SHNEAKO - November 17, 2025


THE COLLEGE DROPOUT

What’s Your Biggest Fear? NEVER KILL YOURSELF.

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16 minutes

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2,683

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139

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In this episode, I talk about why I decided to drop out of college and how it changed my life forever. I also talk about the moment when I realized I had a chance to change my life, and how I took advantage of it.

Transcript

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00:00:00.880 This was me two years after I moved from New York City to New Haven, Connecticut, I think in 2003.
00:00:09.920 Cute little kid, no idea what I wanted to do.
00:00:13.380 This is me July 4th, 2004.
00:00:17.880 This is me the next year in Haiti visiting my family.
00:00:23.020 Then this is me six years ago to this day when I had an opportunity overnight to change my life forever.
00:00:29.740 I was gonna really time up with the drop too, maybe
00:00:32.520 100K, I used to work at the Sunway 0.63
00:00:47.020 I fucking worked here 0.93
00:00:48.120 100,000, 100,000 subscribers 0.99
00:00:51.820 100
00:00:52.280 I had already been doing YouTube for 5 years 0.98
00:00:57.240 And then overnight I went from 30 to a hundred thousand subscribers the next summer is when I decided to drop my ass about a 0.99
00:01:04.500 call 1.00
00:01:05.500 My teacher said I was a loser. I told her why don't you kill me. I give a fuck if you feel me. I'm gonna fall 1.00
00:01:13.180 Hey, how you doing? Good to see you, girl. I just got a haircut. You can get a red book out of here
00:01:18.140 Let's fucking we get it from you don't like it? Nah, it's good. Let's go. Oh, you can tell a white guy did it 0.98
00:01:24.120 Yeah, man. 0.99
00:01:24.740 You want someone to hit you with the scissors and the clippers? 1.00
00:01:27.340 Yeah, why?
00:01:27.860 What's wrong with it?
00:01:28.800 Nah, it's good.
00:01:29.460 It's good.
00:01:29.960 What do you see?
00:01:30.740 He sees something.
00:01:31.640 Your lineup could have been a lot more sharper.
00:01:34.040 Really?
00:01:34.440 Yeah, man.
00:01:34.920 Where?
00:01:36.040 Just all around, man.
00:01:37.120 He could have hit you with the little details, man.
00:01:40.560 He could have fine-tuned it just a little bit.
00:01:42.460 Just a little bit, man.
00:01:43.300 It's crooked?
00:01:44.240 Nah, it's straight.
00:01:45.620 But it's a little bit, like, natural.
00:01:47.120 Yeah.
00:01:47.460 That's what I asked for.
00:01:49.140 Natural.
00:01:49.380 Yeah, natural, natural.
00:01:50.260 I mean, he could have done a lot sharper without going beyond the hammer, but he'd be good, man.
00:01:55.380 Good seeing you.
00:01:57.260 My whole childhood, I never knew if college was in my story.
00:02:01.880 I always knew that I wanted to drop out.
00:02:04.680 And this is the story of why I dropped out of college.
00:02:08.320 You can't catch my hustle.
00:02:10.220 You can't fathom my love, dude.
00:02:12.340 Lock yourself in a room doing five beats a day for three summers.
00:02:15.960 That's a different world like three summers.
00:02:18.080 I deserve to do these numbers.
00:02:19.800 the kid that made that deserves that made back so many records in my basement i'm just waiting on
00:02:26.360 my spaceship there's something undeniably rebellious about dropping out of school i
00:02:31.960 always knew it was something the main character does the main character doesn't do what he's told
00:02:36.600 and follow the path that's already paved he creates his own and i was already an outcast
00:02:42.440 this picture embodies exactly what it was like for me growing up an asian mexican looking boy
00:02:48.120 but this picture is in Haiti because I'm part Haitian but I was born in New York City but grew
00:02:53.720 up in a dangerous part of Connecticut while still going to a private school full of waspy white 1.00
00:02:58.520 people. My existence was a walking contradiction. None of it made sense. 0.96
00:03:02.440 around the world everyone will tell you nobody loves talking about race more than Americans so 0.50
00:03:21.940 I don't take full responsibility for the fact that I never fit into any box I wasn't supposed
00:03:27.560 to conform internally i always knew that my path to success had to be driven by me don't make no
