SNEAKO - SNEAKO IS BACK IN NYC

00:00:00.760 I am mobile right now. I'm on my laptop setup and back in New York City

00:00:04.780 Have a monologue today short stream, but I have some things that I want to talk about

00:00:08.600 Want to make sure everything's good. Make sure you guys can hear me all good stuff want to see

00:00:13.080 The audio is good videos good and then we can get into it. Cool. Cool. Cool. It looks like it's good

00:00:19.220 All right, so

00:00:21.140 Is the Wi-Fi? Okay? Connection is good type of one if you can hear me

00:00:25.100 Everybody in here. It's gonna be back in New York City. It's gonna be back more of my nice professional

00:00:29.980 Fit nice and linen decent hotel

00:00:33.240 it's nice and

00:00:35.260 It's weird to be back in New York

00:00:37.740 It's weird to be back here want to make sure everything's good before I started talking before

00:00:42.740 This is delayed one one one one one. Come on. Get some ones in here 0.87

00:00:46.880 Stream is tweeted out

00:00:48.700 Everything sounds good

00:00:50.620 All right

00:00:53.040 Welcome back guys. How you feeling? How was your week been so far? It's Tuesday

00:00:59.540 August 1st first of the month time to get paid time to make money

00:01:03.880 We're almost we're well over halfway through the year

00:01:08.920 The year has flown by

00:01:10.740 I'm talking about the chats messed up. Hold up. I can't I can't talk in if I can't see the chat

00:01:16.800 Can't talk in this again

00:01:19.060 My bad 1.00

00:01:23.560 Bro, where the fuck have you been? It's been for two days. It's been like four days. Uh, my bad chat 0.99

00:01:29.640 been

00:01:30.700 Reflecting a little bit been thinking more been trying to

00:01:35.240 To get into a new headspace when things get repetitive. I think it's necessary to take some time off

00:01:41.320 And to um to reflect and all that stuff

00:01:44.600 Christian Dior i'm all up in the stores. No, that's uh, I mean

00:01:48.480 Okay, any new yorkers in here

00:01:52.500 I did see some some of you walking around today some of you guys came up to me

00:01:57.620 I'm walking around with my leonardo dicaprio fit trying to hide i'm a little bit of I can't even lie

00:02:03.360 I've never been like that paranoid about anything

00:02:06.120 but

00:02:08.220 I've been a little bit

00:02:10.240 I don't know. I just i've been talking a lot of shit 1.00

00:02:12.920 I've been talking a lot of shit since I last been here. So i've been walking around like this 0.99

00:02:15.760 like leonardo dicaprio

00:02:17.640 hiding from

00:02:18.740 I don't want to i'm because there's so many more trannies here than usual and it's just this is the the npc hub 1.00

00:02:25.980 This is where the like an npc spawn point. So I don't want

00:02:29.600 Anyone to I don't want to have any problems. I was sitting in washington square park earlier today

00:02:34.720 Like this just kind of and some people came up to me

00:02:37.700 They like some guy said he recognized me for my goatee, but i'm just trying to you know

00:02:41.280 And I I can't have my gun when i'm here

00:02:45.200 I can't walk around with my gun when i'm in florida. I have my gun everywhere I go

00:02:49.480 Here i'm more exposed

00:02:51.320 I'm not here with anybody like there's I have some friends here, but i'm not walking around with the mob

00:02:57.240 Or a couple other people so it's like i'm kind of

00:03:00.480 You know, you just you kind of have to trust

00:03:03.280 everybody else

00:03:04.980 To not do something and i've been talking a lot since I last came back to new york city

00:03:09.680 I think I came here once after yay 24 in november and then

00:03:13.220 Other than that, I think the last time I was really here was when I moved out

00:03:16.760 I've been pretty much in miami the entire time I went back to visit my family a couple times. They live close by

00:03:21.780 so

00:03:23.100 It's been it's a little bit like i'm kind of like on edge

00:03:27.980 I'm, never really the type of guy to be on edge like that

00:03:31.260 But don't stop the daily streams number. I remember waiting on the streams. Yeah, I know i'll be back with the streams

00:03:36.280 Um, we have a lot more plan

00:03:38.060 I want to go to london and start streaming from london with shake with mine 1.00

00:03:40.940 We have a lot of big things playing more traveling, but i'm not the type of guy that can just be in one place all the time

00:03:47.080 I need to travel especially before I have children. I think it's extremely important to gain new experiences

00:03:52.160 And to see the world and to learn more but trying to read

00:03:56.020 And get new inspiration

00:03:57.780 I went to epstein's house earlier today

00:04:01.240 Just to see inside

00:04:03.240 And luckily like right then they were doing construction

00:04:05.820 So then I got I got to peek in a little bit and I asked like there was construction guys coming in and out and they were like closing the door

00:04:12.340 Halfway so that I couldn't even look in at all and I asked the main guy there because he was the one with the clipboard

00:04:17.440 I'm, like did jeffrey epstein lives here? He's like, I don't know

00:04:20.040 Like clearly you knew

00:04:21.400 Clearly, you know that jeffrey epstein was there. Thank you for the five to path at the gym right now 25 pushers right now

00:04:26.920 You give me five dollars. I'm not doing 25 pushers for five dollars

00:04:29.420 I'll do five at the end

00:04:31.240 but

00:04:32.300 being back in new york city

00:04:34.300 It's like everyone who still lives here a lot of my friends and a lot of people are any new yorkers in your type of one if you are here

00:04:40.420 The zerkers in new york too 1.00

00:04:41.640 I think we uh, we have something planned for tomorrow

00:04:43.960 So stay tuned for that and have some more podcasts on the way have some collabs lined up with um

00:04:48.760 With ryan long boys cast and academics him me up. So i'm you're gonna see more podcasts soon

00:04:52.980 But I want to talk to you guys saw all the autistic schizos 1.00

00:04:55.720 No reactions today

00:04:57.760 No

00:04:59.040 Clips no drama. I wanted to do something with gd on but

00:05:03.480 He I don't I don't know it's like the headphones and it's just it's weird like that

00:05:07.820 so

00:05:08.880 It's the npc spawn point and everybody who's been here

00:05:12.800 I don't know if you if you live in any liberal city

00:05:14.960 The amount of trannies has tripled and I know that's like I don't want to be the guy who only talks about trannies 1.00

00:05:20.280 but it's tripled since 0.95

00:05:22.020 I left

00:05:23.260 They're they're just they come out of nowhere the mullet with the green hair do a little meetup 0.83

00:05:28.420 I'll pop out right now. No, i'm not doing a meetup man. Thanks for the sin

00:05:30.520 um

00:05:31.280 But I I do have um videos planned

00:05:34.160 In the next couple days before I go to london

00:05:36.600 The amount of like the green hair mullet people 0.99

00:05:40.080 And uh, the blm fit like right when I I got here

00:05:44.700 I was sitting down like drinking tea because I can't drink alcohol anymore

00:05:47.920 I'm sitting at a bar drinking tea like if like bro, like

00:05:50.000 The past says bet 25 pushups right now. Oh, bro. Okay. This fucking guy

00:05:53.600 Can I get into my monologue before? Okay, let me do 25 because this fucking guy let him come in because the instagram and twitter fine 1.00

00:05:59.300 25 pushups chat, but I haven't let me do my monologue. Okay, let me do my monologue before you interrupt it 0.98

