The Comment Section with Drew Afualo - QUEEN BEES OF CLOWN SCHOOL Ft. Ashnikko

00:00:00.000 i'm on hinge as well i don't give a fuck i'm i'll give a damn i just reply i just reply to all

00:00:06.580 all these men men's like little pictures themselves like yes diva they hate it

00:00:13.000 hey everyone and welcome back to another episode of the comment section show starring me your fave

00:00:23.120 who cares about me on to the guest today we have the iconic the legendary the unbelievably talented

00:00:28.620 ash nico oh my god thank you so much for having me oh my god of course i'm so excited to be here

00:00:37.240 likewise you're a legend for many years stop it good thing it's on camera good thing we're

00:00:43.440 recording we're rolling i love that i'm a huge fan as well thank you it's an honor to have you

00:00:47.880 legend thank you how have you been i am so good i'm wearing my little clown outfit with my clown

00:00:54.320 makeup to my clown job and here we are you and me both having a little yeah right i call myself a

00:01:00.420 clown for hire it's good yeah i actually for the longest time i was threatening to my manager that

00:01:06.440 i was going to go to the clown school outside of paris and really study it professionally i think

00:01:12.820 it's important i think you would thrive i know i would thrive they would never see you again that's

00:01:17.380 why they can't let you do it yeah i think it would be crazy for me there i think i would really

00:01:21.160 establish myself as a queen bee of clown school i think so too i think you'd graduate with high

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00:02:10.660 love well what's new with you lately anything new anything interesting other than your amazing music

00:02:15.960 thank you i um was just in new york i just took a little a little sleepy on the plane and now we're

00:02:22.540 here i feel a little crazy i'm bloated um me too yeah i'm always bloated i just had a crazy day

00:02:29.300 yesterday i had korean barbecue and pizza and two chocolate chip cookies and i'm lactose intolerant

00:02:35.120 and gluten intolerant and i said i'm indestructible he said you only live once you know what would be

00:02:41.960 awesome on a plane taking dairy yes gluten when you can't have either yes it's perfect

00:02:47.380 yeah i had a window seat as well

00:02:50.540 yeah i love lactose intolerant queen me too and i just love lactose i love lactose

00:02:58.420 me too they're like i'll get i'll go and i'll get a vegan hot chocolate and they're like do you want

00:03:04.400 whipped cream yes yes of course i do yeah like i tried balance the first half of it i tried the second

00:03:10.260 half i'm gonna shit my pants yeah ask me more than once i'm gonna cave yeah same at one time i had

00:03:16.220 like i think it was we will i was in new york i went to quality italian have you ever been there no

00:03:22.660 highly recommend i feel like it's the only restaurant i've ever been to in new york even though i've been

00:03:27.200 to new york two billion times at this no that's fine you can have your faves you have to go to the

00:03:31.220 same places i know what i'm gonna get when i get there that being said when i went there for probably

00:03:35.160 the 30th time i had ricotta but i thought it was burrata which burrata also kind of hurts me

00:03:41.620 but you know some of them you're like this one doesn't hurt me that bad yeah so i thought it was

00:03:45.600 burrata oh girl i barely made it home yeah i had hot butt all night there is nothing worse than

00:03:51.780 feeling like you're gonna shit your pants in new york city yeah on that walk back to the hotel no

00:03:56.800 there's no public toilets anywhere anywhere and everyone's mean if you go in there and ask to use

00:04:01.120 the restroom they yell i feel like it happens to everyone everyone has a i almost shit my pants

00:04:05.060 in new york city that's the new york experience it's so scary that's the only way you can get it

00:04:09.020 the next morning i had an i had like full day of press i had to get up at three to do glam when i

00:04:15.800 got up i i had to shower three times that night yeah it was working me like a dog that night then i

00:04:21.720 went and i had the worst probably one of the worst interviews of my entire life i was being asked

00:04:26.700 questions i should not have been being asked and wasn't prepared for i'm sitting there and i'm thinking

00:04:30.680 you have no idea the battles i've been fighting you want to ask me a question like that i'm sitting

00:04:36.380 here like refiki big old red butt and you're asking me questions yeah yeah oh god you have

00:04:41.420 no idea the wars that i fought i barely made it in the chair this morning yeah yeah so anyway that's

00:04:48.140 kind of where i am now nice just like intestinally love that but you look fabulous thank you that's

00:04:54.360 what matters thank you so much i feel good i feel it it's all coming back up i'm i'm tight i'm ready

00:05:00.660 love yeah amazing well for those who are maybe new to your lore i am i'm very familiar to your lore

00:05:06.000 how did you get into music just to get started um so my lore is really crazy so i i went to school

00:05:14.660 in eastern europe um so when i was 13 my dad moved us to the baltic country of latvia

00:05:23.120 um and i did know that about you it's really yeah it's really rogue and still to this day people

00:05:30.800 are like why did you do that i don't know you said i was 13 so i don't really know yeah i was 13 and my

00:05:36.980 dad put me in public school and he said good luck kid and um i was fighting battles i was so i was 15

00:05:44.640 when i was finally like i'm gonna make music but i i really needed like an older sister

00:05:51.780 character for myself so i crafted this stage persona and then i started writing diss tracks about all the

00:05:58.740 mean bitches in my class as you do yeah naturally yeah yeah they hated me um and yeah that's where it

00:06:08.380 started so i was making music in eastern europe um and then i moved to london when i was 18 and

00:06:16.340 it all went from there yeah and now i make music about my little sub boyfriends

00:06:24.320 here we are and i love you for it thank you uh you're my hero thank you so much

00:06:29.640 i how was it moving to london um initially i mean i feel like it's not that big of a change

00:06:34.820 probably from i mean when i was when i was 18 it was it was huge for me i didn't know anyone

00:06:39.480 um i moved in with like these absolute rat bitches they were so they were so crazy i feel like i've had

00:06:47.760 so many crazy housemates um but yeah it was terrifying i had way more confidence when i was

00:06:54.220 18 than i do now for some reason like the things i was doing the situations i was putting myself in

00:07:00.180 when i was 18 i would like go up to a stranger and be like hey listen to my music like now i'm like

00:07:06.520 don't talk to me at a party but well thank god you did yeah i was like tap dancing on street corners

00:07:13.940 like listen to my mixtape baby you're gonna love it and they did with the transatlantic accent and

00:07:20.300 everything i love that that's my real i would have remembered you too if you said that to me i would

00:07:25.800 remembered you too i'm curious i was just curious how your experience was living there acclimating

00:07:30.300 yeah to their terrible food yeah yes british cuisine specifically yes all other cultures are

00:07:36.640 wonderful yes um english food let's talk about it i really like treacle tart okay like treacle tart

00:07:46.080 and yeah yeah i really like treacle tart um i also like beans no i don't i don't like their beans

00:07:54.040 not their beans not their beans but beans in general i like i don't like what they've done

00:07:58.680 to be same theirs are very ketchupy what's going on there yeah too much sugar i just want i just want

00:08:04.360 a bean i just want a real a pure holistic bean yeah yeah they're tarting up beans over there what's

00:08:09.620 going on i don't need it they're slutting them out over there it's terrible those slutty little beans

