SNEAKO - August 02, 2023


SNEAKO IS BACK IN NYC

Hosted by
Nicolas Kenn De Balinthazy
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45 minutes

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9,070

Sentence count

114

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11

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120

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I'm back in NYC after a long break. I talk about how it's weird to be back in the city and how I feel about it. I also talk about some of the things I've been dealing with since I left New York City.

Transcript

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00:00:00 I am mobile right now. I'm on my laptop setup and back in New York City
00:00:04 Have a monologue today short stream, but I have some things that I want to talk about
00:00:08 Want to make sure everything's good. Make sure you guys can hear me all good stuff want to see
00:00:13 The audio is good videos good and then we can get into it. Cool. Cool. Cool. It looks like it's good
00:00:19 All right, so
00:00:21 Is the Wi-Fi? Okay? Connection is good type of one if you can hear me
00:00:25 Everybody in here. It's gonna be back in New York City. It's gonna be back more of my nice professional
00:00:29 Fit nice and linen decent hotel
00:00:33 it's nice and
00:00:35 It's weird to be back in New York
00:00:37 It's weird to be back here want to make sure everything's good before I started talking before
00:00:42 This is delayed one one one one one. Come on. Get some ones in here 0.87
00:00:46 Stream is tweeted out
00:00:48 Everything sounds good
00:00:50 All right
00:00:53 Welcome back guys. How you feeling? How was your week been so far? It's Tuesday
00:00:59 August 1st first of the month time to get paid time to make money
00:01:03 We're almost we're well over halfway through the year
00:01:08 The year has flown by
00:01:10 I'm talking about the chats messed up. Hold up. I can't I can't talk in if I can't see the chat
00:01:16 Can't talk in this again
00:01:19 My bad 1.00
00:01:23 Bro, where the fuck have you been? It's been for two days. It's been like four days. Uh, my bad chat 0.99
00:01:29 been
00:01:30 Reflecting a little bit been thinking more been trying to
00:01:35 To get into a new headspace when things get repetitive. I think it's necessary to take some time off
00:01:41 And to um to reflect and all that stuff
00:01:44 Christian Dior i'm all up in the stores. No, that's uh, I mean
00:01:48 Okay, any new yorkers in here
00:01:52 I did see some some of you walking around today some of you guys came up to me
00:01:57 I'm walking around with my leonardo dicaprio fit trying to hide i'm a little bit of I can't even lie
00:02:03 I've never been like that paranoid about anything
00:02:06 but
00:02:08 I've been a little bit
00:02:10 I don't know. I just i've been talking a lot of shit 1.00
00:02:12 I've been talking a lot of shit since I last been here. So i've been walking around like this 0.99
00:02:15 like leonardo dicaprio
00:02:17 hiding from
00:02:18 I don't want to i'm because there's so many more trannies here than usual and it's just this is the the npc hub 1.00
00:02:25 This is where the like an npc spawn point. So I don't want
00:02:29 Anyone to I don't want to have any problems. I was sitting in washington square park earlier today
00:02:34 Like this just kind of and some people came up to me
00:02:37 They like some guy said he recognized me for my goatee, but i'm just trying to you know
00:02:41 And I I can't have my gun when i'm here
00:02:45 I can't walk around with my gun when i'm in florida. I have my gun everywhere I go
00:02:49 Here i'm more exposed
00:02:51 I'm not here with anybody like there's I have some friends here, but i'm not walking around with the mob
00:02:57 Or a couple other people so it's like i'm kind of
00:03:00 You know, you just you kind of have to trust
00:03:03 everybody else
00:03:04 To not do something and i've been talking a lot since I last came back to new york city
00:03:09 I think I came here once after yay 24 in november and then
00:03:13 Other than that, I think the last time I was really here was when I moved out
00:03:16 I've been pretty much in miami the entire time I went back to visit my family a couple times. They live close by
00:03:21 so
00:03:23 It's been it's a little bit like i'm kind of like on edge
00:03:27 I'm, never really the type of guy to be on edge like that
00:03:31 But don't stop the daily streams number. I remember waiting on the streams. Yeah, I know i'll be back with the streams
00:03:36 Um, we have a lot more plan
00:03:38 I want to go to london and start streaming from london with shake with mine 1.00
00:03:40 We have a lot of big things playing more traveling, but i'm not the type of guy that can just be in one place all the time
00:03:47 I need to travel especially before I have children. I think it's extremely important to gain new experiences
00:03:52 And to see the world and to learn more but trying to read
00:03:56 And get new inspiration
00:03:57 I went to epstein's house earlier today
00:04:01 Just to see inside
00:04:03 And luckily like right then they were doing construction
00:04:05 So then I got I got to peek in a little bit and I asked like there was construction guys coming in and out and they were like closing the door
00:04:12 Halfway so that I couldn't even look in at all and I asked the main guy there because he was the one with the clipboard
00:04:17 I'm, like did jeffrey epstein lives here? He's like, I don't know
00:04:20 Like clearly you knew
00:04:21 Clearly, you know that jeffrey epstein was there. Thank you for the five to path at the gym right now 25 pushers right now
00:04:26 You give me five dollars. I'm not doing 25 pushers for five dollars
00:04:29 I'll do five at the end
00:04:31 but
00:04:32 being back in new york city
00:04:34 It's like everyone who still lives here a lot of my friends and a lot of people are any new yorkers in your type of one if you are here
00:04:40 The zerkers in new york too 1.00
00:04:41 I think we uh, we have something planned for tomorrow
00:04:43 So stay tuned for that and have some more podcasts on the way have some collabs lined up with um
00:04:48 With ryan long boys cast and academics him me up. So i'm you're gonna see more podcasts soon
00:04:52 But I want to talk to you guys saw all the autistic schizos 1.00
00:04:55 No reactions today
00:04:57 No
00:04:59 Clips no drama. I wanted to do something with gd on but
00:05:03 He I don't I don't know it's like the headphones and it's just it's weird like that
00:05:07 so
00:05:08 It's the npc spawn point and everybody who's been here
00:05:12 I don't know if you if you live in any liberal city
00:05:14 The amount of trannies has tripled and I know that's like I don't want to be the guy who only talks about trannies 1.00
00:05:20 but it's tripled since 0.95
00:05:22 I left
00:05:23 They're they're just they come out of nowhere the mullet with the green hair do a little meetup 0.83
00:05:28 I'll pop out right now. No, i'm not doing a meetup man. Thanks for the sin
00:05:30 um