00:06:04.400 Do 25 you can do 25

00:06:13.680 10

00:06:20.640 20 one

00:06:22.640 or three

00:06:24.640 two

00:06:26.080 Okay, now leave me alone. Now leave me alone. Let me let me talk

00:06:30.160 The amount of the trannies has tripled 1.00

00:06:32.240 And i'm at a bar drinking tea drinking green tea 1.00

00:06:36.800 Because I like a faggot 1.00

00:06:38.720 Well, no, actually no i'm on my dean 1.00

00:06:41.200 Halal

00:06:42.320 No alcohol

00:06:43.760 And then I see somebody with uh

00:06:46.240 A black a white dude of course because that's like the most amount of let's be honest like white people 0.99

00:06:50.080 You guys can hold the l for that the amount of trannies 1.00

00:06:53.040 Pretty much consistent and there's a lot of black trannies too 1.00

00:06:55.760 But the ones who are like let me be political 0.98

00:06:57.920 Black power fist and on the back of his shirt. It says say no to transphobia say no to

00:07:05.200 Say no to

00:07:06.400 Bigotry say no to fascism say no to any all the all the talking points and i'm like, of course

00:07:11.040 The first person that I see and it's in a nice bar with rugs

00:07:16.160 And it's a good atmosphere

00:07:17.840 And then I just hear this comment

00:07:20.560 And then they play rihanna on their phone and I have to hear rihanna like 0.99

00:07:24.880 Bitch better have my 1.00

00:07:26.560 From a phone speaker 1.00

00:07:29.600 I'm out of breath right now

00:07:31.680 I'm out of breath okay

00:07:34.480 So i'm just saying i'm walking around like leonardo dicaprio just like wondering like when

00:07:38.480 Some train is gonna like try to you know say no to fascism and hit me

00:07:42.560 So if you see me walking around new york tomorrow or the day after like this

00:07:48.000 Just don't don't be weird

00:07:49.760 Don't be weird

00:07:51.520 I thought that this is going to be a good is this is this a good disguise yes or no chat

00:07:57.120 I'm, also reflecting on on new york how much things have changed

00:08:00.880 It's it's a good reminder about why I left

00:08:04.640 I moved here because I was born in new york city, but i'm not really from new york city

00:08:08.320 I was born here, but I came here I came back

00:08:12.000 And for the beginning years of my adult life

00:08:15.600 Because new york city is the cinematic main character place to start your life

00:08:22.400 It's a good place that people want a backstory from there

00:08:25.360 There's culture there's energy here

00:08:28.000 You can become like that's this is where people go to become the main character

00:08:34.640 But I left because it was getting too liberal and you see the type of people who

00:08:38.160 Dye their hair green

00:08:39.760 Or they just like they're really fat and they're wearing a crop top bra

00:08:44.080 And they're just holding their belly and they're like doing tiktoks on the street look at my belly 0.90

00:08:48.800 Those people are becoming the main character by just having everybody look at them

00:08:52.800 They're saying look at me 0.94

00:08:54.720 Look how ugly I am

00:08:56.400 Look how much I do not care about my appearance 0.78

00:08:59.600 This is why I deserve your attention look at me

00:09:03.440 There's no value that they're adding there's nothing that they're giving to the world

00:09:07.120 Besides an egregious

00:09:10.400 Egregious physical appearance their entire

00:09:13.680 Outward expression is just

00:09:15.600 Look how much I can change about my body and not care about the job

00:09:19.760 What are you going to do about it? What are you going to do?

00:09:21.600 What are you going to do?

00:09:22.240 So they they get their attention by just

00:09:24.720 Like declaring themselves as something

00:09:27.680 If you're a main character

00:09:29.920 And you don't try to add anything of value 0.99

00:09:32.880 Then you're a clown 0.98

00:09:34.080 Then you're just you're a background character 0.99

00:09:36.400 You're trying to get people's attention

00:09:39.040 By offering nothing

00:09:41.040 So

00:09:41.360 It's it's a reminder coming back to New York City

00:09:45.200 Because I remember being 18 when I was here

00:09:47.840 And 0.96

00:09:48.800 I remember this is this is your sound gay 0.99

00:09:50.880 Put an L in the chat L spam for this 0.98

00:09:52.960 I cried on my 18th birthday 0.81

00:09:54.320 I haven't talked about that crying is gay 1.00

00:09:56.080 I don't cry often

00:09:57.280 I can't even remember the last time I cried genuinely

00:09:59.840 But that was one time I specifically remember

00:10:02.000 And I remember it like a main character moment

00:10:04.640 Where the L is? I need to see some L's for that 0.97

00:10:07.920 And I'm the type of person where I see life

00:10:10.720 Through this cinematic lens

00:10:12.080 I always think of it like even when I have a moment where

00:10:14.640 I'm upset or when things go wrong or someone in my family dies

00:10:18.240 I'm thinking about the camera

00:10:20.880 Feel like how this could be written

00:10:22.720 I'm thinking about how this can be how this would be filmed

00:10:26.880 I'm thinking about how cinematic this moment is

00:10:29.120 I kind of see the beauty in terrible moments because

00:10:33.200 I've always seen life as a movie

00:10:35.680 That's that's been my lens to to view the world

00:10:38.240 And why I always think about these ideas about becoming a main character

00:10:42.320 I think that when you're becoming a man

00:10:45.280 You need to first develop an ego but it has to be justified

00:10:48.480 Tate always talks about that

00:10:49.440 But where I always was is where I needed to find confidence

00:10:54.160 I needed to be confident

00:10:55.520 I needed to be comfortable in my own skin

00:10:58.080 And I used to follow this idea of fake it till you make it

00:11:02.560 Thinking that even if I didn't I said this in a video

00:11:06.160 That even if you don't know what you're talking about

00:11:08.000 Say it with confidence and you're going to be compelling

00:11:09.760 People are going to listen to you

00:11:10.720 Which is true 0.99

00:11:11.360 You're going to be far more compelling and people

00:11:13.200 More people are going to perk up and listen to you

00:11:15.040 If you have confidence when you speak if you present yourself with confidence

00:11:20.000 Like for example when you put on a nice shirt and you you walk into a room

00:11:23.840 You can walk by the hostess at a restaurant

00:11:26.240 If you walk with enough speed and you act like you know where you're going

00:11:28.640 And you're like you just go in

00:11:31.520 If you walk in with a good outfit 0.85

00:11:33.600 You are much less likely to be stopped than if you walk in look like a bum 1.00

00:11:37.760 If you look like you know where you're going

00:11:39.360 People are like oh yeah you know he knows what he's doing

00:11:41.040 You know like people can seek it to a music festival

00:11:43.200 Just with a clipboard and a ladder

00:11:45.120 Because they assume that this guy knows what he oh like he knows what he's doing

00:11:49.760 But that will only take you so far this idea of fake it till you make it

00:11:54.080 If you don't know what you're doing eventually you're going to be exposed

00:11:57.200 The people who really know you'll be able to surpass 90% of people

00:12:00.400 Because 90% of people have no idea what they're doing

00:12:02.240 90% of people are just walking through life looking for a little bit of something

00:12:06.000 They don't know what they need they haven't found their own place in the world especially young people 0.99

00:12:10.000 So if you are more confident and you are louder and you're you command a room 1.00

00:12:15.760 Which you can do as a low IQ idiot 1.00

00:12:18.960 Anybody can do that if you just figure out your body language your mannerisms and how most people think 1.00

00:12:23.860 But the real people will know the actual successful people will be able to see right through your bullshit 0.99

00:12:29.760 They can smell that from a mile away and you will be exposed as a fraud and being exposed as a fraud in a room full of made men 0.99

00:12:36.440 As opposed to being exposed as a fraud between a bunch of normie npcs is way different

00:12:42.020 That's going to be much more soul crushing that's going to hurt your it's going to damage your reputation much much more

00:12:47.260 So you don't just want to have blind confidence you need to earn it and the only way to actually earn

00:12:53.180 That type of confidence is by adding value to the world is by working on something is by

