00:01:18.820how you got to have a following about and talk about what you talk about, which is
00:01:23.720interesting. Totally. Yeah. So, um, I basically had three different lifetimes in this life. I had
00:01:31.840my life before illness. I had my illness and then I had life after illness and my life before
00:01:38.160illness. I was traveling around the world, competing in Brazilian jujitsu. I was a world
00:01:42.020champion, Pan American champion, super successful, um, at jujitsu, but I was also successful in my
00:01:47.780career. Um, I was an analyst at several different companies working in finance and living in Lower
00:01:54.000East Side. Like I thought I had it all. And I thought I had life figured out. And in October
00:01:59.740of 2013, I hit that. What I now know is like the body burden point where I had a complete health
00:02:06.200collapse. It was a major mental, physical, spiritual collapse that seemed like it was
00:02:12.240overnight. It was about a two week period of time where I went from being that guy, whoever that
00:02:17.080josh was for my first lifetime to like being in the fetal position crying unable to function
00:02:23.900panic attacks not sleeping um hearing voices hearing all kinds of terrible negative voices
00:02:31.160in my head um totally like totally not functional um i was panicking every single hour of the day
00:02:40.500I was not sleeping. And that was just the start, right? That was just the start that went on for
00:02:49.160four years. And for those four years, I basically lived in a 24 seven, maybe 21 seven, because I
00:02:56.620slept for a couple hours a night state of pure terror. It's very hard to put into words if
00:03:02.080someone hasn't dealt with it, but you essentially feel like you are tripping on acid, right? Like I
00:03:06.640I wasn't taking any drugs, wasn't taking anything, wasn't altering my state, but I felt like I was
00:03:11.840tripping on drugs every single day. I was just a walking panic attack. Um, I started losing
00:03:17.460faculties. I started to not trust myself. I started to, uh, my, like the, the one narration
00:03:24.600where my entire life before that I had like one or two voices in my head that were narrating my
00:03:28.940life. It's, it splintered out into like five, six different voices. I mean, not like
00:03:35.540schizophrenic voices but just like I couldn't comprehend my own internal dialogue my own
00:03:40.820internal internal narration it was just spinning looping negative dark thoughts yeah okay you know
00:03:46.400four years of that and doing everything I possibly could to heal I did ketamine IVs I did
00:03:54.500a ton of mushrooms I lived in the Amazon jungle for almost a year and drank ayahuasca 31 times
00:04:00.640Wow. So just, just smashed myself with ayahuasca and just kept going deeper and deeper and deeper. I was doing a dieta, which is like an apprenticeship with the shamans, which is the deepest, let's call it stage of, of ayahuasca. Like I wasn't just at a normal facility with other, you know, gringos. I was like isolated in the Amazon, only dealing with shamans who didn't speak English and isolated in a hut without human contact.
00:04:26.480gosh and drinking drinking ayahuasca four times a week um and this was all with severe mold
00:04:34.520mercury poisoning and lyme disease which i didn't know at the time so you you assumed it was
00:04:39.560something like psychological burnout and you need to kind of get your mental faculties back
00:04:44.780basically and so treated it that way initially the first way that i treated it was through
00:04:48.800psychiatric medications that was the first step i was like that was the first four months i just
00:04:53.740broke down on my parents and I was like I don't know what's going on I've lost control of my my
00:04:58.500mind I've really lost control over whoever I thought I was and so I tried like seven eight
00:05:04.200different psych medications none of them worked and I ended up flushing them cold turkey to go
00:05:09.320fly to the Amazon that was probably a good decision not the cold turkey part not the cold
00:05:14.020turkey part but then not continuing them and doing something else yeah so I was I was I was doing
00:05:19.300research and, and, you know, learned about this ayahuasca thing and flew to the Amazon and I had
00:05:24.160several visits after that. So once I started drinking ayahuasca, I started viewing my illness
00:05:29.960differently, started viewing the world differently. And I started to view everything as a spiritual
00:05:34.100illness. And that's why I was still on the path of ayahuasca because I thought it was
00:05:39.060a spiritual emotional illness. I didn't even take into account toxicity. I didn't know anything
00:05:43.880about that. That didn't exist in my world. Um, so it was purely to answer your question. It was
00:05:48.520purely a function of, I feel spiritually sick. I feel emotionally sick. Something is wrong with
00:05:54.400like my bloodline, like my family, like everything that's going on. You know, my grandparents had a
00:06:00.340lot of certain illness and my parents had dealt with their, with their stuff. So I'm like, this
00:06:04.620is just a bloodline thing and I'm going to purge it from my bloodline. Yeah. Okay. And that's been
00:06:08.140there. Okay. Yeah. That was the, the space behind continuing to drink ayahuasca, even though it was
00:06:14.540fracturing me totally and utterly fracturing me you're starting your own college yeah well it's
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00:06:39.940could enrich your experience in every direction and be nothing but positive well except also
00:06:47.120difficult and challenging but that's also positive yeah we surely didn't have that when i was a kid
00:06:51.680this was 2016 i i finalized my my i remember very vividly it was my last ayahuasca ceremony
00:07:03.800because we the shamans and i i nearly died in the ceremony i was 25 pounds underweight i was
00:07:09.480fainting every day i was completely just emaciated and just at the end of my rope this was three and
00:07:15.540a half years into it into into giving everything i had went was bankrupt so i actually had to file
00:07:20.180bankruptcy spent every penny i had went into debt um tried all the supplements yoga mantras
00:07:26.800meditations therapists all the different things for those four years it's not like i was just
00:07:31.200drinking ayahuasca i was doing everything yeah um fasting juice fasting water fasting drinking my
00:07:38.760urine like literally just desperate to find something i went deep right so yeah so i remember
00:07:45.180the very last ceremony the shamans looked at me and we we said in spanish and they laughed we were
00:07:50.740just like cerca de muerte you know and it's a very terrible spanish but um basically i was i'm near
00:07:57.020to death and they looked at me and laughed like see amigo because they they laugh at everything
00:08:01.440they're they don't they don't have the same moral overlay that that westerners do they're just like
00:08:07.880oh, if he dies, he dies. Which is hard to believe, but that's the space they carried.