00:03:33.800 money but she won't drop out of parents so look at her funny now tell me that ain't the visionary is 1.00
00:03:39.880 not supposed to see what everybody else is seeing in fact school is the real contradiction because
00:03:45.160 we teach kids to grow and change yet change is impossible if everything you're learning has
00:03:50.440 already been taught and there's no better example of curriculum than school true innovators can't
00:03:57.160 repeat what has been taught they have to follow the light from within oh yeah i got the perfect
00:04:03.800 song for the kids to sing and all my people that's because my father as a photographer is most likely
00:04:09.160 the reason that i always viewed life through the lens of a movie and one of the most cinematic
00:04:14.200 moments of my life was when i finally decided to pull the trigger and quit i was driving from
00:04:21.880 long island new york to myrtle beach alone during the summer waiting for my junior year of college
00:04:28.120 to start i've always found the best place to process thoughts is on a long road trip why i
00:04:33.640 decided to go to myrtle beach in south carolina i don't know why but i knew that i had to get out
00:04:38.680 of new york and go somewhere that i had never been before it was around a nine hour drive one way and
00:04:44.040 i had went by myself at the time i was driving a nissan ultima 2003 that i bought from my sister
00:04:50.440 for one thousand dollars most of the ride i was listening to podcasts and trying to get a new
00:04:58.760 perspective but when i played the album yay and specifically heard the song ghost town
00:05:08.840 that's when i rolled down the windows put my arms out felt the breeze of the mountains and
00:05:14.760 with tears running down my face of being real speeding down the highway in a car that i should
00:05:19.560 not have been speeding in i have to quit something overcame me and i think i'm still on that road
00:05:27.800 trip to some extent there was one road trip i took with my sister from the top of california
00:05:43.280 to the bottom and that's when i developed a lot of my creative style and realized exactly what i
00:05:49.400 want to put out into the world. There was one road trip I took with my brother across the country
00:05:53.600 and we even stopped in Wyoming where this album cover was shot. The actual specific part of the
00:05:58.580 song where I pulled the trigger in my mind to quit was when 070 Shake sings
00:06:04.100 I can't do it justice
00:06:19.400 Dreaming, talking, in your sleep, I know you want to cry all night.
00:06:34.780 This was a difficult time because I knew that I didn't want to be in school,
00:06:39.300 but I was still enjoying every moment I could through the most hedonistic activities possible.
00:06:44.760 I was going out and partying three, four nights a week.
00:06:47.360 I was taking a lot of drugs.
00:06:48.940 I was sleeping with as many women as I possibly could. 1.00
00:06:51.880 I was skipping class, but there were very few times
00:06:54.320 where I actually did pay attention during film school
00:06:56.520 and I learned quite a bit, but there wasn't enough output.
00:07:00.180 There wasn't enough of a specific path.
00:07:03.340 They told us to become an intern afterwards
00:07:05.540 and work at a news station operating the camera,
00:07:08.440 but I'm not here in film school for four years
00:07:10.900 spending almost 40,000 a year just to stand there
00:07:15.080 and operate a camera that I don't even want to be behind of.
00:07:19.100 I want to be doing everything.
00:07:23.860 I'm not in film school to be bound by the corporate life.
00:07:27.160 I'm in film school to be kind of free.
00:07:29.780 That moment and that decision was single-handedly
00:07:32.360 the hardest decision by far
00:07:34.060 that I've ever had to make in life.
00:07:35.560 Not only was I now in a quarter million dollars
00:07:38.020 of student loan debt,
00:07:39.340 but I was going to be abandoned by my family.
00:07:41.440 All the glitters is my gold.
00:07:44.320 And you can't blame your family for cutting you off when you decide to take your own path because they want what's best for you
00:07:50.820 They need you to be safe and driving off into the abyss is following the unknown
00:07:55.140 There's no way to protect somebody driving alone on a road without a GPS. So I made the correct decision and didn't tell anybody
