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00:01:22.080 welcome back ladies and gentlemen to another episode of nds chronicles the show where we

00:01:30.080 read your submitted paranormal testimony if you have something you'd like to share chronicles

00:01:34.160 nds at gmail.com is where you want to send it we will mock you relentlessly but also uh you know

00:01:41.780 we'll read it and that's that's probably good i am david lee corvo aka the raven that is top

00:01:45.620 lobs of the father of disinformation and that's uh matthew hefner before we get into today's

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00:02:02.300 experiences uh access to communities of dangerous retards on twitter on discord and on telegram i 0.75

00:02:09.800 believe um and on x as well i know well that's twitter i said twitter yeah also every wednesday 0.94

00:02:17.080 the community is getting together and they're doing a bible study so if you're into that you

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00:02:36.040 to get tickets to bro himian grove you've got to pay for those of course no shit that new sound

00:02:44.100 um august 8th we're really close my god we're very close we're super close it's gonna be

00:02:49.900 close i'm i was i was feeling a little bit of anxiety that's what was wrong with you today

00:02:55.760 you were very secretive was that what it was like no i mean no yeah you're different today

00:03:00.180 was that what it is anxiety well i mean you know he says he wasn't doing a show with me he's doing

00:03:03.780 a show with you and you're very low energy so he's got to lower his energy i come in here the

00:03:07.860 energy's high everything gets higher um that's because i'm respectful to you that's all like

00:03:11.880 you were just doing this big intro and i didn't cut you off or flip you off in the middle of the

00:03:15.300 video or start yelling things in the background he's referencing because what's nice is where

00:03:19.280 like when you come into somebody else's place of business you show them respect that's all okay

00:03:22.900 frequently asked questions where is bohemian grove this year oh uh click on the one that

00:03:27.540 I said, should I be respecting Matt?

00:03:31.120 No.

00:03:34.640 8-8.

00:03:35.340 It's on 8-8 Wildwood, Florida.

00:03:37.260 So show up.

00:03:38.320 Come to Wildwood, Florida.

00:03:39.720 That's like Central Florida.

00:03:40.680 I tried to invite Isaac Weiss up and he said,

00:03:43.160 8-8, very occulted of you. 0.97

00:03:45.220 And I said, we just fucking go wherever. 0.98

00:03:47.100 That's the date that was available. 0.97

00:03:48.540 Yeah, that's what's available.

00:03:50.760 Also, guys, we have a killer lineup.

00:03:53.760 Oh, actually, no, I can't read.

00:03:55.700 Hold on.

00:03:56.220 I'll tell you what it is in a second.

00:03:57.540 Ed Mabry is going to be there. Dr. Heather Lynn, Hidden in Plain Sight, Paranoid American, Chaney, Dona is going to be there.

00:04:04.080 Brian of Demon Eracers, Jake and Jeremiah of Skiba News Network, Laura Baker, Dave of Isaac's Army, Bill and Ted of the Phone Booth Podcast.

00:04:12.840 The list goes on and on. And we also have Owen Benjamin, which was formerly a secret.

00:04:17.500 Now it's out in the open. So go and get your tickets. If you want to see Big Bear, he's going to be there.

00:04:21.160 It's going to be a lot of fun. It'll be a live interview with Owen Benjamin.

00:04:24.540 it's gonna be fun i think uh oh yeah the fog machine will also be making an appearance uh 0.98

00:04:28.640 final oh wait no we're not allowed to fuck i looked into the fine print of the thing it was 0.98

00:04:32.160 like absolutely absolutely no fog yeah you asked them about sparklers you're like erica kirk style 0.97

00:04:36.060 and they were like they said no you can't do that i really did want to do that um raven where did

00:04:40.240 you get that shirt i love this shirt i've had this shirt for a grip um oh yeah i've seen that

00:04:44.000 yeah there's a thousand episodes of this shirt they say a multitude a multitude of times and so

00:04:48.540 um but thank you for the shirt compliments i'm always open he goes through seasons with shirts

00:04:52.960 if you notice there'll be the same shirt like four times what's that beige one the beige one

00:04:56.880 he wears a lot a lot with the car on it but then it just goes away blue it's blue and it has the

00:05:00.700 car on it no no there's a beige one that goes like every other episode for two weeks and then

00:05:05.860 it's gone for a month there's a a gray one with some muay thai stuff on it there's a blue one

00:05:11.420 with a mustang on it um i like that one yeah i like that one too uh and there's a couple of them

00:05:17.200 i have like five good shirts i think so something like that no no no you have way more than five

00:05:21.500 You guys have female amount of outfits 0.99

00:05:25.120 Your fingers smell like shit today 1.00

00:05:26.360 You guys have 30 different outfits 1.00

00:05:30.720 Why do your fingers smell like that

00:05:32.260 I'm a t-shirt

00:05:33.220 I mean

00:05:33.700 I was explicit with this when I said I make t-shirts

00:05:38.740 So yeah, I have a lot of t-shirts

00:05:40.560 Too many t-shirts

00:05:41.680 Can I get some?

00:05:42.640 No, I'm going to make some

00:05:45.100 No, I don't make some

00:05:45.700 We don't make sure we're large 1.00

00:05:47.860 Fat motherfuckers 0.98

00:05:49.500 um so should we talk about anything before we get into it guys go and check out our episode 0.99

00:05:55.140 that we did yesterday with uh james of dark water that go i heard a lot about it was a banger

00:06:00.940 that's a dude that uh wasn't on my radar and then he reached out to us to have us on the show

00:06:06.760 and i got a really good feeling about it and when we ended up talking to him i loved him i loved him

00:06:11.760 we posted it yesterday in the patreon everybody else loved him fantastic dude only does what the

00:06:16.800 lord tells him to do seems really really locked in really really locked in he's the guy that if

00:06:22.220 anyone was wondering he brought a battle axe to alex jones show how crazy is that yeah that went

00:06:27.140 viral and i saw that and i i recognized but i didn't put again i didn't put it together like

00:06:31.580 the leo zagami thing oh you didn't put that together either yeah yeah because our life is

00:06:35.380 just like a constant mix of like craziness happening at all times we just go wherever

00:06:40.540 we're supposed to go whenever we're supposed to go there so are you surprised that it went so well

00:06:44.140 with this gentleman no i wasn't surprised at all because that's what we do um what i was surprised

00:06:48.400 about is you know me i don't give my phone number out like i don't talk to people uh i actually have

00:06:53.680 been texting him i got off a 45 minute phone call with him he's basically my new best friend

00:06:57.360 so guys go and check out james williams of dark waters he's an og he's been around for a long

00:07:03.920 time it's not my i believe he is one of the og dog man guys um so heavy and decryptids and and

00:07:11.620 you know he apparently has some experience he said he's planned out three different parts of

00:07:16.220 three different shows with us hell yeah let's go things that he's gonna cover so i like i'm like

00:07:20.620 all right yeah let's do this guy i'm about it let me tell you uh we we talked quite a bit about uh

00:07:25.820 you think he just recognized real you think real recognized real and he's just like yo i didn't

00:07:29.380 know these guys before and now they're on my radar like i want to mess with these well the way it's

00:07:33.160 it's funny the way it happened was i sit down and i go hey david are we going on his show or is he

00:07:39.420 comment on ours because the email is not very explicit and you know like when we're making we

00:07:43.480 have to make the stream we have to put like all the stuff the thumbnails and dave's like i don't

00:07:47.360 know it was like obscure like we're dealing with this book i think we the booker explicitly said

00:07:53.980 we would be honored to host you and then he sent us an information packet for him yeah yeah which

00:07:58.800 typically doesn't happen unless somebody's going to appear on your show it looks like it looks like

00:08:01.860 i'm making a thumbnail for you now or doing descriptions for you so i'm like i'm confused

00:08:05.480 and i have done nothing i've done absolutely nothing yeah like what's going on here so it's

00:08:10.160 kind of like i don't know who he is he doesn't know who we are and it turns out like all right

00:08:14.560 yeah we'll host you so they they they host us and before the chat i really love he was honest too

00:08:19.860 before the chat he said the same thing that we said i think we said it to steven but steven didn't

00:08:23.800 get it what's that what we're like like when we're talking about we said it to doc too we're like

00:08:28.540 with interviews you're like interviews you know yeah i gotta talk to this guy this guy's gonna

00:08:33.840 tell me about dispensation whatever he's gonna tell us about yeah dude he expressed being kind

00:08:39.880 of sick and tired of interviews i'm not i'm not like sick and tired he said bored of and it's

00:08:43.760 just like yeah it gets boring it gets monotonous what do you mean so like the main play is just

00:08:47.940 do your thing whatever your thing is put that out as opposed to that's what he's been doing yeah but

00:08:52.560 then there is times there are times where you need to step out of your own little game that

00:08:57.500 you're playing in and talk to other people yeah but oftentimes like the more and more we do this

00:09:01.960 show especially the more grounded we become in the bible we're like this was a little bit of a

00:09:05.680 waste of time sure you know and i don't want to do when we were going on tinfoil hat we had this

00:09:10.880 discussion about like what are we going to present and i'm like i hate that notion what are we

00:09:14.700 interesting because yeah what well that audience apparently did not like that uh that they hate us

00:09:20.420 over there on tinfoil hat doesn't matter we're still on mount crushmore sensitive to the comments

00:09:24.260 no no i don't care i don't care what they think i'm just saying what they think but i don't like

00:09:31.360 listen dude if i cared what what anybody thought they thought i wouldn't be sitting here yeah right

00:09:36.460 now and also they wouldn't be sitting there watching why did you make this comment about

00:09:39.380 like what the people thought when you went because it's an interesting marker okay so like i sent you

00:09:44.480 a message i said do you see this it's an interesting marker is it true is it not true that's up to you

00:09:49.080 to believe it but look at it and then know whether to discard it or change your behavior in the future

00:09:53.680 is the marker like what happened like okay so the marker is me and david went on tinfoil hat yeah we

00:09:58.200 did a little jokey jokey for the first 20 30 minutes and then we kind of gave our testimony

00:10:02.880 which somebody there was a i saw a fair comment that said these guys only talk about the same

00:10:07.060 thing i was like well this was like the episode where we wanted to bring this yeah rather than

00:10:11.360 something else and uh some people were just like there was another a couple of comments were like

00:10:16.480 these guys are just a bunch of grifters uh making it up isn't it made up all this making it up and

00:10:22.000 then then it goes along to they extrapolate sometimes and they'll go yeah man they should

00:10:26.940 start doubting the stuff with jesus and i was like okay got you now i know where you're coming

00:10:30.500 from so i now i know this comment is based in bullshit yeah or based in your uh how do you

00:10:36.500 determine that though how do you because if you hate jesus and we're talking about jesus and 0.91

00:10:42.480 we're pointing directly at him on a show that not many people go and do that people go on there and

00:10:48.020 they present things yeah information we said we don't care balls on the table we're going to

00:10:53.720 present our testimony in a way and we're also going to point right at jesus unabashedly so the

00:11:00.020 people that don't like that don't like that yeah and that's fine that's the main thing that i i want

00:11:05.740 to do so you know going back to where this the original idea was like what are we going to

00:11:10.100 present which is such a false thing at least for me it's not in my spirit to be like well i'd better

00:11:16.220 go and find something worth researching and concoct this entire theory and go and present 0.64

00:11:20.500 it to somebody like that's bullshit that's not what i do on this show i try to um be aware of

00:11:26.580 when i'm being led to something and if something organically happens something genuinely happens 0.94

00:11:31.860 if i feel like god led me to something and showed me something i'm gonna talk about that oh mind

00:11:35.820 tripping says i listened to the tinfoil hat episode it's more of an actual introduction of you guys

00:11:39.760 instead of thrown into when you first went on yeah that's that's kind of how it went most people go

00:11:44.620 on there and they're like uh they're like where are you from what do you do okay what are you

00:11:49.080 bringing and then what do you bring information yeah and the information is about something that

00:11:52.720 happened in 1947 but it's not about me and david and our show and what we're doing that's the

00:11:58.340 context of straight bible it's like uh the interview sessions is specifically like yeah

00:12:02.500 tell your story like whatever your content is anybody who watches you knows your content but

00:12:06.460 who are you what's your story well it's not that's not the platform spliffy said people like to

00:12:11.580 present around jesus on tinfoil hat and that is kind of what they do it's like jesus is a footnote

00:12:17.460 and they'll mention things that are like biblically adjacent but i understand that

00:12:22.380 technique when you're talking to because you have to understand the fan base of temple hat as well

00:12:27.040 they're the swarm and i love those guys oh yeah but not all of them are like uh biblically based

00:12:33.480 or like are any other like is that yeah that's their context is the bible i'm a fan of it yeah

00:12:40.240 so here we are i know but i'm just saying like temple hat does like bible content sometimes

00:12:44.700 they'll have i mean sam will have everybody on and some people will touch i think we were probably

00:12:49.580 we probably went the hardest in the paint especially towards the end there we're talking

00:12:53.420 about god putting his hands on things and yeah not just bible stuff but like yeah when we were

00:12:58.320 saying like unabashed i think i said something like uh this is the direction that i was headed

00:13:04.020 in every time i've done this thing and listened to god and went in that direction it's bore good

00:13:08.640 good fruit and i'm not going to stop doing that yeah that's a hard testimony like not hard but

00:13:15.600 like definitive yeah it's a lot of the same thing i haven't said like uh oh you know following god 0.69

00:13:21.740 is a great thing maybe people should try it i'm like no i've fucking done it yeah and i'm gonna

00:13:26.140 keep doing it yeah and here's what it's bore out so it's it's a it's a bit of i guess you call it 0.80

00:13:31.700 a brave statement especially for the uh the venue the venue's not for that it's not for interviews

00:13:37.160 in general it's not to say that's what sam is trying to keep away either it's just like people

00:13:42.060 just the way it goes it's the way it goes yeah so yeah they want to flex but that's where the

00:13:45.660 comments got funny where you were like even aware of the con i've just never known you'd even be

00:13:49.500 like aware of the comment i see them but i don't pay attention to them but like i again i i see

00:13:54.800 what they say and then if my behavior needs to be modified if the criticism is valid then i'll take

00:14:01.880 it which is hard to do on the internet somebody said that you talk too much and i was like they

00:14:05.740 definitely think you are me so i just skipped that like okay i talk too much i know i don't

00:14:09.500 talk too much it's me that they're talking about i'm pretty sure they just mince the names they

00:14:13.420 said that we talked too much on the uh the james episode yeah and we're like well he interviewed

00:14:18.700 i talk too much every episode though that's something that i just i simply can't change

00:14:21.940 but the contrast i thought you guys crushed talking too much well being being on tinfoil hat

00:14:27.100 and i guess their audience is probably getting sick of us a lot of them are haters whatever

00:14:30.660 doesn't matter um and then being on james show and like every comment is like this was fantastic

00:14:36.480 and we didn't come there to present you guys are all looking in the comments now yeah i'm interested

00:14:41.840 to see like did we do well for this guy that's that's really did we do well for this guy like

00:14:46.880 did did his audience enjoy it is this something that he's going to um uh benefit from yeah he

00:14:52.520 did you a solid you're like i want to do it i want to make sure that we're doing good by him

00:14:55.720 and overwhelmingly everybody loved it and i'm like we didn't even go on there to talk about

00:15:00.020 anything except for god except for god like that's the main thing and i don't want to talk

00:15:04.060 about all i know you guys i'm guessing that like 30 seconds before you went on his show you had no

00:15:08.600 clue what you were no we had no idea you guys too well like that's exactly how we spoke with

00:15:12.720 him beforehand and we're like what do you want to talk he wanted to create like an outline for

00:15:16.000 what we were gonna you know and i don't even know if we got to we had some fun gravy i thought like

00:15:19.660 the disclosure day stuff maybe we'll talk about it on our show a little bit later but that was

00:15:23.540 very matt you'd probably find it a little bit interesting as well like oh disclosure day or

00:15:27.940 the the episode itself well the disclosure day idea the shenanigans that were pulled and the

00:15:32.400 slipperiness of hollywood and the jewish director that is called steven spielberg we very much

00:15:37.320 talked about effectively replacing one tall white dude with another tall white dude but you're like

00:15:42.520 the better tall white dude yeah yeah you're our tall wait wait so how did the movie come back to

00:15:48.620 the jews like what is the spielberg spielberger witz spielberg stein steven spielberg is a jew

00:15:54.900 yeah and i just find it interesting that so the long and short of what i'm what i presented in a

00:15:59.920 way is that the alien phenomenon and uh all of the facts around it the facts were all nailed

00:16:06.360 like they did a great job they even did like recreations of uh different alien encounters

00:16:11.240 that were like you can tell it wasn't grainy footage because they like re-shot it and all

00:16:15.480 the lore all the mk ultra stuff the telepathy all all that stuff is great yeah where he missed was

00:16:21.680 i mean they quoted the bible and they actually misquoted it grossly misquoted what they quote

00:16:26.580 they quoted genesis 1 26 27 where it says uh god's talking to i guess he's talking to either

00:16:32.980 maybe he's jesus and the holy spirit maybe he's talking to himself let us create man in our image

00:16:37.400 yeah yeah and then and give him dominion over uh you know everything the beast of the earth and all

00:16:42.600 stuff like that yeah the earth they said uh the quote that they said was that god created a supreme

00:16:48.780 be he created man supreme the supreme being on earth or he's the supreme creation on earth and

00:16:55.300 it's like no no it's never like that well there is that that's not it's not worded like that but

00:16:59.660 that's not wrong that's not a wrong statement it's an incorrect statement wait we just read it where

00:17:04.780 uh in ephesians 2 where it said that um we are his workmanship and it's that greek word poema

00:17:11.140 which means like his masterpiece like like what else on the earth is greater than man on no no so

00:17:16.280 the uh i i say that the the multiplier word there would be on earth now she's justifying

00:17:24.500 outer space life and and the previous statement before that in the conversation was i'll read

00:17:30.940 well there's a discussion about that because it's like has man been given dominion over outer space

00:17:36.140 like if the dude's saying we're going to go take over the moon or we're going to go take over

00:17:39.880 okay i'll read this to you though and this is the context that you have to view that

00:17:43.620 i'll read both quotes so the first one is uh the ex-nun is speaking to the main protagonist who

00:17:52.700 wants to do alien disclosure and she goes do you think it's a good idea she was like a catholic

00:17:56.900 nun she was an ex-catholic she's out she's out she's dating this guy they're on the run okay um

00:18:02.120 but she asked him after he shows her some of the stuff she says do you think it's a good idea

00:18:06.920 because uh proving the existence of aliens would disrupt a social order built on belief

00:18:13.300 of a supreme being by showing them actual supreme beings so supreme being being the word lower case

00:18:19.700 g gods uh-huh um then later on a nun speaks to her and she's having this doubt with her faith

00:18:27.040 and she says genesis says that we're his supreme creation and she goes ah genesis says we're his

00:18:32.500 supreme creation on earth so now we're getting to this idea of supreme being supreme creation

00:18:38.300 and there's like this weird line drawn where they're trying to uh they're trying to say that

00:18:45.340 the aliens now are standing alongside god as supreme beings and then also they're pointing

00:18:51.200 it to outer space and they're saying no no we're just on earth it's just an intrigue well that's

00:18:55.560 an intriguing discussion because as you study that out it does look like i mean it's obviously

00:18:59.920 not that language like we're not referred to as supreme beings in any way but like but like we

00:19:04.160 are the pinnacle of the creation sure that like man i just don't think that there's anything

00:19:08.480 created outside of earth i don't think it's out i don't think it's in outer space in these planets

00:19:13.160 i think it's all interdimensional no such thing as mars then is that like a flat earth thing or

00:19:17.480 mars isn't real or saturn get with the program dude i don't know what the things are it's there

00:19:22.520 is there anything alive on it oh i see yeah yeah so that's where i'm at too yeah i don't i don't

00:19:27.080 know if there is either but mars is there i think mars is there wait wait i don't know it could

00:19:31.640 also be a light i don't know what i don't know what this stuff is we're looking at it from

00:19:34.880 however many miles away through a telescope like all right right right it's just an interesting

00:19:40.040 discussion because we're saying we're going outer space and it's like has man been given dominion

00:19:43.740 of outer space he's been given dominion over earth it's an interesting discussion that's all 0.98

00:19:47.160 go ahead i don't know i'm just mad you keep making up shit about mars and outer space 0.93

00:19:50.900 okay can you show us the guy with the bear dude everybody wants to see that you're giving us a 0.88

00:19:54.820 little like hints and clues i love this guy i've been putting this up on the screen the whole time

00:19:58.680 you guys have been talking to bro i don't know why but we just found this in our inbox i guess

00:20:03.900 leo zagami intended for us to use it uh you know as like did he send that to us yeah yeah this is 0.60

00:20:08.820 the greatest fucking picture i've ever seen in my life this is like that this guy is maybe the 0.82

00:20:13.380 coolest fucking guy you net said evil clint he does like remember when i made clint that guy with 0.99

00:20:18.960 the cowl and the cape yeah this guy just feels like if you were in italy with this dude he would 0.99

00:20:23.460 take you like really good italian restaurants i feel like he would take me to the vatican and

00:20:27.800 tell me some secrets on the rooftop yeah this guy is so cool bro i love this dude um you know

00:20:33.300 what's funny is how much the alberino thing keeps coming up in all of our discussions so obviously

00:20:37.460 it came up with with zagami and it came up yesterday with um i thought you guys dropped it

00:20:42.880 uh we did drop it but it keeps just it's picking us up can't quit him can't quit him yeah so daddy

00:20:48.700 is in in hot water again what did you think uh what do you think james though when you called

00:20:53.740 him daddy we laughed he mentioned he mentioned albarino and and we go oh yeah daddy and he was

00:20:58.640 kind of like huh i know the bible says you call no man daddy but 0.91

00:21:02.900 so he's buddies with albarino he doesn't like him at all i think he called him a wanker uh

00:21:10.660 i think he said he serves a different kingdom he serves a different kingdom there's only two

00:21:13.880 kingdoms yesterday said two kingdoms and uh he's not serving the kingdom of the lord and so yeah

00:21:20.200 he did say that um and i don't know how much i i want to give away but i did uh have some follow

00:21:26.560 up what do you think about that man what do you think about that long exasperated side i it was

00:21:32.900 it's another discussion that we've had before where i mean like with derrick gilbert like body

00:21:37.140 of christ and i was like i must not be part of this body no you're making that that's two totally

00:21:42.220 different things dude yeah simulacra time says he said he's don't think it is who daddy yeah he 0.94

00:21:48.200 told us possessed that that's what james said yesterday that's what james said i really fucking 0.85

00:21:53.740 like james uh i really do dude that is a it's a cool guy man i feel bad about that i don't want 0.87

00:21:59.900 to say he's like was he green the whole episode you recorded with him i was like listen he probably

00:22:05.400 has bad lighting and like uh and he was also like hung over and yeah i don't know and stuff or you

00:22:10.680 know he's demonically oppressed uh he's doing witchcraft how come he's looking down the whole

00:22:15.100 time because he's reading from his book of spells that is on his lap the entire time he's got this

00:22:20.900 what was he saying though just that alberino has the opportunity to preach christ and is kind of

00:22:25.280 doing just more of the alien thing because i know that's been brought up against him before he's

00:22:29.500 saying that he's he's no longer preaching the gospel he's no longer christ-centric instead he

00:22:34.220 is idolizing he's made idols out of these fallen angels and nephilim uh you know aliens and things

00:22:39.980 like that which is a lot of our gripe that is true though it's a lot of our gripe but a lot of people

00:22:44.780 have done that in a way that true like where you start to you start to look at uh the bible and

00:22:50.420 then you get extra biblical yeah and then from there then you're like in some kabbalistic stuff

00:22:54.520 then you're in the occult plus and then jesus starts to change he's like well maybe it's got

00:22:58.120 to do with the vertebrae of like um kind of being like desperate for content is that like a like the

00:23:04.260 danger is like you got to be on the cutting edge of the content well being desperate for content

00:23:08.860 is a trap i mean you're you're correct in that and i think that we have avoided that trap uh there's

00:23:13.980 a lot of people that will try and they'll do a bunch of crazy research and they'll try to present

00:23:18.460 something, present something. And then that becomes a trap. We don't care about the audience.

