This Past Weekend with Theo Von - #654 - Something New

00:00:00.000 my god i gotta get a haircut before a hunter shoots me this is a lot um i want to say uh

00:00:06.880 just i want to say just a message just to thank everybody um for showing up who was able to show

00:00:12.740 up and uh and check out bus boys uh in the movie theaters this weekend um it means a lot you know

00:00:21.200 uh we had just so many people that showed up and did something on social media or showed some love

00:00:27.840 there was a guy who went

00:00:30.980 he got to the theater

00:00:32.440 he was the only person there

00:00:33.960 and so he sat in there with his shirt off and watched it

00:00:36.520 which is pretty cool

00:00:38.120 my friend Richie

00:00:40.320 he's like dude I hadn't been to a movie in 8 years

00:00:42.320 and he went over there by himself

00:00:44.460 and watched and I know that was a lot of people

00:00:46.720 who I got messages from

00:00:48.600 my friend Betsy

00:00:49.780 my teachers from growing up

00:00:52.060 just so many people

00:00:54.300 family

00:00:54.900 and you guys

00:00:57.260 um who are my family also and uh and yeah just the support i just felt supported and it was just it

00:01:06.480 was it felt a little spooky to try and do it like to do something you hadn't done like and have

00:01:11.580 everybody see it like the like you know like i'm gonna be a olympic diver or whatever and then

00:01:17.660 everybody shows up for your first dive kind of shit so um anyway that might be a bad correlation

00:01:22.640 but um but yeah just thank you so much and uh i appreciate you and um and uh and i appreciate that

00:01:34.320 your support and i hope that uh in our lifetime um that i can return the favor thank you and if

00:01:40.440 you haven't gotten to see it uh busboysmovie.com it's expanding to more theaters i believe and so

00:01:45.920 you can check it out there and if not it'll be somewhere where you can watch it online uh after

00:01:50.140 that. And yeah, thank you so much. Also, Lexington, Kentucky, the home of Paul Revere, baby. I'm

00:02:01.500 coming back for three shows, one on Friday, May 1st, and then two shows on Saturday, May 2nd.

00:02:08.800 That's the return of the Rat Tour. And I think that's the end. That'll be the end of it. I hope

00:02:15.340 to see you there. You can get tickets only at TheoVon.com slash T-O-U-R. Gang, gang, baby. Buzz,

00:02:24.660 buzz, baby. It's springtime. You know, I talk about springtime a lot, you know, because it's

00:02:32.360 a time kind of for something new. And the bees, you see them bees out there. And them bees, baby,

00:02:41.380 then things they you know i saw a bee the other day because they're out there pollinating

00:02:46.560 and they're pollinating bro and that's when they're basically uh you know what i'm saying

00:02:54.240 they out there you know they listening to cardi b they're doing they're out there they're out there

00:03:00.560 they're on spring break baby when they're pollinating they're on spring break they're

00:03:06.140 out there i saw one bee fly right out of one flower and right just right into another didn't

00:03:10.600 even wash his hands after being in the first one I said that's that's a lot for me you know just

00:03:18.120 and he just went one right into the next one just cheating on a tulip with a daffodil he didn't even

00:03:23.240 you know and I could see he kind of stopped on the edge of the tulip he's like yeah I'm gonna call

00:03:28.940 you I'm gonna holler at you you know I'm gonna get at you I gotta go I gotta go to work or something

00:03:33.880 And then he kind of buzzed one way and then skrrt, bam.

00:03:38.160 And he was laid up with a couple daffodils over there, boy.

00:03:43.140 Because bees, they don't, you know, they just, they just trying to get their rocks off out there.

00:03:48.220 That's the truth.

00:03:51.460 But we need them.

00:03:54.080 We need bees out there.

00:03:55.900 You know, I ain't trying to be a snitch, but I saw a bee and a wasp running a little two-man over there

00:04:00.720 with a couple boogin' Vilias, you know?

00:04:06.940 And them Vilias was boogin', homie.

00:04:09.340 I mean, shorty had some pedals on her.

00:04:13.380 You know what I'm saying, gang?

00:04:15.220 I'm upstairs.

00:04:17.800 But, yeah, the springtime, man, I like the springtime.

00:04:23.920 I like it because it just gives me a reminder just that there's something new can happen.

00:04:30.480 that thing that there's a refresh, you know, that there's a, there's a, there's a, there's

00:04:38.440 possibility there's, you know, just that something new can happen. And I really liked that. I like

00:04:45.440 the springtime and that's how I feel about it. And we went over to super cross and I don't know

00:04:52.520 if you ever been to super cross, you know, cause there's, you know, we all know there's the cross

00:04:57.620 And that's what Jesus died on.

00:04:59.440 And that's the most popular one.

00:05:01.500 But, you know, and a little, well, a decent ways down from that,

00:05:06.120 but still out there is Supercross.

00:05:10.080 And that, you know, I didn't know, I didn't know anything about Supercross.

00:05:14.000 I don't know if you know anything about it.

00:05:15.840 But if you don't know anything about it, then that's how I am.

00:05:22.240 That's how I, then we're the same because I didn't know anything about it, bro.

00:05:27.620 But those bikes, man, I walked into, I went to Nissan Stadium.

00:05:31.460 I went to Nissan Stadium.

00:05:33.680 And Nissan Stadium, I thought you go in there, it's just a bunch of Nissans trying to, you know,

00:05:38.540 looking for a place to park or a bunch of Asian dudes with a bunch of tricked out Nissans in there.

00:05:43.760 You know?

00:05:45.000 Because Nissan is Asian.

00:05:47.140 People don't realize that.

00:05:48.560 People think it's just a word that doesn't even mean anything.

00:05:52.740 But it's Nissan.

00:05:57.620 yeah that's asian bro and so i thought it was going to be like that but um

00:06:02.180 but the bikes man the bikes are just

00:06:04.700 and then they have one little gay biker kind of pad by he'd be like

00:06:16.860 the engine it's like you hear like

00:06:22.400 and then a little gay bike would be like,

00:06:27.200 oh, who wants to come over to my place or whatever?

00:06:30.260 He'd be like, damn, that bike, they got that thing tuned.

00:06:33.820 They got that thing tuned hot.

00:06:35.660 That thing's coming in hot, boy.

00:06:38.120 He just wants mechanics to come over and help it.

00:06:40.440 That bike was just like, I'm broke.

00:06:42.680 Oh, my engine's broken.

00:06:44.960 That's a trap, baby.

00:06:47.300 B's in a trap.

00:06:48.400 That thing's a trap.

00:06:49.340 so they got that they kind of bait that that that bike gets put in because you got the other bikes

00:06:55.240 just one guy broke it broke his whole neck leg everything he broke everything he had he had

00:07:06.000 he'd already broke i think his neck or something they'd taken part of his leg he said and put it

00:07:10.020 in his neck and i'm like damn that bitch out here leg necking and then i think he cracked that bitch

00:07:17.440 on one of the turns, man.

00:07:18.760 It was, but it's intense out there.

00:07:25.120 Oh, hey, who wants to talk?

00:07:27.880 You know, who wants to talk behind the gas tank?

00:07:30.200 You know, just, but anyway,

00:07:31.900 a lot of different engines out there.

00:07:36.460 But it was fascinating.

00:07:40.080 And, you know, and the bikes,

00:07:43.740 the bikes that they use, the motorbikes,

00:07:45.400 they're bitching, man.

00:07:47.440 Them bikes are bitching.

00:07:49.920 And I didn't think I would like a dirt bike.

00:07:52.740 Because first of all, it's got dirt on it.

00:07:56.380 You know what I'm saying?

00:07:57.140 If somebody tried to get you involved with selling you another item,

00:08:02.120 and they say, hey, you want this dirt shirt or whatever,

00:08:05.460 you want this dirt baby carriage, you know what I'm saying?

