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00:03:43.260 David, why are you acting so rigid right now?

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00:04:42.160 Joining us today is Nick of the Occult Rejects Podcast. 0.99

00:04:48.040 Nick, if you would.

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00:04:54.500 Nick, if you could, for the audience who might not be familiar with you,

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00:04:59.740 Thank you so much.

00:05:00.520 I have the Occult Rejects Podcast that is available on BitChute, Rumble, YouTube,

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00:05:17.120 So definitely check that out.

00:05:19.240 Thank you.

00:05:19.340 Nice.

00:05:19.580 Yeah, I'm definitely going to comb through this website.

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00:06:16.160 Awesome.

00:06:16.680 Awesome.

00:06:17.040 Thank you.

00:06:19.420 I know what you mean, too, because I do the same thing.

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00:06:24.780 Yeah. 0.98

00:06:25.000 And in your mind, you're like, this is fucking poorly laid out, homie. 1.00

00:06:27.380 When is this? 0.96

00:06:27.780 How much time do we have left in this episode?

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00:06:33.880 Nick, we were having a fascinating conversation.

00:06:36.660 Well, I didn't want to have it before the show started because whenever people start saying

00:06:40.080 interesting things, I'm like, hold on, please save it for the show.

00:06:42.500 But you were in the OTO for how long did you say, Nick?

00:06:47.760 Just bury the lead, huh?

00:06:48.860 Just break for it. 0.99

00:06:49.300 I fucking want to know, dude. 0.96

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00:06:51.460 Five to six years.

00:06:52.440 About?

00:06:53.100 Five to six years.

00:06:54.360 That's incredible.

00:06:55.520 I was thinking that since you have that, where are you right now?

00:06:59.500 Nick, what state?

00:07:01.420 North Carolina.

00:07:02.100 I was originally in New York when I first started podcasting.

00:07:04.240 Now I'm in North Carolina.

00:07:04.760 So, we do a semi-annual event called Brohemian Grove.

00:07:09.920 I think you need to launch a semi-annual event called the Bro-TO. 0.82

00:07:13.520 And that way we can have crossover events.

00:07:16.020 You know, Brohemian Grove meets the Bro-TO. 1.00

00:07:19.260 Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:07:20.880 We have like our annual cremation of care.

00:07:24.000 Yes, yes.

00:07:25.180 I'm down for, it doesn't have to be a mock sacrifice.

00:07:27.620 We can just do a real one.

00:07:29.020 We'll just pick a member of the audience.

00:07:31.000 A member of the audience.

00:07:32.880 Where's Emily?

00:07:33.640 Where's Emily at in the chat?

00:07:35.020 There she goes.

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00:08:00.460 So, Nick, I don't know how to start this conversation.

00:08:04.100 I mean, there's so much that I want to know about the OTO.

00:08:07.300 And let's start.

00:08:08.980 First off, how do you get into this?

00:08:10.780 Like, how does your life develop?

00:08:12.540 You're a kid in New York.

00:08:14.080 How the hell do you get into the OTO?

00:08:18.040 Believe it or not.

00:08:18.800 I mean, as simple as it was, I was, you know, again, I started off with conspiracies.

00:08:23.300 I was much into conspiracies.

00:08:25.160 And I listened to, like, a lot of people that kind of were heavy into occultism, like Michael Tesari and David Icke, Jordan Maxwell.

00:08:32.080 Like, I started off in 2010 with people like that.

00:08:34.960 So, you know, I was very much into occultism.

00:08:37.800 So, like, I kind of got into that when I was kind of getting into conspiracies and stuff.

00:08:42.780 And at one point, I was just like, just for me, not for nothing. 0.63

00:08:45.900 Like, I'm learning all this stuff about these orders and shit, but I still don't know what magic is. 0.84

00:08:49.680 So I literally just, like, Googled, like, gold. 0.84

00:08:52.940 First, I looked up Golden Dawn because, honestly, my OTO wasn't the first choice.

00:08:57.280 But I looked that up.

00:08:58.140 There wasn't anything near me.

00:08:59.120 And I Googled the, you know, OTO, Lodge.

00:09:01.920 And literally, there was one 20 minutes away from me.

00:09:04.280 When I was living in Queens, there was one in Sunnyside.

00:09:08.380 I don't know if you know where that is.

00:09:09.660 Yeah.

00:09:10.040 And I was in the, God, where was, I forgot the, wow, I already forgot the town I was in.

00:09:14.720 I was, like, 20 minutes away.

00:09:16.340 So I was, like, ah, I was, like, all right, I guess, I mean, this is convenient.

00:09:20.220 So I'll go check it out.

00:09:21.400 And these places, believe it or not, if you look for them, they are not hard to find.

00:09:26.160 You will find, like, either they'll have a website or the OTO has, like, you know, its own actual website.

00:09:31.700 And you can go.

00:09:32.380 And it will show you the locations.

00:09:33.540 It will give you websites, if they have any, so you can check out their calendar.

00:09:37.660 And that's what I did with Tahiti Lodge in New York.

00:09:40.360 I checked, I went, I saw that they were near me.

00:09:42.980 I checked out their calendar.

00:09:44.440 And they had a Gnostic Mass coming up. 0.99

00:09:46.760 I think they have one, like, fucking every weekend. 0.98

00:09:48.920 But there was one coming up in a few weeks that I was, like, oh, I'll be around for that. 0.98

00:09:52.760 I'll check it out.

00:09:54.260 And I emailed them and told them that I was interested in coming to the Gnostic Mass.

00:09:57.860 And they said, on that day, just email us again and we'll let you know what's up.

00:10:01.780 Come here, we'll give you directions and everything.

00:10:04.060 And the day of it, I emailed them.

00:10:05.480 And they, you know, they gave me directions from all these different points, wherever I could be coming from, the address.

00:10:11.320 And I went.

00:10:12.680 And I was there five to six years after the fact.

00:10:17.160 So, whatever happened in that first instance, that hooked you for the next five to six years.

00:10:23.540 What's interesting about that is, like.

00:10:24.760 That's interesting, yeah, yeah.

00:10:26.060 Well, I mean, I drive around.

00:10:28.200 Like, yesterday, I was out with my wife.

00:10:30.080 And, you know, we just kind of jokingly pointed out, like, oh, there's a Masonic Lodge, like, as you pass by.

00:10:35.640 Admittedly, I don't think I've ever passed by anything other than a Masonic Lodge that caught my eye.

00:10:41.480 I never even realized if they are out and about.

00:10:44.540 Because we're from, you know, a similar area.

00:10:46.780 I was in New Jersey.

00:10:47.520 I can't recall ever seeing these things.

00:10:49.800 Maybe it just wasn't on my radar.

00:10:51.180 Maybe it just wasn't.

00:10:51.780 I knew what they were.

00:10:52.180 Then I started noticing them, I guess, because I was looking for them, maybe.

00:10:54.900 I don't know.

00:10:55.100 Ah, that's like when you drive the red Kia, then you see the red Kia.

00:10:58.120 Yes.

00:10:58.660 Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:10:59.700 I know what you're saying with the Masonic.

00:11:01.340 I never really noticed any of that stuff until I started getting into it.

00:11:04.920 So, what happens then when they, because this is a Gnostic mass. 0.99

00:11:08.600 Is that the Gnostic mass? 0.83

00:11:09.920 So, what does that look like?

00:11:11.780 Um, I mean, you can go watch it on YouTube.

00:11:14.900 There is one, I think, on Vimeo that's a little bit more on par because it will show the nudity of what happens because there is nudity in it.

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00:12:02.520 Hashtag make a play.

00:12:03.940 But it's basically like the OTO's version of church, I guess, in a sense.

00:12:10.280 And it kind of shows you, I guess, the magician crossing the abyss and coming back and telling people the experience.

00:12:16.820 It's basically kind of what, in my opinion, what it shows.

00:12:19.880 I also think it gets into, like, deep symbolism.

00:12:22.460 I think it even explains, like, how the eyeball works and all that.

00:12:26.460 Interesting.

00:12:27.400 Yeah.

00:12:27.620 Interesting.

00:12:28.080 What do you mean by that?

00:12:28.880 It explains how the eyeball works.

00:12:31.160 Well, that's something, actually, I should maybe make this, preface this now just to get it over with because I do like to try to put this out there.

00:12:37.740 If people are really interested in the occult and some of the deepest secrets of secrets, learn exactly how the eyeball works.

00:12:44.480 Look at the eyeball and start looking at certain parts of it, especially the zonules, the zin, the optic nerve, the hyaluronic canal, and the lens, and you'll start to see sigils and occult symbolism.

00:12:52.800 And another opinion of mine, some of the deepest secrets of secrets in occultism is the experience of death, feelings and the visions you will see when it happens.

00:13:00.160 Those are some of the deepest things I think is in the occult.

00:13:02.640 So, and I do think in the diagnostic mass, and I think in their initiations, I was shown a lot of eyeballs.

00:13:09.960 Right.

00:13:10.520 What I understand about the eyeball, I mean, I'm not an ophthalmologist or anything, but I did have LASIK surgery.

00:13:17.440 So, I have a cursory understanding of why my vision was bad.

00:13:22.120 Like, there's a material built up in my eyeball, somewhere around my eyeball, and the light coming in is not able to refract and output correctly, which is why I saw a blurry.

00:13:34.200 And after they did the LASIK surgery, obviously, they removed that, like, plaque or whatever kind of decay that's on my eye, and now I have 20, 30 vision or whatever it is.

00:13:44.640 I'm wondering if that was, like, your Aura's erotics.

00:13:46.300 I know we build up crystals around that too.

00:13:48.440 Yeah, it's possible.

00:13:49.680 I don't know about that stuff, but I'm just thinking.

00:13:52.480 Is there any aspect of, like, light coming in and light being reflected as, like, a, is that, like, a Gnostic process?

00:14:00.000 Yeah.

00:14:00.640 I would even say if you were to go look at how light starts to reflect off your eyeball, you'll see the sigil of Lucifer.

00:14:06.840 You'll see the...

00:14:07.920 Oh, I've seen that.

00:14:08.740 You'll see that.

00:14:09.540 You'll see that.

00:14:10.060 That's exactly how light reflects off of your lens in your eyeball.

00:14:14.580 I'm sure I can pull that up.

00:14:15.760 Yeah.

00:14:16.360 I know what you're talking about.

00:14:17.500 I've seen this before.

00:14:18.260 The sigil of Lucifer and then light.

00:14:21.060 Your eyeball even projects out six feet.

00:14:24.220 Oh, that's interesting.

00:14:25.460 Project out six feet from your eyes.

00:14:27.720 It's a relationship between what's out there.

00:14:30.160 There's a lot going on for your eyes.

00:14:32.160 And it's an extension of your brain.

00:14:34.120 It's all one part, technically.

00:14:35.240 With the six feet thing now, I mean, we're all from New York, so we're familiar with the stay six feet apart.

00:14:40.000 What do you make with that?

00:14:41.620 Listen, when they sit six feet apart and they started making people wear masks and, like, I don't know.

00:14:48.000 I mean, you looked at my logo.

00:14:49.220 I was wearing a hood without a mouthpiece on it.

00:14:52.180 Yeah.

00:14:52.520 Just to me, I was like, this seems very occult and ritualistic.

00:14:57.480 That's what I thought.

00:14:58.700 Six feet.

00:14:59.360 I mean, it's kind of expected to have a six to nine feet circle when you're doing ritual work.

00:15:04.200 So, Shanae, you're telling me to cover my mouth like I would regularly with my hood and not have somebody within six feet of me?

00:15:10.080 It sounds like I'm doing a ritual.

00:15:11.900 Oh.

00:15:13.760 Do you think—

00:15:14.060 I want to show this real quick on screen.

00:15:16.600 And, Nick, if you could tell me if this is what you were talking about right here.

00:15:23.140 Yes.

00:15:23.980 That's it, right?

00:15:24.960 Yeah.

00:15:25.100 So, this is, like, beyond—

00:15:28.100 Go ahead.

00:15:29.100 Yeah.

00:15:29.420 No, no.

00:15:29.700 That's it.

00:15:30.000 That's great.

00:15:30.380 I love that you even picked up the other picture with it.

00:15:32.980 Yeah.

00:15:33.260 But, I mean, this is something that, as a retard, this is well beyond my grasp of understanding. 1.00

00:15:38.620 So, that's pointing to the pineal gland?

00:15:43.100 The pineal gland is, in my opinion, what you've got to crack open to have a magical experience.

00:15:48.000 That's interesting.

00:15:49.040 So, these are—

00:15:50.500 Okay.

00:15:50.860 On this show, we believe in much of the biblical narrative, but I don't discount Gnosticism and much of the New Age movement, although that's kind of a misnomer, right?

00:16:00.380 This idea that it's New Aged at all.

00:16:02.120 It's really these ancient teachings that are being rehashed probably, you know, in the 2000s.

00:16:08.060 But when I see what these teachings have to offer, I recognize a lot of it as being valid.

00:16:15.760 But there are a lot of people within the space that then use these things—and maybe this is a bit of a hard-hitting question for you—but there are a lot of people within the space that use these things to discount much of the biblical narrative.

00:16:27.920 But I don't think that it does.

00:16:30.300 Instead, what I see is—

00:16:31.340 I think it makes it more beautiful.

00:16:32.980 Yeah.

00:16:33.260 I see that it's fractal in nature and that these elements, they repeat themselves, you know, within our own biology, but they also repeat themselves on a microscopic level all the way up to the macro.

00:16:45.280 If God is a part of us, I mean, it's going to be reflected within us.

00:16:49.620 So I do think that's all part of the beauty of showing.

00:16:51.680 So, well, let me ask you this then.

00:16:55.460 When it comes to these teachings, my contention with them is they're valid.

00:17:02.380 They're incredibly powerful because they have to do with understanding the very makeup of this realm that we inhabit.

00:17:06.860 And by nature of understanding the realm that we inhabit, it then gives us the ability potentially to manipulate the realm that we inhabit, which becomes problematic because of the corruptive or corrosive nature of power on an individual.

00:17:21.680 And so it seems to me that these teachings themselves aren't inherently bad.

00:17:27.320 It's just twofold, I would say.

00:17:29.760 Number one, where did these teachings come from?

00:17:31.760 It often seems that the methodologies that we receive in regards to the Gnostic teachings or the, you know, hermetic principles and things like that were given.

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00:18:23.220 By some deity.

00:18:25.560 They can often be attributed to having been taught by a spirit, channeling some sort of entity, you know, revealed this thing to somebody in a ceremony.

00:18:34.980 And then the other part of it is that absolute power corrupts absolutely.

00:18:39.560 So what ends up happening is these people recognize this as being powerful.

00:18:43.560 Yes.

00:18:43.840 And then they go on to utilize it to their own benefit or to the detriment of other people.

00:18:49.020 Yes.

00:18:49.580 Totally agree with you, sir.

00:18:50.680 Totally agree with you.

00:18:51.260 My experience after I finally had a magical experience, I will say for me, that's when the judgment really comes in for me.

00:18:58.300 Like, you know how they say, like, oh, you know, you get judged by God or whatever.

00:19:01.740 Like, for me, if I've had literally had an experience with God, which is what I believe I did, I'll be totally honest with you.

00:19:08.580 Whenever I've had a magical experience, and this is something that is probably, for me, it was one of the reasons why I continued to do it. 0.99

00:19:14.940 And I'm sure it's why pieces of shit continue to do it. 0.99

00:19:17.560 When you open up your eyes, you're going to know shit you never knew before. 0.99

00:19:20.840 It doesn't sound crazy. 0.99

00:19:21.720 It sounds silly.

00:19:22.520 It's very much like the Matrix, but you're not actually going to know Kung Fu.

00:19:25.320 But, you know, Neo would wake up and be like, I know Kung Fu now.

00:19:28.460 It's very much like you will understand things you did not understand before. 0.99

00:19:31.880 And in my opinion, like, if I take that gift from God and then start fucking manipulating people to better myself and make other people fucking dumb and just suck money out of their pockets, that is black magic. 0.98

00:19:44.820 And in my opinion, I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing with the gift I was just given. 0.98

00:19:49.140 You know, I should be inspiring other people to have their own experience.

00:19:51.980 That's about it.

00:19:53.640 Yeah.

00:19:53.960 Tell people my experience and say, you can have this experience and you can take off the handcuffs as well. 0.98

00:19:57.880 Like there's some sci-fi stories and fucking whatever fairy tales. 0.93

00:20:03.440 Let's get into your experience because now I'm interested to hear, like, what happened, how long it started off, man. 0.97

00:20:10.380 Start wherever you think you need to.

00:20:13.480 You know, this was near the ending of my experience with, I guess, like the OTO as well.

00:20:19.560 And, you know, being part of that.

00:20:21.360 But for the most part, you know, to try to, like, just get through this whole time and have to get specific, I will say there was a lot of different reasons or beliefs that I had about magic or why I was even practicing it.

00:20:33.160 It was never really to actually ever do anything bad to anybody else.

00:20:36.860 It was always really just to help change myself or kind of have like a GPS to get where I want to go and stay out of the matrix as much as I can.

00:20:43.820 At some point, I did start to have kind of like, this is just my opinion.

00:20:49.620 My belief is that, like, if you're trying to change anything in this world to fit where you want to go, it's technically kind of black magic because I'm going to have to go against someone's will or something's will to make that happen.

00:21:02.140 I'm going to have to start bending things to my will in this reality, this world.

00:21:06.080 And I started getting much more deeper into kind of working on myself and just having an experience with God and started doing a lot more like shadow work or like self-inventory, a lot of theurgy, like praying and just invoking God, asking God for help.

00:21:22.680 Just doing a lot of prayer and meditation and like mantras, kind of.

00:21:25.480 And once that started, I started doing that, I will have to say, I started having kind of like breakthroughs in magic and where I just felt like there's something there.

00:21:35.700 There's something was going on.

00:21:37.360 When you say God, who are you talking about?

00:21:40.620 I guess just something that's created everything.

00:21:43.260 Everything that, you know, we came from that.

00:21:46.140 The all.

00:21:47.260 Right.

00:21:48.100 I really, I, it's kind of hard for me to really put any words on God.

00:21:52.960 Have you ever had any imagery associated with him?

00:21:55.480 Nick?

00:21:57.920 No, I mean, no, not really.