00:23:21.980 We don't care about presenting something. We just come on the show and have fun. And I ask

00:23:25.620 Holy Spirit to move us. And sometimes something really amazing happens. And it's got really

00:23:30.400 little to do with us. I think writing a book is a trap. That's a bit of a trap. What do you mean?

00:23:35.320 Writing a book about a theory specifically that you need to then hold on to, because now

00:23:40.400 if that's published and it becomes number one best time seller or whatever it is

00:23:44.340 that's your word oh yeah you're saying that uh birthright not just birthright uh how about like 0.86

00:23:51.080 uh paul stops i like paul stops but paul stops is the nephilim are clowns guys oh yeah yeah and

00:23:55.900 then that becomes like that's your thing for for you know after a certain amount of time people 0.99

00:24:01.080 hitting you up to come and talk about the same shit over and over again it's probably like damn 0.98

00:24:04.500 they keep on hitting up ed they're like still doesn't debate me on the little season and he's 0.99

00:24:08.100 like i only did like a little bit about that but he wrote a book on it and now you're that guy

00:24:13.140 you know what i mean because you wrote a book on it but that's not his thing isn't that like

00:24:16.620 denominations fall into that too man they they rally around like one specific truth and they're

00:24:22.000 all about that and then yeah what if you keep reading the bible and you start coming to different

00:24:26.660 conclusions as you tie other passages together you go you know what i used to think this but

00:24:30.220 now i think this but if you have a book locked into that denomination already and you have to

00:24:33.980 told that if you have a book where you wrote in black and white what you thought yeah you can't

00:24:39.200 say i think something else 100 come back and say yeah i thought that oh you can we can i i do i

00:24:44.720 can yeah you can everybody can everybody can but will everybody if you have an ego if you have pride

00:24:50.880 and if you're scared to be i guess taken as like an unserious person yeah because other people will

00:24:55.700 go well look at what you said here and i like they'll they'll do that to me look at what you

00:24:59.540 said here and i'm like i don't think that anymore yeah that's why you gotta stay based in truth man

00:25:03.720 Yeah, I don't think that anymore. So what? That's why the only time I've ever had any interest in writing a book, which I'm lazy and undisciplined and probably won't do it, but is about my own testimony. It's my own testimony. It's my experience. That's not something that is, you know, it's not a theory. It's what I experienced. So I can speak to that confidently and not have my opinion of it change because I went through these things, you know, but, but if you're going to start like a theory that I've been working on, and I loosely working on is very loose statement.

00:25:33.000 loosely um is this idea that what mk ultra or the gate program is selecting for is generational

00:25:38.680 iniquity and i've been having some fun doing it what is the gate program the gate program is

00:25:43.640 gifted and talented yeah program wait from when you're like a little kid and you go to you're in

00:25:48.120 the gate program yes yeah yeah so this is an election process uh i i mines was called sigma

00:25:53.960 i wasn't it was called gate when i was a kid yeah it's a thing it's the same thing same

00:25:57.960 same shit yeah yeah sigma gate is mk ultra gifted and talented it is widely accepted that it's a

00:26:03.080 selection process for an mk ultra program or adjacent program a lot of uh okay so um the thing 0.99

00:26:10.940 that that i think they're selecting for stuck on like the joe rogan thing again now uh the thing

00:26:16.460 that i think they're selecting for and i and i could be wrong among other things among other

00:26:20.700 things is generational iniquity and the idea that a spirit has legal access to your bloodline because

00:26:27.600 of the iniquities of your ancestors or you know whatever you did in your own lifetime but typically

00:26:31.640 these are children so they've not had uh an opportunity to transgress massively into

00:26:36.200 freemasonry or witchcraft much trauma yet yes yes unless um which will happen if you have a

00:26:43.420 bloodline with generational iniquity in it it is likely okay gate the gate thing when you're in

00:26:48.980 elementary school and they say hey you get to be in this gifted thing that's what we're talking

00:26:53.400 about yes they they're prying during that i got kicked out i went to one thing probably because

00:26:59.360 you kept saying the same thing over and over again who was the chick there was a chick that was like

00:27:04.860 the school president chick and i said something crazy to her and i got kicked out yeah but like

00:27:09.300 my brother was in it my sister was in it you're saying that no grams they're looking for kids that

00:27:13.920 are uh reacting to a certain thing and also i think compliant is a big is a big deal yeah they

00:27:20.520 want you to just kind of like not really question what they're doing well i think if you if you have

00:27:24.340 um there are probably ways to test if you are susceptible to disassociating agreeability is a

00:27:30.440 big one yeah yeah and you're high you're low on disagree on on agreeability you're high you're

00:27:35.340 low on agree and disagreeability well yeah you're you're right you're you're your traits on

00:27:40.500 agreeability are probably zero yeah yeah we're what do you mean somebody you'll disagree just

00:27:45.560 for the sake of disagree you're high in openness low uh low in agreeability um they're like four

00:27:52.360 sometimes i disagree with you not because i disagree with you because i want to hear you

00:27:55.780 explain it so my tinfoil tiara actually says yeah you do uh blood type which i think is a key

00:28:03.660 component and the reason i think it's a component is because there are certain genetic lines like

00:28:08.820 if you think about a royal bloodline that are associated with a great deal of iniquity and

00:28:13.500 therefore a spirit a power a principality has access to that bloodline um and i think there

00:28:19.200 are other things like you're talking about agreeability the ability to disassociate there's

00:28:23.900 a bunch of stuff going on there but i think one of the giveaways is the fact that they use a

00:28:28.620 frequency test on you to see if you can hear that you know these hurts or those hurts i think that

00:28:34.100 the mk ultra programs after they realize that spirits exist in frequency that's how you can

00:28:39.760 communicate with them that's how you can tune one of the things to receive it wait they put

00:28:44.720 headphones on you like every week yeah and they play uh like tones like and they go can you hear 0.95

00:28:50.760 that shit a little bit don't you guys have a button and you say that like certain people 0.97

00:28:54.460 with certain skin tones can't hear that oh yeah no that's a smoke alarm did you know there's a 1.00

00:28:59.280 disproportionate amount of uh deaths by house fires in the black community i don't think we

00:29:03.340 should get into this right now yeah we just made it our friend we have a new friend our friend okay

00:29:07.700 but you're saying that you're saying like some people can hear certain tones and some people

00:29:10.660 can't hear certain tones yeah so so um like xerox says bloodline sounds like serpent seed fake and 0.53

00:29:16.620 gay well i'm talking about iniquity iniquity upon your bloodline that's incredibly biblical there's 0.69

00:29:22.340 nothing that's iniquity upon your bloodline iniquity upon your household um so so the idea 0.60

00:29:28.140 would be i think and this is totally theoretical but if these spirits do exist within a certain

00:29:34.840 frequency range which seems to come up constantly in our research then they probably mapped out

00:29:41.100 what exists on what frequency and if they have more of an interest in this entity or less of

00:29:46.960 an interest in that entity they can then test can you hear this if you can hear this there's a high

00:29:52.200 likelihood that if especially if there's a background done on you already well we know by

00:29:56.760 this particular entity uh i don't know about if it's necessarily just swayed but like access to

00:30:02.800 access to like a conduit for that entity that entity can freely interact with this individual

00:30:08.540 more so than somebody who doesn't come from that bloodline who has all that iniquity because their

00:30:13.300 parents were freemasons or their grandparents were cultists or their grandmothers were witches 0.95

00:30:17.380 or some shit like that so i think that a great deal of what they're looking for probably isn't 0.94

00:30:23.380 what they wouldn't call it iniquity but i think it's what we would identify as iniquity so they 0.97

00:30:27.320 were the long story short is that they're like scouting in gate yes there's like a the guy goes

00:30:33.220 to watch a high school football game he's a scout looking for you know yeah yeah same thing they're

00:30:37.600 trying to find people to bring into that program okay okay got it i didn't mean to take it off the

00:30:41.760 rails i just well we're 30 minutes in we should read some of these stories uh because that's the

00:30:46.580 point of this show isn't it so we have a picture of leo zagami um we take that down real quick

00:30:51.000 it's a great picture thank you leo for that we should turn that into something um and i'm gonna

00:30:56.100 start off yeah is that what this is about what that's just the the ambient the ambient music

00:31:01.620 for the spooky it's the ambiance yeah um and i guess we'll start with who should we start with

00:31:09.320 here we're gonna go to this more recent one because nancy's not been cleaning house so

00:31:14.220 i don't know what's going on i'm not gonna say whose name this is because they might not want me

00:31:17.820 to i'm gonna go ahead and read this i listened to your story on tinfoil hat well what what's the

00:31:23.920 email what can i it's a red-eyed demon red-eyed demon red-eyed demon red-eyed demon i listened

00:31:33.100 to your story on tinfoil hat and i've had a very similar experience starting around 2010 to 2014

00:31:39.300 i had recurring dreams where a demonic presence in the end i would be trying to call out for jesus

00:31:49.780 that exactly uh once i could get jesus's name out i would wake up eventually it peaked when i was in

00:31:58.460 puerto rico i was literally being drug off the edge of the bed jesus saved me then too i got

00:32:06.740 out of bed and prayed and read my bible out loud i was terrified eventually i decided i would no

00:32:13.760 longer be afraid because i am saved and believe jesus has power over any darkness amen crushing

00:32:19.520 good move dude uh once i made that switch in my mind it stopped happening around the same period

00:32:25.440 i also saw shadow people well that's those are called puerto ricans uh during sleep deprivation

00:32:31.980 training in the military oh they do that they they train you for sleep deprivation i know when

00:32:36.380 depending on the the squad squadron that you're in yeah is it spooky room now i know they drown

00:32:41.300 don't they drown you in the marines i don't like that i'm the navy in the navy in the navy yeah

00:32:46.240 They drown you in the Navy, huh?

00:32:48.400 You don't have to do skeptical Matt face for that.

00:32:50.380 We're just talking.

00:32:50.940 They do.

00:32:51.400 Yeah, when they're doing like swim training for those guys.

00:32:53.420 Yeah.

00:32:54.300 They keep you underwater, man.

00:32:55.500 It's terrifying.

00:32:56.260 All right, let's keep reading.

00:32:57.160 Other people in training also had all kinds of hallucinations during that week.

00:33:01.740 Oh, yeah, because you're all sleep deprived.

00:33:04.200 All that said, more recently, something crazy happened that I would value your opinion on.

00:33:08.640 I don't know that it's going to be of value.

00:33:11.140 This past November, I was out hunting far back on public land.

00:33:15.040 I like this guy already.

00:33:16.240 and while walking out i could hear steps around me not animal steps but something

00:33:21.720 walking around me i started to feel a sense of fear but again decided that nothing is more

00:33:27.680 powerful than christ and i won't be intermediated and i know what you meant by that what does that

00:33:33.480 mean what did he mean by that intimidated intimidated this guy but he also won't be 0.81

00:33:37.900 fucking inter hey you're not going to intermediate me he's definitely definitely coming from tim 0.79

00:33:41.840 full hat you ain't going to Puerto Rican that hunts though this is intriguing uh well he said 0.99

00:33:47.360 he was in Puerto Rico yeah he could have just been on vacation maybe he was on uh they used

00:33:52.060 to have military sites on there too lots of white people make that mistake of vacationing in Puerto

00:33:56.780 Rico I've done that fair point it's not a okay um I turned with my flashlight to find whatever it 0.75

00:34:02.820 was and there was nothing I kept walking and again I hear steps walking and I turned to face

00:34:08.460 whatever it is while saying jesus out loud and nothing so this guy's gotten to the point where

00:34:14.500 he's saying it out loud he's in the woods spinning around looking for something walking around him

00:34:19.860 and he's yelling jesus carter in the mighty name of jesus what was it oh we can't play that yeah

00:34:25.780 we're getting a lot to play that right i don't think so i think if we play it we're going to

00:34:29.380 get a copyright struck oh well what are you going to do

00:34:32.140 making a mockery of this guy's experience i get to the park

00:34:46.300 i get to the parking lot and there is a dude in a white van which is odd because it took me a long

00:34:56.420 time to get out of the woods he's asking questions about hunting um almost fishing for

00:35:02.520 where exactly i was hunting i noticed a bright ball of light rise up near where i had been

00:35:10.340 and i asked him if he sees that he says yeah that's weird no flashers or anything and it

00:35:16.920 shoots off to the east and disappears that's pretty crazy actually that's kind of wild don't 0.99

00:35:23.760 you guys think that's kind of wild fuck you guys i have a 30 minute drive home and i don't think 0.96

00:35:31.400 anything of all that and while unloading my car i noticed orbs floating down the street from my 0.99

00:35:38.080 house they're pinkish red and at first i think they are big balloons someone let go until they

00:35:43.520 start moving weird to a v formation and so i pulled out my phone and i got a video which i 0.96

00:35:50.800 can send to you if you want what the fuck bro of course i want i know but he's new he's new 0.96

00:35:54.900 you're new around here huh you're new i want so i guess next time we do this i would like 0.99

00:36:00.540 i have eight i'm new in town you ever seen that bit i have no idea what that is no

00:36:06.000 so when he turned to say jesus name there's nothing there there's nothing there he leaves

00:36:12.600 that spot then he walks back to the parking lot finds a guy in a rape van yeah and then he starts

00:36:17.700 talk hey man where you hunting at he's just like cutting up with them yeah something i do

00:36:21.540 yeah he's like i was over there depending on where this happened at it could have been me

00:36:26.100 actually to talk to him in puerto rico um but i don't remember uh the orbs then he looks back

00:36:31.300 he sees the thing go up in the air then when he gets home there's orbs now there's orbs now yes

00:36:36.540 okay down the street from him i imagine it's dark out he kind of made it sound like a 30 minute

00:36:40.340 drive home i don't know if it's dark out but yeah he sees these pinkish red orbs he thought they

00:36:45.920 balloons they get into a v formation he pulls his phone out got a video didn't send us the video

00:36:50.180 and says but what's even more crazy is i go inside and as i was walking through my house i wake up on

00:36:57.380 the floor what breaks the threshold of his house and he wakes up on his floor that used to happen

00:37:06.120 to me on ghb and xanax dude i don't think this guy was on xanax i don't know maybe he was trying

00:37:11.820 to relax but uh i was confused i had a couple of knots on my head and my neck was stiff from the

00:37:19.240 fall my dog was jumping around me trying to figure out what happened i called my buddy to come and

00:37:24.800 take me to the er er the er he lives over an hour away so i lay on my couch and decide i need nicotine

00:37:32.800 out of my car based uh so i open my door and a huge shooting star goes across the sky so it is

00:37:40.660 nighttime and he lives alone and he lives alone but he's got his dog you're never alone if you

00:37:46.060 got your dog right uh and i look up i notice orbs are now floating treetop level over my house 0.99

00:37:55.000 back in a cluster just drifting off i go inside and i lay the fuck back down 0.84

00:38:01.720 and while i'm laying there i hear three taps on my window by my couch 0.99

00:38:06.260 fuck not cool the couch he's laying on i think i'm just being paranoid but it happens again and

00:38:13.640 my dog starts growling at the door confused by who could be outside and why they tapped on my 0.99

00:38:21.400 window i open the door it's a fucking mistake dog and there's nothing there to shorten this up 0.97

00:38:28.140 you don't have to do that it's opening up the door like a invitation um oh they say that with 0.99

00:38:33.440 the black eyed kids they say whatever you do don't invite them in uh vampires all spiritual

00:38:39.220 baddies right don't invite them in so you gotta invite them in but just opening a door 0.99

00:38:42.720 it makes you wonder about the idea of a welcome mat huh like you have this permanent fucking 0.84

00:38:49.360 welcome yeah to what no yeah i like the mats that are like go away the welcome one of those 0.93

00:38:56.940 welcome question mark welcome question mark no welcome no you're not cannot come in i think i'm

00:39:04.580 just being paranoid but it happens again i'm gonna get it i'm gonna get a doormat that says are you

00:39:08.640 with jesus christ yeah question mark i think i'm gonna get a doormat that says go away so we're

00:39:15.320 saying that with all of this story that's gone on so far there's no drugs involved uh i mean he

00:39:21.500 He has a lot of orbs and like stuff in the woods.

00:39:25.260 And then there is this feeling of it.

00:39:27.860 Well, we'll unpack it after this.

00:39:29.480 It seems like he got a passenger in the woods.

00:39:32.720 What are they called?

00:39:33.200 Like a hitchhiker?

00:39:33.880 A hitchhiker.

00:39:34.500 But it starts off as almost feeling like a Bigfoot story.

00:39:37.500 What do you mean a hitchhiker?

00:39:38.620 What do you mean?

00:39:39.380 Hitchhiker effect would be like you've been touched by the supernatural in some way.

00:39:44.420 And a lot of people mention it with Bigfoot or cryptid sightings.

00:39:47.540 And they'd be like, that was weird.

00:39:49.040 Then they go to their house and it's like poltergeist.

00:39:50.940 start seeing it everywhere not just that but like other things so orbs is a big one um our guy

00:39:56.360 colin who actually has been messaging me oh yeah how's colin doing he's not good not good oh bad

00:40:01.540 what happened uh i'll just check some of the mushrooms and the running miles isn't staving

00:40:06.180 off the demons i asked him if he wanted to come back and talk about it i said hey what's up man 0.91

00:40:10.360 and he said no he doesn't want to talk about what's been going on that's fucking not good um 0.87

00:40:15.640 but things have been going 0.91

00:40:17.840 crazy for him and the last thing he said to me was 0.97

00:40:19.860 this is fucking taxing 0.99

00:40:21.540 yeah I believe that 0.99

00:40:23.260 I don't like that

00:40:25.040 do you know about Colin

00:40:25.760 I'd love to talk to him though

00:40:28.400 even if he says I don't want to talk about it

00:40:30.800 I feel like I could give him no but no he says he doesn't want to talk to you

00:40:33.280 well Colin

00:40:34.380 oh I like that you made it blue for this intermission

00:40:36.860 oh dude you are producing

00:40:38.700 look at that that was nice

00:40:40.080 yeah well it's in the S show 1.00

00:40:41.860 it's not the redheaded stepchild

00:40:43.300 that was good bro that was good well you're the one that wants the lights on colin is episode 15

00:40:46.840 of this show if you guys want to go back in our audio catalog and check that out i think it was

00:40:50.820 called upgraded for war yes yeah fascinating episode fascinating conversation for war

00:40:56.220 he's a friend of mine for uh i don't even know five years now so before we've done the show i

00:41:01.960 know colin i liked it tower tower gang enjoyer as well right joyer yeah crazy person overall very

00:41:07.220 fun uh not just dabbling in mushrooms doing them heavy working security one day it's a tap on his

00:41:13.860 shoulder while he's working security and it says get out of this place and he leaves and it tells

00:41:19.220 him to do mushrooms lay down and like we're gonna have a little meeting this is like a truncated

00:41:25.700 version like boom it's much slower than this but yeah yeah over time but but he continues to do

00:41:31.300 this continues to meet with the entity that is uh a specific entity that he's got access to with

00:41:37.380 the mushrooms i think it was at first and then it became like he was meeting other things but there

00:41:42.140 is one that kind of goes through this through line its name i forget oh anu anu was his name

00:41:48.240 a blue a blue person well i don't know if that was the same guy but i know he named one of them

00:41:52.300 or it revealed its name to him and it was called anu right which is you know so he's having these

00:41:57.120 experiences he thinks that they're angels because they're actually giving him like good advice like

00:42:01.740 he's gotten in shape his life is uh more organized they're even telling him to go to church okay this

00:42:07.400 is ringing a bell now i think i have heard this story um but then it turns out like the part that

00:42:13.160 we haven't discovered lately has been uh his new girlfriend because he was he was married

00:42:19.120 this all happens as he's going through a divorce right which is always when this stuff happens

00:42:23.760 there's like a trauma that happens and usually divorced for men he has a new girlfriend now and

00:42:28.340 his girlfriend is experiencing orbs and uh poltergeist activity and and it's crazy like

00:42:35.260 one of the things he told me he he would have been sleeping or laying down and there are orbs above

00:42:41.200 his bed possibly floating over him but now his girlfriend sees it and now they've been interacting

00:42:46.680 with her and i think over the last since we've last spoken to him things have just gotten crazier

00:42:53.560 yeah and which is interesting because there was a time where colin was looking at these

00:42:58.560 experiences and these entities as as if they were like benign good and you know telling him to go

00:43:06.540 to church telling him to read the bible i believe is what it was even saying and and we did that we

00:43:10.720 did the episode with him and we had our reservations about like the nature of these things even he was

00:43:16.540 like anu is weird anu is like the angel of death or something like that and then of course like

00:43:21.820 anu naki it's like all this crap out of death in uh in egyptian mythology anu uh yeah anubis

00:43:30.180 yeah that kind of like dog-headed thing so now he's reaching out he's saying hey man i know i

00:43:34.300 said this thing was going good but yeah it's going bad i don't know i i don't know not in so many

00:43:39.680 words it seems but i don't i don't know how to talk about it not on the show and i don't really

00:43:44.940 want to talk about it in private why not um because that's an invitation oh i see what you're

00:43:51.540 and i got a lot of shit going on fair so um i don't know i'm but but he's my buddy so i'm like

00:43:59.040 i pray for him uh we'll see what see what happens you know but similar similar stories uh at least 0.90

00:44:06.720 the orbs and such it's hard to tell somebody that a thing that has been benefiting you so much

00:44:12.960 might be a malevolent entity and you might have invited it in multiple times you probably got to

00:44:19.200 break ties with it i don't think he's ready to uh hear that so like i'm not going to be the one to

00:44:25.060 be like yeah that this thing that's been the source of happiness for him and the source of

00:44:29.320 good and the so he's like positive that this is what the only good thing in my life came to him

00:44:33.720 when he was really low yeah you know and then it did uh create a bunch of positive things in his

00:44:39.660 life but yeah to go and say um you know and i wonder what happens if you try to separate with

00:44:46.340 that if you have created all these layers of connectivity yeah this kind of it's like yeah

00:44:50.260 no i'm okay yeah yeah um bring some dirty pain we can talk about it on the show and and catalog it

00:44:56.100 uh but yeah otherwise like a private invitation was like well you know i don't know i don't know

00:45:03.940 yeah it's a it's a rough one it's a rough one anyway back to the story well all right can i

00:45:08.000 just ask one thing real quick absolutely not i mean it's a little off the rails but it's in

00:45:11.740 regards to everything that's happening right now but um what's everything that's happening so

00:45:15.120 mirrors are potentially portals sure that's i've heard that a lot of times what does that mean

00:45:19.860 like what are you uh i don't know reflection that somehow that's a portal to somewhere not

00:45:24.340 inherently but i know that uh mirrors and and uh scrying mirrors and things like that are used uh

00:45:30.420 hyper polished um obsidian glass wait so like in a magic kingdom movie where they say mirror mirror

00:45:37.200 on the wall like that type of thing so like a mirror was used in like divination magic okay

00:45:43.080 Well, think about a mirror too. You look into it and it shows you yourself, but everything is reversed. So like the lettering on your chest would be the opposite way. In a way, you are looking into a weird dimension. It's like this flipped version of you.

