Pearl - React to some videos with me

00:00:00.960 what's up guys welcome to another episode of not really pearl daily but i got to do some reactions

00:00:07.120 um the power might go out here allegedly so apparently there's a big storm coming

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00:00:18.080 but i i'm gonna do some reactions in case the power goes out and then we can't stream so then

00:00:23.440 the editor can you know clip these so just so you know for those of you watching today if you're

00:00:29.760 watching the live stream when i do reactions on stream the way i do it is i do have to keep

00:00:36.240 filming the intros uh because i usually start my stream saying what up guys welcome um today i'm

00:00:44.080 going to react and i have to you know so i'm going to have to do that a million times as i switch

00:00:47.920 topics, but, oh my gosh, the audio is like half, let me see, there we go.

00:00:56.160 Oh, oh, oh, oh, I can't talk, I, I can't talk about what I've done.

00:01:20.920 I can only say that I was born to run

00:01:28.100 I made none of my own girl

00:01:34.100 Mary and you is like a smoking gun

00:01:37.740 I can only say

00:01:42.660 I can only say

00:01:45.340 So I think if I do minor scales

00:01:48.540 So if I'm doing an F minor scale

00:01:50.340 If I do pentatonic minor, so I skip this, and I skip this, so I've got to remember.

00:02:10.340 Alright.

00:02:11.340 I can only say that I was born to run, I can only say that you were the one, I can only

00:02:27.500 say this is a smoking gun, but I can't live my life under, but I can't live my life under

00:02:39.720 the sun. People, they're gonna say what they'll say. Thinking about that, yeah, it's kind

00:02:52.000 again. And maybe you never loved me anyway. And I know, and I know I'm not gonna, and

00:03:12.780 i know i won't be on the radio maybe i get maybe i get a little bit okay i'm kind of messing up

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00:04:12.700 all right all right so today we are talking about women all right we're going to do the first

00:04:18.780 reaction what up guys welcome to my reaction series today we are going to be reacting to

00:04:25.260 women that go no contact with their parents now i have a hard time reacting to these videos because 0.51

00:04:31.100 i don't really know who the villain is because a lot of times it's easy to blame gen z women but 1.00

00:04:37.180 boomer women were terrible too so usually if they go no contact with their parents it's it's one of 1.00

00:04:42.860 three things right number one the the daughter's insufferable and unappreciative that's one two 1.00

00:04:49.020 the mother is insufferable and makes it so insufferable to go home that um yeah that's two 1.00

00:04:58.060 three is the mother turned the daughter against the father so one of three and we're gonna go

00:05:06.300 together in the chat you can say what you think it was so discourse lately about going no contact

00:05:12.860 with family aka estrangement and how this is a growing trend amongst young people i think the

00:05:18.540 conversation can get a little bit too black and white so i wanted to offer what i like to think

00:05:23.100 of as the secret third option there are absolutely situations and circumstances in which going

00:05:27.820 completely and 100 no contact permanently and forever is the right move now i don't know there's

00:05:33.980 different parents are overbearing right so like a lot of times they got to let their kids grow up

00:05:42.620 but at the same time at the same time um sometimes the kids are insufferable so let's see for that

00:05:52.860 relationship these are relationships that are unfixable they're unworkable they're abusive

00:05:57.260 and they're harmful to one or more parties but there are a lot of relationships that live in

00:06:01.660 this middle gray territory that would really benefit from what i like to call a relationship

00:06:06.780 reset period more than a complete and total permanent severing our longest held relationships

00:06:13.820 can get caught in time in these like really yeah because sometimes it just needs to be like a few

00:06:18.620 years um and then they they figure it out but sometimes things need to get broken to like come

00:06:24.620 back together i don't know if that like makes sense relational dynamic loops that over time

00:06:29.740 we outgrow but every time we drop into the dynamic we're forced to play this role that

00:06:34.620 was established a very long time ago so these are relationships where the role that you play in the

00:06:38.940 dynamic supersedes your individual personhood and it's not necessarily that you're you're outright

00:06:44.860 harmed in the dynamic it's it's not necessarily that you're completely unseen or completely

00:06:50.240 disrespected but we used to have kids so like no contact you could just be like well i'm busy with

00:06:56.280 my kids that's the challenge now no contact means more because you're like yeah you're obviously not

00:07:02.080 busy you're not accepted for who you are now you are seen through a filter of perhaps who you once

00:07:10.960 were or who other people have always wanted you to be. These sort of relational dynamics are not

00:07:15.800 totally unworkable. They can be if the other parties are completely committed to never changing

00:07:20.280 at all. But oftentimes what they benefit from is the severing of the old dynamic. So it's a

00:07:25.640 temporary period of estrangement that declares, I will no longer be showing up in that capacity.

00:07:31.880 I will no longer be playing that old role. And it asserts, you don't know me as well as you think

00:07:38.740 that you do, right? The estrangement creates strangers. And so after a period of estrangement,

00:07:45.480 you can re-enter the relationship and establish a new dynamic. You re-meet each other in a

00:07:52.380 different period of time under different circumstances as new iterations of self.

00:07:57.820 I think the reason that this is a quote-unquote growing trend is in part because there's an

00:08:01.600 increased conversation around abusive dynamics and that we do not have to remain in them,

00:08:05.780 that you don't deserve to. But I also think in part, it's because a lot of relationships are

00:08:10.400 going through this reset period. I mean, I think people have the right to their hell either way.

