Happy to be alive. That's how I try to feel most of the time. I think that's how God wants me back. And it's a beautiful thing to feel that way. I don't know about you, but I can feel it.
00:03:15.940But anyway, I saw a bird look at my head and I knew it was thinking, it was like a, you know, having nest thoughts.
00:03:27.380I just felt, that bird looked, I knew it was thinking, oh, damn, look at that fella.
00:03:33.400That boy's got a damn Hampton Inn on his neck.
00:03:36.260That's what he, when he saw his big hair, he's thinking, oh, that boy, that fella's got a fair feel then in suites that I'd like to sleep in.
00:03:46.900I could just feel that bird looking at me.
00:03:48.580And that's when you know you got big hair.
00:03:52.140That's when you know that I got that teepee today.
00:09:43.820You know, but things just feel strange out there.
00:09:50.500You know, is it just me or does it, everything has a little bit of a Halloween edge, I feel like.
00:09:58.220Uh, like stores, some stores, they don't have anybody even there, you know, they're like, you know, stores don't have employees, we're understaffed.
00:10:07.520You know, you get through, you're at Chipotle and you get to the end of the line and it's like they hired some person who's never even worked before.
00:10:18.180Like has had, you know, and they're just standing, they don't even know what to do.
00:10:22.460They're just standing there just eating guacamole.
00:11:14.080Yeah, and I don't know how factual this is.
00:11:16.300You know, this could be, this is U.S. Chamber of Commerce.
00:11:19.040So who, we have no idea if it's legitimate or not, but I do notice you go play.
00:11:25.260Bro, I, I walked into a store the other day and the guy, it was like a little grocery store.
00:11:31.040And the guy asked me to work for like 30 minutes.
00:11:35.480He's like, do you, can you just help out for like 30 minutes?
00:11:37.260I'm like, dude, I'm just trying to get some limes, bro.
00:11:40.880I'm just here for, I needed two limes.
00:11:43.800And, uh, I'm like, bro, I just trying to get some limes.
00:11:47.060I mean, I used to work checkout, you know, I used to do, I mean, I know bananas code is 4011, but, um, but I'm here for lunch.
00:11:57.640I'm not here to work, you know, like that's how strange it's getting that they're just, if you're even in a place, they're asking you to work.
00:12:52.980You know, I watch people when they get in their car a lot of times if they're leaving me, because that's when I figure a bot would have the toughest time.
00:13:02.600Because there's a lot of little intricacies when you get into a vehicle.
00:13:06.140And I don't think a bot could do that real easily.
00:13:11.360You know, you could easily see a bot like, oh, I like the sunglasses, you know.
00:13:17.100But if you're running into like a bot human, I think if you watch them get in their car, they would have to really do it good.
00:15:17.820But I think there was like a, there was like a moment where part of the anger was that here you have somebody who's just saying something, right?
00:16:30.860I don't, uh, I'm not, I'm not going to look it up either because I have a blocker on my computer.
00:16:35.240But, um, yeah, so they said, uh, so anyway, but there was a guy who said something and then you saw somebody, a rich guy, another rich guy, come and hit him and then get an award for it.
00:16:53.140And it just kind of felt like this is what it, this was the, this is where I ended up really feeling the most anger at the end of it all.
00:17:00.780It was, it was just really towards Hollywood, towards the Oscars, towards the whole fucking machine of all that shit.
00:17:10.440It was like, Hey, we, if somebody can hit somebody else, they can do whatever they want.
00:17:18.360They could say this man can speak or not speak.
00:17:21.360So, and we'll, we'll give that guy an award.
00:17:29.260All of Hollywood will stand there and applaud the guy as if the, the, the fucked up thing he did didn't even happen.
00:17:44.460And it was kind of like a microcosm, I think, of everything that's been going on, you know?
00:17:50.300Um, so many people feel like their reality is neglected by Hollywood that, uh, since Hollywood owns a lot of the media and, and mainstream media that they just, uh, they just, that they're so powerful that if they want to act like something didn't happen, they can just brush right over it.
00:18:14.800Which they do all the time, pick and choose what they think, um, or when they think something is important or what they think is important.
00:18:26.480Uh, so I think there was a lot of that in there for me.
00:18:30.920And I hope Chris Rock sues the Oscars.
00:18:43.460Cause yeah, they just, that, that's what it was for me.
00:18:46.100It was like, here's this powerful machine saying once again, uh, oh, we determine how.
00:18:53.780If the way you see things is real or not almost, or we think we determine it because we all saw somebody hit somebody and then get an award, then give an insane speech and get a standing ovation.
00:19:15.320It was like, it was like, they were trying to make us believe that it didn't happen in a way, which goes along with the whole pandemic thing.
00:19:26.980There's that, all of that ties in there like, oh, you're going to make me, you're really trying to bend me out of the fact that reality is happening.
00:19:37.840So anyway, that's kind of where some of that landed for me and maybe that's obtuse kind of in, but maybe it's not, dude.
