This Past Weekend with Theo Von - September 19, 2026


#684 - Bad Haircut

#683 - Neil deGrasse Tyson

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Length

1 hour and 13 minutes

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157.89

Word count

11,583

Sentence count

332

People

Hosts:
Theo Von
Guests:
Bad Haircut
Also mentioned:
Rick Nicolas Cage Miss Rachel Ed Sheeran Macklemore McRib Luca Ashley Madison Cooling Pond Robert Kraft Jamie First Bizzle Onward Trevin Zita Dude

Harmful content

Misogyny

13

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Toxicity

195

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Hate speech

130

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Transcript

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00:00:30.000 all um fuck I don't know how to you ever just don't even know how to start 0.98
00:00:38.020 the day or a sentence or a relationship or anything does anybody else ever do you have that 0.99
00:00:50.260 I don't know just like yeah that's how I'm just having that day it's like I don't know
00:00:56.180 ah, okay, y'all, just, yeah, I don't, yeah, so, so when you can't start something, it's
00:01:05.100 kind of weird, you just kind of have to just, like, it's almost like if you were watching
00:01:09.400 a guy batting in a baseball game, he's in the batter's box, and he just runs straight
00:01:15.400 to second base, and people are like, okay, then that's how it's going to begin, so, and
00:01:21.660 that's how we're going to begin today guys uh without a beginning because that's where we are
00:01:28.720 um it is the year 2026 uh i got a bad haircut not sure if anybody can even tell to be honest
00:01:38.300 with you i'll show it to you you can see it it's just you know it looks southern amish is kind of
00:01:48.420 I think it has kind of a Southern Amish energy, which is, you know, yeah, it's like, oh, you,
00:01:53.540 you know, you churn your own butter and you, you churn your own sister, don't you? Just like,
00:01:58.340 you know, I think it can be alarming to people. It's alarming to me. That was it.
00:02:04.020 And I think some people are like, well, dude, your hair, you know, 0.98
00:02:07.200 your hair generally looks like shit and that's fine, you know, but it's my, it's like, 0.92
00:02:13.420 i don't know the guy cut it away that i didn't want it and so it just you know i'm okay if it 0.99
00:02:22.200 looks like shit if it's the way i want it to look like if it's i if as long as it's the way i want 0.94
00:02:27.520 it to look like shit you know i'd said and he was a nice guy right but i'd said like i'd want a half 0.99
00:02:33.620 inch off and the first thing he does is just rip two inches off of everywhere and you're if you're 0.97
00:02:42.240 a guy like me who you know does it isn't overall familiar with a lot of inches you notice when you 0.99
00:02:50.240 suddenly lose two of them bitches dude and so i was just like i was in new york city and you know 0.99
00:02:57.840 it's a time where i was gonna be out and about and walking around and like yeah i just got into 0.99
00:03:03.660 like just haircut shame dude and frustration i felt like even the birds wouldn't look at me 0.96
00:03:10.260 you ever have like that where you're just like even the fucking birds won't even like even a 0.98
00:03:16.140 stream like if you're walking through a park even the stream kind of flows the other way 0.99
00:03:20.340 it just like that's the effect it had on me i just like i i'm okay if i look like shit it just 0.99
00:03:30.120 i want to look like the type of shit that i want to look like and it freaking pissed me off 0.97
00:03:38.120 it freaking pissed me off dude and i don't get that angry much but it pissed me off 0.99
00:03:43.540 and i just wanted to honestly dude i just wanted to pull my wiener off and fucking 1.00
00:03:48.940 and just fucking just hum it into a into a crowd of people just fucking skip that bitch you know 1.00
00:03:57.000 people skip it across a lake i just wanted to just skip that bitch right off the top of a crowd 1.00
00:04:01.880 just bing bing bing bing just hit a fucking bunch of people even hit a fucking guy in a wheelchair 1.00
00:04:07.780 or whatever i don't give a shit that's how that's how i was feeling dude i don't care if it hits 1.00
00:04:12.840 hits a fucking woman or a native american i don't care i don't care or just somebody with braids 0.99
00:04:19.360 let's just say that then but i just i i don't know it just like i don't know now i'm feeling 1.00
00:04:24.720 upset that i'm upset but i so i but for like a week i was just dealing with like haircut shame
00:04:32.840 you know and sometimes when i get angry i wish my because like all my like my angst it just
00:04:40.740 somehow it ends there's this feeling and i want to detach this sounds crazy but i want to detach 0.95
00:04:46.640 my wiener and just hum that bitch out into a chorus or a crowd of people just singing in the 0.97
00:04:52.280 street and one of them just gets they get clipped right in the jaw with it and they're like what 1.00
00:04:57.300 was that? I guess a D sharp bitch. Okay. Get on tune cut. Cause shit, sometimes things suck and 1.00
00:05:07.180 you just want to, you just want to throw your wiener. I don't know why my wiener, I just want 1.00
00:05:11.540 to throw my wiener at somebody. Yeah. And I'm sorry if I, and I'm sorry if that's offending
00:05:16.720 some people. I don't, I don't care today, dude. I do not care today. I do care, but I'm saying I
00:05:24.920 don't yeah i've just always wanted that i just always wanted my wiener to come off of me
00:05:30.480 it just like i don't know sometimes it feels like that's where some of my madness lives
00:05:36.260 so um but you'd only be able to detach it when you're angry right it would only
00:05:44.860 that would be how because otherwise guys would kind of take advantage of the situation they'd
00:05:50.580 be like some lazy guy would just be like you know he doesn't want to like get his dog a toy or
00:05:55.720 something so he would just just keep throwing his wiener down the he just keeps throwing that
00:06:00.500 down the street or whatever and the dog would run and get it or whatever but then the dog would
00:06:05.760 escape with it one day and that would be the tough part and then you have to like kind of
00:06:11.620 wander around town you're like yeah have you seen have you seen like an australian shepherd with
00:06:16.460 with a small wiener in its mouth um anyway yeah i'm just complaining about my haircut so
00:06:26.220 and then dude i made the mistake i'll say this of complaining about my haircut
00:06:32.100 to a bald friend has anybody done that's do not do that man i call my buddy shane he's like 0.89
00:06:40.880 and i'm talking i'm just like dude i'm fucking pissed you know and the hair cutter he was 0.91
00:06:46.200 nice but he just he did like i told him and then at the end he's like sorry kind of my ego got the 0.92
00:06:51.640 best of me and i'm just like you're what do you i have to wander around now looking like this
00:06:58.400 you know and it's getting better i agree 0.95
00:07:01.480 but i i just looked like a cat i don't know i felt like a fucking cactus in a halfway house 0.96
00:07:10.020 or something i just i don't know i just felt like i fucking just wanted to rub methadone 0.98
00:07:15.680 into my scalp. I just, it didn't feel good. But yeah, I call my bald friend. That's the 0.86
00:07:24.960 worst idea. And halfway through the conversation, I realized, fuck, dude, Shane is bald. And 1.00
00:07:31.160 he's like, oh man, I hear you, dude. He's like, I remember, he's like, I remember we
00:07:36.380 had a science project do. And I remember making this volcano. And then I remember looking
00:07:41.580 down at it and some of my hair had fallen out onto it. And he's like, and I was nine
00:07:46.500 years old. I'm like, oh fuck, this is, this conversation is going to be longer than I 0.98
00:07:54.360 expected. He's like, yeah, I remember my grandmother had a hairless cat and, uh, and I was petting 0.99
00:08:01.460 it and snuggling with it. And then one time I looked down and it had hair on it and it
00:08:06.480 was my hair and I was only 11. All right. Uh, gotta go Shane. Um, so that, so that conversation
00:08:18.140 took a hit a real cul-de-sac, you know, cause I just, I don't know. It's just like, I don't
00:08:26.940 know. And the guy didn't mean to do it. And it's, it is what it is. There's much, there's
00:08:32.420 bigger things there's bigger fish to fry that's what they always say there's bigger fish to fry 0.80
