This Past Weekend with Theo Von

00:00:00.000 You know, I was looking at some drawings of Native Americans and, you know, I realized

00:00:19.560 I couldn't even, it's sad to admit, but I couldn't even be Native American and no offense

00:00:28.200 to anybody that's in NA, no offense to you guys.

00:00:31.900 I love your work.

00:00:32.880 I've seen, you know, most of what I've seen is drawings, but, you know, I love, but I

00:00:41.840 love y'all's work and I mean that, you know, I love all, you know, I respect Native Americans.

00:00:51.980 If I, you know, I was born too late in the world.

00:00:55.140 If I was born earlier, I probably would have, you know, tried to smooth things over a little

00:01:01.060 bit better whenever, you know, you guys kind of had the falling out with the, with some

00:01:07.120 of the whites, to be honest.

00:01:09.840 I would have said, hey, hey, hey, you know, let's figure this out, guys.

00:01:16.460 But I think both of you guys are kind of high tempered, it seems like.

00:01:21.280 If I'm really honest, if I look back and some of the drawings, it seems, you know, excuse

00:01:31.160 me, a little belt or burp.

00:01:34.260 I don't know which one is which.

00:01:35.720 Oh, they're both disgusting.

00:01:37.720 I feel like air is just kind of just raping my throat every time it happens.

00:01:42.380 Oh, I hate that.

00:01:44.960 But, but yeah, again, I want to apologize to any, you know, I know we have some Native

00:01:51.260 American listeners, some NALs basically or something, you know, we know what I'm talking

00:01:56.420 about.

00:01:57.100 We have a, we have some Native American listeners.

00:01:59.800 I have Native American in me.

00:02:01.540 Okay.

00:02:01.920 I probably got half a pint.

00:02:04.320 Okay.

00:02:04.700 I probably got half a pint.

00:02:05.720 I probably got six teaspoons of Chippewa or something.

00:02:08.060 Daddy's got it in them.

00:02:09.380 I can feel it sometimes in the middle of the night.

00:02:11.380 But, you know, I'll hear something outside.

00:02:14.060 I'll hear something about 40 paces away.

00:02:18.420 And I don't use the term paces very often.

00:02:20.820 So that's right then when I know that, I say, oh, that's, that's a very select ounce

00:02:29.440 or two of me that's listening there.

00:02:32.200 And that's that Native American in me.

00:02:35.980 But yeah, I want to apologize to Native Americans on behalf of kind of some of the ways stuff went

00:02:39.960 down.

00:02:41.380 You know, it's a, it was just kind of a wild time, I think.

00:02:45.800 And, you know, you can't win them all, I guess.

00:02:50.160 You know, I don't know what to, how do we shake, you know, merge the past and the future.

00:02:57.200 So I don't know.

00:02:58.520 I don't even know what I'm talking about.

00:02:59.800 What was I talking about?

00:03:00.820 But, um, shit, I don't even know, man.

00:03:10.380 Oh my God, dude, I had a, what a week, what a weekend.

00:03:18.440 What a, I mean, what a, my weekend was great.

00:03:22.100 It was, my weekend was tough.

00:03:23.360 Um, it was, it was, it was everything.

00:03:26.980 You know, it was an everything weekend.

00:03:28.620 It was like one of those bagels that have every, you know, everything on it.

00:03:31.940 It just looks like your spice rack just took a, you know, took some bread and just did a

00:03:36.880 damn gang bang on it.

00:03:41.160 But, um, but yeah, so, you know, we do what we can.

00:03:49.380 Uh, and, um, yeah, let's, look, let's crack into the episode.

00:03:56.740 I think that's the way to do it.

00:03:58.140 And, uh, and I'll just share more, you know, just try and share about what's going on.

00:04:02.920 Um, yeah, you know, I need help sometimes.

00:04:12.640 I need some help.

00:04:17.980 Sometimes I need some help.

00:04:20.160 So, you know, and, and it's hard to say that.

00:04:24.760 It's hard to say that I need some help sometimes.

00:04:27.000 And sometimes I do.

00:04:28.680 Uh, let's get into this episode.

00:04:30.360 Here we go.

00:04:32.920 You always are the one who keeps it together.

00:04:48.980 You always are the one who knows just what we need.

00:04:54.060 You always are the one who stays home with your baby.

00:04:59.240 You always are the one who stays right here with me.

00:05:04.240 Well, I've been working fingers down to a bloody mix.

00:05:10.560 And I've been working insanity down to the bone.

00:05:15.620 But I've been working hard as I can to just find some time.

00:05:23.620 Time to get you all alone.

00:05:26.400 So we can, we can.

00:05:29.360 Going out on the city.

00:05:31.620 Having a little whiskey and wine.

00:05:37.640 Mm, mm, mm, mm.

00:05:40.200 Baby, you know you're so pretty.

00:05:43.620 And I don't know how, but baby, you're mine.

00:05:48.580 This is our time.

00:05:50.340 Mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm.

00:05:58.800 this is our time and that right there that's uh grady spencer and the work

00:06:06.120 and they're hitting you with that hot tune right there

00:06:09.360 they're upgrading your ear stems right there with that hot tune

00:06:13.580 grady spencer and the work our time is that song that listening piece

00:06:23.480 and uh and we're here we're here we're here we're moving in it's october

00:06:28.280 you know we're moving in and we're moving forward and

00:06:32.260 you know i had a tough weekend man i you know i don't want to

00:06:36.100 you know i've just had a tough i've just had a tough time recently um

00:06:41.740 and i don't like to

00:06:45.080 you know it's hard for me sometimes with uh to not to to share how i feel and not sound

00:06:56.320 like i am complaining

00:06:59.100 or like i had i'm not or just having a lot of self-pity

00:07:04.520 um

00:07:07.380 and it's it's it's hard for me to do you know it's hard

00:07:11.400 you know i think it's become tougher sometimes on this podcast to talk sometimes about how i feel

00:07:15.720 because i i don't i don't want to

00:07:21.940 i don't want to complain and i don't want to be seen as a complainer

00:07:27.180 um

00:07:30.060 and you know it's you know it's interesting you know

00:07:33.660 as my career has gone on over the past few years and has gotten busier

00:07:38.160 you know i start to feel like oh well nobody wants to hear what your problems are

00:07:46.320 if they think that your

00:07:49.120 life is

00:07:51.760 good or that you

00:07:55.480 you know here i am getting to live out my dreams

00:07:58.900 and so to then still come back and have a

00:08:04.260 have complaints have

00:08:07.140 uncomfort

00:08:08.740 uh that stuff sound i don't know it's just hard it's hard to share it's hard to

00:08:14.280 um

00:08:16.820 it's scary it's scary to share because i'm like well

00:08:20.900 you know who's who nobody wants to listen to somebody complain that that has

00:08:27.420 you know that has uh that's like living their dream it just doesn't

00:08:32.660 so it's just been tough man i just have not been feeling that good i think especially about the past six or nine months and

00:08:39.720 i try to talk about it sometimes but i don't know what's going on

00:08:42.600 you know i don't know what's going on

00:08:47.980 um

00:08:49.020 and uh

00:08:52.120 and so you know you just keep showing up and

00:08:54.760 you know i had i just had a moment this past week and

00:08:58.480 uh

00:09:00.640 well i was gonna drink the other night i was gonna drink and

00:09:03.500 you know i don't know if i have a drinking problem i know that i don't do well when once i get a hold of cocaine i don't do

00:09:08.700 super great

00:09:10.380 you know i do not do super great if i am doing

00:09:15.940 cocaine

00:09:16.800 uh

00:09:18.440 so the other day you know i had to shows up in new jersey with trevor wallace and he's amazing and it was great and francis ellis beautiful fella

00:09:26.640 tall fella too

00:09:27.920 i mean tall white i mean if somebody did something to the native americans i'm gonna

00:09:32.200 it was somebody he you know

00:09:34.100 probably somebody he knew

00:09:35.420 or in his gene pool

00:09:37.100 you know

00:09:38.740 if you drink a

00:09:39.900 a half cup of

00:09:41.140 out of his gene pool you could definitely taste a couple native americans

00:09:46.460 you know losing their land

00:09:48.580 i'll say that

00:09:50.060 um

00:09:51.420 but one of the smartest and uh

00:09:54.780 and hardest working guys

00:09:56.500 is francis ellis no shortcuts with that fella and

00:09:59.520 and so beautiful to you know just to see him and spend time with him and

00:10:03.460 and trevor's and trevor's uh you know i i just i respect both those guys so much and so i was i was happy to be out there with them and

00:10:10.540 the first show was amazing it was one of my favorite shows ever

00:10:14.240 uh out there in um

00:10:16.920 in new jersey

00:10:18.400 in the state of new jersey up there in

00:10:21.000 northeastern america

00:10:22.700 and then the second show was

00:10:27.820 it was it was good it just

00:10:32.780 it was all over the place kind of

00:10:35.040 you ever look for something you just can't find it it was kind of like that a little

00:10:39.180 um

00:10:40.260 and that's my perception as well

00:10:42.280 you may have been sitting there and had a great time but

00:10:45.080 uh

00:10:46.280 but you know i like it to be just

00:10:48.480 you know i always wanted to be perfect for everybody

00:10:52.340 um

00:10:53.180 and so anyway i think everybody did have a great time but

00:10:56.260 but anyway that was just that's just kind of how i felt

00:10:58.780 uh about them

00:10:59.960 um

00:11:01.300 but the day was just that day was just rough and i'd

00:11:04.880 you know i'd been uh

00:11:08.220 i went to the

00:11:10.900 i went to the airport in the morning

00:11:13.500 from nashville and i flew to the wrong airport in

00:11:16.920 in new york

00:11:17.940 and i flew into

00:11:20.740 la guardia

00:11:22.440 and that's about an hour and a half away from the venue

00:11:26.080 whereas

00:11:27.320 um

00:11:28.980 newark was about 40 minutes from the venue

00:11:32.140 so just eat it would have been a lot easier

00:11:34.220 so i flew into the wrong

00:11:35.160 airport and i had to get an uber

00:11:37.620 so i took an uber an hour and

00:11:40.920 whatever it was

00:11:42.280 hour and 40 minutes hour and 20 minutes

00:11:43.960 it was a it was a waste

00:11:45.140 uh

00:11:46.100 and i was just stressed out man

00:11:49.340 you know i just really

00:11:51.160 you know i've been trying not to drink for a while

00:11:54.660 and

00:11:56.480 i just kind of decided in my head

00:11:59.700 you know man i'm

00:12:00.480 i'm gonna drink

00:12:01.300 i'm gonna drink when i get to this hotel

00:12:02.860 i'm just gonna have myself a damn drink

00:12:04.620 you know and i don't think

00:12:06.760 and i i've never been the kind of person to just drink and drink and drown

00:12:09.660 i don't like that

00:12:10.460 i don't like

00:12:10.940 hell i don't like having to get up and go pee

00:12:12.980 so i i don't want to have a bunch of drinks

00:12:15.720 you know but the reason i don't drink is because i just get worried that then if i get approached with cocaine

00:12:22.960 you know or that dust that jack jack

00:12:25.500 then i'm gonna be out there son i'll be out in your garden

00:12:28.820 you know i'll be out there in your recycling bin with a couple of raccoons baby