00:45:58.340 some shit in a mirror once and i never did it again but i think it's the foundation for that 0.99

00:46:03.260 bloody mary shit you know what's weird go ahead when i was in the rehab remember i told you they 0.99

00:46:08.360 had us doing like tarot cards and stuff one of the rehab i had to live in they used to make us 0.98

00:46:12.140 do mirror time like look in the mirror and what debrief on yourself yeah i forget the context

00:46:18.680 no it wasn't that but the context was like looking in the mirror and like uh

00:46:23.320 yeah like come into terms with yourself yeah but that was probably how'd that feel was it

00:46:29.440 sketchy was it weird no i just was like you need to get your shit together dude like every time i 0.63

00:46:33.900 would do the mirror time i'd be like what happened to you man like that's what i would be like i'd 0.97

00:46:38.100 look in the mirror and be like what happened to you bro like you were just like having a good old

00:46:41.700 time and life was great and then like look at you now dude well not at that time i was like you got

00:46:47.880 to get off the meth dude oh sure and then i would see the eyes and i always knew there was like

00:46:51.780 something that like the real me like wasn't this at that time i remember thinking oh yeah you ever 0.97

00:46:57.080 do this and like look at your eyeball and then you're like oh shit i'm not this meat machine

00:47:01.340 because it's like weird as soon as you look at your eyeball and it's it's no longer framed by 0.53

00:47:05.780 your eyelids and it's just this exposed orb with flesh around it you're like oh this is literally

00:47:10.880 like just a meat sack and i'm not this thing i'm something else inside of it i had that kind of

00:47:16.820 the meat sack uh revelation when i was a kid but um yeah i did a thing once where i had a candle

00:47:22.760 and i and it was maybe it was actually a nightlight in the bathroom whatever it was it was a small

00:47:26.700 light amber colored light lights off in the bathroom staring at myself in the mirror and

00:47:31.260 what happens is like an optical illusion you ever see like the circle with the point in the center

00:47:34.660 if you stare at the point the circle starts to disappear so if you do unbreaky eye contact with

00:47:40.820 yourself the same optical illusion takes place your facial features start to disappear until 0.99

00:47:46.180 you're basically a blank canvas stay there long enough and they get replaced and it is fucking

00:47:51.180 terrifying looking because you're looking into the mirror and proportionately another face has

00:47:56.720 appeared and it is uh well at least for me was not a cool looking one it was specifically very 0.95

00:48:02.720 spooky and i never did that shit again but i think that's like at the root of the bloody mary thing 0.97

00:48:08.040 you know you're like look at the mirror and say bloody mary and then some spooky shit happens 0.97

00:48:10.900 i think that's it like it's an it's the same function as that optical illusion but what

00:48:17.120 comes after all the facial features melt away is a super unsettling i was watching a little bit i

00:48:24.300 might watch more of the dr strange movie okay and that's like has to do with magic and mirrors the

00:48:30.840 mirror dimension yeah he has a mirror dimension in the second one it's specifically it's interesting

00:48:35.180 but i wasn't paying attention as much i'm gonna re-watch it was like he's doing magic and then

00:48:40.240 he goes to like he's in opposition to somebody who's doing witchcraft yeah the red chick here

00:48:46.580 that watched it said she just got up and walked out in louis theater she said it's just straight

00:48:50.640 a cult oh yeah it is she was like i didn't even finish it i think that's why i i like uh i turned 0.89

00:48:55.920 it off after a while i was like this is just like there's a lot going on some of those things suck

00:48:59.360 you in with the narrative and it's like under the pure all things are pure and they can do that for

00:49:03.980 a minute and then once they got you then they go dark like this last avatar movie is like we

00:49:08.880 couldn't watch that i think if you're watching something and you go like you get a stirring in

00:49:13.060 your spirit and you're not sure what you're looking at that it's time to check out um that's

00:49:18.020 that was i think that's why i checked out because at some points i was like what are they like i

00:49:22.000 understand what they're showing me but then there's a ton of symbolism yeah and i'm like i'm

00:49:25.540 just not i'm not watching this the right way so i'm just gonna watch i watch it and i go like oh 1.00

00:49:31.160 you fuck you mother i see what you're okay that's how i watch everything like a psychopath my wife 0.99

00:49:36.220 hates it because we can't enjoy anything um all right so let's get back to this story he goes on 1.00

00:49:40.560 we're we're in the house um he's passed out he woke up he called his homie come take me to the

00:49:46.360 hospital it's a long way for him to come back steps out he sees these orbs goes back in lays

00:49:51.660 down there's knocking on his on his window right by his sofa that he's laying on this is the second 0.99

00:49:56.620 round of knocking i believe um so he says that he thinks he's just losing his shit and 0.94

00:50:04.940 he goes to lay back on the couch while he's laying there he hears three taps on the okay 0.86

00:50:09.140 um i think i'm just being paranoid but it happens again so that's more knocks on the on the window

00:50:16.060 his dog starts growling at the door um okay he goes to shorten this up

00:50:21.820 three to four months period after passing out or nearly passing out every day every day

00:50:31.280 diagnosed with heart failure and something is messed up with the electrical system in my heart

00:50:38.700 my six-year-old tells me one day dad i prayed you would stop passing out last night

00:50:45.760 while giving me a hug and i haven't passed out since and my heart function is no longer in

00:50:54.320 heart failure diagnosis i'm a normal dude no drugs barely alcohol and just a dad to a three-year-old

00:51:04.500 and a six-year-old anyway that's the cliff notes i have the videos that kind of back up my claims

00:51:12.100 or at least so something weird in the sky also was dealing with a breakup we just said divorce

00:51:19.300 uh during that period so there was a lot of emotions during this time uh which i think

00:51:24.900 escalated this and previous experiences thank you wow that got crazy man so i've heard stuff like

00:51:35.200 this in particular in the woods um what seems to almost be in this case a bigfoot encounter

00:51:42.920 turns into something that's much more alien and then of course there's the presence of the weird

00:51:48.340 guy in the van who seems to be trying to figure out where exactly he was they both see this

00:51:54.780 orb rise up out of the woods together um and then it follows him home more or less right that's what

00:52:01.420 it seems like and he gets hit with what is effectively heart failure his dog hears the

00:52:10.780 knocking on the windows and he's got real tangible physical ailments that are left

00:52:19.080 in the wake of this and his six-year-old's prayer is what fixes it for him i mean that's a crazy

00:52:28.340 story yeah this goes this one i think what i'm gonna start doing is like i'm gonna i just emailed

00:52:32.840 this guy back i'm gonna give him a i'll give him like a free month or however long yeah yeah get

00:52:40.400 him in the community get him in the in the patreon yeah to talk to people um because by the time they

00:52:46.440 watch this who knows how long it'll be sure that's a crazy one what do you think about that matt

00:52:51.020 i feel bad to talk about it what do you mean you feel bad to talk about it i just feel like i know

00:52:57.600 these kind of stories they always include methamphetamine or like no he says he goes no

00:53:03.040 drugs no drugs then i yeah i don't know it's like if somebody told me that like if he was here right

00:53:07.560 now like i don't know like the stuff on you know uh the internet is weird like emails even like if

00:53:13.700 somebody was standing right here talking to me telling me that story i'd be like okay meth but

00:53:17.880 that but that's what i'm saying if he says it's not that then okay i just don't know anything

00:53:21.820 about that like a story like that all i know is like i know people like that i know stories like

00:53:27.000 that there's always like some kind of crazy drug use involved so if there's no drug use involved

00:53:32.200 and that type of stuff is happening i'm like i i don't know i don't know what to make of that this

00:53:36.220 is something that goes right into the pattern recognition folder like i've heard stories like

00:53:40.360 this out in the woods footsteps around you they feel like they're around you um that was weird

00:53:46.160 for me too because like how do you know it's not an animal i know he said it wasn't an animal because

00:53:50.700 like there's a weird noise like a deer you know a four-footed animal can move at a different pace

00:53:56.560 to where it does sound like yeah we're stepping with two at a time but it's not two feet it's

00:54:00.740 four you know but you assume it's you're like wow it really sounds like a person but then you see a

00:54:04.960 deer you know so i i don't know i don't know but that's such a small part of the story there's so

00:54:10.800 many other things that came along with it i mean this is i think that's just what he assumes you

00:54:15.080 know so he's just giving us his assumption of possibly what happened so it could be something

00:54:19.260 else there could be other things that he did he's dabbling like you said maybe maybe drugs maybe

00:54:23.720 you just and what's the hitchhiker thing that you said uh the guy in the van like attached to him

00:54:29.380 or something in the woods the reason i told you the colin story was that colin has this thing on

00:54:35.120 him and i don't know where he got that but his time and his uh proximity to his girlfriend

00:54:39.960 she's got this on her and she's experiencing this and i even think he goes on to say that

00:54:44.680 his parents are experiencing weird stuff that's the hitchhiker effect where it's like it follows

00:54:50.920 you yeah it's touched you in some form or fashion then follows you to where you're at so we're just

00:54:54.560 calling it a demon it's just a demon it's like demonic entity starts napping with everybody in

00:54:59.040 your sphere if yeah but when you're talking about when you're talking about uh cryptids the people

00:55:03.980 in the cryptid community like to say hitchhiker effect we would say yeah demonic entanglement

00:55:09.740 uh faceless whatever faceless is like the definition of hitchhiker effect where he encounters

00:55:14.920 something that you might describe as like a rake which is a cryptid skinwalker uh in a tunnel

00:55:20.320 beneath the the ground in california the deserts of california and it follows him to the extent that

00:55:29.040 uh it tears his dog in half that night and then the other guy he was with who also saw it and was 0.99

00:55:36.540 touched by it um and left like this mark on the back of his neck his life just goes to shit 1.00

00:55:42.680 afterwards like he's drug addicted getting his ass beat homeless in and out of prison 0.99

00:55:48.980 and um so it left something attached to him you know attached attached to him it's a hitchhiker 0.95

00:55:55.640 effect and apparently the explanation for the dog is that this thing couldn't attach itself to our

00:56:03.280 homie faceless because he had some sort of protection and you know faceless believes in

00:56:07.520 jesus christ like you know he's a crazy dude but if you ask him about his ideas like yeah he's you

00:56:13.760 know he believes in the bible he believes in jesus and so it went for something that he cared

00:56:18.360 about which is his dog that was about the best it could do and in a place where only coyotes exist

00:56:24.460 something corkscrewed his dog ripped it in half through one half somewhere else and another half

00:56:30.280 like a dis you know a decent distance away um on his lawn you see like uh demonic effects even in

00:56:37.000 families if you've ever been around a family where like one person in the family says like oh my 0.68

00:56:42.040 stomach hurts and then everybody oh my my stomach's been off lately oh yeah i haven't been feeling good

00:56:47.340 and you see like this kind of domino effect where it does come in with like one person but then

00:56:52.640 everybody's like on board with it and everybody's sick all the time yeah yeah well it's coming into

00:56:57.240 agreement right yeah or everybody's poor all the time you know yeah like coming into agreement with

00:57:02.140 those spirits that's what's happening with my my own house i told you about yeah like uh one of my

00:57:07.620 owns had uh poltergeist stuff in new york and my other one has poltergeist stuff that originated

00:57:15.380 in puerto rico interestingly enough and now is in florida and they moved together over there uh

00:57:21.840 by orlando they live in the same house yeah yeah because it's like uh now they're close to you

00:57:27.640 complicated situation where uh my uncle had brought a house in new york he passed my grandmother passed

00:57:34.560 she sort of inherited it so it goes to the family so like let's both live in it yeah the family

00:57:41.540 sold it instead of anybody taking the money uh they kind of like gave it to her to buy another

00:57:46.100 house and she's bought this house in florida so it's kind of like family's house but like nobody

00:57:50.980 wants it so she lives there and uh my aunt that was in new york wanted to get out of new york and

00:57:56.580 it's a big house so they they've lived they moved in together but they're bringing like

00:58:01.260 you're a specific set of demons and you're a specific set of demons yeah that's why that's

00:58:05.940 why i was actually not sure if i can come today because if one's in the hospital the other one's

00:58:10.140 in just bad shape in general so uh yeah yeah my mom was gonna go visit that one that was in the

00:58:15.840 hospital it's just it's but it's it's one of these things of like who's hit whose hitchhiker is

00:58:21.060 hitchhiking on who yeah yeah i don't know um yeah it's a bad situation but yeah i mean that's how it

00:58:27.820 seems to be and i guess that's a form of iniquity too right i mean it attaches to more than one

00:58:35.680 person and you know i don't know exactly how it works but we have another one here from uh one if 0.58

00:58:41.500 you want to read this uh top it's right beneath that one a life of supernatural things and dumb

00:58:47.460 decisions and uh i just want to say as a little caveat because they sent us a follow-up email

00:58:51.760 he goes and i forgot to mention i was in the gate program oh and also and also was in the

00:58:57.200 program so there you go that's that that's that whole thing but um yeah how long has the gate

00:59:01.260 thing been a thing i never heard you guys talk about gate uh or maybe you did i just didn't

00:59:06.200 maybe i always thought it was like we talk about we talk about mk ultra targeting children in the

00:59:11.360 school it's the gate program so maybe we haven't been specific of like the the details and the

00:59:16.100 names but that's what that is interesting yeah your kids are probably in it bella bella seems

00:59:22.080 like somebody that would be a good candidate for that i'm not doing this i don't know if they still

00:59:25.600 do that do they still do gate i don't know if the charter school did i don't remember it it's

00:59:29.640 called something different but it's like yeah if we have like uh oh gosh what's it called

00:59:34.860 it's not called gate but it's called like um i don't know it's something that all the smart kids

00:59:39.580 are in honor society maybe like whatever like no i don't think it's the honor roll like i said by 0.98

00:59:43.980 the time i was in it in new york city the iteration was uh sigma but it's the same shit it's it's the

00:59:49.360 same program just named different and they're doing the same thing simulacra said uh charter 0.90

00:59:54.220 school is only gate like the charter school is the gate program they're taking these boomers kids

00:59:59.420 All right, let's read this from Juan. 0.96

01:00:01.140 All right.

01:00:03.400 Love the show.

01:00:04.740 Thank you.

01:00:05.360 I like it, too.

01:00:06.160 I think it's all right.

01:00:07.140 Have been listening since you guys started.

01:00:08.840 Really appreciate everything you do.

01:00:10.840 Please don't use my name.

01:00:12.120 Okay, but we only said Juan.

01:00:13.240 We didn't use the full name.

01:00:14.680 Juan Ayala.

01:00:14.940 And Juan is also not true.

01:00:16.100 Juan Ayala.

01:00:17.780 Jose.

01:00:19.100 If you choose to read this on the show, just refer to me as Exile.

01:00:22.500 Okay, well, too late for that, Exile.

01:00:25.360 My bad, Juan.

01:00:26.580 I intentionally didn't use any names in this.

01:00:29.940 Okay, well, I mean, come on, man. 0.99

01:00:31.580 What the fuck, bro? 1.00

01:00:32.760 Let's read another one. 1.00

01:00:34.060 No!

01:00:34.820 No!

01:00:36.100 What a banger!

01:00:37.340 Good job.

01:00:38.360 I've been Christian nearly my entire life.

01:00:40.660 My mom was raised Catholic, and she would leave the Catholic Church 0.68

01:00:43.300 after witnessing the corruption of it and its power structure in Puerto Rico. 0.97

01:00:46.820 What the... 1.00

01:00:47.280 What is going on with these Puerto Ricans? 1.00

01:00:49.100 A lot of trash. 1.00

01:00:49.920 A lot of trash in the chat. 1.00

01:00:51.880 A lot of these Puerto Ricans. 1.00

01:00:52.860 her mother practiced witchcraft not a surprise red tarot cards not a surprise as many other 1.00

01:00:59.700 people on the island do yeah yeah uh-huh she was abusive to my mom as was her stepfather 0.99

01:01:05.920 this naturally drove uh my mom to find the opposite of what they practiced which to her

01:01:12.040 was catholicism close it could seem like that right on its face but i mean if you go in there

01:01:17.720 you really get a strong message about christ and that becomes your orientation you know yeah it's

01:01:23.480 it's a slippery one but i don't i mean catholicism i think shout out emily i think is is based on

01:01:29.720 this sort of inversion and it's meant to p i think it's meant to get people to go from witchcraft to

01:01:35.880 catholicism but realistically witchcraft to fancy witchcraft yeah you're just doing the same 0.97

01:01:41.480 shit uh she would be devout for decades of her life going to mass every day until she witnessed 0.99

01:01:48.160 the santeros taking part in mass yeah what just happened with his spanish accent santeros you 0.99

01:01:54.580 can't say shit uh santeros is like uh it's it's the priest that practiced santeria witchcraft yeah 0.80

01:02:02.080 you're doing the accent you have to do the spanish word but you're gonna say i don't practice 0.97

01:02:06.380 Wait, so wait, when you say carne asada, do you do that too?

01:02:09.740 I don't eat Mexican food.

01:02:11.320 Yeah, he never says that. 0.95

01:02:13.360 I do that when I go, oh, people who practice Santa Muerte.

01:02:16.460 Yeah, if I go to a Spanish store, like, let me get that arroz con gandulas.

01:02:19.880 No, it's like, give me the rice and beans.

01:02:21.220 Give me the rice and beans.

01:02:22.020 We're in America.

01:02:24.880 So she witnessed them taking part in mass.

01:02:28.360 There was some sort of ritual where they would cut open the head of someone in the ceremony

01:02:31.880 and slide a plate into the wound.

01:02:34.240 What the?

01:02:35.100 Wait, wait, wait.

01:02:35.660 Flop?

01:02:36.380 I promise I'm paying attention, but we're saying that the mom witnessed this at like a Catholic mass.

01:02:41.620 I'm not saying that one is saying no exile.

01:02:44.380 It's saying that the mom at a Catholic mass witnessed that.

01:02:50.420 She goes.

01:02:51.300 I'll reread it. 1.00

01:02:52.280 Oh, shit. 1.00

01:02:52.640 Is that exile? 1.00

01:02:54.500 Hey, Nancy.

01:02:55.620 Hi, Nancy.

01:02:56.640 What are you doing here?

01:02:57.980 Nancy's here.

01:02:58.700 That's not Nancy.

01:02:59.940 Hi, Nance.

01:03:01.060 Hello.

01:03:02.200 What? 1.00

01:03:02.920 She's so sneaky. 1.00

01:03:04.720 Snuck in through the side door, huh? 1.00

01:03:06.380 Should we do, like, a GoFundMe for Nancy? 1.00

01:03:08.060 I know she's having car troubles. 1.00

01:03:09.640 No, Laney's having car troubles.

01:03:11.800 No, Laney's good. Nancy's car is broken.

01:03:13.880 Oh, you're a

01:03:15.500 catalytic converter, right?

01:03:17.520 It's already paid for.

01:03:19.120 It's already paid for? Did somebody come in and

01:03:21.080 hacksaw it out? I didn't like how she was like,

01:03:23.300 I'm fine.

01:03:25.300 Hmm. All right, Nancy.

01:03:27.880 Thank you. 0.91

01:03:28.640 Mysterious Jap.

01:03:30.640 So wait, Exile is in the chat. He doesn't like it.

01:03:32.480 Well, I don't know if that's actually Exile

01:03:34.060 or somebody's just using his name.

01:03:36.540 It is exiled. She said she witnessed it.

01:03:38.560 That Catholic Church witnessed that

01:03:40.680 Santeria.

01:03:42.960 Santeria. 0.96

01:03:43.860 The hell would you just say that? 0.89

01:03:44.800 I don't know.

01:03:46.020 So, and what exactly?

01:03:48.200 Cut something and put the plate?

01:03:50.180 It's a ritual where they cut open the head of someone

01:03:52.620 in the ceremony and slide a plate

01:03:54.860 into the wound. Hell yeah. 0.87

01:03:56.540 Okay, wait. Someone makes it sound like it's a human.

01:03:59.280 Yeah, dog.

01:04:00.080 They're cutting a human open and sliding a plate 0.59

01:04:02.440 into the wound.

