Pearl - The Absolute HORROR of Growing Up Fat

00:00:00.000 if your kids have a weight problem stop the sports stop the stuff teach them how to cook and clean

00:00:06.240 what up guys welcome to my reaction series so today we're gonna react to women talking about

00:00:11.520 the trauma i think of growing up fat and this is something that i would relate to i would say i was

00:00:18.560 overweight i don't think i was ever obese but um i lost i think i'm at 40 45 pounds from the

00:00:26.880 heaviest i ever was and um when i was a kid i was always like one of the chubbier ones like i've

00:00:32.080 always just kind of struggled with weight and i can kind of relate to this so i'll see if i agree

00:00:37.520 with them or disagree first off thank you for wanting to listen okay so i'm gonna get straight

00:00:41.920 into it i'm gonna talk about she's still fat how being fat as a child affects you growing up as a

00:00:48.560 kid i was always on the chubbier side and i had to face things and come to like a reality check

00:00:55.520 with myself that some things were just never going to happen for starters we know that self-esteem

00:01:00.320 is mainly the issue um the overall issue but some examples that would never probably happen

00:01:07.440 for me growing up was a boy liking me um ones that i actually liked um and usually kids would pair

00:01:14.720 you up with other fatter kids um just because of the beauty standards and what we see in the media

00:01:23.280 everyone just you know automatically put out the chubbier kids to be uglier and it was even worse

00:01:30.220 if you didn't have like you know chubbier parents I guess if you had like naturally like thinner

00:01:37.560 parents or whatever my mom was always on the skinnier side and I was like yeah you I don't

00:01:44.220 know I'd be interested because my mom always struggled with her weight too and so did her mom

00:01:49.500 so it was kind of a generational thing but to me it's always a lack of skill like there's

00:01:55.700 something you don't know that you're doing wrong the kind of kid in the family that was

00:02:01.620 chubbier I guess um out of like all my cousins and stuff and I remember like growing up and my mom

00:02:07.700 like taking me to the doctors and I was always going to be overweight you know I was always

00:02:11.540 getting that same lecture that I'm above the the BMI rate for my you know my my age you know what

00:02:18.140 mean and when you're like brought the problem like brought upon the problem that you are the problem

00:02:24.780 you know what i mean like you're overweight you're too high that's just not helpful like

00:02:30.860 usually what it is is you don't know how bad like you don't know how bad the food you're eating is

00:02:36.380 i'm gonna give you an example i can't believe i used to eat this so i love smoothies i love

00:02:43.180 smoothies and i would get so frustrated in college because i would eat like smoothies in a sandwich

00:02:48.700 and i'm like why am i gaining weight like i should be losing weight it's not like i'm eating super

00:02:53.100 bad i'm gonna tell you what was in my smoothie i'll tell you what was in my smoothie then what's

00:02:58.540 in my smoothie but now as i've said i'm surprised i wasn't fatter thank god i worked out a lot

00:03:04.140 so i would use milk i would use sometimes um cocoa powder or chocolate chips peanut butter banana

00:03:13.180 um peanut butter banana chocolate chips and the thing was the portions were so big like I remember

00:03:21.540 the peanut butter like dripping you know um and until you've counted calories for a while you

00:03:28.120 can't really conceptualize how bad for you that is like just off the top of my head the milk's

00:03:33.140 probably at least 150 probably two because I don't think I think I was pretty generous with

00:03:38.180 i put in um the banana is going to be like 120 130 calories peanut butter is 180 and if it's

00:03:44.820 high it could be three to four hundred calories uh if i put chocolate you guys see like that's

00:03:50.020 probably i was probably drinking a 600 to 1000 calorie smoothie thinking you know and to me i'm

00:03:57.860 like well none of this is bad for me it's just milk it's just peanut butter like peanut butter

00:04:01.620 is good and um anyways long story short my smoothie now is coffee instead of milk so