00:08:38.100 than that are there fucking bigger fish to fry than that so anybody who's ever had a bad haircut 0.89
00:08:46.460 man that i just i feel you it hurts because then you'll be talking to somebody and you'll see you 0.94
00:08:53.600 you're looking them in the eyes and you see them glance one half of a degree up and you're just 0.97
00:08:59.640 like, oh, they fucking know what's going on. And you feel like, because you look like 0.93
00:09:08.560 a fucking child because a child is the one who usually just cuts their own hair. And 1.00
00:09:17.140 suddenly you're wandering around with just fucking with child hair and you run a business 0.99
00:09:26.340 or whatever. Are you, people trust you to make their smoothie or whatever it is or to babysit 0.99
00:09:31.880 or to be a nanny or to bury their friends or whatever. And they see your hair and they're
00:09:38.160 like, fuck man. It's just, it's crazy. An extra inch on the bangs and people lose all 1.00
00:09:45.760 trust in you on a man, on a male, on an adult male. And so sometimes I just want to fucking 0.99
00:09:54.140 take my wiener off and fucking hum it right into the fucking galaxy and see if mother nature will 1.00
00:10:03.080 catch it in her fucking mouth. Cause I'm, cause sometimes I'm pissed off. So, and I'm sorry for 1.00
00:10:09.340 that. Uh, in other news, uh, me and two of my buddies, my buddy Bizzle and my buddy Zita,
00:10:16.680 we rented a camper and we just we went up through kentucky um iowa illinois and michigan
00:10:25.920 and did a run there probably drove about 3 000 miles and the company that we rented from uh
00:10:33.540 it's it was called right and i don't know if it was the camper that we got i mean i guess it was
00:10:42.540 it was like every bump we hit in that thing every little crack in the pavement it was like
00:10:49.700 ba-dang ba-dang ba-dang ba-dang and you'd think the next bump you're like oh it's not gonna make
00:10:57.740 that sound again you're like ba-dang ba-dang and every bump we hit dude it turned into a nightmare
00:11:05.540 you would see like like the whole thing it was like a bunch of kids had put it together
00:11:11.160 the night before it was like a last minute school project that they put together with tape and hope
00:11:17.780 and just gooning right it was like a bunch of high school kids had just put this thing together 0.99
00:11:23.800 with fucking goon lube right it was just every turn we would do it was like the fucking screen 0.98
00:11:30.360 would fly across the room or the windowsill would just jump out of a cabinet and just try to take 0.99
00:11:35.540 its own life like we lost probably 75 different bolts uh spoons every bump you would hit or turn 0.63
00:11:45.620 a spoon or just a flock of spoons would fucking fly through the air i think they were heading to 0.98
00:11:52.640 florida or whatever because it's getting colder it was a fucking nightmare dude it was a nightmare 0.98
00:12:00.460 There was like an ambulance following us at one point for no reason. 0.98
00:12:04.980 Nobody called it.
00:12:05.920 They just knew, they knew in their hearts that we were not doing good. 0.99
00:12:10.960 But, dude, every bump we would hit a fucking, you'd hit it again and the light fixture would fall out or the fucking, the oven would turn on and immediately go to 7,000 degrees and just start sucking off a shower head in there or whatever. 0.98
00:12:24.740 Nothing made it, just everything in there. 1.00
00:12:27.420 we left one third of that thing we left on i-65 or i-40 or i don't give a fuck we left that bitch 0.99
00:12:36.620 everywhere there were animals migrating into it there were animals moving in and out of it 0.98
00:12:41.960 um there was like some something had been gestating in the back near the bed there was
00:12:46.840 aa meetings and there was like a halfway house group had moved in for a little while
00:12:51.040 anyway i'm just saying it was a it was a nightmare dude but we huddled up in the front
00:13:00.720 and we made it through every single moment we had towels stuffed in every little crevice
00:13:07.140 in that thing do we put it i mean there wasn't all the blankets any clothing we had brought we
00:13:14.660 had to use to stuff in a crack or in this. And the door would just, just like the whole time
00:13:21.740 you were driving. It had a door and then a screen door. And then the screen door had like a little
00:13:26.460 thing inside of it, like another screen door. And it just, they all just, I don't know if the whole
00:13:33.080 thing was just screaming for help. I don't even know. It was like, say if somebody took a auto
00:13:40.280 zone right and turned it upside down and put it in the back of your fucking car and made you drive 0.96
00:13:48.780 over 72 000 speed bumps for no reason at all anyway with that said it brought us closer together i 0.99
00:13:58.300 think and and physically it did because we had to all huddle in the front because we were just 1.00
00:14:03.620 scared to once that silverware drawer opened it was just fucking you hit one curve and a damn 0.99
00:14:11.160 knife would fly right by you or two spoons would fly by through the air and they would just be 1.00
00:14:16.120 doing it doggy style or whatever you're like what the fuck it was a lot praise god praise be to god 0.98
00:14:22.960 and thank you god for being with us um but with that said man we had a we had a wonderful time 0.99
00:14:29.980 uh and we did get tetanus shots just to make sure everybody was okay but damn 0.86
00:14:37.820 yeah if you don't know what it was like go home to your house okay 0.85
00:14:42.640 go home to your house right and open up don't even open up the silverware drawer open the drawer 0.99
00:14:51.420 next to the silverware drawer the one that just has the tongs and the fuck and like the corn like 0.97
00:14:56.540 the corncob holder and just 0.97
00:14:58.680 like the hairspray. It's like
00:15:00.040 that one that has tape
00:15:02.180 and pictures of missing children.
00:15:04.340 The one that has like the BTK starter
00:15:06.620 kit in it. The one that
00:15:08.640 has like all your grill
00:15:10.480 go get that one that has batteries 0.99
00:15:12.880 and fucking bad 0.99
00:15:14.620 dreams in it. Go open that drawer 1.00
00:15:16.520 at your house and then 0.99
00:15:18.500 slam your head into it 400 0.84
00:15:20.600 and 200 times and 1.00
00:15:22.500 50 times you little fucking piece of shit. 1.00
00:15:26.540 and that is what it was like, but there's no way, bro, the calcium loss alone from our bones from 1.00
00:15:40.640 just dealing with that, unbelievable, I'm sure I'll need cartilage work, but praise be to God
00:15:46.180 that we made it through it, and we had a great time, we did get to go to the Field of Dreams
00:15:50.760 baseball game and that was versus minnesota and the phillies and they gave me a hat they gave me
00:15:56.660 a twins hat um and so that was nice um and we went fishing with my buddies up there in uh wyoming
00:16:06.700 illinois up there that was great we saw a car show up there as well my mother's from up there
00:16:13.060 and we stopped up there and went fishing and i think we fished in like a like a data center
00:16:18.440 Cooling Pond or whatever
00:16:21.300 And I caught a bunch of old data
00:16:23.920 I caught some emails
00:16:24.980 I caught a couple of emails
00:16:27.560 From a data leak
00:16:28.500 From when they had that
00:16:29.400 What was the one
00:16:32.700 Where they busted the guy
00:16:35.780 The religious guy or whatever
00:16:38.980 17 children or whatever 0.55
00:16:42.100 Looking for Hole or whatever
00:16:45.800 What was that place called?
00:16:47.300 Are you talking about Ashley Madison? 0.96
00:16:48.440 yes so we caught a yeah we just went fishing it was a you know it was a data leak pond you know 0.99
00:16:55.600 that's what that you know a lot of runoff from these data centers that's what it will be fishing
00:16:59.940 and eventually you'll just you'll go fishing in a in data runoff and you'll catch old episodes of
00:17:07.440 shows or you'll catch a you know a data leak of you know and we caught some ashley madison emails
00:17:13.960 um my buddy caught like a it was like a it was about probably a like a three gigabyte excel sheet
00:17:23.620 a spreadsheet he caught that and uh and that might have been a pond record i'm not sure
00:17:29.780 but um yeah and i caught some other we caught some shit we threw back a couple old seinfeld
00:17:34.820 episodes that were on blu-ray uh just some seinfeld downloads um well we catch some old 0.90
