00:06:46.720 people to try this product yeah so I remember not really getting much traction um I just kept

00:06:52.380 uploading because I loved it and you know it turns on like oh you know when when are people going to

00:06:56.080 find my videos I just want to chat I just want some comments I just want to talk to people and I

00:07:00.420 remember the first video that kind of blew up on my channel was a contouring routine and I almost didn't

00:07:06.180 even upload it I was like this is silly I don't know like I was doubting it I'd even like make

00:07:10.860 products disappear in editing to where they like popped on the screen like I did all these editing

00:07:14.960 things I loved editing and next thing I knew I was like wait 20,000 subscribers 100,000 subscribers

00:07:20.620 like what happened that video was my first video that hit a million views and I was like this is a

00:07:25.600 video I almost didn't even upload and I didn't even know you could make money on YouTube you know I was

00:07:29.820 just doing this for fun but when I found out you could make a living I said all right see you law

00:07:33.480 school I'm gonna do what I love to do which is makeup that's amazing I mean I think that it's so it is

00:07:39.620 really cool how that a lot of these platforms give us an opportunity to become entrepreneurs

00:07:45.860 essentially where you don't have to go to law school where you can stay you know at home doing

00:07:51.520 what you love putting in a ton of work I'm sure because I know that I do and still and like still

00:07:58.680 making a living that's incredible so I remember when I first started my channel I tried to focus more

00:08:07.980 on beauty tutorials and on opera singing those were my two kind of things I started off as

00:08:12.480 the reason I chose classically Abby was for a few different reasons than the name classically Abby

00:08:16.840 classical opera singer and also just being more classic that was my my theme but I quickly realized

00:08:24.380 that if I shared my political views if people like quote unquote found out that Ben was my brother

00:08:31.220 Ben Shapiro was my brother that I would be canceled like I just realized very quickly because I saw

00:08:37.080 who else was in the beauty space and so I made the decision to build my brand on being conservative

00:08:44.760 which of course has its own set of problems but what was your experience as a beauty influencer

00:08:52.800 when you came out as conservative because you had already built up this huge subscriber base you were

00:08:58.980 already a huge part of the beauty influencer space when you came out as conservative

00:09:03.900 yeah so when I first started speaking about it you know to me I wanted to come from a place of love

00:09:13.060 and a place of unity of like hey you know no matter what people vote for just love them anyways and even

00:09:17.620 before I said hey I'm conservative it was already just say you voted for Trump like the DM started coming

00:09:23.260 in as no we can't just love anyone if they don't vote blue then you know they're racist or you know all of

00:09:29.020 these things that the media that media propaganda pushes and it was so heartbreaking and I had sat and

00:09:34.380 watched people with huge platforms who don't know about the political climate couldn't name one thing Joe Biden

00:09:40.300 has done in 40 whatever years it's been you know telling people oh do this you know influencing their

00:09:47.580 audience of people but then when you come with a place of love and also you know I had facts I think this is why I'm voting this way

00:09:55.020 it was just slandered everywhere you know and it wasn't just it wasn't like oh hey um we're not voting

00:10:01.580 for Trump or we're not conservative let's be friends it was hey let me just attack you personally on every

00:10:05.740 level you know when you can't attack the message you talk to the messenger and it was just attacking me as

00:10:09.740 a person and even people to platforms I was fine we were cool but the moment I said I'm conservative 0.99

00:10:17.020 all of a sudden it was a light switch up you're racist you're homophobic you're a white supremacist you're not 0.98

00:10:21.820 Latino anymore I mean overnight you know it doesn't even logically make sense but when you are convicted 0.98

00:10:27.180 in your beliefs you really just don't care and when I what I've when I've seen what's happened in this

00:10:31.340 country and in the influencer space I saw so many people that kind of was in my circle when I lived

00:10:37.740 in LA and afterwards they are so disconnected from real life they don't know what's going on outside of

00:10:43.580 their their apartment or their house they really don't they live this amazing life they've been able

00:10:48.060 like you said to be an entrepreneur and have this amazing lifestyle but I feel like a lot of people

00:10:52.220 have forgotten where they came from and they're just so disconnected with the world they don't

00:10:56.380 know things that are happening at the border they don't know things that are happening in policy

00:10:59.740 they just don't know but they follow the Hollywood narrative and I wasn't going to stand for it

00:11:04.380 anymore I saw people losing their jobs for speaking for their beliefs people being de-platformed

00:11:09.020 people being censored you know censorship is a human issue not a party issue so I was like I'm going to

00:11:14.620 use my voice and I prayed about it and I just felt like this is what God wanted me to do I really feel

00:11:19.180 like God gave me my platform for this moment and like you know I'd been doing beauty for so long and

00:11:24.460 I felt this push of I'm going to be doing something else but I didn't know what and then it was almost

00:11:29.020 like a light switch happened last year and I was like this is it like I will risk anything and everything

00:11:33.420 for God I'm going to speak about my beliefs if not now then when yeah no I mean that's incredible

00:11:39.260 and I think that I know that for myself whenever I've started to feel doubt or worry about what I'm

00:11:45.660 doing as soon as I remember what I'm doing it in service for and that God again I have a similar

00:11:52.060 feeling when I when I speak out on my views you know it's not easy it's not that people are coming

00:11:58.140 in and saying great job you're getting a lot of the opposite reaction but knowing that God is supporting

00:12:04.780 you really at least for me and I it sounds similar for you you feel this it's going to be okay feeling

00:12:11.420 this it's this peaceful feeling yeah I agree yeah you know when you when you know as a Christian you

00:12:18.460 you live life by that set of standards right the best that you can and I knew that what I was doing

00:12:24.860 in my heart and praying and discernment like this is right so for me you know it doesn't really matter

00:12:29.580 what any people say it matters what God says I'd rather stand with God be walking out about the

00:12:34.220 best that I can meant to stand with the world and then be judged by God you know we all will be

00:12:38.060 one day and I've just been so convicted and and even with things I'm sure we'll talk about later

00:12:44.620 on the interview you know when you when you see God take things that the enemy meant for bad and turn

00:12:48.620 to good it's honestly the best feeling because you know you know you're very outspoken and with that

00:12:54.380 you offend people they get mad they come for you but honestly the only way to avoid criticism is to be

00:13:00.220 quiet and I'm not going to be quiet and I know you're not going to be quiet yeah no I mean

00:13:03.980 that actually reminds me of what you just said reminds me of a quote I I recently put in my in

00:13:08.220 my newsletter from Abraham Lincoln where I'm going to get it a little bit wrong but something to the

00:13:12.780 effect of someone came to him and said I hope God is on our side and Abraham Lincoln said we don't I

00:13:19.020 don't like want God to be on our side I just need to be on God's side God if yeah which I I love that

00:13:26.540 phrase and I love that he said that but I also actually have a question for you because I really enjoy

00:13:33.820 I think it's so important the way you talk about how there shouldn't be hate from our side to the

00:13:41.500 to the left as there is like left to the right I think that you think that there should be an even

00:13:47.500 playing field in a sense and so how do you deal with friendships with people who are on the left

00:13:54.460 because I have to convince people on the left that yes of course I have friends who have differing views

00:14:00.780 than I do and it doesn't matter but at the end of the day you you care about each other and that's

00:14:05.740 what what what does matter and I feel often that people on the left can't believe that they think

00:14:12.060 that because I have strong conservative views I can't speak to someone on the other side of the

00:14:17.180 aisle which is antithetical to what I believe I think it's actually very important to speak to

00:14:21.500 people on the other side of the aisle so what's been your experience with people who are on the left and

00:14:26.220 your friends who are on the left yeah so when it comes to what you see on social media like the

00:14:33.820 industry part most of my friends that were left leaning or everyone in the industry they all said

00:14:39.020 no they follow that narrative of oh well we don't follow people who aren't on the left right so the

00:14:44.060 tolerant are not so tolerant and look if you don't want to be tolerant it's fine but they should say hey

00:14:49.020 we're not tolerant because I'm sure you've seen it's like oh well we're just not tolerant of racism and

