JustPearlyThings - She BLAMES Her Family For THIS

00:00:00.000 consider yourselves traditional women no no no okay do you guys want traditional relationships

00:00:06.640 or no no okay so you're good with the 50. do you want 50 50 the bills i want 100 100 i don't want

00:00:13.200 50 50. i'm saying what do you mean you're both paying a hundred you want to live in separate

00:00:17.280 houses oh how is that i just want to know how this is gonna how is this gonna work

00:00:25.120 well how is this gonna work how do i put this i don't know

00:00:35.200 yeah okay you know what it should be 50 50 right it should be i actually wait no for me

00:00:42.640 no comment for me it should be 100 100 because you know they expect the woman to be at home looking 1.00

00:00:47.760 after the kids and also work also work from my point of view you have to work as well you know

00:00:54.080 they put that pressure on you for you to go to work because they're not the bills are not making

00:00:57.360 sense some be housewives right yeah some be housewives but i'm talking like from my point of

00:01:02.800 view you know i mean like in my situation i'm working i'm also looking after the kids i'm

00:01:07.920 doing everything do you get what i mean but he just goes to work comes back oh so you both work

00:01:13.840 basically okay but it's like when it comes to the children so who watches the kids when you you're at

00:01:18.640 work they have to go to nursery oh they go to they go to date now they grow now but before that i was

00:01:23.120 doing sorely you're 20 so how old are your kids i'm quite grown i've got a two-year-old and a six

00:01:28.560 year old oh they're not grown they're not grown i thought they're going to be like 10 like oh no

00:01:40.960 my daughter is 10 so i've got three like i said that my oldest is 10 should be 11 this year not

00:01:48.480 looking forward to it at all and then i've got an eight year old and an almost two year old yeah crazy

00:01:55.840 the youngest rebel rebel so i have a question for you um how because i always wonder this like with

00:02:04.480 like people that send their kids to nursery do you worry about them having more influence on your

00:02:08.960 children than you will i do yeah but at the same time it's like if i have to sacrifice something to

00:02:16.720 gain something you know if if they're at home with me i can't put food on the table yeah as well

00:02:23.680 you know i don't wanna have to deal with the extra garbage and the stress and so i'll rather work

00:02:29.520 you know baby go to nursery i'll spend time with when you come back home if you're tired it's okay

00:02:33.920 weekend i'll try and make some time for you and you guys couldn't survive off of one income is what

00:02:38.240 you're saying okay especially you know like the whole covid and everything it was just ridiculous

00:02:43.360 and having to move to birmingham it's oh ridiculous so what um i think blessing joined the show because

00:02:50.240 you said something about zim culture you're not a fan of i'm against them so what what do you not 1.00

00:02:54.720 like about you're gonna have them coming for my neck this is about to get heated where did you marry 1.00

00:03:01.440 zimbabwean no i would never date or marry a zimbabwean and i've never dated as a mother man

00:03:07.600 i never will look at one why they're just yeah why i was just leave it there let me not say anything

00:03:15.680 to me they say if you don't have nothing anything nice to say don't say anything at all right is that

00:03:20.000 because of an ex or no it's just i don't really want to put my past too much into this but it's just

00:03:26.880 the way i was raised you know my father is obviously zimbabwean and the things that went

00:03:31.280 through you're dead to a certain extent but i love him now why now because i feel like he's paying

00:03:40.320 for everything he's done to me oh damn okay what did he what did he do well when i was young well 0.54

00:03:50.240 not too young when i was like 17 years old he did throw me out and that really hurt

00:03:56.960 he threw me out because of his wife that's not my mom and i was going through so much trauma

00:04:04.960 i was very suicidal in that time and i felt like i was shut out and what what caused you to get thrown

00:04:14.080 out like was it a fight it was a petty fight that his partner caused that caused me to get thrown out

00:04:23.440 and you had no part to play in the fight i did say something that was wrong okay now that i look back

00:04:30.960 because i was trying to find out about my mom you know i used to ask him about my mom oh tell me a

