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00:10:48.120I mean, we had laptops in high school,
00:10:50.460and I knew that back in high school, freshman year, 14, 15,
00:10:54.920my background was like the Lamborghini logo.
00:10:57.660I always wanted one and knew that it was something
00:10:59.700that if I ever was in the position to get one,
00:11:01.240And that was going to be like my big thing.
00:11:03.240So, you know, year and a half prior when I first saw the URSA, I was like, wow, I love that car.
00:11:09.080And then, you know, financial teams, investments, certain decisions and successes that went my way.
00:11:16.200And I was like, yeah, now that we've got the family taken care of, I'm invested.
00:11:19.520I've got, you know, I've got stuff going for me that I'm going to do this because you only live once in this life.
00:11:24.420And I'm not going to be 55 and regret not being in my, you know, getting my dream car in my mid to late 20s and enjoying the, you know, fruits of my labor.
00:11:42.120And, you know, with that, too, I wanted to make sure that, like, my audience knew this wasn't like an impulse decision because it's not a smart investment at all to buy a car like that.
00:16:19.880Let me act on it even more so that when it does happen in five to ten seconds,
00:16:24.980my chat then explodes and it feels really natural,
00:16:27.300like not like something that was kind of scripted in the moment super calculated but the always on
00:16:31.400nature it is it's i mean i think that that it's one of those things that now i'm almost kind of
00:16:36.820immune to it i still love it and and i'm playing these games that um at times it's a love or hate
00:16:42.600thing so if there's days where i'm playing a game like for example warzone back in march and april0.72
00:16:47.240and may i was so in love with that game that i would stream 10 hours and then be like fuck i i0.66
00:16:53.060can't wait to go live again like how many more hours until i can go to sleep to then go live0.88
00:16:56.860again yep but then now with with my state of war zone and my love for it i'm like
00:17:01.960fuck this stream that used to be 10 hours i have no issue now i'm like it's two hours and 15 minutes0.73
00:17:07.180in what's hours do i have to stream until i can get offline what's pushing you in that direction0.99
00:17:12.280is it people coming at you with origins from the court don't even get me started you guys got time
00:17:16.360yes please do it um no i mean right now it's there's this thing that really plagues games
00:17:22.700in my opinion called skill-based matchmaking skill-based match which really pisses me off
00:17:26.140which basically anytime you're in the top it basically ruins games for top 10 percent of
00:17:30.580people um because instead of just going and matching people via a connection-based matchmaking
00:17:35.640where it's like hey i'm this close to george that's that's how close our connections are so
00:17:40.440we have a good connection to each other instead it's like well actually i'm gonna go ahead and
00:17:44.600And even though George is right here and we're both searching at the same time, because I'm in such a higher league than George – I'm sorry, George.
00:17:50.840I'm pretending like you're really bad at games.
00:18:12.780And then there's the, instead of you're playing these games where Battle Royale, when you have 150 players, half the joy of it is you don't know who you're going to run into next.0.98
00:18:20.440You don't know if you're about to face Michael fucking Jordan or my fat ass in your next fight if this was basketball.0.81
00:18:25.800So meanwhile, now every fight I'm getting into, it's people that are in the top 10% of these games.0.99
00:18:32.340But then the issue is I wouldn't mind it if there were something to show for it.0.98
00:18:36.380So imagine if you tune into my stream and you're maybe a new viewer and you're going, man, why is he getting shit on so bad?
00:18:43.300Well, if I play Warzone, I can look in the top right and it says, oh, this is a diamond lobby or a top 1% lobby to at least legitimize why I am in such a sweat fest and stressful environment.0.92
00:18:56.520This is kind of like, I might be wrong, but this is kind of like watching the Olympics and watching them run.