00:08:14.100 yeah um yeah no i don't love i don't love what they've done to food but the food scene in

00:08:22.560 monday is incredible it is yeah there's just british cuisine specifically i was like what

00:08:27.180 is going on because when i went i started a war with them unfortunately i didn't mean to but you

00:08:32.980 know it is what it is i am who i am yeah but i was really excited to try like a true english breakfast

00:08:38.580 okay because i it was giving like charcuterie to me and i'm a big like charcuterie fan i'm like

00:08:44.940 have you ever heard of balkan breakfast what's a balkan breakfast right i will explain it to you

00:08:49.360 ash nico balkan breakfast is literally i've watched dudes on tiktok eat them eat it but it's

00:08:54.900 just a bunch of veggies it's like oh oh oh yeah and they have like kielbasa sausage mustard and they

00:09:00.840 just eat it it's the most primal way of eating in my opinion that i'm fucking with so i was like

00:09:06.440 you know what maybe i'll like a british like breakfast like a proper one it's not primal i know

00:09:11.440 it's it's just giving awful everything about it is awful it's giving world war ii i'm really upset

00:09:17.080 about it when i eat it i tried it three times i was like okay maybe i'll try it somewhere else

00:09:20.460 maybe i'll try it somewhere else the third time i said you've lost it i don't fucking like it either

00:09:25.080 no and i've had i've had fish and chips there that was pretty good they rock yeah that was pretty good

00:09:29.940 it was i was like you should just make all your food this yeah make it make it this yeah and then

00:09:34.280 the big vinegar on the side yeah yeah i don't like how there's no air conditioning in anywhere

00:09:40.680 ever there but like other than that i'm like fish and chips rocking with it summertime titties in the

00:09:46.220 butt cheeks sweating bad sweating bad i'm in my bed like naked begging for death just waiting for

00:09:53.560 it to come yeah i have a fan like just in my hole yeah i like don't have sex in the summertime

00:10:00.820 how could you i'd be like get off i don't yeah i don't have any sex in the summertime i can't even

00:10:07.760 fathom that yeah touching at all in that time not at all well i agree i'm so sorry that's oh it's

00:10:14.960 i wish you had a better culinary experience yeah i did have delicious italian food while i was

00:10:20.840 there so good so delicious so many italians in london and they make incredible food yeah great

00:10:26.260 indian food yeah that delish so good yeah and then some british people started getting real pissed

00:10:31.840 off at me when i was like joking about it with them i thought we were having fun you know america

00:10:36.560 has a lot of faults too if your guys's thing is fucking food i think it's all right um but even

00:10:41.860 when i was joking around with them i was like well you know a lot they started saying things like

00:10:46.160 well that's because you americans are so fat you're used to additives and shit i said right well

00:10:50.200 you should start putting them in your food too because it's ass like i don't want to eat stuff

00:10:53.620 that tastes like lye don't make me eat that that's fucked up yeah no i don't i don't really enjoy an

00:10:59.480 english breakfast but i think that i think okay there is something i feel like a little hobbit the

00:11:05.280 other day i was sorry i'm getting overwhelmed i was in dartmoor the other day on the moors and i went to

00:11:10.920 this old pub on the top of a hill and there were loads of ponies everywhere and we were just eating

00:11:16.980 slop and i was like i don't care what i'm eating i'm looking at baby ponies right now i feel like a

00:11:23.980 little hobbit at the end of my quest i feel so good you could give me literally anything majestic and i

00:11:30.000 would and i would have loved it i love i would have shoveled it in my hole yeah yeah i'm with you on

00:11:34.500 that they probably would have got me with the view too there were a bunch of baby ponies it was so good

00:11:38.960 we were all like it was really good what's your favorite animal right now i'm really i'm really

00:11:45.940 keen on a pony because that really changed me i was like i am an adult now i can maybe get a pony

00:11:52.860 i bet you could um especially out there i'm sure yeah maybe i'll get a pony i'm not gonna get a pony

00:11:57.800 but um i think i think octopus sorry i love that we're swerving i like that's that's scary to me but

00:12:06.160 like sea creatures scare me in a way where i have a lot of respect for them yes like i don't want any

00:12:11.760 problems yeah and like you do what you gotta do yeah that's how i feel there yeah you stay there

00:12:17.540 i'll stay here no problems i don't want ever to go on a submarine or to space they feel the same

00:12:24.480 i'm with you on that something's wrong with you if you want to do those things i agree what do you

00:12:29.620 got to see up there yeah i don't need to see whatever's up there it's not for me yeah what's meant

00:12:33.920 for me will be for me who will be right here under my feet i remember i don't know who said that their

00:12:38.980 biggest red flag is a man who wants to go to space yeah i agree with that that's wholeheartedly

00:12:44.740 right a man is like i would love to go to space why why to colonize it probably not enough for you

00:12:51.220 here go up there and harass some aliens or something probably fuck out of here

00:12:55.140 they don't want you in space they don't want you i don't want you here but i wouldn't put you in

00:13:01.980 space that's for sure i wouldn't subject space to that that sucks yeah so space and under under

00:13:07.580 the sea i i don't know i i can't none of my business none of my business that's how i feel

00:13:13.160 none of my business don't want to bother y'all yeah but they actually i saw i read a little article

00:13:18.800 the other day about octopuses and they have built cities i believe them they have roads yeah they have

00:13:24.920 highways they have buildings and schools even yeah so if they take over yeah free health care

00:13:32.560 yeah there you go free education yeah they're having a good time at least someone's doing it

00:13:37.360 yeah let it be the octopi if it has to be i love it back to your uh your red flag about men do you

00:13:43.340 have do you have any particular red flags about men right now okay so um i am a bisexual yes um i did

00:13:50.680 know that i'm a bisexual um and i have started dating men again after some years of not dating

00:13:57.560 men um and it's been crazy yeah yeah i kind of um i jumped straight in i said let me just get raya

00:14:07.520 and be a whore and i did i love that plan yeah that's smart how's it going oh god yeah i'm busy

00:14:15.580 but not summertime as i said i don't have sex in the summer it's a rule and in the summer rule of

00:14:20.620 thumb yeah um yeah it's been really wild i am an absolute dog i didn't know i had it in me but when

00:14:28.020 it comes to men i am a dog fucking period i just like sometimes you need a you need a you need a

00:14:33.020 period of time to do that yeah just wreak havoc on them i am they like it they fucking love it they

00:14:39.060 love it i will literally go someone for four months and send a you up text yeah and they're like

00:14:44.420 yes yeah why because they're easy yeah they're so easy it's fine it is it's fucking true they'll

00:14:53.200 do anything yeah it's true they don't care they're easy i love that's why when sometimes when i get hate

00:14:59.060 from men and they're like men are gonna like this okay you mean you right all the men i've ever

00:15:04.700 interacted with had no problems yeah in fact they prefer it yeah um it's crazy yeah it's really it's

00:15:11.240 really wild a lot of them want to go to space it's really alarming me that is so scary what do

00:15:16.760 they have any reasoning have you heard any legitimate reasoning i don't like absorb much

00:15:22.820 when they talk yeah same same same um i just hear the top lines and then i feel like i got the gist