00:17:43.500 vine episodes just basic data it's just data shit you know my buddy also caught a um i guess this
00:17:49.840 they had some myspace pages and shit that we threw back um but yeah had a good time over there
00:17:56.720 and um yeah then the midwest do we went atv and that was great and uh and in the end we went atv
00:18:06.100 over there in michigan and dude i hadn't been atv and we got there and my buddy he was like oh
00:18:13.360 hey man i'm sorry the track's all muddy you know it's been raining here and we was out rural we
00:18:20.200 was out rural out where you know goddamn aware there's just way out out past all the basketball
00:18:27.400 hoops you know i'm talking about rural out in a place called marcellus michigan but there you 0.84
00:18:35.220 i promise you wasn't gonna find a dude named marcellus around there um but we were out there
00:18:40.600 dude and we went atv and my buddy's like man sorry it rained a lot bro we it was so wet dude
00:18:47.120 we just like it was maybe one of the funnest things i'd ever done
00:18:51.100 just hitting mud and we had some mud it had so much stink in it it was just like god had been
00:19:01.920 just, just, just doo-dooing in this mud. It just smelled like God had just been doo-dooing in this
00:19:10.280 mud. And when those tires would go through, it just, just the fucking bowels of Christ would 1.00
00:19:17.800 open up and just hit you right in the fucking snout, honky. Anyway, uh, but that was great. 1.00
00:19:24.940 And then one of the neatest things I ever got to do, man, I want to say this.
00:19:27.980 we got to go on a cruise down the Chicago River through the downtown we went right through the
00:19:36.660 downtown man and we even we stuck a cup out of the boat and even all hit a cup of water right
00:19:42.500 there this is like a commemorative moment and uh but dude going through I'd never gone through a
00:19:48.560 huge city on a on a on a riverway man it was it was one of the neatest things ever gotten to do
00:19:56.580 If you ever get to do it, that's something I suggest.
00:20:01.660 And then, yeah, we stopped at just random gas stations here and there.
00:20:05.060 And it was fun, man.
00:20:06.380 Honestly, it was one of the best things that I got to do.
00:20:09.320 Just, you know, just sheer joy. 0.65
00:20:11.140 Because sometimes when things are ridiculous, too.
00:20:13.600 But days, but days.
00:20:17.720 It makes it more fun, you know.
00:20:19.820 It makes it more fun.
00:20:22.600 And we just hit that corn, man.
00:20:23.980 We went all through the corn areas, bro. 1.00
00:20:25.500 everybody in that bitch they had steamed corn corn on the cob corn on your cousin they had 1.00
00:20:31.920 all of that shit i was like you got you guys you got any spinach so like we got green corn 1.00
00:20:37.520 so it was just like that homie um but yeah it was it was great and uh i had a great time with 0.98
00:20:50.620 my friends well i'll put pictures on the youtube if you get to look at that so you can see some of
00:20:54.900 it. And, um, yeah, that's what's going on. Uh, what else in other news? Uh, Macklemore was let
00:21:07.100 go from the Ed Sheeran tour. I'm sure you guys heard about that. Um, he had spoken out on stage
00:21:12.740 about free Palestine. Uh, he'd spoken out about Gaza and the genocide happening and he had played
00:21:19.640 his song Heinz Hall, and he'd had imagery on the screen of the atrocities that have been occurring
00:21:25.840 over there. The Patriots owner, Robert Kraft, who owns Gillette Stadium, where the tour was
00:21:32.420 eventually heading, decided that he didn't want that sort of communication happening at his venue,
00:21:41.260 and McLemore was removed from the tour. As well, Ed Sheeran's band dropped out. It's been a big
00:21:48.440 fallout. And I've been thinking about it, kind of not even thinking, just kind of feeling about
00:21:54.960 it, I guess, because, you know, Macklemore lost his job because he spoke up, right? Because he
00:22:04.860 said something, right? I mean, it feels like this is probably the biggest atrocity that we've
00:22:13.400 witnessed in our lifetime, um, on our phones, right. Seeing the, the killings and the people
00:22:19.920 getting murdered and the children getting killed and the weaponry. And we had a doctor on who was
00:22:24.680 talking about children getting shot right down through their bodies from drones. It's like
00:22:29.380 the Israeli government. And I want to say the government, not the people of Israel. 0.95
00:22:34.140 I'm not talking about them. I'm not talking about Jewish people, but the Israeli government has 0.97
00:22:38.800 turned Gaza into like a video game, basically for killing people. You know, it's like, it's just,
00:22:45.940 it's, it's this first person shooter. They have all this technology and, and, and, and more
00:22:51.700 specifically the killing of children, right? I mean, the killing of children. And every time
00:22:57.520 that it's like Hamas is hiding, that's Hamas. And it's like, that's a four month old. What
00:23:05.200 how can he can't even walk he couldn't even walk into a hamas office and sign up you know they're
00:23:12.640 like he's hiding or something like what is he he's hiding behind what his own tears because
00:23:17.480 his mother is missing like what are we even talking about sometimes like i think that's what
00:23:25.220 like i don't know it's just like and and we scroll past it right we scroll past it on our phones i do
00:23:32.640 it i do it too you know just because there's like a new trend on tiktok or it's you know it's like
00:23:39.740 there's a new sale on this new hat or it's like oh have you seen this thing this water filter gets
00:23:45.680 um uh leprosy out of your shower head or whatever and you're like all right you know or there'll be 1.00
00:23:52.800 a tiktok trend and it's like you know it's like boosting bitches where y'all at you know or i 1.00
00:23:58.800 need a 10 piece lemon pepper gaza city what the fuck going bro you can't even get a 10 piece 1.00
00:24:05.400 lemon pepper in the gaza because they stopped the fucking food shippings they won't let any 0.99
00:24:12.900 calories in there while they hunt down children they killed every reporter who was trying to 0.99
00:24:22.160 report on the war like what are we even talking about sometimes i don't know i don't fucking 0.53
00:24:29.460 even know sometimes i'm like just what is going on you know and we see it on our phone it's like 0.92
00:24:36.960 you just become immune to it it's like here's just another legless arab kid that some family 0.88
00:24:43.740 is babysitting now in texas or and it's like a i think it's like a test you know it's a test to 1.00
00:24:49.680 see, like how much like uncomfort can we handle before we have, before we say something, right?
00:24:56.020 Like how much, how uncomfortable can it be? And I'm not calling anybody out. Like everybody's
00:25:02.900 busy. People are just trying to survive, right? The cost of rent has tripled over the past
00:25:07.740 70 years or something. I think we saw like, not even that 50 years that it's like tripled and
00:25:14.700 the minimum wage is not kept up with it. It's like people are living in a spot where they're
00:25:18.940 just trying to make ends meet. I get it, you know? But it does feel like we're under this
00:25:25.520 weird test of like, how much pain can we witness? I mean, even Miss Rachel said something,
00:25:33.580 Miss Rachel, dude, big, somebody said that Big Bird said something that he took his head
00:25:38.460 off the other day and he's, he's just like, this has got to stop, you know? But I just
00:25:43.340 like, and I'm not judging anybody here. I'm just fucking, I'm, I'm, I'm just, I can't help but be 0.92
00:25:50.160 alive. And like, I'm in this fishbowl and at least like you just see the other fish around 0.96
00:25:58.180 you are getting fucking murdered and their families are not only getting murdered, but like 0.99
00:26:03.560 the use of like fancy technology. But then we, we just get placated. Something happens in society 1.00
00:26:12.740 and we just, like, you know, the McRib comes back
00:26:14.920 and we're like, oh, the McRib is back.
00:26:20.800 You know, or there's a new, like, Marvel, 0.71
00:26:23.060 you know, or Spider-Man's gay now or something. 1.00
00:26:27.240 Like, oh, man. 1.00
00:26:29.480 I can't barely digest my McRib
00:26:31.700 because Spider-Man's dealing with so much, you know,
00:26:35.400 or there's another dunk contest
00:26:36.840 or there's a, they found a possum 0.99
00:26:40.200 that fucking gave birth to a salmon somewhere 0.99