01:04:04.060 i guess this is known as trepanation how big is the plate exile it's like a little like maybe it's

01:04:08.960 the size of a trepanation okay trepa trepanation uh a way to put something into the skull that

01:04:14.980 allows the evil spirits to leave what oh so it's like this is like a form of an exorcism so this

01:04:20.260 isn't in the church trepanation also known as uh trepanning or something else a surgical procedure

01:04:26.020 which a circular hole was intentionally drilled scraped or cut into the human skull

01:04:31.020 to expose the underlying dura mater.

01:04:34.700 Is this kind of like a...

01:04:35.960 Yeah, the... 1.00

01:04:36.560 Ice pig lobotomies?

01:04:38.100 No, it's like the Elon Musk,

01:04:40.100 but they put the thing in the skull.

01:04:41.420 So his thing is nothing new.

01:04:42.820 Like, this is nothing new.

01:04:43.880 It's a lobotomy.

01:04:45.280 A lobotomy.

01:04:45.960 This is so strange, bro.

01:04:47.720 It's not. 0.97

01:04:48.300 Well, I'm sure they're using the Bible.

01:04:49.720 They have passages that would back up

01:04:51.320 that that's a reasonable thing to do.

01:04:52.660 They were doing lobotomies 1.00

01:04:53.740 to get gay people to be straight.

01:04:55.560 Many historians and anthropologists 0.64

01:04:57.120 believe that the procedure was performed

01:04:58.540 to release perceived evil spirits

01:05:00.560 or demonic forces causing mental illness or physical ailments.

01:05:04.880 And so I guess this church adopted that.

01:05:07.540 And look, if you have a church and it's not super grounded in Christ,

01:05:11.460 it's not super grounded in the Bible,

01:05:13.220 all kinds of insane things can slip in, right?

01:05:15.660 It can do this as well.

01:05:16.620 I know this is an actual medical procedure to relieve pressure from head.

01:05:20.260 Yeah, we're doing that to Matt tomorrow.

01:05:22.380 Yeah, and your brain is expanding.

01:05:23.960 Like, let's say your brain is swelling.

01:05:25.240 His brain is expanding.

01:05:26.440 They actually would need to do that. 0.99

01:05:28.120 But these guys are doing it for some other shit. 0.98

01:05:30.560 putting a plate in there so the mom sees it at catholic church and she's like no she's like well 0.99

01:05:34.900 let's see um she knew in her heart that this made no sense okay there's your sign based it's like

01:05:42.360 hold on a second what they do what they cut they cut his head open they take the donation plate

01:05:48.300 and then they slide it into his head fill it up with god loves a cheerful giver

01:05:53.400 Oh, my God, bro. 0.99

01:05:55.520 She's in the crowd, and she's like, no bueno. 0.98

01:05:58.040 No bueno.

01:05:59.240 Yeah, she's out.

01:06:01.060 So she left the Catholic Church in Puerto Rico

01:06:03.480 and would bounce around to different Protestant churches.

01:06:06.480 She would meet my father in the Air Force.

01:06:08.620 They'd get married, and when they got pregnant with me,

01:06:10.980 would leave the island because my dad said, 0.99

01:06:12.620 this is no place to raise a child.

01:06:14.280 He's right.

01:06:14.620 Yo, base, dad.

01:06:16.140 They don't even have.

01:06:17.000 No, I mean, Puerto Rico is a really sad state. 1.00

01:06:18.900 It's a trash. 1.00

01:06:19.380 It's a floating trash. 1.00

01:06:20.700 No, it's a nice visit, but, like, 0.75

01:06:22.520 their schools are closed they're closing them down because there's nobody raising kids there

01:06:26.460 anymore that's how like bad economically it is get out it's like there's no yeah there's

01:06:31.280 no future there for people it's sad uh my father was an atheist but my mom would insist on taking

01:06:38.500 me to church she was a piano teacher she'd lead choir and worship at different protestant churches

01:06:44.500 and work as a music teacher as well so we attended the assemblies of god church that's the type of

01:06:49.880 church that we go to oh by the way the they hit me up they came to me oh they did yeah so and they

01:06:55.340 they took my number down and they're trying to get me to get involved what happened oh put you

01:07:00.040 in like one of the groups to start doing so that's how they get you to stay at church probably

01:07:04.100 get you get you active in like one of the departments uh-huh and luckily you don't like

01:07:09.560 that i i mean well what what do you want you to do uh he's like we need we need people

01:07:14.620 dressed more day around here yeah he said choir i said no i'd come for that i'd go back to the 0.95

01:07:20.980 501c3 system if he was in the choir get the fuck out of a hundred percent i would go watch that i 0.97

01:07:26.220 said look i don't know i could do like you need me to move some boxes around or some shit like 0.98

01:07:30.360 i'll do fucking labor i don't know what you what you need and he's like oh well i mean always sort 0.98

01:07:35.780 and then he's like maybe you could narrate for us i'm like narrate what i fucking know he shouldn't 0.98

01:07:42.800 have done that i shouldn't have done that shit bro but it is a technique it's a technique to get 0.97

01:07:46.900 people to stay you get invested not just invested but it's like you're contributing to a thing i 0.97

01:07:52.480 understand what it is but it's like it's misguided if you don't i'll tell you what though like is

01:07:57.000 there a calling for this guy to do this or are you just giving just coming up to me and taking 0.83

01:08:00.700 my fucking phone number and the the problem was so that that sunday was an important message i do 0.98

01:08:08.980 think that you know god has this habit of using that church that do be silly um to say important 0.99

01:08:15.180 things to both me and you and i do believe he was talking directly to you i was sitting there going 0.97

01:08:19.560 he's talking to top and um but i knew i knew you oh yeah dude 100 but he did it in a real big gay 0.63

01:08:29.320 way bro he did it in a real big gay way and i was like i've never heard anybody you turn the story 0.65

01:08:33.980 of joseph into such a uh uninteresting thing and i've also like immediately as soon as the band 0.79

01:08:41.000 stopped singing it was like church can you say uh-oh he made us say uh-oh no you don't say that

01:08:46.540 he said church can you say uh-oh i said mother okay like is this the episode of blues clues like

01:08:51.140 he's asking you like do you see a clue and we're going it's behind you pastor mark it's behind you

01:08:57.200 like dude it was so frustrating and he did it he did it so much like church can you say avengers 0.96

01:09:03.180 he was making us just do the goofiest shit he made us do it again the one minute of get the 0.97

01:09:07.980 fuck up and touch somebody i sat down i was like no i'm not fucking doing it dude and it was so 0.99

01:09:12.800 brutal and i will say outside of whatever he's doing that it was an important message it was you 0.99

01:09:19.240 know it was timely and and useful and and like you know applicable to our lives and the situation

01:09:25.920 and all that fantastic thank you god but man oh man i was like i was beginning to boil over with

01:09:32.460 rage uh at the way that he cannot that must have been after you sent me the picture of top playing

01:09:38.160 guitar i did i sent him a picture of you playing the band came off and then he was like church 0.99

01:09:44.900 can you say oh can you say whoopsie church fuck you and then he did this other thing um i forgot 0.98

01:09:50.760 what it was but but all of it feels like you're talking to children and i get it like dude used 1.00

01:09:55.640 to be a youth pastor and that's fine but when are you going to switch over what are you going to

01:10:00.200 switch over and just stop doing that stop talking because what you're doing is you're taking 0.99

01:10:03.580 the most badass shit in the world the word of god the story of the bible every the the the 0.99

01:10:12.120 framework for the realm that we live in and you're turning it into the cringiest shit i've ever heard 0.99

01:10:19.040 to the point where there's two questions like people just don't believe it because of that 0.99

01:10:22.760 and it's like thank god i'm doing something else there's two questions right number one um damn 0.99

01:10:29.900 these motherfuckers called me a youth pastor they uh so i i said that i forgot i was talking 0.99

01:10:35.200 to my dad or my wife or my wife nope that's not that's muted that's fine my wife my wife um and 1.00

01:10:43.360 they were saying that they're like yeah well he was a youth pastor and i was like yeah but you

01:10:46.040 know what like today's a great example i just did straight bible and then i'm gonna go uh 20 minutes

01:10:52.420 later into nds is a very different animal i'm gonna talk to the people a little differently

01:10:56.720 than i talk to then i talk on straight bible because we're doing a different thing bible

01:11:00.240 you didn't say anything for 20 minutes which was very funny it's very rude they're like his top

01:11:03.780 even here you're out of it there's a conspiracy here no no but but obviously when i'm talking

01:11:08.760 on straight bible i'm like we're doing a different thing okay nds is more entertainment so i'm doing

01:11:13.820 a different thing okay turn it off turn it on okay turn it off turn it on to do with the guy

01:11:18.400 no excuse it's an ability you just turn it off and you turn it on everyone has it now the now

01:11:22.460 the second question is like okay because i don't think that he doesn't have a question that's like

01:11:25.960 an observation but it's like he that's also he wants to do that do what he wants like he wants

01:11:31.100 to turn on and off he thinks it's very cool we're dealing with look at your neighbor and say blah

01:11:35.240 blah blah bro look at your neighbor we're dealing we're dealing with the thing again and we're

01:11:40.140 dealing with it right here where are they even aware of it has somebody brought this to their 0.54

01:11:45.520 attention and said it boldly or is it because they are timothy alvarino nobody has said you're

01:11:51.260 dressed like indiana jones so you don't want to say it to him because you like your position 0.78

01:11:54.920 doesn't fucking bother me no it doesn't it doesn't bother what why are we talking about it then it 0.97

01:11:58.900 bothers me it drives me fucking insane it doesn't bother you when he says turn to your neighbor and 0.99

01:12:03.640 say blah blah blah bro when he said when he said church can you say uh-oh i just don't do it you're 0.97

01:12:08.200 all right i can see by your reaction you don't like it no but okay so i don't like it you're

01:12:13.100 gonna say something to him i don't like it i don't like it to the not to the point where i'm like i

01:12:17.220 need to go and talk to this guy you know what i mean it's got to be like for me how far does it

01:12:20.900 have to go before you're like hey bro this is like wanker stuff what what i what i see it as is it's

01:12:25.760 a technique and then i look around again like i i i've i've gone back and forth to this but i look

01:12:31.320 around and i'm like everybody likes this yeah and i'm like who am i to be like i don't like this it

01:12:36.840 is like yeah it's a room full of a hundred plus 80 year olds that really like it but if he's the

01:12:41.820 leader you don't think he's leading into a thing that people shouldn't really like i don't know

01:12:47.360 Who am I to say what people, again, this is not my, this is not my thing.

01:12:50.960 I'm not doing this thing.

01:12:52.080 I am here.

01:12:53.380 I'm here.

01:12:53.820 I like research so that when you open your church, you're going to do things there.

01:12:56.640 Oh my God.

01:12:57.200 I'm in church. 1.00

01:12:58.300 I go to church because I'm able to turn to your neighbor and slap the ass. 1.00

01:13:02.580 He did say, turn to your neighbor and say like, uh, he said something crazy. 1.00

01:13:05.940 I was like, turn to your neighbor and say, you said you didn't mind it.

01:13:10.780 I'm not going to do that.

01:13:11.900 That's, but here's the thing though.

01:13:13.060 I'm in, I'm in church because I get to worship and I get to worship the way I want.

01:13:16.560 this is like like yeah we're you're participating worship you're standing there i get to go there

01:13:21.220 and play this and i i find value in that and then i get i get to go and sit in the pew and there

01:13:25.060 was a message no matter how many uh turned to your neighbor was i'm like that was still kind

01:13:28.600 of crazy yeah the message was uh forgiveness yeah as a matter of fact he read uh what was it

01:13:34.780 matthew 6 13 no it hits different when it's not me saying it i was i was actually no no i just

01:13:39.700 well when we're when we're reading it and you're opening it i'm i'm literally just listening again 0.72

01:13:44.160 when he was talking about joseph and there's no way there's no fucking way that out of 18 weeks 0.58

01:13:50.060 that we've been doing the the sermon on the mount that this week is the week that you're following 0.75

01:13:54.400 up two days after this i'm like yeah i heard it i got it i heard i i get it so when i'm when i'm

01:14:00.020 quiet during the during that point in the show it's just because i'm just like this is crazy

01:14:03.640 like i'll take it any way i can get it if it takes the 501c3 pastor for you to get the message

01:14:08.820 the first time we ever did a show i think i was like you're like yeah i don't forgive people and

01:14:13.000 i was like top that's like the most dangerous thing in the universe you had to forgive the

01:14:16.500 timing was crazy i'm not forgiving people the timing was crazy i met you so if you get it from 0.92

01:14:20.980 the 501c3 amen it wasn't for you i'll tell you what though it's it's fucking insane how god speaks 0.84

01:14:28.060 like like this um creator of the universe that you can't see and you don't engage with like we're 0.98

01:14:36.700 engaging right now speaks and when he speaks it's fucking like like i don't remember when i sent this 0.95

01:14:43.420 but this was over the weekend probably oh yeah yeah yeah perfect in the blue you could read that 0.96

01:14:48.180 was probably saturday right before read it out loud can you read it out loud no okay don't read

01:14:52.920 it out read it out read the blue well no it's not stupid i'm going to address clint one more time

01:14:59.480 on monday i'd like a clip made of it yeah talking about talking about laney and i see this and i

01:15:04.520 just go like ah man and that's what day saturday saturday it's or maybe like before or after the

01:15:10.180 beach i don't even remember and then the next day the sermon is all about forgiveness and what that 0.83

01:15:15.000 really looks like and it goes into the story of joseph and his brothers and all this shit he reads

01:15:19.060 from matthew 6 13 as well and i go and then it's really funny because god's like okay yeah but i'm 0.98

01:15:25.600 gonna use this gay dude to fucking i'll take it say some shit to you right now i'll take it that's 0.99

01:15:30.640 crazy well that's why like you're reading a book say you're reading a book by g camel morgan 1.00

01:15:34.420 then you come across that passage in scripture you're like oh dude g camel morgan was just

01:15:39.420 talking about this then somebody brings up that topic at your job then like then you hear something

01:15:44.880 on the radio okay okay i get it these things happen and that's why it's like yeah like the

01:15:49.740 creator of the universe he finds ways to get our attention about stuff yeah that's why it's a little

01:15:53.940 disheartening when some people say the only way god speaks to you is through the bible like no no

01:15:58.860 know like like god the number one way god speaks to me is through the bible absolutely but there's

01:16:02.860 absolutely other scenarios where i'm reading the bible i come across the passage i go huh

01:16:07.080 wonder what to think about that then i'm reading derrick prince or i'm reading andrew murray or

01:16:10.980 i'm reading watching my knee and they bring up that passage i'm like oh dang then a human brings

01:16:15.300 it up to me in real life in the coffee shop they bring insane i say okay god you want to talk to

01:16:19.480 me about this what's up yeah i mean that's basically what happened so i'm not going to

01:16:23.680 stop going because that's too powerful isn't that crazy i'm just saying like there and matt

01:16:28.500 says the same thing too he's like 5 1 c 3 this and that i was like yeah but like that i don't

01:16:32.160 know what to tell you that that did just happen and then it's it's confirmed like a number of

01:16:36.940 times and then of course what are the odds just what are the odds that we're gonna go and read

01:16:40.560 that's like the specific scripture the focus verse it's insane of today's message of today's

01:16:46.160 straight bible it's absolutely not insane it's just like yeah all right well it's insane until

01:16:50.740 you understand what's happening if you don't understand what's happening you go like that's

01:16:54.720 fucking super crazy but i'm not gonna say and i'm not gonna turn to my neighbor yeah i'm not 0.97

01:17:00.360 singing in the choir i'm not narrating shit he's like oh you just read the thing that we're 1.00

01:17:04.320 presenting on the thing you could read it to people fuck them no why no you have plenty of 1.00

01:17:08.080 people on this stage who know how to read i i barely know how to read you don't fucking need 0.99

01:17:11.480 me to go but it's so crazy because he like cornered me and he's like hey i thought i'd 0.90

01:17:15.640 take the initiative in getting your phone number and i was like what he's like yeah pastor uh mark

01:17:20.560 tried to call you and I was like yeah I mean I'll give you the same phone number you already have

01:17:25.740 um but yeah he's giving him the phone number I go I go he's not gonna pick that up I'm not picking

01:17:30.800 that up bro that's crazy as fuck I mean Aaron's cool Aaron's a cool guy I think just uh they're 0.76

01:17:36.740 trying to they're trying to do their best yes they are it's not what I don't think that's not how you 0.97

01:17:42.320 reach David that's not how you reach a lot of people maybe a young kid be like I'm gonna give

01:17:47.160 this young kid some experience yeah go you get um homeboy like that uh somebody else yeah but

01:17:53.120 it's just like a different tool for a different guy now if i approach dave and i was like we're

01:17:56.880 opening up a podcast division in this church and we'd like you to be a participant in it he'd be

01:18:00.720 like now now you're speaking his language yeah but even yeah i wouldn't do it i wouldn't do that

01:18:05.740 because i i could never do what i want to do um and i can't do but i can't do that no i can't do

01:18:15.220 that insurance okay so dark water it's a funny name um all right so let's uh let's continue

01:18:21.660 reading this where we at here i don't even remember anymore uh my father would thankfully

01:18:28.520 later come to christ before he died uh sorry man arguing that if all these eastern religions agree

01:18:33.220 that jesus is a way but christ says he is the way then christ is the right answer i would always

01:18:39.560 watch christian tv shows as a kid as i wasn't allowed to watch mainstream cartoons and when i

01:18:44.440 I was five, I would go to my mom after watching one of them and tell her that I wanted to give

01:18:47.880 my heart to Jesus. She was thrilled. I'd get baptized in a Pentecostal church a few weeks

01:18:53.140 later. We attended revivals all the time at a variety of these Pentecostal churches.

01:18:58.540 One summer, my father was removing this heinous carpet from our house in the hopes that there

01:19:03.600 would be hardwood below it. There was. He was happy about that. It took him a few days to remove all

01:19:09.080 the carpet, and there were lines of carpet nails on the edges of the hallways. I would be

01:19:14.420 running around like an insane person jumping off

01:19:16.500 walls, as I always did. I know. I got a five-year-old.

01:19:18.920 I don't like where this is going.

01:19:21.300 And I'd run my

01:19:22.320 right foot onto one of these rows of 0.89

01:19:24.340 carpet nails. My mom

01:19:26.480 would clean me up, take me to the ER. 1.00

01:19:28.440 ER!

01:19:30.360 And they would

01:19:32.220 say no stitches

01:19:34.340 because it was just a bunch of punctures.

01:19:36.580 I'd go with her to Revival that night

01:19:38.520 as she wanted to go, and

01:19:40.520 some interesting things happened.

01:19:41.800 people were running up and down the aisles of the church

01:19:44.600 they had the joy jumps

01:19:46.180 oh boy

01:19:46.960 I know it gets weird

01:19:48.020 you do the joy jumps bro

01:19:49.720 you do the joy jumps Matt

01:19:50.960 when you jump for joy

01:19:52.040 you get hit with the spirit

01:19:53.680 I don't like that

01:19:55.980 when they say come to the front

01:19:57.360 he said come to the front if this message is for you

01:19:59.240 I made that mistake day one remember that

01:20:01.280 my very first day in that church

01:20:04.420 but I wouldn't tell you not to do something

01:20:06.680 I didn't know what he was saying 0.92

01:20:08.300 what an immature baby

01:20:09.380 i didn't know bro i had no idea you didn't know the rules i've never been to church like that

01:20:13.540 like i had been to church when i was a child for you know funerals or whatever i had never been to

01:20:17.700 a church like that but they did like i guess what is known as an altar call and it was just this

01:20:22.900 idea like if you uh are unsure that you're right with the lord and you want you know you want to

01:20:28.880 accept jesus as your lord and savior like definitively and i'm for the first time when

01:20:32.520 you hear that i'm thinking like yeah absolutely dude like yeah that that crushes that makes sense

01:20:36.800 like maybe i've not uh gone about it the right way i'm new to all this like yeah yeah i want

01:20:42.740 to definitively make sure and he goes put your hands up and everybody's got their eyes closed 0.61

01:20:46.800 so i'm like fuck yeah put my hands in the air waving like i just don't care and i got my hand 0.70

01:20:51.820 in the air and he goes okay and so after it's done he goes uh if you put your hands up uh please 0.99

01:20:56.260 come to the altar and i go are you fucking kidding me dude are you kidding me fell for it 0.86

01:21:01.560 And then I had to go over there and stand there and pass the recreation. 0.95

01:21:04.900 It does remind me, though, about what we just read.

01:21:07.580 It's kind of why I was asking you that.

01:21:09.400 What?

01:21:11.040 So the woman knew. 0.95

01:21:13.440 She was bleeding. 1.00

01:21:14.480 And she's like, oh, that's Jesus.

01:21:15.960 But there's like a big crowd.

01:21:17.560 She's like, I just got to touch him.

01:21:18.900 And it's like, how do you know what the action is?

