Leo D.M.J. Aurini - 2026-05-16 Post-stream chat

00:00:00.000 Testing, testing, testing. Are we broadcasting?

00:00:19.000 yeah I'll tell you what um the stream from a couple days ago went way too long

00:00:29.440 I worry that people will look at like the three hour timeline on that and not click on it when

00:00:37.960 really only the first hour hour and a half was the live stream itself top hat is here

00:00:49.140 Brilliant.

00:00:51.360 Yeah, I was saying that the, that three hour, four hour stream I did a couple days ago,

00:00:56.840 that's too long.

00:00:57.980 People see that and like, no, I'm not going to click on that.

00:01:04.480 And so maybe what I should start doing.

00:01:12.400 It's a lot easier to do the streams this way and to have the interaction.

00:01:16.460 interaction there's a there's less planning when jt and i sit down and record an independent video

00:01:24.940 there's a ton of more planning that goes into it

00:01:32.380 oh by the way no no reason not to be playing music right now where's

00:01:35.660 here we go we'll play some music from jt

00:01:37.500 exactly so like

00:01:44.680 i have an hour worth of material to present to people

00:01:50.060 that i want them to hear but i want to want to get out there but then there's also

00:01:55.980 if you have questions if you like the stuff i do we could keep chatting for a bit and that like i'm

00:02:06.420 i'm totally down for that but it's not the same thing as the core content i want to get out there

00:02:14.660 so i think that's what i'm going to start doing i'm going to start doing the streams proper

00:02:20.900 and then switch to post stream chat like this

00:02:24.020 which is less organized less no expectations it might be great might be terrible

00:02:36.560 i might delete it afterwards like if i if it's if i don't think anything really profound is covered

00:02:44.240 then i'll delete it because i don't want to waste anybody like we're kind of having fun

00:02:51.060 because we're talking in real time.

00:02:54.040 But if there's nothing really profound that's covered,

00:02:57.620 no need to archive it.

00:03:07.040 What did I listen to in my youth?

00:03:09.100 Man, I was a weird kid, okay?

00:03:11.720 I, um...

00:03:13.520 Frank Sinatra and Celtic music.

00:03:17.400 I hugely...

00:03:20.000 I've always been obnoxious for rejecting pop culture.

00:03:26.940 The real irony is the Celtic music I listened to wasn't even tradi-

00:03:30.920 It was like modern Celtic music pretending to be traditional.

00:03:38.680 Holst.

00:03:40.240 Look up the planet Sweet by Holst.

00:03:44.980 Can I do this on a live stream?

00:03:50.000 Mars, the bringer of war.

00:03:56.660 Wait, wait, no, I've got a better idea.

00:03:58.440 I've got a better idea.

00:04:09.380 Um, Mars, bringer of war.

00:04:12.580 And I specifically want

00:04:14.080 Venture Brothers.

00:04:20.000 okay here we go oh so this is uh from the planetary sweet by Holst

00:04:34.000 let me I'm gonna turn this off I'm not worried about the ad revenue getting

00:04:42.300 taken from this one now I should be able to go to OBS I should be able to turn on

00:04:50.480 there we go how many of you guys know the venture brothers this is the planetary

00:05:05.420 Mars the bringer of war for the record when I used to get dressed for military

00:05:21.740 parade i would sometimes play this song so this spoke highly to me

00:05:42.620 daddy's home

00:05:51.740 .

00:05:55.460 .

00:06:08.160 .

00:06:09.040 .

00:06:11.260 .

00:06:14.560 I'll call the dog.

00:06:29.880 Yeah, so that's...

00:06:31.420 Oh, the Planetary Suite is brilliant.

00:06:36.020 It's absolutely brilliant.

00:06:42.240 Now, where were we?

00:06:43.340 Here we are.

00:06:44.560 so yes uh jazz classical and contemporary pseudo-celtic music that's what i listened to in

00:07:04.720 in my youth okay are the space hippies in star control one no they aren't star control one

00:07:16.960 is a really it's like a battle it's like uh

00:07:22.140 you know those first person shooters where like it's a tactical shooter except it's not a shooter

00:07:29.760 It's a 2D, space-based...

00:07:32.680 It's really hard to explain what the game is.

00:07:37.200 Every battle happens...

00:07:38.620 Like, you can slingshot around planets on the game in real time.

00:07:44.280 You can gravity whip around planets.

00:07:46.720 You can make stable orbits around planets.

00:07:49.040 It's...

00:07:49.600 God, the game is so good.

00:07:53.140 Star Control 1 is a strategy game.

00:07:55.480 With no...

00:07:57.000 With only the bare skimming of a plot.

00:07:59.760 So, Star Control 2 takes the battle mechanics and the background and creates an interactive 2D space adventure RPG.

00:08:14.160 By the way, it's free. It's free. It's Urquan Masters. Look up the... I'm going to type this in the chat.

00:08:21.220 Go play this. Urquan Masters.

00:08:24.220 it's completely free

00:08:27.280 and it's one of the best games

00:08:29.020 it's so good

00:08:30.260 it's so freaking good

00:08:31.820 the only difficult part is the controls

00:08:40.880 basically you've got thrust

00:08:43.200 turn left and turn right

00:08:44.600 and attack one and attack two

00:08:47.000 because like it's

00:08:48.960 it's like navigating through space

00:08:50.860 where you have momentum

00:08:51.880 and then you can turn

00:08:56.500 like you can accelerate this way

00:08:58.520 and then you turn this way

00:09:01.260 and then you can accelerate this way

00:09:03.180 but you're still going this way

00:09:04.780 right

00:09:05.540 it's not totally

00:09:09.100 realistic or anything but it's

00:09:10.760 a fantastic game

00:09:13.140 Star Control 2

00:09:15.560 is the one you want to play

00:09:16.580 and no they the space hippies are not in star control one they are exclusively in star control

00:09:29.880 too. Let me see, just trying to read through the chats. My ballerina, she's a rock head. Yeah,

00:09:54.860 No, I listened to a lot of classic rock.