00:12:33.500 doing dirty baby doing dirty works

00:12:36.340 so that's where my mind kind of goes and

00:12:39.840 but i just decided man

00:12:41.560 you know i got this

00:12:42.660 i got a hotel room at this place called oyster point hotel

00:12:45.840 because they have

00:12:48.640 the place is kind of

00:12:50.720 it's a little bit of

00:12:53.960 it's kind of shitty

00:12:54.720 and i like that

00:12:56.080 it's kind of nice though

00:12:57.020 it's like shitty nice you know

00:12:58.380 it's like that

00:13:00.280 um

00:13:02.080 like you ever been to a funeral

00:13:04.100 but they got uh

00:13:05.060 like a thing of mints right by the coffin

00:13:06.880 like a little snack bowl or whatever

00:13:09.440 right by the car

00:13:10.080 like a little

00:13:10.600 oh yeah you know

00:13:12.380 you know uh

00:13:15.200 you know keith is dead

00:13:17.160 but also

00:13:17.900 you know have a mint

00:13:19.980 that kind of place

00:13:21.940 so i

00:13:22.320 it just had that kind of vibe

00:13:23.820 and um

00:13:24.860 anyway i get there and i thought in my head

00:13:27.740 well the whole time i'm riding there i'm just furious

00:13:29.720 and the guy

00:13:30.560 oh

00:13:30.940 the uber driver

00:13:32.920 kept telling me he had asthma

00:13:36.320 and about his

00:13:37.540 journey

00:13:38.520 with

00:13:39.580 asthma

00:13:40.840 dude

00:13:43.320 we got bigger

00:13:45.820 fish to fry in the world right now

00:13:48.320 than somebody having

00:13:50.100 an asthma journey

00:13:52.100 bro

00:13:52.640 maybe if you can't breathe well

00:13:55.540 maybe god don't

00:13:57.100 want you

00:13:58.040 round

00:13:59.020 yeah

00:14:00.100 have you thought about that

00:14:03.140 huh puff puff

00:14:04.120 maybe if you can't

00:14:06.640 take a hit off the world

00:14:09.240 correctly

00:14:10.600 maybe the lord's

00:14:11.680 looking

00:14:12.280 for you

00:14:13.720 so anyway

00:14:17.440 an hour and a half

00:14:18.540 of listening to you know

00:14:19.540 captain fucking

00:14:20.580 camp puff

00:14:21.400 talk about his

00:14:22.440 65 years

00:14:24.680 dude was 65

00:14:25.360 65 years of lung issues

00:14:27.560 and he had crosses hanging

00:14:28.960 everywhere

00:14:29.860 in the uber

00:14:31.400 he had

00:14:32.600 i mean there was a cross

00:14:34.320 there was there's a cross here

00:14:35.860 you know at one point i reached behind my ear

00:14:39.620 and i pulled out a cross

00:14:40.780 like he had

00:14:41.380 there was

00:14:41.820 i don't know if this guy lives

00:14:44.060 if he had a vampire as an ex-wife

00:14:46.700 i don't know what's going on

00:14:47.860 but the lord

00:14:49.860 i mean i guess the lord was with us

00:14:52.660 for sure

00:14:54.360 it was an uber pool

00:14:55.400 because they had

00:14:57.220 there's no way

00:14:58.020 there weren't a couple of

00:14:58.960 straight up disciples

00:15:00.240 in the trunk

00:15:01.000 so i'm riding with this dude

00:15:03.900 captain asthma

00:15:04.820 and uh

00:15:06.040 and he kept pulling

00:15:07.380 oh this was the worst part

00:15:08.420 and i'm just thinking

00:15:11.500 oh god

00:15:13.620 um and i made it up to black belt

00:15:15.880 oh god

00:15:18.400 i was in taekwondo

00:15:20.860 for many years

00:15:22.000 as a

00:15:22.360 as a teen

00:15:23.300 okay

00:15:24.260 well good

00:15:24.960 um

00:15:26.100 so what i'm saying is this

00:15:27.740 that uh

00:15:28.500 so i've been thinking about

00:15:29.800 i was thinking about drinking

00:15:30.500 i was thinking about drinking

00:15:31.100 i'm thinking okay

00:15:31.700 when i get to this hotel

00:15:32.740 they have a nice restaurant there

00:15:34.940 that's one thing

00:15:36.020 it's just

00:15:36.360 i really love a place

00:15:37.860 that have a nice restaurant

00:15:39.100 nice place to eat

00:15:39.820 you're sitting looking right out the water

00:15:41.240 beautiful

00:15:42.260 so you could be eating a fish

00:15:44.360 and taste right where it came from

00:15:45.780 you could be eating a fish right there

00:15:48.800 having you a little bit of pond

00:15:49.940 uh pond carp or whatever

00:15:51.360 you know

00:15:52.860 north african pond carp

00:15:54.440 or something

00:15:54.860 you should gutting down some of that

00:15:56.320 and you'll see its family members

00:15:57.780 swim right up by the window

00:15:58.840 and look at you

00:15:59.620 just

00:16:00.380 hit you with that one eye

00:16:01.980 you know

00:16:02.440 hey that's my dad

00:16:03.780 you know

00:16:04.380 and so i guess

00:16:08.200 i kept romanticizing in my head

00:16:10.040 okay i'm gonna sit there

00:16:11.100 i'm gonna have me some food

00:16:12.280 i'm gonna have me some drinks

00:16:13.380 uh

00:16:14.900 and i'm just gonna relax man

00:16:18.080 um

00:16:19.240 and so you know

00:16:21.020 anyway

00:16:21.400 we go

00:16:22.120 oh the guy kept having to pull over

00:16:23.780 to breathe fresh air

00:16:25.440 the guy kept having to pull over

00:16:30.040 to breathe fresh

00:16:31.560 air

00:16:32.880 in new jersey

00:16:35.280 off the turnpike

00:16:37.740 there ain't no fresh air

00:16:39.700 there ain't no fresh air

00:16:42.140 about a turnpike dude

00:16:43.460 bring a bag of air

00:16:46.360 from somewhere else

00:16:47.540 fill up a balloon

00:16:50.140 from damn kansas

00:16:51.220 or something

00:16:51.860 and get that thing

00:16:53.360 you know

00:16:53.980 get that thing

00:16:55.760 trucked in

00:16:56.420 or trained in

00:16:57.480 oh

00:17:00.660 so we pull over

00:17:06.320 this is the second time

00:17:08.720 we pulled over

00:17:09.180 to get fresh air

00:17:09.820 and i'm not sure

00:17:11.240 where it was

00:17:11.940 some

00:17:12.260 little town

00:17:13.980 uh

00:17:14.620 and

00:17:16.320 a guy

00:17:17.700 comes up to the car

00:17:20.180 we stop

00:17:20.940 it's literally like

00:17:21.600 we have to stop

00:17:22.080 for a minute

00:17:22.520 and he will

00:17:23.480 the first time

00:17:24.640 he put his head

00:17:25.080 out the window

00:17:25.400 and the second time

00:17:25.960 he got out

00:17:26.640 of the vehicle

00:17:27.920 to breathe

00:17:29.660 this is a

00:17:30.700 this

00:17:31.080 and i'm just

00:17:32.400 i'm like

00:17:33.100 it's already

00:17:34.680 this is a $200 uber

00:17:36.460 and it was a

00:17:40.620 small

00:17:41.800 car

00:17:42.540 okay

00:17:43.920 it was small

00:17:45.560 and some of you guys

00:17:48.340 are thinking

00:17:48.540 well tio

00:17:49.080 you know

00:17:49.420 you've made some money

00:17:50.080 why don't you get a nice

00:17:50.880 get somebody to pay

00:17:51.620 i agree

00:17:52.320 but that's just not

00:17:54.000 who i am

00:17:54.480 i don't

00:17:54.820 that's not

00:17:55.480 i don't like to get

00:17:57.020 i try to be thrifty

00:17:58.160 you know

00:17:59.460 that's just who i am

00:18:00.760 i don't

00:18:02.100 you know

00:18:04.220 that's just who i am

00:18:05.500 it's just in my nature

00:18:06.680 you know

00:18:08.440 sometimes i don't want to

00:18:09.320 sometimes i don't want to

00:18:10.260 give myself you know

00:18:10.940 the creature comforts

00:18:11.880 i don't want to take care

00:18:12.680 of myself like that

00:18:13.440 and i probably should

00:18:14.300 because then i just get

00:18:17.000 more stressed

00:18:17.840 so anyway dude

00:18:20.140 we're out there

00:18:21.120 and a brother

00:18:22.260 i'll be honest

00:18:22.900 straight up brother

00:18:23.720 urban brother

00:18:25.000 whatever

00:18:25.300 however you want to term it

00:18:26.700 you know

00:18:27.380 um

00:18:28.880 comes up

00:18:30.500 and starts asking

00:18:32.140 if we want to buy

00:18:33.220 some drugs

00:18:34.140 um

00:18:36.000 and the asthma guy

00:18:38.000 the

00:18:38.440 uh

00:18:39.840 the driver

00:18:43.600 starts asking me

00:18:45.360 like it kind of

00:18:46.120 directs him towards me

00:18:47.080 like i don't

00:18:47.840 like what is going on here

00:18:49.880 i don't

00:18:51.180 i

00:18:51.520 i'm

00:18:52.720 i'm

00:18:53.200 i'm

00:18:53.740 i'm

00:18:54.880 paying to be on this

00:18:55.900 shh

00:18:56.480 this

00:18:56.820 shitty

00:18:58.420 adventure

00:19:00.520 with freaking

00:19:02.380 billy bad lungs

00:19:03.480 up here who can't

00:19:04.240 handle the world

00:19:05.200 and now i gotta tell

00:19:08.420 i don't want any drugs

00:19:09.700 that dude

00:19:10.100 starts looking at

00:19:11.220 two of the crosses

00:19:12.020 if they're for sale

00:19:12.980 like dog we ain't doing

00:19:14.000 this shit right now

00:19:14.940 like i'm just

00:19:15.880 you know

00:19:17.000 what y'all doing around here

00:19:18.460 we're here because

00:19:20.020 he

00:19:20.220 this guy

00:19:21.060 this guy

00:19:23.480 wants some fucking

00:19:24.220 this guy wants some

00:19:25.380 fresh air

00:19:26.300 by this railroad tracks

00:19:28.200 and by these

00:19:29.180 walgreens

00:19:29.920 that's why we're here

00:19:31.740 that's why we're here

00:19:32.580 and just nobody wants to

00:19:35.880 believe you bro

00:19:36.860 when you're out there

00:19:37.560 like that

00:19:38.220 so i'm just

00:19:40.380 fear and i'm just like

00:19:41.280 i can't wait to drink

00:19:42.220 now i'm gonna drink

00:19:42.940 gasoline

00:19:43.560 i'm thinking of

00:19:44.320 i'm thinking i'm gonna

00:19:45.180 drink ethanol

00:19:45.980 i'm gonna drink

00:19:46.900 i am going to have

00:19:48.560 someone else do a

00:19:49.600 two

00:19:50.340 two

00:19:51.160 three

00:19:51.660 four

00:19:52.060 five

00:19:52.660 eight balls

00:19:54.060 a 40 ball

00:19:55.140 i'm gonna have somebody

00:19:56.180 do at least a 32

00:19:57.260 ball of cocaine

00:19:58.160 then i'm gonna

00:19:58.700 drink their blood

00:19:59.940 that's where i'm at

00:20:01.660 that's where i'm at

00:20:03.540 i'm not doing

00:20:04.540 super

00:20:05.400 well

00:20:06.120 so

00:20:09.160 we get rid of

00:20:10.800 old dude

00:20:11.540 you know

00:20:12.320 and uh

00:20:13.520 and we hit the

00:20:14.440 we hit the road

00:20:15.200 and it's the last time

00:20:16.300 and um

00:20:17.180 finally we get to the hotel

00:20:18.600 and the lady says

00:20:21.240 where are you coming

00:20:21.680 from and i said

00:20:22.440 uh i just flew in

00:20:23.320 from tennessee

00:20:23.800 and she goes

00:20:24.780 well

00:20:26.220 unfortunately since

00:20:28.660 you flew in through

00:20:29.320 a high risk

00:20:30.240 state

00:20:30.920 you uh

00:20:34.500 you can't access

00:20:35.540 any of our

00:20:36.580 communal areas

00:20:37.880 which means

00:20:39.700 the restaurant

00:20:40.500 uh

00:20:41.580 and the gym

00:20:42.140 um

00:20:44.780 she goes

00:20:45.720 however

00:20:46.000 we are gonna

00:20:46.580 open the gym

00:20:47.040 after midnight

00:20:47.720 if you

00:20:48.080 if you wanted

00:20:48.600 to get into there

00:20:49.500 and i'm like

00:20:50.100 i don't know

00:20:50.500 what

00:20:50.760 you know

00:20:53.780 what

00:20:54.780 that's not

00:20:55.280 that's

00:20:55.660 that's not a real

00:20:56.420 moment

00:20:56.900 um

00:20:58.060 but okay

00:20:59.100 uh

00:20:59.700 so anyway

00:21:00.680 so now i'm just

00:21:01.440 furious man

00:21:02.240 because the one

00:21:03.300 reason i wanted

00:21:04.180 to stay at this

00:21:05.100 place

00:21:05.500 you know

00:21:07.480 and it's expensive

00:21:08.060 place it's 300 bucks

00:21:09.100 a night

00:21:09.440 you know

00:21:10.180 when they got the

00:21:10.760 toilet in there

00:21:11.420 like the fraternity

00:21:12.340 house one

00:21:12.760 the one with the

00:21:13.360 silver handle

00:21:14.120 out the side

00:21:14.840 you know

00:21:15.120 where you pull

00:21:15.680 that little

00:21:16.040 like

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00:21:17.420 straight handle

00:21:18.440 like a

00:21:18.960 you can see the

00:21:19.700 plumbing coming

00:21:20.300 out of the back

00:21:20.800 like it's a

00:21:21.840 it was really

00:21:24.220 nice

00:21:24.720 30 years ago

00:21:26.260 but the nice

00:21:28.240 thing there is

00:21:28.840 there's the

00:21:29.380 restaurant

00:21:29.840 and the staff

00:21:31.660 too

00:21:31.880 nothing about

00:21:32.740 the people

00:21:33.240 um

00:21:35.660 so anyway

00:21:37.300 man

00:21:37.720 uh

00:21:38.520 so now i'm

00:21:39.260 angry

00:21:39.680 i'm angry

00:21:41.000 man

00:21:41.300 and i've

00:21:43.260 been angry

00:21:43.740 man i've

00:21:44.060 been angry

00:21:44.380 for months

00:21:44.920 and i just

00:21:45.420 i'm angry

00:21:45.980 and i said

00:21:46.380 well kelsey

00:21:47.000 you know

00:21:47.620 that was her

00:21:48.240 name

00:21:48.440 i said kelsey

00:21:50.020 i wouldn't do

00:21:51.160 that to you

00:21:51.740 i said

00:21:53.900 well could you

00:21:56.100 at least like

00:21:56.900 you know

00:21:57.620 she goes you

00:21:58.960 can order room

00:21:59.440 service

00:21:59.840 and i was like

00:22:00.380 but the reason

00:22:01.080 i even picked

00:22:01.800 this hotel

00:22:02.540 was because

00:22:04.640 i wanted to

00:22:07.280 eat in the

00:22:07.800 restaurant

00:22:08.260 and i wanted

00:22:09.380 to sit in

00:22:09.920 there and

00:22:10.220 have a

00:22:10.500 drink

00:22:10.920 that's what

00:22:11.700 i wanted

00:22:12.120 i'd romanticize

00:22:13.840 this i want to

00:22:14.360 sit in there

00:22:14.840 and i want to

00:22:15.200 have a damn

00:22:15.840 d-r-i-n-k

00:22:17.440 okay

00:22:18.520 and i just

00:22:21.300 rode two

00:22:22.020 hours

00:22:22.700 with captain

00:22:24.000 can't inhale

00:22:24.840 over here

00:22:25.560 this beleaguered

00:22:28.080 senior citizen

00:22:28.920 i don't i mean

00:22:29.520 that guy

00:22:30.120 there's no way

00:22:31.740 that guy's still

00:22:32.240 alive

00:22:32.620 i mean this

00:22:33.180 guy was on

00:22:33.620 his last

00:22:34.760 lung

00:22:36.020 bro

00:22:36.360 so anyway

00:22:38.200 anyway

00:22:39.120 she said i'm

00:22:39.840 sorry you can't

00:22:40.360 go in there

00:22:40.820 you can we'll

00:22:42.560 have food we can

00:22:43.160 have food delivered

00:22:43.680 to your room

00:22:44.080 so i was upset

00:22:45.400 and i went up

00:22:46.000 to my room

00:22:46.500 and then i

00:22:49.900 ordered food

00:22:50.460 to my room

00:22:50.840 i had like

00:22:51.200 i had about

00:22:52.020 50 minutes

00:22:52.840 till i had to

00:22:53.260 be at the

00:22:53.620 venue

00:22:53.880 and i ordered

00:22:55.040 the food

00:22:55.380 to my room

00:22:56.000 and i prayed

00:22:58.760 man honestly

00:22:59.420 i mean i just

00:23:01.500 hit my knees

00:23:01.940 and prayed

00:23:02.320 i just said

00:23:02.960 you know god

00:23:03.420 i need some

00:23:03.800 help man

00:23:04.420 you know i'm

00:23:06.740 just so angry

00:23:07.620 and i don't

00:23:08.900 know why

00:23:09.460 and um

00:23:14.580 and i got in

00:23:17.400 the shower

00:23:17.820 and

00:23:18.100 and uh

00:23:20.640 and then the

00:23:21.340 guy brought

00:23:21.640 my food up

00:23:22.420 and the

00:23:22.720 drink i'd

00:23:23.220 order jack

00:23:23.960 and diet

00:23:24.460 and it wasn't

00:23:26.800 the drink

00:23:27.100 really that i

00:23:27.620 wanted but i

00:23:28.280 just i don't

00:23:30.280 know that's

00:23:30.800 what that's

00:23:31.140 what i

00:23:31.360 ordered and

00:23:31.900 and

00:23:34.900 and there was

00:23:37.800 something about

00:23:38.340 the fact that

00:23:39.200 i kind of

00:23:40.600 romanticized the

00:23:41.420 idea i'm gonna

00:23:41.880 drink but i'm

00:23:42.500 gonna drink down

00:23:43.040 in this nice

00:23:43.560 restaurant it's

00:23:44.440 gonna be you

00:23:45.060 know this

00:23:45.500 little i'm gonna

00:23:46.020 be able to

00:23:46.320 look out at

00:23:46.680 the water it's

00:23:47.400 gonna be cool

00:23:48.040 i'm having the

00:23:48.560 fish his family's

00:23:49.620 gonna swim by it's

00:23:50.620 gonna be kind of

00:23:51.740 like one like a

00:23:52.420 part of the

00:23:52.760 godfather a little

00:23:53.680 bit it's gonna be

00:23:55.040 interesting and

00:23:56.000 instead uh the

00:23:58.360 fact that i

00:23:58.880 couldn't have the

00:23:59.480 drink there in

00:24:00.380 that place like

00:24:01.080 once it got to

00:24:01.700 my room i just

00:24:02.240 didn't want it

00:24:02.840 and so i said

00:24:04.840 well if i'm still

00:24:05.340 feeling bad later

00:24:06.020 i'll have it and

00:24:06.680 um and i eat my

00:24:08.840 food and went

00:24:09.560 to the shows

00:24:10.160 and uh and

00:24:13.100 that was that

00:24:13.640 so i mean i

00:24:17.580 only tell that

00:24:18.100 story just because

00:24:18.840 you know i'm

00:24:20.340 trying not to

00:24:21.040 drink and

00:24:23.680 sometimes it's

00:24:24.180 really hard

00:24:24.720 and that was

00:24:31.180 one that was

00:24:31.720 just one of

00:24:32.300 those times i

00:24:33.020 mean and i

00:24:36.520 don't talk about

00:24:37.140 it that much

00:24:37.520 on here i like

00:24:38.020 to keep that

00:24:38.900 kind of stuff

00:24:39.420 sometimes separate

00:24:40.460 because i don't

00:24:41.860 want to have to

00:24:42.660 like every week

00:24:43.440 report on how

00:24:45.420 i'm doing with

00:24:46.200 being sober or

00:24:47.120 feel like i have

00:24:48.040 to uh you know

00:24:52.220 because it's my

00:24:52.900 own journey um

00:24:54.700 but it was

00:24:57.040 interesting that

00:24:57.660 once

00:24:58.160 it was interesting

00:25:01.120 because then i got

00:25:01.620 this perspective

00:25:02.200 that oh well god's

00:25:03.340 doing for me what i

00:25:04.040 can't do for myself

00:25:04.920 because if that if

00:25:06.340 they would have

00:25:06.760 allowed me to go

00:25:07.580 into that restaurant

00:25:08.360 i wasn't even going

00:25:09.720 to put my bags in

00:25:10.400 my room i was going

00:25:11.180 to go sit in there

00:25:11.900 i hadn't eaten all

00:25:12.440 day i was going to

00:25:13.100 go sit in there

00:25:13.840 i had four cookies on

00:25:16.700 the plane but i was

00:25:17.860 going to go sit in

00:25:19.340 there and uh i

00:25:23.080 think and now i i

00:25:28.600 just hear here's

00:25:29.320 what i'm saying is

00:25:29.800 i i realized at

00:25:30.780 that moment i was

00:25:31.280 like oh i didn't

00:25:32.160 that if i would if

00:25:34.740 i if i would have

00:25:36.480 been able to go in

00:25:37.660 just right into the

00:25:38.600 restaurant i wasn't

00:25:39.080 even going to take

00:25:39.520 my bags to my room

00:25:40.340 if i would have been

00:25:41.820 able to go right to

00:25:42.580 the restaurant i was

00:25:43.300 just going to go sit

00:25:43.960 in there and order a

00:25:44.840 drink and um and i

00:25:48.020 just you know i'm

00:25:48.640 just trying not to

00:25:49.480 and i just i guess i

00:25:50.860 want to tell that

00:25:51.300 story just i don't

00:25:54.080 know i think you

00:25:56.660 know i think god was

00:25:57.660 doing for me what i

00:25:58.320 can't do for myself

00:25:59.240 you know he's he he

00:26:01.380 and and and at first

00:26:04.480 it was made me so

00:26:05.320 angry but then i'm

00:26:06.100 like man if i would

00:26:07.020 have if that restaurant

00:26:08.200 would have allowed me

00:26:08.960 in then i would have

00:26:10.800 drank you know i

00:26:13.760 would have drank and

00:26:14.980 anyway i know you

00:26:20.040 know that doesn't

00:26:20.580 matter to some people

00:26:21.360 but when you're

00:26:21.840 trying not to um and

00:26:25.080 you just got so much

00:26:25.820 anger built up and

00:26:26.580 you don't even know

00:26:27.020 why uh it just gets

00:26:31.440 i don't know it gets

00:26:32.540 heavy sometimes

00:26:33.360 elephants are a good

00:26:34.500 sound it just um

00:26:38.060 yeah i i don't know

00:26:41.860 and so yeah the drink

00:26:44.100 just sat there and it

00:26:45.600 melted and and i don't

00:26:48.720 know i'm not saying

00:26:49.340 that i won't that i'm

00:26:50.120 not going to drink

00:26:50.620 sometime i don't know

00:26:51.720 what i'm going to do

00:26:52.400 but i just got to get

00:26:54.040 some help i just got to

00:26:55.080 start feeling better

00:26:55.840 and i'm not trying to

00:26:58.420 complain um but i just

00:27:01.880 don't feel i don't feel

00:27:03.520 good you know and

00:27:09.640 i don't feel good and

00:27:10.620 i want to i want to

00:27:11.400 enjoy my life you know

00:27:13.200 i want to be able to

00:27:14.280 enjoy my life and be

00:27:16.580 of service to other

00:27:17.380 people and

00:27:19.400 and i'm just having a

00:27:23.340 tough time doing that

00:27:24.640 right now because i

00:27:26.440 don't feel great

00:27:27.140 so i'm not trying to

00:27:29.960 complain i'm not

00:27:30.680 trying to have self

00:27:31.240 pity i'm trying to

00:27:32.340 take action

00:27:32.960 uh you know i'm

00:27:34.680 trying to see a new

00:27:35.340 therapist um i'm

00:27:38.840 looking at getting a

00:27:39.740 new sponsor uh through

00:27:41.720 12 step stuff and

00:27:43.220 um but yeah i don't

00:27:49.880 know i just i just

00:27:50.760 wanted to kind of tell

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00:32:38.800 yeah a good intro song there by