00:05:31 But I I do have um videos planned
00:05:34 In the next couple days before I go to london
00:05:36 The amount of like the green hair mullet people 0.99
00:05:40 And uh, the blm fit like right when I I got here
00:05:44 I was sitting down like drinking tea because I can't drink alcohol anymore
00:05:47 I'm sitting at a bar drinking tea like if like bro, like
00:05:50 The past says bet 25 pushups right now. Oh, bro. Okay. This fucking guy
00:05:53 Can I get into my monologue before? Okay, let me do 25 because this fucking guy let him come in because the instagram and twitter fine 1.00
00:05:59 25 pushups chat, but I haven't let me do my monologue. Okay, let me do my monologue before you interrupt it 0.98
00:06:04 Do 25 you can do 25
00:06:13 10
00:06:20 20 one
00:06:22 or three
00:06:24 two
00:06:26 Okay, now leave me alone. Now leave me alone. Let me let me talk
00:06:30 The amount of the trannies has tripled 1.00
00:06:32 And i'm at a bar drinking tea drinking green tea 1.00
00:06:36 Because I like a faggot 1.00
00:06:38 Well, no, actually no i'm on my dean 1.00
00:06:41 Halal
00:06:42 No alcohol
00:06:43 And then I see somebody with uh
00:06:46 A black a white dude of course because that's like the most amount of let's be honest like white people 0.99
00:06:50 You guys can hold the l for that the amount of trannies 1.00
00:06:53 Pretty much consistent and there's a lot of black trannies too 1.00
00:06:55 But the ones who are like let me be political 0.98
00:06:57 Black power fist and on the back of his shirt. It says say no to transphobia say no to
00:07:05 Say no to
00:07:06 Bigotry say no to fascism say no to any all the all the talking points and i'm like, of course
00:07:11 The first person that I see and it's in a nice bar with rugs
00:07:16 And it's a good atmosphere
00:07:17 And then I just hear this comment
00:07:20 And then they play rihanna on their phone and I have to hear rihanna like 0.99
00:07:24 Bitch better have my 1.00
00:07:26 From a phone speaker 1.00
00:07:29 I'm out of breath right now
00:07:31 I'm out of breath okay
00:07:34 So i'm just saying i'm walking around like leonardo dicaprio just like wondering like when
00:07:38 Some train is gonna like try to you know say no to fascism and hit me
00:07:42 So if you see me walking around new york tomorrow or the day after like this
00:07:48 Just don't don't be weird
00:07:49 Don't be weird
00:07:51 I thought that this is going to be a good is this is this a good disguise yes or no chat
00:07:57 I'm, also reflecting on on new york how much things have changed
00:08:00 It's it's a good reminder about why I left
00:08:04 I moved here because I was born in new york city, but i'm not really from new york city
00:08:08 I was born here, but I came here I came back
00:08:12 And for the beginning years of my adult life
00:08:15 Because new york city is the cinematic main character place to start your life
00:08:22 It's a good place that people want a backstory from there
00:08:25 There's culture there's energy here
00:08:28 You can become like that's this is where people go to become the main character
00:08:34 But I left because it was getting too liberal and you see the type of people who
00:08:38 Dye their hair green
00:08:39 Or they just like they're really fat and they're wearing a crop top bra
00:08:44 And they're just holding their belly and they're like doing tiktoks on the street look at my belly 0.90
00:08:48 Those people are becoming the main character by just having everybody look at them
00:08:52 They're saying look at me 0.94
00:08:54 Look how ugly I am
00:08:56 Look how much I do not care about my appearance 0.78
00:08:59 This is why I deserve your attention look at me
00:09:03 There's no value that they're adding there's nothing that they're giving to the world
00:09:07 Besides an egregious
00:09:10 Egregious physical appearance their entire
00:09:13 Outward expression is just
00:09:15 Look how much I can change about my body and not care about the job
00:09:19 What are you going to do about it? What are you going to do?
00:09:21 What are you going to do?
00:09:22 So they they get their attention by just
00:09:24 Like declaring themselves as something
00:09:27 If you're a main character
00:09:29 And you don't try to add anything of value 0.99
00:09:32 Then you're a clown 0.98
00:09:34 Then you're just you're a background character 0.99
00:09:36 You're trying to get people's attention
00:09:39 By offering nothing
00:09:41 So
00:09:41 It's it's a reminder coming back to New York City
00:09:45 Because I remember being 18 when I was here
00:09:47 And 0.96
00:09:48 I remember this is this is your sound gay 0.99
00:09:50 Put an L in the chat L spam for this 0.98
00:09:52 I cried on my 18th birthday 0.81
00:09:54 I haven't talked about that crying is gay 1.00
00:09:56 I don't cry often
00:09:57 I can't even remember the last time I cried genuinely
00:09:59 But that was one time I specifically remember
00:10:02 And I remember it like a main character moment
00:10:04 Where the L is? I need to see some L's for that 0.97
00:10:07 And I'm the type of person where I see life
00:10:10 Through this cinematic lens
00:10:12 I always think of it like even when I have a moment where
00:10:14 I'm upset or when things go wrong or someone in my family dies
00:10:18 I'm thinking about the camera
00:10:20 Feel like how this could be written
00:10:22 I'm thinking about how this can be how this would be filmed
00:10:26 I'm thinking about how cinematic this moment is
00:10:29 I kind of see the beauty in terrible moments because
00:10:33 I've always seen life as a movie
00:10:35 That's that's been my lens to to view the world
00:10:38 And why I always think about these ideas about becoming a main character
00:10:42 I think that when you're becoming a man
00:10:45 You need to first develop an ego but it has to be justified
00:10:48 Tate always talks about that
00:10:49 But where I always was is where I needed to find confidence
00:10:54 I needed to be confident
00:10:55 I needed to be comfortable in my own skin
00:10:58 And I used to follow this idea of fake it till you make it
00:11:02 Thinking that even if I didn't I said this in a video
00:11:06 That even if you don't know what you're talking about
00:11:08 Say it with confidence and you're going to be compelling
00:11:09 People are going to listen to you
00:11:10 Which is true 0.99
00:11:11 You're going to be far more compelling and people
00:11:13 More people are going to perk up and listen to you
00:11:15 If you have confidence when you speak if you present yourself with confidence
00:11:20 Like for example when you put on a nice shirt and you you walk into a room
00:11:23 You can walk by the hostess at a restaurant
00:11:26 If you walk with enough speed and you act like you know where you're going
00:11:28 And you're like you just go in
00:11:31 If you walk in with a good outfit 0.85
00:11:33 You are much less likely to be stopped than if you walk in look like a bum 1.00
00:11:37 If you look like you know where you're going
00:11:39 People are like oh yeah you know he knows what he's doing