00:22:01.340 No, I mean, sometimes I, I guess I can say like some of my visions that I have that are always repeating whenever I cross the abyss.

00:22:07.820 I mean, I, I consider the eclipse kind of like an, an image of beauty before I see God.

00:22:13.340 But no, I wouldn't say that there's an actual image specifically for God.

00:22:17.700 I mean, no.

00:22:18.280 The reason that I ask is because, um.

00:22:20.380 Some people do.

00:22:21.380 Yes.

00:22:21.780 Right.

00:22:22.180 And have you heard of this, uh, sort of lion headed serpent that the Gnostics will often call like some aspect of God.

00:22:33.600 And even that gets a little bit confusing because it's not like the end all be all, but it is a form that they attribute to God.

00:22:40.100 Yeah.

00:22:40.280 Crowley isn't like ripped off that symbol.

00:22:42.240 Something with it.

00:22:43.260 Yeah.

00:22:43.880 Well, we've talked to somebody in specific on this show.

00:22:47.100 Um, it was a gentleman who in his twenties was diagnosed with bipolar schizophrenia and then he, he overcame it by treating the hallucinations.

00:22:59.740 I'm using quotes for the listening audience as, uh, external to himself, not hallucinations, but actually that he's being beset upon by, by something adversarial.

00:23:09.200 So, so he ends up overcoming this that way.

00:23:12.120 But one of the experiences that he has at some point during the height of this, you know, what is medically diagnosed as schizophrenia, uh, he sees, uh, this, this snake bodied lion headed entity emerge out of a portal, um, in his, in his room.

00:23:31.180 Um, and, uh, it was interesting because he didn't have any grounding for that experience later on, he would find that this is what the Gnostics call God, or at least they claim that this is what God looks like in some aspect or another, which was to him really sort of groundbreaking.

00:23:50.160 And, uh, and we've even read recently from our show, NDS Chronicles, somebody having a drug induced experience where they fell, uh, essentially into some sort of like a dark void.

00:24:03.280 And the only entity that was there was this lion who kind of said, oh, looks like you're, uh, far from home and then essentially sends him back.

00:24:15.240 And so there's this, the reason that I ask is because this lion faced entity makes several appearances.

00:24:21.880 And if you're looking at the Bible, it's like, well, there's a lot of, um, angelic or, or Elohim, uh, that also have the attributes of a lion one way or another, whether it's multiple heads, like the cherubim or one of the faces, I believe is a lion, or there's, there's other species that are often described as that way.

00:24:36.720 So this, this, uh, symbol of the lion seems pretty heavy in the spiritual realm.

00:24:41.980 Um, yeah, I mean, to me, uh, I, I've kind of made like a logo of my own version of that myself.

00:24:50.840 I've even mentioned that on the, uh, the occult rejects.

00:24:53.220 I mean, I do, I have pumped out a lot of occult art recently and, uh, I'm trying to just give people ideas of like what certain art can look like for certain things that you're trying to get across.

00:25:03.120 Um, that image to me can very much explain a magical experience in itself.

00:25:10.260 It's just, I've never seen anything like that in my magical experience, but I could see that being something that you could use to describe in a sense, a change that went on within oneself.

00:25:21.560 Even the snake, I think the snake is hugely used for eyeball stuff.

00:25:27.140 Your pupil does screw closed, screws closed, like spins closed.

00:25:32.460 And I think a lot of snake symbolism is used like on the hermit card.

00:25:35.720 A lot of times there's snakes like underneath the hermit, whatever, like wrapping around the orphic egg.

00:25:40.900 You know, again, the egg with the snake spinning around it, your pupil's going to spin closed and your scolera is white.

00:25:47.240 You know, you're getting the whole symbolism of, of the white and the black, but, uh, I forgot where I was going with that.

00:25:53.700 Sorry.

00:25:54.360 Well, I mean, you touched on something there that that's been, uh, a large part of the conversation we've been having, but I actually do kind of want to put a pin in that orphic egg and return to it in a minute.

00:26:05.640 Um, oh yeah.

00:26:06.600 I was talking about the, this, this, the lion and the snake.

00:26:09.180 Yeah.

00:26:09.900 Uh, for me, I've never seen that, but I do think it's again, like I've even tried to spoof off that image to get it, you know, to get a point across.

00:26:17.940 So you mentioned earlier that, um, part of this process for you was a lot of like self auditing, I believe might have been the expression that you used.

00:26:26.540 Uh, yeah, yeah.

00:26:27.460 Well, I called it shadow work or like self inventory.

00:26:29.640 Yeah.

00:26:29.980 Yeah.

00:26:30.260 Yeah.

00:26:30.440 Self inventory is the expression that you use.

00:26:32.080 Now that to me seems reminiscent of even like a Scientology has like.

00:26:35.940 Yeah.

00:26:36.080 When you said auditing, it was like, oh, I'm sorry.

00:26:38.260 Well, I mean, it's not even just the.

00:26:39.780 It's called down here.

00:26:41.340 Yeah.

00:26:41.500 Yeah.

00:26:43.020 We're pretty close over here to.

00:26:44.340 I didn't have us to hold it on to that.

00:26:45.680 He's trying to get clear.

00:26:46.640 Well, well, but hear me out though.

00:26:48.660 So, um, I recognize that in a lot of spiritual work, there is this self auditing.

00:26:54.940 I mean, within Christianity, there's the admission of sin and the repentance of sin, which is a sort of a form of self auditing, or at least you could liken it to it.

00:27:02.760 Even when you have psychedelic experiences, oftentimes the insights that you gleam are really about yourself.

00:27:09.920 Uh, I've, I've taken quite a bit of mushrooms before, and it was the, the entire experience was more or less like, why do I behave the way that I behave?

00:27:19.600 Where does my, where do my ideas come from?

00:27:22.300 And, and it was able to kind of track things down to the root, which in a way felt like, you know, it was a deeper understanding of self.

00:27:29.860 But in that way, it's kind of a self audit, is it not?

00:27:33.760 So, um, I find it fascinating that regardless of the, maybe the, um, what, what would these, these secret schools, is that, is that what they're called?

00:27:43.320 Uh, uh, uh, secret societies or, or if you're in a shamanistic kind of experience where you're utilizing drugs to, to this, this self auditing, this understanding of self comes up quite a bit.

00:27:54.880 I imagine this is an important component to this process.

00:27:59.280 I think it is, uh, in my opinion, in order to have a magical experience, you're going to have to let go of like a lot of fears, guilt, and, uh, ties to this world in order to have that.

00:28:13.940 And, and, and like, let's say even if you're just not, you know, totally balanced and you still somehow across the abyss, my opinion, when you come back, you're going to have to be really well balanced. 0.66

00:28:24.880 And be okay in the head, because you're going to have to deal with shit that you may not have expected to know once you open your eyes. 0.76

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00:30:03.400 And really, it spoke truth for me.

00:30:05.480 Sometimes when practicing magic, I will get answers to questions that I did not ask.

00:30:09.560 And that's like the insanity of chaos.

00:30:11.980 Because you may get shown a reality that you are not ready to actually accept.

00:30:16.560 And you're going to have to deal with that now.

00:30:18.100 And it's like, oh, I wasn't even worried about that. 0.97

00:30:19.800 And now you just fucking slapped me in the face with a knowing instead of a belief that I wasn't looking for. 0.97

00:30:25.280 I don't know. 0.99

00:30:25.620 I don't know how to explain, but it's just like you can kind of rake you, you know, shout at you a little bit. 0.95

00:30:29.960 And if you're not a strong enough person, it may freak you the fuck out.

00:30:34.360 Are you ever suspicious that you're being shown something that's not true?

00:30:39.040 No, no, not really.

00:30:42.660 Because none of it's really bad.

00:30:44.460 It's just when you're all right. 0.98

00:30:47.040 I guess this shit happened to me probably like when I was 40. 0.98

00:30:51.700 No, maybe even earlier. 0.99

00:30:52.800 I think it was like my late 30s.

00:30:56.120 That's how many years that I've already been programmed to believe something.

00:31:00.300 You know what I'm saying?

00:31:01.020 It's like from my experiences, I can't believe.

00:31:04.980 I've been living a lie.

00:31:06.020 Yeah, it's hard to explain, but like physics and if you had a magical experience.

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00:32:35.800 In my opinion,

00:32:38.540 you're going to have to question everything

00:32:39.880 that you've believed

00:32:40.640 because it doesn't make sense

00:32:41.900 for that to actually be a reality.

00:32:44.100 Going by how you've been brought up

00:32:45.520 and how you've believed the world to be,

00:32:47.640 it shouldn't happen.

00:32:49.240 So how do you explain this now?

00:32:50.840 I've been lied to about the reality that I'm living.

00:32:54.000 This is something that is,

00:32:57.300 well, it's been happening to a lot of people

00:32:58.900 over the last five years.

00:33:00.500 Yeah.

00:33:00.820 And you can see the ways in which that's sort of a...

00:33:05.200 Go ahead, Todd.

00:33:05.560 I just said,

00:33:06.600 again, hold that thought

00:33:07.960 because I don't want to skip over

00:33:10.100 what we just said here

00:33:11.040 when we're talking about

00:33:11.740 the six feet apart stuff.

00:33:13.380 And he's like,

00:33:13.840 it looks like a ritual to me.

00:33:15.900 And I was going to ask you

00:33:16.940 if you think,

00:33:18.840 can people take part in a ritual

00:33:20.520 that they're not actively consenting to?

00:33:25.520 Yeah, they just have to be in love

00:33:26.980 with the person doing it 1.00

00:33:28.140 and they're fucked. 1.00

00:33:29.420 They just have to be in love 1.00

00:33:30.500 with the politics

00:33:31.400 that are doing that to them.

00:33:33.120 Yeah, politician,

00:33:33.880 you know, music artists,

00:33:35.840 any of those people.

00:33:36.820 They love them. 1.00

00:33:37.920 They're fucked. 1.00

00:33:38.420 And that's where you get 1.00

00:33:39.500 those big Super Bowl events, right?

00:33:41.180 Where you've got like this beloved artist

00:33:43.080 on the world stage.

00:33:45.120 Yes.

00:33:45.520 So they're manipulating the energy.

00:33:47.240 They're using the symbolism.

00:33:48.480 They're using the geometry

00:33:49.500 and they're putting you through.

00:33:51.100 You're the unwilling participant

00:33:52.260 in a...

00:33:53.160 Somebody said once,

00:33:53.960 I forget what it was,

00:33:54.680 but it was like by this time,

00:33:56.280 the public has already been initiated

00:33:58.680 to some degree, right?

00:33:59.920 It's just to what degree

00:34:01.000 have you been initiated?

00:34:02.540 Because you've bore witness

00:34:04.360 to these ceremonies.

00:34:05.600 You've played a role

00:34:06.540 and you've even been part

00:34:08.340 of the energetic exchange

00:34:09.580 in these ceremonies.

00:34:11.280 Yeah.

00:34:13.080 Besides that and just exposure,

00:34:15.520 I mean,

00:34:15.720 I think that's another huge thing

00:34:16.960 for any magician.

00:34:17.880 The more people know you exist,

00:34:19.740 the stronger it's going to make you.

00:34:22.020 That's what makes you a God

00:34:23.400 in this reality

00:34:24.460 is living on through people's minds.

00:34:27.620 That's why Elon Musk,

00:34:29.120 so powerful, Kanye West, 1.00

00:34:30.680 he does dumb shit 1.00

00:34:31.560 to stay in people's minds. 1.00

00:34:34.680 What do you think, Nick?

00:34:35.720 Do you think that this is...

00:34:37.320 On the 20th,

00:34:38.940 I said something.

00:34:39.880 I said it's time for Kanye West

00:34:41.460 to reemerge.

00:34:42.280 That would have been

00:34:43.280 almost exactly two weeks ago.

00:34:45.280 He has to.

00:34:45.360 He has to stay.

00:34:45.920 I mean, he's probably got a part

00:34:47.260 somewhere in the script

00:34:48.020 down the road

00:34:48.500 and he has to stay relevant

00:34:49.340 until then.

00:34:49.760 I think so.

00:34:50.420 I think he does have a part

00:34:51.320 in the script.

00:34:51.920 I think it's part of this.

00:34:54.340 It's multifaceted,

00:34:55.860 but I think right now

00:34:56.880 it's the Jewish sentiment

00:34:58.760 and the way that it's developing

00:35:00.540 on Twitter

00:35:01.040 and the way that it's developing

00:35:01.980 kind of in this larger conversation.

00:35:04.660 I think he plays a role in that.

00:35:06.520 Same as Elon Musk.

00:35:07.880 And I said on the 20th

00:35:09.820 that it was time for him

00:35:10.900 to reemerge

00:35:12.080 and all of a sudden he does.

00:35:13.400 And when he does,

00:35:14.200 what's the first thing he does?

00:35:15.760 He's pimping on his girl.

00:35:16.600 Yeah, well, actually,

00:35:17.460 the first thing he did

00:35:18.120 was he made a bunch of tweets 0.88

00:35:19.040 that were pretty fucking funny, 0.95

00:35:20.060 actually. 0.93

00:35:20.620 And I thought that

00:35:21.720 that was a lot of fun.

00:35:22.640 I said, okay, cool.

00:35:23.320 We got cool Kanye back.

00:35:24.560 And then he's like, 1.00

00:35:25.140 hey, look at my wife's tits. 1.00

00:35:26.580 And I'm like, that's not fun. 1.00

00:35:28.760 That's not, that's not,

00:35:30.280 I miss the old Kanye.

00:35:31.520 You know what I'm saying?

00:35:32.000 Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:35:32.640 Can't you put like a mask on

00:35:33.720 and have a little flag

00:35:34.520 or something and say something?

00:35:35.360 Something, do something.

00:35:36.980 It's like you're like 1.00

00:35:37.760 fucking pimping your girl out. 1.00

00:35:39.620 And that's the thing 1.00

00:35:40.640 that upsets me, right?

00:35:41.420 Because this is the same guy

00:35:42.240 that made Jesus is King,

00:35:43.480 which I thought

00:35:44.060 was a phenomenal album.

00:35:45.540 And he's one of my favorite artists.

00:35:48.060 He always has me.

00:35:48.700 He might be my favorite artist.

00:35:50.240 And I'm not somebody

00:35:51.040 who absorbs

00:35:51.960 a tremendous amount of music.

00:35:52.980 So that's not saying much.

00:35:54.380 It's not like I'm a music savant

00:35:55.620 by any means.

00:35:56.440 I just like Kanye.

00:35:57.020 No, I think he's very intelligent

00:35:57.380 and very talented, I actually do.

00:35:58.680 Yeah, so.

00:35:59.180 I do think he is.

00:36:01.100 I, I, he's definitely,

00:36:02.860 he's, he plays,

00:36:04.240 just going back to what we said before,

00:36:05.460 a much larger role in the script

00:36:07.540 than I think a lot of people

00:36:08.400 give him credit for.

00:36:09.200 And I think we're going to see that

00:36:10.560 come to pass.

00:36:11.440 But what do you think at all?

00:36:13.000 What is he doing?

00:36:13.940 Do you think this is the real Kanye?

00:36:16.020 No, I think they all play characters

00:36:17.720 to an extent.

00:36:19.420 I mean, I'm sure there's some,

00:36:20.740 I would even say sometimes

00:36:22.220 when he's a little loft,

00:36:23.160 that might be the more real him 0.99

00:36:24.440 after fucking with magic. 0.99

00:36:26.060 Because I've even said that before. 1.00

00:36:27.320 You fuck with magic too much 1.00

00:36:28.720 or too often, 1.00

00:36:29.320 you'll end up like Kanye West

00:36:30.460 or Joe Biden.

00:36:32.520 Yeah.

00:36:33.080 Like on the regular,

00:36:33.980 like on the regular,

00:36:34.820 that will be you.

00:36:35.880 There was a Kanye West video

00:36:37.780 that came out.

00:36:38.600 I think it was,

00:36:39.600 we used to be,

00:36:41.040 I forgot what the hell

00:36:41.900 the title of it is.

00:36:42.720 It came out in like 2007.

00:36:44.940 It was a long time ago.

00:36:46.560 And, and, you know,

00:36:49.100 long story short,

00:36:49.880 he's at a dance,

00:36:50.840 he's at a party,

00:36:51.840 he's, he's drugged up,

00:36:53.420 he's drunk,

00:36:54.040 and he's just navigating through it.

00:36:55.760 It's like a fever dream.

00:36:56.860 Next thing you know,

00:36:57.400 he ends up in a bathroom

00:36:58.840 and he is cutting out of his own gut

00:37:01.600 this small bear,

00:37:03.240 sort of.

00:37:03.620 It's a,

00:37:04.340 I remembered it as,

00:37:05.920 Oh, that's what I thought it was.

00:37:08.900 But when I rewatched it,

00:37:09.900 I was like,

00:37:10.240 that doesn't even look like,

00:37:11.820 my memory was skewed.

00:37:12.940 I thought it looked like

00:37:13.460 the college dropout bear.

00:37:14.440 I still think it represents

00:37:15.720 the same thing

00:37:17.080 that that bear represents for him,

00:37:18.580 which is,

00:37:19.320 I don't know,

00:37:19.760 sort of this innocence

00:37:20.680 that was associated

00:37:21.640 with his mother.

00:37:23.180 The death of his mother,

00:37:24.400 he's called it a sacrifice.

00:37:25.480 And then in this video,

00:37:26.720 he's taking this bear out

00:37:28.120 and he is,

00:37:29.740 he gives it a small knife

00:37:30.800 and he motions to it 1.00

00:37:32.760 to kill itself. 0.97

00:37:33.900 And then this bear does it. 0.97

00:37:35.460 It jams the knife in,

00:37:36.740 it opens itself up,

00:37:37.680 its intestines fall out.

00:37:38.940 And then,

00:37:39.740 you know,

00:37:40.540 Kanye returns to the party.

00:37:41.780 Now,

00:37:42.220 even in the,

00:37:42.900 even in the grand scheme of things,

00:37:44.140 the albums in between

00:37:45.860 where this happened,

00:37:46.760 it was like definitively

00:37:48.900 the albums that were representative

00:37:50.820 of like an old Kanye West.

00:37:52.420 And then after that video,

00:37:54.200 he goes on to release like,

00:37:55.840 what is it?