00:32:43.960 Grady Spencer and the work from

00:32:46.360 their album celebrate and that

00:32:48.160 song is called our time but yeah

00:32:52.140 I just haven't been feeling good

00:32:53.280 you know I just have been feeling

00:32:56.720 a lot of stress and I don't know

00:32:58.780 and I've just been feeling angry

00:33:02.920 and

00:33:05.440 and I almost you know I almost

00:33:11.060 don't want to say that

00:33:12.060 I almost don't you know I don't

00:33:16.660 because I'm scared I guess

00:33:18.120 I'm scared of what people are

00:33:21.260 going to think I'm scared of what

00:33:22.420 you're going to think

00:33:23.200 but I don't feel that great and I

00:33:32.940 don't feel that great enough of the

00:33:34.360 time where it's a you know it's a

00:33:37.540 recur it's a it's something that I

00:33:40.820 have to just I got to do more

00:33:42.520 you know so so I'm I'm going to

00:33:56.000 try I mean I did some things

00:33:57.020 today you know I went for a run in

00:33:58.340 the middle of the day I didn't want

00:33:59.580 to but I did it I'm getting my blood

00:34:04.540 work done just check to make sure

00:34:05.840 that everything's okay inside of me

00:34:07.280 to make sure you know just staying on

00:34:09.400 top of that you know I'm going to go

00:34:12.680 to an AA meeting later today and

00:34:14.320 just I spoke to some you know 12

00:34:17.640 step friends on the phone and and I

00:34:20.280 think some of it is just too much of

00:34:22.100 me you know a lot of my life has you

00:34:24.280 know you know I think some something

00:34:29.560 that will help me is doing stuff for

00:34:31.120 other people so I need to try and lean

00:34:33.800 into that a little bit more

00:34:34.880 but I'm just tired I feel every day

00:34:40.280 like I'm fighting something and I

00:34:41.980 don't know what it is

00:34:43.000 and I feel every day like I'm like

00:34:50.520 like I'm just constantly just pushing

00:34:52.860 trying to I don't even know what I'm

00:34:56.540 pushing or what I'm pushing against

00:34:58.120 I'm trying to explain it but I'm

00:35:06.640 trying to like feel it and share it

00:35:08.800 at the same time and I'm not trying

00:35:13.020 to have self-pity on myself I'm trying

00:35:14.620 to be active you know I used to get

00:35:18.040 bummed out for years and I would just

00:35:19.640 lay lay in bed man be be sad and sleep

00:35:23.100 definitely helps but I can't do that

00:35:26.020 forever you know I have to take

00:35:28.140 action in my life I have friends and

00:35:29.960 people that need me and and I want to

00:35:35.420 be healthy so I can you know I feel

00:35:40.160 like I feel like God wants me to be able

00:35:41.800 to be a part of helping people or being

00:35:44.180 a part of people's lives you know I want

00:35:46.480 to be a part of that river of like

00:35:48.140 comfort in the world and river of like

00:35:50.020 healthiness and stuff and and I just

00:35:52.500 can't be a part of it if I'm not

00:35:53.880 feeling good myself so anyway I'm not

00:35:58.220 gonna try and dwell on it too much but

00:35:59.900 it was just amazing that man I wanted

00:36:03.280 that drink man and that just a simple

00:36:06.480 thing that that lady said the restaurant

00:36:07.980 is not open to you and I and I was so

00:36:11.980 angry but really that was a higher power

00:36:15.740 saying hey you know let me do for you

00:36:20.820 what you can't do for yourself right now

00:36:22.420 and I and I did feel like that was

00:36:23.780 pretty powerful so but yeah I talked a

00:36:34.300 little bit here let's get in here let's

00:36:36.200 take a call or two here we go let me

00:36:37.980 shut up I just feel sometimes on this

00:36:39.340 podcast even I feel so bad just talking

00:36:41.200 all the time because it's always me you

00:36:43.900 know it's always me

00:36:46.820 hey Theo this is Johnny from New Jersey

00:36:50.500 what's up Johnny from Jersey baby and no

00:36:54.820 no no relation to Jersey Mike's over

00:36:56.880 there and they got the sweaty meat they

00:36:58.660 got the meat that seemed glossy on the

00:37:00.400 outside like somebody you know parked a

00:37:03.640 84 Chevrolet over to meet for half an

00:37:08.080 hour and left it running and now it's

00:37:10.760 got that slick look on it gang just left

00:37:13.860 your show it was a great time I think

00:37:18.120 you're doing good making people laugh

00:37:19.620 during these hard rough times I just

00:37:23.040 want to say keep it up and we all

00:37:24.340 support you here we had a blast over

00:37:26.560 there we were crying laughing and we'll

00:37:30.960 always support you brother so gang gang

00:37:34.300 gang man thank you dude that was real

00:37:38.260 timely and I appreciate it man yeah I

00:37:43.260 think sometimes I just put all this

00:37:44.500 pressure maybe on myself I don't know

00:37:45.980 like if if I don't do something right

00:37:47.680 the right way that that people aren't

00:37:50.180 gonna care anymore

00:37:51.440 and so then it makes me kind of I think

00:37:57.480 afraid to like do anything you know if

00:38:01.060 I'm not the right amount of funny or the

00:38:02.760 right amount of serious or the right I

00:38:04.660 just

00:38:04.920 you know I put this impossible

00:38:09.120 and I don't even know if I do it

00:38:13.320 consciously that's the thing it's not

00:38:14.880 like choices I'm making it's like

00:38:16.580 you know I think probably when I was

00:38:23.640 young I felt like if I didn't behave a

00:38:25.340 certain way that people weren't going

00:38:26.800 to

00:38:27.440 care about me

00:38:30.500 that like the care that I received

00:38:35.880 from people

00:38:36.540 was directly correlated to how I

00:38:41.700 behaved

00:38:42.160 and I was only going to be cared about

00:38:47.040 if I behaved an exact way

00:38:51.940 and I could never figure out what that

00:38:59.280 way was

00:38:59.940 so I think you know sometimes probably

00:39:10.420 in my life that's why

00:39:11.440 you know I've always probably a lot of

00:39:16.380 me has been searching you know this

00:39:18.460 searching for some how do I crack this

00:39:24.200 code how do I get this how do I

00:39:27.060 what numbers do I have to line up

00:39:28.700 correctly

00:39:29.320 to get the care that I need you know

00:39:39.700 but yeah I think

00:39:47.800 you know and I was never good at saying

00:39:52.200 when I needed help

00:39:53.440 I was never good at saying hey I need

00:40:00.100 help you know

00:40:00.780 and it's so funny because even as a

00:40:04.300 child you know I was a loud man I was

00:40:05.700 always saying something

00:40:06.820 but it was all like

00:40:11.880 it was all just hot air man

00:40:20.080 the thing I needed to say was just

00:40:22.340 that I need I need I need some help

00:40:26.880 you know I need somebody I need to

00:40:29.160 feel that somebody cares about me

00:40:30.920 you know

00:40:32.640 that's what I needed it when I was

00:40:34.600 young

00:40:34.900 but I had that emotional asthma man

00:40:40.180 when you think about it I had that

00:40:41.500 emotional asthma I just

00:40:43.040 because I just didn't know I just

00:40:46.200 didn't know I didn't know what was

00:40:47.560 going on

00:40:48.200 and I'm not trying to sound whiny you

00:40:52.340 know I know I keep saying that but

00:40:53.800 I'm not like

00:40:54.520 you know oh man I don't know it's

00:40:58.680 nothing's ever gonna be good I'm not

00:41:01.420 I'm not feeling that way I'm just

00:41:02.740 trying to feel what feelings are

00:41:05.360 inside of me so I can

00:41:06.720 so I can take some action

00:41:09.900 and some days man I just it's hard to

00:41:15.480 be funny sometimes some days it's hard

00:41:17.260 to just it's hard man

00:41:18.800 it's just like I got in here today

00:41:22.180 and I was like fuck what am I gonna

00:41:23.360 do you know but then I get this

00:41:28.400 voicemail right here

00:41:29.640 I just want to say keep it up and we

00:41:31.980 all support you here we had a blast

00:41:34.140 over there we were crying laughing

00:41:35.900 and we'll always support you brother

00:41:40.440 so gang gang

00:41:42.080 you know and that changes the script in

00:41:47.480 me because then then I hear oh we'll

00:41:49.540 always support you you know we'll

00:41:51.160 always support you

00:41:52.340 and it's just something you know I

00:41:56.240 think it's something that you you got

00:41:57.620 to tell your kids when they're young is

00:41:59.120 that you know that just that you love

00:42:01.220 them no matter what they're doing no

00:42:02.740 matter what

00:42:03.420 like no matter what

00:42:06.140 because I always felt like everything

00:42:10.280 every next step of my comfort was

00:42:13.000 dependent upon how I was behaving at

00:42:16.100 that second at that moment

00:42:17.840 it was all so dependent upon like how

00:42:25.760 whenever my mom got home how was she

00:42:27.420 feeling you know it didn't matter how I

00:42:30.300 was feeling however she was feeling

00:42:31.720 then that's how the night was gonna go

00:42:34.500 you know a lot of there just wasn't

00:42:38.920 room for my feelings

00:42:39.980 and so a lot of times I think when I

00:42:47.220 was young I just didn't have them

00:42:48.520 and so then that's why I have more of

00:42:51.680 them now sometimes because I think you

00:42:55.300 know feelings are they're patient they're

00:42:57.060 real real patient but at some point

00:42:58.700 they trying to leave the bus station

00:43:00.220 so I think some of them they just I

00:43:04.700 have them later on and I have them

00:43:06.120 now and

00:43:06.700 yeah I don't know I'm just trying to

00:43:12.900 think out loud and

00:43:13.860 you know because a lot of people have

00:43:16.980 said to me over the years that you

00:43:18.240 know you know Theo I like when you

00:43:20.340 share what's going on with you because

00:43:21.740 sometimes you say stuff that I can feel

00:43:24.000 and and you guys do it to me

00:43:26.680 you know like this guy right here

00:43:29.460 hard rough times

00:43:30.560 I just want to say keep it up and we

00:43:33.620 all support you here

00:43:34.500 we had a blast over there we were

00:43:36.420 crying laughing

00:43:37.540 and

00:43:38.860 we'll always

00:43:40.700 support you brother

00:43:42.060 so gang gang

00:43:43.700 yes you know it's just we got a good

00:43:48.000 group of support here and I think

00:43:49.720 it's cool man but

00:43:50.840 thank you again for the nice message

00:43:53.520 man

00:43:53.820 I really

00:43:54.440 yeah and I'm yeah I don't I don't

00:43:57.740 know why you know this episode just

00:43:59.020 whatever it is man I'm tired I'm just

00:44:01.060 fucking tired I'm tired of having to

00:44:02.860 like

00:44:03.180 sometimes not just be able to be how I

00:44:06.000 want to be

00:44:06.620 and I know that you guys didn't make

00:44:09.160 it that way I know that sometimes I've

00:44:10.780 made it that way in my own head I know

00:44:13.160 that sometimes just the past like you

00:44:15.200 know life this work got busier the

00:44:17.620 past year and a half

00:44:18.600 you know I was sitting yesterday

00:44:22.840 talking to somebody and tell them that

00:44:24.100 I went to tour in Europe and man I

00:44:25.980 hardly have any

00:44:27.200 recollection of it

00:44:29.860 it gets you know I hardly have it just

00:44:33.800 things are just things just fast just

00:44:36.520 fast just you know just a lot

00:44:39.500 and it's a blessing I'm that's not

00:44:42.540 what I'm saying I'm just saying

00:44:43.880 that

00:44:45.060 that for a guy like me that feels a

00:44:49.220 lot of stuff it's a lot

00:44:50.380 it's a lot sometimes

00:44:53.800 but the best part man I will say the

00:44:57.040 best part

00:44:57.660 it was such a gift man when I showed

00:44:59.480 up over to the show I did I didn't

00:45:01.120 drink I felt so good about myself I

00:45:02.840 said man how did I don't know how you

00:45:04.280 did it

00:45:04.720 you know when I called a friend when I

00:45:06.940 was in the car and I even told him

00:45:08.180 on the way there I said hey man this

00:45:09.580 if this uber driver gets back in the

00:45:13.640 car soon or if he doesn't I don't

00:45:15.140 know but I'm drinking

00:45:16.120 you know and he sent me a link to

00:45:19.940 some video and it was some I don't

00:45:21.860 even know

00:45:22.400 some damn baseball thing I don't know

00:45:24.700 it was the worst thing ever but

00:45:26.060 but just the fact that I broke up

00:45:29.060 that that the thought in my head

00:45:30.960 it just kind of gave weaken that power

00:45:34.420 and then I got to the place and they

00:45:36.440 said oh you can't go in a nice

00:45:37.560 restaurant you got to eat up in your

00:45:39.080 room by the fraternity toilet

00:45:40.420 I said damn

00:45:42.100 I mean even this shit but this place

00:45:45.160 was old bro they had old shows on

00:45:47.060 television like what the fuck dog

00:45:49.040 dude I turned on golden girls a

00:45:51.920 couple of all all of them were still

00:45:53.500 alive on the show that's how this

00:45:55.660 thing was old

00:45:56.400 there was a George Bush senior

00:46:01.180 advertiser like vote for George Bush

00:46:03.140 senior

00:46:03.660 one of the commercials like this

00:46:05.560 everything in there was old

00:46:06.860 it was

00:46:09.360 and I was angry

00:46:11.980 but that place has a amazing

00:46:14.340 restaurant

00:46:14.960 and I got up to my room and here was

00:46:18.700 the crazy part that my room wasn't

00:46:20.040 even facing like the water it was

00:46:21.560 just facing like the parking lot

00:46:23.060 and I'm like oh if this good thing

00:46:27.240 it's only four stories I'd jump out

00:46:28.560 the damn window right now good

00:46:30.980 thing it's only four stories and

00:46:32.240 that's concrete looks I could

