00:00:00.000Greetings Laddingtons. I just received a voice message from YouTube and they
00:00:07.620said, Esterisk Fysik. That's all. So I opened the mail so it's a voice message
00:00:15.040from YouTube and that's the only thing they said. Esterisk Fysik. Then a few
00:00:20.400minutes later they sent me a video message where all the YouTube employees
00:00:26.880they were in some office and the clip was only a few seconds and all started
00:00:32.640doing surprise flexes. And then they shouted out fucking massive Fysik. Okay, just as in a
00:00:45.660recent video I said that YouTube said that I must post Fysik. They didn't
00:00:51.640actually say any of it. They didn't send me a voice message. You might have
00:00:56.640you might have already figured it out but I thought to point it out anyway. Some
00:01:04.500people don't know when I'm joking. So it was a joke. No one at YouTube sent
00:01:10.620me such a voice message. But again, it would have been fun. It would have been a
00:01:14.760fun gesture of them to say something like that. Anyway, as you can clearly see I'm
00:01:21.760checking in yet again from Jotunheim. And I wanted to share some wisdom with you
00:01:28.120all. Initially, as I also mentioned in a recent video, I thought to make a video in
00:01:36.640regards to if you're fat or skinny and go to the gym for the first time. But I
00:01:42.040thought instead to give some overall advice to anyone who embarks upon a new
00:01:50.860journey, whatever type of journey it might be. And I do believe I haven't made such a
00:01:58.280video before. There are so many videos I've planned for three, four years and I
00:02:03.580haven't gotten around to do it. Many such videos. And yeah, I'm being completely
00:02:08.360honest. It's always something else that comes up. But anyway, it's supposed to be
00:02:13.340called something like enjoy the journey. But it doesn't sound so clickbaity so I
00:02:19.040will come up with something else. But keep in mind, I always, I only clickbait if
00:02:26.120it's something, if it's good advice or good insights that I think most, most of you
00:02:33.440will benefit from. Including myself. And I will talk a bit about how I feel now. I
00:02:41.060will talk about my feelings. Remember, it's okay for men to talk about feelings. It's
00:02:46.580good and normal. Then of course you shouldn't succumb to your feelings and you
00:02:52.340shouldn't be, you know, spreading, you know, spreading negative energy. I spread
00:03:00.280positive energy. Anyway, here's the thing. We can take the gym example first. Then I
00:03:10.280will talk about my own feelings. If you're new in the gym and if you are a skinny
00:03:16.480guy and you think to yourself, I can't wait until I'm jacked. Or if you're really
00:03:24.820fat and you say, I can't wait until I'm a bit more, a bit leaner. Or if you're just a,
00:03:33.820yeah, a regular young guy and you say, oh, I can't wait to be a hero Titan class
00:03:39.820monstrosity. But here's something to keep in mind. And I can, I can vouch for this
00:03:48.820myself, I can say this is absolutely true. When I look back on my own, my own
00:03:55.820journey, so to speak. The progression is the fun part. The journey is the fun part.
00:04:06.820Now you might say, isn't it more fun to go to the gym when you are already a
00:04:13.820Ymir primordial giant class monstrosity. Now of course, I'm not a giant monstrosity.
00:04:20.820I'm more a Thor level monstrosity or something. I don't know. I won't put labels on myself
00:04:30.820like that. I'm far too humble. As you all know, it would be far too narcissistic and arrogant
00:04:37.820to call myself a Jotunheim class monstrosity. But anyway, I will get on to the point.
00:04:47.820You might think that it's so fun to train and you can't wait until you get to a certain state.
00:04:54.820And maybe you watch other guys or you watch my training videos or you watch, you know,
00:04:58.820you see some pictures of me or someone else being all jacked, you know, being in the gym.
00:05:04.820And you might think to yourself, ah, I can't wait until I'm there.
00:05:08.820And I would just say to you that don't think that way. Enjoy your own journey.
00:05:13.820And believe you me, I am not saying this to be a nice guy who tries to, you know, say this for some reason.
00:05:25.820I see it because it's true. It is true. If I look back upon all of my years, I have so many fond memories on,
00:05:33.820you know, from the time I was on the make, so to speak. So if you look upon me and say, oh, how nice it would,
00:05:40.820how nice it must be for you who are already jacked and aesthetic and you can post physique for the whole world to see on your YouTube or whatever it might be.
00:05:52.820But here's the thing. It's not about who sees you. It's not necessarily about how many people see you,
00:06:01.820who you can post physique to, who you can, you know, impress or whatever. It's about your own journey.