00:14:53.260 well when have any of us been racist do you know what I mean so when it comes to personal I mean

00:14:59.180 most of the people near me are all conservative if I keep my circle very small but the acquaintances

00:15:05.820 that I do have that are liberal I mean it's fine we're human it goes back to you know a few years ago

00:15:11.980 you could vote red or blue and it was fine it wasn't such a big deal so even for people if they're

00:15:17.020 watching this this interview and this this show saying like oh well maybe not everyone is so bad

00:15:24.940 it's kind of like questioning what you're being told I don't understand the narrative of oh well

00:15:29.020 if you voted red or if you voted for Trump or if you are conservative you must hate everyone yeah you

00:15:35.020 know when when I just think it shows the propaganda that's been pushed and it's very hard for me to

00:15:41.260 understand from a human level and again that's one of the reasons why I started to speak out because

00:15:45.820 you know even sometimes I would get dms when I first started speaking out of I used to really

00:15:49.740 like you it's sad and it's kind of like well what changed you know what I mean what can you tell me

00:15:54.380 what change and a lot of the things I would have I love having conversations people if people are willing

00:15:59.260 to sit down and have a civil conversation we would get so far because the way I live my life and the

00:16:04.300 standard I live my life is not how you have to live your life but that's how I am choosing to live my

00:16:08.140 life it's how I vote it's how I make my decisions the way I believe in if you don't believe in it

00:16:12.220 it's fine but people aren't seeing that the media literally just wants to divide everyone they want

00:16:17.340 us to be divided because we're weaker and when you tell people that they just get mad and if you tell

00:16:21.580 something different than what their tv says you're a conspiracy theorist and it's like no we're just

00:16:26.700 questioning what the media is telling you because are we just supposed to obey and look at the tv all

00:16:33.020 day and say yes this is it we're not going to question we're just going to do it you know no

00:16:36.700 we are free thinkers we are critical thinkers absolutely I think that's so true and I think

00:16:42.380 that at least for me I think that it's scary that there may be a big portion of the country that

00:16:50.700 thinks anyone who votes red is evil and if you actually believe that you've the people who vote

00:16:55.820 red are evil how can we be in one country together like that just doesn't it it's so divisive and and 0.91

00:17:03.900 scary and I think that at least on my side of things I tend to believe that everyone has the

00:17:09.500 best intentions it's just that some people don't know exactly what the best thing is or are not

00:17:16.700 educated enough or are taking in that media narrative and just accepting it as fact but everyone

00:17:22.940 I think generally not all the time but generally people are really just trying to to do what's best

00:17:29.020 and if we start from that perspective of we're all trying here then you can actually have a conversation

00:17:35.420 with someone who disagrees with you because we're all trying but if you believe that you have the

00:17:39.820 worst of intentions then of course that conversation is going absolutely nowhere yeah agreed yeah so one of

00:17:46.940 the things I love about you is that and your channel is your faith your faith is so important to you it's

00:17:54.460 something you talk about so openly you wear your cross all the time it's beautiful and as as religious

00:18:01.420 to do myself I love seeing other public women sharing their faith and I think it's so important

00:18:06.540 especially people who are living a generally normal life you know someone you can look at and say oh

00:18:13.020 they're not totally different than I am they're pretty much living the same life that I am they just

00:18:17.740 believe in God so can you talk about your faith and what it means to you and how it informs your life

00:18:25.100 yeah I would love to so I grew up Catholic and I always went to church always prayed but I didn't

00:18:31.260 really like going to church you know I kind of thought church was something older people did and

00:18:34.860 you know you're young you're a teenager and then you grow up and um it wasn't until actually after I

00:18:39.420 started my youtube channel and I went through a really bad breakup and it was devastating it was my first

00:18:44.780 relationship and I didn't really know where to go so I said well I guess I'm an adult living on my own

00:18:52.700 well I'm going to start going to church again by myself you know I wasn't I was kind of only going

00:18:56.540 on holidays I was young and you know anyways so I started going to church again and I just started

00:19:02.300 giving everything to Jesus you know I lived by myself it was me and my dog not when you go through

00:19:06.780 heartbreak I don't wish that on anyone it's the hardest thing to go through it just you know you

00:19:12.060 you almost feel numb to everything and that's why I started building my faith again and I'm

00:19:16.460 Christian now um I just go to a Christian church but I just started looking for something to fill

00:19:21.980 my heart that nothing in this world could offer me and that's how I started finding Jesus and really

00:19:27.260 finding Jesus because I had known God my entire life I was a Christian my entire Catholic Christian my

00:19:31.580 entire life and I prayed all the time but knowing Jesus and knowing Jesus were two different

00:19:37.980 experiences for me yeah when I started submitting my life and you know it's almost like you take

00:19:42.780 off the rose-colored glasses and you're like oh wow and you know being a Christian is not easy I think

00:19:48.300 giving your life to God is harder than going through life doing whatever you want I mean most of us

00:19:53.660 you just do whatever you want but when you get that eternal peace that your faith gives you and it gives

00:19:59.420 you something to serve and something to live for and like you know the earth you know I believe this isn't

00:20:04.780 our home right heaven is our home so this is just our passing place and for me being a Christian

00:20:10.860 if I'm to believe God is the one true God like our mission to spread the gospel and to make heaven

00:20:14.860 crowded so I thought why hide it and when I first started speaking up about it I was terrified because

00:20:20.940 it was one of those things where you don't talk about faith or politics and now I can't stand

00:20:24.860 when people say that but you know at the time I thought you know what God gave me this platform

00:20:29.420 without me speaking about him so I started kind of softly sprinkling things in of like I don't

00:20:34.700 want at the time I was like I don't want to offend anyone now I don't care but then I was like I

00:20:38.380 don't want to offend anyone I just want to come from a good place and so I started and to be honest

00:20:43.420 I don't really ever get hate about it however I noticed with everything happening now in the

00:20:49.260 political climate people always try to bring Trump in it because that's with Trump or people try to say

00:20:53.740 oh well why are you wearing a bikini in this picture like I thought you were a Christian 1.00

00:20:57.180 but people that say those kinds of things and I'm sure you know if you've experienced similar comments

00:21:01.660 of oh well why do you do this because you're faith you know so when people say that those aren't people

00:21:06.540 who really know the God that I know you know we all mess up we all make mistakes and like you said

00:21:11.020 we should be showing people grace um and this can't it reminds me of cancel culture because you know

00:21:15.100 they tried to cancel Jesus and look what happened he wrote he rose from the dead so this whole cancel

00:21:20.300 culture you know if he was hated we know that we'll be hated so I'm okay with it but it's just when you

00:21:26.540 see people in your messages and I'm sure you get them of oh you know I started praying I started

00:21:31.260 looking up reading the bible like those are the best things you can receive because that's so much

00:21:35.500 bigger than makeup it's so much bigger than politics it's bigger than anything in this world and it's

00:21:39.260 the best feeling so I'm very bold and open about it because you don't have to believe it which is what

00:21:44.220 I believe so I'm going to share my beliefs and that's the beauty right we all get our God-given

00:21:48.060 voice to talk about whatever we want to talk about I love giving women and any followers just the 0.99

00:21:55.580 the strength to talk about their faith because I think talking about faith in today's kind of

00:22:02.460 environment is really hard and it can feel um lonely to talk about faith and I I'm so happy like I

00:22:11.580 mentioned to see more public women talking about their faith so that other women feel confident talking

00:22:19.340 about their faith and and maybe even re-exploring their faith and I think one of the things that you

00:22:23.980 mentioned which is so important I had my own faith journey and it's something I'm very open about

00:22:30.060 where I struggled with my faith I kind of had the opposite situation to you where I dated a couple of

00:22:37.180 bad guys who called themselves Jewish but really weren't practicing Jews and in the sense that they

00:22:43.980 didn't they didn't take the the moral aspects of Judaism and like their belief in God seriously they just

00:22:50.540 kind of practiced certain traditions and laws but didn't take it into their hearts and it pushed

00:22:58.540 me away from my faith and re-exploring and rediscovering my faith has been so special and important to

