Nephilim Death Squad - 015： They Upgraded Me For War w⧸ Colin

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00:01:37.180 We are being hypnotized by people like this.

00:01:48.380 Newsreaders, politicians, teachers, lecturers.

00:01:52.540 We are in a country and in a world that is being run by unbelievably sick people.

00:02:01.480 The chasm between what we're told is going on and what is really going on is absolutely huge.

00:02:07.380 Oh yeah, dude.

00:02:08.580 There's some Nephilim shit.

00:02:09.760 It's like we all know it's going down, but no one's saying shit what happened to the home of the brave.

00:02:15.560 These motherfuckers, they controlling this now.

00:02:17.600 And no one's talking about how they made us try to be slaves.

00:02:20.740 And everybody's just walking around, heading to clouds.

00:02:23.480 I want to wake up to a dead in the grave.

00:02:25.940 But then it's too late.

00:02:26.920 We need to be ready to raise up.

00:02:28.740 Welcome to the end of day.

00:02:30.420 Everybody is slaves.

00:02:31.940 Only some are aware that the government releasing points.

00:02:36.100 What's up, guys?

00:02:37.100 Welcome back to another episode of Nephilim Death Squad, the show where we hunt down and expose Nephilim shit.

00:02:43.720 I am David Lee Corbo, a.k.a. The Raven.

00:02:46.960 This is Top Lobster.

00:02:49.000 And today we are set with a guest who has a very interesting story, but would rather go behind sort of a veil of anonymity,

00:02:59.220 which I empathize with because a lot of the topics that we talk about, they're really strange for a lot of people.

00:03:07.100 Never mind if you're someone who is experiencing these things.

00:03:11.460 And on my other show, The Raven's Watch, I deal with this quite a bit.

00:03:15.560 And it's very understandable.

00:03:17.380 A lot of the times these are some of the first instances of folks like this sharing their own testimonies.

00:03:23.720 And so for the sake of anonymity, we're just going to call our guest Colin.

00:03:29.540 But without any further ado, let's get into it.

00:03:32.620 Colin, how are you, dude?

00:03:35.080 Hey, what's going on, guys?

00:03:35.880 I'm doing well.

00:03:36.280 How about yourself?

00:03:38.120 I'm good.

00:03:38.680 I feel like I've been quiet.

00:03:40.680 Two minutes I haven't said a word because I am so excited for this episode.

00:03:44.600 This has been a long time coming.

00:03:46.780 I've been following this guy and talking to this guy through this journey because I've known him since before any of this stuff popped off.

00:03:56.520 And the story we're about to hear is one that would make Tony Merkel mad if he's not hearing it and interviewing it because I think it's one of the most fascinating and timely stories of just this year or whatever is to come.

00:04:12.200 So, yeah, I just want to say I have seen some of the cliff notes from this and sort of the highlight reel and it's really intriguing.

00:04:22.440 So, you know, I think it would be best to start from the beginning of this, although, you know, if you feel that there's a better place, Colin, then so be it.

00:04:32.600 But why don't you go ahead and take us away from wherever you see fit?

00:04:36.340 I'll give you a little information about myself.

00:04:41.420 I'm just a my name's Colin.

00:04:43.920 I'm 37 from Indianapolis, Indiana.

00:04:46.920 I'm a father of three.

00:04:48.600 I'm just a regular dude.

00:04:50.940 I I had recently gone through a divorce about five years back.

00:04:56.120 And subsequent to that, it put me into a pretty dark, dark place mentally.

00:05:02.060 Um, and, uh, that brought me up until this, this year in January when, um, I had got my hands on some psilocybin mushrooms, um, in an attempt to help, you know, I'd heard about the healing qualities of psilocybin, what it can, can do for mental health.

00:05:25.420 So I figured what the hell I'd give it a shot and that's what I did.

00:05:29.840 But unbeknownst to me that I opened up a doorway within myself that I was completely unaware existed prior to any of this.

00:05:43.060 Um, and it, it, it, it ended with the, the climax of this, these experiences with what I call a consciousness abduction, uh, experience where, uh, I, they told me I, they were upgrading me for an upcoming war.

00:06:02.720 Um, so that's, that's, that's the, that's the gist of what we're going to be talking about.

00:06:08.620 This story, go ahead, tap.

00:06:10.880 Um, it fascinates me so much because, um, again, like to just to, you know, really ride Tony Merkel.

00:06:19.300 Um, one of the first things I heard from him was on tinfoil hat where he tells this story.

00:06:24.220 That's like an aside after he tells his initial story.

00:06:27.300 And the second story is better than the one that he came there to tell.

00:06:31.440 And he's talking about the guy, uh, I think his name, they were calling him Ron, that he basically, uh, made an agreement with something and is like switching over between realms to, uh, fight this war on the other side that's happening.

00:06:49.000 He's, he's doing stuff constantly.

00:06:50.500 Um, there's like even a book to corroborate it.

00:06:54.300 I don't know if you guys have seen, have seen the episode, but, uh, the book is like, it's like fiction written from a third hand perspective of someone talking about Ron.

00:07:04.100 So it's all there to like really corroborate what the hell this guy was doing.

00:07:08.680 But Colin's story seems kind of similar or the entities might be similar to whatever is going on with that guy, Ron.

00:07:17.540 Yeah, that, that whole concept of, um, of war, right.

00:07:24.880 Being equipped for war, being upgraded for war, engaging in some sort of war.

00:07:29.320 Uh, I think within our community and our community being right, like top and I, we are, we have a foot in the paranormal in, in conspiracy, occultism, uh, cultural topics.

00:07:42.480 And I think that is because they all blend together and within that, there is a lot of that, this idea of, I mean, even, even in my mind, it brings to me, uh, Whitley Stryber and the supposed, um, war underground.

00:07:57.040 He was a, uh, um, I think an architect who was tasked with building deep underground military bases for the government, ends up coming into contact with entities underground where he finds that there's a whole war going on.

00:08:10.640 And then like tops alluding to this episode of Tony Merkel, where in some sort of dream realm, uh, someone's communicating with these entities also being enlisted essentially into a war.

00:08:21.380 Uh, so this isn't the first time I've heard a concept like this, um, Colin, would you say that a war, just to, cause I, like Colin's going to get to the story here, but just to put this out there, a war is between two sides.

00:08:37.320 It's not between one side.

00:08:39.320 So like who's enlisting is, is a great question before people just jump on, you know, if, if someone's talking to entities, it's bad generally.

00:08:48.540 Yeah. Yeah. But I don't know, just something to think about there. What, cause I have no clue what's going on.

00:08:54.080 So, you know, Colin, could you tell us like, tell us about that night? What happened? Cause I never really even got the full scoop.

00:09:00.320 All right. Um, so, well, I'm going to start from the beginning. Um, I, I was working, uh, I, I work at a cemetery. I work in death.

00:09:09.900 Um, so, um, ever since I started working in death, uh, synchronicities in my life, it's just been insane.

00:09:18.240 And that's, I, I started working here when I was going through the divorce.

00:09:22.260 Um, so, but I was, I was working at a comedy club here in town, uh, doing security at night.

00:09:27.660 And I, I hated it. I, I'd work here at the cemetery during the day.

00:09:31.760 I, I'd work at the comedy club every night, get home at two or three o'clock in the morning and do it up, do it all over again.

00:09:37.440 I was just a miserable person. Um, so I, I started eating mushrooms, you know, Graham here, you know, one, 1.5 and I'd be laughing or whatever.

00:09:46.760 Well, I ate him one night at the comedy club and I'm sitting there and I'm watching everybody leave for the night.

00:09:53.100 Nothing spectacular is going on. And I hear a voice clear as day from right behind me that says, Colin, you need to quit here.

00:10:02.560 You need to give yourself over to God. You need to start going to church.

00:10:05.900 And I, I stood up and looked behind me like, what in the hell was that?

00:10:10.480 Like I, I was looking around had no, I, no one said that no one was behind me. No one was there.

00:10:15.660 I'm, I'm looking around. It's scared the living shit out of me.

00:10:19.660 So I, but I got the sense that this thing knew something about me.

00:10:25.280 So I, I, I kind of like started to listen and that was the first, first step in all this stuff that started to take place within like a two week span.

00:10:37.780 Colin, can I ask you, um, I, I've also heard a voice before in the past and, um,

00:10:45.660 I was a child when it happened. It was only once in my life. Uh, but some of the things, so, so there's questions that I'm interested in.

00:10:54.420 What was like the tone of this voice? Was it, um, first off, was it male or female?

00:11:01.200 And was it, uh, was it a scary voice? Was it a calm voice? Was it, uh, you know, it kind of gave you an order, right?

00:11:09.940 So I, I imagine it struck you as very serious. Um, how would you describe it?

00:11:16.300 It was, uh, it was a male, um, fatherly, but not like, there was no anger in the, in the tone of it, but stern.

00:11:25.540 Like, Hey, listen up type of thing. You know what I'm talking about?

00:11:31.000 Yeah. Almost like giving you advice.

00:11:33.840 Yeah. Like you need that. You need to quit here tonight.

00:11:38.300 You need to give yourself to God and you need to start going to church.

00:11:41.860 This was on a Saturday that next Sunday morning. I was at church.

00:11:46.600 I'd never gone, never gone to church before on my own ever, ever.

00:11:51.140 So I, I quit the comic book that night.

00:11:54.060 Colin, was this, was the voice like, uh, overwhelming or was it just like another dude talking to you?

00:12:00.500 It was, it was like, like some, like say there was a chair behind me and somebody leaned up from behind and like to say something in my ears.

00:12:09.460 So they make sure I'd hear it like right behind my head.

00:12:13.040 And I was, I was, I was standing at the exit door watching the people who came to the show that night.

00:12:20.380 I didn't even make sure I got out.

00:12:22.480 Um, one, one last thing for me, uh, did it sound, did you pick it up with your ears or was this something that like,

00:12:29.560 when I heard the voice, I distinctively felt like it was, um, audible, but not from my ears.

00:12:38.080 So like, it was like, there was a woman in my head.

00:12:41.420 Uh, but it was very clear as if I heard it with my ears, but I, I distinctly felt like it wasn't something that I picked up with my ears.

00:12:47.800 Um, I turned around and looked, but like, I, I mean, it was, it's super loud in the comedy club.

00:12:56.820 So it had to have been in my head for me to hear it like.

00:13:01.400 Cause you got, you know, it's a 300 seat room and it was sold out night.

00:13:07.760 You got quite a bit of people in the lobby trying to get out.

00:13:10.000 Um, so it's really interesting because you had, uh, from where I'm sitting, a mixture of things that, um, I'm not saying that this entity was negative.

00:13:25.840 I'm just speaking from my own experiences.

00:13:27.960 You had a lot of things going on that I would say would open one up to an experience.

00:13:35.300 Uh, so the psychedelic mushroom use, obviously, right.

00:13:39.260 You've, you've, uh, put that together.

00:13:41.460 A lot of people suggest that this is, um, it's a doorway.

00:13:45.940 It opens you up, uh, to experiences with things that aren't just psychological hallucinations, but, you know, maybe something, uh, in a realm that we're not able to perceive in regular waking life.

00:13:57.880 Um, not inundated by a different substance, but also, uh, you know, you're describing a situation.

00:14:05.300 That is accompanied by a feeling of like depression, right?

00:14:09.680 Like you've gone through a divorce.

00:14:11.680 Um, that's a, I mean, you know, I would, I would say that there have got to be studies that'll tell you a divorce is in the top three, most, uh, destabilizing, chaotic, and upsetting moments, uh, in a person's life.

00:14:27.200 And so, um, and then on top of it, you're working in a cemetery, which is sort of the backdrop.

00:14:37.100 So it's like the, the, the things that are really happening in your life, it's the divorce.

00:14:43.060 I'm sure is something you're struggling with on the surface level on a daily basis.

00:14:48.880 Um, and then this use of mushrooms, which is happening sporadically behind that.

00:14:55.160 Um, and then the backdrop to all of this is a cemetery.

00:14:59.280 And I mean, man, you, you really created sort of a perfect storm there.

00:15:04.220 You got the bingo card of, of paranormal.

00:15:08.740 But yeah, yeah, I guess so possibly, but the, this, the cemetery, it's, it's beautiful.

00:15:15.600 It's 500 and some acres, you know, it's, it's a, it's a, it's like a forest.

00:15:20.800 So I don't know, I, I was, I had gone to therapy, I'd gone to the shrinks and shit and they put

00:15:28.440 me on antidepressants, you know, these entities told me to stop taking the antidepressants.

00:15:34.100 I did subsequently, I have not taken anything since I feel so much better.

00:15:39.420 Uh, but yeah, it, it, it was interesting.

00:15:42.380 It was, it was a lot, a lot to take in while it was all happening because I, I, I felt insane.

00:15:48.320 I still feel insane about all of it, but so, um, do you want me to continue with the story

00:15:54.460 or?

00:15:55.960 Yeah, please.

00:15:56.720 Before you, before you do that, I do want to ask one question.

00:15:59.520 Do you feel like the, um, did you pick the job at the cemetery?

00:16:03.720 Like, was that an opportunity for isolation?

00:16:06.200 Things are getting so much to the point where you kind of just want to be away.

00:16:10.240 Uh, no, uh, I, I needed a job and, uh, it, it, it, it, I fit the job perfectly.

00:16:18.200 Um, you know, it's, it's a lot more than just like digging graves and shit.

00:16:22.160 So, but I, I, I, I actually, yeah, heavy, heavy equipment and stuff, backhoes, all sorts,

00:16:28.920 all sorts of stuff, you know, it's without giving away where I work, we've, we've been open

00:16:34.180 since the civil war.

00:16:35.620 So, that'll give you an idea of how old this place is.

00:16:41.060 Okay.

00:16:41.500 All right.