00:15:28.780 so i just kind of tune out after that i'm like can you give me a synopsis yeah my mom used to say

00:15:34.000 this thing where she's like five seconds before the end of your story like start there five seconds

00:15:37.820 then go yeah i'm like great that's what i that's with men it's perfect yeah even that's probably a

00:15:43.580 little bit too much time for being real yeah it's true though i'm on hinge as well i don't give a

00:15:48.220 fuck i'm i'll give a damn i just reply i just reply to all all these men men's like little pictures

00:15:55.820 themselves like yes diva they hate it they're like what the fuck are you talking about i don't really

00:16:03.240 know what that means yeah yeah you do you're a diva and a princess and if you're not i don't want to

00:16:08.300 talk to you that's fair anything men do though like i'm sure you get this i get called the

00:16:14.520 misandrist do you get called that no i wear it like a crown yeah

00:16:19.560 right thank you i'll wear one too absolutely i'd love to yeah i said i just made a video about this

00:16:27.260 the other day because sometimes men i feel like have been asleep for the last four years and then

00:16:33.280 they log on to tiktok.com and they're like i'm gonna call this bitch fat and ugly and mean uh which

00:16:38.180 has been done to me many many times hasn't changed my pace at all if anything it's just motivated me

00:16:43.440 even more but i feel like i was saying they keep saying i hate when a woman makes hating men their

00:16:48.740 whole entire personality okay then why do you keep bothering me yeah like that's my main question like

00:16:54.260 okay if you know i hate you and i've told you to your face i hate you why do you keep coming over

00:16:58.160 here hating you is their personality yeah they're like why i said even if i tell you i hate you you're

00:17:03.720 gonna still come back over here and ask me why that's why obsessed that's why like everything about

00:17:09.560 the essence of what you're doing right now that's why so i think that they have a pretty low reading

00:17:16.220 level yes and for sure when they say i was just talking about this the other day when they

00:17:21.240 comment the same shit over and over again i think it's because they don't know any other adjectives

00:17:27.120 or words in general like their vocabulary is really small their reading level is really low

00:17:32.040 they don't consume media or art or read books outside of what's on their phone i think i think

00:17:40.300 that's just your answer they have no other words yeah yeah they're real limited yeah their their

00:17:46.620 language is is is pretty it's limited yeah pretty limited yeah it's very uh elementary i know and

00:17:54.400 even when i say that they're like it well that's the the most hilarious part about when men like try

00:17:59.460 to dissect my content sometimes like they'll be like this is what she's really saying as if i don't know

00:18:06.100 and the women who love me don't know like they're like you stupid fucking bitch this is what she's

00:18:11.040 really saying as if i'm talking to them at all so like sometimes when i say they're like oh well

00:18:17.100 it's really alienating to men yeah that's kind of the fucking point yeah it's not for you baby yeah

00:18:22.700 it's not for you at all in fact i'm using you as a pawn i'm i'm stepping on your back to get further

00:18:28.600 ahead that's what i'm doing i've said that so many times still don't listen to me what am i shocked

00:18:34.440 not at all but i'm sure i'm sure you're not any stranger to that especially like them giving you

00:18:39.920 unsolicited advice i'm sure yeah or commentary on your art the other day i i've had a lot of people

00:18:45.260 recent like okay so i'm going through a really slutty phase of my life love special sacred very

00:18:51.540 sacred moment for me totally um and i'm showing a little bit more ass my shirts my sorry my skirts

00:18:58.440 are getting a little shorter love um clown skirt period and i've had a lot of like neck beard fans

00:19:07.960 be like who's making her dress like this i'm just so scared for her i'm so scared someone at her

00:19:15.200 record that was making her put her body out like this i'm like babe i'm a whore yeah so yeah i don't

00:19:23.380 think you're listening to me i love getting my pussy ate hello hello what do i gotta do here like

00:19:34.460 what's a girl gotta do yeah so like my own sexual liberation and autonomy is not my own they can't

00:19:41.900 even like fathom view that as something like that yeah can't they can't even fathom that that would be

00:19:47.240 my choice yeah even that is like there there's no way she would ask to look like that yeah what

00:19:53.300 hot i disagree yeah and also i feel like the femininity that i am channeling right now it

00:20:04.020 feels like performance it feels like drag it feels like costume totally i go home and i like

00:20:09.720 dress like a teenage boy yeah so the duality of men i'm just i'm just trying i'm i'm just playing

00:20:16.960 around with gender right now absolutely i think that i really don't need permission to do so um

00:20:24.120 you sure as hell don't but yeah i don't even i don't even really read the comments anymore

00:20:27.840 i just see i'm just having a good time shaking my body around acting like a dog

00:20:35.160 that's my favorite thing that you do i encourage your slutty face i encourage many women and many

00:20:41.380 anyone really to have a slutty face safely and consensually i'm like i encourage you if you can

00:20:46.640 do it safely consensually be a whore yeah that's what i did yeah and it was great it was a time

00:20:51.420 it's special i am noting though in um queer spaces i wish that there was like a sort of a lesbian bath

00:21:01.160 house situation that was like sexier and had really good interior design

00:21:06.380 in my head i can see it so clearly you should look into that i think you would curate it

00:21:11.580 yeah it's like walking into a womb it's like a cavern with candlelight and there's like

00:21:16.600 incredible cushions everywhere with this amazing bespoke embroidered um cloth i would love i would

00:21:24.440 love to make some sort of some sort of orgy situation i i think i think like uh yeah the

00:21:31.500 the lesbian equivalent of a bath house is really really needed you got to work on it then yeah

00:21:36.640 there's a hole in that demographic right there you in the market there's a hole that's it's right

00:21:40.660 there for you it's right there in front of you yeah yeah i'm gonna do it i i encourage you to do so

00:21:47.100 it would be a hit especially if it's uh co-signed by you yeah hell yeah my next business venture

00:21:53.060 it's like those all-female gyms but it's an all all women all lesbians specifically i would i would

00:22:00.640 love yeah uh a bath house for for queer femmes yeah i think that would be very special yeah lesbians

00:22:07.720 are are like my north star when it comes to hating men follow them like a guiding light i was like they

00:22:13.760 have it figured out that's gorgeous i'm following that i'm following their in their footsteps in their

00:22:18.920 path yeah i think it's beautiful back to hard pivot back to your music uh when did you first start

00:22:26.060 to feel like you're like in your career in general when did you first start to feel like oh my god i

00:22:30.840 think this is like becoming like a career that i can start to um take somewhere god i'm trying to

00:22:38.020 remember and you've been working for so long yeah god don't make me feel old um i'm old too it's okay

00:22:45.860 i uh okay i guess yeah i've been putting out music for so long um i think probably like

00:22:53.560 right before the pandemic like 2019 i was like okay wow i think this might be something that i can do

00:23:01.000 for a lifetime yeah i i love to reinvent with each project yeah totally i love it i think there's

00:23:09.500 something so special in reinventing yourself every year yeah new closet newbie new hair like i think i

00:23:18.720 would love my whole life to just spend every year just reinventing myself not even in my career just

00:23:24.160 as a person just in general yeah i love that i would love to be like 65 and going to forestry school