00:08:14.760 So if, you know, there's nothing necessarily wrong with going no contact. You know, if it's

00:08:21.780 a mistake, they'll find out it's a mistake later, you know, where people are presently or are going

00:08:26.660 no contact who may not choose to be that way for the duration of their entire life, but who need

00:08:32.400 to enter that period of no contact for a chapter in their life. There's something like an 80%

00:08:38.060 reconciliation rate with mothers and a 70% reconciliation rate with fathers in parent-child

00:08:42.920 estrangement dynamics. Life is both long and short. It's important to live with the awareness

00:08:49.740 that we don't have... Okay, I'm gonna need to move on to the next one. She needs to get to the point.

00:08:54.940 All right, let's see this one. It basically led me to my breaking point in going no contact with

00:08:59.260 my parents. I'm not going to talk about things that happened in my childhood. Obviously we know

00:09:02.340 like they were not good people but honestly I thought once I moved out it was going to get

00:09:05.600 better so I very quickly realized that it was not going to get better. So the first one is I would

00:09:09.280 still make up rules that I would have to follow whenever I would go to their house. Like I

00:09:12.480 remember the first couple times that I had to go to their house after I'd moved out they didn't say

00:09:16.960 anything to me about me having my phone in like certain areas of the house and then randomly like

00:09:21.880 like the third or fourth time I went over there after I'd moved out I had my phone in my hand

00:09:25.620 and i was going into my okay this is a brat i mean if it's someone else's house you still have to

00:09:31.260 it's like women man yeah when you go to someone else's house you do have to obey their rules 0.99

00:09:36.060 sister's room my mom was like just because you moved out doesn't mean the rules are different

00:09:39.260 you need to leave that out here even though i had already done that like several other times

00:09:42.580 before when i had visited and it was never mentioned basically i just think she was doing

00:09:46.400 it to like show that she was like the boss or something i don't know there was also one time 0.93

00:09:49.520 where i basically called my mom asking her to say sorry and to stop acting the way that she acts 0.99

00:09:53.360 she basically like admitted to doing it but also like wouldn't take accountability for doing it 0.99

00:09:57.140 basically she wanted me to drop it and slip it under the rug and i wouldn't let that happen i

00:10:00.400 was literally like i just wanted i'm sorry i just want you to say sorry she was like fine i'll say

00:10:03.620 sorry and she was like i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry it was not genuine at all she was literally

00:10:08.080 mimicking me on the phone all right i'm i'm going with the kids the brad in this when she started 0.83

00:10:12.200 doing that i basically just hung up on her and i text her i was like you're disgusting maybe the 0.99

00:10:15.640 mom is too dang i never want to talk to you again this is like my basically like overall breaking 0.75

00:10:20.720 point for everything it would try so hard to sneak around to find out things about me genuinely like

00:10:25.460 nobody would ever really like call and check up on me i asked my mom would never ever to call me or

00:10:30.520 text me even before we went no contact never call up and text me but she was always doing things to 1.00

00:10:35.500 try and figure out what i was doing she was always trying to figure out where i was at they literally

00:10:39.100 put a tracker in my car without my knowledge really anytime i would have a missed call from

00:10:43.320 my dad i was all right i'm getting overbearing mother and bratty daughter i'm getting both

00:10:47.380 literally calling back you would always be like oh sorry i didn't mean to call you it was never

00:10:50.900 like oh i was just calling you to see how you were doing like i never got a phone call like that

00:10:54.740 why don't i just basically tracker tells me crazy mom that's crazy yeah control freak mom brad dot

00:11:01.220 yeah we realized they did not actually care and they were actually just like obsessed with

00:11:05.700 controlling me and that's like my overall reason for not talking to them anymore bye guys here's

00:11:10.500 some okay um all right let's let's analyze this one millennial child going no contact with you

00:11:17.540 is it because they're ungrateful you fed and watered them for 18 years yeah that's a bad

00:11:22.900 i agree with the daughter on this because um if you kids do not you're not entitled to gratitude

00:11:31.940 for doing what you were supposed to do do you know what i mean it's like uh you gotta you were

00:11:37.940 supposed to pay your kids till they're 18 now if they keep doing it that's another thing but you

00:11:43.540 did take on the responsibility of children and that's an 18 year you know because they told you

00:11:48.980 a hundred times what hurt them and instead of listening you played victim became emotionally

00:11:54.340 abusive i'd have to know what specifically hurt you and then they had to set a boundary what is

00:11:59.060 emotional abuse you got to go into that protect themselves the way you wouldn't protect them

00:12:03.140 um who said that your millennial child let's see and to be fair millennials had terrible parents

00:12:12.500 in general i mean um most of our parents like didn't i mean most of the mothers were working

00:12:18.140 just in general not great not great parenting millennial parents i mean they raised these 0.98

00:12:23.780 only fans going to contact is not a trend it's not an aesthetic and it's not a personality trait

00:12:30.920 it is quite literally a last resort. Nobody just wakes up one day and is like, you know,

00:12:35.980 it would be fun to cut off my mom, to cut off my dad, to cut off my siblings and to walk through 0.97

00:12:42.220 the holidays alone. No contact is what happens after years of being the scapegoat, of being

00:12:52.680 dismissed. What does that mean? Do you know what makes me believe this story less? I got to be

00:12:58.920 honest it's the background music for me um a little bit the horse teeth um unseen of being

00:13:08.220 the peacemaker of being the emotional punching bag going no contact is the final boundary

00:13:15.040 that every like it's just dramatizing it do you know what i mean like

00:13:19.120 i feel like less problematic people they're just like look this is the problem this is what happened

00:13:27.280 this is what i did so moving on anyways and then you just keep going but this is the music make me

00:13:33.600 makes me think she's the problem child doesn't want to set but all of their other smaller

00:13:39.200 boundaries have been crossed and there is no other option it's the moment you finally choose

