Pearl - The Life of a Real Ninja

00:00:00.000 what's up guys i gave up you're on the last stream yeah i gave up

00:00:09.120 devastated

00:00:13.780 it's just not my day sometimes in life it's just not your day i gave up you know

00:00:30.000 and everyone you know what's annoying about when i do this stuff everyone thinks they could do it

00:00:34.400 better i get so many armchair critics like you could do it better yeah right ninjas

00:00:43.340 all right well i'm gonna start with my

00:00:48.960 can you guys hear the piano i've been hearing the piano hasn't been going lately

00:00:56.420 i don't know why either i'm gonna have my production guy come back my goal is one day

00:01:02.140 to get so good at the production stuff but it's you know sometimes you know things get worse

00:01:07.800 before they get better you know just is what it is can you hear this

00:01:14.400 who's are gonna

00:01:25.800 keep it on the low

00:01:32.700 who's are gonna

00:01:37.280 everybody knows 1.00

00:01:41.080 Fuck! You mean it's cutting in and out? Oh my god. 1.00

00:02:00.260 Oh, I'm gonna kill myself. Oh my god. Why? 1.00

00:02:11.080 it's cut

00:02:16.960 all right is there oh you know what maybe it is hold on

00:02:29.560 no wonder if this would make it better hold on

00:02:34.640 hold up

00:02:41.080 so frustrated

00:02:57.640 only when i play music i had a whole ensemble ready to go

00:03:05.080 i miss blasting sometimes

00:03:06.760 i miss blessings sometimes you know he did used to solve my tech problems i miss him

00:03:15.800 but actually i'll tell you you know i think i'm just going to talk about myself this stream

00:03:22.760 until i feel better about my situation i think i'm going to complain

00:03:29.440 why not just marry sneeko should i call him and ask

00:03:34.080 should i should i see if he's he's down should i should i call i'm already married i'm already

00:03:43.440 married so i'll tell you my life arc and my youtube channel and my business problems

00:03:51.380 i just feel like i feel like complaining i feel like complaining no see this is the

00:04:00.260 difference between me and you you say I need a husband this is the difference this would not be 1.00

00:04:06.980 my husband's problem if I got married like that's not his problem like women just love making our 1.00

00:04:15.060 problems their problems I want to do this so I need to figure out the tech stuff I'm gonna figure 1.00

00:04:21.620 it out it's a matter of time but sometimes if I get really frustrated I just walk away for a little

00:04:26.440 bit and i try again the next day so i guess i guess we can all be in this together um but i'll

00:04:32.620 tell you guys about my problems i'll tell you about my problems so um all right so i'll tell

00:04:41.640 you you know i'll give you the backstory how i got how i got famous and how i developed my opinions

00:04:47.540 and then the reasoning i made the decisions i made and now this is blurring

00:04:56.140 oh my god you've got to be kidding me this just is not my day this is not my day it's not my day

00:05:03.900 i will figure this out it's about it's a matter of time but i just got a lot going on

00:05:10.700 okay so essentially in 2020 i started my youtube channel it's 2026 this was six years ago

00:05:22.580 now i started a tiktok account in a youtube channel and the first video i ever had that

00:05:28.360 went viral was about my parents water slide my dad bought a water slide from a literal water park

00:05:33.800 and i told a story just about my family and this water slide

00:05:37.780 this cause this slide tiktok got like four million views and then i started um i started

00:05:48.660 doing TikTok and I did this for about a year when I decided to quit my sales job for TikTok

00:05:54.160 partially because I was going to play overseas so um and during COVID whenever COVID was so I think

00:06:04.320 2021 I quit my job to go play volleyball in England and I thought to myself why don't I quit a little

00:06:10.240 bit early it was like August when I quit and then September October November December January I was

00:06:16.760 supposed to go in like December. So I thought to myself, well, I quit my job. I can just, you know,

00:06:22.840 try this YouTube thing out for a few months. I'll be at home. I will stay with my family,

00:06:27.520 say bye to them before I go to England. So then at the time I get, um,

00:06:33.380 I'm supposed to go to England. And then do you know what happened?

00:06:46.760 um my season my season got canceled so I was supposed to go to England and then my season

00:06:51.320 um got canceled and then when my season got canceled um

00:06:56.960 I was then at home for about a year and a half and I thought to myself well let me just do this

00:07:06.300 YouTube thing so it's always interesting I always have a generational run when I break

00:07:13.040 up with a boyfriend so what happened was i was in pain right i was in pain oh my god like the pain

00:07:23.080 of this camera what okay i think i fixed it so i go to covet or i go to england to play volleyball

00:07:36.940 and I'm doing distance with this boyfriend at the time.

00:07:40.480 We break up.

00:07:43.720 I'm devastated and I just, I throw myself into my work.

00:07:46.660 That's kind of what I do.