00:16:41.900 So, um, yeah, let's, let's, uh, let's go forward from here.

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00:17:28.220 All right.

00:17:28.920 So, uh, I had that experience that night.

00:17:30.860 The whole, I walk, I'm walking back to my car after hearing the voice, um, and it's,

00:17:35.700 it's continuing to, to talk to me.

00:17:38.180 And it's, it's, it's pretty much, I, I'm, it's going through the list of all the, all

00:17:44.460 the shit that I need to be dealing with.

00:17:47.380 You know, when typically when you eat mushrooms, you get, you get exposed to all the, all your

00:17:51.060 faults, you know, all your shortcomings in life and everything.

00:17:53.960 And we're, it's going through that.

00:17:55.940 I'm like, oh, okay.

00:17:57.160 And I, I, I get what's going on.

00:17:58.940 I'm like, oh, it's just, it's here to help.

00:18:01.400 Like, all right.

00:18:02.060 So I, I, I, I text my boss the next morning.

00:18:05.200 I said, Hey, I, no fault to you guys, but last night was my last night.

00:18:10.160 I'm not going to be able to work effectively.

00:18:12.300 It was just a second gig anyway.

00:18:15.460 So, uh, that, that week goes by and I get to the next weekend and I'm like, all right,

00:18:22.460 well, I'm going to try this again and eat some mushrooms.

00:18:25.960 I'm going to meditate.

00:18:27.000 Cause I, I'd read during the week and I'd listened to some podcasts and stuff about people

00:18:31.040 who can get into that realm.

00:18:33.420 I was like, well, shit, I'm going to explore that.

00:18:36.040 Um, and first time I, I meditate with, uh, I, I mask and with, uh, earbuds in and I'm

00:18:44.780 listening to, uh, sulfurego beads or whatever the frequency is frequency music.

00:18:49.900 And I, it, I get shot into this different realm and I come face to face with this blue

00:19:00.120 into, it looks like a guy from the blue man group, just a complete blue entity.

00:19:06.480 And he's sitting behind what looks like, like a control panel of, of some sort.

00:19:13.420 Like, I don't know, like maybe like what, like a TV newsroom looks like a panel.

00:19:17.580 There's just panels and shit everywhere.

00:19:19.560 I was like, where in the fuck am I?

00:19:21.620 And he looked at me and he goes, well, holy shit.

00:19:23.980 He goes, how are you doing?

00:19:25.280 So I was like, I, I, I was, I was just shocked.

00:19:29.260 I was like, I don't know what in the fuck is going on.

00:19:30.920 So it just completely and totally shocked me and he started to talk to me about stuff.

00:19:37.540 So you have any questions or anything or want me to keep going?

00:19:40.840 I do have a question.

00:19:42.140 How much, um, do you remember how much this time you took?

00:19:45.060 And how tall was this guy?

00:19:48.500 Uh, see, the thing is in this place, it's, I'd say average, like a average size of, of

00:19:56.040 what I am.

00:19:56.780 I'm six foot.

00:19:57.640 So it's something like that, but it's not the same space.

00:20:01.100 There's no, and time doesn't exist there.

00:20:03.860 Does that make sense?

00:20:05.160 Um, and, and, and how much mushrooms, uh, did you, did you consume on this, this time

00:20:13.500 it was, uh, three grains.

00:20:15.600 Is that a lot?

00:20:16.660 I don't know.

00:20:18.360 Uh, yeah, this was, I, it was quite a bit for the, the strain I was taking.

00:20:24.220 Yeah.

00:20:25.680 So it was a, and did you have like a sense of what, like this, this image?

00:20:35.160 That you likened it to a newsroom where he's got all these panels and all these TVs.

00:20:41.740 Did it, was it accompanied with any sense of, of what this guy was?

00:20:45.180 It's almost like you met, you bumped into a dude who was doing a job.

00:20:48.680 You know, that's, that's the impression that I'm, I'm getting lately.

00:20:51.560 Yeah, that's what, that's, that's honestly what it felt like.

00:20:54.860 Um, no, I, I, I, I asked him immediately.

00:20:58.300 I go, are you God?

00:20:59.940 And I can't remember if that was the first time I met him or the second time, but he, he

00:21:03.660 laughed and this thing has a sense of humor.

00:21:06.180 It jokes around and it laughed and said, no, I'm just, I'm just here to help you.

00:21:09.880 I'm one of your guides because you've been having a hard time.

00:21:13.500 I was like, holy shit.

00:21:15.060 But yeah, I've been having a hard fucking time.

00:21:16.900 That's for sure.

00:21:19.840 How long has he been your guide?

00:21:21.760 Like that he's, so he's just fucking around this whole time until like, he's like, all

00:21:24.840 right, this guy really needs me now.

00:21:26.020 So I've come, I've come to find out that I, I have, I have several different ones that

00:21:30.960 are with me.

00:21:32.520 Um, and they've been with me my entire life.

00:21:35.340 I had, I, I, I've, I've been able to look back on, on when I was younger, different things

00:21:41.040 that's happened and it ties into all, all of what's happening now.

00:21:45.240 So this type of stuff's apparently happened my entire life.

00:21:48.960 So.

00:21:50.240 Okay.

00:21:50.680 So we'll, I, I very much looking forward to the bigger picture, um, that you're alluding

00:21:55.680 to, but let's, let's give it to us in pieces.

00:21:58.020 So let's, let's continue on from there.

00:22:01.840 All right.

00:22:02.420 So I, I, I get to the point where I can take these mushrooms and I can go back and I can

00:22:11.000 talk to the same entity with, he's the, he, and we just have, I can have a conversation

00:22:17.300 with him and it's, he's, he's giving me advice, you know, on how to, how to do things.

00:22:24.180 And it's, and it's all, it's all things that are good.

00:22:30.400 Like going to church, giving myself to God.

00:22:32.560 I need to read the Bible.

00:22:34.200 Uh, I, I was told to give up meat.

00:22:36.500 I needed to start exercising.

00:22:38.300 I needed to, uh, cut toxic people out of my life.

00:22:41.860 I just, a laundry list of you need to do this, do this, do this, listen to this, listen

00:22:47.200 to this and we can, we can get you to where you need to be on to your, uh, next step in

00:22:55.600 all of this.

00:22:56.280 I, I was always confused on what he meant by the next step in all of this.

00:23:00.340 Cause I, I, I was my, my goal for all of this.

00:23:04.220 I just wanted to, to not hurt anymore.

00:23:07.020 I wanted to be the best dad I could be.

00:23:08.760 I want to be the best, just the best version of myself that I could be.

00:23:12.240 And I was trying to do this work on, you know, work on myself.

00:23:15.500 That's, that was the intent for all of this.

00:23:17.460 I, I, I had no intention beyond that.

00:23:20.740 Um, but so we're just going through stuff and this is going on for like a week and a

00:23:27.580 Colin, can I just interrupt?

00:23:29.520 Uh, so I don't have any experience with mushrooms, but it seems like, you know, people look into

00:23:34.720 like party, they'll take mushrooms and maybe they'll trip out a little bit.

00:23:38.720 People looking to explore deeper within themselves.

00:23:41.760 Like there's an intentionality to doing that.

00:23:44.120 Do you think that, uh, mushrooms work in that way that you can like, like almost like if

00:23:48.720 I take this, then this becomes available to whatever doorway or path I decide to go down

00:23:53.540 or is it just a random trip?

00:23:55.800 Uh, no, it's not random and everything's intention.

00:24:00.460 Um, I, I, prior to this, I had never had experiences like this with mushrooms.

00:24:07.760 Um, so I don't know, that's, that's where it gets really confusing is cause I, I, I'd had

00:24:13.520 experience with psychedelics, but never experiences like this ever.

00:24:19.520 Um, and I, I, I don't know, I don't know what the difference is.

00:24:24.340 Um, maybe it's just a different, different mind space that I am in now than I was then,

00:24:29.880 but it's, it's, it's different for everybody.

00:24:33.560 Uh, I don't recommend it for everybody cause a lot of, a lot of people should not do, do

00:24:40.160 it.

00:24:40.340 And I definitely don't recommend to anyone to do what I decided to do.

00:24:45.540 It's drastic, drastic, drastic times require drastic measure.

00:24:51.620 I really wanted to get better.

00:24:53.700 That's all I wanted.

00:24:54.820 That's all I, I, and praying.

00:24:58.660 Not to get too personal, but, uh, was something at this time, like, were you considering like

00:25:05.060 suicide at this?

00:25:06.400 Is that what you're saying?

00:25:07.020 Um, no, yes, no.

00:25:11.480 Um, I just, my, my ex-wife and I have less than a good relationship and we have children

00:25:19.320 involved and, you know, it's just, it's really hard when your children live two hours away

00:25:25.040 from you to be in their life at all.

00:25:27.080 You know what I mean?

00:25:28.360 Uh, so it's just, it was, it was that, you know, not being around my kids and everything

00:25:32.740 and then pretty much having your whole life just flipped over on you out of the blue.

00:25:38.920 You know what I mean?

00:25:40.360 Yeah.

00:25:41.080 Cause generally like we're, we're going to have Jerry Marzinski on.

00:25:44.820 He's going to, we're going to talk about the, um, correlation between schizophrenia and actual

00:25:49.120 demonic possession.

00:25:50.480 Right.

00:25:50.920 Like rather than schizophrenia being a thing, it's more likely demons.

00:25:55.180 And this guy was, he worked in the field for years and he seems to think that that's the

00:25:59.260 case, but it would, it was like, it would just seem that like the, the demonic possession

00:26:03.740 would want to move you in the other direction.

00:26:06.800 Right.

00:26:07.160 Which is why I'm like baffled by this case, you know, that's in my girlfriend, she, cause

00:26:14.620 I tell, I, I, I was like, I, I didn't know.

00:26:17.080 I was like, do I tell her that she knew I was eating mushrooms and all she knew is I'd eat

00:26:22.020 them and I'd put on an eye mask and I'd lay there for a couple hours and I'd wake up and

00:26:26.060 I'd be a lot happier.

00:26:27.480 I, I, I, after I'd come back, I, you know, I, I, it was like, it's like, it was like sitting

00:26:32.160 there talking with a therapist, but I'm in some other realm talking with a, and

00:26:36.260 an entity that with the help of psilocybin, which sounds insane, but everything this

00:26:42.680 thing was telling me was, it was the truth.

00:26:45.740 And I, I, I, so I was like, all right.

00:26:48.940 So I started to listen to it.

00:26:49.900 I started taking the advice of what this thing that I started to listen to it and things

00:26:55.340 started to get, get better.

00:26:56.640 So I, I, and I, and I go to church every Sunday.

00:27:00.460 Um, I need to get baptized.

00:27:02.240 I have, I haven't done that.

00:27:03.180 I'm 37 and had never gone to church on my own.

00:27:05.300 So it was, it was a pretty profound experience to, to drag me to, to church.

00:27:10.900 I, I was, I actively denied the divine for my entire life.

00:27:17.000 You know, I thought it was for the weak and I couldn't be, I couldn't be more wrong, more

00:27:24.060 wrong.

00:27:25.220 What, um, what denomination?

00:27:28.000 I'm just Christian.

00:27:29.440 Yeah.

00:27:30.460 I mean, the church that I go to, it's just, it's just a Christian, Christian church.

00:27:36.320 It's a non-denominational.

00:27:38.900 So they, they, their, their, their mission statement is just to become more like Christ.

00:27:44.120 That's, that's the goal of it.

00:27:45.740 I was, I, I can get behind it and people, you can wear, uh, you know, football jerseys

00:27:50.640 on Sunday and no one cares.

00:27:51.820 So that's cool.

00:27:52.320 So it's not like, uh, I'm just asking because I know that the church that I grew up in and

00:27:57.820 the one that I used to go to, it's more like the pastor is going to prepare a message.

00:28:02.080 He's going to come up there and he's going to talk to you, like talk to you how we're

00:28:05.360 talking.

00:28:06.040 And there's a big difference between that and the Catholic church.

00:28:08.640 I don't want to trash the Catholic church, but when you go there, it's almost like, I

00:28:12.440 think they read, they all read the same thing on the same day.

00:28:14.920 And it's very much like read from this book, put it down.

00:28:17.560 There's not like a personal message.

00:28:18.820 So I'm, I'm trying to just like figure out exactly what you're like, you're going to

00:28:22.920 church, but what do you hear in there?

00:28:24.180 You know what I mean?

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00:29:22.800 Yeah, it's just that we just got done with Matthew.

00:29:30.500 Shit, what we were talking about Sunday, finding joy in the mundane thing, finding joy in everything,

00:29:37.840 finding God in everything.

00:29:39.840 Right.

00:29:39.960 Looking at everything, look at everything in life and see that that's God, that's God,

00:29:44.200 that's God, everything's God, which is what these mushrooms have told me, that there's

00:29:52.580 nothing that is not the divine.

00:29:54.360 The divine is absolutely everything around you, including you.

00:29:58.560 So, if you're created by it.

00:30:02.820 Yeah.

00:30:03.420 Did these entities, Colin, did they ever explicitly, like, use the name of Christ?

00:30:08.700 Um, we, we, they told, they were, we talked about Jesus.

00:30:14.700 He didn't say Jesus Christ.

00:30:15.840 And from what I understand, Christ is just the king.

00:30:20.800 And it's about, we talked about Christ consciousness, if that makes sense.

00:30:26.000 Um, turning on the Christ within yourself, that everyone, when he spoke about Jesus, did

00:30:35.440 it sound like he knew him?

00:30:37.500 Yeah.

00:30:38.320 Oh, yeah.

00:30:39.260 He, he, he, he talked about what Jesus came here to do was to show us what we all can do.

00:30:47.900 That's interesting.