00:04:35.680 bit about my mom and he was just saying you know she left you and that didn't sit right with me

00:04:41.600 because the fact with my mom's family was telling me different you know so i just wanted to know from

00:04:47.040 him like you're my father tell me about her and that day even though he was so angry at me i'm not

00:04:55.200 going to explain everything that happened in the moment but he was so angry to the point where i said

00:05:00.160 you're trying to kick me out just like he did to my mom and that's what made him really get extremely

00:05:07.360 angry and i was not wrong i was right yeah but the way you tell the story you act like it was all him

00:05:14.000 and nothing like you didn't do anything and this post i feel like i blame myself like yeah you have

00:05:20.160 a part to play yeah like everyone does i should have never said anything to him but what do you

00:05:26.320 think it was time for me to say something because that whole you know mental abuse from his wife and

00:05:32.320 him it was it got too much what's like mental abuse i'm not going to explain exactly everything

00:05:37.360 because i don't need to say that you know but there's certain things that they have put me through

00:05:44.800 even from when i was younger well it's just like mentally that's like a pretty severe accusation

00:05:48.960 you know it was yeah it was really bad but i don't want to state it because i know if certain people

00:05:54.000 see this they don't want to like that so i'll just leave it and so because he but because he kicked

00:05:58.800 out he kicked you out at 17 in a fight that you guys like both had a part to play in which you admit

00:06:03.600 now she created it you you said you would you shouldn't have said anything right i shouldn't

00:06:08.000 have said anything to him actually just kept it directly to her because she was the one that had

00:06:13.760 an issue with me the whole time but because he acted out of anger based on whatever he told him

00:06:22.000 in that moment he was angry at me and i was also angry i had the right to say whatever i say you know

00:06:27.680 i'm only human you think you have the right to say anything because you're angry i mean i didn't

00:06:32.720 swear at him you know that's disrespectful my point is yeah but if he was if someone is shoving

00:06:39.440 you out the house and throwing your things out the window what are you gonna do what are you everything

00:06:44.880 you're not gonna stand you're not gonna stand there you cannot everything just kind of came to me like

00:06:48.720 wow so the way you threw my mom out is exactly the same way you're doing to me wait did this happen

00:06:54.960 here or in zimbabwe in the uk what with her yeah with her yeah in the uk but why is it like a zim 0.84

00:07:02.400 culture's a fault if it's just your situation because all the men in my family are trash

00:07:11.600 yeah all of them but i think it's as well that she's been through a lot when it comes to like the

00:07:17.440 men in her family so it's just made her think that way no i mean i i know um like great victims that

00:07:25.520 don't view men a certain way like you can go through things like that's like saying if one

00:07:29.280 guy got cheated on by a woman and saying all women cheat so it's like you're throwing out an entire

00:07:33.920 culture what i mean my certain people have come across us all that's involved when i've really

00:07:41.040 tried to torment my life for me it sounds like uh if you're the common denominator it sounds like a

00:07:47.600 uh respect issue because they're 17 and i've got siblings who are zimbabwe and i know like a zim

00:07:53.520 household is is built on respect respecting the elders and respecting their parents would you say in

00:07:59.440 that situation you were respectful to your parents how can i not say anything so you wanted me to keep

00:08:06.400 shutting myself out keep taking pills to do essay on myself like literally to commit suicide you wanted 0.72

00:08:13.760 me to carry on doing that instead of me speaking out that was the first time i've ever spoken out to

00:08:17.440 my dad yeah but what did she do that was like insanely busy she was angry she was going through her own 0.99

00:08:22.720 personal issues obviously she's got whatever she needs to take for to help her out with her mental 1.00

00:08:27.280 health i understand that now but back then they never told me that they never told me that she had an

00:08:32.080 issue with her mental health and that's the reason why she used to treat me really badly you know 1.00

00:08:36.800 there's been so many things that's happened between me and her to the point where she even warned me