00:07:47.740 So when I get sad, it's like, why, why be sad when I could just work?

00:07:52.720 You know what I mean?

00:07:53.080 Like I'm going to sit there, feel bad for myself.

00:07:55.220 I just start working, doing something.

00:07:59.080 Anyways, not that that's that important to the story.

00:08:04.260 It's not.

00:08:04.900 so i end up i end up going to england um and i'm playing volleyball and i start this youtube show

00:08:10.660 and i do it with a lot of girls i play volleyball with

00:08:15.860 so i'm playing volleyball with these girls and then at the same time i'm starting my

00:08:19.300 youtube channel it blows up in 2023 then um it becomes one of the biggest youtube

00:08:27.700 channels in the united states it got a billion views and i was really famous and honestly i

00:08:32.820 got famous way too fast um it was a little bit overnight um not to say that i didn't

00:08:38.180 i posted probably more videos than any other youtuber you've heard of um

00:08:47.780 however in terms of the material and some of my ideas i don't think were as thought through as i

00:08:53.220 wanted them to be i'm gonna be honest i wish they were a little bit more some of the but whatever i

00:08:59.940 mean what are you gonna do like you get better over time you're always gonna make mistakes so

00:09:05.380 i wish i had less i love my rhetoric now i think it's very accurate

00:09:10.100 um and back then it was just a little too hopeful

00:09:15.700 a two dollar super chat thank you for the super chat anyways so i'm going on all the biggest

00:09:22.180 shows in the united states um i'm going on pierce morgan and it was kind of cool every youtuber i

00:09:27.700 ever wanted to meet i got to meet it was really cool at the time and i got the taste of like

00:09:34.740 and i was making a ton of i'm not even gonna cap guys i was making so much money back then

00:09:39.380 however um i'm gonna talk about the business mistakes i made i had a really high overhead

00:09:46.260 and i tried to start a network and those were stupid ideas i am a cash cow i work very hard

00:09:52.660 I can't really teach that to other people nor can I make them appreciate what I'm doing for them 0.99

00:10:00.700 because if you haven't had to edit and do all this shit yourself you just aren't gonna appreciate it

00:10:06.300 do you know what I mean like so I wasted a lot of money trying to start I didn't waste money in a 0.91

00:10:11.960 good way or a fun way I wasted a lot of money by getting really high overhead not being able to

00:10:18.760 fire bad employees fast um and also like i i'm just managing people just is really not a skill

00:10:29.040 of mine i i'm terrible at it awful because i always feel like i can just find something to do

00:10:37.360 and work and figure out a problem like when an employee comes to me and they can't figure out

00:10:41.540 a problem i'm like go on chat gpt do you know what i mean like yeah so anyways 2023

00:10:50.700 um and on top of that i just was not managing expenses and like oh my god so many people spent

00:11:00.720 business expenses on my credit card that were just like diabolical like and i just wasn't

00:11:07.400 managing it freaking at all yeah i wasn't it was really bad um but that can be learned right over

00:11:15.960 time that can be learned that can be fixed i'm not telling you guys how much it was but i'll say it

00:11:20.440 was a good amount right and on top of that i was compromising things like my privacy i had all

00:11:26.600 these random people going in and out of my house it was just kind of driving me nuts because as a

00:11:30.520 youtuber you always um you always run to this problem here's the the youtuber problem step one

00:11:44.600 i want to be a youtuber step two i want to build all these sets step three where do i put the sets

00:11:48.920 well it's not enough space where i need to have a studio like you always over like you just get

00:11:55.720 a bigger place and you put the set in your house but then if you want to do higher production

00:12:00.200 the problem is you have to bring all these people in and out of your house

00:12:05.560 and i hated that i hated having people in and out of my house i hated it i hate telling adults

00:12:12.360 what to do you know i don't like hand holding it you know what i'm saying like so in 2023 after i

00:12:19.160 got demonetized i felt a lot of gratitude to all the employees that helped me get there

00:12:23.560 and i didn't want to fire them and i basically lost money a lot of money um and also was called 0.93

00:12:32.480 a colonizer by some of these employees motherfuckers do you know what i mean um some of them did i'd 0.93

00:12:38.460 like to say this isn't if you're if you're watching this you're an old employee if it if this doesn't 0.98

00:12:42.600 apply to you like if this if you think to yourself this doesn't sound like me it's not about you okay

00:12:47.660 i'm just gonna say that does that make sense like if it's if you're thinking it doesn't sound like

00:12:54.140 me it's not about you i'm gonna see if auntie jenny's free actually so because i didn't fire

00:12:59.900 people and there was just such wasteful spending i went broke after i got demonetized and after i 0.91

00:13:05.020 was demonetized i was fucking cooked i was so cooked i was so cooked because i didn't fire 0.90