00:08:06.100 There was a period of several months during the next semester while I was living with college students
00:08:10.980 acting like I was going to school and although it was extremely difficult I
00:08:15.360 was grateful the entire time because I knew I needed that pressure to succeed
00:08:20.520 I knew that without a safety net and the fear of the unknown I would find a way
00:08:31.080 to make it out and really one of the thoughts at the time that was giving me
00:08:35.220 purpose and hope was the fact that Kanye West did it his whole identity was
00:08:40.080 follow your dreams no matter the cost i spelled unknown wrong yeah i spelled this word wrong my
00:08:46.060 favorite moment during his netflix documentary when he was dead broke still fresh out of chicago
00:08:51.200 in new york city delivering beats to rappers apartments like a crack dealer and on the road
00:08:57.380 he's driving talking to the camera and he doesn't know where the documentary is going he says man i 0.98
00:09:01.680 got big dreams motherfucker i might be living your american dream but i'm nowhere near my where my 0.98
00:09:06.520 dream is dog i got man i got aspirations i got big dreams mother everybody dreams so you might 0.99
00:09:13.120 as well dream big his music and his life was so inspirational for me that i knew if he did it i'm
00:09:19.300 gonna do it too not only that i'm gonna work with him one day and then i did and that would not have
00:09:24.540 happened if i had followed the path his first album college dropout taught me to put your pain
00:09:31.740 into your work. The song Through the Wire is the perfect example of that. Ye had gotten a car
00:09:43.500 accident so bad that they had to wire his mouth shut and he was only eating inshore. It was during
00:09:49.680 the time where he was trying to get signed, still called a producer, but on the way to becoming a
00:09:54.620 rapper. Not just a producer rapper either. The crash was so bad it was all over TV. He wasn't
00:10:00.460 supposed to survive and his mouth was wired shut almost a sign from God saying stick to the keys
00:10:06.360 you don't need your mouth to make a beat. Instead he chose to record the song anyway and it became
00:10:11.380 one of his first hit singles. That album helped me decide to stop running away from whatever makes
00:10:18.160 you different. Instead of trying to escape a disadvantage in front of you use it and channel
00:10:23.140 that energy into everything you do. Your individual struggle is exactly what makes you unique. People
00:10:28.920 don't understand that by numbing their pain, they're throwing away their recipe for success.
00:10:34.720 Individuality is the only aspect of someone that's worth listening to. Otherwise, you could just open
00:10:39.800 up the books they give you in school. It's not about your IQ or your height, your race, or anything
00:10:45.680 that's out of our control. It's up to what's in here.
00:10:58.920 I swear if you're looking for truth, then just listen to your heart
00:11:04.360 It's the only thing they can't take away from you
00:11:10.780 Work but a lot of people trying to mislead you you stay on it. Yeah. Yeah, yeah. Stay up. Let's be on now. You doing all right? Yeah
00:11:18.840 You don't mind the picture 0.91
00:11:21.640 There's a problem right there's not disclosure agreements on that so the science has a fucking gag order on it and that's
00:11:27.980 That's, that's where, that's where we start to come into this year.
00:11:33.980 Manhattan on the weekend is a completely different city than what it is on Tuesday.
00:11:37.980 People are putting on their, I have a hinge date later outfits.
00:11:40.980 They're nice jackets, they're gonna go out later.
00:11:42.980 They're not dressed for work, they're dressed to be seen, to hang out.
00:11:57.980 I was at NYPD and Fire Department Gallows tonight.
00:12:20.200 The most patriotic I've ever seen in Wall Street.
00:12:25.020 I thought I was a man.
00:12:26.240 That's a woman yelling over there about Jesus. 1.00
00:12:27.980 That's a woman? 1.00
00:12:28.660 That's a woman, yeah. 1.00
00:12:32.860 What is this all about?
00:12:33.860 What is this for?
00:12:37.400 So who do you guys think did 9-11?
00:12:41.220 It was a terrorist attack, right?
00:12:42.900 By who?
00:12:45.340 You know.
00:12:48.320 You hear that woman yelling over there? 1.00