00:12:58.840 Leaving your stamp on leaving your mark on the world. That has to be positive

00:13:02.740 I think a lot of people have this misconception that

00:13:05.520 As long as people are hearing them

00:13:08.040 Then they're successful as long as like because we all want to make an impact on the world

00:13:12.780 So as long as they're being heard as long as people are reacting that it's something good

00:13:16.320 But the truth is if you're not adding anything positive

00:13:19.300 You're not adding anything to the world that people can use and that can help other people or that's 0.97

00:13:24.320 Changing the way people think to some extent then you're just just a loud clown making noise 0.92

00:13:29.880 So I think back to that time when I was 18 years old on my birthday and I remember I remember sitting crying 0.99

00:13:36.080 Like a faggot because I was just I was unsure of 1.00

00:13:40.200 Everything that I that I wanted to do in life 0.99

00:13:42.740 I want to be the main character, but I hadn't really developed my alter ego

00:13:47.580 And I think everybody needs to have an alter ego, especially lstream lstream lstream

00:13:52.460 I think everybody needs to have an alter ego

00:13:55.420 if you

00:13:57.420 ever struggle with

00:13:59.900 Insecurity which type of one if you guys do I think most people do the very select few ever really have to think about

00:14:05.980 Where they belong in the world or their security because if you grow up with a hard enough upbringing 1.00

00:14:10.320 And you go through enough struggles, you don't have any time to be insecure like a faggot 1.00

00:14:13.780 Like you know, there's no time for that 1.00

00:14:15.440 But with the people that do which I think there's a lot of people in the chat that are like that

00:14:18.380 I think that

00:14:20.120 You need to develop an alter ego because your insecurity comes from

00:14:24.560 your

00:14:25.820 You being afraid to show your real self to the world

00:14:29.260 and everybody

00:14:30.820 I think most people have that because

00:14:33.100 They don't want other people to see their weaknesses

00:14:36.120 They don't want other people to see that deep down you think you're a fraud

00:14:40.040 So if you develop an alter ego for me

00:14:42.420 My name is hubert, but I developed this character this idea this person called sneeko

00:14:48.160 And you attach everything good that you want in the world to that name to this idea to this brand everything that sneeko is

00:14:54.580 Then you can find your ways to be more confident because

00:14:57.560 Your alter ego can help you step out of your own self and this constant self-reflection

00:15:03.020 The traps of narcissism and

00:15:05.560 Help you create a character and it doesn't mean that has to be fraud because creating a character doesn't mean that it has to be

00:15:12.300 All a lie. It's not all exterior, but it is a version of yourself

00:15:17.260 That is separate from the weaknesses and the insecurities and all the the self-reflection the self-awareness

00:15:25.680 That we are

00:15:27.000 More accustomed to than we ever have been because of social media because of the phone and because of how much media is constantly being put out there

00:15:34.020 I think people are more aware of their existence than they ever have been

00:15:37.220 I think we're always comparing ourselves

00:15:39.480 We are always thinking about how people are going to think about this

00:15:43.140 How this is going to impact and how people are going to respond

00:15:45.680 It's the most autistic time in history 1.00

00:15:49.340 So if you develop an alter ego a version of yourself

00:15:54.160 That you are creating like a video game character from the startup

00:15:57.500 Then you can you can piece together

00:15:59.660 And not fear that rejection the fear of rejection is what holds people back

00:16:04.240 More than anything else

00:16:05.740 And I think a good example of that if you're not going to talk about me is somebody like myron from fresh and fit for example

00:16:10.960 The real his government name. I don't want to say right now you can

00:16:13.860 But he created myron gain that's not his real name myron gains means myron my gains

00:16:18.720 It's a fitness bodybuilding term. It means like oh, you myron you myron bro. And so this guy's like

00:16:25.200 Not at all narcissistic. He was a former federal agent, you know kind of comes from this cop fed background

00:16:33.400 Rudimentary structure and then he steps into a world that's completely opposite

00:16:37.620 This world here where it's a camera microphone and you need to entertain and the only way a guy like him could do that

00:16:43.840 Because he doesn't have any of that narcissism social media bullshit is he has to create this character is he has to become somebody

00:16:50.880 Exterior he needs to create somebody that's behind the screen and not just running around arresting people 0.94

00:16:57.960 and

00:16:59.580 Somebody like him is successful doing it and I think for an example

00:17:03.780 You can compare what I do to that and what a lot of you guys want to do as well

00:17:07.420 You can compare a guy like that because he will only add value you're creating a character, but it's not negative

00:17:13.880 It's not narcissism because he's trying to his whole objective is specifically to add value

00:17:19.820 How could I help how can I make more money? How could I change the conversation?

00:17:23.880 If you go in with blind narcissism and you create an alter ego you create a tiktok account and you start just dancing and showing your belly and your green hair

00:17:30.580 You become like the nurses and covet in 2020. Do you remember when we started gassing up nurses so much?

00:17:37.120 That they would just prop up their phone and then film themselves crying like patient like they were just literally they would set up their phone right here

00:17:45.100 And then like a patient would die and because we were like, oh my god nurses and people were banging pots and pans out the window

00:17:51.760 Nurses would set up the phone

00:17:53.360 So somebody lost their life

00:18:03.560 And a nurse is so gassed up that she thinks that's a moment for her to get her time to shine 1.00

00:18:08.620 She's having her main character moment

00:18:10.420 She's thinking she's so wrapped up in her own head 1.00

00:18:14.280 And her self-esteem is so high because people are applauding just the fact that she's a whore. I mean nurses are whores 1.00

00:18:19.860 That she thinks it's acceptable to set up her phone and take a loss of life as a moment for 1.00

00:18:28.240 herself

00:18:29.300 Thanks for the five um

00:18:33.300 Mario, I love that quote from from yay

00:18:35.600 If you're a fan of Kanye West, you're actually a fan of yourself. My music is the espresso that gets you up through life

00:18:39.300 Yeah, because self self-belief and and that internal

00:18:43.520 Everybody can relate to that because everybody has that whether or not you like to admit it everybody

00:18:48.960 Has the urge and desire to be somebody and that doesn't have to be just a clout chase thing

00:18:55.140 But everybody wants to leave it's a masculine 1.00

00:18:57.480 It's a masculine imperative to to want to leave an impact on the world to want to leave it then 0.98

00:19:02.620 And when I when i'm back in new york city, I think about that time when I was 18 and I sat there on my bed crying like a bitch 1.00

00:19:08.500 Because I turned 18 and now i'm an adult and I don't get I felt the loss of innocence the 0.94

00:19:15.600 the

00:19:16.740 forcing myself or just being forced to now

00:19:20.380 Transition to somebody that is responsible for myself 0.98

00:19:23.640 And that is to find a way to leave an impact on the world. I felt the immense pressure

00:19:29.140 Hit all at once when I turned 18 which should have been a giant celebration which should have been 1.00

00:19:33.700 It's something that you know, even though it's an arbitrary day or whatever. It's something that we

00:19:37.860 Ascribe adulthood to I remember thinking that moment like now

00:19:42.680 Now it's time now you have to do something. There's no more and I had sneaker since I was 14

00:19:48.180 Like 13 14 years old. I had this but I i'd kind of been ignoring it

00:19:51.380 And so I was faced with that reflection that now you need to add something to the world

00:19:56.200 And I come back here to new york city and I think about all the people that I went to school with

00:20:01.140 I think about all the all my brother's friends and what they're doing

00:20:04.900 I look at the other 18 year olds the other people are who are in here and everybody

00:20:09.720 Um, I blanked on a live. I don't care. I think about everybody who's trying to

00:20:15.620 Find themselves and who's trying to leave to leave an impact on the world and how difficult that is because of because everybody's trying to do it