00:23:31.300 and like running a community garden and then next year i don't know having a cabaret show you know what i

00:23:39.000 mean i love that and i see all of that in your future tap dancing yeah all of it makes a lot of

00:23:43.460 sense for you i think i think i would also love to like work an iron forge and make swords yeah you

00:23:50.600 know absolutely yeah you could do it all yeah i feel like i i believe in that honestly if you could

00:23:57.200 like reinvent next year and do something like completely different what would you do oh i would

00:24:02.300 do something imagine i said i turn into a trad wife or something that'd be so fun i was like

00:24:07.560 that's what i want to be um she's just so far left of me i would want to be like oh i'd want to do

00:24:13.160 like some sabrina carpenter shit or something just completely 180 go completely blonde shrink at least

00:24:18.500 nine inches yes they can do that then start doing very sexual innuendos 60s mod housewife

00:24:24.880 completely left of me i think that would be fun okay crazy i think that would be really fun and silly

00:24:29.740 i love that the shrinking part i have to work on but i think i could do it yeah oh my god

00:24:33.800 you know what i love i love on tiktok i love watching um men who do the um the lengthening

00:24:40.240 surgeries to get taller

00:24:42.300 i love it i love it i love it so much we're already laughing because i was thinking because

00:24:53.120 i've seen them too yeah wait have you seen materialists the movie no i haven't do you care

00:24:58.880 if i spoil something for you i love when people spoil movies me too i will i will be starting

00:25:04.740 in the first five minutes of watching a movie i'm looking up how does this movie end on wikipedia

00:25:08.900 me too i do the same thing i don't like a surprise yeah me either i'm like i need to know how it's

00:25:14.500 gonna end i need to know where we're going yeah i need to and be prepared and i'll still be like

00:25:18.080 on the journey i didn't watch it i just read it exactly i'm still gonna experience it i just didn't

00:25:24.140 know what's gonna happen okay so tell me with materialists so basically she has to choose

00:25:28.300 between her broke ex-boyfriend and this rich new guy pedro pascal's the rich guy chris evans is the

00:25:33.060 broke guy okay they go through the whole storyline it's it's pretty weird but with pedro like it's

00:25:39.060 kind of like you're confused why she doesn't really like latch on to this guy because the brokey ex

00:25:44.440 it's like he's a brokey ex also he's fucking mean to her so there's that too yeah but like why are

00:25:49.300 they always broke and mean girl fuck if i know and also in the movie he's like 35 and has three

00:25:55.320 roommates and lives in new york no money who shall i pick but anyways with pedro you're kind of asking

00:26:04.020 yourself like something has to be off with this guy like i really thought that he was gonna be a

00:26:07.880 murderer or something yeah turns out his greatest faux pas because one time in the movie he sees like

00:26:13.520 when they're sleeping next to each other he has like scars on his leg and she's like like who hurt you

00:26:18.660 kind of thing yeah but he doesn't want to talk about it then later on at the end when you find

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00:26:26.720 then she follows him and she's like just share it with me bitch he got that height surgery when i

00:26:32.160 tell you i watched that shit i said

00:26:33.760 it was blown away bitch that plot twist blew my fucking mind and he was like my brother and i got

00:26:43.080 the surgery together i used to be five four now i'm like six feet tall i said what the fuck that's

00:26:50.300 so special so special i love watching the height surgeries too and also what's crazy is when they

00:26:55.100 get them like you said they can't do anything yeah can't run can't hike yeah but they can tell people

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00:27:04.460 i i love it they just can't be athletic at all anymore no it's over for them but at least they can

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00:28:33.560 everyday i do have some fun facts for you oh my god if we if we want to go over them i love a fact

00:28:38.800 okay this one says that you were once suspended from school for writing quote an excrement filled story

00:28:44.640 involving their teacher is that true so what's going on there and was that in latvia yeah god

00:28:53.160 no sense of humor in latvia apparently crazy um i don't think i've ever like fully told this story

00:29:01.080 i think i've like tiptoed around it i um when i was 11 i had a best friend um and i was in love with

00:29:09.400 her so in love it was like classic like small town north carolina like i was in love with her

00:29:15.780 didn't know what what to do with all this rage i was so mad at her for liking boys we were she was

00:29:21.620 like practicing kissing on me i was like we should practice tonight she was like hell yeah i was like

00:29:30.020 i'm open for practicing girl um and yeah so we were like attached to the hip we were so chaotic

00:29:40.680 together we were always getting in trouble i was always getting in trouble in school

00:29:43.760 for talking and laughing i was like the type of kid who couldn't stop laughing in school

00:29:49.940 to the point where i'm like snotting out my nose and then the teacher tells me to stop and i'm i'm

00:29:54.380 it's amping making it worse yeah so we first of all when we were in fourth grade we would draw

00:30:00.960 pictures of titties and sell them to the boys right um women women owned businesses yes support small

00:30:07.860 women-owned businesses yes we were entrepreneurial yes of course girl bossing my parents found out and

00:30:14.700 they were like okay crazy but you have drive and we respect that and i love my parents for that

00:30:20.620 so supportive um okay so that was the beginning of our story and then in fifth grade we played this

00:30:27.260 game where we would pass a notebook back and forth and we would each write a paragraph of a story we

00:30:32.180 just had to continue on the story it was a collaborative effort yeah and we had this one

00:30:36.360 teacher oh my god so bad um we had this one teacher and he was like he was oh my god this is actually

00:30:46.880 so bad he was okay so he had come from australia to teach he was like on a visa teaching elementary

00:30:53.960 school in america in fucking north carolina and um we would write our stories about him because it was

00:31:00.160 funny yeah um and yeah and in the story he like got up on the desk and like there was excrement involved

00:31:08.800 there was like a sasquatch and he was like fighting a sasquatch with a machete and then there was like

00:31:14.380 shit on the desk and it was crazy this poop was a big part of the story poop was a huge part of the

00:31:20.000 story i really don't remember the story loads but i know it was so nonsensical yeah like it made no

00:31:26.240 fucking sense yeah our teacher picked up the story we're watching her read it at the front of class

00:31:31.120 both of us are like white as a sheet so scared shaking in our little boots and um we get called to

00:31:39.460 the principal's office and he ends up getting investigated for doing those things for fighting

00:31:45.480 sasquatch and pooping on the desk god forbid a woman imagines god forbid they investigated him

00:31:54.360 for for shitting on the desk i'm like i'm like in front of the principal i'm like babe he didn't do

00:31:59.100 he didn't do that any of it not even the sasquatch part if you can believe it

00:32:02.460 but we got suspended big time oh god forbid a woman has a sense of whimsy i know god forbid god

00:32:09.380 forbid god forbid did you like fan do you like fan fiction um have you liked fan fiction i was

00:32:15.460 writing a little bit of twilight fan fiction at one point oh love you big twilight twihard i was a

00:32:21.460 twihard nice big time what team uh i loved edward because vampires yeah the mystical element yeah i i just

00:32:30.300 loved i loved him i loved his his tortured gaze i loved his little pea coat right his little gray

00:32:35.960 pop collar yeah and the ray-bans oh my god oh the bitches were gagging over the ray-bans his little

