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00:01:40.680 Today's guest won a Grammy in 2001 for Best Rock Song as a front man for the band Creed.

00:01:52.360 I'm happy to have him here today.

00:01:53.780 I don't know a ton about him.

00:01:55.680 You know, and I'm curious as to what his life has been like and what life is like going through it as him.

00:02:03.660 Today's guest is Mr. Scott Stack.

00:02:06.400 Shine that light on me

00:02:10.400 I'll sit and tell you my stories

00:02:16.400 Shine on me

00:02:21.400 And I will find a song

00:02:25.320 I'll be singing

00:02:26.500 Almost

00:02:27.180 So what is typically the premise?

00:02:36.380 What is the premise of this show?

00:02:38.680 And that's a great question, actually.

00:02:41.380 The premise

00:02:42.380 Because I just see highlight clips.

00:02:43.880 I follow you and stuff.

00:02:44.940 Yeah.

00:02:45.060 I just see the funny highlights and sometimes you're deep as hell.

00:02:49.280 Yeah, sometimes

00:02:49.860 I have some great, great words of wisdom.

00:02:53.180 I don't know what the

00:02:54.180 That's a great question.

00:02:55.480 I wonder if we ever had a

00:02:56.400 I think the premise is like

00:02:58.380 Just real conversation?

00:03:01.700 Yeah, I think I'm always just trying to like

00:03:03.680 I'm kind of like a late bloomer

00:03:05.500 I feel like when it comes to like

00:03:06.980 Evolving as a

00:03:08.800 Probably as a man and as a human being.

00:03:11.300 Yeah, me too.

00:03:12.580 So I think

00:03:13.540 Somehow that ends up being a lot of the premise.

00:03:16.140 Yeah, I knew it up here

00:03:17.200 But I didn't put it into action.

00:03:20.480 You knew what?

00:03:21.120 What was going on?

00:03:21.820 It would come out in my words

00:03:22.980 Oh

00:03:23.380 In my songs, but I wouldn't live in it.

00:03:25.460 Oh, yeah.

00:03:26.300 Yeah.

00:03:26.980 Yeah, it's so hard.

00:03:28.100 It's hard to get, I guess, into action, huh?

00:03:30.420 Mm-hmm.

00:03:31.940 I mean, you guys

00:03:33.060 Scott Stapp sitting here

00:03:34.880 Your band

00:03:36.360 How big was Creed?

00:03:37.960 How big was your band?

00:03:39.360 Man, I tell you

00:03:40.840 During our peak

00:03:43.080 We were doing

00:03:44.820 Back-to-back nights at arenas

00:03:47.740 And had just started putting stadiums on hold

00:03:51.520 When we

00:03:53.320 Went our separate ways

00:03:55.060 The first time

00:03:56.120 When you guys separated

00:03:57.920 Yes

00:03:58.660 Wow

00:03:59.260 Yes

00:03:59.720 So you guys had all that kind of work

00:04:01.360 Like potentially on the books

00:04:02.780 Yeah

00:04:03.560 We sure did

00:04:04.760 We sure did

00:04:05.700 Yeah

00:04:06.340 And what

00:04:07.220 What kind of cause

00:04:08.620 Like

00:04:08.920 What causes a band at that

00:04:10.780 Is it just

00:04:11.540 Were you guys exhausted?

00:04:12.740 Was it just

00:04:13.280 Differences of opinion?

00:04:14.900 What kind of causes

00:04:15.560 Because it would seem like

00:04:17.100 Everything's kind of

00:04:18.000 You know, it's

00:04:18.940 It's so complicated

00:04:20.200 Yeah

00:04:20.620 I mean

00:04:22.000 For me

00:04:23.300 It was

00:04:24.880 Exhaustion from the run

00:04:26.500 To get there

00:04:27.280 Mixed with just some poor decisions

00:04:30.660 In order to keep the machine going

00:04:32.920 Thinking I was taking one for the team

00:04:35.020 Didn't

00:04:35.420 And not understanding

00:04:36.740 And knowing the consequences

00:04:38.100 Of those actions

00:04:39.000 Mm-hmm

00:04:39.780 And then just

00:04:41.000 You know

00:04:41.360 People grow

00:04:42.100 Apart

00:04:42.840 And

00:04:43.280 Everyone's dreams

00:04:45.220 May not be

00:04:47.220 Fulfilled at that moment

00:04:48.740 In time

00:04:49.400 Yeah

00:04:51.020 And so

00:04:51.280 You know

00:04:52.140 But we got back together

00:04:53.120 In 2009

00:04:54.200 And

00:04:54.640 Made a new record

00:04:56.200 And it did

00:04:57.000 Did really well

00:04:57.960 And had a good run

00:04:59.220 Until 2012

00:05:00.260 And

00:05:00.700 And then

00:05:01.820 We're on hiatus again

00:05:03.840 Was that second run

00:05:05.740 Was it different

00:05:06.440 Than the

00:05:07.000 The first experience

00:05:08.200 Was it like

00:05:08.900 Oh, most definitely

00:05:09.440 Yeah

00:05:09.720 Most definitely

00:05:10.320 The first experience was

00:05:12.760 You know

00:05:13.180 We were family

00:05:13.800 We were brothers

00:05:14.660 We were in college together

00:05:17.100 We

00:05:17.500 We did holidays together

00:05:18.940 Wow

00:05:19.420 We were all we had

00:05:20.340 And

00:05:22.060 The

00:05:22.680 Second experience

00:05:24.540 You know

00:05:24.880 Everyone's successful

00:05:25.880 Wealthy

00:05:27.080 And

00:05:29.140 You know

00:05:29.580 Egos have grown

00:05:31.420 Yeah

00:05:32.340 And

00:05:33.100 And people change

00:05:34.140 And people

00:05:35.100 People grow

00:05:35.860 And

00:05:37.460 People grow apart

00:05:38.800 Success is scary

00:05:41.240 It's kind of scary

00:05:42.320 I feel like

00:05:42.780 Did you find

00:05:43.440 That success became

00:05:44.660 Like

00:05:45.140 For me

00:05:46.160 Success became real scary

00:05:47.440 I felt like

00:05:48.140 If I got to a certain part

00:05:49.580 Of success

00:05:50.300 And I didn't know

00:05:51.780 That I felt this

00:05:52.480 But I thought

00:05:52.960 Like a lot of things

00:05:54.040 In my life

00:05:54.900 Would

00:05:55.200 Like problems I had

00:05:57.400 And issues that I had

00:05:58.380 Going on

00:05:58.780 That they would just

00:05:59.520 Kind of go away

00:06:00.540 Right

00:06:01.000 And

00:06:01.600 And I

00:06:02.820 There was a part of me

00:06:03.780 That was shocked

00:06:04.680 That that wasn't the case

00:06:06.460 When I found some success

00:06:07.860 It almost

00:06:08.520 I mean

00:06:09.500 It really hit me hard

00:06:10.520 That that wasn't the case

00:06:11.560 Yeah

00:06:11.900 It definitely wasn't the case

00:06:13.360 For me

00:06:13.700 It

00:06:14.060 It

00:06:14.360 It created new problems

00:06:16.080 And

00:06:17.080 Metastasized old ones

00:06:18.760 Yeah

00:06:19.180 And then the pressure

00:06:20.820 Of maintaining that

00:06:22.560 You know

00:06:24.080 For me

00:06:24.520 The pressure of knowing

00:06:25.920 That

00:06:26.280 You know

00:06:27.280 Every show

00:06:28.520 Rested on my ability

00:06:30.360 To go out on stage

00:06:31.960 And sing

00:06:32.440 And of course

00:06:33.560 We were a band

00:06:34.140 And

00:06:34.440 And

00:06:34.760 And everyone

00:06:35.720 You know

00:06:36.220 Had to be present

00:06:36.960 To be there

00:06:37.460 But I felt such a pressure

00:06:38.820 And

00:06:40.700 You know

00:06:41.840 That

00:06:42.060 That weighed on me

00:06:43.360 And not having

00:06:44.440 A support system

00:06:45.920 In place

00:06:47.300 You know

00:06:49.260 To help me

00:06:50.060 Took its toll

00:06:51.800 And

00:06:52.040 And I didn't make

00:06:52.800 All the right decisions

00:06:54.080 But hey

00:06:54.600 Who does

00:06:55.320 When they're

00:06:56.120 24 and 25

00:06:57.140 You know

00:06:57.800 I don't beat myself

00:06:58.560 Up over it anymore

00:06:59.400 Yeah

00:06:59.880 No

00:07:00.420 Yeah

00:07:01.320 I feel like

00:07:01.900 That's a tough thing

00:07:02.780 Because I

00:07:04.000 I found that

00:07:04.740 I would beat

00:07:05.200 I would

00:07:05.720 You're so hard

00:07:07.080 On yourself

00:07:07.500 To get

00:07:08.000 And that's what

00:07:08.660 Got you to where

00:07:09.500 You were

00:07:10.260 Right

00:07:10.620 Probably

00:07:11.140 Right

00:07:11.500 I'm guessing

00:07:12.000 It worked as a fuel

00:07:13.100 Oh absolutely

00:07:14.080 Yeah

00:07:14.400 Absolutely

00:07:14.840 I had a lot to prove

00:07:15.920 Yeah

00:07:16.660 You know

00:07:17.580 I left home at 17

00:07:18.720 And came from

00:07:21.520 Not a very

00:07:22.120 Good situation

00:07:23.240 Where was that?

00:07:25.680 Just how I was raised

00:07:27.100 In

00:07:27.360 In what area

00:07:28.420 I mean

00:07:28.700 Sorry

00:07:28.960 Apopka, Florida

00:07:30.300 Just outside Orlando

00:07:32.500 A lot of missing people

00:07:33.640 In Florida

00:07:34.060 Dude

00:07:34.300 I noticed

00:07:34.720 Yeah

00:07:34.740 There's a lot of

00:07:35.380 Missing people

00:07:35.940 In Florida

00:07:36.380 I feel like

00:07:37.320 You can go up

00:07:38.160 To somebody in Florida

00:07:38.920 And be like

00:07:39.340 I became a Florida man

00:07:41.060 Headline

00:07:41.520 Oh yeah

00:07:42.140 Did you really?

00:07:42.820 Yeah

00:07:43.120 Absolutely

00:07:43.660 Over time

00:07:44.440 Man

00:07:44.780 I mean

00:07:45.100 I think

00:07:45.880 I fit the mold

00:07:46.920 There every once in a while

00:07:47.860 Yeah

00:07:48.400 But you know

00:07:49.600 You live and learn man

00:07:50.500 And I grew up

00:07:51.500 And made all my mistakes

00:07:53.880 That most people

00:07:55.660 I think

00:07:56.140 Would make in high school

00:07:57.760 With their buddies

00:07:58.500 I made them in the public eye

00:08:00.720 You know

00:08:02.100 I didn't drink or anything

00:08:02.880 In high school

00:08:03.420 Didn't go to parties

00:08:04.340 And why was that?

00:08:05.920 It was very strict

00:08:07.140 Religious

00:08:07.980 Household

00:08:10.060 And so

00:08:11.520 I didn't get a chance

00:08:12.500 To make some of those

00:08:13.260 Dumb mistakes

00:08:14.380 Oh

00:08:14.940 And so

00:08:15.800 You know what?

00:08:16.340 I made them in public

00:08:17.580 Yeah

00:08:18.080 And you know what?

00:08:22.920 They weren't just little ones

00:08:23.820 They were big ones

00:08:25.020 You know what I mean?

00:08:26.620 But hey

00:08:27.040 I look at that now

00:08:28.740 And

00:08:29.620 And

00:08:30.040 And I say

00:08:31.340 You know

00:08:31.540 I wouldn't be

00:08:32.540 Who I am today

00:08:34.380 The father I am

00:08:37.620 The human being

00:08:39.220 That I feel I'm becoming

00:08:40.720 If I didn't make those mistakes

00:08:42.300 Yeah

00:08:42.680 So I look at them

00:08:44.180 As a process

00:08:45.900 You know

00:08:46.580 I'm on a journey

00:08:47.760 In life

00:08:48.520 And there's no guidebook

00:08:49.720 There's no manual

00:08:50.620 Certainly not

00:08:51.720 On how to do this

00:08:52.560 So I was just flying

00:08:53.780 By the seat of my pants

00:08:54.900 Back then man

00:08:55.620 Just

00:08:55.900 Just

00:08:56.260 Just doing it

00:08:57.560 My heart was in the right place

00:08:59.140 Yeah

00:08:59.400 But my actions sometimes

00:09:00.660 Didn't always line up

00:09:01.520 With my heart

00:09:02.120 You know what I mean?

00:09:03.460 Yeah my heart's in the right place

00:09:04.720 The rest of me is somewhere else

00:09:06.400 Yeah

00:09:06.700 Yeah

00:09:07.060 Exactly

00:09:07.560 What do you think

00:09:08.960 Kind of

00:09:09.260 So coming out of that environment

00:09:11.140 You came out of like

00:09:11.640 A religious environment

00:09:12.560 Like what was it like?

00:09:13.780 Like was one of your parents

00:09:15.080 A pastor or something?

00:09:16.340 Like how deep into the church

00:09:17.720 Were you personally?

00:09:19.680 It was

00:09:20.100 It was very very deep

00:09:21.260 You know

00:09:22.600 Church was our

00:09:23.580 Our life

00:09:24.340 It was

00:09:24.820 Wednesday night

00:09:26.320 Friday night youth group

00:09:27.800 Twice on Sundays

00:09:29.600 You know

00:09:31.940 And I had an abusive

00:09:33.380 Upbringing

00:09:34.400 You know

00:09:35.940 Those that

00:09:36.500 That have followed me

00:09:37.440 Over the years

00:09:37.960 Know about it

00:09:38.660 And I think

00:09:39.860 The worst part of it

00:09:40.800 Was being abused

00:09:41.960 In the name of God

00:09:42.860 But

00:09:44.920 Like what is

00:09:45.960 Like

00:09:46.240 So like somebody

00:09:48.100 Reprimanding you

00:09:49.420 Beating

00:09:49.780 Beating

00:09:50.340 Oh wow

00:09:50.940 Ritually

00:09:51.500 Wow

00:09:52.280 You know

00:09:52.880 Oh man I'm sorry

00:09:53.860 I remember getting beat

00:09:55.040 Every Monday night

00:09:56.160 For everything

00:09:57.800 That I didn't get caught doing

00:09:59.560 Or that I thought

00:10:01.320 That no one

00:10:02.560 Saw

00:10:03.600 Or that went on in my mind

00:10:05.720 And then

00:10:07.340 You know

00:10:07.680 Relatively quickly

00:10:08.560 About an hour afterwards

00:10:10.120 After the beating

00:10:11.460 Hey you want to come

00:10:13.900 Watch some football?