00:20:24.060 so

00:20:24.720 A lot of people take that scape take the easy route and immediately try to look for clout like the island boys

00:20:31.200 For example, like they you can get a bunch of tattoos and just say you're gay and then you'll get attention 0.88

00:20:36.140 And then that will give you a short fleeting sense of accomplishment because people are giving are giving you their attention

00:20:41.380 People are giving you their eyes. So you you get that dopamine release of like look i've i've done something

00:20:46.440 It's never been easier to get that satisfaction, but it's also never been more short-lived fame is absolutely meaningless now

00:20:53.600 It doesn't mean anything. It's it doesn't

00:20:56.420 Change anything to the world just because you're famous. It doesn't everybody's famous. So you go around new york city

00:21:01.700 Everybody has some thing that they're doing. Everybody has their own project

00:21:06.260 Everybody knows everybody. It's it's the most meaningless

00:21:10.360 It's the most meaningless sense of accomplishment that we've ever had

00:21:15.020 so

00:21:16.020 the

00:21:17.520 I I come back here and I i'm reminded that even though I have that now and I need to walk around like leonardo

00:21:23.520 dicaprio because

00:21:24.480 um

00:21:25.340 Just to to have a little bit like i'm in a hat store like buying this hat

00:21:29.840 Like first i'm walking around my sunglass people are coming up to like too many people are coming up to me

00:21:33.060 And I go to the hat store just so I can like walk around

00:21:35.980 Uh and not get mobbed because i'm i'm like i'm in a store feeling anxious got on my gun

00:21:40.200 um

00:21:41.420 And not only do you realize like

00:21:43.920 When you watch disney movies when you're a kid and you see like how they glorify celebrity

00:21:47.920 And how like you think like when you're younger like oh that must be cool

00:21:50.880 Like I can handle that and you think about like hannah montana another alter ego that like the miley cyrus created

00:21:57.040 You think about how you would be able to handle that

00:21:59.880 And then that becomes your life

00:22:01.840 And even though all the movies said that this is going to be pointless now

00:22:05.900 It's your life and you're like, yeah, it's pointless

00:22:07.640 All right people come and take a picture with you shake your hand

00:22:10.400 Some people say good things but the only interactions that really matter when people are genuinely happy

00:22:14.320 When you can tell that you've impacted their life when they say something they repeat something you said back to you

00:22:20.880 And you could tell that it's had a positive impact on their life

00:22:23.840 Those are the types of interactions that you really leave satisfied with

00:22:27.020 um

00:22:28.020 And I want to keep on having that and being back here

00:22:31.340 it's a reflection of how

00:22:33.480 Not only everybody here everybody comes to new york city

00:22:37.080 Everybody's in new york city because they believe they're the main character to some extent

00:22:40.400 It that's why I always

00:22:42.400 You know, i've always tried to attach that to my identity more than I tried to attach my hometown

00:22:47.420 uh, new haven connecticut even though I was born here

00:22:49.620 I try to attach new york city to my identity more because it has like this

00:22:53.140 This kind of allure to it all the protagonists and movies are from new york city

00:22:56.600 The coolest people the best artists are from here the best movie directors

00:22:59.340 um

00:23:00.160 And you see people you know, I walked around and I I saw this

00:23:04.140 Uh interaction now like police will come up to me and police will be like yo, I like your videos

00:23:09.060 I I respect policemen, you know, I I respect the work that they do

00:23:13.060 And i'm very happy that they're around but then I remember back in 2020

00:23:17.140 In the blm riots where I was doing this guerrilla journalism and stuff like that

00:23:21.460 I was filming everything that was going on

00:23:22.780 I remember hating cops for a while 0.99

00:23:24.500 I remember going through this like rebellion phase like i'm a late teen and i'm like fuck cops 0.99

00:23:29.900 And I remember like scream I remember like like saying fuck you to a cop like to his face during the blm riots 1.00

00:23:35.260 Even though I thought the shit was bullshit and that abolished the police was all garbage 1.00

00:23:38.380 and 1.00

00:23:39.140 I was making these videos about why portland was

00:23:41.520 um 0.99

00:23:42.300 How stupid everything was going on in portland? 1.00

00:23:44.860 They had like no police zones and they were barricading 1.00

00:23:47.080 uh streets

00:23:48.220 I remember going up to a cop during one of the blm riots in new york city 1.00

00:23:52.160 And looking like straight dead into the eyes of another policeman or of a policeman and saying fuck you pig 0.99

00:23:57.380 And then I was sitting in the park today with my leonardo dicaprio fit on 1.00

00:24:01.560 Um, and I see the police, you know head nod because I think they whatever they watch some of the videos

00:24:06.800 And then I see a liberal walking by, you know, like a non-threatening white guy outfit where you know the beanie

00:24:12.880 He's wearing vans. He's like holding a longboard to be like look i'm not a racist

00:24:17.820 And he's got a like a boom box or whatever and he's walking by and the police are walking 0.99

00:24:21.920 And then on the there's chalk on the floor and it says fuck cops. He's like you should read that 0.99

00:24:26.200 You should read that and then he fucking just like runs run like goofy white guy runs away 1.00

00:24:32.000 non-threatening run 0.99

00:24:34.300 Um, bought two patient next to the test. He go love to see on your victory lap returning to where it all started

00:24:39.060 Well, it's not a victory lap because it never stops and the cops just kind of like shrug it off

00:24:42.820 The cops see this like guy just like run away in his vans

00:24:45.840 And they just keep on like oh just shrug it off and i'm like that's the difference between

00:24:50.780 Two people like the two policemen there are hard-working

00:24:53.480 They're risking their lives every single day to try to protect the community

00:24:55.780 Um, the people around the community that they're protecting they don't even care about them and people who are under no threat of violence

00:25:01.500 Like that non-threatening white dude with the mustache who lives in brooklyn 1.00

00:25:05.560 This guy is getting his main character moment by saying fuck you cops. Yeah, and he has this 1.00

00:25:11.120 Feeling like he just did something like he just had his moment. That was his like yeah stick it to the man

00:25:17.160 These people have no idea who's really in charge like the fact that they think

00:25:23.100 that the policemen are like some actual

00:25:26.580 figure of authority

00:25:28.480 When really they're making probably less if not equal to whatever everybody else is making in the community all the liberals that hate them

00:25:34.960 They don't realize they're in the same pay bracket. They're saying the same tax bracket as all the policemen

00:25:39.880 But they look at the cops just because they have a uniform as a figure of authority. It's ridiculous 0.96

00:25:44.480 What they don't think about

00:25:47.920 And this is what i'm reminded of like when why I stepped outside of epstein's house today like on east 71st street

00:25:54.220 It's central park east

00:25:57.460 Right next to the playgrounds while the kids are walking through all the families are

00:26:01.240 You see there's jeffrey epstein's mansion

00:26:04.600 And it's all you know, it looks like it's not it's not this big monument forever

00:26:09.600 I remember when trump was running all of new york stood outside of trump tower. Fuck you trump. Fuck you trump 1.00

00:26:15.840 And then you see epstein's how and it's just it's boarded up 1.00

00:26:19.620 There's like construction workers coming in and out and there's nobody there

00:26:21.880 There's no giant protest there. There's nobody saying fuck you. No one cares about that. They look at 1.00

00:26:27.140 The policemen the liberals here look at the policeman as a figure of authority

00:26:31.020 But not these people who probably were friends with epstein who are still living on that street

00:26:35.380 You look at all the signs of all the the apartments on epstein's block and it's like bro. These people are probably his friends

00:26:41.420 These people were probably visiting the house, too

00:26:43.940 They're walking around they have like the night the filipino guy wearing a suit in the front with that. Hello. Come in

00:26:49.420 Those people were hanging out with him

00:26:51.580 No, one's protesting

00:26:54.280 No, no, no one cares. Thank you for the 10 stephen jones single by guy living an alter ego is just cope

00:26:59.420 A man needs to drive life. Isn't a happy story. You just have to work hard for a happy ending 1.00

00:27:04.100 That's true

00:27:06.180 but

00:27:10.560 Every every man wants to leave some sort of impact on the world

00:27:17.180 The masculine imperative is to be the change you want to see in the world 0.98

00:27:20.700 We all want to we all want to do we all want to fight for what's right

00:27:24.440 And you don't win that fight unless you unless you don't leave any impact

00:27:29.780 Right if if you lived a successful life, but nobody knew about it and if you didn't change anything, did you really live?

