00:16:15.100That thing that's calling to you, you won't have an answer for it unless you enroll and see for yourself.
00:16:19.820You have the opportunity to investigate that calling.
00:16:29.000You know, at the same time, this is a hard thing to relate, actually.
00:16:34.060At the same time, I had found myself possessed by some dark impulses that I didn't understand.
00:16:42.080For example, when I was sitting in class, I would sometimes get the impulse to stick the person in front of me with a pen.
00:16:52.860I'd never done anything violent in my life.
00:16:56.260You know, it was kind of an obsessive thought, and I had no idea what to make of that thought at all.
00:17:03.240And it was unsettling. It didn't happen very often. It wasn't very powerful.
00:17:06.580But the mere fact that a thought like that could even enter my mind was upsetting.
00:17:12.080And that was happening at about the same time, and it was related to what I was assessing, because I was trying to, I was actually trying to come to terms with the human proclivity for evil. And that means to come to terms with your own proclivity for evil. That's what it means. If you really want the understanding, it's personal, it's not political, it's not economic, it's not sociological.
00:17:31.300My first degree was political science, and I was interested in economic determinants of behavior to begin with and political determinants.
00:17:38.280But I soon realized that that wasn't where the action was.
00:17:55.380And so all these things were tangled together.
00:17:57.200And I thought about what had happened at that prison, and I imagined myself doing it, which is a, you have to break a barrier to do that, right?
00:18:09.040You have to break the barrier that's the assumption that you aren't the sort of person that could do that.
00:18:15.660But I wasn't so sure of that, because it looked to me, from what I had read, that if you put people in the appropriate circumstance, there's very little they won't do.
00:18:25.360it's a rare person who won't go down that road when the opportunity makes itself known especially
00:18:33.700one little move at a time which is how totalitarian states develop right it isn't that you go from
00:18:40.420normal to nazi in one leap it's like it's 10 000 little steps and each step is a little
00:18:47.700farther into the abyss than the previous one and nowhere along the way do you ever wake up and say
00:18:53.720well that's just too much now if you examine the whole pathway from beginning to end you'd think
00:19:00.800well that was too much but each little nudge you can rationalize with your silence or with
00:19:08.680your acquiescence with the fact that you'll put up with it with the fact that you don't want to
00:19:14.400take the trouble with the fact that you want to hide with the fact that you want to maintain your
00:19:20.600own pristine view of yourself. Anyways, I thought about it for about two weeks, quite
00:19:29.020obsessively. If I think about something, I tend to think about it like for 16 hours a
00:19:35.560day. You know, it's just nonstop trying to crack the problem. And that's how you crack
00:19:45.340problems, I suppose. And I had the realization one day that I could do that. And the impulses
00:19:54.460I had, the impulse that I mentioned, that went away. And so that impulse was part of
00:20:01.340something within me that was trying to make its presence known, right? My capability for
00:36:29.400There's a characterization of what should be put in the highest place.
00:36:35.240It's an investigative inquiry into the nature of that which should be put in the highest place.
00:36:40.780So that's a series of characterizations, and then it's a characterization of man's character in relationship to that.
00:36:53.960That's what the biblical corpus is, and it's a distillation of such characterization that has made itself manifest over some tens of thousands of years, at least.
00:37:06.900longer, at least that, at least that in story form, way longer in behavioral form, way longer
00:37:15.260than that. So let's talk about this characterization. Well, I can, I'll start with this story.
00:37:27.880And the Lord said unto Abraham, get thee out of thy country and from thy kindred and from0.96
00:37:34.420my father's house unto a land that I will show thee. Okay, so now that's, it's one line. Okay,0.94
00:37:42.280so what happens in this line? Well, we know some things about Abraham. He's old. He's like 75.
00:37:50.040And where does he live? Well, he lives in his father's house, among his family, in his country.
00:37:58.280and he's 75 so what are we to make of that what's a little old to be in your father's house
00:38:04.620right there's a serious problem of failure to launch here right okay so now we could delve
00:38:12.040into that and see what that signifies okay so now we know that abraham's father is a wealthy man
00:38:20.300and what that means is that abraham is provided with everything he needs okay now imagine that
00:38:28.100you're offered a political utopia. This is the standard political utopia offering. What did
00:38:33.760Dostoevsky say about the political utopians? So imagine we can arrange your life, and this is
00:38:41.040Dostoevsky's words, so that you had nothing like a description of California. You had nothing
00:38:46.100to do except to sit in hot tubs of bubbling water, to eat cakes, and busy yourself with
00:38:53.540the continuation of the species. Right. So that's Dostoevsky's characterization of the utopia.
00:38:59.940And he analyzes this. I said, OK, well, imagine we could bring that about. What would human
00:39:04.680beings do in response? And Dostoevsky's answer was, this is in Notes from Underground, a
00:39:11.540study of resentment. He said human beings would immediately do something destructive
00:39:17.880of an insane just to break that utopia that hedonistic utopia just so something interesting
00:39:28.300would happen and he said and isn't that for the best that's a very interesting critique it's a
00:39:35.920very sophisticated critique you know often you hear critiques of utopian socialism
00:39:40.980critique will be well what is on offer is impossible and of course that's true but
00:39:46.800that's perhaps not the deepest critique the deepest critique is that's not what you want
00:39:51.380or maybe even one level below that that's not what you should want and you might say well why
00:39:57.280wouldn't i want to have everything i need delivered to me with no effort and the answer is because
00:40:05.560you're not an infant in a crib, right? And if you're 75 years old and you're living like
00:40:11.820that, it's like something's gone wrong and seriously wrong. Well, then you think, well,
00:40:19.000is that in accordance with your experience? It's like, well, think about what we do when
00:40:23.160we go watch movies. We don't watch people shop. We don't watch people eat. We don't
00:40:29.280watch people sleep, even in security and comfort, right? We're not that interested in watching
00:40:36.040satiated people in their unconsciousness, which is an infantile existence. What we want to see
00:40:45.060on the screen is romantic adventure. And so then you might think, well, that's what we're built
00:40:51.040for, actually, that the ideal life isn't the utopia of infantile satiation, but something
00:40:59.700like the life of romantic adventure. So let's assume for a moment that that's the case,
00:41:08.040just for the sake of nurturing the hypothesis, and then we'll add an additional observation.
