Impaulsive with Logan Paul - BELLA THORNE’S TRAUMATIC PAST - IMPAULSIVE EP. 99

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00:02:12.340 Getting to live your life the way you should be allowed to and not be taken advantage of, or death.

00:02:17.360 I'd rather fight this day to death than let it happen again and again and again.

00:02:28.580 yeah thank you for the enthusiasm mike and by the way welcome back to impulsive the number one

00:02:41.080 podcast in the world thank you guys for listening watching viewing subscribing if you're not

00:02:44.080 subscribed hit that button for me spencer why are you so quiet today you are you are so quite more

00:02:48.460 quiet than usual for a vegan i don't know man i'm just are you here are you here are you on this

00:02:53.880 planet bro you're just are you just emailing i'm just happy okay that's good i'm just in a good

00:02:57.820 why are you so happy i don't know man i'm with you on that by the way it's a good day you know

00:03:02.280 the game candy land yeah i feel like i'm in that game right now great and just sliding down ladders

00:03:08.100 bro i i i just got back from vegas uh recently and i was with the dj his name's dj ruckus and

00:03:14.540 i was like hey man can i get your number and uh he's like sure so he put his number in my phone

00:03:19.260 and i forgot i had already gotten his number a couple years ago in sundance at the sundance uh

00:03:24.280 party but he was in my phone as Sundance DJ

00:03:26.920 which was a bit awkward

00:03:28.400 and he saw that you know what I'm saying

00:03:30.240 like I guarantee everyone who knows Mike

00:03:32.540 and probably like Tana

00:03:34.040 Monjo's here in the audience she could probably

00:03:36.560 vouch is he in your phone as Mike

00:03:38.340 Lovesack

00:03:38.900 Mike from

00:03:42.480 Lovesack you know what I'm saying like

00:03:44.240 everyone knows you as Mike Lovesack

00:03:46.120 you put in the first name and then wherever you know him from

00:03:48.200 yeah just awkward when they see cause like I know

00:03:50.480 DJ Ruckus bro for like 4 years

00:03:52.480 now we've been to Dubai together Sundance

00:03:54.480 Coachella you kind of got to embrace it

00:03:56.560 like I've looked at people's phones and just

00:03:58.280 Spencer film guy I'm like

00:03:59.800 well we talked about it with respect he was hurt

00:04:02.480 though oh he was oh yeah

00:04:04.360 and he's performing in front at a

00:04:06.460 marquee in front of all these people and I'm 0.99

00:04:08.360 just like fuck I know I hurt his feelings bro maybe you just 0.99

00:04:10.320 need maybe he needs a little check bro well this happened 1.00

00:04:12.460 with me too it took you what like two

00:04:14.460 years to change my name from Mike it was like

00:04:16.460 an honorary day you were like Mike

00:04:18.380 you finally made it dude I'm putting your last

00:04:20.580 Hey, David, you were David German for the longest time.

00:04:23.320 And now you're David Shevavazava.

00:04:25.160 I have him in my phone.

00:04:26.220 I don't know his last name.

00:04:27.500 Davidson.

00:04:28.280 Davidson.

00:04:28.560 That's what he's in my phone.

00:04:29.360 His Instagram.

00:04:30.380 Hey, Big Mike.

00:04:32.340 Well, that makes sense.

00:04:33.640 Hey, can we talk about a girl?

00:04:34.920 A girl, we went to Ohio recently and a girl had a, this is interesting.

00:04:38.700 A girl DM'd Mike because she knew we were coming to Cleveland.

00:04:41.900 And some girls are just so straightforward with it. 0.71

00:04:43.860 And I like got to commend this girl. 0.95

00:04:45.640 What did she say to you?

00:04:46.620 You tell him.

00:04:47.740 Well, I actually threw it to you because I didn't know specifically.

00:04:50.220 she said um she just said like i think people knew that i was in cleveland and she just said

00:04:54.560 well i want to sit on your face while you're in cleveland that's like there was no hi no hey no

00:04:59.200 how you're doing none of that stuff and i showed logan and then i said wow he was like wow and

00:05:04.160 then what happened we were sitting at dinner and by the grace of steve erwin this girl came and sat

00:05:10.040 down at the dinner table next to us and mike goes hey i think that's the girl that wants to sit on 0.95

00:05:14.300 my face i said there's no fucking way mike there's absolutely no way there she was and she came up 0.84

00:05:19.220 after and she was like talking to me like she was cool she goes i'm pretty sure i dm'd you earlier 0.90

00:05:23.920 oh you're pretty sure is this a common thing in cleveland like is that all there is to do i didn't

00:05:28.440 think sitting on faces was the only thing to do i could i could what else is there to do in cleveland

00:05:32.760 you could play ping pong okay they have a casino that's actually yeah that's a king of ping pong

00:05:36.800 casino interesting so there's quite a few things to do she also knew quite a bit about the gluck

00:05:41.860 gluck shout out to shout out to call her daddy she offered to give mike a uh a very good double 0.99

00:05:48.540 handed gluck gluck after i just fucked but did you accept no okay absolutely no hey should we 1.00

00:05:54.260 bring on our guest absolutely probably she's dope she's dope she's really dope guys she is a former 1.00

00:05:59.080 disney star now hollywood superstar she's actually a dear friend of mine and a peer she's got 20 0.95

00:06:03.900 million followers on instagram and i was actually fortunate enough to have her star in one of my

00:06:08.720 music videos. Ladies and gentlemen,

00:06:10.740 it's Bella Thorne. 0.99

00:06:14.660 Let's go.

00:06:16.320 Here we go.

00:06:17.200 Here we go. Who's chanting?

00:06:19.800 Good to see you, Bella.

00:06:20.820 Got the corona. Got a little bag of goodies there.

00:06:23.080 Got the bag of weed.

00:06:23.940 Just my traveling partners. The essentials.

00:06:28.520 The essentials.

00:06:29.640 How are you feeling?

00:06:30.720 Feeling pretty good. Feeling like I should

00:06:32.720 take off my purse. Maybe. Get comfortable?

00:06:35.180 I should get down and dirty

00:06:36.780 for this conversation. Let's go.

00:06:38.420 i mean that's what we do here on impulsive after all we are the number one podcast in the world

00:06:41.860 and that's a stat that's a fact that's amazing amazing um so look bella you got this book here

00:06:47.280 and you gave it to me the life of a wannabe mogul mental disarray something you told me though

00:06:53.620 interesting this copy actually is like not the final copy correct me if i'm wrong or um no yeah

00:07:00.180 so this this copy is also just like uh one of my art copies you know i got the first art copy and

00:07:06.500 then now this is another one and the the first print actually of the book i was notified um is

00:07:12.820 missing one of my favorite um poems um yeah which will be uh very very very sad for me um and so

00:07:20.280 we're also doing another rendition of the book now for our third print because we just got news we

00:07:25.040 need another one of those but when you say first print like that's 20 000 copies you told me right

00:07:29.660 okay so so then second print it's not a deal so third print now is going to be um like uh

00:07:36.400 completely inverted like black matte black with the red trees and the red foil and whatnot yeah

00:07:42.220 so i was skimming through this last night and i'm super intrigued and impressed because the style

00:07:46.320 this isn't your typical book i i thought i was gonna because i don't really read but this isn't

00:07:50.820 i wouldn't call it no i mean i guess like i don't know how to read there weren't there weren't there

00:07:54.600 weren't too many pictures in there so that's like there were some dogs in there some cute dogs there

00:07:58.900 but how did you can can you punch in on this it's like um oh the cat with the cat with the cutter

00:08:05.360 the box cutter no no there's actual i want to ask about that oh yeah yeah dd yeah but this is

00:08:10.640 how did you make this did you type your thoughts on a typewriter and then have them all um i did

00:08:16.120 it all on a typewriter yeah um i wrote it in in in two weeks because the the first two books that

00:08:21.320 i wrote actually got completely lost on a delta flight it's very unfortunate can you explain how

00:08:26.420 that happened um i'm a dumbass and mod told me that i should photocopy them and obviously it was

00:08:32.720 like yeah i'm putting it on my list my to-do list and then like never go on to it i went i was on

00:08:37.740 tour when i was writing it anyway and so it was already kind of like loose in that sense and i

00:08:43.140 had two of them two two two two completed books all handwritten how bad did that hurt it hurt so

00:08:50.780 bad because for so long i tried to get it back because i was just like no like this is like this

00:08:55.220 come on delta what are you and and the the stewardess on the flight too is taking a bunch

00:09:01.640 of photos with me and she saw me writing she asked me what the book was about um and so i'm

00:09:06.080 just thinking like either they're lost in the abyss never to be appreciated or uh she has them

00:09:11.520 but they're they were handwritten right that's the one of one yeah one of one i can't get i can't

00:09:17.680 get anything of that back and it's unfortunate because i literally wrote it on like three or

00:09:21.880 four tours so it's like what did it happen for a reason is this book better i mean i think it's

00:09:26.900 much better in a lot of different ways that book was way different but that book was more of like

00:09:31.520 what i want the third book to be like which is very much of how to be a mogul coming from

00:09:37.640 literally nothing having no background you know learning how to read from acting reading scripts

00:09:42.640 learning how to count from counting my dad's cash like um literally having no schooling background

00:09:47.800 and writing writing a book writing a feature writing a series right now that i'm writing like

00:09:53.280 just how to do it and literally having no experience it it's really unfortunate because

00:09:57.720 i have a lot of even the names of all the companies that i have now before we could use those names so

00:10:03.740 we've got like all of our names that we try to get like we have and it's just so many good memories

00:10:09.040 in those two books of like real like step by step how do we do this because i didn't know how to 0.77

00:10:14.180 fucking do it and my agents everybody was just like it's gonna be really difficult you should 0.85

00:10:18.740 just do it like this way instead and just put your face on set like this and i was just saying 0.99

00:10:23.520 oh watch me watch me i'm gonna do what i want this this book is riddled with with really really

00:10:30.260 impressive feats especially like because of the harsh upbringing that you did have and i i i want

00:10:35.840 to ask is this is there something innate in you that made you special and able to achieve the

00:10:42.600 things that you achieved or do you think every person has something inside them that can allow

00:10:47.240 them to achieve their goals no matter where they come from oh yeah a hundred percent obviously the

00:10:51.700 second option um with me like i don't i don't really think that there's like this whole like

00:10:57.360 oh that somebody's so special like we're all so unique that in a sense no matter what we are

00:11:02.780 so special no person is is ever the same you know so to me the the special thing that word has no

00:11:09.080 meeting when it comes to to people because really everybody is you know um what how did you find how

00:11:15.000 did you find that special piece if there's like people watching that feel like they're not special

00:11:19.480 you know which there probably are how did you find it i felt not i think not special my whole life i

00:11:24.260 mean like i was just bullied really heavily uh in school my first language is spanish and i had to

00:11:28.660 drop spanish to learn english to then learn how to read which didn't come until i was like eight or

00:11:33.000 nine and it like I never felt like everybody was just like you can't do it and and I think that

00:11:39.780 um who really got me here is like my my father's worth ethic he he always said if you're gonna do

00:11:45.900 something then you better be the best damn at it like you better literally break your bones trying 0.96

00:11:51.240 to be the best and I really do think that that's how I got here with all the different shit that 0.98

00:11:56.180 I like to do the mogul type vibe of dipping my hand in every pod um because I really didn't have 0.77

00:12:01.600 like a background of being like you know oh do this or do that and it's kind of just like

00:12:07.760 oh what is it what does being a mogul mean to you to me being a mogul means like having seven

00:12:14.600 passive incomes and like three companies that you work on and then two other ones that are over here

00:12:19.380 like who are some examples of moguls i mean like obviously elon musk yeah you know there's there's

00:12:25.840 actually there's a there's quite a lot of of moguls you know even um just there's yeah there's

00:12:32.600 there's a lot of moguls out there but um for me it's definitely just dipping your hand um in every

00:12:38.780 pod and really kind of trying everything and making it work somehow the reason i ask is because

00:12:42.960 like we talked about this and i'm sort of wrestling it within my personal life is like how how many

00:12:49.140 things should you do before you're doing too many things before before you're not you should i mean

00:12:55.380 because, you know, you put all your eggs in one basket and it works and you're the biggest in the

00:12:58.140 world. But and you do do a lot of stuff like you make music, you act, you write, obviously. I'm sure

00:13:04.260 you do many, many other things and other forms of creative expression. Do you feel like you're

00:13:08.280 doing too much? You know, I always feel like I'm doing too much. Like my like my my body is just

00:13:14.020 going to kind of just give out on me because I don't I don't feed it the proper food that that

00:13:20.040 I should be. You know, I don't I don't sleep. I don't like there's there's so many things that

00:13:25.020 i don't do right with my body and constantly working and constantly having my mind go like

00:13:30.520 you know i've been working since i was six weeks old out of the womb i just did child modeling i

00:13:34.880 was on the cover of like italian vogue by the time i was like a little like a little little

00:13:38.760 who put you in there like uh i uh my mom did yeah we uh we all did modeling growing up and so like

00:13:44.540 for me not to work is honestly much weirder like if i'm upset i throw myself into work if i'm happy

00:13:50.540 i throw myself into work whatever i'm doing i throw myself into work and i think that it is

00:13:54.940 too much and then all of a sudden I see an opportunity come and I'm like oh but it might

00:13:59.500 be too much on your plate and I'm like but it's right there so let me just do it anyway yeah I

00:14:05.580 noticed that I'm actually really impressed at how punctual and hard-working you are even though you

00:14:10.920 have a massive amount of success and like you could have easily showed up to this podcast

00:14:14.860 an hour late but you were 10 minutes early and it's always been like that even even for my music

00:14:19.640 video like you gave me three days you're on time every day and therefore the amount we needed you

00:14:24.060 So I definitely have to commend you on that.