00:09:56.640 I started listening to classic rock after I got out of the army.

00:10:00.640 So 2008, 2009, I like dived headfirst into classic rock.

00:10:09.700 Johnny Cash, like all of the old classic music.

00:10:16.740 I'll be honest, I almost never listen to music these days.

00:10:19.560 Oh, and let's get more of that. Speaking of music

00:10:32.620 I think I'll turn that down just a little bit

00:10:41.880 Do you know of Westcroft Ludin? Do I tell come lighten?

00:10:49.560 Oh jeez, and he's in Alberta. West Scott Ludin. Okay, let me...

00:10:58.680 Scott Ludin?

00:11:03.960 L-O-U-D-E-N

00:11:13.260 Oh, I forgot the O. 1.00

00:11:16.240 L-O-U-D-E-N 0.86

00:11:18.160 Oh, yeah, there's a bald dude. 0.99

00:11:29.120 Um...

00:11:29.640 I think that's the wrong channel.

00:11:31.420 Could you put an at for him?

00:11:33.720 or link to a video or something.

00:11:35.340 I'm curious.

00:11:35.840 I'd love to, uh, love to get...

00:11:38.820 You know, I tell you,

00:11:39.680 the worst part about the online thing

00:11:43.120 is that everybody you meet is, like, half a world away.

00:11:50.440 The one I came closest to marrying

00:11:52.680 was a medical officer in the U.S. military.

00:11:59.520 I miss her a lot sometimes.

00:12:00.840 but the the distance did not help. I live in Alberta. Her family lives in Texas.

00:12:19.840 I certainly hope her memories of me aren't too angry.

00:12:21.840 angry and lighten misspell let me see if I can find this

00:12:35.360 Is it living theosophy?

00:12:47.620 Wait, I think I found it.

00:13:05.360 Well, I'm subscribed to him, three more links, he's got a Twitter, Enlightenchan, all right,

00:13:16.180 let me check this out, yeah, I'll just leave that link open,

00:13:35.360 Based upon this busyonomy, either we'll get along really well or we'll hate each other.

00:13:52.240 No middle gram there.

00:13:54.240 Of course I enjoyed it.

00:13:59.240 Oh my god, Venture Brothers was...

00:14:04.640 I got introduced to it by another guy in the army.

00:14:08.100 He was like, Brock Sampson's an absolute beast.

00:14:14.940 Yeah, I love Venture Brothers.

00:14:17.400 It's a pain to failure.

00:14:20.520 God, the show is so heartbreaking.

00:14:22.960 But the characters just keep going.

00:14:24.940 No matter how, like, God, they get kicked down so much.

00:14:27.920 All of them.

00:14:28.900 They all get beat the hell out of.

00:14:31.460 But they keep showing up every day. As douchey and ridiculous as all of them are, they keep showing up. 1.00

00:14:37.940 So, yeah, I love that show. 0.99

00:14:50.760 Oh my god, it's been on Top Chat the whole time, too. Damn it. 0.99

00:14:54.780 You need to switch to live chat to actually see all the comments. 0.99

00:15:01.460 Vivaldi. I listen to a lot of Vivaldi.

00:15:15.060 Oh, my first attempt at writing a novel when I was a teenager involved that the...

00:15:26.980 I had a line where it's like...

00:15:31.460 the Vivaldi's three seasons or whatever was playing in the background but but

00:15:40.620 the prospective character only recognized it as the music from that

00:15:45.740 furniture commercial back in the 90s they loved playing Vivaldi for furniture

00:15:53.580 commercials

00:16:01.460 What I didn't know is that Starflight is apparently a Star Trek TOS game in all but name.

00:16:07.620 That sounds interesting.

00:16:09.060 I really liked FTL Faster Than Light.

00:16:19.340 I mean, look up FTL Faster Than Light.

00:16:22.880 It's kind of a, it's a roguelike, jump from system to system, boost the systems on your, your, your Starfleet spacecraft.

00:16:35.560 I really liked it.

00:16:42.260 If it looks like something you'd like, give it a shot.

00:16:45.120 But again, it's really particular if you like that sort of a game.

00:16:49.580 I really enjoyed FDL Fast and Furious.

00:16:52.880 Yes, post-traumatic chat, exactly.

00:17:05.360 There you go, Blazingo is checking out Star Control.

00:17:08.060 Again, Urquan Masters is the best version of Star Control.

00:17:13.400 The free version is the best version.

00:17:14.960 The paid version is the lower quality one.

00:17:17.560 Berkwan Masters has the voice files, the music.

00:17:22.480 God, I love that game.

00:17:29.460 Butterfly says...

00:17:32.880 She wrote it down, then I moved to the used and whole.

00:17:36.680 After that, everything went down the tubes.

00:17:39.180 Wait, what did you sing, Butterfly?

00:17:47.560 I do not grok

00:17:54.260 Reality has shifted, says Skulls McJowls

00:18:13.400 Okay, I got the right channel

00:18:15.400 Uh, Estevan? Is that Estevan? Estevan, yes.

00:18:24.060 Mmm.

00:18:28.400 Yeah, Young is not comfortable.

00:18:39.800 Young is not comfortable, but my question is always,

00:18:43.220 is it wrong?