00:13:45.280 your nervous system go for the narrative it's the moment that you decide you are not going to

00:13:52.480 continue playing the role that your family has cast you in who are calling no contact a trend

00:13:57.920 have obviously never grieved a family that was still alive they've never had to choose between

00:14:02.560 their mental health and a seat at the holiday table they've never cried in their car after

00:14:06.720 setting a boundary that should have been respected the first time so no going no contact with your

00:14:12.080 family is not a trend it is a response to trauma and it is a healing decision now in her defense

00:14:19.200 right there are a lot of overbearing mothers there's a lot of mothers that take no direction 1.00

00:14:24.720 from the father right and this completely implodes the family dynamic because our nature is chaos

00:14:30.880 um it's chaotic when we don't have male guidance so um now to be fair to the fathers um

00:14:40.720 i mean that women don't accept the guidance so it's like a you know so um most if you pay

00:14:48.800 attention most relationships are transgender meaning the woman is acting like the man and 0.65

00:14:54.000 the man is acting like the woman um but i i still think the music is gonna my final thing is i think

00:14:59.920 it's her and if this is your first season no okay yeah let's go to the next one

00:15:06.720 but what i'm writing what your wishes are i don't know my boundary is my

00:15:12.400 My wishes are either I leave or you leave.

00:15:19.300 These are my wishes.

00:15:20.800 So how is that going to be executed?

00:15:23.300 Because you said no contact.

00:15:25.600 I respect your no contact.

00:15:27.400 But I'm not going to keep walking around in a space

00:15:30.100 where somebody does not want to have no contact with me.

00:15:33.200 That doesn't make sense.

00:15:34.300 Why would you want to be in a space with somebody

00:15:36.100 that you don't want to have no writing?

00:15:37.400 Put what in writing?

00:15:38.400 What your wishes?

00:15:39.800 OK, I'm a little confused.

00:15:42.400 So she lives at home and is going no contact.

00:15:49.560 Okay.

00:15:52.400 Let's try this one.

00:15:53.440 My DM is asking me this crazy question about can you go no contact with a parent that you still live with?

00:15:58.340 And I'm going to hurt a couple of feelings with this answer because no, baby, you cannot.

00:16:02.920 When you are over 18 and you're living in somebody else's house, you're a guest. 0.56

00:16:07.060 You're a guest.

00:16:07.920 You don't legally have to be there.

00:16:09.380 so what do you mean i'm gonna go no contact but still live in your house no contact means i don't

00:16:13.960 have to speak to you i don't have to be governed by yeah okay the mom i would say the mom would

00:16:20.660 should kick her out uh you can't be relying on some like that's kind of yeah they should kick 1.00

00:16:27.800 her out your rules and if you live in a person's house then you absolutely do see you're not

00:16:33.080 entitled to a person's financial support because they abused you and as a matter of fact you should

00:16:37.140 be running from their financial support because you know it always comes with strings people who

00:16:41.780 have really been abused by their parents and have who have been taken down through there by their

00:16:45.820 parents understand this and before a person say oh you entitled you don't know ball baby i've been

00:16:50.300 on my own since i was seven fucking teen paying my own bills and making my own way one of the 0.91

00:16:56.600 things my mother used to say to me that really stuck with me is if you want to be grown and you 0.97

00:17:00.360 go get your own mortgage and that's exactly what the fuck i did and i know the times are hard right 0.97

00:17:05.500 now but you have a decision to make the decision though is not making the rules in your parents 0.99

00:17:10.860 house go get you a mortgage of your own if you want to be no contact okay i agree with that

00:17:16.940 i agree with that okay let's see the next one you go no contact with my toxic mother 1.00

00:17:22.140 now i do still live with her and she pays all of the bills that's incredible that's incredible

00:17:30.060 the mother is paying for the daughter to talk to i bet the mom is toxic i don't know why 1.00

00:17:34.780 but well let me listen that is not the point this has been a really hard decision but i need to

00:17:40.620 prioritize my piece because my mental health matters and sometimes that means cutting off

00:17:44.940 the people who are hurting you even if they're family even if you live in their house even if

00:17:49.820 they pay your phone bill your car insurance and buy all of the grocery all right she needs to get 1.00

00:17:56.220 a job yeah she needs to get a job because those are just things and things do not erase trauma 0.93

00:18:04.540 my mom is i actually agree that just because someone buys you a lot of times people like

00:18:10.220 i'll give you an example men want their money to matter to women but women don't care about 1.00

00:18:14.300 money we care about their behavior or we care about money when we're forced to care about money

00:18:17.740 but in general we look for like character traits you know so um yeah genuinely so toxic she's 1.00

00:18:28.620 always asking me questions like did you eat or what time are you coming home tonight can you

00:18:32.940 clean up after yourself like i'm an adult this has to be trolling i can do whatever i want she 1.00

00:18:39.060 doesn't get to interrogate me every day just because i live in her house rent free so i've

00:18:44.000 decided i'm done engaging when she tries to talk to me i'm gonna plug my ears and if she keeps going 0.89

00:18:49.140 i'm gonna go la la la la until she stops that's called a boundary and when she asked me to do 0.97

00:18:56.220 chores i'm gonna stomp to my room slam the door and put a pillow this has to be trolling 0.93

00:19:01.140 your job decided to go no contact with my called a boundary and when she asked me to do chores i'm

00:19:08.540 gonna stomp to my room slam the door and put a pillow over my head because i don't deserve that

00:19:13.780 kind of negative energy in my life and yes i still eat the food she buys but i wait until she goes to

00:19:19.540 bed so i don't have to see her face i tiptoe to the kitchen at around two in the morning to have