00:11:41 You know like people can seek it to a music festival
00:11:43 Just with a clipboard and a ladder
00:11:45 Because they assume that this guy knows what he oh like he knows what he's doing
00:11:49 But that will only take you so far this idea of fake it till you make it
00:11:54 If you don't know what you're doing eventually you're going to be exposed
00:11:57 The people who really know you'll be able to surpass 90% of people
00:12:00 Because 90% of people have no idea what they're doing
00:12:02 90% of people are just walking through life looking for a little bit of something
00:12:06 They don't know what they need they haven't found their own place in the world especially young people 0.99
00:12:10 So if you are more confident and you are louder and you're you command a room 1.00
00:12:15 Which you can do as a low IQ idiot 1.00
00:12:18 Anybody can do that if you just figure out your body language your mannerisms and how most people think 1.00
00:12:23 But the real people will know the actual successful people will be able to see right through your bullshit 0.99
00:12:29 They can smell that from a mile away and you will be exposed as a fraud and being exposed as a fraud in a room full of made men 0.99
00:12:36 As opposed to being exposed as a fraud between a bunch of normie npcs is way different
00:12:42 That's going to be much more soul crushing that's going to hurt your it's going to damage your reputation much much more
00:12:47 So you don't just want to have blind confidence you need to earn it and the only way to actually earn
00:12:53 That type of confidence is by adding value to the world is by working on something is by
00:12:58 Leaving your stamp on leaving your mark on the world. That has to be positive
00:13:02 I think a lot of people have this misconception that
00:13:05 As long as people are hearing them
00:13:08 Then they're successful as long as like because we all want to make an impact on the world
00:13:12 So as long as they're being heard as long as people are reacting that it's something good
00:13:16 But the truth is if you're not adding anything positive
00:13:19 You're not adding anything to the world that people can use and that can help other people or that's 0.97
00:13:24 Changing the way people think to some extent then you're just just a loud clown making noise 0.92
00:13:29 So I think back to that time when I was 18 years old on my birthday and I remember I remember sitting crying 0.99
00:13:36 Like a faggot because I was just I was unsure of 1.00
00:13:40 Everything that I that I wanted to do in life 0.99
00:13:42 I want to be the main character, but I hadn't really developed my alter ego
00:13:47 And I think everybody needs to have an alter ego, especially lstream lstream lstream
00:13:52 I think everybody needs to have an alter ego
00:13:55 if you
00:13:57 ever struggle with
00:13:59 Insecurity which type of one if you guys do I think most people do the very select few ever really have to think about
00:14:05 Where they belong in the world or their security because if you grow up with a hard enough upbringing 1.00
00:14:10 And you go through enough struggles, you don't have any time to be insecure like a faggot 1.00
00:14:13 Like you know, there's no time for that 1.00
00:14:15 But with the people that do which I think there's a lot of people in the chat that are like that
00:14:18 I think that
00:14:20 You need to develop an alter ego because your insecurity comes from
00:14:24 your
00:14:25 You being afraid to show your real self to the world
00:14:29 and everybody
00:14:30 I think most people have that because
00:14:33 They don't want other people to see their weaknesses
00:14:36 They don't want other people to see that deep down you think you're a fraud
00:14:40 So if you develop an alter ego for me
00:14:42 My name is hubert, but I developed this character this idea this person called sneeko
00:14:48 And you attach everything good that you want in the world to that name to this idea to this brand everything that sneeko is
00:14:54 Then you can find your ways to be more confident because
00:14:57 Your alter ego can help you step out of your own self and this constant self-reflection
00:15:03 The traps of narcissism and
00:15:05 Help you create a character and it doesn't mean that has to be fraud because creating a character doesn't mean that it has to be
00:15:12 All a lie. It's not all exterior, but it is a version of yourself
00:15:17 That is separate from the weaknesses and the insecurities and all the the self-reflection the self-awareness
00:15:25 That we are
00:15:27 More accustomed to than we ever have been because of social media because of the phone and because of how much media is constantly being put out there
00:15:34 I think people are more aware of their existence than they ever have been
00:15:37 I think we're always comparing ourselves
00:15:39 We are always thinking about how people are going to think about this
00:15:43 How this is going to impact and how people are going to respond
00:15:45 It's the most autistic time in history 1.00
00:15:49 So if you develop an alter ego a version of yourself
00:15:54 That you are creating like a video game character from the startup
00:15:57 Then you can you can piece together
00:15:59 And not fear that rejection the fear of rejection is what holds people back
00:16:04 More than anything else
00:16:05 And I think a good example of that if you're not going to talk about me is somebody like myron from fresh and fit for example
00:16:10 The real his government name. I don't want to say right now you can
00:16:13 But he created myron gain that's not his real name myron gains means myron my gains
00:16:18 It's a fitness bodybuilding term. It means like oh, you myron you myron bro. And so this guy's like
00:16:25 Not at all narcissistic. He was a former federal agent, you know kind of comes from this cop fed background
00:16:33 Rudimentary structure and then he steps into a world that's completely opposite
00:16:37 This world here where it's a camera microphone and you need to entertain and the only way a guy like him could do that
00:16:43 Because he doesn't have any of that narcissism social media bullshit is he has to create this character is he has to become somebody
00:16:50 Exterior he needs to create somebody that's behind the screen and not just running around arresting people 0.94
00:16:57 and
00:16:59 Somebody like him is successful doing it and I think for an example
00:17:03 You can compare what I do to that and what a lot of you guys want to do as well
00:17:07 You can compare a guy like that because he will only add value you're creating a character, but it's not negative
00:17:13 It's not narcissism because he's trying to his whole objective is specifically to add value
00:17:19 How could I help how can I make more money? How could I change the conversation?
00:17:23 If you go in with blind narcissism and you create an alter ego you create a tiktok account and you start just dancing and showing your belly and your green hair
00:17:30 You become like the nurses and covet in 2020. Do you remember when we started gassing up nurses so much?