01:21:21.160 Like, what is the action? 1.00

01:21:22.600 And they said, it's stupid, right? 0.99

01:21:24.540 But maybe the action is like getting on the roof, you know, getting lowered down. 1.00

01:21:28.880 Yeah, lowering your homie. 0.86

01:21:29.960 Touching his carpet. 0.81

01:21:30.700 all of those make sense i don't know but you had to get to him to get healed they had to get the

01:21:36.820 man to him to get well this is the idea to get up there and get prayed over yeah all that is is like

01:21:42.680 but but realistically jesus isn't jesus isn't here physically like he's not like a person walking

01:21:47.320 through the street right now but we still have to get to him so what's the action and is the action

01:21:52.400 i thought about this too is the action like when he goes well if if this is for you come to the

01:21:57.080 front and i was like i absolutely won't i went to him after and i told him i was like yeah you know

01:22:00.900 listen i know you called i don't do that is there anything in the life of jesus that would make you

01:22:04.620 think that uh doing a show and somewhere in that jesus would say come to the front and let's yeah

01:22:10.700 but if a dude's reading scripture and you gotta get directly to your specific situation like i

01:22:16.460 mean it's kind of an uncanny circumstance and you feel like maybe the nerve the nerve of you too

01:22:21.700 the nerve to run up and like grab him well yeah she was unclean too i mean that was like the nerve

01:22:27.920 of homeboys to lower their homie in the she had a blood issue that guy's roof unclean yeah he was

01:22:33.560 a carpenter though he could fix it jesus ain't fixing that i've got things to do after i said

01:22:37.580 anything about jesus fixing that roof they broke the roof it's like that's not on me don't take

01:22:41.360 that up with me he's not like you he's like yeah no problem i'll fix it maybe maybe but i don't

01:22:45.640 know the scripture doesn't say this but the bottom line is they had to get at jesus right i'm saying

01:22:50.260 but there's an action that they took sure what is that action now today prayer reading the word

01:22:55.480 like how do you get to jesus through his word maybe it's walking up maybe it's it's maybe it's

01:22:59.820 walking up maybe it is but i'll tell you what boldly in front of because when you walk up i've

01:23:04.040 done it before and you feel the eyes on you and you're like and the eyes and the lady got her

01:23:08.980 fedora i don't give a shit about those people it's the eyes of the people you know and you feel it on 0.91

01:23:14.360 your neck yeah and you go they are like but who cares i think the point the point a little bit 0.99

01:23:19.740 of that is like who gives a shit about 0.99

01:23:21.640 David behind me yeah 0.95

01:23:23.180 like I'm walking towards something

01:23:25.080 and not that like you know the pastor there

01:23:27.600 is Jesus but like I don't know

01:23:29.580 it just feels weird right we have no context

01:23:31.660 for that in the Bible that's all that's all I'm saying so it's like

01:23:33.680 you know how we do these things and we

01:23:35.680 have not just a one-off thing

01:23:37.400 but a regularity to it

01:23:39.620 it's like in the regularity thing because yeah

01:23:41.660 they did the tongues again and I'm like where

01:23:43.640 do we get that from if it doesn't come from

01:23:45.580 the Bible where do we get that from it's

01:23:47.620 also strange because every time they do the tongues

01:23:49.460 pastor mark has to address it every single time he's like look if you're if that gives you some

01:23:54.020 pause that's it's biblical corinthians it talks about you know tongues and interpretations he

01:23:58.260 says it every single time like dog it's the same attendance in here maybe plus one or minus one

01:24:03.800 new person yeah um but he has to explain himself every time and i feel like man the fact that you 0.97

01:24:10.680 have to explain yourself says a lot because yeah you you know like this is fucking like i'm looking 0.79

01:24:15.540 at the people that are doing it and i'm going every single time the same that you're the same 0.94

01:24:18.620 ones and you give me this vibe of you know whatever i'm not gonna fucking say i know this 0.62

01:24:24.420 person but i'm like does it feel authentic i'm just gonna say goal is church growth i mean tongues 0.73

01:24:28.940 is one that's gonna make that tough right yeah it's gonna like if a normal person comes in and

01:24:32.640 they're gonna be like what yeah we're not coming back here think about my my juxtaposition it's

01:24:37.100 weird very strange but uh yeah i don't know you got it what do you do if there is tongues you'd

01:24:42.260 be like yeah that happens like sometimes i don't know i don't know yeah every no it happens every

01:24:46.900 time sometimes two times and it's a it's a weird place for me to be because i am sitting there 0.99

01:24:52.060 going this is gay and then all of a sudden he starts reading scripture and i go for fuck's sake 0.95

01:25:00.020 that is very specific well then like i'm in this place where both of these things are happening at 0.98

01:25:06.600 once this is what we asked i asked james yesterday i think james was right when we i brought up the

01:25:10.980 example of

01:25:12.900 Kim Walker in the church.

01:25:15.160 Kim Walker is like a Jesus culture.

01:25:16.800 I think that's like Hell Song, right?

01:25:18.500 Or one of these mega churches. 0.84

01:25:21.180 Wait, I think she used to crush actually back in the day.

01:25:23.320 She's good. Maybe like early 2000s

01:25:25.040 she was in the game. I think I remember

01:25:26.940 some songs by her. She did that cover. That's how I knew

01:25:28.900 the Misty Walker song. You like Misty

01:25:31.140 Edwards. Misty Edwards? Yeah, yeah. 1.00

01:25:32.600 She did like a cover of Jesus

01:25:34.800 culture of one of her songs and it was like

01:25:36.780 more simplified but still crushes. She's got

01:25:38.840 a great voice. Yeah. But she was telling a story

01:25:40.880 on Merkle show where

01:25:42.520 they're doing their service and

01:25:44.760 in the back some like do

01:25:46.520 levitating you told me that yeah yeah it's like a warlock

01:25:48.940 and I was like where do you put that I was like can somebody

01:25:50.820 be out there like leeching on

01:25:52.860 this energy and he's like

01:25:54.240 oh what's that face about David

01:25:56.380 I don't know we got a weird email

01:25:58.900 about Christian

01:26:00.940 podcast tours I don't 0.97

01:26:02.560 even know what the fuck that is 0.88

01:26:04.120 walk in man 0.99

01:26:06.040 very unprofessional

01:26:08.660 and James said he's like yo it's like darkness

01:26:10.520 can't exist where there's light so therefore it's because i'm trying to figure out like maybe in the

01:26:15.160 front like they're doing a worship session and in the back this guy's like feeding off of the energy

01:26:20.120 and and doing some dark stuff and he's like no well what about the chick that follows him around

01:26:25.560 and says these men have the words of god and then you know it goes on for several days

01:26:31.720 and then paul finally like cast the demon out of the chick right acts like maybe 11 or 13 or 14 0.98

01:26:37.400 or 17 get away from me bitch in there yeah she's saying like these men have the truth of god and 0.96

01:26:42.180 then he cast the demon out of her i mean that demon was still you know walking around in paul's 0.98

01:26:46.700 presence but i guess yeah ultimately there comes a point where you can't be here anymore and that's

01:26:50.460 and that's ultimately what paul was doing was saying like we have no affiliation with you

01:26:54.100 so i i mean i don't know if somebody they levitate in church i'll tell you what man so somebody's

01:27:00.340 joking around tiz says pod pastors trying to draft you that is a joke right but but in this instance

01:27:08.720 reading that your dream come true it made me realize like how incredibly incompatible these

01:27:14.960 two things are what two things this idea of like pod pastors or even like you know it's and it's

01:27:21.540 not even anything negative to homeboy over at the church um aaron but like you're gonna get me in 0.68

01:27:26.420 they're singing or reading some shit like incompatible homie that's the play it's incompatible 0.91

01:27:31.820 i i cannot fucking do it um and it's and it's mostly because the the word of god the scripture 0.94

01:27:38.440 part almost always is speaking to something that is incredibly relevant in in our lives but the 0.90

01:27:45.920 rest of what's going on fills me with unbridled rage yeah and i guess you know where that whole

01:27:52.680 system really lost uh some face was like during coronavirus it was like oh no you don't have to

01:28:00.520 be here right all the rest of time throughout uh church history or i shouldn't say church history

01:28:07.200 because that's like a 2000 year thing but like modern american church is like no you got to be

01:28:11.100 here well why can't i just read the bible at home no no no you got to be here because like to your

01:28:15.220 point it's like hey all the shenanigans i'm not with that but i love the scripture like i love

01:28:19.620 the message okay cool then why don't i just watch a sermon at home then like and then i can just

01:28:24.280 like skip through the shenanigans and just watch a sermon no no no you got to be here but then

01:28:28.960 coronavirus comes like yeah you don't really have to be here you know it's like well do we or don't

01:28:32.880 we because we got told this whole time we do so if it's really not relevant right now was it ever

01:28:37.480 relevant oh yeah yeah it's it's relevant just not when the world system tells us you can't be here

01:28:42.400 you know that's where it really lost face and that's where a lot of people are like ah you know

01:28:46.840 I kind of was seeing a lot of this stuff for a long time and this is kind of

01:28:49.720 really exposed the, the, the whole of it.

01:28:52.960 Now I, to me, once again,

01:28:54.780 it just goes back to this idea of like how brutally bad-ass this whole thing

01:28:59.000 is to the extent that I am happy to build everything that I'm doing around

01:29:03.520 it. Cause this is, uh, to use like a really cliche, it's epic.

01:29:08.780 This is an epic, unbelievable, um, you know, component.

01:29:13.920 it is the central component to our reality and this is the thing that demons cower to

01:29:20.300 this is the thing that you know uh the earth opens up and drinks the blood of of you know 0.98

01:29:26.740 all this insane awesome shit and they've made it into fucking blues clues yeah it's tough that 0.99

01:29:35.680 hurts dude like it fucking it drives me nuts while i'm sitting there so what's next i guess 0.99

01:29:41.100 that's where i'm gonna keep going because god keeps talking no no i'm not i'm not even just 0.99

01:29:44.840 talking about like you got you guys like can't quit it now i get it like you especially because

01:29:48.600 you got the guitar now you love the attention on the stage he's ripping it up but i'm gonna say

01:29:53.640 what next for the church of the living god in america like well like what is next dude like

01:29:58.760 again like maybe a few of us need to get our heads what's next is not telling somebody

01:30:04.080 with a specific set of of skills that david has to participate in a choir or participate in reading a

01:30:11.080 that's all they got. That's the model. No, I know. But that's, that's not, that's not all that you

01:30:15.800 have. That's just all that was offered before. There's a lot more that could be done and should

01:30:20.620 be done. When Pastor Rick walked out of here, I told him, I was like, yeah, well, we didn't there.

01:30:24.960 That was fairly easy. I don't know why when you're in this meeting, and I don't know how many times

01:30:29.840 you're meeting with the pastors and the elders of the church, why are you not having conversations?

01:30:34.000 Because it's a business. It's meetings about meetings. They get that from the world. It's

01:30:37.260 like we're gonna have a meeting about another meeting they're never talking to each other about

01:30:40.600 the word of god and what they're reading it's just a business structure dude that was my

01:30:43.840 frustration like business was like what's this meeting about well because we're having the big

01:30:47.300 meeting on fridays we're meeting about me i'm like i i can't do this like especially i was like you

01:30:51.880 guys pay me to sell like if i'm not out there selling then you need to pay me for my time here

01:30:56.100 and that didn't go over well you know it's like we're having a meeting we tell you what to do

01:30:59.900 it's like that's not our agreement our agreement is you pay me for what i sell right and that way

01:31:04.080 a guy in the warehouse and the marketing department and the samples department and customer service

01:31:09.140 and purchasing, they all get paychecks because I'm out there selling stuff. You want me to be here

01:31:13.020 like having meetings about meetings and doing more meetings? This isn't going good for me.

01:31:17.180 You're also going to kill my morale about this whole thing.

01:31:20.400 They've adopted that world system is all I'm saying.

01:31:22.620 The next step for the church is to adopt a system similar to this. You already have these guys that

01:31:27.420 are knowledgeable in the word of God, and they were talking about authenticity. Well, what's the

01:31:31.680 best way to talk to the people in your area and even out of your area. You love missions.

01:31:38.040 Yeah, you already have, they have $10,000 cameras. Point them at yourself and you and the former

01:31:44.640 pastor of this church and the other elders of this church sit there, have a conversation. You

01:31:48.800 don't even need an audience. It should be recorded. People can look and learn and listen and know who

01:31:54.360 you are and also learn about things. This is, I think that's the next step. If they would have

01:31:59.340 said hey David uh we're looking to do something like that maybe you don't participate but maybe

01:32:04.720 you could help you know what he said what do you say he goes uh yeah yeah so like maybe reading

01:32:09.960 um maybe narrating and I go what's what does that look like and he goes oh you know we put 0.99

01:32:15.740 stuff on the teleprompter you you do the voice you'll do like the voice no do the fucking voice 0.99

01:32:21.040 dog I have one voice it is shrill it's annoying and it wields slurs dog okay I cannot do 0.99

01:32:29.080 the voice it's insane to even uh offer me that to do the voice is an insane proposition what 0.97

01:32:36.480 the fuck are you talking i would go for that i got in this 100 go if you know what i do a voice 0.89

01:32:41.840 uh so when i would do like the raven if i do a solo show i'll adopt like a cadence or whatever 0.99

01:32:46.900 and it's kind of like similar to a radio thing and it's because it fills the void of of oh raymond

01:32:53.120 ven yeah yeah yeah you want me to do raymond ven dog the glasses you want me to do raymond

01:32:58.720 ven you want me to come in in a wig and a suit and with the glasses like honestly that's not even

01:33:03.200 you want me to do the voice like you're saying it that's a waste of everyone's that's a waste 0.92

01:33:07.320 of your time saying is yeah i want you to fucking lie what he's saying is is that that's what that's 0.99

01:33:13.860 what this system offers yeah the voice but it doesn't this motherfucker does the voice that's 1.00

01:33:19.200 what drives me nuts too is like even the cadence that he talks with outside of doing the like the 0.99

01:33:23.000 little quips for children he also has this package delivery thing that he's doing so where does it

01:33:29.260 let me ask you a question then where does it stop we can continue to complain about it but where does

01:33:34.800 it stop and with who and how and as a matter of fact i don't think it does you listen to the voice

01:33:39.700 of god until he gives you a christian library and a coffee shop it's like everybody's like oh no if

01:33:44.580 i'm gonna do anything i need to go get a committee i need to go get 10 or 20 people i need to get the

01:33:49.860 pastor to bless it i need to get the elders to bless it i think it's a good question people it's

01:33:54.880 not like god can just use one stop i'm just saying no it's where does it stop unless unless somebody

01:34:03.120 that's that's close to you that's like already out of it like i've already if i've already seen

01:34:07.700 the wizard i've already seen the trick yeah and you're still doing the trick and you're still

01:34:13.000 feeding that wizard you don't even know well most of these people are doing the most of you

01:34:16.920 these people are doing the wizard trick and don't know let me ask you this then it does it that's

01:34:21.080 common so you're gonna stick around and reform that system okay then why are you there because

01:34:26.300 i get to worship god with the thing that i do great because my kids the scripture was talking

01:34:30.540 to him because my kids benefit tremendously from it so i'm like i don't tithe to there but i i tithe

01:34:35.320 with my with i ain't giving you my money dog well no but i my money my money goes to this if this

01:34:40.260 isn't yeah but you're you're contributing you're helping this mission or a ministry is it whatever

01:34:45.800 straight let's say straight bible is this is where my money goes so we just we just bought new new

01:34:49.920 lights out there and all this stuff we just bought a bunch so yeah this is where my money goes as far

01:34:53.880 as what is she saying i'm starting to think matt doesn't like i think this is where my money goes

01:34:59.080 but that place is still doing a thing that i find beneficial for my kids and even for me just last

01:35:04.940 week what's all this talk about where do we go from here what do we do now no i think the question

01:35:08.660 is if you don't like this and you're seeing these people doing a thing then what do you say to them

01:35:14.040 i think you just say i hate you or do you say hey listen you're not gonna get through to him dude 0.93

01:35:18.460 that's fine i'm telling you from experience but you can stand there and bang your head against

01:35:21.860 the wall and try to explain to people like hey something's not right here something's not right

01:35:25.300 here's the question they've asked why that's interesting it's never it's never wise to

01:35:30.940 approach somebody and go this is what you're doing wrong matt and out of nowhere but if somebody

01:35:34.360 nobody asked you but they asked he said why why did you stop coming here yeah why don't you like

01:35:39.000 this thing well now you've asked you have i think that it's it's now your responsibility maybe to

01:35:44.960 formulate the answer and tell them exactly why because you're not wrong this is these are my

01:35:49.360 qualms with what you're doing maybe nobody's told you this it's got it's got to be hard i don't like

01:35:53.800 this and here are the reasons why and it's going to be hard for you to hear you might not like me 0.99

01:35:58.960 or like me saying it but you got to fucking hear it at some point you made this shit gay 0.99

01:36:02.800 and then what well yeah i don't know then then it's here your bowl you asked and then you asked 1.00

01:36:09.160 here it is deal with it i don't know no and then what for you no no they're not gonna change it

01:36:13.120 well so then what for you yeah yeah we build what we're building yeah you said like this idea of

01:36:18.360 would it change what's next or whatever like i honestly don't think i think you're right if

01:36:22.840 somebody asks you you should tell them um i i personally don't think that system is going to

01:36:27.280 change uh but so i think the solution is exactly what we're doing here exactly what we're doing

01:36:31.940 and and that solution is different for everybody right it's not going to be the same you don't and

01:36:35.860 not everybody gets the the microphone and the lights and the cameras and shit like that in

01:36:38.660 the youtube channel or whatever um you know you were uh spreading the gospel to people who were

01:36:43.820 ordering coffee before you were doing it on a show i was writing scriptures in port-a-pots before i 0.82

01:36:48.520 could talk i didn't used to be able to talk like this like i used to just be really dumb with

01:36:52.820 boxes i'm not saying i'm smart with words now but like the greatest i couldn't like articulate

01:36:57.840 anything to people so i just wrote scriptures on port-a-pots yeah yeah but like potties if so say

01:37:03.200 so say god says like said that at the beach too this generation's gonna die in the wilderness

01:37:07.420 like how much time am i gonna spend on that generation trying to get them to come to some

01:37:12.820 kind of revival get them to change their ways like which generation would you spend your time

01:37:17.160 on that what generation are we talking about we're talking about 80 year old people in the church but

01:37:20.900 then there's also a swath of there's a swath of 20 year old people there yeah my kids are there

01:37:25.920 let's say let's let's not make it a generational thing i'm just using that as a as a pattern that

01:37:30.240 like he says ultimately like this thing's dead all right but that building how much time i'm

01:37:35.140 going to spend on this dead thing trying to like revive it well to once again to answer that

01:37:40.080 question again but this is sitting there last week and this scripture is talking directly to

01:37:44.720 the issue that we have so the system is dead but there are things that are happening in it

01:37:49.700 westhoff said uh recently again i think he said some really gay stuff about judeo-christianity

01:37:54.560 but he was talking about uh orthodox christianity and he said he thinks that god still works in

01:38:01.920 orthodox christianity and the catholic church not because of the church but in spite of the church

01:38:07.680 and i'm like absolutely 100 that's why when they asked me uh i was thinking about going here should 0.66

01:38:12.740 i go i said yeah you should go because god spoke directly to your situation in spite of how gay 0.53

01:38:18.480 everything was around it yep like that's what i saw that's what i saw that's why i had like this 0.51

01:38:23.540 almost like uh gritting of my teeth where it's like i cannot deny what i just heard but also

01:38:29.360 i have just been exposed to something that is insulting and both of these things are true at

01:38:35.280 the same time that thing has also asked you why do you think i'm gay well they haven't asked me

01:38:40.780 directly pastor rick asked you that phone call was if you would have picked it up come and ask

01:38:45.540 me to my face don't ask me for my phone number if he stepped up to me and he asked me to my face 0.99

01:38:49.120 what's going on why i don't show up i'd be like yeah man it's fucking it's gay i well i almost 0.98

01:38:53.820 there's also clips out there online that they've probably seen so they probably do know they know 0.98

01:38:57.680 no they're not watching you guys on i they're they're they're watching the show they they've 0.99

01:39:02.100 seen it no don't don't fucking i mean if i had to say something it's like stop talking to fucking 0.99

01:39:07.020 adults like their children a lot of people have come up to me and they said that they they really 0.99

01:39:10.260 like the uh they like the interview with with pastor rick it's a format that they hadn't seen

01:39:15.080 him in imagine that yeah very realistic very real yeah they said we had a good dynamic bouncing off

01:39:21.740 each other and pastor rick is a real ass dude imagine that there was no script there was no

01:39:25.960 like announcements there was no songs there was no pre-written speech oh imagine that it's very 0.95

01:39:32.120 real well i don't even the pre-written speech thing it's like every time you could tell pastor

01:39:36.100 rick prepares a thing and he cares greatly about this thing that he's preparing and his own life

01:39:42.240 experiences go into it so it's like i don't really have a problem even with the prepared thing

01:39:46.180 it is to to take a thing and water it down is super um it's the style of it's the style of but

01:39:56.500 it's like dangerous it's not offensive it's like if people were exposed to the true radical nature

01:40:02.980 of this you know it's it's what i just described of uh uh what's misty edwards man was it there's

01:40:09.900 only one way to that that song whatever that is uh it's like spooky and if you look at the music

01:40:16.300 of how she plays it there are chords in there that maybe slip outside of the key and it makes

01:40:20.780 this song very interesting but when jesus culture because she's not a musician she just went in there

01:40:24.860 worshiping god at ihop like back in the day well and just started to like do it she just started

01:40:29.580 to do somebody is a musician that is that's right she probably wrote the melody and then they created

01:40:34.220 an accompaniment to it that makes it beautiful and spooky and it matches her that entire vibe

01:40:39.680 that is like i can't describe it but when jesus culture plays it it's just in the key of e major

01:40:44.660 and it still has that sort of vibe but it's miss it's lacking a thing because the accompaniment to

01:40:50.180 it has been simplified for the masses that's the reality and jesus culture is much bigger than

01:40:55.360 edwards because of the simplicity that they presented the song in is it wrong to to bend

01:41:01.540 the bible to fit the masses what do you mean has he bent the bible to fit the masses or has he just

01:41:06.700 changed the presentation they're not they're not bending the bible it's not no no they're not

01:41:11.680 bending scripture that's not what they're doing but i'm saying like is it wrong to maybe it's not

01:41:16.860 because i mean you to do what do we do here what yeah yeah yeah great point what do we do because 0.74

01:41:21.500 we we set out do it for retarded we've set out intentionally to not do that yes but we do do it 0.92

01:41:27.200 for retardants uh-huh we do it for people like us okay and they're doing it for people like that 0.90

01:41:32.100 so i i don't know that's a good point okay but isn't it like clear at least that like on a very 0.97

01:41:38.740 low level i know i've said this before that like they're the only model we had was like fox news

01:41:44.220 cnn abc cbs everybody came to terms with like okay all of that is this very uncomfortable fake

01:41:53.480 not like the way they have these conversations on those news channels and cut to a break it's

01:41:58.340 anything but real it's anything but real so where we had then you come to this podcast thing and

01:42:03.120 you're like oh these are real conversations i know you guys love joe rogan will say that like

01:42:07.240 he has a three-hour conversation like wow that's a real conversation i think he's been co-opted by

01:42:11.440 the cia okay but it's not like oh we have five minutes to do this thing and then we're going to

01:42:17.240 cut the commercial which is the fakest way to have a conversation ever known to man the church is

01:42:21.980 still under that model it's not like what the bible or the sermon is bad it's not that any of

01:42:27.180 that's bad it's just they're still doing it the fakest way possible and even the world has moved

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01:42:47.480 i'm not a drinker by the way guys i haven't had a drink since i came back from vacation i had to

01:42:51.080 drink every single day on vacation because my family drinks and eats that's their communal thing

01:42:56.000 it was a bit of a nightmare i wish i had sport drink i needed something to bring me back from

01:42:59.820 the dead but back to what you were saying about uh yeah it's just like why why are they still

01:43:06.520 doing this in the fakest model possible and everyone knows it's the fakest model but you

01:43:11.520 just have the realest coolest thing so even with the fakest model possible it still can reach some

01:43:16.980 puerto ricans that play guitar but in general everybody knows like this system is the fakest

01:43:22.760 way possible i'm there in spite of that though don't you there was a there was like a very no

01:43:27.700 there's a very critical decision after the whole clown thing where i was looking at it i was like

01:43:32.640 yeah that was rough you couldn't quit i said number one couldn't make you quit i said either

01:43:36.560 i'm i'm never going back here that's not going to happen or i'm going to go back here harder

01:43:41.240 those are my two decisions

01:43:43.480 either I'm not going to come or I'm going to come

01:43:45.440 playing guitar yeah yeah I said alright

01:43:47.440 I'll volunteer

01:43:48.640 I heard you by the way showing off the other day

01:43:51.780 wasn't this one but it was the last one

01:43:53.680 oh no the one before that what did I do

01:43:55.540 I just heard you 0.99

01:43:56.660 like there was some extra shit going on 1.00

01:43:59.780 and I was like this motherfucker is doing some shit right now 1.00

01:44:02.020 that's like 1.00

01:44:03.400 that is fair enough

01:44:04.620 you're keeping that system alive

01:44:08.220 no problem

01:44:09.040 No, man, I'm worshiping God with the instrument that I've been chosen to play.

