SNEAKO - November 18, 2021


I Don't Care About Anything Anymore

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10 minutes

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2,149

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2

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40

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In this episode of One Take, I talk about how I don t care about anything anymore, and how to deal with it. I also talk about why I don't go to church anymore and why it's a good thing.

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00:00:00.420 One take, what up, Patreon?
00:00:02.720 Stuff on my mind.
00:00:04.300 Literally gonna one take this and just try to
00:00:06.060 get it on camera because I don't
00:00:08.860 yeah, I don't 0.97
00:00:10.040 fucking care about anything anymore, yo. 0.91
00:00:12.700 I don't want to make this like 0.99
00:00:13.980 a therapy session, but I mean, that is kind of what
00:00:16.060 my commentaries are like. 0.99
00:00:18.300 It's just, fuck, I don't 0.99
00:00:20.100 care about anything. 1.00
00:00:21.820 I was listening to Tim Dillon's podcast
00:00:23.820 yesterday, and he's talking about
00:00:26.020 there's a certain nihilism with Gen Z 1.00
00:00:28.540 because we've seen
00:00:29.660 so many systems
00:00:31.100 lie and collapse and
00:00:33.580 just prove that they're
00:00:36.340 that they're all
00:00:37.980 fraudulent. We've seen a lot
00:00:39.840 our generation has seen a lot of that happen over and over
00:00:41.900 I mean, you could say that for previous generations, but
00:00:43.940 they've had a little more stability, but
00:00:46.120 just everything is
00:00:46.840 like
00:00:47.980 I don't know, can anyone relate to this? Like, does anyone think
00:00:52.000 that everything is bullshit? 0.96
00:00:53.640 Like, I literally believe in nothing. 0.99
00:00:56.280 And I guess the best thing
00:00:58.280 to put my faith in would be
00:00:59.920 with the people, but
00:01:01.580 like
00:01:03.960 there's just part of me that thinks that
00:01:06.960 like, it's just hopeless
00:01:08.340 that there's no point in
00:01:09.260 putting my faith in the people
00:01:10.800 because people
00:01:11.440 there's too many of us.
00:01:13.260 We're not going to change in like
00:01:14.340 how much effect can one person really have
00:01:17.700 the correct solution would be to think bigger
00:01:21.200 and to
00:01:22.440 be like, okay, I'm
00:01:23.860 I should be the person to make people think differently
00:01:26.780 I should be the person to
00:01:28.360 to bring unity or whatever, but 0.98
00:01:30.780 I'm not fucking Martin Luther King 0.97
00:01:32.660 I'm a YouTuber 0.97
00:01:33.360 at the same time
00:01:35.760 I got to think bigger than that
00:01:36.960 and I'm struggling with this
00:01:39.300 I'm struggling with this because
00:01:43.600 like, I've done everything that I wanted to do
00:01:47.600 when I was 14, 15
00:01:48.680 if you've been watching me
00:01:49.640 back in the Afro days 1.00
00:01:50.980 or even before that in the Call of Duty
00:01:52.260 like gaming days
00:01:53.040 I talked about everything that I wanted to do
00:01:55.620 like I wanted to be doing
00:01:56.860 I wanted to be living in New York City
00:01:58.880 with my own place
00:01:59.620 like being a successful YouTuber
00:02:01.600 self-sustainable
00:02:02.500 I didn't want to be in school
00:02:03.620 I didn't want to have a job
00:02:04.560 I wanted to be doing stand-up comedy
00:02:06.120 and I'm
00:02:07.620 like, I'm doing it
00:02:08.780 I'm doing it
00:02:09.680 I'm not really doing stand-up
00:02:10.780 as much as I had initially wanted to
00:02:12.380 but I
00:02:12.660 recently I've kind of fell out of love with it
00:02:15.300 because it's just like
00:02:15.960 I don't know
00:02:16.240 I've been going to a lot of shows