00:26:43.320 in Zaire or something, 1.00
00:26:46.440 and there's a picture of that, you know?
00:26:48.900 Or someone saw a picture of, like, Mary of Nazareth
00:26:51.640 in a piece of Texas toast somewhere,
00:26:54.440 and that takes over your feed,
00:26:56.880 and you're like, God, I want to eat that.
00:26:59.540 I want to eat that thing, you know?
00:27:04.340 And it's like, yeah, I don't know.
00:27:05.660 It's just like, I just don't even know
00:27:07.280 what's going on some days, man.
00:27:08.640 and if you think i'm crazy or whatever that's fine like i'm back here's the crazy part i'm back 0.71
00:27:13.020 on my meds i'm back on my meds and i and like and i'm not even fucking talking about anything i just 0.51
00:27:23.200 like at a certain point you just you're just like what what is going on 0.81
00:27:28.160 they're just killing kid every other day they blew this kid up like he was hiding or whatever
00:27:34.860 Like that kid was hiding.
00:27:36.760 Dude, there was a kid the other day, he was hiding behind his hands.
00:27:39.640 He was playing hide and go seek.
00:27:43.080 He was hiding behind his hands, counting to 10.
00:27:49.060 And while the other kids ran to hide behind the bodies of their relatives,
00:27:54.420 thankfully, there's enough bodies, slain bodies of their relatives,
00:27:58.840 where they can stack them up now so they can play hide and go seek behind them.
00:28:04.860 and they have to play slowly,
00:28:07.580 and they can only play once every two weeks
00:28:09.140 because they don't have enough calories in their body
00:28:11.840 to play more than that. 1.00
00:28:15.880 But the kid is fucking hiding behind his hands, 1.00
00:28:19.160 counting to 10, 0.99
00:28:21.200 and they're like, he's Hamas, 1.00
00:28:22.720 and they fucking kill him. 1.00
00:28:27.220 And people are like, 1.00
00:28:28.240 and this is the thing that I don't like,
00:28:31.620 and people may have different views on that,
00:28:33.640 and that's okay.
00:28:34.300 I don't need to have your view
00:28:36.460 I don't need you to have my view
00:28:37.840 I don't, I'm not a, you're right
00:28:40.080 I'm not an analyst, I don't know everything
00:28:41.820 You don't know everything, you're right, I don't
00:28:44.600 But I am a human being
00:28:47.140 And I just, at a certain point 0.91
00:28:48.960 You can't fucking 0.99
00:28:49.980 You know, you're asking me to watch 1.00
00:28:53.940 Every scary movie that ever existed
00:28:56.400 In a row, constantly, every day
00:28:58.740 And not
00:29:01.620 Raise my hand 1.00
00:29:03.380 and be like, hey, who owns this fucking theater 1.00
00:29:07.260 where they're playing this shit? 1.00
00:29:17.520 I don't know, man. 1.00
00:29:18.560 I don't even know.
00:29:22.080 Yeah, and sorry to get upset or whatever.
00:29:24.220 I got a bad haircut.
00:29:27.880 And when you get a bad haircut,
00:29:29.280 everything else comes out.
00:29:33.380 you know, and it's not, I mean,
00:29:38.460 my cousin said it's getting better, but, um, but, um, but, but, and, and, and this is one thing,
00:29:49.640 right? Like, I think something that maybe some people don't understand, like these fancy people,
00:29:55.360 these like, that a lot of people are living in fear, right? A lot of people are living in fear,
00:30:05.420 right? Because there's a country that has murdered like 20,000 children, right? I'm guessing.
00:30:11.900 I'm sorry if I'm off. I don't know the exact numbers. You're right. I'm sorry.
00:30:15.840 I don't know the exact number of children that were slaughtered, right?
00:30:20.440 but people are like why do you care I don't know I don't know why
00:30:24.920 I think it just it's not a choice I'm making it's just you feel like I don't know
00:30:33.500 you know I don't know I can't you can't help that you feel something I guess
00:30:40.080 you know because it feels scary dude that's the thing I think some people well I don't know what
00:30:45.980 some people think or do. I don't know. It feels scary to me because there's a country that's
00:30:51.660 killing like 20,000 children, right? And we're watching it. And that's a lot, right? That's a lot.
00:31:01.760 And they've taken over, this same country has used a lot of like tech companies and
00:31:10.100 and scary technology in this war in Gaza, right?
00:31:18.620 In this conflict in Gaza,
00:31:19.900 they've used a lot of crazy technology.
00:31:23.260 Some of those companies are now in bed
00:31:28.720 with American surveillance, right?
00:31:32.980 As well as the government of the country
00:31:35.760 that has, as well as the fact
00:31:38.900 that the government of the country
00:31:40.060 that's done this is, seems to own our country, right?
00:31:46.540 So I'm just saying that seems scary
00:31:50.220 that if they'll kill the people right next to them,
00:31:55.020 what would they do to people here?
00:31:59.440 You know what I'm saying?
00:32:00.460 So it's not a crazy, like, maybe it is crazy.
00:32:04.280 Maybe I am crazy.
00:32:05.980 maybe i am crazy to think that there's a country that's killing a bunch of children that i'm
00:32:13.620 watching on my phone and that country seems to kind of i don't know i don't know everything
00:32:23.140 you're right seems to own a lot of our country and a lot of our politics or have the control over
00:32:29.260 them and the same companies that are doing the technology that's part of the murdering
00:32:38.340 in Gaza are some of the same companies that have contracts in our country, surveillance
00:32:49.140 and technology contracts. 0.93
00:32:51.720 And so if they would kill their people right next door to them, it's just you get scared.
00:32:59.260 you know, because if they, if that government comes here, what will they do to us?
00:33:09.740 You know, that's the thing that it's just like, it gets real scary,
00:33:14.440 but the McRib is back.
00:33:21.180 The McRib is back and Halloween's right around the corner.
00:33:26.220 and there's a court case on tv where a woman killed some of her kids was accused of killing
00:33:33.080 some of her children and people will like are obsessed with that but meanwhile and that's fine
00:33:41.220 right and that's fine to people but meanwhile the other 20,000 something or whatever children
00:33:48.500 i don't know the exact number you're right my bad the other countless thousands of children
00:33:53.940 That are being killed on my phone
00:33:54.960 That is
00:33:55.900 You can't talk about that
00:33:59.840 So that
00:34:02.560 I don't know
00:34:03.180 If you think
00:34:04.100 Yes
00:34:04.660 It all feels like a lot
00:34:08.620 I think that's what I'm saying man
00:34:09.940 It all feels like a lot
00:34:10.880 It all feels like a lot dude
00:34:16.140 But the McRib is back 0.99
00:34:23.080 and you know that shit's hype bro 0.99
00:34:26.860 I need a 10 piece lemon pepper 1.00
00:34:30.920 Gaza City 1.00
00:34:31.800 let them get one 10 piece lemon pepper 0.61
00:34:35.080 into the kid cut
00:34:36.060 let them get one
00:34:38.820 10 piece lemon pepper 0.98
00:34:40.640 into the kids 1.00
00:34:42.440 the fucking kid 1.00
00:34:45.520 is that too much to ask 1.00
00:34:49.120 to get a 10 piece lemon pepper 0.97
00:34:51.380 into the children of Gaza? 0.96
00:34:56.360 Come on, gang. 0.84
00:34:57.860 Come on, gang.
00:35:01.540 It's just all, it's all, it's a lot.
00:35:03.880 It's confusing.
00:35:05.220 I'm not saying, and I'm part of,
00:35:07.820 I scroll past stuff sometimes.
00:35:09.420 It's too much, and I know it's a lot for everybody.
00:35:11.980 I'm not saying anything to anybody.
00:35:13.740 I'm not saying you need to do anything.
00:35:15.400 I'm just like, I don't know what I'm saying.
00:35:17.120 I'm just saying. 0.99
00:35:17.780 i'm just saying because this is where i say shit sometimes 0.98
00:35:22.260 i think you know i don't know 0.94
00:35:26.780 and if it feels like i'm pointing fingers at you yeah i'm not trying to do anything like that
00:35:32.780 you know i just like i don't know sometimes i just have to talk about how i'm feeling and 0.68
00:35:38.580 sometimes there's just nobody really to fucking talk about it too 0.66
00:35:41.340 or there is but it's like i don't know 0.77
00:35:47.260 you know this is what we've always done here so praise be man um
00:35:53.680 yeah and god thank you just for letting me exist i know that there's suffering there's always been
00:36:00.420 suffering right there's always been suffering and thank you for giving me just a place to exist
00:36:05.480 today um yeah thank you for just giving me food shelter um
00:36:16.240 Yeah
