00:34:10.200I think I hold a lot of resentments against myself,
00:34:12.440sometimes for things that were a long time ago.
00:34:15.420I just like, I'll think like, man, I wish I could have figured that out or I wish I could have done better or it's like I always have my expectations so high so I can never achieve them.
00:35:07.720So, whether you are reeling in rage of anger, what others did, or what you did, guilt of what you did, both these eats your consciousness and spoils the present and the future.
00:35:24.240And so, wisdom is seeing this whole thing as a dream or a drama which happened and finished.
01:03:11.080You know, sometimes I'll have a feeling that something that comes up and I don't want to do it,
01:03:15.300But it like, it's like something like, you know, I have a bad idea that comes up, you know, and it tries to plant a seed in me, you know, it's like, oh, maybe you should do this at some point, you know, and it could be something bad.
01:03:30.660It could be or for me, it would be bad, like because I'm in recovery program.
01:03:33.700So it could be, you know, drugs, alcohol, you know, just things like that behaviors I don't want to do.
01:03:38.200Sometimes I have a seed that like a little idea will come up like with a little bell and be like, hey, you know.
01:21:18.860But, you know, after practice, then that state of calmness, inner calmness continues, even when you're acting and you're talking and you're doing anything.
01:21:29.780Well, I notice it gives me a little more space between moments if I'm going to think of an answer.