00:02:17.320 and it's always just like the same 1.00
00:02:18.680 bullshit dick jokes 1.00
00:02:20.860 and you know 1.00
00:02:21.500 it just seems kind of corny recently
00:02:23.120 and there's not a lot
00:02:24.300 enough thought-provoking
00:02:25.340 stand-up
00:02:26.960 like even
00:02:27.340 Chappelle
00:02:28.320 with his last special
00:02:29.400 let's just talk about trans people
00:02:30.460 and it seems like
00:02:31.720 they're just aiming for
00:02:32.520 they're trying to be
00:02:33.960 thought-provoking
00:02:35.520 but it's just
00:02:35.980 mostly controversial
00:02:38.740 for the sake of being controversial
00:02:40.500 in my opinion
00:02:41.140 and so I'm losing
00:02:43.020 like
00:02:43.440 for example
00:02:44.300 like last year
00:02:44.980 I made this video called
00:02:45.840 Who I Voted For
00:02:46.600 and I made this
00:02:48.080 statement at the end
00:02:49.080 like
00:02:49.340 it made no sense to me
00:02:51.740 why people were celebrating
00:02:52.660 so much that Trump was gone
00:02:53.860 because no matter like
00:02:54.640 I understand why
00:02:56.180 because everyone's so left-leaning
00:02:57.220 you know
00:02:57.440 he's racist 0.96
00:02:58.060 blah blah blah 0.92
00:02:58.580 I'm like alright
00:02:59.160 nothing is gonna change
00:03:00.200 you're disillusioned
00:03:02.540 you just like believe
00:03:03.200 what the media tells you
00:03:04.080 he's racist
00:03:05.160 like okay whatever 0.97
00:03:06.380 like what
00:03:07.560 I said
00:03:08.100 your daily life
00:03:09.100 is not gonna change at all
00:03:10.220 with Trump being out of office
00:03:11.420 we even
00:03:12.120 we had Trump during COVID
00:03:13.320 like you guys
00:03:13.780 and
00:03:14.420 with nothing
00:03:15.940 literally nothing has changed
00:03:17.300 nothing has changed
00:03:18.380 we got the black vice president 0.97
00:03:20.460 nothing 1.00
00:03:20.780 she's the worst bro
00:03:22.160 have you even seen 0.88
00:03:23.620 Biden have a speech
00:03:24.580 it's like the president
00:03:25.940 doesn't matter at all
00:03:27.060 and that's just like
00:03:28.240 one example of what
00:03:29.200 I'm talking about
00:03:29.760 like nothing
00:03:30.540 I just have a hard time
00:03:33.240 putting my faith in anything
00:03:34.220 because I just
00:03:34.620 I can't be convinced
00:03:36.680 that anything matters
00:03:38.240 I went to church
00:03:40.000 I went to church last week
00:03:41.420 it was my girlfriend's
00:03:42.680 her great grandmother's memorial
00:03:44.440 it was my first time
00:03:45.060 in a Catholic church
00:03:45.820 I grew up like
00:03:47.040 going to Catholic church
00:03:47.780 and it was kind of cool
00:03:49.140 like being able to like
00:03:50.420 do the pew
00:03:51.000 and immediately
00:03:51.500 I did the sign of the cross 0.99
00:03:52.600 like it's all memory for me
00:03:53.960 but
00:03:55.060 I don't know
00:03:57.500 even that
00:03:58.120 I just
00:03:58.400 I see the people praying
00:03:59.520 and like with their rosaries
00:04:00.560 and it's just
00:04:02.020 I can tell like
00:04:02.720 they really need this
00:04:03.700 like they're going through
00:04:04.600 like I see these women 1.00
00:04:06.100 these old ladies 1.00
00:04:06.960 like clutching a rosary
00:04:08.320 and praying
00:04:08.800 and it's like
00:04:10.720 I can just see their life
00:04:12.520 like I know that
00:04:13.700 you know
00:04:14.220 they probably have sick family
00:04:15.260 and stuff like that
00:04:16.080 and they're
00:04:16.460 you know
00:04:16.720 family that's struggling
00:04:18.140 and this is their
00:04:18.860 this is their way to cope
00:04:20.100 with the pain in their life
00:04:22.400 but it's hard for me
00:04:23.700 to see it as any other way
00:04:24.760 any other
00:04:25.380 anything else
00:04:27.000 than just coping