00:46:33.540 handle that it was not concrete it

00:46:35.120 was a asphalt I could live off four

00:46:38.500 stories in asphalt I'll live you can

00:46:40.640 ask any gypsy that I'll live there

00:46:42.260 dude

00:46:42.620 kush girl

00:46:43.700 but if I go four stories on a

00:46:46.180 concrete I'm probably not gonna I'm

00:46:49.300 not surviving

00:46:49.940 oh shout out to the dude too that

00:46:52.540 came out to the late show in a

00:46:53.740 wheelchair man

00:46:54.560 and he had in enabled legs

00:46:56.900 his legs was enabled by a um

00:46:59.700 dirt bike

00:47:01.120 a dirt bike and

00:47:03.060 just did him dirty and

00:47:05.620 man he had such a great attitude

00:47:07.620 man it

00:47:08.380 he had such a great attitude man

00:47:11.760 I really I just

00:47:12.620 I really I you know I almost wanted

00:47:15.900 to just cut off one of my damn

00:47:17.040 legs and give it to him

00:47:18.040 and then me and him could just

00:47:20.200 three-legged race around the world

00:47:21.580 together no homo bro you feel me

00:47:23.780 dog you stay on your side of the

00:47:25.120 leg I'll stay on my side of the

00:47:26.400 leg at night

00:47:27.060 but

00:47:28.480 but anyway

00:47:31.760 well I guess you couldn't do I guess

00:47:34.380 if you gave

00:47:35.160 yes somebody a leg but then I don't

00:47:38.840 know how that but anyway yeah no

00:47:40.200 homo dude 100% bro

00:47:41.880 but also dude yeah you know but if

00:47:45.020 somebody is gay then also yes homo I

00:47:47.240 don't want anybody to think that I'm

00:47:48.480 not

00:47:48.880 you know being cool to

00:47:50.940 gay people or anything so no homo

00:47:53.260 and yes homo dog

00:47:54.880 gang shit

00:47:55.780 um

00:47:58.280 what else here's someone else that

00:48:00.420 came that came out to the show

00:48:01.540 let's take a couple of show calls

00:48:02.780 what's up Steve out there on the road baby

00:48:12.980 and I've driven out on the road now I like

00:48:15.960 to get me a little bit of caramel corn

00:48:17.440 when I'm out there driving or riding

00:48:18.920 brother

00:48:19.260 onward

00:48:20.100 oh yeah we was out there by the dog

00:48:31.840 track

00:48:32.260 and a lot you know you could smell oh

00:48:35.220 dude you could smell a damn dachshund

00:48:36.920 from the stage man you could hear the

00:48:38.840 dog track over there

00:48:39.920 people betting on a dog and losing a

00:48:43.020 there's nothing sadder than somebody

00:48:45.120 gambling on a damn dog track

00:48:46.900 because the information at least if it's a

00:48:50.300 horse you can get some information you

00:48:52.040 can get a little bit of intel on them

00:48:53.560 but a damn you know

00:48:55.500 somebody got you know a

00:48:57.300 Wamaraner

00:48:58.240 you know somebody got a Rottweiler

00:49:00.800 shit zoo mix out there and it's

00:49:02.640 supposed to run in the seventh race

00:49:04.140 you know what I'm saying but it

00:49:07.500 hasn't had lunch like you'll just get

00:49:08.780 weird like oh yeah

00:49:09.860 you know

00:49:12.360 Peaky Blinder or whatever the dog's

00:49:14.360 name is or something

00:49:15.320 you know he hadn't had lunch and

00:49:17.540 that's the kind of intel you get

00:49:18.860 and you're still supposed to lay 20

00:49:20.180 30 on a damn dog

00:49:21.420 you know I took a date out to the

00:49:24.040 dog track over there in Tucson

00:49:25.240 Arizona one time out there

00:49:26.680 and she hated me that lady

00:49:29.420 that lady hated me she was an older

00:49:31.440 lady and I thought well what does

00:49:32.540 older lady want to do probably

00:49:33.740 something you know

00:49:34.720 advanced you know

00:49:36.740 so I thought gambling

00:49:38.200 and I took her out there and bet on

00:49:40.660 the dog

00:49:41.120 bet six dollars on this dog

00:49:43.100 you know nine dollars on that one

00:49:45.280 trying to show out a little

00:49:46.260 and I bet nine

00:49:47.900 and both them bitches lost

00:49:50.140 and then that bitch left

00:49:51.180 so

00:49:52.200 you got to take women where they

00:49:54.220 care to good stuff

00:49:55.360 but anyway sorry

00:49:56.120 I'm making this about me

00:49:57.600 onward Steve

00:49:58.140 dad I missed the show

00:49:59.860 couldn't go

00:50:00.860 I've been trying to see you for

00:50:01.940 a couple years now

00:50:03.620 but uh

00:50:04.640 I'm in the marine corps

00:50:06.360 so uh

00:50:07.140 you know

00:50:07.880 duty calls

00:50:09.240 can't be around but

00:50:10.360 man I

00:50:11.580 bet you probably had a great show

00:50:13.360 trying to see you at some point

00:50:15.120 this year hopefully

00:50:16.080 even with all this

00:50:17.180 COVID stuff going on

00:50:18.400 but

00:50:18.660 yeah I've been going through

00:50:20.400 a tough time

00:50:20.960 with the relationship and stuff

00:50:22.120 and starting on my career

00:50:23.080 but

00:50:23.500 hey man

00:50:24.580 your stuff on this past weekend

00:50:26.160 and came to the scene

00:50:27.140 that stuff uh

00:50:28.900 keeps me going man

00:50:30.000 makes me laugh

00:50:30.740 and

00:50:30.960 like I said

00:50:31.980 can't wait to see you on the show

00:50:33.020 sometime

00:50:33.580 definitely excited for next special

00:50:35.740 or something

00:50:36.280 thanks man

00:50:38.580 thanks dude

00:50:40.180 that's sweet of you to say that man

00:50:41.460 and I can

00:50:41.760 and I can feel that you know

00:50:43.060 I can feel you being genuine

00:50:44.300 and uh

00:50:45.120 and yeah

00:50:46.680 thank you

00:50:47.400 you know

00:50:47.780 and we do have a new special

00:50:49.940 you know

00:50:50.200 we're signing a deal

00:50:51.020 with Netflix

00:50:51.500 and

00:50:51.920 it's just paperwork now

00:50:54.380 and

00:50:54.620 um

00:50:55.880 and to do a special

00:50:57.680 and so

00:50:58.660 that'll be great for that

00:50:59.540 to come out

00:51:00.080 Steve

00:51:00.300 so you'll be able to see it

00:51:01.180 and share that

00:51:01.720 with your uh

00:51:02.620 um

00:51:03.560 your Semper Fi

00:51:04.800 uh

00:51:06.020 fellas

00:51:06.460 out there

00:51:07.280 and uh

00:51:07.980 and

00:51:10.000 you know

00:51:11.020 I think that's pretty cool man

00:51:12.100 to be in the military

00:51:12.800 I think there's one thing I admired

00:51:14.200 when I used to go do some military tours

00:51:15.880 and I hope to do some again

00:51:16.980 was just the camaraderie you get to have

00:51:20.180 to be in a group of people

00:51:22.060 and

00:51:22.440 to be able to just joke around

00:51:25.480 and

00:51:25.880 you know

00:51:27.160 I know it's grueling

00:51:28.100 a lot of the hours you guys have

00:51:29.500 and I know you're not

00:51:30.380 where

00:51:30.700 your desired

00:51:31.700 location a lot of times

00:51:33.600 but

00:51:33.980 you know

00:51:35.580 it's so often

00:51:36.320 so rare

00:51:37.040 sorry

00:51:37.500 in life

00:51:37.900 that I find

00:51:38.440 you get to have a group of people around

00:51:40.140 who enjoy one another

00:51:41.360 especially right now

00:51:43.800 um

00:51:46.020 so man

00:51:48.140 I'm really

00:51:48.480 I'm envious in a lot of ways

00:51:49.980 of just

00:51:50.420 you be able to have that brotherhood

00:51:52.520 and just people

00:51:53.260 or just

00:51:53.600 you get to enjoy people

00:51:54.740 that's

00:51:55.040 that's a delicacy right now

00:51:56.720 a lot of people

00:51:59.020 or can't enjoy people

00:52:00.120 a lot of people can't

00:52:00.980 you know

00:52:02.500 people still can't

00:52:03.360 go see their grandparents

00:52:04.360 or

00:52:04.840 there's fear around it

00:52:06.860 um

00:52:08.300 but

00:52:09.920 but be well man

00:52:12.440 and thank you for the warm message man

00:52:13.920 and uh

00:52:14.700 and enjoy that

00:52:16.060 enjoy each other

00:52:17.120 you know

00:52:20.080 enjoy it man

00:52:20.980 that's such a

00:52:21.800 it's gonna be prehistoric

00:52:25.200 human beings

00:52:26.240 spending time with each other

00:52:27.340 the way that we're so addicted

00:52:28.460 to electronica now

00:52:29.540 um

00:52:31.420 let's take another call

00:52:32.260 onward

00:52:32.560 hey Theo

00:52:34.340 it's um

00:52:35.400 Tara from

00:52:36.160 Trenton New Jersey

00:52:37.420 so

00:52:38.300 I just

00:52:38.960 got home from your show

00:52:40.640 went to the 7 o'clock show

00:52:42.520 hey Bear

00:52:43.440 and thank you for calling

00:52:44.640 and that's a unique name

00:52:45.620 for a woman

00:52:46.220 but that's how they do it

00:52:48.820 in the northeast

00:52:49.480 you know

00:52:49.900 you got more people

00:52:50.840 from Britain

00:52:52.020 more people

00:52:52.780 you know

00:52:54.400 you got that Native American

00:52:55.920 meets kind of

00:52:57.140 you know

00:52:57.840 kind of defeated

00:52:58.640 by the white

00:52:59.720 kind of vibe up there

00:53:00.880 so you'll have a kid

00:53:01.760 named Bear

00:53:02.400 you'll have a kid

00:53:03.280 named uh

00:53:04.100 you know

00:53:05.000 River Branch

00:53:05.800 or whatever

00:53:06.340 um

00:53:07.380 you know

00:53:08.980 Fire

00:53:09.480 you know

00:53:10.040 Fire

00:53:10.500 you'll have a kid

00:53:11.280 named Fire

00:53:12.000 like damn

00:53:13.180 where's Fire dude

00:53:14.040 I don't know

00:53:14.560 he's got the Wii

00:53:16.000 you know

00:53:16.520 so they got

00:53:18.340 you know

00:53:19.060 you'll have unique names

00:53:20.020 go on Bear

00:53:20.580 down there

00:53:21.840 down there

00:53:21.860 in Oceanport

00:53:22.720 in Jersey

00:53:23.260 and

00:53:24.440 man

00:53:25.240 it was

00:53:25.740 a great

00:53:26.440 great

00:53:26.760 great time

00:53:27.600 and I really

00:53:28.480 needed it

00:53:29.040 because I've just been

00:53:29.740 going through

00:53:30.380 a really

00:53:31.180 match where

00:53:32.260 I went through

00:53:33.740 a breakup

00:53:34.220 and I went through

00:53:35.500 drinking way too much

00:53:38.680 and now I'm sober

00:53:39.660 and I'm on antidepressants

00:53:41.160 but besides that

00:53:42.100 it was great

00:53:43.480 except there was this

00:53:44.460 bitch

00:53:44.860 and she just kept

00:53:46.300 screaming

00:53:46.960 for no reason

00:53:48.420 and then the last

00:53:49.820 15 minutes

00:53:50.840 of your set

00:53:51.500 she just talked

00:53:52.440 shit about how

00:53:53.120 she was on your

00:53:53.800 podcast before

00:53:54.720 oh I was on

00:53:55.660 his podcast

00:53:56.240 before

00:53:56.940 and everyone

00:53:59.180 just wanted her

00:54:00.520 to shut the fuck up

00:54:01.800 so

00:54:02.800 but besides that

00:54:04.520 you were great

00:54:05.280 and me and my

00:54:06.480 friends we had

00:54:06.940 a great time

00:54:07.640 and I really

00:54:09.180 appreciate it

00:54:10.000 and love you man

00:54:11.440 love you too

00:54:13.780 thank you very much

00:54:15.500 for that

00:54:15.940 for the nice message

00:54:17.120 and I think

00:54:17.580 there was one lady

00:54:18.320 up at the front

00:54:18.800 that was too loud

00:54:19.640 and she might have

00:54:23.240 been doing drugs

00:54:24.220 I don't know

00:54:24.760 and she had big

00:54:25.540 titties too

00:54:26.180 I'll be honest

00:54:27.020 with you

00:54:27.460 two of them

00:54:28.980 and she had

00:54:30.380 them big old

00:54:31.180 titties

00:54:31.520 it looked like

00:54:31.880 each one of her

00:54:32.360 titties had been

00:54:32.860 drinking beer

00:54:33.560 it looked like

00:54:36.000 each one of her

00:54:36.600 titties could have

00:54:37.080 been on a bowling

00:54:37.760 team in the 90s

00:54:39.080 you know she had

00:54:40.020 the big old

00:54:40.840 she had them

00:54:43.460 long branches

00:54:44.360 if you will baby

00:54:45.480 and she was loud

00:54:47.780 I think a lot

00:54:48.420 of times

00:54:48.800 a titty

00:54:49.220 will hold

00:54:49.540 a lot of

00:54:49.880 volume

00:54:50.260 you know

00:54:53.460 so sometimes

00:54:54.020 if you see

00:54:54.480 somebody with

00:54:54.880 a big tittied

00:54:55.520 woman

00:54:55.760 they'll have

00:54:56.080 earmuffs on

00:54:56.780 or something

00:54:57.180 but yeah

00:54:59.320 next time

00:54:59.800 I'll do a

00:55:00.160 little bit

00:55:00.460 better job

00:55:01.140 it's hard

00:55:01.560 for me to

00:55:01.980 gauge

00:55:02.380 here's the

00:55:02.760 hard thing

00:55:03.100 to gauge

00:55:03.520 from the

00:55:03.880 stage

00:55:04.280 if somebody

00:55:05.040 is a heckler

00:55:05.740 or somebody

00:55:06.120 is being

00:55:06.520 obtuse

00:55:07.120 are they

00:55:09.460 enjoying

00:55:10.120 themselves

00:55:10.880 or are

00:55:13.820 they trying

00:55:14.800 to be

00:55:15.480 seen

00:55:16.240 that's the

00:55:18.240 tough part

00:55:18.900 because some

00:55:22.020 lady the other

00:55:22.580 night up front

00:55:23.340 laughed like

00:55:24.300 had a really

00:55:27.200 weird laugh

00:55:29.000 and I don't

00:55:29.880 know honestly

00:55:30.600 how to handle

00:55:31.200 that

00:55:31.420 so it's

00:55:35.700 tough

00:55:36.160 you know

00:55:37.900 it's tough

00:55:38.320 to know

00:55:38.600 what is a

00:55:39.000 good sound

00:55:39.480 and what

00:55:39.780 isn't a

00:55:40.140 good sound

00:55:40.860 it's tough

00:55:45.560 it's you

00:55:46.480 just have

00:55:46.880 to but

00:55:47.480 if it gets

00:55:48.040 a little

00:55:48.320 too much

00:55:48.720 that's when

00:55:49.060 I say

00:55:49.380 something

00:55:49.680 and also

00:55:50.500 the staff

00:55:51.080 is supposed

00:55:51.380 to do

00:55:51.740 something

00:55:52.020 but you

00:55:54.120 also don't

00:55:54.640 want to

00:55:54.920 like interrupt

00:55:55.500 the jokes

00:55:56.020 the second

00:55:56.580 show there

00:55:56.880 was a

00:55:57.140 drunk

00:55:57.440 guy

00:55:57.780 who was

00:55:58.120 not

00:55:58.460 he was

00:55:58.900 he needs