00:10:16.000 It was just weird man

00:10:17.880 It was weird

00:10:19.320 And the weirdness

00:10:20.320 That creates

00:10:20.900 In a young man

00:10:21.980 Too

00:10:22.220 Of like

00:10:22.700 You know

00:10:23.760 Like

00:10:24.060 When like

00:10:25.600 It's okay

00:10:26.020 To be close

00:10:26.560 To somebody

00:10:27.000 How you

00:10:27.560 How you can go

00:10:28.180 From abuse

00:10:28.840 To immediately

00:10:30.080 Like everything

00:10:30.720 Being okay

00:10:31.360 That's

00:10:31.700 All that stuff

00:10:32.240 Is so jarring

00:10:33.000 It was very

00:10:33.880 Looking back

00:10:34.580 It was very

00:10:35.620 It was very

00:10:36.280 Traumatizing

00:10:37.080 It was

00:10:38.600 It was

00:10:39.200 You know

00:10:39.940 One thing good

00:10:41.060 Out of it

00:10:41.420 Is I was made

00:10:41.980 To write the Bible

00:10:42.900 For punishment

00:10:43.900 And I would

00:10:45.200 Write the Bible

00:10:45.900 And then have to

00:10:46.660 Write commentaries

00:10:47.560 On what each chapter

00:10:48.540 Meant to me

00:10:49.160 And so

00:10:51.180 Looking back

00:10:52.560 That trained me

00:10:53.820 To be a writer

00:10:54.340 A lyricist

00:10:55.100 It trained me

00:10:56.860 To learn

00:10:57.400 How to

00:10:57.940 Put my thoughts

00:10:58.960 On paper

00:10:59.500 In a

00:11:00.600 Poetic

00:11:01.360 And unique way

00:11:02.440 And

00:11:02.600 All that

00:11:04.700 Knowledge

00:11:05.420 Although I didn't

00:11:07.340 Live it

00:11:07.880 For a long period

00:11:09.460 In my life

00:11:10.040 And still don't

00:11:11.240 Always

00:11:11.620 It came out

00:11:13.320 In my lyrics

00:11:13.920 Which

00:11:15.420 Went on to

00:11:16.500 Really connect

00:11:18.180 With people

00:11:18.660 And so

00:11:20.300 You know

00:11:20.840 I look at it

00:11:22.360 Again

00:11:23.020 It is what it is

00:11:24.760 And I wouldn't

00:11:25.800 Change a thing

00:11:26.360 Because it

00:11:26.940 It's all a part

00:11:28.560 Of the building blocks

00:11:30.740 Whether it was good

00:11:31.640 Or bad

00:11:32.260 That

00:11:33.160 Created the life

00:11:34.620 That I've lived

00:11:35.420 So far

00:11:35.900 Was there something

00:11:37.520 That kind of helped you

00:11:38.320 Get to some of that

00:11:39.180 Conclusion

00:11:39.680 Because I still have

00:11:40.860 Like

00:11:42.100 I'm sure you probably

00:11:42.700 Had resentments

00:11:43.400 Against your parents

00:11:44.480 Oh absolutely

00:11:45.100 And I find

00:11:46.140 Like

00:11:46.480 You know

00:11:46.860 I still

00:11:47.320 I have

00:11:47.820 Resentment

00:11:49.320 You know

00:11:49.620 And it's not

00:11:50.120 It's like

00:11:50.920 So deep

00:11:51.660 Sometimes

00:11:52.260 It's like

00:11:52.820 I can let go

00:11:53.800 Of it

00:11:54.000 Like up here

00:11:55.180 Yeah

00:11:55.720 Like

00:11:55.940 But man

00:11:56.900 Sometimes

00:11:57.320 There's like

00:11:57.960 Something inside of me

00:11:58.840 It's so locked

00:11:59.680 It's like

00:12:00.140 Yeah

00:12:00.680 It's hard

00:12:01.320 Yeah

00:12:01.820 You know

00:12:03.020 Time does help

00:12:04.020 But not in every situation

00:12:06.240 And you know

00:12:07.520 One day for me

00:12:09.140 With each situation

00:12:11.100 That I had held on

00:12:12.040 To resentment for

00:12:13.000 I just woke up

00:12:14.300 One day

00:12:14.580 And felt it lift

00:12:15.440 And it was just time

00:12:18.860 And I think

00:12:19.280 Maturity

00:12:19.760 And growth

00:12:20.940 And then just realized

00:12:23.220 And I just didn't want

00:12:23.880 To worry about it anymore

00:12:24.620 I didn't want to think

00:12:25.160 About it anymore

00:12:25.860 I wanted to let it go

00:12:27.220 So I guess you'd call

00:12:28.820 That forgiveness

00:12:29.540 But I'll never forget

00:12:33.020 And I'll never forget

00:12:35.400 Because I don't want

00:12:37.160 To do that

00:12:37.660 To my children

00:12:38.760 Or anyone

00:12:39.580 That I come in contact with

00:12:41.000 Or be that kind of friend

00:12:42.460 To the people

00:12:42.980 That I care about

00:12:43.840 You know what I mean

00:12:44.980 Yeah

00:12:45.280 But resentments are hard man

00:12:46.920 It's hard bro

00:12:48.440 Yeah man

00:12:49.060 And we can hold on

00:12:49.740 To them forever

00:12:50.220 And sometimes

00:12:51.060 We can think

00:12:51.700 That we've let it go

00:12:52.660 And we haven't

00:12:55.700 And they'll

00:12:57.020 Rear their head

00:12:58.000 Again

00:12:58.840 And so

00:13:00.080 But again

00:13:00.660 I think everyone

00:13:01.380 Goes through that

00:13:02.060 I think it's just part

00:13:02.680 Of being human

00:13:04.100 Yeah

00:13:04.800 You know

00:13:05.320 Yeah it's like a sap

00:13:07.380 Sometimes resentment

00:13:08.320 It's like

00:13:09.000 You know

00:13:10.280 It's

00:13:10.620 You know

00:13:12.020 Sap is just so

00:13:13.440 Sticky

00:13:14.540 Yeah it's so fucking

00:13:15.940 Sticky man

00:13:16.780 And you really

00:13:17.520 Thick

00:13:17.920 Yeah you can't

00:13:18.800 Clean it all

00:13:19.500 You don't even know

00:13:20.120 Where it all is

00:13:20.980 Sometimes you never

00:13:21.880 Get it off

00:13:22.440 Yeah

00:13:22.740 I mean you can get it off

00:13:24.160 But it's just like

00:13:24.880 Gosh man

00:13:25.400 It's still a layer

00:13:25.840 It's still on my finger

00:13:27.220 Yeah

00:13:27.540 It's still a layer

00:13:28.080 I know exactly

00:13:28.740 What you're talking about

00:13:29.680 You know

00:13:30.400 And I think

00:13:31.400 With resentment

00:13:32.680 And your sap analogy

00:13:34.740 You know

00:13:37.460 I think we can always

00:13:38.320 If we focus

00:13:39.720 On things that have

00:13:41.340 Hurt us

00:13:41.840 In our life

00:13:42.700 Or ways that we've

00:13:44.140 Been betrayed

00:13:44.820 Abused

00:13:45.760 Mistreated

00:13:46.380 Mishandled

00:13:47.500 Taken advantage of

00:13:48.580 Lied to

00:13:49.160 Stolen from

00:13:49.940 All the things

00:13:51.000 That can happen

00:13:51.700 To us in life

00:13:53.720 You know

00:13:55.940 We can find ourselves

00:13:59.120 Getting right back

00:13:59.940 Into that emotion

00:14:00.700 Even though we may

00:14:01.500 Have a period

00:14:02.120 Where we think

00:14:02.640 We're free from it

00:14:03.520 So it's all about

00:14:05.100 You know

00:14:05.420 What consumes

00:14:06.680 Your thoughts

00:14:07.400 Controls your life

00:14:08.500 You know

00:14:10.180 So it's all about

00:14:11.000 Changing the way

00:14:12.280 We think

00:14:12.820 And I think

00:14:14.520 For me

00:14:14.980 I had to make

00:14:16.020 A conscious

00:14:16.620 Effort

00:14:17.560 To do that

00:14:18.820 I had to eliminate

00:14:20.140 Things in my life

00:14:22.060 That reminded me

00:14:23.760 Of those situations

00:14:25.720 And those people

00:14:26.660 For a period of time

00:14:27.700 I had to cut off

00:14:29.160 Things that were triggers

00:14:30.160 To try to

00:14:31.660 Rewire my brain

00:14:33.080 To not go there

00:14:34.700 You know

00:14:36.100 Every once in a while

00:14:36.920 You know

00:14:37.200 Something will

00:14:37.600 Flash up

00:14:38.560 And I'll be like

00:14:38.960 Man

00:14:39.380 There's still

00:14:41.360 A little sap in there

00:14:42.460 There's still

00:14:43.360 A little sap in there

00:14:44.180 Man I thought

00:14:45.460 I thought

00:14:46.160 I cleaned that off

00:14:47.260 Thought I got it all

00:14:48.220 So maybe

00:14:48.240 Maybe we go to

00:14:49.500 The grave

00:14:49.880 With some of that

00:14:50.560 Yeah

00:14:51.100 You know what I mean

00:14:52.320 I mean

00:14:52.720 Yeah

00:14:53.140 Maybe we do

00:14:53.940 Yeah it's

00:14:55.220 It's interesting

00:14:55.940 That's one thing

00:14:56.480 It's nice about

00:14:57.120 Being able to

00:14:57.700 Stay alive

00:14:58.480 Over time

00:14:59.100 It's like

00:14:59.400 You kind of

00:14:59.860 Start to get

00:15:00.440 Different perspectives

00:15:01.280 Of things

00:15:01.880 A hundred percent

00:15:02.840 You know

00:15:03.260 That's really been

00:15:03.940 A gift I find

00:15:04.720 As I get older

00:15:05.440 What was it like

00:15:07.400 So your band

00:15:08.120 So you guys

00:15:08.800 Just band

00:15:09.160 You guys were

00:15:09.600 A close knit group

00:15:10.520 Yeah

00:15:10.900 Best friends

00:15:11.580 You guys

00:15:12.000 Wow best friends

00:15:13.060 That's crazy

00:15:13.880 Best friends

00:15:14.660 Yeah

00:15:14.900 And you head into

00:15:16.220 Like

00:15:17.920 Basically just

00:15:19.900 I mean stardom

00:15:21.200 However it happens

00:15:22.600 And that had to be

00:15:23.700 What did you notice

00:15:24.860 Within yourself

00:15:25.640 That did anything

00:15:26.380 Like get

00:15:26.860 Because I noticed

00:15:28.480 When iBooks

00:15:28.940 Started to become

00:15:29.600 Popular

00:15:30.240 For me

00:15:31.400 My ego

00:15:32.120 I didn't notice

00:15:33.500 It was my ego

00:15:34.200 I thought it was

00:15:35.720 Just like

00:15:36.400 I'd gotten myself

00:15:38.280 This far

00:15:39.000 So I knew

00:15:40.620 A lot of the best ways

00:15:42.840 To I felt like

00:15:43.520 I knew the best ways

00:15:44.340 To do things

00:15:44.620 I felt like I needed

00:15:45.280 To do it all myself

00:15:46.380 Right

00:15:46.780 That was a big problem

00:15:48.080 That I struggled with

00:15:49.000 Yeah me too

00:15:49.680 Like not letting

00:15:50.580 Wanting to let

00:15:51.220 Other people help me

00:15:52.300 Me

00:15:52.520 Even though I needed help

00:15:53.600 Me too

00:15:54.020 Me too

00:15:54.840 And and I can

00:15:55.880 I can own that now

00:15:57.020 I can see

00:15:58.820 And look back

00:15:59.620 That that although

00:16:00.840 A few minutes ago

00:16:01.680 I said you know

00:16:02.260 I didn't have

00:16:02.620 The support system

00:16:03.400 I did have a

00:16:04.240 A couple people

00:16:05.300 That that made

00:16:07.840 A real valiant effort

00:16:09.100 To communicate

00:16:10.860 And get through to me

00:16:11.780 But again

00:16:12.280 Like you were saying

00:16:13.400 Ego

00:16:13.860 You know

00:16:15.620 I would

00:16:16.180 I had done everything

00:16:17.040 On my own

00:16:17.820 Since I was 17 years old

00:16:19.540 Didn't take a dime

00:16:20.720 From anybody

00:16:21.420 Had lived in my car

00:16:23.400 Had lived in an apartment

00:16:24.980 With no electricity

00:16:26.000 And in the freezing cold

00:16:29.300 In in Chattanooga Tennessee

00:16:32.000 In 1991

00:16:33.500 Yeah

00:16:34.280 You know

00:16:35.040 Sitting there

00:16:35.800 Taking cold baths

00:16:37.560 You know

00:16:37.820 In the winter

00:16:38.640 And I was like

00:16:39.220 Man

00:16:39.400 Back when cold was cold

00:16:40.640 Yeah

00:16:41.020 It was cold

00:16:41.800 And sleeping

00:16:42.480 Sleeping on towels

00:16:43.800 So I was like

00:16:45.940 Man I came from that

00:16:47.000 Right

00:16:47.420 And and no one helped me

00:16:48.860 You know

00:16:49.420 I did that

00:16:49.880 So it created an ego

00:16:50.920 And and I think it took

00:16:52.360 An ego

00:16:53.860 To go through that

00:16:55.540 Look what you mean

00:16:57.000 I think it took

00:16:58.080 A sense of

00:16:59.140 Self-confidence

00:17:00.480 To even endure

00:17:02.300 Those struggles

00:17:03.940 In life

00:17:04.680 You know

00:17:05.480 To be strong enough

00:17:06.880 To

00:17:07.680 Live in your car

00:17:09.560 Yeah

00:17:10.300 An ego is

00:17:10.960 Yeah

00:17:11.140 You almost

00:17:11.500 You gotta have a fucking ego

00:17:12.920 To do that

00:17:13.520 That's true

00:17:14.020 You do

00:17:14.400 You have to have the good side

00:17:15.420 Of it like a

00:17:15.980 The healthy part of an ego

00:17:17.220 To do that

00:17:17.840 Like I'm gonna get through this

00:17:18.760 I'm gonna do this

00:17:19.400 I got this

00:17:20.300 Right

00:17:20.560 This is just temporary

00:17:21.340 You know what I mean

00:17:22.520 That's what's so fascinating

00:17:23.480 About the

00:17:23.860 It's like

00:17:24.560 So there's a good side

00:17:25.920 Yeah

00:17:26.300 And then there's the bad side

00:17:27.540 It's a duality of man

00:17:28.860 Yeah

00:17:29.400 And and so we

00:17:30.500 You know

00:17:31.820 When the success came

00:17:32.860 Man it's hard not to get

00:17:34.380 Just inflated

00:17:36.220 In ego

00:17:37.340 Impossible

00:17:37.900 I mean

00:17:38.600 You know

00:17:39.540 We were young

00:17:40.320 I was young

00:17:41.060 And the trappings of success

00:17:44.300 Were there

00:17:45.360 Every single day

00:17:47.560 Yeah

00:17:48.080 And you know

00:17:49.700 I succumbed man

00:17:50.980 Oh yeah

00:17:51.680 The unlimited

00:17:52.260 I mean I remember

00:17:53.000 Even going backstage

00:17:53.840 And seeing like

00:17:54.600 One of them cheese plates

00:17:55.720 Whatever for the first time

00:17:56.860 Dude I lost my

00:17:58.420 Damn mind bro

00:17:59.460 I'm about to pull my ears

00:18:00.580 Off my head

00:18:01.140 I was so excited

00:18:01.860 Just like things

00:18:03.140 Where you're like

00:18:03.620 Damn we did it

00:18:04.780 You know

00:18:05.020 We made it

00:18:05.760 Yeah we made it

00:18:06.600 We got four types of cheese

00:18:08.000 And there's meat

00:18:09.100 Yeah dude

00:18:10.240 Camembert anyone

00:18:12.380 And then like

00:18:14.500 Yeah and when things

00:18:16.260 Start to

00:18:16.600 It's just

00:18:17.460 It's really interesting

00:18:18.380 Man that the

00:18:19.180 How the ego

00:18:20.300 Kind of like

00:18:21.100 Is this

00:18:21.560 It's almost a trap

00:18:23.060 Kind of

00:18:23.600 It's like helping you

00:18:25.200 It's helping you

00:18:25.880 It's keeping you going

00:18:26.820 So you're like

00:18:27.400 So motivated with it

00:18:28.760 And then it kind of like

00:18:30.420 And then it turns on you

00:18:31.440 Yeah

00:18:31.660 It's just crazy bro

00:18:33.420 And then it turns on you

00:18:34.560 And so I think

00:18:36.280 You know

00:18:37.080 It's

00:18:37.340 It's something that

00:18:39.100 You know

00:18:39.420 Thank goodness

00:18:40.080 With maturity

00:18:41.020 And time

00:18:44.080 And being broken

00:18:46.040 And shattered

00:18:48.580 And having to rebuild

00:18:50.680 You know

00:18:52.440 My psyche

00:18:53.160 And my mind

00:18:54.820 And my body

00:18:55.520 Multiple times

00:18:57.000 I think

00:18:58.960 It put things

00:19:00.120 In more perspective

00:19:00.920 And I feel so

00:19:02.240 Detached

00:19:03.800 From that person

00:19:05.340 It's almost like

00:19:07.320 Like it was another life

00:19:08.360 And another human being

00:19:09.540 I can't even get in the mind

00:19:11.840 And understand

00:19:12.720 That person anymore

00:19:14.640 That's how far removed

00:19:15.660 I feel

00:19:16.160 Wow

00:19:16.880 From that

00:19:17.760 And I don't

00:19:18.120 I don't know what that means

00:19:19.160 Psychologically

00:19:19.920 But it's definitely

00:19:22.760 You know

00:19:24.060 I have

00:19:24.360 I have to motivate myself

00:19:26.000 More

00:19:26.820 And push myself

00:19:28.900 More

00:19:29.480 Than ever

00:19:30.420 Because

00:19:31.040 Of that

00:19:32.300 You know

00:19:33.560 Youthful ego

00:19:34.600 That carried me through

00:19:35.900 Being completely shattered

00:19:37.380 And was there like

00:19:38.980 A moment

00:19:39.480 Where you felt

00:19:40.060 Like it became shattered

00:19:40.920 Was there a

00:19:41.420 Was there a time

00:19:42.300 Where you realized

00:19:42.780 Like

00:19:43.180 Was it when

00:19:45.300 When you guys

00:19:46.080 Decided to

00:19:46.700 Take that break

00:19:47.500 Was it like

00:19:47.960 At a point

00:19:48.400 Where you

00:19:48.860 Like

00:19:49.480 Was there something

00:19:50.180 You noticed

00:19:50.680 For you

00:19:50.920 Even physically

00:19:51.740 Or was it just

00:19:52.400 Something you noticed

00:19:53.040 In your environment

00:19:53.900 Like

00:19:54.160 There were

00:19:54.660 There were

00:19:55.120 A few

00:19:55.540 A few things

00:19:56.680 A few incidents

00:19:57.500 In my life

00:19:58.460 And

00:19:58.600 And for me

00:20:00.000 Unfortunately

00:20:01.960 Whenever I would

00:20:03.660 Make a huge

00:20:04.460 Mistake

00:20:05.240 It was always

00:20:05.740 Public

00:20:06.240 Oh yeah

00:20:07.000 Right

00:20:07.660 And so

00:20:08.700 That was

00:20:09.020 Ego crushing

00:20:09.740 Oh yeah

00:20:11.220 And then

00:20:11.920 When I realized

00:20:12.660 That my mistakes

00:20:13.620 Were

00:20:15.220 Hurting other people

00:20:16.940 That

00:20:18.860 That began

00:20:19.420 To really

00:20:19.860 To really

00:20:20.480 Sink in

00:20:21.020 And

00:20:21.320 And make me

00:20:22.640 Make me say

00:20:23.260 You know what

00:20:23.580 I got

00:20:23.820 I can't go on

00:20:25.180 Like this

00:20:25.520 I've got to

00:20:25.880 Make a change

00:20:26.540 And

00:20:28.120 You know

00:20:29.820 You can reach

00:20:31.420 A bottom

00:20:31.900 But

00:20:33.220 It's still

00:20:33.840 Not be a bottom

00:20:34.660 If you're still

00:20:35.360 Digging

00:20:35.740 And so

00:20:37.240 Even though

00:20:37.560 I thought

00:20:38.120 That I had

00:20:38.760 Reached a bottom

00:20:39.560 Three or four

00:20:41.200 Different times

00:20:41.820 I was still

00:20:42.540 Digging

00:20:42.880 Wow

00:20:43.360 You know

00:20:44.120 I was still

00:20:44.500 Digging

00:20:44.780 Man that ego

00:20:45.420 Was big

00:20:45.980 Man it had

00:20:46.500 To get

00:20:46.780 Chopped

00:20:47.420 Like a big

00:20:48.440 Tree

00:20:48.760 You know

00:20:49.940 What I mean

00:20:50.360 And so

00:20:50.700 I had just

00:20:51.040 Been pruning

00:20:51.460 Branches

00:20:51.980 And so

00:20:53.800 That tree

00:20:54.180 Had to get

00:20:54.600 Cut down

00:20:55.260 And it

00:20:56.880 And it

00:20:57.680 Did

00:20:57.980 And it

00:21:00.040 Took all

00:21:00.520 The way

00:21:00.800 Up until

00:21:01.260 About

00:21:01.620 Eight years

00:21:03.120 Ago

00:21:03.460 For that

00:21:05.340 Last bit

00:21:06.400 Of

00:21:07.260 Out of

00:21:09.540 Control

00:21:10.020 Ego

00:21:11.620 That would

00:21:12.040 Enable me

00:21:12.740 To make

00:21:13.240 Decisions

00:21:14.300 And do

00:21:15.160 Things

00:21:15.660 That were

00:21:16.320 Self-fulfilling

00:21:17.060 Without

00:21:17.640 Realizing the

00:21:18.600 Consequences

00:21:19.140 They had

00:21:19.540 On other

00:21:19.840 People

00:21:20.160 To completely

00:21:21.560 Go away

00:21:22.060 And were

00:21:23.420 You like

00:21:23.820 Was it

00:21:24.360 Like were

00:21:25.420 You

00:21:26.000 Like uh

00:21:28.160 Being mean

00:21:28.860 Like where

00:21:29.220 Did you

00:21:29.540 It was

00:21:30.220 It was

00:21:30.620 Self-destructive

00:21:31.280 It was

00:21:31.640 It was

00:21:33.300 It was

00:21:33.720 It was drugs

00:21:34.280 And alcohol

00:21:34.580 It was drinking

00:21:35.120 Oh you were

00:21:35.660 Drinking

00:21:36.020 You were

00:21:36.300 Drinking

00:21:36.760 And mixing

00:21:37.840 It with

00:21:38.240 You know

00:21:38.480 Some prescription

00:21:39.080 Stuff

00:21:40.820 That

00:21:41.280 That you know

00:21:42.320 Was prescribed

00:21:43.320 Oh yeah

00:21:43.920 For the right

00:21:45.000 For the right

00:21:45.900 Reason but

00:21:46.480 When I found

00:21:47.040 Out at the

00:21:48.020 Time it could

00:21:48.540 Be abused

00:21:49.240 And then you

00:21:50.280 Mixed a little

00:21:50.660 Alcohol with it

00:21:51.300 How it made

00:21:51.740 You feel

00:21:52.180 I was like

00:21:52.620 Well give me

00:21:53.020 More

00:21:53.340 You know

00:21:54.080 If one

00:21:55.380 Is good

00:21:56.320 Give me

00:21:56.820 20

00:21:57.220 You know

00:21:59.300 What I mean

00:21:59.820 And it

00:22:01.180 Took me

00:22:01.380 Too bad

00:22:01.600 They don't

00:22:01.780 Give out

00:22:02.140 Grammys

00:22:02.640 For dope

00:22:03.120 I'd have

00:22:04.840 50 of them

00:22:05.540 Half of my

00:22:08.360 Friends would have

00:22:09.040 A few for sure

00:22:10.120 You know

00:22:10.760 What I mean

00:22:11.160 And I'm very

00:22:11.820 Cautious and

00:22:12.480 Careful

00:22:12.800 About what I

00:22:14.140 Share because

00:22:14.660 I have four

00:22:15.300 Kids

00:22:15.640 Totally

00:22:16.260 And I don't

00:22:17.380 And you know

00:22:18.440 One day

00:22:19.060 You know dad

00:22:19.880 Will sit down

00:22:20.460 And explain

00:22:21.500 Things and

00:22:22.320 Share my

00:22:23.260 Life when I

00:22:23.720 Feel it's

00:22:24.020 Appropriate

00:22:24.460 But I've

00:22:25.580 Become coach

00:22:26.300 You know

00:22:27.380 I coach

00:22:28.340 My son

00:22:29.660 Daniel's

00:22:30.220 Baseball team

00:22:31.040 And have for

00:22:32.160 The last

00:22:33.020 Five or six

00:22:33.720 Years

00:22:34.040 And my

00:22:34.840 Youngest

00:22:35.320 Anthony

00:22:35.840 You know

00:22:37.280 I coach him

00:22:37.720 At home

00:22:38.140 I'm not

00:22:38.560 Coaching his

00:22:39.040 T-ball team

00:22:39.700 This year

00:22:40.120 But

00:22:40.340 And then I

00:22:41.360 Have a

00:22:41.620 15 year old

00:22:42.500 Daughter

00:22:42.840 Who's a

00:22:44.220 Musician

00:22:44.800 And plays

00:22:45.160 Guitar

00:22:45.460 And then I

00:22:47.040 Have an

00:22:47.260 Older son

00:22:47.720 And he's

00:22:48.100 The one

00:22:48.420 That got

00:22:48.720 The brunt

00:22:49.260 Of dad's

00:22:51.500 Failures

00:22:53.660 So he

00:22:55.080 Knows

00:22:55.480 We talk

00:22:56.260 About it

00:22:56.680 I mean

00:22:57.420 He saw

00:22:58.000 With his

00:22:58.840 Own eyes

00:22:59.320 He experienced

00:23:00.340 You know

00:23:02.040 While he

00:23:02.440 Was in

00:23:03.940 High school

00:23:04.820 And junior

00:23:05.260 High

00:23:05.540 Some of

00:23:05.880 My public

00:23:06.480 Scenarios

00:23:07.920 Right

00:23:08.500 And so it

00:23:09.200 Definitely

00:23:09.640 Made an

00:23:10.060 Impact on

00:23:10.640 Him

00:23:10.820 And we've

00:23:11.420 Talked through

00:23:11.800 That and

00:23:12.260 And gotten

00:23:13.340 Through it

00:23:13.780 And but

00:23:15.640 You know

00:23:15.940 I think

00:23:17.000 Now is

00:23:17.980 The time

00:23:18.600 To to

00:23:20.460 Just look

00:23:21.700 At life

00:23:22.000 And move

00:23:22.340 Forward

00:23:22.740 And and

00:23:24.220 Look at all

00:23:25.100 Of that

00:23:25.580 As hey

00:23:26.700 I'm not

00:23:28.140 Going to

00:23:28.280 Do it

00:23:28.500 Again

00:23:28.800 And I'm

00:23:30.380 Going to

00:23:30.580 Be a

00:23:30.860 Better

00:23:31.180 Father

00:23:32.340 Because of

00:23:34.900 What I've

00:23:35.240 Learned now

00:23:35.840 Than I

00:23:37.160 Could ever

00:23:37.520 Be

00:23:37.800 And so

00:23:39.420 That's where

00:23:39.880 I'm at

00:23:40.200 Now a

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00:30:18.460 Just

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00:30:39.360 Son

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00:30:55.520 So

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00:30:59.280 Love

00:30:59.540 That

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00:31:01.700 Us

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00:31:02.420 They're

00:31:02.620 Teenagers

00:31:03.140 Then

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00:31:06.020 Conditional

00:31:06.540 But

00:31:08.600 Hey

00:31:08.960 Dad

00:31:09.120 We're

00:31:09.280 Going

00:31:09.340 To

00:31:09.380 Start

00:31:09.560 Conditional

00:31:10.120 Love

00:31:10.460 This

00:31:10.680 Year

00:31:10.920 Right

00:31:11.240 Exactly

00:31:11.720 Exactly

00:31:12.540 And

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00:31:12.940 An

00:31:13.040 Adjustment

00:31:13.540 As

00:31:13.740 A

00:31:13.860 Parent

00:31:14.080 You

00:31:14.240 Kind

00:31:14.440 Of

00:31:14.520 Get

00:31:14.640 Your

00:31:14.760 Heart

00:31:14.940 Broken

00:31:15.280 Oh