00:13:15.900 people so i had these really high overheads and then yeah i went broke basically i had to fire 0.95

00:13:21.340 everybody i moved home and i was cooked so this time around i decided i will never have the mistake

00:13:28.140 of high overhead again i will never do it i want minimal employees on a percentage basis because i

00:13:36.540 realize if you give percentages then people that want to work will work what is the problem people

00:13:41.900 always, it's so crazy because I know I'm a cash cow. I know I'm a cash cow. I know that I am

00:13:49.260 better at this than all of my peers that are female. I'm the best in the industry at this

00:13:54.760 as women. I'm better than Brett Cooper. I know the topics better than these women. There's just 1.00

00:13:59.820 nobody that has spent as much time as me doing this. I'm better than Lauren Chen. And I'm not

00:14:05.220 even saying this to be uh bitchy or whatever but when it comes to red pill or intersexual dynamics

00:14:12.780 men women topic i'm good at it and i've gotten pretty good the last few years so there's no

00:14:17.900 woman that's better at it so okay so what ends up happening is this time around i get demonetized

00:14:28.820 and i decide during my demonetization i'm going to do a talent stack and my talent stack is going

00:14:35.860 to be i'm going to figure out how to incorporate music um i'm going to get better at the material

00:14:41.540 during my demonetization we're making like no money i'm also i also fell in love during that

00:14:47.460 time i was and i don't i don't want to get too much into it but i was in a long relationship

00:14:52.260 and I fell in love. So, um, unfortunately it didn't work out. You know, sometimes you take

00:14:58.800 L's in life. Um, it's a little embarrassing now, you know what I mean? Well, you know, it is what

00:15:04.100 it is. Um, but I did fall in love. And so I kind of, I took a step back to, you know, um, spend

00:15:10.920 more time doing that. And I decided I wanted to live in a state that, um, I could get space

00:15:19.400 easier so the rent wouldn't be so high um and i wanted as little to no employees as possible so

00:15:26.920 i invested money this time and yeah so i i started building my talent stack

00:15:36.520 um i'm taking music lessons which i lost money in 2024

00:15:40.920 um all right you know what i'm making the subscribers only because some of my chat's

00:15:49.160 annoying me i mean you guys are just too much sometimes we're gonna do

00:15:53.800 we're gonna do we're gonna do members only yeah we're gonna do members only

00:16:00.900 sorry fellas members only all right

00:16:08.380 because this is this is getting all right

00:16:12.520 so anyways i end up so i'm trying to build my talent stack i'm like you know what i'm

00:16:27.280 get better at debating i'm going to get the material better like it's like new at some

00:16:31.600 point i'm going to get back on the internet i belong on youtube i belong here you know it's

00:16:36.480 the only thing in my life i've just been good at with my talents i don't know i'm a weird i'm an

00:16:41.040 oddball i'm a weirdo so i end up i decide this time around i'm having low overhead my overhead

00:16:49.280 is going to be as low as possible so i decide i'm going to get as few employees as possible

00:16:55.440 and I want it the vision I have for this is I kind of want it to be like the conservative

00:17:00.760 tonight show but with but from my living room so like we can do my um oh also Andrew when you're

00:17:08.580 in town we have a producer here don't worry don't worry I'm just saying we won't have this

00:17:13.460 when you're here when other people are here I do I do do producers so anyways um so I decide this

00:17:21.160 time around I'm doing low overhead and as few employees as possible and right now I just have

00:17:28.020 I just have one and it's been amazing um so yeah and that's that's kind of what I'm doing so that's

00:17:40.460 why the equipment might just be a struggle the next few weeks and it just is what it is do you

00:17:48.480 what i mean like i'm sorry you got to deal with it it just is what it is so

00:17:58.560 you gotta go out ellie hold up hold up all right then i'm gonna go through

00:18:03.120 announcement if you guys have questions you can put them in the chat

00:18:06.640 i think the memberships are like five bucks a month so

00:18:18.480 yeah so you know I kind of miss you guys well I'm gonna I'm gonna turn the chat to subscribers

00:18:45.540 I'm going to turn it to subscribers.

00:18:47.260 You have to have been subscribed for five minutes.

00:18:53.060 If it gets rowdy, though, I will turn it off again.

00:18:56.060 I will turn it off.

00:19:04.680 One dog that doesn't need to worry about being shot collared on the live stream.

00:19:08.040 That's true.

00:19:08.960 Which, by the way, guys, if you want to hang out with me and Andrew, Andrew's coming on a week from Friday.

00:19:14.500 So October 2nd and 3rd, we're doing Tacos and Tequila.

00:19:19.320 I just got the place today.

00:19:21.420 Tacos and Tequila Friday.

00:19:23.100 So we go, you're going to get to watch a podcast, right?

00:19:26.060 If you get VIP.