00:04:09.700 that's like zero calories um protein powder that's chocolate protein powder a banana

00:04:17.620 and i do half a serving of peanut butter but i can like measure it out now

00:04:22.820 and it's like three to four hundred calories so i could still have my smoothie but i would

00:04:26.740 be drinking like the same thing but one is big you know um i used to drink starbucks um

00:04:33.460 like venti chai latte i used to get those all the time and i remember like thinking that i just

00:04:38.740 can't even imagine getting a medium like i love it so much it was such a highlight of my day

00:04:43.540 and now i can't even imagine getting like a large chai latte like i just can't even my i get the um

00:04:50.820 it is high sugar my sugar is my kryptonite but it's 150 calories it's like the ice brown sugar

00:04:55.780 lot to like your rule of thumb for drinks is they have to be under one like under 200 especially but

00:05:01.540 ideally under 150 unless um you only have two meals and a snack but yeah so once you can kind

00:05:09.780 of do the math in your head it gets a lot easier and then if you're not losing weight like you can

00:05:17.060 kind of start to figure out what it is even if you're not paying attention who knows maybe i'll

00:05:22.420 gain it back one day i don't know but i feel i feel a lot more confident because it's like once

00:05:28.900 you know once you've kind of internalized this information it just becomes a lot easier this

00:05:35.060 for your age or whatever it's the thinking power like that's the best way to describe it it's like

00:05:40.820 learning all the concepts when it comes to nutrition is the difficult part so

00:05:44.900 all these different diets what they do is then you can you can get around the hard part which

00:05:51.860 is learning all the nutrition um that's the difficult part so carnivore like all it is they

00:05:58.900 all have a different way to lower your calories but it's just better to learn to know like i could

00:06:04.580 you could give me any type of food and i could tell you if it's a protein carb or fat um i could

00:06:11.460 guess the calories now i'm not saying it's perfect but i'm much better than i used to be start

00:06:17.860 looking at your body like you're disgusting you know at a very young age and that's not healthy

00:06:22.660 you know what i mean because you're going to be obsessing about how you look how much you weigh

00:06:26.820 what you're eating and as a kid you don't want to do that like imagine going to a birthday party and

00:06:31.620 your mom says you can't have any birthday cake because you you're on a diet and yeah and that

00:06:36.740 like not eating you know like you don't ever want to be crazy about it like you can't ever eat the

00:06:42.740 cake or whatever but like because remember 10 pounds is 35 000 calories a cake isn't going to

00:06:49.060 make or break you the problem is you've done years of overeating and now you're in a hole

00:06:55.620 and now you gotta like there's a period when you're losing you have to be so strict you want

00:07:00.260 to kill you kill yourself at least with the caloric deficit but then once you get like the

00:07:07.300 cut for me anyways the cutting was the hardest but i hate quoting i hate cutting oh my god but

00:07:13.380 people are like oh i could just starve myself for three weeks and lose 10 pounds in a month i'm like

00:07:17.300 you you have to watch all the other kids it's not fair because it's not like we asked to be born

00:07:25.140 this way and at the end of the day we're the ones that gets teeth for it um yeah but i think after

00:07:31.300 like i think after 13 i can remember consciously um like thinking about food when i was like 12 or

00:07:39.540 13. so around there that's in your conscience and like you're kind of getting into adulthood

00:07:45.300 i yeah after that it's your own fault like i had put it off for years

00:07:49.300 um i put off nutrition i tried all these stupid ways i like tried to work out a lot

00:07:53.540 i tried carniv i've tried probably every diet just to do what i should have did in the first

00:07:59.060 place which is count calories you got to i know i keep saying we but like this was me you know what

00:08:04.340 i mean it's not just the kids around you it's your family it's your parents it's the media it's the

00:08:11.140 doctors it's just the whole health system it just doesn't provide enough support there needs to be

00:08:17.460 a healthier way of approaching you know overweight kids and teaching them to love their bodies