00:17:37 That they would just prop up their phone and then film themselves crying like patient like they were just literally they would set up their phone right here
00:17:45 And then like a patient would die and because we were like, oh my god nurses and people were banging pots and pans out the window
00:17:51 Nurses would set up the phone
00:17:53 So somebody lost their life
00:18:03 And a nurse is so gassed up that she thinks that's a moment for her to get her time to shine 1.00
00:18:08 She's having her main character moment
00:18:10 She's thinking she's so wrapped up in her own head 1.00
00:18:14 And her self-esteem is so high because people are applauding just the fact that she's a whore. I mean nurses are whores 1.00
00:18:19 That she thinks it's acceptable to set up her phone and take a loss of life as a moment for 1.00
00:18:28 herself
00:18:29 Thanks for the five um
00:18:33 Mario, I love that quote from from yay
00:18:35 If you're a fan of Kanye West, you're actually a fan of yourself. My music is the espresso that gets you up through life
00:18:39 Yeah, because self self-belief and and that internal
00:18:43 Everybody can relate to that because everybody has that whether or not you like to admit it everybody
00:18:48 Has the urge and desire to be somebody and that doesn't have to be just a clout chase thing
00:18:55 But everybody wants to leave it's a masculine 1.00
00:18:57 It's a masculine imperative to to want to leave an impact on the world to want to leave it then 0.98
00:19:02 And when I when i'm back in new york city, I think about that time when I was 18 and I sat there on my bed crying like a bitch 1.00
00:19:08 Because I turned 18 and now i'm an adult and I don't get I felt the loss of innocence the 0.94
00:19:15 the
00:19:16 forcing myself or just being forced to now
00:19:20 Transition to somebody that is responsible for myself 0.98
00:19:23 And that is to find a way to leave an impact on the world. I felt the immense pressure
00:19:29 Hit all at once when I turned 18 which should have been a giant celebration which should have been 1.00
00:19:33 It's something that you know, even though it's an arbitrary day or whatever. It's something that we
00:19:37 Ascribe adulthood to I remember thinking that moment like now
00:19:42 Now it's time now you have to do something. There's no more and I had sneaker since I was 14
00:19:48 Like 13 14 years old. I had this but I i'd kind of been ignoring it
00:19:51 And so I was faced with that reflection that now you need to add something to the world
00:19:56 And I come back here to new york city and I think about all the people that I went to school with
00:20:01 I think about all the all my brother's friends and what they're doing
00:20:04 I look at the other 18 year olds the other people are who are in here and everybody
00:20:09 Um, I blanked on a live. I don't care. I think about everybody who's trying to
00:20:15 Find themselves and who's trying to leave to leave an impact on the world and how difficult that is because of because everybody's trying to do it
00:20:24 so
00:20:24 A lot of people take that scape take the easy route and immediately try to look for clout like the island boys
00:20:31 For example, like they you can get a bunch of tattoos and just say you're gay and then you'll get attention 0.88
00:20:36 And then that will give you a short fleeting sense of accomplishment because people are giving are giving you their attention
00:20:41 People are giving you their eyes. So you you get that dopamine release of like look i've i've done something
00:20:46 It's never been easier to get that satisfaction, but it's also never been more short-lived fame is absolutely meaningless now
00:20:53 It doesn't mean anything. It's it doesn't
00:20:56 Change anything to the world just because you're famous. It doesn't everybody's famous. So you go around new york city
00:21:01 Everybody has some thing that they're doing. Everybody has their own project
00:21:06 Everybody knows everybody. It's it's the most meaningless
00:21:10 It's the most meaningless sense of accomplishment that we've ever had
00:21:15 so
00:21:16 the
00:21:17 I I come back here and I i'm reminded that even though I have that now and I need to walk around like leonardo
00:21:23 dicaprio because
00:21:24 um
00:21:25 Just to to have a little bit like i'm in a hat store like buying this hat
00:21:29 Like first i'm walking around my sunglass people are coming up to like too many people are coming up to me
00:21:33 And I go to the hat store just so I can like walk around
00:21:35 Uh and not get mobbed because i'm i'm like i'm in a store feeling anxious got on my gun
00:21:40 um
00:21:41 And not only do you realize like
00:21:43 When you watch disney movies when you're a kid and you see like how they glorify celebrity
00:21:47 And how like you think like when you're younger like oh that must be cool
00:21:50 Like I can handle that and you think about like hannah montana another alter ego that like the miley cyrus created
00:21:57 You think about how you would be able to handle that
00:21:59 And then that becomes your life
00:22:01 And even though all the movies said that this is going to be pointless now
00:22:05 It's your life and you're like, yeah, it's pointless
00:22:07 All right people come and take a picture with you shake your hand
00:22:10 Some people say good things but the only interactions that really matter when people are genuinely happy
00:22:14 When you can tell that you've impacted their life when they say something they repeat something you said back to you
00:22:20 And you could tell that it's had a positive impact on their life
00:22:23 Those are the types of interactions that you really leave satisfied with
00:22:27 um
00:22:28 And I want to keep on having that and being back here
00:22:31 it's a reflection of how
00:22:33 Not only everybody here everybody comes to new york city
00:22:37 Everybody's in new york city because they believe they're the main character to some extent
00:22:40 It that's why I always
00:22:42 You know, i've always tried to attach that to my identity more than I tried to attach my hometown
00:22:47 uh, new haven connecticut even though I was born here
00:22:49 I try to attach new york city to my identity more because it has like this
00:22:53 This kind of allure to it all the protagonists and movies are from new york city
00:22:56 The coolest people the best artists are from here the best movie directors
00:22:59 um
00:23:00 And you see people you know, I walked around and I I saw this
00:23:04 Uh interaction now like police will come up to me and police will be like yo, I like your videos
00:23:09 I I respect policemen, you know, I I respect the work that they do
00:23:13 And i'm very happy that they're around but then I remember back in 2020
00:23:17 In the blm riots where I was doing this guerrilla journalism and stuff like that
00:23:21 I was filming everything that was going on
00:23:22 I remember hating cops for a while 0.99
00:23:24 I remember going through this like rebellion phase like i'm a late teen and i'm like fuck cops 0.99
00:23:29 And I remember like scream I remember like like saying fuck you to a cop like to his face during the blm riots 1.00
00:23:35 Even though I thought the shit was bullshit and that abolished the police was all garbage 1.00
00:23:38 and 1.00
00:23:39 I was making these videos about why portland was
00:23:41 um 0.99
00:23:42 How stupid everything was going on in portland? 1.00
00:23:44 They had like no police zones and they were barricading 1.00
00:23:47 uh streets
00:23:48 I remember going up to a cop during one of the blm riots in new york city 1.00
00:23:52 And looking like straight dead into the eyes of another policeman or of a policeman and saying fuck you pig 0.99
00:23:57 And then I was sitting in the park today with my leonardo dicaprio fit on 1.00
00:24:01 Um, and I see the police, you know head nod because I think they whatever they watch some of the videos
00:24:06 And then I see a liberal walking by, you know, like a non-threatening white guy outfit where you know the beanie
00:24:12 He's wearing vans. He's like holding a longboard to be like look i'm not a racist
00:24:17 And he's got a like a boom box or whatever and he's walking by and the police are walking 0.99
00:24:21 And then on the there's chalk on the floor and it says fuck cops. He's like you should read that 0.99
00:24:26 You should read that and then he fucking just like runs run like goofy white guy runs away 1.00
00:24:32 non-threatening run 0.99
00:24:34 Um, bought two patient next to the test. He go love to see on your victory lap returning to where it all started
00:24:39 Well, it's not a victory lap because it never stops and the cops just kind of like shrug it off
00:24:42 The cops see this like guy just like run away in his vans
00:24:45 And they just keep on like oh just shrug it off and i'm like that's the difference between
00:24:50 Two people like the two policemen there are hard-working
00:24:53 They're risking their lives every single day to try to protect the community
00:24:55 Um, the people around the community that they're protecting they don't even care about them and people who are under no threat of violence
00:25:01 Like that non-threatening white dude with the mustache who lives in brooklyn 1.00
00:25:05 This guy is getting his main character moment by saying fuck you cops. Yeah, and he has this 1.00
00:25:11 Feeling like he just did something like he just had his moment. That was his like yeah stick it to the man
00:25:17 These people have no idea who's really in charge like the fact that they think
00:25:23 that the policemen are like some actual
00:25:26 figure of authority
00:25:28 When really they're making probably less if not equal to whatever everybody else is making in the community all the liberals that hate them
00:25:34 They don't realize they're in the same pay bracket. They're saying the same tax bracket as all the policemen
00:25:39 But they look at the cops just because they have a uniform as a figure of authority. It's ridiculous 0.96
00:25:44 What they don't think about
00:25:47 And this is what i'm reminded of like when why I stepped outside of epstein's house today like on east 71st street
00:25:54 It's central park east
00:25:57 Right next to the playgrounds while the kids are walking through all the families are
00:26:01 You see there's jeffrey epstein's mansion
00:26:04 And it's all you know, it looks like it's not it's not this big monument forever
00:26:09 I remember when trump was running all of new york stood outside of trump tower. Fuck you trump. Fuck you trump 1.00
00:26:15 And then you see epstein's how and it's just it's boarded up 1.00
00:26:19 There's like construction workers coming in and out and there's nobody there
00:26:21 There's no giant protest there. There's nobody saying fuck you. No one cares about that. They look at 1.00
00:26:27 The policemen the liberals here look at the policeman as a figure of authority
00:26:31 But not these people who probably were friends with epstein who are still living on that street
00:26:35 You look at all the signs of all the the apartments on epstein's block and it's like bro. These people are probably his friends
00:26:41 These people were probably visiting the house, too
00:26:43 They're walking around they have like the night the filipino guy wearing a suit in the front with that. Hello. Come in
00:26:49 Those people were hanging out with him
00:26:51 No, one's protesting
00:26:54 No, no, no one cares. Thank you for the 10 stephen jones single by guy living an alter ego is just cope
00:26:59 A man needs to drive life. Isn't a happy story. You just have to work hard for a happy ending 1.00
00:27:04 That's true
00:27:06 but
00:27:10 Every every man wants to leave some sort of impact on the world
00:27:17 The masculine imperative is to be the change you want to see in the world 0.98
00:27:20 We all want to we all want to do we all want to fight for what's right
00:27:24 And you don't win that fight unless you unless you don't leave any impact
00:27:29 Right if if you lived a successful life, but nobody knew about it and if you didn't change anything, did you really live?
