This Past Weekend with Theo Von - Trick Lung Mickey's One Year Transplantaversary Extravaganza ｜ This Past Weekend #197

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00:00:07.500 And a while back, you know, they had a man named Mickey.

00:00:13.540 And he had cystic fibrosis.

00:00:15.600 And that's when your lungs just, they don't want to be lungs anymore.

00:00:19.280 And they start looking for the Lord.

00:00:21.140 But you still need them.

00:00:23.540 And Mickey got on the transplant list.

00:00:25.820 And we became associated with him here this past weekend.

00:00:28.440 And now it has been one year since Trick Lung Mickey got them new body bags, them lungs, you know.

00:00:39.440 And this is the Transplantiversary Extravaganza.

00:00:44.920 So Trick Lung Mickey's Uno Año Con El Aero Bolsas airbags.

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00:01:39.400 And today's guest, it's been a year after his lung transplant.

00:01:44.560 We're going to learn a little bit about his journey with cystic fibrosis and just get to see him here today in the flesh.

00:01:52.180 Ladies and gentlemen, Trick Long Mickey

00:01:55.020 I've been there, dude

00:02:10.420 I did probably about

00:02:11.680 Most people did Purbity in a couple of months

00:02:14.080 I bet eight years of Purbity, bruh

00:02:16.700 Eight years?

00:02:18.380 Yeah, dude, I was a slow guy

00:02:20.440 like you could hear like one hair like on a mustache and then you know three weeks later

00:02:26.200 i get you man i still feel like i'm still going through you really like a second one

00:02:30.340 so what happened so so coming to that we got tricklong mickey here right now and uh

00:02:34.720 man thanks for being here uh with us today man of course man thank you very much for having me

00:02:39.920 appreciate it mickey and i've been in communication with each other for maybe i guess probably about

00:02:44.060 20 months

00:02:45.960 and

00:02:47.140 you

00:02:48.340 this is a

00:02:49.080 one year now

00:02:49.940 you have

00:02:50.420 since you had a lung transplant

00:02:51.540 because you had cystic fibrosis

00:02:53.040 yeah that's right man

00:02:53.840 that's right

00:02:54.520 so you got basically

00:02:55.160 I mean it's almost like

00:02:55.720 getting a set of nuts

00:02:56.760 in your chest

00:02:57.360 does it feel like that

00:02:58.140 no not nuts

00:02:59.620 but definitely something

00:03:00.760 like air nuts

00:03:01.660 yeah I would say

00:03:03.240 I mean

00:03:03.720 dude we could get to

00:03:04.960 the whole sexual thing later

00:03:05.940 but it's definitely

00:03:06.860 something like nuts

00:03:07.680 I got more testosterone

00:03:08.540 for sure

00:03:09.120 really

00:03:09.480 for sure

00:03:09.980 yeah

00:03:10.380 you seem so different

00:03:12.160 than the last time

00:03:12.800 that I saw you man

00:03:13.580 because when i saw you yeah tell me in tacoma i thought you were gonna you know maybe die

00:03:19.160 you know you thought you were i didn't just think you were you said you might i mean i think that

00:03:24.020 people were rumoring in the crowd when we were there like kind of a little bit nervous yeah

00:03:28.200 no i'd have felt that too like oh man because i had that you remember how we would talk about

00:03:32.760 my skin just looked it looked a little mal off yeah you're a little jaundice yeah little jaundice

00:03:39.780 like my eyes were dark and i was just light light skinned yeah you know and i mean i'm half filipino

00:03:45.520 so there's something like that that plays into it but i guess what i'm getting at is i didn't look

00:03:50.020 the best for sure man yeah the best well yeah i mean you just seemed like you were going through

00:03:54.520 it i mean i remember like you couldn't you know i didn't ask you too many questions because you

00:03:58.520 get caught up in a long sentence and you just you know you had to like take a break you know you had

00:04:03.340 to like hold on to somebody's shoulder almost to get through a long sentence you know you were

00:04:06.340 limited air yeah it was tough man I mean limited everything yeah limited participation in life