00:14:25.780 And you hinted that the work ethic came from your father,

00:14:28.600 who I know you talk about in this book.

00:14:30.240 And he passed away when you were 10, correct?

00:14:33.320 Yeah, like nine, yeah.

00:14:34.860 And how did that affect the rest of your childhood?

00:14:39.540 Because I know you have a rocky relationship with your mother or so.

00:14:44.260 That's what I got from this book.

00:14:46.040 And so, yeah, how did that affect you?

00:14:47.960 Um, I mean, I in in so many ways that I can't even put my finger on, you know, to me, though, the most things that it really affects me on is like, yeah, what I talk about in the book is like the whys and all the questions, you know, all the constant questions every day that you literally never get past or get over.

00:15:09.880 and that is really the most difficult thing like you know i'm sure a lot of people will know even

00:15:16.460 when you have a dad you could have a dad who's literally there and it's a wall it's talking to

00:15:20.840 a wall so therefore you you don't have a father in a sense so i'm sure a lot of people can agree

00:15:25.180 with this but growing up with without a dad like you know like father's day was rough going on 0.91

00:15:31.040 instagram is fucking annoying when all you see is you know daddy daddy daddy thinking about your 0.92

00:15:36.380 wedding day is annoying thinking about having coffee is annoying thinking about any time that 0.99

00:15:41.780 you're like wow I like Carnegie Hall Carnegie Hall was really really hard because that would

00:15:47.500 have been something that he would have thought was like really amazing and and it's just going

00:15:53.280 through really big moments in your life and and you kind of look around and you see everybody has

00:15:57.540 like a good amount of family or not with me as so much I think I attract friends that also have

00:16:03.800 kind of more fucked up families because that's just kind of like my my little tentacles that's 0.92

00:16:09.780 just my vibe bringing your peeps yeah yeah there's the passage in here the one about your dad it says 0.98

00:16:15.660 um everything happens for a reason right well i might be stuck searching for that reason every

00:16:20.400 single day for the rest of my life so maybe it's better for me to stop now and i i also like to

00:16:26.940 adopt the mentality that everything happens for a reason but sometimes i'm not quite convinced i

00:16:32.780 need to know what that reason is is that where you've landed on that i think my mind stirs on

00:16:39.840 that a lot you know the why me the why not me you know that kind of thing of it all is

00:16:45.980 you know it's kind of like when you're so angry at at something that you have to find somebody

00:16:52.940 to blame for it so my reason to blame is what what is the reason you know um and that's that's

00:17:01.520 that's the reason of so irritating that, that I,

00:17:04.800 I still go to sleep with or wake up with. Um, and, and I'd,

00:17:09.000 I'd like to stop searching and that's obviously what I say, but you know,

00:17:13.000 let's, let's be realistic. Probably not.

00:17:16.580 How much do those, um,

00:17:18.280 do those like external factors of trauma from your past and, you know,

00:17:22.600 losing your dad and that kind of stuff, um,

00:17:25.660 impact what you do now from like an art standpoint and from like a talent.

00:17:29.360 standpoint i think it impacts it like in every sense of what i do you know even when i direct

00:17:35.060 i pretty much only like to direct um really more on on the darker side uh by the time this comes

00:17:43.700 out the famous decks video should be out that i just um directed and i'm about to direct and it's

00:17:49.120 called suicide watch and it's kind of all everything that i write or do or see or watch

00:17:54.520 Like, I don't watch really, like, I don't really watch comedy that much.

00:17:58.580 Like, you know, at all.

00:18:00.300 Like, you got to really talk me into watching a comedy.

00:18:02.280 I'm pretty much only a psychological thriller or horror.

00:18:05.000 Who's a dark creative that you admire or look up to?

00:18:07.840 Like, do you like Jordan Peele?

00:18:08.840 I love Jordan Peele.

00:18:09.900 I love Guillermo del Toro.

00:18:11.740 Obviously, Quentin Tarantino is my favorite.

00:18:15.740 Yeah, yeah.

00:18:16.520 Marilyn Manson is just, I just love him.

00:18:18.980 He gave you an excerpt in this I saw.

00:18:20.740 That's awesome.

00:18:21.380 A lot of big people gave you excerpts.

00:18:23.120 Snoop Dogg's is so funny

00:18:24.700 and Jason Reitman's

00:18:25.680 is my favorite 0.97

00:18:26.460 his is so fucking cool 0.72

00:18:28.540 let me read Jason's 0.95

00:18:29.600 I like Diplo's the best

00:18:30.760 I want to read that

00:18:31.280 Bella Thorne writes poetry

00:18:33.120 as a kidnapper 0.93

00:18:33.860 might leave a ransom note

00:18:34.880 it's a threat

00:18:35.440 and I don't think 0.99

00:18:35.960 she's fucking around 1.00

00:18:36.760 damn 1.00

00:18:37.680 Diplo said 0.99

00:18:38.840 hey I didn't read this book

00:18:40.400 Bella gave it to me

00:18:41.080 and I left it on an airplane

00:18:42.180 that's so Diplo

00:18:44.600 shout out Diplo dude

00:18:45.800 respect

00:18:46.540 Snoop Dogg

00:18:47.480 yo sitting here smoking

00:18:48.600 checking out this book

00:18:49.480 of poems from my homegirl

00:18:50.540 Bella 1.00

00:18:50.880 damn girl you dope 1.00

00:18:51.940 as a motherfucker 1.00

00:18:52.740 i didn't know he had rhymes and rhythms and such words of magnitude and gratitude with just a little 0.99

00:18:57.920 bit of attitude how does that feel getting shouted out by snoop well uh luckily actually

00:19:02.980 snoop and i hang out quite quite often so from him's was just it's just amazing to look at it

00:19:08.820 like snoop dog i never even thought i'd be friends with snoop dog or smug with snoop dog 0.98

00:19:12.920 he tells me i'm one of the only ones i can keep up with him oh shit oh that's a massive 0.99

00:19:18.320 That's a lot of weed. 0.99

00:19:19.260 That's a massive cough.

00:19:20.400 That's a lot of weed.

00:19:21.700 That is stoner.

00:19:22.780 How much weed do you have to smoke to keep up with Snoop Dogg?

00:19:25.680 A lot of weed.

00:19:27.020 A lot.

00:19:27.440 How much can he go through in like a sitting?

00:19:29.740 Like a few ounces?

00:19:30.900 A pound?

00:19:31.540 Like how much are we talking?

00:19:33.240 In a day, it really depends on what I'm doing.

00:19:35.600 You know, it depends also how stressed out I am.

00:19:39.580 Like, you know, how many people I'm smoking with.

00:19:41.760 If I'm, I only really smoke in groups and then so many people are smoking and I only

00:19:46.020 smoke it if I roll it.

00:19:47.160 so then i'm like just constantly rolling and rolling have you thought of hiring a roller

00:19:51.000 no because i only smoke it if i roll it why yeah i don't know it's it's really i i'm so specific

00:19:57.800 and neurotic in the weirdest way that this has just become a thing for me and now i can't get 0.60

00:20:03.020 past this thing because it would be much easier if i could smoke shit that other people rolled 0.81

00:20:06.520 it's so funny you say that because when i used to smoke a lot i had to roll too like there would

00:20:10.960 be a group of four of us and other people would be like i got i bought the the wrap i want to roll

00:20:14.920 and i'm like no i have to and i think it hints at something that also is a part of this book which

00:20:20.700 is the layout of it and i think what it is is you're an artist you're just an artist in everything

00:20:26.520 you do whether it's putting a book together that's laid out in a cool artistic way or rolling a joint

00:20:31.440 that is artistically perfect and has the right filter you know the right uh mouthpiece and all

00:20:36.380 that good stuff that you put into it so it's probably an art an art thing i like that no how

00:20:40.280 how do you use darker art and darker content how do you think it can benefit people i think that

00:20:47.980 in in our world you need to feel like you can relate to somebody and the worst thing you can

00:20:53.780 do is show this perfect like to me you know even before i was doing this i went out of my way to

00:20:58.700 show my cystic acne or um as my friend scott once said you go out of way to make yourself ugly which

00:21:04.620 was offensive and i don't think that's true but okay um but like i just you know um like i have

00:21:11.880 a i have a ban on like anybody that i work with that shoots photos of me they just can't edit it

00:21:16.660 or like you know like you can see it on my instagram if i have cellulite i let it show

00:21:20.200 because in any sense it's like you just don't want to put out in in my opinion this image that

00:21:27.520 is so beautiful it's not it's not obtainable it's not relatable it's not realistic it's not

00:21:32.060 logistic it's it's literally just like it doesn't make any uh sense to me in in that way to keep

00:21:38.640 preaching this like image so i think that the darker content with me is is great because when

00:21:44.620 i see dark content i can relate to it or it'll make me cry or something that'll really touch me

00:21:48.680 and hopefully you know i can keep doing that with other people you open this book love that

00:21:52.860 the second page says so if you don't like how i do things or how i say things or how i spell things 0.95

00:21:57.560 you can kindly fuck off seriously and then you spelled seriously wrong but i think that was 0.97

00:22:01.720 probably like a play on what you just said um or maybe you were seriously are you dyslexic that's 1.00

00:22:08.060 right um all right so look like it's quite obvious that you're a fucking badass bella 0.99

00:22:14.420 does that ever backfire all the time really it really does oh shit oh shit like like when like 0.99

00:22:21.760 ever in relationships um no no actually not not so much in i'm actually very um what's it called 0.98

00:22:30.100 And I'm I usually never I like to say that I never pick an argument, but that's not true.

00:22:37.860 But it's more of like I don't like like if I'm dating somebody and, you know, when you get in a relationship, all of a sudden you start to notice these things about the person that you're like, oh, this kind of bugs me.

00:22:46.920 Well, they're always like, well, they mention it. Right. And they're like, oh, this thing like or can you shave your legs or like this or that or some shit, let's say.

00:22:53.600 and like for me if i notice some shit that or is a red flag or something that i don't like like i 0.96

00:22:58.640 just don't say anything about it like it's not it's not even like letting it slide i'm like well 0.72

00:23:04.780 i started dating you so then if i change you i'm not gonna like the person that you become because

00:23:09.160 i liked you for literally yourself like you know but you like you liked the portion of them that

00:23:15.340 you knew and saw and as your relationship gets more and more complex you know i mean i think any

00:23:20.220 healthy relationship there's a bit of molding with each person of course there's a bit there's

00:23:23.980 a bit of push and pull i just don't i just don't personally like you know like if something is 0.78

00:23:29.640 gonna really fucking bug me but what's gonna really bug me that much like you know farting 0.85

00:23:35.020 like what about severe no no i go to the bathroom with the door open like that's hard like 0.96

00:23:39.480 it's funny because i think this whole what you're saying is also kind of like a whole

00:23:44.220 precautionary tale to getting into relationships too fast too because if you spend a little bit

00:23:48.540 the time figuring the person out like spending time with them hanging out with them then you

00:23:52.060 might see those red flags beforehand you could you could just pull back pull back yeah i see me

00:23:56.980 i just can only do long-term relationships i've got a serious problem i don't like to date i don't

00:24:02.440 like to be lonely and i'm just like oh hop back into another two-year relationship hold on give

00:24:08.340 me a minute like i think that goes i think that goes like hand in hand too with like being

00:24:12.480 passionate and artistic like i just feel like that's all rolled into that same thing like

00:24:16.540 you're a lover you're passionate you're artistic like that's just who you are and when i'm like

00:24:20.040 getting off of set and i'm exhausted or some shit like i don't want to like be like oh who's

00:24:25.240 like anybody want to hang out like if i'm like you know horny and lonely then i want like my 0.78

00:24:29.700 one person that's like there and i'm like bro cool like then we're gonna binge your favorite 0.96

00:24:33.460 show like it's the same shit top ramen with parmesan on top like let's go like you know 0.96

00:24:37.800 so so i when does being a badass fire i'll back oh yeah all the time back yeah 0.99