00:34:48.400Probably somebody from New York, Hoboken or something, you know, some guy or from, you know, you know, uh, some, you know, some, um, maybe a boat captain or somebody like that.
00:35:04.200Somebody who's a little gruff, you know, who's going to call it like it is, you know, who's just gonna, you know, who's going to take some smoke breaks though.
00:35:12.040Also, you're going to need that ref that's not afraid to fucking sit out there and puff it out.
00:48:36.180It was cathartic in the way you sit there and, you know, you, you cry for the things that, you get those tears, all the shit that's in, you get it out.
00:48:55.540I mean, it is, it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
00:48:58.420It's like, uh, uh, you know, I would imagine it's like bootcamp or something, but for your, for your heart and for your soul and stuff.
00:49:12.040So, um, I don't know if that does a good job of explaining it, but that's some of the differences I noticed between them.
00:49:19.340One of them is a real, one of them is like going to a carnival and the other one is like going to, it's like going into an ocean.
00:49:39.900Um, so that's my thoughts on the difference between, I think DMT and ayahuasca is ayahuasca can really, it can really, I mean, DMT shows you that, you know, DMT is like kind of like a firework kind of, but ayahuasca is a damn fucking Jesus.
00:50:50.800You know, I would like to have a family.
00:50:52.280I would like to have a wife and get me a wife, you know, and nothing illegal or nothing.
00:50:59.580I ain't them, you know, I ain't kidnapping nobody or nothing like that, but I would like to have me a real wife.
00:51:07.240Um, so I got to start thinking about that.
00:51:11.800Um, and now you could, I wouldn't kidnap a woman ever, but you could, if you wanted to, you know, set a butterscotch out there on the concrete or something on the sidewalk.
00:51:22.360And as she come by and get it, a lady get it and she's eating that bitch and you still, you hit, you know, you go over there and, you know, maybe give her a little massage or something.
00:51:33.160If she's okay with it, you massage her scalp or something, you know, get that vibe going.
00:51:38.740Cause that scalp, baby, you massage a woman's head, baby.
00:51:41.900That's the, that's really the, that's the, the, that's the major tit is a woman's scalp, bro.
00:51:49.200The right, the, the front tits, them bitches are just, those are fucking, um, those are just some red herrings, baby.
00:52:20.400That thing's got a lot of feeling in it.
00:52:23.560But them front, them little front bunnies, baby, them little sippers, those little A cup hitters or whatever, or D cups, whatever they have.
00:52:30.940Those things are fucking, that's just, that's tricking you.
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00:55:24.120I wanted to ask, just, I guess, out of curiosity.
00:55:26.960You've been open recently about wanting to settle down and wanting something more serious.
00:55:35.460So, I was just wondering if you had any deal breakers.
00:55:39.720Like, if you had any, like, for example, do you have, like, a restriction on an age gap?
00:55:46.420Like, if somebody, let's say, was around 25 years old and was interested in going out with you or something like that, do you have, like, an immediate, like, red flag, like, a restriction, like, with age gaps or anything like that?
00:56:04.200Like, would you not go out with somebody with more of an age gap, like, greater than 10 years or something?
00:57:45.120I want my children to have a good mother.
00:57:47.700Even if, you know, I would hope that things will work out between me and my wife, but I want my children to have the best mother that they can.
00:58:06.800Sometimes I notice when I'm looking for a wife, this shit got me a little bent up.
00:58:11.400When I'm looking for a wife, or when I'm looking for a, you know, looking for attraction or something.
00:58:19.120I'm not out there, like, you know, sharpening a sword that says wife on it and shit like that.
00:58:23.600But, you know, when I am thinking about dating or looking at women or spending my time, I, my main thought really is, is this woman going to be a good mother?
00:58:38.060I think, I mean, I have, I have obviously other, some attraction things, you know.
00:59:10.200I'll bring my list in, and, but those are a couple of things that I think about.
00:59:18.180You know, I look in a woman's eyes a lot of times, and you can see, and when I look at their eyes, I think if I was a child, would I like looking at that woman's eyes?
00:59:27.580And that, I know that my wife will have that.
00:59:36.620It may sound crazy to some people, but the childhood I had didn't have that comfort in it.
00:59:42.360I didn't have that comfort when I, you know, from my mother, from her look.
00:59:50.960And so that's one thing that I kind of look for, I think.
00:59:53.880So, yeah, somebody with no eyes, probably, or that, you know, doesn't have, like, a warmth in them, probably may not be the best fit for me.
01:00:07.280You know, that's something that I need, or something I would like.
01:00:11.280We'll see what God wants, you know, but that's something that I would like.
01:00:19.960Oh, we had another call here that came in.
01:00:23.120I know this episode's all over the place, but the truth is I've been all over the place.
01:00:29.940You know, I'm still really working to try and feel better, to feel well.
01:00:34.520I felt uncertain a lot of times, and, you know, there's days where I want to do the podcast, but I can't because I don't feel, I don't feel well, if I'm real honest.
01:00:47.660And I want to, you know, put my best foot forward.