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00:31:15.680 Sure

00:31:15.900 I

00:31:16.100 Bet

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00:31:18.060 Bet

00:31:18.500 But

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00:31:19.600 It's

00:31:19.840 Been

00:31:19.980 The

00:31:20.160 Greatest

00:31:20.680 Achievement

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00:31:23.160 My

00:31:23.280 Life

00:31:23.640 I

00:31:23.940 Mean

00:31:24.080 Because

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00:31:24.440 Tell

00:31:24.600 You

00:31:24.720 What

00:31:24.940 Nobody

00:31:25.640 Who

00:31:26.580 Knows

00:31:26.860 Me

00:31:27.080 Would

00:31:27.580 Have

00:31:27.700 Ever

00:31:28.000 Thought

00:31:28.420 That

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00:31:30.900 Be

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00:31:31.220 Today

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00:31:32.300 To

00:31:32.500 You

00:31:32.780 Alive

00:31:34.060 With

00:31:34.440 The

00:31:34.600 Life

00:31:34.900 That

00:31:35.160 I've

00:31:35.340 Led

00:31:35.660 And

00:31:36.120 The

00:31:36.260 Family

00:31:36.540 That

00:31:36.760 I

00:31:36.880 Have

00:31:37.180 Not

00:31:37.440 A

00:31:37.600 Single

00:31:37.840 Person

00:31:38.240 And

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00:31:39.860 I'm

00:31:40.040 A

00:31:40.140 Blessed

00:31:40.380 Man

00:31:40.700 You

00:31:41.180 Were

00:31:41.320 Deep

00:31:41.600 Out

00:31:41.800 There

00:31:42.020 Huh

00:31:42.260 Yeah

00:31:42.520 Man

00:31:43.260 Yeah

00:31:43.680 And

00:31:44.460 And

00:31:44.720 It

00:31:44.800 Was

00:31:44.920 A

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00:31:45.360 And

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00:31:45.980 Excuses

00:31:46.620 But

00:31:47.360 It

00:31:47.480 Was

00:31:47.600 A

00:31:47.740 Product

00:31:48.100 Of

00:31:48.320 Abuse

00:31:48.780 It

00:31:49.500 Was

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00:31:50.120 Of

00:31:50.580 Physical

00:31:52.520 Abuse

00:31:53.140 Spiritual

00:31:55.800 Abuse

00:31:56.400 Emotional

00:31:57.140 Abuse

00:31:57.640 You

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00:32:00.180 Because

00:32:00.360 What

00:32:00.540 Happens

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00:32:08.560 Creating

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00:32:10.940 You

00:32:11.040 That

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00:32:12.400 Like

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00:32:15.700 You

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00:32:16.580 Know

00:32:16.820 Oh

00:32:17.180 It

00:32:17.280 Hindered

00:32:17.560 Me

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00:32:18.580 Up

00:32:18.860 I

00:32:20.160 Was

00:32:20.440 Very

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00:32:21.040 You

00:32:22.780 Know

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00:32:23.600 Again

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00:32:24.140 We

00:32:24.220 Were

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00:32:24.500 About

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00:32:25.060 Earlier

00:32:25.560 That

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00:32:27.000 Turned

00:32:27.600 To

00:32:27.720 A

00:32:27.880 Fuel

00:32:28.220 You

00:32:29.080 Know

00:32:29.200 That

00:32:29.380 I

00:32:29.480 Was

00:32:29.600 Gonna

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00:32:30.040 I'm

00:32:30.180 Wrong

00:32:30.340 Oh

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00:32:30.900 You

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00:32:31.240 What

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00:32:31.420 Mean

00:32:31.580 And

00:32:31.740 So

00:32:31.900 Show

00:32:32.260 Them

00:32:32.540 Yeah

00:32:32.720 Exactly

00:32:33.100 I

00:32:33.380 Know

00:32:33.740 Exactly

00:32:34.240 And

00:32:34.680 As

00:32:34.840 Things

00:32:35.080 Go

00:32:35.280 Right

00:32:35.700 In

00:32:35.900 Your

00:32:36.020 Life

00:32:36.320 The

00:32:36.560 Things

00:32:36.760 That

00:32:36.880 Start

00:32:37.040 To

00:32:37.180 Go

00:32:37.300 Good

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00:32:37.880 Choose

00:32:38.160 To

00:32:38.320 Do

00:32:38.620 It

00:32:39.040 Only

00:32:39.560 Just

00:32:39.960 Fuel

00:32:40.340 It's

00:32:40.620 Like

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00:32:41.720 Fucking

00:32:42.160 Right

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00:32:43.120 That

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00:32:43.900 That

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00:32:44.980 Be

00:32:45.140 Your

00:32:45.340 Fuel

00:32:45.600 Forever

00:32:46.040 Right

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00:32:47.060 Sustain

00:32:47.800 Life

00:32:49.240 Because

00:32:49.500 You

00:32:49.660 Crash

00:32:49.940 And

00:32:50.080 Burn

00:32:50.300 And

00:32:52.260 So

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00:32:52.560 It

00:32:52.660 Did

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00:32:53.040 Me

00:32:53.180 To

00:32:53.300 Get

00:32:53.440 There

00:32:53.680 Yeah

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00:32:57.000 It

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00:32:58.220 Hindsight

00:32:58.800 Again

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00:33:00.340 Said

00:33:00.520 Earlier

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00:33:02.120 Completely

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00:33:05.660 Father

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00:33:07.140 My

00:33:07.360 Kids

00:33:07.580 And

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00:33:08.220 Do

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00:33:09.540 To

00:33:09.680 The

00:33:09.840 Complete

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00:33:11.420 Where

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00:33:12.640 Wife

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00:33:13.480 You

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00:33:14.300 Be

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00:33:16.000 Their

00:33:16.180 Parent

00:33:16.600 You

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00:33:17.480 What

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00:33:17.660 Mean

00:33:17.880 Yeah

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00:33:18.920 Got

00:33:19.040 To

00:33:19.120 Remind

00:33:19.440 Myself

00:33:19.960 To

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00:33:21.820 You

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00:33:26.800 To

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00:33:32.200 Myself

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00:33:33.380 To

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00:33:33.960 Child

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00:33:35.800 Way

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00:33:37.980 Myself

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00:33:39.600 Part

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00:33:39.860 Me

00:33:39.940 That

00:33:40.080 Still

00:33:40.320 Wants

00:33:40.720 That

00:33:40.940 Never

00:33:41.200 Got

00:33:41.440 To

00:33:41.620 Be

00:33:41.860 The

00:33:42.080 Kid

00:33:42.460 With

00:33:43.120 The

00:33:43.300 Carefree

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00:33:46.060 Kind

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00:33:47.160 Know

00:33:47.260 What

00:33:47.400 I

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00:33:48.000 To

00:33:48.160 Experience

00:33:48.680 That

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00:33:49.920 If

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00:33:51.860 A

00:33:51.960 Word

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00:33:54.240 Creed

00:33:54.860 Successful

00:33:55.520 Run

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00:33:58.300 That

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00:33:58.860 Upbringing

00:33:59.280 I

00:33:59.620 Didn't

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00:33:59.920 How

00:34:00.060 To

00:34:00.160 Handle

00:34:00.500 Carefree

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00:34:03.580 Meant

00:34:03.960 Just

00:34:04.280 Life

00:34:04.640 Is

00:34:04.860 My

00:34:05.140 Candy

00:34:05.520 Store

00:34:05.940 Yeah

00:34:06.440 I'm

00:34:06.700 Gonna

00:34:06.800 Do

00:34:06.960 Whatever

00:34:07.200 I

00:34:07.420 Want

00:34:07.780 And

00:34:09.720 That

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00:34:10.240 Last

00:34:10.480 Too

00:34:10.660 Long

00:34:10.880 Without

00:34:11.120 Biting

00:34:11.460 You

00:34:11.660 Yeah

00:34:12.960 I

00:34:13.080 Guess

00:34:13.240 Because

00:34:13.400 There's

00:34:13.600 No

00:34:13.800 Real

00:34:14.080 Top

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00:34:14.820 It

00:34:14.920 You

00:34:15.060 Know

00:34:15.300 Like

00:34:15.640 You

00:34:15.740 Don't

00:34:15.880 Meet

00:34:16.100 Like

00:34:16.300 A

00:34:16.440 Guy

00:34:16.720 You

00:34:16.860 Don't

00:34:16.980 Meet

00:34:17.160 People

00:34:17.860 Always

00:34:18.080 Say

00:34:18.200 You

00:34:18.280 Don't

00:34:18.380 Meet

00:34:18.520 A

00:34:18.640 Coke

00:34:18.920 Head

00:34:19.100 In

00:34:19.220 Their

00:34:19.340 50s

00:34:19.940 You

00:34:20.160 Know

00:34:20.420 I

00:34:21.760 Met

00:34:21.960 A

00:34:22.100 Couple

00:34:22.400 I

00:34:25.320 Met

00:34:25.540 A

00:34:25.680 Couple

00:34:25.980 Yeah

00:34:26.600 Because

00:34:27.480 It

00:34:27.760 Just

00:34:28.000 Burns

00:34:28.440 You

00:34:28.580 You

00:34:28.700 Know

00:34:28.820 Like

00:34:29.000 The

00:34:29.140 Drugs

00:34:29.580 And

00:34:29.700 Stuff

00:34:29.920 After

00:34:30.180 A

00:34:30.300 While

00:34:30.500 It

00:34:30.620 Just

00:34:30.760 Burned

00:34:31.140 You

00:34:31.280 Out

00:34:31.520 Oh

00:34:31.720 100%

00:34:32.340 And

00:34:32.840 It

00:34:32.960 Doesn't

00:34:33.260 Lead

00:34:33.600 To

00:34:33.780 Any

00:34:33.980 Joy

00:34:34.520 You

00:34:34.880 Know

00:34:35.120 I

00:34:35.880 Even

00:34:36.100 Notice

00:34:36.440 It

00:34:36.580 With

00:34:36.740 Dating

00:34:37.160 Like

00:34:37.480 If

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00:34:37.800 Just

00:34:38.140 Keep

00:34:38.460 Kind

00:34:38.760 Of

00:34:38.880 Like

00:34:39.260 Getting

00:34:40.780 Sexual

00:34:41.320 With

00:34:41.600 Women

00:34:41.860 That

00:34:42.060 There's

00:34:42.400 No

00:34:42.640 You

00:34:42.980 Know

00:34:43.120 That

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00:34:44.340 Not

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00:38:58.720 You

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00:39:46.520 Knew

00:39:46.660 My

00:39:46.840 Weaknesses

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00:39:58.500 Artist

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00:40:21.500 And

00:40:21.600 Roll

00:40:21.740 Dream

00:40:22.080 Oh

00:40:22.460 They

00:40:22.600 Were

00:40:22.720 Like

00:40:22.920 We

00:40:23.040 Don't

00:40:23.140 Want

00:40:23.260 To

00:40:23.300 Be

00:40:23.400 In

00:40:23.500 A

00:40:23.580 Christian

00:40:24.060 Band

00:40:24.320 Exactly

00:40:24.880 Yeah

00:40:25.280 Exactly

00:40:25.760 And

00:40:26.040 And

00:40:26.320 To

00:40:26.500 Be

00:40:26.600 Honest

00:40:26.760 With

00:40:26.880 You

00:40:26.940 I

00:40:27.060 Didn't

00:40:27.220 Either

00:40:27.460 Because

00:40:27.800 At

00:40:28.000 The

00:40:28.120 Time

00:40:28.440 That's

00:40:29.220 Not

00:40:29.380 The

00:40:29.540 Life

00:40:29.820 That

00:40:30.060 That

00:40:30.560 I

00:40:31.340 Felt

00:40:31.680 That

00:40:31.880 I

00:40:32.020 Could

00:40:32.200 Live

00:40:32.540 Nor

00:40:32.800 Did

00:40:32.980 I

00:40:33.100 Want

00:40:33.360 To

00:40:33.600 I

00:40:34.460 Chose

00:40:34.720 A

00:40:34.880 Different

00:40:35.100 Path

00:40:35.520 But

00:40:36.840 I

00:40:36.980 Honored

00:40:37.220 My

00:40:37.400 Promise

00:40:37.840 Did

00:40:38.960 That

00:40:39.140 Feel

00:40:39.360 Like

00:40:39.520 A

00:40:39.660 Lot

00:40:39.800 Of

00:40:39.920 Prec

00:40:40.180 Because

00:40:40.340 Then

00:40:40.540 The

00:40:40.760 Media

00:40:41.060 Almost

00:40:41.400 Made

00:40:41.640 It

00:40:41.760 Seem

00:40:41.920 Like

00:40:42.060 Oh

00:40:42.160 This

00:40:42.340 Is

00:40:42.460 A

00:40:42.580 Christian

00:40:42.960 Band

00:40:43.420 Right

00:40:43.800 So

00:40:43.940 Then

00:40:44.120 That

00:40:44.280 Adds

00:40:44.520 A

00:40:44.680 Whole

00:40:44.920 Did

00:40:45.200 It

00:40:45.300 Add

00:40:45.480 A

00:40:45.600 Whole

00:40:45.780 Another

00:40:46.000 Level

00:40:46.360 Of

00:40:46.920 Pressure

00:40:47.340 To

00:40:47.500 To

00:40:47.520 Seem

00:40:47.920 Like

00:40:48.080 A

00:40:48.220 Christian

00:40:48.600 In

00:40:48.800 The

00:40:48.900 Or

00:40:49.120 Like

00:40:49.280 To

00:40:49.420 Have

00:40:49.720 A

00:40:49.940 We

00:40:50.480 Didn't

00:40:51.080 Right

00:40:51.380 Uh

00:40:51.920 I

00:40:52.200 Mean

00:40:52.380 We

00:40:52.660 Talked

00:40:52.980 About

00:40:53.200 It

00:40:53.340 I

00:40:53.500 Mean

00:40:53.680 You

00:40:54.100 You

00:40:54.120 Know

00:40:54.180 The

00:40:54.260 Guys

00:40:54.480 Were

00:40:54.620 Not

00:40:54.800 Happy

00:40:55.200 Uh

00:40:56.120 Because

00:40:56.360 Exactly

00:40:57.100 What

00:40:57.420 You

00:40:57.540 Said

00:40:57.740 They

00:40:57.880 Didn't

00:40:58.040 Want

00:40:58.180 To

00:40:58.280 Live

00:40:58.440 With

00:40:58.580 That

00:40:58.740 Pressure

00:40:59.160 And

00:40:59.560 That

00:40:59.720 Burden

00:41:00.080 That

00:41:00.300 Was

00:41:00.440 Not

00:41:00.580 Something

00:41:00.800 They

00:41:00.980 Signed

00:41:01.240 Up

00:41:01.400 For

00:41:01.620 They

00:41:01.800 They

00:41:02.080 Signed

00:41:02.260 Up

00:41:02.380 To

00:41:02.500 Be

00:41:02.640 In

00:41:02.740 A

00:41:02.820 Rock

00:41:03.040 And

00:41:03.140 Roll

00:41:03.320 Band

00:41:03.600 And

00:41:03.880 Everything

00:41:04.160 Came

00:41:04.500 With

00:41:04.700 It

00:41:04.880 Yeah

00:41:05.620 And

00:41:05.900 Christian

00:41:06.160 Bands

00:41:06.360 Always

00:41:06.640 Have

00:41:06.820 Like

00:41:06.980 That

00:41:07.120 One

00:41:07.360 They

00:41:07.460 Always

00:41:07.680 Put

00:41:07.840 A

00:41:07.960 Cage

00:41:08.380 On

00:41:08.500 That

00:41:08.620 One

00:41:08.840 Dude

00:41:09.000 On

00:41:09.140 That

00:41:09.760 That's

00:41:09.880 Insane

00:41:10.640 Bro

00:41:11.040 You

00:41:12.580 Know

00:41:12.680 What

00:41:12.780 I'm

00:41:12.880 Talking

00:41:13.140 About

00:41:13.420 I

00:41:14.540 Know

00:41:15.000 Like

00:41:15.020 If

00:41:15.080 You

00:41:15.180 Go

00:41:15.360 To

00:41:15.480 Like

00:41:15.660 A

00:41:15.840 Like

00:41:16.060 A

00:41:16.180 Church

00:41:16.560 Like

00:41:16.820 There's

00:41:17.020 Always

00:41:17.320 Like

00:41:17.540 The

00:41:17.660 Band

00:41:17.940 Up

00:41:18.100 There

00:41:18.220 Which

00:41:18.400 Is

00:41:18.560 Cool

00:41:18.860 Are

00:41:18.980 You

00:41:19.040 Talking

00:41:19.180 About

00:41:19.320 The

00:41:19.460 Drummer

00:41:19.760 Yes

00:41:20.500 Okay

00:41:21.040 They

00:41:21.540 Always

00:41:21.960 Cage

00:41:22.380 The

00:41:22.480 Plexiglass

00:41:23.280 Yeah

00:41:23.680 Yeah

00:41:24.080 Why

00:41:24.960 Do

00:41:25.040 They

00:41:25.180 Cage

00:41:25.620 Him

00:41:25.780 Up

00:41:26.220 I

00:41:26.600 Don't

00:41:26.740 Know

00:41:26.940 Man

00:41:27.260 That

00:41:27.680 Just

00:41:27.880 I

00:41:28.160 Don't

00:41:28.300 I

00:41:28.500 Just

00:41:28.760 It

00:41:29.800 Makes

00:41:30.080 Me

00:41:30.240 Feel

00:41:30.500 Always

00:41:30.740 Like

00:41:30.860 He

00:41:30.980 Did

00:41:31.100 Something

00:41:39.880 All

00:41:40.120 Human

00:41:40.500 Well

00:41:40.840 Then

00:41:40.980 Each

00:41:41.240 Week

00:41:41.440 They

00:41:41.600 Should

00:41:41.720 Put

00:41:41.900 A

00:41:42.300 Different

00:41:42.680 Instrument

00:41:43.580 In

00:41:43.680 There

00:41:43.800 Should

00:41:44.780 Be

00:41:44.920 A

00:41:45.340 Cage

00:41:45.640 Around

00:41:45.860 All

00:41:46.080 Of

00:41:46.180 Us

00:41:46.340 Each

00:41:46.500 Week

00:41:46.760 That's

00:41:47.280 True

00:41:47.500 That's

00:41:48.220 Really

00:41:48.440 True

00:41:48.800 So

00:41:50.580 You

00:41:50.780 Guys

00:41:51.000 So

00:41:51.280 That

00:41:52.460 Added

00:41:52.740 Some

00:41:52.920 Pressure

00:41:53.260 Then

00:41:53.420 But

00:41:53.540 You

00:41:53.640 Had

00:41:53.740 To

00:41:53.860 Talk

00:41:54.060 With

00:41:54.200 Your

00:41:54.340 Band

00:41:54.680 Members

00:41:54.940 That

00:41:56.400 Like

00:41:56.700 So

00:41:57.440 Were

00:41:57.580 They

00:41:57.700 Upset

00:41:57.980 With

00:41:58.160 You

00:41:58.380 About

00:41:58.640 That

00:41:58.940 There

00:41:59.640 Was

00:41:59.780 A

00:41:59.900 Time

00:42:00.120 When

00:42:00.280 They

00:42:00.400 Were

00:42:00.620 Yeah

00:42:01.140 Absolutely

00:42:01.660 Wow

00:42:02.760 100%

00:42:03.380 And

00:42:03.840 Also

00:42:04.140 They

00:42:05.040 Knew

00:42:05.300 That

00:42:05.500 I

00:42:05.620 Wasn't

00:42:05.900 Living

00:42:06.140 It

00:42:06.400 So

00:42:07.100 They

00:42:07.220 Were

00:42:07.320 Like

00:42:07.500 Why

00:42:07.720 Is

00:42:07.880 It

00:42:07.960 In

00:42:08.120 There

00:42:08.360 That's

00:42:09.380 Not

00:42:09.580 You

00:42:09.860 And

00:42:10.940 I'm

00:42:11.080 Like

00:42:11.240 Because

00:42:11.540 I

00:42:11.720 Have

00:42:11.980 To

00:42:12.200 Man

00:42:12.500 It's

00:42:13.120 I

00:42:13.280 Know

00:42:13.500 It's

00:42:13.720 Right

00:42:14.060 This

00:42:14.900 Is

00:42:15.020 What

00:42:15.200 I

00:42:15.360 Felt

00:42:15.600 Called

00:42:15.960 To

00:42:16.160 Do

00:42:16.500 Because

00:42:17.220 When

00:42:17.360 I

00:42:17.440 Was

00:42:17.540 Little

00:42:17.860 When

00:42:18.360 I

00:42:18.420 Was

00:42:18.500 Younger

00:42:18.880 I

00:42:19.560 Felt

00:42:19.760 Called

00:42:20.000 To

00:42:20.120 Be

00:42:20.220 A

00:42:20.360 Pastor

00:42:20.700 I

00:42:21.620 Preached

00:42:21.940 My

00:42:22.140 First

00:42:22.520 Sermon

00:42:23.620 All

00:42:23.840 Right

00:42:24.000 In

00:42:24.240 Front

00:42:24.440 Of

00:42:24.560 Probably

00:42:25.020 A

00:42:25.920 Thousand

00:42:26.420 People

00:42:27.120 In A

00:42:27.440 Youth

00:42:27.620 Group

00:42:27.920 Wow

00:42:28.420 When

00:42:28.620 I

00:42:28.720 Was

00:42:28.840 12

00:42:29.120 Or

00:42:29.300 13

00:42:29.620 Years

00:42:29.920 Old

00:42:30.300 At

00:42:30.620 Calvary

00:42:31.040 Assembly

00:42:31.440 Of

00:42:31.660 God

00:42:31.960 In

00:42:32.120 Orlando

00:42:32.540 Florida

00:42:33.100 And

00:42:34.740 So

00:42:34.940 That's

00:42:35.260 It's

00:42:35.940 Interesting

00:42:36.340 And

00:42:37.280 So

00:42:38.700 That

00:42:39.700 Was

00:42:39.880 Always

00:42:40.160 In

00:42:40.460 Me

00:42:40.740 And

00:42:42.460 So

00:42:42.720 I

00:42:43.200 Went

00:42:43.400 To

00:42:43.540 The

00:42:43.700 Complete

00:42:44.080 Polar

00:42:44.480 Opposite

00:42:45.040 Of

00:42:45.460 What

00:42:45.740 A

00:42:46.140 Preacher

00:42:46.460 Is

00:42:46.880 But

00:42:47.720 Still

00:42:48.140 In

00:42:48.380 My

00:42:48.580 Writings

00:42:49.060 Could

00:42:49.340 Not

00:42:49.580 Escape

00:42:50.240 What

00:42:52.020 I

00:42:52.240 Knew

00:42:52.440 Was

00:42:52.720 Right

00:42:53.120 Right

00:42:53.760 Or

00:42:54.120 What

00:42:54.320 I

00:42:54.460 Felt

00:42:54.680 Was

00:42:54.920 Right

00:42:55.240 And

00:42:55.540 That

00:42:55.720 Is

00:42:56.040 To

00:42:56.560 Point

00:42:56.860 People

00:42:57.240 To

00:42:58.240 God

00:42:58.600 To

00:42:58.880 Point

00:42:59.060 People

00:42:59.400 To

00:42:59.660 Something

00:42:59.940 Greater

00:43:00.320 To

00:43:00.580 Point

00:43:00.780 People

00:43:01.080 To

00:43:01.340 A

00:43:01.840 Spiritual

00:43:02.300 Life

00:43:02.780 In

00:43:03.500 The

00:43:03.660 Spiritual

00:43:03.980 Realm

00:43:04.360 Which

00:43:04.600 I

00:43:04.780 Knew

00:43:04.920 Was

00:43:05.160 Real

00:43:05.500 Which

00:43:06.520 I

00:43:06.680 Had

00:43:06.840 Felt

00:43:07.240 As

00:43:07.900 A

00:43:08.040 Child

00:43:08.400 And

00:43:10.040 I

00:43:10.180 Felt

00:43:10.840 On

00:43:11.060 Stage

00:43:11.520 Thousands

00:43:12.240 Of

00:43:12.680 Times

00:43:12.980 And

00:43:13.180 Continue

00:43:13.560 To

00:43:13.920 To

00:43:14.420 This

00:43:14.620 Day

00:43:14.880 So

00:43:15.100 I

00:43:15.260 Can't

00:43:15.480 Deny

00:43:15.720 It

00:43:15.860 Because

00:43:15.980 I

00:43:16.120 Know

00:43:16.280 It's

00:43:16.460 Real

00:43:16.660 I

00:43:16.780 Felt

00:43:17.040 It

00:43:17.260 Right

00:43:17.640 Yeah

00:43:18.740 I've

00:43:18.900 Had

00:43:19.020 Some

00:43:19.180 Spiritual

00:43:19.540 Experiences

00:43:20.080 In

00:43:20.260 My

00:43:20.380 Life

00:43:26.040 To

00:43:26.160 Come

00:43:26.280 Into

00:43:26.380 My

00:43:26.540 Life

00:43:26.740 And

00:43:26.860 Help

00:43:27.100 Me

00:43:27.320 Right

00:43:27.640 You

00:43:28.000 Know

00:43:28.240 That

00:43:28.920 Had

00:43:29.080 Blown

00:43:29.300 My

00:43:29.480 Mind

00:43:29.860 Yeah

00:43:30.060 Really

00:43:30.440 It's

00:43:30.940 Really

00:43:31.120 Crazy

00:43:31.580 When

00:43:31.880 The

00:43:33.940 Connection

00:43:34.520 With

00:43:34.800 Something

00:43:35.500 Because

00:43:36.700 I

00:43:36.840 Didn't

00:43:37.000 Trust

00:43:37.280 Anybody

00:43:37.580 In

00:43:37.820 The

00:43:37.940 World

00:43:38.300 You

00:43:38.980 Know

00:43:39.240 Which

00:43:39.720 Is

00:43:39.840 Normal

00:43:40.120 Of

00:43:40.300 A

00:43:40.400 Lot

00:43:40.540 Of

00:43:40.640 People

00:43:40.860 In

00:43:41.040 Recovery

00:43:41.460 And

00:43:41.680 Stuff

00:43:42.020 And

00:43:42.220 And

00:43:43.060 So

00:43:43.280 That's

00:43:43.580 Why

00:43:43.720 They

00:43:43.920 Get

00:43:44.600 You

00:43:44.740 With

00:43:44.920 God

00:43:45.240 They

00:43:45.440 Kind

00:43:45.680 Of

00:43:45.800 Lead

00:43:46.600 You

00:43:46.740 To

00:43:46.900 God

00:43:47.360 Or

00:43:47.500 To

00:43:47.660 A

00:43:47.940 Higher

00:43:48.180 Power

00:43:48.560 Of

00:43:48.860 Your

00:43:49.000 Choice

00:43:49.460 Right

00:43:49.980 You

00:43:50.220 Can

00:43:50.380 Pick

00:43:50.620 Your

00:43:50.800 Own

00:43:51.080 Right

00:43:51.720 Because

00:43:52.380 Only

00:43:53.180 Something

00:43:53.800 Unworldly

00:43:55.180 Like

00:43:55.880 Earthly

00:43:56.580 Would

00:43:57.700 I

00:43:57.840 Be

00:43:58.000 Willing

00:43:58.400 To

00:43:58.580 Believe

00:43:59.020 In

00:43:59.400 Right

00:43:59.800 Because

00:44:00.240 It

00:44:00.480 Feels

00:44:00.840 Like

00:44:01.300 Everything

00:44:01.740 In

00:44:02.000 The

00:44:02.180 Earth

00:44:02.740 Or

00:44:02.920 Every

00:44:03.120 Human

00:44:03.520 In

00:44:03.680 The

00:44:03.760 Earth

00:44:03.920 Has

00:44:04.080 Let

00:44:04.340 Me

00:44:04.500 Down

00:44:04.760 That's

00:44:04.960 What

00:44:05.060 Part

00:44:05.280 Of

00:44:05.360 Me

00:44:05.460 Feels

00:44:05.740 Like

00:44:05.880 Whether

00:44:06.060 That's

00:44:06.360 True

00:44:06.540 Or

00:44:06.660 Not

00:44:06.940 Yeah

00:44:07.380 Well

00:44:07.580 That's

00:44:07.800 What

00:44:07.900 We

00:44:08.020 Do

00:44:08.220 As

00:44:08.400 Human

00:44:08.620 Beings

00:44:08.920 We

00:44:09.100 Let

00:44:09.300 Each

00:44:09.480 Other

00:44:09.660 Right

00:44:09.940 Whether

00:44:10.540 We

00:44:10.720 Mean

00:44:10.960 To

00:44:11.140 Or

00:44:11.260 Not

00:44:11.560 I

00:44:11.820 Know

00:44:12.020 It's

00:44:12.180 Crazy

00:44:12.560 Isn't

00:44:12.780 It

00:44:12.940 And