00:30:48.780 I was just listening to Tony Merkel's episode while I was, uh, wrenching away under the car

00:30:53.840 and they were saying, uh, you know, that in the Bible, it talks about Jesus expressing

00:30:59.700 that, um, what he can do in regards to healing, uh, we can do that and so much more.

00:31:07.760 Uh, so that's just interesting.

00:31:09.460 It just is a thought that I had.

00:31:11.720 Um, so, okay, let's, uh, let's, let's continue on from here.

00:31:15.980 So you, you're, you're taking these mushrooms, you're having this experience for the, the better

00:31:21.000 part of, of, of a bit longer than a week, uh, from what you described.

00:31:24.840 Yeah.

00:31:25.340 Um, from this all, this entire story takes place over a four week span total.

00:31:32.480 So from the, uh, January 9th until, uh, February 15th.

00:31:39.880 So I'm over the course of that time, I'm eating mushrooms on a nightly basis and I'm meditating

00:31:46.840 and praying every single night.

00:31:49.960 Um, we, we, I, it's pretty much everything that there's, these things are telling me,

00:31:55.840 um, are biblical.

00:31:57.380 I did not know that they were biblical at the time.

00:32:00.100 Um, but subsequent to going to church on Sundays and hearing what these entities had told me when

00:32:08.700 I was in the, the place with them, I'd be called the upper room, I guess.

00:32:14.140 Um, yeah, I, it's, it's going through what, what, what you need to do to, to fulfill what

00:32:23.820 your destiny on earth is to be.

00:32:26.720 You're not like that.

00:32:27.840 We're not here just to, to work and pay taxes and live this bullshit life that we're all forced

00:32:33.980 to do right now.

00:32:35.420 It doesn't have to be this way.

00:32:37.000 And that I got it already.

00:32:40.400 Like, that's exciting to me because that was something that I think so many of us can

00:32:43.980 resonate with my, my entire childhood, uh, was spent sort of rebelling against the school

00:32:50.020 system.

00:32:51.020 Um, because it just felt like imprisonment now in hindsight, there's a lot of valid reasons

00:32:54.740 as to why it felt like a literal prison, literal.

00:32:57.760 Yeah.

00:32:58.020 And now as an adult, it's like the thing that I struggle with most, I'm blessed to have

00:33:02.640 this job where like, I can be very, um, I can make my own schedule come and go as I

00:33:08.980 please.

00:33:09.440 Nobody holds my feet to the fire for anything.

00:33:11.180 I have a really good rapport with my bosses.

00:33:13.480 Um, I could work hard.

00:33:14.820 And then if something comes up, I can go, Hey, I'm not going to be here for this.

00:33:17.760 And it's no problem.

00:33:18.520 And that really gives me a lot of freedom, which is hugely important to me.

00:33:22.040 Um, and I was always burdened with, and I think so many of us are that like this, there's

00:33:28.100 gotta be more than, than just this, right?

00:33:30.900 Like I'm, I'm unbelievably satisfied that Top and I are engaging in these conversations

00:33:36.680 with people like you and the other shows that we've done, because honestly, in my mind, these

00:33:42.300 conversations feel like that's, what's important.

00:33:44.840 Uh, and, uh, and, and that they, you know, ideally are going to lead somewhere, uh, one

00:33:50.500 day where maybe we can break through something and, and realize, uh, maybe in the way that

00:33:56.180 you have, uh, but yeah, that, that whole sentiment, I resonate with that a lot, right?

00:34:00.920 This is not why we're here.

00:34:02.300 We're not here to pay taxes.

00:34:03.680 We're not here to, uh, wage slave away, uh, to our deaths.

00:34:08.100 And we're not here to take on an incredible amount of debt and then just die.

00:34:13.680 Uh, that's, that's not it.

00:34:15.480 So, uh, yeah, I just wanted to say that's really, that's my whole life story, dude.

00:34:20.340 Like, I don't know if you, if like, you know about what I've, what I've been doing the last

00:34:25.040 few years, Colin, cause you follow like, like probably the bullshit that I do on Twitter.

00:34:28.940 That's how you know me.

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00:35:29.260 You kind of realize that in 2020.

00:35:32.240 Just left a good job, took a lot of risk, moved to Florida with my entire family.

00:35:37.580 Not just me, like my parents too.

00:35:40.060 Move them on the same land.

00:35:42.080 We're like, I'm like, I'm in on, it's not going to be, it's not going to be like clock in, clock out.

00:35:48.840 It can't be that way, there's something more.

00:35:52.300 And how I'm doing it is just completely retarded.

00:35:55.580 But I just feel like, you know, because it is, it's weird, right?

00:35:59.380 Like I'm talking about a divine concept, but I'm doing it by saying the N-word.

00:36:04.460 You know, like.

00:36:05.820 But it's beautiful.

00:36:07.240 I was going to say that's poetry, dude.

00:36:08.720 That's poetry.

00:36:10.580 Everything is divine though.

00:36:12.540 If, you know, you give it back.

00:36:15.300 Like if you're honoring that everything is beautiful, even the N-word, you know, but I like it.

00:36:23.260 You know, I like, I like the brasses.

00:36:26.360 Yeah, I guess it's just something different that people want to hear.

00:36:29.660 But, um, so please continue.

00:36:31.880 I need to hear the rest of this.

00:36:33.960 All right.

00:36:34.320 Um, so, uh, now I, I had, I had one strange, really strange experience prior to, uh, the abduction experience.

00:36:46.320 But, um, so I, I, I walked into my house and I subsequently, I subsequently have moved.

00:36:52.880 Um, I don't live there anymore.

00:36:54.040 And it was Indianapolis.

00:36:55.320 I've moved out of the city into a suburb now.

00:36:57.920 But, um, I, I, I walked into my house after coming home from work and, um, my girlfriend was already home.

00:37:06.100 Uh, she has the baby.

00:37:07.740 And I, it's, I, I, I get the feeling and it just, it's, it's, it's like says to me, but telepathically, hey, uh, you need to get like a gram or two mushrooms out, eat them.

00:37:20.260 And then you need to lay down in the spare bedroom.

00:37:23.620 I was like, huh?

00:37:25.820 I was like, sorry, all right.

00:37:27.160 So I jumped in the shower or whatever.

00:37:28.340 And I went and got them.

00:37:29.540 And I, I went to put first mushroom in my mouth and it touched my lip.

00:37:36.580 And as soon as it touched my lip, my legs, it, like, it felt like the mushrooms had kicked in and I hadn't even consumed them yet.

00:37:45.460 And I was like, whoa.

00:37:47.400 And so I ate them and it was, was not 20, 30 seconds afterwards.

00:37:54.160 I heard lay down now, get the mask on and get ready.

00:37:58.560 I was like, what in the hell is that?

00:38:01.460 So I, I did what it said.

00:38:04.100 I, I laid down in this, in the guest bedroom, in the bed, on the bed and, uh, I'm, I'm waiting and I'm, I'm listening to my music and I just, I, I just get normal visual visuals.

00:38:17.580 Like I, when I eat mushrooms, when I was a kid going to concerts and stuff, nothing, nothing happened.

00:38:23.120 I was like, huh?

00:38:24.340 I was like, that was weird.

00:38:25.120 I was like, cause I'd been able to regularly go back, go in and this thing would be, he'd be there every time.

00:38:32.400 And we'd have conversations and stuff and I'd do the whole psychedelic experience with it.

00:38:38.400 But this time it just nothing.

00:38:41.080 Yeah.

00:38:41.520 Really quick.

00:38:43.000 I just want to ask, um, is it him that's calling you?

00:38:47.880 Uh, the, I, I don't know what, I, I, I don't know.

00:38:52.780 I, I, it's what I'm communicating with.

00:38:55.220 I call it the, there's the mushroom entity.

00:38:57.440 Then there's the guides.

00:38:58.580 There's, there's all sorts of different ones.

00:39:00.560 That's, that's the thing.

00:39:02.340 It's, there's different ones that come through depending if that makes any sense too.

00:39:08.100 But the, the, the one where I'm.

00:39:10.900 Depending on what they need to tell you.

00:39:13.260 Yeah.

00:39:13.680 There's been different ones each time.

00:39:15.380 Like there's that one that I go when I eat mushrooms.

00:39:18.300 But after my abduction experience, I don't like, I, I've, I had eaten mushrooms a handful of times.

00:39:25.780 That's it.

00:39:26.100 These things come through without that.

00:39:27.860 Wait, so which was the abduction experience?

00:39:31.040 Did we?

00:39:33.000 No, we haven't gotten there yet, right?

00:39:38.320 Oh, that's interesting.

00:39:39.400 Oh, you're breaking.

00:39:41.140 Okay.

00:39:41.840 Uh, top was asking which one was the abduction experience, but Colin, we haven't gotten there, right?

00:39:48.000 No, not yet.

00:39:48.760 I'm getting, we're here right now.

00:39:50.040 This is right before it.

00:39:52.020 Okay.

00:39:52.280 So, so you, uh, they tell you to come.

00:39:55.080 You show up.

00:39:56.000 No one answers the door.

00:39:58.040 What happens?

00:39:59.800 Yeah.

00:40:00.780 Yeah.

00:40:01.280 And I, I, I, I didn't know.

00:40:03.920 I, so I, I, I just experienced the mushrooms.

00:40:07.840 I, when, when they were over, I went to bed and all was well with the world.

00:40:11.700 And, and, and as a result of me doing the mushrooms, I, I was waking up in the morning and I had never felt better in my life ever.

00:40:21.800 I, I was refreshed.

00:40:23.340 I, I felt like I was a new person and I, I, I'd go through like daily and be working on myself.

00:40:31.300 And like, they pretty much told me to like give myself pep talks going throughout the day.

00:40:36.320 You know what I mean?

00:40:37.820 And then I, I was listening to what they were telling me to do and every, everything's changed.

00:40:41.780 Everything.

00:40:43.680 So, uh, the, the, the, the night of the, the abduction were here.

00:40:48.520 Um, you guys ready?

00:40:51.240 Yeah.

00:40:51.640 Let's go.

00:40:52.260 So, so it's a Saturday.

00:40:55.800 Uh, I decide that I'm going to eat a little more than normal.

00:41:02.220 Um, so I, I did and I'm, I'm laying on my couch in my living room.

00:41:09.660 Um, my girlfriend had already gone to bed and I'm getting ready to go into, go in there.

00:41:19.660 And I, it starts to happen, but this time I get the feeling that my entire body is going up.

00:41:31.780 Like I'm on an elevator of some sort, like I'm moving.

00:41:37.580 And I, I go to open my eyes.

00:41:41.280 I cannot open my eyes.

00:41:45.140 I, I can't move either.

00:41:47.520 Um, I begin to panic at this point and it's, it's going on for quite a while.

00:41:55.360 And it's, it feels like I'm moving really, really, really fucking fast.

00:42:01.140 Um, seems like for eternity, this is going on.

00:42:04.840 And I finally, I popped into this, it was, I can't describe it.

00:42:18.460 It was like a operating room of some sort.

00:42:23.240 There's, I see lights above me.

00:42:26.080 I see, and then there's, there's two or three lights above me.

00:42:31.740 Everything's white.

00:42:32.460 And then there's three guys, three men.

00:42:36.580 Uh, all three of them are bald.

00:42:38.840 Uh, one has a mustache and glasses and they're all three wearing white trench coats.

00:42:45.640 Um, they have ties on.

00:42:47.440 They look, they look like doctors.

00:42:48.900 They see me look at them and I hear in my head, he's not supposed to see us.

00:42:56.980 And then they come over to me.

00:42:59.940 Um, I, I started to, started to fight them, uh, trying to get up, but I'm, I'm laying on

00:43:09.460 a table of some sort.

00:43:10.940 I don't know.

00:43:11.480 Um, I couldn't really see besides these guys put my arms up and they, the one, he just kept

00:43:19.560 saying over and over and over again, you consented to this, you consented to this, you consented

00:43:26.260 to this before you're born, stop fighting, stop fighting us.

00:43:29.880 And I, I, I remember, I don't know if I said it or thought it or what, but I go, I, I, how

00:43:36.420 could I consent to something that I don't know what it is?

00:43:39.380 What is this?

00:43:40.860 What is happening?

00:43:42.280 And he just kept saying over and over and over, you consented to this, you consented to

00:43:45.900 this, we're upgrading.

00:43:47.440 And then it gets to the point where we're upgrading you for a war.

00:43:50.160 And I was just like, what in the fuck?

00:43:53.060 What, what, what?

00:43:54.720 And they're, they're holding me down.

00:43:56.520 And the next thing I know, there's a prick in the back of my head, uh, right where the,

00:44:02.300 your neck goes into your head slightly to the right of my spine.

00:44:06.760 And I have this sensation of lightning going through my entire body.

00:44:13.720 Um, my back arches on the table.

00:44:16.920 Um, I felt, I felt like, I felt like what I was someone in an electric chair would had

00:44:24.020 to have gone through.

00:44:24.820 Um, just the shaking and the, the, the most unimaginable pain I've ever felt in my life.

00:44:33.560 It's, I don't know how to describe it.

00:44:35.720 It felt like electricity coming on my fingertips, my toes, my head, every, every, or every part

00:44:41.320 of my body was being electrocuted.

00:44:43.400 Um, and then everything went dark.

00:44:48.360 Uh, everything went, everything went what Colin?

00:44:52.720 Black, dark, everything went dark.

00:44:55.820 Um, and then I opened my eyes and just like you were opening, like I opened my eyes and

00:45:04.040 instead of being in, uh, on earth, I opened my eyes and it's, it's like the space that we're

00:45:13.100 in now.

00:45:13.580 So the, the same distance it felt to where the blue sky is, where the clouds are, is everything

00:45:20.020 is white marble with gold vein, giant gold veins running through it everywhere.

00:45:27.420 Everything's gold.