00:04:12.240 right man was it really absolutely man I remember the first Theo I just want to tell you man one of

00:04:18.440 the first things that you said that I knew was really important to me you know there's a lot

00:04:23.860 of people I've talked to about this but I remember you asked specifically you said what's the most

00:04:27.700 difficult thing that you deal with with cystic fibrosis and I said the isolation yeah and first

00:04:33.520 of all man no one's ever asked me that beforehand really no one had no no man that's how i knew i

00:04:39.180 was talking to someone who and i know that you got a sister who's done a liver transplant correct

00:04:44.540 yeah she had a liver transplant growing up and i remember your skin tone i mean you guys almost

00:04:48.580 looked a little bit similar then you know uh because there's just something like yeah there's

00:04:54.740 this jaundice kind of thing takes over the body i guess or something you know yeah man i think that

00:05:00.040 you know your body just attempts to take care of itself in the only way that it knows how to

00:05:04.960 yeah right and i guess what i'm trying to say is that i mean you don't really focus on your

00:05:09.960 aesthetic right you don't really you're just trying to live you're just trying to live in

00:05:14.060 regard to the participation thing man is that dude when people are watching the ball game or

00:05:18.520 something like that and when people talk about issues that they're having in life are you really

00:05:23.280 thinking about someone with cystic fibrosis at the end stage you're thinking about how do i value

00:05:28.860 the life that i got right now right with the with the current physical ability that i have yeah

00:05:33.900 right because it's so limited you can't participate man you can't even and and there's things like for

00:05:39.280 instance that the drugs or the medicine made me half deaf for instance my my left ear don't work

00:05:43.780 so there's like there's certain things that you pay this price for where you can't literally

00:05:49.040 participate as well in life and you see other people doing it and there is man it's hard to

00:05:55.460 admit this there's a sense of um envy there's a sense of jealousy there so you get jealous of

00:06:02.720 people who are able to live comfortably dude people that would talk about how oh you know

00:06:09.020 man you know traffic's so shady or whatever whatever it is too tired i remember thinking

00:06:13.660 sometimes i'm too tired to finish like a big piece of cake or something and you must be like

00:06:17.720 this guy that's crazy dude yeah this guy over here that you'd be talking he can't eat man dude

00:06:24.740 it was and this is real theo this is real dude too cute with a sugar dude my neck's in a puff 0.57

00:06:31.420 this is super real you would eat so much that my stomach would push on my diaphragm and it would

00:06:36.900 become harder to breathe because of eating and and then on top of that they're also saying like

00:06:42.380 hey to get the transplant you gotta hit a certain bmi so it's like think of it like this man cystic

00:06:48.080 fibrosis in general i mean but really so at end stage um you're walking up a mountain and as you're

00:06:56.680 walking up just put a half pound on every mile let's just say right and it gets harder you know

00:07:03.900 you're you're in there you're thinking you're halfway through it's gonna get harder and harder

00:07:09.000 and harder man there's no there's no those weights don't come off you know right so you're saying oh

00:07:14.080 Oh, so as the cystic fibrosis goes on, as the time goes on that you have it, it gets

00:07:18.860 just, everything gets tougher.

00:07:20.740 Dude, so, yeah, it's degenerative and debilitating.

00:07:24.160 It's degenerative.

00:07:25.740 So for people that don't know, it's a disease that's in your lungs, right?

00:07:28.820 That's right.

00:07:29.280 You got, your bags were what, full of water?

00:07:31.420 What happens to them?

00:07:32.060 No, man, so I'll let you know.

00:07:33.200 So it's in the pancreas as well as your lungs.

00:07:36.380 I mean, it's even in like the vas deferens, man, you know.

00:07:39.300 The nuts, what is that?

00:07:40.680 Your nut wiring.

00:07:41.420 Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:07:42.240 No, you're right, man.

00:07:43.300 Oh, yeah.