00:44:13.620 I

00:44:14.060 Think

00:44:14.320 That's

00:44:14.800 Why

00:44:15.080 In

00:44:15.340 Recovery

00:44:15.800 They

00:44:17.000 Do

00:44:17.200 Point

00:44:17.480 You

00:44:17.660 To

00:44:17.880 A

00:44:18.300 Higher

00:44:18.500 Power

00:44:18.800 Because

00:44:19.020 Not

00:44:19.200 Only

00:44:19.440 Do

00:44:19.620 We

00:44:19.780 Let

00:44:20.100 Other

00:44:21.220 People

00:44:21.540 Down

00:44:21.860 On

00:44:22.020 A

00:44:22.120 Regular

00:44:22.380 Basis

00:44:22.860 Oh

00:44:23.080 Yeah

00:44:23.360 We

00:44:23.960 Let

00:44:24.140 Ourselves

00:44:24.500 Down

00:44:24.740 All

00:44:24.900 The

00:44:25.020 Time

00:44:25.300 And

00:44:26.720 That's

00:44:26.940 What

00:44:27.080 Led

00:44:27.280 Us

00:44:27.480 To

00:44:27.760 Having

00:44:28.440 To

00:44:28.720 Join

00:44:29.060 A

00:44:29.720 Recovery

00:44:30.080 Group

00:44:30.380 A

00:44:30.640 Recovery

00:44:30.960 Program

00:44:31.440 Because

00:44:31.760 We

00:44:32.000 Had

00:44:32.160 Let

00:44:32.360 Ourselves

00:44:32.900 Down

00:44:33.240 So

00:44:33.560 Bad

00:44:34.080 Yeah

00:44:34.600 And

00:44:35.720 So

00:44:36.000 The

00:44:36.960 Only

00:45:06.960 If you

00:45:07.420 Say

00:45:07.580 A

00:45:07.720 Curse

00:45:07.940 Word

00:45:08.160 And

00:45:08.280 Get

00:45:08.660 Hit

00:45:08.840 By

00:45:09.020 Car

00:45:09.400 No

00:45:10.040 Matter

00:45:10.180 How

00:45:10.400 Good

00:45:10.660 You

00:45:10.800 Lived

00:45:11.000 Your

00:45:11.120 Life

00:45:11.340 You're

00:45:11.540 Going

00:45:11.600 To

00:45:11.680 Burn

00:45:11.880 In

00:45:12.060 Hell

00:45:12.280 I

00:45:12.440 Mean

00:45:12.540 That's

00:45:12.760 How

00:45:12.860 I

00:45:13.040 Grew

00:45:13.200 Up

00:45:13.420 I

00:45:14.860 Don't

00:45:15.000 Believe

00:45:15.240 That

00:45:15.500 I

00:45:17.080 Don't

00:45:17.260 Believe

00:45:17.680 That

00:45:17.960 I

00:45:18.320 Can

00:45:18.540 Love

00:45:18.920 My

00:45:19.200 Children

00:45:19.660 More

00:45:21.240 Than

00:45:21.860 My

00:45:22.100 God

00:45:22.460 Can

00:45:22.680 Love

00:45:22.960 Me

00:45:23.280 And

00:45:24.140 So

00:45:24.280 The

00:45:24.480 Same

00:45:24.780 Grace

00:45:25.220 That

00:45:25.420 I

00:45:25.540 Can

00:45:25.700 Extend

00:45:26.140 My

00:45:26.400 Sons

00:45:26.960 And

00:45:27.300 My

00:45:27.480 Daughter

00:45:27.820 The

00:45:28.480 Same

00:45:28.780 Unconditional

00:45:29.780 Love

00:45:30.200 No

00:45:30.320 Matter

00:45:30.460 What

00:45:30.760 They

00:45:31.000 Do

00:45:31.440 I

00:45:32.240 Don't

00:45:35.260 Believe

00:45:35.560 That

00:45:35.780 I

00:45:35.920 Can

00:45:36.080 Love

00:45:36.300 More

00:45:36.520 Than

00:45:36.680 God

00:45:37.020 I

00:45:37.840 Believe

00:45:38.060 My

00:45:38.280 Love

00:45:38.500 Is

00:45:38.620 A

00:45:38.760 Fraction

00:45:39.160 Of

00:45:39.340 How

00:45:39.480 God

00:45:39.780 Loves

00:45:40.100 Us

00:45:40.380 And

00:45:40.920 So

00:45:41.060 When

00:45:41.220 I

00:45:41.360 Got

00:45:41.580 To

00:45:41.740 That

00:45:41.920 Place

00:45:42.480 It

00:45:43.440 Really

00:45:43.660 Freed

00:45:44.120 Me

00:45:44.380 Of

00:45:45.240 A lot

00:45:45.660 Of

00:45:45.840 Guilt

00:45:46.200 And

00:45:46.840 Shame

00:45:47.300 And

00:45:48.300 Responsibility

00:45:49.100 Almost

00:45:49.400 In a

00:45:49.720 Weird

00:45:49.920 Way

00:45:50.080 Of

00:45:50.200 Like

00:45:50.500 Unnecessary

00:45:51.780 Responsibility

00:45:52.580 Right

00:45:52.860 Now

00:45:53.220 I

00:45:53.380 Still

00:45:53.740 Have

00:45:54.640 A

00:45:54.800 Tremendous

00:45:55.300 Guilty

00:45:56.080 Conscience

00:45:56.540 When

00:45:56.720 I

00:45:56.820 Make

00:45:57.000 A

00:45:57.100 Mistake

00:45:57.440 I

00:45:57.720 Will

00:45:57.920 Torture

00:45:58.880 Myself

00:45:59.360 I

00:46:00.060 Will

00:46:00.220 Have

00:46:00.420 Sleepless

00:46:00.900 Nights

00:46:01.380 Even

00:46:02.960 If

00:46:03.140 No

00:46:03.320 One

00:46:03.440 Knows

00:46:03.660 But

00:46:03.840 Me

00:46:04.160 Beat

00:46:05.400 Yourself

00:46:05.780 Up

00:46:05.980 Yeah

00:46:06.260 And

00:46:06.720 I

00:46:06.820 Just

00:46:06.980 Have

00:46:07.160 To

00:46:07.260 Go

00:46:07.380 Through

00:46:07.580 It

00:46:07.940 And

00:46:08.120 I

00:46:08.220 Have

00:46:08.380 To

00:46:08.500 Endure

00:46:08.760 It

00:46:08.880 That's

00:46:09.060 Just

00:46:09.200 My

00:46:09.400 Nature

00:46:09.720 Why

00:46:10.760 Do

00:46:10.860 We

00:46:10.960 Do

00:46:11.120 That

00:46:11.380 Scott

00:46:12.100 Because

00:46:12.280 A lot

00:46:12.560 Of

00:46:12.660 My

00:46:12.980 Listeners

00:46:14.140 Over

00:46:14.320 The

00:46:14.480 Years

00:46:14.700 And

00:46:14.840 People

00:46:15.000 That

00:46:15.220 Like

00:46:15.380 This

00:46:15.560 Show

00:46:15.760 They

00:46:15.980 Always

00:46:16.380 Will

00:46:16.660 They

00:46:16.840 Will

00:46:16.980 Often

00:46:17.300 Comment

00:46:17.760 Even

00:46:18.040 When

00:46:18.180 I

00:46:18.280 See

00:46:27.100 But

00:46:27.700 When

00:46:27.840 I

00:46:27.980 Hear

00:46:28.120 You

00:46:28.320 Say

00:46:28.600 That

00:46:28.980 You

00:46:29.320 Know

00:46:29.520 And

00:46:29.780 I

00:46:29.880 Know

00:46:30.060 It's

00:46:30.260 Common

00:46:30.620 Amongst

00:46:31.040 People

00:46:31.360 That

00:46:33.020 Have

00:46:33.140 Been

00:46:33.240 In

00:46:33.360 Recovery

00:46:33.720 And

00:46:33.980 Gone

00:46:34.860 Through

00:46:35.200 You

00:46:36.320 Know

00:46:36.440 Certain

00:46:36.740 Types

00:46:37.080 Of

00:46:37.220 Struggle

00:46:37.620 With

00:46:37.760 Certain

00:46:37.900 Types

00:46:38.100 Of

00:46:38.220 Addiction

00:46:38.580 Or

00:46:38.820 Addictive

00:46:39.440 Natures

00:46:40.280 Why

00:46:41.480 Is

00:46:41.680 That

00:46:41.800 Why

00:46:41.980 Are

00:46:42.000 We

00:46:42.160 So

00:46:42.320 Hard

00:46:43.080 On

00:46:43.220 Ourselves

00:46:43.780 Well

00:46:44.180 I

00:46:45.340 Mean

00:46:45.500 For

00:46:45.700 Me

00:46:45.960 Now

00:46:46.600 It's

00:46:46.760 Emotional

00:46:47.180 Relapses

00:46:47.880 And

00:46:48.720 I

00:46:48.960 I'm

00:46:49.320 Sure

00:46:49.460 You've

00:46:49.680 Heard

00:46:49.860 That

00:46:50.140 That

00:46:50.720 Expression

00:46:51.420 And

00:46:51.940 That

00:46:57.100 An Eight

00:46:57.400 Ball

00:46:57.600 You

00:46:58.280 Know

00:46:58.420 The

00:46:58.660 Relapses

00:46:59.660 Are

00:46:59.980 Character

00:47:00.580 Flaws

00:47:01.020 Character

00:47:01.720 Defects

00:47:02.340 Oh

00:47:02.480 Yeah

00:47:02.740 And

00:47:03.600 I

00:47:03.740 And

00:47:03.960 I

00:47:04.080 Tell

00:47:04.300 You

00:47:04.480 You

00:47:04.800 Know

00:47:04.880 When

00:47:05.020 I

00:47:05.140 Have

00:47:05.500 Those

00:47:06.000 I'm

00:47:08.540 You

00:47:09.380 Know

00:47:09.480 They

00:47:09.780 Destroy

00:47:10.160 Me

00:47:10.460 And

00:47:11.320 I'm

00:47:11.480 Working

00:47:11.660 On

00:47:11.840 That

00:47:12.020 I'm

00:47:12.520 Working

00:47:12.720 On

00:47:12.920 Giving

00:47:13.120 Myself

00:47:13.580 As

00:47:13.760 Much

00:47:13.980 Grace

00:47:14.280 As

00:47:14.420 I

00:47:14.600 Extend

00:47:14.980 You

00:47:16.220 Know

00:47:16.320 My

00:47:16.480 Children

00:47:16.780 Yeah

00:47:17.180 Because

00:47:17.480 That's

00:47:17.660 My

00:47:17.800 Frame

00:47:18.020 Of

00:47:18.160 Reference

00:47:18.600 Is

00:47:19.480 My

00:47:19.880 Kids

00:47:20.280 Because

00:47:20.720 That's

00:47:21.160 That's

00:47:22.500 The

00:47:23.040 Purest

00:47:23.680 Form

00:47:24.160 Of

00:47:24.380 Love

00:47:24.720 That

00:47:24.920 I

00:47:25.180 Can

00:47:25.380 Understand

00:47:26.080 And

00:47:26.380 Comprehend

00:47:27.180 And

00:47:28.400 So

00:47:28.580 I'm

00:47:28.740 Trying

00:47:31.720 With

00:47:32.320 Some

00:47:32.580 Things

00:47:32.820 That

00:47:32.940 Have

00:47:33.040 Gone

00:47:33.240 On

00:47:33.420 In

00:47:33.540 My

00:47:33.660 Life

00:47:34.000 Is

00:47:34.620 I'm

00:47:34.780 Trying

00:47:35.120 To

00:47:35.340 Learn

00:47:35.580 To

00:47:35.780 Extend

00:47:36.300 The

00:47:36.520 Same

00:47:36.840 Grace

00:47:37.220 And

00:47:37.460 Love

00:47:37.840 That

00:47:38.340 I

00:47:38.460 Do

00:47:38.640 To

00:47:38.860 My

00:47:39.100 Children

00:47:39.520 To

00:47:40.280 Other

00:47:41.060 People

00:47:41.400 That

00:47:42.320 Are

00:47:42.540 In

00:47:42.740 My

00:47:43.260 Life

00:47:43.640 And

00:47:44.740 Myself

00:47:45.220 And

00:47:46.360 It's

00:47:46.540 Hard

00:47:46.860 It's

00:47:47.740 Difficult

00:47:48.120 Where

00:47:48.380 Do

00:47:48.460 You

00:47:48.540 Think

00:47:48.680 That

00:47:48.840 Comes

00:47:49.160 From

00:47:49.360 That

00:47:49.560 Being

00:47:49.800 So

00:47:50.080 Hard

00:47:50.340 On

00:47:50.460 Yourself

00:47:50.920 Or

00:47:52.020 Do

00:47:52.120 You

00:47:52.160 Have

00:47:52.260 Any

00:47:52.420 Different

00:47:52.700 I'm

00:47:52.840 Just

00:47:52.980 Want

00:47:53.120 To

00:47:53.300 Different

00:47:53.700 Insight

00:47:54.080 That

00:47:54.220 I've

00:47:54.960 Had

00:47:55.100 I

00:47:55.380 Mean

00:47:55.600 For

00:47:55.880 Me

00:47:56.340 I

00:47:56.500 Think

00:47:56.660 I

00:47:56.780 Was

00:47:56.900 Programmed

00:47:57.360 That

00:47:57.520 Way

00:47:57.800 Because

00:47:58.800 Of

00:47:59.520 You

00:47:59.720 Know

00:47:59.800 As

00:47:59.980 A

00:48:00.120 Child

00:48:00.500 You

00:48:02.060 Know

00:48:02.220 The

00:48:02.760 Abuse

00:48:03.080 That

00:48:03.240 I

00:48:03.360 Endured

00:48:03.700 In

00:48:03.880 The

00:48:03.980 Name

00:48:04.120 Of

00:48:04.260 God

00:48:04.620 And

00:48:05.860 Would

00:48:06.000 They

00:48:06.140 Whip

00:48:06.500 You

00:48:06.620 And

00:48:06.740 Talk

00:48:06.960 About

00:48:07.220 God

00:48:07.560 Yeah

00:48:08.300 Wow

00:48:08.780 Yeah

00:48:09.100 Strip

00:48:09.460 Me

00:48:09.600 Naked

00:48:09.880 And

00:48:10.440 Beat

00:48:11.020 Me

00:48:11.160 From

00:48:11.380 The

00:48:11.800 Back

00:48:11.980 Of

00:48:12.080 My

00:48:12.200 Neck

00:48:12.420 To

00:48:12.560 The

00:48:12.680 Bottom

00:48:12.900 Of

00:48:13.060 My

00:48:13.200 Feet

00:48:13.500 And

00:48:15.600 My

00:48:16.000 Life

00:48:16.240 Was

00:48:16.420 On

00:48:16.540 A

00:48:16.660 Timer

00:48:17.020 Your

00:48:17.500 Siblings

00:48:17.900 To

00:48:18.200 Yeah

00:48:18.780 Oh

00:48:19.320 Man

00:48:19.680 My

00:48:20.200 Life

00:48:20.400 Was

00:48:20.520 On

00:48:20.620 A

00:48:20.740 Timer

00:48:21.080 I've

00:48:21.220 Never

00:48:21.360 Shared

00:48:21.640 This

00:48:21.920 But

00:48:22.740 I

00:48:23.400 Would

00:48:23.560 Get

00:48:24.000 Woken

00:48:24.540 Up

00:48:24.820 And

00:48:25.460 Then

00:48:25.600 A

00:48:25.780 Timer

00:48:26.260 Would

00:48:26.400 Get

00:48:26.540 Turned

00:48:26.840 On

00:48:27.040 Five

00:48:27.800 Minutes

00:48:28.160 If

00:48:28.860 That

00:48:29.100 Timer

00:48:29.480 Went

00:48:29.680 Off

00:48:29.980 Before

00:48:30.360 I

00:48:30.560 Was

00:48:30.700 Where

00:48:31.120 I

00:48:31.200 Was

00:48:31.300 Supposed

00:48:31.520 To

00:48:31.640 Be

00:48:31.760 Next

00:48:32.140 I

00:48:32.320 Get

00:48:32.460 Beat

00:48:32.700 And

00:48:34.300 Then

00:48:34.420 The

00:48:34.560 Timer

00:48:34.880 Would

00:48:35.060 Be

00:48:35.200 On

00:48:35.480 Where

00:48:35.840 I

00:48:35.920 Was

00:48:36.040 Supposed

00:48:36.240 To

00:48:36.360 Be

00:48:36.460 Next

00:48:36.840 If

00:48:37.580 I

00:48:37.700 Wasn't

00:48:37.960 Finished

00:48:38.260 With

00:48:38.400 My

00:48:38.540 Breakfast

00:48:38.920 And

00:48:47.900 Part

00:48:50.400 Of

00:48:50.540 Why

00:48:50.740 I

00:48:50.940 Rebelled

00:48:51.520 So

00:48:51.880 Intensely

00:48:52.680 Part

00:48:53.780 Of

00:48:53.920 Why

00:48:54.100 I

00:48:54.320 Still

00:48:54.680 When

00:48:54.900 I

00:48:55.020 Make

00:48:55.200 Mistakes

00:48:55.660 They're

00:48:55.900 So

00:48:56.160 They're

00:48:57.160 Big

00:48:57.400 Ones

00:48:57.740 You

00:48:58.040 Know

00:48:58.100 I

00:48:58.200 Skip

00:48:58.400 The

00:48:58.600 Little

00:48:58.740 Ones

00:48:59.080 I

00:48:59.560 Go

00:48:59.700 Straight

00:48:59.960 To

00:49:00.080 The

00:49:00.180 Big

00:49:00.320 One

00:49:00.520 You

00:49:01.300 Know

00:49:01.400 What

00:49:01.480 I

00:49:01.540 Mean

00:49:01.700 It's

00:49:01.900 Like

00:49:02.040 I'd

00:49:02.200 Rather

00:49:02.400 Make

00:49:02.640 You

00:49:03.080 Know

00:49:03.180 Man

00:49:03.400 When

00:49:03.560 Am I

00:49:03.740 Going

00:49:03.860 To

00:49:03.940 To

00:49:04.180 The

00:49:04.320 Point

00:49:04.580 You

00:49:04.800 Know

00:49:04.880 I'm

00:49:04.980 49

00:49:05.360 Years

00:49:05.680 Old

00:49:05.860 When

00:49:06.020 I

00:49:06.180 Get

00:49:06.360 To

00:49:06.480 The

00:49:06.640 Where

00:49:07.020 My

00:49:07.240 My

00:49:07.800 Character

00:49:09.360 Defects

00:49:09.960 When

00:49:10.080 They

00:49:10.200 Manifest

00:49:10.700 Are

00:49:10.880 Small

00:49:11.220 But

00:49:12.700 At

00:49:13.600 Least

00:49:13.760 They're

00:49:13.920 Not

00:49:14.140 Like

00:49:14.380 I

00:49:14.520 Said

00:49:14.780 Jack

00:49:15.740 In

00:49:15.900 An

00:49:16.000 Eight

00:49:16.180 Ball

00:49:16.360 Yeah

00:49:16.940 Well

00:49:18.020 I

00:49:18.220 Think

00:49:18.420 That

00:49:18.640 Right

00:49:18.820 There

00:49:18.980 Explains

00:49:19.360 Why

00:49:19.560 You

00:49:19.880 Be

00:49:20.040 So

00:49:20.260 Hard

00:49:20.420 On

00:49:20.480 Yourself

00:49:20.780 If

00:49:20.960 You

00:49:21.040 Had

00:49:21.160 Five

00:49:21.520 Minutes

00:49:21.760 To

00:49:21.920 Do

00:49:22.040 This

00:49:22.300 You

00:49:22.420 Had

00:49:22.540 Five

00:49:22.800 Minutes

00:49:23.000 To

00:49:23.140 Do

00:49:23.260 That

00:49:23.440 The

00:49:23.640 Way

00:49:23.780 That

00:49:23.920 That

00:49:23.940 Gets

00:49:24.280 Baked

00:49:24.640 Into

00:49:25.140 Your

00:49:25.840 Own

00:49:26.060 Psyche

00:49:26.460 As

00:49:26.660 Child

00:49:27.060 And

00:49:27.200 You

00:49:27.260 Don't

00:49:27.360 Even

00:49:27.520 Know

00:49:27.820 Right

00:49:28.260 And

00:49:37.800 With

00:49:38.460 The

00:49:39.380 Spiritual

00:49:39.760 World

00:49:40.260 As

00:49:40.680 A

00:49:40.800 Child

00:49:41.200 You

00:49:42.040 Know

00:49:42.100 How

00:49:42.240 Creative

00:49:42.600 We

00:49:42.840 Are

00:49:43.140 And

00:49:43.300 How

00:49:43.460 We

00:49:43.600 Have

00:49:43.820 Fairy

00:49:44.460 Tale

00:49:44.700 Friends

00:49:45.160 And

00:49:45.360 You

00:49:45.400 Know

00:49:45.480 As

00:49:45.600 A

00:49:45.700 Child

00:49:45.860 And

00:49:46.120 Then

00:49:46.260 You

00:49:46.520 Throw

00:49:46.800 In

00:49:47.060 The

00:49:47.540 Bible

00:49:47.840 And

00:49:48.060 That

00:49:48.240 Mindset

00:49:48.880 When

00:49:49.120 You're

00:49:49.300 Developing

00:49:50.160 And

00:49:50.320 Your

00:49:50.420 Brain

00:49:50.660 Is

00:49:50.820 Developing

00:49:51.360 And

00:49:51.980 That

00:49:52.100 Becomes

00:49:52.440 Reality

00:49:53.000 And

00:49:53.800 So

00:49:53.940 You're

00:49:54.140 Reading

00:49:54.460 The

00:49:55.040 Bible

00:49:55.380 And

00:49:56.040 You're

00:49:56.200 Understanding

00:49:56.740 At

00:49:56.960 Least

00:49:57.160 From

00:49:57.580 My

00:49:57.820 Life

00:49:58.140 And

00:49:59.080 And

00:49:59.500 It's

00:49:59.820 It's

00:50:00.540 Real

00:50:00.920 You

00:50:07.800 God

00:50:08.200 Is

00:50:08.400 Real

00:50:08.800 He's

00:50:09.140 Right

00:50:09.360 Here

00:50:09.700 And

00:50:10.300 So

00:50:10.460 When

00:50:10.640 You

00:50:10.740 Make

00:50:10.980 A

00:50:11.100 Mistake

00:50:11.640 Man

00:50:13.540 It's

00:50:14.420 Just

00:50:14.600 So

00:50:14.920 You

00:50:15.680 Know

00:50:15.840 You

00:50:16.100 Feel

00:50:16.300 Such

00:50:16.560 Guilt

00:50:16.880 Because

00:50:17.300 You

00:50:17.500 Know

00:50:17.580 You're

00:50:17.740 Going

00:50:17.840 To

00:50:17.920 Burn

00:50:18.120 In

00:50:18.260 Hell

00:50:18.580 And

00:50:19.060 That's

00:50:19.240 Just

00:50:19.360 Baked

00:50:19.720 That's

00:50:20.300 Baked

00:50:20.560 Into

00:50:20.900 You

00:50:21.180 And

00:50:21.900 So

00:50:22.080 I

00:50:22.280 Think

00:50:22.460 That

00:50:22.600 That

00:50:22.740 Can

00:50:22.900 Create

00:50:23.160 What

00:50:23.320 We're

00:50:23.460 Talking

00:50:23.760 About

00:50:24.080 You

00:50:24.580 Know

00:50:24.660 Why

00:50:24.880 We're

00:50:25.060 So

00:50:25.220 Hard

00:50:25.460 On

00:50:25.620 Ourselves

00:50:26.080 Even

00:50:26.640 When

00:50:26.900 We're

00:50:27.140 Separated

00:50:27.800 From

00:50:29.240 That

00:50:29.460 Type

00:50:29.800 Of

00:50:30.040 Right

00:50:30.540 Belief

00:50:30.880 System

00:50:31.320 Yeah

00:50:31.660 Totally

00:50:32.040 Yeah

00:50:32.360 It's

00:50:32.640 Just

00:50:32.740 Built

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00:51:18.280 Three

00:51:19.440 Steps

00:51:19.780 Forward

00:51:20.200 Two

00:51:21.320 Steps

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00:51:22.000 Paul

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00:51:23.260 Yeah

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00:51:31.400 That's

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00:51:32.260 You

00:51:33.500 Know

00:51:33.620 She

00:51:33.780 Lived

00:51:34.020 In

00:51:34.200 South

00:51:34.440 Beach

00:51:34.660 Across

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00:51:35.140 Bay

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00:51:35.500 Me

00:51:35.640 When

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00:51:35.920 Lived

00:51:36.080 In

00:51:36.240 South

00:51:36.500 Beach

00:51:36.740 Yeah

00:51:36.980 I

00:51:37.120 Always

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00:51:37.620 What

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00:51:38.160 At

00:51:38.260 Her

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00:52:11.400 Sack

00:52:11.880 Or

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00:52:21.060 Myself

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00:52:21.500 What's

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00:52:24.020 A

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00:52:24.280 Of

00:52:24.420 Glass

00:52:24.820 That

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00:52:25.900 Of

00:52:26.080 You

00:52:26.240 Me

00:52:28.060 I

00:52:28.220 Saw

00:52:28.360 Reflection

00:52:29.020 I

00:52:30.060 Saw

00:52:30.220 My

00:52:30.360 Reflection

00:52:30.820 In

00:52:30.980 The

00:52:31.100 Mirror

00:52:31.260 The

00:52:31.420 I

00:52:31.540 Said

00:52:31.740 Damn

00:52:32.120 I

00:52:32.940 Gotta

00:52:33.080 Get

00:52:33.300 Younger

00:52:33.780 Well

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00:52:35.300 Is

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00:52:36.620 Out

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00:52:37.580 Their

00:52:37.840 Amazing

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00:52:38.920 Line

00:52:39.320 And

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00:52:40.420 Their

00:52:40.880 New

00:52:41.100 Custom

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00:52:42.080 Hair

00:52:42.460 Care

00:52:42.800 Line

00:52:43.460 That's

00:52:44.600 Right

00:52:44.880 If

00:52:46.180 You

00:52:46.320 Click

00:52:46.580 The

00:52:46.740 Link

00:52:46.860 Below

00:52:47.060 You'll

00:52:47.240 Get

00:52:47.380 70%

00:52:47.940 Off

00:52:48.220 Your

00:52:48.400 Skincare

00:52:49.000 Trial

00:52:49.540 And

00:52:49.880 Not

00:52:50.080 Only

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00:52:51.360 Throwing

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00:52:51.900 30%

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00:52:52.720 Their

00:52:53.340 Brand

00:52:53.720 New

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00:52:55.160 Yeah

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00:52:57.100 Get

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00:52:57.920 Hair

00:52:58.180 Days

00:52:58.640 With

00:52:59.280 That

00:52:59.460 New

00:52:59.660 Co-Wash

00:53:00.580 It's

00:53:02.200 A

00:53:02.320 Specifically

00:53:02.800 Formulated

00:53:03.340 Cream

00:53:03.760 Cleanser

00:53:04.340 That

00:53:04.560 Removes

00:53:05.200 Buildup

00:53:05.700 And

00:53:05.880 Cleanses

00:53:06.340 The

00:53:06.520 Hair

00:53:06.760 Without

00:53:07.020 The

00:53:07.260 Big

00:53:07.520 Lather

00:53:08.100 And

00:53:08.800 Harsh

00:53:09.160 Ingredients

00:53:09.860 Or

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00:53:10.560 Hair

00:53:10.960 Of

00:53:11.620 Its

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00:53:12.280 Oils

00:53:12.940 People

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00:53:14.120 What

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00:53:21.020 I

00:53:21.180 Like

00:53:21.460 Geology

00:53:22.000 I

00:53:22.660 Like

00:53:22.820 To

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00:53:24.900 On

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00:53:25.120 Hand

00:53:25.400 Put

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00:53:26.860 It

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00:53:27.020 My

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00:53:27.760 My

00:53:27.880 Hair

00:53:28.100 It

00:53:29.300 Makes

00:53:29.520 Me

00:53:29.680 Feel

00:53:30.020 Taken

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00:53:32.120 Me

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00:54:53.380 Want

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00:54:56.220 My

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00:54:57.860 Storyteller

00:54:58.560 Stuff

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00:54:59.980 Hey

00:55:00.140 Listen

00:55:00.440 I

00:55:01.400 Know

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00:55:01.980 Is

00:55:02.120 About

00:55:02.360 This

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00:55:03.920 Remind

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00:55:12.560 I

00:55:12.680 Believe

00:55:13.000 Will

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00:55:13.500 Out

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00:55:14.780 Yet

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00:55:17.320 To

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00:55:17.600 This

00:55:17.800 Deal

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00:55:18.560 You

00:55:18.820 Yeah

00:55:19.280 I'm

00:55:19.440 Just

00:55:19.580 Trying

00:55:19.800 To

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00:55:20.540 And

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00:55:22.860 That's

00:55:23.440 This

00:55:23.620 I

00:55:23.820 Mean

00:55:23.980 That

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00:55:25.300 I

00:55:25.520 Mean

00:55:25.640 It's

00:55:25.840 A lot

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00:55:26.160 This

00:55:26.300 Podcast

00:55:26.620 Audience

00:55:27.120 In

00:55:27.300 A

00:55:27.420 Nutshell

00:55:27.760 I

00:55:27.980 Think

00:55:28.240 Is

00:55:28.780 People

00:55:29.060 Just

00:55:29.320 Having

00:55:29.540 A

00:55:29.680 Human

00:55:29.920 Experience

00:55:30.560 And

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00:55:43.440 Out

00:55:43.620 Here

00:55:43.880 You're

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00:55:45.180 Dicey

00:55:45.740 It's

00:55:46.260 So

00:55:46.460 Easy

00:55:46.820 To

00:55:47.060 Say

00:55:47.420 And

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00:55:48.940 To

00:55:49.100 Do

00:55:49.240 And

00:55:50.200 When

00:55:50.600 You

00:55:50.740 Start

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00:55:51.660 And

00:55:52.220 When

00:55:52.360 You

00:55:52.480 Start

00:55:52.680 Speaking

00:55:53.300 That

00:55:53.760 Into

00:55:54.340 Existence

00:55:55.040 In

