Pearl - October 02, 2026


Women Are FINALLY Admitting Their Darkest Postpartum Thoughts

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Mary Jo Cody Kevin Jessica Montalto Amy DiStefano Nick Hears Motherhood Ashamed Chris Luca
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Length

8 minutes

Words per minute

187.71

Word count

1,528

Sentence count

90

Harmful content

Misogyny

24

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Toxicity

17

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Hate speech

24

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Transcript

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00:00:00.000 So again, women, we always teehee, teehee, it's so funny to talk about murdering my kid.
00:00:05.780 We just are not serious people. And whatever we do, we always, we have a lazy woman epidemic, 1.00
00:00:11.000 so it's lazy, stupid, lazy, stupid. Which is it? I don't know. I think it's more lazy than stupid, 1.00
00:00:16.700 actually. I don't think women are as dumb as we pretend to be. I think we're just lazy and we love 1.00
00:00:21.200 not doing things. So anyways, today, this woman put on TikTok my postpartum brain battling, 1.00
00:00:27.940 no longer wanting to be a mother, and the guilt of even having these thoughts.
00:00:31.940 Listen to this.
00:00:32.940 142,000 likes.
00:00:36.940 Because that's the thing, everyone says I'm terrified of motherhood.
00:00:39.940 Motherhood isn't going to make you a different person.
00:00:41.940 My perception of postpartum was what I knew from the media.
00:00:45.940 And I think that's generally speaking most people's perception,
00:00:48.940 is that it's the extreme cases of the mother doing harm to the child or the baby.
00:00:54.940 And so I understood that that was psychosis,
00:00:58.820 that that's extreme end of postpartum.
00:01:00.640 It's very rare, right?
00:01:03.000 But I was having these crazy thoughts
00:01:05.360 was what I called them.
00:01:06.660 I didn't understand intrusive thoughts
00:01:08.360 until later on what they were.
00:01:09.900 I call them my scary, crazy thoughts. 1.00
00:01:11.700 And what it is, it's women reproduce with women 0.99
00:01:17.900 or with men they don't want to reproduce with. 0.99
00:01:20.280 Scary thoughts. 1.00
00:01:21.120 So that's what happens and they want to kill the kids. 1.00
00:01:23.000 right? And I just remember my scary thoughts were flashes of images in my mind while I
00:01:29.080 was awake that I have no control over. They would be images of, we lived in a townhouse
00:01:36.540 that had three flights of stairs, and they wouldn't have stairs, so they were sometimes
00:01:39.680 slippery, right? And so, but I was always super careful with my son, carrying him up
00:01:44.480 and down the steps, but I had these really scary thoughts, not while I was carrying him,
00:01:50.080 They would be like, well, I was doing something completely different or sometimes while I was carrying him up and down the stairs.
00:01:54.940 But the thoughts of like slipping and just falling with him. Right. And him being harmed.
00:02:01.720 How many women kill their kids and it's blamed on something else and him dying. Right.
00:02:08.900 And these thoughts were violent. And as a mom, you're scared that you're having these images. Right.
00:02:13.980 Because you're thinking, OK, am I going through psychosis? That's what I kept thinking. Is this psychosis? Right.
00:02:17.860 am I going through that rare part of postpartum psychosis because I'm having these scary thoughts.
00:02:24.420 And I was scared. I didn't want to tell anybody. I was scared. I didn't even tell my husband about it
00:02:28.940 because I didn't want him to judge me and I didn't want him to think that there was something wrong
00:02:33.700 and then him tell somebody. And these scary thoughts were probably the worst part of the
00:02:38.720 postpartum because I was always worried. I didn't even want to tell my doctors about them
00:02:44.280 because I was worried that if I said something that they would feel an obligation to have to
00:02:48.540 protect my son so that they would have to report it. Like what a selfish woman. If you're thinking 1.00
00:02:52.800 about killing your kids, ladies, go have your hot girl summer. Just be the big fat slut whores you 1.00
00:02:57.400 are. Give the kid to the dad and be gone. Be gone. But women just can't do that. It's because they 1.00
00:03:03.100 don't want to look bad. But it's like, you know, I think we got to normalize women leaving their 1.00
00:03:08.800 children and giving them to the father and not shame those women i actually think there there
00:03:14.880 should be some pride in those women leaving the kids alone and making it heaven on earth for the
00:03:19.840 children you know to the ministry so i remember keeping these thoughts to myself and trying to
00:03:27.280 work through them and say okay you know what i have control i have control you know these are