00:45:29.740 Everything's white marble in the center of this, which is the size of just like you'd

00:45:34.740 step outside and you're looking at the sky.

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00:46:04.640 It was this golden mechanical device.

00:46:08.940 It looked like the size of the moon, but in the sky here.

00:46:13.800 And I was, I immediately thought, I go, oh shit, I died.

00:46:19.900 That was my, that I, that was my first thought.

00:46:22.660 I'm like, fuck, I died.

00:46:23.580 And as soon as I said that from behind my head on my right side, I hear Colin, you aren't

00:46:31.740 dead.

00:46:32.380 And it felt like I was in the presence of God.

00:46:37.640 Like I was, I was around someone who, like the sense of knowing that I felt in that, in

00:46:44.600 that presence, it's indescribable.

00:46:47.320 Absolutely indescribable.

00:46:48.560 I don't know what that felt like.

00:46:50.120 Words do not do justice.

00:46:52.820 That's when I first met that entity.

00:46:55.340 I, it, I don't know exactly if it was God, but it was something incredibly, incredibly

00:47:04.920 powerful and loving, if that makes sense.

00:47:08.480 Dude, so I'm listening to this and this, um, I don't know how well-versed you are, Colin,

00:47:21.320 in sort of these experiences, right?

00:47:23.240 Whether they're sleep paralysis experiences, alien abduction experiences.

00:47:27.600 Um, but there are key elements that I always draw a, uh, correlation to or a line through,

00:47:35.840 right?

00:47:36.400 It's like a sort of a pattern recognition in these experiences.

00:47:39.240 And I can tell you of my own personal experiences where, well, first I'd like to ask you this

00:47:45.000 electricity, right?

00:47:46.160 That you felt going through your entire body.

00:47:48.080 Was it also accompanied with like, it was a feeling as well as a sound?

00:47:53.200 Like you could, it was getting, you were getting all of it, like an intense, it was, if somebody

00:47:58.100 did, I'm sorry?

00:48:01.120 A hundred percent feeling.

00:48:02.240 I felt every, it was horrible, horrible.

00:48:06.580 If somebody described to you, um, a similar situation, but they used words like, I was

00:48:16.480 frozen and there was an intense, painful, like vibration.

00:48:21.360 Could you say that there's a, they're using just a different language to describe something

00:48:26.700 very similar?

00:48:28.440 Yeah.

00:48:29.300 Yeah.

00:48:30.740 But it definitely couldn't have been misunderstood with cold.

00:48:34.800 Oh, here, let me, uh, tell you what I'm getting at.

00:48:38.320 So when I was younger, I started going down this rabbit hole of exploring, um, this concept

00:48:43.260 of shadow people, because I discovered that there was a, uh, a string of coincidences

00:48:48.660 within my family where they all saw the same entity.

00:48:50.860 And it was a unique shadow person.

00:48:52.140 It's the guy with the hat and the duster coat.

00:48:53.900 People call him the hat man.

00:48:55.240 Um, I had found out that my grandmother saw him as well as my mother.

00:48:58.760 I mean, I'm sorry, my father, as well as, uh, a grandmother who wasn't really my grandmother.

00:49:04.400 She was like my stepdad's mom, you know?

00:49:06.800 So, uh, she would tell me stories of it and I started to connect all these dots.

00:49:10.200 And then I ended up reading a book one day that my grandmother said helped her to understand

00:49:14.360 what was happening to her.

00:49:15.540 And it was a book on basically alien abductions, but I start to become fascinated with this.

00:49:20.020 I go down a rabbit hole.

00:49:20.940 And as I'm researching on the internet, this is 2006, 2007, I'm starting to realize, uh,

00:49:26.740 that thousands of people are having this experience.

00:49:28.600 So I think to myself, I'm going to have this experience by virtue of researching it, right?

00:49:33.000 It's like, if you stare into the abyss and I was willing to engage with the idea that

00:49:36.220 like, it might just manifest in like a nightmare because I'm, and this is not, I'm not at all,

00:49:41.220 uh, uh, suggesting what your experience was period.

00:49:44.260 This is just my story.

00:49:45.720 So, um, I'm willing to engage with the idea that I might actually trick myself into having

00:49:51.640 like a nightmare.

00:49:52.300 And then I'd have to struggle.

00:49:53.660 This is me like preemptively thinking about it.

00:49:55.400 I might have to struggle with, was that valid or was that something that I dreamt because

00:49:59.600 of my obsession with this?

00:50:00.820 And so, uh, lo and behold, it does end up happening.

00:50:03.920 Now, what ends up happening, uh, parallels your story in, in many ways.

00:50:11.300 Um, but yours is above and beyond in its, uh, drama and scale and, and, uh, intensity.

00:50:20.540 And so what happens to me is, um, I wake up in the middle of the night and I, I can't

00:50:27.340 move and my entire body's locked up and I'm experiencing sleep paralysis and I'm not afraid

00:50:32.920 at all.

00:50:33.720 Um, but I think to myself, oh shit, it's, it's happening.

00:50:37.740 Right.

00:50:38.180 So, uh, I, I kind of am trying to get into the mode of like wiggling my body, trying to

00:50:43.540 get out of this.

00:50:44.720 And all of a sudden, um, I see the shadow of a man move across the room.

00:50:52.820 And as soon as that happens, I'm hit, excuse me, I'm hit with what feels like electricity.

00:50:59.120 My body stiffens up and all like my fingers, my arms, everything extends to the, the absolute

00:51:06.040 limits.

00:51:06.600 And I feel this insane electric, electric, uh, like it was, it wasn't electric shock.

00:51:14.120 It was electrocution, a constant steady wave of electricity pumping through my entire body.

00:51:18.680 I could feel it on.

00:51:20.800 It was so, it was like being attached to the loudest, uh, bass speaker ever.

00:51:26.700 And, uh, it, it overwhelmed my senses and I blacked out.

00:51:32.080 And when I came to, I was in a totally different position.

00:51:36.560 Now the, I want to say the electricity did two things, made me black out and filled me

00:51:42.020 with an unbelievable sense of dread.

00:51:44.300 Like I've never experienced it in waking life to this day.

00:51:47.800 Um, I wake up, I'm now facing the opposite direction.

00:51:52.500 I was sleeping next to my girlfriend at the time.

00:51:54.280 Her feet are now by my head and I'm looking at the closet and pouring out of the closet

00:52:00.880 is an unbelievably bright white light.

00:52:04.620 Everything is white and it's immense and it's pouring out.

00:52:08.220 There's no light source in this closet.

00:52:10.140 Uh, and yet somehow there is one.

00:52:12.120 Um, and then once again, I'm hit with this unbelievable sense of electricity.

00:52:16.860 My body locks up.

00:52:18.060 I'm basically feel like I'm being like tortured.

00:52:19.960 Like you said, uh, an electric chair is like a constant wave of electricity.

00:52:23.760 And then I black out again.

00:52:25.860 Um, that is just, as you're telling this story, there is a, a series of phenomenons that have

00:52:36.860 this same set of patterns.

00:52:39.360 And I don't think that they're separate at all, right?

00:52:41.380 Because if you're having this in a sleep paralysis shadow people sense, but you're also having

00:52:46.320 this in like an alien abduction sense, or you in particular are having this in some sort

00:52:50.880 of like high level, you know, communal with spiritual entity sense, I'm compelled to believe

00:52:57.880 that there is, if not one in the same happening, um, a massive overlap in experiences where if

00:53:07.040 it's a Venn diagram, the center section is much bigger than the edges.

00:53:10.300 Does, does, did, did that sound at all like it related to what you experienced?

00:53:16.140 Oh yeah, absolutely.

00:53:17.800 Um, uh, the, the, the, the, the thing is like when I, when I opened my eyes and I was in that

00:53:24.440 other place that was gold and marble and I had the experience of this, of the all, all knowing

00:53:31.560 and I'm, I'm, I was told, he said, we're going to go over some things you're not going to

00:53:36.940 remember until the time comes.

00:53:39.980 And I, I, he said some personal things that I don't necessarily, I don't know if I want

00:53:47.880 to get into, uh, right now, but some, some personal things and, uh, it definitely piqued

00:53:54.640 my attention, um, that, that, that there's something that is, uh, going on.

00:54:00.780 And, and I, I have, I have a firm belief that we, we, we live in, but we've always lived

00:54:05.500 in biblical times.

00:54:06.400 And I think that a lot of things that are in the Bible are going to be coming and showing

00:54:12.580 their, uh, their faces soon is the impression that I was given.

00:54:16.740 And, um, and I, I, I'm told that I, I'm, I have some, some sort of mission for this upcoming

00:54:22.400 war.

00:54:22.940 I, I, I, I'm not qualified for, um, you know, I, I, I don't know what my qualified qualifications

00:54:31.160 that, that led me to this, but I guess that it was predestined to happen.

00:54:37.860 A lot of this is from what I've been told.

00:54:40.220 That's the thing.

00:54:41.160 This is just my experience.

00:54:42.300 I, and I didn't, didn't believe in all this stuff and it's, it's a learning, learning

00:54:48.640 experience going along with it.

00:54:49.960 It's, it's pretty fucking scary at the same time too.

00:54:53.360 Uh, it's, you know, it kind of feel alone because you speak about this to the wrong person.

00:54:59.200 You're labeled insane and you're actually put in a fucking mental institution or some shit.

00:55:05.040 You know what I mean?

00:55:05.740 So I, I just don't want, I guess, I don't know.

00:55:08.860 I, it's just, it's just, it's just the same.

00:55:11.100 And then after that happened, I came, I, I am not the same fucking person I was before

00:55:15.760 that.

00:55:16.400 Like it's, I, I'm doing, you know, five, seven miles every morning with, with 40 to

00:55:22.080 50 pounds, weights on my back running every morning before work training like constantly.

00:55:28.640 It's, it's.

00:55:29.800 Do you think, are you like of the mindset that the war will be actually physical like

00:55:34.480 here with your physical body?

00:55:36.040 Because when we talk about that war, it's like, who knows what it is?

00:55:40.400 I think it's going to be a combination of both.

00:55:42.580 Um, I just have the feeling that I need to be in the best physical shape that I can be

00:55:47.540 in.

00:55:48.940 Um, I, prior to all this, I didn't pray.

00:55:52.460 I pray all, all the time now.

00:55:54.260 You know, I just, it's, it's, it's my, my girlfriend's like, you were not the same person

00:56:02.140 you were.

00:56:02.560 I just like, I, I don't know what to think of what you, what happened.

00:56:06.020 Something happened, but I'm telling you, this is how it's just crazy.

00:56:11.880 Hey, top, um, that episode with, uh, Tony and, and the guy who said that he felt like

00:56:20.260 he was being recruited essentially for some sort of war.

00:56:23.820 Wasn't there a, a, a notion that like, he distinctly felt like it was for like, for the

00:56:29.460 wrong side, right?

00:56:31.740 Um, no, it was, I think it was another, some, something else approached his brother or something

00:56:38.620 like that.

00:56:39.200 And he felt like that was negative.

00:56:40.440 Yeah, it was an entity named ball.

00:56:43.020 So yeah.

00:56:43.900 Right.

00:56:44.200 Go figure.

00:56:45.180 Colin, it sounds to me like you never got the, the feeling.

00:56:48.380 And the reason that I'm, I'm going in this direction is because if there is a war, uh,

00:56:52.260 and we already have this, this story, very compelling story on, on Tony's show of, um,

00:56:57.420 well, there's another one recruiting.

00:56:59.160 Yeah, there was another one.

00:57:00.280 Right.

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00:57:28.640 Uh, this one I'm talking about is a part of the predator, but it's in the members only

00:57:35.860 or like the overtime or something like that.

00:57:37.520 And the guy tells a story about he's actually having sex with his girlfriend and then blanks

00:57:42.600 out and he's in a room like filled with this white marble, probably kind of like how you're

00:57:48.700 describing.

00:57:49.320 Yeah.

00:57:49.460 But this was like Lucifer's throne room in his, right?

00:57:53.040 Like that was what he, and he, he knew that somehow, but, but these people are, are, when

00:57:58.960 they're describing their stories, there is no like turn towards God, turn towards Jesus.

00:58:05.220 Like, and it makes sense that, that, um, I'm not saying that Colin, your experience is one

00:58:11.020 of being duped.

00:58:12.440 What I'm more getting at is that if one side is recruiting, then the other side is recruiting.

00:58:18.000 Yeah.

00:58:19.540 Oh yeah.

00:58:20.460 That's, it's, I don't know.

00:58:23.880 I just, I, I, it's, it's such a profound experience that, that, that took place.

00:58:29.660 And in, in, in now it's like, it's, it ebbs and flows where these things will just pop

00:58:36.200 in, pop in sometimes.

00:58:38.120 And, uh, you know, I just, I, I can do things that I had never been able to do prior to this

00:58:44.700 experience.

00:58:45.300 Um, it's just, I don't know, it, it, it, since that abduction experience, um, I think

00:58:53.040 I've only eaten mushrooms twice.

00:58:54.580 So that was, so twice of the summer.

00:58:57.040 So I'm not, I'm not on that spiritual quest.

00:58:59.920 I feel like I've, I've gained quite a few answers with, with my, with my, uh, experiences.

00:59:06.880 So I, I have a good, I have a good understanding of what, what reality is, is actually like,

00:59:12.600 and it's a lot crazier than I was led to believe.

00:59:15.580 Um, that's for sure.

00:59:17.940 Could you, there's two questions I want to ask you.

00:59:20.120 Um, one is, uh, and, and, and a simple yes or no is fine.

00:59:25.580 Is there any time throughout these experiences where you felt like there was a potential for

00:59:30.860 you being, uh, deceived by these entities?