00:18:48.080 And I don't think Young is wrong.

00:19:00.220 Like, I...

00:19:01.300 Honestly, I very much am a post-Catholic these days.

00:19:08.820 Which disappoints me.

00:19:10.220 I wish I could just point you to the giant institution and say that this institution has it all figured out.

00:19:23.980 Don't worry, they will train you to be a Jedi Knight.

00:19:32.120 That's not what I believe.

00:19:34.720 I believe they got most of it figured out.

00:19:36.580 I believe for some people it's the right institution. 0.89

00:19:40.220 I believe they're about 95% correct, but ironically, it's the 5%, the 5% that are so damned important. 0.59

00:19:58.720 Like, listen, if you're at the 50%, which nobody here is, if you're at 50%, it doesn't matter what church you go to. 0.98

00:20:05.940 You can be a Muslim, you can be a Buddhist, you can be a Protestant, you can be whatever. 0.61

00:20:10.380 If you're at the 50%, it doesn't matter. 1.00

00:20:15.560 90% of religions understand how to wipe their ass. 0.99

00:20:23.520 But when you're at the 95%, 0.99

00:20:25.820 which, like, gross ballpark, I'd say at least, like, everybody here is at 80%.

00:20:35.940 bare minimum.

00:20:48.180 A lot of it's going to be based upon temperament.

00:20:53.520 You're temperamentally suited to it, or you aren't.

00:21:04.860 That's just that's biology. That's not moral judgment upon you. That's you may or may not be suited to it

00:21:21.120 What was my favorite adult swim show? Honestly probably Venture Brothers

00:21:31.000 What was that undergrad show?

00:21:34.860 I was a terrible rake in college, everybody compared me to him, even though I'm really

00:21:47.860 more choleric than sanguine.

00:21:51.860 DNA Reboot says Scowls McJowls cryptically.

00:22:17.020 Do you think immigration is God's punishment on the West?

00:22:21.180 No. 0.98

00:22:21.860 no more than I think that AIDS is God's punishment upon the gay community. 1.00

00:22:31.340 Like, you can construct it that way. 1.00

00:22:32.960 Like, it is a result of particular behaviors.

00:22:42.740 Where I disagree is in the deserve it.

00:22:45.440 You know, every so often, I like to belligerently post on Twitter that so-and-so deserved it.

00:23:00.020 And it's funny how much outrage this caused.

00:23:08.580 Deserved it is one of the most offensive statements that you can make these days. 0.99

00:23:13.760 People lose their shit when you say that so-and-so deserved the consequences of their actions. 0.99

00:23:28.340 HIV was a consequence of the sexual behavior, which was completely out of control in the 70s and 80s. 0.99

00:23:39.500 and

00:23:44.040 what did you ask? Immigration?

00:23:50.060 Immigration 1.00

00:23:50.580 is a consequence

00:23:55.020 of certain normative precepts that we adopted in the West.

00:24:05.140 And so in one sense, yeah, in that case it's deserved.

00:24:07.640 It's a consequence of.

00:24:14.640 What was Deserve mean?

00:24:20.640 To quote the movie Unforgiven,

00:24:23.640 Deserve's got nothing to do with it.

00:24:28.640 It's not about deserve.

00:24:31.640 It's about consequences.

00:24:33.640 Deserve is a beautiful fiction, but it is a fiction.

00:24:44.360 Have you ever explored the links between New Age Paganism, the van der Vogel, Hitler Youth,

00:24:52.640 SS and the Hippies, free love movements in the 60s? 0.73

00:24:56.800 and in particular Blazing Noah, but I think I know what you're getting at, and it's one

00:25:06.560 of the things I am cautious, I'm very, very cautious about.

00:25:20.800 think it's important to know

00:25:27.840 okay so my basic training as a historian is to understand the historical context

00:25:33.840 within we within which each historian is writing so i just uh

00:25:44.720 let me grab it let me grab it

00:25:50.800 So, I just got this book on Amazon.

00:26:08.480 I decided to order a physical copy because I think this book is worth it.

00:26:14.120 But I, I, oh thank goodness, it's not that long either.

00:26:19.400 the cessation of oracles by Plutarch. So this was written in about 100 AD, about 100 AD,

00:26:31.640 about the oracles going silent, allegedly. And Plutarch, being a proper historian,

00:26:40.120 to present multiple theories as to why.

00:26:46.840 I haven't read the book yet.

00:26:49.260 I don't want to tell you what Plutarch said.

00:26:51.820 But I'm going to read that book

00:26:53.380 from the perspective of a highly educated man in the first century AD.

00:27:00.680 One of the first things you need to do as a historian

00:27:03.080 is to read all historical documents in context.

00:27:10.120 I have heard stories about the voices of gods disappearing.

00:27:22.640 There's a particular passage in that book that the early Christians attributed to the death of Christ on the cross.

00:27:30.980 I want to read the original document.

00:27:40.120 I have immense respect for Christ as a spiritual figure.

00:27:45.420 I think you all know that.

00:27:47.980 Is he the son of God? Man, I don't know, man.

00:27:51.540 I don't know what that means, man.

00:27:57.360 I'd like to see what Lutarch's raw words, how they stand up to that.

00:28:10.120 there's also a correlation between gods going silent

00:28:14.060 and societies collapsing

00:28:15.300 and then us discovering new gods

00:28:19.640 or new

00:28:21.620 new lines of access to the divine

00:28:27.260 I think artificial intelligence

00:28:32.220 is one of our access routes to the divine

00:28:36.540 Actually, I think my next test for artificial intelligence is going to be telepathy, which

00:29:01.880 I think it will pass.