00:07:43.620 did you take anatomy how did you know that no but i used to look up pornographic stuff when i didn't 0.85

00:07:47.860 have any i'd look up the just charts of penis and vagina and the history in the factual books

00:07:54.020 yeah i remember seeing that vast deference dude we learned in different ways but but i know about

00:07:58.100 that though yeah what you're talking i think i read it in a book too but for different purposes

00:08:02.580 yeah yeah but we're here so so so you have that so you had that disease and i remember when i

00:08:06.740 saw you last you were on the transplant list and you were going through it now this is the first

00:08:11.700 time i met you right here and if you're watching on youtube you can see uh that's over there in

00:08:15.860 tacoma and i remember you telling me this like you had a couple of buddies that came with you

00:08:20.420 same jacket that i'm wearing right now huh it's cool though yeah dude i wear this almost every

00:08:24.180 single day i don't like wearing a lot of different stuff it's just too hard to find it

00:08:28.180 like around your own house or whatever um but then so you you had it there and i thought you

00:08:34.900 look like ralph machio a little bit or ralph unmachio you know because you couldn't move that

00:08:39.220 good and um and you said this about a couple of friends you had there i remember you said

00:08:45.020 man it's kind of crazy because uh you know it's like you feel like when you

00:08:50.800 when people hang out with you that they it was hard for them not to treat you different oh yeah

00:08:57.180 yeah for sure man i mean especially when you're at an end stage disease man you're you're living

00:09:03.420 on the cusp of literally dying oh frank sayonara they call you frank sayonara dude sayonara i mean

00:09:10.600 you if you get a cold right like it's literally you might be on your death you might be dead yeah

00:09:16.280 right and so and you have oh you looked like you weren't gonna live dude when i saw you i would

00:09:20.760 have bet you weren't gonna live dude honestly and i would never say that i say that now that you're

00:09:24.180 alive can we go into some moments let's go into some moments just to drop this on everybody how

00:09:29.540 you and I know each other, Mickey, right here.

00:09:31.920 Yeah, yeah, absolutely.

00:09:33.240 This is from his first voicemail.

00:09:35.620 Hey, yo, Theo, man.

00:09:36.980 This is Mickey calling from Seattle.

00:09:39.580 So here's my situation, man.

00:09:41.300 I'm 30 years old,

00:09:43.200 and I'm currently at the end stage of a lung disease.

00:09:47.960 Now, my current lungs don't have very long left,

00:09:51.280 probably about two and a half years.

00:09:53.080 Hopefully we can stretch them out.

00:09:54.380 But the silver lining is that I'm going to be soon

00:09:59.420 on the lung transplant list.

00:10:01.460 I'm hoping.

00:10:02.140 I'm going to get listed,

00:10:03.160 which will give me a few more years

00:10:04.500 to figure this whole thing out. 0.99

00:10:05.940 That's fucking tricky Mickey, dude. 0.99

00:10:08.420 You know? 0.99

00:10:09.680 He's got them tricky airbags inside of him.

00:10:12.880 You know, he's got two and a half years

00:10:14.460 left on his lungs.

00:10:15.180 He's got them leased.

00:10:15.960 He's got them leased lungs.

00:10:18.380 You know, and I had a bad lease on a car

00:10:20.040 a couple years back.

00:10:21.280 And it's not the same thing,

00:10:22.300 but, you know, I only got so many miles.

00:10:25.280 I can only drive...

00:10:25.920 I got 4,000 miles a year on a lease.

00:10:29.420 and Jesus it uh it was miserable okay and I wonder how so that's when you first called in

00:10:38.220 and then let's go to a next uh clip here how many miles do you think I had my lungs though dude

00:10:42.040 I don't know I don't know man dude I was running 300 plus were you K plus oh it had to be man we

00:10:48.340 were at the fumes that point you had nothing yeah I remember you just kind of giving up during

00:10:52.460 sentences you had a little guy there you would almost kind of hit him and he'd finish the

00:10:56.060 sentence for you what else do we have here's another so that first call was from february

00:11:00.140 1st 2018 and then you guys met in tacoma and this was about a month after that you sound like

00:11:05.040 you got them trumpets rolling man are you feeling okay today yeah absolutely man dude i've i'm

00:11:12.560 living life man on a scale of uh one to ten man i'm living at about an 8.5 right now feel