00:08:11.100 You want these dirt tits, you're going to say, nah, man, miss me with that.

00:08:17.440 but a dirt bike it just i don't know it broke the mold i'll say that because if you look at the uh

00:08:28.340 the food you know the uh what's it called when like a lion eats a dolphin or whatever the um

00:08:38.000 the food chain when you look at the food chain of transportation you don't think about a dirt bike

00:08:44.200 mostly when you think of transportation you go you start at the top you think fighter jet

00:08:50.520 plane tank um truck car skateboard piggyback i guess that's a mode of transportation kind of

00:09:04.040 um yeah it won't get you far you know but you'll be you'll be better off than the guy

00:09:11.300 you riding on when you pull up. Then it goes dirt bike, hitchhiking, and just wishing you

00:09:20.040 were somewhere else. And that's the echelons of transportation right there. But one thing I also

00:09:27.500 loved about Supercross is they brought in 26 million pounds of dirt for the event. So when

00:09:38.720 they made all the um triangles that's what it is when they made all those dirt triangles

00:09:45.320 they had 26 million pounds of dirt so that's just incredible and then I said to the guy well what

00:09:51.480 do y'all do afterwards he's like well we store it at different places around town I said dang bro

00:09:56.140 that's crazy they got that shit probably stored everywhere I say look rent out you you could rent

00:10:03.660 out two corners of my house. I wrench out two corners over there. Stack a little bit

00:10:10.040 of dirt in them bitches for $18, bro, $30, $40. That's what I'm living like. Because

00:10:19.900 I'm saying if they got 26 million pounds of that to hide away, the guy said, yeah, we

00:10:27.980 just store it around town and we come back and get it next year. I'm like, dang, y'all

00:10:32.380 coming back if y'all coming back to get that shit i'll charge you 61 i'll charge you 40 a month

00:10:41.240 to keep that shit you keep eight pounds of that shit and i got a couple empty cupboards in the

00:10:46.940 kitchen ain't nothing in them bitches one of them has a air fryer in it i will fill that bitch up

00:10:52.200 i'll keep i'll fuck i'll keep 10 square inches of that damn dirt warm for you i'll get yeah i'll

00:10:58.620 keep some of that shit warm for our air fry that shit and we'll get you back some quality dirt bro

00:11:04.160 and that's gonna now be fifty dollars a month but that's the kind of business we need is to say

00:11:11.120 if you come to my house you say look hey bro hold a little bit of this dirt for me bro

00:11:17.920 i got you gang that's who i am but yeah i had a nice time over there man and then uh

00:11:27.300 and just to go do something different do something new I'd never been I just got invited

00:11:32.700 I went over I got to meet some of the some of the drivers um Seth there's a guy named Seth

00:11:40.340 a dude named Jet I met uh Eli he he kept winning and uh Mr. Stewart he was in there the boss

00:11:49.200 young boss um but yeah these dudes bro it's just like I think the thing that was the most

00:11:55.780 neat to me about it was that it felt like you were just a kid everybody it felt like there's

00:12:00.820 this kid thing of wanting to like just ride your bike you know um and that was pretty magical in

00:12:09.780 there and yeah people were just having a good time I think it's a great thing to take your

00:12:15.080 your family to I think you I think you could go watch it and uh I don't work for them or anything

00:12:20.260 i just i went and had a nice time uh separately from that what did i do i went down and saw my

00:12:25.780 stepdad and uh i got to take him out for his birthday and we went over there uh down uh where

00:12:33.540 i'm from went to uh mandeville seafood over there i think they got some of the best seafood uh

00:12:40.500 on the north so i think they they really get it done i like they got a fried shrimp po' boy that

00:12:45.300 and I walked in bro I could hear that fryer the fryer knew I was coming you could hear the fryer

00:12:56.440 that deep fryer rub his hands together in the back of that beer he knew I'd walked in because

00:13:02.560 I get it oh boy I will take care of some fried shrimp so if you have a fried shrimp problem in

00:13:09.800 your area. Hit my line, twin. But so that was nice. And my stepdad and I sat over there. It's

00:13:18.700 not my real stepdad, but he kind of just been a big influence in my life. I live with their

00:13:22.340 family for a long time and blessings to him. What else is going on? Oh, I went to the farmer's

00:13:33.500 market and that was fun and i like that farmer's market i like to see people making things and

00:13:43.220 then you get to learn about the people that are doing it and it just feels like so much more of

00:13:48.620 like a community than like an amazon or something like that um yeah the comparison of getting

00:13:57.940 something through amazon and going to a farmer it's not even a comparison you know just the

00:14:02.720 energy you get from seeing people and seeing them with their families, you know, especially

00:14:06.240 a lot of farmer's markets, they start up around springtime. And I know everybody can't afford a

00:14:10.960 farmer's market. I know some of the pricing is different and, uh, and some people, they don't

00:14:17.500 have farmer's markets by them. But if you, some people never even been to one, but yeah, I just

00:14:27.800 enjoyed it because also it gives me a different respect for the food. You know, if I buy something

00:14:33.740 that I've learned about and that I know where it's come from, I think I'm, I think I engage

00:14:41.300 with it differently. You know, like, uh, I don't know. It's not, sometimes in my life,

00:14:52.120 food has just been kind of i don't know just i've just absorbed it or ate or whatever just

00:14:58.960 kind of nonchalantly i don't know the customer i don't know where this stuff's from i don't know

00:15:03.280 you know what the what it is what it's made i don't know anything about it so what do i care

00:15:08.280 but then yeah i think this was interesting just to get some stuff i got some milk over there

00:15:13.700 and they'll milk anything in that bit though i ain't gonna lie

00:15:17.920 things you never even they got damn moon milk in that bitch i'm like dang somebody got up there

00:15:25.040 and squeezed the biggest tit in the world you feel me got somebody was up there just pushing

00:15:32.240 making that crescent drip homie um but they they got everything in there grass milk cat milk uh

00:15:42.020 they was somebody at all just was just they had two dudes just milking each other a couple gay

00:15:50.000 dudes over there bruh and I didn't say nothing I didn't have any you know but I you know and

00:15:55.020 they didn't even yeah but I ain't saying nothing but but I ain't saying nothing and that's what

00:16:02.140 it was anyway what else um but yeah the fact they moved all that dirt in it was just kind of

00:16:09.940 fascinating to me and just to learn something new to do something new it makes me feel more alive

00:16:14.840 kind of because i sometimes i get pretty set in my ways um we're gonna go to some calls and stuff

00:16:20.940 uh what else um what do we got in the news trevin anything that's uh you noticed did you see this

00:16:28.440 pope leo and trump beef pope leo and trump oh yeah i mean this is unbelievable the uh where he's

00:16:36.740 like the pope is weak on crime that one yeah well after trump's tweet on easter

00:16:43.160 you know just tweeting about the annihilation of people bring up the tweet so so i can be clear on

00:16:49.440 what it is if you see that easter tweet it's it's correct and this was on truth social um

00:16:56.760 tuesday will be power plant day and bridge day all wrapped up in one in iran there will be

00:17:02.560 nothing like it open the fucking straight you crazy bastards or you'll be living in hell just

00:17:06.360 watch praise be to Allah President Trump I mean that's just on Easter that's unbelievable

00:17:11.700 you know when people are hoping for something new literally on the day when people are hoping

00:17:17.920 and are believing with their hearts as much as they can

00:17:21.720 and are celebrating something new a rebirth a resurrection a possibility

00:17:29.100 um to write that is it's diabolical it's insane um and i think my fear is that after they

00:17:40.480 after uh you know israel just moved from gaza then now it's lebanon and it's it and it's iran

00:17:47.540 they're on a time clock and i don't know why they're on a time clock but it's

00:17:50.780 they've pressed the fast forward button on control at any cost

00:17:56.800 and i don't want to get too deep into it because i don't want to i don't want to i don't want to

00:18:02.420 feel i don't want to you know i want to i want to stay in a place of possibility for myself

00:18:08.880 um but i do fear that that that that my i think my biggest fear is that that stuff could come here

00:18:14.420 you know with the technology that they're using to take on a lot of these crimes with the

00:18:19.440 technology that that they used uh to murder i mean it's in gaza it's just like when in these

00:18:29.180 places in the middle east with the technology they're using they can if they can instill that

00:18:33.360 here then we will be living under the watchful eye of like drones that could take you out if

00:18:41.080 you don't, if they don't like something you write on line. And that's scary. But when

00:18:49.580 you're up against like things that seem this bizarre and insane, other things start to

00:18:55.960 seem possible and um and it's not and what American is this helping

00:19:04.400 besides the war the industrial war complex what a man what American what hard work what guy who's

00:19:14.500 trying to take care of uh of his family or a single mother who's a nurse who's going to work

00:19:21.380 and has to get home and get to her kid's ball game

00:19:23.620 and has to be both parents.