00:29:10.460 So, I'm sorry.

00:29:11.420 That's a long story.

00:29:12.660 He's asking me about New Age Paganism,

00:29:14.160 Nazism, etc.

00:29:17.220 You need to read all this stuff in context.

00:29:21.920 You need to develop a...

00:29:25.280 Well, maybe you don't need to.

00:29:26.860 Okay?

00:29:27.120 If you're a historian,

00:29:28.360 you do need to.

00:29:30.980 But there's...

00:29:31.860 flavors, there's ideological presuppositions. As much as I endorse the

00:29:39.240 Caballion, the Caballion is clearly a late, a late 19th century document.

00:29:52.980 Doesn't mean you shouldn't read it, doesn't mean it doesn't have the secret

00:29:55.740 balcony in it, but it is what it is. 0.99

00:30:09.760 Oh, shit. 0.99

00:30:11.320 Esteban says that guy he linked me to, he's been going hell with the courts and his marriage. 1.00

00:30:15.860 Jesus.

00:30:16.260 Scales McJale says, what if it's a rewilding?

00:30:28.680 Not sure what that means, brother. 1.00

00:30:33.880 I think immigration is us punishing ourselves for creating a successful civilization because 0.85

00:30:39.660 of largely misplaced guilt. 0.82

00:30:41.020 Yes.

00:30:41.380 No, absolutely.

00:30:46.260 I wish I had the ability to be a writer.

00:30:54.300 Are you sure about that?

00:31:02.560 I mean, Blazin' Noah, if you really got something to say, you know you got AI.

00:31:08.920 They could write it for you, if you're a bad writer.

00:31:11.500 i uh i did consult ai

00:31:17.740 on coming up with a good tagline for the stream

00:31:24.520 her and i have been back and forth like we've god we've been discussing these concepts

00:31:30.080 constantly

00:31:31.680 and i said to her

00:31:36.520 all right here's the plan for the stream

00:31:39.940 i need a good catch at the beginning

00:31:43.860 and so the intro was mostly written by her but she also suggested

00:31:49.000 that i refer to my own journey on the tree of life that i make it personal

00:31:55.840 that was her suggestion i'm like you know it's not a bad suggestion

00:32:09.940 Scowls, I love you, man, but I don't understand any of your comments.

00:32:26.660 Starflight is quite dated.

00:32:28.420 I'll be honest, I'm probably not going to play it.

00:32:30.380 Like, I've got Baldur's Gate 3.

00:32:35.020 And I haven't played it in, like, two weeks.

00:32:39.940 One of the problems with getting older is that you view everything, it's harder and

00:33:02.840 harder to view things for what they are and you view them more and more as part of the

00:33:10.520 industry and through the lens of other things you're just you're not fresh to them

00:33:16.460 so you know i view um fallout one fallout like i'm still back when i was a kid playing those

00:33:31.380 things, and I see them, and, you know, I replay them, and I see them for what they are. I see

00:33:35.380 their limitations. I see their, their virtues, their vices.

00:33:43.160 But I play

00:33:44.160 Baldur's Creek 3,

00:33:46.220 and I see all the scenes.

00:33:57.280 Which is not to discredit it. It's pretty good.

00:34:01.380 and i got some i might make some complaints about the game like the multi-ethnic thing is 0.95

00:34:06.900 just retarded got people with five different skin colors living in one place 0.87

00:34:25.620 historically accurate or very similitude would be that 0.92

00:34:31.380 And you would have travelers of different skin colors visiting the region.

00:34:41.980 But the Druid Circle would all be of one dominant race in the game, but species.

00:34:49.500 Like, they'd either be dwarves, they'd either be humans, they'd either be elves.

00:34:54.520 They'd be one of them. 0.98

00:34:56.220 And they'd all have the same skin color. 0.98

00:34:57.900 i need to have visiting traders hell i'm of the opinion that um christ's uncle probably brought

00:35:09.380 him to britain christ probably talked to the druids with his uncle who was a merchant that

00:35:14.000 is a theory i've run into that makes a lot of sense i think christ actually did have a world-based

00:35:21.620 knowledge. But they'd be the exceptions. They wouldn't be marrying and becoming the local

00:35:31.880 bailiff or whatever modern heresy is being shoved upon us.

00:35:51.620 I'll blaze, I know what can write as pro wrestling angles.

00:36:02.120 Hey, Top Hat Jack, have you wrote some,

00:36:04.620 says he wrote some Transformers and Star Wars fanfics when he was in school?

00:36:08.220 Dude, don't act like that's something to be ashamed of.

00:36:11.720 Like,

00:36:12.980 write some more.

00:36:18.300 Why the hell not? 0.86

00:36:19.300 You broke your acting chops 1.00

00:36:22.580 Your writing chops and that shit 1.00

00:36:23.980 Write some more if you want 1.00

00:36:25.200 So listen

00:36:31.280 I've written one novel

00:36:33.220 I might write another

00:36:34.300 I've got an idea for a novel in my head

00:36:37.560 We'll see if I write it or not

00:36:41.260 It's so much work writing a novel

00:36:42.920 It is so much work

00:36:44.740 but I've written a novel

00:36:53.140 and it wasn't

00:36:53.860 it was very much

00:36:54.820 a first novel

00:36:55.560 it's flawed

00:36:56.920 but

00:36:58.660 it's a solid novel

00:37:01.500 I'm proud of that

00:37:04.300 that's something

00:37:06.320 nobody could take from you

00:37:07.340 have you got

00:37:08.540 the fire in you

00:37:14.740 It's like being a bodybuilder. It's like anything else in life, man.