00:23:05.260 me because I did have that journey and it's not to say that everyone should have a walk away from faith

00:23:11.100 but it means that when you do it's there's something very sweet about coming back because you've kind of

00:23:18.060 seen what it's like without it and now you recognize how informed like how much better your life is with

00:23:24.860 God and with faith so I think it's I think that's really important to mention and I really also want

00:23:30.620 to talk about you're talking about I think it's really important to share the mistakes that we've made

00:23:38.700 and maybe things that we've done in the past that we regret because I think people who want to judge

00:23:45.980 people of faith make it they want to make it seem that we are perfect and that we believe that we are

00:23:52.460 perfect instead of saying we all have temptations we all have sinned and we that makes it that's just

00:23:59.660 part of the journey and it makes it more relatable to other to other women of faith to say no we we've had

00:24:06.380 these same struggles that doesn't just because you've had struggles doesn't invalidate where you

00:24:11.180 are with your faith now is is that your feeling too yeah I agree I mean I think growing up something

00:24:19.180 that kind of pushed me away from faith sometimes was seeing that cookie cutter Christian of they're 1.00

00:24:25.820 perfect they have a perfect family you know I would see that I'm like but that's not me I can't relate

00:24:30.700 to that and even on social media you know people tend to post their highlights I mean we've gone into this

00:24:35.660 realm now people being vulnerable and raw and truth and it's amazing but up until this point

00:24:40.700 and there still are somewhere people are just want to be perfect because I think it stems from a human

00:24:46.300 heart thing you know we all want Jesus was the only one that was perfect and we we want to be that we

00:24:50.460 want to be like him so I think whether people realize it or not they're striving for that perfection

00:24:54.860 because of our creator I just thought about now but um I think that when you see people on

00:25:01.660 Instagram let's say that have verses everywhere and the perfect family amazing great role model

00:25:06.940 but that's only such a small portion of someone's life so for me if you're like for example if you

00:25:12.140 want to judge me because of pictures I posted or things I said or did great you know that's on you

00:25:16.540 but when you have your faith you know that like you said we aren't perfect and I think it's more

00:25:21.100 relatable to see someone and to watch them whether they go back and forth whether they have come from

00:25:26.540 somewhere and be like wow she's a Christian and look what she went through because Christianity 0.99

00:25:32.540 faith Judaism you know it's not just for a certain type of person it's not just for oh well if you've

00:25:38.780 never had any mistakes then you can have faith that's life and I think that people are just they just

00:25:44.380 tend to judge and I think it's just a human heart issue of we just judge and we try to nitpick

00:25:48.940 and distract from our own lives yeah but none of us are perfect you know that's that's the journey and

00:25:53.980 I think people have to stop trying to hold other people to perfection and just start looking in

00:25:58.220 order to themselves I think it's just a reflection of themselves when they try to project that onto

00:26:03.020 people yeah no it's something I had to I wanted to share really openly on my channel not just from

00:26:08.060 a perspective of my own faith but also from the perspective of being classic that's something I

00:26:12.940 espouse on my channel a lot and I wanted to say being classic doesn't mean that I'm perfect there

00:26:17.980 are days that I am wearing no makeup at all my hair hasn't been brushed I haven't gotten out of my

00:26:23.900 robe and things are just not going the way I planned but that doesn't mean that classic doesn't

00:26:29.820 mean perfect it just means aiming to be better and in the same way with faith we're always trying to

00:26:36.140 aspire to grow in our faith and to do our best but that doesn't mean you're always at that perfect

00:26:42.140 level because otherwise there's nowhere to go and that's what life is all about is moving toward God

00:26:49.100 so I wanted to talk about Esther and I know you talked about Esther and how you felt pulled to

00:26:55.980 speak on your beliefs and your faith in the same way that Esther defended her nation and her people

00:27:01.500 and Esther is one of my absolute favorite books I actually recently did a video on my channel

00:27:07.180 all about biblical women who I absolutely love for their strength and who I find so inspiring

00:27:13.980 um and I I loved making that video because it was also for me saying don't look at the but if you

00:27:20.220 tell me that the bible is patriarchal look at these women that was my that was my kind of point there 1.00

00:27:26.940 but are there any women in the bible besides Esther who you find strengthen

00:27:35.100 yeah I mean Esther was the the first one that I really started talking about because I had heard of

00:27:40.300 the book of Esther but it really wasn't until the last year or so that I started diving deeper into

00:27:45.180 my bible you know when I lived before a year ago when I moved to Nashville when I was in LA I went

00:27:49.980 through a spiritual drought we were going to church I was praying but I felt so weighed over like heavy

00:27:55.420 all the time so when I moved back here I started kind of digging back deeper into my faith reevaluating

00:28:00.380 like how am I walking with Jesus and I have an Esther highlight on my Instagram if anyone ever wants to go

00:28:05.740 check it out but I left that there because it started with a friend saying hey remember the book

00:28:09.980 of Esther and I kind of thought hmm yeah kind of but all I knew that she was beautiful I've never read

00:28:15.500 the book of Esther so when I went through and read it and it's funny because right before I went to I

00:28:20.940 was getting ready to film my what's next in America video which was my first video speaking out so when

00:28:24.940 I was talking to this girl on the phone and then I said what if God gave me my platform for such a time

00:28:29.820 as this I had no idea that was a scripture from the bible like I had no idea and then when I was reading

00:28:35.580 I was like Esther 414 and I'm reading online and I'm like oh my god like it was almost like God had

00:28:40.620 just pinged it right to my brain and I always think about that moment and since then it's funny that

00:28:45.260 you mentioned Esther because I see Esther everywhere now like I see all kinds of spiritual leaders

00:28:52.060 speaking about Esther when I never saw it anyway but I think Esther is my favorite just because of my

00:28:57.260 experience that I've gone through with Esther and reading about the book of Esther and the thing I love

00:29:01.660 about Esther is that you know her beauty is what captivated the king but her courage and her voice

00:29:07.020 is what saved her people so Esther is just my favorite oh my gosh I I love the story of Esther it's

00:29:12.620 near and dear to my heart um we read it every who's my favorite I love so who did I talk about on my

00:29:21.260 channel I mean yeah yeah El and Yehudi so Judith and yeah I don't know I think yeah El is just yeah El in

00:29:28.300 in English I know all of the names in Hebrew and so it's sometimes hard for me to to translate them

00:29:34.060 but um she was amazing I mean yeah El was the woman in the bible who she killed Sisera who was one of the 0.78

00:29:44.060 major um Canaanite uh uh um generals and she like invited him into her tent to help the Jews because she

00:29:55.500 knew that the Jews had been incredibly um oppressed by the Canaan people and so she actually drove a

00:30:04.860 stake through his temple like she's just the strongest woman yeah she was like get out of here this is 1.00

00:30:11.660 done and she gets half the credit for basically like winning the wars in Canaan it's amazing and

00:30:19.100 this is why I love the bible because it's like you look at these women and no one is saying women

00:30:24.140 aren't strong you look at Devorah Deborah she was an incredible judge she was a warrior and she was 0.97

00:30:31.980 defending the nation of Israel like it's incredible it's so cool and you think to yourself how do people

00:30:37.820 look at the bible and think that women are are secondary because they're not yeah exactly exactly 1.00

00:30:45.580 it's like you can you can get whatever you want from the bible if you're going in with a certain

00:30:50.300 perspective I suppose and that's sad because if you really read it with an open mind it's like

00:30:55.980 the women in the bible are so strong and there's so much for us to learn I love it um I was wondering

00:31:04.700 if you could give us the story and of course I'm sure we've all heard it but I'd love to hear it again

00:31:10.780 just to have it on record here for this interview for anyone who hasn't um your controversy with Sephora

00:31:19.420 yeah sure so I'll give you the in a nutshell version um so I have worked with Sephora before

00:31:25.980 and as you know working with brands they usually work through other agencies so I've been very vocal

00:31:31.740 on my conservative views and you know my faith and everything and I got an email from reward style

00:31:37.900 saying Sephora would love to work with you and at first I was like wow you know with all everything