00:19:24.760 my meals that's called strategy and protecting my peace while i get the nutrition that i deserve to

00:19:30.440 healed and for everyone saying that's not what no contact means yes it is it means no emotional

00:19:36.460 engagement it doesn't mean i have to move out of her house why would i move out of her house i don't

00:19:41.000 have a job and i don't want to pay bills i'm not about to be homeless just to be able to set a

00:19:45.860 boundary and prove a point she owes me she's the reason i need therapy so the least she can do is 0.97

00:19:51.160 continue to pay for everything while i do my healing and if she calls herself trying to come

00:19:56.040 into my room to talk i'm hiding under the covers and holding my breath and she's just gonna have 0.97

00:20:00.280 to deal with that i'm an adult now and this is what adults do anyway i'm on a healing journey

00:20:05.300 i'm in my peace era and i'm setting boundaries and protecting my mental health stay toxic free

00:20:10.820 besties i feel like this has to be trolling the gynecologist telling you that your periods can't

00:20:20.520 be scooped out are okay i was like this has to be a troll okay there's no way all right guys um 0.96

00:20:28.100 i think some of those women will you know i think some of them are a little crazy but some of them 1.00

00:20:34.100 it's valid you know because again most relationships right now are transgender

00:20:38.580 and um because we're all in transgender relationships um a lot of stuff is messed

00:20:43.940 up but some people do need to go no contact to get away from their overbearing mother 1.00

00:20:47.540 anyways guys let me know what you think in the comments make sure you like the video and

00:20:50.180 subscribe to the channel i love you all thanks so much for watching and i'll see you next time okay

00:20:59.940 let's see by the way i'm not ending the show i'm just going to do that every time for the reaction

00:21:06.020 mental health we are men no one cares how we feel especially not women so all that can be said yeah

00:21:11.780 i'm fine yeah okay let's do that all right what are we doing next

00:21:24.260 i feel like in the old times nobody had time to think about that they just went like

00:21:28.180 in the olden days um nobody really had time to think about um going no contact with their

00:21:34.420 parents they're like just get on the farm buddy at least now it's an option right you got a lot

00:21:39.380 of choice now hold on all right i'm gonna do the intro again what up guys welcome to my reaction

00:21:46.180 series today we are reacting to being a single mother is difficult um a lot of women they thought 0.89

00:21:52.980 that they could do it on their own they thought let me just be a man and i will be fine i will

00:21:59.140 make my own money but the thing is men are so much um in general smarter than us like they just figure

00:22:04.900 out um sometimes they just figure out 0.97

00:22:13.540 i forgot i'm saying god damn it oh i don't know um oh here here's the challenge men are so much 0.97

00:22:21.860 smarter than us and when it comes to like owning a house um there's just women can't figure out 1.00

00:22:26.980 certain things even me like you know there's stuff we just don't know how to do when it comes to

00:22:32.900 owning a house the hardest parts about being a mom that no one really talks about is the part

00:22:37.600 where you want your kid to go live with their father because you need that peace like you need

00:22:42.820 that break you need time to get yourself together because the father's yeah because we don't know

00:22:47.180 how to take care of ourselves most women like we just don't know how to do anything so all this 1.00

00:22:53.380 opportunity in the world right right but also being torn with the fact that if i let my child

00:22:59.860 go and live with this man i know exactly how he's gonna turn out i don't want my child being raised

00:23:06.120 by this man because he will turn out exactly like him that is the only thing keeping me

00:23:10.840 from really just letting him go letting him go can you imagine being like your honor

00:23:16.160 the dad's gonna take this to court and he's gonna be like your honor look

00:23:19.740 give me this child please i'll live with his dad like it's hard it's really hard

00:23:28.120 and right now being a single mom usually i'm okay but right now i just don't feel okay

00:23:38.300 now that my kids are getting older and my i got laid off and i can't afford things

00:23:43.520 my daughter's driving her car and something's always going wrong i need her to have a new car 1.00

00:23:49.400 i can't afford one but right now it's it's i can't i don't know how to budget most women i 1.00

00:23:54.880 know any women with a budget we just do not know how to budget like a weird smell i can't afford 1.00

00:24:00.960 it can i'm accounting to come get it we just noticed it our life is a mess right it's just

00:24:06.080 about men yesterday or the day before and then this morning yeah and they're saying it takes

00:24:11.440 two to raise a child i don't think so i think it takes a man to raise a child and women you know

00:24:16.480 know women help women help she's on her way driving to school and she gets a flat tire on

00:24:24.300 the busy like busiest highway she could be on she's pulled over on the side and i had to go

00:24:30.120 get her i don't have enough money for a tire right now like i in a week i'll be able to get her a 1.00

00:24:36.780 tire but i also have to have a mechanic look at it and i just don't have the money and i what kind

00:24:42.040 parent with their kid driving a car that is always having things happen like she needs a new car but

00:24:48.920 i can't do it and i feel like i'm about yeah and the thing is the dad could have probably prevented

00:24:53.800 it from breaking down by fixing stuff you know they always talk about women's unpaid labor right 0.97

00:24:58.440 like doing the dishes and i was thinking more about this men do way more unpaid labor i mean

00:25:03.640 men will fix the car when it's broken men will organize something they'll you know do the shelves

00:25:12.440 like they'll put stuff together um wait what was i gonna do you said you said who's gonna watch the

00:25:20.640 kid well do you know what um a nanny would do a better job watching the kid in a lot of cases 0.99

00:25:25.380 with um instead of the mother because the dad has authority over the nanny if she sucks he can fire 1.00