00:55:55.340 Your

00:55:55.480 Life

00:55:55.880 And

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00:55:56.360 Your

00:55:56.500 Mind

00:55:56.900 The

00:55:57.600 Universe

00:55:58.160 Or

00:55:59.320 God

00:55:59.740 Will

00:56:00.200 Test

00:56:00.580 You

00:56:00.860 And

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00:56:04.900 Situations

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00:56:06.040 Got

00:56:06.240 To

00:56:06.380 Practice

00:56:06.720 What

00:56:06.980 You

00:56:07.120 Preach

00:56:07.420 And

00:56:07.680 It's

00:56:07.900 Hard

00:56:12.140 I'm

00:56:20.140 That's

00:56:20.840 What

00:56:21.060 Loyalty

00:56:21.740 Is

00:56:22.120 That's

00:56:23.180 Wow

00:56:24.280 Man

00:56:25.060 And

00:56:25.840 It's

00:56:25.980 Given

00:56:26.160 Me

00:56:26.320 A

00:56:26.500 Whole

00:56:26.800 New

00:56:27.100 Respect

00:56:27.800 And

00:56:28.660 Admiration

00:56:29.220 For

00:56:29.460 People

00:56:29.760 That

00:56:30.000 Have

00:56:30.200 You

00:56:30.580 Know

00:56:30.680 The

00:56:30.980 One

00:56:31.500 Or

00:56:31.640 Two

00:56:31.800 People

00:56:32.160 That

00:56:33.120 Have

00:56:33.260 Shown

00:56:33.620 Me

00:56:33.840 That

00:56:34.260 During

00:56:35.160 My

00:56:35.520 Time

00:56:35.920 I

00:56:36.840 Look

00:56:37.040 At

00:56:37.140 Them

00:56:37.300 In

00:56:37.420 A

00:56:37.520 Whole

00:56:37.660 New

00:56:37.840 Way

00:56:38.140 Because

00:56:39.440 It's

00:56:39.700 Not

00:56:39.880 Easy

00:56:40.200 The

00:56:40.460 Grace

00:56:40.800 That

00:56:40.960 They've

00:56:41.180 Shown

00:56:41.700 Yeah

00:56:42.060 Especially

00:56:43.440 People

00:56:44.080 Like

00:56:44.420 I

00:56:44.920 Think

00:56:45.120 That

00:56:45.300 Go

00:56:45.560 Through

00:56:45.800 Recovery

00:56:46.320 And

00:56:46.480 Are

00:56:46.580 Learning

00:56:46.880 It's

00:56:47.340 Just

00:56:47.480 Such

00:56:47.720 A

00:56:47.900 Late

00:56:48.200 Learning

00:56:48.560 Process

00:56:49.040 It

00:56:49.360 Is

00:56:49.520 And

00:56:49.900 The

00:56:50.060 World

00:56:50.480 Has

00:56:50.860 Our

00:56:51.600 Society

00:56:52.040 Has

00:56:52.280 Such

00:56:52.520 A

00:56:52.800 It

00:56:53.600 Doesn't

00:56:54.660 It

00:56:56.300 Thinks

00:56:57.100 You

00:56:57.220 Should

00:56:57.420 Have

00:56:57.620 Learned

00:56:57.980 A

00:56:58.140 Lot

00:56:58.360 Of

00:56:58.500 These

00:56:58.680 Things

00:56:58.920 Earlier

00:56:59.280 And

00:56:59.900 Yes

00:57:00.320 We

00:57:00.780 Think

00:57:01.040 We

00:57:01.200 Should

00:57:01.400 Have

00:57:01.620 Too

00:57:01.940 I

00:57:02.280 Feel

00:57:02.660 You

00:57:02.920 Know

00:57:03.020 What

00:57:03.200 I've

00:57:03.640 Said

00:57:03.820 That

00:57:04.000 All

00:57:04.200 Time

00:57:04.620 Man

00:57:05.340 I

00:57:05.620 Should

00:57:05.900 Have

00:57:06.200 I

00:57:06.440 Should

00:57:06.640 Have

00:57:06.740 Learned

00:57:06.920 This

00:57:11.700 If I

00:57:12.520 Only

00:57:12.720 Had

00:57:12.980 A

00:57:13.120 Mom

00:57:13.380 And

00:57:13.500 A

00:57:13.640 Dad

00:57:13.940 That

00:57:14.120 Were

00:57:14.260 Like

00:57:14.600 Joe

00:57:15.500 You

00:57:17.640 Know

00:57:17.940 Then

00:57:18.140 I

00:57:18.300 Wouldn't

00:57:18.520 Have

00:57:18.640 Had

00:57:18.760 To

00:57:18.880 Go

00:57:19.040 Through

00:57:19.440 These

00:57:20.120 Circumstances

00:57:20.820 That

00:57:21.020 I'm

00:57:21.160 Going

00:57:21.360 Through

00:57:21.520 Now

00:57:21.740 Because

00:57:21.920 I

00:57:22.040 Would

00:57:22.160 Have

00:57:22.260 Had

00:57:22.440 The

00:57:22.580 Right

00:57:22.800 People

00:57:23.540 To

00:57:23.740 Intervene

00:57:24.680 Right

00:57:25.020 I

00:57:25.420 Think

00:57:26.200 About

00:57:26.340 That

00:57:26.480 Too

00:57:26.620 And

00:57:26.740 It

00:57:26.820 Can

00:57:26.920 Be

00:57:27.040 Negative

00:57:27.380 Though

00:57:27.580 After

00:57:27.800 A

00:57:27.940 While

00:57:28.100 Because

00:57:28.400 I

00:57:28.480 Will

00:57:28.580 Get

00:57:28.720 In

00:57:28.840 Like

00:57:28.980 A

00:57:29.100 Self

00:57:29.340 Pity

00:57:29.700 Yep

00:57:30.080 Yep

00:57:30.420 And

00:57:30.860 Self

00:57:31.680 Pity

00:57:31.940 Leads

00:57:32.240 Nowhere

00:57:32.780 Man

00:57:33.080 Oh

00:57:33.920 It's

00:57:34.320 Such

00:57:34.480 A

00:57:34.600 That

00:57:34.800 Is

00:57:34.960 A

00:57:35.100 Trap

00:57:35.400 Yeah

00:57:35.840 God

00:57:36.540 Self

00:57:36.820 Pity

00:57:37.020 Is

00:57:37.120 A

00:57:37.180 Trap

00:57:37.360 I

00:57:37.500 Didn't

00:57:37.680 Know

00:57:37.920 That

00:57:38.300 Yeah

00:57:38.540 I

00:57:38.840 Don't

00:57:38.920 Have

00:57:39.020 Time

00:57:39.300 For

00:57:39.500 It

00:57:39.580 Anymore

00:57:39.840 Oh

00:57:40.280 That's

00:57:40.480 Good

00:57:40.760 I

00:57:41.380 Don't

00:57:41.500 Have

00:57:41.640 Time

00:57:41.900 For

00:57:42.160 It

00:57:42.500 Yeah

00:57:42.760 Um

00:57:43.420 Good

00:57:43.800 That's

00:57:44.060 Such

00:57:44.200 A

00:57:44.320 Good

00:57:44.460 Thing

00:57:44.620 To

00:57:44.760 Because

00:57:45.340 I

00:57:45.860 Was

00:57:46.060 In

00:57:46.180 It

00:57:46.260 For

00:57:46.360 A

00:57:46.400 While

00:57:46.540 And

00:57:46.660 Didn't

00:57:46.920 Notice

00:57:47.320 I

00:57:47.560 Thought

00:57:47.900 Oh

00:57:49.000 Something's

00:57:49.360 Wrong

00:57:49.540 With

00:57:49.700 Me

00:57:49.840 I

00:57:50.000 Gotta

00:57:50.160 Figure

00:57:50.440 It

00:57:50.580 Out

00:57:50.700 Something's

00:57:51.040 Wrong

00:57:51.180 With

00:57:51.300 Me

00:57:51.400 I

00:57:51.500 Gotta

00:57:51.680 Figure

00:57:52.000 It

00:57:52.220 Out

00:57:52.440 I

00:57:52.900 Didn't

00:57:53.080 Realize

00:57:53.400 That's

00:57:53.720 Just

00:57:53.820 A

00:57:53.980 Trap

00:57:54.340 That

00:57:54.520 Self

00:57:54.720 Pity

00:57:54.960 Sets

00:57:55.420 Yep

00:57:55.720 You

00:57:55.920 Know

00:57:56.120 100%

00:57:57.040 100%

00:57:58.200 I

00:57:58.340 Mean

00:57:58.460 We

00:57:58.660 Can't

00:57:59.100 You

00:57:59.680 Know

00:57:59.800 I

00:58:00.040 I

00:58:00.660 Realized

00:58:01.380 A

00:58:01.600 While

00:58:01.820 Ago

00:58:02.160 I'm

00:58:02.920 Not

00:58:03.060 A

00:58:03.180 Victim

00:58:03.540 Now

00:58:04.440 When

00:58:04.680 I

00:58:04.820 Was

00:58:05.100 A

00:58:05.760 Minor

00:58:06.080 I

00:58:07.420 Was

00:58:07.620 A

00:58:07.760 Victim

00:58:08.100 Right

00:58:08.560 I

00:58:08.960 Couldn't

00:58:09.180 Control

00:58:09.520 That

00:58:09.740 Situation

00:58:10.280 I

00:58:10.960 Had

00:58:11.100 No

00:58:11.260 Choice

00:58:11.700 But

00:58:12.860 As

00:58:13.060 I

00:58:13.200 Became

00:58:13.520 An

00:58:13.680 Adult

00:58:14.040 I

00:58:15.380 Volunteered

00:58:16.260 For

00:58:16.940 Everything

00:58:17.320 That

00:58:17.600 I

00:58:17.760 Did

00:58:18.020 Okay

00:58:18.760 I'm

00:58:19.200 Not

00:58:19.360 A

00:58:19.500 Victim

00:58:19.820 Okay

00:58:20.300 There

00:58:20.700 Were

00:58:20.840 Consequences

00:58:21.560 To

00:58:21.920 Every

00:58:22.200 Decision

00:58:22.660 That

00:58:22.860 I

00:58:23.000 Made

00:58:23.320 And

00:58:25.000 I

00:58:25.160 Can't

00:58:25.460 Blame

00:58:25.880 Anymore

00:58:26.820 I

00:58:27.100 Have

00:58:27.260 To

00:58:27.380 Own

00:58:27.580 It

00:58:27.740 And

00:58:28.920 I

00:58:29.040 Have

00:58:29.160 To

00:58:29.280 Accept

00:58:29.500 Responsibility

00:58:30.140 For

00:58:30.400 It

00:58:30.500 And

00:58:30.560 That's

00:58:30.740 Hard

00:58:31.020 Because

00:58:32.120 You

00:58:32.540 Know

00:58:32.800 Because

00:58:34.060 You

00:58:34.540 Can

00:58:35.820 Look

00:58:36.000 At

00:58:42.280 You

00:58:42.340 Did

00:58:42.540 That

00:58:42.720 To

00:58:42.900 Me

00:58:43.220 And

00:58:44.480 So

00:58:44.640 If

00:58:44.740 You

00:58:44.900 Didn't

00:58:45.080 Do

00:58:45.200 That

00:58:45.340 To

00:58:45.480 Me

00:58:45.600 I

00:58:45.720 Wouldn't

00:58:45.900 Be

00:58:46.020 In

00:58:46.140 The

00:58:46.240 Situation

00:58:46.620 Right

00:58:46.860 Now

00:58:47.120 You

00:58:48.020 Know

00:58:48.160 But

00:58:48.380 We

00:58:48.540 All

00:58:48.680 Have

00:58:48.880 A

00:58:49.000 Choice

00:58:49.280 No

00:58:49.460 Matter

00:58:49.560 What

00:58:49.760 People

00:58:50.020 Do

00:58:50.240 To

00:58:50.440 Us

00:58:50.700 We

00:58:50.860 Have

00:58:50.980 A

00:58:51.080 Choice

00:58:51.280 On

00:58:51.460 How

00:58:51.580 We

00:58:51.720 React

00:58:52.080 To

00:58:52.260 It

00:58:52.440 Yeah

00:58:52.760 And

00:58:53.480 I

00:58:53.660 Don't

00:58:53.840 Know

00:58:53.960 If

00:58:54.100 You've

00:58:54.360 Heard

00:58:54.640 That

00:58:54.820 Expression

00:58:55.340 But

00:58:55.940 This

00:58:56.440 Has

00:58:56.580 Been

00:58:56.720 The

00:58:56.900 Story

00:58:57.160 Of

00:58:57.280 My

00:58:57.420 Life

00:58:57.820 At

00:58:58.060 A

00:58:58.200 Certain

00:58:58.420 For

00:58:58.840 For

00:59:06.000 You

00:59:06.560 Know

00:59:06.660 What I'm

00:59:07.460 Saying

00:59:07.700 You

00:59:08.180 Screwed

00:59:08.520 Me

00:59:08.640 Over

00:59:08.900 Now

00:59:09.140 I'm

00:59:09.420 Gonna

00:59:09.580 Go

00:59:09.780 Drink

00:59:10.080 Five

00:59:10.440 Bottles

00:59:10.840 Of

00:59:11.040 Jack

00:59:11.420 And

00:59:11.640 And

00:59:12.240 Get

00:59:12.420 All

00:59:12.600 This

00:59:12.780 Other

00:59:12.980 Stuff

00:59:13.220 And

00:59:13.340 Go

00:59:13.480 Screw

00:59:13.880 Myself

00:59:14.380 Up

00:59:14.640 Even

00:59:14.900 More

00:59:15.260 Yeah

00:59:15.580 So

00:59:15.820 You

00:59:16.660 Know

00:59:16.800 And

00:59:16.980 That

00:59:17.140 You

00:59:18.120 Did

00:59:18.340 That

00:59:18.840 Yeah

00:59:19.080 I

00:59:19.240 Did

00:59:19.380 That

00:59:19.560 100%

00:59:20.200 That's

00:59:20.580 How I

00:59:21.180 Dealt

00:59:21.360 With

00:59:21.480 My

00:59:21.620 Problems

00:59:22.040 For

00:59:22.220 A

00:59:22.340 Number

00:59:22.540 Of

00:59:22.740 Years

00:59:23.060 So

00:59:23.740 I

00:59:23.940 Dealt

00:59:24.180 With

00:59:24.280 My

00:59:24.440 Pain

00:59:24.780 To

00:59:25.280 Me

00:59:25.680 Then

00:59:26.440 I'm

00:59:27.320 Going

00:59:27.420 Do

00:59:27.640 This

00:59:27.880 To

00:59:28.040 Me

00:59:28.300 Why

00:59:28.900 Is

00:59:29.120 It

00:59:29.220 What

00:59:29.340 Is

00:59:29.480 That

00:59:29.660 Thing

00:59:29.900 I

00:59:30.060 Don't

00:59:30.200 Know

00:59:30.380 Man

00:59:30.600 It's

00:59:30.780 Insanity

00:59:31.320 I'm

00:59:32.280 Going

00:59:32.340 To

00:59:32.420 Do

00:59:32.540 It

00:59:32.660 To

00:59:32.760 Show

00:59:33.420 You

00:59:33.900 That

00:59:34.860 Only

00:59:35.420 I

00:59:35.760 Hurt

00:59:36.040 Me

00:59:36.260 Is

00:59:36.480 It

00:59:36.580 I

00:59:36.860 Don't

00:59:37.260 Know

00:59:37.380 It's

00:59:37.600 Subconscious

00:59:38.100 Right

00:59:38.640 Yeah

00:59:38.880 It's

00:59:39.140 Something

00:59:39.860 That I

00:59:40.240 Didn't

00:59:40.440 Even

00:59:40.620 Know

00:59:40.820 I

00:59:40.960 Was

00:59:41.120 Doing

00:59:41.400 Until

00:59:41.740 I

00:59:41.900 Got

00:59:42.080 Away

00:59:42.360 From

00:59:42.580 It

00:59:42.800 And

00:59:43.740 Had

00:59:43.900 A

00:59:44.040 Chance

00:59:44.260 To

00:59:44.440 Look

00:59:44.640 At

00:59:44.800 It

00:59:44.960 Because

00:59:45.840 It

00:59:45.980 Makes

00:59:46.160 No

00:59:46.340 Sense

00:59:46.740 You

00:59:47.520 Why

00:59:47.940 Would

00:59:57.420 That's

00:59:57.720 The

00:59:57.840 Pattern

00:59:58.200 I

00:59:58.320 Got

00:59:58.520 Into

00:59:58.820 For

00:59:59.060 A

00:59:59.180 Long

00:59:59.360 Period

00:59:59.660 Of

00:59:59.800 Time

01:00:00.080 I'm

01:00:00.940 Thinking

01:00:01.220 On

01:00:01.500 And

01:00:01.580 I'm

01:00:01.740 Trying

01:00:01.920 To

01:00:02.040 Feel

01:00:02.300 On

01:00:02.500 It

01:00:02.580 And

01:00:02.660 Think

01:00:02.840 On

01:00:03.000 At

01:00:03.080 The

01:00:03.180 Same

01:00:03.340 Time

01:00:03.640 And

01:00:03.740 I'm

01:00:03.860 Feeling

01:00:04.100 Like

01:00:04.520 Oh

01:00:05.880 Well

01:00:06.020 I'm

01:00:06.280 Going

01:00:06.360 To

01:00:06.460 Show

01:00:06.740 You

01:00:06.980 The

01:00:07.180 Only

01:00:07.460 Person

01:00:07.860 That

01:00:08.060 Hurts

01:00:08.340 Me

01:00:08.560 Is

01:00:08.780 Me

01:00:09.100 And

01:00:10.160 I'm

01:00:10.340 Not

01:00:10.480 Saying

01:00:10.700 That

01:00:10.880 That's

01:00:11.160 You

01:00:11.320 I'm

01:00:11.580 Just

01:00:11.700 Trying

01:00:11.900 To

01:00:12.020 Think

01:00:12.280 Of

01:00:12.460 Why

01:00:13.300 Behavior

01:00:13.960 Like

01:00:14.180 That

01:00:14.340 Would

01:00:14.500 Happen

01:00:14.860 Well

01:00:15.000 I

01:00:15.120 Think

01:00:15.300 For

01:00:15.480 Me

01:00:15.760 It

01:00:16.180 May

01:00:16.620 Have

01:00:16.720 Been

01:00:16.880 To

01:00:17.080 Numb

01:00:17.300 The

01:00:17.480 Pain

01:00:17.700 I

01:00:17.820 Was

01:00:17.940 Such

01:00:18.100 A

01:00:18.260 Sense

01:00:18.460 I'm

01:00:18.620 Such

01:00:18.820 A

01:00:18.980 Sensitive

01:00:19.340 Person

01:00:19.800 Same

01:00:20.120 That

01:00:22.060 I

01:00:22.200 Get

01:00:22.360 Hurt

01:00:22.620 So

01:00:22.880 Easily

01:00:23.300 That

01:00:24.160 When

01:00:24.360 I

01:00:24.520 Feel

01:00:24.840 Betrayed

01:00:25.580 Or

01:00:25.980 Feel

01:00:26.280 Hurt

01:00:26.640 I

01:00:27.200 Don't

01:00:27.340 Want

01:00:27.460 To

01:00:27.580 Feel

01:00:27.760 That

01:00:27.940 Way

01:00:28.160 Anymore

01:00:28.520 Wow

01:00:28.900 And

01:00:30.100 So

01:00:30.300 I

01:00:30.440 Would

01:00:30.580 Numb

01:00:30.800 It

01:00:31.000 And

01:00:31.760 So

01:00:31.920 In

01:00:32.140 Numbing

01:00:32.540 That

01:00:32.960 With

01:00:33.520 Substances

01:00:34.060 And

01:00:34.340 With

01:00:34.720 Alcohol

01:00:35.100 That's

01:00:35.720 How

01:00:35.860 I

01:00:36.060 Was

01:00:36.300 Screwing

01:00:37.100 Myself

01:00:37.600 Even

01:00:37.920 More

01:00:38.240 Because

01:00:39.200 The

01:00:39.440 Consequences

01:00:40.060 Of

01:00:40.240 What

01:00:40.380 That

01:00:40.540 Numbing

01:00:40.980 Would

01:00:41.500 Bring

01:00:41.740 Into

01:00:41.980 My

01:00:42.180 Life

01:00:42.560 So

01:00:44.120 It

01:00:44.820 Was

01:00:44.960 An

01:00:45.180 Insane

01:00:45.940 Cycle

01:00:46.440 And

01:00:47.120 At

01:00:47.700 Some

01:00:48.320 Level

01:00:48.560 I

01:00:48.740 Do

01:00:48.860 The

01:00:49.040 Same

01:00:49.260 Thing

01:00:49.680 Now

01:00:51.080 Just

01:00:51.560 Not

01:00:51.760 With

01:00:51.940 Substances

01:00:52.540 Yeah

01:00:53.020 You know

01:00:54.460 I'll

01:00:54.720 Be

01:00:54.880 Hurt

01:00:55.300 I'll

01:00:56.960 Be

01:00:57.260 I'll

01:00:58.300 Feel

01:00:58.540 It

01:00:58.660 So

01:00:58.860 Deeply

01:00:59.360 And

01:01:00.680 My

01:01:01.120 Way

01:01:01.380 Now

01:01:01.800 Is

01:01:02.260 To

01:01:02.520 Is

01:01:03.080 Is

01:01:03.100 To

01:01:03.800 Shut

01:01:06.040 Down

01:01:06.480 And

01:01:07.740 It

01:01:07.840 Just

01:01:08.040 All

01:01:08.600 The

01:01:08.740 Ways

01:01:08.960 That

01:01:09.120 I've

01:01:09.280 Handled

01:01:09.640 It

01:01:09.860 Just

01:01:10.200 Makes

01:01:10.400 The

01:01:10.560 Problem

01:01:10.880 Worse

01:01:11.340 It

01:01:11.880 Doesn't

01:01:12.100 Make

01:01:12.320 It

01:01:12.440 Any

01:01:12.600 Better

01:01:12.900 You

01:01:14.480 Know

01:01:14.620 So

01:01:14.800 I'm

01:01:14.940 Really

01:01:15.280 Really

01:01:15.580 Trying

01:01:15.900 To

01:01:16.060 Learn

01:01:16.360 To

01:01:17.100 To

01:01:17.440 On

01:01:18.520 A

01:01:18.660 Daily

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01:01:37.020 Shoes

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01:03:12.540 A

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01:03:13.700 Yeah

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01:03:35.520 This

01:03:35.860 Death

01:03:36.920 Spiral

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01:03:38.760 Mole

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01:03:39.560 Exactly

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01:03:40.700 I

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01:03:41.360 Hunter

01:03:41.580 Biden

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01:03:59.520 State

01:03:59.760 To

01:03:59.900 Relapse

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01:04:01.680 Man

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01:04:03.620 Man

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01:05:24.500 To

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01:05:25.120 I

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01:05:57.360 Never

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01:06:18.340 Moment

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01:16:52.140 Christian

01:16:52.480 Narrative

01:16:52.980 Came

01:16:53.660 Out

01:16:53.920 And

01:16:54.540 There

01:16:54.860 Is

01:16:55.060 Some

01:16:55.240 Deliberate

01:16:55.820 You

01:16:56.880 Know

01:16:57.040 All

01:16:57.380 Throughout

01:16:57.600 My

01:16:57.780 Music

01:16:58.100 Christian

01:16:58.700 References

01:16:59.180 And

01:16:59.520 References

01:17:00.340 To

01:17:00.560 Salvation

01:17:01.040 And

01:17:01.280 Those

01:17:01.660 Were

01:17:01.820 Intentional

01:17:02.340 But

01:17:03.500 When

01:17:03.680 You're

01:17:03.860 Doing

01:17:04.100 That

01:17:04.420 In

01:17:04.600 The

01:17:04.720 Devil's

01:17:05.080 Playground

01:17:05.620 And

01:17:06.520 You're

01:17:06.720 Doing

01:17:06.920 That

01:17:07.200 In

01:17:07.460 Secular

01:17:08.200 He's

01:17:08.600 Gonna

01:17:08.700 Fight

01:17:08.960 Back

01:17:09.260 Music

01:17:10.000 Yeah

01:17:11.340 And

01:17:12.340 On

01:17:12.720 Every

01:17:13.020 Level

01:17:13.320 You

01:17:14.920 Know

01:17:15.140 With

01:17:16.100 The

01:17:16.260 Press

01:17:16.660 Personally

01:17:17.380 You

01:17:19.020 Know

01:17:19.200 And

01:17:19.620 You

01:17:20.600 Know

01:17:20.780 So

01:17:21.420 There

01:17:22.320 Was

01:17:22.440 A

01:17:22.560 Takedown

01:17:23.020 And

01:17:24.300 Now

01:17:24.720 It's

01:17:24.920 Coming

01:17:25.120 Back

01:17:25.380 Around

01:17:25.740 You

01:17:26.420 Know

01:17:26.600 I'm

01:17:27.240 I'm

01:17:27.560 Proud

01:17:27.900 I'm

01:17:28.080 A

01:17:28.220 Meme

01:17:28.540 Yeah

01:17:29.520 Oh

01:17:29.880 It's

01:17:30.040 Cool

01:17:30.300 How

01:17:30.640 Many

01:17:30.780 People

01:17:30.980 Get

01:17:31.140 To

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01:17:31.360 A

01:17:31.520 Meme

01:17:31.900 Fuck

01:17:32.520 You

01:17:33.040 Know

01:17:33.140 I

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01:17:33.400 Like

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01:17:33.800 It

01:17:34.000 Was

01:17:34.120 So

01:17:34.280 Funny

01:17:34.540 When

01:17:34.700 I

01:17:34.820 Saw

01:17:35.100 Or

01:17:35.880 Not

01:17:36.180 When

01:17:36.320 I

01:17:36.460 Saw

01:17:36.620 One

01:17:36.880 Day

01:17:36.980 I

01:17:37.080 Was

01:17:37.160 Driving

01:17:37.460 My

01:17:37.760 My

01:17:38.060 Nephew

01:17:39.220 And

01:17:39.480 My

01:17:39.640 Son

01:17:39.900 My

01:17:40.040 Oldest

01:17:40.260 Son

01:17:40.400 Jagger

01:17:40.820 To

01:17:41.940 Either

01:17:42.120 School

01:17:42.460 Or

01:17:42.880 Some

01:17:43.180 Practice

01:17:43.600 Or

01:17:43.900 Something

01:17:44.380 And

01:17:44.580 They

01:17:44.720 Were

01:17:44.820 Giggling

01:17:45.140 In

01:17:45.340 The

01:17:45.440 Back

01:17:45.640 Seat

01:17:45.940 I

01:17:46.320 Was

01:17:46.400 Like

01:17:46.480 What

01:17:46.580 Are

01:17:46.620 You

01:17:46.640 Laughing

01:17:47.060 At

01:17:47.320 And

01:17:47.500 They

01:17:47.580 Just

01:17:47.840 Kept

01:17:48.040 Laughing

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01:17:49.120 Then

01:17:49.240 All

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01:17:49.520 I

01:17:49.840 Hear

01:17:50.020 We're

01:17:50.560 Home

01:17:51.040 And

01:17:52.480 Then

01:17:52.580 My

01:17:52.720 Nephew

01:17:52.960 Just

01:17:53.160 Busts

01:17:53.500 Out

01:17:53.660 Laughing

01:17:54.060 And

01:17:54.260 My

01:17:55.000 Son

01:17:55.600 Who

01:17:55.780 I

01:17:55.900 Wrote

01:17:56.080 The

01:17:56.240 Song

01:17:56.460 Is

01:17:57.300 Making

01:17:57.520 Fun

01:17:57.740 Of

01:17:57.820 Me

01:17:57.900 Mimicking

01:17:58.240 My

01:17:58.460 Voice

01:17:58.800 And

01:18:00.180 I

01:18:00.560 Was

01:18:00.720 Like

01:18:00.900 What

01:18:01.120 And

01:18:01.680 Now

01:18:02.080 This

01:18:02.320 Was

01:18:02.500 Before

01:18:02.820 Everyone

01:18:03.200 Else

01:18:03.460 Was

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01:18:04.980 What

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01:18:05.800 You

01:18:06.060 Know

01:18:06.140 Because

01:18:06.300 The

01:18:06.420 Last

01:18:06.580 Ten

01:18:06.820 Years

01:18:07.040 It's

01:18:07.260 Really

01:18:07.480 Become

01:18:07.940 Like

01:18:08.620 A

01:18:08.820 Thing

01:18:09.420 You

01:18:10.020 Know

01:18:10.220 And

01:18:11.700 I

01:18:12.540 Never

01:18:14.560 Thought

01:18:15.040 That

01:18:15.720 You

01:18:15.960 Know

01:18:16.060 Thank

01:18:16.440 You

01:18:16.700 I'm

01:18:17.920 Glad

01:18:18.380 Man

01:18:18.880 How

01:18:19.060 Many

01:18:19.240 People

01:18:19.580 Get

01:18:19.880 To

01:18:20.620 Have

01:18:20.980 That

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01:18:21.960 Be

01:18:22.100 A

01:18:22.260 Part

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01:18:22.960 A

01:18:23.220 Generation

01:18:23.760 Yeah

01:18:24.600 Of

01:18:24.880 People

01:18:25.300 And

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01:18:26.820 Into

01:18:27.080 A

01:18:27.280 New

01:18:27.440 Generation

01:18:27.980 Yeah

01:18:28.220 Man

01:18:28.420 I'm

01:18:28.580 Blessed

01:18:28.960 Thank

01:18:29.460 You

01:18:29.720 And

01:18:30.100 Now

01:18:30.260 My

01:18:30.480 Daughter

01:18:30.800 Wants

01:18:31.120 To

01:18:31.260 Wear

01:18:31.420 Creed

01:18:31.720 Shirts

01:18:32.020 To

01:18:32.220 School

01:18:32.500 And

01:18:32.720 She's

01:18:32.980 Learning

01:18:33.200 Mark

01:18:33.500 Tremani

01:18:33.900 Guitar

01:18:34.300 Riffs

01:18:34.600 On

01:18:55.300 Stoked

01:18:55.980 You

01:18:56.560 That's

01:18:56.920 Cool

01:18:57.080 So

01:18:57.300 It

01:18:57.480 Was

01:18:57.600 Cool

01:18:57.900 It

01:18:58.060 Was

01:18:58.180 Like

01:18:58.360 Man

01:18:58.560 Oh

01:18:58.800 I

01:18:58.920 Want

01:18:59.100 To

01:18:59.200 Know

01:18:59.520 Like

01:19:00.040 What

01:19:00.260 His

01:19:00.440 Journey

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01:19:00.840 Been

01:19:00.960 Like

01:19:01.220 What's

01:19:01.480 Going

01:19:01.700 On

01:19:02.160 So

01:19:04.180 Yeah

01:19:04.340 I

01:19:04.460 Think

01:19:04.620 Like

01:19:04.800 You're

01:19:04.940 Saying

01:19:05.180 It's

01:19:05.440 Like

01:19:05.680 To

01:19:06.120 Even

01:19:06.380 Be

01:19:06.560 To

01:19:06.840 Have

01:19:07.000 Any

01:19:07.340 Still

01:19:07.640 Relevance

01:19:08.120 To

01:19:08.280 See

01:19:08.520 Your

01:19:08.680 Daughter

01:19:08.920 To

01:19:09.080 See

01:19:09.200 People

01:19:09.440 Wearing

01:19:09.780 Your

01:19:09.980 Shirts

01:19:10.340 With

01:19:10.520 Like

01:19:10.740 You

01:19:11.360 Know

01:19:11.500 I'm

01:19:11.640 Sure

01:19:11.820 It's

01:19:12.060 15

01:19:12.540 Yeah

01:19:13.160 It's

01:19:13.860 Crazy

01:19:14.180 How

01:19:14.380 These

01:19:14.580 Young

01:19:15.000 People

01:19:15.300 Have

01:19:16.340 Like

01:19:16.520 A

01:19:16.740 Different

01:19:17.140 Respect

01:19:17.600 For

01:19:17.840 Music

01:19:18.640 The

01:19:18.840 90s

01:19:19.320 Are

01:19:19.440 Making

01:19:19.680 A

01:19:19.840 Comeback

01:19:20.200 Yeah

01:19:20.480 And

01:19:21.940 It's

01:19:22.420 Just

01:19:22.640 It's

01:19:23.020 Just

01:19:23.200 Crazy

01:19:23.560 And