00:19:27.620 And then we do Tacos and Tequila.

00:19:30.780 And then the next day, if you get VIP, we're going to go to a gun range.

00:19:36.020 And then also a UFC guy is going to teach us fighting.

00:19:39.940 and then also we'll do a steak dinner if you get vip so it's going to be a lot of fun

00:19:48.620 hold on you have cash only um i mean you don't do zell or paypal nothing it's 2020

00:19:56.920 you want to mail me a check i got a i got a p.o box

00:20:00.420 you want to know how many calories i consume every day

00:20:26.240 why do you want to know that do you know like what

00:20:28.580 too many. Okay. Yesterday I realized how much of a fat ass I was. Cause I ate

00:20:34.840 so many cupcakes. Like I don't even want to talk about it. I was, I was like, I'm never baking

00:20:41.420 again because I just have no self-control. I'm just a fat ass at heart. I'm such a fat ass at 0.99

00:20:47.200 heart. Okay. Well, if you're only cash, then I'm sorry. I guess you can't come to my event. 1.00

00:20:56.560 I'll show you guys how to buy it and I do apologize I will say I do apologize I need to my brothers

00:21:03.060 it's just been we're looking forward to this visit at Chez Pearl how many margaritas are

00:21:10.960 you gonna have thank you for the supers how many margs are you gonna do you go here all right it

00:21:18.280 still says Lauren Southern and I apologize for that maybe I'll my there's a lot of pieces that

00:21:25.700 are almost done here and you just have to bear with me okay you go here you click tickets here's

00:21:32.460 general here's vip i'm probably going to call you guys in the next day probably over the weekend

00:21:38.960 and i'll maybe give you a percentage off if you buy it this weekend so yeah i'm only going to

00:21:47.280 sell like 20 tickets this is a small thing so if you want a ticket um

00:21:52.740 if you want a ticket uh yeah i would just do it now because there's not a ton left

00:22:00.000 so anyways um you're curious about the weight loss you you know i'm sorry i'm not in the best

00:22:06.080 mood i'm a little bit i'm a little bit salty about this equipment mishap i thought i was

00:22:10.800 the last time i did it so well that i'm just do you know what i mean i'm just a little bit bummed

00:22:16.200 I just feel like a failure. And I'm like, I'm just going to go downstairs

00:22:21.140 to my lone stump and just complain. I'm going to complain.

00:22:27.560 Who's more insufferable? Do you know what? Kyla, is that the, the brunette? I don't mind her.

00:22:34.940 She's actually nice. Um, she just seems crazy. Like she seems like a nice, crazy lady. That's, 1.00

00:22:41.420 that's my impression. She's nice. Um, but kind of insane that I like, I mean, that that's my 0.98

00:22:48.920 impression. Brian is seems two faced. Like he had one personality on camera and one off. And I,

00:22:56.080 I don't really like that. Yeah. I'm sorry, Brad. I crashed out on you. It just,

00:23:04.740 I'm not in the best mood. I'm just taking an L I'm just taking an L

00:23:09.180 you're saying i need jesus um do you know every time somebody tells me i need jesus i want jesus

00:23:19.500 less because you're just telling me in a different way that you're better than me what is the purpose

00:23:28.500 i get it you're very moral i'm not more i'm degenerate okay i get it i need jesus

00:23:38.020 well I've been doing great I don't know man you know it's because I'm not I'm not real ninja

00:23:46.260 enough I'm not feeling the real ninja but I actually I think I'm on the right path when we

00:23:51.060 get this website figured out which eventually we will oh and that's why I want to do the events

00:23:56.800 right my goal is I want to do these events I've decided they need to be simple and easy for me to

00:24:03.260 do. So I'm going to do the same type of event pretty much every time, like once a month,

00:24:08.500 we're going to probably do tacos and tequila every time I'm going to bring in a podcast guest

00:24:13.300 Friday. You can watch it. It's going to be limited attendance because I can't deal with a lot of

00:24:19.000 people. Um, and the tickets are going to be kind of overpriced, um, on the higher end because I

00:24:25.500 need to make money for the channel. So basically I'm trying to raise money for equipment. I just

00:24:31.440 got i'm gonna show you guys i'm not even kidding i got a fucking this is what i mean the today is 0.96

00:24:36.600 just not my day i got a three thousand and a okay three thousand eight hundred dollar bill 1.00

00:24:43.960 from a bitch that's taking me to court 1.00

00:24:46.240 three thousand eight hundred dollars and this is what and this is kind of what my topic was about 0.99

00:24:57.280 today uh when you're a real ninja they just try to take you down this is the life of a real ninja

00:25:06.240 yeah i kind of went over this last show but i kind of wanted to spend more time on it

00:25:13.360 so what i consider a real ninja and this can be men or women yeah i know 3 800 and this is