00:25:30.020 her and men are actually much better um when it comes to discerning character if i'm being honest

00:25:36.180 they do have much better character discernment parent because i can't do it and i just don't

00:25:43.060 really know what to do i i can't do everything on my own i just took a huge pay cut

00:25:49.540 i just don't know what to do give the dad the kids

00:25:54.980 i'm just i'm so stressed out

00:25:56.660 that's the thing we're not really taught all the little things that men do to make our

00:26:03.620 lives easier we don't even notice because they just do them all the time because men 0.99

00:26:07.540 don't care about credit so they never bring attention to it i just wish that i had someone

00:26:13.680 like another income i it's the first i always have been like i can do it on my own i've never

00:26:18.920 had any issues but right now it just feels hard because they're older my other daughter's gonna

00:26:23.760 be driving in less than a year and then what I have to get another car and when everything is

00:26:33.600 going wrong and I it's just myself and I don't have anyone to talk to about it and I don't have

00:26:37.580 anyone to help me and I don't I'm exhausted I'm exhausted the one thing I have is that I'm a good

00:26:49.880 mom and my daughter is sobbing and saying that she never wants to drive again because she's too

00:26:53.920 scared she has a job now so she has to get to work right after school i have a job we can't 1.00

00:27:00.060 share cars i can't let her drive my car because it's the one good car if something happens to this

00:27:05.880 one like i have to be able to get to work i can't let her drive this as a 16 year old it's too scary 1.00

00:27:11.440 i'm just i'm tired of doing it alone i'm so tired i'm having the hardest time yeah i would get back

00:27:22.220 with your baby daddy all right let's go to the next one can we talk about i won't lie and i

00:27:29.420 inherently don't really trust women crying on camera so how beautiful mom isn't already tough 0.98

00:27:38.540 financially but discipline wise yeah that's do you know what even my dog responds better

00:27:49.640 to a man not crazy my dog responds better

00:27:54.500 if my boyfriend disciplines her over me not nuts

00:28:03.600 a u.s single mom net income is 34 to 36 000 um and it costs about 16 to 30 000 a year to raise

00:28:17.400 a kid yeah no money it's so hard we don't really think things through we're like oh i'm like in

00:28:24.800 the club you know we're we're shimmying and it's like ah we're having a good time boom child child 0.58

00:28:32.300 made we didn't think about this is going to take 18 years you know

00:28:42.460 i i try to be a strict mom i try to be a fun mom i try to be your friend

00:28:54.140 i give these kids everything they need and i give them as much as i can

00:29:02.300 i want respect and i want things done because can you imagine like your mom's mad at you this

00:29:10.480 is the thing about tiktok it's um your mom's mad at you and now she goes to the internet to talk 0.95

00:29:17.220 shit about you how humiliating right now at school they could be like look what your mom did 0.97

00:29:22.520 I break my back every day to provide for my family and for one of my kids to think that 1.00

00:29:33.200 I don't have authority over them, that, oh, if you hit me, I'm going to hit you. 0.99

00:29:42.020 Just imagine your child telling you to shut up. 1.00

00:29:46.200 I don't care.

00:29:47.700 What are you going to do as a parent? 1.00

00:29:49.040 You're going to turn around, you're going to slap them in their mouth, right? 0.99

00:29:52.520 i maybe one time lifted my hand to my mom and maybe pushed her or shoved her 1.00

00:30:00.560 very slightly and i knew i was gonna pay for that i knew i was gonna pay for that 0.82

00:30:07.180 but gosh damn it i didn't think i was gonna pay for it like this

00:30:14.780 i really fought to keep a family with a father and a mother but it wasn't in my story 0.88

00:30:30.020 i don't know what do you guys think what do you guys think is the

00:30:33.740 mother crazy one in the chat if the mom's crazy two if you understand where she's coming from 0.82

00:30:40.100 so i had to rethought myself and say all right well this is what it's gonna be and this is how

00:30:48.820 it's gonna be and i'm fighting it day by day fighting these challenges day by day

00:30:55.700 but there's always that one kid that just makes it so much harder they're all difficult there's

00:31:05.780 is that one that makes it so much harder and then wants to yell and shout oh what is it why is it

00:31:11.060 about me oh because i look like my dad no girl ain't nobody care about your father ain't nobody

00:31:17.540 care about your father because that has been done and forgiven and that has been put to rest i don't

00:31:24.500 believe that yeah we got to make friends ladies we got to make friends no friends you know i got

00:31:31.620 empathy for you but we got to make some friends because we can't be doing this and that man will

00:31:36.900 now make a friend make a friend winter this winter we'll make friends yeah move on and live

00:31:44.660 his karma that he declared on himself

00:31:52.660 she thinks i'm attacking her because she looks like her father

00:31:55.620 i can look at your father and dead in the eyes and if they told me serve him i would serve him

00:32:04.120 because that's not my plate to sit there and destroy just to get back at him no i left it

00:32:12.920 in god's hands and god is taking care of it he's taking a little longer than i thought

00:32:18.520 oh my god she said

00:32:23.920 oh my god she said i let it go and then she's like yeah but i'm looking for god to give revenge

00:32:33.700 it's like women but he's taking care of it but the simple thought that she thinks i'm coming

00:32:42.440 after her because she looks like her father like be real girl be real all right let's see 0.69

00:32:52.840 i am not okay all right i think i gotta turn the sound off

00:32:57.800 i'm tired of struggling and living check by check wait what did it say

00:33:01.720 i promised my kids didn't need me if my kids didn't need me i wouldn't be here

00:33:05.800 no matter how hard you try how hard you pray or how hard you work you can't make it out of here