00:08:15.100They were pure indigenous Shipibo shamans. Life and death is all connected to them.
00:08:20.540So that was the second to last ceremony. And then the next day I drank a little teaspoon
00:08:24.580and had another really bad experience. And then we said, I'm done. And I flew home and I was two
00:08:31.780days away, three days away from going to Africa for my last chance at life to take Iboga.
00:08:37.880I'm sure you've heard of people with last chance efforts with their psychological or addiction issues and they just go to go to Iboga and everything heals.
00:49:00.020but it's really tricky no it's really tricky well and i do understand like the ketodafin thing the
00:49:04.920mast cell stabilizing theory is a good one i like that quite a bit i'm thinking part of the reason
00:49:11.580my body calmed down and why i can tolerate some other foods now even though i think i'm still
00:49:17.060sticking with the meat diet um i'm wondering if i just lived in a bubble for so long and like
00:49:22.420eliminated so many variables like my air is hyper hyper clean and then I only ate meat
00:49:29.720and then I wasn't on any medication and then I took a binder I did it just like I wasn't exposed
00:49:36.780to anything that could cause inflammatory reactions for years by just basically living
00:49:42.000in a bubble it was like did I maybe accidentally calm down some mast cells just by not exposing
00:49:48.460them to anything that was causing inflammatory reactions. And then they just kind of recovered
00:49:52.320because mast cells train new mast cells. That's what I've read about anyway, that they keep the
00:49:58.220reason ketodafin works is because you calm them down for long enough that the new ones trained
00:50:04.580aren't trained to have the same inflammatory response. Yes. So yeah, after, you know, we work
00:50:09.000on the viruses and the pathogens, then at that final stage, and this is how it was for me as
00:50:14.020well, the final stage, which could be six months later, four to six months later, then I was
00:50:19.220chelating heavy metals. And then my, my lucidity went to a whole other dimension. Um, when I started
00:50:25.500getting rid of the heavy metals and that's, that's a big can of worms there. There's so many different
00:50:29.520things to take and so many different things to do. Um, for me, my best friends are wheatgrass
00:50:34.740and cilantro, wheatgrass and cilantro. So cilantro, just the plant. Yeah. Juice, the fresh
00:50:40.260juice of cilantro is a super food it's phenomenal yeah i do like cilantro yeah but you gotta be
00:50:49.040why why does that work like a bind how does it work it basically signals to the cell to kick out
00:50:53.900the heavy metal um so a chelator is essentially a compound that tells the cell to kick out the
00:51:01.220mercury the aluminum whatever it is gadolinium things that could be in people's cell the cell
00:51:06.320is holding onto it because it doesn't have enough minerals. So when a cell doesn't have enough
00:51:11.620minerals, instead of taking a selenium, like a healthy cell, it just grabs onto the mercury
00:51:16.560because there's mercury floating around in the blood. Right. And then you have a cell that's
00:51:20.720holding on to a heavy metal and it will be sick for the rest of its life. That's why you need
00:51:25.400chelation. That's why you need chelation. Yikes. You have to actually go into the cell and kick
00:51:30.440out the heavy metals otherwise you have six cells and this is a it's a deep process you know and a
00:51:36.960lot of people skip it or they don't believe in it but it's it's so important on the on the holistic
00:51:41.780health journey well it's silly people don't believe in that out of everything we've talked
00:51:45.680about because mercury poisoning is something everyone's heard of yeah mad hatter yeah all of
00:51:50.480that yeah it's just like oh well we don't have exposures anymore but we do i mean you had fillings
00:51:54.820yeah why i thought they stopped using mercury fillings a long time ago i had a 75 year old
00:52:00.320dentist and this was when i was like 22 years old 21 years old this was maybe a year before i got
00:52:05.500deathly ill and he said do you want the he said his exact words were do you want the cheap ones
00:52:12.340or do you want the white ones i said what do you mean what's the difference he said well these are
00:52:16.740just silver and they're cheap or i can give you the white ones i said i'll take the cheap ones i
00:52:20.420was paying for it myself oh no and he drilled three massive massive mercury you know fillings
00:52:27.460uh that definitely caused a big issue and how long did it take you to get sick after that do you