01:44:14.040 No problem.

01:44:14.520 That's it.

01:44:15.080 But yeah, I had a decision on to go, to not go back.

01:44:19.380 And I weighed out, like, what did that look like?

01:44:21.800 What's that look like if I don't go back?

01:44:23.380 Keeping the system alive is better. 0.98

01:44:25.660 Who gives a shit about the system? 0.98

01:44:26.940 What does that look like for me? 0.99

01:44:28.120 And again, this is very greedy, but whatever.

01:44:30.460 I don't care if they see this.

01:44:31.920 What does it look like for me if I don't go back there, even though it's one day a week?

01:44:35.580 if i'm not surrounded by this stuff if i don't hear some of these messages it is a great

01:44:39.880 reorientation right once a week to recalibrate in a big way and like okay i'm literally getting

01:44:45.300 up and going to this place that's about this and it's the same thing when we come here you know

01:44:48.660 and you're doing it with him on straight bible yeah so you're in a constant reorientation having

01:44:52.980 any effect on him though that's what he's saying no no he's saying that like i say this stuff all

01:44:57.240 the time it never affects him and all of a sudden the guy at the 501c3 says you got to forgive people

01:45:02.020 on top it's like i can't believe it i gotta forget by matt's own admission i mean uh last week we

01:45:06.600 were talking about the daily bread and it's not like oh yeah my weekly bread oh yeah my tuesday

01:45:12.860 and thursday bread it's daily bread okay so what am i doing on sunday yeah games jerking

01:45:18.380 what am i doing on sunday you're eating bread i don't know saturday we went to the beach what

01:45:23.520 are we doing on the day that i'm not doing anything what am i doing on wednesday nights

01:45:27.100 well Wednesday nights sometimes if I have the time show I go and I yeah I go and I get to play

01:45:32.060 with these people and it's yeah man it's like we're all right so I get to come in one accord

01:45:35.920 no offense and and and play in practice to God I don't and and the great thing is too is like I

01:45:42.040 don't even have to hear like the no offense the drummer's kind of bad I don't have to hear him

01:45:45.200 we have like a great system where I turn him off and I play the click track and I play my own thing

01:45:49.240 I hear the the instruments that I want to hear yeah so whatever you guys hear and I'm sorry yeah

01:45:53.240 dude i'm hearing i'm here i hear myself in the mix and i hear like my chosen instruments and i

01:45:58.740 get to play and i was like this is actually gratifying this is this is good for me yeah

01:46:02.680 and and if if i'm practiced and i know my parts and that's an interesting thing they're there

01:46:08.240 because it's satisfying this desire for music and worship right on this is how i worship this is how

01:46:12.900 david worshiped as well and i'm sure that he got great benefit from this by sitting down and playing

01:46:17.440 this and playing by myself is great playing with other people is is better that's that's just how

01:46:23.020 i see it and then also my kids benefit from this greatly it helps this place it helps this place

01:46:27.660 that is helping my kids so it's the least that i can do if i'm not giving monetarily i'll give

01:46:31.680 with my time and that's my time that's it but the rest of my money and my time goes to doing this

01:46:36.360 this is this is more important to me valid point so this is what i do but that's what you have to

01:46:40.620 be in it it's almost like the best way to operate within it is to be a radical who's in a system

01:46:48.940 that is soft and who is aware of the soft pliability of the i would not have come back

01:46:55.280 if if i wasn't if i was of the mindset before i would not have come back and done what i've done

01:47:00.980 now because you're just not understanding what this thing is like but like before you're this

01:47:07.200 uh you're like oh the church is is this you make up in your mind what the church should be and what

01:47:12.380 it was supposed to be and then you get in and it's nothing like that i understand what you're

01:47:17.220 not making it up you're looking at the bible right okay but you make up in the mind you reflect

01:47:22.200 you reflect on this system what you think it should be no no you read in the bible what the

01:47:27.460 church is but it's not and then you assume that if something today is called the church that it

01:47:32.220 would be the same way we see the church in the bible and it ends up not that's different than

01:47:35.720 saying like oh i'm going to project what i think the church should be that's but also i mean even

01:47:39.600 even the earliest churches were fallible that's most of the books in the new testament are going

01:47:43.140 to be just making mistakes condemnations of them yeah jesus is writing to them i mean this is what

01:47:47.640 ed's new book is about the jesus code shout out ed uh it's it i think it's the seven letters to

01:47:52.360 the churches so it's like yeah these guys messed up paul's writing to the churches so it's yeah

01:47:56.980 they're all fallible in some form but he's not saying this entire scale and the entire pattern

01:48:02.380 the entire structure of what you're doing is wrong he's saying you're screwing up here with

01:48:07.520 this situation this situation this situation but the whole thing's not yeah the whole thing

01:48:12.100 isn't a show that's being replicated by the masses on all denominations it's all being replicated

01:48:19.420 all across the nation exactly the same yeah you might say you have different doctrine or different

01:48:24.480 theology so but you're replicating this model exactly the same across the so again what we're

01:48:29.140 dealing with is exactly david's problem you're dealing with like all right scripturally is it

01:48:33.680 there check it's got to be because yes some yeah that that happens yeah right we we witness you're

01:48:39.700 reading from scripture so you know i mean you could twist it but they're not twisting it but

01:48:43.220 the delivery method is bad and the delivery method is reinforced but i guess it's not bad for 95% of

01:48:49.900 the attendees also like okay but what is the effect on 95 that's what ultimately we're talking

01:48:54.560 about if that system had any effect on the people and made mature believers i promise i'd shut my

01:48:59.640 mouth i promise well if i promise man but if it's continues to create these babies who have been in

01:49:04.340 the church for so long where paul's like dude i cannot feed you with meat i have to give you milk

01:49:09.040 then what are we doing guys and we've forsaken the biblical model apostles prophets pastors

01:49:13.860 evangelists and teachers for the edifying of the saints to build up the body for the work of the

01:49:17.840 ministry the people are supposed to be doing the work not coming and watching uh and just and just

01:49:23.520 being some kind of like uh what's called where you sit in the stands and just watch a thing

01:49:26.680 like a fan no it's called something else too though but like spectator yeah spectator like

01:49:31.240 that like that's not what the bible tells us it doesn't say put on a show for the paid the paid

01:49:35.660 people put on a show for the spectators it's far from it it's like what the what we were talking

01:49:39.920 about earlier in the episode with the comments where it's like you read the comments yeah i read

01:49:44.060 them and then i say which ones are valid and then if they're valid maybe i take into consideration

01:49:48.100 and change it but if not i discard it but it seems like what's happened over time is that like

01:49:52.400 they've read the comments and now they're they're placating to the people there's nothing else what

01:49:57.460 else are they going to do if the people would have asked you know henry ford to to go faster

01:50:01.960 they would ask for a faster horse right and he's like no it's a car here take that they didn't want

01:50:06.180 a car because what is it yeah they don't know what it is i don't know what the problem is the

01:50:10.360 problem that like there is a that there are solutions but uh okay so you're in that system

01:50:15.080 as it's kind of dying off i'm out of that system as it's dying off and that's okay it's okay we

01:50:19.800 have we have two different views on it and so it's okay it's not i wouldn't say two different

01:50:23.580 views i would just say like two different applications to the same view also i don't

01:50:27.680 i don't even describe myself as in the system it's just a place i go i don't know yeah i don't it's

01:50:33.440 it's a it's a weird one it's a place that i go and something that i get stuff from i feel like

01:50:37.500 i took raven off the rails and i feel terrible no no no you didn't even finish one story oh we

01:50:42.300 definitely didn't finish one story let's finish one are we gonna be able to finish one story 0.74

01:50:45.300 maybe it's fucking long it's gotta get spooky out here hold on okay someone was uh wailing this 0.63

01:50:53.420 Oh, the people running up and down the aisles. 0.97

01:50:54.860 This is what we got on this.

01:50:55.820 The joy jumpers.

01:50:57.040 Yeah, you want to joy jump?

01:50:58.680 Stop.

01:50:59.300 All right.

01:50:59.840 Someone was wailing saying they needed prayer.

01:51:01.500 So the pastor called up all the children to put our hands on this person.

01:51:04.360 There's nothing wrong with celebrating and being joyous in the Lord.

01:51:07.140 Don't get me wrong.

01:51:07.740 I'm just saying the way it gets done in a show is very bizarre.

01:51:10.020 I can't do that.

01:51:11.060 Because that's a...

01:51:12.340 Not only that, when I heard the guy say one time, he said, I used to travel with a so-called prophet.

01:51:18.900 We were in like South Florida doing stuff at like a so-called Pentecostal church.

01:51:23.420 And he said to the pastor, he said, hey, let me see about those three Spanish ladies in the back, those three Spanish ladies in the back.

01:51:29.500 He goes, Church of God. And he looked at me, he said, yeah, how'd you know?

01:51:32.820 And he went like this. And they both started laughing.

01:51:35.580 So when I asked him later, I said, what did that mean?

01:51:37.460 He said, oh, well, when you pray for people from the Church of God denomination, they shake like this, like they're being moved by the Holy Spirit.

01:51:43.300 And I was like, and I think he saw the terror in my face.

01:51:46.320 I was like, well, I thought that's because that like that was the Holy Spirit.

01:51:49.920 Like they could they weren't they weren't like doing that on purpose.

01:51:52.100 they couldn't help he's like oh yeah well yeah uh you know blah blah blah and didn't know what to

01:51:56.520 say and so yeah like that's what i'm talking about i was like these learned responses those are the

01:52:02.380 things i'm not down with if you love the lord and you're jumping and shouting for joy in the lord

01:52:06.200 because you love him and you have a childlike nature and you're so grateful to him amen i love

01:52:10.680 that but when it's just these learned responses from denominations that's a little different this

01:52:15.580 is what i explained to pastor mark too i was like i'm coming up to you afterward to let you know

01:52:20.740 about whatever you just said because you might not know

01:52:22.800 but I know that you spend time developing

01:52:24.920 this message and sometimes

01:52:26.560 it's beneficial for you to

01:52:28.740 hear that God told you

01:52:30.840 to do this because somebody was

01:52:32.780 hearing it. Somebody got touched by

01:52:34.840 it. And I said, but I'm not going to come up

01:52:36.700 when you do this call

01:52:38.620 because I don't do this whole thing.

01:52:40.680 You're very kind and sweet to him if we can be honest.

01:52:43.120 I feel like that's fair.

01:52:44.000 You're very mean and nasty in person. 0.83

01:52:46.860 You're one of the kindest people that anybody's ever met. 0.95

01:52:49.680 Thank you.

01:52:50.740 the person was being asked I was asking for healing and for prophecy the pastor said you

01:52:56.380 will be healed but I feel for some other I feel some other presence here he pointed at me he laid

01:53:03.060 his hands on me he prayed for me he said I too would be healed and that I will go on to do great

01:53:08.360 things in life I had no idea what this meant but right after this I'd realized my foot no longer

01:53:13.360 hurt the next morning the punctures from the carpet wound were gone interesting that is

01:53:19.460 interesting we would become heavily involved with that church i go to vbs my mom would volunteer

01:53:24.720 and i become intertwined within the community there was a middle-aged couple that had an older

01:53:30.020 son like he was early 20s he would volunteer with the young kids my age group at the time was seven

01:53:35.360 to ten but one one winter we the kids realized he was no longer volunteering i would turn it would

01:53:42.840 turn out that he had some sort of traumatic event renounced christianity and wanted nothing to do

01:53:48.560 with his parents. He would become involved in the Church of Satan in our town and went down a dark

01:53:54.200 path. My mother and I would then later go visit his parents after he committed suicide. Oh, damn.

01:54:01.660 Damn. My mom wanted to offer her aid and comfort, but in their house, I would find a pile of 1.00

01:54:08.800 drawings, seemingly very demonic in nature, in which my mother would snatch them out of my hand

01:54:15.060 and tell me not to look at them she would read the story on the back and realize it was a suicide

01:54:19.720 note i would later learn that he indicated that he couldn't take it anymore that he had witnessed

01:54:25.260 them kill and sacrifice a baby and he felt like he was irredeemable and wanted to end his life 0.98

01:54:30.800 fuck i know i was watching that uh disclosure movie yeah my kids were in the pool this is my 1.00

01:54:36.120 at my aunt's house they were in the pool on the other side and it got to the point uh where they're 0.99

01:54:41.140 doing a they're doing like a flashback it's very interesting there's a a guy that seems to know it

01:54:48.580 all he's like an insider government guy that turns and he's creating a set through the whole movie

01:54:54.420 and you don't know why he's creating a set he's recreating the protagonist's house the the the

01:55:00.060 lady the anchor woman he's recreating her house because when she finally does come there he puts

01:55:06.620 in it and it recreates he puts he recreates the event in which her and the other protagonists get

01:55:13.340 abducted okay a traumatic event yeah the trauma the scene of the trauma yeah yeah and and i mean

01:55:19.020 they frame this as like they're the good guys but clear there's a clear abduction and she's freaked

01:55:22.780 out by it and the the guys freaked out like they do not want to relive whatever happened and

01:55:27.460 they're like they're panicking um but my kid walks in and he starts like watching it and i

01:55:33.860 like run over and i grabbed him and i like put him back in the pool i was like something about

01:55:39.380 that that scene specifically and it's not even like any like gore or like you know content that's

01:55:48.140 yeah yeah yeah it's not that but it's also not like uh like oh it's boobs don't look cover your

01:55:52.800 eyes it was just something in me i was like you can't see this yeah like this is not something

01:55:56.580 that would that reminds me i don't want you to see that the fourth kind with mila jovovich where

01:56:02.260 they're reliving these experiences and the trauma of their experiences under regressive hypnosis is

01:56:08.420 like so intense there was actually a documentary of a guy it was a hat man documentary and they

01:56:13.600 had him under regressive hypnosis and he's he's recalling you know these traumatic events where

01:56:18.700 he's seeing this man with a hat and this is actual footage if i'm not mistaken in this documentary

01:56:23.300 and it's fucking hard to watch no gore nothing else but seeing somebody like reliving their

01:56:29.760 trauma and like going through the the drama of it all they showed the alien as well which is like 0.98

01:56:36.240 don't look at that alien my kids are not looking you're not gonna look directly at a demon yeah 0.64

01:56:40.340 so oh anyway okay next paragraph my mom divorced my dad after that that sucks uh as my half brother

01:56:48.580 was killed in a motorcycle the next year a motorcycle accident the next year she would 0.53

01:56:52.640 never this is the hitchhiker stuff this guy's getting his life lapped up this is kind of why

01:56:57.440 it's like this lady went over there to offer condolences to this kid and then your life gets 0.96

01:57:01.460 fucked and that's blah blah blah yeah that's why i'm like maybe not you know sorry colin 0.97

01:57:07.280 um as my half brother was killed in a motorcycle accident uh she would never recover from that 1.00

01:57:13.460 heartache and pain become addicted to painkillers and alcohol the mom yeah that sucks she remarried 0.96

01:57:19.320 another man from another church a couple years later and it would turn out that his sister was 0.96

01:57:24.280 an actual practicing witch with altar

01:57:26.100 spells, the whole deal. 0.85

01:57:27.700 Whoa, whoa, whoa. So this mom has gone from

01:57:30.620 Catholic 0.96

01:57:32.720 in the beginning to 0.90

01:57:34.140 watching the thing getting drilled in the skull

01:57:36.260 to getting away

01:57:38.840 from that Pentecostal revival

01:57:40.440 to

01:57:41.660 the guy

01:57:43.840 kills himself, she finds the note

01:57:46.640 to divorce 0.57

01:57:48.300 now, remarried. 1.00

01:57:51.240 The mom's got a wild 1.00

01:57:52.460 ass story yeah she's going through it 0.98

01:57:54.300 she's going through it 0.95

01:57:56.220 yeah

01:57:56.560 her uh the

01:57:59.860 mom of the new man she married 0.99

01:58:02.240 is a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic 1.00

01:58:03.980 he had an insane porn addiction 1.00

01:58:06.240 and was not a good man so wait wait his sister was a witch 1.00

01:58:08.360 and his mother was a 0.99

01:58:09.280 you stole my line

01:58:11.720 I just want to make sure we're on the same page

01:58:13.300 so the new 1.00

01:58:16.180 sister-in-law is a witch 1.00

01:58:17.400 and his mother-in-law is a schizophrenic 1.00

01:58:19.460 and the husband has a porn issue 0.97

01:58:22.020 that to me is generational iniquity but maybe i'm just calling everything that these days

01:58:27.020 that marriage would only last a few years from this time about until 25 i would continue to

01:58:33.440 attend church regularly volunteer read the bible engage in theological discussion and mostly not

01:58:38.820 have any notable supernatural things happen i'm sure they did but nothing stands out

01:58:43.700 skipping way ahead i got married late in life and i was only married roughly for eight months

01:58:49.480 five of which we were separated she and i met on a dating app grinder uh no it's insane uh

01:58:58.760 went on a couple of dates and at the time had a feeling that i should not engage with this person

01:59:03.720 i shrugged it off and continued to be friends with her a different woman at that time that i worked 0.98

01:59:09.160 with uh was an ex of mine and when i moved back into the city to take this job she basically took

01:59:14.600 over my life again wasn't proud of it very weak of me but i acquiesced and let her run my life

01:59:20.280 for like two years oh so i only occasionally talked to the now ex-wife on and off in a platonic

01:59:26.600 fashion eventually i grew a spine and cut that person out of my life we met up i guess with his

01:59:33.160 wife i met up with my soon-to-be wife a few times to hang out nothing sexual we went our separate

01:59:39.720 ways and eventually she reached out on the anniversary of my father's death. I was having

01:59:44.240 a hard time and I welcomed someone in my life. Anyone, I guess. At the time, it felt like some

01:59:50.740 sort of divine providence. Perhaps the Lord letting me know, letting my dad make a connection

01:59:56.180 for me in this life somehow. We would date for a few months. I would feel comfortable in that

02:00:03.740 this is the person I'm going to marry and propose to her. When we would be engaged a little over a

02:00:09.060 year before getting married she moved in with me a bit after we got engaged bringing crystals into 0.97

02:00:14.800 the house with her damn it oh looking back i sort of now assume she figured out that the this 0.88

02:00:21.400 original date of my dad's death by a combination of cyber stalking and social engineering we've 0.99

02:00:25.940 heard a story similar to this yeah yep yep yep or who knows what else divination one of our friends

02:00:31.400 reached out with a similar story we can't say uh she was previously engaged in the story i was told

02:00:37.440 was that she caught her fiance at the time cheating on her marriage was cold off she still

02:00:42.980 hangs out with this person apparently after she and i divorced but she refers to him by a nickname 0.52

02:00:47.620 so i never realized that's who she was referring to oh that's so terrible that's so terrible i hate

02:00:52.580 that i don't know sometimes you hear these stories and you're just thankful that hell yeah for the

02:00:57.160 grace of god on your own life dude like you like you're hearing this and you're like dude anybody's

02:01:03.240 life could kind of oh yeah gone this way man i was thinking about that just the other day uh when it

02:01:08.560 came to my wife like my relationship is so solid and i realized like i don't know if i'm built for

02:01:16.460 a destabilizing relationship like i don't know if if god could have served me up a bad relationship

02:01:23.080 and a bad wife um or if i could have like missed the signs and been with somebody else like

02:01:28.480 i think part of the reason i'm able to operate in any manner of success whatever whatever you

02:01:34.960 would call that in you know in life is because my relationship is so solid because i i think about

02:01:40.580 it every once in a while it's like harrowing to think about you know being plenty of people are

02:01:44.660 people probably hear me right now and like scoffing like oh yeah if you had my relationship

02:01:48.460 or some shit like that but like dude i'm just not i don't think i'm built for there's a lot

02:01:52.280 of things that i'm built for there's a lot of things that i can tolerate i don't think i'm 0.86

02:01:55.360 built for a bad marriage i'm not either bro like if i came home like i had buddies that always like

02:02:01.100 to fight with their girl like they enjoyed fighting yeah and i'm like oh my wife did my

02:02:05.400 wife did that i just have too much going on like out there like when i come home i gotta chill yeah

02:02:11.020 man yeah yeah that's a big reason why i didn't like i mean you know i liked him as a dude but 0.98

02:02:16.780 like didn't like jose of the tower gang podcast because like always talking shit about his wife 0.68

02:02:22.400 it's a rough way like some people do that it's like a cultural thing right like a like ever 0.54

02:02:26.760 yeah yeah i don't know what to tell you no no no be like stop be grateful for her like what like

02:02:32.880 what if you had no wife or if you would cry i would cry if you hate everything about her then 1.00

02:02:37.940 leave her and stop fucking talking but that's a mindset you didn't marry a chick that you don't 1.00

02:02:42.400 love yeah i know if you let your mind play tricks on you like that you gotta stop listen i'm not i'm 1.00

02:02:47.560 not i'm not dr phil just don't come to me dr phil he's talking about aliens now it brings it brings

02:02:52.260 me down like oh i don't like that yeah yeah say nice things about your wife bro while we were 0.73

02:02:57.460 engaged she accused me of many things of having women over the house claiming she found hair in 0.94

02:03:02.240 the bathroom that she couldn't have been either of ours i have dark brown hair that will fade and 0.62

02:03:07.260 look reddish brown and she uh and the hair she found was red oh or she claimed to find yeah it

02:03:13.600 didn't matter she was convinced i had someone over i let her borrow my car very nice car some

02:03:19.060 are saying the nicest of cars 0.99

02:03:20.500 for a bachelorette party

02:03:25.100 road trip. She was taking that idea.