00:19:26.500 What farmer is this helping?

00:19:29.360 What regular person is this helping?

00:19:33.340 I just don't know.

00:19:34.720 I don't understand.

00:19:37.560 So yeah, that's what our president's up to

00:19:40.500 and it's fucking baffling.

00:19:42.820 And it's sick and it feels like he's just been compromised

00:19:45.260 by Israel, by this dark government over there.

00:19:49.040 and

00:19:50.720 I don't know

00:19:53.400 it's fucking dark

00:19:54.860 it's dark

00:19:56.620 what can we talk about

00:20:00.120 yeah it's dark shit over there

00:20:01.600 it's dark shit

00:20:03.360 I just don't

00:20:04.060 I don't know

00:20:05.100 where do we get some leaders

00:20:08.120 yeah where do we get some leaders

00:20:14.880 and how do we

00:20:15.620 I don't know

00:20:16.820 fuck i guess we start just by leading ourselves huh

00:20:20.400 all right let's get into a little bit of news here what do we got guys

00:20:25.160 so i don't know if you saw this but sweden has built vending machines for crows

00:20:30.740 oh wait i i did see this i i think i shared this a couple of months ago maybe on tiktok

00:20:36.820 uh yes sweden built a smart machine uh where crows trade trash for food turning these

00:20:46.380 clever birds in the city cleaners corvids the bird family that includes crows and ravens are

00:20:53.480 known for remarkable intelligence including tool use memory and problem solving skills

00:20:58.240 and controlled experiments crows learn to drop cigarette filters into a specifically designed

00:21:03.380 device and then that device dispensed food that's what we need bro that's the kind of thing we need

00:21:11.260 you teach a crow, hey, go pick up this trash, put it in here, and then you get a little

00:21:16.020 McNugget or something. Something crows eat a little bird omelet or something. You get

00:21:24.460 something like that. And that's the kind of things we need. And that's the kind of things

00:21:28.560 I've been saying and praying for. Things that actually make society better. Inventions that

00:21:33.940 make society better. Rubber cars. I said that shit forever ago. Because you'll see a car accident,

00:21:40.120 the only thing that survived it was the damn tires.

00:21:43.420 Well, bitch, make the whole thing rubber.

00:21:45.960 You could hit whoever the hell you want, dude.

00:21:48.660 You could hit your damn wife

00:21:50.060 when she's leaving the house if you want.

00:21:52.220 If she's in her rubber car as well,

00:21:54.460 just give her a little bump, let her know.

00:21:56.400 Let her know you got a little something for her

00:21:58.120 when she gets back to the house, you know what I mean?

00:22:01.680 Just give her a little bit of a love tap.

00:22:04.480 But yeah, if everybody's in a rubber car,

00:22:06.140 you could get real on the way to work.

00:22:08.100 you know or what about pants i've always thought this would be a good invention pants

00:22:13.120 that walk for you i'm talking about the um electronic pants and them bitches they'll they'll

00:22:21.460 go so you get in them and then you just tell you navigate on your phone yeah take me to 13th

00:22:29.720 avenue or whatever and then bitch you just walk you could that way you can relax kind of

00:22:34.800 because your pants are going to know when to stop and when to go.

00:22:39.260 You know what I'm saying?

00:22:40.040 You don't have to use all your muscles,

00:22:41.380 because your muscles can be calmer,

00:22:43.140 because the pants are going to get you there.

00:22:45.460 You can just relax, let your pants take you for a walk.

00:22:49.340 You know, and if you want to jog, turn them bitches up.

00:22:51.980 If you're running late, cut them bitches loose, boy.

00:22:56.160 They ain't got no governor on these jeans, baby girl.

00:23:00.500 Cut them bitches loose.

00:23:02.840 Or what about this?

00:23:03.820 This was an adventure that I thought of.

00:23:06.160 What if they had earrings?

00:23:08.260 You buy your wife these earrings,

00:23:10.020 and they whisper naughty stuff in her ear

00:23:12.960 while she's at work.

00:23:15.160 So then when she comes back to the house,

00:23:17.100 you know what I'm saying?

00:23:18.260 The ambiance has already been done.

00:23:22.720 You know?

00:23:24.200 She's at work.

00:23:25.080 She's in the office or whatever,

00:23:26.520 and you hit her up.

00:23:29.680 You send her a little message, you know?

00:23:30.980 wish I was there right now

00:23:33.840 I'll bend you over that little

00:23:35.660 paper shredder or whatever

00:23:38.060 I want to hide in the recycling bin

00:23:40.500 and lick your body or whatever

00:23:41.760 you could send little shit like that

00:23:43.160 and then the earrings whisper it to her

00:23:44.900 I want to lick your body

00:23:49.960 in the recycling bin

00:23:51.480 imagine that

00:23:53.380 so we've been needing positive stuff

00:23:56.500 I like the way they're getting birds involved in it

00:23:58.380 let nature work

00:24:00.120 Because a lot of birds have been out of work.

00:24:02.260 Them bitches have been out of work.

00:24:03.800 They used to be spies.

00:24:05.020 Remember those, Trevin?

00:24:06.680 Yeah, the birds aren't real initiative.

00:24:08.780 They're drones.

00:24:09.680 Pigeons.

00:24:10.240 Them bitches was working.

00:24:12.380 Storks used to bring babies.

00:24:13.900 Them bitches was at it.

00:24:15.680 Who else?

00:24:18.800 The raven Edgar Allan Poe.

00:24:20.780 He was putting them bitches to work.

00:24:22.180 And now they got crows popping off doing recycling.

00:24:26.140 so yeah i'm glad to see this i'm glad to see an amelia back hustling man praise god

00:24:32.580 i love that dude i love that so yeah so praise god man i love seeing this i love seeing birds

00:24:42.480 get active boy get nature involved what if they had a little squirrel and his job was just to um

00:24:48.900 come uh use his tail to uh buff your car how great would that be somebody trains 30 40 squirrels

00:24:58.300 over there you pull up you stop they clean it and then they they got 40 squirrels waxing that

00:25:04.900 bitch with their tails bro come on let's go this is the future we want not doing genocides this is

00:25:12.740 the shit we need praise god brother if somebody's sending you that you up and it's 2 a.m 3 a.m 38 a.m

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00:28:11.100 Thank you.

00:28:13.320 Let's get into some calls that came from you guys.

00:28:20.200 We got a call.

00:28:21.200 Let's hit the hotline.

00:28:21.740 As always, the hotline is 985-664-9503.

00:28:26.140 Amen to that.

00:28:28.260 Here we go.

00:28:29.060 We got a call right here.

00:28:30.760 Hey, Theo.

00:28:31.800 I just want to say, hey, I really appreciate you, man.

00:28:36.820 I just finished my career as a door dasher,

00:28:41.080 and I listened to all your podcasts while I was doing my career as a door dasher.

00:28:46.840 Let's go, brother.