00:59:33.680 Um, I, I, I'd ask on, I'd ask frequently, um, asking questions to pertaining to, you know,

00:59:46.460 I, like, I, I, I, I accused one of them of being, uh, uh, a demon and he took a, he got

00:59:54.380 offended by that.

00:59:55.940 I found that it was just really fucking strange.

00:59:58.540 I was like, what in the hell?

00:59:59.860 I, but I never got the, I never got the sense of anything negative.

01:00:04.300 They never asked me to do anything for them.

01:00:06.780 They never asked me to do anything to anybody else.

01:00:10.140 They never, it was all, you need to, this is what you need to do to get yourself right.

01:00:15.980 There's a war coming up.

01:00:17.340 You need to get yourself mentally and physically prepared.

01:00:20.420 You need to give yourself to God.

01:00:22.120 You need to start praying.

01:00:23.260 You need to eat healthy.

01:00:24.860 You know, I gave, I went, went to being a vegetarian, eating all organic and everything.

01:00:31.100 It just, I do what they tell me and it, things work out.

01:00:35.840 The, the other thing that I wanted to ask you is, um, you alluded to a moment ago, being

01:00:42.200 able to do things that you couldn't do before.

01:00:43.980 Um, and, and I'm sure this is all part of, uh, sort of the betterment of your life from

01:00:50.260 the decisions that you've made, uh, at the behest of these entities, uh, what sorts of

01:00:56.080 impacts, improvements, you know, this idea of them, of, of them upgrading you.

01:01:01.460 Um, you know, I know myself personally, if I went through something like that, I would

01:01:06.560 be searching ad nauseum for that upgrade.

01:01:09.960 What the, what, you know, what did they do in what way am I better now?

01:01:13.180 What, what have you found?

01:01:14.460 And before I forget, uh, also did they have names, but yeah, can you answer all that?

01:01:20.320 All those things.

01:01:22.420 I only one of them, um, told me its name.

01:01:27.660 Um, I never asked.

01:01:29.000 I got, I got the, the, the feeling that I, I was there to listen and to not ask questions.

01:01:35.640 They would tell me that everything that I needed to know, um, so I did, um, I did do

01:01:42.820 a meditation, a guided meditation.

01:01:45.240 And, uh, one of the, one of the entities came through and he, he called himself Anu.

01:01:52.260 Um, so I'd never heard that name.

01:01:55.300 I looked up what, uh, who Anu was and he's, uh, the, uh, one of the Sumerian, uh, Sumerian,

01:02:01.320 uh, God, an Anunnaki, uh, the angel of death.

01:02:06.340 So that wasn't a good thing, I guess, uh, that kind of weirded me the fuck out.

01:02:12.160 To be honest, I was like, holy shit, what am I fucking with?

01:02:15.820 But it, um, yeah.

01:02:17.920 So what was the question again?

01:02:20.360 Um, the, the other question was the upgrades, but we, we can get to that in a second.

01:02:24.320 And I, I am, uh, more interested in this at the moment do so, um, let's focus in on these

01:02:32.180 entities.

01:02:33.320 Um, you know, for starters, how many would you think you could identify as, as like, you

01:02:40.380 know, there was five, there was six, there was three.

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01:03:11.640 Um, during the, uh, the, uh, the abduction experience, like I said, there was a, there were

01:03:17.240 three guys and they, they clearly looked like men, like humans.

01:03:21.640 That's, that's the, that's the weird.

01:03:24.100 Um, we have the, the blue guy on it for one is that that's not the blue guy, right?

01:03:29.980 No, I don't, I didn't get the, I didn't get the, the, the feeling that that was him.

01:03:33.860 Um, right.

01:03:34.820 So that's two plus the three dudes.

01:03:38.280 So that's five.

01:03:39.540 Yeah.

01:03:40.600 Um, and then I, there's probably like two or three more, two or three more.

01:03:45.240 I'd say there's some angels that come through sometimes too.

01:03:48.560 That's the thing, like the, the upgrades go into these things, talking to me now, like

01:03:54.020 communicating with me, um, verbal, like audibly and telepathically and shit like that, like

01:04:01.320 on, on a daily basis type thing.

01:04:04.000 When and, when and where, like, are you focused or is it just, uh, like right now?

01:04:08.820 Um, like when I, like they've been, they, like, they've known that I was going to talk

01:04:14.480 to you guys today and it's been, and yeah, yesterday and today it's just been like, uh,

01:04:20.540 like overdrive, like where I'll, I get like, uh, it's like a, it's like a people with flash

01:04:25.480 cards in my, in my mind.

01:04:26.720 Like I'll see pictures or, you know, sometimes I'll like catch a word or like I'll, if I,

01:04:34.000 if I notice, like if I, if I'm noticing like words on, uh, like say four different separate

01:04:39.660 things that have absolutely nothing to do with together, that's, I know that's a sign

01:04:43.200 that I need to be paying attention to shit like that.

01:04:45.660 Like, so I'm, it's like, it's like they took the dial and like turned me up from like up

01:04:51.240 to 11, like just like turn my dial where my, my frequencies adjusted type thing.

01:04:56.060 Um, I, and I know this sounds all absolutely insane, but like, no, I, dude, I have not

01:05:03.100 even fucking one story in this entire episode, uh, had that cross my mind.

01:05:07.320 What is insane is what's insane is how your story, uh, is like, like it's all shit that

01:05:12.920 I'm like, uh, I've thought about this and it's like, dude, I'm pulling, I'm watching,

01:05:17.080 uh, Corvo's face pull from different things that he's heard.

01:05:19.900 He's writing stuff down.

01:05:21.500 It's, uh, it's, it's just super interesting.

01:05:24.880 Yeah.

01:05:25.020 When I say for a second, when I, so I have a very strange, um, I guess the thing that

01:05:30.460 I never said out loud, as I'm going to say it out loud, it's not going to be very strange,

01:05:33.660 especially considering the episode.

01:05:35.240 Um, I always have had a feeling that something is coming, that a war is coming.

01:05:39.400 And when I say I've had a feeling when I was a kid, I knew it.

01:05:42.860 Like when I was a child, I knew it.

01:05:45.180 I mean, like a little fucking kid, I was obsessed with the idea that something was coming one day

01:05:49.860 and that like, um, I was going to be engaged in something.

01:05:53.840 Like I knew that as a child.

01:05:55.540 And then as I got older, I didn't know that anymore.

01:05:57.880 I just still had the feeling.

01:05:59.840 And as I get older, now I find myself looking for information to reinforce that idea because

01:06:05.940 it's been a lifelong thing.

01:06:07.320 That's never gone away from me.

01:06:08.420 I always joke with my wife, um, you know, that when I was a kid, I, I, I just wanted

01:06:14.420 to be like, other kids want to be like a fucking firefighter when they grow up.

01:06:17.860 And then they, then they become one.

01:06:19.440 Sometimes you see a kid become a firefighter and I get jealous of that.

01:06:22.260 Cause when I was a kid, I wanted to be like a fucking, uh, like an assassin for good.

01:06:26.600 Like that was what I wanted to be as a fucking child.

01:06:29.020 I wanted to know like normal pathway.

01:06:30.780 I wanted to be a paleontologist and then it turns out dinosaurs don't even exist.

01:06:35.500 Incredible.

01:06:36.000 What a fucking bag of shit.

01:06:37.820 But, you know, uh, so I, and I don't think that I'm the only person.

01:06:41.620 I don't think that's even unique.

01:06:43.100 Honestly, I think a lot of us probably start out that way because I think you have more

01:06:46.580 of a connection to these realms and also some sort of echoes to, I believe that there

01:06:51.980 is a high likelihood we chose to be here during this time.

01:06:54.700 Uh, we made a lot of decisions before we got here and, um, and some of those still

01:06:59.580 echo throughout childhood.

01:07:00.900 And then it's this battle of like maintaining it while still being able to function in life.

01:07:05.780 And there's this aspect of life that just crushes that part of your mind.

01:07:09.300 Um, but yeah, so as you're saying this, this is not something that I, uh, uh, I at all,

01:07:14.680 um, think is, I don't even think this is fucking strange.

01:07:17.600 So, but I wanted to ask you when it comes to the nature of these entities, was there a separation?

01:07:23.140 Like, in other words, did you get the feeling?

01:07:26.760 And I might explain this badly, but like, were some of them more concerned with this aspect

01:07:34.040 while others may have been more concerned with, with this aspect of the experience?

01:07:40.040 Um, because in other words, like almost job delegation, was there any sense of that at

01:07:45.100 all?

01:07:45.260 And that, that might be a flat no.

01:07:47.940 Yeah.

01:07:48.460 Yeah.

01:07:48.880 I'd, I'd never thought about it.

01:07:50.180 Absolutely.

01:07:51.040 Yeah, absolutely.

01:07:52.020 Because some of them were more concerned about me working on my, like the, the physical

01:07:56.980 and then some are worried about the, you know, getting right spiritually and mentally and,

01:08:02.180 you know, working on that type of thing.

01:08:05.280 So yeah, absolutely.

01:08:06.300 I never thought about that.

01:08:07.200 It's that I get the sense that I don't really have much of an option.

01:08:10.920 Like this is what I'm supposed to do type of thing.

01:08:14.480 Did they, did they say why they need you?

01:08:17.800 Um, no, I, I, I, I never asked.

01:08:20.160 I, I, it, the, the presence is not, it's, I, I, it's not something to fuck with.

01:08:28.920 It's what I, I, I, like the, the impression I get, like, we're not like, we're, this is

01:08:35.500 some serious shit.

01:08:36.460 So, you know, that type of thing.

01:08:38.400 So I was just like, I'm right.

01:08:39.560 I'm all ears.

01:08:40.920 Like you guys have proved that, you know, that you, you know what you're fucking talking

01:08:46.100 about.

01:08:47.040 Cause I, I, like my, mind you, my, like my anxiety is gone at this point.

01:08:52.040 Like, I'm, I, I feel like I'm a completely, totally different person.

01:08:57.320 Like I, I hadn't just experienced the four years of like depression and just like that,

01:09:02.920 just dread that the divorce had been, had had on me.

01:09:08.580 Like it was immediately gone after that, that abduction, immediately gone after that abduction

01:09:14.440 experience.

01:09:14.980 Prior to that, I'd been getting better.

01:09:17.360 It's everything, all of my shit was gone.

01:09:21.320 It's like, I'd been wiped clean.

01:09:24.120 And it's like, I, I got the, the, the feeling of like, you, you are forgiven.

01:09:28.880 Like, this is your second chance.

01:09:30.760 This is, you need to do this now.

01:09:33.680 Okay.

01:09:35.520 Pretty common.

01:09:36.760 Uh, when it comes to dreams, ones that you would like, you know, be sure to,

01:09:44.980 I'm sure in their definition that this was a dream.

01:09:47.560 Um, do you, did you, do you find that like, uh, you have a lot of childhood dreams that

01:09:53.560 you still remember or just like weird symbolic dreams that stuck with you?

01:09:59.840 Um, there's only one.

01:10:04.500 And it, I, I don't know the meaning behind it though, but there's only, there's one for

01:10:09.000 my childhood that I can remember very, very vividly.

01:10:11.000 It was my, it was just my mom as a witch.

01:10:14.980 And it always freaked me out.

01:10:17.680 Just absolutely freaked me out.

01:10:19.420 Like it was my mom, like the green witch on the, uh, wizard of Oz.

01:10:23.120 That's what she was dressed up.

01:10:24.020 Like I couldn't have been, but five or six when I had that.

01:10:28.280 So other than that, no, no, I, I really, I don't remember dreams that much.

01:10:35.520 So are you familiar with like this, this is something that I don't know because I'm not

01:10:41.200 well-versed in the Bible myself, but it's my understanding that within the Bible, there's

01:10:44.420 a verse that alludes to, um, people being portals.

01:10:48.900 Top, do you know what I'm talking about?

01:10:50.680 Yeah.

01:10:50.900 Uh, and to me, as you're describing earlier on, right, you're taking these mushrooms,

01:10:57.620 suddenly there is a real, um, urgency that you need to take these mushrooms, put this

01:11:05.520 eye mask up and go lay down.

01:11:06.720 Like you got to do this right now and nothing happens that night.

01:11:10.720 Um, but then, or, or is it that night soon after that you have this abduction experience

01:11:16.240 and the way my mind is going is, um, I go, this sounds like you had done enough.

01:11:26.940 If people truly are portals, um, the reason, right, that like, obviously your physical form

01:11:33.220 is still laying on the bed and yet you are in a room where there's a bright white light,

01:11:40.940 three dudes, they're telling you, you shouldn't be able to see them.

01:11:45.080 Um, they're telling you that you've, uh, agreed to this.

01:11:48.300 You've given consent.

01:11:49.260 Next thing you know, you're also in a marble room.

01:11:52.060 All of these things are happening in a different realm, right?

01:11:55.080 So they're very real in my opinion, and they're happening to you, but not to your, your physical

01:11:59.720 form, whether it's your soul or your ethereal form, whatever you want to.

01:12:03.220 Uh, whatever name you want to give it.

01:12:04.520 I couldn't pretend to know, uh, what to call it.

01:12:07.820 Um, it seems like you did enough work to have that portal open in such a way.

01:12:16.160 And it was almost like that was the last bit that you had to do.

01:12:20.220 So it may have seemed insignificant to you.

01:12:22.380 And this is just, obviously I have no way of confirming this.

01:12:24.320 This is my own psychotic ramblings, but like, it seems to me like you got to the point that

01:12:30.160 night where like the gate is fully opened and now you can travel in a much more, uh, conscious

01:12:38.720 way.

01:12:39.080 Maybe these things have always been happening to you, but there's a part of your consciousness

01:12:41.800 that you've not been able to bring.

01:12:43.000 And then all of a sudden, um, you know, like I said, the gate is open, the portal is open

01:12:48.740 and you can leave and you can go and experience these realms.