01:19:23.900 And

01:19:24.300 And

01:19:25.000 Again

01:19:25.320 I

01:19:25.980 Have

01:19:26.720 Such

01:19:26.920 Gratitude

01:19:27.500 For

01:19:28.140 That

01:19:28.420 And

01:19:29.800 Also

01:19:30.040 I

01:19:30.200 Have

01:19:30.320 A

01:19:30.420 Sense

01:19:30.580 Of

01:19:30.700 Humor

01:19:30.980 About

01:19:31.260 The

01:19:31.520 Mimicry

01:19:33.040 And

01:19:34.300 And

01:19:34.900 The

01:19:35.340 Jokes

01:19:35.720 And

01:19:36.240 The

01:19:36.360 Jokes

01:19:36.800 I

01:19:37.940 Do

01:19:38.360 It

01:19:38.480 Myself

01:19:39.040 Yeah

01:19:39.480 Cause

01:19:40.400 It's

01:19:40.560 Funny

01:19:40.900 Some

01:19:41.440 Of

01:19:41.600 Funny

01:19:42.200 Man

01:19:42.380 I

01:19:42.480 Got

01:19:42.580 A

01:19:42.660 Sense

01:19:42.820 Of

01:19:42.940 Humor

01:19:43.160 They're

01:19:43.600 They're

01:19:43.860 Good

01:19:44.160 Because

01:19:45.380 What

01:19:45.660 I

01:19:45.800 Found

01:19:46.100 That

01:19:46.280 Happens

01:19:46.780 Is

01:19:47.400 It

01:19:47.560 Starts

01:19:48.140 It

01:19:48.660 Started

01:19:49.120 That

01:19:49.380 Way

01:19:49.540 But

01:19:49.680 Then

01:19:49.800 People

01:19:50.020 Started

01:19:50.280 Digging

01:19:50.640 In

01:19:50.960 And

01:19:51.460 Going

01:19:51.600 Well

01:19:51.780 What

01:19:51.900 Are

01:19:52.000 People

01:19:52.260 Making

01:19:53.500 Fun

01:19:53.780 Of

01:19:54.020 And

01:19:54.700 They

01:19:54.820 Start

01:19:55.060 Listening

01:19:55.340 To

01:19:55.540 The

01:19:55.680 Music

01:19:56.000 And

01:19:56.760 That's

01:19:57.100 When

01:19:57.240 It

01:19:57.340 Gets

01:19:57.520 Out

01:19:57.680 Of

01:19:57.760 My

01:19:57.920 Hands

01:19:58.340 And

01:19:58.660 I

01:19:58.780 Say

01:19:59.000 That

01:19:59.180 God

01:19:59.440 Used

01:19:59.680 Me

01:19:59.840 Despite

01:20:00.240 Myself

01:20:00.740 And

01:20:01.820 Then

01:20:01.920 The

01:20:02.060 Music

01:20:02.260 Goes

01:20:02.520 Boom

01:20:03.020 And

01:20:03.640 I

01:20:03.720 Remember

01:20:03.960 Hearing

01:20:04.240 I

01:20:04.420 Think

01:20:04.580 It

01:20:04.700 Was

01:20:04.920 It

01:20:06.760 It

01:20:07.060 Wasn't

01:20:07.360 Jimmy

01:20:07.620 Kimmel

01:20:07.940 Who's

01:20:08.200 The

01:20:08.280 Other

01:20:08.440 Guy

01:20:08.780 Corden

01:20:10.080 Or

01:20:10.260 Whatever

01:20:10.460 No

01:20:10.800 No

01:20:11.340 I

01:20:13.520 Can't

01:20:13.740 Believe

01:20:13.940 My

01:20:14.120 Mind

01:20:14.400 Just

01:20:14.580 Went

01:20:14.740 Blank

01:20:15.040 Seth

01:20:15.480 Meyers

01:20:15.880 No

01:20:16.500 Black

01:20:17.020 Hair

01:20:17.420 Oh

01:20:17.980 Black

01:20:19.620 Hair

01:20:20.160 Reggie

01:20:21.280 Jackson

01:20:21.780 No

01:20:22.240 Not

01:20:22.560 Reggie

01:20:23.000 Jackson

01:20:23.520 Man

01:20:23.980 It's

01:20:24.940 Late

01:20:25.860 Night

01:20:26.080 Show

01:20:26.440 There

01:20:26.740 He

01:20:26.880 Is

01:20:27.140 Jimmy

01:20:27.360 Fallon

01:20:27.820 Oh

01:20:28.120 Jimmy

01:20:28.380 Fallon

01:20:28.720 Yeah

01:20:28.960 Thanks for

01:20:29.420 The

01:20:29.520 Reminded

01:20:29.780 Sorry

01:20:30.400 Jimmy

01:20:30.680 My

01:20:30.880 Mind

01:20:31.100 Went

01:20:31.280 Blank

01:20:31.640 Dude

01:20:32.080 You're

01:20:32.600 Incredible

01:20:33.020 But

01:20:33.820 He

01:20:33.940 Was

01:20:34.080 Talking

01:20:34.360 One

01:20:34.560 Time

01:20:34.760 On

01:20:34.920 His

01:20:35.060 Show

01:20:35.340 I

01:20:35.700 Think

01:20:35.940 When

01:20:36.240 He

01:20:36.500 When

01:20:37.360 He

01:20:37.680 His

01:20:38.800 His

01:20:39.040 Wife

01:20:39.340 Was

01:20:39.520 Pregnant

01:20:39.880 Or

01:20:40.000 They

01:20:40.120 Just

01:20:40.360 Had

01:20:40.520 A

01:20:40.640 Baby

01:20:40.940 And

01:20:41.660 He

01:20:41.820 Had

01:20:41.960 Been

01:20:42.140 A

01:20:42.440 Creed

01:20:42.800 Mocker

01:20:43.600 For

01:20:44.300 A

01:20:44.420 Time

01:20:44.620 Because

01:20:44.780 It

01:20:44.880 Was

01:20:44.980 Funny

01:20:45.280 It

01:20:45.520 Was

01:20:45.620 Good

01:20:45.780 For

01:20:45.920 Stand

01:20:46.200 Up

01:20:46.360 Right

01:20:46.700 And

01:20:48.080 He

01:20:48.420 Went

01:20:48.660 To

01:20:48.780 Get

01:20:48.940 Diapers

01:20:49.400 If

01:20:50.000 I'm

01:20:50.160 Remembering

01:20:50.600 The

01:20:50.740 Story

01:20:51.000 Correctly

01:20:51.540 And

01:20:52.700 Arms Wide

01:20:53.760 Open

01:20:53.960 Came

01:20:54.240 On

01:20:54.500 In

01:20:54.680 Walmart

01:20:55.160 Or

01:20:55.420 Target

01:20:55.700 Wherever

01:20:56.460 He

01:20:56.680 Was

01:20:57.060 And

01:20:57.700 He

01:20:57.800 Finally

01:20:58.260 Got

01:20:58.620 It

01:20:58.800 It

01:20:59.880 Finally

01:21:00.200 Hit

01:21:00.540 Him

01:21:00.840 As

01:21:01.400 A

01:21:01.560 Father

01:21:01.880 But

01:21:02.680 He

01:21:02.780 Had

01:21:02.960 To

01:21:03.060 Become

01:21:03.380 A

01:21:03.580 Father

01:21:03.900 To

01:21:05.520 Connect

01:21:05.840 With

01:21:06.020 The

01:21:06.160 Track

01:21:06.520 And

01:21:07.820 You

01:21:08.320 Know

01:21:08.460 And

01:21:08.640 You

01:21:09.440 Know

01:21:09.500 I'm

01:21:09.660 Blessed

01:21:09.920 That

01:21:10.300 The

01:21:11.620 Music

01:21:11.920 Has

01:21:12.160 Been

01:21:12.320 Able

01:21:12.500 To

01:21:12.680 Do

01:21:12.880 That

01:21:13.220 Over

01:21:14.400 The

01:21:15.080 Years

01:21:15.440 And

01:21:16.080 Yeah

01:21:16.620 You

01:21:16.780 Know

01:21:16.860 That

01:21:17.000 Is

01:21:17.140 Really

01:21:17.340 Interesting

01:21:17.720 You

01:21:17.940 Never

01:21:18.240 Know

01:21:18.500 When

01:21:18.680 A

01:21:18.840 Song

01:21:19.240 Is

01:21:19.420 Going

01:21:19.600 To

01:21:19.700 Come

01:21:20.280 And

01:21:22.000 Because

01:21:22.680 It's

01:21:22.940 Playing

01:21:23.360 Your

01:21:23.580 Music

01:21:24.240 Is

01:21:24.440 Playing

01:21:24.860 People's

01:21:25.640 Music

01:21:25.840 Is

01:21:26.020 Playing

01:21:26.340 All

01:21:26.720 Over

01:21:27.000 All

01:21:27.160 The

01:21:27.280 Time

01:21:27.600 And

01:21:28.160 You

01:21:28.280 Never

01:21:28.580 Know

01:21:28.920 When

01:21:29.100 That

01:21:29.260 Track

01:21:29.560 Is

01:21:29.700 Going

01:21:29.840 To

01:21:29.920 Hit

01:21:30.180 You

01:21:30.300 The

01:21:30.500 Way

01:21:31.040 Or

01:21:31.780 Hit

01:21:32.000 Somebody

01:21:32.240 The

01:21:32.400 Right

01:21:32.580 Way

01:21:32.800 That

01:21:33.160 Keeps

01:21:34.740 Them

01:21:34.860 Off

01:21:35.020 Of

01:21:35.140 A

01:21:35.260 Bridge

01:21:35.700 That

01:21:36.060 Keeps

01:21:36.260 A

01:21:36.380 Needle

01:21:36.640 Out

01:21:36.800 Of

01:21:36.860 Their

01:21:36.980 Arm

01:21:37.320 That

01:21:37.780 Keeps

01:21:38.120 Their

01:21:38.320 Mother's

01:21:38.920 Love

01:21:39.180 In

01:21:39.340 Their

01:21:39.480 Heart

01:21:39.840 That

01:21:40.360 Keeps

01:21:40.720 Their

01:21:40.900 New

01:21:41.160 Love

01:21:41.460 For

01:21:41.620 Their

01:21:41.780 Child

01:21:42.160 Inside

01:21:42.560 Of

01:21:42.700 Them

01:21:42.880 And

01:21:43.300 Makes

01:21:43.680 It

01:21:43.820 Blossom

01:21:44.340 And

01:21:44.780 I'm

01:21:45.440 Hoping

01:21:46.220 That

01:21:48.860 That's

01:21:49.760 Why

01:21:49.920 I'm

01:21:50.040 Still

01:21:50.220 Here

01:21:50.520 Right

01:21:51.020 That's

01:21:51.680 Why

01:21:51.820 God's

01:21:52.120 Kept

01:21:52.280 Me

01:21:52.420 Alive

01:21:53.060 Yeah

01:21:54.080 A

01:21:54.300 Lot

01:21:54.440 Of

01:21:54.540 Guys

01:21:54.800 Look

01:21:55.540 If

01:21:56.620 You

01:21:56.740 Look

01:21:56.940 Back

01:21:57.200 Through

01:21:57.400 Like

01:21:57.780 I'm

01:21:58.640 Thinking

01:21:58.820 Of

01:21:58.980 Like

01:21:59.160 Shannon

01:21:59.560 Hoon

01:21:59.940 Do

01:22:00.080 You

01:22:00.100 Know

01:22:00.240 Who

01:22:00.340 That

01:22:00.480 Is

01:22:00.660 Chris

01:22:01.920 Cornell

01:22:02.360 You

01:22:03.200 Look

01:22:03.500 Back

01:22:03.800 Through

01:22:04.240 Bennington

01:22:05.200 Yes

01:22:06.320 You

01:22:06.780 Look

01:22:07.040 Kurt

01:22:07.260 Cobain

01:22:07.740 Yeah

01:22:08.100 A lot

01:22:09.140 Of

01:22:09.240 The

01:22:09.380 Guys

01:22:09.800 From

01:22:10.320 A

01:22:11.620 Little

01:22:11.760 Before

01:22:12.120 You

01:22:12.320 Some

01:22:12.520 Of

01:22:12.640 Them

01:22:12.760 In

01:22:12.940 Your

01:22:13.140 Era

01:22:13.400 Just

01:22:13.700 From

01:22:13.940 The

01:22:14.080 From

01:22:14.480 90s

01:22:15.020 And

01:22:15.140 2000

01:22:15.380 Like

01:22:15.820 Yeah

01:22:16.120 Early

01:22:16.460 2000s

01:22:17.220 A

01:22:17.420 Lot

01:22:17.580 Of

01:22:17.680 Guys

01:22:17.920 Died

01:22:18.380 And

01:22:18.880 I

01:22:19.020 Should

01:22:19.200 Be

01:22:19.340 One

01:22:19.540 Of

01:22:19.660 Them

01:22:19.820 Multiple

01:22:20.480 Times

01:22:20.940 There's

01:22:22.340 There's

01:22:22.640 Not

01:22:22.980 A

01:22:23.160 Single

01:22:23.580 Reason

01:22:24.020 On

01:22:24.520 Planet

01:22:25.440 Earth

01:22:25.960 That

01:22:26.760 I

01:22:26.880 Should

01:22:27.020 Be

01:22:27.140 Alive

01:22:27.460 Right

01:22:27.620 Now

01:22:27.820 It's

01:22:28.820 A

01:22:28.940 Miracle

01:22:29.280 And

01:22:30.540 I

01:22:30.680 Have

01:22:30.840 To

01:22:30.940 Remind

01:22:31.300 Myself

01:22:31.700 Of

01:22:31.860 That

01:22:32.040 And

01:22:32.220 Be

01:22:32.400 Grateful

01:22:32.940 And

01:22:33.200 Show

01:22:33.340 Gratitude

01:22:33.820 And

01:22:33.940 I

01:22:34.060 Forget

01:22:34.320 That

01:22:34.560 All

01:22:34.740 The

01:22:34.860 Time

01:22:35.120 It's

01:22:35.460 Hard

01:22:35.660 You

01:22:36.140 Know

01:22:36.260 What

01:22:36.380 I

01:22:36.460 Mean

01:22:36.640 I

01:22:36.780 Forget

01:22:37.000 That

01:22:37.200 All

01:22:37.380 The

01:22:37.500 Time

01:22:37.820 Did

01:22:39.140 You

01:22:39.260 Were

01:22:39.380 There

01:22:39.520 Times

01:22:39.760 Where

01:22:39.920 You

01:22:40.060 Did

01:22:40.380 You

01:22:40.540 Ever

01:22:40.780 Overdose

01:22:41.220 Did

01:22:41.400 You

01:22:41.500 Ever

01:22:41.700 Get

01:22:41.920 To

01:22:42.040 The

01:22:42.160 Point

01:22:42.320 Where

01:22:42.460 You

01:22:42.600 Were

01:22:42.880 I

01:22:43.640 Did

01:22:43.800 Some

01:22:43.980 Crazy

01:22:44.280 Stuff

01:22:44.740 And

01:22:44.980 And

01:22:45.380 Had

01:22:46.160 Some

01:22:46.420 Accidents

01:22:47.360 Oh

01:22:48.780 It's

01:22:48.940 So

01:22:49.080 Scary

01:22:49.420 Isn't

01:22:49.620 It

01:22:49.760 You

01:22:49.940 Know

01:22:50.100 Yeah

01:22:50.420 Being

01:22:50.820 High

01:22:51.000 On

01:22:51.140 Drugs

01:22:51.480 Yeah

01:22:52.300 And

01:22:52.620 I

01:22:52.980 Had

01:22:53.180 Some

01:22:53.360 Accidents

01:22:53.860 And

01:22:54.180 That

01:22:55.300 I

01:22:55.400 Should

01:22:55.580 Not

01:22:55.740 Have

01:22:55.880 Survived

01:22:56.380 And

01:22:58.080 You

01:22:58.940 Know

01:22:59.060 Thank

01:22:59.340 The

01:22:59.460 Good

01:22:59.600 Lord

01:22:59.800 That

01:23:00.020 I

01:23:01.160 Have

01:23:01.540 Because

01:23:01.800 I

01:23:02.280 Wouldn't

01:23:02.520 Have

01:23:02.940 My

01:23:03.880 Two

01:23:04.320 Youngest

01:23:04.680 Boys

01:23:05.060 They

01:23:06.220 Wouldn't

01:23:06.420 Exist

01:23:06.780 They

01:23:06.960 Wouldn't

01:23:07.140 Exist

01:23:07.560 Wow

01:23:07.920 And

01:23:09.160 Then

01:23:09.420 You

01:23:11.920 A

01:23:14.120 I'm

01:23:14.640 Just

01:23:14.780 Grateful

01:23:15.140 And

01:23:15.520 I

01:23:15.740 Still

01:23:16.480 Get

01:23:16.700 To

01:23:16.840 Make

01:23:17.000 Music

01:23:17.300 Today

01:23:17.700 And

01:23:19.080 Still

01:23:19.300 Get

01:23:19.440 To

01:23:19.560 Put

01:23:19.720 Out

01:23:19.860 New

01:23:20.040 Stuff

01:23:20.320 And

01:23:20.480 People

01:23:20.660 Still

01:23:20.920 Show

01:23:21.220 Up

01:23:21.540 And

01:23:22.640 I

01:23:22.720 Have

01:23:22.860 Gratitude

01:23:23.400 For

01:23:23.600 That

01:23:23.760 I

01:23:23.860 Don't

01:23:24.000 Take

01:23:24.220 It

01:23:24.340 For

01:23:24.500 Granted

01:23:24.900 Like

01:23:25.640 I

01:23:25.820 Did

01:23:26.180 In

01:23:26.860 My

01:23:27.020 20s

01:23:27.520 Because

01:23:27.700 I

01:23:27.840 Did

01:23:28.020 I

01:23:28.160 Took

01:23:28.320 It

01:23:28.420 For

01:23:28.540 Granted

01:23:28.860 I

01:23:29.680 Did

01:23:30.080 I

01:23:30.580 Did

01:23:30.840 I

01:23:31.240 I

01:23:31.580 Became

01:23:32.360 Someone

01:23:33.800 Who

01:23:34.320 Just

01:23:34.720 Who

01:23:35.460 Just

01:23:35.700 Felt

01:23:35.980 Like

01:23:36.360 I

01:23:37.220 Was

01:23:37.340 Just

01:23:37.500 In

01:23:37.720 The

01:23:37.860 Moment

01:23:38.160 So

01:23:38.700 Much

01:23:39.120 That

01:23:39.540 I

01:23:39.780 Had

01:23:39.940 No

01:23:40.100 Perspective

01:23:40.840 I

01:23:41.480 Had

01:23:41.660 No

01:23:42.040 10,000

01:23:43.640 Foot

01:23:43.900 View

01:23:44.320 On

01:23:45.200 On

01:23:45.580 My

01:23:46.320 Life

01:23:46.800 And

01:23:47.280 The

01:23:47.400 People

01:23:47.660 Around

01:23:48.000 Me

01:23:48.260 And

01:23:48.780 I

01:23:48.880 Ended

01:23:49.080 Up

01:23:49.220 Taking

01:23:49.480 My

01:23:49.700 Friends

01:23:49.960 For

01:23:50.140 Granted

01:23:50.460 My

01:23:51.300 Career

01:23:51.600 For

01:23:51.820 Granted

01:23:52.120 And

01:23:53.880 You

01:23:54.560 Know

01:23:54.700 It's

01:23:55.000 Crazy

01:23:55.300 Man

01:23:55.540 I

01:23:55.640 Wish

01:23:55.800 I

01:23:55.900 Could

01:23:56.060 Go

01:23:56.920 Back

01:23:57.220 With

01:23:57.400 What

01:23:57.620 I

01:23:57.740 Know

01:23:57.900 Now

01:23:58.120 But

01:23:58.240 I

01:23:58.360 Can't

01:23:58.920 So

01:23:59.080 All

01:23:59.240 I

01:23:59.360 Can

01:23:59.500 Do

01:23:59.700 Is

01:23:59.860 Take

01:24:00.060 What

01:24:00.220 I

01:24:00.340 Have

01:24:00.520 Now

01:24:00.860 And

01:24:01.560 Apply

01:24:01.800 That

01:24:02.020 Same

01:24:07.860 They

01:24:07.980 Are

01:24:08.240 Well

01:24:09.240 You've

01:24:09.380 Gotten

01:24:09.580 To

01:24:09.660 Have

01:24:09.780 Amazing

01:24:10.300 Experiences

01:24:11.040 Which

01:24:11.340 Is

01:24:11.520 Kind

01:24:11.800 Of

01:24:11.900 What

01:24:12.040 Is

01:24:12.260 Kind

01:24:12.600 Of

01:24:12.700 An

01:24:13.160 Exceptional

01:24:13.640 Thing

01:24:13.880 About

01:24:14.080 Life

01:24:14.360 Overall

01:24:14.820 Is

01:24:15.540 To

01:24:15.720 Be

01:24:15.920 Able

01:24:16.100 To

01:24:16.300 Have

01:24:16.700 You

01:24:17.700 Know

01:24:17.800 Who

01:24:18.300 Gets

01:24:18.480 To

01:24:18.640 Be

01:24:18.780 A

01:24:18.960 Rock

01:24:19.320 Star

01:24:19.720 You

01:24:20.100 Know

01:24:20.300 Who

01:24:20.700 Gets

01:24:20.920 To

01:24:21.100 Be

01:24:21.300 A

01:24:21.500 Father

01:24:21.800 A lot

01:24:22.100 Of

01:24:22.180 People

01:24:22.320 Can't

01:24:22.700 Even

01:24:22.800 Be

01:24:22.960 A

01:24:23.100 Father

01:24:23.440 You

01:24:23.780 Know

01:24:24.380 Like

01:24:24.660 You've

01:24:25.120 Gotten

01:24:25.380 And

01:24:25.800 So

01:24:26.460 Few

01:24:26.920 Of

01:24:27.160 Those

01:24:27.680 Trajectories

01:24:29.400 Of

01:24:29.600 Stardom

01:24:30.240 Last

01:24:30.900 Like

01:24:37.860 Have

01:24:38.100 I

01:24:38.280 Already

01:24:38.540 Hit

01:24:38.820 My

01:24:39.020 P

01:24:39.240 You

01:24:39.360 Know

01:24:39.500 Like

01:24:39.760 In

01:24:39.920 My

01:24:40.080 You

01:24:40.420 Know

01:24:40.520 It's

01:24:40.680 Like

01:24:40.820 And

01:24:41.120 That

01:24:41.240 May

01:24:41.440 Be

01:24:41.640 It

01:24:41.860 It's

01:24:42.060 Still

01:24:42.260 You're

01:24:42.860 Thinking

01:24:43.140 About

01:24:43.440 It

01:24:43.860 Right

01:24:44.220 You're

01:24:44.540 Self

01:24:44.820 Aware

01:24:45.220 So

01:24:46.140 So

01:24:46.600 You're

01:24:46.880 You know

01:24:47.700 As

01:24:48.500 You're

01:24:48.640 Still

01:24:48.880 Rising

01:24:49.260 Because

01:24:49.580 You're

01:24:50.000 Still

01:24:50.180 Rising

01:24:50.560 Bro

01:24:50.860 In

01:24:51.660 My

01:24:51.820 Opinion

01:24:52.180 Well

01:24:52.520 Thanks

01:24:52.820 And

01:24:52.980 The

01:24:53.300 Fact

01:24:53.560 That

01:24:53.740 You

01:24:53.840 Found

01:24:54.140 Sobriety

01:24:54.720 In

01:24:54.940 This

01:24:55.120 And

01:24:55.340 This

01:24:55.540 Mindset

01:24:56.140 That

01:24:56.400 You

01:24:56.540 Have

01:24:56.940 And

01:24:57.960 How

01:24:58.340 Smart

01:24:58.740 You

01:24:58.980 Are

01:24:59.260 And

01:25:00.000 Introspective

01:25:01.440 Mind

01:25:02.460 That

01:25:03.060 You

01:25:03.200 Have

01:25:03.440 In

01:25:03.560 The

01:25:03.680 Heart

01:25:03.900 That

01:25:04.100 You

01:25:04.220 Have

01:25:04.560 Man

01:25:05.100 That's

01:25:05.340 A

01:25:05.440 Gift

01:25:05.580 To

01:25:05.720 The

01:25:05.840 World

01:25:06.140 You

01:25:06.640 Know

01:25:06.740 I

01:25:06.860 Say

01:25:07.260 All

01:25:07.460 The

01:25:07.580 Time

01:25:07.920 To

01:25:09.240 My

01:25:10.280 Wife

01:25:10.640 And

01:25:10.780 I've

01:25:10.920 Said

01:25:11.060 It

01:25:11.180 To

01:25:11.300 Some

01:25:11.480 Friends

01:25:11.840 Man

01:25:12.560 People

01:25:12.880 Who

01:25:13.080 Can

01:25:13.280 Make

01:25:13.520 People

01:25:13.860 Laugh

01:25:14.440 Are

01:25:15.500 Healers

01:25:16.360 They're

01:25:17.460 Healers

01:25:18.160 And

01:25:18.940 You're

01:25:19.080 A

01:25:19.160 Wounded

01:25:19.380 Healer

01:25:19.680 Like

01:25:19.900 I

01:25:20.100 Am

01:25:20.360 Yeah

01:25:20.800 You

01:25:21.380 Know

01:25:21.480 What

01:25:21.580 I

01:25:21.640 Mean

01:25:21.840 But

01:25:22.140 I

01:25:22.320 Appreciate

01:25:22.800 Your

01:25:23.200 Gift

01:25:23.600 And

01:25:24.100 What

01:25:24.260 You

01:25:24.440 Do

01:25:24.760 So

01:25:25.900 Much

01:25:26.360 Because

01:25:27.120 Laughter

01:25:27.700 Heals

01:25:28.700 You

01:25:29.600 Know

01:25:29.700 What

01:25:29.820 I

01:25:29.900 Mean

01:25:30.120 And

01:25:30.520 So

01:25:30.700 You

01:25:31.140 Got

01:25:31.280 To

01:25:31.400 Cherish

01:25:31.800 The

01:25:31.960 Gift

01:25:32.120 That

01:25:32.260 You

01:25:32.360 Have

01:25:32.580 And

01:25:32.700 Never

01:25:32.900 Take

01:25:33.160 It

01:25:33.260 For

01:25:33.400 Granted

01:25:33.700 Bro

01:25:33.960 Yeah

01:25:34.460 Because

01:25:34.780 You're

01:25:35.020 Doing

01:25:35.300 You're

01:25:36.000 You're

01:25:36.300 Doing

01:25:36.560 You're

01:25:37.140 Not

01:25:37.340 It's

01:25:38.180 Not

01:25:38.340 Just

01:25:38.560 Funny

01:25:38.920 And

01:25:39.100 Here

01:25:39.300 Today

01:25:39.540 Gone

01:25:39.820 Tomorrow

01:25:40.240 All

01:25:40.920 Right

01:25:41.020 You're

01:25:41.200 Making

01:25:41.400 An

01:25:41.620 Impact

01:25:41.900 On

01:25:42.160 People's

01:25:42.560 Hearts

01:25:42.960 And

01:25:43.680 You're

01:25:43.820 Bringing

01:25:44.040 Healing

01:25:44.680 Into

01:25:45.200 Their

01:25:45.420 Body

01:25:45.820 And

01:25:47.460 And

01:25:47.480 And

01:25:47.700 You

01:25:48.000 Speak

01:25:48.220 Truth

01:25:48.640 Into

01:25:48.900 Their

01:25:49.100 Life

01:25:49.380 When

01:25:49.560 You

01:25:49.660 Get

01:25:49.800 On

01:25:49.940 That

01:25:50.100 Roll

01:25:50.360 Man

01:25:50.720 So

01:25:51.220 Don't

01:25:51.500 Stop

01:25:51.800 Brother

01:25:52.100 Don't

01:25:52.400 Stop

01:25:52.700 Man

01:25:52.940 Because

01:25:53.200 You're

01:25:53.420 Changing

01:25:53.680 Lives

01:25:54.080 And

01:25:54.220 You're

01:25:54.360 Saving

01:25:54.580 Lives

01:25:54.940 And

01:25:55.100 And

01:25:55.880 You know

01:25:57.020 Don't

01:25:57.720 Take it

01:25:58.020 For

01:25:58.140 Granted

01:25:58.420 If

01:25:58.640 I

01:25:58.760 Can

01:25:58.920 Share

01:26:00.560 That

01:26:00.780 With

01:26:00.940 You

01:26:01.040 Because

01:26:01.260 I'm

01:26:01.500 I'm

01:26:01.760 A person

01:26:02.120 Who

01:26:02.300 Did

01:26:02.640 And

01:26:03.260 I

01:26:03.360 Don't

01:26:03.460 Want

01:26:03.620 To

01:26:03.720 See

01:26:03.840 That

01:26:04.040 Ever

01:26:04.240 Happen

01:26:04.540 To

01:26:04.700 You

01:26:04.880 Man

01:26:05.140 Thanks

01:26:05.920 Scott

01:26:06.180 Man

01:26:06.420 I

01:26:06.680 Appreciate

01:26:06.920 You

01:26:07.080 Saying

01:26:07.280 That

01:26:07.620 Yeah

01:26:08.580 I

01:26:08.700 Think

01:26:08.880 Yeah

01:26:11.820 I

01:26:12.080 Always

01:26:12.360 Wanted

01:26:12.660 To

01:26:12.780 Feel

01:26:13.180 Happier

01:26:13.780 When

01:26:13.960 I

01:26:14.080 Was

01:26:14.280 Young

01:26:14.640 And

01:26:14.920 So

01:26:15.320 I

01:26:16.120 Couldn't

01:26:16.620 Do

01:26:16.880 It

01:26:17.120 Feel

01:26:17.980 Happy

01:26:18.320 Myself

01:26:18.800 But

01:26:18.960 I

01:26:19.060 Could

01:26:19.200 Make

01:26:19.380 Other

01:26:19.640 People

01:26:19.920 Laugh

01:26:20.220 So

01:26:20.380 It

01:26:20.460 Was

01:26:20.580 Like

01:26:20.840 I

01:26:21.760 Almost

01:26:22.280 Would

01:26:22.680 Live

01:26:22.920 Vicariously

01:26:23.640 Through

01:26:23.940 When

01:26:24.100 Other

01:26:24.300 People

01:26:24.520 Were

01:26:24.700 Laughing

01:26:25.160 It

01:26:26.040 Was

01:26:26.200 The

01:26:27.620 Closest

01:26:28.060 I

01:26:28.320 Could

01:26:28.480 Get

01:26:28.680 To

01:26:28.860 Feeling

01:26:29.220 Happy

01:26:30.460 In

01:26:31.060 A

01:26:31.440 Weird

01:26:31.660 Way

01:26:31.960 But

01:26:32.420 I

01:26:32.500 Appreciate

01:26:32.800 That

01:26:33.000 Message

01:26:33.300 Man

01:26:33.580 Is

01:26:33.740 Sweet

01:26:33.940 Of

01:26:34.080 You

01:26:34.160 And

01:26:34.480 I

01:26:34.920 Appreciate

01:26:35.220 You

01:26:35.480 Coming

01:26:38.880 We're

01:26:39.020 Talking

01:26:39.320 About

01:26:39.640 And

01:26:39.800 Have

01:26:40.000 Talked

01:26:40.260 About

01:26:40.380 Some

01:26:40.540 Things

01:26:40.780 That

01:26:41.040 Other

01:26:42.620 Men

01:26:42.860 Are

01:26:43.000 Thinking

01:26:43.680 About

01:26:43.980 And

01:26:44.160 That

01:26:44.440 Are

01:26:44.520 Part

01:26:44.720 Of

01:26:44.800 Their

01:26:44.920 Lives

01:26:45.260 You

01:26:45.420 Know

01:26:45.620 Well

01:26:46.620 Let's

01:26:46.800 Not

01:26:46.960 Kid

01:26:47.180 Ourselves

01:26:47.600 Man

01:26:47.900 Life

01:26:48.400 Is

01:26:48.660 Real

01:26:49.100 And

01:26:49.520 It

01:26:49.640 Comes

01:26:49.860 At

01:26:50.020 Us

01:26:50.180 Every

01:26:50.460 Day

01:26:51.240 You

01:26:52.500 Know

01:26:52.720 I

01:26:52.920 Mean

01:26:53.220 It's

01:26:53.620 A

01:26:53.760 Total

01:26:55.620 Gangster

01:26:56.180 I

01:26:56.600 Mean

01:26:56.800 It

01:26:57.040 Wears

01:26:57.280 Boots

01:26:57.920 And

01:26:58.120 It

01:26:58.260 Wants

01:26:58.480 To

01:26:58.640 Seek

01:26:58.920 And

01:26:59.060 Destroy

01:26:59.500 It

01:26:59.800 Does

01:27:00.280 It

01:27:00.740 Really

01:27:01.120 Really

01:27:01.560 Does

01:27:02.020 And

01:27:02.940 And

01:27:03.500 We've

01:27:03.740 Got

01:27:03.880 To

01:27:03.980 Put

01:27:04.160 On

01:27:04.360 Our

01:27:04.520 Armor

01:27:04.780 Every

01:27:05.100 Day

01:27:05.400 And

01:27:05.900 Suit

01:27:06.180 Up

01:27:06.480 And

01:27:07.920 In

01:27:08.140 Me

01:27:08.320 Sharing

01:27:08.600 This

01:27:08.840 With

01:27:09.020 You

01:27:09.160 I'm

01:27:09.340 Reminding

01:27:09.700 Myself

01:27:10.280 This

01:27:11.080 Is

01:27:11.220 What

01:27:11.420 I

01:27:11.540 Gotta

01:27:11.740 Do

01:27:12.080 And

01:27:13.840 So

01:27:14.160 You

01:27:15.000 Know

01:27:15.160 Man

01:27:15.560 But

01:27:17.180 We

01:27:17.260 Gotta

01:27:17.420 Enjoy

01:27:17.740 It

01:27:17.880 Somehow

01:27:18.180 Yeah

01:27:18.940 I

01:27:19.400 Mean

01:27:19.560 There's

01:27:19.760 A lot

01:27:20.260 Of

01:27:20.360 Facets

01:27:20.720 To

01:27:20.940 It

01:27:21.080 You

01:27:21.220 Know

01:27:21.420 What

01:27:23.000 Do

01:27:23.120 You

01:27:23.220 Think

01:27:23.460 It

01:27:23.620 Was

01:27:23.900 About

01:27:24.160 Those

01:27:24.440 Times

01:27:24.820 When

01:27:25.000 You