00:08:41.200 that she wanted to get rid of me she told me to happen how old did you like your dad have like a bring

00:08:47.040 it in um i think from like 15 was it 15 when i left slough no yeah 15 do you not think it's like um

00:08:59.280 a teenage kind of like just teenage emotions because it sounds to me like you're just lashing out like

00:09:04.640 you know my mom and she was just not having that my mother was dead from when i was 10 years old so

00:09:09.680 that's got nothing to do with my mother that's a stepmother yeah i know it's a stepmother but when

00:09:14.560 she's coming into a role of like literally becoming like a mother in the house she never treated me 0.85

00:09:19.520 like her daughter she told me i'm not you're not my daughter i'll never call me mom oh damn and i 0.84

00:09:26.320 tried to buy her love because i never really had love from any of the women that were in my father's

00:09:30.880 life i would do the most i'll buy gifts i'll cook this i'll clean this do you know what i mean what was

00:09:36.800 your relationship with your dad before that it was amazing so why didn't you find like like you could

00:09:43.040 communicate with him why didn't you not do that straight away because of her um i don't know but

00:09:47.840 it's like what i hear like is i had no part to play in it and it's sort of like a victim mentality it's

00:09:53.120 like they did everything wrong i did nothing wrong but they that's the that's the part though they did

00:09:58.320 do wrong to me they might have done wrong but i just think in most situations like you can look back

00:10:03.120 and say i had a part to play what did i play when i was younger than them and they're grown adults i mean i i

00:10:08.240 can you know i'll use myself no i know what you're trying to do you ain't gonna do that to me

00:10:15.360 i'm saying when i when i was a kid like i did think i absolutely did things that contributed to

00:10:20.080 say that you have no accountability just because you're underage like that's silliest thing i've

00:10:24.160 ever heard i i absolutely did things that contributed to fights with my parents okay for example let's

00:10:29.600 say you come back from college right you've had a long day oh taffy cooked this okay fine i'll cook it

00:10:35.440 i'll clean this i'll cook it i'll clean it i do however that how she's telling me to do right

00:10:40.160 just one thing i forgot to do bear in mind i've got work to do as well i've got homework to do

00:10:44.960 i've done everything she said i need to do oh but you forgot to do this yeah but that's just

00:10:48.320 typical that's just typical yeah but what she would do she would not create the issue from that yeah she 0.97

00:10:52.960 goes my dad like oh can you imagine she never did this and she will purposely mess up the yard as 0.60

00:10:58.160 they mess up the house and make it seem like i didn't do anything that's the that's what i started

00:11:02.720 thinking like raw that's a bit weird now that's crazy that is weird and the part when she thought

00:11:08.080 i was dressing up in a specific way for my father because i was saying to me i was just not for my

00:11:13.040 father that's that's why i was like no there's something wrong with her but then my dad never

00:11:17.280 told me like oh she's got a mental issue but if he did i probably would have understood like okay you

00:11:22.960 know what maybe let me be a bit more sensitive let me not feel some type of way when she does certain

00:11:27.680 things but because he never did and other times she touched me you know beating me and all that

00:11:33.200 stuff police code and everything that wouldn't have happened if there was certain things put in place

00:11:40.240 for her not to even react like that towards me because i don't understand why the anger was so

00:11:45.360 much towards me yeah this story is just this story just seems very crazy like it's like so she was

00:11:51.040 messing up the yard and then it was really like it was so bad to the point where i started feeling like

00:11:56.320 you know when you get to a point where you say you know what i'm done and then you're like taking

00:12:00.320 pills because you're like i've had enough and the person is telling you i'm gonna i'm gonna do

00:12:05.360 something to you like they're taking certain things i'm not gonna say what it is but and then you're

00:12:09.280 there standing in the church you're praising god and the person's looking at you giving you like dirty

00:12:12.880 looks i didn't feel comfortable anywhere i went except college literally and school literally as many of

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JustPearlyThings - June 30, 2023

She BLAMES Her Family For THIS

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