00:55:59.520 to be

00:55:59.800 sober

00:56:00.100 you're

00:56:00.400 probably

00:56:00.620 you sound

00:56:01.080 okay

00:56:01.400 that guy

00:56:02.500 probably

00:56:02.880 needs to

00:56:03.320 tighten

00:56:03.680 it up

00:56:03.960 because

00:56:04.240 he just

00:56:05.420 was

00:56:05.660 the show

00:56:06.240 he made

00:56:06.560 it about

00:56:06.880 him

00:56:07.100 but maybe

00:56:07.440 not

00:56:07.740 who knows

00:56:08.200 man

00:56:08.500 but thank

00:56:10.920 you for

00:56:11.100 the warm

00:56:11.460 message

00:56:11.800 you know

00:56:12.060 and that's

00:56:12.380 the thing

00:56:12.720 it's just

00:56:13.140 like sometimes

00:56:13.560 I don't

00:56:13.800 want to

00:56:14.020 drink

00:56:14.220 because I

00:56:14.620 want to

00:56:14.840 be able

00:56:15.160 to be

00:56:15.520 there

00:56:15.760 for somebody

00:56:16.380 if they're

00:56:16.800 having a

00:56:17.160 tough time

00:56:17.720 or something

00:56:18.140 I want to

00:56:18.940 be able to

00:56:19.480 say hey

00:56:19.980 man I'm

00:56:21.200 here and I'm

00:56:21.600 available and

00:56:22.260 I'm so I'm

00:56:23.700 of right mind

00:56:24.680 right now so I

00:56:25.580 can be a part

00:56:26.340 of I don't

00:56:30.860 know

00:56:31.060 I just feel

00:56:33.260 like it's

00:56:33.480 hard for my

00:56:33.960 higher power

00:56:34.380 to use me

00:56:35.100 if I am

00:56:35.980 all fucked

00:56:36.640 up on that

00:56:37.160 gas or

00:56:37.700 whatever

00:56:37.980 but that's

00:56:39.700 just me

00:56:40.040 some people

00:56:40.620 can do a

00:56:41.100 bunch of

00:56:41.400 coke

00:56:41.740 you know

00:56:43.880 and raise

00:56:44.440 a family

00:56:45.000 I'm reading

00:56:46.520 the my pillow

00:56:47.180 guys book

00:56:47.820 right now

00:56:48.440 that dude's

00:56:49.720 smoking crack

00:56:50.480 and making

00:56:51.320 pillows

00:56:51.900 so if

00:56:55.340 that ain't

00:56:55.980 I mean

00:56:56.860 that sounds

00:56:57.340 like community

00:56:57.880 college

00:56:58.480 so there's

00:57:01.180 ways to do

00:57:01.940 it is what

00:57:02.300 I'm saying

00:57:02.780 but but

00:57:06.580 I'm glad y'all

00:57:07.220 came and I'm

00:57:07.720 glad you

00:57:08.100 laughed and I'll

00:57:08.620 tell you this

00:57:09.000 that first show

00:57:09.760 I'll put this

00:57:10.440 on anything

00:57:11.020 it might have

00:57:13.720 been the best

00:57:14.140 show I've ever

00:57:14.560 had

00:57:14.920 man it just

00:57:18.740 you know

00:57:19.540 sometimes I

00:57:20.360 just feel

00:57:21.040 and that's

00:57:22.660 the crazy

00:57:22.960 part I don't

00:57:23.360 feel bad

00:57:23.740 sometimes I

00:57:24.300 just feel

00:57:24.640 great

00:57:25.080 but this

00:57:29.640 impending

00:57:30.220 feeling that's

00:57:31.520 what I want

00:57:31.800 to get out

00:57:32.220 of me

00:57:32.500 you know

00:57:33.320 and I want

00:57:37.060 to let you

00:57:37.440 know too

00:57:37.860 man

00:57:38.280 that we

00:57:40.860 recently got

00:57:41.340 the website

00:57:41.780 redone

00:57:42.280 theovan.com

00:57:43.560 and you can

00:57:44.340 check it out

00:57:45.020 and

00:57:45.240 and

00:57:47.600 and I'm

00:57:48.740 sorry for

00:57:49.080 just talking

00:57:49.440 about myself

00:57:49.920 a lot on

00:57:50.380 this episode

00:57:50.880 I really

00:57:51.320 am

00:57:51.660 you know

00:57:52.840 but

00:57:56.620 that you

00:57:57.940 know

00:57:58.880 you know

00:58:02.240 you know

00:58:03.160 it's funny

00:58:03.580 because sometimes

00:58:04.080 I just have

00:58:04.780 I don't know

00:58:05.940 I think

00:58:10.240 sometimes I

00:58:10.640 still have

00:58:11.300 all these

00:58:11.960 things inside

00:58:12.880 me like I

00:58:13.220 want to say

00:58:13.900 you know

00:58:14.360 but I just

00:58:14.980 can't

00:58:16.600 I just

00:58:19.500 don't know

00:58:19.780 what they

00:58:20.060 are

00:58:20.620 like I

00:58:26.080 have this

00:58:26.260 feeling

00:58:26.520 sometimes

00:58:26.740 like there's

00:58:27.180 like I

00:58:27.500 want to say

00:58:28.100 things in my

00:58:29.060 throat and I

00:58:29.520 just don't

00:58:30.060 know what

00:58:30.540 they are

00:58:31.180 and sometimes

00:58:35.640 I think

00:58:36.540 man well

00:58:37.020 you're just

00:58:37.360 going to keep

00:58:37.720 talking to you

00:58:38.360 figure it out

00:58:39.060 you know

00:58:39.780 and it's

00:58:42.220 not gay

00:58:42.780 stuff

00:58:43.200 either

00:58:43.520 some people

00:58:44.960 send me

00:58:45.520 messages

00:58:46.160 hey fella

00:58:46.780 look at

00:58:47.380 this

00:58:47.580 wiener

00:58:48.000 look at

00:58:48.340 this

00:58:48.600 thigh

00:58:49.040 thigh

00:58:49.480 wiener

00:58:50.200 nut

00:58:50.800 wiener

00:58:51.260 nut

00:58:51.600 nut

00:58:52.000 and gay

00:58:53.900 men need

00:58:54.240 to quit

00:58:54.520 doing that

00:58:55.140 a lot

00:58:56.320 of gay

00:58:56.700 men

00:58:56.940 sliding

00:58:57.500 in there

00:58:58.000 and in

00:58:58.220 the DMs

00:58:58.960 hey

00:58:59.120 hey

00:58:59.380 hey

00:58:59.780 you want

00:59:02.280 to check

00:59:02.620 out this

00:59:02.960 wiener

00:59:03.420 how heavy

00:59:04.040 is your

00:59:04.360 wiener

00:59:04.700 some guy

00:59:05.100 asked me

00:59:05.520 how heavy

00:59:06.240 is your

00:59:07.060 wiener

00:59:07.560 get it

00:59:09.400 together

00:59:09.780 man

00:59:10.160 okay

00:59:11.840 a lot

00:59:13.100 of gay

00:59:13.420 men

00:59:13.640 take advantage

00:59:14.340 of the

00:59:14.660 loophole

00:59:15.020 of being

00:59:15.340 gay

00:59:15.840 to make

00:59:17.180 it that

00:59:17.460 they can

00:59:17.980 then be

00:59:18.680 gross

00:59:19.240 towards

00:59:19.620 straight

00:59:19.960 men

00:59:20.280 and that

00:59:23.420 is

00:59:23.720 too much

00:59:24.580 man

00:59:26.200 send me

00:59:26.540 a message

00:59:26.860 how heavy

00:59:27.360 is your

00:59:27.660 wiener

00:59:28.000 I'm not

00:59:30.280 scaling

00:59:30.700 my wiener

00:59:31.300 man

00:59:31.500 and I'm

00:59:31.680 not telling

00:59:32.120 you

00:59:32.540 sir

00:59:33.860 okay

00:59:34.380 buddy

00:59:34.800 it's

00:59:35.560 you're

00:59:35.940 being

00:59:36.280 nasty

00:59:37.220 so

00:59:40.540 anyway

00:59:41.640 I just

00:59:42.040 had to

00:59:42.500 say that

00:59:42.940 but what

00:59:43.620 I'm telling

00:59:43.920 you is

00:59:44.120 we got

00:59:44.300 the website

00:59:44.760 redone

00:59:45.300 theovan.com

00:59:46.560 and who

00:59:47.620 did it

00:59:47.940 was a

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00:59:52.100 no joke

00:59:52.840 was effortless

00:59:54.100 that's what

00:59:54.760 I like

00:59:55.160 the turnaround

00:59:56.140 was swift

00:59:56.780 I don't have

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00:59:57.860 it was

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01:01:07.560 what

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01:01:10.680 about

01:01:11.000 man

01:01:11.380 you know

01:01:13.960 and I

01:01:14.140 got to

01:01:14.360 recognize

01:01:14.760 too

01:01:15.020 you know

01:01:15.600 a lot

01:01:15.900 of people

01:01:16.200 are

01:01:16.360 feeling

01:01:17.200 you know

01:01:18.140 rough

01:01:18.860 it's a

01:01:19.140 rough time

01:01:20.360 there is

01:01:22.700 a lot

01:01:23.140 you know

01:01:23.660 we don't

01:01:24.080 have the

01:01:24.440 regular

01:01:24.800 things

01:01:25.080 I was

01:01:25.300 talking to

01:01:25.720 Maurice

01:01:26.260 Claret

01:01:26.660 the other

01:01:27.080 day

01:01:27.380 and man

01:01:29.100 I really

01:01:29.780 really

01:01:30.080 admire

01:01:30.460 that guy

01:01:30.780 he has

01:01:31.040 so much

01:01:31.540 solution

01:01:32.060 in his

01:01:32.480 brain

01:01:33.100 and in

01:01:33.400 his

01:01:33.540 heart

01:01:33.860 and

01:01:34.020 and

01:01:36.040 and

01:01:38.780 and he

01:01:40.980 was saying

01:01:41.460 you know

01:01:41.760 one of the

01:01:42.100 reasons people

01:01:42.520 are all

01:01:42.820 so antsy

01:01:43.480 right now

01:01:43.940 he thinks

01:01:44.380 because

01:01:45.220 nobody

01:01:46.740 has

01:01:47.520 anything

01:01:47.920 to do

01:01:48.700 there's

01:01:49.100 no sports

01:01:49.780 to watch

01:01:50.280 there's

01:01:50.480 no outlet

01:01:51.180 the only

01:01:52.360 teams that

01:01:53.020 have been

01:01:53.240 playing

01:01:53.680 this whole

01:01:54.140 time

01:01:54.660 have been

01:01:55.440 political

01:01:55.940 so everybody's

01:01:57.400 getting on

01:01:57.820 one or the

01:01:58.300 other

01:01:58.660 so it's

01:02:03.000 just it's

01:02:03.400 interesting

01:02:03.900 and I

01:02:04.160 thought about

01:02:04.660 that people

01:02:05.140 have become

01:02:05.580 more fans

01:02:06.480 of politics

01:02:07.320 you know

01:02:09.920 we've become

01:02:11.200 more fans

01:02:11.940 it's become

01:02:12.620 without other

01:02:13.460 sports and

01:02:14.100 other things

01:02:14.880 politics

01:02:17.700 has become

01:02:18.260 the thing

01:02:18.600 to be a

01:02:19.060 fan of

01:02:19.840 you know

01:02:22.060 I like

01:02:22.320 this quarterback

01:02:22.840 I like

01:02:23.300 this quarterback

01:02:23.920 oh the

01:02:24.660 backup

01:02:24.980 quarterbacks

01:02:25.520 you know

01:02:26.280 is racist

01:02:27.880 the black

01:02:28.340 the black

01:02:29.260 up quarterbacks

01:02:29.860 racist

01:02:30.280 you know

01:02:30.560 it just

01:02:30.820 there's all

01:02:32.120 it just

01:02:32.560 there's

01:02:33.960 people are

01:02:34.480 becoming fans

01:02:35.220 of politics

01:02:35.920 and becoming

01:02:38.060 activists

01:02:38.660 that's one

01:02:39.060 thing

01:02:39.200 I'm just

01:02:40.120 dude we've

01:02:40.860 all I feel

01:02:41.460 I feel

01:02:42.000 like we've

01:02:42.400 all become

01:02:43.060 such

01:02:44.080 addicts

01:02:46.640 to all

01:02:48.160 of this

01:02:48.540 junk

01:02:49.260 that is

01:02:49.900 then making

01:02:50.620 us

01:02:51.220 be angry

01:02:53.180 about stuff

01:02:54.000 that I

01:02:55.080 don't know

01:02:55.500 if we're

01:02:55.820 really angry

01:02:56.500 about

01:02:56.880 I know

01:02:59.420 that we

01:02:59.820 are

01:03:00.220 concerned

01:03:01.280 about

01:03:01.680 things

01:03:02.200 I know

01:03:04.480 that we

01:03:04.760 have views

01:03:05.700 about

01:03:06.060 things

01:03:06.660 but I

01:03:08.820 don't know

01:03:09.160 if we're

01:03:09.600 really

01:03:10.700 angry

01:03:13.220 about

01:03:13.780 things

01:03:14.300 so I

01:03:17.580 really

01:03:17.800 question

01:03:18.460 the

01:03:18.760 side

01:03:19.480 effect

01:03:20.000 of

01:03:20.640 just

01:03:22.340 all the

01:03:22.880 snippets

01:03:23.380 and all

01:03:23.680 the

01:03:23.820 information

01:03:24.260 and the

01:03:24.680 constant

01:03:25.200 barrage

01:03:26.060 of

01:03:26.380 information

01:03:27.000 and the

01:03:29.620 effect

01:03:30.000 that has

01:03:30.460 on us

01:03:31.000 you know

01:03:34.520 it's just

01:03:34.840 because you

01:03:35.600 start to

01:03:35.980 wonder

01:03:36.120 well

01:03:36.380 everybody

01:03:37.040 like

01:03:37.500 so many

01:03:38.540 people are

01:03:39.100 activists

01:03:39.880 now

01:03:40.200 like

01:03:40.420 what's

01:03:40.700 going

01:03:41.000 on

01:03:41.480 like

01:03:46.100 I get

01:03:46.600 being

01:03:46.960 activated

01:03:47.700 but

01:03:49.940 at some

01:03:51.260 point

01:03:51.580 it's just

01:03:52.140 we're

01:03:53.980 I feel

01:03:54.680 like

01:03:54.900 we're

01:03:56.920 being

01:03:57.220 taken

01:03:57.600 advantage

01:03:58.120 of

01:03:58.660 you know

01:03:59.480 at some

01:03:59.740 point

01:03:59.900 we feel

01:04:00.240 a little

01:04:00.540 bit

01:04:00.760 used

01:04:01.440 by

01:04:02.680 all

01:04:03.060 of

01:04:03.220 the

01:04:03.580 this

01:04:05.300 the

01:04:05.500 media

01:04:05.760 and all

01:04:06.040 the

01:04:06.160 hype

01:04:06.460 and

01:04:08.160 a lot

01:04:08.820 of

01:04:08.900 it's

01:04:09.000 like

01:04:09.140 panic

01:04:09.500 porn

01:04:09.900 you know

01:04:11.420 my

01:04:11.600 brother's

01:04:11.980 friend

01:04:12.220 coined

01:04:12.540 that

01:04:12.720 phrase

01:04:13.040 and I

01:04:13.240 don't

01:04:13.340 know

01:04:13.480 his

01:04:13.640 last

01:04:13.980 name

01:04:14.240 it's

01:04:14.440 I

01:04:14.560 think

01:04:14.740 he's

01:04:14.960 a

01:04:15.400 Latino

01:04:15.960 fella

01:04:16.340 but

01:04:18.080 panic

01:04:18.520 porn

01:04:18.920 where

01:04:19.120 you

01:04:19.240 just

01:04:19.680 everybody's

01:04:21.320 getting

01:04:21.520 some

01:04:22.240 we're

01:04:22.520 getting

01:04:22.740 some

01:04:23.320 dopamine

01:04:25.920 hit in

01:04:26.620 our

01:04:26.760 brain

01:04:27.100 by getting

01:04:27.520 off

01:04:27.760 on all

01:04:28.080 of

01:04:28.180 this

01:04:28.420 political

01:04:31.140 and social

01:04:31.820 jack

01:04:32.220 jack

01:04:32.580 and I

01:04:35.500 made it

01:04:35.760 up

01:04:35.860 the

01:04:35.980 black

01:04:36.180 belt

01:04:36.400 dang

01:04:37.260 dude

01:04:37.460 I'm

01:04:37.720 not

01:04:38.060 sure

01:04:38.300 I

01:04:38.440 don't

01:04:38.580 think

01:04:38.880 so

01:04:39.140 I

01:04:39.500 don't

01:04:39.620 think

01:04:39.800 so

01:04:40.020 I

01:04:40.320 don't

01:04:40.440 think

01:04:40.620 so

01:04:40.820 I

01:04:41.120 don't

01:04:41.380 honestly

01:04:41.780 you know

01:04:43.980 it's

01:04:44.280 I mean

01:04:46.260 what would

01:04:46.560 Riley

01:04:46.820 Mao

01:04:47.080 say

01:04:47.300 he

01:04:47.440 don't

01:04:47.600 know

01:04:47.840 that's

01:04:48.160 what

01:04:48.260 he

01:04:48.320 would

01:04:48.440 say

01:04:48.740 bro

01:04:49.040 so

01:04:49.640 you

01:04:49.740 gotta

01:04:49.860 think

01:04:50.100 about

01:04:50.320 that