00:37:56.280 My Beautiful Dark Nightmare

00:37:58.040 or whatever the hell

00:37:58.700 the name of the album is.

00:37:59.900 This was right after 808s

00:38:01.240 and Heartbreak.

00:38:02.640 And then he just goes into

00:38:04.100 this really significant

00:38:06.580 cultural moving Kanye West

00:38:09.120 after this moment.

00:38:10.180 So that's a guy,

00:38:10.860 yeah,

00:38:11.020 that's just steeped in,

00:38:12.640 in this magic.

00:38:13.740 And maybe you're right.

00:38:15.060 Maybe it causes you

00:38:15.840 to lose your mind

00:38:16.860 if you,

00:38:17.280 if you look too long

00:38:18.320 into the abyss.

00:38:19.300 Well,

00:38:19.800 I,

00:38:19.960 I just,

00:38:21.340 my opinion,

00:38:21.840 this is like kind of

00:38:22.580 what happens.

00:38:23.040 And I don't even think

00:38:23.540 this is part of psychic warfare

00:38:24.860 is you're going to just

00:38:25.880 throw somebody out

00:38:26.660 to the abyss.

00:38:27.980 My opinion, 1.00

00:38:28.700 when you start fucking 1.00

00:38:29.500 with magic, 1.00

00:38:30.020 you are losing form.

00:38:32.960 And believe it or not,

00:38:34.220 the less structure

00:38:35.220 and the less form to things

00:38:36.660 is the most chaotic

00:38:38.020 and scary it can get

00:38:39.220 because you can't

00:38:39.860 understand it.

00:38:42.040 It's hard to explain,

00:38:43.280 but like,

00:38:44.200 I do think due to

00:38:45.460 the lack of structure

00:38:46.600 and starting to get formless,

00:38:50.180 it's,

00:38:50.860 it can take a toll

00:38:51.780 on,

00:38:52.120 on your brain,

00:38:52.720 on your psyche.

00:38:54.820 It's like you start

00:38:56.040 unraveling your own identity.

00:38:58.240 Is that what you're talking about

00:38:59.380 when you're expressing

00:39:00.220 this idea of the abyss

00:39:01.340 that you're continuing,

00:39:02.820 continuing to cross?

00:39:04.440 Yeah,

00:39:04.660 well,

00:39:05.020 I'll just throw that out there too.

00:39:06.720 Like I mentioned before,

00:39:07.500 some of the secrets

00:39:08.180 are secrets.

00:39:08.680 In my opinion,

00:39:09.260 if you're actually having

00:39:10.120 a real magical,

00:39:11.120 magical experience,

00:39:12.160 you're committing

00:39:12.640 temporary suicide.

00:39:14.180 You're separating

00:39:14.960 your soul from your body.

00:39:17.600 Is that it?

00:39:18.720 Hold on,

00:39:19.180 wait.

00:39:19.260 Because that right there

00:39:23.220 was a really heavy bomb

00:39:24.600 you just dropped on us

00:39:25.480 and I want to take that

00:39:26.360 away from the people actually

00:39:27.400 and I want to make this

00:39:28.060 come over to patreon.com

00:39:29.320 backslash

00:39:30.300 up on the bottom too.

00:39:32.300 I was like,

00:39:32.500 oh,

00:39:32.620 this is perfect.

00:39:33.780 That was perfect timing

00:39:34.920 because this is something

00:39:35.820 that is,

00:39:36.380 I'm excited to explore this.

00:39:38.400 This is something

00:39:39.060 that I used to get deeper into

00:39:40.320 and then when I became

00:39:41.080 a father and a husband,

00:39:42.020 I kind of backed off that

00:39:43.040 because I had to

00:39:43.840 be able to build a life,

00:39:45.480 you know,

00:39:45.680 but what you're talking

00:39:46.320 about right now,

00:39:46.880 you're cooking.

00:39:47.380 Guys,

00:39:47.620 listen,

00:39:47.840 if you want to listen

00:39:49.060 to the rest of this episode,

00:39:50.140 you got to go over

00:39:50.600 to patreon.com

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00:39:52.820 continue watching along,

00:39:54.060 enjoying an ad-free experience

00:39:55.540 and gaining access

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00:40:04.560 guys.

00:40:05.140 But otherwise,

00:40:06.300 bye-bye.

00:40:08.200 All right,

00:40:09.020 so this is,

00:40:10.920 can you just repeat that?

00:40:12.920 It's a form of suicide.

00:40:14.640 Let's start with that.

00:40:15.740 What do you mean by that,

00:40:16.460 a form of suicide?

00:40:18.700 In my opinion,

00:40:19.720 to have a magical experience,

00:40:21.060 you're actually going to kind of like,

00:40:22.760 your soul's going to slip out of your body.

00:40:24.280 You're going to have to be okay

00:40:25.280 with like giving up everything

00:40:26.900 in a little moment of time.

00:40:30.000 Like,

00:40:30.200 I mean,

00:40:30.420 that's,

00:40:30.820 to me,

00:40:31.040 that's the ultimate sacrifice.

00:40:32.820 You're going to have to,

00:40:34.440 I mean,

00:40:34.740 in a sense,

00:40:35.620 if you want to get into it,

00:40:37.300 like,

00:40:37.440 you really look at it.

00:40:38.480 One,

00:40:38.820 not to get too deep into it,

00:40:40.340 I do think,

00:40:41.340 again,

00:40:41.680 your eyeballs

00:40:42.400 put a play into this.

00:40:45.600 Like,

00:40:45.740 the way you're even seeing

00:40:46.880 when your body changes,

00:40:48.060 there's an alchemical process

00:40:49.220 going on inside of you,

00:40:50.300 I think,

00:40:50.660 before you actually click out.

00:40:52.160 But like,

00:40:52.520 the light in your eyes

00:40:53.240 will go out.

00:40:54.860 And,

00:40:55.220 you will kind of start

00:40:56.820 like riding back up your eye.

00:40:59.200 And, 1.00

00:40:59.540 fuck, 1.00

00:41:00.700 I forgot where I was going with that. 0.99

00:41:02.080 But we're talking about this idea

00:41:03.340 of these experiences

00:41:05.160 being a form of suicide.

00:41:07.520 Yeah,

00:41:07.860 yeah,

00:41:08.060 yeah.

00:41:08.400 There was something

00:41:08.960 I was trying to get to that.

00:41:10.520 You will,

00:41:11.340 in my opinion,

00:41:12.000 one,

00:41:12.300 I do,

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00:42:44.880 Now, first off,

00:42:46.080 I was not even doing drugs

00:42:48.140 for probably about 17 years.

00:42:49.800 I wasn't even smoking weed.

00:42:51.720 So when I had these experiences,

00:42:53.360 there was no drug use actually at all.

00:42:55.740 It wasn't until COVID

00:42:56.640 that I was like, 1.00

00:42:57.960 just to deal with these crazy motherfuckers, 1.00

00:42:59.720 I got to start smoking weed again 1.00

00:43:01.160 because it was just fucking insanity. 0.99

00:43:03.520 I was like, 0.99

00:43:03.880 I got to go out into public stone

00:43:05.180 to deal with this.

00:43:05.820 So I started smoking weed then.

00:43:08.180 That was after any magical experiences I had.

00:43:10.500 And when I did these,

00:43:12.460 when I had these experiences,

00:43:13.600 I was sitting in a chair

00:43:15.040 and no ritual was even done.

00:43:18.160 Just meditation.

00:43:19.940 In my opinion,

00:43:21.120 in the meditation,

00:43:22.320 just due to doing it over years

00:43:24.100 and letting your body start to calm down,

00:43:27.320 believe it or not,

00:43:28.140 we've all heard these stories

00:43:29.540 probably about like all these monks

00:43:30.760 that go into these meditations

00:43:31.880 and look like they're dead.

00:43:33.460 Yeah.

00:43:34.500 My opinion,

00:43:35.640 just even put it this way.

00:43:36.840 If you think,

00:43:37.520 God isn't in the physical form.

00:43:39.480 I mean,

00:43:39.660 he might be within all of us,

00:43:41.040 but what makes you think

00:43:42.520 a physical form

00:43:43.240 is going to be able to talk to a spirit?

00:43:44.720 No,

00:43:44.860 you're going to have to separate the flesh. 0.65

00:43:47.220 And the other thing

00:43:48.040 I was getting about too

00:43:48.960 with the eyeball,

00:43:49.960 even in the back of your eye,

00:43:51.400 the all the way

00:43:52.220 in the back of your eye

00:43:53.080 before you go up the optic nerve

00:43:54.420 and you take the sunlight

00:43:55.400 and transmute it into electricity,

00:43:56.980 which pumps

00:43:58.000 and powers your whole body.

00:43:59.780 Once you get to that point,

00:44:01.400 there is blood

00:44:02.400 in the back of your eye,

00:44:03.560 not in the front,

00:44:05.060 but there's blood.

00:44:05.840 And if you're about to give up your body

00:44:08.460 and you're leaving that part of your eyeball,

00:44:10.360 there may be a blood sacrifice involved,

00:44:12.620 but it's just yours.

00:44:14.760 Interesting.

00:44:16.040 Interesting. 1.00

00:44:16.840 You're going to have to kill yourself 1.00

00:44:19.360 and everybody else technically in your world 1.00

00:44:21.760 because you have an attachment to them.

00:44:23.700 You have a love for people

00:44:25.420 and you're going to have to slay their images

00:44:27.400 in your mind

00:44:28.500 to where they don't exist

00:44:29.860 and you take the handcuffs off

00:44:31.580 and you give up 1.00

00:44:33.760 every fucking thing 1.00

00:44:35.380 you have fell in love with 1.00

00:44:36.540 and decide to give it up

00:44:37.980 to talk to God.

00:44:40.220 Because I'm the one

00:44:41.240 who walked away from him.

00:44:42.300 He hasn't walked away from me.

00:44:44.100 I fell in love with everything

00:44:45.580 that Lucifer wanted to give me

00:44:47.020 with my eyes open.

00:44:49.360 I'm in Lucifer's world.

00:44:50.940 I'm addicted to everything

00:44:51.960 that shows light. 1.00

00:44:53.580 I have to give that shit up 1.00

00:44:55.020 and talk to God. 1.00

00:44:55.920 That's my opinion.

00:44:57.960 It's not an opinion.

00:44:59.140 That's like we talk about on the show.

00:45:01.160 It's a principle here.

00:45:02.780 This idea of blood sacrifice.

00:45:05.100 A lot of people will be like,

00:45:06.980 well, why would God make it

00:45:08.720 so that you have to do sacrifices

00:45:11.100 in order to get XYZ?

00:45:13.340 It's like, well,

00:45:13.700 that's just the principles of this world, man.

00:45:16.100 I mean, when he asked Abraham

00:45:18.580 to slay his son,

00:45:20.140 it's sort of the same thing. 0.92

00:45:21.380 This is a blood sacrifice.

00:45:23.480 Jesus Christ, it's a blood sacrifice

00:45:25.440 in order to do

00:45:26.540 whatever needs to be done here.

00:45:28.560 There actually has to be

00:45:29.560 a physical thing that happens.

00:45:32.320 It's like part of the ability

00:45:33.780 to transmutate this realm.

00:45:35.480 Yes.

00:45:35.880 That's how you do it.

00:45:36.980 Those are the rules.

00:45:38.100 Those are the rules.

00:45:38.740 Yeah, those are the rules.

00:45:39.760 Look, this is...

00:45:40.680 Okay, so what you're talking about, Nick,

00:45:41.900 is endlessly interesting to me

00:45:44.640 because my brain is going everywhere right now.

00:45:46.160 I know that there's a functionality of fear

00:45:48.580 within this process, right?

00:45:50.420 And fear is this...

00:45:51.800 They call it like the mind killer, right?

00:45:53.260 The Bible says,

00:45:54.340 fear not all these times

00:45:55.880 over and over again.

00:45:56.700 Every psychedelic experience I've ever had

00:46:00.040 was all the positive aspects of it

00:46:02.600 laid on the other side of giving up

00:46:04.940 and allowing this fear to fade from me

00:46:06.940 because much of the fear in everything

00:46:09.260 is about your ability

00:46:10.960 to control the scenario, right?

00:46:12.840 Because it's the fear of the unknown.

00:46:14.800 You don't know where this is going

00:46:15.740 if you can't control it.

00:46:16.640 So when you're doing psychedelics

00:46:17.840 or even a meditative process

00:46:20.220 that gives you insight

00:46:21.820 to these corners of your mind

00:46:22.960 that you're not typically accessing,

00:46:24.520 there is, especially when it lays

00:46:26.660 within yourself, right?

00:46:28.120 This chaos, these, you know,

00:46:29.740 whatever primordial chaotic waters

00:46:32.860 that sort of live within you

00:46:34.600 to some degree you can access. 0.99

00:46:35.960 It's fucking terrifying. 0.99

00:46:37.320 It's terrifying to look at these things. 0.99

00:46:39.340 And so when you hold onto it,

00:46:40.700 like you said something about 0.99

00:46:41.820 you have to kill all of these things 0.98

00:46:45.220 that are meaningful to you. 0.98

00:46:46.600 When I was younger,

00:46:47.680 I don't think I nailed this process

00:46:49.140 by any means at all,

00:46:50.460 but I had that experience

00:46:52.080 where for whatever reason I was,

00:46:54.340 I was, I was on a tremendous amount

00:46:56.020 of ecstasy and alcohol,

00:46:57.320 but the procedure,

00:46:59.660 the process,

00:47:00.100 For whatever reason.

00:47:00.960 For whatever reason.

00:47:01.460 No, no, no, no, no.

00:47:01.900 That's not the whatever reason.

00:47:03.120 For whatever reason,

00:47:03.820 I was shown a series of images

00:47:06.100 of things that I loved

00:47:07.500 and then they were being destroyed.

00:47:09.220 And that thing that I loved

00:47:11.000 that was being destroyed 0.99

00:47:11.860 was fucking way too much 0.98

00:47:13.580 for me to handle. 0.99

00:47:14.200 I think I was like 16 years old

00:47:15.740 and it ended finally.

00:47:18.020 I was like, I love my mom.

00:47:19.260 And it showed my mom 0.98

00:47:20.680 just fucking like bursting 0.99

00:47:21.900 into guts and blood. 0.99

00:47:23.460 And, and I had to get up.

00:47:25.180 I got up and I saw through

00:47:26.320 a film of, of red.

00:47:28.440 But after this moment,

00:47:29.900 because that wasn't the end

00:47:31.300 of my psychedelic use,

00:47:32.380 I realized because of that experience

00:47:34.520 that I was, well, not, not,

00:47:37.880 I just realized that fear

00:47:39.100 was the driving mechanism

00:47:40.340 that was causing me to like

00:47:42.580 crash out in these experiences.

00:47:44.460 And that if I could let go

00:47:46.660 that I wouldn't have at least,

00:47:49.600 at least I could control

00:47:51.580 how I, how I felt about the things

00:47:53.200 I was being subjected to.

00:47:54.960 And, and by that, I mean,

00:47:56.280 if I let go of the fear,

00:47:57.640 then I no longer have

00:47:59.220 to be subjected to it.

00:48:00.440 And then I could go on this experience

00:48:02.760 wherever it takes me.

00:48:03.840 And that, by the way,

00:48:06.200 echoes into the physical realm 0.80

00:48:07.700 and, and becomes sort of the,

00:48:09.900 the guiding rules

00:48:12.260 for how you interact with this realm.

00:48:14.100 It's like everything that is good

00:48:15.560 oftentimes is on the other end of fear.

00:48:18.060 And that's, that's with any journey

00:48:19.580 that you're going on, right?

00:48:20.440 Like we talk often

00:48:21.160 about the hero's journey

00:48:22.080 and how we're, we're all able

00:48:23.980 to go on this journey

00:48:25.100 to go delve into chaos

00:48:26.620 and retrieve something valuable

00:48:27.920 and, and, and come out of it.

00:48:29.400 But you don't go there

00:48:30.820 if you give into fear.

00:48:31.820 So this, this fear mechanism

00:48:33.240 plays a huge part in stopping you.

00:48:35.460 And it's the key to, what's that?

00:48:38.140 The orphan of me even tells you that.

00:48:39.460 Don't fear.

00:48:40.740 Yes.

00:48:41.840 Yes.

00:48:42.560 I mean, they say it's,

00:48:43.540 you will see them

00:48:44.060 before you have a magical experience.

00:48:46.160 Wait, who will you see

00:48:47.520 before a magical experience?

00:48:49.000 In a, in a, in a way

00:48:50.500 that I think you're viewing it,

00:48:52.000 you will see kind of the orphan

00:48:53.260 to an extent

00:48:54.160 right before you blast off.

00:48:56.840 You know?

00:48:57.460 I mean, one thing too

00:48:58.400 that you're even mentioning

00:48:59.120 about fear.

00:48:59.760 If you start understanding

00:49:00.820 what you're actually going through

00:49:02.260 and what's happening to you,

00:49:04.260 do you know, like,

00:49:04.940 what you have to be okay with

00:49:06.240 to even practice magic still?

00:49:08.740 If you start realizing

00:49:09.680 I'm actually committing suicide

00:49:10.920 and there's a chance 0.93

00:49:12.400 I may not come back,

00:49:14.220 you're going to have to deal

00:49:15.100 with that fear

00:49:15.540 to even keep going with it.

00:49:17.200 That's it.

00:49:18.060 Yeah.

00:49:18.400 And they call it like the ego death,

00:49:20.020 but I don't think that that was a feeling.

00:49:21.540 There is a specific feeling.

00:49:22.960 I have only felt

00:49:23.800 experiencing magic

00:49:24.900 that when you feel that feeling

00:49:26.160 come over your body, 0.90

00:49:27.540 you know what's going to happen.

00:49:29.920 And you have to,

00:49:30.700 in a split second,

00:49:31.440 make that decision.

00:49:32.200 Am I willing

00:49:32.660 to give it all up

00:49:33.920 to have a moment with God again

00:49:35.920 and maybe not come back?

00:49:37.480 What's that feeling like?

00:49:38.780 Can you describe that a little bit?