00:28:47.860 Congratulations, brother.

00:28:49.400 Onward.

00:28:49.800 And I actually hit the pinnacle.

00:28:52.440 I didn't know where to go after that.

00:28:55.060 So I was calling in for some advice to see, you know,

00:28:58.440 where you think a retired DoorDash should go, what I should do.

00:29:05.080 I feel like I hit the pinnacle, man, and it's really sad.

00:29:10.520 Hope you have a great day, man.

00:29:12.580 Cheers.

00:29:13.740 Well, first of all, brother, I want to say,

00:29:16.480 can we get a couple guns salute for that guy just for his service?

00:29:19.800 amen brother i think the first thing you got to do bro you got to join the reserves man take a

00:29:41.620 break take a break you that you you are that hunger santa that door dash you that hunger santa

00:29:49.040 Now, homie, and your service is appreciated.

00:29:55.060 I mean, there's probably not a porch in town

00:29:57.520 you haven't just dropped a damn McNuggets on it

00:30:00.800 or some Froyo'd or whatever.

00:30:03.620 They're probably in an apartment.

00:30:06.500 Welcome, Matt, you haven't set a little small sack

00:30:09.240 of McDowbells or whatever

00:30:11.420 or a couple of banana Sundays on that bitch

00:30:18.480 or some takidos or some burritos you've put all there probably ain't a dang uh you probably have

00:30:26.640 just a whole collection of photos of just a damn little sack of jack in the box just sitting right

00:30:34.020 there near a mat that says home is where the heart is on it how i mean god your phone must be full

00:30:40.440 brother you have served your time and we thank you for your service man i think you got to go

00:30:45.700 into the reserves bro and every now and then they'll call you out you know we got to get 40

00:30:51.740 big macs or whatever or we got to get 40 um you know seed oil mac nuggets or whatever over to

00:31:00.940 to this gymnasium they'll bring you up for shit like that or if there's a flood or whatever and

00:31:06.680 they got to have somebody swim across a channel just to deliver just to deliver a damn uh blt to

00:31:14.760 somebody they'll bring you out and you probably you probably got a little bit of ptsd i'm gonna

00:31:21.460 say that right now you know i bet you got some ptsd i would apply i would apply to get some uh

00:31:29.260 medical uh tuition to help you out with that because you deserve that shit i bet you'll just

00:31:38.040 be driving through a neighborhood and you'll just run off bro and just deliver an invisible bag of

00:31:42.680 something new in an apartment just can't even help it you know i bet your wife might find you

00:31:49.520 in the middle of the night you out there ghost dashing you just door dashing your damn sleep

00:31:53.340 you out there walking backwards and shit wandering around a stranger's apartment complex with a

00:31:57.800 damn sack of hot dogs and a side of fries brother take a break

00:32:02.480 Take some time, baby

00:32:05.840 Sit at home

00:32:07.580 Let it unwind

00:32:08.360 Forget

00:32:09.460 About all

00:32:11.520 The trenches you've been in, dog

00:32:13.760 Get some peace time, baby

00:32:15.020 Hit the reserves, man

00:32:16.760 We thank you for your service, baby

00:32:17.860 Praise God

00:32:18.500 God, I can't even believe that, man

00:32:22.060 And I'm not even brave enough to serve

00:32:25.360 To be honest with you

00:32:26.020 That's what gets me

00:32:26.720 That's what gets me, man

00:32:29.740 And you got this dude

00:32:31.660 He did 21 years as a door dasher.

00:32:35.400 Watched his friends probably,

00:32:36.800 probably watched friends just drowning in deep fryers and shit.

00:32:42.020 Watched a friend just slip on a damn,

00:32:45.360 you know, a cut of pickle or something

00:32:46.980 that had fallen out of a bag and broke his leg,

00:32:49.240 broke his neck, broke his leg neck.

00:32:54.900 God, we don't think about that.

00:32:58.000 We don't think when you're laying in bed at night,

00:33:00.200 that in the distance

00:33:02.360 there are men running over hills

00:33:03.680 wandering through woods

00:33:04.800 swinging across vines

00:33:07.760 with rivers filled with gators

00:33:09.900 and bad bitches from Atlanta

00:33:12.160 just to get a fucking

00:33:15.200 sack of five guys

00:33:16.920 to a damn Sig App house.

00:33:21.400 We don't think about that shit.

00:33:25.080 Lest we forget, man.

00:33:28.320 So go forth, young soldier.

00:33:30.000 go forth and get you some peace time, brother.

00:33:32.520 Take a deep breath and get you some

00:33:33.940 relaxation.

00:33:35.780 And we'll keep you in our prayers, brother. Praise God.

00:33:37.760 Thank you for your service.

00:33:40.160 Fuck, dude. I'm Alex

00:33:41.840 and I'm from Bethlehem, Pennsylvania. I actually saw

00:33:44.000 you at Wind Creek, but...

00:33:45.420 Oh, thank you for calling Alex. Onward.

00:33:48.380 I even fucked up my sobriety

00:33:49.900 day, but 331

00:33:51.920 days sober today and it's like the longest

00:33:53.960 I've ever gone. Let's go,

00:33:55.900 bro. 331

00:33:57.880 days. That's amazing, dog. Congrats. Onward.

00:34:00.000 i've been battling this shit for so long dude like a good 10 years but i've never made it

00:34:06.720 this far i'm actually driving to los angeles california right now i'm moving out there from

00:34:11.240 and uh it's like five in the morning i just have some questions about the sobriety thing so i'm a

00:34:17.200 i'm a professional snowboarder i work with a lot of kids and i also work with a lot of other

00:34:21.880 athletes and i just wonder how how you maintain a positive attitude and stay social in these

00:34:32.720 atmospheres when becoming freshly sober i don't know i i just feel dull and a little less enthusiastic

00:34:40.920 as i might have been before i don't know a little less enthusiastic thank you so much for your call

00:34:47.700 brother i appreciate that um congratulations on 331 days let's go dude that's so great

00:34:55.360 that's a long time how do you keep it going i mean and look you talked about um you know

00:35:01.140 newly sobering you're not new i mean you all i mean i guess look i've been newly sober so many

00:35:06.360 times um let's call him up can we yep hello hey alex yeah hey what's up man it's theo

00:35:18.680 oh what's up do you know not much bro i was just checking in i just i i i got your voicemail dude

00:35:25.340 i just want to say congratulations man do you still have your sober time yeah let's go man

00:35:31.840 I'm so hyped.

00:35:33.100 How many days you got right now?

00:35:34.420 Holy shit, Theo Vaughn, are you for real?

00:35:36.220 Yeah, man, I just got your voicemail, dude.

00:35:39.540 No way, that's crazy.

00:35:41.540 I was driving to LA.

00:35:42.980 Yeah, that's what you said.

00:35:43.740 And I was like, fuck it, I'm gonna call the hotline and say hello.

00:35:46.460 Oh my god!

00:35:49.940 Bro, BLM, homie, that's what the fuck is up.

00:35:54.160 Hell yeah, bro.

00:35:56.780 Dude, that's great, bro.

00:35:58.040 How are you feeling?