00:32:42.340 volkswagen yeah hell yeah crazy such a mom car too yeah why'd she give him that car you know when he

00:32:48.140 like whips up in the in the volkswagen yeah like yeah heels out when i was 12 i was like

00:32:53.820 this is okay so i also really wanted to be him so i like begged my mom for a pea coat

00:33:03.620 i had you're experiencing gender euphoria i had that gray pea coat i was like no i just

00:33:11.440 seen the volkswagen and bitches are gonna love me they did it i was like when i was younger well

00:33:18.740 first off i went to the movies to see those movies when they came out at like midnight me too like

00:33:24.980 i went and that makes me sound a hundred to tiktok people now but like at the time you should have

00:33:29.560 been there you it was crazy i was feral i was foaming at the mouth waiting in line at the movie

00:33:36.140 theater when i was younger i was team jacob i think that was because i'm always down for the brown

00:33:41.240 so like i'm like well obviously gotta ride with my indigenous brother he turns out taylor

00:33:45.840 laudner's non-indigenous uh-oh uh but i didn't know that at the time didn't they they actually

00:33:50.500 had an indigenous boy playing jacob and then they recast him yeah they recast him yeah as taylor

00:33:56.120 laudner and then the rest of them are indigenous for real fucked up yeah but then what's funny is

00:34:00.360 like as i got older i was like well team edward he has the money i should follow the money yeah like

00:34:06.620 when he would talk about having just endless amounts of money i was like well that choice seems easy

00:34:10.780 like i'm like well yeah they both look good and one lives forever and has a lot of money it kind

00:34:16.580 of seems like yeah i mean edward in his little glass house yeah with his chaise lounge i love that

00:34:23.780 shit well how was your fan fiction what kind of fan fix what was the vibe in them i don't know

00:34:27.880 i think he was like coming to pick me up from school

00:34:30.580 he was like i love you ashton

00:34:34.500 oh and the teacher couldn't read that one huh yeah to pick up the poop one we just both wore a

00:34:41.280 peacoat and like sat in the parking lot you shared a wardrobe and fell in love i love that yeah you

00:34:46.780 like helped me in my home one i read i read i wrote fan fiction as a kid when i was like a big fan of

00:34:53.240 the jonas brothers so i wrote like jonas brother fan fiction oh yeah the worst part though is that i

00:34:58.320 wasn't even in it yeah i didn't even cast myself i said damn i cast i cast the real girls in their

00:35:05.300 lives at the time i said i'm not even in this story there's no why and anywhere to be seen

00:35:10.220 and i and also his diabetes was a huge part of the story oh yeah my bad you know i was 12 i thought

00:35:17.040 maybe it was a huge plot point i thought i did a pretty good job how did you incorporate that in the

00:35:21.700 story well i had so i will preface this by saying selena gomez was the enemy in my story

00:35:27.980 didn't know their tea didn't know their war and miley cyrus was the main girl see i wasn't even

00:35:32.920 the fucking girl like what is the point i'm just commentating on their life this is what i'm just

00:35:37.040 writing what i think is going on um i don't remember like what the premise was i think it was just like

00:35:43.620 they were together like miley and they were together they're on the best of both worlds tour

00:35:47.000 obviously because they're touring together but then like this is real right yeah the best of both

00:35:53.280 world tour was a real tour yes so my my story took place during that time amazing and one of my

00:35:59.420 favorite parts i remember was writing their outfits like i just remember being wanting to like make

00:36:03.460 them all so conti i was making the outfits so detailed that they were taking up quite a bit of

00:36:07.380 space on the page but anyways you were setting a scene yeah i was setting i was i was building the

00:36:12.120 framework right exactly and i remember he nick jonas tells miley cyrus that he cheated on her

00:36:18.940 with selena gomez and selena gomez didn't didn't care obviously she was the mean girl in my story

00:36:24.120 but then miley cyrus is like they have this very dramatic breakup scene in the rain

00:36:28.040 and i said it in new york too and i'd never been to new york so i had no way of knowing where anything

00:36:33.200 was so i was just writing like landmarks yeah i was like what's the big arch thing that i don't even

00:36:40.100 know what the fuck it's called now bryant park or something with the big taste humor what is my bad

00:36:44.900 that's how you wrote it was square park that's what it is oh i knew it was a park my bad me i've

00:36:49.680 been in new york a thousand times at this point okay washington square park had her run there

00:36:53.400 don't know where she was staying yeah but then when she came back they like didn't really make up they

00:36:58.480 had a show that night then they have the show during the show right during the show they're not

00:37:04.300 interacting at all and then i'm in miley's pov the whole time but then at one point she looks down

00:37:10.260 and sees his his um i don't know the name of the device please don't jump me but it's the one they

00:37:17.080 wear like for yeah it's for type 1 diabetes okay again i was like 11 when i wrote it i just said that

00:37:26.480 she sees it on the ground on this stage and then worries and then he passes out and then she runs

00:37:32.780 over that's where it fades to black and then they wake up in the hospital and that's where i was kind

00:37:38.360 of carrying it don't remember how it ends from there but i just remember writing that scene

00:37:42.180 specifically because i remember i read it a thousand times and i was like god this is so good

00:37:46.200 when i wrote it i was like so dramatic so intense love it crazy yeah what's even worse is i hand wrote

00:37:54.280 it in a notebook oh sorry no you're fine filled the whole notebook i wrote it like a colonial woman

00:37:59.560 oh my god i was writing i was writing by candlelight that's incredible yeah i was a little hat

00:38:04.560 my frilly colored shirt on when i was going to town oh my god i was in the lab writing fanfic crazy

00:38:11.760 yeah that's so beautiful thank you i love how old were you like 11 or 12 that's so special i love

00:38:18.600 the the young girl desire to to craft a world to craft a world as a voyeur yes exactly yeah literally

00:38:27.840 me being a voyeur that's all it was i was like acting like tmz that's so at that point that's

00:38:32.380 never happened to nick jones though as far as i know so i just kind of audible on that one

00:38:36.240 honestly tour tour tensions are high it's chaotic you never know what you never know you never know

00:38:44.160 god speaking of tour do you have any favorite places you like to tour any like specials in your

00:38:49.580 heart can i do um well i love to play a show in london love um because it's like half hometown to me

00:38:57.180 um because i've lived there for so long and i love to play north carolina show as well love

00:39:03.520 hometown um where else i like selfishly i like to play st louis because um fun because of there's

00:39:13.020 a museum there that i really like to go to on my off day so shout out st louis and the city museum

00:39:20.840 love y'all so much i fucking love museum they have a cave they have like a cave system and i went there

00:39:27.720 last time with my crew and we were just in silence we were all on our own little solo journey just

00:39:33.600 crawling on all fours in the cave system in the museum nice it was crazy love that um yeah where

00:39:40.360 else do i like to go i love going to brazil okay come to brazil is real they are the craziest most

00:39:47.340 like enthusiastic fans yeah when i was in brazil i really felt like i was playing a hometown show

00:39:53.280 i bet it was so cool they're just yeah really like giving it um where else germany germany rocks

00:40:03.020 australia rocks i was just touring in march with billy eilish and we were in australia and that was

