00:16:59.060They're flawed and twisted and bent in all the ways that make people horrible and wonderful and interesting.
00:17:06.360And the story of their life that unfolds is the story of how those flawed people make their way to hell or heaven, so to speak.
00:17:19.100And maybe even in reality, Jacob, when the story begins, Jacob is a dweller in tents compared to his brother, who's a very masculine figure, an outdoorsman and a hunter.
00:17:38.160And an impulsive person in keeping with that archetypally and stereotypically masculine orientation.
00:17:49.100And Jacob is a favorite of his mother.
00:17:54.460And that in itself is not necessarily a bad thing.
00:19:17.520And it's worse because he conspires with his mother to take the right of inheritance from his brother
00:19:25.000and to deceive his father even on his deathbed.
00:19:28.900And that's pretty ugly and very typical of family pathology.
00:19:37.360The story of Jacob as an independent person begins after he deceives his father and his brother in a manner so beyond the pale that it makes his brother murderous.
00:20:02.280Now, when he leaves, you might imagine that he's shocked enough about the necessity of leaving and maybe now old enough, because he's now a young adult, to understand that perhaps he's done something wrong and also may be able to see things clearly for the first time because he's got away from his mother.
00:20:27.120Now, I'm reading into the text because the details of that particular story aren't all there.
00:20:32.820But we can infer what the situation might be in consequence of our shared experience.
00:20:40.240In any case, when Jacob leaves his family, he makes a decision.
00:20:46.600And his decision is that he's going to aim up.
00:28:08.800And we talked about micro aims, the aim that you might indicate with your eyes if you were on a date, let's say, and your true goal was the establishment of something like a lasting relationship predicated on truth and love.
00:28:25.780A very different signal, you might say, about your intent, given all the alternative motivations that you might bring to bear on that situation.
00:28:36.480now it isn't necessary that the person that you're dating wants you to signal the highest
00:28:47.060possible motivation because they might be oriented and maybe you're hoping for this
00:28:52.480for something short-term more intense and requiring a hell of a lot less commitment
00:28:58.380But it's still the case that the dynamic of attention and speech and the dance of personal interaction that characterizes that date is going to reflect the structure value within which both of the participants are operating.
00:29:19.580And that means that they each inhabit something like a ladder, but God only knows what's at the top.
00:29:31.420And this is a very important thing to understand.
00:29:34.780Now, there's an insistence in the Old Testament, and the New for that matter, that what's highest is ineffable.
00:29:42.960okay so this is a very important thing to understand because the god that's portrayed
00:29:49.760in the biblical library is not definable not in the final analysis and there's a reason for that
00:29:56.900the first reason is you cannot conceive of what the highest possible good might be
00:30:01.420and you know that because as you pursue what you deem to be good in your life you learn more about
00:30:09.200what's good. And there doesn't seem to be a limit to that, right? If you're striving upward and you
00:30:18.360accomplish something, you gather the wisdom that's a consequence of that accomplishment, and now you
00:30:23.840can specify your next aim more precisely. And there's no reason to assume that there's any
00:30:31.300limit to that, and what that means is that what's at the top recedes as you approach it. And you
00:30:36.920also want that because otherwise you'd be in the position of Sisyphus you know Sisyphus he rolls a
00:30:42.740stone up the mountain and then it rolls back down and he has to roll it up the mountain and then it
00:30:48.380rolls down and he has a life of fundamental pointlessness and you might say that your life0.82
00:30:55.560is Sisyphean which means it's one damn thing after another and but you could construe or the0.88
00:31:04.080same damn thing over and over more accurately but you could construe your life as a sequence of0.96
00:31:09.760mountains each of which is higher with no peak in the distance ever being the ultimate peak0.98
00:31:17.780and that would also be a place of endless adventure because no matter how much you
00:31:22.820accomplished there'd still be something left to accomplish and then you could think of
00:31:27.180whatever beckons at the farthest reaches of that endeavor as the highest possible principle
00:31:35.700that recedes as you approach it. And that's one of the ways that God has defined in the biblical
00:31:42.160library. And I don't see any way out of that, because the only other hypothesis is that
00:31:49.760there's nothing that unites what is good. And that's preposterous, because we would even have
00:31:55.900concept of good if there wasn't something that was the same about all good things and so and
00:32:03.760you have to think about it as inexhaustible because otherwise you'd be able to reach perfection and i
00:32:09.920don't see anybody glowing white in the audience so it seems like at least none of you people have
00:32:15.540managed that and so and you'd want what's highest to be ineffable and receding because otherwise it
00:32:24.200would be exhaustible and then you could come to the end of your adventure and you don't want that
00:32:29.580and so and so we have jacob's ladder and jacob has that realization when he decides to aim up
00:32:38.180right that the realization is that you could aim up and that if and that if you aimed up this is
00:32:46.660the next thing that's in the dream, if you could aim up, if you did aim up, then what was at the
00:32:55.320pinnacle of your aim would then communicate with you. Now you think, well, does that make sense?