00:35:58.660 i feel good uh every day is a new day so you know it comes with some battles but i feel great today

00:36:06.780 nice dude i know isn't it crazy how some days will feel great and then that other day comes

00:36:11.460 you're like god i just want to pull my legs off and just hide them in somebody's ass bro

00:36:15.820 yeah something like that sounds about right or you know what i'm saying or just you have days

00:36:21.920 you're like how could it how could it be so different than it was yesterday that's how i

00:36:25.720 feel sometimes right right um yeah what what's the setup like there you do you feel like nervous

00:36:31.120 about being out there like what was the reason you were heading out to LA um I actually moved

00:36:36.200 in here with my girlfriend um I wasn't really nervous to move out here I'm kind of used to like

00:36:41.960 being out in big crowds and shit but I think it's just different now that I don't have substances

00:36:47.420 to do anything you know and like being in LA like the only things to do are really like at night

00:36:52.460 unless you do like i don't know like what do you do during the day yeah you can hide from

00:36:58.220 to hide from traffic that's what i did yeah the traffic bro that's real shit i would hide from

00:37:04.300 traffic bro what else did i like to do oh i did like to go to the beach i like to go uh

00:37:10.200 i mean there's a ton of stuff but i'm not probably not the best person to ask i would

00:37:15.560 kind of isolate a little bit or i would also i worked a lot during the day and i would try to

00:37:19.180 hit like meetings in the evening or something um yeah so but at least you got your girl there so

00:37:24.500 that's exciting so you got one person there that's that you can connect with yeah no it's super dope

00:37:29.940 and i have some friends that are out here too so it's like it's not the worst case scenario you

00:37:34.060 know yeah so it's not it's definitely cool i'm just trying to figure out what it is throughout

00:37:38.920 the day just in general to do like now it doesn't even matter like if i'm in la or not you could

00:37:43.360 have a job you got a job i do yeah okay i manage an athlete and i'm a professional snowboarder

00:37:49.060 oh that's right you mentioned that you snowboard dude my bad um okay good uh yeah dude i think if

00:37:56.560 you're brave enough to try something new like that and get out there you're gonna you'll figure that

00:37:59.840 stuff out dude but i think um yeah i think like i mean for me i just noticed the more i can take

00:38:05.720 care of myself the more i can be involved in other people's lives like in a uh at least show up in

00:38:11.160 other people's lives you know and and then sometimes it's for better and sometimes it's

00:38:16.800 not sometimes i don't do the best but at least i can show up you know so if i'm taking care of

00:38:20.800 myself yeah i mean that's how i feel too yeah if i just do the things i need to do and stay off

00:38:27.840 all the bad shit yeah i kind of become a better person and being a good person and going to do

00:38:34.240 things and being around other people feels a lot better you know yeah i don't know i feel like less

00:38:39.460 of a scumbag i don't know i'm trying to get all my thoughts i'm honestly still mind-blowing

00:38:43.000 dude no worries no i think like all right let me think i am too bro i think my energy's been

00:38:48.140 weird today i just like some days i'm just like uh i feel like kind of spastic um yeah dude i

00:38:55.420 think though but i will say this los angeles has one of the best uh sober communities in the whole

00:39:00.400 world bro out there there's so many great meetings right here you hear some freaking amazing speakers

00:39:05.460 and shit out there i mean people that fucking people that were eating their own fingers and

00:39:09.620 shit and like dude guys that were like somebody who cut his thumb off and filled it up with dope

00:39:15.120 and put it in his own ass we're just people that are wild and you know people that are really

00:39:20.080 looking for god the wrong the long way you're taking the long way to the lord

00:39:23.540 yeah there's definitely a lot of those war stories i feel like when you're in la and you

00:39:29.280 like look around you can obviously tell that there's a strong homeless community which means

00:39:32.780 there's definitely a strong sober community yeah because those i mean that kind of makes sense

00:39:37.460 Yeah. Oh, bro, because those communities, it's a thin line between those two communities a lot of times, bro.

00:39:44.500 Yeah, for sure.

00:39:45.260 Like, a lot of us are very, we've been close to that edge of just walking off into the oblivion.

00:39:51.860 Dude, how about it? How about it? I've been battling this shit for so long. I can't even believe I've gotten this far.

00:39:57.780 Amen. This is the longest you've had, huh?

00:40:01.040 Yeah, way past the longest I've ever had.

00:40:03.600 And what do you think's been the secret?

00:40:04.760 I think the last time I did this, I only had a couple months.

00:40:07.460 hell yeah dude and what and sorry i stepped in here says there but yeah what do you think's

00:40:12.000 been like honestly when you think about it and you're honest to yourself what do you think's

00:40:15.300 been the most helpful thing to you um or would you do differently what did i do differently i

00:40:23.780 don't you know what dude i i did have a pretty scary heart situation that happened to me last

00:40:29.960 year where i've had like two near-death experiences with the heart condition i didn't even know i

00:40:34.940 really had and i had to get two heart surgeries and i think that kind of opened up my mind a

00:40:40.540 little bit to it and then but even then after i was done with the heart surgeries and my heart

00:40:45.580 was kind of like back to normal per se because it was a pretty simple fix i was drinking so much

00:40:50.620 and but i wasn't drugging as much and my girlfriend was like kind of telling me she's like hey like

00:40:54.740 do you like realize how much you drink and then i just took a step back and realized and i think

00:40:59.620 that's when it all finally came to me that like I've actually never stopped doing something you

00:41:05.440 know I was always doing something you know other than the time when I you know I was I was ODing

00:41:11.240 when I was a bit younger in my lower 20s and I had no choice but to go to meetings and try and

00:41:15.720 stay clean because my brother was also getting clean at the time so that was a whole other thing

00:41:21.060 yeah the story goes on forever man you know how it is but yeah and then sometimes we get tired of

00:41:26.020 writing that story dude that's what I start to notice for myself man you know I get tired of

00:41:30.860 writing that old story because like man I've written this you know like just I've written it

00:41:36.340 a lot you know and so I want to change it but um cool man I got to finish taping this episode but

00:41:40.700 uh yeah I just wanted to say I just want to say I appreciate you calling in thanks for like

00:41:44.520 just like uh yeah including us in your drive across the country and um yeah dude I'm glad

00:41:50.260 that you got like dude you're like one of those astronauts on Artemis or whatever then you're out

00:41:55.600 some new territory bro coming up on one year that's wild yeah dude it's crazy no i appreciate

00:42:02.480 you for reaching out dude obviously a super i'm a super fan i've been watching this shit or listening

00:42:07.080 to this shit for for years oh thanks bro that's yeah we were watching last night what's the one

00:42:11.740 you watching last night oh yeah the only timothy shadow makes i didn't hear that one but i usually

00:42:17.320 listen every week oh yeah that dude's a g bro he's a that guy's got so much charm in him he's

00:42:21.820 just full of damn charm he's just a damn charm like a damn charm animal you know yeah bro so

00:42:31.120 no but i appreciate you theo thank you so much man i've made my day it's really really dope oh

00:42:36.000 thanks bro yeah i appreciate you dude i appreciate you too and thanks for just uh yeah sharing the

00:42:40.380 message man i think there's never too too much of it so i appreciate you man have fun out there uh

00:42:45.720 Give our best to your old lady

00:42:48.200 and good luck on a year, man.

00:42:50.940 I know we'll see you there.

00:42:53.260 All right.

00:42:53.580 Thank you so much, Dio.

00:42:54.760 Have a good one, man.

00:42:55.620 All right.

00:42:55.840 Praise, bro.

00:42:56.380 Be good.

00:42:58.180 That's awesome, dude.

00:42:59.840 You sound like an upbeat guy.

00:43:01.160 I'm like, dude, it sounds like

00:43:03.020 he sounds kind of like

00:43:04.620 he just sounded like

00:43:07.120 he had a good energy, huh?

00:43:08.380 Yeah, man.

00:43:08.820 I mean, he's a snowboarder.

00:43:10.080 Yeah, dude.

00:43:10.920 Yeah, you were doing enough, dude.