00:31:42.140 happening in the country conservatives that are open you know aren't really getting sponsorships

00:31:46.700 because of you know our the beauty industry is very liberal leaning and I thought wow this is great

00:31:51.500 and so I let them know I went through the contract and I said hey I get heat for my conservative

00:31:56.380 and Christian values and this political climate I went on and on and on and I referenced it to a clause

00:32:01.820 that said that they could pull out of the contract etc etc um I posted all this in my original

00:32:06.780 Instagram video on IGTV about it uh people want to see all the all its tea all the tea all the details

00:32:12.620 but um in there you know they said no don't worry we don't discriminate so I did the video it was on

00:32:17.980 skincare you know I talked about how I had enjoyed Sephora I actually worked at it for a retail store

00:32:23.660 and I had a not so great experience working there this is when I first started my youtube channel

00:32:28.780 and that's I have that video up on my youtube so you know I've had my experiences but I never had

00:32:32.540 any issues before with my other sponsorships and you know nothing changed I've always been the same

00:32:37.340 person so the video goes up some people hate on their page and Sephora I think they have they have

00:32:43.100 millions of followers 20 million plus I don't remember but they have a lot of followers they don't get a

00:32:47.020 lot of comments so I guess it was a shock to them to get a few comments and one person said uh I don't

00:32:52.540 like Sephora anyways but after sponsoring Amanda and being part of a dangerous MAGA group I'm out

00:32:58.380 and Sephora respond and so it went viral and they you know said that I didn't fit with their values

00:33:04.060 of inclusivity and all you know all these things you can see on my story so Sephora basically commented

00:33:09.660 to some which what does a MAGA dangerous MAGA group even mean you know MAGA make America great again like

00:33:15.100 what does that even mean anyways so they directly started responding to a comment like that one about

00:33:21.180 my conservative views and blasting me you know this is a private issue if you had an issue with me you

00:33:26.300 could email me so I start getting blown up from the word style on hey we need you to remove the video

00:33:31.660 we need you to remove the video and on my youtube channel the comments were good it was like wow I'm

00:33:35.820 so happy to see Sephora is working with someone that's conservative you know it was very open and

00:33:40.060 they wouldn't give me a reason why and we're we're suing them now so I've talked about that we're

00:33:44.860 legally pursuing action now and it's just crazy that they still never gave me any reason why right they

00:33:53.580 just prints that clause of what that I initially had an issue with so a few days later they every

00:33:59.340 couple days they would come up with something different of why they disaffiliated you know

00:34:01.900 like they were digging for what how can we smear her they were responding to like left-leaning fake

00:34:07.020 news in my opinion like business insider and all these thoughts that are just never never report

00:34:12.460 anything that doesn't go with their narrative and they started lying about me they started putting me

00:34:16.220 in their chats in their emails and their corporate emails like all of these things they started putting me in

00:34:21.820 saying Amanda made light of death of the capital never would I ever never had I ever

00:34:27.580 so everything they did I started calling them out like hey I've got time stamps hey what are

00:34:30.860 you referring to and they would never say what content I did because they know that it's alive

00:34:35.260 but when you have a big company like that smearing someone like me with a platform what have

00:34:39.100 they done to other people and I mean I've had an influx of emails and messages of people telling me

00:34:43.660 things that Sephora has done and when you read it you're like how is this this is all happening behind

00:34:48.300 closed doors so I'm glad that God picked it up and he started doing his thing and spreading it

00:34:53.980 everywhere because this is serious like when did makeup become political all they had to say was

00:34:59.500 hey you know what we respect people of different values and beliefs or or not respond and reach out

00:35:03.980 to me we could have talked about it but they took their platform and you know how so many makeup brands

00:35:08.940 when they work with influencers are in Sephora what brand would want to work with me now you know

00:35:12.060 they're going to pick Sephora but they literally said and there were thousands and still to this day

00:35:16.700 thousands of people commenting canceling their Sephora account Sephora is quiet they're only

00:35:21.660 responding to brands that are in their store and people that are agreeing with their with their left

00:35:26.220 narrative they literally said we don't want conservative dollars they're silent spoke volumes

00:35:31.020 oh my gosh it's it's so crazy to me from one comment essentially and I had a similar experience I

00:35:38.380 don't know if you I think I told you about this actually before we we scheduled this where I had

00:35:44.060 I had a sponsorship lined up for six months and I put out a video they again they worked through

00:35:49.660 a another platform to um to schedule the sponsorship and I sent them the video in advance I sent it to

00:35:57.820 them and I said let me know if this is good if you're okay with it and they checked it they said it

00:36:02.220 was fine and then they got two three comments they wrote me an email and said we have to cancel the

00:36:08.300 sponsorship so for the rest of the sponsorship and please take it down this video so I get your

00:36:15.020 reason or no oh they they told me explicitly that people were not happy with what I had said

00:36:21.420 so they they explicitly said that it was because I was conservative not your problem and it's not the

00:36:26.540 brand's problem so does that mean that if I'm offended I can go come on any brand page of any creator

00:36:31.980 any influencer and tell them that it's not okay and they're going to so we won't have any sponsorships

00:36:36.460 then because every influencer that's ever created a sponsorship has offended someone exactly well the

00:36:41.820 craziest thing was I after this happened I went on YouTube and I searched this sponsor and I searched

00:36:50.140 their ads that they've paid for they've paid for ads on the channel of someone who made a hate video about

00:36:56.460 me so I was like they and they actually sponsored a specific video that was incredibly like left with

00:37:07.660 the ideas and very critical of conservatives and I was thinking to myself this is indicative that you

00:37:15.900 can get away with pretty much anything if you're on the other side of the aisle and a sponsor is you know

00:37:22.060 they feel totally comfortable doing that especially because let's be honest most of the time conservatives

00:37:27.660 are not going to go out and send an email to that company and say we're offended we don't want you to

00:37:32.300 sponsor this creator like that doesn't believe in freedom of speech correct correct and so there's

00:37:38.860 just like a totally different things play out totally different on the other side of the aisle

00:37:45.580 and I just thought yeah and I thought to myself that's that's so crazy that they had to take down

00:37:52.780 my video where I um my videos are I'm very clear about what I do like it's very clear that I'm

00:38:00.540 conservative and they chose to work with me day one and day two they they asked me to take it down

00:38:06.780 it was it was so silly and my thought about that is what do you think we can do as openly

00:38:15.020 conservative women in an increasingly woke world so from the perspective of some people like you 1.00

00:38:20.460 and me what do we do when we're not able to get sponsors and from the perspective of women who 0.98

00:38:26.060 aren't in our line of work who are just trying to navigate this kind of world and figure out what

00:38:32.540 how they fit in and how how they can live in it well firstly from the perspective of if you have

00:38:40.220 been creating you know it's your job or you you do sponsorships like you and I I think it's a huge

00:38:45.980 opportunity to stop relying on brands and start start betting on yourself yeah because you know me as

00:38:54.540 a creator working with brands you know usually making your money most of your money usually comes from

00:38:59.340 sponsorships because you know youtube views it's just a whole mess with youtube and you know usually

00:39:04.380 you get these marketing these deals with these brands and you're promoting their products so that's

00:39:08.220 usually where a lot of creators get their bulk of money if they don't have their own brand their

00:39:11.580 own products etc yeah I think it's a huge opportunity to start investing in yourself start creating your

00:39:17.020 own products creating your own brands and also start working with smaller brands that maybe they don't

00:39:21.820 have a budget maybe they have affiliate programs maybe that can benefit but stop giving your time and

00:39:26.700 your voice and your likeness to brands that don't want us that aren't inclusive and I think there's been a huge

00:39:31.820 wake up in the in the nation of people saying okay well we don't have disney plus we don't have sephora

00:39:38.060 you know looking at all these brands that are trying to cancel voices and conservative voices I mean

00:39:42.060 canceling any voice if what happened to me would have happened to a liberal influencer I would have

00:39:46.220 spoken up none of them spoke up for me and that speaks volumes most of these people only care about

00:39:52.460 money and the moment that cancel culture comes from that for them they're going to complain about it but