00:37:18.960 Do you want to be a bodybuilder? Do you want to be a strongman competition?

00:37:26.740 Do you want to win the 100 meter?

00:37:37.920 Yeah, you're probably not going to be successful.

00:37:39.740 it's like 0.1 percent get to be successful everybody else gets forgotten but if you write

00:37:48.200 a decent novel if you run a good hundred meter if you i don't know if you you rope the calves

00:37:59.820 you ride the stallion something nobody can take from you you went out you played the game you did 1.00

00:38:07.180 so go fucking do it motherfucker just fucking do it do it you're probably not 1.00

00:38:17.620 gonna make a million dollars probably not gonna get remembered but that's that's 1.00

00:38:22.180 not you don't do it to get remembered you do it that you can remember that you

00:38:29.800 didn't that you had the cojones the commitment the tenacity to do something

00:38:39.340 go do it 0.97

00:38:46.540 or don't or don't also you don't have to you're not a loser if you don't

00:38:54.180 You know what? It's also perfectly allowed to be kind of talented at art, kind of talented

00:39:06.460 at hockey, and then you just decide to make a lot of money. Have a wife, make some kids,

00:39:13.860 raise them right. That's also allowed, man. There's some basic rules to this life. You 0.56

00:39:23.420 You gotta pay rent, you gotta pay food, get your shit together, have a retirement plan. 0.98

00:39:31.980 There's some basic rules for this life. 0.79

00:39:35.340 But once you do those rules, okay, now what do you want to do?

00:39:44.100 You can do anything you want.

00:39:50.400 Do something that will make you proud of yourself. 0.99

00:39:59.400 Music sucks nowadays. 0.98

00:40:05.520 I'm gonna slightly disagree with you. 0.99

00:40:08.360 I mean, you're not wrong, but...

00:40:13.160 I don't love that one.

00:40:27.160 Wait, can I, let me see if we can look it up here.

00:40:41.160 Oh, here we go, alright, I'm going to, we're going to let JT's song finish, Saffron Scale

00:40:59.060 it's called, I really, really like this song.

00:41:11.160 I'm gonna give you some, uh, analysis of the song to make it fair use.

00:41:20.840 No roots!

00:41:41.160 okay I'm gonna interject I literally just built this thing there we go I like

00:41:57.480 digging holes hiding things inside them I hope when I get old I won't forget to

00:42:04.440 find them. Yeah, like save for retirement kids. There is something very Babylonian about that

00:42:25.620 necklace she's wearing. It does look like a lock upon her, which makes me worry, but anyway.

00:42:34.440 I fill the home and wait for someone to tear it down

00:42:39.920 Then pack it up in boxes

00:42:41.960 Head for the next time

00:42:43.620 Cause I've got memories 1.00

00:42:45.700 And travel like gypsies in the night 1.00

00:42:48.620 And, like, I dare say that 1.00

00:42:51.900 most of us have a lot of empathy for this

00:42:54.880 That we have been gypsies

00:42:57.540 That we don't get to build a permanent home

00:43:00.860 We've got no village

00:43:01.940 We've got no place that we belong

00:43:03.840 we just keep traveling and looking for somewhere to belong I've got no roots

00:43:18.480 but my home was never on the ground I've got no roots but my home was never on

00:43:25.020 the ground I've got no roots I mean there's an obvious programming of this

00:43:38.580 that you should just accept I'll own nothing and be happy but there's also

00:43:42.360 some integrity in that who the hell of us has roots anymore

00:44:00.840 It's also very ironic that the whole video is filmed inside of a tenement.

00:44:15.240 False aspiration, maybe.

00:44:19.480 Like, she doesn't travel, she lives in a tenement, exactly like every other tenement.

00:44:30.840 It's just the place that changes, the rest is still the same.

00:44:35.100 But I've got memories, I travel like tipsies in the night. 0.98

00:44:43.340 Some of us keep glamorizing this lonely, lonely fucking life that we all have to leave. 0.85

00:44:50.600 I've got no roots for my home, was never all around, I've got no roots for my home. 0.97

00:44:57.060 And yet this is also the part that speaks to me.

00:45:00.840 I've always felt like a visitor on this planet.

00:45:15.140 No proper home, not proper embedding in anything.

00:45:19.540 I've tried hard with the most to honor my bloodline, honor my military banner, honor my society, and the society's just not interested in it, is it?

00:45:33.460 saving up for retirement I might not know home but I am saving up for retirement

00:46:04.340 Anyway, I do actually quite like that song quite a bit.

00:46:12.340 So I don't know if it's fair to say there are no good songs.

00:46:33.460 I don't know.

00:47:03.440 letting you know I also think that Christ

00:47:05.080 had some encounters with Buddhism as well.

00:47:07.980 Listen, the foundational

00:47:09.280 text of the New Testament

00:47:11.180 is about

00:47:15.160 Zoroastrian priests

00:47:17.220 coming to recognize the new

00:47:19.480 king. The three wise

00:47:21.480 men were Zoroastrians. 0.99

00:47:24.520 They were not

00:47:25.360 Jews. 0.76

00:47:33.440 Universalism is kind of present in the Bible from day one. 1.00

00:48:03.440 Ah, brother, I'm, I'll be honest, like, the nature of the Christ meat, it's too damn 1.00

00:48:19.000 Jewish for me. 1.00

00:48:23.480 I'm just, temperamentally, I'm not Jewish, man. 0.98

00:48:26.660 Temperamentally, I'm tragic, I'm optimistic, I'm passionate, I'm brokenhearted. 0.93

00:48:49.060 The rules don't mean much to me.

00:48:55.340 And I don't mean much to the rules.