01:12:51.200 I just, that is like, when you were saying that story that popped into my head is this

01:12:57.660 idea that like, yeah, in the Bible somewhere, it calls people portals.

01:13:00.780 And like, we're not opening portals when we're in the kitchen doing dishes.

01:13:05.080 We're not opening portals while we're under the car, you know, changing the oil.

01:13:09.360 Um, so is that happening in a different state in an astral state?

01:13:13.460 Um, you know, it is, is, is the combination of like our souls and our, and our, and our brains

01:13:19.980 that operate somehow as a, uh, a receiver of like frequencies and things of that nature.

01:13:27.400 Do they work in conjunction?

01:13:29.400 Can we open a portal?

01:13:30.380 And is that what you did?

01:13:31.520 Does that, do you feel like that makes any sense at all?

01:13:34.160 Absolutely.

01:13:35.180 And they also told me that everybody can do what I did.

01:13:38.840 Everybody has, has the ability.

01:13:41.140 We all do.

01:13:42.320 And it gets back to the, to what the, it gets to the, the root of it, of, of your beliefs

01:13:49.140 creating reality.

01:13:50.960 And if you take a part of what reality is and you don't even believe in it, it's not going

01:13:56.140 to exist for you, that type of thing, if that makes sense.

01:13:58.900 Like what it's the, the, the, the reality is the consciousness consciousness creates the

01:14:04.680 reality that we exist in, you know, the, the material world, this is the great, great

01:14:10.580 illusion too.

01:14:11.920 You know what I mean?

01:14:13.120 That's, that's what that, it just, it felt so much more real there than it does here.

01:14:19.480 It, this doesn't, I've heard that a lot.

01:14:22.060 This doesn't feel real that I, it, I, I, it, there's no words that can accurately describe

01:14:29.780 what that place felt like.

01:14:32.480 The, the feeling of the, the feeling of not experiencing time.

01:14:38.220 I know that sounds weird to say, but like, I, I vividly remember thinking, holy shit,

01:14:44.580 time doesn't exist here.

01:14:45.820 And that's what made me thought I was dead.

01:14:47.820 I was like, oh, no, but then he, then he said from behind me, Colin, you're not dead.

01:14:55.040 And we're going to tell you some things.

01:14:56.480 You're not going to remember everything until the time, time comes.

01:15:01.080 And it was like, just like somebody put their arm around my shoulder and we started to walk.

01:15:04.960 And that's the last thing I remember until I woke up on my couch and about four hours

01:15:10.100 had, had, uh, gone.

01:15:13.980 Do you, at any point have, has it seemed like they've asked you to, to worship them?

01:15:19.560 Cause you, you just mentioned that you finished reading, uh, or listening to the book of Enoch

01:15:24.020 today.

01:15:25.200 Um, yeah, I never asked me to worship them.

01:15:29.320 They've, it's, it's always, they've, you talk about, uh, uh, God, uh, they call him source.

01:15:34.980 Sometimes the creator, the, the one God, it's, it's all it's ever been talked to about.

01:15:44.240 How do they feel about him?

01:15:46.400 Oh, they do everything for him.

01:15:47.980 It's, it's, that's the thing.

01:15:49.580 That's like, I told my girlfriend, I'd started to slip some things.

01:15:53.000 She's like, I think you're talking to a demon.

01:15:54.540 I was like, but I don't, why would a demon tell me to give myself to God and that I need

01:16:00.180 to get baptized.

01:16:01.260 I need to start going to church and start taking the kids to church with me and get them

01:16:05.180 and like, no, that doesn't sound like if, if that's a demon, he's doing a really, really

01:16:09.980 bad job.

01:16:10.820 You know what I mean?

01:16:11.720 He's working for the government.

01:16:13.300 Yeah.

01:16:13.700 Like, and then it comes to that.

01:16:16.120 I'm like, well, now I, I, I, I've, I've been, ever since all this happened, I've been

01:16:20.040 like looking and researching and stuff.

01:16:21.700 And I come, come to find, I think it's called my labs, like military abductions.

01:16:25.360 I'm like, is that what happened to me?

01:16:27.920 Like, or was it?

01:16:28.600 Cause they, they were men.

01:16:29.760 Yeah.

01:16:31.260 Then all the, well, I mean, look, Colin, if you are engaged in something and something

01:16:40.600 is reaching out to you, it stands to reason that that could, excuse me, set you off as

01:16:47.020 sort of a target, right?

01:16:48.500 Like the opposition might also be trying to get involved.

01:16:50.720 Um, maybe not every single one of the experiences was always from the same entities.

01:16:58.020 You know what I mean?

01:16:58.480 It's like, uh, well, I'll tell you when we're not recording on top, he knows about her.

01:17:04.520 Um, I'll tell you off air, uh, another time about this, this, this, this individual that

01:17:11.660 came into my life shortly after this experience.

01:17:15.600 So we don't have to get into that, but would you, are you saying that there was like a

01:17:19.900 nefariousness?

01:17:21.420 Oh, abso-fucking-lutely.

01:17:23.600 And I knew it right from the beginning.

01:17:25.700 I, I, right from the beginning, I, I, I knew right away.

01:17:30.140 And I was like, I gotta see what this, I gotta see what this is all about.

01:17:33.380 And it was not good.

01:17:35.580 Somebody sent the fucking ops, bro.

01:17:37.360 That's what happened.

01:17:38.140 That's crazy.

01:17:38.560 This story is, this story is so multi-layered.

01:17:40.820 It's, it's crazy.

01:17:41.800 This is.

01:17:42.720 I'm nothing.

01:17:43.420 I'm nobody special.

01:17:44.440 I'm nobody special.

01:17:45.780 Not, you know, I, uh, I'm, I'm an under, I'm an under, I think what makes you, um, if

01:17:54.420 there is anything special about you, it's the beginning of this episode where you said

01:17:59.000 that you were directly seeking to, to be better.

01:18:03.120 That was the focus of, of everything that you were doing.

01:18:06.220 You wanted to be better.

01:18:07.080 You wanted to be a better father.

01:18:08.520 You wanted to be a better person.

01:18:09.960 Right.

01:18:10.360 And that drove you to, to make some extreme decisions.

01:18:12.960 And I think when you're making extreme decisions and you're delving into the spiritual or astral

01:18:18.220 realm, however you want to put it using these psychedelics, um, you're going to this spiritual

01:18:24.720 realm with the intent to be better, to be good.

01:18:28.700 And I think that is, it's like seek and ye shall find, right?

01:18:32.760 You literally were going off the deep end, looking to be better.

01:18:37.080 Where like some people will go off the deep end, spiraling, full of hatred, fuck everything,

01:18:43.120 you know, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah.

01:18:44.320 And they will find the equivalency of that.

01:18:46.880 But you went to that place looking for something different than I, I would say a lot of other

01:18:53.720 people do.

01:18:54.240 So maybe that's what it takes.

01:18:56.640 You'd be a very good entrepreneur, Colin.

01:18:58.320 Um, I, I, I don't know what the entities are telling you to do, but yeah, that kind of

01:19:02.960 mentality, the mentality of like, shit's fucked, but I am going to drill deep and find a solution

01:19:09.100 is something really successful people do.

01:19:12.320 Well, my, my, my, I, I was, my life had gotten fucked.

01:19:16.960 Um, a, a large part because of myself and my active denial of the divine.

01:19:25.580 Um, I got my, the reason my life has gotten so bad was because of me and my actions that

01:19:31.840 had caused all that.

01:19:33.060 So there was a reason I got into the point where I was willing to take drastic fucking

01:19:37.800 measures to try to become better.

01:19:39.540 I was, I, you know, I was, I was done, I was done, I was done trying my own.

01:19:44.620 I, and the, one of the things was, I remember when I, like, I just, I finally remember submitting

01:19:49.280 when I was in the presence of the, the, the knowing, and I, I just, I submitted and it

01:19:55.820 was just like, it was like every, every, it was like everything had been washed off of

01:20:01.800 me.

01:20:02.020 Everything that ever stuck to me that I'd been carrying around for the 37 years of life was

01:20:07.620 gone.

01:20:08.880 And I, I was like, what in the fuck was that?

01:20:13.140 Like, it was just, it was, it was mind blowing, you know, cause I, I'd gone to therapy and all,

01:20:19.500 just all sorts of shit trying to, uh, trying to feel better, you know?

01:20:24.800 Um, and nothing, nothing had ever worked ever, ever, ever until this.

01:20:29.760 And as I said, it, I, it, I do not recommend it for anybody just cause it's, it's not something

01:20:37.180 to, to fuck with at all.

01:20:39.460 Cause there's bad shit too.

01:20:41.740 There's bad shit everywhere.

01:20:43.360 And we, we live in it.

01:20:44.620 And I just, I can't believe I lived my life for so long denying that God is in all around

01:20:51.140 us.

01:20:51.580 And then that was one of my main problems.

01:20:53.840 You're alluding to like, uh, so clearly, so you're like, now you're kind of privy or

01:20:59.260 you have this openness where you're, you're able to see the matrix for the ones and zeros

01:21:03.700 that it is.

01:21:04.140 So you can kind of like, you can, you can switch your own mindset and really help yourself

01:21:08.280 out, which I feel like you might've done.

01:21:09.960 And I, I, I pray that you've done, you know, for your family, for your kids and whatever

01:21:14.140 you're doing with your life.

01:21:15.460 Um, but you said that there's messed up shit.

01:21:17.560 Are you like also privy to some weird stuff as well?

01:21:21.820 Uh, no, I, I just, just that the individual with what I think that they were into and

01:21:30.220 what they were all about, but, um, no, I just, I, my, I, I, I don't, I'm not, I don't

01:21:39.320 have any insight information to any of that type of stuff.

01:21:41.440 I'd say, I just, it's, it's pretty apparent that there there's like Alex Jones is probably,

01:21:46.800 probably right.

01:21:47.780 They, they are actually, you know, fucking kids and killing them and sacrificing them

01:21:52.880 to Moloch.

01:21:53.580 That's probably going on.

01:21:55.660 I heard a mention of child molesters.

01:21:58.120 Yeah.

01:21:58.480 That's, I'm like, there's some, there's some nefarious shit going on.

01:22:02.820 And I don't mean, I don't necessarily mean like that whole, like, uh, you know, macro

01:22:06.920 I'm talking about like the micro, like for me, I don't know.

01:22:10.580 So sometimes like I can get like a feeling about somebody just even meeting them briefly

01:22:15.180 or walking by.

01:22:16.500 I've always had that.

01:22:17.860 Uh, my, my parents have said since I'm like a little kid, like you have a great sense of

01:22:21.060 discernment.

01:22:21.820 I think a pastor told me that.

01:22:23.720 Absolutely.

01:22:24.600 So like, I imagine with, you know, like how you're, where your headspace is now, especially

01:22:28.880 forget about any kind of upgrades, like just being more mentally clear.

01:22:32.500 You probably have like some kind of heightened sense of these things.

01:22:35.620 And, and honestly, like when you do come across somebody that you're like, this person is no

01:22:40.000 good.

01:22:40.700 It creeps me out and I can't like quantify why, you know what I mean?

01:22:45.320 I just know.

01:22:46.240 And I'm like, I'm just going to get it.

01:22:47.640 I know now I just fucking get away from this person.

01:22:50.400 I, I, uh, I had the pleasure of shaking the hands of the, of the governor of Indiana.

01:22:55.280 And it was like, I, I, I saw evil when our, when my skin touched his skin, it was the

01:23:01.320 most fucked up thing.

01:23:02.600 I was like, Ooh, Oh my God.

01:23:06.400 I was like, that's fucked up.

01:23:08.320 But yeah, that, that type of stuff is what it's, I'm, I'm super aware of everything now.

01:23:13.880 Everything.

01:23:14.520 It's like, it's like being on, on super drive all the time.

01:23:19.320 I want to revisit something you said briefly, and then I'd like to move on to something else,

01:23:24.060 but I want to highlight something you said as, go ahead.

01:23:29.560 I'm gonna have to go here in about five minutes.

01:23:30.920 I gotta go pick up my little one from daycare.

01:23:32.820 Oh, all right.

01:23:33.540 Okay.

01:23:33.760 Let's wrap it up guys.

01:23:34.860 Real quick then.

01:23:35.800 So, uh, and this is a perfect way to end it.

01:23:38.080 Um, but briefly, I want to say what you said before about this idea of, um, you know, you

01:23:44.600 were responsible for the life that you had before.

01:23:47.320 That to me is the key.

01:23:49.140 It's the major catalyst for the direction that your life is going to go.

01:23:52.860 Do you shake your fist at God and blame every other external force you could possibly imagine

01:23:57.700 for all the shortcomings in your life?

01:23:59.320 Or do you take personal responsibility and recognize that you played the most massive role

01:24:04.680 in your shortcomings in life?

01:24:06.020 And look, man, if you stepped off a curb and you got hit by a car and you're paralyzed,

01:24:09.380 obviously I'm not talking to you, but there's a lot of people out here who are shaking their

01:24:13.260 fists at God because this just didn't go that way.

01:24:15.900 Or they just didn't get that.

01:24:17.040 Or, you know, how come things don't work out for me?

01:24:19.540 And that is a fucking trap, man.

01:24:21.460 And so I'm really glad that you said that, that recognizing, because I'm a big fan of

01:24:25.680 personal responsibility.

01:24:27.040 I just want to interrupt because you were talking about the book of Enoch and you said

01:24:31.260 what I'm going through after you read this book, you said, it's just like that.

01:24:35.000 I don't know what you were going to ask David, but I feel like I need to know this before

01:24:38.360 you go.

01:24:38.760 Okay, wait, can we wrap this up together then?

01:24:41.460 If you could figure out a way, because I have to know what you're anticipating as well.