00:36:18.120 It's just a lot man
00:36:20.880 And it's painful sometimes you know
00:36:22.460 And it's just like
00:36:25.380 I don't know
00:36:25.900 And sometimes I think it's just like how we operate
00:36:28.040 Or how I operate as a person
00:36:29.720 You know it's like
00:36:32.020 I don't know
00:36:35.840 It would just seem like we're better than this
00:36:38.340 And I think it's okay to be scared 0.97
00:36:40.300 And I don't give a fuck 0.97
00:36:41.760 You know 0.99
00:36:44.140 I do
00:36:45.020 I do but I just like
00:36:49.720 I don't know 0.99
00:36:51.320 I don't like the fucking McRib 0.99
00:36:56.000 I'll say this man 1.00
00:37:00.220 it makes me think when I was a kid
00:37:01.600 and look and I understand
00:37:05.840 like I can say some stuff that people can't say
00:37:08.200 because my job isn't at risk
00:37:09.580 I work for myself
00:37:10.580 I'm sure it probably is at risk somehow
00:37:12.900 I'm sure
00:37:13.700 but I don't know that
00:37:15.600 you know and
00:37:16.260 but it just gets scary to think that we could get
00:37:19.600 into a place where you're not allowed to go
00:37:21.300 like would somebody be allowed to go
00:37:23.700 to a Patriots game if they
00:37:25.480 support
00:37:28.040 Palestine
00:37:30.040 like 0.97
00:37:30.480 are they going to start like running
00:37:33.660 an optical test on somebody to make
00:37:35.700 sure that they
00:37:36.520 you know like yeah I see
00:37:39.700 you in an Amendola jersey but do you
00:37:41.500 you know, do you support Palestine?
00:37:46.640 You know, are they just going to start saying Hamas is in the stands?
00:37:51.380 Like, it's just, you know, it's kind of, it's crazy to think.
00:37:55.940 It's just scary.
00:37:57.240 I don't know.
00:37:58.720 But, but, but that's, that's, that's the fear.
00:38:01.640 That's what my fear is.
00:38:03.080 It's like, well, if there's a country doing this,
00:38:05.460 their government is doing this and that country owns a lot of our country
00:38:08.940 or is obviously, like, who's next?
00:38:15.740 And that, like, I'm not a smart guy.
00:38:20.440 You know, I think I'm smart about a couple of things,
00:38:23.300 but I know I'm not, like, a big information guy.
00:38:30.760 So I just, I don't know.
00:38:32.280 I can't be the only one that's thinking about this
00:38:34.200 or feeling about it, you know?
00:38:36.740 I don't know.
00:38:38.080 It's okay.
00:38:38.940 it's okay
00:38:43.040 you know it's scary
00:38:45.920 and so what I'm scared 0.99
00:38:50.360 or I'm fucking you know it's uncomfortable 0.98
00:38:52.580 you know 1.00
00:38:54.660 spin that shit 1.00
00:38:58.260 spin that shit 1.00
00:38:59.640 but TikTok just serves you up 1.00
00:39:02.380 another thing you know
00:39:03.440 another down syndrome guy with a hammer or whatever 1.00
00:39:06.280 or fucking you know 1.00
00:39:07.800 The new iPhone 7000, it can tell if your brother's gay or whatever the second he, you know, looks at it or whatever. 1.00
00:39:18.920 Or the McRib or the fucking McFish or the McF***** or whatever, it's all back. 0.99
00:39:26.000 You know, here's another, another dancing with the stars. 0.99
00:39:29.340 We just found a chihuahua that can recite the Bhagavad Gita.
00:39:35.600 It just, we, every, there's so much information.
00:39:37.800 And we can't even, I can't even feel anymore half the time.
00:39:43.480 I try to have a feeling and it's just like, I need a 10 P limit pepper.
00:39:48.080 You know, it's like, I fucking close my eyes to try to get a earnest, 0.70
00:39:54.080 instinctual connection with God. 0.98
00:40:00.660 I got a pocket full of money. 1.00
00:40:02.780 Who the fuck? 0.99
00:40:03.500 And it's just like, it's just, it's a, it's a lot. 1.00
00:40:07.800 It's a lot.
00:40:10.140 So anyway, and I know I'm, look, I know I have food and a home and, um, you know, and
00:40:19.920 I know suffering has always been a part of existence.
00:40:21.940 I know that.
00:40:24.060 Uh, so yeah, sometimes it's just, it's just a lot.
00:40:31.060 It's a lot.
00:40:32.260 And I can't even imagine how much it is for other people.
00:40:34.760 because my basic needs are met um anyway or not anyway but moving on uh
00:40:45.480 what's going on personally let me check in today was like i woke up this morning i was just feeling
00:40:51.140 overwhelmed i couldn't i was like i was just feeling overwhelmed i felt like everything
00:40:56.460 needed to be perfect today i knew i was going to do a solo episode and sometimes that scares me
00:41:00.680 oh i just knew everything needed to be because i get this feeling like okay this everything
00:41:06.300 you know everything's got to be perfect i got to do everything per like i can't do this right
00:41:11.440 and the second i like like at the same time as i got to do everything perfectly the the other
00:41:16.960 feeling that goes with that is that there's no way i can do all this and i will have both of
00:41:21.780 those feelings at the exact same time and almost let them run a race next to each other and neither
00:41:27.360 one of them is going to win. But I'll have those same feelings at the same time. So I
00:41:34.520 had to go to an AA meeting. Thankfully, I didn't have to, but I went to an AA meeting
00:41:38.500 and it was really great. That just sets me into a place. Like when I go to meetings,
00:41:42.660 it sets me into a place. It just like, when a day feels impossible, it takes that impossibility
00:41:53.180 away. It takes that away. It just gives me more hope. Um, and recently, uh, I've had a tough
00:42:01.100 time, um, keeping sober days together, keeping like, or just building up a decent amount of
00:42:07.180 sober time. Um, I would continue to go to meetings. I just, it was hard for me to keep,
00:42:13.120 get like a lot of days I'd have like this much or this chunk, or it's just like, but I wasn't
00:42:17.480 really I was like I'd fallen out of my program work I'd fallen out of my contact with God
00:42:24.120 and I wasn't working with my sponsor and
00:42:29.440 or a sponsor honestly I wasn't working with a sponsor and my program just fell off and I fell
00:42:38.820 off. And I'm grateful today. Um, I got 45 days right now, 46, and I'm just grateful to have a
00:42:49.980 piece of time together where I feel just like a lot more hopeful. You know, I'd always stayed
00:42:57.660 going to meetings and I'd had bits of time and I was putting it together. I just, it was just like,
00:43:02.180 I don't know. There's a lot of like little things, stress, uh, being off my Medicaid,
00:43:07.360 just different things that may, I think made things tough, but in the end, um, it's just,
00:43:12.360 I wasn't working a program and I wasn't working with a sponsor and I wasn't being honest with,
00:43:19.600 uh, with my higher power. And so today I'm just grateful that I have that in place right now.
00:43:25.720 And then I feel more hopeful. Um, and yeah, just be it to being able to be honest. I to be
00:43:34.600 just brutally honest with my sponsor
00:43:36.640 like even if I knew part of me
00:43:38.600 in my head somewhere there was a little
00:43:40.260 like just even a little buzzing
00:43:42.800 of a mosquito in the distance of
00:43:44.540 something that I was scared of
00:43:46.520 or that I might do or that I think is wrong
00:43:48.600 with me or something
00:43:50.360 I just had to share it
00:43:51.540 and that's been like a saving grace for me
00:43:54.520 I think I've always had a tough time being like
00:44:00.540 really honest about some stuff
00:44:04.600 and i think sometimes when i'm not really honest with somebody else i it's it's it's hard for me
00:44:16.660 to be really honest with myself too you know if i can be really honest with somebody that i trust
00:44:22.380 then it i don't know it's just doing something different for me today um
00:44:27.480 yeah and i want to learn more about like the fears of what some of that is and like
00:44:34.980 but right now i'm not trying to stress myself out too much um i didn't want to talk about some of it
00:44:39.660 because i've had things in my life where i'll say like i'm doing this or i'm doing that and the
00:44:44.640 second i tell somebody about it for some reason i stopped doing it or it stops meaning something
00:44:49.980 to me or something um so yeah i'm just grateful to have this time and i'm thankful that uh
00:44:57.400 just that I can pray today and feel like, um, I have some possibility and yeah. So yeah. One day
00:45:06.860 at a time, one day at a time. Uh, let's keep it moving guys. Uh, and yeah, let's keep it moving.