00:49:42.060 Whenever I play,

00:49:43.540 whenever I have messed with magic,

00:49:45.880 practiced magic,

00:49:47.500 you know,

00:49:47.640 I will get these visuals too,

00:49:49.060 but then these feelings

00:49:49.940 will come up right near the end

00:49:51.360 before I start the,

00:49:52.480 you know,

00:49:52.680 I guess I call it blasting off

00:49:53.920 or riding the lightning.

00:49:56.320 We'll start from the bottom of my feet

00:49:58.060 and it will almost start to feel like

00:50:00.560 like energy is like kind of rising up

00:50:02.220 and like,

00:50:02.680 let's say by the time

00:50:03.380 it gets to my knees,

00:50:04.400 everything below it has disappeared.

00:50:05.960 Like it actually feels

00:50:06.840 like I'm being erased.

00:50:08.180 Like it just is just,

00:50:09.300 you know,

00:50:09.480 disappearing.

00:50:10.480 And we'll start to like,

00:50:12.100 kind of almost like Tron.

00:50:13.460 Remember back in the day

00:50:14.240 when it showed like the guy

00:50:14.980 getting sucked into the computer?

00:50:16.960 Yeah.

00:50:17.580 Yeah.

00:50:17.780 Yeah.

00:50:18.000 I've seen that.

00:50:18.700 And I was like,

00:50:19.140 yo,

00:50:19.980 that's exactly how I felt.

00:50:22.660 Like where he's kind of digitally

00:50:23.960 like pixelating.

00:50:25.300 He's yeah,

00:50:25.740 yeah,

00:50:25.900 yeah. 1.00

00:50:26.560 It's like sucking him in 0.99

00:50:27.680 from like bottom up 0.99

00:50:28.620 and maybe it was top down.

00:50:30.340 I don't remember,

00:50:30.680 but it just reminded me of that.

00:50:32.060 But like,

00:50:32.320 it will start to go up

00:50:33.320 and as it gets like closer

00:50:34.660 to like my stomach

00:50:35.720 and chest area,

00:50:36.540 it's like I start to feel

00:50:37.520 it build up within myself.

00:50:39.740 And then all of a sudden

00:50:40.940 it will feel like

00:50:41.800 the best way I can explain it

00:50:43.480 is like if I was laying

00:50:45.240 on the beach

00:50:45.840 and the waves crashed

00:50:47.380 and the water was rolling

00:50:48.600 up the shore

00:50:49.480 and I was laying there

00:50:50.680 and somehow

00:50:51.420 if like my feet were open

00:50:53.460 and the water could go

00:50:54.260 through my body,

00:50:55.100 you will literally start

00:50:56.320 to feel like these waves

00:50:57.420 of trickling

00:50:58.060 going through your whole body.

00:50:59.180 and then it just starts

00:51:01.060 to like build up

00:51:01.880 into here

00:51:02.540 and then at some point

00:51:04.620 another thing is

00:51:06.020 is this whole time

00:51:07.000 I'm doing this

00:51:07.560 I am pressing

00:51:08.180 on my pineal gland.

00:51:10.240 I'm like putting pressure

00:51:11.160 on it like really hard

00:51:12.080 and holding it

00:51:12.760 to hold the image

00:51:14.160 I'm even seeing.

00:51:15.580 And at some point

00:51:16.560 something happens

00:51:18.260 I think the polarity changes

00:51:19.560 and my forcing

00:51:21.400 now feels like something 0.97

00:51:23.340 fucking like 0.99

00:51:24.640 it's like pulling the trigger. 0.99

00:51:25.860 I mean technically

00:51:27.280 even with the images

00:51:28.060 that I'm seeing

00:51:28.560 it looks like you know

00:51:29.200 a blast of looking

00:51:30.060 down the trigger 1.00

00:51:30.620 like it's just a fucking 1.00

00:51:31.400 bullet just 1.00

00:51:32.080 comes flying at you

00:51:34.220 and it feels like

00:51:35.320 now that you're like

00:51:35.960 again like you're pushing

00:51:37.160 has somewhere

00:51:37.820 taken a magnetic spin

00:51:39.460 and now it's flying

00:51:40.920 back at you

00:51:41.760 all of a sudden

00:51:42.820 it feels like something

00:51:43.540 cracks in my head

00:51:44.440 and then all that pressure

00:51:46.600 comes all the way up

00:51:47.900 feels like like a vacuum

00:51:49.300 just sucking right out of me 0.95

00:51:51.200 and dissipating 0.99

00:51:51.860 out the top of my head.

00:51:53.100 Right.

00:51:53.980 It's interesting

00:51:54.680 right where the Jews 0.98

00:51:55.460 put their yarmulke

00:51:56.140 every time

00:51:57.720 right there

00:51:58.480 and for me

00:51:59.720 it'd be easy to see

00:52:00.680 but if you put a yarmulke

00:52:01.540 on my head

00:52:02.120 and then took a picture of it

00:52:03.140 it would look like 0.99

00:52:03.520 a fucking eyeball 1.00

00:52:04.140 and a pupil. 1.00

00:52:05.060 I don't know if that

00:52:05.480 has anything to do with it

00:52:06.500 but that's interesting

00:52:07.600 on your head for sure.

00:52:08.820 I don't know

00:52:09.140 on my head

00:52:10.020 you could easily see that.

00:52:11.460 Yeah but no

00:52:11.840 it comes out right

00:52:12.640 right back there

00:52:13.500 and at that moment

00:52:14.760 it literally feels like

00:52:15.860 I just like lost

00:52:16.880 I go weightless.

00:52:18.160 I literally feel

00:52:19.480 the hate

00:52:20.420 the guilt

00:52:21.180 the fear

00:52:21.940 everything just

00:52:22.600 start to melt off

00:52:24.020 and I feel

00:52:25.020 completely weightless

00:52:26.280 and all I feel

00:52:27.160 is like

00:52:27.700 if you took

00:52:28.940 the feeling of love

00:52:30.060 and magnified it

00:52:31.520 by a million times

00:52:32.420 something that you

00:52:33.120 can't even explain

00:52:33.980 in this world

00:52:34.540 that is exactly

00:52:35.260 what everything

00:52:35.760 gets replaced with

00:52:36.640 and I just feel like

00:52:37.800 just this vibrating

00:52:38.740 feeling of intense love

00:52:40.480 and I just get

00:52:42.100 these visions

00:52:42.680 and it feels like

00:52:43.820 even in my head

00:52:45.040 that I just start

00:52:45.920 spreading out

00:52:46.800 and you become

00:52:47.700 like part of the fabric

00:52:48.600 and you're just

00:52:50.380 like part of

00:52:51.140 you're part of

00:52:52.140 whatever your vision

00:52:53.400 you're seeing

00:52:54.220 you're not like

00:52:55.540 separated from it

00:52:56.480 it's like you're in it

00:52:57.420 just

00:52:57.720 believe it or not

00:52:59.520 as weird as it is

00:53:01.060 and I've always said

00:53:02.240 I think NASA's just

00:53:03.400 you know occultism

00:53:04.840 you know whatever

00:53:05.620 it's part of the

00:53:06.380 occult part of the government

00:53:07.440 a lot of their

00:53:08.560 images of what

00:53:09.980 Aurora is 0.99

00:53:10.600 and all the shit 0.99

00:53:11.040 out in space 0.99

00:53:11.660 it's a lot of

00:53:12.660 what I see

00:53:13.540 interesting

00:53:14.740 you're doing

00:53:16.240 you're doing like

00:53:17.200 a realm slip

00:53:19.280 but you're doing it

00:53:20.420 without the

00:53:21.060 use of psychedelics

00:53:22.700 which most people

00:53:23.900 will use

00:53:24.440 are you

00:53:25.860 are you

00:53:26.660 employing like

00:53:28.040 the practices

00:53:28.580 of like remote

00:53:29.500 viewers like

00:53:30.000 dark room

00:53:30.760 or I don't know

00:53:32.440 float tanks

00:53:33.040 or stuff like that

00:53:33.600 or you're just

00:53:34.320 I had to use

00:53:35.240 a float tank

00:53:35.820 but I never

00:53:36.320 I never

00:53:37.280 tried to like

00:53:38.940 practice magic

00:53:40.380 in a float tank

00:53:40.980 you probably had to go a lot

00:53:42.860 but that would

00:53:43.800 definitely

00:53:45.140 there were certain things

00:53:47.680 I mean maybe if I get into it

00:53:49.140 or not

00:53:49.460 with the visuals

00:53:50.560 with magic

00:53:51.400 I can bring myself

00:53:52.540 very close to having

00:53:53.500 a magical effect

00:53:54.360 and not doing it now

00:53:55.340 I can do that

00:53:56.180 in a deep meditation

00:53:57.040 I was able to do that

00:53:58.360 extremely fast

00:53:59.220 in a float tank

00:53:59.820 huh

00:54:00.960 but I just

00:54:01.760 have lost off

00:54:02.540 as far as these visuals go

00:54:05.360 because I've always had

00:54:06.180 the ability to do a thing

00:54:07.300 that is seemingly useless

00:54:09.080 and it's just that if I 0.99

00:54:11.160 autopilot erection 0.97

00:54:12.540 no not the autopilot erection 0.98

00:54:14.240 that I could do 1.00

00:54:14.820 and that's also fucking useless 0.99

00:54:15.900 I'm kind of the king 1.00

00:54:16.620 of useless shit 1.00

00:54:17.280 so one of the things 1.00

00:54:19.220 that I can do is

00:54:20.280 I can close my eyes

00:54:22.760 and pick one spot

00:54:24.340 in particular

00:54:25.060 in the sort of the darkness

00:54:26.880 and there's some

00:54:27.820 fluctuating color there

00:54:28.920 everybody knows that

00:54:29.580 right if you close your eyes

00:54:30.400 you're not just seeing black

00:54:31.560 like sometimes you're seeing

00:54:32.460 odulating clouds of

00:54:34.300 I don't know

00:54:35.560 other shades

00:54:36.280 bursts are just like

00:54:37.700 yeah bursts

00:54:38.140 so if I pick one spot

00:54:41.400 in that

00:54:41.840 as if it is actually

00:54:43.020 a physical canvas

00:54:44.860 that I'm looking at

00:54:45.700 and I kind of hone in on it 0.99

00:54:47.520 I can move all that shit 0.99

00:54:48.840 out of the way 0.99

00:54:49.400 all the expanding

00:54:50.640 you know contracting

00:54:52.000 colors

00:54:52.780 and then I'm just left

00:54:54.100 with wheeling stars

00:54:55.960 just stars

00:54:57.460 like black canvas

00:54:58.740 and stars

00:54:59.620 and I'm moving through them 0.99

00:55:01.700 and that's fucking it 0.99

00:55:03.300 that's the end of it 0.99

00:55:04.360 it never yields anything

00:55:05.460 I mean sometimes I'll see

00:55:06.280 other stuff while

00:55:07.000 I can't close my eyes 0.99

00:55:08.380 fucking unbelievable 0.99

00:55:09.260 sometimes I'll see 0.98

00:55:10.860 other stuff that like

00:55:12.020 I don't know

00:55:13.380 looks like

00:55:14.160 sometimes it looks like

00:55:16.500 it's

00:55:17.060 a spot that wants

00:55:19.760 to open up

00:55:20.460 but otherwise

00:55:21.700 there's

00:55:22.620 it's nothing

00:55:23.120 I've been able to do it

00:55:23.740 my entire life

00:55:24.440 and it feels like

00:55:25.640 absolutely nothing

00:55:26.560 but is that

00:55:27.320 part of something 0.98

00:55:28.320 do you see shit like that 0.97

00:55:29.660 mine all starts off 0.99

00:55:31.680 with at some point

00:55:32.700 when I'm meditating

00:55:33.640 again now I said

00:55:34.940 I always focus

00:55:35.880 on my third eye

00:55:36.580 eventually

00:55:37.820 I could spend

00:55:38.920 15-20 minutes

00:55:39.700 just getting into

00:55:40.380 a meditation

00:55:40.880 doing like work

00:55:41.620 where I'm just like

00:55:42.140 visualizing energy

00:55:43.440 go up and down

00:55:44.220 and start focusing

00:55:44.800 on my chakras

00:55:45.440 but eventually

00:55:46.220 once I focus

00:55:47.600 on my third eye

00:55:48.400 and start pushing on it

00:55:49.500 while I have my eyes

00:55:50.240 closed and I'm meditating

00:55:51.140 it will all of a sudden

00:55:52.720 get extremely black 0.93

00:55:54.040 and you're talking 0.99

00:55:54.580 about a star

00:55:55.380 now I know Crowley

00:55:57.040 and again

00:55:57.520 when I bring this guy's name up

00:55:59.280 I'm not trying to promote him

00:56:00.520 or pimp him out

00:56:01.520 I do think he was 0.99

00:56:02.280 a degenerate

00:56:03.220 but I do think 0.94

00:56:03.660 he was an occult genius

00:56:05.460 his whole thing

00:56:06.600 with every man

00:56:07.140 and every woman

00:56:07.700 is a star

00:56:08.320 I will see one star

00:56:10.940 at a bunch of them

00:56:12.740 and if I push on my pineal gland

00:56:15.560 as I catch it in my image

00:56:17.360 it's almost like

00:56:18.380 I have to like lock onto it

00:56:19.860 I will catch that one burning dot

00:56:23.260 and eventually

00:56:24.160 it will start to come closer

00:56:25.380 and it turns into an eclipse

00:56:26.540 but it does look like

00:56:27.840 a burning star

00:56:28.760 like in the night sky

00:56:30.460 like it literally

00:56:31.480 looks like burning

00:56:33.120 glowing white

00:56:34.000 and like

00:56:34.480 there's like these weird shapes

00:56:36.260 that

00:56:36.640 if you were to draw clouds

00:56:38.460 on a book

00:56:38.980 and you just took

00:56:40.260 whatever the pencil was

00:56:41.860 or the pen that you used

00:56:42.840 to draw it

00:56:43.320 and like threw that

00:56:44.480 into I guess like

00:56:45.200 black 0.73

00:56:46.020 but

00:56:46.400 shined light behind it

00:56:48.340 you'd see like these outlines

00:56:50.420 like in black

00:56:51.400 to where it almost looks like

00:56:52.660 clouds behind

00:56:54.080 a burning

00:56:54.800 or in front of a burning white dot

00:56:56.800 it's really hard to explain

00:56:58.520 because again

00:56:59.280 even with magic

00:57:00.040 certain visuals

00:57:00.840 and feelings I've had

00:57:01.880 I can't even explain it

00:57:03.240 in English

00:57:03.740 you're pushing on

00:57:05.920 inside myself

00:57:07.720 not with my finger

00:57:08.980 like

00:57:09.200 oh okay

00:57:09.800 I'm holding on to the chakra

00:57:11.420 and I'm pushing on to it

00:57:12.680 interesting

00:57:13.680 yeah

00:57:14.340 and I will see that white dot

00:57:15.860 you will get like

00:57:16.500 it looks like this burning star

00:57:18.160 in the darkness

00:57:18.760 and if I lock onto it

00:57:20.480 and pull it close

00:57:21.060 it turns into an eclipse

00:57:22.000 and then that's when 0.99

00:57:22.720 all the shit starts coming after that 0.99

00:57:24.880 I would consider our show 0.99

00:57:26.960 a Christian show

00:57:28.420 in the sense that

00:57:29.260 we believe Jesus Christ

00:57:30.160 is a central figure

00:57:31.040 and that he did die

00:57:32.480 for our sins

00:57:33.060 and that he is the way

00:57:34.000 and I almost feel like

00:57:34.880 what happened is

00:57:35.680 mankind got

00:57:36.940 really corrupted

00:57:38.160 with

00:57:38.640 sort of the offspring

00:57:40.020 of these angels

00:57:41.060 and humans

00:57:42.280 and it

00:57:42.820 corrupted our genome

00:57:44.140 but also the teachings

00:57:45.240 that were giving us

00:57:46.100 they twisted them

00:57:47.180 and inverted them

00:57:47.900 when they gave them to us

00:57:48.940 and then we

00:57:49.460 used them

00:57:50.480 and they corrupted us as well

00:57:51.740 and so

00:57:52.360 but

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00:58:54.160 that being said