00:24:46.440 You know

00:24:47.780 I'm tired dude

00:24:49.980 I sparred this morning

00:24:51.020 Did I did 12 rounds 1.00

00:24:52.280 I did 12 fucking rounds 1.00

00:24:53.920 Damn 1.00

00:24:54.360 Alright so easy 0.99

00:24:55.460 I'm shorting out a little bit

00:24:57.220 How many hits to the face

00:24:58.120 I think I got like

00:24:59.780 Two to me

00:25:00.940 But I got a lot of body shots

00:25:02.120 In there bro

00:25:02.580 12 rounds

00:25:03.420 You only got two hits

00:25:04.340 He doesn't take it easy

00:25:05.400 That dude he spars 0.91

00:25:06.600 It's tough bro

00:25:07.900 When does being a badass

00:25:09.580 Backfire

00:25:10.680 All the time

00:25:13.660 You know like when

00:25:14.560 Just

00:25:15.680 I think

00:25:16.300 being a badass is just being honest in a sense and in this world honesty this day and age is just

00:25:21.520 so rare that when you're honest you're all of a sudden a badass but it's really just like bro

00:25:27.000 we're just being honest over here like everybody thought that the that i came out on twitter and

00:25:31.120 like oh my god that's so badass and i was just like i mean i just tweeted oh that was that was

00:25:36.900 someone tweeted it someone tweeted you said are you bisexual and i was just like yeah that's 0.86

00:25:41.940 literally all you said yeah and that was you coming out yeah it's fucking incredible

00:25:45.060 absolutely incredible but it's just being honest you know i love it i mean that's that's that's my

00:25:50.100 whole thing i think i think authenticity and relatability are the two biggest things you can

00:25:55.280 have nowadays and especially your conversations in there and also even just now on the show about

00:26:00.720 mental health when we started talking about depression and anxiety on the show and how

00:26:05.160 people can work to combat those and by the way feel free to talk about it in front of mass amounts

00:26:10.260 of people the feedback we got in those mental health conversations were greater than any 0.98

00:26:14.760 bullshit like fufu conversation we've had yeah people want to hear about shit they could relate 0.98

00:26:19.060 because it's real and it's things that like okay so it used to be kind of like oh my one friend is 1.00

00:26:25.560 like depressed or like you know the depressed girl in school or like this thing and now you look

00:26:30.680 around and it's every one of your friends it's almost every other person you meet on the street

00:26:35.980 This generation is literally so depressed.

00:26:39.980 Why?

00:26:40.240 Why, Bella?

00:26:40.880 I really think, obviously, phones, you know, it's addictive.

00:26:44.360 It's a high, you know, it might as well be a literal drug.

00:26:48.140 It's very in your face all the time and something that we can't escape.

00:26:51.840 Imagine a drug but being pushed in your face every second of the day,

00:26:55.460 everywhere you look to your left or your right.

00:26:59.100 It's a dopamine.

00:27:00.100 Yeah.

00:27:00.560 They actually are proving that it's the dopamine hit.

00:27:03.360 and when you're creative and you're using your imagination you're outside of the front part of

00:27:10.480 your brain that controls it's on 20 of your brain so our phones keep us in it so we don't have time

00:27:16.100 to go into the other 80 of our brain that holds the creativity and imagination that's from that

00:27:20.720 article remember we read the one about boredom the death of boredom is great great boredom is

00:27:25.360 necessary has driven so many great ideas in this world i'm sure like when spacex was thought of

00:27:30.780 When a lot of these ideas were thought of,

00:27:32.380 it was through sitting somewhere with nothing to do.

00:27:36.120 And now we're never bored

00:27:38.060 because someone just posted a new aspect,

00:27:39.860 some new app just get like,

00:27:41.320 and so like that death of time to sit

00:27:43.600 and like think about what could be.

00:27:45.300 We said this in Ohio.

00:27:47.240 Andre, you heard us.

00:27:48.860 Jake and I were walking around,

00:27:49.960 like I think at a bagel shop on Saturday morning

00:27:51.980 and it's just like kind of gloomy

00:27:53.260 and there was nothing to do. 0.83

00:27:54.300 And we're like, no fucking wonder we started making videos. 0.81

00:27:56.800 There is nothing to do here. 0.78

00:27:58.020 And then I picked up this weird yo-yo device called the Diabolo.

00:28:03.800 And I was like, why do I know how to—

00:28:05.740 That was impressive.

00:28:07.140 You didn't whip the—I could have sworn you whipped that since you were a kid.

00:28:10.580 I was.

00:28:11.420 I've been whipping it since I was a kid, bro.

00:28:13.340 Okay, okay.

00:28:13.940 Well, because you just pick up these random hobbies.

00:28:16.380 And you got sucked into entertainment so young.

00:28:18.720 And I think that was your outlet in a way.

00:28:21.720 I will say one thing about the phones.

00:28:23.120 I think that us as bigger companies should obviously go out of their way

00:28:29.140 to try and control this narrative that just keeps just, like, drowning us.

00:28:34.080 You know, there's got to be some type of algorithm.

00:28:36.200 I think with Instagram, they should really snap down, sorry, Tana, 0.98

00:28:40.480 on Facetune and Photoshop and all these shit. 0.98

00:28:43.560 Not like this. 0.99

00:28:45.140 Not like this.

00:28:46.100 Oh, my God. 0.82

00:28:47.160 Hey, Tana just went off on Instagram, by the way.

00:28:49.500 Hey, happy birthday.

00:28:50.820 Wait, today?

00:28:51.440 Happy birthday Tana

00:28:53.740 I facetune it though

00:28:55.380 You facetune it

00:28:57.020 Curious

00:28:58.340 I have a question

00:28:59.100 For the two of you

00:28:59.820 Actually

00:29:00.140 How do you guys think

00:29:01.800 Oh wow

00:29:02.360 She went in

00:29:03.040 She really went for it

00:29:04.180 Look at that 1.00

00:29:04.640 She's a hot bitch 1.00

00:29:06.480 Is there some facetune on that 1.00

00:29:08.420 No

00:29:09.140 That's all

00:29:09.640 She looks exactly like that 0.99

00:29:10.960 Right now

00:29:11.480 I kind of like 1.00

00:29:12.380 Shave my vagina 1.00

00:29:12.980 I know 1.00

00:29:14.040 I'm like looking at that 1.00

00:29:15.380 You shave your vagina 1.00

00:29:16.460 In facetune 1.00

00:29:17.080 Shave or shave

00:29:17.860 How do you shave 1.00

00:29:19.540 Your vagina in facetune 1.00

00:29:20.760 save money on razors right i'll teach you hold on but how do you shave your vagina and face to 1.00

00:29:25.340 under an outfit do you know what i mean like like it's like there's a little like pussy 1.00

00:29:29.600 tanda this is this you're really doing it this is rich and compelling i'm lego bitches 0.99

00:29:34.620 i'm lego bitches yo so back to uh back to reality here um how do how do you two think that your 0.99

00:29:45.260 content is affecting that mental health conversation do you think it's improving 0.90

00:29:50.400 mental health or do you think some of your content has contributed to that problem it's a

00:29:56.100 great question my literal content yeah yeah both of you guys i'm curious what both of you um have

00:30:01.540 we contributed to or help or help um you've definitely helped i would assume right um i mean

00:30:08.400 yeah i'm constantly having this kind this this conversation i think that this book a lot will

00:30:13.360 help people every time that i've read it at a reading or anything i'll pick a few pages and

00:30:16.880 the amount of people that come up to me and tell me their stories of abuse is honestly really 0.97

00:30:21.520 disgusting and saddening it's it's like a lot of fucking people in the room it's it's just it's 0.88

00:30:26.820 it's really disturbing it makes me um one of my last interviews i just cried so hard after because 0.98

00:30:32.660 i just heard this this this such a sad sad story and it just like oh it got me so good and then i

00:30:39.820 had to walk out in paparazzi and i just like have this make this fake ass smile on my face and i'm 0.97

00:30:44.880 just like damn like this shit is really dark um so i think that in ways like that um i'm trying 0.98

00:30:50.800 to think of a way that i didn't help and i mean i guess in general like if you're looking at me 0.99

00:31:01.080 and you're like oh like this is like one of those celebrities that's like you think oh it's so

00:31:05.360 perfect and happy and like oh look at like what she has and like this and that and all those things

00:31:10.140 then yeah that's never going to make you feel good about anybody or anything you know instagram

00:31:15.520 is literally just a form of like look at all the most amazing things i have in my most amazing

00:31:22.060 self that's not actually you so that's why i've tried to go and especially more on the last two

00:31:27.220 years on my side on my whole instagram my whole public image is like trying to be the most like

00:31:34.460 uh like authentic yeah like like look at me look my worst and in a sense like this is my worst

00:31:42.100 that's totally dope as well like you know but obviously people don't do it that way

00:31:46.980 that's super brave nice it's uh it definitely makes me a target for ridicule that's that's for

00:31:52.040 sure how about you over there lp hey i've wrestled with this a lot too because my approach is a little 0.96

00:31:58.640 maybe because i'm like a man and you know i grew up playing sports like testosterone i'm a fucking 0.80

00:32:03.320 i pooped just now yeah i heard it you sharted yeah um it's a quick little shark no i my approach 0.98

00:32:12.980 is a little more like head down you can do it believe in yourself don't let anyone tell you

00:32:18.960 no or you can't um and i've not always in the past been as maybe vulnerable as i should be

00:32:26.000 because i'm i'm i wonder what's more effective and i would love to hear um the audience's

00:32:30.600 opinions on this like are you more inspired or do you feel more yourself when people or your

00:32:38.860 influencers or the idols are telling you that you can and and to be positive or when you see your

00:32:44.400 idols being more human and vulnerable and more real i think that's a great question what makes

00:32:49.260 you feel like you can what makes you feel better because i don't know if there's like a right

00:32:53.100 answer per se and i'm sure everyone's different but it is a great question because i think that

00:32:57.680 persona that you create when you know you have this oh that's that's that's hard oh wow joint

00:33:04.760 just flew in from nowhere shout out tana mojo i think that that persona that you create on

00:33:09.840 instagram or social media that portrays i don't even want to call it perfection i think it's just

00:33:15.040 like your ideal life like you're just using your creativity you're using your imagination to create

00:33:20.540 this persona i feel like how people perceive that and and compare and judge well also why i think it

00:33:27.120 works for me is like my authenticity like you guys know me not often am i crying or truly opening up

00:33:35.280 and being vulnerable it's something i'm working on obviously but it is authentic to me to to be

00:33:40.620 that guy who's always like like i'm a fucking delusional optimist i believe anyone can do

00:33:44.040 anything i i like yes yes yes yes until yes yes yes until no um and until no yes until no 0.74

00:33:52.960 my guess on that too by the way is i think that um bella's ability to show her her human side is

00:34:04.300 potentially more valuable this would be my guess because when it comes to celebrities everyone

00:34:09.500 everyone already knows that they're winning everyone already knows that their ability

00:34:13.260 their ability to be strong put their head down and grind grind grind the the relatability though

00:34:18.900 when someone talks about the struggles and failures

00:34:21.200 they've had to get there, I think is

00:34:22.840 super valuable. Thank you, Link.

00:34:26.020 I have a question.

00:34:27.140 You're being so nice to me today.

00:34:28.800 Can you zoom in?

00:34:30.700 Well, I like the story.

00:34:32.400 Can we try to get a

00:34:34.640 thumbnail? Can you be Elon Musk?

00:34:37.840 How well can you recreate this

00:34:39.160 photo?

00:34:42.620 Elon Musk

00:34:43.340 face. What's the face?

00:34:45.480 He's got like the eyebrow.

00:34:46.360 Can we get an actual photo of it?

00:34:51.200 There's just smoke coming out.

00:34:53.160 Here, hold it sideways so we get a little wider aspect ratio.

00:34:56.640 Is this it?

00:34:57.480 Is this what you want?

00:34:58.520 How about this camera here?

00:34:59.740 You're holding your hand and then puff out your lips and then, like, raise one eyebrow.

00:35:03.760 You really do have a young noble.

00:35:05.540 That's good right there.

00:35:06.340 A young Elon Musk in the house.

00:35:08.080 That was a photo.

00:35:09.780 That was great stuff.