00:41:16.460So now there's a characterization of man that we already described.0.74
00:41:21.780Abraham is living this life of infantile satiation.
00:41:25.200And at some point, it's insufficient for him.
00:41:28.440A little late, but better late than never.
00:41:31.680And there's actually an optimism in that, because in this, the story puts forward the claim that it is better late than never.
00:41:41.420and so even if you lived a life of infantile dependency you could still wake up and
00:41:50.280go have your life go have your adventure now you know you think about what you do for your kids
00:41:56.800you know you know if you have any sense what did my mother say when i left home i left home about
00:42:03.72016 my mother's a very nice person and she said something on i my life went better when i left
00:42:11.220home I was having some friction with my father for a variety of reasons many of which had to do
00:42:17.740with me many of which had to do with being 16 some of which had to do with it was time for me to go
00:42:23.660and when I went it was much better and I got along with my parents much better and my mother who's a
00:42:28.940very nice person said if things were too good at home you'd never leave and now and then my mother
00:42:35.500you know she could strike with her tongue like a snake even though she's a very nice person0.99
00:42:40.380And that was one of the times that I saw her, the stronger character in her underneath her maternal solicitude, because she was the kind of mother who wanted her kids to go have your life. Right. That's the maternal sacrifice that that a true mother is called upon to offer her children to the world. Right. And my mother was good at that.
00:43:08.720And so, if you're treating your children properly, you don't entice them into a prolonged state of dependency and infantile satiation.
00:43:24.040That isn't good for them. You know it. That isn't what you want for them.
00:43:28.500And that's an interesting thing, too, because you could imagine that you want nothing more than to shelter your child from all possible harm and damage.
00:44:04.620then that actually provides them with the best form of security possible
00:44:09.920because it means they're going to be able and ready for whatever comes their way.
00:44:16.220And that's way more secure in the final analysis than anything you could produce
00:44:21.640by maintaining them in a state of suspended infantile satiation.
00:44:26.880Freud was very good at analyzing this.
00:44:29.280You know, he characterized the mother who enticed her child into a relationship that was too close, let's put it that way, as eatable and devouring.
00:44:42.380Okay, so what do we know from these first lines?
00:44:44.960We have a characterization of man and God.
00:44:47.020man as represented by Abraham might fall prey to the temptation of infantile security but will
00:44:58.440eventually become dissatisfied with that what's God in this characterization God is the voice
00:45:06.500of adventure that calls even to the unwilling okay now what you have to understand you have
00:45:12.780to understand this. This is a definition. Okay? This is what modern people don't understand
00:45:20.060about these stories. There are multiple characterizations of what God is in the opening stories of
00:45:27.920Genesis. In the initial Genesis story, God is the spirit that brings order to chaos,
00:45:34.060which is what you do in your household. He's the spirit that...
00:45:37.780that Adam walks with unselfconsciously in the garden,
00:45:46.880which is what you do when you're attempting some recreation in your backyard.
00:45:55.220He's the spirit that calls the unworthy out for the poor quality of their sacrifices.
00:46:06.740that's the god that makes himself manifest in the story of cain and abel so these are definitions so
00:46:13.800what the writers of the biblical stories are trying to wrestle with is
00:46:18.800what character should be placed in the highest place and how do you conceptualize that and then
00:46:26.000how do you exist in relationship to that and so there's a hypothesis that underlies it and the
00:46:30.320hypothesis is monotheistic it's that all these different characterizations are united
00:46:36.240in one thing that's properly put in the highest place.
01:11:48.080you can see why people resist enlightenment
01:11:53.620I mean, you've got to ask yourself, like, if it was a simple matter of incremental forward progression towards an ever more enlightened state, everyone would just do it.
01:12:07.720If there's no cost, well, what's the cost?
01:12:10.340Well, maybe you're 95% dead wood, right?
01:12:15.500And so that's a lot to shed to move forward, especially when every cut is going to be painful.
01:19:32.920stories represent characters in motion a character is the pattern of attentional
01:19:43.620prioritization action and attentional prioritization it's a representation of what's
01:19:50.440important to that person when you go watch a movie you watch what it is that the lead character is
01:19:55.060aiming at and you infer their character from your analysis of their aim and you embody them
01:20:02.280to understand them when you understand their aim.
01:20:09.640The deepest stories represent the most profound characterization.
01:20:17.880The character of what is to be put in the highest place
01:20:21.060and to be imitated is represented in the biblical corpus
01:20:25.280in a multitude of fashions that converge on a single characterization,
01:20:29.900One aspect of which is laid out in the story of Abraham, which presents man as the spirit that, no matter how sheltered, can still respond to the call of adventure, and God as precisely that call.
01:20:49.140with the insistence underlying the narrative that
01:20:58.240the proper sacrificial heeding of that call
01:21:02.460makes of each man the master of an infinite destiny.