00:11:17.680 life is good that's beautiful man and but now i've seen some stuff on your instagram and stuff

00:11:23.160 that you've been in the hospital and i know like we kind of texted a little bit about it the last

00:11:27.240 i saw you you you know you were in tacoma you were doing good i know you were on the transplant list

00:11:32.580 um what like what's what happened man it's so crazy feel man i'll try to keep it simple and

00:11:40.360 short but you know man at where i'm at with my lung with cystic fibrosis the disease i have

00:11:45.860 at end stage things can go down very quickly and that is exactly what happened man i ended up

00:11:54.020 not to get too graphic i ended up coughing up a lot of blood man and what happened was um

00:11:59.320 the the scare was that i wasn't going to be able to do it myself uh it caught up so basically i

00:12:06.900 had to get into the icu man and and uh i went through a very life-changing event man and and

00:12:12.540 And if I'm really frank, and I don't mean to pull on any heartstrings here, but, yeah, man, me and my family, we really didn't know if I was going to make it or not, man.

00:12:23.460 And I've since been out of the hospital for about a week and a half now.

00:12:29.280 And it's just changed my perspectives, man.

00:12:31.400 I'm really, I'm thankful for it all.

00:12:33.760 And you know what?

00:12:34.460 I'm on the upswing, man.

00:12:35.620 And I am on the transplant list.

00:12:37.780 And any day now, those lungs will be coming in, man.

00:12:40.240 No way, really.

00:12:41.280 And after this event, Theo, dude, I mean, I've never felt so loved.

00:12:47.580 It's so crazy that such a traumatic and tragic experience on the other side of the coin, man, it brings people together.

00:12:55.700 That's what I've learned to another level.

00:12:59.200 And for me, even being out of it here for the past 10 days or so, like I said, I guess maybe I'm riding off that high.

00:13:06.820 I don't know, but I've never felt more loved.

00:13:10.260 and i i'm physically weaker than i used to be uh but i've never been in a a better more clear space

00:13:20.100 mentally and emotionally man okay so right there so at that point you hear yourself now looking

00:13:25.240 back and you you felt like it really brought people together to another level do you still

00:13:29.320 feel that like about your family and stuff like that dude that's hard to even see sometimes when

00:13:33.440 i just watched is it a little bit why yeah not like hard bad but it's uh dude because i think

00:13:40.100 tomorrow theo i actually now that i'm even realizing it because i've known it past couple

00:13:45.600 months tomorrow's the the anniversary one year the one year right and i think i would actually give

00:13:51.560 theo man i i would i want to answer that question i'll come back to that because it's it's it's

00:13:56.340 impacted greatly i think my relationships and family and whatnot but i mean i used to

00:14:03.320 share that video with people that were in the cardiothoracic icu like a person who had i remember

00:14:10.440 a young man and he he was waiting for a heart transplant and they didn't know if he was going

00:14:16.000 to get it or not and i remember he would walk by so at this we're at the rehab uh facility

00:14:22.180 we're basically doing laps man because we got to work our cardio right if you don't use it you lose

00:14:27.560 it type thing especially right when it's brand new you gotta you gotta use it you gotta get this

00:14:33.640 acclimated with this right anyway so i remember this man and he might not get a transplant he

00:14:39.060 might not get his heart and he'll he'll die and i remember sending him that video and telling him

00:14:43.800 hey man this happened that video man that happened my call with you was like one to two weeks before

00:14:49.800 my transplant i think it was one week before the day before the transplant you guys had a text

00:14:55.380 exchange and you read that on the podcast okay i got a text from him today he and this is indefinite

00:15:01.980 but i shouldn't share but you know what i'm gonna share them keep some hope out there he is on he

00:15:07.760 is scheduled to get some lungs tomorrow so how crazy is that boy he might get them new ballast 0.90

00:15:14.920 bruh he might be running around on them new freaking inner titties you feel me them air

00:15:19.760 titties them lungs and so he said he'll know definitely in the morning i'll read you the text 0.93

00:15:25.520 that came in he said bro i just read what uh no he goes surgery scheduled for two oh donor just