00:43:13.020 you can't be uh doing snow and riding on it you know i'm saying like you can't

00:43:19.500 fuck i would lose my mind out there i'd be out there lost in the middle of the night

00:43:25.420 just literally trying to snort up a damn mogul you know i get a brain freeze that's when you

00:43:31.860 know you anyway let's get all right let's get some help um yeah blessings to you alex let's

00:43:37.340 let's take another call here hey theo long-time listener first time caller um

00:43:45.680 man i just wanted to call and say i appreciate everything you do

00:43:50.620 and uh you know i was listening to your ella langley podcast about like

00:43:56.140 we all meet she was saying how we all this is our first go around right you know we're all just

00:44:02.000 living for the first time and i think i've been struggling lately with

00:44:07.080 um feeling like almost like i'm stuck in this cycle where you know you're alone you're lonely

00:44:13.100 you're by yourself which you know sometimes isn't like the best thing for you to do but it's

00:44:18.400 almost like uh second nature it's just what you retreat to and then you you know you then you

00:44:24.920 want to go out and you go out and you hang out with your buddies and you have sometimes like a

00:44:29.220 wild night you get influenced by like what you think they want what you think the world want

00:44:33.140 with instagram and all you know social media tells you to do so you're drinking you might

00:44:37.920 even fucking get your nose a little bit dirty like you used to and uh you know you're trying

00:44:43.640 to get all the girls numbers and like fucking you know have a have a grand old time and you're out

00:44:48.860 all night and then uh you kind of wake up the next day feeling like shit and you're like i'm not even

00:44:53.880 any closer to my goals i'm not getting where i need to be um but then you just kind of fucking

00:44:59.500 retreat and then you do it all over again and uh i know you know i feel like maybe you once

00:45:06.580 led through this and i think a lot of guys go through this and you know i've shut off social

00:45:11.040 media i've tried to like i've gone through periods where i didn't drink for long long periods of time

00:45:16.940 and uh i know you sometimes just always go back to this because then you're just like what's the

00:45:20.760 point you know we're only you know that one go around on this like am i gonna like waste my

00:45:25.640 youth i'm going to waste my opportunities um but i'm no closer to my goals and i think i'm

00:45:30.380 you know i uh i lost my job last year and uh i'm supposed to be like studying and trying to get

00:45:37.720 ahead for some stuff that's going to give me a better job but a lot of time i just kind of let

00:45:43.100 the days go by and now i'm stuck here you know by myself sitting in my room after the weekend

00:45:48.060 kind of just fucking i don't know man feeling down and uh i don't even know why okay you know

00:45:55.080 and I just wanted to know how you deal with this

00:45:57.660 how you get yourself out of this how you get to a better

00:45:59.660 life how do you get to a place where like you're

00:46:01.640 not just cycling through and you're

00:46:03.640 actually moving toward things that you want

00:46:05.500 and I appreciate your advice

00:46:07.620 alright Theo thanks man

00:46:09.200 thanks so much for the call I don't

00:46:11.700 think you said your name at the beginning

00:46:13.140 but thank you

00:46:15.980 yeah the cycle

00:46:19.940 of just like okay

00:46:21.760 I'm going to do this and then I would kind of

00:46:23.720 for me, I would like, I would, I'm going to try that. I would let myself down. I would try and

00:46:28.020 I would ask God to help me and I'd be like, I would pray, you know, and, but I would just,

00:46:37.180 and it was the same thing. And I appreciate your, I appreciate you being so articulate in your

00:46:43.080 calling and doing your best to share as honestly as you could, what was going on.

00:46:46.860 Um, I'll try to share, you know, I've been struggling, man. I've, the past like couple

00:46:55.160 years I've had, you know, it's been a struggle in, in certain ways with certain behaviors that

00:47:00.940 I'm just not proud of. Right. Or really just behaviors that I didn't want to do anymore.

00:47:08.020 Um, and I couldn't change it. I couldn't change the cycle. And even as I say this,

00:47:15.140 I'm afraid that I'll fall back into those behaviors, but I'll tell you what for me has

00:47:19.480 been helpful recently.

00:47:20.940 And I'm sorry if I sound a little animated.

00:47:23.800 I just, I've been like going through this in my own life recently, and it's on the tip

00:47:30.220 of my thoughts and feelings.

00:47:33.840 You know, sometimes I realized for myself, I would pray to God to help me get away from

00:47:37.660 certain behaviors in my life.

00:47:39.000 but at the same time that I was praying

00:47:41.940 there would be a part of me that

00:47:43.560 knew I was

00:47:45.840 probably going to do those things again

00:47:47.280 you know

00:47:48.660 that I was probably going to do those

00:47:51.800 things again

00:47:52.400 like a big God please help me

00:47:55.800 I don't want to do this anymore I don't want to

00:47:57.820 have this behavior

00:47:58.680 a little part of me that was like

00:48:01.140 I know even as I ask

00:48:03.040 for God's help

00:48:05.780 that I'm going to do it again

00:48:07.680 I would know that

00:48:09.360 so I started praying like this

00:48:11.980 I started praying like God

00:48:13.440 please help me

00:48:17.820 with this

00:48:19.560 you know this is a broken part of me

00:48:22.100 that I bring to you I need help with it

00:48:24.080 and then I would add to my prayer I would say

00:48:26.040 and even God even as I pray to you

00:48:28.200 right now there's a part of me that

00:48:29.840 knows I'm probably lying

00:48:32.020 to you there's a part of me

00:48:34.080 that knows I'm going to do that behavior again

00:48:35.880 And so can you come into that part of me and help me there?

00:48:43.160 Help me in the part of me that knows as I pray that I am, that I'm lying.

00:48:51.400 And I don't know if that sounds crazy or not, but, uh, but I started to think that like

00:48:58.540 a connection between us and a higher power, it's so, it's such the realest, it's like

00:49:02.920 in my life it's one of the realest things that i've ever witnessed right

00:49:06.020 like you go in like i'll be in meetings and uh or a recovery meetings or um and you see people's

00:49:14.800 lives change you see something happen you see you see miracles right uh but that was what was

00:49:24.000 happening you know it was i couldn't change i could i tried everything i tried everything to

00:49:31.320 change. I would tell myself, I'm going to do it different. I'm going to do that. And it wouldn't,

00:49:34.980 it just, I couldn't do it. I couldn't do it by myself. And my whole life, I'd done everything

00:49:43.380 by myself. I thought, I thought I had. And so something that's just been helping me recently

00:49:54.920 he's just praying differently, you know, because whatever's inside of me that's broken

00:50:02.800 is really, it's manipulative and it's, you know, it would be good at pool because it's

00:50:10.160 good at, it's good, it's good at the angles, but so yeah, so I'll just been praying that

00:50:16.400 God comes into those parts of me, you know, don't just come into like the water inside

00:50:23.400 I mean, come into the, come into the well, come into the walls of the well, come into

00:50:29.340 the, the, the, the mortar or whatever that's between the bricks, that, cause I'm, cause

00:50:35.200 I'm broken, cause, cause I'm broken all the way there, you know, and I don't mean that

00:50:46.640 like in self pity, I don't need it.

00:50:48.820 But if there's a part of me that doesn't even want the best for me, then there's something inside of me that is off.

00:51:02.940 So that's something that's been helping me because some of it's been coming true.

00:51:08.560 And I don't know if it's been coming true.

00:51:10.200 I don't know if that's a term, but I don't know.

00:51:13.740 I'm starting to just feel something different.

00:51:15.600 and then i was also i was i was looking on this bible uh and there's a story called john five

00:51:23.760 and it's about a guy who's at these pools and some people follow the bible some people don't

00:51:28.840 that's fine this is just a story um that i'm reciting here um and and jesus is is at the

00:51:38.080 is at the pools and it's in bethesda and they're like there's a sick man there and he's been sick

00:51:43.700 for a long time, and Jesus asks him, do you want to be healed?

00:51:49.840 He asks him, do you want to be healed?

00:51:54.660 And that's a crazy question because, you know, if I get healed, then I'm different.

00:52:07.340 You know, if somebody gets healed, they have a new story.