00:27:36.440 Were you really there? Did you really exist if nobody's life was affected by your existence?

00:27:41.520 What was the point?

00:27:42.400 What did you do who what did you change? Why did you even exist if you didn't

00:27:49.140 Change the world

00:27:50.660 To become better in the way that you think it should be

00:27:53.820 Then

00:27:55.080 Like why did you live what what else is there to do? What what other of course is you have to worship god?

00:28:01.580 But then you realize that like even if you just follow that and you realize most people don't worship god

00:28:05.120 And god wants us to spread the word of god

00:28:06.980 You know god wants us to do good and

00:28:09.960 You can't do good without changing the life life of anybody else

00:28:13.120 And if you don't have an alter ego if you don't have any sort of belief if you don't have any

00:28:16.400 Confidence self-esteem ego if you don't have any of that then you'll never be able to step out of your comfort zone

00:28:20.900 And and risk rejection

00:28:23.000 And get to that point

00:28:25.120 Becoming a man is is very difficult

00:28:35.700 It's it's very difficult. I think it's it's going to be a longer process

00:28:39.960 That it's been for most people I think now more than ever

00:28:43.140 And you look at somebody like angus cloud for example rest in peace

00:28:46.720 And you guys don't know who he is angus cloud was the

00:28:49.360 The white drug dealer in the show euphoria

00:28:51.640 I actually kind of like that show even though there's a lot of propaganda in there 0.96

00:28:55.200 Very liberal like they put all these trannies in there on purpose 1.00

00:28:58.080 I want to rest in peace to angus cloud who I don't know how he died

00:29:02.660 But if you look at the circumstances

00:29:05.540 You you think that because somebody like that like probably I don't want to put it out there, but

00:29:10.380 I'm gonna guess that he ended his life. I'm gonna guess that he

00:29:13.320 Deleted himself. He was 25

00:29:15.440 And I don't know his story, but like like you can look into his eyes

00:29:19.200 I've seen some of his interviews and you can tell that guy was deeply troubled

00:29:21.420 And

00:29:24.540 Therapy is never the solution for this

00:29:27.180 In very rare circumstances do I think that therapy is ever going to be the solution to get people out of this

00:29:33.920 I think the the first step

00:29:35.680 Is 0.88

00:29:36.840 Having

00:29:37.900 A group of racist friends you need to have some instead of going to therapy

00:29:42.400 Get one of your friends to call you a racial slur no matter what you are

00:29:45.940 If you're when you're feeling down in that way

00:29:48.200 If you're when you're feeling down in that way, you have an autistic group of friends 1.00

00:29:50.420 Who's not afraid to call you on your shit and just just say something extremely fucked up to bring the spirits back up 0.99

00:29:57.080 I think that if anybody is depressed and I see I see the look I could tell you don't have racist friends around you 1.00

00:30:02.780 That will

00:30:03.880 Get rid of your self-esteem and remind you that you're feeling of importance

00:30:08.700 Even getting to the point where you're going to delete yourself 1.00

00:30:10.880 That's so stupid like how dumb what you're gonna jump off a bridge nigger. What's wrong? 1.00

00:30:17.260 What you chink you want to slit my wrist you fucking wop 1.00

00:30:21.320 Oh, i'm a cracker. I'm sad. Oh crap. Shut the fuck up 1.00

00:30:26.060 You got to forget that you know 1.00

00:30:28.920 How

00:30:30.260 Important do you do you feel about your internal self that you would ever delete yourself?

00:30:35.260 You think that you're that valuable you think that oh i'm gonna have my sad moment. No

00:30:39.440 You need you need to have 0.99

00:30:41.120 Racist friends 1.00

00:30:42.880 Who call you a faggot if you ever get depressed 1.00

00:30:46.360 And then 1.00

00:30:49.600 You also need to have

00:30:51.180 That alter ego

00:30:53.260 so that

00:30:55.360 You know the difference between

00:30:57.760 What's

00:30:59.360 Really you

00:31:00.760 The real you

00:31:02.280 And I think the real you

00:31:03.700 Is who you are when you're like 12 years old

00:31:06.660 I think that defines you

00:31:08.160 I think when I think of my

00:31:09.420 Real self

00:31:10.620 It's me

00:31:11.660 12 years old

00:31:13.060 Playing call duty in my mom's basement

00:31:15.240 Looking at youtube and thinking this is what I want to do

00:31:18.240 Having all these dreams and aspirations

00:31:20.740 Kind of unsure of myself like awkward body

00:31:24.440 You know i'm skinny and like kind of lanky

00:31:26.520 Like that's the real I think 12 years old you as a man

00:31:30.240 Defines you yes or no chad

00:31:32.480 Do you agree

00:31:33.280 And then from then on

00:31:37.380 It's about

00:31:39.260 Developing

00:31:40.740 Who you want to be

00:31:43.400 Developing the ideal you

00:31:46.440 Because even when you

00:31:48.140 Imposter syndrome is never going to go away

00:31:49.820 Even when you succeed

00:31:51.120 People in the chat are saying like congrats on the victory lap

00:31:53.300 It's not a victory lap

00:31:54.620 It's just because you never really

00:31:56.720 It never feels real

00:31:58.320 Even when you get to a point of success

00:32:00.160 I never really

00:32:01.720 It's it's always going to be surreal

00:32:04.020 Yes no yes no

00:32:05.500 Of course you're going to change past 12 years old

00:32:10.180 But that's like

00:32:11.360 That's when your core desires are defined

00:32:13.740 That's when you you pretty much know what you want to do in life when you're 12