00:25:21.360 the craziest thing this this this okay i'm gonna complain about this more before i go into real

00:25:26.240 she wrote a book about her ex-husband her ex-husband came on my show gave his side of the 1.00

00:25:38.260 story she dragged us both to fucking court and i think i've spent twenty thousand dollars in 1.00

00:25:44.100 the past year on this stupid lawsuit this stupid frivolous lawsuit 1.00

00:25:49.580 and it's just frustrating because it's like whenever i start to make money 0.99

00:25:55.300 like I was unemployed for two years because of YouTube I was demonetized so I was essentially

00:26:00.500 unemployed for two years and then do you know what happened um now it's like you're starting 0.96

00:26:08.300 to make money and then women try to ruin your life like it's it's it's incredible hold on I'm 0.98

00:26:18.580 actually gonna I'm gonna put these in my slideshow 1.00

00:26:25.300 um and I try to be like do you know what you get to still live a really cool life

00:26:31.180 and whatever you shouldn't even complain about this but it's really frustrating

00:26:35.960 it's really frustrating I'm like oh life is going better look at that I have I have my 0.98

00:26:44.800 YouTube channel back I'm monetized and then a bitch drags me to court she's trying to sue me 1.00

00:26:51.760 Yeah, over a year. 1.00

00:26:53.360 So every time I start to make money, I lose money because of this stupid bitch. 1.00

00:26:58.980 Or somebody tries to rip me off. 1.00

00:27:01.320 It's like one or the other.

00:27:05.120 $3,800?

00:27:11.120 Is it bad for a lawsuit?

00:27:12.760 Well, if that was all it was, that would be not bad.

00:27:22.880 This month.

00:27:37.700 What's she suing for? 1.00

00:27:38.960 doxing, even though she was 1.00

00:27:41.020 a public figure and wrote a book about her

00:27:42.940 ex-husband. What a bitch. 1.00

00:27:50.260 Yeah, but it's 1.00

00:27:51.180 they said I'm getting

00:27:53.020 dropped from this lawsuit, so I think

00:27:55.160 I'm done.

00:27:56.780 But they said she can still file something 0.89

00:27:58.880 and then drag me back to court. I'm like, I'm gonna

00:28:00.900 kill myself. 0.99

00:28:03.880 Man, man, man. 1.00

00:28:04.520 Man, man.

00:28:08.960 i know i know if you want to donate 3 800 go to the audacitynetwork.com you know what i mean if

00:28:32.040 anyone's if anyone's loaded in this chat i don't think anyone but i'm just saying

00:28:35.780 i'm gonna throw it out there

00:28:37.780 yeah no she's literally allowed to so this is just the way it is so that's why i understand

00:28:46.700 men a lot because when i start to say things that like men say then they treat me like men

00:28:56.500 i know i gotta find the gratitude i have earning potential i know i know i know i know and i think

00:29:01.920 i'm on the right track but anyway so if you get a ticket this weekend it's gonna go towards my

00:29:06.860 lawsuit so so so i'm just i'm just saying i'm just saying you know you could come hang out

00:29:13.540 with me in dallas we'll chill and and and um it'll pay for my lawsuit so what are we gonna do

00:29:21.480 but so this is called the real ninja takedown okay

00:29:26.700 so what they do is a real ninja is a mover and shaker in society intelligent successful

00:29:34.780 high status or is the ability to be now these are people that are going to be in the upper

00:29:41.340 you know sphere of society a real ninja um and i will say the real word if you guys pay 500

00:29:50.220 dollars i want to know that that is being auctioned off

00:29:53.760 yeah don't be too jew about it gotta spend it either way yeah i know i know 1.00

00:30:01.560 so what'll happen is these are guys that are real ninjas and these are the bitches trying 1.00

00:30:08.740 to take them down so you know amber heard we all know what she did um what's her face uh sarah 0.99

00:30:16.640 stock she tried to falsely accuse elijah another one tried to falsely accuse crowder i forgot her

00:30:22.880 name um angelina jolie totally ruined brad pitt's life and what'll happen is i think that it's a

00:30:30.200 test because me real ninja right i i'm trying to build something cool i'm trying to build

00:30:37.840 i'm trying to get this documentary done um okay now i hate it when people give me ideas like oh

00:30:48.180 just sell merch like i haven't tried that okay sorry sorry i'm done i'm done i'm done so there's

00:30:54.720 only so many things i can pay attention to all right so you'll be trying to make something cool

00:31:00.660 and be productive and successful and that's like all you want to do you just want to you know work

00:31:05.660 on your projects and yada, yada, yada. And these bitches will just try to ruin your life. And 1.00

00:31:12.900 they'll do it in a magnitude of ways. But I just did the tactics of narcissists, gaslighting. So

00:31:20.540 they'll try to make you doubt your own perception or sanity to avoid facing the truth. So what'll