00:19:00.980And you're like, it's not that big of a deal.0.97
00:19:02.040But if you put an average runner next to them, you're like, oh, fuck, these guys are fast.0.99
00:22:39.620you remember when you went to the arcade back in the day and then you started a game and they
00:22:44.480would ask you medium regular expert yeah i think they should just do this so that way your audience
00:22:49.540can see you play in the regular mode and then you could just do like uh hey if you guys donate to
00:22:53.920this amount we're going to go to expert mode and you know what the beauty of it is that's the
00:22:57.780that's the difference between a social playlist like if you've ever played halo they had social
00:23:01.300playlists where you go in and match people of all sorts of ranks and just play fun little custom
00:23:06.260games but then they had a ranked playlist where it was one to 50 so if i was a 50 and i joined a0.52
00:23:11.940lobby my little cousin be like yeah you're talking shit i'm gonna invite my cousin jack in and they're0.99
00:23:16.960all like 24s and then i join in as a 50 and it's like oh shit this guy's a real fucking deal he0.99
00:23:24.280just walk in big dick status exactly but that's hilarious all these like a lot of these games0.96
00:23:28.580don't have a ranking system nowadays so there's nothing to show for it it's like everyone gets0.97
00:23:32.980a participation trophy but there's no real change welcome to 2020 yeah well you're certainly big
00:23:38.180enough to call activision right and say hey listen i'm gonna play with dobrik this week man as long
00:23:43.300as they keep making billions in microtransactions they're gonna not care that courage is at the top
00:23:48.620one percent hate skill-based matchmaking so shout out ander nickel ander if you're watching this
00:23:53.580right now you guys got to do something he's he's the head of uh brand over at activision i talked
00:23:57.880to him quite often did you uh um i completely forgot what i was gonna ask it's okay go for it
00:24:04.660take a five go for it i want to ask you something about your interests because um evan is a gamer
00:24:08.480dwarf mamba i know upstairs room is right above us yeah there's a good chance he could be literally
00:24:12.320right above you and he loves you uh and i watch him go from game to game to game to game to game
00:24:17.440and uh like i've kind of hinted at and i've mentioned it on this podcast before i used to
00:24:22.200get i used to play world of warcraft i used to be addicted to pokemon uh obviously tetris
00:24:26.260yeah all these things but i noticed my interests were super uh centralized i'd be i'd be in my
00:24:32.440into my one game and i didn't really feel like switching yeah what about gaming in general
00:24:39.700attracts you to all these different games like how come your your niche isn't uh so uh focused
00:24:46.980yeah i think uh that's a really good question that a lot of different people would have a lot
00:24:50.980of different answers to right there's there's streamers that are called like variety streamers
00:24:54.480Where basically any new game that comes out, any type of genre, their audience will just follow them to it.
00:24:59.780And it's kind of like the – for a lot of people, it's the pinnacle of streaming because they have the freedom to play whatever they want.
00:25:05.320So their chance of burning out, as it's called, for streamers is way lower, in my opinion, because I get sick of Warzone.
00:25:14.160But if I switch from Warzone to some random single-player game, I will lose 70% of my audience because I have such a Battle Royale Warzone-focused audience.
00:25:23.900whereas there are certain streamers like co carnage summit xqc that these guys can literally
00:25:29.700play you know hello kitty private island and they're at 40 000 viewers and then they'll switch
00:25:35.340to world of warcraft and hold 80 of the viewership then they'll switch to overwatch it doesn't matter
00:25:39.400what they play so for me right now with the way i approach things is listen if a game blows up like
00:25:44.520among us is the hot thing right now it's not it's stupid of me not to go and try the game with other
00:25:49.900creators it's an extremely collaborative game where you have 10 big youtubers streamers anything
00:25:55.400in one lobby at a time it would be naive of me and and and also just unfair to myself who's been
00:26:02.100a gamer my whole life and loves playing all sorts of games to not go and try it and then just so
00:26:06.100happened that you know it lit and now it's it's crazy with how it's been performing um so in a
00:26:11.880way in a way you're you're you're playing smart you're playing you're you're moving where the
00:26:17.100attention is i mean yes or no you don't really if there's one thing you do in this world you
00:26:20.660don't really work for free so most times i'm playing games i'm streaming yep so uh there's
00:26:25.340a couple games i'll play off stream right now i just played world of warcraft the last couple