00:45:19.620 Um, all right. Uh, and thank you guys for just giving me a place to work, a place to go to a
00:45:26.300 place to be alive at um yeah and yeah just grateful today to be here today um all right
00:45:37.000 let's get in a couple of calls as always the hotline is 985-664-9503 um and yeah thank you
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00:46:20.900 hey buddy boy it's chody from brooksville thank you for calling brother let's hear more
00:46:27.500 my real question is a moral one when i was growing up my dad lost his house because he
00:46:35.160 had a heart attack when i was in like second or third grade we lost a lot of our things
00:46:41.020 when he he had that heart attack and i have nothing that is his but my old house my childhood
00:46:49.480 home it has a uh stained glass jesus up in the old workshop because he was a carpenter and i know
00:46:57.540 it's there but someone recently bought the house and they only speak spanish and i tried to ask if
00:47:03.780 i could have the jesus but now i'm wondering if it's morally okay to break onto the property
00:47:10.620 and heal jesus from the abandoned where like stop or not any advice will work peace out brother i
00:47:19.260 love you bro bro bro bro let me tell you this bro you're asking if it's okay to break into a latino
00:47:28.580 home in mexicano primero a primarily mexican home and steal their jesus out of there 0.99
00:47:39.040 bro you could break into a mexican home and steal a lot of shit bro they'll probably give it to you 0.99
00:47:45.860 You feel me? 1.00
00:47:47.700 But, bro, you could break into a, you could, bro, you could sneak into a Mexican home and steal a lot of things, bro. 0.94
00:47:54.720 Possibly el queso, you know, the chorizo, you know, it's greasy, but you can get it. 0.99
00:48:03.260 You could probably steal a freaking kiss from their tia. 1.00
00:48:06.140 Yeah, but the thing you cannot break into a Mexican home and steal, dude, is their Jesus, bro. 1.00
00:48:16.800 So with that said, yeah, I think it's a good idea. 0.99
00:48:23.140 I think, oh, you're going to have to have a good strategio, that's strategy in Spanish.
00:48:30.840 You're going to need one of those, mi gente.
00:48:34.740 You're going to need that, bro.
00:48:36.300 You're going to need, because here's the thing. 1.00
00:48:39.700 A lot of Mexicanos, they work a lot, bro.
00:48:42.120 They're hardworking, right?
00:48:43.780 They're hardworking or they're praying.
00:48:45.500 They're either working or praying or celebracion.
00:48:50.640 So there's very little time when they're sleeping in there.
00:48:55.460 So if you're going to sneak in there and steal a stained glass window that has Jesus,
00:49:02.240 which is basically
00:49:02.900 which is kind of like an altar
00:49:04.220 you're going to get in there
00:49:05.680 and steal a Jesus 1.00
00:49:06.560 from a Mexican family 0.97
00:49:07.760 you got
00:49:08.480 bro
00:49:09.100 they're going to be asleep
00:49:09.920 for maybe
00:49:10.420 40 minutes
00:49:11.580 you got
00:49:13.680 40 minutes
00:49:15.100 bro 1.00
00:49:15.480 to fucking get in 1.00
00:49:16.780 and get out 1.00
00:49:17.440 you feel me
00:49:18.520 you feel me guy
00:49:20.040 ba-doosh 0.99
00:49:22.260 I think you're 1.00
00:49:23.720 you're out of your fucking mind 1.00
00:49:25.080 but with that said 1.00
00:49:26.560 yes
00:49:26.900 put on your metaglasses
00:49:27.900 stream it
00:49:28.980 stream the
00:49:30.540 abuso
00:49:31.260 I hope they stuff you with candy, bro 1.00
00:49:34.920 And fucking 1.00
00:49:35.400 But with that said 1.00
00:49:40.620 Good luck, dude
00:49:41.840 I think you got this
00:49:43.000 I think you got this, dude
00:49:45.200 I think you're going to be fine
00:49:46.080 Dude, you have 40 minutes in and out, bro
00:49:48.740 You're like Nicolas Cage, bro
00:49:50.760 You're going to be like Nicolas Cage
00:49:53.240 In the art, whatever
00:49:54.080 He steals the art or whatever
00:49:55.380 You got that, bro
00:49:57.120 Get in there 1.00
00:49:59.580 Fucking 1.00
00:50:00.400 be quiet, papa. 1.00
00:50:02.920 Be quiet in there.
00:50:04.500 Because the guy,
00:50:05.700 that guy,
00:50:08.040 the sleeping guy, 1.00
00:50:10.820 he's going to fucking wake up. 0.99
00:50:13.560 Because he got to be up for work 0.99
00:50:14.980 in five minutes anyway. 1.00
00:50:17.080 That fucking guy. 1.00
00:50:18.140 Bro, Mexican people are on, 1.00
00:50:19.860 they can rest for fucking nine minutes. 1.00
00:50:22.600 I got a Mexican friend who 1.00
00:50:23.660 sleeps for 11 minutes a day. 0.97
00:50:26.440 That's it.
00:50:27.700 He sleeps for 11 minutes a night. 0.99
00:50:29.660 And he's fucking gotta be at work 0.99
00:50:33.960 So bro 0.99
00:50:35.740 I'm just saying
00:50:36.720 I think it's a horrible idea
00:50:38.040 Good luck
00:50:38.980 Let us know how it goes
00:50:41.060 And we'll see you in 0.90
00:50:44.220 Incarceracion
00:50:46.020 Hasta
00:50:48.460 What else
00:50:50.960 We got a call that came in right here
00:50:55.440 Hi Theo
00:50:57.040 My name is Jamie
00:50:58.620 First off, you're amazing, and I could go on and on, but I'm calling for some advice.
00:51:04.580 I'm 40 years old, two children, and my oldest is about to start middle school.
00:51:10.060 And I grew up poor, and I grew up in a run-down house,
00:51:13.820 and I unfortunately didn't get out of that situation.
00:51:19.660 I was in a run-down trailer, and she told me that she doesn't want to go on the school bus
00:51:25.540 because she doesn't want kids to make fun of her.
00:51:28.180 What do I do for her to feel better about her life situation?
00:51:32.660 Because it is what it is, and we have love, and we have food on the table, and we have vehicles,
00:51:38.220 but I can't give her more than what I can give her, and I want her to be confident.
00:51:44.640 I just don't want her to introvert that pain like I did and not be able to be proud of where she comes from.
00:51:51.300 Whatever you can elaborate on, that'd be great.
00:51:54.120 Thanks, and you're amazing.
00:51:55.980 well thanks for the nice words uh and also honestly that's one i think this might be
00:52:01.640 maybe one of my favorite calls that that's ever come in so thank you um let me catch your first
00:52:07.540 name again hi theo my name is jamie hey jamie you're so uh you're such a good thinker and
00:52:16.000 speaker i just wanted to say that to you um and i i think it's awesome that you think about this
00:52:25.940 and that you care about it right uh and that you care about it on behalf of your daughter
00:52:30.840 um that's really it's awesome it's awesome to hear yeah i i'm just going to share my own
00:52:40.020 experience real quick uh yeah i grew up in that in that environment i used to ride my bike to
00:52:46.300 school it was about five miles to school which i'm not trying to make it sound crazy or anything but
00:52:50.200 you know i was probably 11 12 uh 13 riding my bike to school and sometimes i'd ride right
00:52:58.800 alongside of the school bus that i was supposed to be on but i didn't want to be seen getting
00:53:04.360 off that bus. You know, that was the poor bus or that was like, you know, they're just, I don't
00:53:11.360 know. And it kind of now I'm a little almost ashamed of that because, uh, you know, I love
00:53:19.440 the place where I'm from and, but I can relate of like trying to manage how you see me. You know,
00:53:27.880 I didn't want to be in some of the situation that we had, and I was always trying to manage
00:53:34.660 how you see me, right?
00:53:36.760 Like, I didn't make these choices.
00:53:38.280 I didn't do these things, whatever has us here right now.
00:53:43.100 But the thing that I, in hindsight, the thing that I feel like was missing for me would
00:53:47.980 have just been a good conversation from my parents and say, hey, this is what's going
00:53:52.820 on right now with our family.
00:53:55.180 And we love you.
00:53:57.660 we care about you, the fact that some things we don't have right now has nothing to do
00:54:03.840 with that we aren't good people, that we don't love you, let me think about this even
00:54:13.420 more, if my mom would have just sat down with us or my dad, and they didn't have time, maybe
00:54:18.800 whatever they did have time but uh if they would have said look we are together we are going to
00:54:29.220 get to another place in life another our family is going to evolve and get to another place right
00:54:37.000 like maybe a little bit better financial place or into a safer home right we're gonna have to
00:54:42.100 do that together and there's going to be some painful parts and maybe my mom could have shared 0.90