00:52:13.700 so that's just been something that i've been having to ask myself it's like do i want to be

00:52:25.840 healed do i really want something different

00:52:29.480 and sometimes a lot of the answer is no i don't i want something different but i don't want to

00:52:40.620 I don't know if I'm scared of it

00:52:43.580 I don't know what I am

00:52:44.420 I don't know if I don't want to do what it takes to get

00:52:47.520 I can't even tell what it is

00:52:49.220 and

00:52:51.880 it's hard for me

00:53:02.920 some of this stuff is a little bit hard for me to say

00:53:04.880 I think I don't even know why

00:53:05.740 but I think I want a new story

00:53:09.020 you know my story in my life and i'm sorry to make this about me kind of uh but i'm just trying

00:53:17.280 to share like um you know i when i was growing up like my mom something was wrong with her

00:53:25.100 i love my mother you know but she didn't connect with me she didn't like look at me

00:53:31.280 and she didn't, you know, she wouldn't hold me that much

00:53:39.600 and she wouldn't look me in the eyes, right?

00:53:43.420 And so as a kid, I felt like something was wrong with me.

00:53:49.560 You know, I felt like, oh, if the person that created me won't even look at me,

00:53:57.000 then something must be so wrong with me.

00:54:01.280 um, you know, and I've worked through a lot of this stuff. And so I'm kind of going down this

00:54:08.060 lane. Um, but I just gave me, it gave me like a lot of, a lot of low self-worth,

00:54:15.600 you know, it just gave me low self-worth. And, and, and honestly, it made it tough for me to

00:54:21.900 even have a self because the only person that I only knew who I was, if you reacted to me well,

00:54:28.520 right like i became just a people pleaser because i didn't have any feelings of self-worth so the

00:54:34.480 only way i could get my worth was from you right from somebody else and it made sense because i

00:54:40.000 didn't have a me that you know i didn't have a big sense of self and so i got myself from who

00:54:44.100 you thought i was and i needed everybody to like me i i needed everybody to like me because i didn't

00:54:51.700 know if i didn't know if i didn't know if there was a one person that didn't like me if one of the

00:54:56.000 the the plate stopped spinning if it was all gonna fall down

00:55:00.220 so anyway sorry i'm kind of rambling but

00:55:05.620 but the the thing that also happened was that whole

00:55:11.800 all of that energy that negative energy uh that uncertainty the

00:55:16.360 that became my story right and it gave me like a chip on my shoulder where it

00:55:21.260 was like um you know i'm gonna show them i'll show

00:55:24.520 these mother you know i'll be i'll do this and i'll you know it gave me all of that it gave me

00:55:29.400 all of that energy like i'll prove to them i'll prove to somebody that i'm that i'm worth something

00:55:37.960 i'm gonna make

00:55:38.840 yeah i just want to look in somebody's eyes and have them be pleased with me

00:55:47.080 that's what i that's what i wanted

00:55:49.600 that's what I wanted I think it's all that any kid wants I wanted to just look in somebody's

00:55:55.840 eyes and have them be pleased with me and um and it all that gave me a chip on my shoulder

00:56:01.440 you know and so anyway so it gave me all this energy it was like you know I'm gonna figure

00:56:05.520 this out I'll never I'll do it myself I'll figure you know and all that stuff served me well until

00:56:10.780 I think just until now

00:56:14.380 it's like

00:56:15.420 I don't know

00:56:20.400 I'm just tired of living that story man

00:56:22.340 I'm tired of that story

00:56:23.580 you know I'm tired of that story

00:56:30.060 I just don't want that story anymore

00:56:31.640 you know it's been a good story

00:56:36.560 and it's served me well

00:56:37.680 dang homie I'm leaking

00:56:40.140 it's been a good story and it served me well

00:56:45.000 but I don't want that story anymore

00:56:46.320 you know I want something different

00:56:48.160 because the more I just tell that story

00:56:52.720 it's just like

00:56:53.440 you know I stay in that world

00:56:58.500 I stay in that cycle

00:56:59.720 for me and I think

00:57:02.340 yeah so I want to have

00:57:04.880 and it's scary to say that I want to have a new story

00:57:07.300 because I'm so used to like

00:57:08.840 how those other feelings work

00:57:10.840 I know who to be angry at

00:57:12.060 I know how to operate here

00:57:13.760 and I know how to operate there

00:57:14.820 and I know who to not give love to

00:57:16.560 and I

00:57:17.320 you know

00:57:19.620 I know how to make like love

00:57:27.780 like very conditional

00:57:28.740 I know how to like

00:57:29.580 do all these

00:57:30.680 I know how to navigate

00:57:31.620 to get this fucked up vehicle

00:57:34.340 down the street

00:57:35.040 you know

00:57:37.540 but I think I want a new story, dude

00:57:41.740 and it's crazy for me to even say that

00:57:43.280 but yeah, I think I want a new story

00:57:46.940 and so that's one thing

00:57:53.880 that I'm asking God for

00:57:54.960 yeah, I'm asking God for a new story, right

00:57:58.660 I'm asking God for the next part of me

00:58:01.040 you know, and being okay with saying

00:58:06.400 And I'm not, I, you know, like these days, you know, my mother and I have a great relationship

00:58:11.560 and we, and I, I love my mother.

00:58:15.800 There's nothing I want more than my mother to be happy, you know?

00:58:23.200 And it's funny because as she gets older, she kind of turns in a little bit more like

00:58:26.180 a child sometimes.

00:58:27.180 and the roles kind of like,

00:58:36.120 I guess they switch a little bit

00:58:37.460 and you get to try to be what you needed in a way

00:58:46.380 and it's pretty cool and that's a gift.

00:58:48.360 That's a gift from God, I think.

00:58:53.240 And so, yeah, I want to be able to,

00:58:55.020 I just want to be able to

00:58:57.480 I don't know

00:58:59.960 I don't even know what I'm telling you dude

00:59:01.260 Jesus Christ

00:59:02.000 this guy's got

00:59:03.280 this guy's got to be like

00:59:04.220 God why'd I call this idiot

00:59:05.420 yeah so I think

00:59:13.480 anyway that's what's been helping me

00:59:14.860 like

00:59:15.180 and I never thought I would be saying some of this stuff

00:59:18.380 but I'm glad that I am

00:59:19.960 because I just

00:59:20.760 I'm ready for a new story

00:59:21.920 i'm ready for a new story and i'm ready for like

00:59:27.380 yeah and the scary part is i don't i like is who will i be if i let go of these things that i've

00:59:35.080 always done and known some of these behaviors if i even can let go of some of them and and i know

00:59:41.320 i'm not going to get anything right or whatever not there's no like it's just like oh i don't

00:59:48.120 know, man. I don't even know what I'm saying. I'm kind of tired. Um, what, what can I, what

00:59:58.220 can I suggest? Do you think Trevon or offer some thought? Do you have any thought about

01:00:01.820 any of this? I think it's, it's really hard. And I think praying is a great first step

01:00:07.180 if you don't know where to go or how to break a cycle. Yeah. Yeah. That, that, that, that's

01:00:13.000 it. I just like, yeah, I just start like, that's, that's something that's helped me

01:00:15.940 is I just started praying,

01:00:16.920 but I started praying as honestly as I could

01:00:21.820 and even honest past that.

01:00:29.500 Like, God, these behaviors I don't like of mine,

01:00:33.720 will you help me?

01:00:34.600 Even though I know that I might do them again,

01:00:38.180 even though I know I want to do them again,

01:00:39.580 will you come into the parts of me

01:00:40.640 that want to do these behaviors again and help me there?

01:00:43.480 will you come just will you come you know will you come all the way to the

01:00:49.480 i mean will you come to the like past the roots

01:00:56.680 and yeah and it's just like i don't know i and it's crazy to think that i i could like

01:01:10.320 I could have a, like, I don't know.

01:01:20.980 Yeah, I don't know.

01:01:21.680 A lot of it's scary to me.

01:01:22.780 And some of this isn't making sense.

01:01:24.020 And I'm sorry, man.

01:01:24.680 I think I'm just getting kind of burnt out.