00:33:14.640 translation my poor decisions wound me up here um and now it's overwhelming i'm ready to meet

00:33:23.640 god i'm ready to be happy stress-free like he promised i want it all to end so bad

00:33:27.840 um i mean she's doing this for attention i don't really

00:33:31.080 i'm literally breaking down right now

00:33:35.160 please keep me in your prayers you guys i know it rains before it shines

00:33:41.060 because right now i just want to give up and now she could do a tic-tac thing about not giving up

00:33:49.360 you see um i don't see any happiness right now and i'm breaking okay we're gonna get to the point

00:33:58.160 yeah so this is i mean overall i mean whatever um we just got to be honest here being a single

00:34:06.260 mother is harder than a lot of women thought apparently i'm a single mother now yeah 1.00

00:34:12.220 apparently i got a kid

00:34:15.060 that's what i found out recently

00:34:25.760 yeah no

00:34:28.940 anyways all right guys let me know what you think in the comments make sure you like the video and

00:34:38.380 subscribe to the channel um and i'm gonna see you at the next reaction video peace out

00:34:43.700 all right um hold on let me see

00:34:47.880 all right let's see what's next

00:34:56.400 i'm not actually leaving guys i'm not leaving i'm just doing these reactions so the editor has got

00:35:01.040 to do the intro and the ending um i don't know here's the thing the problem with these live

00:35:08.080 streams and we gotta maybe we can think of a solution here i usually do two and then my brain

00:35:13.120 fries a little bit and then i go take a break and i come back i don't know how to put it but it's

00:35:19.680 like i have to put on a little bit of show for you guys but when i do these live then i can't take

00:35:23.760 my break and come back so i don't know what to i don't know what to do now i guess i could just

00:35:31.280 keep going but sometimes then i just don't pay as close of attention oh my god okay do you know what

00:35:43.920 i did a ton of reaction videos in a row i want to see who i want to see if any youtubers want

00:35:49.440 to come on with me because i'm getting bored i've just reacted to like everything on the

00:35:55.600 internet to the point that i'm just you know i just don't love it like i used to um

00:36:06.800 i should have gone to miami with nick well i wasn't invited

00:36:11.040 i you know guys i'm not overly cool so people don't always invite me to things i kind of

00:36:15.280 of understand it right you know i'm kind of awkward i make like ah you know i i say the

00:36:29.580 wrong thing at the wrong time you know i'm not that charismatic i'm weird so it's like i kind

00:36:35.480 of get it did i react to that yeah i did react to the female giants versus the male dwarves that

00:36:41.340 hilarious that was so funny i was crying laughing that was so funny

00:36:51.020 all right women are nurturing all right guys we have two choices i'm gonna go upstairs walk a 0.94

00:36:58.300 little bit come back um it doesn't usually take me very long but i gotta do it it's like part of my

00:37:04.380 process um all right someone messaged me and said that nick's awkward too he is kind of i mean we're

00:37:15.580 kind of the same type of quirky um but he was invited and i wasn't so i must be weirder

00:37:25.100 and he's a guy right i mean what guys want to hang out with women especially like

00:37:29.180 Like, you know what I mean?

00:37:30.900 I'm not that.

00:37:35.420 All right.

00:37:35.840 I think I'm going to play a little music to.

00:37:38.760 Okay.

00:37:57.640 You said ascend.

00:37:58.760 guys i'm almost 30. you can't ascend much after 30. it's like kind of cooked

00:38:13.000 oh stop stop boy you make my heart drop i don't wait wait boy you make my heart drop

00:38:24.600 dropping like boy you make my heart drop dropping like sometimes i kind of i start to this is my

00:38:33.800 my process right i'll show you i have a process for like writing songs so i'll go boy you make my

00:38:40.520 heart stop so i want to go f no i don't like that song so f

00:38:54.600 boy you make my heart stop stopping I can't it's so hard because my piano is

00:39:02.100 just not I've only been doing piano a year so I'm not that good at it yet boy

00:39:07.680 you make my heart stop stopping like boy you make my heart stop stopping oh oh

00:39:18.960 oh wait i get it boy you make my heart stop stopping like i know that it's too

00:39:31.760 maybe maybe i'm crazy a little bit lazy 0.88

00:39:39.600 but maybe damn it maybe i'm addicted to the pain right and then it goes back to 0.98

00:39:47.280 Boy, you make my heart stop 0.99

00:39:51.100 Dumping like a bomb

00:39:54.100 Maybe I am crazy 0.92

00:40:01.260 Maybe I'm lazy

00:40:03.540 Or maybe I'm addicted to the pain

00:40:07.500 That's what I would do

00:40:08.220 and i know that i need you wait wait one two okay i know i know that i need you

00:40:24.820 i know that i need you even with what i've been through i think i'm addicted to the way

00:40:34.980 And maybe I am crazy

00:40:38.600 For

00:40:41.440 And maybe I'm crazy

00:40:45.980 For getting up and agey 0.86

00:40:48.780 Maybe I'm addicted to the pain

00:40:53.880 in six months i'm dude i do lessons almost every day in six months i'm gonna be so good

00:41:08.500 piano and i won't have to do these awkward like stops it's a little bit hot here

00:41:19.620 boy you make my heart sing i really want a wedding ring boy you make my heart sing

00:41:29.300 i really want a wedding ring oh that's kind of good boy you make

00:41:35.300 boy you make my heart sing i really want a wedding ring

00:41:42.020 and maybe i'm addicted to the way the way

00:41:48.180 because when you're looking at me because when you're looking at me

00:41:56.100 i can't but but i can't i can't help but believe

00:42:05.300 That we're gonna bend and win away I know that I'm happy, I know that I'm lucky