00:54:49.420 with me like the painful parts for her maybe were um that when she she couldn't give me everything
00:54:56.300 she wanted to or she didn't have time to um spend with me in ways that were outside of just providing
00:55:04.460 food and shelter right uh and that was just my scenario but it could be like just that conversation
00:55:10.680 like, Hey, we're in this together. Right. And I'm so proud of you and I love you. And, um,
00:55:19.220 there's going to be a year or two. Let's set, let's try and have a goal where it might be a
00:55:23.620 little tough here and it's some parts might be embarrassing, but just know the real truth about
00:55:29.220 you is not these things. If, and like, if somebody judges you or looks at you a certain way
00:55:35.620 or jokes about you.
00:55:39.400 Like I think there wasn't any conversation inside of me
00:55:44.020 that went against that.
00:55:48.960 And so when people would say stuff,
00:55:53.240 I just took it all on like, oh, I'm worthless or whatever.
00:55:56.580 But I think as long as you have that conversation with her
00:55:59.100 and you let her know, hey, we're doing this together
00:56:01.380 and I love you.
00:56:02.200 and this is who we are in the world.
00:56:06.460 We are fighters and we will figure this out
00:56:09.680 and there's going to be some tough moments.
00:56:15.020 This might be what they are.
00:56:17.080 This is how we can get through them individually and together
00:56:20.740 and that no matter what, more than anything,
00:56:27.240 that if somebody says something about you
00:56:29.500 or looks at you a certain way,
00:56:30.860 you can have a voice inside of yourself
00:56:34.300 and we can have a voice together as a family
00:56:37.140 that speaks back against that
00:56:39.040 yeah so I think those are the things
00:56:44.520 that I think would have probably been nice to have
00:56:47.480 and to hear
00:56:49.940 and just hearing how much in your own voice
00:56:53.060 that you're going to figure this out
00:56:55.400 and it's not even an affliction
00:56:57.360 it's like
00:56:57.860 I don't know
00:57:00.860 I'm just proud of you for, like, caring about it and calling and, uh, yeah, it kind of takes
00:57:08.360 me back. Maybe my mother had some of the same questions and she just didn't have a place to
00:57:11.540 think about it or I don't know. But yeah, sometimes just, um, yeah, just that season,
00:57:19.260 that season is temporary and it's going to build you. It's going to build your kid,
00:57:26.720 You know, and
00:57:30.360 Yeah, it's just tough for kids at that age
00:57:34.860 But also if any listeners have other thoughts and suggestions
00:57:40.660 I think I probably have more
00:57:42.740 I'm kind of tired from just like a long day of thinking today
00:57:45.340 Or talking
00:57:46.500 But if any listeners have other suggestions about that sort of thing
00:57:50.520 And one thing that was pretty tough
00:57:54.360 I'll say it is, bro
00:57:55.300 they wasn't fucking with anybody in our neighborhood so people could kind of talk 0.98
00:58:01.080 shit but the kids in our neighborhood bro they came pretty gassed up about you know i'm saying 0.98
00:58:06.900 if people would really run their mouth now the problem was people in our neighborhood were 0.99
00:58:10.680 beefing with each other so much so i think maybe another thing would be to help her
00:58:16.440 work on those relationships in the neighborhood even if they're relationships that you don't know
00:58:20.840 if you'll have for your whole life but uh so that she feels like she is part of a group you know um
00:58:29.320 and yeah and that it's okay to find that it's okay to find people of different cultures and
00:58:37.440 different classes that you can still be in those circles you know that you're not exempt from some
00:58:45.100 space just because of, uh, you can't afford a certain thing or just because your mom has to
00:58:50.700 work all the time. You aren't exempt from some possibility in the world. You know, when I look
00:58:57.240 back in my own neighborhood that I grew up in, man, it was not comfortable for any of those kids. 0.98
00:59:03.220 Um, and mostly emotionally, really the food and the fucking clothing and being poor, like that 1.00
00:59:08.420 shit. Yeah, it hurts, but it's like, it's the emotional side that was missing. 1.00
00:59:12.300 but some of the best business owners hardest workers and heroes of my heart and and and life
00:59:20.560 have come out of that space now um so anyway i'm not preaching at you i think i sound a little bit
00:59:28.240 preachy but i hadn't thought about this or i think about it sometimes but no but i hadn't talked about
00:59:34.020 it and uh yeah i'm just so happy that you love your daughter so much that you care to think about
00:59:39.380 that you know and i think letting her know that too that fills in a lot of the part of like
00:59:46.440 i don't know whatever that part that needs to be filled in so that stuff doesn't hurt as much
00:59:52.940 and yeah i'd love some suggestions from other people if they can hit the hotline
00:59:56.400 the next solo episode we do i'll put those on to the end of the episode um or we'll make a
01:00:02.980 little follow-up piece and put it out on youtube it'll probably be like a month just letting you
01:00:08.520 know uh but yeah i don't know it's just cool i think like i don't know it's so funny how like
01:00:18.480 life brings you back into moments in my own way i almost channel this is like this is my mother
01:00:23.400 and her voice and that she cared and that i didn't know it you know and that's kind of selfish but i
01:00:30.740 think like life is like that sometimes it's like if someone or if a time from your life is gone
01:00:37.960 and it's passed and it wasn't good, you can fill it in with a new time or a new moment
01:00:42.500 or a new person. Sometimes I'll be in an AA meeting and there'll be a man in there that
01:00:49.580 will share something. And it's like something I needed my dad to always say, or I needed my
01:00:55.060 brother to say, or just, or something I needed to, and somebody else will fill in. And for a moment,
01:00:59.760 they're your family. They're your, I don't know. We're the keys to each other's locks. That's what
01:01:06.540 my friend uh james says so anyway blessings to you into uh blessings to you jamie i love you so
01:01:14.640 much for just caring about your kid and sharing that with us today and um yeah it's a cool topic
01:01:21.120 to think about so sorry i kind of rambled i've had some coffee and uh yeah and that's been it
01:01:28.460 and i haven't even yeah and i'm doing okay so praise god um maybe let's hit one more call here
01:01:35.160 This is the hotline, 985-664-9503.
01:01:40.760 Hey, Theo, it's Rick.
01:01:42.000 I'm from New Jersey.
01:01:43.460 What's up, Rick?
01:01:45.260 What's up, Rick?
01:01:48.440 That's probably one of my 11, no, that's one of my favorite names, probably.
01:01:52.060 Seven favorites.
01:01:53.620 Onward.
01:01:54.660 I'm 12 years sober.
01:01:58.880 I'm currently just in a bit of a rut mentally.
01:02:03.340 we just had a baby second boy uh about a month and a half ago and uh you know i've always
01:02:10.040 congratulations rick that's great congratulations i've always been the type to reach out and help
01:02:16.600 people and help others and you know take care of myself last and just uh getting really overwhelmed
01:02:23.660 right now and uh it's it's hard it's really hard just thinking about should i drink pick up a drink
01:02:31.740 and it's just not worth it.
01:02:33.220 Just, I don't want to lose everything.
01:02:35.500 I'm trying to, like, reach out to people and, you know, offer help for some reason,
01:02:41.840 like, that I could get help to somebody.
01:02:45.160 I just feel like I'm trying to help somebody else, but I really need help myself.
01:02:49.600 I really appreciate you having this line open.
01:02:51.580 I've been watching you for a while, listening for a while,
01:02:53.600 and really appreciate the things that you do for people and giving them advice.
01:03:01.020 I really do appreciate you, man, a lot.
01:03:03.160 I just need to talk and talk to somebody today.
01:03:07.060 Hey, Rick, thanks for calling, man.
01:03:09.360 Can we try to just call him, Trevin?
01:03:10.840 Do you have that set up?
01:03:19.020 Hello?
01:03:20.060 Hey, Rick.
01:03:22.320 Hey, what's going on?
01:03:24.100 What's up, man?
01:03:24.620 It's Theo.
01:03:25.060 Can you hear me?
01:03:27.240 Yeah, I hear you, man.
01:03:28.900 How you doing?