00:35:11.120 Bella, what about people that reach out to you with, like, mental health problems

00:35:15.880 and like questions because i'm sure there's so many of them how do you like try to re-engage once

00:35:20.880 when people provide actual issues like i'm sure you see messages all day like i want to kill myself

00:35:25.480 like all these things do you do you ever respond or is it just impossible and you just send broad

00:35:29.900 messages it's okay so it depends on what it exactly says if you write me that you're going

00:35:35.880 to kill yourself in a tweet um i won't respond because i have dealt with a lot of um in my own

00:35:44.820 personal experience of when you get to the gratification that you're looking for, which is 0.97

00:35:52.140 somebody being like, don't do it, please don't do it. You're so strong. Therefore you keep going

00:35:57.060 back to that mindset whenever you need somebody to tell you that again. But the problem is, is

00:36:02.320 going to that first mindset in general, you know, that is kind of a trigger effect. And I think it's

00:36:07.380 almost a teaching thing that it's like, you know, when you're like, somebody help me, somebody help

00:36:11.960 me. You're literally saying someone, please help me right now. And instead of saying it in the

00:36:16.660 sense of, well, I'm going to kill myself if you don't help me, that I think just teaches the mind

00:36:22.700 to go there immediately every single time. So no. But when people reach out to me about mental

00:36:27.980 health in general, problems they're experiencing or their family or this and that, yeah, then it's

00:36:33.100 always a bigger conversation to be had because every scenario with this, somebody asked me to

00:36:38.380 like give advice to kids in my situation and I was like I can't really give advice because every

00:36:43.300 situation is so differently unique when it comes to this type of background that I'd have to have

00:36:49.980 a one-on-one conversation with someone to actually give them advice about their specific scenario

00:36:55.920 because the lines here they're very thin and and and and it's hard to you know not cross any of

00:37:03.700 them because it's such a it's such a tough thing have you have you ever had to deal with medications

00:37:10.420 um i am personally don't believe in uh pills i won't even take an advil or a title really my

00:37:17.460 period it's so bad how come that's one i've heard this before and like mad noble but also like

00:37:25.380 sometimes the avil just gets rid of my headache and it's awesome oh i know but it's a blood thinner

00:37:29.760 it's really strong blood thinner and um you know my dad he uh he had a lot of heart he died from a

00:37:36.300 heart attack technically a motorcycle accident but his heart gave out on him and you know just um

00:37:41.360 i just i also have a fear of pills like i try to take vitamins i try to force myself and a lot of

00:37:47.060 times i have to literally just grind them into my smoothies which tastes disgusting because i

00:37:51.860 literally also don't like taking pills like i think i have a literal fear of like you ever think

00:37:57.620 just sprinkling it on your joint and just smoking some vitamin b that sounds awful

00:38:02.780 it's like when a when you eat a fry and like the sharp end gets jammed in your throat is that what 0.99

00:38:21.580 you're afraid of um um i don't know honestly stupid fucking question we are failing i don't 0.99

00:38:28.200 know specifically what it is but i do know that that's just me personally you know um but i know 0.99

00:38:33.860 a lot of friends that are on medication and and they love it and and you know it really does make

00:38:38.660 a difference and help them so again it's so specific to your situation we've talked yeah

00:38:44.000 we've talked about medication quite a bit on the show and i think that i think like the end point

00:38:47.880 for it was medication being used to get you to a point where you're stable enough to actually

00:38:53.220 attack the problems that are causing the the situation for you is something that makes sense

00:38:57.920 if you're in a really bad place and you need it to get to a a place to have a fighting chance then

00:39:02.520 that makes sense but i also don't agree with like years and years and years of taking meds but not

00:39:09.040 handling the problem not making changes in your life or seeing a therapist or whatever so yeah

00:39:13.240 i just pulled up this uh this statistic that says u.s suicide rates are the highest they've

00:39:19.860 been since world war ii so playing on pills and mental health like we're definitely in a

00:39:26.660 scary trend right now remember when i said like everybody around you all your friends every single

00:39:32.220 person in this room has serious depression and it used to be just a thing where you're like

00:39:36.640 oh this one person you knew or these two people you knew but now it's literally basically the

00:39:43.160 whole generation in a sense it's it's really scary depression or anxiety i don't think it's

00:39:49.460 a whole generation i think i think i think it's a i think a huge percentage percentage yes it's

00:39:55.160 2016 there was 6.1 million uh children with adhd so you you have a passage about that

00:40:04.420 or add what's the difference do we know attention deficit disorder hyper hyperactivity 0.81

00:40:09.320 it's the same shit though yeah or no yeah very similar similar you have a hair right here and 0.98

00:40:14.560 i'd be a shit friend if i didn't say anything it's not a big deal i just can notice it no it's 0.99

00:40:17.800 like right it's like kind of like fun yeah you got it you got it there you go there you go that's 0.97

00:40:22.640 great so sorry um some may call it add add i call it the signs of a creative mind

00:40:29.240 and i really believe that i think so too do you think you have add or adhd um i think that i

00:40:35.920 definitely probably have a lot of things um and i was watching this thing recently on adhd which i

00:40:40.920 actually hadn't done that much research into it and man when they talk about the routines that

00:40:46.000 is like good to keep you in and like just like the brain the way the things it goes to and like

00:40:51.380 um they talk about like you know working out and literally just putting yourself in routine and i

00:40:56.560 constantly crave routines like yeah it's it's really weird like i'll be like for for three

00:41:01.620 months i ate burgers for breakfast lunch and dinner that's a lot of okay a lot of burgers and

00:41:07.260 then all of a sudden just done with it what did you get the burgers pizza all day like it was just

00:41:12.720 i am really weird about routines and i think that it's because my body is craving it in that sense

00:41:18.620 and i might definitely have routines are so strong yeah routines are everything kevin hines um one of

00:41:25.040 my friends who actually survived a suicide attempt off the golden gate bridge said routine was one of

00:41:30.420 the strongest things that helped him uh escape his depression uh because he's just focused on

00:41:34.720 different things every day takes 30 days to form a habit and 90 days to what's what's like what's

00:41:40.700 the step up from like a behavior a behavior i think that was it what he he's got he does what

00:41:45.760 um five or six 23 minute workouts per day at like specific time he's got it down to a sign he's so

00:41:52.360 structured about it but it's a routine is literally one of the most people are is ritalin still being

00:41:57.540 prescribed for kids with ADHD.

00:42:00.220 I remember when I was in a minute.

00:42:02.160 People are nodding at me, so yes.

00:42:03.680 But I haven't heard about it in a long time.

00:42:06.440 That's because everyone's on it.

00:42:07.740 What's the difference between Adderall and Ritalin?

00:42:11.220 Adderall and Ritalin

00:42:12.540 are central nervous system stimulants

00:42:15.180 to treat attention deficit disorder.

00:42:17.640 So pretty much the same thing.

00:42:19.140 Can we do a segment?

00:42:20.180 We do segments on this show,

00:42:21.440 and I think I have a fun one

00:42:22.300 that we can break it up a little bit.

00:42:23.980 And if Mike could open the soundboard.

00:42:26.200 I always forget that 1.00

00:42:27.920 you know fuck this shit 1.00

00:42:30.200 the segment is called more than 280 1.00

00:42:32.360 I have a powerpoint here as we do

00:42:34.060 Dylan made it shout out Dylan

00:42:35.460 oh thanks

00:42:38.500 here we go let's do a segment 0.99

00:42:39.700 let's do a fucking segment 0.99

00:42:41.320 the segment is called more than 280 0.99

00:42:42.940 oh you didn't hear it

00:42:44.620 let's do a segment

00:42:47.320 character

00:42:50.860 limit on twitter

00:42:52.800 280 characters

00:42:54.980 but I want to read some of your tweets

00:42:56.440 and have you dive into them

00:42:58.200 more than what we see on Twitter.

00:42:59.820 Here we go. 1.00

00:43:01.360 Oh, I hate hitting on girls.

00:43:02.540 Like, why is this so hard?

00:43:03.600 I don't know what to say 0.99

00:43:04.440 besides you're fucking beautiful. 0.99

00:43:06.540 Do you often find yourself 0.99

00:43:07.880 not knowing what to say

00:43:08.860 when you're hitting on girls?

00:43:09.700 And is that different from hitting on guys?

00:43:11.120 It's very different

00:43:12.280 as well as because like, you know,

00:43:14.260 with guys, it's like most of the time,

00:43:16.660 you know, like I have a lot of guy friends in general,

00:43:19.480 but like a good amount of the guys

00:43:20.920 that come up to me, I'm like,

00:43:21.980 what, you like me?

00:43:22.720 like i just have to kind of assume in a sense that you do just in case you try something that

00:43:26.840 i'm not like oh i didn't know like you know like i'm just kind of already gonna assume that maybe

00:43:32.300 you might make a move on me and uh and i'm just very open like i'm just like oh yo can i get your

00:43:38.000 number if i like somebody and they're like didn't ask me for mine or something but with girls it's

00:43:43.380 like you know do they want to be besties do they think i'm trying to be besties like when i'm like

00:43:50.880 yeah we should hang out like give me your number and they're like oh my god totally like let's go

00:43:55.340 out to lunch and i'm like yeah let's let's let's go to lunch and is it because you don't know

00:44:00.800 is it because you don't know if you're trying to make out or if they're just trying to be a friend

00:44:07.540 like when are you in james charles territory where you're hitting on straight women yeah do 0.98

00:44:12.740 Do you know if they're straight or not straight? 1.00

00:44:15.860 Exactly.

00:44:16.620 You don't know.

00:44:17.520 You don't really know.

00:44:20.680 And I won't say much about the James Charles situation,

00:44:23.700 but I did stick up for him on Insta and Snap

00:44:27.820 because I also was like,

00:44:30.400 but what if I'm a guy and I go and I just hit on this girl?

00:44:34.140 Well, she's not necessarily like reciprocating this to me.

00:44:36.960 Like I don't know until I try in a sense and she says no.

00:44:40.000 And when she says no, then you say, okay, bye.

00:44:41.960 we also didn't have a problem with it

00:44:43.600 it's like

00:44:44.800 with me

00:44:45.940 kind of the same thing

00:44:46.720 with girls

00:44:47.060 is I'm like

00:44:47.720 oh my god 0.99

00:44:48.480 you're so fucking beautiful 1.00

00:44:49.640 and they're like 0.99

00:44:50.140 oh my god baby

00:44:50.800 you are too

00:44:51.520 you're so pretty 0.96

00:44:52.260 you wanna go to the bathroom

00:44:53.480 and I'm just like

00:44:54.480 like is there a secret look

00:44:57.160 that's what I'm saying

00:44:57.920 what is it

00:44:58.880 it's gotta be something

00:44:59.400 what is it

00:45:00.180 I have one thing

00:45:01.000 what if you

00:45:01.500 what if you say to them

00:45:02.580 this is a good

00:45:03.580 a good question

00:45:04.540 you wanna get out of here

00:45:05.880 like when you say

00:45:07.040 you wanna get out of here

00:45:07.820 to somebody 1.00

00:45:08.220 that feels so like

00:45:09.820 you don't like it

00:45:11.000 like

00:45:11.280 Maybe not in that voice.

00:45:12.140 It feels like you're sexualizing it.

00:45:13.780 I've seen this in movies.

00:45:15.320 I've seen this in movies. 1.00

00:45:16.680 The girls are hanging out, and all of a sudden, they just start making out.

00:45:20.220 And I don't know how it could happen any other way.

00:45:22.820 I'm just not.

00:45:23.620 Is there like some.

00:45:24.460 I did not.

00:45:25.080 I did not.

00:45:25.760 I feel like you probably just have to get good at feeling the vibe, right?

00:45:29.400 I know.

00:45:30.000 I just have to get good at feeling the vibe.

00:45:32.260 Are you there?

00:45:32.760 How did you feel Tana's vibe?

00:45:34.360 How did you know about Tana?

00:45:35.960 The first time I met her, she literally, I didn't even.

00:45:38.560 She was like, hey, can I get a photo of us kissing?

00:45:40.860 that was like the first thing she said are you bi we've had this conversation yeah she said it

00:45:47.160 wow what'd you say yeah she is i said i really don't like boxes logan but i would oh that's

00:45:53.340 right yeah she said it but you're but you're by bella yeah i'm also pans i didn't know the actual

00:46:02.560 um i feel like also another thing that's really bad in uh in our community in general is like if

00:46:08.660 you don't know something why you're beaten down so hard for not knowing but the only way to teach

00:46:13.340 somebody something is by teaching them and not beating them down for not knowing so i didn't

00:46:17.160 actually know the difference between pansexual and like i just knew that it was different than bi

00:46:21.700 what is the difference so so somebody explained it to me the other day um when i asked and i was

00:46:27.800 like do i sound really stupid do you hate me and she's like no no no stop it's great to ask a

00:46:32.640 question i was like okay all right that was nice you know and now i can spread the message oh great 0.98

00:46:37.140 but she would have beat me down for it i wouldn't be here talking about it you know what i'm saying

00:46:41.760 so it's it worked like that better um but it's basically means like i i like what i like i don't

00:46:48.640 have a preference i like the soul in a sense like you know it doesn't really matter to me at all

00:46:55.480 who she them he they what it it's just if i like a vibe and so that's different i like that

00:47:04.800 bi is just like men and women or bi i mean girl or guy yeah so where so the so when you're as far

00:47:10.860 as i know don't don't don't beat me up over it guys as far as i know of please teach me a lesson 0.97

00:47:14.920 don't fucking beat me up over it oh my god so when you're pansexual that that goes out to 0.98

00:47:19.700 like transgender yeah i'm just down how about as far as like like bestiality like where i'm just 0.99

00:47:26.900 curious like does it is the line ever is it just making a joke i was i actually was quite different

00:47:32.660 things. Curious, okay. I'm

00:47:34.280 literally curious. Do you think me sitting

00:47:36.560 across from you would get high?

00:47:38.120 No, not you. I just mean like if someone

00:47:40.020 says like I'm pansexual, like where does that?

00:47:42.140 It doesn't include beastiality.

00:47:43.840 I'm dead serious. I was dead serious.