00:33:03.260Okay, here's a way of thinking about it. Let's say that you, you could just remember this,
00:33:09.340remember a time when you're like viciously angry and possessed by the desire for vengeance
00:33:16.780okay now imagine that you now strategize in that spirit okay so now your aim is you this will
00:33:25.660happen to you when you have a fight with your wife or your husband you know and in the anger
00:33:29.880if it's a serious fight in the anger of that fight you're going to want to win and maybe
00:33:34.920at whatever cost necessary and that's not an aim commensurate with spiraling the relationship
00:33:44.460upward but in the throes of your rage maybe not only do you not care you're actually happy that
00:33:53.460you sacrifice the peace of your relationship to your momentary victory that's your aim and then
00:47:03.000And Elijah is tempted by the power of those manifestations of nature to make the assumption that the divine itself is revealing itself in the awe-inspiring displays of the natural world.
00:49:29.380Hints about what the appropriate pattern of action might be.
00:49:35.440And it has an autonomy, which is a fascinating thing.
00:49:39.300Because you might think if you're running the show, especially your own show,
00:49:43.520and you'd think that you are, because it's your show,
00:49:46.900that you could just tell your conscience what to do.
00:49:50.560Because it's you, or it isn't, those are the options, and if it's you, then why can't you just shut it down, and tell it to leave you the hell alone, or make a pact with it, so that despite the fact that you're doing something second-rate and malevolent, that it's fully on board.
00:50:14.580how in the world is it the case that you can't control that and what does it mean that you can't
00:50:22.640control it does it mean that there's a part of you that's not you and it's a part of you that's
00:50:28.180not you that can think and can invoke emotion can invoke shame can invoke the desire to change
00:50:35.540that you can't control well what's the difference between that and the hypothesis of a spirit
00:50:42.460and then you might say well is there a similarity between the diverse voices of conscience that come
00:50:49.980to multiple people and we say well of course because we can recognize someone who's appropriately
00:50:56.700conscience ridden we're even likely to forgive them and we know that the voice of conscience
00:51:02.040that speaks to you might speak about your particular flaws to you and about your particular
00:51:08.180or flaws to you, but the thing that it's aiming at is similar enough so that we can recognize it as
00:51:13.900the voice of conscience. And so, not only is it not personal in that you don't get to control it,
00:51:19.280and internal, it's also transcendent. It's something that isn't you, that's beyond you,
00:51:25.900that speaks to everyone with the same aim in mind. It's an Old Testament insistence that that,
00:51:34.080this is a definition you see it's a definition that's a definition of what is to be regarded as
00:51:41.840god now you can think of that as a hypothesis that's perfectly reasonable and it's not the
00:51:48.280only way that god is characterized in the biblical writings in the story of noah for example noah
00:51:54.780the god that comes to noah is the voice that tells the wise to prepare when trouble is brewing
00:52:01.960now you can see a association between that and the idea of conscience but it's not exactly the
00:52:08.900same thing it's a different angle on the same thing and in the story of Abraham God is the
00:52:14.260voice of adventure and the biblical insistence is the voice of adventure the voice that calls
00:52:21.600the wise to prepare and the voice of conscience they're all the same thing that's that underlying
00:56:26.380Well, we made a theological case in a sense, right, working on the hypothesis that human beings are related to the ultimate city on the hill, let's say,
00:56:44.740in that in some sense the occupant of that city is in communication with each of us
00:56:53.100and that makes itself manifest in the case of conscience.
00:56:56.400But there's a more mechanistic interpretation that doesn't make that one irrelevant
00:57:01.340but adds a more practical realism to the idea.
00:57:09.560if part of you is aiming at love if part of you is aiming at responsibility if part of you is
00:57:17.760aiming at children part of you is aiming at having the children who will love you that you will be
00:57:23.500committed to if part of you has the spirit of someone who will become a grandfather then that's
00:57:30.680part of the implicit structure of aim that's shaping your attention and actions and it might
00:57:37.040be lurking in the background, highly likely if you're 19, let's say, and impulsive, not
00:57:42.300thinking about settling down, not thinking about the multiple decades of your life, but
00:57:47.380still, insofar as you're acting out the pattern of manhood, valid manhood that characterizes
00:57:54.640your society, that ethos of long-term commitment and abundance is going to be operating unconsciously
00:58:05.260in the depths regulating your conscience and when you act in the moment in a manner that violates
00:58:15.260that longer term covenant or contract your own soul is going to let you know that you've wandered
00:58:22.540off the path and i think by the way that we know enough about the way the brain is structured
00:58:29.260Neuropsychologically, we know enough about how vision and aim and emotion and motivation and thought are associated to make what I just said an incontrovertible empirical fact.
01:27:28.260So near the end of the Israelites, Exodus from Egypt, the fractious and immature sojourners are lost in the desert again and running out of water.
01:27:49.480And they go to Moses, who's kind of fed up with them by this point, and for good reason, and say, we're out of water.