00:04:27.900 like it's helpful
00:04:31.360 it's good
00:04:31.880 like it's a good thing
00:04:32.900 besides the homophobia
00:04:33.780 but
00:04:34.560 it's hard for me
00:04:36.540 to believe in that
00:04:37.140 because I just
00:04:37.480 I know
00:04:38.020 I know it exists
00:04:40.180 just because
00:04:40.740 it helps people deal
00:04:42.060 with their daily
00:04:42.640 existential crisis
00:04:43.520 it helps them
00:04:44.860 keep going
00:04:45.840 and have belief
00:04:46.460 and so it's hard for me
00:04:47.580 to attach myself
00:04:48.440 to anything
00:04:48.880 because
00:04:49.280 I just
00:04:50.540 I think of all of it
00:04:51.780 as coping
00:04:52.500 and
00:04:53.640 any system
00:04:54.640 is just
00:04:54.960 I think believing in anything 0.99
00:04:56.700 is just bullshit 0.99
00:04:57.580 and that's a dark thought 1.00
00:05:01.120 and like
00:05:01.560 it's very nihilistic
00:05:02.660 but I think a lot of people
00:05:03.800 in my generation
00:05:04.440 I don't know
00:05:05.820 I don't know
00:05:07.000 I've been
00:05:07.280 I'm just leaving the boxing gym
00:05:08.940 right now
00:05:09.340 and that's like one thing
00:05:11.860 that really helps me
00:05:12.820 get my head in the right place
00:05:15.220 like punching stuff
00:05:16.180 exercising
00:05:17.220 you know
00:05:18.300 tons of motion
00:05:19.280 being exhausted
00:05:20.040 really helps me stop
00:05:21.500 thinking about that stuff
00:05:22.360 and I like the community
00:05:23.780 aspect of it
00:05:24.460 because
00:05:24.760 it's a free program
00:05:26.400 the gym I go to now
00:05:27.260 it's run by the NYPD
00:05:28.240 yeah I train with cops
00:05:30.360 you can call me police
00:05:31.980 whatever
00:05:32.240 but it's meant
00:05:33.340 it's free for like
00:05:34.180 kids 8 to 21
00:05:35.060 I'm 23 so I lied
00:05:36.180 they know I'm lying
00:05:37.120 but
00:05:37.360 like every day
00:05:39.180 I've been bringing up
00:05:39.720 like mad Gatorades
00:05:40.880 for everybody
00:05:41.540 and that feels good
00:05:43.100 like contributing to something
00:05:44.280 like you know
00:05:44.800 everybody says thank you
00:05:46.280 when I come in
00:05:46.840 everybody fist bumps
00:05:47.640 there's lots of respect
00:05:48.760 for a place with fighting
00:05:51.160 there's a lot of respect in there
00:05:52.520 and I like contributing to that
00:05:54.080 like that feels like I'm
00:05:55.260 I don't know
00:05:56.480 I like doing good
00:05:57.900 like seeing these kids
00:05:59.060 that otherwise would be
00:06:00.500 in the streets
00:06:01.060 seeing them like
00:06:02.200 focus on something like boxing
00:06:03.280 like something positive
00:06:04.160 and seeing them get
00:06:05.240 like kids who are like 12
00:06:06.880 way better than me 0.97
00:06:07.760 who could probably beat the fuck out of me 0.97
00:06:09.120 it's really
00:06:09.820 it's inspiring to see
00:06:10.860 so I guess like
00:06:12.940 humans really need community
00:06:14.240 like we need to be a part of something
00:06:15.780 a lot of people have church
00:06:17.760 and they have like
00:06:18.600 their political groups
00:06:19.480 and whatever
00:06:20.280 but
00:06:20.560 and I think a lot of you agree
00:06:23.040 that's why you watch my videos
00:06:24.420 like 1.00
00:06:24.620 all politics is bullshit 0.99
00:06:26.120 like anything 1.00
00:06:27.440 like any belief
00:06:28.340 and 0.99
00:06:29.120 that's all bullshit 0.99
00:06:31.600 I 1.00
00:06:31.820 I guess
00:06:32.660 I you know
00:06:33.040 this morning
00:06:33.480 I was
00:06:33.760 I dropped off Maria
00:06:34.580 at the train station
00:06:35.120 I saw these people
00:06:36.200 with the booth outside
00:06:37.180 you know
00:06:38.020 giving out pamphlets
00:06:39.020 for sustainability
00:06:39.700 and I want