00:40:10.800 really fun how crazy it was really cool i i loved it we were yeah i mean billy does this really cool

00:40:18.700 thing where she stays in one city for four nights um and so we actually for the first time got to

00:40:24.680 explore the cities that we were in that's nice yeah yeah we were like climbing waterfalls and

00:40:29.660 playing mermaids tea yeah that makes a lot of sense i think that the vibes seem about right

00:40:35.900 with you and billy eilish love her she's amazing it was amazing she's like incredible she's so good

00:40:41.820 that whole album really soundtracked a breakup for me so to hear it night after night it was

00:40:47.220 very emotional and just she's such a powerhouse yeah like the most incredible songwriter of our

00:40:52.860 generation so it was amazing how fun though this episode is brought to you by amazon this

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00:41:25.920 like just generally going on tour i'm like a really frail victorian child um like i every time i go on

00:41:33.960 tour i get like a rare gum disease interesting yeah or like that is giving very victorian yeah yeah or

00:41:39.960 like um like a rash i'll get a really really annoying rash um yeah just your body's just rejecting tour

00:41:47.560 in some way i'm like really nutrient deficient and and something happens to me my bones get really

00:41:53.620 weak um and yeah they have to send me away to the seaside the cliffs are more just me in my notebook

00:42:01.400 writing jonas brothers family yeah exactly i'm gonna start writing jonas you should like i'll start

00:42:08.160 twilight like modern day jonas what are they up to you gotta work in the diabetes that's all you gotta

00:42:14.640 work in is that i will yeah they'll know who it is once you bring that up

00:42:17.520 i will let's do a shared google dog yeah let's do a little bounce ideas off each other i'll start

00:42:24.880 twilight ones you start jonas brothers that's great we'll collab it'll be fine we'll have teams talk for

00:42:29.500 sure i have more i have more fun facts about you oh my god okay this one says that you've said that

00:42:37.060 you don't listen to any male musician you didn't listen to any male musicians until 16 yeah you would

00:42:43.220 you would write that down yeah hell yeah now that's a badge of honor to me yeah uh and it says

00:42:49.840 you grew up listening to female artists like avril lavigne nikki minaj missy elia quen stefani and

00:42:54.160 lil kim yeah period okay cultured britney as well i really love britney yeah um i loved britney too

00:43:01.800 when i was a kid loved her i was obsessed with her she's like so incredible she's just it i hope

00:43:08.080 she's i hope she's well now me too i really i really love her she's just fucking incredible like

00:43:14.020 she had everything she had costumes she had the most amazing choreo she had the voice she had the

00:43:19.920 like just the personality she had everything she was so purely it girl it was so so special to me

00:43:28.040 and when i was like five years old watching her i i had it was like the sky opened up and heaven

00:43:35.020 reached down and just touched me on the forehead and was like you gotta do this right um yeah i

00:43:42.000 didn't listen to any voice until i was yeah like 16 17 i just found their voices really grating

00:43:49.280 and i that makes sense to me i couldn't i couldn't listen to their stories and relate it to my life in

00:43:57.220 any way no of course not you know what i mean yeah of course it just wasn't like i was i would like try

00:44:03.700 my best and and i and i just i couldn't i didn't resonate immediately yeah yeah i feel that um

00:44:10.360 i think my my introduction to men was maybe like odd future love them like i like 16 yeah oh yeah

00:44:18.300 yeah my sister showed me odd future when they were still making youtube skits and everything yeah

00:44:22.740 loved that really good yeah i love when they had that show loiter squad yeah so funny yeah i i remember

00:44:31.200 them them being like i was like okay fine i'll listen to like a few boys and see what happens

00:44:37.840 it's a great one to kick off with if i'm being real yeah i think it's a great one to start with

00:44:41.880 just a little handful of boys yeah see what happens just dip your toe a tiny bit yeah i had like

00:44:46.600 justin bieber for like a moment yeah i remember a friend sending me his first youtube video on msn

00:44:54.240 mm-hmm um and i was like fuck shit i don't have time for this right now

00:45:01.560 yeah i am fully devoted to edward cullen right now i can't i can't squeeze in another guy i just

00:45:09.640 can't right now it's not in the cards yeah me and my little peacoat i can't do this

00:45:15.580 uh well i already got the peacoat yeah i can't start over god i swear to god justin bieber has

00:45:21.560 a great peacoat too somewhere oh oh you're right he does because he was wearing it in some of the

00:45:26.640 all my faves have the great peacoat there's a pattern there that you're following i can sense it

00:45:32.200 oh my god my my next my next re-invention is gonna be is gonna be peacoat it's gotta be

00:45:38.420 it's gotta be peacoat popped collar ray-bans you're gonna try silver lexus or volvo i think

00:45:45.560 it was a volvo yeah yeah love that it's gonna be really good for me i i think it's really gonna

00:45:50.460 take take my fans by surprise but they'll get it yeah they'll get it yeah the ones who get it

00:45:54.780 will get it more importantly i'll get it you'll get it and that's what matters you'll get it

00:45:59.340 thank you did you have any other like fangirl like things throughout life like they were kind of

00:46:05.860 like oh loving them oh who did i love whether it's like music movies you know twilight like the

00:46:12.140 ones that like really changed your life i think i also had that with mia oh wow okay i got that i

00:46:19.260 got a pink ipod nano for christmas when i was 11 my aunt downloaded bucky duncan and i remember there

00:46:26.600 were some bad words in it um and my dad wasn't allowing me to download songs that were explicit so

00:46:32.920 it was a secret between my me and my aunt and i um took my ipod down to my room and i just like

00:46:40.000 hold up in my closet and listen to it over and over and over again and yeah and my early stuff like

00:46:46.200 really blew my mind oh i love that in a big humongous way um in the best way like the way

00:46:52.560 she was playing around with production just it was like nothing i'd ever heard before and i feel like

00:46:58.060 being that playful in music i feel like in pop music especially at that time i feel like it was

00:47:04.460 it was never that playful and yeah yeah what i love about music right now is that people are really

00:47:11.060 being more adventurous and experimental and experimental with their sounds um but people

00:47:17.040 like her paved the way for that what about you who blew your mind when you were a kid well when i got

00:47:23.780 my first ipod nano too i remember being like so blown away that you could listen to music like

00:47:28.500 that without like a cd player because i remember i had a cd player the first two songs i ever bought

00:47:33.580 was you can't touch this by mc hammer and uh too little too late by jojo for some reason i only had

00:47:41.800 two songs i picked those two i don't know what that says about me it makes sense yeah i think so i and

00:47:47.440 i i went through a real uh right before i got my ipod i was like really into my cd player but i went

00:47:53.060 through a real grease phase like grease the movie hell yeah huge phase don't know what it was about

00:47:57.520 that movie in particular but like my parents got me like the double deluxe cd thing so i could listen

00:48:02.760 to it on my way to school yeah my dad used to drive me to school in the mornings like we would my mom

00:48:07.680 would go to work and my dad would take us to school and i remember one time my dad was just me

00:48:11.580 in the car we're driving and i would listen to music and with headphones fully on and i would sing

00:48:19.320 my ass i would belt bitch like i would like like no one was there i would just sing like that