00:27:36 Were you really there? Did you really exist if nobody's life was affected by your existence?
00:27:41 What was the point?
00:27:42 What did you do who what did you change? Why did you even exist if you didn't
00:27:49 Change the world
00:27:50 To become better in the way that you think it should be
00:27:53 Then
00:27:55 Like why did you live what what else is there to do? What what other of course is you have to worship god?
00:28:01 But then you realize that like even if you just follow that and you realize most people don't worship god
00:28:05 And god wants us to spread the word of god
00:28:06 You know god wants us to do good and
00:28:09 You can't do good without changing the life life of anybody else
00:28:13 And if you don't have an alter ego if you don't have any sort of belief if you don't have any
00:28:16 Confidence self-esteem ego if you don't have any of that then you'll never be able to step out of your comfort zone
00:28:20 And and risk rejection
00:28:23 And get to that point
00:28:25 Becoming a man is is very difficult
00:28:35 It's it's very difficult. I think it's it's going to be a longer process
00:28:39 That it's been for most people I think now more than ever
00:28:43 And you look at somebody like angus cloud for example rest in peace
00:28:46 And you guys don't know who he is angus cloud was the
00:28:49 The white drug dealer in the show euphoria
00:28:51 I actually kind of like that show even though there's a lot of propaganda in there 0.96
00:28:55 Very liberal like they put all these trannies in there on purpose 1.00
00:28:58 I want to rest in peace to angus cloud who I don't know how he died
00:29:02 But if you look at the circumstances
00:29:05 You you think that because somebody like that like probably I don't want to put it out there, but
00:29:10 I'm gonna guess that he ended his life. I'm gonna guess that he
00:29:13 Deleted himself. He was 25
00:29:15 And I don't know his story, but like like you can look into his eyes
00:29:19 I've seen some of his interviews and you can tell that guy was deeply troubled
00:29:21 And
00:29:24 Therapy is never the solution for this
00:29:27 In very rare circumstances do I think that therapy is ever going to be the solution to get people out of this
00:29:33 I think the the first step
00:29:35 Is 0.88
00:29:36 Having
00:29:37 A group of racist friends you need to have some instead of going to therapy
00:29:42 Get one of your friends to call you a racial slur no matter what you are
00:29:45 If you're when you're feeling down in that way
00:29:48 If you're when you're feeling down in that way, you have an autistic group of friends 1.00
00:29:50 Who's not afraid to call you on your shit and just just say something extremely fucked up to bring the spirits back up 0.99
00:29:57 I think that if anybody is depressed and I see I see the look I could tell you don't have racist friends around you 1.00
00:30:02 That will
00:30:03 Get rid of your self-esteem and remind you that you're feeling of importance
00:30:08 Even getting to the point where you're going to delete yourself 1.00
00:30:10 That's so stupid like how dumb what you're gonna jump off a bridge nigger. What's wrong? 1.00
00:30:17 What you chink you want to slit my wrist you fucking wop 1.00
00:30:21 Oh, i'm a cracker. I'm sad. Oh crap. Shut the fuck up 1.00
00:30:26 You got to forget that you know 1.00
00:30:28 How
00:30:30 Important do you do you feel about your internal self that you would ever delete yourself?