00:58:55.400 and I feel like Jesus Christ

00:58:57.140 kind of wiped that slate clean

00:58:58.880 where things almost spiritually

00:59:00.380 got overly complicated

00:59:02.000 and um

00:59:03.340 and so

00:59:04.460 but

00:59:04.760 I recognize these things

00:59:06.220 as like

00:59:06.800 innate

00:59:07.400 to some degree

00:59:08.280 right

00:59:08.700 like

00:59:08.940 the fact that you can

00:59:10.680 do these

00:59:11.520 and

00:59:11.960 and gleam these things

00:59:13.260 doesn't necessarily

00:59:14.960 there's nothing that says

00:59:16.120 that they're bad

00:59:16.840 or that they're evil

00:59:17.740 really what you're gleaming

00:59:18.840 is is just a deeper understanding

00:59:20.480 of the realm that we inhabit

00:59:21.560 because it's far more than physical

00:59:22.880 right

00:59:23.160 it's a it's a spiritual realm

00:59:24.440 predominantly a spiritual realm

00:59:26.500 that we inhabit

00:59:27.300 and so

00:59:27.960 but

00:59:28.520 because of the way that

00:59:30.340 Christianity has kind of

00:59:31.580 sterilized itself

00:59:32.580 and given this

00:59:33.680 much more palatable version

00:59:35.420 uh to people

00:59:36.560 and and I don't know

00:59:37.300 if that's because

00:59:37.920 if that's purposeful subversion

00:59:39.660 or if that's meant to bolster

00:59:41.100 the church

00:59:41.640 so that there's more tithes

00:59:42.800 or whatever the case may be

00:59:44.080 um

00:59:44.880 the

00:59:45.300 we've given people

00:59:46.540 a watered down

00:59:47.520 version of it

00:59:48.600 and then what we've done

00:59:49.540 is we've turned to these teachings

00:59:50.780 and instead of cautioning people

00:59:53.120 against them

00:59:53.680 we've really just outright

00:59:54.540 called them evil

00:59:55.680 and it's like

00:59:56.220 is it evil

00:59:57.000 to notice that

00:59:58.480 like let's say like

00:59:59.200 numerology for example

01:00:00.380 that there is some sort of

01:00:01.880 inherent numerological value

01:00:03.760 to the realm that we inhabit

01:00:05.880 or like a sacred geometry

01:00:07.120 is it evil to observe

01:00:09.580 that geometry seemingly plays

01:00:11.720 a huge role

01:00:12.900 in not only our physical realm

01:00:14.800 but in the spiritual realm

01:00:16.020 um

01:00:16.460 and it seems like

01:00:17.220 we've thrown

01:00:17.760 the baby out

01:00:19.200 with the bath water

01:00:20.140 I mean let me ask you this

01:00:21.400 Nick

01:00:21.660 have you had

01:00:23.100 um

01:00:23.740 I myself have had run-ins

01:00:25.980 with negative entities

01:00:27.220 and

01:00:28.400 you're doing something

01:00:29.860 that's almost akin

01:00:30.800 to like a psychonaut

01:00:31.680 have you had any run-ins

01:00:33.340 with something

01:00:33.780 that you

01:00:34.200 deemed

01:00:35.240 was

01:00:36.040 ill-intented

01:00:37.000 or or negative

01:00:37.920 no

01:00:38.940 you know

01:00:39.660 the only time

01:00:40.340 anything ever happens

01:00:41.660 or like

01:00:42.000 whenever it stops

01:00:42.960 my experience

01:00:43.720 it's due to me

01:00:44.480 like starting to think

01:00:45.360 like about

01:00:45.920 what I'm doing

01:00:46.800 I guess

01:00:47.540 I start thinking

01:00:48.380 itself

01:00:48.820 and start questioning

01:00:49.940 what am I

01:00:51.040 and what's going on

01:00:51.760 and then it ends

01:00:52.300 but everything is for me

01:00:53.660 it's always been a

01:00:55.420 a positive experience

01:00:56.920 again

01:00:57.500 sometimes

01:00:58.120 you know

01:00:58.980 I I guess

01:01:00.320 sometimes maybe certain things

01:01:02.000 that might make sense to me

01:01:03.300 after the fact

01:01:03.880 might be a little bit hard

01:01:04.720 to swallow

01:01:05.300 but

01:01:05.660 I will say

01:01:06.620 it's always been a positive

01:01:07.560 positive thing for me

01:01:09.300 do you

01:01:10.860 there's been times

01:01:11.980 maybe earlier

01:01:12.760 in my magical career

01:01:14.060 when I was trying

01:01:14.780 to change this world

01:01:15.860 maybe

01:01:16.240 I don't know

01:01:17.340 if I got

01:01:18.260 you know

01:01:18.600 maybe I just ended up

01:01:19.420 picking up dirt 0.99

01:01:20.980 shit 1.00

01:01:22.020 you know 1.00

01:01:23.820 maybe

01:01:24.200 you know

01:01:25.900 your life may not

01:01:26.660 just go the best

01:01:27.340 when you're trying

01:01:27.760 to affect everybody

01:01:28.480 else's

01:01:28.880 well that's interesting

01:01:30.700 I found the same case

01:01:31.840 when I was

01:01:32.440 younger

01:01:33.320 and I was homeless

01:01:34.060 that was

01:01:35.340 interestingly enough

01:01:36.700 the time that I decided

01:01:38.080 it was

01:01:39.300 you know

01:01:40.260 when I should start

01:01:41.260 attacking and

01:01:42.080 exposing these

01:01:43.140 conspiracy theories

01:01:44.060 it was like

01:01:44.960 I didn't want to do 1.00

01:01:45.620 my own shit 0.99

01:01:46.200 I was homeless 1.00

01:01:46.920 I didn't want to

01:01:47.380 take care of me

01:01:48.000 instead I was ready

01:01:49.940 to tackle the rest

01:01:50.980 of the world

01:01:51.300 it kind of feels 0.51

01:01:51.940 like a fool's errand 0.91

01:01:52.980 now I'm much more 0.98

01:01:54.160 comfortable with

01:01:55.780 you know

01:01:56.660 I guess it is

01:01:57.320 internal works

01:01:57.980 right

01:01:58.180 it's you and your

01:01:58.900 relationship with God

01:01:59.940 you don't get too excited

01:02:01.580 and go out

01:02:02.100 and try to evangelize

01:02:03.440 to the world

01:02:03.940 and fix all the

01:02:04.640 problems

01:02:05.040 you said it before

01:02:06.060 this is Lucifer's world

01:02:07.080 right now

01:02:07.720 and you're not

01:02:09.560 going to fix that

01:02:10.220 but you can fix you

01:02:11.580 yes

01:02:12.340 yes

01:02:12.840 yes

01:02:13.200 and you know

01:02:13.800 one thing I do

01:02:14.260 want to just

01:02:14.680 twist out there too

01:02:15.620 some people might

01:02:16.900 find this a little

01:02:17.480 hard to believe

01:02:18.080 but due to having

01:02:19.360 magical experiences

01:02:20.320 I do have a lot

01:02:21.040 more respect

01:02:22.100 and admiration

01:02:22.900 for Catholicism

01:02:24.580 and Christianity

01:02:25.040 and the Bible

01:02:25.700 believe it or not

01:02:26.580 it has actually

01:02:27.700 made me

01:02:28.180 find it to be

01:02:29.740 more beautiful work

01:02:30.620 that was

01:02:32.640 very

01:02:33.560 very much

01:02:34.280 the way

01:02:34.520 that I

01:02:34.780 came to it

01:02:35.360 too

01:02:35.520 like I

01:02:35.860 started in

01:02:36.760 occultism

01:02:37.740 and trying to

01:02:38.220 understand those

01:02:38.800 things

01:02:39.140 and it's not

01:02:40.080 that I ever

01:02:40.440 got well

01:02:41.700 versed in it

01:02:42.300 but I

01:02:43.120 recognized the

01:02:43.800 elements of it

01:02:44.580 you know

01:02:45.300 in our

01:02:45.740 in our

01:02:46.080 culture

01:02:46.360 and in our

01:02:46.700 society

01:02:47.180 and I

01:02:48.040 wasn't

01:02:48.280 comfortable

01:02:48.620 with the

01:02:49.340 flippant

01:02:49.860 dismissal

01:02:50.440 oh these

01:02:51.280 things are

01:02:51.560 just put

01:02:51.900 there

01:02:52.120 because

01:02:52.780 they're

01:02:53.580 what would

01:02:55.280 you call

01:02:55.640 it like

01:02:56.120 inflammatory

01:02:57.080 and

01:02:58.120 you know

01:02:58.900 that's a

01:02:59.360 way to

01:02:59.740 kind of

01:03:00.320 like when

01:03:00.680 when people

01:03:01.420 are putting

01:03:01.740 it in their

01:03:02.020 music videos

01:03:02.620 or in

01:03:02.900 Hollywood

01:03:03.140 films

01:03:03.540 it's like

01:03:03.840 oh that's

01:03:04.140 just to be

01:03:04.500 edgy

01:03:04.800 and that

01:03:05.160 was kind

01:03:05.400 of what I

01:03:05.740 got a lot

01:03:06.540 of my

01:03:06.860 my childhood

01:03:07.600 was like

01:03:07.940 oh that's

01:03:08.260 just to be

01:03:08.620 edgy

01:03:08.920 so I had to

01:03:09.880 take it upon

01:03:10.260 myself to

01:03:11.380 look in these

01:03:11.780 things because

01:03:12.440 you know

01:03:12.880 especially back

01:03:13.560 then you don't

01:03:13.920 really have

01:03:14.360 anybody that's

01:03:14.940 going to explain

01:03:15.620 them to you

01:03:16.120 and then over

01:03:17.180 time

01:03:17.700 and I used

01:03:18.960 to look at

01:03:19.360 the Bible

01:03:19.760 and Christianity

01:03:20.700 and everything

01:03:21.280 as

01:03:21.840 I don't

01:03:23.440 know

01:03:23.580 I didn't

01:03:24.240 look at it

01:03:24.600 closely

01:03:24.940 but I

01:03:25.680 dismissed it

01:03:26.200 outright

01:03:26.580 as being

01:03:27.360 like

01:03:27.760 you know

01:03:29.440 religious

01:03:29.920 institutions

01:03:30.440 are corruptible

01:03:31.260 and also

01:03:33.060 who are they

01:03:34.440 to say

01:03:34.900 that they

01:03:35.220 have it

01:03:35.540 right

01:03:35.760 when there's

01:03:36.080 so many

01:03:36.340 different

01:03:36.540 denominations

01:03:37.160 and so

01:03:37.460 many different

01:03:37.860 other religions

01:03:38.480 and then as I

01:03:39.100 got older

01:03:39.720 I realized

01:03:40.440 that everything

01:03:40.800 that I had

01:03:41.180 been looking

01:03:41.580 at relates

01:03:42.660 to this

01:03:43.220 Christian

01:03:43.660 narrative

01:03:44.120 so intimately

01:03:45.580 that it was

01:03:46.540 worth looking

01:03:47.060 at and then

01:03:47.640 when I started

01:03:47.980 looking at it

01:03:48.480 I was like

01:03:48.820 oh there's

01:03:49.280 definitely

01:03:49.560 something here

01:03:50.180 so I can

01:03:51.080 I can see

01:03:52.160 how that

01:03:52.700 people don't

01:03:53.580 I caution

01:03:55.200 people against

01:03:56.200 exploring

01:03:57.140 these principles

01:03:58.320 because I don't

01:03:59.500 know where you

01:04:00.000 are spiritually

01:04:00.720 I know

01:04:02.760 when they drew

01:04:03.300 me in

01:04:03.780 I was homeless

01:04:05.060 and I was like

01:04:05.980 selling drugs

01:04:06.660 and everything

01:04:07.080 probably shouldn't

01:04:08.200 have been the

01:04:08.640 guy looking

01:04:10.080 into the abyss

01:04:10.740 at that point

01:04:11.160 I mean now

01:04:11.600 in hindsight

01:04:12.580 it worked out

01:04:13.120 for me

01:04:13.340 but so we

01:04:14.540 caution people

01:04:15.140 against it

01:04:15.660 just because

01:04:15.960 I don't know

01:04:16.400 you I'm never

01:04:16.920 going to advocate

01:04:17.480 for you doing

01:04:18.200 these things

01:04:18.860 because I don't

01:04:19.400 know where you

01:04:19.800 are in your

01:04:20.180 life

01:04:20.420 but for my

01:04:21.600 own particular

01:04:22.260 story

01:04:22.700 yeah that's

01:04:23.360 that's how

01:04:23.700 I got here

01:04:24.260 so you know

01:04:25.680 I guess

01:04:26.400 everybody's got

01:04:26.920 their own

01:04:27.180 path right

01:04:27.740 I did see

01:04:30.520 somebody ask

01:04:31.080 if I've ever

01:04:31.580 tried this

01:04:31.920 stuff on

01:04:32.200 psychedelics

01:04:32.780 no

01:04:33.040 never

01:04:35.960 never

01:04:36.360 that

01:04:37.220 that

01:04:37.800 didn't come

01:04:39.400 up in your

01:04:39.700 thought process

01:04:40.300 it seems like

01:04:40.880 it would have

01:04:41.200 been right there

01:04:41.800 no actually

01:04:42.820 believe it or

01:04:43.340 not I have 1.00

01:04:43.740 to fuck 1.00

01:04:44.020 with magic 0.99

01:04:44.440 I'm a little

01:04:44.780 bit more

01:04:45.000 afraid to 1.00

01:04:45.440 fuck 1.00

01:04:45.760 with psychedelics 1.00

01:04:46.520 interesting

01:04:47.340 do you think

01:04:48.020 yeah do you

01:04:48.640 think

01:04:48.840 all right so

01:04:50.640 I'm a believer

01:04:51.620 that there's

01:04:52.040 like multiple

01:04:52.600 realms layered

01:04:53.280 on top of

01:04:53.780 wherever we're

01:04:54.260 at so

01:04:54.680 when you went

01:04:56.400 to wherever

01:04:56.840 you went

01:04:57.380 was this

01:04:57.840 the same

01:04:58.220 place

01:04:58.700 is this

01:04:59.220 the same

01:04:59.480 place that

01:04:59.840 you always

01:05:00.580 go when

01:05:01.260 you do

01:05:01.500 this sort

01:05:01.880 of a

01:05:02.120 ritual

01:05:02.420 yeah there's

01:05:04.100 even

01:05:04.380 even like

01:05:05.940 the low

01:05:06.300 one of the

01:05:06.680 logos that

01:05:07.160 I use

01:05:07.600 now that's

01:05:08.220 like it's

01:05:08.720 even like

01:05:09.160 it's like

01:05:09.420 it's an

01:05:09.900 image that

01:05:10.320 I had

01:05:10.600 Mario

01:05:10.900 from symbolic

01:05:11.480 studies

01:05:11.900 I had him

01:05:12.440 basically make

01:05:13.020 an image

01:05:13.460 a visual

01:05:14.080 before I

01:05:14.640 crossed the

01:05:15.020 abyss

01:05:15.320 and you

01:05:17.300 know I

01:05:17.520 have that

01:05:17.840 eclipse

01:05:18.260 and at

01:05:18.640 some point

01:05:19.120 the easiest

01:05:19.940 way for me

01:05:20.380 to explain

01:05:20.840 it and I

01:05:21.300 had him

01:05:21.840 design it

01:05:22.380 as like

01:05:22.740 movie reels

01:05:23.500 but it's

01:05:24.560 like these

01:05:25.120 these things

01:05:26.460 that look like

01:05:26.920 cells like

01:05:27.520 movie cells

01:05:28.120 on a reel

01:05:28.620 it's kind

01:05:29.340 of like a

01:05:29.760 not a square

01:05:30.420 but it's

01:05:30.780 like a

01:05:31.020 rectangle

01:05:31.400 whatever

01:05:31.800 these like

01:05:32.740 windows

01:05:33.200 almost looking

01:05:33.940 things coming

01:05:34.620 out of it

01:05:35.120 and going

01:05:35.480 past you

01:05:35.980 real slow

01:05:36.600 in my

01:05:37.640 opinion I

01:05:38.240 do think

01:05:38.900 you can

01:05:40.620 start kind

01:05:41.460 of going

01:05:42.080 into those

01:05:42.740 because they

01:05:43.540 all look

01:05:43.860 like different

01:05:44.240 times and

01:05:44.700 places and

01:05:45.300 time and

01:05:46.040 space I

01:05:47.040 couldn't tell

01:05:47.460 you even

01:05:48.260 where it

01:05:48.600 is it

01:05:48.860 just looks

01:05:49.180 like different

01:05:49.560 visions from

01:05:50.140 different times

01:05:50.660 and places

01:05:51.080 and one

01:05:52.680 time I

01:05:53.060 was interested

01:05:53.540 for some

01:05:54.200 reason I

01:05:55.140 don't know

01:05:55.380 why I

01:05:56.800 you know I

01:05:57.260 see these

01:05:57.600 things all

01:05:57.920 the time and

01:05:58.340 I really

01:05:58.560 don't pay

01:05:58.880 no mind I

01:05:59.440 just keep

01:05:59.780 on looking

01:06:00.100 at you

01:06:00.480 know the

01:06:00.940 eclipse and

01:06:02.260 waiting for

01:06:02.720 it to start

01:06:03.180 to separate

01:06:03.700 and one

01:06:04.880 time I

01:06:05.240 guess I

01:06:05.600 got intrigued

01:06:06.400 by one of

01:06:06.900 these things

01:06:07.380 and it's

01:06:07.720 like my

01:06:08.060 vision again

01:06:08.580 when I'm

01:06:08.880 having this

01:06:09.300 experience my

01:06:10.100 body's not

01:06:10.660 there it's

01:06:10.980 just a

01:06:11.240 vision I'm

01:06:11.740 seeing I

01:06:12.660 kind of

01:06:12.980 like went

01:06:13.340 forward and

01:06:13.880 like turned

01:06:14.580 and like my

01:06:15.120 vision just

01:06:15.640 like went

01:06:16.020 into the

01:06:16.460 window and

01:06:17.720 like to me

01:06:18.160 like I joke

01:06:18.660 around but it's

01:06:19.200 like I couldn't

01:06:19.620 tell what it

01:06:20.000 was I was like

01:06:20.560 is that a

01:06:21.020 nuclear fallout

01:06:21.740 or is it

01:06:22.020 Arizona like

01:06:22.740 it just didn't

01:06:23.240 look welcoming

01:06:23.880 nobody was

01:06:24.460 there just

01:06:24.940 looked like

01:06:25.320 desolate and

01:06:26.520 I was like

01:06:27.060 yeah that

01:06:27.860 doesn't look

01:06:28.340 like a good

01:06:29.000 place for me

01:06:29.980 to go and

01:06:30.520 then all of a

01:06:31.000 sudden I

01:06:31.300 snapped out of

01:06:31.920 it and I'm

01:06:32.260 assuming it's

01:06:32.720 because I

01:06:33.080 started thinking

01:06:33.500 myself again but

01:06:34.460 every other time

01:06:36.020 I just normally

01:06:36.720 focus on the

01:06:37.600 middle and then

01:06:38.300 like all this

01:06:40.980 have a feeling

01:06:41.480 that those

01:06:41.980 things can

01:06:42.580 be played

01:06:43.020 with yeah

01:06:44.300 I'm not I'm

01:06:46.000 not even

01:06:46.380 risky if I

01:06:48.020 was with magic

01:06:48.900 again I'm not

01:06:49.480 going to do

01:06:49.780 that I don't

01:06:50.160 think I

01:06:51.060 wouldn't blame

01:06:51.600 you dude I

01:06:52.060 mean you're

01:06:52.840 describing a

01:06:53.700 someone that

01:06:54.540 a testimony I've

01:06:56.280 heard of someone

01:06:56.660 that does astral

01:06:57.520 projection and

01:06:58.240 they said it

01:06:58.860 feels like they're

01:06:59.500 on a train

01:07:00.720 tracks where

01:07:02.100 obviously I

01:07:03.840 have used that

01:07:04.260 as an expression

01:07:05.040 before I say

01:07:05.740 the movie reels

01:07:06.720 or I'll say

01:07:07.240 that like I'll

01:07:07.760 swear to God

01:07:08.620 man I've said

01:07:09.100 it on probably

01:07:09.520 every show it's

01:07:10.760 like as if I

01:07:11.300 was in the

01:07:11.760 subway or a

01:07:12.400 train station

01:07:13.000 and I had

01:07:13.440 two trains

01:07:14.000 coming down

01:07:14.500 past me and

01:07:15.060 I was looking

01:07:15.440 in the car's

01:07:15.980 windows and

01:07:16.780 they were going

01:07:17.120 really slow

01:07:17.740 that's exactly

01:07:18.660 how I'll try to

01:07:19.260 sometimes explain

01:07:20.100 those those

01:07:20.780 visions too

01:07:21.420 yeah so they're

01:07:22.760 like they could

01:07:23.660 uh I I

01:07:24.760 suppose it

01:07:25.300 either that

01:07:26.040 they're on the

01:07:26.540 tracks but you're

01:07:27.280 saying that you're

01:07:27.920 describing the

01:07:28.460 things coming

01:07:28.880 towards you

01:07:29.340 rather than

01:07:29.680 yeah it will

01:07:30.160 even look like

01:07:30.680 a light on a

01:07:31.240 train coming

01:07:31.780 kind of close

01:07:32.720 towards you

01:07:33.220 interesting

01:07:34.400 interesting

01:07:35.040 yeah and

01:07:35.540 like again when

01:07:36.360 I said when you

01:07:36.900 feel that polarity

01:07:37.700 switch it's like

01:07:38.340 you see this that

01:07:39.480 white this white 0.85

01:07:40.420 sphere this glowing

01:07:41.660 white sphere just

01:07:42.320 fly at you at

01:07:43.780 that point it's

01:07:44.420 like standing on

01:07:44.960 the tracks and

01:07:45.400 watching the train

01:07:45.920 hit like watching

01:07:47.440 like if you pulled 0.91

01:07:48.040 the trigger and 1.00

01:07:48.600 fucking shot 1.00

01:07:49.040 yourself in the 1.00

01:07:49.520 head it's an

01:07:50.620 interesting thought

01:07:51.440 because so your

01:07:52.560 your sole intention

01:07:53.880 every time you do

01:07:54.680 this is to go

01:07:55.480 towards this uh

01:07:56.900 this eclipse

01:07:58.240 yes just a white

01:07:59.520 light yeah not

01:08:00.660 not take these

01:08:01.860 detours but it

01:08:02.640 seems like many

01:08:03.200 people like to get

01:08:04.580 I think that is

01:08:05.340 probably more

01:08:05.920 advanced magic

01:08:06.560 believe it

01:08:06.920 to take a

01:08:09.480 detour you mean

01:08:10.060 or yeah yeah

01:08:10.820 yeah I think

01:08:11.460 that's a little

01:08:11.820 bit more risky

01:08:12.340 too I think

01:08:13.060 that's when you

01:08:13.460 can get caught

01:08:13.920 out there possibly

01:08:14.640 what do you

01:08:16.360 think of this

01:08:16.760 idea that when

01:08:17.740 you're experiencing

01:08:18.820 these things you

01:08:19.920 are um tethered

01:08:22.300 to but still

01:08:23.560 leaving your

01:08:24.600 physical body

01:08:25.340 there's a lot of

01:08:26.160 people that that

01:08:27.100 express the idea

01:08:28.060 of like let's say

01:08:28.700 astral projection

01:08:29.400 or that's what

01:08:29.960 I think astral

01:08:30.580 projection is yeah

01:08:31.180 that you leave

01:08:32.280 your your physical

01:08:33.300 um form vulnerable

01:08:36.080 to something else

01:08:37.060 inhabiting it for a

01:08:37.880 period of time uh

01:08:38.680 yeah I do think

01:08:39.740 that does happen

01:08:40.340 too and and so

01:08:42.560 then what do you

01:08:43.360 make of the nature

01:08:44.560 of the things that

01:08:45.220 seek to inhabit your

01:08:46.040 physical form I

01:08:47.320 think that's an

01:08:48.020 issue I don't think

01:08:49.860 that's a good thing

01:08:50.760 uh in my opinion I

01:08:52.760 don't think that's a

01:08:53.440 good thing and from

01:08:54.720 some of the ways that

01:08:55.560 I have seen it

01:08:57.400 mentioned in rituals

01:08:59.380 and again I really

01:09:00.320 probably didn't

01:09:00.980 understand what I

01:09:01.520 was looking at but

01:09:02.280 I did understand

01:09:02.920 what I was talking

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01:10:05.320 something when the ego

01:10:06.720 leaves or whatever when

01:10:08.880 the soul leaves it doesn't

01:10:11.060 look like it's to me I

01:10:12.520 just that's I don't know 0.97

01:10:14.560 what the fuck like how do 0.99

01:10:15.800 you know what you're 1.00

01:10:16.160 putting in that's just

01:10:17.100 dangerous in my opinion

01:10:17.920 way to explain it it's just 0.96

01:10:20.060 fucking weird to me doing 0.65

01:10:21.040 something like that I don't 0.98

01:10:22.480 think like that's probably 0.99

01:10:24.300 fucking with some weird 1.00

01:10:25.200 shit 1.00

01:10:25.480 can you tell us a little 0.99

01:10:27.060 bit more about that like

01:10:28.040 uh your time in the OTO

01:10:29.360 did you did you come

01:10:31.100 across or like hear from

01:10:32.520 other people that have

01:10:33.600 done something like that

01:10:35.120 like have done this sort

01:10:36.480 of meditation that you've

01:10:37.380 done but taking these

01:10:38.180 other paths

01:10:38.780 no I would totally answer

01:10:41.240 with you with all time I

01:10:42.140 was in the OTO I never

01:10:43.060 had anybody even say

01:10:44.420 anything about an

01:10:45.160 experience close to what I

01:10:46.200 just explained or ever 0.98

01:10:47.500 admitted to fucking with 0.97

01:10:48.380 magic to that extent 0.99

01:10:49.240 of course in the abyss

01:10:50.080 I've never even heard

01:10:51.400 to me that's always like

01:10:52.840 another thing like you

01:10:53.660 know there was many

01:10:54.280 reasons why I left that

01:10:55.280 place but that was one

01:10:56.120 of them is because I was

01:10:56.860 like yo like you can't 0.99

01:10:58.620 tell motherfuckers this 1.00

01:10:59.400 is what magic is 1.00

01:11:00.200 because this is a little

01:11:02.060 bit different than like

01:11:02.800 I'm sure what 99.9%

01:11:04.560 people here expect

01:11:05.440 like you're so off 0.99

01:11:07.780 fucking base but like 0.99

01:11:08.600 what you your image 1.00

01:11:10.620 that you project is 0.99

01:11:11.400 completely fucking off 0.99

01:11:12.540 I don't get it 0.99

01:11:13.780 it's weird because I

01:11:14.820 feel the same way almost

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01:11:16.560 psyop in itself just

01:11:17.620 I feel the same way

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01:11:23.060 whole life and I

01:11:24.700 didn't understand what

01:11:26.480 God or even what the

01:11:27.620 Bible was saying until

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01:12:24.300 I went down the path