01:04:50.540 sometimes

01:04:50.920 or

01:04:51.060 don't

01:04:51.240 think

01:04:51.420 about

01:04:51.660 it

01:04:51.880 and

01:04:53.040 those

01:04:53.220 are

01:04:53.300 the

01:04:53.400 options

01:04:53.820 but

01:04:55.480 yeah

01:04:55.780 just

01:04:56.060 I

01:04:56.440 just

01:04:56.640 start

01:04:56.840 to

01:04:56.980 wonder

01:04:57.180 well

01:04:57.340 if

01:04:57.480 I'm

01:04:57.640 more

01:04:57.840 stressed

01:04:58.280 out

01:04:58.500 than

01:04:58.640 you

01:04:58.880 if

01:04:59.040 there's

01:04:59.220 more

01:04:59.500 what's

01:05:01.280 going

01:05:01.480 on

01:05:01.700 what's

01:05:01.920 causing

01:05:02.220 me

01:05:02.360 to

01:05:02.480 feel

01:05:02.660 this

01:05:02.880 way

01:05:03.220 so

01:05:07.080 let's

01:05:08.400 hear

01:05:08.560 another

01:05:09.500 call

01:05:09.840 or two

01:05:10.060 that

01:05:10.220 came

01:05:10.460 in

01:05:10.640 here

01:05:10.760 we

01:05:10.880 go

01:05:11.120 oh

01:05:15.400 yeah

01:05:19.480 that

01:05:19.700 wheeling

01:05:20.160 feeling

01:05:20.540 baby

01:05:20.880 and

01:05:21.480 I

01:05:21.580 got

01:05:21.700 offered

01:05:22.000 sex

01:05:22.440 by

01:05:22.960 aunt

01:05:23.480 niece

01:05:24.240 one

01:05:24.640 time

01:05:24.980 over

01:05:25.180 there

01:05:25.460 adults

01:05:26.540 both

01:05:26.940 both

01:05:28.160 them

01:05:28.340 adults

01:05:28.820 adult

01:05:29.140 sex

01:05:29.520 offer

01:05:29.860 gang

01:05:30.280 and

01:05:31.180 I

01:05:31.320 know

01:05:31.520 we've

01:05:31.880 both

01:05:32.200 had

01:05:32.480 that

01:05:32.680 wheeling

01:05:33.060 feeling

01:05:33.360 yup

01:05:34.660 and

01:05:34.980 that's

01:05:35.140 pink

01:05:35.380 eye

01:05:35.600 also

01:05:36.060 amen

01:05:45.940 baby

01:05:46.740 hey

01:05:47.640 that's

01:05:48.700 a

01:05:48.780 guarantee

01:05:49.160 maybe

01:05:50.200 get

01:05:50.480 an

01:05:51.200 STD

01:05:51.700 by

01:05:51.900 the

01:05:52.040 slurping

01:05:52.320 machine

01:05:52.680 but

01:05:53.340 I

01:05:54.100 just

01:05:54.260 wanted

01:05:54.440 to

01:05:54.560 call

01:05:54.800 in

01:05:55.080 say

01:05:55.600 I'm

01:05:55.700 a

01:05:55.840 huge

01:05:56.120 fan

01:05:56.500 you

01:05:57.720 make

01:05:57.880 my

01:05:58.020 day

01:05:58.160 a

01:05:58.260 little

01:05:58.360 better

01:05:58.580 every

01:05:58.780 day

01:05:59.060 I'm

01:05:59.940 a

01:06:00.060 coal

01:06:00.240 miner

01:06:00.480 and

01:06:01.600 I

01:06:01.700 don't

01:06:01.860 know

01:06:02.180 that

01:06:02.800 you've

01:06:03.200 had

01:06:03.380 any

01:06:03.680 coal

01:06:03.920 miners

01:06:04.180 call

01:06:04.460 in

01:06:04.660 but

01:06:05.640 I

01:06:06.300 wanted

01:06:06.460 to

01:06:06.620 say

01:06:06.940 that

01:06:07.480 it's

01:06:08.460 a

01:06:08.540 tough

01:06:08.700 job

01:06:09.060 it's

01:06:10.520 a

01:06:10.620 rewarding

01:06:10.960 job

01:06:11.360 I

01:06:13.180 just

01:06:13.360 wanted

01:06:13.540 to

01:06:13.700 say

01:06:13.940 if

01:06:14.660 there's

01:06:14.840 any

01:06:15.000 questions

01:06:15.360 about

01:06:15.620 coal

01:06:15.840 mining

01:06:16.060 please

01:06:16.360 reach

01:06:16.620 out

01:06:16.940 I'm

01:06:18.480 a

01:06:18.600 huge

01:06:18.800 fan

01:06:19.020 of

01:06:19.120 the

01:06:19.220 show

01:06:19.500 thank

01:06:19.940 you

01:06:20.060 for

01:06:20.840 everything

01:06:21.280 thank

01:06:22.160 you

01:06:22.320 brother

01:06:22.560 I

01:06:22.720 appreciate

01:06:23.020 it

01:06:23.700 and

01:06:23.920 maybe

01:06:24.100 we

01:06:24.260 do

01:06:24.400 have

01:06:24.580 a

01:06:25.520 question

01:06:25.840 or two

01:06:26.080 about

01:06:26.240 coal

01:06:26.500 mining

01:06:26.860 and

01:06:27.460 if

01:06:27.560 I

01:06:27.660 think

01:06:27.860 of

01:06:27.940 what

01:06:28.080 they

01:06:28.200 are

01:06:28.320 I'll

01:06:28.460 let

01:06:28.620 you

01:06:28.720 know

01:06:28.940 but

01:06:30.580 right

01:06:30.880 there

01:06:31.140 you

01:06:31.280 gotta

01:06:31.440 think

01:06:31.720 about

01:06:32.000 that

01:06:32.360 somebody

01:06:32.920 going

01:06:33.340 in

01:06:33.560 the

01:06:33.700 earth

01:06:34.060 and

01:06:35.320 getting

01:06:35.580 something

01:06:35.960 out

01:06:36.180 of

01:06:36.260 the

01:06:36.400 earth

01:06:36.600 helping

01:06:36.940 it

01:06:37.140 out

01:06:37.380 and

01:06:39.140 that's

01:06:39.420 really

01:06:39.720 you know

01:06:41.840 I'm not

01:06:42.100 trying to be

01:06:42.420 racial here

01:06:42.940 but that

01:06:43.240 man goes

01:06:43.680 into the

01:06:43.960 earth

01:06:44.120 and gets

01:06:44.420 something

01:06:44.660 black

01:06:45.020 and helps

01:06:45.400 it out

01:06:45.640 of the

01:06:45.840 earth

01:06:46.120 so

01:06:48.840 that's

01:06:49.120 pretty

01:06:49.320 cool

01:06:49.660 that's

01:06:51.180 pretty

01:06:51.320 helpful

01:06:51.680 you know

01:06:56.360 it's

01:06:56.700 it's

01:06:58.800 just

01:06:58.940 pretty

01:06:59.140 cool

01:06:59.360 to

01:06:59.520 see

01:06:59.660 that

01:06:59.860 you

01:07:00.000 go

01:07:00.180 down

01:07:00.380 there

01:07:00.560 and

01:07:00.660 you

01:07:00.740 come

01:07:00.940 up

01:07:01.060 with

01:07:01.140 a bucket

01:07:01.460 of

01:07:01.660 black

01:07:02.020 a bucket

01:07:04.340 of

01:07:04.520 positive

01:07:04.880 black

01:07:05.320 blacktivity

01:07:06.200 you know

01:07:06.800 that coal

01:07:07.420 baby

01:07:07.700 and I

01:07:09.380 love a coal

01:07:09.960 I love a

01:07:10.440 briquette

01:07:10.880 and we

01:07:12.800 actually had

01:07:13.200 a black

01:07:13.560 kid at our

01:07:13.900 school when

01:07:14.340 I was

01:07:14.500 growing up

01:07:15.580 a briquette

01:07:16.980 Lawson

01:07:17.460 and he

01:07:19.840 was beautiful

01:07:20.420 actually he

01:07:20.840 could have

01:07:21.040 been a male

01:07:21.460 model actually

01:07:22.240 but he

01:07:22.680 he just

01:07:24.720 was

01:07:24.920 he didn't

01:07:26.140 he just

01:07:26.660 he wasn't

01:07:27.620 doing all

01:07:28.060 of that

01:07:28.300 shit

01:07:28.560 man he

01:07:28.900 didn't

01:07:29.020 like a

01:07:29.320 lot

01:07:29.440 of

01:07:29.540 shit

01:07:29.680 like

01:07:29.860 that

01:07:30.140 he

01:07:30.900 liked

01:07:31.080 more

01:07:31.280 just

01:07:31.440 regular

01:07:31.740 shit

01:07:32.020 McDonald's

01:07:32.700 and

01:07:32.840 shit

01:07:33.160 let's

01:07:36.620 take

01:07:36.740 another

01:07:36.920 call

01:07:37.200 here we

01:07:37.480 go

01:07:38.700 hey

01:07:40.620 Theo

01:07:41.140 this is

01:07:41.720 Cole

01:07:42.100 from

01:07:42.400 Texas

01:07:43.060 what

01:07:43.920 and that

01:07:44.400 guy's

01:07:44.620 name

01:07:44.880 is

01:07:45.020 Cole

01:07:45.320 that's

01:07:45.720 baffling

01:07:46.580 that was

01:07:48.060 totally

01:07:48.380 unplanned

01:07:48.900 there you

01:07:49.260 go

01:07:49.620 and right

01:07:50.900 there

01:07:51.140 that's

01:07:51.360 you see

01:07:51.640 that

01:07:51.840 wicked

01:07:52.540 web

01:07:52.960 that's

01:07:53.200 out

01:07:54.040 there

01:07:54.360 onward

01:07:54.880 brother

01:07:55.140 thank you

01:07:55.540 Cole

01:07:55.940 name

01:07:57.240 after a

01:07:57.660 briquette

01:07:58.140 I'm

01:07:59.580 just

01:07:59.760 calling

01:08:00.140 to see

01:08:00.800 if I

01:08:01.060 can

01:08:01.200 maybe

01:08:01.420 give

01:08:01.660 you a

01:08:01.860 little

01:08:02.000 encouragement

01:08:02.660 I'm

01:08:03.400 kind of

01:08:03.740 in the

01:08:03.980 same boat

01:08:04.480 as you

01:08:04.860 are

01:08:05.200 I just

01:08:05.600 moved

01:08:06.720 to pursue

01:08:08.020 a new

01:08:08.380 career

01:08:08.900 and

01:08:09.960 it's

01:08:12.200 kind of

01:08:12.500 nerve wracking

01:08:13.160 really

01:08:13.680 you know

01:08:15.140 I don't

01:08:15.820 really know

01:08:16.260 anybody

01:08:16.740 here

01:08:17.220 and

01:08:17.520 I'm

01:08:18.460 just

01:08:18.600 trying to

01:08:18.940 get into

01:08:19.280 the group

01:08:19.720 of things

01:08:20.220 in this

01:08:20.660 new

01:08:21.200 foreign

01:08:23.100 environment

01:08:23.800 but I

01:08:27.080 hope

01:08:27.360 you are

01:08:28.180 doing

01:08:28.420 well

01:08:28.740 in your

01:08:29.040 new

01:08:29.260 environment

01:08:29.760 and

01:08:30.000 you

01:08:30.840 and

01:08:31.960 your

01:08:32.080 new

01:08:32.260 buddy

01:08:32.560 Riley

01:08:32.880 Mao

01:08:33.260 are

01:08:33.500 doing

01:08:33.780 alright

01:08:34.460 Alphansara

01:08:37.100 good

01:08:37.480 sound

01:08:37.800 can't say

01:08:38.400 I have

01:08:38.800 I've

01:08:40.220 not

01:08:40.460 well

01:08:40.940 actually

01:08:41.220 what is

01:08:41.780 northeast

01:08:42.240 Arkansas

01:08:42.780 like

01:08:43.040 what

01:08:43.180 cities

01:08:43.500 I mean

01:08:43.860 you know

01:08:44.100 I'm a

01:08:44.360 Christian

01:08:44.660 Eagle

01:08:45.020 scout

01:08:45.280 I mean

01:08:45.660 you know

01:08:45.920 I'm a

01:08:46.160 Christian

01:08:46.460 Eagle

01:08:46.820 scout

01:08:47.100 well

01:08:48.360 you know

01:08:49.240 thank you

01:08:50.220 for that

01:08:50.540 man

01:08:50.880 you know

01:08:52.200 it is

01:08:52.520 I just

01:08:52.840 I have

01:08:53.300 to remember

01:08:53.680 that

01:08:53.940 because I

01:08:54.280 wake up

01:08:54.660 each day

01:08:55.140 and there's

01:08:55.640 part of

01:08:55.980 there's a

01:08:56.260 question in

01:08:56.780 my head

01:08:57.180 like

01:08:57.500 why isn't

01:08:59.920 everything

01:09:00.120 perfect

01:09:00.600 you know

01:09:03.520 there's a

01:09:03.960 and I'm

01:09:04.260 not even

01:09:04.680 asking the

01:09:05.140 question

01:09:05.480 there's some

01:09:07.040 invisible

01:09:07.540 thing in my

01:09:08.260 head every

01:09:08.700 day that's

01:09:09.180 asking this

01:09:09.840 question

01:09:10.340 why isn't

01:09:11.500 everything

01:09:11.700 perfect

01:09:12.120 why isn't

01:09:13.660 this done

01:09:13.960 why isn't

01:09:14.300 this done

01:09:14.620 why isn't

01:09:14.960 this done

01:09:15.420 did you do

01:09:18.040 this

01:09:18.240 did you do

01:09:18.520 this

01:09:18.720 and it

01:09:19.300 just

01:09:19.560 and it's

01:09:20.800 like I

01:09:21.100 don't even

01:09:21.420 hear it

01:09:21.800 but I

01:09:21.980 still

01:09:22.160 it's like

01:09:22.720 it was

01:09:23.400 asked to

01:09:23.920 me decades

01:09:24.500 ago

01:09:24.820 and it

01:09:25.240 still

01:09:25.680 echoes

01:09:26.500 so I

01:09:29.980 think always

01:09:30.540 when I

01:09:30.820 wake up

01:09:31.200 I immediately

01:09:31.700 just feel

01:09:32.340 like oh

01:09:32.980 there's so

01:09:35.400 much I

01:09:35.700 haven't done

01:09:36.220 there's so

01:09:37.940 much I

01:09:38.200 have to

01:09:38.460 do

01:09:38.860 there's

01:09:40.540 not

01:09:40.800 it's

01:09:41.580 um

01:09:43.640 so I

01:09:44.980 gotta

01:09:45.120 recognize

01:09:45.600 I gotta

01:09:46.020 you know

01:09:46.500 I gotta

01:09:46.880 recognize

01:09:47.360 that voice

01:09:48.500 is not

01:09:48.860 real

01:09:49.400 and while

01:09:51.660 that voice

01:09:52.080 will serve

01:09:52.460 me well

01:09:52.860 sometimes

01:09:53.280 to go and

01:09:54.080 do some

01:09:54.500 things for

01:09:54.940 myself and

01:09:55.360 get me

01:09:55.640 motivated

01:09:56.200 at some

01:09:57.000 points that

01:09:57.400 voice is

01:09:58.040 just yeah

01:09:58.480 it's just

01:09:58.860 it's just

01:09:59.420 bothering me

01:10:00.340 because it's

01:10:02.520 not gonna

01:10:02.860 give me any

01:10:03.400 peace

01:10:03.960 um

01:10:07.960 but man

01:10:09.860 I'm sorry

01:10:10.220 that you're

01:10:10.580 struggling with

01:10:11.180 it man

01:10:11.480 you know

01:10:11.760 some things

01:10:12.200 I did

01:10:12.560 do to

01:10:12.940 stay

01:10:13.120 to stay

01:10:13.560 busy

01:10:13.840 I joined

01:10:14.580 the MMA

01:10:15.020 gym

01:10:15.460 I now

01:10:16.520 have

01:10:16.740 four

01:10:17.080 bruised

01:10:17.440 ribs

01:10:17.680 some guy

01:10:18.020 named Alex

01:10:18.540 or Alexis

01:10:19.120 or something

01:10:19.620 I don't know

01:10:19.900 what his name

01:10:20.280 was

01:10:20.580 oh my god

01:10:22.420 dude

01:10:22.820 this guy

01:10:24.720 he might have

01:10:25.140 eaten two of my ribs

01:10:26.040 dude when I wasn't

01:10:26.620 looking

01:10:26.860 this guy

01:10:27.360 did me

01:10:27.820 he did me

01:10:28.820 up

01:10:29.100 um

01:10:30.820 so that is a lot

01:10:31.760 of pain

01:10:32.220 uh

01:10:33.780 I went and saw

01:10:34.420 Tim Dillon

01:10:34.960 perform

01:10:35.480 two times

01:10:36.740 um

01:10:38.940 so that was

01:10:40.320 really great

01:10:40.960 um

01:10:42.200 uh

01:10:42.520 I'm just

01:10:42.800 trying to get

01:10:43.260 some new

01:10:43.620 some

01:10:43.880 some

01:10:44.300 guests onto

01:10:45.340 the podcast

01:10:45.900 trying to get

01:10:46.460 Morgan Wallen

01:10:47.180 to come in

01:10:47.680 I'm a fan

01:10:48.380 of his music

01:10:49.100 he's a musician

01:10:49.820 musical man

01:10:50.700 uh

01:10:54.020 we have a

01:10:54.680 trucker next

01:10:55.320 week coming

01:10:55.820 in

01:10:56.120 female trucker

01:10:57.780 a

01:10:58.040 v

01:10:58.260 v

01:10:58.840 v

01:10:59.440 v

01:10:59.640 v

01:11:00.260 v

01:11:00.360 v

01:11:00.380 v

01:11:00.460 v

01:11:00.480 v

01:11:00.980 v

01:11:01.580 v

01:11:01.980 v

01:11:02.020 v

01:11:02.420 v

01:11:04.020 beautiful

01:11:04.060 lady

01:11:04.320 decent

01:11:04.700 lady

01:11:05.060 so

01:11:06.600 um

01:11:08.240 yeah

01:11:11.460 so just

01:11:11.940 just

01:11:12.380 you know

01:11:12.900 thanks for

01:11:13.360 thinking about

01:11:13.860 me man

01:11:14.320 you know

01:11:15.400 and I'm

01:11:16.020 thinking about

01:11:16.480 you brother

01:11:16.960 and I wish

01:11:17.380 you well