00:39:57.100 we try to tell them because they might come for us now but they will come for anyone and everyone

00:40:01.260 eventually so I think that for people that are trying to break into this space you shouldn't

00:40:06.060 have to be quiet and be not be who you are just to get sponsorships I would rather be myself be vocal

00:40:12.780 be truly me and know what brands want to work with me then working with brands knowing that they don't

00:40:18.300 want me knowing they don't believe in my views knowing they discriminate against my views I would

00:40:22.220 I don't want that money to me that's dirty money I don't want it and to see like you said I there

00:40:28.380 were so many influencers that threaten violence against me death threats talking about my faith

00:40:33.580 talking about my ethnicity all of these things being racist they're fine they're still working

00:40:39.420 with brands like Sephora because that fits their narrative they can support the riots and and the

00:40:44.220 shootings and everything that happens with BLM and anti-fight it's fine it's fine because it fits the

00:40:49.260 narrative right it fits what Hollywood and what the media is pushing and if you question that they look

00:40:54.300 at you like oh no get back in line be quiet and I'm not willing to do that you're not willing to do

00:41:00.060 that and I think we're seeing a rise like conservatives are no longer silent and I see this shift coming I

00:41:05.420 think there are a ton of conservative brands coming I think a lot of conservative voices trying to speak

00:41:09.740 up like we're not going anywhere our values cannot be moved so I think in the ever woke world the best way

00:41:16.460 to combat it is to stand up because if everyone stood up what are they going to do it's only when people

00:41:22.460 are quiet that they can push people around but conservatives need to start creating their own

00:41:26.700 verticals their own shows podcast channels put it out there because I guarantee you if you're someone

00:41:31.900 listening and you've wanted to start but you're afraid or you don't know there are more people than

00:41:35.740 you think and people can hate Trump all they all all they want but if his rallies showed us anything

00:41:41.020 it's that we're the majority and I don't say that in a vindictive way I say the media wants us to feel

00:41:45.740 like we're alone like you said you feel isolated you feel alienated you feel like oh my gosh no one has the

00:41:50.860 same values that I do there are millions of people that have the same values that you do and I think

00:41:55.580 people are craving that authenticity and just craving people to relate to you and I connected

00:42:00.060 because of what happened amazing you know and now it's like we now we have we're friends like you have

00:42:04.940 a friend I have a friend and that's only because of something that that the enemy tried to use for bad

00:42:10.060 yeah so now you know speaking up if I wouldn't have spoken up maybe you wouldn't have talked so people

00:42:14.460 need to start using their voices and speaking up for what they believe in and not be afraid I mean

00:42:18.780 no one like cancel they can't cancel you they can't silence you like you can keep posting content

00:42:24.140 what what are they going to do okay you post makeup tutorials and you're conservative what are they

00:42:27.580 going to do hey it's fine don't be afraid of other people people can't be afraid they need to just stand

00:42:32.380 up I think that's such good advice and I I think that my perspective on things is definitely changing

00:42:38.380 as things are getting more and more divisive because earlier in my channel I would say maybe even

00:42:43.980 eight months ago I was saying that you know depending on the situation be quiet like don't

00:42:51.580 necessarily speak out and as I'm getting more being more in this woke world and understanding what this

00:42:59.500 all means I'm starting to realize no the the more quiet you are the more isolated and alienated you feel

00:43:06.380 and the less we can do as a group because we don't know who else is part of as part of the group you

00:43:14.060 don't know the woman across from you in your psych class is conservative you have no idea you have no

00:43:20.620 idea that the woman in your office who you've shared a desk with it maybe shares the same views as you do or

00:43:27.900 is at least open to talking and that's something I think is it's it's it's a loss you miss out on a

00:43:36.220 community of people who can support you and who can actually give you the strength and the boost and the

00:43:43.980 moral support that we all need to stand up for what's right agreed so I was I asked you this a little

00:43:53.420 bit more before but I guess we can touch on it a little bit have you lost not only you know sponsorships

00:44:00.940 and people in your influencer community but friends as you've become more openly conservative and how

00:44:08.220 have you dealt with that yeah I mean in the influencer space it was a mess I had a lot of people unfollow me

00:44:15.900 and I had unfollowed a few people you know I got into a point as I started speaking up and right before

00:44:21.420 where I started seeing people literally post things like if you if you are dating someone that votes for

00:44:26.220 Trump they're a bad person you should dump them mocking Trump like all of these really ugly things

00:44:30.860 and I was like I can't do this and on the day of election I remember posting like hey guys you know 0.87

00:44:35.500 get out and vote like pray like just really I didn't tell people who to vote for I didn't tell people

00:44:40.380 who I'm who I voted for I'm sure people kind of knew but I just said educate yourself go vote

00:44:47.820 love everyone let's let's be together and I just remember influencer saying if you voted for Trump

00:44:54.300 unfollow me like just in general not saying that to anyone just in general on their public platforms

00:44:59.900 disgusting disgusting right yeah and so when I started saying I was like I cannot be around

00:45:05.900 like I am a tolerant person I've never judged someone for other views but you know going back 0.88

00:45:11.020 to what you were saying earlier about losing people if you speak up and someone doesn't want to be

00:45:15.580 around you because of reviews that's on them let them expose themselves I've never judged anyone so

00:45:21.180 that's your choice it's completely fine but know that you made that choice um so in the influencer

00:45:26.220 space it was like I lost a group of people but I gained amazing people such as you other people that

00:45:32.220 I've met that are just the best kind of people I've ever met in my life you know I never expected

00:45:36.700 the support that I got from the people and creators that were never even on my radar because I was

00:45:41.260 you know in this circle of people from when I lived in LA none of them ever supported me none of them

00:45:46.060 ever truly cared about me there were so many things that happened behind closed doors that

00:45:49.420 maybe people will never know about and I mean I held hands and prayed with some of these influencers

00:45:54.700 I prayed for them I prayed over them I helped them anyway I stood by them when they went through

00:45:58.300 their scandals and the moment it's not popular and they think they're going to lose some money

00:46:02.300 there it's fine but that showed them and I'm the top person like I pay very close attention when God

00:46:07.260 removes people from my life and it was a wake-up call in my personal life I have a very small

00:46:12.940 circle of friends and there definitely have been a few people where we're just not really talking

00:46:17.900 anymore and these are even people that that are my friends or that I thought were my friends that are

00:46:21.980 conservative that don't think anything else is happening in our nation right they just think oh well

00:46:27.820 the election is what it is just forget about it let's unite you know it's historic we have a woman in 0.80

00:46:33.500 the in the white house and I'm like you're not looking at everything that's happening like even

00:46:38.220 with the whole Kamala thing right yeah she doesn't represent me as a woman you know like you have a 1.00

00:46:43.100 white man came and swooped her up because of her skin color that doesn't represent me I want to be 1.00

00:46:47.340 getting my job because of I'm worth it because of my talent because of my hard hard work and work ethic

00:46:53.500 I don't want someone to pick me because I'm a woman or because I'm Latina I don't want that you know

00:46:58.380 we're all people and when I think as you start speaking out like you said even people that I

00:47:04.060 thought were my friends just silent and it's very hurtful I think it just hurts because you can be

00:47:08.300 there for people and then when it comes time where you need them and they're not there I think silence

00:47:12.940 speaks volumes but like I said earlier when you're convicted and you know you're walking your path and

00:47:18.140 you're walking with God you're just not moved like I've had this bubble of peace where I'm like it is

00:47:22.700 what it is the people that are meant to be in my life will be there and I've been at peace with it

00:47:26.700 yeah no I think that's all really very true and I think it you mentioned this earlier and it stood

00:47:33.180 out to me that people act as if finding out the fact that you're conservative has changed who you

00:47:40.220 fundamentally are when they've been friends with you for years and know you and know who you are

00:47:46.700 and then all of a sudden simply knowing this one fact they feel justified in not being your friend

00:47:53.500 anymore and nothing has changed nothing has changed at all and it's just that one word that

00:48:00.460 one idea has given them permission to call you like you said racist homophobe all of these other slurs