00:06:10.820It's about, you know, your motivation. It comes from within. And when you see yourself that you're getting bigger and you might start at,
00:06:18.820you know, you are a skinny guy and you weigh 60 kilos. And then half a year later, you've trained really hard. You weigh 65 kilos.
00:06:29.820That is your victory. That is what makes you happy that you've set up a goal or it might be a strength goal.
00:06:37.820The first time you take 100 kilos in the bench press, it's a great achievement because it's something that you're a normal guy doesn't do without training.
00:06:47.820I still remember my first time I took 100 kilos in the bench press. That's about 220 pounds.
00:06:54.820Since then I've taken 170 and 180. You can, yeah, search on my channel. You can see the lifts. Of course, it felt great as well.
00:07:03.820But, you know, when I reminisce about all these years, it's the times where you are still building yourself. The beginning of the journey.
00:07:16.820So keep that in mind. So if you're, so if you're ever envious of me, don't be, don't be envious of me. At least not in that aspect.
00:07:25.820I'm envious of you. I'm envious of the guy who's just started training. Imagine how fun. Imagine being in that position. You have your iron journey in front of you.
00:07:35.820And you can just, you know, make that progression. Learn new things. What an absolute luxury. So know this. I envy you. If you're in that position, I envy you.
00:07:45.820Now, to take another example. I have talked a bit about my feelings now. I will talk even more about my feelings.
00:07:52.820Yeah, it's true. I will. So you've heard me talk about my, you've heard me talk about my podcast. And then you might say, if you are some sort of YouTuber or content creator, you might say to me, oh, how fun it is to make videos for you.
00:08:09.820You have 110,000 subscribers. You can reach a lot of people in a video. So why are you excited for something new where you have literally 1% of your YouTube audience?
00:08:25.820And it's true. Why would I be excited for a podcast? Maybe I reach 500 people in the podcast and 50,000 in a YouTube video. You know, I've seen some good views as of late.
00:08:38.820It's not about the novelty of it. You know, I've never been someone who seeks novelty. I prefer to commit to something, stick with it for a long period of time.
00:08:48.820But what it is, it's also the progression. If you want more information about my own YouTube dilemma, you can search on the channel for Black Pills and Broken Dreams.
00:09:02.820I'm going to talk a little bit about how I deal emotionally with, you know, having a shadow band on YouTube and haven't really seen so much growth as of late.
00:09:15.820Being demonetized, of course, doesn't help. But yeah, you know, the money on YouTube, it was never any priority anyway, but it is a little factor at least.
00:09:25.820So you might say, why am I then more excited for a podcast where I have many, many fewer subscribers?
00:09:35.820subscribers. Yes, it's because I can still see the progression. I can still see the podcast growing. I can still see guys saying, oh, you know, this is worth listening to.
00:09:50.820This is worth spending 50 minutes to hear your thoughts on this manner. And I mean, I remember my own YouTube journey been such a great journey.
00:10:01.820It's been with me since, yeah, since I was basically a boy of, well, I don't know if you can call yourself a boy when you're 23.
00:10:09.820But in retrospect, I felt a bit like it. Or if I look back on me, it's a lifetime ago. It's, yeah, it feels like a hundred years.
00:10:19.820But anyway, point being, you might say then, oh, but isn't it fun for you when you already have a rather large reach?
00:10:30.820You know, nothing compared to someone like PewDiePie. But you know, that's also an aspect I would like to mention.
00:10:38.820You know, do I compare myself to PewDiePie and say, oh, he has so many more subscribers, I could never reach it.
00:10:45.820No, that's him. That's his journey. He is very proud of him. He's very proud of his journey.
00:10:51.820I'm also a bit proud of him being Swedish. We come from very similar backgrounds. Of course, he's from Gothenburg. I'm from Stockholm.
00:10:59.820The glorious and beautiful pearl of the Baltic Stockholm. But anyway, yeah, I think PewDiePie does great work.
00:11:08.820And if I see his success, it doesn't mean my success, or if I can call it that, is any lesson. I'm happy and proud of my own achievement.
00:11:18.820And also, same thing for you. I've said this before, you shouldn't compare yourself so much to others. So if you are then a guy weighing 60 kilos and then you look at someone like me or whomever it might be and you say, oh, I have only gained 5 kilos and this guy, he has gained 20 kilos or whatever it might be.
00:11:44.820Or someone might say, oh, I only recently got my 100 kilo bench press and this other guy, he got it after a week.