00:08:22.340 instead of a number and learning about portion control rather than what specific foods to eat

00:08:29.060 um a lot of kids over like if i was to do a class i like one of the lectures would be

00:08:37.860 you need to go scoop food at a buffet and guess the calories like how good how good of a skill

00:08:44.900 would that be if you bring out food every day and you have them make their plates

00:08:51.460 and they have to pick and choose how much like food it is and then after you have to say like

00:08:57.540 okay it's this many calories about and obviously it's not going to be perfect but if the kids can

00:09:02.900 get to the point where they can ballpark the calories that's just once you can do it in your

00:09:07.300 head it's just so much easier you're not looking up everything it's just god god you have to if

00:09:12.900 anyone wants to lose weight you have to get through that kids i know have eating disorders

00:09:16.740 whether it be not eating or eating a lot and me personally i just didn't know when to stop eating

00:09:22.180 and i think it's not just the problem with overweight or underweight kids it's a problem

00:09:27.980 with everyone i feel like everyone has a different relationship to food and food needs to be

00:09:32.700 prioritized in schools not just like talking about healthy foods to eat but what's a healthy

00:09:38.040 food relationship and what there is to learn basically first thought thank you for wanting

00:09:45.140 to listen okay so i'm gonna get straight into it okay so all right now we got another girl it looks

00:09:50.500 like this girl lost most of the weight guys sometimes i really wonder where i would be in

00:09:55.540 life if i didn't grow up morbidly obese a lot of times in school i was always afraid to be myself

00:10:01.340 or do things i actually like she's probably at like 22 to 27 or 6 body fat probably probably

00:10:09.740 closer to 25 to 27 or make friends even muscle mass when i was younger i remember like playing

00:10:16.840 Polly Pockets with my neighbor and pretending I didn't like them because I was so uncomfortable

00:10:22.420 that this little doll looked pretty and skinny. And, you know, I just wasn't. And then as I got

00:10:29.920 older, I would not audition for the school play or I would not. Yeah. It affects you in a lot of

00:10:35.380 ways. Like, I don't know, for me, there would just be situations I would avoid. Like I never

00:10:41.840 wanted to go to the beach ever because i was just so insecure about my stomach i hated the way it

00:10:47.860 looked i never wanted to go to the beach i know for choir class all because i feel anyway so

00:10:52.560 but you know as i felt these things weren't for people who looked like me or not even that i just

00:11:00.740 felt uncomfortable doing it and i always think like wow i wish i would have played more sports

00:11:05.940 in high school like why did my mom never put me in sports classes but she did when i was a kid she

00:11:11.620 put me in dance class soccer baseball like i played all not but athletics isn't the problem

00:11:17.000 it's eating like i'm telling you if anything i found that eating playing sports made it worse

00:11:23.980 because you get these like if you don't eat enough before practice you get so hungry and then you

00:11:28.840 overeat off like i don't know for me i just i can only speak from my experience i lost the most

00:11:35.380 weight when i stopped working out altogether because i was like i know how to work out but

00:11:39.820 need to put some time into learning like this nutrition stuff and like being able to do the

00:11:45.420 stuff i've been talking about like knowing how to cook like because it's like a few skills you're

00:11:50.620 missing it's like the skill of cleaning up while you cook because a lot of times you don't want

00:11:54.220 to cook because like it's so messy um the skill of not overeating the skill of high protein like

00:12:01.900 there's so many skills that like you just have to learn all the sports i just never stuck with

00:12:07.660 them because you know i was chunky then and then i just got fatter and i got lazier and i got

00:12:13.340 insecure and i never wanted to do anything i'm 27 now and i'm just finishing college and i even feel

00:12:19.500 like i didn't even want to go to school when i was a fat i would recommend if you're a girl and you

00:12:24.860 struggle with weight talk to your parents right like if you don't have certain life skills if you