00:06:41.760 it was early in the morning
00:06:42.980 I never wake up this early
00:06:43.740 I'm like
00:06:43.940 should I just take a pamphlet
00:06:45.060 and make them feel better
00:06:45.800 and make them feel like
00:06:46.780 they're doing something good
00:06:47.560 I'm like nah
00:06:48.420 because I was
00:06:49.540 I didn't like
00:06:50.140 what am I going to do
00:06:50.840 with the pamphlet
00:06:51.260 I'm not going to change
00:06:52.000 my mind on sustainability
00:06:52.820 I'm probably not going to
00:06:54.000 do anything different
00:06:54.660 you know
00:06:55.120 I'm not in nature
00:06:56.000 but it would just be
00:06:57.200 so that they feel like
00:06:58.040 they're doing something good
00:06:59.000 you know
00:06:59.640 so that they feel like
00:07:00.660 they're contributing
00:07:01.200 but yeah
00:07:06.520 we really do need
00:07:08.240 to be a part
00:07:09.220 of a community
00:07:09.820 and
00:07:10.460 it seems like
00:07:11.580 they're trying to
00:07:11.920 take it away
00:07:12.460 more and more
00:07:13.240 with
00:07:14.480 you know
00:07:15.240 social distancing
00:07:16.020 stay inside
00:07:17.000 people are more scared
00:07:18.460 people are like
00:07:19.140 putting masks on
00:07:19.960 and everything
00:07:20.340 even with the vaccine
00:07:21.060 booster shot
00:07:21.800 like stay away from me
00:07:23.220 oh because of COVID
00:07:24.440 I'm not going to see my family
00:07:26.540 this Thanksgiving
00:07:27.140 it's like
00:07:27.500 they're trying to
00:07:29.260 separate us
00:07:30.060 in my opinion
00:07:30.940 I think that they're
00:07:31.640 trying to divide us more
00:07:32.500 and we really do need
00:07:33.380 community
00:07:33.760 and the world is
00:07:34.880 obviously going more
00:07:35.920 and more online
00:07:36.700 people talk about
00:07:38.020 the metaverse
00:07:38.560 and everything
00:07:38.960 we're getting closer
00:07:39.920 and closer to like
00:07:40.640 a WALL-E type universe
00:07:41.860 so it's
00:07:44.360 I'm trying to find
00:07:46.060 a type of community
00:07:46.880 in a world like this
00:07:48.620 and I guess
00:07:49.160 it has to be online
00:07:51.000 it's right in front of me
00:07:52.300 like this
00:07:52.800 the community with Patreon
00:07:54.200 with YouTube
00:07:54.780 you know
00:07:55.520 I have a community there
00:07:56.520 and I'm
00:07:56.820 I'm realizing that
00:07:58.620 I think too selfishly
00:08:00.140 like
00:08:00.400 this is kind of
00:08:02.680 sounding like therapy
00:08:03.460 but you know
00:08:04.340 I'm
00:08:05.380 I'm realizing
00:08:06.920 because like
00:08:07.540 my main channel
00:08:08.680 is not doing as well anymore
00:08:10.160 my second channel
00:08:11.100 is doing really well
00:08:12.000 but
00:08:12.220 like I'm kind of
00:08:13.700 losing touch
00:08:14.560 with my main channel
00:08:16.120 I think because
00:08:16.900 I'm focusing too much
00:08:18.200 on people
00:08:18.780 other people's approval
00:08:19.740 rather than
00:08:20.500 trying to connect
00:08:22.160 with people
00:08:22.680 and I'm thinking too much
00:08:24.080 about like
00:08:24.480 as I get closer
00:08:25.040 to a million subscribers
00:08:25.940 I'm thinking
00:08:26.160 how do I get to a million
00:08:26.800 and the numbers
00:08:27.760 are getting to my head
00:08:28.500 and it's
00:08:28.860 I'm losing
00:08:29.800 ironically my last video
00:08:31.480 was called
00:08:31.900 the death of empathy
00:08:32.800 but even me
00:08:33.620 like I'm
00:08:34.080 losing that
00:08:35.560 that empathy
00:08:36.300 you know
00:08:36.840 there's a lot of things
00:08:38.060 that I want to talk about
00:08:38.820 but I don't
00:08:39.260 because so many people
00:08:40.020 I know watch my videos
00:08:41.220 and so
00:08:42.360 I'm just
00:08:42.920 I'm low-key
00:08:43.980 hitting a wall right now