00:12:50.700 Yeah, the whole time.
00:12:51.760 That is the deepest voice of a woman I've ever heard in my life.
00:12:54.600 Are you Bengali?
00:12:55.380 Where are you from?
00:12:56.180 I'm from Bangladesh.
00:12:57.360 Got it right.
00:12:57.980 No, you gotta be from Queens.
00:12:59.980 You're Dominican. 0.98
00:13:00.980 Oh, wow.
00:13:01.980 Are you?
00:13:02.980 Yes, let's go.
00:13:03.980 And you are Puerto Rican from LES.
00:13:05.980 No, I'm from the Bronx.
00:13:07.980 Two for three, I'll tell you.
00:13:08.980 Two for three.
00:13:09.980 So are you rookies?
00:13:10.980 We're cadets, so it's like we take a promotion and we become a cop later down in the line.
00:13:14.980 What's that movie called?
00:13:15.980 Police Academy.
00:13:16.980 You're at Police Academy right now.
00:13:17.980 Yeah.
00:13:18.980 So how much more time as a cadet do you need?
00:13:19.980 You just have to finish college and you get your degree and then you could just join in.
00:13:22.980 You could even do it before, but it's good to just finish your degree at least.
00:13:25.980 Which is good pay, right?
00:13:26.980 pay, right? You're gonna be a cop under Mamdani's New York City. Mamdani, they're not gonna have
00:13:33.280 a lot of work if you decriminalize everything. We gotta make sure they're busy. Have a nice day,
00:13:37.720 guys. You too. Have a good one.
00:13:42.220 Going to the event? Yeah, I'm going to the fight Saturday, the weigh-ins tomorrow.
00:13:45.660 Yeah, we're going to the fight as well. Are you at Islam or Jack? Islam, Islam.
00:13:48.760 of course where do you think we're from georgia yeah yeah how did you do that i'm good right
00:13:57.960 international i know nice to meet you nice to meet you so your favorite is marab yeah
00:14:02.520 polish really yeah you see i mean to pour you it's a boy yeah of course i like mariah he
00:14:07.720 he said did stream with marab yeah oh yeah let's look him to uh georgia restaurant in las vegas 0.94
00:14:12.600 We're obviously cheap, he's a crazy guy. 1.00
00:14:14.600 Crazy man. 0.99
00:14:15.600 You can go to the weigh-in tomorrow. 0.96
00:14:17.600 How do you get the ticket?
00:14:19.600 Just go there early?
00:14:21.600 Just go there early at 4.30.
00:14:23.600 Can I get a picture?
00:14:25.600 Sure.
00:14:26.600 That was pretty good, I guess, Georgia, at first.
00:14:28.600 Pretty good.
00:14:29.600 Most people say Russian, right?
00:14:31.600 They think Russian?
00:14:33.600 Yeah, that's it.
00:14:35.600 Who's that guy?
00:14:37.600 Is he with you?
00:14:39.600 No, I don't know.
00:14:40.600 Is he with you?
00:14:41.600 nice
00:14:45.280 brother who this guy oh you with him who this guy
00:14:50.800 stop filming
00:14:52.000 i don't concern
00:14:53.600 don't concern break the camera
00:14:57.600 This is Sneeko?
00:14:58.600 Hey, what's up?
00:14:59.600 Wait, hold on.
00:15:00.600 You opened up my Instagram, but where'd you open?
00:15:02.600 See, I'm banned on Instagram.
00:15:03.600 Is that yours?
00:15:04.600 He got Sneeko at it.
00:15:05.600 So can you tell Mata to unban me? 0.99
00:15:06.600 Because I'm banned on Instagram.
00:15:07.600 Oh, you're unbanned?
00:15:08.600 Yeah.
00:15:09.600 Unbanned on Instagram.
00:15:10.600 Yo, I'm ban him, bro. 1.00
00:15:11.600 What the fuck? 1.00
00:15:12.600 Of course, man. 1.00
00:15:13.600 Thanks, man.
00:15:14.600 Where are you from?
00:15:15.600 He left.
00:15:16.600 sneeko edit so can you tell matter to unban me because i'm banned on instagram are you 0.99
00:15:20.360 on instagram yo i'm banging bro what the fuck man thanks man where are you from 0.99
00:15:26.920 you left bro oh this one is my gift for you now look at me one two three okay now you 0.99
00:15:37.480 that's not that's a canon that's a i see the canon in there it's a fake camera it's a fake camera
00:15:42.680 I was just watching your video the other video
00:15:47.400 The one that you were returning from getting banned from
00:15:50.020 On band, yes 1.00
00:15:51.180 Yo, I fucked with you 1.00
00:15:52.180 Yo, that's crazy 1.00
00:15:53.300 Bro, I'm just super
00:15:55.860 What did you think of the video? I spent a lot of time on it
00:15:57.440 It was good, I liked it
00:15:58.600 Hey, yo, Pierre
00:16:02.400 Yo, that's amazing
00:16:04.820 We just shook our hands four times in five seconds
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