00:42:18.640 To be the type of girl to feel this way

00:42:35.300 I know that I'm crazy, a little 0.84

00:42:58.860 Maybe I'm crazy, a little bit lazy

00:43:05.300 i'm addicted to the pain i don't know i don't know i mean it's

00:43:11.940 you know

00:43:14.540 all right um okay let's i'm gonna do the next thing that was that was my break

00:43:28.280 my back kind of hurts to be honest my back is like yeah dfa dfdd

00:43:34.860 you know all right i'm gonna do i'm gonna do my intro again well guys welcome to my reaction

00:43:47.880 series here on my channel i do not believe that women are the nurturing gender or the 0.60

00:43:52.840 kinder gender in fact i do think that's men in general um so now we're gonna watch at

00:43:58.860 the nurturing gender show how good they are with children okay hold on reading this article okay

00:44:17.480 gonna wait for the ad

00:44:19.860 well in henderson county tonight a woman is behind bars charged with two counts of murder

00:44:27.620 after investigators say she poisoned the victim's drinks.

00:44:31.640 Gudrun Casper Leinenkugel is charged with the death of Lila Lovitz,

00:44:35.460 the attempted murder of two other victims as well in 2025.

00:44:38.640 Now, during the investigation, deputies also found evidence linking her to another death

00:44:42.940 nearly two decades earlier.

00:44:45.600 Fox County's Berkeley Cromer is in Hendersonville with an update.

00:44:49.140 Investigators say the 2025 murder investigation helped them solve a 2007 cold case.

00:44:54.820 I talked to a downtown business owner who tells me it's hard to believe something like this could happen here.

00:45:00.320 But he says you never really know what people are capable of.

00:45:04.040 Deputies charged Goodwin Casper Lyon Cooper with the murder of Lila Livis.

00:45:08.220 And during the course of the investigation, detectives located evidence linking the suspect to the murder of Michael Smith,

00:45:14.220 a case dating back to 2007 in Henderson County.

00:45:17.280 Warrants showed the suspect put a poisonous chemical, a cionitrile, in the victim's drinks,

00:45:22.000 According to the CDC and the Environmental Protection Agency, the chemical is a clear, colorless liquid with many uses.

00:45:28.640 It's used as a solvent, in manufacturing facilities, and in textile dyeing.

00:45:33.000 It's also found in lithium batteries.

00:45:35.220 According to the CDC, exposure can cause headaches, nausea, vomiting, convulsions, and can cause death.

00:45:41.120 It's kind of crazy to imagine something like that happening in Hendersonville.

00:45:45.180 I watch a lot of true crime, so I hear about it happening, but you never imagine it happening in your own hometown.

00:45:52.000 We're working to learn more about how she knew the victims and the motive, but right now those details are not being released.

00:45:58.200 Casper Lyonkugel is being held in the Henderson County Detention Center.

00:46:02.160 She's expected to make her first appearance in court on Tuesday morning.

00:46:06.180 Reporting in Henderson...

00:46:07.560 Crazy.

00:46:09.460 A mother in North Carolina is accused of killing her daughter by poisoning her daughter's wine.

00:46:14.300 52 year old gurdon casper line a kugel was arrested on january 16th in charge with two

00:46:23.100 counts of first degree and attempted murder um she held a 12-person thanksgiving dinner in november

00:46:29.500 of 2025 where she poisoned the wine that her daughter and another daughter's boyfriend

00:46:36.220 drank from the same bottle which was poisoned acetone try line the center for disease control

00:46:43.020 and Prevention and U.S. Environmental Protection Agency said, it's a clear colorless liquid that

00:46:48.260 has many uses, including solvent for spinning and lithium batteries. It is primarily found

00:46:53.000 in the automobile exhaust and manufacturing facilities. Short-term inhalation exposure

00:46:59.420 results in the irritation of mucous membranes. Long-term exposure in the central nervous system

00:47:05.060 effects such as headaches, numbness, and tremors. Casper Linekeel's search history said,

00:47:12.020 what happens if i accidentally ingest acid time the state said after the dinner the three victims 0.98

00:47:17.540 felt sick and the daughter died damn what a crazy the nurturing gender she could have just never 1.00

00:47:24.200 talked to her daughter again and instead she decided to kill her all right we're gonna watch 1.00

00:47:28.260 this one 0.76

00:47:28.880 i want some other ad hold on

00:47:48.080 Can I get the sound up? Why can't I hear it?

00:47:55.920 There we go, okay.

00:48:06.020 Global progress. Nations are adopting aggressive climate policies,

00:48:10.480 expanding renewable energy, tightening emissions targets,

00:48:13.480 and investing billions in green infrastructure.

00:48:16.860 transport policies are shifting fast ev mandates clean fuel standards and higher

00:48:21.660 i'm gonna read are becoming core to national planning not working tech governance is tightening

00:48:26.380 too okay i'm just gonna read it okay all right woman stabs one-year-old daughter after dispute 1.00

00:48:34.220 with husband in maharash i can't read maharashtra and gay enraged after an argument with her husband 0.80

00:48:45.260 the woman allegedly picked up a sharp knife from the house and stabbed her daughter small dose 0.98

00:48:49.980 five hundred dollars medium nine oh my god okay um and stabbed her daughter on the face abdomen 1.00

00:48:57.820 chest waist head and private parts a woman allegedly killed her one-year-old daughter

00:49:03.900 following a dispute with her husband a laborer over returning late in um maravrashtra's later

00:49:12.300 district police said the woman aged 30 had been arrested in connection with the incident that

00:49:16.860 occurred on monday in the shuriam nagar area her 34 year old her 34 year old husband who works as