00:47:46.040 Does it include inanimate objects? I've seen

00:47:47.940 those shows True Life like I'm married to a bridge.

00:47:50.120 Have you seen that? That's what I'm asking.

00:47:51.500 She's married to a bridge. You're making a movie

00:47:53.840 about being married to a bridge? What are the odds?

00:47:56.020 Yo, bridges are chill. It's not a bridge, but it's

00:47:57.700 an object. What's the object?

00:48:00.320 I can't tell you. Come on!

00:48:02.120 just say it

00:48:03.000 no we're writing it

00:48:04.520 I can't

00:48:05.080 objects are more

00:48:06.240 more reliable for sure

00:48:07.600 pansexual

00:48:08.380 the definition 0.59

00:48:09.720 says it's attraction

00:48:11.240 towards people

00:48:11.900 regardless of their sex

00:48:12.960 or gender 0.95

00:48:13.460 it doesn't matter

00:48:14.640 it's people

00:48:15.580 no beasts

00:48:16.680 good question

00:48:17.160 I was wondering the same thing

00:48:18.060 I'm glad Mike said it

00:48:18.840 because you've seen shows

00:48:19.920 where they're like

00:48:20.520 I'm in a relationship

00:48:21.340 with my couch cushions

00:48:22.440 we've seen the shows

00:48:23.660 who knows

00:48:23.940 so like I didn't know

00:48:24.900 who knows 0.99

00:48:25.340 you can have sex 0.57

00:48:25.880 with anything nowadays 0.98

00:48:27.100 you shouldn't

00:48:28.280 bridges are

00:48:28.940 have you guys 0.99

00:48:29.420 had sex with inanimate objects 0.99

00:48:31.200 you should what 1.00

00:48:32.860 You should have sex with whatever you goddamn 1.00

00:48:34.780 please. Quick, find me in the nearest 1.00

00:48:36.880 go. If you're in love with a bridge, you're in love with a bridge.

00:48:39.100 No! That bridge is for you. You love that bridge.

00:48:41.100 What's the weirdest object that you guys have had 0.80

00:48:42.760 sex with? Me? Yeah. Body 0.99

00:48:44.680 pillow.

00:48:46.740 Yo, no 1.00

00:48:47.860 fucking guy in this room 1.00

00:48:50.820 can tell me 1.00

00:48:52.220 that they did not have sex

00:48:55.000 with a pillow when they were going through puberty

00:48:56.740 at the age of 13, 14. You weren't even

00:48:58.780 having sex. It was just happening without you even

00:49:00.780 doing it you're like how did i start having this pillow and why is this coming out of my penis right 0.99

00:49:04.780 now that's what happened yo man i just gonna get educated the first time i came bro i was like what 0.99

00:49:11.520 is this bro yeah i didn't know so i went to the store i bought condoms and i was like i'm gonna

00:49:17.000 collect it and find out what's happening because hey shout out mom and dad they never gave me the

00:49:22.000 talk dude my dad never told me what masturbating was ever or anything about sex which is so odd

00:49:28.000 Because we're so open

00:49:29.580 I had to discover it on my own

00:49:32.520 And then guess what 0.64

00:49:33.120 You hump your body pillow

00:49:34.220 One too many times bro

00:49:35.480 And a little hole forms there

00:49:37.040 And the orgasms are four times as good 1.00

00:49:39.280 Oh in the hole 0.97

00:49:40.380 You saw in that one show

00:49:42.820 What's that one show

00:49:43.440 The Big Mouth 0.96

00:49:44.280 Big Mouth

00:49:45.320 If anyone's seen here

00:49:46.460 The cartoon Big Mouth

00:49:47.540 The dude is in love with a pillow

00:49:49.280 Can I out myself on something

00:49:51.980 I skipped the pillows

00:49:53.660 And went to down comforters

00:49:55.960 like a good grip

00:49:58.060 on a down comforter

00:49:58.920 because it's nice and soft

00:49:59.980 and a little bit less

00:50:01.100 like pressurizing

00:50:02.140 and textureless 0.67

00:50:03.180 did you ever have sex

00:50:04.560 with an inanimate object

00:50:05.520 growing up

00:50:06.200 no

00:50:08.500 must be nice 0.99

00:50:09.780 now I'm fucking embarrassed 0.99

00:50:10.840 she's like no 0.99

00:50:11.440 missed out 0.66

00:50:12.180 hey let's go to the next suite 0.53

00:50:13.000 Instagram should put a ban

00:50:14.720 on all photoshop

00:50:15.480 on their platform

00:50:16.200 this isn't good for the psyche

00:50:17.320 and I think we could

00:50:17.900 lower suicide rates

00:50:18.900 that is what I think

00:50:20.400 but what about

00:50:21.740 all the insta thoughts

00:50:22.660 we are talking about this

00:50:23.780 and it's like

00:50:24.460 you have to create

00:50:25.020 some type of algorithm

00:50:25.940 them that literally says okay this is used through specifically facetune and then it says okay now

00:50:31.100 this was used to edit like this type of thing like the body or you know things that like you

00:50:37.100 you could do whatever they want whatever you want to your photo like i you know but in my general 0.90

00:50:41.880 opinion having this whole like okay first of all stop it you're fucking beautiful i tell tana this 0.94

00:50:50.960 all damn day oh my god like literally but i know i know and it's and it's insecurities and i get it 0.97

00:50:58.140 i get it and i'm i'm very insecure on a lot of things but as well as when you look up those 0.96

00:51:04.160 ratios and and look at how bad we're getting we have to do something and unfortunate yes it would 0.65

00:51:10.380 be a little bit of a slap on the wrist i'm sorry you can't edit um your body or your butt to look 0.77

00:51:15.140 bigger or like you to look more perfect I'm sorry but also would you rather that or would you rather 0.98

00:51:22.160 these suicide rates to keep going up higher and higher and higher and highest they've ever been

00:51:26.560 like there just has to be this isn't I don't say it is necessarily the answer but there has to be

00:51:32.600 something that these huge platforms are going to go out of their way to do to watch it because they

00:51:38.180 are really in the wrong in the sense that they are letting this happen all over their platform

00:51:44.280 they let bullying happen they do this they let all these kinds of things and look at what we're

00:51:49.300 doing now so we have to do something to at least try and help like my goodness to these platforms

00:51:56.200 you may know know this they've they've instagram started they started beta testing removing likes

00:52:00.960 on photos did you know that um i did hear about that yeah so to say like by bellathorn and others

00:52:06.220 do you think that's a good first step i think that that is a definitely a really interesting

00:52:11.080 one and it might take us a while of like suicide rates maybe picking up more because it's just

00:52:16.900 everyone's like so used to what they're used to and now all of a sudden hold on this is such a

00:52:21.940 big change but i think that it would definitely help in the long run for sure it's just that the 0.70

00:52:26.680 immediate change it would have we would probably see it as like oh fuck like maybe this wasn't the

00:52:32.680 best idea but in the long run yeah definitely it's just it's gonna take us a while to get used 0.85

00:52:37.000 to and like like it i gotta i gotta text from somebody yesterday that you know and david knows

00:52:42.140 actually uh which is super interesting you might know her too that she's almost done with an app

00:52:47.820 that can detect uh the photoshopping it's almost done it's good it's almost done it's so funny it's

00:52:55.440 so funny that we're having this conversation because literally yesterday she texted me it was

00:52:58.620 like it's been in the works for two years that's awesome yeah people are people are yeah people are

00:53:02.740 finding out right now uh this is from the guardian that uh social media platforms are using the same

00:53:08.400 techniques as gambling firms to create psychological dependencies and ingrain their products in the

00:53:14.300 lives of their users experts warn and they're saying methods activate the same brain mechanisms

00:53:20.020 as cocaine and leads users to experience phantom notification buzzing every time you see it it's

00:53:27.500 like it gives your mind like basically doing a line of code every time you see it every time you

00:53:31.540 see it boom boom boom boom it's literally designed to do that has your phone ever have you ever

00:53:37.660 heard a buzz and you grab your phone and it didn't buzz i mean spencer when you ask these

00:53:43.960 types of questions like what do you want from me guy like okay sure i made a mistake once also

00:53:47.580 another question whose phone's buzzing bro whose phone's still buzzing does anyone here have their

00:53:53.020 you have vibration vibrate it's real quick though it goes it goes that's it i got it

00:53:58.600 Have you ever been in bed with someone-

00:54:00.260 But it's not just about the buzz.

00:54:01.220 It's about literally the notification banner.

00:54:04.020 That coming across-

00:54:04.740 I have those all turned off.

00:54:06.320 I try to.

00:54:08.480 But have you ever been in bed with someone who has that vibration on

00:54:11.680 and someone's like blowing them up in the middle of their night

00:54:13.920 and you're just sitting there like,

00:54:15.340 do you want to check that?

00:54:17.300 Because it's chill.

00:54:18.520 Do you want to check it maybe?

00:54:20.120 Yeah, they're just snoring.

00:54:21.180 You can't sleep because of the vibration.

00:54:22.220 Black Mirror just came out with an episode about this.

00:54:24.240 It's called Smithereens.

00:54:26.200 Yeah.

00:54:26.820 Great series, by the way. 0.98

00:54:27.980 this new season is fucking incredible. 0.96

00:54:29.380 It's actually, it's not the best ever. 0.97

00:54:33.160 Some of the episodes are good.

00:54:34.780 I love it.

00:54:35.500 We got into an argument about it.

00:54:36.640 You may have seen it.

00:54:37.520 Follow us on Instagram at Impulsive Show.

00:54:39.100 All right, here's the next one.

00:54:41.280 Bella Thorne, I'm bored of being lonely.

00:54:43.340 I just want you, Logan Paul.

00:54:45.920 Was this about me?

00:54:47.860 Like, what happened here?

00:54:51.180 And when I saw this, I was like,

00:54:53.140 I was gonna text you and be like,

00:54:54.440 yo, like I can be there.

00:54:56.140 But I don't know.

00:54:56.740 I would think I was, like, working out or something.

00:54:58.660 But what was going on here?

00:55:00.280 I was about to say.

00:55:03.060 You couldn't just stop the swell sesh to go take care of BT?

00:55:06.740 Like, what's good?

00:55:08.340 How many relationships have you been in?

00:55:10.980 Two.

00:55:11.260 Is that why?

00:55:12.980 Look, man, I got a lot of things to work on.

00:55:15.640 You love the gym more than me.

00:55:18.120 Yeah, I'm bored of being lonely.

00:55:19.740 I just want you.

00:55:20.940 Yeah, that's basically my whole mental idea in general.

00:55:23.960 like i said earlier i'm a relationship hopper and i just stay in long-term relationships kind

00:55:29.360 of one after another i don't like dating around i don't like being lonely i'm a very lonely person

00:55:33.720 and um i try to work on it all the time actually um and it's a really difficult thing to beat

00:55:43.540 i i will say but when when i'm alone in in bed at night i feel like the most

00:55:50.440 Vulnerable

00:55:52.320 Like

00:55:52.800 I'm just a little flower

00:55:54.740 Please

00:55:55.280 Come

00:55:55.740 Come

00:55:55.920 Come

00:55:56.380 Come

00:55:56.580 I'm right here

00:55:58.140 It happens to me too

00:56:00.580 It happens to me too

00:56:01.760 Same thing

00:56:02.260 I've walked in on him

00:56:03.500 Doing that before

00:56:04.240 He's like

00:56:04.580 Please

00:56:04.940 I need water

00:56:05.720 And new dirt

00:56:06.660 Just a little flower

00:56:07.780 Can you pass the remote

00:56:08.620 I'm like

00:56:08.880 Yo Logan

00:56:09.320 What's good

00:56:10.040 What kind of flower are you

00:56:11.680 I'm just curious

00:56:12.360 I took pictures of flowers

00:56:13.580 When I was young

00:56:14.220 A log stem red rose

00:56:15.440 Okay

00:56:15.740 I don't know what that is

00:56:16.820 Log stem red rose

00:56:18.020 I think I know what that is

00:56:19.260 I'm a petunia

00:56:20.380 yeah

00:56:21.860 a petunia

00:56:22.900 I would be

00:56:23.560 I would be an orchid

00:56:25.140 nice

00:56:26.160 cause it

00:56:27.000 doesn't it bloom like once 0.98

00:56:28.060 and then it just fucking like 0.95

00:56:29.000 and if you touch the petals 0.98

00:56:30.040 you're just slowly killing it

00:56:31.180 that's like me 1.00

00:56:31.820 like if you

00:56:32.260 if you ruffle my feathers 1.00

00:56:33.460 I'm fucking 1.00

00:56:34.460 I fall apart 1.00

00:56:35.860 don't ruffle me bro

00:56:37.280 alright look

00:56:38.140 that's it

00:56:38.500 that's the end of this segment

00:56:39.400 that was cool

00:56:40.120 thanks fella 0.99

00:56:40.940 holy shit 0.98

00:56:41.720 thanks 0.99

00:56:42.100 we gotta do that again

00:56:43.500 so I

00:56:44.940 I like diving in your mind

00:56:46.380 with those tweets

00:56:46.960 and I wanna dive in your mind

00:56:48.360 with a passage here

00:56:49.820 in your book 0.91

00:56:50.360 i want to read it because this one specifically i to be honest i don't know what the fuck