00:08:44.980 and I'm trying to
00:08:45.980 find my way out of it
00:08:47.440 and
00:08:47.640 turn it into
00:08:49.140 something positive again
00:08:51.080 because it's
00:08:51.880 it's bringing a lot of
00:08:53.060 negativity
00:08:53.800 to my head
00:08:54.720 like I would just be
00:08:55.380 looking at YouTube
00:08:56.500 and comparing myself
00:08:57.480 to other people
00:08:58.000 and looking at the numbers
00:08:58.920 and it's just
00:09:00.060 it's not healthy
00:09:00.920 yeah let me
00:09:07.520 talk to me in the comments
00:09:08.840 because has anyone
00:09:09.820 been thinking about
00:09:10.740 this kind of thing
00:09:11.240 like I was
00:09:11.680 thinking earlier
00:09:12.480 like I want to do
00:09:12.960 a street interview tomorrow
00:09:13.840 and usually when I do
00:09:15.060 street interviews
00:09:15.480 I talk about stuff
00:09:16.520 that I've been thinking about
00:09:18.200 and all I've been thinking about 0.99
00:09:19.480 like is what the fuck 0.99
00:09:20.420 really matters 0.96
00:09:21.140 what should we believe in
00:09:22.560 what's the point
00:09:23.800 of any of this
00:09:24.700 you know
00:09:26.220 more people
00:09:26.920 like are realizing 0.99
00:09:27.960 that jobs are bullshit 0.99
00:09:28.920 that any systems 1.00
00:09:30.320 like
00:09:30.680 like working at an office
00:09:33.000 and like we're a family
00:09:34.100 we're a family at
00:09:35.760 Kellogg's
00:09:37.600 corporate
00:09:39.100 like we're
00:09:39.720 we're not a family
00:09:41.520 like this is
00:09:42.380 more of us are realizing
00:09:44.700 that okay
00:09:45.040 like let's get money
00:09:45.940 independently
00:09:46.440 let's like invest in crypto
00:09:47.660 let's do NFTs
00:09:48.620 let's try to
00:09:49.340 build an e-commerce business
00:09:50.660 like everyone's
00:09:51.340 trying to make it
00:09:52.900 for themselves
00:09:53.660 but like
00:09:54.040 alright
00:09:54.240 when you get money
00:09:55.480 when you have stability
00:09:56.500 what do we do with it
00:09:57.800 what do I
00:09:58.500 what do I contribute
00:09:59.280 what greater good
00:10:00.220 do I contribute to
00:10:01.160 you know
00:10:02.200 is
00:10:02.620 should I be one of those people
00:10:04.660 with a sustainability booth
00:10:06.820 or am I just
00:10:07.480 am I just doing that
00:10:08.740 so that I feel good about
00:10:10.260 how I'm spending my time
00:10:11.720 am I actually helping
00:10:12.620 Mr. Beast is actually like
00:10:15.360 is actually doing that
00:10:17.120 you know
00:10:17.320 with Team C's
00:10:18.060 and Team Trees
00:10:18.600 he's actually contributing
00:10:19.720 to a greater good
00:10:21.200 at first
00:10:22.000 when he was doing that stuff
00:10:23.020 I'm like
00:10:23.340 alright he's just doing that
00:10:24.160 so that he gets more
00:10:25.020 viewed
00:10:25.900 but it doesn't really matter
00:10:27.000 why someone does that
00:10:28.360 like doing anything good
00:10:29.380 like you shouldn't question that
00:10:32.260 as long as they're doing something good
00:10:33.660 and I've been
00:10:35.020 I've been selfish
00:10:35.980 with my
00:10:36.460 with my platform
00:10:37.260 I've been thinking about it
00:10:38.960 like
00:10:39.260 a lot of times
00:10:40.140 I'm like
00:10:40.380 I'm editing
00:10:40.780 or I'm writing
00:10:41.340 or I'm making a video
00:10:42.160 I'm thinking like
00:10:42.780 alright how do I look cool
00:10:43.940 how do I look cool
00:10:45.240 instead of
00:10:46.500 you know
00:10:47.100 trying to spread truth
00:10:48.240 or trying to make people
00:10:48.900 think in a different way
00:10:49.900 so talk to me in the comments
00:10:52.820 needed to get that
00:10:54.180 off my chest
00:10:54.680 see that was one take
00:10:56.700 I told you 0.99
00:10:57.040 that was pretty fucking 1.00
00:10:57.680 alright shut up 0.99