00:11:54.820I mean, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter. What matters is the accomplishment, the sense of achievement you have within you.
00:12:02.820You don't need to focus on anyone else. And I'm not saying this to be Mr. Feelgood or anything. I'm saying this from a position of a vast experience.
00:12:13.820I've said it before, I'll say it again. I'm a venerable ancient, so I can say this type of things. I say it now to you. I'm being completely honest when I say it.
00:12:22.820You know, yeah, I'm envious of a lot of guys who have that sort of journey in front of them. So yeah, keep that in mind.
00:12:33.820And also, when it comes to completely different, unrelated things, I'm excited for my podcast because it's something new. I can still see it grow.
00:12:44.820I don't know what's going on with YouTube. I don't seem to be able to grow. YouTube, if I post physique, you may unshadow ban me.
00:12:55.820So, in regards to the podcast, yeah, I can still see it grow. I get happy for each new subscriber. On YouTube, yeah, it doesn't seem to grow for whatever reason.
00:13:06.820Of course, I still love making videos. I do. It makes me happy helping others. And this is a common human trait that you have.
00:13:18.820Since you are social creatures, you gain happiness from helping others. It's very normal indeed.
00:13:25.820So I still like making videos, but yes, I do miss that sense of progression. I do miss YouTube seeing the amount of subscribers going up.
00:13:34.820And I miss in the gym, seeing weights go up like that. Then you might wonder, why can't I continue progressing in the Temple of Iron now?
00:13:46.820Yes, because I have more or less reached my genetic potential. And if you want to break through that, you have to go to the dark side supplements, so to speak.
00:13:55.820And I won't take any of that. I might take TRT when I get older, if my testosterone drops, but I have no wish to jeopardize my health to get that sense of progression in the gym.
00:14:10.820But that being said, I will get shredded for summer. I will get into a great shape, take some epic pictures.
00:14:17.820This is another video, but I do, of course, I do view myself as an artist. My physique, my masterwork. So I want to create some art come summer.
00:14:29.820That's my plan, at least. So anyway, I don't know if this rambling out here in the beautiful winter landscape was any enlightening at all, or you perhaps just admired the view, I don't know.
00:14:44.820But thank you for watching anyway, and I will see you on all links in the description box below.
00:14:51.820So, boom! Now, I actually forgot something of utmost importance, and this is, if you are a skinny guy, you're a weak guy, you're a fat girl, or whatever it might be, and you feel a bit self-conscious, you feel a bit nervous going into the gym, or you feel a bit out of place,
00:15:13.820and you wonder, oh, what will these other individuals think of me? And I can just say this also from the perspective of, well, someone like me.
00:15:25.820I said it in a recent video, but I would just like to mention it again. You know, I have respect for you, who are actually in there trying to improve yourself.
00:15:33.820Because, for every one of you, you know, if you are nervous, and you feel a bit, yeah, out of place, or whatever, there are a hundred other like you, who are still on the sofa eating something bad, watching Netflix.
00:15:51.820So, don't be afraid that someone like me will look on you and say, oh, what is he or she doing there? No, we are delighted that you are there.
00:16:02.820If you are polite and nice and everything, of course, just, you know, decent manners will get you far in all aspects of life, I assure you.
00:16:09.820So, think about it. Instead of being nervous, it's a bit like going into a church. If you go into a church, you see other people, they might pray for something, you won't judge them.
00:16:25.820You are there because maybe you want to pray for something. Or in my case, you are there to admire the art and architecture and stuff.
00:16:34.820Point being, everyone is there for a reason, and no one really has any interest in what you are doing.
00:16:45.820So, instead of thinking that, oh, these other people, they are looking on me, they are judging me, they are this or that, not the case.
00:16:53.820And on the contrary, and I'm sure I can speak for some of the guys in various gyms I've met over all these years.
00:17:05.820I've been, you know, helpful and polite because, you know, that's how I would like to have been treated in such a situation.
00:17:11.820And there have been, you know, when I was younger, older guys, stronger guys who have, you know, given me pointers.
00:17:19.820And it's usually the strongest guys who are the most polite.
00:17:23.820Then, of course, to keep in mind, you know, if someone is tight on time, which I might be a lot these days, yeah, I won't have the time to talk for an hour or something.
00:17:36.820But, yeah, in general, people are friendly.
00:17:41.820Same thing if you are an overweight girl or something.
00:17:45.820No one there will judge you, unless you go to a gym full of scumbags.