00:32:17.220 You know even if you don't know you know

00:32:19.820 Whatever you're most interested in

00:32:21.860 Whatever you're spending the most time with

00:32:23.520 Your sense of humor

00:32:24.700 How smart you are

00:32:26.200 It's not really going to change that much past 12

00:32:28.540 Like right at the

00:32:29.940 The pinnacle of puberty

00:32:31.520 Of course you figure more things out

00:32:33.300 But everything past that

00:32:35.160 Is just

00:32:36.020 You're attacking it

00:32:37.000 And then you're not really

00:32:37.960 You're

00:32:39.680 You're maturing

00:32:41.180 But you're just

00:32:42.720 You're just carving the marble sculpture at that point

00:32:45.520 You're just carving it

00:32:48.220 And your backstory defines you

00:32:52.020 That's why I always

00:32:53.860 Craved having

00:32:56.060 Struggle

00:32:56.920 That's why I always

00:32:58.380 Wanted to put myself through difficult situations

00:33:01.340 Because I knew intrinsically

00:33:02.980 Even at that age of 12

00:33:04.660 That the main character

00:33:07.080 Is not going to be

00:33:08.540 Admired by the audience

00:33:10.260 The main character is not going to be

00:33:12.200 It can't be the hero of any story

00:33:14.340 If the main character had it easy

00:33:17.020 Nobody wants to watch a movie

00:33:18.740 Where the main character is just like

00:33:20.580 Just goes through life

00:33:21.480 And then he finds a girl

00:33:22.900 And then he gets married

00:33:24.220 And then boom

00:33:25.380 Credits

00:33:25.860 No one's watching that

00:33:27.140 People

00:33:27.680 Movies don't exist without conflict

00:33:30.180 You need plot in a movie

00:33:31.720 Something's going right

00:33:32.760 Boom

00:33:33.080 Someone gets shot

00:33:33.860 How do we figure it out

00:33:34.960 The blood's on the floor

00:33:36.060 Where do I hide

00:33:37.060 Where do I go

00:33:38.000 You need to have plot

00:33:40.340 That's why I always wanted to put myself in a situation

00:33:43.480 Where I had to make it for myself

00:33:45.320 Where I dropped out of college

00:33:46.940 And made it difficult

00:33:47.640 Where I moved to New York City

00:33:49.500 Not knowing a lot of people

00:33:51.020 Where I was living in the hood

00:33:53.500 In Harlem by myself

00:33:54.880 In a studio apartment

00:33:55.860 Even in COVID

00:33:56.940 I stayed here 1.00

00:33:57.600 While all the fucking normies left 0.99

00:33:59.000 I was in New York 0.99

00:34:00.100 Like I moved here

00:34:01.040 March 1st, 2020

00:34:02.520 I was living in Long Island

00:34:03.800 For about

00:34:04.980 For one or two years

00:34:05.900 After I dropped out of college

00:34:07.020 I was living in Long Island

00:34:08.840 In a basement

00:34:10.260 And there was mold

00:34:11.620 And then it flooded

00:34:12.560 And I was living with some college students

00:34:14.520 And I was the only non-college student

00:34:15.780 I had just dropped out

00:34:16.680 I was making around $2,000 a month

00:34:18.040 And I'm like

00:34:18.440 I don't have enough money

00:34:19.540 To move into the city

00:34:20.200 And I didn't want to go back home

00:34:21.640 I didn't want to go

00:34:22.660 And take the easy route

00:34:23.820 Because into the comfort zone

00:34:24.880 That's not how you craft

00:34:26.200 The proper backstory

00:34:27.800 For the character

00:34:28.420 The main character needs struggle

00:34:30.220 I need to stay in this basement

00:34:31.800 With the mold

00:34:32.480 And the loud parties 1.00

00:34:33.620 And these Eastern European trash 1.00

00:34:35.660 Who are playing 1.00

00:34:36.460 Boom, boom

00:34:37.500 Let's party

00:34:38.340 Up in the living room

00:34:39.620 And it's so loud

00:34:40.760 The subwoofer base

00:34:41.660 That they brought in from Georgia 1.00

00:34:42.780 Is vibrating the ceiling

00:34:44.440 In this room

00:34:45.500 And then I finally had to leave

00:34:49.580 Because it flooded so much

00:34:50.880 That it was just

00:34:51.400 Literally impossible to live there

00:34:52.680 My mattress was on the floor

00:34:53.760 I dropped out

00:34:54.640 I was making these videos

00:34:55.300 Like fake it till you make it

00:34:56.360 And I just

00:34:57.240 I had to leave

00:34:57.700 So March 1st, 2020

00:34:58.680 I get an apartment in Harlem

00:35:00.420 On 141st Street

00:35:02.740 And Malcolm X Boulevard

00:35:05.220 Or Malcolm X Avenue

00:35:08.060 Whatever

00:35:08.320 141st Street

00:35:09.400 Deep in the hood

00:35:10.120 I'm like

00:35:10.760 I'm in the projects

00:35:12.400 And

00:35:13.320 So it's great

00:35:14.780 Like I feel like I made it

00:35:15.840 I'm thinking like

00:35:16.640 Mark Twain had this quote

00:35:17.960 If you can make it in New York City

00:35:19.700 You can make it anywhere in the world

00:35:20.940 I'm thinking like

00:35:21.720 New York

00:35:22.760 New York

00:35:24.120 I did it

00:35:25.320 I'm here

00:35:25.900 I have my own place

00:35:27.060 In New York City

00:35:27.760 It's literally a tiny

00:35:28.920 It's like half the size of this room

00:35:31.340 Like what you see in here

00:35:32.860 Is half the size

00:35:33.540 Kitchen

00:35:34.380 Sink 0.52

00:35:35.100 Bed

00:35:35.720 And I'm here

00:35:36.540 And I could not have been happier

00:35:38.500 I had just started

00:35:39.980 The One Minute Podcast

00:35:40.680 I had a series

00:35:41.820 That I was able to do

00:35:42.640 Every single week

00:35:43.420 I had figured out a way

00:35:44.500 To use a camera microphone

00:35:45.600 And

00:35:46.420 Have my voice heard

00:35:48.040 Make an impact

00:35:48.980 Start conversations

00:35:50.120 I was developing myself

00:35:51.640 I had dropped out

00:35:52.460 I had found a good stream of revenue

00:35:53.860 Two weeks later

00:35:55.200 COVID

00:35:55.900 Boom

00:35:56.820 Now I'm inside

00:35:58.820 Now I can't do The One Minute Podcast

00:36:00.460 I can't go on the subway

00:36:01.340 And talk to people anymore

00:36:02.240 I can't run around making videos

00:36:03.760 I can't use New York City anymore

00:36:05.860 Now this is the epicenter of COVID

00:36:08.300 It's the epicenter of a global pandemic

00:36:11.360 Everybody left

00:36:12.760 Everybody with money got out

00:36:14.400 They went to the Hamptons

00:36:15.220 They went to Connecticut

00:36:15.860 They went to Ohio

00:36:17.340 And I'm in the projects

00:36:18.820 Me and my studio

00:36:20.140 And my parents are like

00:36:21.060 Come home

00:36:21.420 Come home

00:36:21.700 I'm like no

00:36:22.200 I can't do it now

00:36:23.560 My main character journey just started

00:36:26.020 I'm not giving up now

00:36:27.020 And I'm just in the projects

00:36:29.040 And I'm just getting a bacon egg and cheese at the deli

00:36:31.140 And then I go back to my

00:36:32.260 And I'm like what do I do now

00:36:33.920 Like I'm not in school

00:36:35.800 I don't really have skills

00:36:37.640 I'm just in the process developing this

00:36:39.900 I'm in my apartment

00:36:40.920 I can't use the city

00:36:42.100 The whole reason I moved here

00:36:43.120 Was so I could do stand-up comedy in the clubs

00:36:44.920 Is so I can go around

00:36:46.420 And get inspiration from the artistic center of the world

00:36:49.440 And I'm just stuck

00:36:50.620 What do I do

00:36:52.280 And I just start panicking

00:36:53.360 Like I don't

00:36:53.780 Like I'm just like making videos once in a while

00:36:55.680 Like you know some reaction videos

00:36:58.020 I didn't really think about streaming back then

00:36:59.980 I don't know why

00:37:00.800 But those hard times made it so that

00:37:03.960 When we got out of COVID 0.97

00:37:05.880 After fucking 70% of this city 0.98

00:37:09.020 Got vaccinated in one month 1.00

00:37:10.360 Can you believe that?

00:37:11.560 L for all those people in the chat

00:37:12.840 70% of New York City got vaccinated in one month

00:37:16.440 And I'm walking around like

00:37:17.200 Is everybody

00:37:17.680 Are all of you NPCs?