00:26:28.540months waiting for the new expansion to come out um that i'll probably stream a bit coming up and0.68
00:26:32.800it's fucking just as much of an addiction as when i was 14 you know geek about this forever hey bro0.87
00:26:38.740listen new expansion in a month come play logan no no no what else are we doing that game ruined0.98
00:26:42.760my life it ruined my life i'm thankful for it honestly because after my like little two-year
00:26:49.420stint of world of warcraft was done i was i i've i as a 14 year old i knew what addiction was
00:26:56.380it probably honestly was the reason i didn't do drugs and drink in high school like the rest of
00:27:01.640my friends because my mom was like yo alcoholism runs in our family like my my uh my dad was
00:27:07.540addicted his my uncle was addicted and i the word addicted until you experience it like you you don't
00:27:14.680know if it applies to you or not and gaming specifically world of workouts i just got so
00:27:19.220sucked in yeah and so you play off stream how do you balance that and and and know when you need
00:27:29.200to throw a red flag up i i've taken this too i've it's 7 a.m right now and i'm not even streaming
00:27:33.940yeah no i thankfully haven't had too many of those um i typically stay on my schedule pretty
00:27:38.540well but it's more like hey if i do a stream from 9 a.m to 2 p.m in the day then i'll get off to a
00:27:44.540couple business calls the new youtube video will go out or something hang out with with my girlfriend
00:27:48.360then she'll go she's taking chinese right now chinese lessons she'll go to start a chinese
00:27:51.920lesson you know i'm in a world of warcraft raid and i'm like maybe this will be three hours so
00:27:56.520keep working after that and then i'll get off at like 9 9 30 what do you play as1.00
00:28:01.040blood elf rogue uh toward mean illidan mean stabbing motherfuckers dps can i curse motherfuckers1.00
00:28:08.100yeah of course you can you can stab a motherfucker on here yeah sure i saw some knives when i walked1.00
00:28:13.520in oh yeah oh yeah do you ever look into the future and see this vr world and be like i'm1.00
00:28:17.840gonna be killing this shit i wanted to ask him about this or do you think you're just gonna sit0.99
00:28:21.440that one out and be like no fuck that no vr vr it has has already had a couple of explosion moments0.99
00:28:26.800on streaming one of which is called this like vr chat and it's basically literally just a lobby0.97
00:28:31.220that you can go into you can make any avatar for yourself you can make yourself look like anything
00:28:35.980you want talk like anything you want and it's got the full body tracking so like it looks like if a
00:28:41.420breakdancer goes in this game and starts breakdancing it looks like the character is
00:28:44.520breakdancing right in front of you i was saying this because we did a vr session and i go there's
00:28:49.260going to be a time in the house in the future where there's always going to be a vr room in
00:28:53.680the house absolutely where there's cameras everywhere and you could literally visit family
00:28:58.280members so it would be a custom living room that would be in every house and then you could sit on
00:29:02.340the couch talking to your loved ones that's in australia and all that stuff and i think that's
00:29:05.520going to be crazy have you guys ever seen like ready player one oh yeah of course so yeah so
00:29:10.320that's like and it's what's funny is like elon musk has even talked about this and life being
00:29:14.960a simulation and stuff but i think like vr and ar is a perfect example of of with how far technology
00:29:20.820is gone think back to when we were young or just before i mean mike's pretty old so move the rest
00:29:25.340of us yeah um so you know when mike was 15 or when we were just born um these games that were
00:29:32.080like 8-bit and and and 2d and barely had anything to them and you can and they were on these
00:29:37.100cartridges that were like 12 megabytes and you had to blow them exactly remember that
00:29:41.100but it wasn't working yet of course yeah you know what's funny is the the graphics it was0.53
00:29:47.360show crap but during scary games i'd still be scared as shit terrified i mean that's all our
00:29:52.500brains knew but now you have vr and and ar and these things keep improving and now they're0.98
00:29:57.820wireless and soon they're going to be probably just one strip you wear over your eyes and next
00:30:01.240you know you'll have a haptic suit like in ready player one that elon musk has talked about this
00:30:05.880and there's games like the sims which is simulating real life well with how far technology has gone
00:30:10.660in the last 25 years with how exponential it's been there's been more technological advances
00:43:05.040I'll have a couple whiskey drinks, and then I'm going to go to bed with my beautiful wife and wake up nice and early for the next day with my cup of coffee, right?
00:43:12.140But then you've got younger creators and these people that are now in this, and they're working hard but playing hard on the weekends too.