02:03:27.720 A few days after this trip, she confronts

02:03:29.240 me, says she found some press-on nails in the car

02:03:31.140 probably from her friends 1.00

02:03:32.220 convinced I had some woman in the car. 0.98

02:03:35.860 She had already called 0.84

02:03:36.980 the two shops in the area that did work on it 1.00

02:03:39.040 to ask if any of their female employees 1.00

02:03:40.940 had been in it. They said no.

02:03:43.440 So she was convinced I was up to

02:03:45.020 no good. I wasn't. That's fucking, yeah.

02:03:46.980 It's just horrible. Hate it. 1.00

02:03:48.220 I was convinced that I could just show her if I was an honest person, things would be fine.

02:03:52.660 I had actually never given her any reason to assume otherwise.

02:03:55.620 Terrible.

02:03:56.240 At her wedding reception, she was convinced my mentor slash manager and his wife were talking about her, 0.62

02:04:02.080 saying she looked like an ex-girlfriend of mine and comparing her that way.

02:04:05.180 They weren't.

02:04:06.100 They would never do that.

02:04:07.340 I'd known them for over a decade.

02:04:08.520 They're upright people.

02:04:09.640 Didn't matter.

02:04:10.860 She insisted that they did. 1.00

02:04:12.420 Sounds like you just married a crazy bitch. 1.00

02:04:14.380 Fuck, man. 1.00

02:04:15.440 Yeah, many such cases. 1.00

02:04:16.520 Yeah.

02:04:17.700 She insisted they did and that I needed to sever ties with them. 0.82

02:04:21.360 Two months into my marriage, she started on benzo medication as prescribed by a psychiatrist.

02:04:26.220 Let's go.

02:04:27.220 She had not told me about this.

02:04:28.760 Let's not go.

02:04:30.100 Yeah. 1.00

02:04:30.800 Let's not do benzos. 0.98

02:04:32.120 I immediately noticed a change in her behavior and tried to bring it up amicably.

02:04:35.600 It did not go well.

02:04:36.940 She would admit in the conversation to being on new medication, but insist that nothing had changed.

02:04:42.180 She grew more and more paranoid as the time progressed over the month.

02:04:45.640 Over this month, that's it?

02:04:46.960 she looked like a different person looking back all because they were they were married for three

02:04:52.180 months and then separated for eight right something like that separated for five 0.93

02:04:57.060 married for eight months separated for five so there's three months in the this whole time

02:05:02.120 period okay that they're together um i describe it as her being possessed her facial structure

02:05:07.960 was changed oh her eyes noticeably different so much so that my mom asked what was wrong with her 1.00

02:05:12.260 because in a photo she sent to my mom to my mom of us her eyes were what my mom called vacant

02:05:18.640 yeah dude that that the vacant thing we're talking about that yesterday we're like billy carson and

02:05:23.560 that's right we're talking about that with james yeah uh alvarino yeah he's not there by the way

02:05:27.980 quick little aside story shout out daddy what do you mean we mean no offense daddy um you guys

02:05:34.120 ever see that video of that chick she's in the club uh apparently the backstory is she had been

02:05:38.680 you know in a bad relationship and she you know broke up with the guy she's in the club she's got 1.00

02:05:44.340 lipstick on and she's kissing the shirts of men in the club without their knowledge to get them 1.00

02:05:51.200 in trouble to get them in trouble yeah that's horrific and i'm like yeah you fucking bitch 0.99

02:05:55.760 that's which that's kind of witchcraft i mean dudes are going home that night after you know 0.99

02:06:01.060 getting to go out and and whatever have a couple of drinks with the boys i don't know what you're

02:06:04.780 doing it at the club as a man uh you know in your relationship explain that there you go right yeah 1.00

02:06:09.380 yeah uh but still now you got some shit to explain because some goofy bitch who you know goes into 1.00

02:06:14.580 her hate all men stage starts putting lipstick on and kissing shirts like whoa man whoa i was 1.00

02:06:22.400 just thinking about that as a terrible terrible video uh she was always a very jealous and 0.95

02:06:27.200 paranoid person but i just chalked it up to this is what she experienced so she expects things to

02:06:32.900 go wrong she spied on me through our security cameras during the work during the day i work

02:06:37.220 from home and watch me in the bathroom what yo that's just like what the that's just like what 1.00

02:06:43.580 this witch does to my dad she was convinced i was up to no good on my own in the bathroom for some 1.00

02:06:49.600 reason yes when she said bro bro i'm telling you in the bathroom are you doing diarrhea in there 0.98

02:06:56.220 this woman does witchcraft on my father and then is constantly you know which woman single yeah 1.00

02:07:01.540 singular she's constantly accusing him of when he when me my father and my son went out for the

02:07:09.220 first time in my life and the last time in my life together i said hey dad i want to go bowling

02:07:13.820 i haven't had you in my life for my whole life and i'd like to try to spend some time together

02:07:21.060 me you and your grandson and it was like pulling teeth to get this to happen we went out had a 0.99

02:07:27.460 couple of beers bold came back and she was all of a sudden dressed in like a street walker's outfit 0.99

02:07:35.000 accusing him of going out and cheating and then told him she's gonna go outside and stand on the

02:07:42.580 corner and talk to whoever comes up to petition her because of what he had done and what he had

02:07:50.580 done was gone out bowling for two hours there were a couple of spares with his son yeah he wasn't very

02:07:55.320 with his son and his grandson

02:07:57.720 and I was never able to ever

02:07:59.880 be alone with him again after that

02:08:01.420 she would loom

02:08:03.900 in the background 0.99

02:08:04.600 and then of course witchcraft 1.00

02:08:07.700 panties in the coffee pot all that shit 1.00

02:08:09.860 damn 1.00

02:08:10.900 she was convinced I was up to no good 1.00

02:08:13.840 in the bathroom and when she said well I have

02:08:15.720 video of you

02:08:16.400 that's always funny

02:08:18.300 I was in the bathroom with a stomach flu I lost it 1.00

02:08:21.780 I screamed at her couldn't believe what she was 1.00

02:08:23.860 doing told her she had to get help she couldn't she couldn't keep intentionally sabotaging our 1.00

02:08:28.500 marriage she would later admit to spying on me while we sat on the porch through our security 0.99

02:08:32.900 cameras trying to see what i was looking at on my phone while i was sitting across from her 1.00

02:08:37.760 whoa that's high-tech shit she would find nothing interesting because i wasn't doing anything 0.91

02:08:43.980 nefarious during this time my very nice car's battery kept dying wouldn't stay charged there 0.97

02:08:51.380 was nothing wrong with the electrical i worked on cars most of my life my dad worked at a car

02:08:56.240 audio shop and i have a degree in electrical engineering didn't matter it would always be

02:09:01.200 dead the next day very weird huh she would like unplugged yeah when are you sabotaging your lights

02:09:06.560 on also during this time there were smells of sulfur in the yo couldn't track it down this 1.00

02:09:13.320 bitch fortin even had hvac plumbing people out could never figure out a source but it was only 1.00

02:09:20.480 when she was in the house or briefly 1.00

02:09:22.440 after she left the house. Damn, that thing's 1.00

02:09:24.600 stinking. What? Eventually, 1.00

02:09:26.480 all the tension culminated on a Thursday

02:09:28.340 evening while

02:09:29.680 when we were going to bed, she said,

02:09:32.260 you're going to have to do this without me.

02:09:34.440 Please just take care of the animals. What the

02:09:36.280 bro? We had four cats and a dog

02:09:38.540 at the time. We just

02:09:40.140 we had just got the fourth cat. That's a problem.

02:09:42.580 A very tiny sphinx and was

02:09:44.340 very sweet but would ultimately pass under her

02:09:46.360 care soon after. Oh,

02:09:48.480 you bitch. I mean, I don't really care too much 1.00

02:09:50.360 hey come on man what the hell is a very tiny sphinx it's very sweet i asked her what she

02:09:54.440 meant she said i'll figure it out oh my god bro the next day she calls me to let me know before

02:09:59.480 lunch that she wouldn't be coming home that this is the end of it to let her mom know and her

02:10:04.060 brother know that she did in fact love them and to tell the animals the same oh tell the animals

02:10:09.100 bro imagine living in this kind of stress she kept a taurus pistol on her at all times

02:10:13.360 with a round chambered

02:10:17.900 okay I mean she could have chambered it though

02:10:19.780 it does not really

02:10:20.420 no I mean if she's carrying and she keeps one in the

02:10:23.840 tors is inexpensive too

02:10:25.320 that's right

02:10:26.040 I don't know get a Glock

02:10:28.140 I asked if there was anything I could do she said no

02:10:31.080 and that I shouldn't send anyone to do a welfare check at work

02:10:33.760 or to call the police or to try to contact her doctors 0.91

02:10:35.860 because the second she found out

02:10:37.900 I did it would be bad for the people 0.77

02:10:39.880 at work around her 1.00

02:10:40.840 i wept i screamed i cried out to god like a bitch no uh i asked him for help i called her 1.00

02:10:49.660 doctor's offices and i said she was having some sort of an episode and they said she was they 1.00

02:10:54.500 would send the police and i said she no she threatened to harm herself and others and she's

02:10:58.920 armed it's a bad idea this guy must be in florida or texas or like one of these and he's must be 0.90

02:11:03.460 freaking the fuck out man the doctor told me to pack up all the medication in the house 0.91

02:11:08.520 and take it with me. 0.94

02:11:09.600 So I did. 1.00

02:11:10.620 We had two other ARs in the home, 0.97

02:11:12.280 one of which would become a big deal later. 0.72

02:11:15.400 Oh, geez, man.

02:11:16.500 I don't know if we're going to get to this

02:11:17.720 because we're late in the episode,

02:11:18.960 but her psychiatrist called anyway.

02:11:21.720 That's a lot.

02:11:22.820 She then called me and screamed at me 1.00

02:11:24.400 and said I'd never see her again. 0.99

02:11:25.760 I got in the car and drove over to her work

02:11:27.580 and she was already gone. 0.77

02:11:29.280 I drove over to her mother's house,

02:11:31.320 also not there.

02:11:32.760 Went by the places she normally hangs out,

02:11:34.480 wasn't there.

02:11:35.300 I drove around for hours trying to find her

02:11:37.120 and then I get a call from her.

02:11:38.520 asking where I am.

02:11:39.960 I said, I'm out driving, looking for you.

02:11:42.080 She said she was at the house

02:11:43.360 and she was leaving to finish the job.

02:11:46.380 Finish the job? 0.94

02:11:47.380 How many parts to this job is there? 0.91

02:11:49.560 I called the police, told her she was armed 1.00

02:11:51.500 and I didn't know what she was going to do.

02:11:53.440 They told me to go to the house and try to talk to her.

02:11:55.960 I said I was pretty far.

02:11:57.540 They said, that's fine.

02:11:58.400 Drive as fast as you need. 0.65

02:12:00.340 Keep us on the phone and we'll get an escort going

02:12:02.940 and other units will stay outside of the cul-de-sac. 0.98

02:12:06.140 damn dog if this wasn't like why it's happening that's almost so cool like i can go as fast as i 0.99

02:12:11.580 want and you're gonna send cops to escort me let's go bro i got this fancy car but i got this witch 1.00

02:12:17.440 at home fuck i get to the house she's gone and she's left a gift she's left a gift of a watch 0.99

02:12:25.220 on the table for me with the note indicating that i'd need it i call her yeah she actually 1.00

02:12:31.540 picks up the phone bitch is doing too much i asked what's going on and she screams at me saying i 1.00

02:12:35.940 must give her medication back and must give her an ar and she's also screaming at me asking if 1.00

02:12:43.220 there's anything i want to admit i say no i have no idea what you're talking about this is all an

02:12:48.100 elaborate ruse to get him to admit to cheating even though he's not cheated yeah she's gonna go

02:12:52.780 to she's gonna go to jail and then he's gonna cheat on you because you won't be there anymore

02:12:58.280 how many dudes do you know like this though like that live under this sort of show i know oh my

02:13:03.980 god yeah oh there's nobody i've known i've known a couple dudes yeah i don't know to the severity 0.98

02:13:08.600 but like crazy girlfriend shit doing stuff like i've known exactly like this no i'm pretty damn 0.91

02:13:13.500 close to almost exactly like this minus the witchcraft at least it was never overt you need 0.99

02:13:19.020 to get some church friends man you should start going to church oh yeah maybe i'll sing in the

02:13:22.280 choir maybe you'll do some narration i might maybe do the voice raymond ven here

02:13:28.420 end of the world news uh i have no idea what you're talking about she took she took my

02:13:38.580 prescriptions at the time i was recovering from a back injury from bike racing she said i'd need

02:13:43.640 to bring her meds her had a back injury too yeah they're all on meds uh i need to bring her meds

02:13:50.220 and exchange them in a public place 0.96

02:13:51.600 along with the AR. 0.99

02:13:53.940 That's fucking nuts. 0.99

02:13:56.000 Exchange the AR in a public place with me. 1.00

02:13:59.040 This was all on speakerphone.

02:14:00.180 The police said I needed to go and do that

02:14:03.000 so that they could take her into custody if need be.

02:14:05.960 Okay.

02:14:06.600 The police would remove the firing pin from the AR

02:14:08.560 before I leave.

02:14:09.500 Slick. 1.00

02:14:10.300 But damage it in the process, you assholes. 1.00

02:14:13.480 Yeah. 1.00

02:14:14.440 Well, I guess you got to save this bitch. 1.00

02:14:16.900 We agreed to meet in a nearby public parking garage. 1.00

02:14:19.400 she tells me i have to park far enough away from her so that i can't try to box her in 0.90

02:14:23.420 and that if i try anything she's armed she instructs me to put the gun case in the middle 1.00

02:14:27.920 of the lot so what do you do though this is your wife drop her with a straight right i mean it's 1.00

02:14:32.320 because like at some point in the story i'm like stop effing with this chick dude like get out of

02:14:36.820 this like how far you can never talk to this human ever again well like it's just like oh no but it's

02:14:42.220 my wife so like you kind of have to like i just i don't know man i think uh there's just too many

02:14:47.460 times in the story where I'm like, this is just a human.

02:14:49.600 I'm never talking to it. You got to go back in time

02:14:51.360 and never marry her.

02:14:53.240 Yeah, time travel. The signs were

02:14:55.340 there, and I think he still did it anyway.

02:14:58.080 We were talking about

02:14:59.280 my cousin with my other cousin that's

02:15:01.340 visiting from New York, and I was like,

02:15:03.780 it was his wedding day,

02:15:06.140 and I had told him. I didn't

02:15:07.340 know much about his girlfriend at the time

02:15:09.340 or his fiance at the time, but

02:15:11.260 for some reason, I told him

02:15:12.600 my advice on that day was,

02:15:15.280 hey, listen,

02:15:15.780 marriage with somebody doesn't get

02:15:18.960 like all the things that were there before

02:15:20.880 doesn't make him go away. No, no. Marriage

02:15:22.940 doesn't do that. It magnifies it. 0.99

02:15:25.960 Good luck.

02:15:27.400 I had no idea what was going on

02:15:29.040 in his marriage and I mean if you know what's 0.99

02:15:30.860 happening with him now it's like a fucking mess. 0.99

02:15:34.260 But yeah 0.99

02:15:35.020 it doesn't go away. It gets magnified.

02:15:37.120 Do you think God would get madder

02:15:39.160 if you beat her up than if you

02:15:41.240 divorced her?

02:15:43.660 I'm not going to answer that. 0.98

02:15:45.120 It might be biblical to hit your wife at this point. 0.98

02:15:47.700 But all right. 0.99

02:15:48.540 Left, right, uppercut.

02:15:49.820 So she picks up the AR, drops off my meds, and goes back to the car, leaves in a hurry.

02:15:53.880 Police said there's nothing else to do.

02:15:55.380 I should go home.

02:15:56.700 I go home, and about 30 minutes later, she comes hauling into the cul-de-sac.

02:15:59.900 I can't handle this story. 0.99

02:16:01.240 This is so fucking crazy, bro. 0.99

02:16:02.800 I mean, I knew this was going this way. 0.99

02:16:03.940 And almost puts her car through the garage door. 1.00

02:16:07.780 God damn. 0.99

02:16:08.560 She gets out screaming, waving the pistol, yelling about how the firing pin was taken out of her rifle and that it was damaged. 0.99

02:16:13.780 asking me what i thought i was going to accomplish did she try to fire it bro what happened to the 0.99

02:16:18.360 police weren't they supposed to intercept this shit no they went home wait wait wait i don't 0.99

02:16:22.500 understand they were like hey take the firing pin out situation averted 1.00

02:16:25.720 balls in your court homeboy what the fuck you said she had a taurus 0.99

02:16:30.500 no probably no problem yeah no problem that's crazy though i i i can't believe they didn't 1.00

02:16:36.200 i mean she's already made illusions to killing herself i dialed the yeah they should have

02:16:42.020 baker acted her there yeah so they just said remove the firing pin our work here is done

02:16:47.280 i dialed the number the police gave me earlier uh quickly in my phone during all this just click

02:16:54.100 from recent numbers and leave the phone in my pocket they hear us arguing they dispatch units 1.00

02:16:59.520 to the house we should have been at the house it's crazy when she hears the sirens she starts

02:17:04.160 yelling more you guys couldn't turn the sirens off i think like it's a problem of like they don't like

02:17:09.300 the person making the call to the people don't really

02:17:11.480 know. Jeez, man.

02:17:13.360 Yeah, they're unorganized.

02:17:16.080 She starts yelling more when she

02:17:17.440 hears the sirens, asking me what I

02:17:19.380 think this

02:17:21.360 is going to do. Asking if I

02:17:23.120 really think I can save her. All while

02:17:25.320 I'm trying to calmly plead with her to stop

02:17:27.420 this. And she's still waving the

02:17:29.360 pistol around at me. Jeez, bro.

02:17:31.940 You got a fucking dicker. 1.00

02:17:33.480 Yeah, this is too stressful. You control that 1.00

02:17:35.420 wrist with the fucking pistol, and 1.00

02:17:37.380 you just clean knock her out i don't know i mean what or else what you're gonna get shot 1.00

02:17:42.560 yeah that like at that point someone is waving a gun around you have to shoot them but that's 0.98

02:17:47.980 your wife yeah but is it like waving around like you know like knows how to hold it or is it just 0.96

02:17:54.100 like if she's Spanish that's like oh man and she's holding it sideways that's your wife is she putting

02:17:58.920 out i mean at this point in the game is she putting out because maybe i have some sympathy 1.00

02:18:03.080 thief she's putting out and you don't want to you know cold cock her that's not the question here 1.00

02:18:07.220 she runs to the backyard and throws the pistol in the woods before the cops get to the house 1.00

02:18:10.820 the cops try to question her uh ask her what she's doing she refused to cooperate says we were just

02:18:17.080 having an argument and that i was at i was actually the problem they should be questioning

02:18:20.960 me instead while this is going on two other officers are canvassing the woods behind the 0.89

02:18:25.340 house with the dog they find the pistol bring it to the front of the house one of the female 0.96

02:18:30.180 officer says why don't you come out with me tell me what your husband has done wrong oh yeah yeah 1.00

02:18:34.640 that's a good point come on come fucking gossip about your husband yeah girl boss uh she agrees 1.00

02:18:40.280 they get near her cop car handcuff her and call an ambulance from transport smart yeah she starts 1.00

02:18:47.340 screaming claiming that they're assaulting her they aren't eventually they get her into the

02:18:51.240 ambulance and take her to the hospital for a psych hold that's what they should have done in the first

02:18:56.100 place but uh officers returned the pistol to me as well as the as well as the ar that was in her

02:19:00.920 car okay but did they fix the damage they said that they took him into evidence she would never

02:19:04.640 be allowed to own a firearm again cool yeah so like like laura loomer oh yeah yeah laura loomer 1.00

02:19:10.760 that crazy bitch wait wait speak nice about her so all of this story that we just read her 1.00

02:19:15.420 punishment is she can't own a firearm well once you're once your baker acted you can't own a 1.00

02:19:19.380 firearm so that's that's it though that's like that's your punishment she is uh held in the

02:19:24.200 psych ward for like four days okay that's just one part of this none of this is a punish me

02:19:29.140 that's like a proactive measure okay you can't own a gun if you've been admitted nobody human

02:19:34.260 like this are they supposed to be like in society we'll find out what they do with her she's in the 0.71

02:19:39.440 psych hold for like four days during that time she claimed that they were assaulting her and uh 1.00

02:19:44.180 she blamed me for all of it her mother says that it was probably better if she went to live with 0.98

02:19:49.440 her for a while i agreed she was mad about this as well i gotta address this dumbass actual says 0.99

02:19:56.040 she must be a smoke show to which panda fly says yeah beer flavored nipples i don't know what that 0.98

02:20:01.820 means it's very funny that's kind of funny that's very funny good job because they were sipping on 0.92

02:20:06.480 that beer beer flavored nipples it's just she's just that's just panda fly thinking of what would 1.00

02:20:11.200 drive a dude crazy was she she was probably very attractive exiles in the chat spirals said most 1.00

02:20:16.580 crazy bitches are not attractive and it's like 1.00

02:20:18.600 even if they were by the time they're crazy 1.00

02:20:20.700 now they're not it doesn't matter

02:20:22.560 if they're hot it's like 0.98

02:20:24.020 but if they have beer flavored nipples 1.00

02:20:25.520 still bro another thing that's crazy 0.99

02:20:28.120 um these nipples taste like 0.99

02:20:29.760 Juan is a little crazy though because 1.00

02:20:32.220 he's got a wild ass background and he 0.95

02:20:34.220 kind of likes this yeah Juan likes it 0.87

02:20:36.080 also I mean listen man 0.62

02:20:37.760 the crazy girls have that grippy so Juan might have been 0.99

02:20:40.260 might have had that grippy yeah

02:20:41.760 I don't know if you know what that means don't worry about it

02:20:43.580 I don't want to know he stood up and couldn't shake her

02:20:46.240 off like yeah yeah that's crazy kind of thing i don't like it just keep going she was tight