00:37:19.820 Like are

00:37:20.180 Genuinely I was walking around like

00:37:21.880 I was like feeling like the main character

00:37:24.140 Like how is everybody

00:37:25.980 This plugged in

00:37:27.360 They don't see that

00:37:28.840 They didn't even test this vaccine

00:37:31.060 They don't even know what's in it

00:37:32.420 COVID's not even that bad

00:37:34.360 All these young people 0.52

00:37:35.460 The fact that they forced us to take it

00:37:36.880 The fact that right when COVID dropped

00:37:38.380 Everybody knew that this was going to happen

00:37:40.360 I thought this was commonality

00:37:41.800 As soon as COVID dropped

00:37:42.520 I'm like oh they want to sell vaccines

00:37:43.640 Oh the big pharmaceutical companies

00:37:45.580 Want to make billions of dollars

00:37:48.120 Which they did

00:37:48.800 From the vaccine

00:37:49.940 Of course

00:37:50.580 Bill Gates did the same thing

00:37:51.760 You give people

00:37:52.800 You give the computer the virus

00:37:54.280 And then you sell the virus software

00:37:55.460 Why don't they do the same thing with health? 0.97

00:37:57.080 He spreads malaria

00:37:57.960 Then he gives you malaria medication

00:37:59.240 You give like

00:38:00.380 Keep people COVID

00:38:00.960 Like for 99.9% survival rate

00:38:02.960 And then you give them a vaccine

00:38:03.640 That you force them to take

00:38:04.420 To go to work

00:38:05.040 To go to school

00:38:05.460 To even travel

00:38:06.060 I'm walking around like

00:38:07.260 Everyone's an NPC

00:38:08.640 So when I made it out of that

00:38:09.840 I developed enough mental fortitude

00:38:12.320 To see through a lot of that nonsense

00:38:13.880 To value my life and my time

00:38:16.720 And everything that I'm supposed to do

00:38:17.940 Those struggles

00:38:19.200 Like being in that apartment

00:38:20.240 And somebody ended up throwing

00:38:22.100 A bottle through

00:38:23.180 I was with my

00:38:24.020 An ex-girlfriend at the time

00:38:26.360 And I had the curtains open 1.00

00:38:28.260 Stupid 1.00

00:38:28.640 And I was having sex with her 1.00

00:38:30.280 I know 1.00

00:38:30.760 I was having sex with her 1.00

00:38:31.740 And like I see the flash go off 0.99

00:38:33.100 And then one of my neighbors

00:38:34.220 From across some guy on the projects

00:38:36.360 Was like taking

00:38:37.220 I don't know if it was his son

00:38:38.260 If it was him

00:38:38.780 And I yell out the window

00:38:40.260 And I'm like yelling back and forth

00:38:41.680 And like delete that

00:38:42.440 He's like 0.61

00:38:43.080 I ain't taking no picture nigga 1.00

00:38:44.420 What's up

00:38:45.220 You know my body 1.00

00:38:45.960 I'm gonna kill you nigga 1.00

00:38:47.340 And I'm like bro 1.00

00:38:48.200 So I throw an egg at his window

00:38:49.620 Because he was lying

00:38:52.040 And then he throws a glass bottle

00:38:53.540 Smashes my window

00:38:55.380 And now I'm in Harlem

00:38:56.460 On 141st Street

00:38:57.400 Living alone

00:38:58.260 Broken window 0.99

00:38:59.240 And a neighbor wants to kill me

00:39:00.640 So I moved to Brooklyn

00:39:02.680 I got out of there

00:39:03.360 Still didn't move home

00:39:04.960 And this is during COVID

00:39:06.200 And this is during quarantine

00:39:07.360 And this is the epicenter of the virus

00:39:09.400 And I'm walking around in Times Square

00:39:11.160 And there's nobody here

00:39:12.760 There's not a soul

00:39:14.160 I'm walking around like it's GTA

00:39:15.880 And it's loading

00:39:16.540 I walk in Grand Central

00:39:18.120 The biggest train station

00:39:19.100 One of the biggest train stations

00:39:20.040 In the world

00:39:20.540 From my point

00:39:21.840 I think it's the biggest in America

00:39:22.960 At least

00:39:23.380 And there's nobody there

00:39:24.440 I'm walking around

00:39:25.220 And I'm the only person in there

00:39:26.720 And the whole reason I moved here

00:39:28.880 Was to get more interactions

00:39:29.840 With people

00:39:30.300 Because how

00:39:30.860 I get my world view

00:39:32.520 And how I learn more

00:39:33.780 Is from interactions

00:39:34.520 And in New York City

00:39:35.580 You interact with more people

00:39:36.540 Than you ever will

00:39:37.380 You interact with all these

00:39:39.640 Different main characters

00:39:40.620 Every single day

00:39:41.240 All these people

00:39:41.820 Who have their own

00:39:43.500 Self of expression

00:39:44.240 They have their own lens

00:39:45.640 On the world

00:39:46.020 They want to be something

00:39:46.860 People come here

00:39:47.420 Because they want to be something

00:39:48.500 And I'm here

00:39:49.500 Trying to be something

00:39:50.360 There's nobody else here

00:39:51.440 Smash window

00:39:53.920 No apartment

00:39:55.140 What

00:39:55.920 Like

00:39:56.260 I'm in danger

00:39:57.340 These people 0.97

00:39:58.560 Like want to kill me 0.98

00:39:59.700 What do I do 0.97

00:40:00.720 But I always knew

00:40:02.360 That that's what you

00:40:03.100 What you need

00:40:04.180 Because if you have

00:40:05.440 If you just have

00:40:06.640 Blind confidence

00:40:07.360 If you walk in there 1.00

00:40:08.080 Then you're just a loud mouth asshole 1.00

00:40:09.620 So you need to have 1.00

00:40:11.000 Those types of struggles

00:40:12.140 Going through something

00:40:13.600 Is what makes you into a man

00:40:15.460 Overcoming it

00:40:16.940 And so I really feel

00:40:18.620 For those people

00:40:19.120 Who are 18, 19

00:40:20.260 I was talking to my friend

00:40:21.840 And who I hadn't seen in a while

00:40:23.740 And a lot of them

00:40:24.240 Are still going through that

00:40:25.180 Like even

00:40:25.580 Like in your early 20s

00:40:26.740 Like guys are still

00:40:27.960 Type of one if this is you

00:40:28.820 These people are still

00:40:30.020 Trying to find their place

00:40:31.200 In the world

00:40:31.620 Like a lot of people

00:40:32.240 Are in jobs

00:40:33.060 They don't want to be in

00:40:33.980 Or they don't really have

00:40:35.180 A strong belief system

00:40:36.260 You know

00:40:36.860 Their only satisfaction

00:40:38.500 In life

00:40:39.360 Is having a drink

00:40:41.020 At the end of the day

00:40:41.720 Having a little cigarette

00:40:42.620 In conversation

00:40:43.280 A lot of people

00:40:44.480 They don't have

00:40:45.860 A specific place

00:40:47.380 In the world

00:40:47.820 And you can tell

00:40:48.860 They don't have

00:40:49.560 That meaning

00:40:50.440 And a lot of men

00:40:52.060 I think that

00:40:52.840 This is one of the most

00:40:53.600 Critical times

00:40:54.100 Where men are 0.78

00:40:54.660 Craving some sense of meaning

00:40:57.300 Not only are they

00:40:57.940 Hungry for some sort of

00:40:59.360 Masculinity

00:41:00.340 Because of how much

00:41:01.560 Like bro

00:41:02.200 Everyone's walking around

00:41:02.980 With green hair

00:41:03.660 And a giant

00:41:04.080 People are starving