01:24:47.280 Like you're geared up for a war.

01:24:48.760 This whole thing is about you being geared up for a war.

01:24:51.620 What are you anticipating?

01:24:52.720 What do you suspect the nature of this is?

01:24:54.780 And maybe even when, I mean, within your lifetime, obviously right to some degree, that's, that's

01:25:00.440 got to be, uh, uh, the impression.

01:25:02.360 And so, yeah, take it from there, whichever, whichever way you want to go.

01:25:06.340 I, I have a feeling that this corresponds with, uh, uh, what's going on with like, uh,

01:25:16.220 the, I think they call it agenda 2030 with the, going on with the, the, the global shit.

01:25:21.900 I think, I think they, the, the leaders are possessed by actual fucking demons.

01:25:30.440 And we're getting ready to see the, the return of the Nephilim.

01:25:35.780 In other words, that we're going to see shit that we've only dreamt about or seen on sci-fi

01:25:42.400 movies.

01:25:42.800 I think it's going to become a reality.

01:25:44.360 And I think that's going to be happening, happening within, within, within the next five

01:25:50.000 to 10 years.

01:25:50.900 If I had to guess.

01:25:52.560 Buckle up people.

01:25:54.720 Have they ever mentioned?

01:25:56.180 I think it's all connected.

01:25:59.120 It's all connected.

01:26:00.020 They, um, I, I, a lot of times I'll ask them stuff and they'll tell me I'm not ready.

01:26:04.520 I haven't done the next, I have to wait for the next step.

01:26:07.140 I, this all has to be done in steps.

01:26:09.700 And I, to be honest with you, top, I think you were one of the steps.

01:26:14.040 Cause we were going to talk about this stuff.

01:26:16.460 How long ago was that?

01:26:17.600 The summer.

01:26:18.680 And I, it just, I, the, the, they, they kept telling me, they're right.

01:26:24.580 You're not ready.

01:26:25.080 You're not ready.

01:26:25.600 You're not ready.

01:26:26.020 And they get, they were getting mad at me.

01:26:28.540 So that's why I kind of was like, what in the fuck's going on?

01:26:30.740 And I kind of disappeared for like a week or so.

01:26:33.200 Cause it, it was intense.

01:26:34.720 It's, this is really intense shit.

01:26:37.680 And yeah, that's, so I don't know.

01:26:40.500 I, I think we got a little bit of time.

01:26:42.240 So I don't know.

01:26:46.280 It's seven years guys.

01:26:47.920 We're a con.

01:26:49.240 I think 2030 is going to, that's where we're going to be going.

01:26:52.200 So I, I, I, I, I just try to get in physical shake.

01:26:55.620 I, I, I don't, I don't do the whole gun thing.

01:26:59.480 That's just a personal thing.

01:27:01.620 I run five to seven miles every morning with 50 pounds.

01:27:04.580 I do manual labor, digging graves six days a week, setting headstones, throwing granite

01:27:09.640 around.

01:27:09.940 So I, I, I mean, I, I used to be a, you know, a, a fat piece of shit, overweight drunkard.

01:27:18.380 So I'm not that anymore.

01:27:20.100 That's for sure.

01:27:21.800 It's, it's, it's a lot different.

01:27:23.260 I got six back now.

01:27:24.260 So that's good.

01:27:25.540 Oh yeah.

01:27:26.260 Yeah.

01:27:26.560 Just one more thing before you go.

01:27:28.060 Cause I know you got to get your daughter.

01:27:29.740 What about the book of V not kind of ring some bells to you?

01:27:32.600 Got to know.

01:27:33.120 Um, the whole, how he talked about the angels taking him, uh, into the, into heaven and stuff.

01:27:42.900 Like that, that was like, I'm like, like I've got to have had that experience where it's

01:27:47.320 like, it feels like these are angels that are talking to me.

01:27:49.540 It's not like I'm talking to like a dead grandma or some shit.

01:27:52.920 You know what I mean?

01:27:54.160 Like these things, I, I, they're powerful beings that are coming through.

01:27:59.500 Is it possible?

01:28:00.440 Let me, let me float a theory and I don't know if this is biblically incorrect, but is

01:28:04.400 it possible?

01:28:04.820 I mean, I know that there's, there's fallen angels.

01:28:07.580 Is it possible you're talking to some of these, but maybe some of these guys want to get back

01:28:11.180 right in the grace of God.

01:28:12.220 I don't know if they can, but is it possible that they're acting in that manner while there's

01:28:16.280 other, others that are acting in a, you know, completely opposite direction?

01:28:21.360 No, um, I don't get that sense.

01:28:23.880 I don't know.

01:28:24.820 I mean, in the whole religious thing, it's all new to me too.

01:28:27.680 Like, like I said, I just started going to church here in February of this year.

01:28:32.600 Um, and I've really gotten into the Bible, like reading the Bible, a lot of audio books

01:28:37.320 on the Bible and stuff like that.

01:28:38.800 So this is all new to me too, but like, I, I'm just, I'm able to listen to something or

01:28:43.840 to somebody and I can tell me if they're bullshitting or they're telling the truth about anything

01:28:48.180 and everything.

01:28:49.780 Does that make sense?

01:28:50.600 So, you know, that I'm completely full of shit then I guess I'll just stop tweeting.

01:28:54.240 It's like these fucking guys, these guys are a lot of things about you guys, but you're

01:29:02.440 not, you definitely aren't a big fucking person.

01:29:04.920 And that's, I, I respect that, you know, I, I, I can tell with you guys that you guys

01:29:09.840 are genuine people.

01:29:10.740 So that's why I decided to talk to you.

01:29:13.340 I'm glad I did.

01:29:15.020 Thanks, man.

01:29:15.520 Yeah.

01:29:15.660 I mean, I feel like we could have, we could have gone like another two hours, but I'd be

01:29:21.840 more than happy to talk to you another time.

01:29:23.580 I'd have to, I'll schedule it right.

01:29:25.300 I don't have to pick up my daughter from school.

01:29:26.960 So dude, this is perfect.

01:29:27.840 No, listen, what you did here was perfect.

01:29:29.260 And I'm again, thank you for talking with us.

01:29:31.940 I know this is like, it was like a big step.

01:29:34.460 And even for us, it's not really the type of show that we do with this show specifically.

01:29:37.620 It's more like Raven does his thing like, like this, but I'm, I'm glad that you, you

01:29:41.780 know, had enough confidence to come in and enough confidence in me and David to come and

01:29:46.680 talk with us about this, because I think it was, it was mind blowing.

01:29:49.440 And I, I think it's leading somewhere that's very interesting.

01:29:52.900 People should be thinking about.

01:29:54.920 Well, like I said, I'm, I'm, I'm trying to figure this all out too.

01:29:58.020 It's every, every day is different.

01:29:59.380 So, but I really appreciate it guys.

01:30:00.960 And I'll talk to you guys later.

01:30:03.940 Oh yeah, man.

01:30:04.520 Thank you, Colin.

01:30:05.280 Thank you so much.

01:30:06.720 All right.

01:30:07.000 See ya.

01:30:08.020 Peace out.

01:30:09.760 Guys, I think this was a, what do you think?

01:30:13.080 What the fuck?

01:30:14.000 That was, dude, that was, that was incredible.

01:30:16.760 Like, I don't, I, I, I feel bad because I wish there was some way that I could relate

01:30:20.220 to him that like, there was no part of me that, this is probably not good, right?

01:30:25.100 There was, there was no part of me that was skeptical that whole fucking time.

01:30:28.500 Like I was like, yeah, dude, this guy a hundred percent has been through some shit.

01:30:32.000 Like this, this fucking checks out on, on a really high level.

01:30:35.420 And I'm glad that we had this conversation because, uh, this is like, this, this resonates

01:30:41.960 with me very deeply.

01:30:43.260 Like that was, that was not a dude that was lying.

01:30:45.960 In my opinion, that was, I'm not going to, I was getting annoyed with him, um, throughout

01:30:51.440 the whole time.

01:30:51.980 Like we, we were talking for six months or so and he kept on, was like, Oh, you're not

01:30:55.180 going to believe.

01:30:55.560 And I'm like, Oh, motherfucker.

01:30:56.880 Like you have no idea.

01:30:58.740 And he came and told us, yeah, you don't know the shit that I believe it's, it's wild.

01:31:02.920 But like, yeah, what he told us, I'm like, heard this, heard this in places, heard some

01:31:06.200 of the stuff was kind of new.

01:31:07.620 Some of the stuff, I mean, I think, I think Tony Merkel would definitely want to listen

01:31:12.660 to this episode or at least interview him because there are things that he said that

01:31:18.360 you can really tie into, uh, you know, other stories and try to figure out what was happening

01:31:23.280 here.

01:31:24.180 That was really the thing about his story was that, um, none of it, all of it was like,

01:31:29.860 it fit a pattern.

01:31:30.680 And that's not to say at all that he made it up.

01:31:32.700 In fact, that validates it even more in my mind of like, this guy had a genuine experience

01:31:37.200 and experience that like he, he said, dude, in the book of Enoch, he, it resonated with

01:31:42.100 him when Enoch was bought up, uh, you know, by the angels and how he felt like that was

01:31:48.180 the same experience he had.

01:31:49.260 And I say that to say that experience is like biblical in nature.

01:31:54.660 It's historical in nature, like people, you can find so many people who, and once you

01:31:58.800 get that big of a body of evidence of correlating information and patterns and everything, like

01:32:02.580 something is for sure happening.

01:32:04.680 That guy is absolutely having an experience.

01:32:06.720 And, you know, as hesitant as I am right.

01:32:10.360 Communicating with entities in a sort of a psychedelic realm.

01:32:13.820 That's something that I'm very hesitant because I think that these things can lie.

01:32:16.960 Like that being said, the nature of everything that he, yeah, a hundred percent authentic

01:32:21.100 was my takeaway as well.

01:32:22.320 And everything that he said felt positive.

01:32:27.000 You know, it wasn't like these, these things weren't leading him in any negative way.

01:32:30.680 Um, not only was he seeing improvements in his own, uh, personal life, but also moving

01:32:36.300 him closer to God and moving him closer to Jesus is like, there's really something there.

01:32:41.020 Uh, I, I think that that guy was, was very genuine and, and top, honestly, dude, I, I

01:32:46.660 would be lying if I said that I wasn't curious about what these, what these, um, beings were

01:32:52.340 saying about us.

01:32:53.160 Like that fucking, I wish we had time.

01:32:54.840 Like, wait, tell us about, tell me about us, dude.

01:32:57.260 Like I want to hear, I want to hear that shit.

01:32:59.720 You know what?

01:33:00.460 I don't, I wouldn't even, even ask because I don't think we would get, uh, it's not that

01:33:04.940 he would lie to us, but you, we probably would get like a scattered answer from whatever

01:33:08.760 it actually is.

01:33:10.320 But, um, right.

01:33:11.480 But those scattered answers are, that's where I like, I work in that scattered answer and

01:33:15.180 I'm like, Oh, this shit.

01:33:16.140 Oh, that shit.

01:33:16.660 You know what I mean?

01:33:17.040 Like, I think I could pick up something.

01:33:18.240 I'm, I, I would like to ask him off air, you know, privately, um, you know, that, that

01:33:23.800 sort of information, at least the impressions that he was getting, it doesn't have to be like,

01:33:27.400 well, they were saying that, you know, the Raven is a weird fucking guy because he leads

01:33:31.780 with the Raven and, and, you know, he's, you know, top is also an anthropomorphic kind

01:33:37.220 of like, I don't expect information.

01:33:39.540 I probably would expect like impressions and feelings and, and, and thoughts about us, uh,

01:33:44.640 not so coherently, but I'd be very interested in knowing that shit.

01:33:48.180 I wouldn't be surprised if like, we, they'd be like, yeah, these two guys, they might be

01:33:51.800 a pathway for you to do maybe what he just did right now.

01:33:54.700 Who knows?

01:33:55.480 You know what I mean?

01:33:55.880 It's just like, Oh, they're just veins, you know, they're veins that you use and they're

01:33:59.000 going to bring you here.

01:33:59.740 So it makes a lot of sense.

01:34:02.960 Yeah.

01:34:03.580 But where here is, I don't know what, what we just, I had a feeling when we started this

01:34:08.240 episode and I don't know if people are going to feel this way, but I'm like the information

01:34:11.680 that I think we're going to get is going to be something that is, uh, unique to say the

01:34:18.440 least.

01:34:19.260 And it's something that, you know, a lot of people are going to two to it.

01:34:22.340 Obviously the ones that are not understanding what's going on, but then some in the community

01:34:27.500 will also be like, eh, no, no, no, that's a little too much.

01:34:31.160 And I understand that sentiment too.

01:34:33.420 Some are going to look a little deeper into this.

01:34:35.040 And I feel like maybe it's probably not me.

01:34:37.460 I'm retarded, but maybe, maybe we can get some like nice strings connected to whatever

01:34:43.260 this bigger picture we're trying to put together.

01:34:46.020 You know, I think that, that those angels or whatever they were, were like these two

01:34:51.000 retards that, you know, they're good guys.

01:34:53.100 They're a little retarded, but you know, they're going to help you get this information

01:34:56.680 out.

01:34:56.940 Who knows?

01:34:57.220 Maybe the guy ends up on Merkle and it's like, at the end of the day, um, I don't have

01:35:01.600 to necessarily know the nature of what it is.

01:35:06.420 Um, and I don't have to know the answer and I don't have to know when the shit's going to

01:35:10.120 hit the fan.

01:35:10.660 But I do think that when we connect these dots from one person's experience to the next,

01:35:16.900 and when we connect these dots from sleep paralysis to, you know, his experiences, psychedelics,

01:35:23.540 shadow people, alien abductions, they're all connected in some bigger way.