00:12:31.020 have the option to stay home for a year after college it's kind of annoying because all your

00:12:35.260 friends are going to be at school and they're going to be having so much fun but what you can

00:12:39.340 do is you stay home for a year and like i don't want to say don't work but do a really low stress

00:12:50.140 job maybe one at a gym or like something fitness related and what i would do is i would dedicate

00:12:56.620 that year to learning how to cook and eat really healthy and weigh and measure all your food and

00:13:01.100 treat that like you're like your full-time job because if you learn that at 18 god your 20s are

00:13:06.700 just going to be so much easier like it's i'm telling you i always was so envious of the girls

00:13:14.220 that just naturally like stopped eating and like were healthy um so if you don't have that skill

00:13:20.540 i would just you know talk to your parents see if you can just spend a year learning it

00:13:25.180 um because especially if you're a girl guys aren't completely cooked when they're fat in the dating

00:13:30.220 market for women yeah kid because like why would i want to go to college as a fat person like

00:13:35.260 outside i think she'll gain it back she's putting too much emphasis on working out and she's still

00:13:41.100 pretty like she's not a low body fat percentage of not also liking school i just felt like i can tell

00:13:48.380 she works out right but you could still see she's got a layer of fat i did and that i hated it when

00:13:53.900 people because i was kind of built like that where um maybe i wasn't as i think i was a little more

00:14:00.860 athletic than her but like i had an athletic body but like i had high body fat percentage because

00:14:06.660 you can have high muscle and high fat and i couldn't do anything and it just sucks now

00:14:11.740 because i wish i was just out normal out the gate i wish at 18 i would have went to college at 22 i

00:14:18.200 have been graduated and you know i get that's not everybody's path but it's just been on my mind

00:14:24.680 hi guys okay all right watch this next one one would have told me how hard it was going to be

00:14:33.320 growing up the fat kid especially in the 80s and 90s like the child had obesity rate was

00:14:39.320 like seven percent kids were brave if they hung out with you in grade school

00:14:43.640 you definitely knew you were the odd one out right away it teaches you really quick that

00:14:50.600 your body is wrong every comment every look every laugh every diet your parents

00:14:58.520 try to put you on it carves into you you learn to hate food but then you sneak it and you learn

00:15:06.200 that you're different before you even know who you are and then you grow up and that little kid

00:15:12.920 is still in there she's definitely the reason that i second guess myself or feel unworthy or

00:15:20.760 people please she's definitely the reason that i can walk into a room full of 100 people and

00:15:26.840 still feel like i don't belong here's the other thing that no one told me i'm telling you please

00:15:33.960 do not do not if your kids have a weight problem

00:15:42.760 i stop the sports stop the stuff teach them how to cook and clean

00:15:47.560 i mean teach them how to weigh their calories like i'm telling you god it was just such a

00:15:51.320 thorn in my side people that don't overeat have no idea how good they have it the reason why i'm

00:15:57.720 resilient as hell while i know a few things about grit about survival about reinvention

00:16:03.800 that nobody else seems to get so i guess growing up the fat kid was very hard but

00:16:10.120 i could be wrong but i think it gave me a layer of depth definitely oh wow when it comes real

00:16:17.560 i wish someone would have probably got under something um i mean no offense to women i just

00:16:22.840 if i have to guess did you do the hard thing or the easy thing i'm gonna guess the easy thing i

00:16:26.680 mean do you know what i'm not even anti-ozempic like i think about how freaking hard it was to

00:16:33.880 lose all the weight and i'm like if ozempic could have minimized that to six months i'm

00:16:41.240 it took me years and i i probably did it the most on

00:16:45.480 i probably could have did it a lot faster but it just is what it is um anyways guys thank you

00:16:51.000 you sorry i clicked mute anyways guys thank you so much for watching i really appreciate you guys

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Pearl - November 27, 2025

The Absolute HORROR of Growing Up Fat

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