01:11:17.720 in that

01:11:17.960 new

01:11:18.120 environment

01:11:18.520 and just

01:11:18.940 yeah

01:11:19.960 it's so

01:11:20.280 funny man

01:11:20.820 it's like

01:11:21.060 I can

01:11:21.300 offer you

01:11:21.700 suggestion

01:11:22.200 but it's

01:11:22.800 like I

01:11:23.020 can't

01:11:23.300 hear it

01:11:23.640 for myself

01:11:24.280 isn't

01:11:26.380 that so

01:11:26.720 crazy

01:11:27.180 it's

01:11:31.400 fascinating

01:11:32.000 man

01:11:32.440 this thing

01:11:34.240 that we

01:11:34.440 were part

01:11:34.780 of

01:11:35.120 um

01:11:37.580 all right

01:11:39.540 let's hear

01:11:39.880 another call

01:11:40.500 that came

01:11:41.000 in here

01:11:41.760 uh

01:11:42.660 and sorry

01:11:43.180 to just

01:11:43.460 keep going

01:11:43.840 to calls

01:11:44.280 but

01:11:44.660 I just

01:11:46.080 you know

01:11:48.720 I want to

01:11:49.420 get some

01:11:49.740 of you

01:11:49.880 I just

01:11:50.280 I'm just

01:11:50.900 tired of

01:11:51.280 listening to

01:11:51.700 myself

01:11:52.080 sometimes

01:11:52.800 here we

01:11:53.460 go

01:11:53.780 hey

01:11:55.780 theo

01:11:56.240 uh

01:11:56.980 my name

01:11:57.420 is

01:11:57.640 chance

01:11:58.400 I'm from

01:12:00.060 Albuquerque

01:12:00.740 New Mexico

01:12:01.360 and uh

01:12:02.420 I'm currently

01:12:03.280 about to

01:12:04.520 I'm driving

01:12:05.100 through

01:12:05.480 Amarillo

01:12:06.020 Texas

01:12:06.480 right now

01:12:07.100 I'm headed

01:12:08.340 over to

01:12:08.940 Bentonville

01:12:09.720 Arkansas

01:12:10.200 for a new

01:12:11.360 job

01:12:11.920 now Bentonville

01:12:13.380 Arkansas

01:12:13.780 home of the

01:12:14.340 largest

01:12:14.780 Walmart

01:12:15.360 and first

01:12:17.040 Walmart

01:12:17.440 ever

01:12:17.900 so if you

01:12:19.800 think about

01:12:20.120 Walmart

01:12:20.560 think about

01:12:21.140 Bentonville

01:12:21.740 for a sales

01:12:23.060 job

01:12:23.520 um

01:12:24.600 and uh

01:12:25.980 I'm just

01:12:26.240 kind of

01:12:26.560 taking this

01:12:27.080 huge leap

01:12:27.640 of faith

01:12:28.160 I'm listening

01:12:28.740 to some

01:12:29.140 of your

01:12:29.320 podcasts

01:12:30.080 and um

01:12:30.720 I just

01:12:31.860 got the

01:12:32.460 the urge

01:12:33.060 to hit

01:12:33.420 the hotline

01:12:34.180 you know

01:12:34.560 I'm feeling

01:12:35.000 a lot of

01:12:35.540 feelings

01:12:35.860 right now

01:12:36.560 um

01:12:37.640 and uh

01:12:39.520 you know

01:12:40.100 one of them

01:12:40.660 is that's

01:12:41.420 really strong

01:12:42.060 is just uh

01:12:42.900 just hope

01:12:44.060 and um

01:12:45.680 hope for a

01:12:46.300 better life

01:12:46.880 hope for

01:12:47.420 you know

01:12:47.980 uh

01:12:48.780 to be

01:12:49.060 successful

01:12:49.720 you know

01:12:50.460 I'm 23

01:12:52.540 and I

01:12:53.120 and I

01:12:53.460 haven't done

01:12:53.960 much with

01:12:54.360 my life

01:12:54.900 but I just

01:12:55.420 got sober

01:12:56.660 about

01:12:57.140 almost three

01:12:58.680 years ago

01:12:59.240 so my

01:12:59.640 life has

01:13:00.080 just been

01:13:00.420 getting so

01:13:00.960 big

01:13:01.440 and um

01:13:02.940 you know

01:13:04.460 I don't

01:13:04.660 know

01:13:04.840 maybe if

01:13:05.520 you have

01:13:05.780 any advice

01:13:06.320 for me

01:13:06.780 you know

01:13:07.020 starting

01:13:07.340 something new

01:13:07.920 I know

01:13:08.220 that you

01:13:08.500 traveled

01:13:08.940 you know

01:13:10.000 you made

01:13:10.960 a big

01:13:11.240 change

01:13:11.660 traveling

01:13:12.060 over to

01:13:12.620 California

01:13:13.800 um

01:13:15.160 and now

01:13:15.400 you just

01:13:15.680 made another

01:13:16.120 travel

01:13:16.600 you know

01:13:17.060 down there

01:13:17.580 to uh

01:13:18.240 well thanks

01:13:20.040 for the call

01:13:20.440 man and not

01:13:20.920 to cut you

01:13:21.420 off uh

01:13:21.980 but

01:13:22.320 but I did

01:13:23.400 but um

01:13:24.240 but yeah

01:13:24.920 I uh

01:13:25.960 you know

01:13:28.780 I think

01:13:30.360 what you're

01:13:30.740 doing

01:13:31.080 the the

01:13:31.860 the long

01:13:32.440 term

01:13:32.840 of it

01:13:33.420 is

01:13:33.680 you can't

01:13:35.880 see it

01:13:36.200 now but

01:13:36.640 in the

01:13:36.920 future

01:13:37.160 you'll

01:13:37.440 see wow

01:13:38.100 just by

01:13:38.520 making

01:13:38.820 big

01:13:39.920 by making

01:13:40.580 moves

01:13:41.160 it may

01:13:42.260 it allows

01:13:42.800 you to

01:13:43.100 be less

01:13:43.900 inhibited

01:13:44.380 when you

01:13:44.640 need to

01:13:44.860 make other

01:13:45.240 moves

01:13:45.680 so in

01:13:48.460 the future

01:13:48.840 when an

01:13:49.140 opportunity

01:13:49.560 comes up

01:13:50.260 and it

01:13:50.780 you know

01:13:51.600 another move

01:13:52.400 or an

01:13:52.800 opportunity

01:13:53.240 to take

01:13:53.860 a leap

01:13:54.180 of faith

01:13:54.620 and love

01:13:55.140 or a leap

01:13:55.540 of faith

01:13:55.980 in

01:13:56.300 in

01:13:57.460 friendship

01:13:58.180 or in

01:13:58.880 a different

01:13:59.680 realm

01:14:00.120 even

01:14:00.440 besides

01:14:02.000 employment

01:14:02.760 that

01:14:05.320 the experience

01:14:06.580 you have

01:14:06.900 had right

01:14:07.340 now

01:14:07.720 you know

01:14:09.340 that'll resonate

01:14:10.380 within those

01:14:10.960 other fields

01:14:11.820 and so you

01:14:12.380 might

01:14:12.620 you won't even

01:14:14.260 know you're

01:14:14.700 like oh wow

01:14:15.180 I took a leap

01:14:15.720 of faith here

01:14:16.380 I took a leap

01:14:16.920 of faith

01:14:17.300 there

01:14:17.640 um

01:14:18.340 you know

01:14:20.020 hell you can

01:14:20.520 become a damn

01:14:21.020 long jumper

01:14:21.660 of faith

01:14:22.640 if you leap

01:14:23.760 enough man

01:14:24.360 um

01:14:26.400 and that

01:14:26.640 sounds like

01:14:26.960 what you're

01:14:27.240 doing

01:14:27.480 so 23

01:14:28.180 you're trying

01:14:28.720 a new

01:14:29.020 city

01:14:29.340 and that's

01:14:30.360 a lot

01:14:30.900 man

01:14:31.240 you know

01:14:34.260 and I need

01:14:34.600 to be patient

01:14:35.060 with myself

01:14:35.540 you know

01:14:35.820 I get

01:14:36.100 I get

01:14:36.540 at home

01:14:37.000 and it

01:14:37.400 gets late

01:14:38.020 and

01:14:38.260 you know

01:14:40.420 just like

01:14:40.860 you know

01:14:41.320 the place

01:14:42.560 is a mess

01:14:43.180 and it's

01:14:43.420 not even

01:14:43.680 my place

01:14:44.300 I'm just

01:14:44.600 renting it

01:14:45.240 and

01:14:45.480 sometimes

01:14:47.300 things just

01:14:47.900 feel like

01:14:48.440 heavy man

01:14:49.120 and I

01:14:50.740 just need

01:14:51.080 to get

01:14:51.300 some help

01:14:51.740 I need

01:14:52.040 when I

01:14:52.420 need help

01:14:52.840 if I

01:14:53.080 need a

01:14:53.340 therapist

01:14:53.660 if I

01:14:54.020 need a

01:14:54.440 house cleaner

01:14:55.800 if I

01:14:56.140 need a

01:14:56.680 an assistant

01:14:57.700 if I

01:14:58.160 need

01:14:58.320 I just

01:14:58.660 have to

01:14:59.060 get

01:14:59.400 I gotta

01:15:00.800 ask for

01:15:01.180 what I

01:15:01.420 need

01:15:01.740 you know

01:15:04.900 I never

01:15:05.180 you know

01:15:05.800 I was talking

01:15:06.140 to my

01:15:06.360 brother today

01:15:06.900 and

01:15:07.200 man I

01:15:08.880 never

01:15:09.120 really

01:15:09.360 ask for

01:15:09.860 what I

01:15:10.140 need

01:15:10.440 I never

01:15:10.880 say hey

01:15:11.440 this is

01:15:11.900 what I

01:15:12.260 need

01:15:12.760 I don't

01:15:15.440 say it

01:15:15.760 in

01:15:15.860 relationships

01:15:16.380 I don't

01:15:16.880 say it

01:15:17.260 in

01:15:17.420 friendships

01:15:17.960 I don't

01:15:18.420 put down

01:15:18.920 those

01:15:19.240 hey look

01:15:20.320 this is

01:15:20.740 what I

01:15:21.040 need

01:15:21.540 because I

01:15:26.040 don't want

01:15:26.260 to be

01:15:26.560 I don't

01:15:26.860 want to

01:15:27.340 you know

01:15:29.300 I don't

01:15:29.700 want to

01:15:30.140 step on

01:15:30.500 any

01:15:30.660 I don't

01:15:31.000 want to

01:15:31.400 but it's

01:15:36.100 funny I

01:15:36.380 just won't

01:15:36.780 put any

01:15:37.100 you know

01:15:37.500 hey this

01:15:38.480 this is

01:15:38.900 what I

01:15:39.160 need

01:15:39.540 you know

01:15:44.160 I need

01:15:44.640 sometimes I

01:15:45.220 need someone

01:15:45.600 to listen

01:15:46.080 to me

01:15:46.340 and not

01:15:46.660 even tell

01:15:47.300 me

01:15:47.480 anything

01:15:47.920 you know

01:15:53.200 the other

01:15:53.440 day I

01:15:53.620 was talking

01:15:53.920 to my

01:15:54.160 brother and

01:15:54.720 I was

01:15:55.380 just telling

01:15:55.860 him I've

01:15:56.100 been having

01:15:56.360 a tough

01:15:56.700 time and

01:15:57.280 just you

01:15:59.280 know and

01:15:59.480 I'm lucky

01:15:59.860 my brother's

01:16:00.360 worked in

01:16:00.720 like youth

01:16:01.380 therapy and

01:16:02.020 stuff like

01:16:02.420 that and

01:16:02.960 and at

01:16:07.140 the end of

01:16:07.440 the call he

01:16:07.780 said hey

01:16:08.060 man I'll

01:16:08.320 just if you

01:16:09.020 want I'll

01:16:09.300 just sit on

01:16:09.720 the line with

01:16:10.220 you for a

01:16:10.580 little bit

01:16:11.020 and not

01:16:12.620 say anything

01:16:13.380 and at

01:16:18.840 first I was

01:16:19.200 like nah

01:16:19.500 man I'm

01:16:19.780 all right

01:16:20.200 you know

01:16:20.900 and when I

01:16:22.500 said all

01:16:22.920 right I

01:16:23.400 could feel

01:16:24.120 something in

01:16:24.780 my voice

01:16:25.320 like I

01:16:25.740 felt like I

01:16:26.280 wasn't

01:16:26.540 all right

01:16:26.900 and he

01:16:30.120 said it

01:16:30.440 again he

01:16:30.740 said no

01:16:31.100 he said

01:16:31.420 look I'm

01:16:32.180 happy to

01:16:32.680 just sit

01:16:32.980 here you

01:16:34.400 know you

01:16:34.620 don't have

01:16:34.880 to say

01:16:35.140 anything and

01:16:35.560 I don't

01:16:35.740 have to

01:16:35.980 say anything

01:16:36.560 and I'll

01:16:39.400 just be

01:16:39.760 here with

01:16:40.240 you if

01:16:44.380 you if

01:16:44.760 you need

01:16:45.080 you know I

01:16:46.040 can just be

01:16:46.480 here with

01:16:46.840 you and

01:16:51.000 man I

01:16:51.560 started

01:16:51.840 bawling like

01:16:53.340 literally

01:16:54.480 uncontrollably

01:16:55.300 like a

01:16:55.700 dragon flew

01:16:56.960 out of my

01:16:57.980 fucking soul

01:16:59.540 because I

01:17:02.000 think never

01:17:02.520 in my life

01:17:03.020 had anybody

01:17:03.560 just said

01:17:04.320 hey I'm

01:17:04.680 just I'll

01:17:05.160 be here

01:17:05.540 with you

01:17:05.960 I'm not

01:17:17.380 going to

01:17:17.580 give you

01:17:17.800 any

01:17:17.940 suggestions

01:17:18.420 I'm not

01:17:18.720 going to

01:17:18.920 give you

01:17:19.240 any I'm

01:17:19.700 not going

01:17:19.940 to give

01:17:20.240 you any

01:17:20.580 I'm just

01:17:21.280 I'm just

01:17:21.640 going to

01:17:21.920 be here

01:17:22.660 for you

01:17:24.000 if you

01:17:24.920 need me

01:17:25.700 and it

01:17:31.740 was powerful

01:17:32.260 man it

01:17:33.920 was and I

01:17:34.520 just I had

01:17:35.300 no idea

01:17:35.880 in my

01:17:36.100 whole life

01:17:36.460 that I

01:17:36.720 how much

01:17:37.140 I needed

01:17:37.480 that

01:17:37.900 just even

01:17:38.740 a month

01:17:39.020 I mean it

01:17:39.300 was you

01:17:40.260 know and

01:17:42.280 then you

01:17:42.740 know I

01:17:43.000 was like

01:17:43.320 kind of

01:17:43.620 sobbing and

01:17:44.420 it's some

01:17:46.000 you know some

01:17:46.760 of this shit

01:17:47.100 no homo bro

01:17:47.820 some of the

01:17:48.180 shit's kind of

01:17:48.640 you know it's

01:17:50.040 tough to say I'm

01:17:50.540 not trying to

01:17:50.900 sound like a

01:17:51.280 little bitch but

01:17:51.820 I'm trying to

01:17:52.320 sound like I

01:17:55.100 don't care

01:17:55.380 whatever dog

01:17:56.100 if you're still

01:17:58.060 listening bro you

01:17:58.820 you part bitch

01:18:00.180 same as I

01:18:01.060 am son you

01:18:02.020 probably about

01:18:02.420 11% bitch you

01:18:03.640 feel me but

01:18:04.980 and then I

01:18:08.740 was like oh

01:18:09.240 thanks man I'm

01:18:10.020 you know I'm

01:18:10.560 good I kind of

01:18:11.180 got my composure

01:18:12.040 and then he

01:18:13.240 said are you

01:18:13.600 sure and I

01:18:18.660 you know I

01:18:19.420 lied I just

01:18:19.940 said yeah I'm

01:18:20.360 good you know

01:18:20.800 and I wasn't

01:18:21.280 good I didn't

01:18:22.160 feel I just

01:18:22.740 and he goes I

01:18:24.020 can still you

01:18:25.160 know he said I

01:18:25.660 have like 10

01:18:26.160 minutes I can

01:18:26.620 just sit here

01:18:27.000 with you and

01:18:28.260 man I just

01:18:28.800 fell apart

01:18:29.260 again you

01:18:34.740 know I

01:18:35.300 just I don't

01:18:40.960 know I think

01:18:41.540 it just in just

01:18:42.120 such a world of

01:18:42.840 so much sound

01:18:43.680 and so much

01:18:44.100 constant constant

01:18:45.300 constant just

01:18:48.760 like to for

01:18:49.560 somebody to say

01:18:50.080 that they had

01:18:50.660 10 minutes where

01:18:54.080 they could just

01:18:54.500 be there with

01:18:55.160 me man it

01:18:56.560 was it was

01:18:57.040 real powerful

01:18:57.740 because I

01:19:00.160 think he was

01:19:00.560 speaking to

01:19:01.000 that kid in

01:19:01.640 me to that

01:19:02.980 child you know

01:19:03.480 that young

01:19:03.960 fellow who

01:19:04.500 just you know

01:19:10.200 hey I can sit

01:19:10.840 here with you

01:19:11.200 without any

01:19:11.640 judgment without

01:19:12.400 any concern

01:19:15.620 without it not

01:19:16.380 concern with with

01:19:17.480 just concern you