00:31:26.640 happen is you'll say something, and this happens all the time. I realized that my mother was kind

00:31:31.720 of crazy growing up i mean i think you guys have you guys kind of figured that out i don't really

00:31:36.460 talk too much about it but like she was kind of nutty and what would happen would be she would

00:31:41.040 freak out more than like over little things and so you become conditioned to not be honest from

00:31:49.000 like a young age because you know that she's gonna freak out and if your dad doesn't tell 0.98

00:31:53.800 her to shut the fuck up like it just never ends and it's just torture forever right 1.00

00:31:58.140 and it's the same thing in school like you go to school these women are just 1.00

00:32:03.340 you know gaslighting and then you know 1.00

00:32:08.220 yeah like for me um

00:32:12.200 for me my mom turned me against my dad until i was a certain age then i realized she was lying

00:32:20.880 and ever since then we just don't really have the same relationship and it's it's hard because

00:32:27.760 that was a really big canon event for me like that was a huge canon event

00:32:31.680 and my dad will call me and like nag me if i talk about it but i'm like

00:32:39.120 that was like one of the that was a canon event in my life but it's like it's weird because

00:32:45.480 the mothers will make you think it's like even though it was a decade ago

00:32:51.180 do you know what i'm saying like i'm like i can't talk about what she did to me

00:32:57.020 do you know what i mean it's like well what about what you did to her i was a kid

00:33:07.360 like you know what i mean you know 0.96

00:33:10.720 oh my gosh and the more famous i got the more she would just terrorize me behind the scenes

00:33:20.760 no it's so true and the more i like got into this stuff the more a lot of stuff

00:33:28.420 from my childhood kind of made sense i was like oh that's why i'm kind of messed up because you're

00:33:34.600 not supposed to have like rotating nannies and a crazy mother do you know what i mean like

00:33:39.660 because basically when you think about it my mom my primary caretaker was always a nanny

00:33:45.180 and you know she just didn't want to do it I guess

00:33:49.740 and now she's running for office 0.88

00:33:55.640 and it's like 0.83

00:33:56.560 yeah I wouldn't even be shocked

00:34:03.600 if my mother exceeded me I wouldn't even be shocked

00:34:15.180 can i get you to take a look at the case of a false sexual accuser

00:34:29.260 yeah let me just go to court for another lawsuit sorry oh my god um okay so anyways when you're 0.66

00:34:39.480 a real ninja and you're honest you almost feel like you're crazy because everybody reacts to

00:34:46.700 you so insane but you're the one being honest and so they try to gaslight you like for example when

00:34:54.300 i talk about that happening my mom's always the one saying like oh that didn't happen or oh oh 0.96

00:35:00.140 that only happened because of xyz you know what i mean

00:35:04.460 so anyways um love bombing showering a target with intense affection praise or gifts early on

00:35:23.280 to into a false sense of special connection like a lot of people say you have mother issues i'm 0.96

00:35:30.220 like obviously but i'm not i'm not gonna bring it up in like a fucking debate so anyways um 0.97

00:35:37.840 all right love bombing showering a target with intense affection praise or gifts to hook them 0.96

00:35:43.480 because that's what mothers do they give you gifts and what they'll do is they'll be really 1.00

00:35:48.780 nice for a little bit but it's so inconsistent like they'll be bitchy one day really nice the

00:35:53.920 other day and, um, you know, and they'll give you gifts when all you want them is just for them to 0.98

00:36:02.980 stop being a bitch and stop getting offended over everything. And then anything they give to you, 0.99

00:36:09.080 they hold over your heads and this totally happened. Oh my God. I feel like, so I've had

00:36:15.980 my mom blocked for a certain amount of time and i feel like i could finally start to like think

00:36:24.320 clear because i don't have her gaslighting net you know i'm saying like it's like weird because

00:36:30.340 once you i blocked like two crazy family members and it's just like you you think so much clearer

00:36:39.180 without them do you know what i mean so anyways the it's probably gonna get clipped whatever um

00:36:48.780 then okay they triangulate you bring a third party into the conflict or relationship so what

00:36:55.660 they'll do is they'll get your dad or somebody else like if you say no to them they'll go around

00:37:01.900 the family and then talk bad about you and then get the other people to nag you too and then wonder

00:37:07.760 why you don't want to show up to anything you know what i mean it's like and then if you don't come 0.97

00:37:12.160 to their stupid events then they but they bring everyone to bother you about that too you know 0.98

00:37:18.800 it's like it's like a a warfare then they do a smear campaign 1.00

00:37:26.080 you know it's crazy my mom sided with internet strangers

00:37:30.480 when i was in 2023 and was like replying to comments as my mother 0.98

00:37:37.760 And I was thinking about it and I'm like, I felt guilty about being like, what the fuck? 0.89

00:37:44.480 Do you know what I mean? 0.98

00:37:45.680 It's just like, I'm like, it's crazy because they'll do something crazy to you and you'll

00:37:51.100 feel bad for talking about it when you're like, you did that to me.