01:12:25.760 myself and really tried

01:12:26.920 to understand it it's

01:12:28.300 going to give you this

01:12:28.900 weird cursory understanding

01:12:30.880 this whitewashed version

01:12:32.100 of what this much larger

01:12:34.060 picture is it's up to you

01:12:35.520 to go figure that out for

01:12:37.000 yourself

01:12:37.400 yeah well even say like

01:12:40.520 even one thing like too

01:12:41.600 it's like you know how

01:12:42.300 many things are constantly

01:12:43.900 said and we just dismiss as

01:12:45.600 like a different way like

01:12:47.900 even for me how many

01:12:49.380 times you have to have I

01:12:50.360 had to hear death and a 0.55

01:12:51.600 rebirth death and a

01:12:52.420 rebirth death and a

01:12:53.220 rebirth and I never once

01:12:54.340 took death as literal but

01:12:56.220 it's been said to me 0.99

01:12:56.920 fucking how many times and 0.99

01:12:57.860 it's in how many things and 0.99

01:12:59.760 we just don't for some

01:13:00.500 reason don't want to take

01:13:01.220 that death literal at least

01:13:02.340 I didn't but it was for

01:13:04.160 me but it's been said to

01:13:06.180 me how many times it's an

01:13:09.080 interest it's like how much

01:13:10.000 stuff is actually being said

01:13:11.260 literal to us in texts or

01:13:13.240 books yeah for some reason

01:13:14.940 we just maybe because it's

01:13:16.120 easier for the mind and

01:13:17.700 the heart to accept we 0.67

01:13:18.700 downplayed something silly

01:13:20.220 well I feel as though a

01:13:22.560 lot of our culture has

01:13:23.600 been engineered in such a

01:13:25.280 way as to produce a fear

01:13:27.100 of death like a tremendous

01:13:28.420 fear yeah yeah my experience

01:13:30.960 is the most beautiful thing

01:13:32.120 I've ever experienced

01:13:33.080 right so so this is

01:13:34.940 something that awaits us

01:13:35.880 all it's it is you know

01:13:38.960 it's a part of every single

01:13:40.880 living beings journey in this

01:13:42.860 realm that we inhabit and for 0.99

01:13:44.860 some reason we're fucking 0.97

01:13:46.640 mortified of it it plagues 0.96

01:13:48.920 us I remember being a kid

01:13:50.280 and having my first

01:13:52.680 realization that like I'm

01:13:53.880 gonna die and everybody 0.98

01:13:54.600 that I love is gonna die 0.99

01:13:55.420 one day and I'm just 1.00

01:13:56.420 fucking like it made for 0.90

01:13:57.840 like two months of not being 0.99

01:13:59.480 able to sleep at night when

01:14:00.540 I was little and obviously

01:14:03.480 you know you figure out how

01:14:04.400 to compartmentalize that and

01:14:05.460 you move on with your life

01:14:06.600 but that's it right I

01:14:08.300 didn't learn how to deal

01:14:09.440 with it I learned how to

01:14:10.940 compartmentalize it and to

01:14:12.380 not think about anymore

01:14:13.460 because it was still this

01:14:14.980 this horrifying chaotic

01:14:17.340 abyss waiting on the horizon

01:14:19.840 for me and everybody that I

01:14:20.900 loved and so as an adult you

01:14:22.560 just keep moving through and

01:14:24.520 you get so inundated with just 0.99

01:14:25.860 the shit of life that luckily 0.99

01:14:28.160 that burden outweighs the 1.00

01:14:29.920 burden of thinking about your

01:14:30.980 own impending doom but we've

01:14:33.180 never we don't in the west have

01:14:35.140 a healthy way of dealing with

01:14:36.980 it at all and so it's it's like

01:14:39.080 the I had a a dream once where

01:14:42.100 I was I talk about this often

01:14:44.340 because it's just like certain

01:14:45.260 dreams really stick out but I

01:14:47.260 was on a pipe in the sky like a

01:14:48.900 narrow skinny pipe and I'm

01:14:50.160 walking and I don't care if I

01:14:51.820 fall to one way or another but

01:14:53.220 there's a dude behind me that

01:14:54.420 does he's like naked and he's

01:14:55.840 holding this pipe and he's

01:14:57.340 terrified and I look to him and

01:14:59.840 I go we have to make a pact that

01:15:02.420 we never forget where we came

01:15:03.480 from and then I fall off the pipe

01:15:05.140 willingly which is certainly

01:15:06.560 death because I'm suspended in the

01:15:08.660 air like in the sky in the

01:15:09.620 clouds and and then I fall

01:15:12.300 through a giant hole in the

01:15:13.220 ground and there's a giant

01:15:14.840 tree like a tree with a tree

01:15:16.680 trunk that the circumference of

01:15:18.120 a town or something like that

01:15:19.620 and it's huge and it's got all

01:15:20.760 this glitter dust but I think the

01:15:22.580 point is like I'm caught up I

01:15:24.160 no longer fall I'm caught up in

01:15:25.720 the sort of the gold glitter

01:15:27.000 dust that's pouring off this

01:15:28.260 tree's leaves and I'm suspended

01:15:29.860 in air and it never left me it

01:15:31.920 never left me I had that when I

01:15:33.080 was a kid and but what it does

01:15:36.080 scream is like it's everything is

01:15:38.460 on the other side of fear I

01:15:40.440 mean like that's like the

01:15:41.260 overwhelming message that I get

01:15:43.200 in everything it doesn't matter

01:15:44.200 if it's your pursuit whether it's

01:15:46.460 your pursuit in a in a romantic

01:15:47.820 situation your pursuit in a career

01:15:50.340 decision for the rest of your

01:15:51.940 even as simple as your pursuit to

01:15:54.180 oh do I want to have children and

01:15:55.680 it's like no I don't want to have

01:15:56.580 children I'm not ready yet I don't

01:15:57.800 have the career that I want I don't

01:15:59.200 I just I don't have the finances and

01:16:00.940 things aren't where it's like fear

01:16:03.000 is the the thing that keeps people

01:16:05.940 from taking the next step in any

01:16:08.300 journey and I don't think we're here

01:16:09.780 to not take part in this journey I

01:16:12.320 mean earlier on in the show we're

01:16:13.540 talking about this concept of like

01:16:14.600 the hero's journey I think that is

01:16:17.040 what we're all here we're all given

01:16:18.680 the ability we can go if we choose on

01:16:21.300 this journey or we can keep fear as

01:16:25.380 the as the the motivator for us not

01:16:27.300 taking that first step and it's like

01:16:30.000 it's in everything man and we you

01:16:31.900 know going back to the conversation

01:16:32.820 we're having before it's like I've

01:16:34.000 heard that in the Bible it says fear

01:16:35.720 not 365 times I've also heard that's a

01:16:38.200 bit of a misnomer what's not a

01:16:39.980 misnomer though is that is an

01:16:41.920 overarching message within the Bible

01:16:43.840 and within so many things is don't

01:16:45.660 give in to fear that is the thing

01:16:48.180 that's going to stop you and I don't

01:16:49.760 know it just strikes me that so much

01:16:51.000 of this this conversation it's like one

01:16:53.480 way or another whether it's it's

01:16:54.860 psychedelically or or rather

01:16:56.980 psychologically or in a in a more

01:16:59.060 physical realm it's it's a battle with

01:17:00.960 fear constantly yeah I agree I mean

01:17:04.780 everything you said I think was a

01:17:05.940 spot-on man yeah yeah do you think

01:17:09.660 fear is the killer you know I've said

01:17:12.440 I've said plenty of times even on my

01:17:13.820 own show you know because whatever

01:17:16.540 people will put you up on pedestals

01:17:19.560 idolize you to an extent it's just

01:17:21.040 going to happen when it comes to

01:17:21.940 podcasting and I've even said the

01:17:23.780 difference between me and the

01:17:24.800 listeners I just like the fear of

01:17:26.260 podcasting and I just like the fear

01:17:29.720 of getting behind the mic and

01:17:30.600 hitting record it's only difference

01:17:32.020 between me and them nobody that

01:17:33.760 special I agree with that I agree

01:17:36.820 with that I always tell people uh you

01:17:38.460 know if I could do it you could do it

01:17:39.720 but it's just a decision especially

01:17:41.480 especially if I can yes especially

01:17:43.460 yeah especially if I could do it you

01:17:44.820 could definitely do it you probably do

01:17:45.900 it way better than what I'm doing yeah

01:17:47.100 exactly exactly like a bull in a

01:17:49.640 china shop trying to do it but I'm

01:17:50.840 making it happen what do you think

01:17:52.560 about this idea that um within this

01:17:56.580 this death um and and experiencing

01:17:59.380 this light this just brings it to my

01:18:01.040 mind because you've you've talked about

01:18:02.160 something reminiscent of it um that

01:18:04.940 this is a sort of karmic trap a loop in

01:18:09.760 other words if you die there are these

01:18:11.580 entities one way or another that seek

01:18:13.720 to feed off you and keep you in this

01:18:15.940 reincarnation loop and so that actually

01:18:18.300 going towards the light uh is is I've

01:18:22.460 heard it likened to like that's the

01:18:23.800 lights in another hotel another hospital

01:18:25.720 uh room and you're being birthed again

01:18:28.200 and I don't know that if that's you

01:18:30.120 know who knows what's what's true but

01:18:31.520 what's interesting with that you have

01:18:32.700 to think about it we come in with a

01:18:34.160 flash of light and my experience I'm

01:18:36.200 going out with one yeah yeah we've

01:18:39.440 talked about that before I think the

01:18:40.800 light plays a tremendous role in all

01:18:43.080 this like when it comes to the the

01:18:45.220 imprint on the shroud of Turin which

01:18:48.200 they recently just dated to about 2,000

01:18:50.480 years ago uh and so previously it was a

01:18:53.340 lot more contention around how old it

01:18:54.880 was it seems that they've gotten that

01:18:56.380 out but um we were speculating which is

01:19:00.140 all we're good for on how the how that

01:19:03.740 imprint got on the the shroud and we

01:19:07.060 kind of kicked around this idea of like

01:19:08.860 when a when a sperm uh inseminates an

01:19:11.180 egg there is an uh you know mysterious

01:19:14.220 flash of light scientists they don't know

01:19:16.040 what to make of it but there is a

01:19:17.460 discernible flash of light when now what

01:19:19.980 happens that's on a microscopic level of

01:19:22.120 a sperm uh fertilizing an egg what

01:19:24.840 happens when uh a spirit re-enters the

01:19:27.920 body of an adult male it is the light more

01:19:31.360 substantial and and does that light then

01:19:34.280 burn uh in in an impression into this

01:19:37.560 cloth um but it does seem like this this

01:19:39.820 light thing is is huge uh you even said

01:19:42.660 that there is um light that comes out of

01:19:45.920 our eyes i think at one point you said

01:19:47.320 yeah yeah yeah we do project out six

01:19:49.300 feet i mean and technically like not to

01:19:51.760 make it sound weird but we technically

01:19:53.340 are like biological ai solar powered

01:19:56.580 biological ai we look at the sun just

01:19:58.960 light comes in we decode stuff and power

01:20:02.280 our bodies with it yeah once you hits the

01:20:05.340 optic nerve it turns into electricity and

01:20:07.040 that's all your impulses your nerves 0.91

01:20:08.360 thought all that shit so i mean basically 0.98

01:20:11.320 i mean you know what do we it's really 0.99

01:20:13.640 weird if you start thinking about how 0.97

01:20:14.900 your eyes in the sun and all that shit 0.98

01:20:16.280 works yeah we are you familiar with ed 0.98

01:20:19.220 mabry i i am because i saw him on your

01:20:22.280 youtube channel yeah ed's a great guy and

01:20:25.080 one of the things that he first talked

01:20:27.800 about when he came on our show was this

01:20:29.460 idea that if god is light and light is the

01:20:34.980 modality of communication between

01:20:38.080 neurological synapses you know uh one atom

01:20:42.300 to another everything is an electronic

01:20:44.040 impulse right uh it's a flash of light is

01:20:46.740 how your cells are communicating with one

01:20:49.660 another and if god is light then there

01:20:55.080 might be an issue here that explains why

01:20:57.900 we're so distant from him now and it's

01:20:59.760 that ed believes the speed of light is not

01:21:02.860 a constant so whatever the speed of light

01:21:04.780 i'm retarded so let's say that is that is 0.86

01:21:06.380 true because the speed of light actually

01:21:07.820 is slower through water and it's also

01:21:10.360 allegedly according to ed mabry i'm i

01:21:13.340 can't i can't confirm this i'm not smart

01:21:15.000 uh but he says that the speed of light is

01:21:17.140 slowing down it has been slowing down on

01:21:20.140 that i have seen stuff on that and there's

01:21:21.640 actually uh there's some good proof on

01:21:23.420 that so so basically the way he says it

01:21:26.200 is wow that's pretty cool thousands of

01:21:29.180 years ago we would have been much um much

01:21:32.440 more robust because our cells if the speed

01:21:35.600 of light is slowing down that means that

01:21:37.080 the communication between our our cells is

01:21:39.440 also slowing down so if you could speed that

01:21:41.880 process up thousands of years ago when we

01:21:43.780 were closer to god um then we would be much

01:21:46.820 hardier we might even live for hundreds of

01:21:48.920 years right yeah yeah and so and then uh the

01:21:53.060 other things larger you know things yes much

01:21:55.300 larger and also that our perception of the

01:21:57.960 spiritual realm would have been much more

01:22:00.120 acute because the spiritual realm just would

01:22:02.360 have been more perceivable more easily

01:22:04.380 perceivable by us but since uh he he says

01:22:07.480 that there was multiple incursions like um you

01:22:11.440 know the garden and what happened in the

01:22:13.060 garden would have been one occurs uh incursion

01:22:15.260 that caused the speed of light to slow down

01:22:17.620 dramatically and really what that is

01:22:18.980 representative of is is the speed of light

01:22:21.920 slowing down or are we getting further away

01:22:24.160 from the source of it and if we're getting

01:22:25.920 further away from the source of it and and light

01:22:28.000 is god then we're getting further away from

01:22:29.960 god which would you know kind of explain why

01:22:33.540 we're falling apart why we can't perceive the

01:22:35.820 spiritual realm our ancestors seem to have it

01:22:38.100 mapped out so much better than we do uh tucker

01:22:40.800 carlson was just talking about how we in the

01:22:42.700 west have a detachment from the spiritual realm he

01:22:45.400 thinks it's it's malicious or it's on purpose i

01:22:47.460 think i'm paraphrasing biblically what we're

01:22:50.040 talking about is like uh from human beings

01:22:53.120 talking and walking with god alongside to uh

01:22:57.560 then moses talking with god but can't look at

01:23:00.240 him and he can only see him as he walks by you

01:23:02.560 know he's like a fire then it goes to like all

01:23:04.880 right listen here's the law here's some set of

01:23:07.500 stones but i'm i'm around i'm in the sky all

01:23:11.000 the way to like i just got to send my son because

01:23:13.280 so you can see the perceived distance of if this is

01:23:17.880 the light and you know many other religions will

01:23:20.260 will call this uh the sun god or the ultimate god

01:23:23.460 they'll they'll they'll call this deity the

01:23:27.220 overarching god that is the sun and i i don't think

01:23:30.400 that they're completely wrong i think that you know

01:23:33.420 there's a lot of truth in what these people are

01:23:34.960 saying because there is something about that this

01:23:37.540 light that is on the earth but has it gotten further

01:23:40.280 away well i think so there's many stories that say

01:23:43.060 that it has gotten has gotten further away even

01:23:45.220 science will tell you this that uh constitutionally

01:23:48.280 we're made up of where we're constitutionally less

01:23:52.200 because of the distance between this thing this light

01:23:56.840 this source of light and our bodies and that's just kind

01:24:01.460 of it's it's interesting to think about it that way so