00:56:55.200 a lot of this book is awesome and i love it and there's a quarter of it where i could compare it

00:57:03.420 to talking to someone on acid like i like if i'm being honest like i just here we go what happened

00:57:10.260 to your face i tried to cut my own eye open with a box cutter what's it look like a cat scratched

00:57:15.740 me and then there's a cat with a box cutter saying he he what is this about it's an analogy

00:57:25.340 it basically means like when someone's like oh are you okay and you're like um yeah like a cat 0.90

00:57:31.140 scratched me like no i tried to cut my eye open with a box cutter what's it fucking look like

00:57:35.440 like it's basically saying um when you're in that uh type of state of mind you know that is kind of 0.97

00:57:44.360 how you feel and then you know when when you're in grief and people get really upset because

00:57:48.480 they're like oh i'm so sorry and you're like well you didn't kill him or like you didn't do it like

00:57:52.580 sorry like what do you mean like and people feel really like empty statements by that that is kind 0.99

00:57:58.060 of what i'm referring to gotcha here's one coincidences are for losers don't be a pussy 0.97

00:58:03.680 it's right in front of you this one i wrote for myself because i constantly say like coincidence 0.96

00:58:09.080 whoa that's weird that's weird and i was just like it's not a coincidence man like the universe 0.51

00:58:13.800 is just strung together and it is just not a fucking coincidence if it's right like look at 0.52

00:58:18.900 it it's right in front of you that to me in a sense is a sign that you're either on the right 0.86

00:58:23.880 path or you've been there done that before so in a sense you are on the right path i think

00:58:29.360 coincidence is therefore and and i constantly have to say this to myself all the time i'm like 0.99

00:58:35.380 oh my god what a coincidence then i'm like for losers don't be a pussy bell do you think everything 0.99

00:58:41.740 you've written in this book is going to hold true for the rest of your life do you feel pretty 0.99

00:58:45.840 pretty solid or are you a changing molding the most i if you notice i put a lot of dates on things

00:58:51.000 because a lot of things i wrote like some of the things i wrote when i first turned 18 between 18

00:58:56.000 and 19 and i was like really figuring myself out and had so many questions that i literally could

00:59:02.620 just my brain was gonna explode with all these questions and it i put them in there so that you

00:59:08.520 know that this is where i started and and here is my progress and and as you get older my thoughts

00:59:14.500 are going to change my opinions will change they'll they'll vert back they'll keep going like

00:59:18.760 are you going to make volumes of these i feel like this is the first one and then um there

00:59:23.480 will be the second one and the third gotcha um so you talk about coincidences when when you

00:59:30.080 got involved in the the disney funnel was that a weird coincidence because i read somewhere you

00:59:35.420 only did that because you were about to become homeless and and you needed money um we were uh

00:59:43.240 yes yep we um were uh you know we we were a very poor family growing up and then we got money at

00:59:50.860 one point and then my my uh my mom got very sick and my father and all these other things happened

00:59:56.960 and then when we came up to LA it just got harder and harder and more struggling and more struggling

01:00:01.120 and then um and then shake it up and it wasn't like i i didn't watch disney growing up i the

01:00:08.160 the grudge was one of the first movies i really like saw and loved like i've only ever watched

01:00:14.400 and my sister actually loved disney stuff and i'm actually named after bell so really

01:00:19.180 i'm supposed to be but i just never did and i was on big love at the time on hbo and um and and

01:00:26.620 that was just like not really scraping us by at all you know when you're on it like such a big

01:00:30.560 show so many members yeah so so amazing and then it was like shake it up or that's what are you

01:00:39.340 what's your other option um did you know about big love we talk about uh that was the polygamy

01:00:45.200 show correct it's a show about polygamy and was it based in utah it was and what was your role

01:00:51.040 in that again um i played tansy henrickson was it a mormon god the dog oh my god was it a mormon

01:00:57.480 uh yeah yeah okay it's a cool show you should watch it like really cool so we can talk about

01:01:02.600 the the trauma you've had in your life and you've experienced at such a young age was there ever a

01:01:06.780 point where you made it per se and it made it better for you did your success ever give you

01:01:13.220 a sense of relief oh definitely when when when we were able to like uh eat lots of food that was

01:01:24.500 you know that was like different food like you know for there's it's quite hard to explain but

01:01:31.260 I did this KFC commercial and and so they sent us a bunch of frozen chicken and so that was

01:01:36.840 all we had for a while and then these like stouffers like coupons that we got from this event

01:01:41.380 um and then that and so it was nice to like uh go to Olive Garden and like go you know you know

01:01:50.880 like do things like that like that was so cool and i remember when my mom got me my like my first

01:01:56.340 nice thing like an mcm bag and like that was such a cool crazy moment of like oh we're able to do

01:02:03.540 this kind of now and then you know after shake it up like obviously shake it up was a very short

01:02:09.560 time only three years and so um that then it was hard again for a minute and then you know then it

01:02:16.280 picked up again able to make more money and social media came about and then i got an instagram and

01:02:21.880 you know that started happening so well even when you were making it you were going through a lot

01:02:26.780 of shit and there's this clip of you we don't have to play it um but you know this one where 0.70

01:02:32.000 you were talking about um you being abused at a young age and this is actually when i reached out 0.99

01:02:38.120 to you um how did that affect you being a young blossoming hollywood star

01:02:46.180 i mean i think that it probably was one of the reasons why i felt like i was so drowned and i

01:02:56.220 was in such a dark place growing up and i contemplated suicide and there was just like

01:03:00.280 a lot of things and i i think it was because it was such a crazy thing of like everyone knows

01:03:05.600 everything about you but this one thing that's so big and makes you literally who you are it's

01:03:12.500 literally changed me as a person completely and nobody and it's happening for so long and then

01:03:21.040 all these people are around and you're just hiding this big secret and it's so weird and everyone's

01:03:28.080 just there but nobody is saying like it's just it was it just made me feel like I was literally

01:03:35.420 encased in this not a doll but like this thing and i'm literally like a black mirror episode just

01:03:43.180 say beating on the inside it just it made me literally feel like i was completely drowning

01:03:49.760 and i'm writing this series right now and and i have a scene that like really totally puts the

01:03:54.660 character very much there um and it's just this feeling of i don't know another way to describe

01:04:01.140 it besides like drowning like right before you have a panic attack have you ever had a panic

01:04:04.600 attack so like the moment right before you have a panic attack where you feel like it's it it's

01:04:12.320 like it's quite indescribable it's it's that's how i felt for a lot of my years growing up um

01:04:19.320 because you know it was only uh when i was 18 and i moved out he moved out a week after me 0.89

01:04:25.520 so it's like so just crazy i mean like 18 like i was like hella famous by then like what the fuck 0.87

01:04:37.040 literally what the fuck it's so weird you know he's there the whole entire time he drove me to 0.84

01:04:43.520 set he was you know in my dressing room he uh and you've watched me you've never revealed who 0.99

01:04:47.920 this person was um no yeah i didn't i i'll talk about that you read that one too in the book

01:04:53.740 can I ask why um I I don't know but I think that one I it was already such a big moment for me to

01:05:06.800 kind of go out about this um so then it was like then they'll know what he looks like and

01:05:17.100 they'll imagine it and they'll just put him there you know and I just don't really um I don't know

01:05:26.640 and and in going after him I talk about that a lot in the book too of like this self-hatred I have

01:05:32.440 because the police you know they they make they make their victims feel like villains and you know

01:05:38.840 so many people don't ever report the abuse and that's there's there's not a question oh why not

01:05:45.060 Why do you think? Of course, because of this system. And so for me, I have, I have such a

01:05:52.040 hard time. I call it, it's called selfish in there. And it's, it's literally about me being selfish.

01:05:56.700 I am selfish because I won't just put myself through the pain of describing every story in

01:06:04.900 detail that I've spent so long trying to forget and have reworked my mental brain so that I don't

01:06:12.660 have flashbacks all the time and to go back there again over and over and over and watch somebody

01:06:20.680 look at you and basically has to question if you're lying at every point in time when you're

01:06:25.780 just trying to tell your story that I think might um might really hurt me on the inside like it might

01:06:33.060 break me in a sense you know and and I call it selfish yeah because it just seems very selfish

01:06:39.180 And I just have to give myself the chance not to be selfish.

01:06:44.340 Do you think you'll ever reach a point where you feel like expressing yourself

01:06:49.440 and just letting everything out will make you feel better to live the rest of your life?

01:06:54.740 I'm hoping that's what this book will do.

01:06:57.280 You know, I've for so long have felt so like weird when all these people like,

01:07:04.160 you know, I feel like so many people just hate me in a sense.

01:07:06.840 and like it's you know it definitely gets to me and it's really hard because everyone around me

01:07:12.140 is always like well if everyone just knew you'd be like they'd love you like you know you're just

01:07:17.860 you're you and with this book it was one of the things of besides the mental disarray it was kind

01:07:23.740 of like here I am read me like an open big like I'm literally right here like this is my mental 0.89

01:07:32.720 shit when tana read some of the first few pages she was literally like you haven't even told me 0.96

01:07:38.040 some of this shit why are you putting this in the book this is so out there and now i'm just like 0.98

01:07:43.760 hopefully that will make me feel better because i really do feel like um you know i never went 0.97

01:07:49.300 to therapy but like the first time i had to tell someone about what had happened and then that was

01:07:55.000 the worst time ever the first time is always going to be the worst so then if you talk about it more

01:07:59.700 and more and more and you almost it sounds fucked up but normalize it in your mind it starts to hurt

01:08:05.100 less every single time and so I think that this will help me a lot um I'm hoping of course it 0.65

01:08:12.780 will help other people but it is selfish in the sense that this is you know I want this book to

01:08:18.360 really help me um mentally like really I don't know like open my brain I don't know I guess I'm

01:08:26.640 always searching for an answer and you know i'm thinking maybe this book will be it i don't know

01:08:30.580 do you have a message to um any other girls out there that have had that happen to them do you

01:08:39.440 any words of you know courage or strength or anything like that that you'd want to say to

01:08:44.200 someone who's been through the same thing that you have um um as i was saying earlier you know

01:08:51.320 you can't really give advice to anybody on this scenario without knowing the, you know, there,

01:08:58.280 you know, there's, there's so many lines that you can't really give advice because everything is so

01:09:03.880 unique. You know, you could say to somebody like, oh, well, well, we'll tell your mom. Well, what

01:09:09.440 if your mom doesn't believe you? Or what if your mom beats you for it? Or what if your father does

01:09:13.480 this to you for it? Or, you know, oh, well go tell this person. And what if that person tells the

01:09:17.640 whole school. And then everybody thinks that you're, um, this thing, you know, like there's,

01:09:21.740 there's, it's just really specific. But what I will say is you just have to literally keep fighting

01:09:28.780 because there's too many times in my life where I thought that maybe fighting wasn't worth it

01:09:34.760 anymore, but it just is, it is every single time. And after you get beaten down again and again,

01:09:41.780 and again. You have to just keep fighting, even when you feel like it might kill you, because

01:09:50.020 what's better? Being yourself, being out of that situation, getting to live your life the way you

01:09:57.280 should be allowed to and not be taken advantage of or death. I'd rather fight this day to death

01:10:02.680 then let it happen again and again and again you know and that is what I didn't do then

01:10:12.140 and I I wish I had and I was so young and I was so like you know it started when I was the first

01:10:18.900 thing the first time I can remember was when I was six and that wasn't the first time that was

01:10:22.760 after it had already been happening so I don't know but it was so normal that I didn't know it

01:10:28.320 was wrong for so long and that is something is so hard to mentally get past that and stockholm 0.88

01:10:35.240 syndrome are two of the most fucked up things that in this situation you hate yourself for it 0.93

01:10:42.100 you feel disgusting but you're not a bruised fruit your fruit is still beautiful you can 0.99

01:10:49.480 still buy it at the supermarket it's not bruised what's the what's the go-to um like uh direction

01:10:57.340 from people in authority or in the health community or mental health community in terms

01:11:02.880 of what people should do if they have been through this are they direct are like are we supposed to

01:11:07.680 direct people in the audience that may have been through it to talk to a therapist to talk to someone

01:11:11.800 they trust at their school like i understand what you said about you know if you tell your best

01:11:16.300 friend she may tell the school if you tell your mom she may be jealous who is the good person to

01:11:20.940 talk to if you're dealing with something like this i've i've talked to therapists about trauma

01:11:24.420 that i've been through it's been helpful i was just curious why a therapist wasn't something that

01:11:29.600 you ever because therapy wasn't a thing in our family but i'm also was raised you know like 0.98

01:11:34.820 this different now when i was younger it was still normal to beat the shit out of your kids 0.64

01:11:39.960 so let me tell you nobody was looking like that was weird it is not normal now yeah i got thrown 0.56

01:11:45.500 down the stairs a couple of times greg paul yeah i deserved it no i deserved it he says that is not

01:11:52.360 true he maintains no child deserves to be thrown down the stairs um did he give you did he give

01:11:59.640 you like a little shove or was it like a full out like it was it was it was strategic bro like i'm

01:12:05.800 being okay there were three stairs it was like a staircase that led to another staircase there

01:12:10.040 was three stairs and he threw me down i hit the wall and it was fine bro i was fine and like maybe

01:12:16.300 I turned out just fine, right? 0.86

01:12:18.740 I feel fucking great. 0.71

01:12:20.300 Yeah, dude. 0.99

01:12:21.500 That's why you have that lump in your skull.