00:52:33.580think i think it was a year i don't know the exact date i believe it was about a year
00:52:37.560yeah that i had my collapse wow yeah could have been as much as two years yeah nobody out there
00:52:46.420should be getting silver fillings yes and if you have them go to a biological dentist there's a
00:52:51.720very specific technique they have to do certain things they use a dental dam they use an ionizer
00:52:55.760and you know they should be registered with like dams uh the organization and uh and get them out
00:53:02.600for sure get them out but don't just get them yeah if you get them out improperly then it can just
00:53:08.320put mercury everywhere right oh yeah little fragments of mercury go everywhere vapor yeah
00:53:13.040And vape. Yeah. So they do have a very specific, like, don't they have a vacuum and things to make sure the mercury like doesn't touch anything while they're taking it out of your mouth?
00:53:22.480They will wear like complete, like hazardous material equipment. They'll have a vacuum, like an inch away from your mouth. They'll have an ionizer. And still it's, it's said that there's still some exposure to the dentist. Imagine just being an average Joe with mercury fillings, drinking hot tea every day. Like I was, I was doing a hot tea fasts. So I would do fast for 10, 12 days, only hot tea.
00:53:42.580um while living in the amazon and uh hot beverages increase the amount of mercury vapor
00:53:48.860yeah smoking mercury vaping mercury while drinking ayahuasca you know yeah just like
00:53:55.580mercury ayahuasca yeah terrible awful oh my gosh yeah do you also tell people like so
00:54:04.580after they go through what you said mast cells parasites liver viral load
00:54:10.480it's four things and chelation yeah and chelation at the end do you tell like do you tell everyone
00:54:16.880to do the chelation anyway hell yeah really yeah i mean is that bad for people say some form of it
00:54:22.960even if it's just wheatgrass hey drink wheatgrass four times a week for a year watch how your life
00:54:29.100changes oh that's it yeah i mean that's the most basic form we have all kinds of crazy stuff we do
00:54:34.280with as you know up the bum right yeah there's different edta suppositories and there's different
00:54:39.460compounds you know there's we there's things called um ameromide osr which is super powerful
00:54:45.760mercury chelator um there's spirulina in high doses chlorella in high doses there's silica in
00:54:52.320high doses which is going to help with the aluminum so the wheatgrass is like the most basic
00:54:56.520but everyone should drink wheatgrass yeah for sure okay i had a weird reaction to so i did
00:55:01.180for part of the surs treatment is a nasal spray because you can get a swab and a test to see if
00:55:07.300you have something called marcons which is yes basically yeah treatment resistant bacteria yeah
00:55:12.180in your nose yeah um and so i had that which is fairly common with stars and started the edta spray
00:55:18.920and it was so strange it was edta and silver and was there something else i think it was just the
00:55:27.180edta was it the marcons one and two was it two blue bottles that you were taking no okay just
00:55:31.560one and it was mixed together so i think it was just edta and silver um so it's supposed to be
00:55:36.880like pretty soft but what was interesting was all my mold toxicity symptoms came back when I started
00:55:42.680it so I hadn't been exposed to mold but I started taking it um and the second day I thought I was
00:55:48.400having an allergic reaction to something because I was like what is happening and I had like one
00:55:53.540side of my body go weak and I was like limping around I had like neurological pain everywhere
00:55:57.440and I was like whoa this is like when I got really sick in Miami but it's just from I guess
00:56:03.280in theory breaking down biofilms the biofilms in my nose and being re-exposed to that poison
00:56:09.560kind of edta pulling out metals out of your brain yeah i knew this is why i brought it up yes i was
00:56:14.320like he's gonna oh for sure that edta is pulling metals out of your brain okay here's a metal
00:56:17.920question i have a hip and ankle replacement okay this is probably why i've given up on like metal
00:56:23.240so that's titanium but like titanium is generally generally okay i mean it's better than mercury
00:56:31.080Yeah, there's ones that I believe they have some sort of nickel or chromium.
00:56:38.920There's some compound, a nickel or cobalt or something, that can get very toxic.
00:56:45.520The titanium ones, from all I learned from Dr. Klinghart and a couple other doctors, are very, very good.