00:48:08.300 that are in based on absolutely nothing and it's really upsetting because it makes those friendships

00:48:15.580 that you felt were strong break and it is hard and I try to say this to to the people I know and love

00:48:21.580 and also to my to my followers and subscribers that it's hard but it's a blessing in disguise because

00:48:28.220 at some point that person would not have been the friend that you thought they were and if they were

00:48:34.380 revealed in this moment as opposed to some time that hope that may have been even harder for you to take

00:48:41.580 then you aren't depending on someone who you really can't depend on

00:48:44.860 yeah i agree yeah so being on social media you've always you're always going to have haters and hate

00:48:54.140 comments i'm sure you had that even before you were openly conservative but has that changed or

00:49:00.220 increased since being openly conservative i'm sure the answer is yes but i i have to ask and how have you

00:49:06.300 dealt with that overwhelming negativity you know we have god to lean on but it doesn't always make it easy

00:49:13.580 so i'm curious to know how how you've handled that well you might be surprised by my answer because

00:49:19.900 i i've always gotten hate on my youtube whether it was for the way i looked or the way i did makeup 0.96

00:49:25.660 like silly things like people can be very opinionated about makeup like your eyebrows look bad go die and 0.91

00:49:30.940 i'm like it's just eyebrows like okay anyways so when it came to this i thought it was scary scary

00:49:37.980 at first i'm like hey they're gonna start criticizing what i say um you know it's scary when you first

00:49:41.820 start speaking out but when i first did i mean that was the most hate i ever received in my life

00:49:46.940 was when i made my first youtube video and i was like oh my gosh people are so blinded right now by

00:49:53.420 hate by propaganda that like when i was reading something like i could not believe people were

00:49:58.700 saying these types of things and you know after that i was like all right i mean i just i gotta keep

00:50:04.060 going so my whole thing when i first started was i'm gonna interact with people that are being kind and if

00:50:09.660 i can have conversation i will but i think always my my motto on social media is you can't let other

00:50:16.060 people's opinions distract you too much and get into your head because then it tells you who you

00:50:20.620 are instead of listening to who god says you are and i know people in the influencer space who will sit

00:50:25.500 and read comments all day and hate comments and sit and cry in bed for a week they get depressed over

00:50:29.740 you know mentally social media can be very difficult yeah so i just kept going kept doing like you know

00:50:35.180 what you say is on you i'm going to keep going and when things started turning for the better you

00:50:40.700 know people eventually got over it and they unfollow and you know people who have the same values would

00:50:44.940 follow or people who were tolerant would follow when the whole sephora thing happened and you know that

00:50:49.900 was the most vocal like this is not okay and i think it struck a chord with millions of conservatives

00:50:55.420 that were like i've gone through this too on some level yeah i've had someone at work who no longer

00:51:00.860 talked to me i've lost my job i've had to leave a job and people emailing me they were quitting sephora

00:51:06.060 because they're like me and all the conservatives want to quit we're trying to find a job i mean

00:51:09.340 this struck a chord with people because you're fundamentally saying your conservative beliefs

00:51:13.420 do not fit in with us that's what all of these companies and people and influencers that are saying

00:51:18.860 are saying we don't want you here and so now i feel like i don't i feel like it's mainly love

00:51:26.060 to be honest like i feel like the tides have turned and i knew at some point it would

00:51:30.540 because of my faith in god i knew at some point whatever god wanted me to do he would do it for

00:51:34.780 his benefit and for the good of his people so i knew no matter what at some point something would

00:51:39.900 happen i've always had that like weird gut feeling of like you said it's going to be okay it's going

00:51:44.780 to be okay like you've just got to stick through the storm focus on god not the storm like it's going

00:51:48.860 to be okay so now you know i'm i'm very vocal and i keep going and i also looked at people like

00:51:54.700 candace owens that are very vocal you know i look up to people like that as well because even if you

00:51:58.780 don't agree with everything she says i mean i love her strength i love her courage to speak and

00:52:04.700 say a lot of things a lot of people want to say and just don't have the courage to say i think she's

00:52:08.140 inspired women and men to speak up and start speaking about their conservative values but

00:52:13.660 i'm fond of that and i remember people like her that i would watch and i'll see the hate they get

00:52:17.740 and i'm like this is nuts you know like i hope she keeps going and she doesn't care and so i've

00:52:22.860 had that same kind of mentality even trump you know he would just say the truth and people didn't like it

00:52:28.140 or they didn't like the way he delivered it but it was the truth for the first time we had a

00:52:31.180 president telling us the truth you never had to worry what or wonder what he was thinking you know

00:52:35.260 he wasn't sitting up there with graceful speech and then stabbing us in the back in government

00:52:40.060 so for me it's like the truth far outweighs any hate i'm just at a point now where i i don't know

00:52:45.820 it has to be god because i've just had a bubble of peace i just don't care like i genuinely don't

00:52:50.620 care and i i said i would risk anything and everything for god and i feel like as the whole beauty

00:52:55.740 community tried to come for me i mean what what else can i lose i already lost that circle which

00:53:00.060 is fine it doesn't phase me at all but it's like i feel truly free now like i can just be me and like

00:53:06.060 you know where i stand if you come to my page you know where i stand and if you don't like it it's

00:53:10.620 fine but i'm not going to change for anybody yeah no i mean i think that that's amazing and i think that

00:53:17.580 as somebody who people know i get an inordinate amount of hate on my channel and my husband is

00:53:25.420 always saying to me that he he's so impressed that i don't that i don't like take it in but i

00:53:31.260 feel similarly to you that it's when you're taking a a stand that needs to be taken and you're standing

00:53:37.660 up for people not just yourself you're standing up for others it's like those other things just kind

00:53:42.940 of paying off it's you you have that shield of like god is supporting you and you know you're doing

00:53:49.740 the right thing and you can very easily see at least in my in for in my opinion i can see the pain

00:53:58.220 in people who are who are writing hateful things that that's not something a happy person does and

00:54:04.460 so i don't look at that person i've never done that i've never even had the impulse

00:54:12.540 and so it's just kind of like i look at these these horrible things that people write and i think

00:54:16.620 to myself either you have way too much time on your hands you don't have enough going on and

00:54:22.140 you're very unhappy because that's not something a happy person does and if that's the case i those

00:54:28.700 are not the generally those are not the opinions of people i trust people who are going to be respect

00:54:36.060 you in order to want your opinion in the first place and i think people don't understand that like

00:54:40.220 i'm not trying to be rude i'm just saying if i don't know you or respect you why would i care what

00:54:44.540 what you say and i think with this whole cancel culture and everything that the media pushes with

00:54:49.180 hate they want to try to like encourage bullying to let's hold people accountable let's let's hold

00:54:55.340 them accountable for that tweet 10 years ago like we need to cancel them they need to apologize they

00:54:59.180 need to bow down to the mob not going to happen with me and it makes people upset because when you

00:55:03.740 can't be controlled it pisses people off but it's like i you know i'm like please people stop apologizing

00:55:08.860 unless you genuinely felt like you need to apologize and you did something wrong but still who are these

00:55:13.260 people to judge us and that also comes from a christian and a faith standpoint of why who are

00:55:18.540 you to judge me anyways and i'm like i've never had the impulse either to just comment and say

00:55:23.740 oh you know hateful things or to go to people's page you don't pay attention to things you hate

00:55:28.140 that's just a fact so when people come to your page and they thumbs down every video and they comment

00:55:32.620 me and stuff they're a fan they're confused but they're a fan like if i go to a restaurant do you think

00:55:37.820 i'm gonna look at the food i don't like no i'm gonna look at the food i like and concentrate on

00:55:42.060 that you know you just ignore things that you don't want but they like you they're interested

00:55:46.620 they just i mean i just think they're confused or hurting and it makes me sad it truly makes me

00:55:50.860 sad that these people are so sad or don't have enough going on like put that energy into yourself

00:55:55.260 into your life into your family yeah and i think that your point about cancel culture i think

00:56:01.340 is important in that cancel culture isn't looking for an apology because even after you apologize

00:56:07.980 you've already been canceled so exactly cancel culture this is my issue obviously there are