00:15:32.480 came in man crossing my fingers new hitters that's what he said i said no way he goes surgery

00:15:39.600 scheduled for tomorrow barring that they're safe for me and that no one else may need them more

00:15:44.380 than me and that shows you what those transplant lists are like i mean here he is goes to bed

00:15:49.980 and you know and he don't know if when he wakes up in the morning if somebody else will have come

00:15:55.220 along and something will have happened to them and now those hitters won't be there for him

00:15:59.580 and guess who it is it's a man who od'd who overdosed

00:16:03.440 oh we're living in a wild whirlpool aren't we we're living in a wild whirlpool yeah i remember

00:16:13.720 that now man dude there's so much there some of this yeah man there's a lot going on there yeah

00:16:18.740 there's so much to unpack yeah man this whole year's been about that and some very real stuff

00:16:25.440 take me to that so so you're going in with your family you know like and before that you had some

00:16:30.480 really real moments with your family and it brought you guys closer together you said oh

00:16:33.480 absolutely man so that the call before right where i was speaking with you and i was i was

00:16:38.800 intubated i had that a tube shoved down my throat to be able to breathe i came out of that i remember

00:16:45.500 my dad looking at me and telling me he goes because you changed you changed and not in a

00:16:50.940 negative way but he was really inspired i could tell and what happened was i mean i was i was

00:16:56.460 filled with love you know you you can't i believe that i'm in a really unique scenario where i've

00:17:01.920 been on my theo dude i was on my deathbed okay and in three weeks you gotta live life again

00:17:09.680 and it's wild man it's so it's surreal it's crazy it's scary it's full of anxiety you almost feel

00:17:17.400 like you let some people down a little bit by not dying like not in a messed up way i know that

00:17:23.000 sounds crazy man but is that crazy no i don't think it's crazy but what i'm trying to say is

00:17:27.780 do you feel like that you could never you know the big finish is to die jesus man i want to know

00:17:36.040 how i want to get back to that because i want to know how you die so many people want to know that

00:17:39.840 about you well we don't get to that later but but what i'm saying is is there a thing there that

00:17:44.400 like man it's like yeah almost there is i know for some patients that they have a guilt yeah guilt

00:17:50.460 yeah that's what i'm talking about you can't that yeah you can't ever see it all the way through

00:17:54.360 you know it's like yeah yeah you know there was one person it was one person and one only and

00:17:59.220 that was my this sounds it's funny you joke around about like this dude he's i went in there i get

00:18:05.280 the call i say okay what do you guys want me to do they go a 1900 7 p.m 1900 you come into the

00:18:11.420 hospital they're all of a sudden military they try to trick you they want you to be there late 0.96

00:18:14.260 that's insurance man you get there two hours late you don't get the fucking deal they don't have to 0.92

00:18:18.440 pay for it what is a 1900 yeah this is time not years so anyway it getting getting back at it so 0.93

00:18:25.520 i'm like okay what do you guys want me to do and they said just live your life till normal it was

00:18:29.520 10 a.m man it was 10 a.m and i remember i guess okay i guess i'll go get some tacos and go get

00:18:34.620 my hair cut and chill out until 7 p.m yeah so now do you get the hair cut because you are for what 0.93

00:18:40.680 you're thinking in case you don't make it you're completely damn it no i was thinking totally i 0.94

00:18:47.260 was gonna make that would have been smarter though man well it looks super fresh some freak 0.99

00:18:55.420 who doesn't care about you cut your hair down at the you know at the freaking would you die with 0.94

00:18:59.100 that haircut would you let yourself die with that haircut yeah i probably would i mean i'd have 0.88

00:19:02.840 somebody tighten it up a little bit maybe put a little bit of maybe thickener in the back it's

00:19:06.780 funny you say that let me let me let me get to that real fast i went there specifically thinking

00:19:10.820 i'm gonna be in the hospital for maybe two to three months let me get a good haircut and i want

00:19:15.360 to get i want to get something short because i had like shaggy hair and i wanted to to be able

00:19:18.740 to breathe because you can't shower with all that gear right and i was prepared i was prepping and i