00:03:30.800 just thoughts i'm not actually going to act on them i'm not going to do anything they're just
00:03:33.760 scary thoughts that go through into my mind. It wasn't until more into learning about self-care
00:03:41.600 and learning about postpartum through the weekly sessions that I'd have with other moms at Pacific
00:03:49.200 Postpartum that I learned that these were classified as intrusive thoughts and what they were and that
00:03:55.280 these were normal for people experiencing postpartum. Let me get this straight. Women
00:04:01.620 don't hate their kids but it's normal for them to want to kill them but it's normal for them to want 0.63
00:04:08.180 to kill their children and they just say that i hate women i i'm owed some apology what world am
00:04:14.740 i living in okay let's see this one the intrusive thought came smash the glass on the side of the 1.00
00:04:20.420 sink and cut the baby's throat i envisioned the bath water turning all red with blood oh my god
00:04:27.300 Former New Jersey First Lady Mary Jo Cody told a rapt audience at Monmouth Medical Center 0.97
00:04:32.520 a brutally frank story about her terrifying dark journey through 1.00
00:04:36.660 You dads, you gotta grow a pair and get your kids away from these women.
00:04:40.940 Deep postpartum depression and thoughts of killing her baby son Kevin in 1985. 0.99
00:04:46.680 I went into the kitchen one night in January when my husband was out giving a speech
00:04:50.880 and opened up the microwave to see if I could fit the baby inside.
00:04:54.480 She couldn't. Kevin survived and thrived, as did his brother Chris after Cody got proper treatment.
00:05:00.440 But postpartum depression imploded her world.
00:05:03.580 It affects one in seven women nationwide.
00:05:06.440 And here at the new Center for Perinatal Mood and Anxiety Disorders,
00:05:10.660 Cody's story made women in the treatment program weep in recognition.
00:05:14.660 Jessica Montalto of BRIC considered suicide after having her son Luca.
00:05:19.200 Her family didn't understand.
00:05:21.040 And they're like, you're being overdramatic. This is ridiculous. 0.99
00:05:23.940 You know, you're a mom now, like, get over it. 0.98
00:05:26.700 It took support groups and therapy from Montalto to cope. 1.00
00:05:30.180 Okay, so the women, this is how spoiled we are. 1.00
00:05:34.340 Women have to cope with our thoughts, and we need support groups to cope with our murderous thoughts 1.00
00:05:40.780 instead of being thrown in mental institutions. 1.00
00:05:43.400 Women are such brats, just completely spoiled brats. 1.00
00:05:46.060 Nick Hears treated more than 500 patients. 1.00
00:05:48.820 Their kids played during today's official ribbon cutting.
00:05:51.400 A CDC survey shows about 9 to 10 percent of New Jersey women self-reported PPD symptoms in 2012 and 13.
00:05:59.500 Because they've waited five months, they've waited eight weeks, they've waited eight months to see if tomorrow would be better.
00:06:05.500 Would I feel better tomorrow? Would I not feel like this? Ashamed? Stigma?
00:06:10.180 New Jersey's one of only a few states that screens women for PPD before they leave the hospital.
00:06:15.260 Now we're going to move to taking good care of them afterwards, and so that's why this program is developed, that's why this program is very successful.
00:06:24.580 But participants expressed concern about what impact changes in health care coverage could have, particularly after the Obamacare rollback vote today in the House.
00:06:33.920 Amy DiStefano needed intensive counseling for depression after little Charlotte was born. 1.00
00:06:39.380 Yeah, women care about being popular, they don't care about kids. 1.00
00:06:41.760 mental health is a necessity definitely but if it's you know between taking your baby to the 1.00
00:06:47.040 pediatrician or going to therapy they're going to choose taking care of their baby if it comes down
00:06:51.760 to money while they're concerned about the status of health care coverage for postpartum depression
00:06:56.960 the program director says they'll make sure that patients here get the counseling they need
00:07:02.880 regardless of their ability to pay in long branch i'm brenda flanagan nj tv news
00:07:09.040 Yeah. So again, women hate their children. They don't want to be mothers. And I've been saying 1.00
00:07:14.780 this for years and I'm owed an apology. That's all I'm saying. So I've been talking about this
00:07:19.160 series where women regret everything. There's nothing we don't regret. We get married, we 0.99
00:07:23.580 regret that. We have a kid, we regret that. We don't have a kid, we regret that. No matter what
00:07:27.540 we do, there's regret everywhere because women can't process our emotions because when you're a 1.00
00:07:31.680 kid, you're supposed to be taught how to deal with your emotions and grow up and we just never 1.00
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