01:12:24.420 Yeah.

01:12:24.780 Maybe he was just testing the drywall out.

01:12:26.800 Like, he just had it installed.

01:12:27.580 Who knows, but I'm sure he had a reason.

01:12:29.920 Shout out, Greg.

01:12:31.220 I don't know, man.

01:12:32.120 I love you, Greg, even though you sold that pickup truck.

01:12:35.600 No.

01:12:36.220 I don't know.

01:12:36.620 I don't know.

01:12:37.280 Violence, violence.

01:12:38.460 No.

01:12:39.100 Hey, hey, all right, all right.

01:12:40.600 Mr. Bean Man.

01:12:43.460 What's the best way to discipline your kin?

01:12:45.320 Did you say kin?

01:12:45.940 Mental control over your child is the best way.

01:12:49.660 Come on.

01:12:50.220 Mind control? 0.59

01:12:51.160 Come on.

01:12:51.820 That's impossible.

01:12:53.200 I am your parent.

01:12:55.600 And so, therefore, like, the repercussions, it should not be to abuse them.

01:13:00.420 Those repercussions are never going to work.

01:13:02.380 One. 0.93

01:13:02.760 Two, it's fucked up morally. 0.96

01:13:04.540 And three, it's only going to leave them. 0.97

01:13:04.600 I don't know if abuse is the right word.

01:13:08.320 Abuse implies repetition.

01:13:10.200 To me.

01:13:10.760 To me.

01:13:11.260 So, you're saying he threw you down the staircase once and he never touched your hair on your

01:13:14.580 head after that?

01:13:15.160 I mean, he did some other things, but like as a little kid, no, I was not, no, but I was not

01:13:21.040 abused. I was disciplined. And sure, it may have been a little more physical than the average

01:13:25.120 parent, but also I turned out a little more average than the average person. What about

01:13:30.180 spankings? And so did Jake, by the way, there's two of us, like something as fucked up as we are, 1.00

01:13:36.940 something did go right in our childhood. I think discipline, like discipline's a completely 0.95

01:13:43.140 different thing than like throwing

01:13:45.100 someone downstairs like you can

01:13:46.860 I hit the wall flat bro

01:13:48.800 GP has argued this

01:13:51.260 throw for the longest time I don't know

01:13:53.220 if this has been created in Logan's head 0.99

01:13:54.980 you know what's fucked up 0.93

01:13:57.180 is that Logan normalizes it 0.97

01:13:59.120 as that I deserved it and that's

01:14:01.460 honestly the worst part

01:14:03.020 I don't think so

01:14:04.080 and by the way I'm setting a horrible example because now

01:14:07.120 I'm saying I don't know if that really happened like

01:14:09.100 who's it it happened

01:14:10.960 i'm sorry logan says it happened he definitely happened yo but i'm just i think i'm not i'm not

01:14:17.720 a victim i am i am a fully functioning human bean man but you don't know what kind of like traumas

01:14:23.860 you hold on to you really don't like if that stuff gets buried the traumas i hold on to are not from

01:14:29.800 you should just do the whole show wow you should just why do you think he's on the show why do you

01:14:34.360 think he's on the show because he provides that perspective but i'm saying 100 in your life

01:14:39.080 everything that happened to you when you

01:14:41.160 were younger, you don't even notice

01:14:43.140 at all. Subconscious. They're all

01:14:44.580 subconscious. For sure. Yeah, it's 100%.

01:14:46.680 It's like an onion. You have that thing

01:14:49.080 happen and you put another layer, another layer, another

01:14:51.040 layer. All these layers go on top

01:14:53.160 of it. And then when you peel it back, your eyes

01:14:55.040 just water more and more.

01:14:56.680 The deeper you get, the more 0.99

01:14:59.260 fucked up that onion. Yeah, I like onions. 0.99

01:15:01.720 Oh, you like onions.

01:15:03.420 You ate an onion on Jimmy

01:15:05.160 Kimmel, right? Just took a

01:15:07.160 bite out of an onion.

01:15:09.080 can i can i say by the way balance dude like don't punch your kids in the face don't throw

01:15:14.760 them down the stairs i ain't against a little spanking i saw a video a while back recently

01:15:19.400 about a kid who was at his graduation he was a four or five year old kid you maybe i'll even 0.98

01:15:23.720 pull it up you know which one i'm talking about the kid i saw one in a bathroom and a kid was

01:15:28.840 yelling at his dad in the bathroom like like i want to ask you i want to find this video well

01:15:34.480 because it's in the same vein i want to i want to find this video and ask you how you would

01:15:37.960 discipline this kid can i just that's hard because it's like but look at how you raise that kid that

01:15:44.180 you let that kid get there to even think that they okay what i was saying about um mental control is

01:15:50.440 authority you have authority over your children and if you have literally like you know you know

01:15:57.560 just put that in their smoothie every single day until they're older then you shouldn't have to be

01:16:03.580 disciplining your children

01:16:06.400 by throwing them down the stairs.

01:16:08.120 Life isn't perfect though, Bella.

01:16:09.620 Like who knows what could happen

01:16:11.840 that your kid thinks.

01:16:12.940 I think the best way to do it

01:16:14.560 is to lead. 0.98

01:16:15.000 You could be a little demon child, 0.97

01:16:15.400 unfortunately, 0.95

01:16:16.140 but also that like society,

01:16:17.980 look at what you,

01:16:18.980 you know,

01:16:19.540 you have to look at your circumstances

01:16:21.220 and you can't blame the child.

01:16:22.900 Look at what the child is growing up in.

01:16:25.280 Say you're a link.

01:16:26.460 You have to lead by example.

01:16:28.380 Like I think a perfect example is

01:16:30.360 parents always tell you

01:16:31.760 you got to eat your vegetables.

01:16:32.920 But they never do.

01:16:33.580 And their plate is just, there's nothing on it.

01:16:35.840 Or make your bed, but they don't.

01:16:37.520 You do what you watch.

01:16:39.700 Are you listening?

01:16:40.380 Yeah.

01:16:40.900 Because we're convincing you, not ourselves.

01:16:42.480 We're kind of just vibing.

01:16:43.660 We're preaching to the choir over here.

01:16:45.900 I really don't.

01:16:47.080 I don't think they were listening.

01:16:48.200 I think they just said.

01:16:48.800 I took on this challenge to find this gosh dang video.

01:16:52.220 Here's one.

01:16:53.600 What went wrong here?

01:16:56.160 I'm sure you've seen this.

01:17:00.100 This is a preschool graduation.

01:17:01.700 Good afternoon, Paris.

01:17:06.200 Good afternoon, boys and girls. 1.00

01:17:09.140 Shut the fuck up. 1.00

01:17:10.500 Hey. 1.00

01:17:11.680 Oh, nice.

01:17:12.640 No, thank you.

01:17:13.420 No, thank you. 1.00

01:17:14.640 This little fucking kid. 1.00

01:17:16.060 No, there was more. 1.00

01:17:16.480 There was more.

01:17:16.580 Wait, wait, wait.

01:17:16.920 You got to play it.

01:17:18.260 There's something coming in after that, bro. 1.00

01:17:20.000 Oh, shit. 1.00

01:17:21.020 Play the whole thing so well. 1.00

01:17:22.020 Look at this guy.

01:17:22.860 This guy.

01:17:24.200 So sorry.

01:17:26.140 So how's everyone been?

01:17:27.760 No, play it again.

01:17:28.600 Go ahead.

01:17:28.900 It's playing.

01:17:29.380 Yeah, I think it is, Mark.

01:17:30.580 The volume? 1.00

01:17:31.700 Boys and girls, shut the fuck up. 1.00

01:17:34.560 Hey, baby. 1.00

01:17:36.220 Not nice.

01:17:37.140 No, thank you.

01:17:37.940 No, thank you.

01:17:38.860 How does that kid know that? 1.00

01:17:40.500 No, bitch. 1.00

01:17:42.040 No, bitch. 1.00

01:17:43.300 Yeah, he's out. 1.00

01:17:44.520 So he says shut the fuck up. 1.00

01:17:46.060 Oh, he's just on his way out. 1.00

01:17:47.460 What do you do?

01:17:48.380 What do you do? 1.00

01:17:49.460 You don't say shut the fuck up in front of your children. 1.00

01:17:52.800 What did they learn at school? 1.00

01:17:54.120 I was about to say, when they do learn at school,

01:17:56.220 you have to really find a way between you and your partner.

01:17:59.960 of and you have to do that while you're you know like you don't do that like after all of a sudden

01:18:06.540 the problems are coming up oh no let's deal with them now let's cross that bridge when we get to

01:18:10.140 it you know with your partner that you should be having these discussions especially so that you

01:18:14.160 both agree and you don't go into some relationship not agreeing with how you both want to raise your

01:18:18.380 children because that can also be just a recipe for disaster but i mean like what he i feel bad

01:18:27.400 for that kid like i'm just now thinking of the scenario where his mom or dad is yelling at one 0.91

01:18:33.040 another or yelling at him saying shut the fuck up and then it's just kind of sticking in his mind 0.91

01:18:37.760 and it is now coming out in a place where clearly he feels uncomfortable i mean we could get like 0.99

01:18:43.800 you know so many people in here to really diagnose this kid with how many fucked up things have

01:18:48.620 probably happened in his life that he feels the need to have an outburst like that all right well 0.91

01:18:53.080 Something happened.

01:18:55.080 Hey, should we do the audio only?

01:18:56.660 I think it would be a nice time.

01:18:57.720 I'd be like that.

01:18:58.120 It's like this, Bella, but it's audio only.

01:19:02.100 Yeah.

01:19:02.920 You can still smoke.

01:19:04.080 People just won't see it.

01:19:04.900 Just make more noises with it so people know you're smoking.

01:19:07.040 If people won't see it, then I can't smoke.

01:19:08.880 That's why I'm sure.

01:19:09.520 She does it for the people.

01:19:10.880 True.

01:19:11.420 Bella, thank you so much for coming on Impulsive today.

01:19:14.120 Thanks for having me.

01:19:14.640 For real.

01:19:15.700 Bella's book, The Life of a Wannabe Mogul, Mental Disarray, Volume 1, is out July 23rd.

01:19:21.300 Where can they buy it?

01:19:22.180 Is it going to be in Barnes and Nobles?

01:19:23.560 Uh-huh.

01:19:24.000 Barnes and Nobles?

01:19:24.760 Barnes and Nobles.

01:19:25.540 Nobles, I believe.

01:19:26.120 We got it.

01:19:26.620 Barnes and Nobles?

01:19:27.240 Yes.

01:19:27.600 Oh, yeah.

01:19:28.160 We out here.

01:19:28.820 Dang.

01:19:29.500 That's awesome.

01:19:30.440 Will it be black or red?

01:19:31.420 Because you talked about the colors.

01:19:32.620 The first one is red.

01:19:33.520 Okay, great.

01:19:34.260 Yeah.

01:19:35.060 Okay, great.

01:19:35.920 Buy the book.

01:19:36.560 I'm going to keep this one.

01:19:37.880 Thank you so much, Bella.

01:19:38.900 You can find her on Instagram at Bella Thorne.

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01:19:51.120 well i think i'm high now i think i got contact high you guys are over there bro i'm high as a

01:20:00.620 kite hey when are you trying to have kids bella what are you trying to have kids an invite no

01:20:07.920 um but i would love kids of course any specific age um i would love kids when i i always i always

01:20:17.620 say like i want to be so rich by the time i have kids i know that sounds terrible but i just want

01:20:24.940 to i know that working moms like i love it like i i love it but i personally want to spend so much

01:20:34.020 time like really studying my kid and learning about like i don't know like i just have a feeling

01:20:39.740 that after i have kids i'm gonna be like all right work's going on hold for a good minute over here

01:20:46.040 And I'm going to want to like do some crazy things with these kids.

01:20:48.700 And I don't know because I want to give, which is not the, not a good,

01:20:53.380 not a good thing.

01:20:54.700 I want to give my kids everything they want because of course I never had

01:20:58.360 anything.

01:20:58.840 So that's not the best way to raise your kids.

01:21:02.620 But of course I know that I will be.

01:21:04.300 You're going to combat that.

01:21:05.200 I know.

01:21:05.600 Cause it's, it's valid and it's, it's concerned.

01:21:07.800 I don't want to raise a kid in LA.

01:21:09.320 I think this is a horrible place to raise a kid.