00:37:55.620 You know what I mean?

00:37:58.040 Yeah, man, it just never ends.

00:38:00.800 Deflection and blame shifting.

00:38:03.400 Turn the focus away from their wrongdoing by attacking your tone.

00:38:06.080 bringing up past mistakes or claiming you are too sensitive.

00:38:12.340 Bruh. 1.00

00:38:17.100 Man, I know she is a crazy woman. 0.98

00:38:23.100 So what they'll do is they want you to defend yourself, 0.99

00:38:31.580 explain, excuse, rationalize.

00:38:33.460 And because then you're catering to them,

00:38:36.080 So if I say, no, I think what I think, and they say, no, you don't, then you have to

00:38:41.980 be like, oh, well, da, da, da, da, da.

00:38:44.180 And then I'm now cowering to you.

00:38:46.680 they want you to make excuses they want you to rationalize and this fails because using deer

00:39:11.320 shows a lack of emotional boundaries and signals you need other people's permission to feel okay

00:39:16.020 Healthy communication relies on calm statements instead of heavy justification.

00:39:21.480 And your defense mechanisms are running away, using your senses, fighting, if you must, or hiding from these crazy people.

00:39:46.020 and the tools they use to take down real ninjas and we can maybe add some so we got lawsuits

00:39:54.560 criminal court false accusations um smear campaigns social media posts

00:40:05.420 just never ends never ends

00:40:12.440 it's crazy too because they also go if you ever like have friends or even people that you work

00:40:26.440 with she'll like go to them people that like it's a little strange i mean they have no connection to

00:40:35.380 and then they try

00:40:38.140 to like get in there

00:40:39.460 and you're like

00:40:42.020 what are you doing

00:40:42.700 it's a little odd

00:40:49.740 you know

00:40:54.860 so I googled

00:40:58.380 the tools of the devil and I always

00:41:00.280 find that whenever

00:41:01.280 um

00:41:03.340 Thank you. 1.00

00:41:33.340 So whenever I look up tools, the devil, I'm like, wow, that sounds like women. 1.00

00:42:03.340 That sounds like women. 0.72

00:42:09.620 So what are the psychological tools of the devils? 0.81

00:42:13.220 The tools of the devil is a metaphor, not a clinical category.

00:42:17.460 In sermons and moral psychology, it usually means the inner and social lovers that make people easy to deceive, isolate, or turn against themselves and others.

00:42:26.840 The classic list lines up surprisingly well with well-known mental patterns.

00:42:32.080 Deception and disordered thinking, right?

00:42:38.580 Lies and half-truths, selective facts,

00:42:41.120 spinning and plausible stories that feel true enough to act on.

00:42:44.760 Psychologically, this is motivated reasoning and confirmation bias.

00:42:48.760 You keep the interpretation that protects the self. 1.00

00:42:53.120 So that sounds like what women do, half-truths. 1.00

00:42:56.960 They feel true enough to act on. 1.00

00:43:01.380 Okay. Doubt aimed at the wrong target. Not healthy skepticism, but chronic distrust of good evidence, good people, or your own capacity to choose well. It often shows up as rumination and what-if loops. Flattery and infatuation. That's what women do. They praise you, right? And then you feel pride and you have a fragile ego, so you stop checking yourself.

00:43:24.140 that's what they do they they go from praising you to belittling you so quickly

00:43:30.380 this is one that appears at the discouragement and collapse discouragement as a wedge after

00:43:37.660 enough set setbacks effort feels pointless that maps onto learned helplessness hopelessness

00:43:43.900 and the belief that nothing you do will matter

00:43:46.240 yeah because they keep dragging you to court and you're like i'm getting ahead and then they just

00:43:53.040 and then they just you know drag you back to court shame versus guilt guilt says i did a bad thing

00:44:02.300 shame says i am the bad thing shame makes people hide freeze or lash out instead of repairing

00:44:08.460 so when you do something wrong they say you're a bad kid not you did a bad thing the mothers right

00:44:16.320 despair and numbness when energy drops people stop seeking help stop praying or planning

00:44:21.380 and become easier to keep stuck.

00:44:28.420 Then there's division, us versus them splitting.

00:44:31.300 People, families, and groups get sorted

00:44:33.120 into good and irredeemable.

00:44:34.900 Nuance dies, loyalty tests rise. 1.00

00:44:37.880 Gossip and triangulation, see, that's what women do. 1.00

00:44:40.520 Talking about someone instead of in talking to them. 1.00

00:44:42.620 It bonds two people by excluding a third.