01:03:29.560 i'm doing good dude i just was listening to some voicemails and i heard your call dude i just
01:03:34.300 wanted to touch base and say hey dude you have this is great to hear from you you have no idea
01:03:41.300 oh thanks dude what's going on so uh yeah i was in a bit of a rut in the past and i was really
01:03:53.480 on that like that deep decline it's just things were uh falling on top of one another it felt
01:03:59.780 like it was just never ending and i've been i was sober for 12 years and it just felt like
01:04:05.940 things i just you know started crumbling down and down and then you know you get into that
01:04:11.540 that mental headspace of uh like i got diagnosed with cancer and uh and i used to be 500 pounds
01:04:19.860 So, like, all these things are, like, you know, it's going to last month, to be honest.
01:04:28.680 Well, cancer will help with that weight loss, huh?
01:04:31.960 Well, no, I used to be 500 pounds.
01:04:35.060 So, like, I used to be 500 pounds.
01:04:37.440 I had gastric bypass surgery in 2010, and I lost, like, 280 pounds.
01:04:43.760 And I'm a UPS driver, so I've gotten diagnosed with cancer a few years
01:04:49.760 ago and uh you know i got through that and then uh we lost we lost a lost the baby uh six months
01:05:00.000 ago so it was uh it was kind of rough um she was four months in and it was brutal and then uh
01:05:08.780 you know things just kept coming back and then got diagnosed with cancer again and i was just
01:05:15.940 in a really rough mental space just felt like you know things were really on the uh downhill spiral
01:05:23.480 you know but that you know thinking thinking oh yeah uh you know you you've talked about it before
01:05:31.900 but it's uh i was in a really bad spot when the day i called you i was like really down and really
01:05:40.100 out just ready to just just pick up a drink again and just throw it all away but then
01:05:45.940 You know, I do have a five-year-old, Luca, and he's just the best thing ever.
01:05:51.880 So it's like, you know, you get in those little clunks and stuff,
01:05:54.520 and then, you know, you forget about things when you get home.
01:05:59.740 Yeah, what helped you out of it?
01:06:03.000 So pretty much just trying to not really dwell on the whole diagnosis again.
01:06:10.460 Just try to focus on, you know, being there for Luca and my wife.
01:06:14.660 and uh you know we're having another baby coming soon so that was also something to look out for
01:06:21.400 and you know all those things mentally started to like pile up and it's like you know what
01:06:25.960 you get diagnosed again and it's just like dude this is crazy like i'm not doing great at all
01:06:31.880 and like i have you know i had a good out so i had surgery uh two months ago and i was out of
01:06:39.760 work for a bit and it's just you know finances start piling up on you and then you think about
01:06:46.660 everything else it's like oh another baby on the way it's uh oh yeah having a drink would feel
01:06:53.140 feels like that it would be the answer man um and were you able to stay sober yeah yeah yeah i was
01:06:59.900 let's go i just uh thank thank god i was like you know it's for me i'm always the one that will
01:07:07.840 reach out to people to see how they're doing and then at the end of the day i'd realized that i was
01:07:13.400 the one really that needed to help but for me to help others first was like it helped me get out of
01:07:19.420 my you know stage oh yeah and uh yeah even even up to now like you know i'm back at work now and
01:07:28.960 you know driving for ups still so i'm in new jersey so i just got back last week so um you know
01:07:37.440 financially things will come and go i get that and uh that's where i think that headspace was
01:07:43.880 like you know baby coming you're out because of cancer like yeah i mean yeah yeah being
01:07:50.720 overwhelmed like how am i going to do this yeah yeah absolutely and uh but dude like i i wanted
01:07:59.340 to like talk to you and really tell you thank you for your stuff that you do because you know when
01:08:06.900 you're in those head spaces yeah you you're a you're a good person down and you know down deep
01:08:11.920 down and i know that and then but you're also comedian too but it's great so like you need a
01:08:16.820 good laugh sometimes you need to get that chuckle and it's uh a lot of your stuff has definitely
01:08:23.220 helped me a lot and i really do truly appreciate everything that you do and have done well thank
01:08:30.280 you so much dude i appreciate it yeah i'm just trying my best man i think that's all most people
01:08:34.080 are trying to do uh one day at a time you know um but yeah I just got 46 days I think I'd had
01:08:42.160 some tough moments and I got 46 days and so I'm feeling grateful for that and yeah man I just
01:08:48.940 yeah you just some days just became too much but I'm grateful that um I've been able to keep um
01:08:56.280 just stacking days man and it just makes you feel yeah this is just the way that it's got to be and
01:09:01.320 I'm, I'm, I'm grateful for that. And I'm, and I'm happy. I don't have to do it alone, dude. So
01:09:04.860 I appreciate you just sharing what's going on with you, with us. And, uh, yeah. One day at a time,
01:09:11.980 champ. Hell yeah. Thank you. Hey, um, all those days start to add up and, you know,
01:09:18.660 you got this big ass house that you stack for all those days and not going to take you down.
01:09:23.580 And you know what? I've always been told, you know, you always have another relapse, you know, 0.97
01:09:28.440 but do you have another recovery in the end that you know after that little cloud goes over your
01:09:34.700 head and you're not thinking you know you think about that stuff it's like you know i don't want
01:09:40.260 to do this whole thing over again i don't know if i have the courage to do it but you do but you
01:09:45.060 just don't want it you don't want to test it you don't want to i don't want to and i know it can
01:09:49.980 happen anytime it could happen yeah i mean it's yeah i mean everybody like i have no idea everybody's
01:09:56.960 journey is different but yeah just grateful today that i get to be sober and that um and that i'm
01:10:02.340 hopeful that i can just keep this going one day at a time um talking other alcoholics helps man
01:10:07.300 i appreciate you rick dude congratulations on the new baby uh we'll be cheering that on man
01:10:14.080 we'll be cheering on and the baby is going to be here in two months you said uh he'll be here in
01:10:19.920 four months okay the baby will be here in four months awesome dude um y'all got a name picked
01:10:26.200 out yet or no yeah we're gonna do adam we're gonna do adam at all hell yeah adam get down here 0.88
01:10:34.220 yeah sounds good to me get your ass down here yeah dude at all oh yeah that works 0.67
01:10:41.940 all right rick best of luck dude um be safe thanks for chatting today i gotta go uh 0.99
01:10:52.060 i gotta go get a massage man to be honest with you legit one and i don't i tell them don't jerk 0.95
01:10:57.420 me off right when i walk in there i say don't even jerk me off nobody's jerking me off but me 0.98
01:11:03.060 yeah you don't make sure you tell that guy hey don't flip me over 0.99
01:11:05.800 oh yeah i don't even bro yeah well some of them are so strong but um all right bro love you bro
01:11:16.340 thank you i love you too congratulations thank you thanks for sharing that you were having a
01:11:20.620 tough day and um yeah just appreciate you uh hey thank you for calling checking in you bet rick
01:11:26.960 man be good rick i love you then love you love you love you love you a lot man oh yeah all right
01:11:31.680 thanks rick love you too bro all right i'll talk to you soon peace buddy rick dude when i go to
01:11:39.040 heaven i hope they call me damn rick bro that's for some reason that name just i like it i like it
01:11:44.580 a lot um anyway thank you guys for being here today um thank you for everybody that checked 0.81
01:11:52.560 out busboys on hulu we appreciate that um and yeah one day at a time we'll keep things going
01:12:01.980 and uh just grateful to be alive today and have a chance today um and thankful for this podcast
01:12:10.340 and what else
01:12:13.860 yeah
01:12:15.780 just be good to yourself we're gonna keep trying
01:12:17.740 this thing bro we got this
01:12:19.700 praise God
01:12:20.880 and uh yeah
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01:12:34.700 oh but when I
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