00:56:15.660 cancel culture is wrong and bad and it doesn't allow for mistakes and for freedom of speech

00:56:21.500 depending on what the the situation is and in judaism we have a concept of teshuva which is repentance

00:56:29.100 which is i mean that's in judeo-christianity across the board but we call it teshuva in judaism

00:56:35.500 and it's an incredibly important tenant of our faith that you can make a mistake and come back

00:56:41.340 from it so cancel culture goes against anything that is faith-based at all the idea being that you

00:56:48.140 can't you can't come back from your mistakes and from the things that you've done and once you've been

00:56:53.660 canceled you are canceled that is so antithetical to everything that i believe and that is why

00:57:01.020 the apology is not enough because they're not looking for you to become a better person they're

00:57:05.420 looking for you they're looking for control and they're looking for a way for you to be out of the

00:57:09.980 picture yep good so moving on to something entirely different i always love to know people's

00:57:17.340 relationship stories because i love relationships and i love dating i mean i hated dating but i love

00:57:22.540 talking about dating i love love so i'd love to know your relationship story how did you and your

00:57:28.860 husband meet yeah so we actually met in hollywood um we met in the building that we lived in there

00:57:36.700 was like a little halloween party and it wasn't a costume party it was just like come and meet

00:57:41.660 and i didn't have many friends i'd been in la i think maybe six months at the time i'd moved in the

00:57:46.700 spring so i was like i guess i'm gonna go so i went and the building manager the only person she

00:57:52.780 introduced me to was raphael and i was like that's random and when i saw him i wasn't even like oh

00:57:58.380 this guy is really cute like i was so anti-dating at the time because i just moved to la i was finally

00:58:04.460 just happy i was like doing my own thing i joined a bible study group i found a good gym like i was

00:58:09.500 just kind of walking with god and kind of focused on my mission of what i was doing in la and so when

00:58:15.820 we met i just remember us talking because we were the only ones who didn't drink neither of us drink

00:58:20.220 like we might have a glass of wine once in a while but we just don't drink yeah so i was like wow so

00:58:24.140 cool i never meet guys who don't drink and we were just chatting and before he left he was dealing with

00:58:30.060 something with his old roommate and i put my hand on their shoulder and i said i'm gonna pray for you

00:58:34.140 and he was kind of like taken back and he this is something that had been happening for weeks and

00:58:38.300 the next day i saw him and it got solved and he like mentioned that i said that and i was like that's

00:58:42.380 god so i'm like probably a good luck charm in his mind and i'm like that's god so we like kind of saw

00:58:47.980 each other around the building and then i was getting my nails this is a long story i'm trying

00:58:51.420 to get short but i was getting my nails done um in that same community room and there was still a bowl

00:59:02.620 of halloween candy so i see him come down to get i was like do you not have groceries like what are you

00:59:07.180 doing and he sat there and just talked to me the whole like two hours this girl was doing like a

00:59:11.340 marble design on my nails and afterwards he was like do you want to go eat and he like showed me this cool

00:59:17.100 tie spot so i love tie and he'd been in la longer than me so we were just kind of friends and i

00:59:22.620 didn't really know he liked me for we were friends for a couple of months and we would hang out like every

00:59:26.700 day but i was just i don't know like i wouldn't even send him emojis i was so like focused on god and

00:59:34.380 what i was doing i just was afraid to let myself love anyone like i was just at the point where i'm like

00:59:38.700 i'm finally happy on my own it's so scary to put you like you get your power and you're like oh i don't know

00:59:42.780 because then when you like someone and then you get hurt it's just scary so we were friends for a

00:59:46.860 couple of months and then one day it just clicked and we were inseparable our relationship moved pretty

00:59:50.940 fast um and i'm very private about my relationship like we don't talk a whole lot and he's very

00:59:56.700 outspoken like he has been a huge trump supporter and he's an immigrant from brazil so he gets a lot of

01:00:02.700 hate for that and he's just so vocal like he also inspires me because he just does not care and he

01:00:08.780 says things a little rough sometimes and you know i would always get hate for it but he just doesn't

01:00:13.260 care he doesn't care what anyone thinks like he'll say whatever even if it offends you like he'll just

01:00:18.300 say anything and if people hate on him like yesterday someone called him racist for saying chinese virus

01:00:22.780 and he's like it's from china like he just doesn't care like he's just that kind of person yeah and so

01:00:27.020 that definitely inspired me too because i was not fully there i was just you know kind of a slave to

01:00:33.740 public perception and opinion as you can be when you're on social media like you said

01:00:37.580 sometimes you want to be like i don't know if i should say that but why do we have to think that

01:00:41.900 way you know why can't we just say what we want and we offend someone you know okay you got offended

01:00:46.780 but i didn't mean it that way but anyways so we met in la and then we moved to nashville we were

01:00:52.380 we were in la i mean i was there for four years i think it was and we moved to nashville last year

01:00:57.420 and he loves it this is the first red state he's ever lived in oh my god so it's been a whole new

01:01:02.860 version of normal for him he's like la wasn't normal was it i'm like no it wasn't we have

01:01:07.820 backyards here there's nice roads everyone's nice clean air nature i mean we've just been loving it

01:01:14.540 oh my gosh that's amazing and i will say that my husband is similar in that he definitely drew out

01:01:21.340 my confidence about being conservative because he never had any fear about talking about it and

01:01:26.940 that's a very refreshing and wonderful thing to have in a partner i think so thank you i think oh

01:01:32.780 sorry i didn't mean to cut you off no go ahead i would love to hear what you say say i remember when

01:01:37.820 you know we started dating on trump's inauguration not on purpose like he wanted trump to win it's

01:01:43.420 just a funny story he wanted trump to win and i was like yeah cool you know i was raised conservative

01:01:46.940 like you know i didn't really care much at the time um i wanted trump to win but you know i wasn't

01:01:52.860 following politics like i am now and i remember just waiting like oh like waiting for trump to win

01:01:58.300 and then he was like if trump wins you're gonna be my girlfriend because i kept telling him no i was

01:02:02.220 just playing hard to get and then obviously he did and i was like okay um and it's funny because he

01:02:07.980 started doing his own like once trump got into office and we started seeing the media smearing him

01:02:13.100 he wanted to know why so he as an immigrant he knows so much more about politics than a lot of people

01:02:18.780 in this country which is very sad and a lot of immigrants are like that you know you've seen how 1.00

01:02:23.260 they see socialism and communism they come from those countries and they're like you guys need to

01:02:27.660 wake up and a lot of americans they're like what are you talking about that will never happen here you

01:02:31.820 know because we've been here like we have we have that privilege of having a free country if you're

01:02:37.740 born here knowing it i learned so much about immigration and other countries just from dating him

01:02:42.300 that it opened my eyes to a whole new thing but even watching his journey in politics he had to do

01:02:46.700 the research he had to dig and then i started digging more and then we just started waking

01:02:50.940 up to things that were happening in our government and yeah he's very bold yeah i love it that's amazing

01:02:57.180 i love it and so do you have any dating or relationship advice for the followers i have

01:03:03.740 who aren't married yet yeah i mean to what you said earlier you know i also have dated i haven't

01:03:10.060 dated a whole lot of people but i have had that relationship where someone i thought was the epitome of

01:03:15.420 a christian man and then ended up not quite being what he said he was and it was very hurtful

01:03:21.740 because you know your first instinct is to be okay so is that god and at the time when i went

01:03:27.580 through this i was like that's not god he was using god you know that's not the god that i know

01:03:31.980 but first and foremost i'll say if you are any faith or a christian and you're watching this and

01:03:36.620 you want to date not every guy that says he's a christian will be a christian you know you can say

01:03:43.180 you're anything and that's hard because when you are vulnerable and you meet someone and

01:03:47.980 everything seems nice you think they wouldn't lie to me you know they said they love jesus it's not

01:03:52.620 always that way you have to guard your heart in every situation talk about the bible you have to

01:03:58.380 guard your heart so i would say above all guard your heart and definitely don't settle i mean don't