00:30:35 You think that you're that valuable you think that oh i'm gonna have my sad moment. No
00:30:39 You need you need to have 0.99
00:30:41 Racist friends 1.00
00:30:42 Who call you a faggot if you ever get depressed 1.00
00:30:46 And then 1.00
00:30:49 You also need to have
00:30:51 That alter ego
00:30:53 so that
00:30:55 You know the difference between
00:30:57 What's
00:30:59 Really you
00:31:00 The real you
00:31:02 And I think the real you
00:31:03 Is who you are when you're like 12 years old
00:31:06 I think that defines you
00:31:08 I think when I think of my
00:31:09 Real self
00:31:10 It's me
00:31:11 12 years old
00:31:13 Playing call duty in my mom's basement
00:31:15 Looking at youtube and thinking this is what I want to do
00:31:18 Having all these dreams and aspirations
00:31:20 Kind of unsure of myself like awkward body
00:31:24 You know i'm skinny and like kind of lanky
00:31:26 Like that's the real I think 12 years old you as a man
00:31:30 Defines you yes or no chad
00:31:32 Do you agree
00:31:33 And then from then on
00:31:37 It's about
00:31:39 Developing
00:31:40 Who you want to be
00:31:43 Developing the ideal you
00:31:46 Because even when you
00:31:48 Imposter syndrome is never going to go away
00:31:49 Even when you succeed
00:31:51 People in the chat are saying like congrats on the victory lap
00:31:53 It's not a victory lap
00:31:54 It's just because you never really
00:31:56 It never feels real
00:31:58 Even when you get to a point of success
00:32:00 I never really
00:32:01 It's it's always going to be surreal
00:32:04 Yes no yes no
00:32:05 Of course you're going to change past 12 years old
00:32:10 But that's like
00:32:11 That's when your core desires are defined
00:32:13 That's when you you pretty much know what you want to do in life when you're 12
00:32:17 You know even if you don't know you know
00:32:19 Whatever you're most interested in
00:32:21 Whatever you're spending the most time with
00:32:23 Your sense of humor
00:32:24 How smart you are
00:32:26 It's not really going to change that much past 12
00:32:28 Like right at the
00:32:29 The pinnacle of puberty
00:32:31 Of course you figure more things out
00:32:33 But everything past that
00:32:35 Is just
00:32:36 You're attacking it
00:32:37 And then you're not really
00:32:37 You're
00:32:39 You're maturing
00:32:41 But you're just
00:32:42 You're just carving the marble sculpture at that point
00:32:45 You're just carving it
00:32:48 And your backstory defines you
00:32:52 That's why I always
00:32:53 Craved having
00:32:56 Struggle
00:32:56 That's why I always
00:32:58 Wanted to put myself through difficult situations
00:33:01 Because I knew intrinsically
00:33:02 Even at that age of 12
00:33:04 That the main character
00:33:07 Is not going to be
00:33:08 Admired by the audience
00:33:10 The main character is not going to be
00:33:12 It can't be the hero of any story
00:33:14 If the main character had it easy
00:33:17 Nobody wants to watch a movie
00:33:18 Where the main character is just like
00:33:20 Just goes through life
00:33:21 And then he finds a girl
00:33:22 And then he gets married
00:33:24 And then boom
00:33:25 Credits
00:33:25 No one's watching that
00:33:27 People
00:33:27 Movies don't exist without conflict
00:33:30 You need plot in a movie
00:33:31 Something's going right
00:33:32 Boom
00:33:33 Someone gets shot
00:33:33 How do we figure it out
00:33:34 The blood's on the floor
00:33:36 Where do I hide
00:33:37 Where do I go
00:33:38 You need to have plot
00:33:40 That's why I always wanted to put myself in a situation
00:33:43 Where I had to make it for myself
00:33:45 Where I dropped out of college
00:33:46 And made it difficult
00:33:47 Where I moved to New York City
00:33:49 Not knowing a lot of people
00:33:51 Where I was living in the hood
00:33:53 In Harlem by myself
00:33:54 In a studio apartment
00:33:55 Even in COVID
00:33:56 I stayed here 1.00
00:33:57 While all the fucking normies left 0.99
00:33:59 I was in New York 0.99
00:34:00 Like I moved here
00:34:01 March 1st, 2020
00:34:02 I was living in Long Island
00:34:03 For about
00:34:04 For one or two years
00:34:05 After I dropped out of college
00:34:07 I was living in Long Island
00:34:08 In a basement
00:34:10 And there was mold
00:34:11 And then it flooded
00:34:12 And I was living with some college students
00:34:14 And I was the only non-college student
00:34:15 I had just dropped out
00:34:16 I was making around $2,000 a month
00:34:18 And I'm like
00:34:18 I don't have enough money
00:34:19 To move into the city
00:34:20 And I didn't want to go back home
00:34:21 I didn't want to go
00:34:22 And take the easy route
00:34:23 Because into the comfort zone
00:34:24 That's not how you craft
00:34:26 The proper backstory
00:34:27 For the character
00:34:28 The main character needs struggle
00:34:30 I need to stay in this basement
00:34:31 With the mold
00:34:32 And the loud parties 1.00
00:34:33 And these Eastern European trash 1.00
00:34:35 Who are playing 1.00
00:34:36 Boom, boom
00:34:37 Let's party
00:34:38 Up in the living room
00:34:39 And it's so loud
00:34:40 The subwoofer base
00:34:41 That they brought in from Georgia 1.00
00:34:42 Is vibrating the ceiling
00:34:44 In this room
00:34:45 And then I finally had to leave
00:34:49 Because it flooded so much
00:34:50 That it was just
00:34:51 Literally impossible to live there
00:34:52 My mattress was on the floor
00:34:53 I dropped out
00:34:54 I was making these videos
00:34:55 Like fake it till you make it
00:34:56 And I just
00:34:57 I had to leave
00:34:57 So March 1st, 2020
00:34:58 I get an apartment in Harlem
00:35:00 On 141st Street
00:35:02 And Malcolm X Boulevard
00:35:05 Or Malcolm X Avenue
00:35:08 Whatever
00:35:08 141st Street
00:35:09 Deep in the hood
00:35:10 I'm like
00:35:10 I'm in the projects
00:35:12 And
00:35:13 So it's great
00:35:14 Like I feel like I made it
00:35:15 I'm thinking like
00:35:16 Mark Twain had this quote
00:35:17 If you can make it in New York City
00:35:19 You can make it anywhere in the world
00:35:20 I'm thinking like
00:35:21 New York
00:35:22 New York
00:35:24 I did it
00:35:25 I'm here
00:35:25 I have my own place
00:35:27 In New York City
00:35:27 It's literally a tiny
00:35:28 It's like half the size of this room
00:35:31 Like what you see in here
00:35:32 Is half the size
00:35:33 Kitchen
00:35:34 Sink 0.52
00:35:35 Bed
00:35:35 And I'm here
00:35:36 And I could not have been happier
00:35:38 I had just started
00:35:39 The One Minute Podcast
00:35:40 I had a series
00:35:41 That I was able to do
00:35:42 Every single week
00:35:43 I had figured out a way
00:35:44 To use a camera microphone
00:35:45 And
00:35:46 Have my voice heard
00:35:48 Make an impact
00:35:48 Start conversations
00:35:50 I was developing myself
00:35:51 I had dropped out
00:35:52 I had found a good stream of revenue
00:35:53 Two weeks later
00:35:55 COVID
00:35:55 Boom
00:35:56 Now I'm inside
00:35:58 Now I can't do The One Minute Podcast
00:36:00 I can't go on the subway
00:36:01 And talk to people anymore
00:36:02 I can't run around making videos
00:36:03 I can't use New York City anymore
00:36:05 Now this is the epicenter of COVID
00:36:08 It's the epicenter of a global pandemic
00:36:11 Everybody left
00:36:12 Everybody with money got out
00:36:14 They went to the Hamptons
00:36:15 They went to Connecticut
00:36:15 They went to Ohio
00:36:17 And I'm in the projects
00:36:18 Me and my studio
00:36:20 And my parents are like
00:36:21 Come home
00:36:21 Come home
00:36:21 I'm like no
00:36:22 I can't do it now
00:36:23 My main character journey just started
00:36:26 I'm not giving up now
00:36:27 And I'm just in the projects
00:36:29 And I'm just getting a bacon egg and cheese at the deli
00:36:31 And then I go back to my
00:36:32 And I'm like what do I do now
00:36:33 Like I'm not in school
00:36:35 I don't really have skills
00:36:37 I'm just in the process developing this
00:36:39 I'm in my apartment
00:36:40 I can't use the city
00:36:42 The whole reason I moved here
00:36:43 Was so I could do stand-up comedy in the clubs
00:36:44 Is so I can go around
00:36:46 And get inspiration from the artistic center of the world
00:36:49 And I'm just stuck
00:36:50 What do I do
00:36:52 And I just start panicking
00:36:53 Like I don't
00:36:53 Like I'm just like making videos once in a while
00:36:55 Like you know some reaction videos
00:36:58 I didn't really think about streaming back then
00:36:59 I don't know why
00:37:00 But those hard times made it so that
00:37:03 When we got out of COVID 0.97
00:37:05 After fucking 70% of this city 0.98
00:37:09 Got vaccinated in one month 1.00
00:37:10 Can you believe that?