00:41:05.820 Not only for masculinity

00:41:07.480 For leadership

00:41:08.440 For guidance

00:41:09.120 And looking for

00:41:10.120 Some sort of answers

00:41:11.560 To the world

00:41:12.080 But they're also

00:41:12.900 Looking for

00:41:13.580 For some sense of meaning

00:41:14.840 Where do I fit in

00:41:16.060 In this world

00:41:16.560 Where do I find my place

00:41:18.140 Where do I

00:41:19.280 How do I stand out

00:41:20.460 How do I impact the world

00:41:22.460 How do I make a difference

00:41:23.480 How do I be the change

00:41:24.420 That I want to see

00:41:25.060 I want to leave my mark

00:41:26.420 On the world too

00:41:27.140 I don't just want to see

00:41:28.380 Other people succeed

00:41:29.300 And I don't

00:41:30.080 And I'm going to fall behind

00:41:31.660 How do I use

00:41:34.340 The gifts that I have

00:41:35.820 From God

00:41:36.300 To leave an impact

00:41:37.280 On the world

00:41:37.720 And one of my friends

00:41:40.480 Has a happy-go-lucky

00:41:41.400 Younger brother

00:41:41.900 Who's about 18

00:41:42.560 And he's telling me

00:41:45.140 Like happy-go-lucky guy

00:41:46.680 He's always 0.81

00:41:46.980 Like the class clown 0.83

00:41:48.000 Is always the one

00:41:48.940 Who deep down

00:41:49.440 Like at the end of the day

00:41:50.320 You get home

00:41:51.120 And you're just like 1.00

00:41:51.680 Fuck 1.00

00:41:52.060 Fuck 1.00

00:41:53.740 Fuck 1.00

00:41:55.640 Because that dude 1.00

00:41:56.260 Is putting up blinders

00:41:58.400 To try to

00:41:59.560 To mask the fact

00:42:00.420 That he's looking

00:42:01.560 For meaning 0.94

00:42:01.920 The class clown

00:42:02.760 Is using comedy

00:42:04.500 As a

00:42:05.560 As a defense mechanism

00:42:06.700 And I'm talking

00:42:07.880 To my friend

00:42:08.780 He's like

00:42:09.120 This guy's like 18

00:42:10.340 And that little brother

00:42:12.160 Told my friend

00:42:12.920 Like some days

00:42:14.520 I just want to disappear

00:42:16.080 And like you aren't

00:42:16.740 Going to see me

00:42:17.180 For a while

00:42:17.700 Like you're just

00:42:18.460 There's going to be

00:42:19.140 Like months go by

00:42:19.980 And I'm going to

00:42:20.620 Disappear

00:42:21.280 And you're not

00:42:21.680 Going to hear from me

00:42:22.220 At all

00:42:22.520 And I'm like

00:42:23.460 The happy-go-lucky 0.76

00:42:24.300 The goofy guy 0.68

00:42:25.140 The goofy dude said 0.53

00:42:26.300 And it makes perfect sense

00:42:27.280 Because

00:42:27.960 And I was like that

00:42:28.740 When I was 18

00:42:29.340 I was always joking around

00:42:30.620 Class clown

00:42:31.540 Stuff like that 0.89

00:42:32.240 You know

00:42:32.960 Disrupting

00:42:34.340 And

00:42:35.580 And I remember

00:42:36.400 Like looking back

00:42:37.160 Thinking back

00:42:38.180 To that birthday

00:42:38.720 I was sitting there

00:42:39.360 Like

00:42:39.620 What now

00:42:41.080 What do I do

00:42:42.980 The rest of my life

00:42:45.000 Is in front of me

00:42:45.660 And I have no idea

00:42:47.360 What I'm supposed to do

00:42:49.220 So

00:42:52.360 To wrap all this up

00:42:53.420 If

00:42:55.320 If any of this

00:42:55.940 Made sense

00:42:56.460 Don't just look

00:42:59.260 For the immediate

00:43:00.060 Gratification

00:43:00.940 Of yelling

00:43:02.420 Making noise

00:43:03.420 Doing something

00:43:04.480 Doing something egregious

00:43:04.960 With your

00:43:05.220 With your

00:43:05.880 Appearance

00:43:06.520 And looking for

00:43:07.840 Immediate

00:43:08.880 Attention from people

00:43:09.980 Because that's

00:43:10.400 That's fleeting

00:43:10.940 You have to develop

00:43:13.220 Confidence

00:43:14.760 But

00:43:16.280 You can't just be

00:43:17.200 The loudest person

00:43:17.980 In the room

00:43:18.360 If you have

00:43:19.240 No meaning

00:43:19.820 If there's no meaning

00:43:20.580 Attached to your words

00:43:21.460 Then they're weightless

00:43:22.100 And people will be able

00:43:23.040 To smell right through that

00:43:24.020 So

00:43:24.640 It's extremely important

00:43:26.060 To

00:43:27.220 Have confidence

00:43:29.120 But

00:43:29.420 You need to attach

00:43:30.900 Your

00:43:31.520 Purpose

00:43:32.300 To something

00:43:33.080 That's adding value

00:43:33.880 To the world

00:43:34.540 If there's no work ethic

00:43:36.220 If there's no constant

00:43:37.540 Desire

00:43:38.360 To make a change

00:43:39.820 In whatever you do

00:43:41.360 Then what you're doing

00:43:42.620 Is meaningless

00:43:43.120 So first

00:43:44.360 If you are feeling like

00:43:46.220 You have no idea

00:43:47.740 What you want to do

00:43:48.480 Think about the most

00:43:49.780 Important issue

00:43:50.440 In the world

00:43:50.940 What is the number one thing

00:43:53.000 Lstream

00:43:54.680 What is the number one thing

00:43:57.640 That's

00:43:57.960 That's necessary

00:44:00.080 What's the number one

00:44:02.780 Most necessary change

00:44:04.420 In the world

00:44:04.940 Think about that

00:44:06.640 And then

00:44:07.300 Everything else

00:44:09.080 Follows

00:44:10.440 Your purpose

00:44:11.460 How you are going to

00:44:13.600 Define your character

00:44:14.640 All that will

00:44:16.140 Come into place

00:44:17.040 Thank you guys

00:44:18.340 Hope you enjoyed

00:44:19.640 I'll be back tomorrow

00:44:20.300 I'm going to have a bigger stream

00:44:21.120 I think Zerk is in town

00:44:22.320 I want to bring on

00:44:23.140 Gideon

00:44:23.420 Gideon was supposed to

00:44:24.020 Come on today

00:44:24.440 But

00:44:25.160 I just wanted to do

00:44:26.140 I just wanted to talk about that

00:44:27.240 Because

00:44:27.480 Being back in New York

00:44:28.840 Is a good time

00:44:30.380 For me to reflect

00:44:31.720 I really love this place

00:44:32.920 And I have some great videos

00:44:34.400 On the way

00:44:34.700 Great podcasts on the way

00:44:35.640 Stay tuned for that

00:44:36.280 Make sure to join the discord

00:44:37.420 Link in description

00:44:37.940 And the reason that the stream

00:44:38.680 Was so short

00:44:39.220 Is because there wasn't

00:44:40.080 A lot of content

00:44:40.680 So I need more content

00:44:42.440 Join the discord

00:44:43.080 Link in description

00:44:43.700 And also join the creativity kit

00:44:45.840 You guys know

00:44:46.500 Link in description

00:44:46.980 Hope you guys enjoyed

00:44:47.760 And

00:44:48.660 I'll see you guys tomorrow

00:44:50.300 Appreciate you

00:44:50.940 Join the telegram

00:44:52.200 Follow me on social

00:44:53.740 You already know

00:44:54.100 Make sure to follow

00:44:54.740 What are we at

00:44:55.100 276 chat

00:44:56.020 We're at 276 followers

00:44:57.540 I want to get to 500k

00:44:59.140 That's the goal for this year

00:45:00.080 L short stream

00:45:01.000 I appreciate you guys

00:45:01.960 See you soon

00:45:02.340 Bye

SNEAKO - August 02, 2023

SNEAKO IS BACK IN NYC

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