01:04:03.820 settle for someone that doesn't have everything you want because life is too short and there are

01:04:07.100 millions billions of people so i say definitely don't settle i think social media can be so alienating like

01:04:12.700 i remember thinking how am i going to meet anyone i work online how am i ever going to meet someone

01:04:16.700 but god will make it happen in his timing it will happen and i think in the journey of when you're

01:04:21.020 single enjoy being with yourself you know i used to always think in my mind i'm not running out of

01:04:25.980 time to find a husband i'm running out of time to be single so i'm running out of time to take care of 0.89

01:04:30.380 myself to just take myself out get my nails i'm like just focus on me and my dog not have you know 0.97

01:04:35.900 having a relationship and then getting married it's a whole nother chapter and you really have to die

01:04:42.060 to yourself and you know compromise like you're you're with another center now and you have to

01:04:48.220 you know live as well thinking of someone else or when you're single it's just you so enjoy it i think

01:04:53.500 our you have to date you have to so fast and it puts pressure on people but god wrote your love

01:05:00.220 story let him take care of it you know better yourself i used to always ask myself okay if it's

01:05:05.580 not now like what does god want me to do for me to prepare myself to be a wife and now i think of that

01:05:11.180 because i think that a lot of women put pressure on themselves that what's wrong with me why am i 1.00

01:05:15.020 single but it's not that just enjoy being with yourself so the camera died but we're back and

01:05:21.020 i was just going to respond to what you were saying about dating which is that i think that

01:05:26.620 the point about enjoying your time on your own is so important and i think it is hard when you are

01:05:34.860 geared towards having a family and wanting to have that beautiful marriage that you dream of

01:05:40.860 but being on your own is the best i had the best time being single like not not even when i was

01:05:47.740 dating just like enjoying being a single woman i would go on day-long dates by myself just going to

01:05:53.820 my favorite restaurants and like yes i mean people think that you need company to go to a museum or even

01:06:01.900 to go to a movie and i loved going to those things by myself because i could take as much time as i

01:06:08.060 wanted i wasn't having to follow somebody else or feel pressured to like move on i could just

01:06:13.660 sit in front of the same painting for 20 minutes if i wanted and i loved that yeah i mean it literally

01:06:19.420 is so underrated because it's like you get to do it's just you're living i think the independence of

01:06:25.020 it all too is you're doing your own thing if i want to go to home goods and maybe go to chick-fil-a

01:06:30.140 and then maybe go to maybe go to a museum you literally do whatever you want no one's waiting for you

01:06:35.260 you can just do your thing and i think that it's just so underestimated i had some even some of the

01:06:41.580 times i was so sad because i'm like where is my husband where is my husband some of those looking

01:06:45.740 back are some of the best times where you're just doing your own thing yeah no it's definitely a

01:06:50.220 mixture of emotions too i think that's a very fair point of like when am i going to meet the right

01:06:54.380 person and i think the anxiety more comes from when like it's not the idea that i need to be with

01:07:01.500 someone right now it's like will i ever and that's the fear i feel like if everyone knew

01:07:07.420 okay at whatever age you're going to meet the person you're going to marry people might be a

01:07:11.180 little calmer you know to know that okay i'm going to meet someone and i know it's going to happen

01:07:16.220 then and then you could just enjoy being single a little bit more but that's also not the way

01:07:20.300 things work so there'd be no need for faith right i always tell myself that if i knew how everything

01:07:25.020 would turn out there'd be no need to faith which doesn't make it easier but i'm like okay i just

01:07:29.660 got to trust not faith exactly so for the last question i have here as the resident beauty expert

01:07:38.780 what are some of either you can tell me your favorite beauty products or favorite beauty tips

01:07:43.180 or hacks or things that you love doing and you think that we should all know sure i'll start with

01:07:50.460 hacks because i love hacks one of my favorite beauty hacks is to use like some kind of hair gel

01:07:56.460 or got to be hair gel through my brows i'm gonna do it today but like to if you want that laminated

01:08:00.940 look especially you like you have super cool brows it makes your brows look so feathered and so 0.95

01:08:06.860 beautiful i love it so much um i got my brows laminated like a year and a half or so ago and damn it

01:08:14.860 like it wasn't good for my brows so this gives you that like feathery full brow look even if you don't have

01:08:20.140 full brows it just like they i don't know i have tutorials on it that i've done but i just love

01:08:24.060 that i think it's so under underrated when it comes to beauty hacks also oils i love oils whether you're

01:08:30.380 dry whether you're oily like oils are good for every skin type and i always use a beauty oil usually

01:08:37.100 that's my primer i don't usually use primers anymore i use beauty oils and like i'll put oils on my

01:08:42.140 cheekbones as well like all over the skin and then i'll only set everywhere but here and then i don't

01:08:46.060 even highlight anymore i'll just like let that be like the natural dewy oil like seeping through

01:08:52.380 um i love that um yeah beauty oils are so so good i think that a lot of people overlook them but beauty

01:08:59.900 oils are just everything um also if you're stressed steamers i love facial steamers like the ones that

01:09:06.700 have essential oil buckets it just feels like a spa home i love i love just having like my own pamper

01:09:12.140 routines and pamper days at home um beauty products lip pencil i feel like lip pencil is so

01:09:19.820 forgotten but once you do it you can't stop even like i usually just fill in my cupid's bow because

01:09:25.900 i feel like it just makes my lips i love that makeup can give you an illusion of things right you can

01:09:30.620 enhance features on your face and i've always loved that about makeup because it's like i'm not doing all

01:09:35.580 this makeup to just look exactly the same or else i would not put on any makeup you know it takes a lot

01:09:39.980 of time okay i'm no one trying to look the same when they put makeup on okay so i just love enhancing

01:09:46.060 with lip pencil i think it's so forgotten sometimes i love lip pencil i always have to do lip pencil

01:09:52.460 and um i love lip products lip products are my thing so i definitely say lip balm too i can't stand

01:09:57.500 having dry lips and i'll see people like you need to put lip balm like it just makes your lipstick look 0.82

01:10:01.980 so much better or lip gloss or liquid lip or anything but yeah okay those are some of my favorites for

01:10:07.100 brands i'll wait for now because i'm not really sure which brand support interpretives right now

01:10:11.100 so i'm gonna wait yeah no that makes total sense and i will say that i have been using lip pencil

01:10:17.420 more frequently and in the makeup tutorial i'm releasing i don't know when this is coming out

01:10:21.580 but like i'll have released that was the only i used i used a lip a lip uh pencil and a and a lip gloss

01:10:29.740 that was it i didn't even use like a lipstick so good yes and for me who had like a very defined 0.52

01:10:37.660 upper lip like it's very like i have an intense cupid bow i was like it's nice to have this amount

01:10:43.260 of control yeah i love it i can't wait to watch it well thank you so much for coming on my channel

01:10:50.380 this was amazing yeah thanks for having me i mean honestly the work you're doing is so important

01:10:55.820 and i know i said this to you off camera and and when we were just chatting don't ever let people

01:11:01.340 discourage you like always stand up for your values never who cares about numbers like they can

01:11:06.620 do whatever they want with likes dislikes comments you know you can't it can't move our values and i

01:11:12.700 know that like you said you get some haters don't ever let them make you think otherwise you can always

01:11:17.580 message me if they try thank you so much you're such a sweetheart everyone go and follow amanda

01:11:24.460 her handle on instagram is just adamanda and singh right and i think it's also adamanda and singh on

01:11:31.020 twitter it's on well i'm suspended for twitter for nothing so they blocked me for nothing we're

01:11:37.420 apparently a mega tutorial from 2016 which didn't exist so twitter banned me on the day of cpac because

01:11:42.940 i tweeted a meme of trump that said miss me so that's probably actually why but they said it's a makeup

01:11:47.420 tutorial of my face doing natural makeup who knows okay okay twitter so i'll link everything

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01:12:00.540 that we had the opportunity to do this and i look forward to hopefully in some point having you on

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Classically Abby - April 28, 2021

Amanda Ensing SPEAKS OUT On #BoycottSephora ｜｜ Let's Be Classic Episode #1

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