02:20:53.120 so i don't like this you know that's what they say what do they say uh they grip better than

02:21:00.060 like uh hospital say hospital socks yeah yeah this is going grippy socks grippy box there we 0.86

02:21:06.300 go dumbass let's just read the story grippy box okay let's just okay okay that means that it's 0.95

02:21:12.940 tight she's mad about this as well about a week after that she'd come to get the dog and two of 0.99

02:21:17.460 the cats to take with her to her mom's about a week later she'd call me in in the middle of the 1.00

02:21:22.000 night indicating that the baby kitten was having a hard time breathing because she was choking it

02:21:27.200 what the oh i told her to take it to the er er based and we met there uh he would spend about 0.98

02:21:36.040 a week in the er they were unable to save him i'd spend nearly nine grand fuck sorry this sweet 0.99

02:21:42.660 cat alive and ultimately they wouldn't be able to nine grand i know what the fuck we would go 1.00

02:21:47.920 to counseling during this time period for a few months after no progress would be made she would 0.97

02:21:52.660 continue to accuse me of doing sultry and sneaky things with no evidence and i would have no way 1.00

02:21:57.520 to show that i had not in fact done these things exile says she's attractive she had dyed red hair 0.97

02:22:03.260 at the time that is when women go through their crazy phase they dye their hair red yeah there's 0.89

02:22:08.720 there's a semi-psychological 0.99

02:22:11.220 thing where like

02:22:11.980 I forget what it's called like poisonous frogs

02:22:14.720 they're like bright colors

02:22:16.740 you said that before it was very intriguing 1.00

02:22:18.540 when chicks like dye the hair 1.00

02:22:20.280 these neon colors or bright colors 1.00

02:22:22.700 in general it's a sign that they're toxic

02:22:24.980 they know they're toxic

02:22:26.540 they're warning you

02:22:27.840 and that's a spiritual law

02:22:30.700 you've been warned physiognomy

02:22:32.500 physiognomy

02:22:33.780 God's nothing but fair

02:22:36.040 um you did see the hair didn't you yeah but i mean most people don't again like do you know

02:22:42.440 you're doing the thing do you like you see it you think it's weird but are you able to accurately

02:22:46.360 correlate it to what the message is did you send me a meme where it said rapunzel rapunzel let

02:22:50.760 your hair down like she dropped it down and it was like bright blue and pink and the guy and the

02:22:54.880 dude's like never mind yeah yeah specifically pandafly said it fake fake red hair that fake red

02:23:00.780 like that bright red unnatural 0.99

02:23:02.860 fucking like the Beneha Elohim 0.99

02:23:05.060 sign that is like 1.00

02:23:06.540 run 0.99

02:23:07.240 well shout out Heather Lynn 0.97

02:23:10.960 oh yeah she's great 1.00

02:23:12.480 once she moved out the house the car 1.00

02:23:14.900 batteries would never die again the sulfur

02:23:16.940 smell would never return

02:23:18.040 continue to go to counseling but ultimately nothing would

02:23:20.980 change during that time of counseling 0.93

02:23:22.720 she'd create a fake Instagram account

02:23:24.760 send herself messages from it 1.00

02:23:26.760 and this account would be 1.00

02:23:28.720 posing as someone else 1.00

02:23:30.000 i supposedly had an affair with oh she's catfishing you with her i had no idea who it could be she

02:23:37.120 would confront me about it would say i must know who this is i obviously didn't i was up to no such 0.99

02:23:41.580 thing jeez dude i've known chicks that have done that kind of shit too what yeah yeah not to me 1.00

02:23:47.920 but i've known chicks that have done that yeah creating accounts trying to lure their husband 1.00

02:23:51.940 into or their boyfriend into fucking cheating and shit and then just looking like an asshole 0.99

02:23:56.540 when it never came to pass yep since the entire suicide threat happened my prayer life had 1.00

02:24:02.700 changed i had always been a believer but in general my life was comfortable enough that

02:24:06.880 my prayers were simple my childhood was rough in a lot of ways but nothing insurmountable

02:24:11.140 i would pray before bed but i had stopped going to church when she entered my life

02:24:15.420 a couple days after this whole fake instagram account thing happened i had a dream

02:24:21.440 i was in an area that looked like my house but clearly wasn't it was shaped the same

02:24:27.980 but made out of large stones didn't have a roof and was damp and had plant uh had plants growing

02:24:34.100 all over the walls it was turning i was turning the corner to walk down the hallway when an entity

02:24:40.300 grabbed my arm damn it didn't hurt but it was a threatening grab but a leading grab it was cloaked

02:24:46.920 in gray its face was covered and all it said said was it's a trap and i immediately woke up gasping 0.90

02:24:54.000 i assumed it was referring to the instagram fiasco i blocked the account of the two places

02:25:00.560 she worked and sure enough i can no longer find this other account i assumed it meant that it

02:25:05.880 must be linked huh oh if you block an account if there's linked accounts to it it'll also

02:25:11.140 automatically block those oh okay that makes sense i confronted her about it and she admitted it

02:25:17.320 circling back this entity had the same voice as one i encountered 15 years earlier hold on hold

02:25:22.560 on hold on hold on hold on hold on atma said we all got to go hug our wives after this story why

02:25:27.120 is that not pretending to be a man now atma the the wife atma is a guy atma's a wife atma's not

02:25:32.940 she called here when she sent the fog machine i talked to her on the phone atma's atma's wife

02:25:38.660 called here they both use the same atma account at my husband i'm gonna meet her in person my wife

02:25:47.860 at atma enterprises we're gonna have proof oh atma enterprise atma llc yeah atma enterprises atma

02:25:55.920 worldwide go read his new book about timothy alberino the albino rhino it's very good oh

02:26:00.440 that's right yeah albino rhino circling back this entity of the same voice i encountered 15 years

02:26:04.200 earlier when I myself had attempted suicide.

02:26:06.920 I was depressed, overweight,

02:26:08.560 and being abused in a relationship that I couldn't

02:26:10.320 get out of. 0.99

02:26:11.320 You seem like a bit of a cuck. 0.98

02:26:13.960 You got a lot of emotional issues, exile. I hope you're 0.98

02:26:16.360 fucking better. He's been through a lot. 0.99

02:26:18.680 Real ass nigga now. 1.00

02:26:20.440 Yeah. Hey. 1.00

02:26:21.980 We don't say that anymore.

02:26:24.220 Hey. I'm sorry.

02:26:26.080 Sorry, James.

02:26:31.740 I took a bunch of painkillers

02:26:33.500 and slammed a half a bottle of vodka,

02:26:35.140 figuring it would do the job. 1.00

02:26:36.360 Shit. 1.00

02:26:37.000 He did? 1.00

02:26:37.660 Yeah.

02:26:38.480 He was sleeping for roughly 18 hours.

02:26:41.140 At the end of this 18 hours,

02:26:42.440 I felt like I was just floating in a black void.

02:26:45.360 Dreaming, I assume. 0.99

02:26:46.640 Fucking exile says I'm fine, thanks. 0.99

02:26:48.440 All right, cool. 1.00

02:26:49.140 We're the worst.

02:26:52.840 Dreaming, I assume.

02:26:53.760 Suddenly, I felt something grab my arm

02:26:55.440 and simply say, you're not done yet.

02:26:57.440 Turn me around and push me up.

02:26:59.340 I immediately woke up gasping.

02:27:00.720 It felt like I had been thrown out of this other realm 0.99

02:27:02.800 back into reality dang next paragraph we would get divorced she would tell me she hated me and 0.97

02:27:09.380 that i ruin her life i would move away keep my address secret so that she couldn't find me 0.98

02:27:14.700 that's probably why he didn't want us to read his name oh my bad shit well if you see anybody with 0.99

02:27:20.820 red hair just pack up all your shit and move to another house amen um she continued to cyber 1.00

02:27:28.000 stalk me and anyone i spoke to especially if they were female it didn't matter if they were 1.00

02:27:32.500 married or not she assumed any female was up to no good if they somehow interacted with me 1.00

02:27:37.200 she would track down phone numbers of two of my old friends who were girls you know what maybe

02:27:42.800 she she might not have had like a the grippy maybe this guy's just laying it down it must be a problem 1.00

02:27:47.180 with you dog exile's got a fat dick whoa no that's not what i said that he knows how to use well that 1.00

02:27:52.720 he knows how to maybe okay i don't know what did you do good for you exile he said yeah okay 1.00

02:27:57.980 Shout out. Okay. Shout out to Exile

02:28:00.200 and his fat dick. Whoa, no. 1.00

02:28:02.420 David, please. 1.00

02:28:04.040 The Christian show. Yeah. James

02:28:06.100 would not be pleased. Sorry, James.

02:28:08.180 See, Atma said, uh-oh, I can't talk to

02:28:10.160 Exile anymore. That's because she's a chick. 1.00

02:28:12.440 Ah. 1.00

02:28:13.900 Or that's because he's gay. Oh. 0.99

02:28:16.680 More likely.

02:28:18.220 Asking them how long they've been messing around

02:28:20.280 with me. These are the girls. 1.00

02:28:21.720 They would both be completely confused, both being

02:28:24.080 in long-term relationships and having no idea 1.00

02:28:26.100 what she's talking about i've known chicks that have done this to homies of mine like i've known 0.98

02:28:30.680 this story is yeah familiar after this we would not speak for roughly six months when my mother 0.99

02:28:35.860 suddenly had a stroke nah i'd be driving back and forth every two weeks across the country to take

02:28:40.120 her take care of my mom and continue to work my ex-wife found out and would call and say how sorry 1.00

02:28:45.260 she is ask how she could help then would slowly wedge herself back into my life my mom would lose 1.00

02:28:51.020 her ability to speak coherently thank god the only remaining effect of the stroke would be 1.00

02:28:56.000 aphasia difficulty with reading

02:28:58.060 I have that sometimes I can't read it

02:29:00.160 and speech with speech

02:29:02.060 and confusion of words

02:29:03.300 okay but one thing

02:29:06.120 she would say clearly

02:29:07.860 not long after this is do not 0.98

02:29:09.980 speak to her she is a witch 1.00

02:29:12.100 she is also paranoid schizophrenic 1.00

02:29:14.620 the mom was saying this about 1.00

02:29:16.040 the chick yeah

02:29:17.620 yeah I mean it's kind of the same

02:29:19.920 as a redundancy there but I don't disagree

02:29:22.040 it's almost like the mom kind of

02:29:23.920 went astray for a while got a little wild but she had one last thing to say like hey man i know i 0.98

02:29:30.020 might have been a little crazy but listen to this uh-oh panda fly has admitted she is the crazy chick

02:29:34.840 story said everybody's got a crazy chick story and panda fly is no panda's not crazy not anymore

02:29:40.700 she was though uh exile says i wouldn't believe her and i chalk it up to my mom having been

02:29:46.280 exposed to so much witchcraft back in puerto rico that she'd see it everywhere and everything

02:29:50.220 and her own experience with her mother-in-law

02:29:52.580 being a literal schizophrenic.

02:29:54.260 That's literally me, though.

02:29:55.700 Like, everything now is witchcraft, iniquity,

02:29:59.000 and demonic.

02:30:00.280 And a lot of it is, and some of it isn't.

02:30:02.160 I don't know.

02:30:03.080 I haven't found the ones that aren't, though. 0.96

02:30:05.900 She's a witch burner at this thing. 0.69

02:30:08.480 It would turn out later that she would have lied 0.99

02:30:11.160 about the neighbors during this whole firearm incident.

02:30:13.860 What they said to her, their interactions, etc. 0.99

02:30:16.740 I would be stupid and eventually forgive her 0.88

02:30:18.680 led her back into my life multiple times to my own peril i always said that if this event is what it 0.99

02:30:25.480 took to bring her to christ and i'm fine with it okay she would claim she is deep in the bible now

02:30:31.240 attending church praying to god all the time no man can know another's heart so i have always

02:30:36.120 wanted to believe but i just don't know that's that's that's rough that's a hard thing it's not

02:30:41.640 your business we've become friends again over the last year and i've always felt that the marriage

02:30:47.560 that marriage is a one and done thing so maybe i should try again and maybe it was my fault the

02:30:54.060 whole time that i didn't do enough bro what i'm going back to grippy the grippy theory that if i

02:30:59.160 just that if i just loved her more yeah it seems like more like you're simping for her now well i

02:31:04.360 mean look if she's she's uh deep in the bible attending church praying to god all the time like

02:31:10.600 that's i mean that's exactly what you want for anybody especially your wife if i just cared more

02:31:16.600 i could have handled the entire thing differently maybe maybe there's a there's an aspect of you

02:31:23.000 not caring but i don't know well let's see what do they say oh no i'm not going to read that

02:31:27.280 that's uh it's 90 piss okay a couple months a couple months back wait a couple months back

02:31:34.780 she randomly said hey isn't this the name of your ex-girlfriend i'm like yeah why she's like oh she's

02:31:40.540 looking at my stories constantly on facebook what should i do wait wait who's this happening to

02:31:44.380 this is the ex-wife saying it to the dude and now they're friends a couple months ago

02:31:49.800 stop being friends bro yeah wait wait a couple months ago she randomly said uh who randomly

02:31:54.800 said this is why his ex-wife his ex-wife oh isn't this the name of one of your ex-girlfriends doing 0.99

02:32:00.580 the same old shit i have no idea why she would be doing that oh you haven't been talking to her 0.97

02:32:06.880 no i haven't been talking to her i haven't spoken to her in years she's like okay thank you very 0.99

02:32:11.700 bizarre interaction but i'd mostly forget about it and chalk it up to the same paranoid behavior

02:32:16.040 as before and i'd continue to be friends with her jeez okay juan i mean at some point hey hey 0.98

02:32:22.400 exile we don't want to get this guy in trouble juan fucking damn it dude this is not you have 0.97

02:32:30.240 any guy friends well you have any dude friends i mean if you did they'd be telling you hopefully 0.99

02:32:34.820 this is not good during what would have been our anniversary this year i told her we could

02:32:40.840 take a road trip man how are you gonna throw her off a canyon throw her off a canyon i would head

02:32:45.780 to where she is like an accident we would drive out to a bike park in the same area in which we

02:32:50.960 used to own land i had brought land and started designing a house for us to build in the mountains

02:32:55.740 when he always say brought i just noticed this recently when he's trying to say bought he says

02:33:00.580 brought can you read it again brought is bringing bought is purchasing whatever no he always says

02:33:08.520 brought when he's trying to say bought oh oh you're saying top is saying yeah i had brought

02:33:12.720 see what i'm saying it's just like woman or them dude i only i've only realized that in the last 0.95

02:33:19.280 like week or two oh shit we'd grab a pizza it would be fun as she always wanted to learn how 0.80

02:33:26.600 to ride the sort of terrain that i do on bikes very interesting fact about me top lobster i can 0.90

02:33:31.920 swim okay you love bikes i can't ride a bike really uh i think i can't i never learned how

02:33:37.860 you see a scar on my finger oh yeah ride a bike no i never i never ride bikes uh but can you i

02:33:44.740 don't know i won't i i was learning when i was learning to ride a bike the first time like we

02:33:49.340 took the training wheels off yeah across the street from my house you know the house i showed

02:33:52.280 you across the street where they shoot guns ping ping projects was across the street yeah some

02:33:57.040 knick-knock tied invisible wire from one light post to the next and i didn't see it and it it

02:34:02.200 burned this this thing into my hands and all i could remember was like if it was like a couple

02:34:06.280 inches higher goes across my neck your throat i don't think it'll cut my throat but i'd have like

02:34:10.340 a line across my throat you know i got this scar driving driving my bike in the ghetto yeah i mean 0.80

02:34:16.280 i hit a gate at full speed like nobody asked on mushrooms in the middle of the night one time me

02:34:21.480 and our monitor at del valen came full speed down this hill and hit a gate full speed but i'm not

02:34:25.380 gonna not ride a bike i just didn't i rode a scooter hold on what's up nance

02:34:28.820 oh nothing why did you even ask her because she unmuted her mic and i could hear her grumbling

02:34:37.020 in japanese oh all right whatever nancy so so you really can't ride a bike or swim i no i can swim

02:34:44.920 good i swim better than david that's not true i watched him get carried to shore by a wave but

02:34:50.000 i don't think that that's swimming i swim i swim i swim good i don't ride a bike that's a fair

02:34:55.640 point yeah i didn't see him swim at all no i saw his kids are great walk around in waist deep water

02:34:59.900 and then ride a wave back i was watching taught them how to swim uh i don't grandpa i don't the

02:35:05.620 only thing is i gotta be just at this appointment i gotta leave in like five minutes all right so

02:35:08.960 we're gonna wrap it up well no you don't know we're nearly done no we actually are almost nearly

02:35:13.040 done good job you can't do this we grab a pizza it would be fun and as she always wanted to learn

02:35:18.300 how to ride uh that sort of terrain on on a bike i thought it would be fun but it would end up being

02:35:23.060 a reminder that i would just be putting myself in the same situation as before she'd yell at me

02:35:27.680 at the bike park scream at me accuse me of not handling the situation well whatever it was

02:35:32.160 it was stressful after all this she uh would occur she would flip her attitude and say how 1.00

02:35:37.520 much fun she had she's crazy she would press me sexually and ignore clear boundaries i denied

02:35:43.720 before okay over the last this is why he's in it over the last two years i've been continually

02:35:50.080 praying and asking god uh specifically for specific clarity and guidance what kind of

02:35:55.220 clarity do you need run bro this is like the guy praying with the girl just trying to grind on him 0.98

02:36:00.780 that meme where it's like she's showing her ass and i would say he didn't get clarity when he 0.93

02:36:07.960 typed this out crazy and i would just say uh no i don't uh wait i often feel like i hear the holy 0.98

02:36:13.940 spirit say but you already have it and i would say no i don't like this can oh my god like the 0.99

02:36:19.180 holy spirit is saying like you already know what to do yeah just don't fuck her yeah yeah leave 0.99

02:36:23.340 stop continuing to pray sure enough i have another dream oh there you go he said very much got 0.99

02:36:30.760 clarity when i typed it matt with several t's with the proper amount of t's let this be a lesson to

02:36:36.440 all you two tiers out there uh we like five or more i have another dream and the entity says

02:36:42.020 you should check the source and i wake up i'm like yeah uh i guess i will message this person

02:36:46.680 I haven't spoken to in like eight years and see what happened. So I do that this morning. I say,

02:36:50.940 hey, sorry to bother you. And this is probably weird. But my ex-wife said you were watching

02:36:54.240 her stories on Facebook. Is there anything that prompted that? She responds a few hours later and

02:36:58.960 said, yeah, I clicked on her profile to see who it was because this random person messaged me

02:37:03.240 and said they forgave me and they didn't hate me, even though you said I was a terrible person.

02:37:09.140 And I'm like, what? And she's like, yeah, I get a random message from someone I've never seen

02:37:14.420 before never contacted and i'm like what's the content of this message as soon as i read the

02:37:20.540 message i heard the voice say i told you already i told you you already had it damn it just felt 1.00

02:37:26.340 like a hammer crushing me yeah dude commentary was from someone else listening to my dumb ass 1.00

02:37:31.000 story you know it is kind of crazy that like god cares enough to even like we are dumb and stubborn 1.00

02:37:38.180 yeah go ahead finish no that's it we're just dumb and stubborn and it's like we want what we want 0.98

02:37:44.640 we want what we want we want that grippy and uh the red hair i get it dude he wants the marriage 0.98

02:37:50.000 he wants like the yeah you want a good wife you want to do the right thing you don't want to

02:37:53.760 abandon somebody who says they're coming to christ like sometimes you want a podcast studio

02:37:57.380 in leesburg you can't have it maybe you have something close in another coffee shop that's 0.94

02:38:02.780 kind of all right you're gonna get a chick who's a natural redhead but doesn't have a grippy hey

02:38:07.580 and that's okay it's not always about that that's not the main thing that you know is important here

02:38:12.360 yeah sometimes you settle sometimes you settle but there's other things that are

02:38:18.760 good the reason we didn't get involved we don't get involved in witchcraft

02:38:25.440 among many others is because the spirits that uh the spirits tied to it are possessive

02:38:31.060 they're the hardest ones to break ties with they leave marks on you that you don't forget

02:38:36.640 so if your mom or anyone you know has a discernment and says hey you should probably

02:38:41.240 stay away you better listen because if you get involved even a tiny bit of the craft

02:38:45.520 you can be in the world in a world of trouble especially if you are naturally sensitive in

02:38:49.920 the spirit i yep he's 100 right and i think that's part of this yeah you got involved with

02:38:55.960 somebody that is doing witchcraft in a way he's spiritually open because of his pentecostal past

02:39:02.620 and is like just being a christian and also naive but you're dragged in it yeah and it's it had a

02:39:08.400 hold on him and it's like that hold if you can't identify it specifically you don't know what it is 0.82

02:39:13.320 so at the end of it i'm a grade a hard r retarded for continually letting this person in my life 0.82

02:39:21.060 that's all right man hoping that they truly have turned to christ even though they continue to 0.89

02:39:25.020 exhibit destructive behaviors turns out the lord grants us clarity in a variety of ways even when

02:39:30.000 we refuse to pay attention yo but how great is god though i was in the gate program that's right

02:39:34.200 how great is god though to be like you already have it and then you get this dream and it's like

02:39:39.120 you should check the source and then you check the source and it's like yeah you already had it it was

02:39:43.620 already there yeah you just needed to press on this a little bit and there's your answer

02:39:47.080 i mean that's huge that's such an unbelievable uh the ways that god will speak to us um are not 0.79

02:39:55.740 limited to scripture even you know it's like they'll use a pastor who's uh giving a gay 0.99

02:40:03.340 kind of sermon and asking you to do blue's clue shit or you know god will use fucking facebook 0.99

02:40:10.340 and say hey go check the source you already got it 0.99

02:40:14.880 They bred with daughters of men 0.58

02:40:19.360 And they will do it again 1.00

02:40:23.720 The end is written in the book

02:40:27.880 In the pages they foresaw

02:40:31.880 Death Squad

02:40:33.600 Death Squad

02:40:37.780 Death Squad

02:40:41.920 Death Squad

02:40:44.480 We'll see you next time. 0.90

Nephilim Death Squad - July 21, 2026

In Exile｜ NDS Chronicles

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