01:24:03.400 yeah if if that is true um it would make it a lot harder for

01:24:08.980 the interdimensional the spiritual realm to access us or

01:24:13.440 to even uh reproduce with us which i think that they were doing

01:24:19.220 before you know like if if human females were 1.00

01:24:23.100 a little bit hardier ed mabry likes to say they would they would be able to

01:24:27.680 take a pounding a little more readily and then then you get you know your uh

01:24:31.520 ancient beings that we like to talk about on this show

01:24:34.000 uh now not so much now it's more of a

01:24:37.180 seems like we're doing it with ai i like that you brought up the idea of ai

01:24:41.100 because we are right we are this you can think about how like we get 0.96

01:24:46.300 your parents pop us out and programmers yeah yeah dude what the fuck like half 0.99

01:24:51.140 of us are here because somebody wanted a toy for fuck's sake 0.99

01:24:53.220 it's irresponsible i mean when you when you're thinking about like such a such a 0.96

01:24:58.120 tremendous creation that like what what we are we can grow out of just a spark

01:25:02.600 of light basically into full-grown human beings making horrible decisions like

01:25:07.160 um it's yeah it really gets you to think about um

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01:26:14.640 dot com i i think what what we think the alien agenda is which is uh like some sort of a

01:26:19.980 breeding program that they can't seem to nail i don't know how deep you go on

01:26:24.360 aliens or what you even think about this stuff aliens uh i think for the most part just my

01:26:32.400 experience i could see a the alien story being a really good way to sell a magical experience

01:26:41.580 i mean i'm sure some people have had experiences where they do believe that's what happened

01:26:47.100 and i couldn't explain that but some people i do i just think some like even look at crowley i mean 0.93

01:26:52.300 the first idea that we had of a gray was from fucking him right you know who knows what he was 0.95

01:26:57.060 trying to depict and symbolism with that well what's your idea on on aliens like as far as uh 0.92

01:27:02.960 your magical experiences have gone uh for me i have a hard time believing all right put it this way i

01:27:08.920 don't believe what we even see out in the skies is true you know i find that hard to believe like

01:27:15.680 what we've been told about that i mean even just real quick just to even just bring it up

01:27:19.680 the first model that we had before the one that we have now the last two models of our ideas of

01:27:24.980 what's going on out there was given to us by occultists but they were alchemists and occultists

01:27:29.880 so i don't know if i can take what they're saying to me out there word for word right so i so just the

01:27:36.300 whole thing even with me in my opinion it doesn't sound crazy i think a lot of what's out there is

01:27:40.480 just a reflection of the inside of arrival so like how do i even explain planets and aliens thinking

01:27:46.100 that way i can't really well that's interesting because those principles of like as above so

01:27:51.380 below or as within so without like those kind of things and that does just speak to the fractal

01:27:56.740 nature of reality which you know even if you're looking at like quantum physicists and such

01:28:01.200 they're confirming to whatever degree that yeah whatever happens on the micro is also happening on

01:28:07.140 the macro and as far as you can zoom in and as far as you can zoom out you'll find the patterns

01:28:11.140 repeating i agree with you nick i think like what we're seeing out there um as far as outer space

01:28:16.960 i don't believe it and i don't believe in uh aliens per se but it's just a nice you know it's a nice

01:28:22.940 word to give when we're talking to people so that we we so much an archetype in itself yeah it's an

01:28:29.540 it's an archetype it's a way to understand what what i'm trying to convey and express but i like that

01:28:34.060 idea of like you're looking out there and you're saying when i look at the sky the night sky and you're

01:28:38.960 seeing the stars in the dark it's the same thing you see when you close your eyes it's like well

01:28:43.140 maybe like as as we look at the night sky it is like we're looking into the interdimensional i don't

01:28:49.220 think that they come from other planets i don't think that this is this earth is necessarily even

01:28:53.600 round i i don't know what shape it is but i know we can't get off of it i'm pretty sure of that i've 0.95

01:28:59.880 yeah because i keep watching this asshole smashes rockets into the firmament yeah he flies yeah right 0.76

01:29:04.380 just dings him off the dude i'm sorry every every time i see that it just looks like something like 0.98

01:29:10.380 it even behaves as if it's moving through water and then the way that it like there's moments where

01:29:14.680 it looks like it splashes against some sort of unperceivable but still physical yeah it's all

01:29:20.580 weird um can you show images on your show yeah yeah yeah you got something you want to share yeah

01:29:25.800 yeah i'll try to find another one too i don't know if next time people actually watch uh what's his face

01:29:31.120 oh there you go that so this is what you were talking about before and i i didn't know if i

01:29:35.120 should go there yet but the way that the eye seems to mimic this enclosed system that we're allegedly in

01:29:40.840 besides that if you were to ever watch elon musk launch off his rockets and when they show you the

01:29:45.540 whole bottom screen with all those little numbers going and all that shit this is exactly what the 0.99

01:29:50.220 fuck you're looking at yeah it's always curved by the way the trajectory is always fucking you know 0.99

01:29:56.580 it's oh it's you're like that's not going up dog that's going fucking across like every time i'm 1.00

01:30:01.320 like am i retarded i just can't perceive things the right way once they're too high in the sky 0.97

01:30:05.500 up looks like a cross that that's it's strange to me there's a lot of shit that they just kind of lean 0.92

01:30:10.700 on um our gullibility i feel like they're like yeah i don't believe what your eyes are saying i know 0.66

01:30:16.680 that your eyes are saying this thing's traveling uh horizontally across the horizon but trust me it's going up

01:30:21.800 yeah but i do find it interesting whenever you show elon musk like showing his like blast off

01:30:27.060 platform this is the exact design that he has on the bottom of the screen showing everything

01:30:31.880 that is the eyeball yeah i think a lot of his stuff is actually eyeball symbolism that's just my opinion

01:30:38.200 so before nick you were talking about um this orphic egg and right now we're talking a little bit

01:30:44.840 about lamb right and how he was uh kind of the archetype for the alien gray and there's there's a quote

01:30:50.820 that was attributed to so so crowley does like the amelantra workings and and one way or another ends 0.55

01:30:56.660 up communing with this entity he draws a picture of it it looks like a fucking alien gray and and 0.85

01:31:01.840 allegedly there's a um a quote attributed to lamb that says something to the effect of it's all in the 0.86

01:31:08.640 egg which is like some sort of cryptic revelation and i don't know i can't confirm that that's what

01:31:13.320 you know something that this thing said to him but we are in the middle of i don't know like

01:31:20.160 this egg event right so we were talking about the orphic egg and within the uap disclosure

01:31:26.620 kind of realm all sudden eggs have popped up on the the radar and hi i'm darren marler host of the

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01:32:30.940 dot com there's even this moment recently we showed it on this on a show where this guy is pointing to

01:32:37.380 this orb in the sky and when you zoom in on it it is an egg-shaped glowing orb with what looks like a

01:32:43.880 snake coiled around it right so um this is something that i'm not terribly familiar with i i do a little

01:32:49.680 bit of a deep dive and find out maybe i should be uh uh you know informed about this thing because it's at

01:32:55.500 the the center of the creation mythos of a shit ton of different um sort of ancient religions

01:33:03.220 and i mean from egyptian i think even norse mythology has a version the vedics have uh you

01:33:10.260 know an egg in the beginning of their mythos it's literally their creation mythos the egg cracks open

01:33:14.680 the top half becomes the firmament the lower half becomes the earth and this is like a little bit

01:33:20.560 different there's some nuances from one to another but basically either the egg itself cracks open and

01:33:27.920 creates earth and the realm that we inhabit or the egg cracks open and a creator deity comes out of

01:33:33.160 it and they create the earth or the creator deity comes out births another deity and that deity creates

01:33:39.820 the earth but it's it's all of it is is seemingly um wrapped up in this creation mythos but from what

01:33:46.460 you're talking about nick this thing seems to bear uh not not a resemblance but um it has a connection

01:33:52.740 to the human eye once again yes that's what i think even in your eye uh when you your hyaloid

01:34:00.040 canal your pupil and the zonules is in how to explain this your lens actually is held by the

01:34:05.900 zonules is in and they will either bending it back or just pushing it forward will either make your pupil

01:34:11.380 big or small when you pull it back and make it small it spirals closed and sucks light into your eye

01:34:19.120 that way and i do think again it spirals closed and it pulls open like a cross which is something i

01:34:27.860 do even want to bring up and this is just a theory of mine and i'm going to throw it out there these

01:34:31.800 rituals a lot of these rituals i'm doing i'm in a black robe with that hood on and i'm going to the

01:34:37.520 four corners and destroying these things they're doing whatever i'm doing but spinning in a circle at

01:34:42.260 the same time i honestly think the black hood and the black robe is the pupil spinning closed

01:34:48.320 and i'm destroying the four corners that are pulling it open and now i'm closing the pupil

01:34:53.220 and i'm sucking because when you now i'm going to invoke right i'm pulling the light in that's 0.93

01:34:59.000 exactly what i'm doing with the pupil i'm pulling it closed and sucking light into the back of my head 0.93

01:35:03.060 that's interesting yeah i knew top was going to do this he's pulling up but but this is worth

01:35:08.560 mentioning too shout out matthew lane says year of the snake is it interesting that as soon as the

01:35:13.200 year of the snake kicks off we start getting this egg symbolism the orphic egg i think so these are 0.97

01:35:18.740 what this is what we do in black robes uh at brohemian grove yeah these people are ridiculous yeah 0.51

01:35:24.060 annual semi-annual events the audience is dressed up in nephilim death squad cloaks and uh and i don't 0.96

01:35:31.000 know what the fuck we're doing i don't even have this uh this guy out there now i think i think he was 0.85

01:35:35.900 talking about there was some dude i saw talking about some experience that he had i think with 0.97

01:35:39.820 like you know aliens or whatever and there's like some video too where it's like showing like this

01:35:43.640 this tether looking thing and it looks like it's a sphere but if you look at it closely it's like an

01:35:49.280 egg actually and somebody is it's going around saying it's a ufo and i was like yeah zoom in on

01:35:54.980 that it's an egg it's not a circle it's an egg no it's 100 an egg and there's a second it's hanging 0.96

01:35:59.600 from like a rope so now just roll that up and you got the fucking orphic egg again roll yeah they're 0.98

01:36:03.820 they're airlifting it this is the the i i don't know if i want to call it a psychological operation 0.91

01:36:08.400 because that seems dismissive i don't think that all psychological operations are hollow sometimes i

01:36:14.140 think they're priming us for a series of events that's about to unfold and right now it seems like

01:36:18.980 it's this egg situation so you have this moment where the steven greer's and uh louise alizandos of 0.93

01:36:27.000 the world kind of like the the um the the federal arm of the mascots for for fucking uap disclosure so 0.79

01:36:36.000 so these guys are saying watch out something's gonna happen today and i go surely it's gonna be 0.95

01:36:40.100 gay but i'll keep an eye out for it and sure enough we do get like all of a sudden this video emerges of 0.99

01:36:45.140 them airlifting this fucking egg out of a out of a mountainscape and then what ends up happening is 0.99

01:36:50.140 somebody uh a whistleblower online on 4chan very trustworthy comes out and says yeah you know uh oh 0.98

01:36:56.900 here's another egg video yeah yeah uh here's another egg video and also uh i am a a whistleblower

01:37:04.060 of sorts military intelligence clearance yada yada yada but the two things that were birthed out of his

01:37:10.260 video that are very fascinating is one when you zoom in on the egg it is covered in what was the

01:37:17.580 language it was hierarchical um uh something or another but it was basically a language that would

01:37:23.500 only have been used by the priest class of greece and egypt um and there are these symbols sure

01:37:30.060 enough all imprinted all over the surface of this egg and the other thing that was found with the egg

01:37:35.500 allegedly according to this very trustworthy whistleblower from 4chan is that there was a

01:37:40.920 entity in a stasis bed basically like a med bed sort of situation and you know they woke him up and um 0.62

01:37:48.560 he's a tall nord you know how that's like one of the fucking genres of aliens that were he's a tall 0.86

01:37:54.080 nord and he's got a lot to say and interestingly enough one of the things that he said was um that 0.92

01:37:59.380 the closest we ever had to understanding god was when we were adhering to like the hermetic text or

01:38:04.640 something like that more or less these things that are the the the foundations for much of gnosticism as

01:38:11.500 it exists today so i don't know what what's coming but this egg thing does i mean yeah it's somebody said

01:38:17.380 in the chat that eggs uh snakes also lay eggs so these things are tied together also your your eyeball

01:38:24.260 is not a perfect sphere right it does have a pointed tip when it comes to your lens uh on your on your

01:38:31.460 eyeball it makes an egg so yeah i i think you're really uh onto something here nick when when you come

01:38:38.800 to this this correlation between the eye the egg lucifer the serpent and all of these things they're all

01:38:45.640 seemingly uh you know orbiting one another yeah if you want real quick i just want to so i can give

01:38:51.280 people an example if you want to pull up this piece of art i could show you now this is the birth of

01:38:55.560 venus oh i've seen this i okay go on go on

01:38:59.520 and that's the eyeball

01:39:03.740 mm-hmm and and venus by the way is is the planet associated with lucifer is it not well she she's

01:39:10.320 standing in this sort of shell so what are you representing with that eyeball there what's that

01:39:14.160 uh you can see it's virtually the same thing i mean she would be representative of the optic nerve

01:39:20.060 and then uh the what is that called the source would be like the uh shell and then she's standing

01:39:28.280 on the lens and this is the same thing front of the lens is where you have the water and that little

01:39:33.320 area in front of the lens is where they have the oculus humor and then the vitreous humor in the back is

01:39:38.140 where the blood is interesting this is very reminiscent of of um what's that famous painting

01:39:43.980 where the the fingers are are reaching towards each other and oh yes yo you know the vatican i went to

01:39:49.880 the vatican within the last year i went to italy like they they actually do accept that as being