00:49:24.860 a daily wage laborer returned home late in the hours of monday enraged after an argument with

00:49:29.580 her husband the woman allegedly picked up a sharp knife sharp knife from the house and stabbed her 0.99

00:49:34.060 daughter in the face chest waist head and private parts the toddler died on the spot a police

00:49:39.900 official said based on the complaint by the child's father the police arrested the woman

00:49:44.460 on monday and booked her and charged her with murder the nurture isn't that incredible that is

00:49:52.140 that's the thing women are the ones that kill the innocent right men men murder but they usually 1.00

00:49:57.500 murder for a reason now you could say it's maybe not a good reason you know and you see that like

00:50:01.740 you know gang violence or whatever but at least they have uh you know somewhat of a reason um

00:50:08.140 it's only women that kill like literal children next saint pierre and milliquan mil mccolan i 1.00

00:50:14.540 don't know what that is all right back

00:50:26.300 all right leonardra andrage was set to go to trial for 2022 for the murder of her daughter 0.52

00:50:33.180 lennox in virginia beach motel room a judge has ruled a woman accused of killing her young

00:50:39.100 daughter in virginia beach motel room not guilty by reason of insanity leonardra leonardra and andre

00:50:46.300 was set to go on trial for august of 2020 in august of 2022 for the murder of two-year-old lenoix on

00:50:54.460 on draw dre linux oh my god this is so embarrassing i can't read

00:51:04.780 oh my god okay before the trial could begin the judge ruled her not guilty

00:51:08.780 i'm just so bad with names um by reason of insanity on charges of aggregate aggravated

00:51:14.700 murder and child neglect the judge also granted a second um a second degree murder charge fabio

00:51:23.420 on fabio the victim's father um said he was devastated after hearing the results wednesday

00:51:29.900 he said he sat in court hoping for a trial that would put his daughter's alleged killer behind

00:51:34.460 bars it's a failure of accountability it strips transparency from the process and denies my

00:51:39.500 daughter the most basic protection the justice system promises that the truth will be tested

00:51:43.900 in open court yeah so you know women get off on violent crimes all the time and they get out of 1.00

00:51:49.180 prison for him. Men don't. Police said officers were called to the 3,600 block of Atlantic Avenue

00:52:01.340 early on the morning of August 1st, 2022, where they found the body of Lenex Andrade along with

00:52:08.840 her mother, who was found unconscious. On a nearby table, investigators found an empty pack of 24

00:52:14.980 four pink tablets, crushed pills, sleeping aids, and a bottle of vodka. An autopsy later confirmed

00:52:21.880 Lennox died from toxic levels of difendramine, otherwise known as Benadryl. Four decades of

00:52:31.120 practicing law, and this is probably the saddest case, said defense attorney. There are no winners

00:52:36.700 on either side of the case. It was confirmed through the Metropolitan Police Department

00:52:42.380 that Andrade fled with her daughter from Washington, D.C.

00:52:46.420 after losing a custody battle for the child.

00:52:49.380 Court records from bail and divorce hearings

00:52:51.500 revealed texts were allegedly sent by Leandra

00:52:53.700 the night of the murder.

00:52:54.900 The text begged the father, Fabio,

00:52:56.840 not to proceed with the separation.

00:52:58.300 One message, she reportedly circled,

00:53:00.480 you don't win and it will make you cry.

00:53:02.040 Regarding the future, he was manifesting.

00:53:04.740 Police was first alleged by the friends

00:53:06.900 who reported suicidal social media posts.

00:53:11.240 Wow.

00:53:11.600 Wow. Oh, no. No. Despite the communications, Fabio, a trained mental health expert who worked with the D.C. Department of Behavioral Health, contends this was not a break from reality, but it was a calculated act of domestic retaliation. I never imagined she would be capable of doing something like that. She intended to murder my daughter. She planned it. She did that in retaliation because she didn't get what she wanted.

00:53:35.280 fabio claims that the commonwealth attorney's office recently informed her that her own medical

00:53:41.600 expert ruled leandra andrade was insane at the time of the offense and that prosecutors would 0.99

00:53:48.080 move forward with an insanity plea which the judge accepted at wednesday's hearings i just

00:53:54.080 felt like i relieved the trauma again fabio said they promised they were going to fight for justice

00:53:59.040 for my daughter and they're not doing that a conditional release hearing is set for march

00:54:02.960 10th to determine whether she will be committed to the Department of Behavioral Health and

00:54:07.160 Developmental Services. Under Virginia law, a defendant found not guilty by reason of insanity

00:54:11.560 is committed to a psychiatric hospital but evaluated on a yearly basis. This creates the

00:54:17.440 possibility of a future release. If my daughter wasn't safe around this person, no one is. That's

00:54:22.800 crazy so this woman killed her daughter wow and is out of prison wow you know the nurturing gender 1.00

00:54:37.360 everybody anyways guys let me know what you think in the comments um one thing i noticed 0.99

00:54:42.080 is that when women murder it's like way more um violent than when men like when men kill to shoot

00:54:50.240 up their family they just shoot everybody and kill themselves but yeah anyways guys let me know what 0.71

00:54:55.520 you think in the comments make sure you like the video and subscribe to the channel and i'll see

00:54:58.560 you next time so see that's three reactions that i did oh my god the i think i'm gonna

00:55:20.240 Thank you.

00:55:50.240 anyways all right guys that's my reactions for the day um i might come back later and do the rest um

00:56:06.800 but anyways i i won't see you for a few days if um if the power goes out so i don't know

00:56:12.240 we'll see make sure you like the video subscribe to the channel and i'll see you next time

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