01:21:11.020 That's what I said.

01:21:11.340 I don't want to raise a kid in LA.

01:21:12.540 What am I out of my mind?

01:21:13.580 Yeah.

01:21:14.380 I want to go to Arkansas, Little Rock,

01:21:15.760 arkansas where they have to play with trees for fun yeah you gotta be careful with places like

01:21:21.280 that too as well though because yeah there's crazies in there some rivers some of the places

01:21:25.760 where there's really nothing else to do those kids get really heavy into drugs because there's

01:21:30.740 nothing else to do starting from a young age in high school the high school i went to was called

01:21:34.960 heroin high that was a nickname what heroin high really it was called westlake high school

01:21:39.480 nicknamed heroin high because yeah yeah yeah and where mike grew up i mean because there's nothing

01:21:44.640 else to do around literally yeah my city was called milford but everyone called it pilfered

01:21:49.520 because there were so many oxy 80s floating around we got drowned in those pills that's so scary

01:21:55.140 that's another thing like you know i don't want to have a kid right now one i think i'm too young

01:22:00.880 too um because i'm like i this education system a lot of these systems like

01:22:06.720 like i'm i'm a really weird i'm probably more on the hippie side of like

01:22:13.460 moving to a community with other hippie people that we all raise our children in this classroom

01:22:23.600 in a sense that is like you know their own classroom or something that has multiple 0.54

01:22:28.920 different tutors in and out all the time getting them like i want to teach my kids about agriculture 0.98

01:22:33.480 and like literally how to fucking grow shit okay because in this universe look at what we're doing 0.98

01:22:39.280 we're just killing everything so like things to me that are like you know like there's some math 0.99

01:22:44.980 things where you have to learn so much in math that you don't use but then some of the other

01:22:49.240 things in math are actually really important and you don't pay attention to those because you spend 0.89

01:22:53.300 so much time learning the shit that you're kind of like oh that just goes to the back of my mind 0.83

01:22:57.420 and then it just sits there and then it just dissipates slowly like you know i want to be so 0.98

01:23:02.020 specific on the things to teach my children that that's another reason that i wouldn't want to have

01:23:07.300 kids in the news this soon future because i just haven't figured out a hundred percent what i think

01:23:13.740 about all that standardized tests are what really screwing it up ah yeah i got really good score on

01:23:20.240 those though dude so well yeah i mean that's the problem though is that we're we're pressuring kids

01:23:25.280 to go for high scores and we're forcing tons of about it yeah well when we know psychologists know

01:23:32.820 that when you force a bunch of information in a short period of time the brain can't process all

01:23:38.820 of that the brain needs resting time so we have all these pressures to prepare for tests your

01:23:44.500 brain can't handle that there was also that that study they did that says like uh the time that we

01:23:48.780 start school the first like yeah like the first two to three hours is like it's gone the brain

01:23:53.980 doesn't oh because it's so early kids are chronically sleep deprived yes that's what

01:23:58.060 they're discovering like what is it nine or something nine or ten yeah ten is the optimal

01:24:01.800 time to start school because kids when they're developing they're running it like 7 38 yeah my

01:24:06.440 morning bell first period 7 35 kids are kids are chronically don't retain the information

01:24:12.000 that they learned in the first two to three hours they don't like the brain doesn't actually retain 0.82

01:24:17.440 the information that is fucked up and why don't we fix that because we don't care so that's not 0.84

01:24:22.060 a big deal to us but it is because it's raising our generations and our future like what do you 0.89

01:24:28.140 mean that is where exactly you should start is with the education system because that is how

01:24:34.280 the the universe just keeps going guys like what are you what are you doing over here i think i

01:24:38.980 think i think the generation right under gen z the next one the newest one i think they're going to 0.98

01:24:45.500 be fucking geniuses those are the ones that are going to make you like live forever and like clone 0.94

01:24:50.300 you and do all the stuff that's like technically impossible i think because i think our generation 0.99

01:24:54.100 is going to free them like i think we're i agree with you i think yeah it's just going to take a

01:24:58.700 little bit of time for like the tech and the the like the education system to truly be flipped on

01:25:04.300 its head that's not an easy switch because i mean you know where the change starts where government

01:25:08.840 in this situation no not it partially it's kind of from the top down and grassroots up because

01:25:17.020 there's a lot of i think to push for it or else it will like literally exactly yeah people have

01:25:22.260 to lead it so what's happening right now which is really cool is that there's some big tech

01:25:26.420 companies that are getting really involved in education so there's a lot of money that's

01:25:30.560 getting pumped in instead of the government pumping money into education when the government

01:25:35.080 since they've been pumping at money and into education it hasn't fixed it you know we haven't

01:25:40.720 we haven't seen those changes yet so i think tech and what's happening in california is huge i'm

01:25:46.240 paying a crazy amount of taxes where where is it i don't see it on the streets i don't see it in

01:25:50.340 the educational system i don't see it in fucking the medical system i don't see it anywhere where 0.55

01:25:54.920 is it all going military military is where most of the military and a lot back in the billionaires 0.64

01:25:59.880 pockets too yeah yeah that's why there's such rich people that's definitely grassroots up and

01:26:05.220 top exactly what he said 100 because if we don't as a society put our foot down and say no nothing

01:26:12.460 will ever change we have to force their hand in a sense and say look we're not okay with this and

01:26:19.760 we're not going to either keep giving you money we're not going to like there has to be something

01:26:24.360 that they have to listen to us about to in order to actually flip it on it ted otherwise look at 1.00

01:26:30.420 look at the college admissions scandal that took place with some of these famous moms that wanted

01:26:35.480 their kids to get into usc shout out livia jade was good that's like the epitome of what's going

01:26:40.460 wrong right now like if you think about what is our goal with education when i was walking i have

01:26:45.820 pictures on my phone i was walking in santa monica there's this there's these images of our kids are

01:26:51.440 college bound and i was looking at the school and it was an elementary school and i was like what

01:26:57.220 i was like they're they're programming they want these kids to go to college they're bragging that

01:27:01.720 this elementary school gets them college ready that's what our goal in the united states is i

01:27:06.760 went to finland which is the number one education system in the world their goal is to create

01:27:11.360 people who are mindful mindfulness is in their curriculum their goal is to create enlightened

01:27:18.420 people those times those that terminology creative imagination that's what their goals are their

01:27:23.820 goals aren't to produce people for college that's the system that we have in the united states we

01:27:28.500 want to produce people that are college ready i think i'm marrying you well it's just unfortunate

01:27:32.580 i did not know finland was the number one education system what's the metric for success

01:27:41.000 it's amazing um well so ironically finland actually scores the best on standardized tests

01:27:47.060 uh and um i think it's like i forget what the actual um the measurement with all the countries

01:27:54.280 are but they spend the least amount of time in school they don't have any homework and uh they

01:28:01.400 don't take standardized tests to determine where they go so standardized testing doesn't matter

01:28:06.300 it doesn't determine anything because they have a free education so they have no pressure so they

01:28:11.080 perform so the homework was a big thing that they also mentioned in that same study that i read

01:28:15.120 about um the homework just it being like doesn't yeah it just kids are developing they're developing

01:28:21.520 they don't need homework they need to go home and they need to be a kid they need to experience life

01:28:26.780 they don't need to go home so that when they go back in the morning they are more willing and

01:28:32.340 ready to be there and actually pay attention because they have a life they have other things

01:28:37.960 you know the brain can only handle a specific amount of time per day to learn and information

01:28:43.580 cramming information in is not learning learning is something that comes from within so you pull

01:28:48.560 information experience it i'd love to see how finland compares to like china which has the most

01:28:54.040 rigorous education system i mean how many hours a day are the kids in school there um

01:28:59.120 12 10 to 12 hours a day it's up there i went to china too for their education system japan's

01:29:05.860 actually number two and they're they're kind of like what you're describing they spend tons of

01:29:10.300 time in school and they have tutors after school china's the same is china the highest no no they're

01:29:15.160 higher than the united states with standardized testing not not in scoring i just mean in the

01:29:19.120 rigorousness of the program like the kids like the kids are there all day are they there six

01:29:23.360 much more intense it's much more intense it depends it depends on on which schools but yeah

01:29:28.480 it's much more intense can i can i completely that was great education super great to talk about

01:29:35.280 let's move uh hey can i ask an off the wall question i'm curious because you mentioned it

01:29:40.660 you said you don't shave your leg hair what's the what's the theory logic mentality there

01:29:45.520 because riley reed did doesn't either called both of us by the way as soon as you said not

01:29:50.520 shaving i thought riley and i just realized she texted us too um questions um i think that with

01:29:57.880 shaving it's like um okay well the obviously the bigger more obvious topic is the whole

01:30:04.800 feminist side of it of i shouldn't have to you don't blah blah blah blah blah and this and that 0.98

01:30:10.620 um and that is obviously something that i stand for and another thing that people don't see as 1.00

01:30:17.260 much as bitch i'm lazy like you know like what like i'm gonna shave like you think in my gen 0.92

01:30:24.040 when i never sleep i run how many businesses what am i doing how many movies do i do a year 0.99

01:30:30.400 how much shit am i always doing literally you think you think in the morning when i shout i'm 0.92

01:30:38.160 gonna oh and i'm gonna get up for an extra 20 minutes and then i'm gonna get razor burn and 0.99

01:30:42.380 then like you guys don't know how this is on the legs and on everywhere and on the armpit oh my 0.98

01:30:47.960 god i don't know if you did you would literally be like i don't want to do this shit either okay 0.79

01:30:52.880 because one it's also really painful and itchy too i don't think it's good for the skin and i 0.96

01:30:57.940 think it's probably really bad as as as well as depending on the metals and the the chemicals that

01:31:04.660 are in the shaver itself i'm just thinking of slicing up your leg because you're taking off

01:31:10.080 that first little layer and so therefore with that first layer then you're also putting what

01:31:14.700 chemicals right on it every single day like i'm just thinking in my mind like that just doesn't

01:31:20.860 sound healthy like i really want to get an iud but i am like oh a piece of metal right next to my

01:31:30.500 my uterus just sitting up there for years without taking like in my brain i'm like that just hasn't

01:31:36.820 been tested long enough that just in 40 years what does that do to your uterus like i'm just

01:31:42.360 like i just can't i because i'm so weird about the medical system all those things i'm like

01:31:49.940 oh that's also problematic what about vaccines oh yeah i don't know how i feel about vaccines

01:31:55.860 either oh no i just don't know how i'm the public the publicist is like this you know

01:32:00.340 don't answer the question i just haven't decided in my mind i don't know i'll be honest with you 0.99

01:32:05.280 I shave my balls 0.97

01:32:06.240 quite often. 0.99

01:32:07.420 All right.

01:32:07.740 And it feels nice. 0.99

01:32:08.900 I like having smooth balls. 0.99

01:32:10.440 I don't know how else to say that. 0.99

01:32:11.260 I appreciate the fact that you don't.

01:32:12.460 Well, I get what she's saying.

01:32:13.740 Yo, that's super practical.

01:32:16.020 I've got two best friends

01:32:17.520 that love to shave their legs

01:32:18.720 because they're like,

01:32:19.540 it's clean.

01:32:21.000 It feels nice.

01:32:21.500 Tana, Tana, do you shave your legs? 1.00

01:32:22.880 Shaving her balls? 1.00

01:32:23.480 I don't know why. 1.00

01:32:25.760 She's getting all sexual. 0.95

01:32:27.800 I can't tell if she's sexual or upset. 0.89

01:32:30.780 Or a baby.

01:32:32.400 Or you could just tell me now

01:32:33.540 because you're here. 1.00

01:32:34.460 She shaves her legs. 0.99

01:32:36.500 That's it.

01:32:37.200 It's your choice.

01:32:38.260 That's your choice.

01:32:39.640 I've actually shaved my legs and armpits for swimming.

01:32:42.140 Well, you're a swimmer.

01:32:42.920 And a vegan. 1.00

01:32:43.500 Armpits suck. 1.00

01:32:44.660 Those suck. 1.00

01:32:45.620 When those grow back. 0.99

01:32:46.560 I have my armpit wax.

01:32:49.120 Wait, you're talking about the armpit hair or the armpit itself?

01:32:51.560 When it grows back.

01:32:52.340 When your armpit grows back.

01:32:53.600 Correct.

01:32:54.080 What happened to it?

01:32:54.780 Where'd it go?

01:32:55.680 You're like, God dang it.

01:32:56.760 I just got this arm.

01:32:57.700 It goes right to my...

01:32:58.560 It's a hole.

01:33:01.080 What time is it, by the way?

01:33:02.020 I think it's like 6.30 p.m. Eastern.

01:33:04.080 Want to wrap it up?

01:33:04.900 No, no.

01:33:05.460 I just, I'm not saying that.

01:33:06.680 I just.

01:33:07.220 Well.

01:33:08.140 Okay, yeah.

01:33:08.660 Because I got that Sony meeting at three.

01:33:10.020 Why don't you cut that Sony meeting at three?

01:33:11.520 Sony meeting at three.

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