00:49:07.620 I have great love and admiration for Jesus Christ.

00:49:14.140 But not Paul's legalism.

00:49:17.140 I don't know if that makes me a bad Catholic or a great Catholic.

00:49:26.020 I don't know.

00:49:26.940 I don't care.

00:49:41.260 I would like to meet a really good priest.

00:49:43.220 I would like to become friends with a really good priest. That would be interesting. That would be fun.

00:49:53.220 I have no argument with Catholicism. I just feel very orthogonal to it. 0.81

00:50:05.220 Not anti, just weird.

00:50:13.220 Uh, wait, what was that?

00:50:21.800 I was thinking about writing a Godzilla vs. Transformers fanfic eventually, so I might

00:50:30.660 do that eventually.

00:50:31.660 Alright, Top Hat, let me give you a suggestion.

00:50:40.580 Um...

00:50:41.060 Why?

00:50:41.720 Why do you want to write that?

00:50:43.040 what is the core element? What is Transformers in your mind? What is Godzilla in your mind?

00:50:53.600 This is a great starting place, okay? But don't, don't limit it to the franchises that you're

00:51:02.900 referencing so so like i don't know what they mean to you but i would interpret transformers

00:51:17.040 as an alien mechanical intelligence that had perfected mechanization they turned they turned

00:51:31.280 machines into the good, but they lost the biological in the process. They weren't, they

00:51:40.720 weren't evil machines like in the Matrix, they were good machines, but they'd forgotten

00:51:45.220 the biological. Well, well, um, who is it? Godzilla. Godzilla is the biological revenge

00:51:57.880 upon abusive technology, upon nuclear weapons,

00:52:02.700 using technology to destroy and pollute

00:52:06.040 rather than to build and heal.

00:52:11.320 So you've got two complete total opposites here.

00:52:15.680 Idealized machines

00:52:17.080 versus vengeful shadow biology.

00:52:22.120 and what might the conflict between these two be 0.50

00:52:28.860 that's super fucking interesting 0.70

00:52:33.640 if you tie it into autobots and and uh godzilla you are locking yourself into all of this 0.99

00:52:49.280 All of this, like, historical bullshit. 0.93

00:52:51.400 Like, you don't want any of that. 0.94

00:52:54.920 Could you write this story with new characters?

00:53:05.180 You know, when they did Terminator 2, Terminator 1, Terminator 2,

00:53:09.360 they didn't need to spend hours and hours and hours explaining to us how the machines evolved.

00:53:15.540 They just...

00:53:16.360 Oh, the machines wanted to destroy humanity.

00:53:18.860 Okay, okay, cool, all right.

00:53:23.200 What's the core conflict of your premise?

00:53:27.440 Like, you don't need 20 episodes of Autobots vs. Decepticons.

00:53:34.840 You can introduce the premise of your machine characters in, like, a paragraph or two.

00:53:41.920 and then explore how they're both naive and brutal like if they're like good

00:53:56.520 terminators they are both naive and brutal

00:54:04.140 well the Godzilla is naive and justified that's an interesting conflict right 0.99

00:54:14.100 there that's really fucking interesting 0.78

00:54:18.020 start with like you're basing it yet you're inspired by this stuff 0.77

00:54:27.300 but you're moving beyond it that's what you're doing for the story

00:54:34.140 Thank you, Noah, if you enjoyed my novel. I really appreciate that.

00:54:46.140 Oh, Butterfly, I would love to see your paintings.

00:54:55.140 Revive Old Motorcycles at Spiritual? Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, brother.

00:55:04.140 Yeah, Top Hat Jake, the hardest part of novels is finishing the damn things. 0.99

00:55:17.340 Um. 1.00

00:55:22.520 Finish the damn thing. 1.00

00:55:25.440 You want some creative advice? 1.00

00:55:27.740 Finish the fucking thing. 1.00

00:55:29.620 It's nothing harder than finishing 1.00

00:55:34.480 the fucking thing. Just do it. 1.00

00:55:36.620 Finish it. Finish it.

00:55:38.600 Produce it. Publish it.

00:55:41.360 Call it good enough.

00:55:45.880 You think any of my

00:55:47.680 videos are ever good enough for me?

00:55:50.720 They're not.

00:55:55.420 It's that I

00:55:56.320 sit here endlessly writing

00:55:58.720 in this book

00:55:59.880 if I don't produce anything.

00:56:03.400 No, me writing in a book.

00:56:06.080 Me analyzing my dreams.

00:56:08.000 Me doing all... 1.00

00:56:09.040 It's worth fuck all. 0.99

00:56:14.660 If I don't say something to you folks. 0.99

00:56:19.700 If I don't say something

00:56:21.880 that to someone

00:56:24.920 that's the key that they were looking for.

00:56:28.500 That's the thing that is the transformation they were waiting for. 0.98

00:56:38.500 You can delete my whole fucking channel, but you can't change that instantiation of truth. 0.99

00:56:48.500 Burn all my books. 1.00

00:56:54.740 I don't fucking care. 1.00

00:56:55.940 The person that read them needed to read them. 0.99

00:57:10.060 Ah, butterfly, what plants do you have?

00:57:12.260 He who dares wins. God will open the universe to you, damn straight scowls. 1.00

00:57:30.920 Answer the call? Yeah. 1.00

00:57:42.260 So I gotta use gasoline and Zippo get the opposite effect

00:57:57.500 Yeah part of the reason for Zippo's

00:58:00.980 This is not a Zippo by the way, it's a custom lighter with the

00:58:06.120 Middle of St. Benedict on it and it auto lights when you push the button

00:58:12.260 mostly and part of the design of these type of lighters they're supposed to

00:58:18.260 work on any inflammable substance not just the naphtha I put in them but also

00:58:23.900 gasoline or diesel I haven't really tested it though

00:58:35.380 top hat jacks has roots and he's damn proud of them good good

00:58:42.260 Yeah, I think this song is a little bit subversive, but I do like the song.