00:37:11 L for all those people in the chat
00:37:12 70% of New York City got vaccinated in one month
00:37:16 And I'm walking around like
00:37:17 Is everybody
00:37:17 Are all of you NPCs?
00:37:19 Like are
00:37:20 Genuinely I was walking around like
00:37:21 I was like feeling like the main character
00:37:24 Like how is everybody
00:37:25 This plugged in
00:37:27 They don't see that
00:37:28 They didn't even test this vaccine
00:37:31 They don't even know what's in it
00:37:32 COVID's not even that bad
00:37:34 All these young people 0.52
00:37:35 The fact that they forced us to take it
00:37:36 The fact that right when COVID dropped
00:37:38 Everybody knew that this was going to happen
00:37:40 I thought this was commonality
00:37:41 As soon as COVID dropped
00:37:42 I'm like oh they want to sell vaccines
00:37:43 Oh the big pharmaceutical companies
00:37:45 Want to make billions of dollars
00:37:48 Which they did
00:37:48 From the vaccine
00:37:49 Of course
00:37:50 Bill Gates did the same thing
00:37:51 You give people
00:37:52 You give the computer the virus
00:37:54 And then you sell the virus software
00:37:55 Why don't they do the same thing with health? 0.97
00:37:57 He spreads malaria
00:37:57 Then he gives you malaria medication
00:37:59 You give like
00:38:00 Keep people COVID
00:38:00 Like for 99.9% survival rate
00:38:02 And then you give them a vaccine
00:38:03 That you force them to take
00:38:04 To go to work
00:38:05 To go to school
00:38:05 To even travel
00:38:06 I'm walking around like
00:38:07 Everyone's an NPC
00:38:08 So when I made it out of that
00:38:09 I developed enough mental fortitude
00:38:12 To see through a lot of that nonsense
00:38:13 To value my life and my time
00:38:16 And everything that I'm supposed to do
00:38:17 Those struggles
00:38:19 Like being in that apartment
00:38:20 And somebody ended up throwing
00:38:22 A bottle through
00:38:23 I was with my
00:38:24 An ex-girlfriend at the time
00:38:26 And I had the curtains open 1.00
00:38:28 Stupid 1.00
00:38:28 And I was having sex with her 1.00
00:38:30 I know 1.00
00:38:30 I was having sex with her 1.00
00:38:31 And like I see the flash go off 0.99
00:38:33 And then one of my neighbors
00:38:34 From across some guy on the projects
00:38:36 Was like taking
00:38:37 I don't know if it was his son
00:38:38 If it was him
00:38:38 And I yell out the window
00:38:40 And I'm like yelling back and forth
00:38:41 And like delete that
00:38:42 He's like 0.61
00:38:43 I ain't taking no picture nigga 1.00
00:38:44 What's up
00:38:45 You know my body 1.00
00:38:45 I'm gonna kill you nigga 1.00
00:38:47 And I'm like bro 1.00
00:38:48 So I throw an egg at his window
00:38:49 Because he was lying
00:38:52 And then he throws a glass bottle
00:38:53 Smashes my window
00:38:55 And now I'm in Harlem
00:38:56 On 141st Street
00:38:57 Living alone
00:38:58 Broken window 0.99
00:38:59 And a neighbor wants to kill me
00:39:00 So I moved to Brooklyn
00:39:02 I got out of there
00:39:03 Still didn't move home
00:39:04 And this is during COVID
00:39:06 And this is during quarantine
00:39:07 And this is the epicenter of the virus
00:39:09 And I'm walking around in Times Square
00:39:11 And there's nobody here
00:39:12 There's not a soul
00:39:14 I'm walking around like it's GTA
00:39:15 And it's loading
00:39:16 I walk in Grand Central
00:39:18 The biggest train station
00:39:19 One of the biggest train stations
00:39:20 In the world
00:39:20 From my point
00:39:21 I think it's the biggest in America
00:39:22 At least
00:39:23 And there's nobody there
00:39:24 I'm walking around
00:39:25 And I'm the only person in there
00:39:26 And the whole reason I moved here
00:39:28 Was to get more interactions
00:39:29 With people
00:39:30 Because how
00:39:30 I get my world view
00:39:32 And how I learn more
00:39:33 Is from interactions
00:39:34 And in New York City
00:39:35 You interact with more people
00:39:36 Than you ever will
00:39:37 You interact with all these
00:39:39 Different main characters
00:39:40 Every single day
00:39:41 All these people
00:39:41 Who have their own
00:39:43 Self of expression
00:39:44 They have their own lens
00:39:45 On the world
00:39:46 They want to be something
00:39:46 People come here
00:39:47 Because they want to be something
00:39:48 And I'm here
00:39:49 Trying to be something
00:39:50 There's nobody else here
00:39:51 Smash window
00:39:53 No apartment
00:39:55 What
00:39:55 Like
00:39:56 I'm in danger
00:39:57 These people 0.97
00:39:58 Like want to kill me 0.98
00:39:59 What do I do 0.97
00:40:00 But I always knew
00:40:02 That that's what you
00:40:03 What you need
00:40:04 Because if you have
00:40:05 If you just have
00:40:06 Blind confidence
00:40:07 If you walk in there 1.00
00:40:08 Then you're just a loud mouth asshole 1.00
00:40:09 So you need to have 1.00
00:40:11 Those types of struggles
00:40:12 Going through something
00:40:13 Is what makes you into a man
00:40:15 Overcoming it
00:40:16 And so I really feel
00:40:18 For those people
00:40:19 Who are 18, 19
00:40:20 I was talking to my friend
00:40:21 And who I hadn't seen in a while
00:40:23 And a lot of them
00:40:24 Are still going through that
00:40:25 Like even
00:40:25 Like in your early 20s
00:40:26 Like guys are still
00:40:27 Type of one if this is you
00:40:28 These people are still
00:40:30 Trying to find their place
00:40:31 In the world
00:40:31 Like a lot of people
00:40:32 Are in jobs
00:40:33 They don't want to be in
00:40:33 Or they don't really have
00:40:35 A strong belief system
00:40:36 You know
00:40:36 Their only satisfaction
00:40:38 In life
00:40:39 Is having a drink
00:40:41 At the end of the day
00:40:41 Having a little cigarette
00:40:42 In conversation
00:40:43 A lot of people
00:40:44 They don't have
00:40:45 A specific place
00:40:47 In the world
00:40:47 And you can tell
00:40:48 They don't have
00:40:49 That meaning
00:40:50 And a lot of men
00:40:52 I think that
00:40:52 This is one of the most
00:40:53 Critical times
00:40:54 Where men are 0.78