00:44:45.200 Projection, you locate your own anger, envy,

00:44:47.500 or fear in someone else and then fight them for it.

00:44:51.380 Yeah. So whatever women say about men, women are. So it's projection, right?

00:44:59.200 They also learn what you like, then mimic it, then mimic what you want. It's all manipulation.

00:45:04.360 Then they, when they, then they turn when you have a trauma bond. 0.72

00:45:21.380 The other thing, too, is when you open up to women, they use it against you. 0.98

00:45:24.700 I guarantee you.

00:45:25.180 I'm going to do some debate.

00:45:26.660 I opened up a little bit tonight about my trauma in life. 1.00

00:45:30.860 And some woman will just hold it over my head later and say, Pearl, you have mother issues. 1.00

00:45:37.260 I need to just start saying that's none of your fucking business on these streams. 1.00

00:45:45.300 Can we keep going? 0.99

00:45:48.080 Diversion and the capture of attention.

00:45:49.700 The good instead of the best.

00:45:51.140 busyness scrolling conflict or even respectable work used to avoid the things that matter that's 1.00

00:45:56.340 true i think that's what women are the best at which is distracting you because it's again you'll 0.99

00:46:01.140 be on a mission as a real ninja and you'll be really making something and doing something so

00:46:06.180 cool and then the women will just draw you into this conflict do you know what i mean like even 0.56

00:46:10.900 my show women will come to my channel i hate doing these debates i would much rather just do this fun

00:46:16.420 show where we talk about these concepts but when the debates just make me so much more money so i 0.99

00:46:22.260 do do those for money but it's like the women will come with such attitudes and i'm like why are you

00:46:26.740 here i don't really care if they use my clips but like what are you what are you doing here 0.98

00:46:34.580 you know what i mean

00:46:35.220 impulse and appetite short-term release relief rage lost substances spending that crowds out

00:46:46.140 longer-term aims addiction science calls this hijacked reward learning

00:46:50.060 isolation dressed as safety no one understands you plus insulation from correction social

00:46:57.580 withdrawal then confirms the story control of self-image is a tool of the devil pride and

00:47:03.520 comparison envy status anxiety and the need to be right they keep this they keep the mind occupied

00:47:08.880 with ranking instead of truth or repair blame shifting and denial responsibilities offloaded

00:47:14.700 so the self image stays intact in relationships that look like darvo style moves deny attack

00:47:21.800 reverse victim the offender perfection is perfectionism as a trap and possibly high

00:47:27.980 standards so every attempt can be called a failure you know like your dad will be so encouraging

00:47:34.860 and your mother will just always find something to nag you about

00:47:53.660 huh 1.00

00:47:57.980 how they work together. The pattern is the old toolbox, stories in sequel, not mythical.

00:48:05.000 A crack, fatigue, hurt, boredom, pride. A story that explains itself in a self-serving or hopeless

00:48:11.360 way. Withdrawal or attack, reinforcement, and the world now looks more like the story.

00:48:16.540 The opposite tools people traditionally name are psychological.

00:48:21.980 Accurate naming of facts, confession instead of hiding, contact with trusted others, useful work

00:48:27.900 and practices that interrupt rumination oh wait uh

00:48:41.020 interesting all right well

00:48:46.220 so anyways that's how they take down real ninjas

00:48:57.900 I don't know who report of the week is, so.

00:49:06.440 Anyways, I'm kind of, I'm feeling a little down, so I think I'm just going to call it tonight.

00:49:15.260 Good talking to you guys.

00:49:16.780 I'll do another one tomorrow.

00:49:18.540 I'm trying to stream every day if I can.

00:49:23.620 So, anyways.

00:49:25.640 i'm gonna get this equipment to work i'm gonna do that today figure it out and then we'll come

00:49:32.980 back tomorrow one of these i'm gonna get it so don't worry guys like i know it's a little

00:49:37.480 frustrating but if i can just get this figured out the way i see it is i want to buy this house

00:49:43.860 hopefully i can make enough money this year i can buy this house and

00:49:47.440 what I can do if I can buy the house then um

00:49:54.800 like I just have to learn the equipment and get it to work once do you know what I mean like

00:50:03.260 I just have to figure it out once and then like I'll have it so I really want to I really want

00:50:12.080 to be able to I love this house I love it and then when I have a family and have kids hopefully

00:50:17.320 I mean, I don't know. We're getting down to the wire. You know, but I could just move out of this

00:50:28.720 house, but this can be my studio, you know? So anyways. All right. All right. So I love you

00:50:41.840 guys. You know, here's a problem. I build software. A lot of times people come to me

00:50:45.880 and they sound really great and then they screw me later and it's just like not again so anyways

00:50:51.400 all right guys i love you thanks for watching uh like the video subscribe and uh i'll see you next

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Pearl - September 24, 2026

The Life of a Real Ninja

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