01:19:18.780 know with just

01:19:19.620 time you know I

01:19:23.680 can sit here and

01:19:24.420 just and just you

01:19:29.040 just know the

01:19:29.840 only thing you

01:19:30.500 need to know is

01:19:32.520 that I'm here for

01:19:33.340 you no matter

01:19:39.300 what and it was

01:19:43.660 just powerful man

01:19:44.740 so the hotline as

01:19:53.360 always is 985-664-9503

01:19:58.420 I'll be back in with

01:20:01.380 Riley Mao maybe next

01:20:02.560 week we got that

01:20:04.940 female trucker coming

01:20:05.860 and I'm excited about

01:20:06.700 that we're also

01:20:09.540 looking for a if you

01:20:11.600 know somebody who

01:20:12.200 is who is a

01:20:12.920 unique

01:20:13.600 death person a

01:20:18.280 death like a

01:20:19.960 lifeguard but at a

01:20:20.880 funeral you know I'm

01:20:21.620 talking about like a

01:20:22.240 um more

01:20:23.080 margit margit what is

01:20:26.240 it a magician a

01:20:28.620 magician no

01:20:29.880 somebody that like you

01:20:35.420 know hey hey hey

01:20:36.540 you know here's the

01:20:38.420 body you know that

01:20:39.260 guy uh like Howie

01:20:42.320 Mandel but for like

01:20:43.140 death mortician if

01:20:45.300 you know somebody of

01:20:46.520 a uh a mortician do

01:20:49.560 you not at all if you

01:20:51.760 know somebody that is

01:20:53.100 that is a decent or a

01:20:54.580 unique mortician we

01:20:57.420 would like to speak

01:20:57.960 with them um you can

01:21:00.860 email us I think

01:21:01.560 through the website or

01:21:03.520 hit up uh the real

01:21:05.820 nick davis and you

01:21:07.840 can uh let him know

01:21:08.760 preferably around

01:21:09.880 nashville or los

01:21:11.000 angeles or within a

01:21:13.860 flight distance you

01:21:14.620 know somewhere close

01:21:15.380 um but all right one

01:21:19.720 last call that came in

01:21:20.540 here we go

01:21:21.740 hi theo I just

01:21:23.280 finished eating a

01:21:24.460 mcdonald's breakfast

01:21:25.780 griddle bacon sandwich

01:21:28.460 oh dang so you living

01:21:31.240 high on the hog today

01:21:32.560 literally

01:21:33.200 onward little mama

01:21:35.600 and I really like

01:21:37.440 them I started eating

01:21:38.860 them after I heard a

01:21:40.560 show on Howard Stern

01:21:43.040 and now it's one of my

01:21:44.940 favorite things to get

01:21:45.840 at mcdonald's

01:21:46.640 unfortunately we can't

01:21:47.860 get it after 10 30 a.m

01:21:50.300 so my next favorite

01:21:51.960 thing at mcdonald's is

01:21:53.640 the filet of fish but I

01:21:55.320 always want lettuce and

01:21:58.200 onion on that sandwich

01:22:00.140 um so my question is

01:22:03.300 what's your favorite

01:22:05.580 fast food spot

01:22:06.840 well look I can't I

01:22:08.920 ma'am I love you

01:22:10.380 hey I'm gonna tell you

01:22:11.720 that straight up

01:22:12.580 and I'm here for you

01:22:15.140 and I won't say anything

01:22:18.360 but I do have to I can't

01:22:20.180 handle if you can't eat a

01:22:21.140 damn filet of fish at a

01:22:22.120 mcdonald's

01:22:22.140 mcdonald's

01:22:23.140 you can't eat a filet of

01:22:26.340 fish at a mcdonald's

01:22:28.080 mama

01:22:28.340 that ain't even fish in

01:22:30.460 there

01:22:30.720 you know that's trans

01:22:33.880 oyster or something

01:22:34.740 they're using or you

01:22:36.040 know they're not using

01:22:36.700 fish meat

01:22:37.360 that ain't damn fish

01:22:39.640 meat

01:22:41.480 you know they're you

01:22:45.220 know

01:22:45.440 that's something else

01:22:47.720 they're doing something

01:22:49.660 nasty

01:22:50.660 nasty

01:22:51.580 you can't be having a

01:22:53.740 you know I can't if I'm

01:22:54.920 trying to talk to a lady

01:22:55.980 and she have a bite of

01:22:57.080 filet of fish on her

01:22:58.380 lip

01:22:58.680 come on

01:23:01.020 you can't

01:23:02.520 your children can't even

01:23:03.640 love you if you're

01:23:04.460 sitting around with a

01:23:05.080 bite of filet of fish

01:23:06.640 on your mouth

01:23:08.520 on your breath

01:23:09.560 who do you love

01:23:12.720 people can't love you

01:23:14.380 if you eating filet of

01:23:16.120 fishes lady

01:23:16.820 they can't love you

01:23:18.240 and they can but it's

01:23:20.700 just it's gonna be

01:23:21.380 harder

01:23:21.760 it's so hard to love a

01:23:24.940 one when you see her

01:23:25.800 with it you know you go

01:23:26.560 in her car and she got

01:23:27.360 a couple you know you

01:23:28.400 open up to get the glove

01:23:29.580 compartment thing to get a

01:23:31.380 lozenge or something for

01:23:32.640 and a damn filet of fish

01:23:34.600 wrapper freaking rolls

01:23:35.700 out

01:23:36.000 like a dang tumbleweed

01:23:39.000 just

01:23:39.280 it's hard to love somebody

01:23:44.780 that's on them filet of

01:23:45.680 fishes baby you know that

01:23:46.740 and if you don't you get

01:23:48.400 you then you know it

01:23:49.120 now

01:23:49.500 okay I think we got it

01:23:57.380 we had some calls that

01:23:58.160 came in about Riley

01:23:58.880 Mao but we'll we'll get

01:24:00.400 to him next week you know

01:24:02.260 we just had him here this

01:24:03.240 week just in spirit

01:24:04.240 you know I'm a Christian

01:24:05.420 eagle

01:24:05.780 I don't

01:24:06.620 um you know and he's a

01:24:10.720 talented man

01:24:11.620 um so we'll figure it

01:24:16.540 out we'll figure it out

01:24:18.880 we don't have to figure it

01:24:19.900 all out today

01:24:20.540 that's what I got to remind

01:24:23.040 myself

01:24:23.540 is we don't have to figure

01:24:26.500 it all out today and we

01:24:27.720 don't have to figure it all

01:24:28.540 out alone

01:24:29.080 and you know I feel a

01:24:34.020 little bit better than

01:24:34.560 when this than when this

01:24:35.880 episode started

01:24:37.260 you know I'm gonna even

01:24:41.000 see if my dang therapist

01:24:41.960 email me back

01:24:42.700 I'll check right now

01:24:44.140 nope

01:24:44.740 not yet

01:24:45.660 hmm

01:24:47.400 but

01:24:48.960 there's an AA meeting in

01:24:50.740 five minutes online then I

01:24:51.840 can jump in

01:24:52.420 and as much as I don't

01:24:54.800 want to I want to go do

01:24:55.780 something else I want to do

01:24:56.820 I want to you know do my

01:24:58.020 bookie bet on a night game

01:24:59.600 I want to do this I want to

01:25:00.860 do that

01:25:01.380 you know it's probably what I

01:25:04.960 need to do for myself

01:25:06.480 you know I got to get active

01:25:09.400 and taking care of how I

01:25:10.800 feel

01:25:11.100 instead of just

01:25:14.620 just being reactive to it

01:25:19.460 all the time

01:25:20.040 you know if I'm gonna feel

01:25:24.520 this much as I do I'm I

01:25:26.100 deserve to have some

01:25:27.080 control over it

01:25:27.960 so

01:25:30.020 anyway thank you guys for

01:25:32.060 coming out there in New

01:25:32.780 Jersey both shows were

01:25:33.780 great I just felt like the

01:25:35.180 early one was more tame the

01:25:36.680 second one when people was

01:25:37.820 drunk people was out there

01:25:39.200 drinking each other's blood

01:25:40.780 you know somebody's out there

01:25:43.100 they had a some guy came out

01:25:44.460 with a uh you know we had

01:25:46.480 another guy that came out I

01:25:47.620 guess he had a fake hand or

01:25:50.520 something he'd lost a hand

01:25:51.580 you know he'd lost a hand

01:25:53.400 he uh you know some guy he

01:25:55.420 was maybe he was you know

01:25:57.180 throwing dice you know and

01:25:58.720 mowing the yard at the same

01:25:59.900 time and you know and he

01:26:02.700 caught a blade uh but they

01:26:07.820 left his hand there some guy

01:26:09.260 so that's wild

01:26:13.420 you know you go home and you

01:26:16.480 can't even

01:26:17.100 you know I guess he drove home

01:26:19.560 just with you know instead of

01:26:20.860 10 and 2 just 10 baby just

01:26:22.280 locked in at 10 or something

01:26:23.480 unless he just taped his arm to

01:26:25.180 the wheel on the other side at

01:26:26.380 2

01:26:26.640 but that's you know some guy

01:26:30.480 woke up he don't know where his

01:26:31.740 hand is at

01:26:32.420 you know when they got a bucket of

01:26:35.440 beers five empty beers and a

01:26:36.900 damn cold hand in there so if

01:26:39.840 that's you man call uh blue

01:26:41.400 grotto

01:26:41.900 b-l-u-g-r-o-t-t-o over there

01:26:44.860 about a dog park

01:26:45.700 and you guys too I want to say

01:26:48.340 shout out to uh to joey diaz

01:26:52.400 and his new

01:26:54.600 podcast

01:26:56.060 you guys got to go check it out

01:26:59.340 it's just starting up uncle

01:27:00.640 joey's joint

01:27:01.780 and it's uh you know I watched

01:27:05.960 some of it and it made me feel

01:27:07.600 good to just kind of share what

01:27:08.780 was going on

01:27:09.560 you know sometimes I like to be

01:27:12.720 entertaining and sometimes I just

01:27:14.180 I just want to be

01:27:15.700 and um

01:27:17.520 and I know you guys don't you know

01:27:21.160 I just it gets in my head as to

01:27:23.160 what's going on but uh

01:27:24.460 but you guys have always been

01:27:25.880 there for me man and I just

01:27:27.080 appreciate it

01:27:28.080 you know and I love you

01:27:29.980 and um

01:27:32.760 and I love the group

01:27:35.060 you know I got to meet some of

01:27:36.320 you here and there out in

01:27:37.260 Jersey couple quick groups and

01:27:38.900 this and that and

01:27:39.840 man I was walking

01:27:42.060 you know I was so happy I was so

01:27:45.060 happy that I didn't drink like

01:27:46.320 because I just because I try not

01:27:47.680 to I'm not saying it's anything

01:27:48.460 bad if you look if you're doing

01:27:49.560 some good coke I'll hold the back

01:27:50.940 of your neck you know

01:27:51.940 while you do it bro you know I'm

01:27:54.700 saying I'll feel your tits while

01:27:55.940 you do a little coke that's who I

01:27:57.840 am bro even if you a man bro if

01:27:59.280 you a strong man

01:28:00.180 but um

01:28:02.100 but I'm walking from the from the

01:28:06.180 venue they had a like a bouncer

01:28:08.920 guy that would walk you to the

01:28:10.140 back of the stage

01:28:10.800 and he we just started talking he's

01:28:13.960 like yeah man I got 23 years

01:28:15.140 sobriety I was like damn

01:28:16.320 and it was just exciting you know

01:28:19.700 and he said his dad had a couple

01:28:20.780 years of sobriety and

01:28:21.960 and it was just nice because in

01:28:24.380 that moment I was you know

01:28:25.660 I was towing my line

01:28:28.160 whatever my line was you know

01:28:30.920 and I was it was just like oh

01:28:33.720 okay good I'm glad I'm here for

01:28:35.240 this just to be here with this

01:28:37.200 moment because then I could

01:28:38.080 connect with him I said oh man I'm

01:28:39.420 I have six months and almost drank

01:28:40.960 today and I'm just man it's just

01:28:43.260 really hard right now

01:28:44.600 and so yeah in that moment there

01:28:48.360 was somebody I could tell that to

01:28:49.620 because you go just right up to a

01:28:53.820 random stranger at the show and

01:28:55.040 that you tell him that well

01:28:55.960 actually a lot of the people that

01:28:57.000 come to our show is pretty good

01:28:58.080 but he might be like oh dude oh

01:29:00.820 where's oh have you seen my hand

01:29:04.320 like no you lost your hand dude

01:29:07.500 that's crazy fucking you're only

01:29:09.760 gonna be able to hitchhike in one

01:29:10.720 direction now dude

01:29:11.840 let's go out the way we came in man

01:29:16.440 naked and feet first no

01:29:19.660 let's go out the way we came in

01:29:22.840 this is Spencer

01:29:30.840 sorry

01:29:32.620 that sounds good

01:29:42.000 the world's been dropping down

01:29:44.140 like the head of a hammer

01:29:46.820 I need some time alone

01:29:49.440 maybe just you and I

01:29:52.440 I've been working my fingers down

01:29:56.260 to a bloody mix

01:29:58.180 I've been working my city down

01:30:01.680 to the bone

01:30:03.180 well I've been working

01:30:05.500 hard as I can

01:30:07.180 just fine sometimes

01:30:09.280 time to get you all alone

01:30:13.780 so we can we can

01:30:16.320 we going out on the city

01:30:19.360 have a little whiskey and wine

01:30:25.180 maybe this is our time

01:30:30.160 I don't know how but baby

01:30:33.180 you're my this is our time

01:30:37.280 my baby

01:30:40.680 you're my lover too

01:30:50.180 You're my baby mama

01:30:52.960 Don't want nobody but you

01:30:57.340 This is a good song

01:30:58.280 We can

01:30:59.620 We going out on the city

01:31:03.020 Have a little whiskey and wine

01:31:08.580 Come on, let's go, baby

01:31:09.860 I'm taking you out

01:31:10.860 Baby, you know you're so pretty

01:31:14.420 You're so pretty, baby

01:31:15.700 I don't have a plan B

01:31:16.760 Baby, you're mine

01:31:19.300 This is our time

01:31:21.820 I don't need a plan B, you my baby

01:31:28.300 That is Grady Spencer and the work

01:31:39.720 If you're taking your lady out, play that song for them on the way out

01:31:42.840 When you're leaving the house, you're getting ready

01:31:45.420 Put that on

01:31:46.100 Put that on for them

01:31:49.320 This is our time, you know

01:31:51.300 You're going to enjoy it

01:31:52.760 I know some couples came out

01:31:54.060 And sat at the tables the other night

01:31:56.440 And it was cold at that second show too

01:31:58.140 And

01:31:59.240 And just thank you guys, man

01:32:03.260 Just thank you for being a part of my life, man

01:32:05.340 And letting me be a part of yours

01:32:06.480 And I'm excited about where we're heading

01:32:08.540 And I'm just trying to take care of myself while we get there, baby

01:32:13.120 Gang

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This Past Weekend with Theo Von - October 06, 2020

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