00:43:19.220I had my phase of that back when I was cast, you know, traveling 27 weeks of the year.
00:43:23.600It's like, hey, you do a huge event Sunday night.
00:43:26.520Oh, there's tabs open from the different sponsors and companies at this.
00:49:53.600You talk about the nerves and that the nerves don't bother you, but you also do talk a lot about anxiety, especially on Twitter, because I follow all your tweets and you struggle with anxiety.
00:50:03.540If it's not a countdown before thousands of fans or a live stream in front of thousands of fans, what is it you think that causes the anxiety that you struggle with?
00:50:12.760I mean, I've definitely had a big bout with it in the past few weeks.
00:50:16.320You've reached out and been so helpful, so I'm really grateful.
00:50:19.800I'm someone that loves to share my audience when the highs are great.
00:50:22.840If I can share that I just bought my dream car and this Lamborghini, I can sure as hell share to my young audience that I'm struggling with anxiety and that they're not alone on this.0.95
00:50:30.080It would be stupid of me to use my platform in only the positive ways and be that typical bullshit influencer that I'm not being real with my audience.0.76
00:50:39.440So yeah, it had been pretty rough.0.97
00:50:42.000Last week was probably the toughest week of sleep I've ever had in my life.
00:50:45.720And my anxiety is that I get catastrophic thoughts.
00:50:48.800so for example i'll wake up one day and i'll be like wow why do why do why does my arm feel weird
00:50:54.720and i'm like god do i have a did i have a fucking stroke that's what my mind tells me it's like did0.56
00:50:58.740i have a an aneurysm overnight or i have a uh i'll i'll go to bed and feel my heartbeat because i0.96
00:51:05.000finally slow down because i never disconnect which i'm learning that i need to disconnect more
00:51:08.600so i finally slow down and i can feel like my body doing its natural movements and i'm like
00:51:12.980well why do i feel my heartbeat is my heart beating out of my chest i'm gonna have a heart
00:51:17.660attack that's what my mind says so it's health anxiety is is is one for me i have a fear of of
00:51:22.780bad news where like if i go to the doctor they're going to find something bad and i know it's
00:51:26.800counterproductive because you want them to find whatever bad it could be as early as possible
00:51:30.680but then i have a fear of going because the fear of hearing that i have something bad are you a
00:51:34.980hypochondriac my girlfriend is and now that we've spent so much time together she's definitely rubbed
00:51:39.680off on me on the hypochondriac right yes we joke about that you know i've helped her with uh getting
00:51:45.160getting her please and thank yous better.
00:52:58.960And, you know, I wasn't taking any extreme amount, like, let's say, one sugar-free energy drink a day, which was between 80 and 120 milligrams of caffeine.
01:10:56.180But that's because I leverage a previous audience, so when people ask me, I get donations all
01:10:59.820the time or people will come to my stream and try to get my attention big what do you recommend for
01:11:04.860someone that's starting at nothing and i and it's tough to say because i give my blanket answer which
01:11:09.840is you have to be creative you have to be unique you have to give people a reason to watch why
01:11:14.460should someone watch you one day and then tune in the next day you have to collaborate with others
01:11:17.780you and i feel like a lot of people are kind of shy away from collaborating a show like impulsive
01:11:23.200right is a very collaborative effort people will absolutely watch you three on the show but then
01:11:28.460you'll have entirely new audiences tune in for your 6ix9ine episode or hopefully for this episode
01:11:33.280please like and watch if you guys enjoyed it um so so there's the collaboration that comes with
01:11:39.220too but then the the blunt answer is that you gotta get lucky there there is a luck involved
01:11:44.860in this there is absolutely a luck where you mentioned that shareability not every video
01:11:49.380was a banger but there's that one video that resonates with your audience on facebook because
01:11:54.620As it gets to the Karens and the moms that share it all.
01:11:58.140And then next thing you know, that leverage of that Facebook audience then gives you that little bit of extra kick on your YouTube, which is really where you want to grow the platform.
01:12:05.880Or I tell people right now, TikTok is the number one place for me.
01:12:08.740If you're trying to start from zero, you start with TikTok and then funnel it towards something like Twitch.