00:48:25.160 and so i remember i would do it every single day i'd play the same five or six tracks that i loved

00:48:30.640 just loop them start over start over start over my dad can't hear yourself up for school yeah i'm just

00:48:35.720 listening my dad drove me every single day for like multiple months in a row i was doing this i remember

00:48:40.800 one day we were sitting in traffic for a while it was bad that day me still belting not a care in the

00:48:46.240 world and then my dad reached over and he goes like this i take i'm like huh i like take my

00:48:50.620 headphone off and he goes i can't do it today i'm so sorry but i can't do it today i love you so much

00:48:56.380 i can't i can't do it today and i go what are you talking about and then he was like can we i can't

00:49:01.040 do it today i'm so sorry he just kept saying that to me and i remember going all right i just like

00:49:06.200 went back to listen to my music just didn't sing out loud because i was like then i was thinking now

00:49:11.320 that i'm an adult when i think back like i was probably like nine my dad listening to that five

00:49:16.960 days a week and in gridlock traffic driving to a job he fucking hates and i'm sitting in the my parents

00:49:24.620 had us young too so my dad was like i would say like early 30s like my age probably i can't imagine

00:49:31.640 listening to me scream yell his 80th time he was like i can't do it today i'm so sorry i love you

00:49:38.160 so much i can't do it today the nicest please shut the fuck up i'm gonna kill myself the nicest way to

00:49:42.920 say that to me i'm gonna take that yeah i was like my dad loves me so much yeah he can't do it just

00:49:48.980 today though just not tomorrow is fine yeah tomorrow we can start over and then the next day i did it

00:49:52.800 again next day didn't learn a thing next day did it again and he just let me never said it to me

00:49:58.920 again but i remember that so distinctly because as a kid i remember thinking that's kind of funny

00:50:03.800 that he like went it was just that day just that one just that one day never did it again yeah he

00:50:10.600 must have been going through something just on that yeah so i was like thinking i'm like what would i do

00:50:15.440 because every other day was a treat and a pleasure for him i'm sure and just that one day he was like

00:50:21.600 listening to me the whole ride down and we were almost to school so he had he almost made it it was

00:50:28.460 it was far he almost made it

00:50:30.920 and honestly i really liked the ones that were mostly

00:50:37.140 men singing and i i think it's because there were just way more parts for me to sing

00:50:41.620 like when there's duos obviously i'm sandy yeah but when you're in grease lightning i'm like all five

00:50:47.020 of them i'm like i gotta be all i gotta clock in i gotta go to work yeah a lot of i got a lot of

00:50:51.400 verses i gotta hit yeah but i can't sing for shit so you know the passion i'm sure that was terrible

00:50:56.880 to listen to yeah okay i have one last fun fact for you oh my god it says that your new album

00:51:02.600 smoochies comes out on october 17th it does can you tell us about it please yes i love this album

00:51:11.140 it is really really silly um i think okay so when i first when i put out my first album which is

00:51:20.960 technically a mixtape but i don't give a fuck about industry semantics it was an album period um

00:51:26.880 i was like so green and fresh and like bright-eyed and i was like people are just gonna love me

00:51:35.740 and be so kind to me and nothing is gonna dull or knock my spirit um and then uh tiktok happened

00:51:43.240 um and i uh yeah funnily enough let them dull and knock my spirit um in a really devalicious kind

00:51:54.460 of way um where i went crazy for a few years and music wasn't as fun to make and with this album

00:52:05.560 i'm i've like found that fun again i love that in a really big way yeah thank you i i've been having

00:52:12.780 so much fun writing and i've been writing with the same people since i was 18 um and with some new

00:52:19.400 people thrown in there and i have just made so many good friends writing this record um yeah i i just

00:52:25.980 realized that i wanted to make playful music and not make music for anyone else but me and like

00:52:33.980 the person that i am when i'm like getting ready to go out with my friends yeah you know when you're

00:52:39.620 with your friends and you are talking about the most heinous shit ever like over a croissant that's

00:52:46.600 the best part yeah best part about girlhood honestly yeah you're like he was up my ass to here

00:52:51.960 but if you can leave it to the elbow

00:52:54.200 and y'all are like drinking a matcha yeah and they're like can i get you guys anything

00:52:59.680 oh no that's it thank you that's that's who this album is for i love yeah i was like i am

00:53:07.760 like such a heinous little like mischief causing imp um and and that's why i need to be i need to be

00:53:17.420 making impish music i need to be i need to be a little like a little creature again um and i'm

00:53:24.880 i i was it was kind of a i was testing myself i wanted to it was it was a practice in writing music

00:53:33.260 writing very sexual um free music very like carnal without it feeling like a performance for someone

00:53:43.120 else right like sexuality just through the lens of how i enjoy it yeah for me totally with other

00:53:50.260 people obviously i love having sex but yeah like shedding a little bit of the performance off of

00:53:56.560 it so that it's just for me yeah absolutely yeah i think that the well i'm sorry to hear that tiktok

00:54:02.160 was fucking a succubus like it can be i mean you know hell yeah girl that's why i'm saying like i

00:54:08.120 completely understand i'm sorry that that happened but i will say you're you're one of those artists

00:54:13.820 that like no one's doing it like you like you're just so uniquely yourself when you get massive like

00:54:22.880 exposure on something like tiktok a lot of people are uncultured first of all but second of all like

00:54:29.580 they don't see it like they don't see the vision and even when i had rebecca black on the show

00:54:34.180 she told me she was like gay people have always seen me like always they've been locked in with

00:54:40.440 me it's like gay people and women yeah and i was like yeah because gay people and women like the

00:54:44.700 way that they champion a horse like they know yeah like the ones that know no they know who's really

00:54:50.220 it and you're it thank you and that's why like people have stood behind you and beside you for a

00:54:55.220 very long time known to you i've known about you for a very long time but that's because you've been

00:54:59.140 grinding and working at it thank you and i think the world hates to see a weird successful woman

00:55:05.020 yeah they hate to see that shit they hate a weird bitch they hate a weirdo and you know what like

00:55:11.460 it's it's what they love saying oh my god this is so satanic yeah babe even if it is read a book

00:55:19.240 god damn it go to a museum that's also the the the laziest assessment of your artistry as a whole

00:55:26.640 yeah but you're someone who like people are going to give you your flowers now like you deserve

00:55:31.840 thank you but even more so down the line when other people try to recreate it or copy it

00:55:36.360 that's when it's going to happen for real thank you that means a lot yeah and you're like you are

00:55:41.500 like m.i.a in a lot of ways like someone who paved the way and everyone thought she was a freak

00:55:45.260 and a weirdo in the beginning too they did and now they look back look at like imaging heaps same

00:55:49.420 thing like strange and odd and to who right to who because to an artist they said the same thing to lady gaga

00:55:56.440 yeah they to an artist they all they do is like jeer from the sidelines because they don't have

00:56:01.760 the confidence to be themselves like that's really what you have and that's what all artists i think

00:56:06.980 have who are like you and and succeed in a way that no one's ever seen before it's because you

00:56:11.760 are so uniquely yourself that scares people who have no idea who the fuck they are so you have no