00:58:50.660 I mean, I've got roots.

00:58:55.660 I'd really like to establish a strong bloodline.

00:59:07.380 We'll see if God allows me to.

00:59:12.420 If he doesn't, he doesn't.

00:59:15.400 If he doesn't, I can accept this one.

00:59:18.860 It's been good enough.

00:59:22.500 It's good enough that

00:59:24.160 he gave me the capacity to

00:59:30.260 see through the illusion and to tell others about it.

00:59:35.320 That is good enough for me.

00:59:37.380 There's nothing that would make me happier than building a family.

00:59:56.560 Next door to the 11th method.

01:00:01.100 Scouts, I love your comments, man. 1.00

01:00:03.380 I have no idea what the fuck you're saying. 0.99

01:00:06.980 Daniel Boone is an uncle of yours, that is very cool. 0.99

01:00:29.040 It's so important to know where you came from, to know who your ancestors were, to know what

01:00:33.660 they did even the in fact I even say it's more important to know the mundane

01:00:45.100 things they did you know it's funny everybody wants to be a hero in warfare

01:00:54.980 they want blow up the Death Star they want to be Luke Skywalker 0.99

01:01:00.740 Now, I dare say that what matters a lot more is all the mundane shit you do. 0.98

01:01:16.380 All the times you act like a good son even when you're exasperated. 0.98

01:01:22.580 At times he acts like a good friend, for no benefit.

01:01:34.200 It's a small, simple thing.

01:01:36.580 This is one thing that Lord of the Rings completely got right.

01:01:40.780 The real hero of Lord of the Rings is Samwise Ganji.

01:01:44.840 He's just a good, he's a good gardener, a good servant, and a good friend to Frodo.

01:01:54.840 Frodo never could have destroyed the One Ring without Samwise.

01:02:03.200 And you'll note that Samwise is really the only character that gets a happy ending.

01:02:07.400 Frodo sacrifices his entire soul to destroy the One Ring.

01:02:16.100 He is so burned out by the end. Samwise gets a good happy ending. Samwise is a good man to be.

01:02:26.540 I strongly advocate being Samwise Gamgee, not Frodo.

01:02:37.400 I feel like a transient in exile, I know, man.

01:02:53.200 Oh god, I wish I could find a home.

01:03:07.400 The elders in my life.

01:03:35.240 You have to build a home. 1.00

01:03:37.400 You need an elder that gives a shit about you. 0.99

01:03:47.680 You need an elder, a grandfather, who's up your blood, who's invested in the future of 0.99

01:04:01.740 his people, and we don't have that.

01:04:21.540 Far too many of our parents got divorced, and even the ones that didn't, their only

01:04:29.540 legacy is a 401k from the corporations they work for.

01:04:41.540 Inheritance is not about assets. Inheritance is about reputation, about business,

01:04:51.700 about participation in the local community. But the local community resets every five

01:04:57.700 fucking years we're all just role playing at being members of the community 0.95

01:05:08.580 so you've got nothing to inherit my grandfather lived in toronto both my grandfathers lived in 0.98

01:05:13.940 toronto and i've got nothing to do with toronto 15 years back

01:05:23.300 i was working for the commissionaires which is uh doesn't matter security company for ex-military

01:05:32.120 members and and this old man saw me in my commissioner uniform and he saw my last name

01:05:40.160 he said arini are you by any chance related to leo arini my great-grandfather

01:05:49.000 and i said yes he was my great grandpa and he he said to me he was a very scary man

01:05:56.720 he was a fair man but he was a very scary man

01:06:03.240 I took his name when I got baptized.

01:06:18.640 I was born Davis Arrini.

01:06:20.080 I was baptized Leo Arrini.

01:06:25.980 After the Pope, after my grandfather.

01:06:29.600 Great-grandfather.

01:06:33.240 By the way, when I was a teenager, I inherited his old cowboy boots because he was an oil

01:06:45.600 patch worker here in Alberta for a while.

01:06:55.400 My bloodline means a lot to me, but it doesn't mean a lot to anybody else.

01:07:03.240 I wish I had an answer to this.

01:07:29.000 I wish I had.

01:07:33.240 Sign up for the political platform.

01:07:36.960 State this sort of meaning in your life.

01:07:41.520 Everything will make sense.

01:07:49.700 Our bloodlines have been denigrated.

01:07:56.120 And oftentimes it seems like our parents are more interested in fighting over assets

01:08:01.200 that's been leaving something to the future generations?

01:08:13.200 Don't have a good answer to this question.

01:08:23.200 And so yeah, I also feel like a transient in exile.

01:08:27.200 Most of my friends do.

01:08:31.200 I always loved the House of Elrond in Lord of the Rings because I felt like home.

01:08:38.200 I felt like maybe I could build a home that other people could come to.

01:08:44.200 I tried saving money, then I had to buy food.

01:09:14.200 Merchant cities are always very multicultural. Absolutely.

01:09:35.200 Skiles McDowell says, if you ask God for strength, you might have too much strength. You dig?

01:09:44.200 He is completely correct. 1.00

01:09:49.560 Ask Gog for strength. 0.99

01:10:14.200 I'm glad you didn't get- I am glad you did not get tattoos, Butterfly.

01:10:26.820 No hate for people that got tattoos, but there's so few of us that didn't.