01:27:25.100 Look

01:27:25.280 Back

01:27:25.580 On

01:27:25.780 Those

01:27:26.140 Like

01:27:27.500 You

01:27:27.860 Know

01:27:28.020 On

01:27:28.300 Kurt

01:27:28.620 Cobain

01:27:29.140 On

01:27:29.360 Shannon

01:27:29.780 Who

01:27:30.000 When

01:27:30.160 You

01:27:30.240 Look

01:27:30.420 Back

01:27:30.700 On

01:27:31.000 Lane

01:27:32.880 I'm

01:27:33.140 Trying

01:27:33.280 To

01:27:33.400 Think

01:27:33.580 Lane

01:27:33.860 Staley

01:27:34.220 Lane

01:27:34.600 Staley

01:27:35.020 Yeah

01:27:35.320 When

01:27:35.540 You

01:27:35.640 Look

01:27:35.840 Back

01:27:36.080 On

01:27:36.240 Those

01:27:36.480 Musicians

01:27:37.100 Do

01:27:37.300 You

01:27:37.400 Think

01:27:37.700 It

01:27:37.840 Was

01:27:38.000 A

01:27:38.160 Time

01:27:38.920 Because

01:27:39.420 Those

01:27:39.600 Are

01:27:39.720 All

01:27:40.040 Guys

01:27:40.700 Who

01:27:40.820 Lost

01:27:41.080 Their

01:27:41.220 Life

01:27:41.460 I

01:27:41.580 Think

01:27:41.720 To

01:27:41.880 Addiction

01:27:42.380 Maybe

01:27:42.700 Yeah

01:27:43.180 Might

01:27:43.800 Be

01:27:43.960 Safe

01:27:44.160 To

01:27:44.300 Say

01:27:44.460 That

01:27:44.660 In

01:27:44.800 That

01:27:44.920 Realm

01:27:45.280 Pretty

01:27:45.540 Sure

01:27:45.820 Yeah

01:27:46.140 Do

01:27:47.840 You

01:27:48.020 Was

01:27:48.380 It

01:27:48.520 A

01:27:48.800 Time

01:27:49.380 Was

01:27:49.620 It

01:27:49.740 A

01:27:50.040 I

01:27:53.240 I

01:27:53.800 Think

01:27:54.220 It

01:27:54.380 Was

01:27:54.620 A

01:27:54.780 Time

01:27:55.080 I

01:27:55.620 Think

01:27:56.060 That

01:27:56.300 There

01:27:56.900 Was

01:27:57.020 A

01:27:57.160 Generation

01:27:57.620 Of

01:27:57.840 Artists

01:27:58.300 And

01:27:58.500 Musicians

01:27:59.160 That

01:28:00.680 Romanticized

01:28:01.900 Their

01:28:02.460 Idols

01:28:03.080 That

01:28:03.480 They

01:28:03.600 Grew

01:28:03.780 Up

01:28:03.940 Listening

01:28:04.240 To

01:28:04.560 And

01:28:05.980 Like

01:28:06.220 For

01:28:06.380 Me

01:28:06.580 I'll

01:28:07.160 Use

01:28:07.320 My

01:28:07.600 My

01:28:08.020 Example

01:28:08.540 You

01:28:09.100 Know

01:28:09.200 Jim

01:28:09.460 Morrison

01:28:09.780 Was

01:28:10.040 One

01:28:10.220 Of

01:28:10.340 Those

01:28:10.640 And

01:28:11.320 So

01:28:11.480 I

01:28:11.680 Thought

01:28:12.040 That

01:28:12.700 You

01:28:13.540 Know

01:28:13.680 A

01:28:14.160 Guy

01:28:14.380 A

01:28:14.580 Lead

01:28:14.720 Singer

01:28:14.960 In

01:28:15.120 A

01:28:15.220 Band

01:28:15.540 And

01:28:16.060 A

01:28:16.180 Rock

01:28:16.380 Star

01:28:16.680 Was

01:28:17.160 Supposed

01:28:17.520 To

01:28:17.680 Do

01:28:17.820 Everything

01:28:18.140 That

01:28:18.380 Jim

01:28:18.560 Morrison

01:28:18.900 Did

01:28:19.300 Not

01:28:19.860 Even

01:28:20.080 Thinking

01:28:20.420 That

01:28:24.780 Passage

01:28:25.160 And

01:28:26.600 So

01:28:26.740 I

01:28:26.880 Can't

01:28:27.100 Say

01:28:27.260 That

01:28:27.420 That's

01:28:27.660 What

01:28:27.880 Everyone

01:28:28.260 Else

01:28:28.580 Thought

01:28:28.880 But

01:28:29.600 Definitely

01:28:30.280 The

01:28:30.480 Rock

01:28:30.700 And

01:28:30.800 Roll

01:28:30.960 Lifestyle

01:28:31.640 Was

01:28:33.200 Something

01:28:33.480 That

01:28:33.720 I

01:28:33.840 Thought

01:28:34.040 Was

01:28:34.260 Just

01:28:34.460 Part

01:28:35.740 Of

01:28:35.860 The

01:28:35.960 Job

01:28:36.200 Description

01:28:36.660 And

01:28:38.240 Had

01:28:39.380 No

01:28:39.780 Foresight

01:28:40.680 Or

01:28:40.960 Knowledge

01:28:41.300 That

01:28:41.500 It

01:28:41.600 Could

01:28:41.740 Kill

01:28:41.920 Me

01:28:42.120 Yeah

01:28:43.920 I

01:28:44.100 Guess

01:28:44.360 There

01:28:44.560 Is

01:28:44.780 There's

01:28:45.040 That

01:28:45.360 Well

01:28:46.060 I

01:28:46.240 Have

01:28:46.440 To

01:28:46.580 Be

01:28:46.860 Like

01:28:47.240 A

01:28:47.900 Rock

01:28:48.200 Star

01:28:48.620 What

01:28:50.220 A

01:28:50.400 Fucking

01:28:50.660 Pressure

01:28:51.140 It

01:28:51.500 Sounds

01:28:51.920 Great

01:28:52.400 Right

01:28:52.900 Until

01:28:53.420 You

01:28:54.780 Do

01:28:55.020 It

01:28:55.220 Right

01:28:55.480 And

01:28:55.760 That's

01:28:55.920 What I

01:28:56.140 Love

01:28:56.380 About

01:28:56.680 A lot

01:28:58.100 Of

01:28:58.240 This

01:28:58.420 Generation

01:28:58.960 Of

01:28:59.920 Up and

01:29:00.660 Coming

01:29:00.880 Musicians

01:29:01.500 And

01:29:01.660 Artists

01:29:02.120 In

01:29:02.900 All

01:29:03.080 Genres

01:29:03.540 Is

01:29:04.660 Sobriety

01:29:05.380 Is

01:29:05.520 Cool

01:29:05.800 Yeah

01:29:06.520 Being

01:29:07.200 Responsible

01:29:07.820 Is

01:29:07.980 Cool

01:29:08.240 Showing

01:29:09.860 Up

01:29:10.040 Is

01:29:10.220 Cool

01:29:10.500 Being

01:29:10.880 On

01:29:11.080 Time

01:29:11.400 Is

01:29:11.600 Cool

01:29:11.820 Putting

01:29:12.700 On

01:29:12.860 A

01:29:13.000 Good

01:29:13.180 Show

01:29:13.520 Is

01:29:13.720 Cool

01:29:13.980 You

01:29:15.580 Know

01:29:15.800 And

01:29:16.020 So

01:29:16.840 Hopefully

01:29:17.480 That

01:29:17.820 That's

01:29:18.740 The

01:29:19.340 Impression

01:29:19.880 That

01:29:20.360 The

01:29:20.640 Next

01:29:21.240 Generation

01:29:21.760 Will

01:29:22.240 See

01:29:22.520 And

01:29:22.880 That's

01:29:23.040 What I

01:29:23.280 Try

01:29:23.480 To

01:29:23.620 Tell

01:29:23.860 These

01:29:24.860 Young

01:29:25.100 Up and

01:29:25.380 Comers

01:29:25.680 That

01:29:25.820 I

01:29:25.980 Run

01:29:26.180 Into

01:29:26.500 And

01:29:27.960 But

01:29:28.240 That's

01:29:28.460 What I'm

01:29:28.720 Seeing

01:29:28.980 On

01:29:29.180 The

01:29:29.340 Streets

01:29:29.760 Yeah

01:29:30.540 In

01:29:31.240 In

01:29:31.540 My

01:29:31.680 Business

01:29:32.140 Yeah

01:29:32.500 Same

01:29:32.800 As

01:29:32.940 In

01:29:33.060 Comedy

01:29:33.340 Yeah

01:29:33.780 You

01:29:33.960 See

01:29:34.080 A lot

01:29:34.360 Of

01:29:34.420 A lot

01:29:34.860 Of

01:29:34.940 A lot

01:29:35.660 Of

01:29:35.740 Great

01:29:35.880 Comedians

01:29:36.260 Are

01:29:36.400 Sober

01:29:36.740 Or

01:29:37.000 A lot

01:29:37.220 Of

01:29:37.420 You

01:29:37.900 You

01:29:37.920 Know

01:29:38.040 Working

01:29:38.500 Comedians

01:29:39.020 Are

01:29:39.140 Sober

01:29:39.500 Right

01:29:40.060 I

01:29:41.020 Don't

01:29:41.160 Know

01:29:41.320 How

01:29:41.580 People

01:29:41.920 Could

01:29:42.160 Do

01:29:42.380 It

01:29:42.500 Not

01:29:42.700 Being

01:29:42.880 Sober

01:29:43.320 Looking

01:29:44.580 Back

01:29:45.040 I

01:29:45.220 Don't

01:29:45.320 Know

01:29:45.400 How

01:29:45.520 I

01:29:45.680 Did

01:29:45.840 It

01:29:46.320 At

01:29:46.980 Times

01:29:47.440 You

01:29:48.680 Know

01:29:48.760 At

01:29:48.920 The

01:29:49.060 End

01:29:49.340 In

01:29:50.460 Order

01:29:50.600 To

01:29:50.800 Get

01:29:51.020 There

01:29:51.240 I

01:29:51.420 Couldn't

01:29:52.200 I

01:29:52.380 Couldn't

01:29:52.640 Do

01:29:52.800 It

01:29:53.240 Had

01:29:54.240 I

01:29:54.360 Been

01:29:54.540 In

01:29:54.740 Some

01:29:54.960 Kind

01:29:55.200 Of

01:29:55.360 You

01:29:55.940 Know

01:29:56.040 Pervasive

01:29:56.540 Active

01:29:56.880 Active

01:29:57.480 Addiction

01:29:57.900 But

01:29:58.740 At

01:29:58.880 The

01:29:59.000 End

01:29:59.220 I

01:29:59.380 Was

01:29:59.660 And

01:29:59.780 I

01:30:06.740 Did

01:30:09.460 You

01:30:09.680 Were

01:30:10.120 There

01:30:10.280 Any

01:30:10.460 Amends

01:30:10.900 That

01:30:11.020 You

01:30:11.120 Had

01:30:11.280 To

01:30:11.400 Make

01:30:11.620 Like

01:30:11.860 Any

01:30:12.120 Did

01:30:12.400 You

01:30:12.720 Burn

01:30:13.000 Any

01:30:13.180 Bridges

01:30:13.560 With

01:30:13.740 Friends

01:30:14.040 Did

01:30:14.200 You

01:30:14.260 Have

01:30:14.380 To

01:30:14.460 Go

01:30:14.660 Back

01:30:14.900 And

01:30:15.040 Do

01:30:15.140 That

01:30:15.300 Kind

01:30:15.460 Of

01:30:15.540 Stuff

01:30:15.800 100%

01:30:16.600 Wow

01:30:16.940 Yeah

01:30:17.200 I

01:30:17.320 Mean

01:30:17.440 I

01:30:17.560 Think

01:30:17.700 That's

01:30:18.720 100%

01:30:19.660 Powerful

01:30:20.020 Yeah

01:30:20.260 I

01:30:20.420 Mean

01:30:20.580 It's

01:30:21.020 It's

01:30:21.340 What

01:30:21.780 You

01:30:21.920 Have

01:30:22.920 To

01:30:23.100 Do

01:30:23.420 To

01:30:23.780 Clear

01:30:23.980 The

01:30:24.160 Wreckage

01:30:24.460 Of

01:30:24.600 Your

01:30:24.700 Past

01:30:25.160 That's

01:30:26.040 What

01:30:26.180 You

01:30:26.280 Have

01:30:26.460 To

01:30:26.580 Do

01:30:26.760 I

01:30:26.940 Think

01:30:27.260 To

01:30:27.460 Move

01:30:27.640 Forward

01:30:28.060 You

01:30:28.620 Know

01:30:28.700 I

01:30:28.820 Just

01:30:29.000 Use

01:30:29.260 Recovery

01:30:29.940 Lingo

01:30:30.380 You

01:30:30.660 Get

01:30:30.900 It

01:30:31.080 But

01:30:31.340 To

01:30:32.040 Those

01:30:32.240 That

01:30:32.400 Aren't

01:30:32.600 In

01:30:32.800 In

01:30:33.300 A

01:30:33.540 Recovery

01:30:33.980 Program

01:30:34.760 Or

01:30:35.000 Know

01:30:35.220 The

01:30:35.420 Lingo

01:30:35.800 In

01:30:37.240 Order

01:30:37.460 Sometimes

01:30:37.980 To

01:30:38.140 Move

01:30:38.300 Forward

01:30:38.600 And

01:30:38.780 Grow

01:30:39.020 As

01:30:39.240 A

01:30:39.360 Human

01:30:39.560 Being

01:30:39.920 You

01:30:40.420 Do

01:30:40.580 Have

01:30:40.740 To

01:30:40.860 Clear

01:30:41.100 Up

01:30:41.360 The

01:30:42.020 Past

01:30:42.340 Especially

01:30:42.740 With

01:30:43.640 The

01:30:43.800 People

01:30:44.020 That

01:30:44.300 You

01:30:44.440 Hurt

01:30:44.800 And

01:30:46.160 Also

01:30:46.600 I

01:30:47.320 Had

01:30:47.760 To

01:30:47.860 Forgive

01:30:48.260 And

01:30:49.100 Get

01:30:49.240 Rid

01:30:49.400 Of

01:30:49.500 Resentments

01:30:50.040 And

01:30:51.280 Like

01:30:51.740 You

01:30:51.860 Were

01:30:51.960 Talking

01:30:52.180 About

01:30:52.400 A

01:30:52.600 Couple

01:30:52.780 Took

01:30:53.200 A

01:30:58.060 Of

01:30:58.280 Them

01:30:58.380 Just

01:30:58.860 Resolved

01:30:59.620 Like

01:30:59.900 During

01:31:00.360 COVID

01:31:00.760 Wow

01:31:01.340 You

01:31:02.180 Know

01:31:02.400 And

01:31:03.940 I

01:31:04.340 Almost

01:31:04.600 Like

01:31:04.900 I

01:31:05.200 Don't

01:31:05.320 Want

01:31:05.460 To

01:31:05.580 Thank

01:31:05.920 COVID

01:31:07.100 For

01:31:07.500 Happening

01:31:07.940 But

01:31:08.160 It

01:31:08.360 Sure

01:31:08.780 Did

01:31:09.020 Push

01:31:09.360 Me

01:31:09.600 Into

01:31:10.040 A

01:31:10.380 Deeper

01:31:10.920 Spiritual

01:31:12.060 Journey

01:31:12.560 And

01:31:13.360 A

01:31:13.540 Deeper

01:31:13.920 Place

01:31:14.440 Of

01:31:14.700 Self

01:31:14.960 Awareness

01:31:15.400 And

01:31:15.560 Growth

01:31:15.920 Than

01:31:16.540 I

01:31:16.700 Would

01:31:16.940 Have

01:31:17.140 Been

01:31:17.420 Had

01:31:17.620 It

01:31:17.740 Not

01:31:17.940 Happened

01:31:18.380 And

01:31:19.740 It

01:31:19.880 Definitely

01:31:20.520 Allowed

01:31:21.360 Me

01:31:21.520 To

01:31:21.660 Have

01:31:21.820 The

01:31:21.980 Time

01:31:22.460 And

01:31:22.780 The

01:31:22.920 Space

01:31:23.340 Mentally

01:31:24.780 And

01:31:24.920 Emotionally

01:31:25.420 To

01:31:26.360 Resolve

01:31:26.860 Some

01:31:27.620 Of

01:31:28.060 Resentments

01:31:28.380 That

01:31:28.540 I

01:31:28.640 Just

01:31:28.820 Could

01:31:29.120 Not

01:31:29.340 Let

01:31:29.540 Go

01:31:29.760 Of

01:31:30.060 Wow

01:31:30.520 It's

01:31:31.760 Funny

01:31:31.900 You

01:31:32.040 Say

01:31:32.160 That

01:31:32.280 I

01:31:32.360 Didn't

01:31:32.480 Really

01:31:32.660 Realize

01:31:33.020 That

01:31:33.160 For

01:31:33.300 Myself

01:31:33.780 There

01:31:34.240 Were

01:31:34.440 I

01:31:34.760 Kind

01:31:35.260 Of

01:31:35.380 Hit

01:31:35.520 A

01:31:35.700 Couple

01:31:36.000 Years

01:31:36.200 Ago

01:31:36.360 I

01:31:36.520 Kind

01:31:38.280 Of

01:31:38.420 Had

01:31:38.640 Burnout

01:31:39.300 I

01:31:39.860 Been

01:31:40.000 Working

01:31:40.280 So

01:31:40.540 Hard

01:31:40.900 And

01:31:41.540 Also

01:31:41.840 I

01:31:42.040 Had

01:31:42.200 A lot

01:31:42.500 Of

01:31:42.600 Stuff

01:31:42.780 From

01:31:42.900 My

01:31:43.040 Childhood

01:31:43.380 That

01:31:43.500 I

01:31:43.540 Never

01:31:43.840 Dealt

01:31:44.160 With

01:31:44.420 And

01:31:44.600 It

01:31:44.720 Was

01:31:44.880 That

01:31:45.340 Stuff

01:31:45.560 Will

01:31:45.700 Find

01:31:46.140 A

01:31:46.300 Way

01:31:46.460 Out

01:31:46.760 Of

01:31:46.920 You

01:31:47.180 100%

01:31:58.060 Killing

01:31:58.740 Me

01:31:59.020 I

01:31:59.360 Mean

01:31:59.520 I

01:31:59.680 Was

01:31:59.860 Miserable

01:32:00.280 I

01:32:00.680 Remember

01:32:00.980 Sitting

01:32:01.280 In

01:32:01.420 My

01:32:01.580 Garage

01:32:01.960 Like

01:32:02.360 I

01:32:02.820 Mean

01:32:02.980 Wishing

01:32:03.440 Thinking

01:32:04.120 That

01:32:04.340 I

01:32:04.480 Might

01:32:04.660 This

01:32:04.920 Might

01:32:05.160 Kill

01:32:05.700 Me

01:32:06.020 Because

01:32:06.660 I

01:32:07.160 Can't

01:32:07.760 Handle

01:32:08.820 How

01:32:09.980 I

01:32:10.180 Feel

01:32:10.620 I

01:32:10.980 I

01:32:12.060 Can't

01:32:12.760 Stand

01:32:13.100 Myself

01:32:13.480 And

01:32:13.700 I'm

01:32:13.860 Addicted

01:32:14.400 To

01:32:14.600 My

01:32:14.740 And

01:32:14.940 I'm

01:32:15.860 All

01:32:16.160 I

01:32:16.360 Think

01:32:16.620 About

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01:35:49.520 Way

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01:35:50.640 So

01:35:50.800 When

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01:35:51.040 Began

01:35:51.300 Songwriting

01:35:52.020 I

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01:35:58.140 That

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01:35:59.200 And

01:35:59.660 So

01:35:59.800 That's

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01:36:07.040 Man

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01:36:07.560 Think

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01:36:07.860 We

01:36:07.980 Sound

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01:36:34.020 If

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01:36:36.940 Record

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01:36:52.380 My

01:36:52.540 Opinion

01:36:52.800 One

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01:36:53.040 The

01:36:53.120 Greatest

01:36:53.400 Albums

01:36:53.760 Ever

01:36:53.940 Written

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01:36:55.840 Check

01:36:58.040 It

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01:36:58.360 If

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01:36:58.900 It

01:36:59.060 I

01:36:59.940 Found

01:37:00.220 A

01:37:00.360 Cassette

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01:37:00.920 I

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01:37:01.700 I

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01:37:03.680 Abbey

01:37:04.060 Road

01:37:04.380 Right

01:37:04.680 And

01:37:05.860 I

01:37:06.000 Never

01:37:06.300 Heard

01:37:06.520 The

01:37:06.660 Beatles

01:37:06.920 Like

01:37:07.120 I

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01:37:07.460 Know

01:37:07.780 My

01:37:08.560 Mother

01:37:08.800 I

01:37:08.940 Think

01:37:09.080 Would

01:37:09.220 Sometimes

01:37:09.500 Listen

01:37:09.800 To

01:37:09.960 Some

01:37:10.160 My

01:37:11.860 Mother

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01:37:12.900 Us

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01:37:13.500 Then

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01:37:14.260 Us

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01:37:14.700 The

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01:37:15.960 Brian

01:37:17.620 Adams

01:37:18.060 And

01:37:18.200 Make

01:37:18.340 Us

01:37:18.500 Sing

01:37:18.780 The

01:37:18.980 Songs

01:37:19.360 While

01:37:19.560 She

01:37:19.700 Did

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01:37:26.920 Hood

01:37:27.160 Movie

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01:37:28.260 Yeah

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01:37:35.500 Water

01:37:35.820 Right

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01:37:40.780 The

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01:37:59.500 Play

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01:38:02.920 Play

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01:38:04.700 Muddy

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01:38:09.100 Collection

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01:38:16.620 One

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01:38:58.480 Down

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01:39:56.800 School

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01:41:07.420 Songs

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01:41:11.980 Elementary

01:41:12.320 School

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01:41:14.160 The bus

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01:41:14.640 That

01:41:14.800 Song

01:41:15.080 Was

01:41:15.220 Playing

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01:41:49.920 Song

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01:42:22.180 Somebody

01:42:22.680 The

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01:42:23.980 Day

01:42:24.180 They

01:42:24.340 Said

01:42:24.820 That

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01:42:26.400 It's

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01:42:28.740 Written

01:42:29.140 And

01:42:30.280 We're

01:42:30.460 Just

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01:42:31.860 Wonder

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01:42:32.820 Kind

01:42:33.640 Of

01:42:33.720 Crazy

01:42:34.000 I

01:42:34.200 Wonder

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01:42:35.060 That's

01:42:35.640 Wild

01:42:35.880 To

01:42:36.020 Think

01:42:36.300 I

01:42:38.460 Know

01:42:38.640 Whenever

01:42:38.940 You

01:42:39.240 And

01:42:39.820 I

01:42:39.900 Had

01:42:39.980 Spoken

01:42:40.140 On

01:42:40.260 The

01:42:40.360 Phone

01:42:40.540 Before

01:42:40.800 You

01:42:41.300 Came

01:42:41.540 In

01:42:41.700 The

01:42:41.820 Other

01:42:41.940 Day

01:42:42.120 Just

01:42:42.320 You

01:42:42.900 Know

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01:42:43.220 Sure

01:42:43.340 Each

01:42:43.480 Other

01:42:43.580 Were

01:42:43.720 Human

01:42:43.980 Beings

01:42:44.480 Right

01:42:44.760 And

01:42:45.200 You

01:42:45.760 Talked

01:42:46.080 About

01:42:46.240 Just

01:42:46.460 Kind

01:42:46.660 Of

01:42:46.720 Some

01:42:46.860 Wild

01:42:47.100 Experiences

01:42:47.500 At

01:42:47.700 Church

01:42:48.020 Just

01:42:48.180 Some

01:42:48.320 Of

01:42:48.400 That

01:42:48.520 Church

01:42:48.840 Vibe

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01:42:49.840 Yeah

01:42:50.100 What

01:42:50.420 Was

01:42:50.580 Some

01:42:50.740 Of

01:42:50.820 That

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01:42:52.820 A

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01:42:53.900 A

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01:42:54.460 Of

01:42:55.080 What

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01:42:58.160 The

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01:42:58.860 World

01:42:59.280 Of

01:42:59.480 That

01:42:59.680 I

01:43:00.080 Had

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01:43:00.560 Very

01:43:00.840 Very

01:43:01.120 Strange

01:43:01.600 Experiences

01:43:02.360 Because

01:43:02.820 This

01:43:13.340 You

01:43:13.900 Know

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01:43:14.920 Me

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01:43:15.620 All

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01:43:15.940 Children

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01:43:17.860 You

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01:43:18.980 They

01:43:19.160 Were

01:43:19.260 Speaking

01:43:19.540 In

01:43:19.760 Tongues

01:43:20.420 It

01:43:20.960 Was

01:43:21.100 Prophesying

01:43:22.040 You

01:43:23.080 Know

01:43:23.180 Benny

01:43:23.400 Hinn

01:43:23.720 Yeah

01:43:24.280 Okay

01:43:24.680 We

01:43:24.940 Went

01:43:25.460 To

01:43:25.600 His

01:43:25.800 Church

01:43:26.200 Really

01:43:26.880 He

01:43:27.260 Prophesied

01:43:27.860 Over

01:43:28.060 Me

01:43:28.300 When

01:43:28.540 I

01:43:28.640 Was

01:43:28.780 Nine

01:43:29.180 Years

01:43:29.380 Old

01:43:29.640 I'll

01:43:30.360 Never

01:43:30.520 Forget

01:43:30.840 It

01:43:30.960 I'm

01:43:31.100 Trying

01:43:31.280 To

01:43:31.420 Find

01:43:31.620 The

01:43:31.780 Tape

01:43:32.100 Because

01:43:32.800 I

01:43:33.020 Know

01:43:33.340 That

01:43:34.140 They

01:43:34.560 Filmed

01:43:35.100 Yeah

01:43:35.620 There's

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01:43:35.980 To

01:43:36.060 Be

01:43:36.200 One

01:43:36.380 They

01:43:36.900 Filmed

01:43:37.300 His

01:43:37.580 Whatever

01:43:38.300 But

01:43:38.580 My

01:43:38.740 Parents

01:43:39.040 Visited

01:43:39.400 His

01:43:39.660 Church

01:43:40.040 And

01:43:41.040 This

01:43:42.160 Is

01:43:42.300 A

01:43:42.880 Crazy

01:43:43.140 Story

01:43:43.440 He

01:43:43.600 Called

01:43:43.880 Everybody

01:43:44.280 Forward

01:43:44.740 All

01:43:45.240 The

01:43:45.400 Kids

01:43:45.780 And

01:43:46.940 You

01:43:47.360 Know

01:43:47.420 He

01:43:47.540 Was

01:43:47.640 Doing

01:43:47.820 His

01:43:47.980 Deal

01:43:48.200 Where

01:43:48.380 He

01:43:48.500 Walks

01:43:48.780 By

01:43:49.020 And

01:43:49.160 Touches

01:43:49.460 Your

01:43:49.560 Head

01:43:49.760 And

01:43:49.840 You

01:43:49.920 Fall

01:43:50.120 Down

01:43:50.420 Bring

01:43:50.980 A picture

01:43:51.240 Of

01:43:51.500 Of

01:43:51.520 Benny

01:43:51.720 Hinn

01:43:51.980 There

01:43:52.160 Yeah

01:43:52.440 Bring

01:43:52.840 Him

01:43:52.980 Up

01:43:53.180 Let's

01:43:53.660 See

01:43:53.800 This

01:43:54.000 Man

01:43:55.040 I

01:43:56.260 Remember

01:43:56.480 They

01:43:56.660 Used

01:43:56.800 To

01:43:56.900 Do

01:43:57.060 My

01:43:57.220 Dad

01:43:57.480 Used

01:43:57.640 To

01:43:57.760 Drink

01:43:58.080 And

01:43:58.240 Watch

01:43:58.520 Him

01:43:59.140 There

01:44:00.940 He

01:44:00.960 Is

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01:44:08.600 About

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01:44:08.980 In

01:44:09.260 In

01:44:09.560 My

01:44:09.700 First

01:44:09.980 Book

01:44:10.300 What

01:44:11.540 Was

01:44:11.660 The

01:44:11.780 Book

01:44:11.920 Called

01:44:12.140 Sinner's

01:44:13.180 Creed

01:44:13.500 Okay

01:44:13.940 Now

01:44:14.220 It

01:44:14.280 Was

01:44:14.360 A

01:44:14.460 Little

01:44:14.580 Censored

01:44:15.000 Because

01:44:15.480 It

01:44:15.740 Was

01:44:15.900 With

01:44:16.180 A

01:44:16.300 Christian

01:44:16.560 Publisher

01:44:16.940 A

01:44:17.100 Lot

01:44:17.260 Censored

01:44:17.640 A

01:44:18.200 Lot

01:44:18.340 Of

01:44:18.460 Stuff

01:44:19.040 That

01:44:19.240 I

01:44:19.340 You

01:44:20.200 Know

01:44:20.360 But

01:44:21.360 So

01:44:22.560 I

01:44:22.680 Went

01:44:22.800 Forward

01:44:23.220 Because

01:44:23.680 All

01:44:23.820 The

01:44:23.940 Kids

01:44:24.120 Went

01:44:24.340 Forward

01:44:24.700 And

01:44:26.160 I

01:44:26.480 Was

01:44:26.680 Determined

01:44:27.420 That

01:44:28.080 This

01:44:28.260 Man

01:44:28.500 Was

01:44:28.680 Not

01:44:28.860 Going

01:44:29.000 To

01:44:29.100 Push

01:44:29.300 Me

01:44:29.460 Down

01:44:29.800 Because

01:44:30.320 I

01:44:30.460 Was

01:44:30.580 Convinced

01:44:31.180 That

01:44:31.760 That

01:44:31.920 Was

01:44:32.240 Doing

01:44:32.480 And

01:44:33.620 So

01:44:33.860 I

01:44:34.440 Was

01:44:34.580 Standing

01:44:34.840 Right