01:39:56.360 the brain now i mean it's it's pretty uncanny and and where is when they said that on the tour i was 0.97

01:40:02.300 like what the fuck wow you're actually acknowledging that physiology is part of this shit this is the thing 0.99

01:40:07.460 that that um i think a lot of christianity is is dropping the ball because they they basically 1.00

01:40:13.360 tell you not to don't don't look at this don't worry about this and it's all heretical or or one 0.74

01:40:19.020 thing or another and it's like well you got a real problem if if any of this is is true and the problem

01:40:24.960 isn't that it diminishes christianity the problem is that you're not helping to unpack this and and that

01:40:32.460 is causing uh certainly a distrust for these religious institutions or towards these religious

01:40:39.400 institutions but i look at that and i i can't deny that i see that and then it's like well what do you

01:40:44.700 make of it because the church not going to help you understand that so you have the very organizations

01:40:49.660 that you've been uh you know accusing of of just being satanic or luciferian it's like well not good

01:40:55.900 all right i guess you don't get to learn about it then you don't get to know what this is and that

01:40:59.460 that that's a problem from like the 1200s to the 1600s to the 1700s i don't even yeah push the 1600s

01:41:04.540 in the catholic church the people who made some of the biggest breakthroughs and stuff or

01:41:08.260 applying physiology yeah they're applying anatomy to uh you know to understanding well and what i want

01:41:16.160 to say about that too is i don't think that it has to be reductive in other words i don't think that

01:41:19.880 you have to look at this and say oh all spirituality is just an anagram or or rather a metaphor

01:41:26.080 for the anatomy of human beings it's like no i don't think it's just that it is that and it's

01:41:33.540 also many other things so so like top says it's like this realm is is multiple realms layered over

01:41:38.760 one another um it's like slices yes you don't have to look at this and be like oh no um even even for

01:41:46.580 me it's like i believe that lucifer is an actual entity but also is there some correlation between the

01:41:52.640 the the celestial body of venus um and there is there also some correlation uh with our eyeball

01:41:58.820 and our and our own anatomy it's like yeah yeah all those things i think all those things are are true

01:42:04.040 and they're all layered on top of one another but i think much of what christianity does is it looks at

01:42:09.160 these concepts and it sees them as pulling away um the actual not the how do i put this it it removes a

01:42:17.800 layer of of reality and makes it so that it's all just um analogous and i don't think that that is

01:42:24.320 the case at all i think that this realm is rich with layers it's like um you know we've talked about

01:42:31.580 it a lot where there's this idea that you can take this oil that's producing your in your spine

01:42:37.600 you have 33 vertebrae in the spine that's why christ lived 33 years and and there's a oil in your

01:42:42.840 spine called christos if you can migrate this to your pineal gland through a through meditation then you

01:42:47.260 can achieve some sort of like ascended masterhood or even that the sun is representative of christ

01:42:52.820 and the sun rests on the celestial crux for three days before the days become longer uh you know

01:42:58.420 during the winter solstice or after the winter solstice and that is reminiscent of or or at least

01:43:03.680 metaphorical for the resurrection of christ and it's like jesus christ doesn't have to be the sun in the

01:43:10.760 sky it's like whatever this realm was it's created hi i'm darren marler host of the weird darkness

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01:44:07.780 and get paid while doing it check out spreaker.com that's s-p-r-e-a-k-e-r.com and there are echoes of

01:44:17.240 this very important story all the way throughout it wherever you're willing to look and just because

01:44:22.600 you lock on to one does not dismiss all of the other instances of that and so that's the thing that

01:44:28.740 that has been driving me nuts and i fear that in a time where i don't know if you agree with this nick

01:44:33.980 it feels like spiritually things are getting heightened oh yeah yeah i agree with that for

01:44:38.660 sure and a lot of people are not going to have a roadmap and that's going to cause what i would say

01:44:45.760 like is is a hasty falling away you know like i don't think you should there are many ways in which

01:44:52.620 the church has dropped the ball but i don't think that you should throw the baby out with the bath water

01:44:56.800 so if something happens in the near future that uproots your understanding of the spiritual realm

01:45:01.880 then you might just feel like you need to you know detach yourself and get and and spiral and

01:45:07.720 freak out and grab on to the first thing that makes sense to you which is what a lot of people do when 0.99

01:45:11.500 they first wake up when you first wake up you tend to fall for a bunch of dumb shit that's not true 0.99

01:45:15.900 because oh it's happened to me yeah oh dude it's happened to me so much it had i'm fucking so wrong 0.98

01:45:21.400 all the time all the time dude so i that's that's my big fear right now is that these things are 0.51

01:45:28.940 ancient and have stuck around for a reason and we're gonna go through some shit soon i think that 0.82

01:45:34.040 a lot of people are just gonna start tossing things in the trash yeah no i definitely think i just think 0.54

01:45:39.560 even from the idolization of politicians right now and just people in general that shows you that people

01:45:45.840 are lost you know we're going the wrong way we're looking you know we're looking for fixes of our fear

01:45:51.640 and man instead of ourselves or god you know trump is going to fix everything for me or kamala harris is 0.79

01:45:59.220 going to fix everything get the fuck out of here that's how it goes you know that's everything that 0.99

01:46:04.520 we've been inundated with right we started oh yeah i believe that shit too you know at some point 0.99

01:46:08.480 you know oh no yeah well i was uh balls deep into the queue thing oh so i was like i'm trying to tell 0.99

01:46:14.840 all my friends they're fucking drinking babies dude and nobody wants to listen to me at all 0.99

01:46:19.120 yeah then i was like you know too much of this shit seems like i just started a lot of stuff 0.99

01:46:23.320 with occultism started popping up and i was like yeah yes yeah and then he had that whole what did 0.98

01:46:29.060 he he had the the the kingmaker ritual i think is that it or the or the king the kill king ritual or

01:46:34.540 something like that right when he takes the kingmaker i think i remember that yeah yeah that's

01:46:38.600 basically the assassination attempt where it's like he has blood on his right ear blood on his right

01:46:43.160 hand and blood on his right foot because his shoe is off mysteriously like he's got no shoe on so

01:46:48.920 he's going through a ritual right before our eyes but you know we're looking at it as as uh

01:46:54.060 an assassination attempt i don't know it's all well that was the king kill ritual and the king

01:46:59.020 kill ritual thank you some would say that the king that was killed there would would have been joe biden

01:47:03.340 because right after that he steps down it's all really weird symbolic esoteric stuff if you're

01:47:09.300 looking closer we were we were some of the first people to call it out and we were like that didn't

01:47:13.780 look real at all we and i still don't think his ear looks fine now it's weird yeah his ear looks 0.62

01:47:19.920 better than fine his skin looks great by the way when they fucking zoom in on that guy for the 0.77

01:47:24.200 inauguration photo i'm like oh yeah it didn't look like an orange man as much no he didn't look like 0.73

01:47:28.260 an orange man he looked healthy and hydrated and i'm like this guy's got great skin for being

01:47:31.920 fucking really old but yeah his ear looks perfectly fine go figure it's weird because it's not even like

01:47:38.040 they're trying to hide that right it's like they like even in the picture his other ear is covered 0.99

01:47:43.760 and that ear is favoring the camera so you can like really put that bitch in 4k and zoom in on it and 1.00

01:47:49.080 be like there's no fucking discernible wound here nope that was a magical act right there 0.98

01:47:54.520 very strange very strange that's that's my fear though is that we've been stripped of our understanding 0.97

01:48:01.100 of the spiritual realm and we've been inundated by fear or with fear by this propaganda machine

01:48:06.060 right because it's like we're all pretty comfortable with if it bleeds it leads so what 0.92

01:48:11.040 have we been doing we've just been basking in just fucking like this trauma cycle from the media oh 0.91

01:48:16.280 yeah mk ultra mk ultra right right right well if you could fear if you could fear somebody it'll 0.90

01:48:24.000 probably make it easier for you to love them and then you you had mentioned that that uh the host or

01:48:30.600 the uh yeah the host would need would need to love its parasite in order for these rituals

01:48:35.840 to be successful seems like that's where we're at here yeah it would be forced feared and then

01:48:41.820 it's like you force fed fear and it's like well here's here's your savior i'm just gonna use trump 0.51

01:48:46.160 as an example because it's just an easy thing to pick i think both sides suck uh you know and then

01:48:51.200 you fall in love with him because you think he's gonna make everything better you fall in love with 1.00

01:48:54.560 his jokes you fall in love with his trolling you fall in love with the stupid shit he says you think 1.00

01:48:57.740 he's fucking funny you know you people fall in love with fucking newscasters they think they they know 1.00

01:49:02.500 who they are it's like you just know the 30 minutes a day that they show you right no tech 1.00

01:49:07.240 shit who the hell they are this is a strong one too we we've been beating the drum on trump i i really 0.80

01:49:12.540 i like trump uh but a lot of the things here that you're gonna see him do uh within it's been two 0.99

01:49:19.900 weeks right and he's used just basically executive orders to sort of turn around and write the country

01:49:25.320 in a certain i mean it's it's an obvious kind of way he's like i just signed executive order

01:49:30.600 there's only two genders is like there always was um but now it it's just like it seems like

01:49:36.740 these are problems that are created that now are going to be attributed to somebody uh that did very

01:49:42.600 little to fix them the economic problems the problems i mean that with the border like these

01:49:48.240 are simple things but i'm very suspect i'm glad that he did it because it's getting fucking out of 0.86

01:49:53.340 control it was out of control you know and it was to the point where we're like yo we need somebody

01:49:58.580 to actually come in and stop the bleeding and he came in and it's like yeah signed a couple of 0.85

01:50:03.460 papers stop the bleeding this is obvious shit you know what's interesting the when kobe crashed in 0.97

01:50:09.540 his helicopter trump was trying to shut down the border for health reasons and now we just had a 0.99

01:50:15.360 helicopter crash and shutting the border dude did you see i mean the helicopter we got fucking the 0.98

01:50:20.940 kansas city chiefs versus the philadelphia eagles this fucking plane takes off from kansas city and then 0.99

01:50:26.400 nosedives into philadelphia like what the fuck what are we doing here i don't fucking believe that 0.99

01:50:32.960 i mean i obviously know some shit crash landed whatever the fuck it was i don't even know if it was a 0.99

01:50:37.100 plane um but but i look at that and i'm like i just yeah it's it's uh the plane of the black 0.99

01:50:43.500 hawk the plane was going to runway 33 for fuck's sakes i know so ridiculous and then by the way who 0.88

01:50:48.760 who uh the kansas city no no the philadelphia eagles made a tweet like a couple of days right before it 0.95

01:50:54.560 about a helicopter like it was a helicopter they they made what you know how you could take like

01:50:58.420 some some uh symbols off your keyboard and fucking keep i don't know how people do that but they make 0.98

01:51:02.800 a post and somehow all the symbols on their keyboard they make a whole fucking helicopter it was like 0.98

01:51:07.220 that something like that and um and then sure enough right after that this helicopter crashes 0.97

01:51:11.900 and by the way we just watch this helicopter fucking it's the most slow motion like like you know 0.99

01:51:18.320 a horrific moment in the world it's like here's the plane and fucking just here comes the fucking 0.99

01:51:23.700 helicopter and it's like five minutes and this fucking helicopter is still coming and it's not 0.99

01:51:28.000 turning nobody's making any fucking effort whatsoever and how that happened like that 0.98

01:51:32.160 unless it was suicide or done on purpose it would be very hard to do it like honestly if you think about 0.95

01:51:37.360 flying in three-dimensional like space not space but three-dimensional space to to cut off an airplane

01:51:44.340 it's not easy to do you that's that's got to be intentional you don't do it by accident when they

01:51:49.800 were like they were doing like a public announcement about it i think maybe last night or the night

01:51:53.080 before they even said that uh the drill that they were doing required them to wear night vision 0.98

01:51:57.780 yeah well technically they should have been wearing those too and it's like how the fuck did you not

01:52:01.840 see this and weird thing is is the plane i think is at 325 feet and the helicopter is at 200 during the

01:52:09.160 collision so where's the 125 feet that doesn't make sense i didn't know that another thing another thing

01:52:16.060 that i threw in there yesterday at uh uh shout out to great pilled podcast with uh jewel oh nice

01:52:21.160 nice yeah um i was on there because i was just i'm binging uh uh breaking bad again and i'm up to

01:52:27.860 the season i don't know if you guys have seen it but spoiler alert there's a season where jesse's

01:52:31.800 girlfriend ods oh yeah yeah her father's an air traffic controller and the that season culminates

01:52:38.680 where uh the beginning of every episode of that season they're showing walt's pool and he has like

01:52:43.800 different debris in his pool or in his yard and and people you know they're collecting evidence and

01:52:48.660 you're assuming that it's going to be part of the drug trade that he's doing but no it's it's this

01:52:53.580 event that happens the father that's an air traffic controller is distracted or distraught and he

01:52:59.340 accidentally directs two planes into each other and they crash midair and i like it's just funny that

01:53:05.980 like i was like oh i want to watch this this is a great show and i watched it and like two days before

01:53:10.480 i watched this completely i haven't i didn't remember the show at all i was like oh my god

01:53:15.820 it was like is this predictive programming in like 2016 because that's when this yeah too i thought

01:53:21.020 that was whole weird that whole time coming back out too i was like what the fuck and it wasn't just 0.67

01:53:26.180 tanya harding either apparently there was like a couple of others so yeah silent g says tanya 0.99

01:53:29.900 harding made a twitter uh a tweet the morning of the crash after 10 years of that's even fucking 0.92

01:53:34.960 unheard of 10 years of no social media and then the most famous uh uh figure skater in the world 0.94

01:53:40.560 tweets on the morning that a bunch of figure skating children fucking die in this helicopter 0.82

01:53:45.580 this is why this is why it's like so now we're talking about ice ice skating and now i feel like 0.98

01:53:50.460 yeah dude but the breaking bad thing has it's directly dealing with the cartel and mexico so we're 0.93

01:53:57.160 talking about ice ice skating breaking bad with the cartel i'm like oh what the fuck dude it's just 0.95

01:54:01.880 information oh and ice is even on a rampage in our country right now too that's it that's it man 0.98

01:54:08.480 that's what i'm saying so so whatever's going on with trump to me it feels like i mean this is coming

01:54:13.020 from the a guy who wrote the art of the deal or the art of the comeback right was it the art of the

01:54:17.560 comeback or something like that or was it the art of the deal might have written both yeah i don't

01:54:22.640 know if you see that look that up but what but what i see is like this theatrical comeback story

01:54:26.840 right where like you have this guy he gets in he does pretty good but he gets um wrongly accused

01:54:32.680 and criticized for all kinds of shit that's paper thin anybody with a critical thinking you know or 0.98

01:54:37.240 the ability to critically think sees that they're just levying a bunch of paper thin shit at him and 0.99

01:54:41.900 it all falls apart over and over again but it still ruins his reputation and then he gets kicked out and 0.98

01:54:48.160 the fucking dude that takes his place just nosedives the entire country into philadelphia and everybody is 1.00

01:54:53.320 watching this shit show he's a corpse he's shitting his pants we're all going oh my god this is so bad 1.00

01:54:57.500 then we finally get the guy back and he just goes on a rampage and starts doing all the shit that we 1.00

01:55:02.460 want him to do i'm like this is fucking theater he wrote this is theater wrote both books so he did i 0.99

01:55:07.100 have the art of the deal here but he wrote the art of the comeback as well talking about you know how 0.98

01:55:10.560 he's gone into into debt and bankruptcy so many times and came back from it yeah well he's fucking right 0.77

01:55:16.340 now is performing the ultimate version of the art of the comeback and to me it's old theater and it goes back 0.98

01:55:20.640 to that apparently this is a big um misnomer as well but i don't give a shit i'm going to continue 0.81

01:55:26.460 spreading this fake quote uh but it was what albert pike and morals and dogma that said when the people 0.78

01:55:31.500 need a hero we shall provide one for them apparently that's that's oversimplifying the the the the the

01:55:38.160 quote from albert pike but i think still um that's what we're being subjected to it's like they create

01:55:44.080 it's a hegelian dialect kind of a deal like they'll create this scenario they'll wait for this big

01:55:48.860 reaction and then they'll slide this character in for us to to clamor around and right now i think

01:55:54.580 we're seeing in a guy who i like who's very entertaining who i do think is funny and i do

01:56:00.340 like his his policies and his legislation um we're seeing the ultimate version of that uh unfolding

01:56:06.580 right now and i don't know where this goes i mean i got a bunch of ideas but i don't think it's

01:56:10.680 anywhere good and i think we probably do go to a golden age um but it's more like a blavatsky 0.53

01:56:17.000 you know alice bailey golden age and i think it's only temporary until some shit happens it's like 0.61

01:56:22.760 what what does the bible say when they say uh peace and and prosperity or peace and uh and safety 0.86

01:56:28.520 sudden uh uh destruction shall fall upon them i think that's kind of probably what we're going to be

01:56:33.720 uh uh subjected to soon i could agree i think i think things are going to get weird for sure in

01:56:40.700 the next four years oh well look we're at the hour and 45 minute mark this is a great conversation

01:56:48.020 nick i would love to have you back in the future yeah man uh it went to places i wasn't i didn't

01:56:54.520 know we were going to end up going uh but very fascinating stuff so for the people uh one more 0.91

01:56:59.640 time let everybody know where they can find you nick uh the occult rejects and that is on bitch 1.00

01:57:03.680 you rumble and youtube and all major podcasts and then we do have the occult research institute you

01:57:09.220 can check out there and uh yeah that's where you can find all the stuff thank you

01:57:14.240 hell yeah man all right uh again it was a pleasure talking to you thank you for coming on we're going

01:57:20.040 to be uh chatting soon and uh guys until another two hours when we see you again we'll be back on

01:57:27.140 don't forget to obey submit and comply we'll see you later guys peace out

01:57:31.160 the greatest hypnotist on planet earth is a oblong box in the corner of the room it is constantly

01:57:38.480 telling us what to believe is real you can persuade you that what they see with their eyes is what

01:57:45.180 there is to see because they'll laugh in the face of an explanation that portrays the bigger picture

01:57:53.080 of what's happening and they have

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Nephilim Death Squad - February 07, 2025

117： Crossing the Abyss w⧸ The Occult Rejects

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