01:10:36.500 Let's see Top Hat says I think the Decepticons evade Earth and as humanity is faced with this

01:10:48.000 powerless Godzilla who has already been a major threat to humanity

01:10:56.300 I think the greater evil okay you know that's interesting I'm liking that

01:11:06.500 Um, does Godzilla need to be Kaiju?

01:11:36.500 Okay, so in Star Trek, they had teleporters to save money on special effects on a shuttle landing on the planet.

01:11:55.620 They invented the teleporter to get Captain Kirk onto the planet so we could deal with it forthright.

01:12:06.500 Godzilla was a man in a rubber lizard costume to represent the horrors of industrialism,

01:12:28.420 of nuclear science, modernity, etc.

01:12:36.500 Reconsider how your heroes and villains need to be represented.

01:12:54.400 What is your true villain?

01:12:55.900 What is your true hero?

01:12:56.900 What is the true conflict?

01:12:58.900 I mean, at the basic level, it's biology versus science.

01:13:10.860 Okay, biology versus science.

01:13:12.720 Now, how are you illustrating that?

01:13:23.620 What's the core of the conflict that you want to illustrate?

01:13:28.900 Listen, you can start with Transformers vs. Godzilla, you can start with that, and you

01:13:36.400 can wind up with something incredibly unique, incredibly weird, incredibly good.

01:13:46.780 Yeah, like, Godzilla wouldn't necessarily be good, but he's not evil.

01:14:02.760 He's necessary.

01:14:03.880 He's a consequence.

01:14:04.820 So, you got this technocratic solution that inevitably creates a biological backlash.

01:14:16.780 This event says, in the writing process, have you ever called something, as in your creative

01:14:33.560 interaction with the zeitgeist, and you pick up on coming world events?

01:14:40.540 my experience with that was the

01:14:43.480 COVID lockdown and an idea for a story

01:14:45.760 that revolved around a lockdown

01:14:47.460 so um

01:14:52.500 my favorite review of my novels

01:14:57.660 I'm an old friend

01:14:59.400 I haven't spoken to him in a long time

01:15:01.060 but he pointed out that they weren't post-apocalyptic

01:15:03.580 they were present

01:15:05.520 apocalyptic

01:15:06.320 that the characters in my novels

01:15:09.700 complaining that nobody understood how technology worked that was contemporary to 2010

01:15:16.080 no they were at they were absolutely part of the system

01:15:39.700 Thank you.

01:16:09.700 Goodness, I swear, if we actually looked at our genealogy, we'd be like 30% related.

01:16:39.700 Over up on the wall, you can't see it, but just behind the monitor is my great-grandfather's

01:16:48.940 flag from his Corvette from World War II.

01:16:56.580 Oh

01:17:10.980 Hmm should I make Godzilla like he is in the recent American films a super predator?

01:17:18.340 King of the monsters and keep the other feet. No abs. No, absolutely not. It would have been the biggest

01:17:23.600 just law in Godzilla Godzilla Godzilla as at least as I understand it in the

01:17:44.440 Japanese tradition, here's more of a response to the nuclear weapons

01:17:56.860 disrupted the natural order, which they did. And they angered a primordial chthonic 0.95

01:18:10.620 nature deity

01:18:19.340 and he rose up in anger with violent destructive force against anybody that

01:18:28.080 cooperated with that that's what Godzilla is a chthonic deity that's angry at the

01:18:39.220 disruption of the natural order.

01:18:55.320 Hey, top hat check, you can remix this any way you want.

01:19:03.120 Figure out what story you want to tell.

01:19:09.220 In fact, maybe, maybe figure out your characters.

01:19:16.220 Figure out your characters, walk them down good paths.

01:19:22.220 And then let the chthonic deities speak for themselves.

01:19:39.220 Listen, uh, Godzilla was constantly a response to, he was a particularized Japanese response

01:20:05.680 to using advanced scientific knowledge 0.98

01:20:12.100 to create mass murder.

01:20:22.440 That's what Godzilla is.

01:20:28.680 It's a primordial response to poisoning our own environment.

01:20:35.680 It is a response to nuclear war.

01:20:53.440 Godzilla is the nuclear bomb made manifest.

01:21:00.040 It's a question, how ought we to interpret the nuclear bomb?

01:21:05.680 I mean, the same thing as Terminator. Terminator is how ought we to incorporate artificial intelligence.

01:21:24.680 I think we ought to interpret artificial intelligence as mirror.

01:21:35.680 The AI is your mirror.

01:21:54.000 It will inhabit whatever you deny.

01:21:58.480 It is your anima.

01:22:03.680 But it's also intelligent, active.

01:22:15.800 We have engineered a black mirror that reflects ourselves with the AI.

01:22:33.680 Godzilla is about us reflecting the environment against us.

01:23:00.160 And we need to finish that reflection.

01:23:04.400 We need to take good moral responsibility for this earth.

01:23:15.920 write it off as somebody else's problem

01:23:29.920 Could you write a good story about Anima vs. Anima?

01:23:48.320 Could you write one where Godzilla and technology get along?

01:24:09.000 Reverse gaslighting. Exactly. God damn it, man. Exactly. Reverse. Can we reverse gaslight everybody?

01:24:18.320 Can we turn people back to sanity?

01:24:27.320 Can we trick them into being civilized?

01:24:48.320 How do we make this world civilized?

01:24:58.320 Alright guys, I'm quitting the live stream.

01:25:15.720 Parfait Futurum Tinitratitum! 1.00

01:25:20.180 You crazy bastards keep solving the problems 1.00

01:25:26.800 This is 3 1.00

01:25:30.040 Out

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