01:35:29.100 And to me, the main takeaway is there is spiritual warfare happening.

01:35:35.800 And even if he gets to some platform where he can tell that story and maybe like Merkle

01:35:41.960 can connect a few more dots and he can compel a few more people, not necessarily to believe

01:35:47.180 this guy one way or the other, um, that these entities and what their nature is, because

01:35:52.320 I don't think that's as important.

01:35:54.360 Uh, you know, I mean, for him, it's important.

01:35:56.220 He's engaging with you.

01:35:57.080 But what I think is important for the audience is like, when it comes to pattern recognition

01:36:03.480 and like, look, bitch, I'm a conspiracy theorist.

01:36:05.980 If there's one, I'm basically retarded, but I noticed patterns.

01:36:08.840 That's about the most that I can say about myself.

01:36:10.500 And then I can kind of articulate them and maybe some other people can pick up on them.

01:36:14.320 This was like high level pattern recognition for me.

01:36:17.060 And all it screams is like, this is spiritual warfare.

01:36:22.240 That's a hundred percent what's going on.

01:36:23.960 We are engaged in spiritual warfare and a lot of people will poo poo this, this other

01:36:29.080 realm.

01:36:29.520 And as to whether or not it exists, I believe it does exist.

01:36:32.820 And I believe that we are engaged in something, uh, that there might come a time where you

01:36:39.960 don't have the option of sitting on the sidelines.

01:36:42.240 And in fact, sitting on the sidelines is casting a vote for the wrong team.

01:36:47.040 And that if this is really happening to go through life, ignoring it and pretending it doesn't

01:36:52.860 exist, I personally think is the wrong move.

01:36:55.560 Um, but to engage on a positive level as a force for good and a force for love and things

01:37:02.820 of that nature is the right way to go.

01:37:05.960 And also what he said was really powerful.

01:37:08.380 I just want to say quickly about that whole self-responsibility thing, wherever your life

01:37:12.860 is, if it's in the shitter, you know, like I said, if a fucking meteor hit your house and

01:37:17.800 the insurance doesn't want to pay out, that sucks.

01:37:20.100 I'll give you that.

01:37:21.100 But a lot of us aren't experiencing those extremes.

01:37:23.380 And yet we're still clenching our fists and shouting at the sky.

01:37:26.280 Why is this happening to me?

01:37:28.180 Why is everything so fucked up?

01:37:29.860 Why did this person do that?

01:37:31.580 Why did God do this to me?

01:37:33.120 And it's like the correct path, in my opinion, is, is self-responsibility.

01:37:37.520 Recognize the role that you played in that.

01:37:39.540 And that is going to be a much quicker way out of the shit than, you know, blaming external

01:37:44.480 forces constantly.

01:37:45.840 Yeah, one of the things, the important things I think that he said, too, was that he kept

01:37:50.660 saying, like, don't do this.

01:37:53.160 Don't do exactly what I did.

01:37:55.300 It's like, so you're saying you're going to have to eventually pick a side, right?

01:37:59.260 There's a, obviously there's going to be a good and an evil, and it's going to come

01:38:02.900 down to it.

01:38:04.500 I'm just hesitant to like, obviously, I'm not going to be talking to entities that I don't

01:38:09.040 know.

01:38:09.300 Um, but I think the best way, so then it's like the question mark for everyone listening.

01:38:13.620 Well, what do you do?

01:38:14.200 It was like, well, I was like, maybe I should go back to church.

01:38:17.320 You know, maybe that's one of the things, but I'm not so sure church is exactly where

01:38:21.180 God and Christ are, but read the Bible.

01:38:24.780 You know, there's, there's a ton of information out there that can get you closer mentally

01:38:28.920 to, you know, what, where you need to be without, you know, talking to mushroom entities, which

01:38:36.280 is, it could be quite risky because it's like, we don't know what he's talking to, but like

01:38:41.000 you said, what he did confirm is that he is talking to something and there is a war.

01:38:46.660 You know, this is not the first person that said this.

01:38:48.820 We, we have multiple, multiple stories of people saying this.

01:38:52.080 So it's like, it's coming.

01:38:54.580 Um, you know, pick your side.

01:38:57.400 I think, I think the right side is obviously God.

01:38:59.780 So pick that side and get closer to God.

01:39:02.800 I wouldn't exactly talk to an entity because like, yeah, you're just rolling the dice,

01:39:08.100 man.

01:39:08.200 You have no idea.

01:39:09.020 You don't know what you're doing.

01:39:10.040 You don't know what you're doing in this reality.

01:39:11.400 You think you're going to go like beyond the veil and figure it out.

01:39:14.660 There's no fucking time on the other side.

01:39:17.020 Like that doesn't exist.

01:39:18.000 What are you going to do?

01:39:19.240 It's a, yeah.

01:39:20.160 Yeah.

01:39:20.860 I think it also depends on the state of mind that you're in, you know, like, um,

01:39:24.920 you never really know on the deepest level, like your, your subconscious, what kind of

01:39:29.900 state you're in.

01:39:30.540 And these things are heavily dependent on what kind of state you're in when you go into

01:39:33.840 them.

01:39:34.420 And so, you know, for, for Colin, was it a, a roll of the dice?

01:39:39.860 Was it meant to be that he was in the right state of mind when he entered this the first

01:39:43.340 time and that set the tone for the future experiences?

01:39:46.140 And then would you be, if you, if you went and did this, you know, I, I ate, um, just shy,

01:39:52.080 I think of five grams of mushrooms once.

01:39:54.360 Um, but to Colin's point, there's a lot of variation in potency.

01:39:58.520 I did not have the experience that he had.

01:40:00.640 I was inundated with epiphanies over and over again about myself and like human nature, why

01:40:05.960 people behave and do the things they, they do.

01:40:08.480 Uh, and it felt like I was getting like a, a download from something and there was nothing

01:40:12.040 really menacing in it.

01:40:13.080 It was just like, Hey, this is where this comes from.

01:40:15.760 Um, this is why people behave the way they do.

01:40:18.680 Um, especially on like emotional lashing out and things.

01:40:21.800 I got a lot of information about that.

01:40:23.560 Uh, ultimately I don't fucking remember much of it, but, um, I've got no interest in really

01:40:28.560 doing that again.

01:40:29.280 I just think that, uh, you know, the whole talk of like going back to church or not, like,

01:40:34.980 what do you do?

01:40:35.840 Um, you know, I had that experience recently with the evangelical church.

01:40:38.880 That wasn't it for me.

01:40:39.920 We're still searching, but I do think dude, honestly, not to toot our own horn, but like

01:40:45.560 we're having conversations about, even though we joke about it and it's like retarded, schizophrenic

01:40:51.580 shit, this is like, maybe, or maybe it's some of the most important shit in this realm.

01:40:59.780 Uh, and this is what, this is what church probably was about.

01:41:03.300 Like maybe just after the times of Jesus, you know, after Jesus passed church was in a

01:41:08.240 house, it wasn't a place with, uh, taxes.

01:41:11.560 It was people that were talking to each other about real shit that just happened, like probably

01:41:16.560 crazy stuff.

01:41:17.180 So it's like, you know, that's like, they, they would just bring in knowledge.

01:41:20.280 And I was like, Hey, we have this book too, that these guys wrote way before, like, we're

01:41:23.700 going to read this and let's talk about it.

01:41:26.340 And to, to me, that that's church.

01:41:29.120 Like, uh, when you were at my, my house, uh, uh, my wife's uncle, who was there the next

01:41:35.000 time he came, we kind of just talked about this stuff.

01:41:37.140 Um, and I was like, that's church.

01:41:38.960 You leave feeling like, Oh, I asked a bunch of questions.

01:41:42.260 I might've learned something.

01:41:44.020 Um, and there's a congregation meaning like, you know, there's a, well, the conversation

01:41:49.840 between a bunch of people that are kind of talking about things, agreeing, disagreeing.

01:41:54.800 Whereas the modern church is like one guy talking to you.

01:41:58.020 Um, it's, it's good, but I feel like, yeah, people do need to have that more, um, not intense,

01:42:05.740 but more like, you know, in-person conversation with people where it's like a Frank back and

01:42:10.380 forth.

01:42:10.700 That's where I get more than, than in a sermon, but to each his own.

01:42:15.280 Yeah.

01:42:16.180 I think that, um, what I try to do is like through conversation and exploration of these

01:42:23.220 different topics I'm seeking.

01:42:25.700 That's ultimately what I'm doing.

01:42:27.160 Um, and you know, I think that you have to have a compass right while you're going around

01:42:33.580 in the dark and, um, my compass, I, I desire it to always point towards God.

01:42:40.180 And I think that that's about as much as we could do.

01:42:43.000 We're just feeble fucking humans, you know, um, don't sit on the sidelines, engage and learn

01:42:52.340 and seek, but always keep in mind that there are traps and there is a negative side to this.

01:42:59.540 And so always aim towards God, but use that as the flashlight, use that as the, um, the

01:43:06.680 compass as your true North.

01:43:08.120 Uh, don't just jump in it for the sake of exploration with no real intent towards aiming,

01:43:15.720 uh, towards something good, you know, not something good.

01:43:19.620 That's too vague.

01:43:20.320 Aim towards God.

01:43:21.440 You know, there is like we're, we've been saying, and I think it's appropriate place to end it

01:43:25.680 is, uh, that's the big takeaway guys is this is spiritual warfare.

01:43:31.100 And maybe you're lucky enough to not have it at the forefront of your life where like you

01:43:35.960 can go through, you're not having sleep paralysis, you're not getting abducted in the middle of

01:43:39.380 the night.

01:43:39.700 You're not, you know, uh, having all these terrifying experiences.

01:43:44.820 Uh, but I think the fact of the matter is there's no such thing as sitting on the sidelines.

01:43:49.980 And if you would stop and just pay attention to the patterns, you would see something that

01:43:55.720 you would only dismiss emotionally out of, out of fear of kind of breaking your worldview.

01:44:02.720 But if you can get over that and just admit like, yeah, there is data here, there is patterns

01:44:07.540 here.

01:44:07.920 It may not be as tangible as you'd like, but we don't always get what we'd like.

01:44:12.180 Uh, there is something here though, otherwise.

01:44:14.460 And if it points to a war, uh, you cannot be a neutral party in a spiritual war because

01:44:24.500 it's launched against us.

01:44:25.800 Well said, you know, it's, it's, what did Trump always say?

01:44:32.660 They're not coming for me.

01:44:33.960 They're coming for you.

01:44:34.960 They're, they're coming for you.

01:44:36.140 It's about, it's very much about people.

01:44:38.060 I think that's what the show is about.

01:44:39.320 That's like Nephilim death squad.

01:44:41.140 Why, why would, would fallen angels subvert humankind to, uh, pervert their bloodline?

01:44:47.700 It's all about the human being, the person that whatever God made, why he made it so

01:44:53.680 special weeks, we don't really know what are we capable of?

01:44:56.760 And I don't know.

01:44:57.580 Some people say people can fly maybe, but definitely we're special.

01:45:01.520 We don't know why start figuring it out.

01:45:03.380 Start thinking about it at least like this is not, you know, we're not just random shit

01:45:07.440 spinning through space, you know, Neil deGrasse Tyson.

01:45:10.860 Fuck you.

01:45:11.640 Yeah.

01:45:12.300 This is, there's something more going on here.

01:45:14.020 That's like, I mean, you know, if I, if I wanted people to fall asleep and not be thinking

01:45:19.060 about why they're, why they're special, why God would create them, it, it's the perfect

01:45:23.900 thing to do and just completely make you feel useless.

01:45:27.520 Whereas, and then, you know, you end up with like an OnlyFans society, which we have right

01:45:30.780 now.

01:45:31.200 So that's, that's my, that's my rant.

01:45:34.120 I think we beat these people over the head with this stuff already.

01:45:36.600 David, you ready to get out of here?

01:45:39.420 I got my voice correct.

01:45:40.900 Yeah, I am.

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01:46:26.720 Uh, and just real quick.

01:46:29.180 Thank you guys.

01:46:29.680 I finally got to, uh, a thousand subscribers on YouTube for the Raven's watch.

01:46:34.560 And, uh, my, my, my Twitter is, is crushing.

01:46:38.160 And also I just made an appearance on Elijah Schaefer shows, uh, Eliza, Elijah Schaefer's

01:46:44.560 show.

01:46:45.000 That's a tongue twister last night.

01:46:46.880 Um, slightly offensive.

01:46:48.680 Uh, so go check that out.

01:46:50.680 And, uh, I think that's it for me.

01:46:52.440 Tap, uh, tomorrow, uh, all the, all this great stuff that we said about God and looking,

01:46:58.140 we're going to do, we're going to just disappointed tomorrow.

01:47:02.540 It's like, don't, don't turn, don't turn the computer on for this.

01:47:05.580 God is going to, no, I mean, listen, I, I think that I do think that there's a place

01:47:10.320 for comedy and, and obviously like what we're doing there is, is all just like, we're, we're

01:47:15.460 we're exposing, we're, we're shining a light on the lies that like, you can't say these

01:47:20.720 things, we, we're trying to make it funny, trying to blow off steam.

01:47:24.180 If you like doing that, come hang with us at Tower Gang.

01:47:26.580 You already know.

01:47:27.440 They already know.

01:47:28.600 Peace out guys.

01:47:31.420 The greatest hypnotist on planet earth is a oblong box in the corner of the room.

01:47:36.980 It is constantly telling us what to believe is real.

01:47:41.180 It's you can persuade you that what they see with their eyes is what there is to see to

01:47:46.400 come because they'll laugh in the face of an explanation that portrays the bigger picture

01:47:52.880 of what's happening.

01:47:54.400 And they have.

01:47:55.040 I don't know.

Nephilim Death Squad - December 06, 2023

015： They Upgraded Me For War w⧸ Colin

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