00:56:16.860 worries about being perceived as as odd or weird or strange because you are confident in who you are

00:56:22.560 and that's what makes people haters to be honest i'm more scared to not to spend a life like not

00:56:27.920 being myself right absolutely thank you so much that was really nice yeah of course that's how i

00:56:34.480 see you i see artists like you like that i see rico nasty that way right like even chapel like

00:56:39.680 love people who are so uniquely themselves and then like also the way you're authentically yourself too

00:56:45.980 when it comes to setting boundaries right or like what things you don't like things you don't fuck with

00:56:49.820 they really hate when they see that people like you uh also be a human like they hate that too

00:56:54.960 they're like i just want to consume you as a product i don't want to consume you as a person

00:56:58.320 yeah so which is i think bullshit yeah and it's why the internet is so dog shit and awful

00:57:04.240 it's it's a it's a really really weird career it's so singular because you're a human being who's

00:57:13.240 making art but it's also a brand yeah um and to like separate you can't separate the two yeah

00:57:19.180 as if your life experiences aren't valid in and of itself they're a lived experience it's not

00:57:23.860 something you're thinking about or making up stories about it's something you're living

00:57:27.460 yeah exactly that is literally what art is yeah it's someone's storytelling their life experience

00:57:33.380 right exactly but yeah i i'm really excited to put out this record yeah and what do you hope people

00:57:41.420 take away i think i mean music is so magical when you actually sit down and think about it it's like

00:57:49.480 this like ancient practice of community building we've been doing it since the dawn of time like

00:57:58.400 we've been gathering around fires and singing together for different purposes in in our lives

00:58:05.360 and and i just i'm like so struck by that always especially when i'm playing live shows

00:58:10.300 just all these people are in one room together like making friends and like falling in love and

00:58:17.320 fighting maybe but they're having these very emotive experiences and my music is soundtracking that

00:58:23.940 and i just think that's so fucking cool to be able to soundtrack parts of people's lives

00:58:29.560 because my favorite albums soundtrack really big moments for me in my life and i will always remember

00:58:35.880 yeah like when i listen to certain songs i will always remember a certain moment in my life

00:58:40.460 um so to be able to soundtrack other people's lives in that way is like my greatest honor in my life

00:58:47.480 it's so cool and you're damn good at it too girl i love that about you thank you just to kind of like

00:58:52.740 wrap us do you have any advice for any like up-and-coming artists in whatever medium really because

00:58:59.000 you're a jack of all trades i feel like but just like anyone who maybe is feeling hesitant or afraid

00:59:04.300 especially with things like the internet because it makes people afraid to put themselves out there

00:59:08.440 especially their art so if you have any the word cringe really ruined i agree the internet i agree

00:59:14.460 to be cringe just to be free yes i i think as i get older i'm like i just don't give a fuck anymore

00:59:23.140 i'm gonna just be a little creature and i'm gonna and i'm gonna be cringe because i'm passionate

00:59:28.460 about things yeah i'm like i'm i'm like very dorky and i love i love my life and i love being

00:59:36.440 passionate about these things i love music and i love art yeah and i love costumes and glam and i

00:59:42.780 just fucking love it all and i'm and i'm so like happy to be alive right now so i don't give a fuck

00:59:48.280 about being cringe anymore i'm gonna crawl around on all fours and bark at bitches going forward i do not

00:59:55.100 care anymore that's what chapel told me she said she wants to run around and roll around in the

00:59:59.800 grass and bark at people and yell and scream love and i was like you better do it queen yeah you better

01:00:05.420 do that shit yeah yeah i love that wait this is a little this is a little sorry i have to tell this

01:00:12.020 story so i have a friend and she works at a nightclub and when she walks home at night so this is like

01:00:18.820 4 a.m 5 a.m she's walking home at night she has a pair of boots over her arm and when men try to

01:00:26.840 talk to her at night or she feels threatened in any way she puts the boots on her hands and she runs at

01:00:33.640 them on all fours she's a genius she's a genius tell her to trademark that that's the coolest thing

01:00:40.460 i've ever heard in my life she's a genius i love that yeah you gotta be nuts i wish i wish i could do

01:00:46.900 that online in some way like right like what's the online equivalent of me just putting boots on my

01:00:52.360 hands and running at all on all fours you just tag me okay i'll run all fours towards them nothing

01:00:57.540 scares them off faster than that i just see my big ass running at you on all fours yeah exactly

01:01:02.780 yeah my boots on my hands exactly you just tag me i'll be your all four on all fours yes i'll do

01:01:11.660 that for you girl thank you yeah of course thank you i forget what we were talking about yeah i just

01:01:16.340 want to be free i want to be cringe yeah your advice is to be cringe i want to be passionate

01:01:21.300 okay okay my advice yes my advice thank you adhd um no one knows you like you yeah and like no one

01:01:31.140 has the answer to success there's no one way to make it anywhere what the fuck is making it also

01:01:37.680 totally like i feel like the entertainment industry especially is so moorish i feel like i have to come

01:01:44.740 to a place in my life where i feel content and proud of myself and happy i need to celebrate my

01:01:48.880 wins i would say yeah no one knows you like you if anyone especially i i just feel like there's so

01:01:58.420 many egos yeah if someone tells you that there is one way to make it and you have to be doing these

01:02:03.640 certain things they are full of shit period they are so full of shit and i would run so far yeah i had

01:02:10.740 so many men tell me that i had to be doing certain things looking a certain way following these steps

01:02:17.460 to get here oh you want to be like this girl you have to do these things there's a path there's a way

01:02:22.480 to do things no there fucking isn't no especially not being an artist you're that literally commodifies

01:02:27.500 and takes all the the sucks the soul out of art is to conform it and commodify it to one path

01:02:33.180 exactly that's boring as fuck it's so boring there's always artists paving new ways

01:02:38.500 to a place of making it whatever that whatever that means yeah i feel like you can just write

01:02:45.580 your own story and yeah period listen to your own internal compass because no one knows you like

01:02:52.400 you amen sister you better tell them thank you i'm obsessed with you i think you're amazing i'm so

01:02:57.520 happy to be here same i'm so honored i squealed when i got told i was gonna be on the show i'm so excited

01:03:02.680 you and me both queen and now we're gonna go off into the sunset together and write fanfic

01:03:09.000 all fours yeah we're gonna run off on all fours together yeah and then someone get the boots

01:03:13.580 fly in the boots thank you so much for coming on the show i fucking love you

01:03:19.220 thank you so much thank you and everyone please make sure you go check out ash nico's new album

01:03:23.840 when it does drop on october 17th smoochies and for the maybe two people two straight people

01:03:29.780 obviously that don't know you or where to follow you where can everybody find you i'm ash nico

01:03:34.580 on all platforms a-s-h-n-i-k-k-o love period y'all are definitely gonna have to check out ash nico on

01:03:42.300 literally everything which is perfect because for those of you who check in new episodes of the

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01:03:58.500 plug it somewhere around here everyone can just click it there you go thank you so much for tuning

01:04:02.880 in thank you to my amazing guest ash nico and i'll see you next week bye

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QUEEN BEES OF CLOWN SCHOOL Ft. Ashnikko ｜ Episode 185

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