01:44:35.100 Next

01:44:35.340 To

01:44:35.500 A

01:44:35.640 Pew

01:44:35.920 And

01:44:36.240 I

01:44:36.340 Had

01:44:36.500 My

01:44:36.720 Left

01:44:37.300 Arm

01:44:37.560 On

01:44:37.760 The

01:44:37.900 Pew

01:44:38.100 And

01:44:38.240 I

01:44:38.360 Positioned

01:44:38.840 My

01:44:38.980 Back

01:44:39.240 Foot

01:44:39.580 You

01:44:40.420 Know

01:44:40.560 Like

01:44:41.080 Where

01:44:41.380 I

01:44:41.660 Was

01:44:41.820 Bracing

01:44:42.460 Myself

01:44:42.840 There

01:44:43.040 Ain't

01:44:43.180 No

01:44:43.360 Way

01:44:43.500 I'm

01:44:43.640 Falling

01:44:44.020 Down

01:44:44.340 And

01:44:45.440 Man

01:44:45.660 Everyone

01:44:45.940 Dropping

01:44:46.840 Dropping

01:44:47.420 Dropping

01:44:47.740 Dropping

01:44:48.180 And

01:44:48.340 He

01:44:48.480 Gets

01:44:48.700 Up

01:44:48.860 To

01:44:48.960 Me

01:44:49.100 And

01:44:49.220 He

01:44:49.300 Stops

01:44:49.740 No

01:44:51.140 Lie

01:44:51.460 And

01:44:52.440 He

01:44:52.540 Says

01:44:52.820 This

01:44:53.760 Young

01:44:54.080 Man

01:44:54.420 Is

01:44:54.560 Going

01:44:54.700 To

01:45:01.760 I

01:45:02.600 Felt

01:45:03.180 I

01:45:04.860 Felt

01:45:05.200 Like

01:45:05.680 When

01:45:06.780 I

01:45:06.900 Woke

01:45:07.140 Up

01:45:07.480 Tears

01:45:09.520 Were

01:45:09.660 Coming

01:45:09.860 Down

01:45:10.220 My

01:45:10.400 Face

01:45:10.740 And

01:45:11.540 I

01:45:11.660 Felt

01:45:11.940 Like

01:45:12.300 I

01:45:13.100 Had

01:45:13.260 Just

01:45:13.420 Rinsed

01:45:13.760 My

01:45:13.940 Insides

01:45:14.480 Out

01:45:14.740 With

01:45:14.980 Listerine

01:45:15.580 Or

01:45:15.740 Scope

01:45:16.140 That's

01:45:16.560 How

01:45:16.640 My

01:45:16.800 Insides

01:45:17.360 Felt

01:45:17.720 I'll

01:45:18.280 Never

01:45:18.420 Forget

01:45:18.680 It

01:45:18.880 It's

01:45:19.340 A

01:45:19.440 True

01:45:19.600 Story

01:45:19.920 I

01:45:21.280 Tried

01:45:22.580 So

01:45:23.720 I

01:45:23.840 Don't

01:45:23.920 Know

01:45:24.060 What

01:45:24.340 How

01:45:25.300 He

01:45:25.460 Does

01:45:25.740 It

01:45:25.920 Or

01:45:26.200 You

01:45:26.460 Know

01:45:26.560 They

01:45:27.420 Call

01:45:27.600 It

01:45:27.680 The

01:45:27.780 Spirit

01:45:28.040 Of

01:45:28.200 God

01:45:28.460 But

01:45:30.180 It

01:45:30.760 Happened

01:45:31.180 and and and it happened that day and i felt it so i had experiences like that right uh happened

01:45:37.680 to me as a child did you believe that it did you believe that it had an effect on any of your did

01:45:45.400 you you believe that you remembered that over time or that part absolutely wow absolutely i think it

01:45:49.820 affected my ego uh and i and i think it was a part of somewhere back there a part of my drive

01:45:56.200 because i believed when i met mark and we started the band you were not convincing me that we weren't

01:46:04.680 going to be the biggest rock band in the world i knew it i already knew it right uh nobody else did

01:46:10.300 and there's a story and my band will tell you we had this drummer uh that kept not showing up uh for

01:46:18.620 or a bass player uh who kept not showing up for band practice uh and so i fired him and i said you just

01:46:25.940 missed out on being in the biggest rock band in the world and this is before we even played a show

01:46:30.140 wow that's that's my crazy but i was crazy right i was i was that guy but you have to maybe be that

01:46:38.640 i was crazy and i believed it um it was arrogant definitely an arrogant thing to say yeah but i

01:46:45.560 believed it i believed it in my heart um somebody has to believe it though and uh and and the guys i

01:46:51.780 think that conviction and that drive i think was contagious um and uh and and it happened for us

01:46:59.280 and and uh the odds of that yeah well i also think that that goes to you know a lot of people talk

01:47:07.200 about you know manifestation and speaking things into uh into existence and and whatnot and i don't know

01:47:14.000 about where i sit and what i feel about all that stuff but if i look back on my life a lot of that

01:47:21.200 played out you know a lot of that played out it sounds like it you know it's powerful i think about

01:47:27.120 all the time that i spend talking or running things in my head that are unhelpful to me not necessarily

01:47:33.900 negative because i do do much less like uh berating myself for things these days i'm not as hard on

01:47:40.240 myself i can notice when it's popping up but how much if i just woke up into the world and said this

01:47:47.280 is what i want you know this is what i would love this how few times do i have i done that in my life

01:47:56.620 right spoken out into the living existing world and then take action what my heart and not only

01:48:03.840 but also then get a feeling of what the actions to take are but yes and believe it and believe it

01:48:09.920 there was nobody that could tell me at the time different i had blinders on and if if you weren't

01:48:16.600 in tune with my vision i couldn't see you wow uh and uh you know it's crazy i was that crazy guy

01:48:24.160 i absolutely was that crazy guy and then i was ended up being that crazy guy in public quite a few times

01:48:30.160 yeah um but uh you know i think it takes a little bit of crazy uh like you like make it you had alluded

01:48:37.380 to uh to to make it and and to do what you got to do to make it yeah it's it's hard it's a hard it's

01:48:47.440 hard to make it yeah it's hard to make it it's hard to sustain it and it's so much once you have some

01:48:53.840 like because you want to get the most out of yourself you want to get the most out of the opportunity

01:48:58.820 you're for me you get scared of what steps you're supposed to take or what's supposed to be next

01:49:04.080 kind of that's one of the first things that happens i remember i got this god i don't say it

01:49:09.860 was like a god complex for a while but i got like this like guys would call into the podcast that were

01:49:15.040 struggling with stuff and i started thinking man god's using me i absolutely had the same thing to

01:49:21.900 help like yeah i'm some and it was it was awesome because i think some of it might have been true that god

01:49:27.700 was using me because i had a voice and there were people who struggled with the same stuff i did

01:49:33.000 but then part of me started it was like this is impossible i can't help every single person i can't

01:49:39.120 well i think part of part of why i had that complex for a number of years was because my abusive

01:49:45.220 stepfather had that complex and and then the types of churches that i went to imprinted that complex

01:49:52.200 on you really yeah i mean you don't i mean just with with everything that they they would tell you

01:49:59.740 uh about your destiny and about the plan and you know god has these enormous plans for your life and

01:50:06.000 he's going to use you to change the world i mean i'd be delusional if i thought that good point i was

01:50:12.320 the only one benny hen said that to yeah i bet he said it to all of them right you know what i mean so

01:50:17.020 if you say it to everybody you're going to get one right you know what i mean so i think i think

01:50:23.300 growing up in that time of of of jim baker and and benny hen and the evangelical movement

01:50:31.280 the assembly of god movement they were imprinting that destiny on young people's minds so that's

01:50:40.140 for everyone that did go on to do something that impacted um you know their community or or their

01:50:47.400 state or or the united states or the world if they were raised in that environment i'm sure they dealt

01:50:55.200 with a little bit of a god complex if they grew up the same way and was programmed is what i call it

01:51:01.900 the same way that i was programmed growing up yeah programming's wild man did you guys ever have

01:51:08.160 animalia come into the thing did y'all ever do like a because i went to one church where they had

01:51:12.480 i went to a church that did you ever see the guy uh they uh it was the crystal cathedral yes yeah yes

01:51:23.980 remember that one with robert uh schimmel uh no not robert schimmel no schuler schuler yes yeah with

01:51:29.940 schuler absolutely so those doors opened up on the back of the church i went i would go there

01:51:34.920 sometimes with this older lady that i knew and i met her on this boat actually but so we would go

01:51:41.900 and one time there's a lady sitting next to me the doors open up a butterfly comes in lands on this

01:51:47.220 old lady's face i mean just lands right in her makeup and i said to her i said hey you have a

01:51:52.560 butterfly in your face she goes oh that's my son she said he died in a car accident like 14 years ago

01:51:57.080 and today's his birthday and sometimes he comes and visits me when i come here wow it was just a

01:52:02.780 crazy experience but i remember that that was a church where uh where i took um where it was on

01:52:10.460 television and stuff yeah you know yeah um anyway uh i feel like we've talked about a pretty good bit

01:52:18.420 man do you think we sure have i've talked about things i've never talked about really yeah i've

01:52:24.920 never shared some of this stuff and i i think it's cool to that we've opened up these doors because it

01:52:31.620 it it can give me a perspective it's given me a unique perspective on how my mindset was uh at the

01:52:40.200 time and and we're all a product i guess of of how we were raised yeah um and and what was put inside

01:52:46.800 of us uh at our formative years i know and then we're all battling though it's like yeah it's like and

01:52:52.800 and then and then we get away and then we get to a point where we're like well who am i outside of

01:52:58.080 this right uh do i believe this because it was put in me since i was a child or am i choosing to

01:53:08.800 believe in this because it's really my choice uh and that's where for me i decided to go the polar

01:53:14.940 opposite direction uh for a time uh and paid the price you mean the polar opposite direction what not

01:53:21.580 doing music or not living that lifestyle oh not not living a lifestyle uh that i was raised in in

01:53:28.720 the christian world oh i see you know but did it make sense kind of like you know i used to rationalize

01:53:34.000 with god in my prayers and i'd say well god how am i supposed to help a drug addict if i don't become

01:53:41.400 a drug addict oh wow how am i supposed to help someone struggling with alcohol if i don't drink

01:53:48.160 and and you know and i used to rationalize that and and literally this was my prayers how am i

01:53:54.000 supposed to help someone with with with you know a problem with women if if if i don't right you know

01:54:00.120 if i don't date out here and get out and and and be that guy um and and that was my that was my

01:54:07.100 rationale to god god i'm doing you know god i'm doing this because i want to help people

01:54:12.480 yeah that's some bull crap isn't it right there yeah well it's just interesting how we could i'm

01:54:18.660 trying to think if i can relate to that um i can certainly relate to and i'm sure a lot of people

01:54:24.640 can have of like um knowing what i'm doing isn't good for me or right and continuing to do it yeah

01:54:34.580 you know i absolutely did that but for me having the the you know the the indoctrination that i had

01:54:43.820 how can i do this if i don't have the experience right right wow that's interesting right and i used

01:54:50.860 to use the reference of of of solomon in the bible in my prayers with god i was like i was like god you

01:54:58.660 know you made him the wisest man on the planet and he went out and did everything against you and

01:55:05.860 experienced everything under the sun you know worship other gods did every drug you know did

01:55:13.140 other religions and whatnot and and so i would use bible stories oh wow that i had reference to

01:55:19.980 discuss with god right as as like well god how am i supposed to do this you know what i mean and this

01:55:25.920 is when i was younger and and thought that i was supposed to be you know a preacher or have some

01:55:30.580 kind of spiritual calling on my life which i ended up on the flip side having happen anyway i did end up

01:55:38.720 you know having an impact for god right through my music yeah even though i ran the complete opposite

01:55:46.100 direction that's how we were talking about earlier right god will use you despite yourself um at least i

01:55:51.320 believe but the excuses that i used to make for sin damn were were incredible were incredible well

01:55:57.340 and also the fact that you thought that you had to you know like which i mean of course you do if you

01:56:01.420 have a relationship with god then you're gonna have to have some communication and even through all

01:56:05.340 that even through the darkest times in my life um i still would be communicating and talking with god

01:56:12.800 even even though i was living as far away from a life of someone who's a christian or someone who

01:56:20.000 is in in the church or someone who knows right and wrong i would still be in communication with god

01:56:26.340 um and make you know trying to rationalize you know what i was doing um it was really really really

01:56:34.820 really was it painful really dark place i bet really not a good place uh to be in and uh a place that i

01:56:42.360 never want to go back to yeah yeah because you're almost playing hide and go seek with who you really

01:56:48.460 want to be and stuff right oh well you're not being authentic oh dude i remember i would be i what i

01:56:54.880 hated was just praying god if you if if you just let me live through this night if i was really messed

01:57:02.340 up you know high on drugs i'd be like if you just let me live through this night i'll never do this

01:57:06.760 again and i mean praying that harder than i'd ever prayed anything and you believed it oh i believed it

01:57:12.240 but then once it came around again i would see yeah right it would be certainly yeah i'd freak well

01:57:17.240 it's crazy how quick i'd forget about that deal i made right 100 it's interesting man being alive

01:57:22.900 is interesting man and uh and having unique journeys is uh interesting man and you certainly had a lot

01:57:28.480 of that um what's what's what's your passion now uh scott like where do you find yourself like with

01:57:35.660 music where do you find yourself obviously being a father is very important to you yeah um yeah that's

01:57:40.540 that's a big passion of mine is just being a father and being involved in my kids lives

01:57:44.680 um of course music i love the creative process i love writing songs um i've realized that that

01:57:52.780 that is probably one of the most fulfilling uh things in my life is that creative moment where

01:58:00.240 inspiration comes and then the excitement afterwards uh you know it's it's something i i crave and that i

01:58:08.380 want uh on a regular basis um you know the the fame and the uh everything that comes with that is not

01:58:18.000 something that's even on my radar um it's not something that you know motivates me uh or something that i seek

01:58:26.220 uh i just seek to be creative um and and chase that's my new drug you know that's my new alcohol

01:58:35.380 chase chase that inspiration um and then also feeling it on stage when i perform but it's

01:58:42.440 interesting about fame to go back to like how much you you guys have me you could only have so much

01:58:47.520 like there's not even any other levels of you know fame even feels like this thing where it's like you

01:58:52.620 can get more you can but it's like there's only so much you can have it's like your recognizable name

01:58:58.640 like your band was one of the biggest bands you played at the super bowl like i ended up being a

01:59:03.880 prisoner in my own home couldn't go anywhere really yeah just because of yeah i had to have

01:59:09.400 uh 24-hour armed security really yeah live in uh there were there were death threats coming from

01:59:18.060 religious extremists and there were death threats coming from like satan worshipers or or people who

01:59:25.280 people who thought i was the antichrist or or it was crazy man i didn't i didn't have to deal with it

01:59:30.880 yeah um and so uh it was it was not what i thought it was going to be from that standpoint

01:59:37.980 now on the road in the arenas you know on the the television performances in the big stages it was

01:59:46.380 it was incredible it was everything i had thought it's manageable yeah yeah um but off the road it was

01:59:52.040 a very lonely uh experience and it probably creates a lot of paranoia too i would bet 100 percent

01:59:57.820 that you don't even notice paranoia growing well i i remember i remember uh you know when those

02:00:03.560 death threats came in and and my management told me that they were credible um i remember walking off

02:00:09.640 stage one time and having this massive anxiety because there were all these red pin lights pointed

02:00:14.400 at my heart you know and so we banned laser lights from arenas wow because i was so traumatized because

02:00:23.120 how do you deal with that oh it'd be so scary i mean i still had a mattress shared with my bass player

02:00:28.140 in tallahassee you you know what i mean in an apartment it was like a thousand bucks a month

02:00:32.920 and we're playing arenas i'm not prepared for that kind of stuff yeah you know so i didn't handle it too

02:00:38.800 well god you know was there ever a point where like any of the satanists came at you like actually

02:00:44.800 like broke into your home or in you know no or lit a sheep on fire i did have someone and i lived in a

02:00:51.360 gated secured community um and had um live-in armed security at the time and someone did get over

02:01:01.480 the fence and did show up at my door barefoot in a dress man or woman woman she had a stack of

02:01:09.540 papers to prove to me that i was the father of her four children at the time i was

02:01:18.580 probably 26 and her kids were like 22 19 18 and 17 so i was their father so maybe the 17 year old

02:01:30.280 and yeah right and jim morrison was our father so we were brother and sister wow yeah did you sit

02:01:39.240 out and talk about it with her for at least no i had to i had to i had to close the door and call

02:01:42.980 security because i mean i had my my baby son in my arms oh yeah you know it was so it was uh

02:01:48.340 it was scary huh yeah it was it was definitely a interesting story and situation was it scary how

02:01:55.080 fast you went from being just like a guy who is playing music and has his own goals and dreams and

02:02:00.720 your band does to this other echelon thing like did that happen extremely fast extremely fast wow

02:02:06.800 that's unbelievable yeah because you can't go back there's no i mean that's an elevator that you

02:02:11.660 can't really go back right and we loved it i mean we loved it uh at the time but looking back

02:02:18.320 not i was not emotionally capable uh or built or prepared to handle everything that was thrown at me

02:02:27.080 i can totally relate to that you you know what i mean yeah and uh and so because of not having those

02:02:32.580 tools i you know i just bounced around and and and uh handled it the best i could and that wasn't good

02:02:39.340 enough at times you still did a great job i mean it may have not been yeah i guess in the ways that

02:02:46.820 it wasn't good enough it wasn't good enough as what like a co-worker kind of stuff just just how i dealt

02:02:52.780 with things yeah um you know yeah in excess yeah um and a lot of that i think was to was to initially

02:03:01.080 you know to mask uh you know whatever fear or anxiety or or insecurity or just wanting to have

02:03:10.120 a good time all of that oh totally um and uh you know didn't end well you know i mean it's it's gone

02:03:18.760 good overall overall but i'm sure there was a lot of stuff but i'm just saying you know it it's uh

02:03:25.100 it can definitely play with you and i and i think you know i'm not the only artist who who would tell

02:03:30.420 this story uh you know in any genre in any work i don't in any right right um because who's really

02:03:39.800 built for that uh you know it's so young i mean i'm sure there are some you know like right and they

02:03:46.840 still struggle well especially not i don't think guys like you and me i think that are probably have

02:03:53.480 similar traumas from you being when you say you don't have you're not emotionally built

02:03:58.160 that's totally what i can relate to i still feel that way man oh yeah i still feel like today that

02:04:04.340 i'm i look at i'll look at other families and i'll look at other dads um and i'll be like man

02:04:10.820 i'm still not where i need to be really i'm still yeah i'm still not at least i feel that way about

02:04:18.780 myself i'm still not emotionally and and maturity wise where i need to be and where i want to be

02:04:26.280 um and what would your kids say about you what do my kids what would they say you think would they

02:04:32.640 agree with that i don't know just curious kind of like you know like what a kid's perception

02:04:38.860 would be what of what the dad thinks of themselves you know i think my three at home

02:04:42.460 uh would say i'm a good dad and i love them and and uh they feel loved by me and that i'm present

02:04:49.940 and i'm there and i think that's all i can be that's a lot you know yeah i'd love a lot of people

02:04:59.620 would love that i'm trying to think of this one oh was there did you ever get to work with like

02:05:04.640 kurt cobain or anything like that no i got to work for you doors you got to work with the doors yes

02:05:09.480 with jim warson i did no no no he had passed unfortunately but the remaining member of the

02:05:14.600 doors which is just like i mean it's it's crazy to imagine uh that i got to go rehearse in la

02:05:21.940 for a gig on vh1 with the remaining members of the doors and then record some songs with them play

02:05:28.200 with them on television uh and i'm you know just thinking back i was 18 watching you know the doors

02:05:35.440 movie uh at a buddy's house and and jim morrison and the band you know they were an idol to me

02:05:42.540 and then years later getting a chance to jam with them i mean it's just it's insane it's insane

02:05:48.480 but it was it was an incredible experience it was good was there an artist that you wanted to play

02:05:54.800 with you that you didn't get to you too yeah yeah dude i got i went to a mtv like movie awards

02:06:02.960 something one time i get out of the car that i'm in and people are like going insane right and i

02:06:08.020 thought it was for me right and then i realized that i'm walking right next to bono and i'm like

02:06:12.360 ah shit yeah exactly hey i forgot four seconds i got to be bono though like i had no idea you got

02:06:20.260 to feel the love oh people are going crazy i was like this is i'm doing good that's awesome and i

02:06:25.360 look then i realized it was him that is awesome yeah that is awesome yeah that would be exceptional

02:06:30.280 who knows though man who knows what the future holds right who knows man yeah anything is possible

02:06:34.200 yeah it is yeah um scott snap i appreciate you so much coming by man yeah i'd love to we'll have to

02:06:39.480 catch up sometime yeah man we're not uh you got my number i got your number yeah we've text

02:06:44.020 so yeah don't be a stranger man stay in touch i'd love to grab a meal or uh yeah man just spend more

02:06:50.480 time just chatting about this kind of stuff yeah appreciate your time man good to be here thanks

02:06:55.200 for having me

02:06:55.700 now i'm just floating on the breeze and i feel i'm falling like these leaves i must be cornerstone

02:07:05.200 oh but when i reach that ground i'll share this peace of mind i found i can feel it

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