01:01:26.240 It's been a, it's been a, I don't know what it's been.

01:01:30.940 But I just, I'm glad that you care about what's going on.

01:01:34.440 And yeah, to get out of the cycle, man, it's hard.

01:01:36.900 and to show up for myself.

01:01:39.940 Other things that I've been doing

01:01:40.860 is I've been getting up early.

01:01:42.240 I've been doing some yoga.

01:01:43.440 I've been doing a workout at home.

01:01:47.440 I went and played basketball the other day

01:01:49.040 with some friends.

01:01:49.560 I hadn't done that in years, man.

01:01:50.520 And you know what?

01:01:51.160 I felt good.

01:01:51.920 I left out of there.

01:01:52.580 I went to an AA meeting

01:01:53.540 and I started,

01:01:55.000 just like, I'm not bragging.

01:01:56.380 I'm just saying I started getting active.

01:01:59.740 You know?

01:02:02.220 And I started coming to my own rescue

01:02:03.960 a little bit.

01:02:05.900 But I started just showing up for myself.

01:02:08.000 And if I told somebody I'm going to do something, then I came and did it.

01:02:13.820 And I've never done that a lot in my life.

01:02:16.240 But for the past few weeks, I've been doing it.

01:02:18.700 And when I say something and then I do it, there's a part of me that hears that, right?

01:02:27.840 And there's a part of me that starts to have like, okay, this guy is, he's somebody who says he's going to do something and he does it.

01:02:33.360 and so that

01:02:35.000 then part of me

01:02:36.000 starts to build up

01:02:36.780 that it's like I'm

01:02:37.420 it's like I'm building

01:02:38.580 somebody new man

01:02:39.780 and I'm not trying

01:02:42.800 to challenge you or anything

01:02:43.580 I'm just telling you

01:02:44.240 kind of what's been

01:02:44.760 working for me

01:02:45.420 and yeah I know

01:02:49.780 anyway this shit's

01:02:50.580 all over the place

01:02:51.280 plenty of my vape

01:02:56.700 you know

01:02:57.100 I wish the church

01:02:58.400 made vapes dude

01:02:59.240 those things

01:03:00.280 would slap

01:03:01.840 is that bad

01:03:04.960 trying to say that

01:03:05.780 they're based

01:03:06.580 in like catholic church

01:03:07.520 they got the incense

01:03:08.360 they're basically

01:03:08.940 they've been vaping

01:03:10.280 oh dang

01:03:11.820 yeah let me get

01:03:13.540 a little bit

01:03:14.020 dude if they freaking

01:03:14.980 had a you know

01:03:15.900 I got that frankincense

01:03:17.600 3000 puffs

01:03:19.100 homie that thing

01:03:19.640 would be popping

01:03:20.520 but yeah I don't know

01:03:23.720 I've just like

01:03:24.300 I've sat in rooms

01:03:25.520 and been in meetings

01:03:26.300 and done this for

01:03:27.020 like done that cycle

01:03:28.420 a long time

01:03:28.960 and right now

01:03:29.520 something's feeling

01:03:30.140 a little bit different

01:03:30.700 and it's scary for me

01:03:31.400 to even say that because there's a part of me that doesn't want things to be different,

01:03:35.120 but there's a part of me that's growing that wants to have a new story for me.

01:03:39.500 And I didn't think I could have a new story, you know, I think maybe in my head I did and

01:03:45.060 shit, but in my heart, I didn't think that.

01:03:47.900 And so, yeah, but yeah, thanks for calling dude.

01:03:53.400 And thanks for, um, thinking of us.

01:03:55.400 And yeah, I don't know the answer to how to get out of the cycle.

01:03:58.340 I don't know.

01:03:58.980 and if I ever get all the way out

01:04:02.180 I promise I'll share it with you

01:04:04.520 but

01:04:07.620 yeah thanks for hitting the hotline

01:04:10.260 and

01:04:11.340 and yeah just thinking out loud

01:04:14.400 and just thanks for being honest bro

01:04:15.640 I felt like your call was really honest

01:04:17.140 like this is what's going on

01:04:18.780 and I'm tired of it and what can I do

01:04:21.240 and I wish I had the answers for you

01:04:23.260 you know

01:04:27.080 I wish I had the answers for you

01:04:28.900 But that's all I got.

01:04:33.920 All right, let's hear this call.

01:04:36.920 Hi, Theo.

01:04:38.000 This is Quinn.

01:04:39.660 Big fan of the show.

01:04:41.620 I just wanted to share a Bible verse with you.

01:04:45.060 Ecclesiastes 311.

01:04:47.520 It's brought me a lot of comfort because the way things are lately, it's been pretty weird, pretty scary.

01:04:56.060 Amen, bro.

01:04:57.160 It's weirder than that.

01:04:58.900 homeward and um i know that people who care deeply can can kind of be affected by that fear deeply

01:05:07.260 so anyway the bible verse is this um he has made everything beautiful in his time and he's put

01:05:14.220 eternity into the human heart and no man can know his plan from beginning to end that's pretty close

01:05:20.580 it's funny i got nervous for a voicemail but anyway um everything is beautiful in god's time

01:05:28.520 And even if that's a reality we don't live in right now, it will be a reality because God promises us that he'll make it beautiful.

01:05:36.740 And I know you've got eternity in your heart.

01:05:38.920 You've got that eternity mindset, and you spread a lot of light.

01:05:42.820 So I know things are weird, but it's all going to be good.

01:05:49.420 So anywho, I feel silly leaving this, but I hope you have a great day, and thanks for what you do.

01:05:56.400 Bye.

01:05:58.520 type shit king uh that it almost like that was like that like what if that was like the kid me

01:06:06.040 calling back and telling me this and yeah we have to just do our best you know and pray

01:06:12.760 i'm praying that god like helps me be a warrior you know i'm praying that god helps me be a warrior

01:06:20.420 you know because we might need we might need people that are that are that can be warriors

01:06:27.420 Now, I'm not going to be like one of the front warriors, dude.

01:06:29.920 I will be a warrior in the back.

01:06:31.580 You heard me, bro?

01:06:33.060 I'll be a warrior in the back eating chips and talking shit, boy.

01:06:37.620 But still, bro, you still qualified.

01:06:40.300 You can get that warrior payment.

01:06:41.680 You still get that warrior check, that W check, bro.

01:06:45.680 So I'll get that shit.

01:06:48.640 But, yeah, thank you guys for being a part of the episode.

01:06:52.160 You guys be good to yourselves.

01:06:53.980 You deserve it.

01:06:54.920 and um yeah just thanks for giving me a place where i can come and share about things and that

01:07:00.100 we can come and we can share about things and uh yeah that's all i got trevin anything you want to

01:07:07.040 say not much from me it was a great one and uh yeah check out the movie if you guys can busboys

01:07:12.720 movie.com thanks trevin and yeah and i was thinking this spring that's the thing man you

01:07:18.240 know like a spring is a time for a new story you know so and i don't even know if i can stick with

01:07:24.460 this some of these behaviors that are making me feel different i don't know even know if i can

01:07:27.980 so i'm scared even to really talk about it to be honest with you

01:07:32.000 but i don't know so many times i've been in spaces i've been afraid to say that i feel like there's

01:07:38.760 a possibility for something new for me i've been afraid to really say that and then i end up in the

01:07:43.580 same spot so i think i'm at least just trying something different today and if that's you know

01:07:49.640 If at the very least that's all that is, then I'm trying something different,

01:07:55.320 trying something new.

01:07:57.620 You guys be good to yourselves, baby.

01:07:58.940 You deserve it.

01:07:59.720 Praise God, baby.

01:08:00.680 I'm upstairs.

01:08:01.400 I'm upstairs.

01:08:19.640 Feel it in my bones

01:08:22.480 But it's gonna tell you

This Past Weekend with Theo Von - April 20, 2026

#654 - Something New

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