00:40:54 Craving some sense of meaning
00:40:57 Not only are they
00:40:57 Hungry for some sort of
00:40:59 Masculinity
00:41:00 Because of how much
00:41:01 Like bro
00:41:02 Everyone's walking around
00:41:02 With green hair
00:41:03 And a giant
00:41:04 People are starving
00:41:05 Not only for masculinity
00:41:07 For leadership
00:41:08 For guidance
00:41:09 And looking for
00:41:10 Some sort of answers
00:41:11 To the world
00:41:12 But they're also
00:41:12 Looking for
00:41:13 For some sense of meaning
00:41:14 Where do I fit in
00:41:16 In this world
00:41:16 Where do I find my place
00:41:18 Where do I
00:41:19 How do I stand out
00:41:20 How do I impact the world
00:41:22 How do I make a difference
00:41:23 How do I be the change
00:41:24 That I want to see
00:41:25 I want to leave my mark
00:41:26 On the world too
00:41:27 I don't just want to see
00:41:28 Other people succeed
00:41:29 And I don't
00:41:30 And I'm going to fall behind
00:41:31 How do I use
00:41:34 The gifts that I have
00:41:35 From God
00:41:36 To leave an impact
00:41:37 On the world
00:41:37 And one of my friends
00:41:40 Has a happy-go-lucky
00:41:41 Younger brother
00:41:41 Who's about 18
00:41:42 And he's telling me
00:41:45 Like happy-go-lucky guy
00:41:46 He's always 0.81
00:41:46 Like the class clown 0.83
00:41:48 Is always the one
00:41:48 Who deep down
00:41:49 Like at the end of the day
00:41:50 You get home
00:41:51 And you're just like 1.00
00:41:51 Fuck 1.00
00:41:52 Fuck 1.00
00:41:53 Fuck 1.00
00:41:55 Because that dude 1.00
00:41:56 Is putting up blinders
00:41:58 To try to
00:41:59 To mask the fact
00:42:00 That he's looking
00:42:01 For meaning 0.94
00:42:01 The class clown
00:42:02 Is using comedy
00:42:04 As a
00:42:05 As a defense mechanism
00:42:06 And I'm talking
00:42:07 To my friend
00:42:08 He's like
00:42:09 This guy's like 18
00:42:10 And that little brother
00:42:12 Told my friend
00:42:12 Like some days
00:42:14 I just want to disappear
00:42:16 And like you aren't
00:42:16 Going to see me
00:42:17 For a while
00:42:17 Like you're just
00:42:18 There's going to be
00:42:19 Like months go by
00:42:19 And I'm going to
00:42:20 Disappear
00:42:21 And you're not
00:42:21 Going to hear from me
00:42:22 At all
00:42:22 And I'm like
00:42:23 The happy-go-lucky 0.76
00:42:24 The goofy guy 0.68
00:42:25 The goofy dude said 0.53
00:42:26 And it makes perfect sense
00:42:27 Because
00:42:27 And I was like that
00:42:28 When I was 18
00:42:29 I was always joking around
00:42:30 Class clown
00:42:31 Stuff like that 0.89
00:42:32 You know
00:42:32 Disrupting
00:42:34 And
00:42:35 And I remember
00:42:36 Like looking back
00:42:37 Thinking back
00:42:38 To that birthday
00:42:38 I was sitting there
00:42:39 Like
00:42:39 What now
00:42:41 What do I do
00:42:42 The rest of my life
00:42:45 Is in front of me
00:42:45 And I have no idea
00:42:47 What I'm supposed to do
00:42:49 So
00:42:52 To wrap all this up
00:42:53 If
00:42:55 If any of this
00:42:55 Made sense
00:42:56 Don't just look
00:42:59 For the immediate
00:43:00 Gratification
00:43:00 Of yelling
00:43:02 Making noise
00:43:03 Doing something
00:43:04 Doing something egregious
00:43:04 With your
00:43:05 With your
00:43:05 Appearance
00:43:06 And looking for
00:43:07 Immediate
00:43:08 Attention from people
00:43:09 Because that's
00:43:10 That's fleeting
00:43:10 You have to develop
00:43:13 Confidence
00:43:14 But
00:43:16 You can't just be
00:43:17 The loudest person
00:43:17 In the room
00:43:18 If you have
00:43:19 No meaning
00:43:19 If there's no meaning
00:43:20 Attached to your words
00:43:21 Then they're weightless
00:43:22 And people will be able
00:43:23 To smell right through that
00:43:24 So
00:43:24 It's extremely important
00:43:26 To
00:43:27 Have confidence
00:43:29 But
00:43:29 You need to attach
00:43:30 Your
00:43:31 Purpose
00:43:32 To something
00:43:33 That's adding value
00:43:33 To the world
00:43:34 If there's no work ethic
00:43:36 If there's no constant
00:43:37 Desire
00:43:38 To make a change
00:43:39 In whatever you do
00:43:41 Then what you're doing
00:43:42 Is meaningless
00:43:43 So first
00:43:44 If you are feeling like
00:43:46 You have no idea
00:43:47 What you want to do
00:43:48 Think about the most
00:43:49 Important issue
00:43:50 In the world
00:43:50 What is the number one thing
00:43:53 Lstream
00:43:54 What is the number one thing
00:43:57 That's
00:43:57 That's necessary
00:44:00 What's the number one
00:44:02 Most necessary change
00:44:04 In the world
00:44:04 Think about that
00:44:06 And then
00:44:07 Everything else
00:44:09 Follows
00:44:10 Your purpose
00:44:11 How you are going to
00:44:13 Define your character
00:44:14 All that will
00:44:16 Come into place
00:44:17 Thank you guys
00:44:18 Hope you enjoyed
00:44:19 I'll be back tomorrow
00:44:20 I'm going to have a bigger stream
00:44:21 I think Zerk is in town
00:44:22 I want to bring on
00:44:23 Gideon
00:44:23 Gideon was supposed to
00:44:24 Come on today
00:44:24 But
00:44:25 I just wanted to do
00:44:26 I just wanted to talk about that
00:44:27 Because
00:44:27 Being back in New York
00:44:28 Is a good time
00:44:30 For me to reflect
00:44:31 I really love this place
00:44:32 And I have some great videos
00:44:34 On the way
00:44:34 Great podcasts on the way
00:44:35 Stay tuned for that
00:44:36 Make sure to join the discord
00:44:37 Link in description
00:44:37 And the reason that the stream
00:44:38 Was so short
00:44:39 Is because there wasn't
00:44:40 A lot of content
00:44:40 So I need more content
00:44:42 Join the discord
00:44:43 Link in description
00:44:43 And also join the creativity kit
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00:44:46 Link in description
00:44:46 Hope you guys enjoyed
00:44:47 And
00:44:48 I'll see you guys tomorrow
00:44:50 Appreciate you
00:44:50 Join the telegram
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00:44:59 That's the goal for this year
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00:45:01 See you soon
00:45:02 Bye