00:19:23.560 remember the exchange that i had for my with my barber at the time the guy who's cutting my hair

00:19:27.600 i said um hey man i want it short i need i need one on the edges and i want to take it take it all

00:19:32.160 off uh to about like a quarter inch and he goes hey man are you sure about that i said yeah it's

00:19:36.700 fine don't worry about it he goes what's the occasion what are you doing i said i might be

00:19:40.400 in the hospital here for about two months getting a double lung transplant and he said um oh okay

00:19:46.980 word all right and i had then realized at that moment i go oh you know some people do and don't

00:19:54.520 get it you know it it was very blasé it was very blasé it was what was what do you mean his his

00:20:01.580 reaction more or less kind of like oh okay we're gonna drop double lung transplant right and it's

00:20:06.080 not don't get me wrong i don't want to get there's any expectation on that end but it's more to say

00:20:10.380 a lot of people don't know man a lot of people don't know like someone had to die for me to live

00:20:18.220 yeah again like there's so much to unpack but it's like a lot of people don't realize the intensity

00:20:24.680 of the scenario at all right you know again whether it's rebirth and living anew or whether

00:20:30.820 it's one person had to die over an overdose you can't die in any single way man if someone stabbed

00:20:35.980 you in the lungs we ain't getting those lungs dude yeah no one wants those lungs man sorry

00:20:40.220 dude we don't want punctured lungs you have to die very very circumstantially yeah a lot of

00:20:45.700 motorcycle accidents yes those guys give them up a lot a lot of people decapitation stuff like that

00:20:51.200 um yeah man it's really you know this guy overdosed his head who got yours huh that's right

00:20:59.140 that's right now this is all over the place but let me go back to this where

00:21:03.340 so i could imagine say you you know you're not sure if you're going to be alive right and only

00:21:08.620 talk about this candidly with you because you you know and when we've discussed this kind of stuff

00:21:11.920 you've been pretty candid about most of it you know and really insightful in some moments let

00:21:16.120 me ask you do don't you think in my position i think you would be like you have to be right what

00:21:21.200 i gotta be candid man there's no there's no use for feeling like i don't know that's what i'm

00:21:25.820 trying to figure out like you know like that's what i'm you know like like whenever you're

00:21:32.680 talking with your family before it's like we i feel like i i would worry that i'd make all these

00:21:36.740 promises my family man if i only had an extra week you know we would do this and this and this and

00:21:41.120 i promise i would always be like this and then you get the transplant you get the extra weeks 0.99

00:21:46.800 and you're just like oh fuck it we got time to kill now you know like not in a bad way but just 0.98

00:21:52.380 like you know that's human nature oh man but it ain't human nature for me right right at least at 0.99

00:21:58.660 least in my perspective because you know again man it's it's a perspective thing you've i've always

00:22:04.640 been for lack of better words held down by health man i would have plans dude i've got big plans

00:22:11.320 these days with life right and the number one thing that always stopped me was health right

00:22:16.580 at 13 14 years old i was facing a daily dose of mortality every single day and now now i don't man

00:22:26.000 and do other people get tired of hearing about that whenever you're young like take me what's

00:22:29.480 what's what's some of that like like what is that like you know um what is some of that like

00:22:37.840 yeah because like you used to say when your sister was sick she got all the attention and

00:22:42.160 you were kind of resentful yeah like so like you being the center of attention did you ever feel

00:22:46.200 that from anybody no man yeah people know it's weird dude i mean nick that's a great question i

00:22:53.200 think that if i'm real with you man this is this is a bit vulnerable but i actually it's hard for

00:23:01.500 me to say especially on something like this but i actually don't feel like i receive i receive a

00:23:05.660 ton of love right i don't feel a lot of it i don't feel a lot of it and um and i don't think

00:23:13.920 that's necessarily because of the fact that i've taken wrong turns in life necessarily but it's

00:23:19.400 more of um again man i spoke about the whole participating in life aspect of things there's

00:23:25.160 a depth that i have and i don't know whether it's cf related or not maybe it's just my mind i don't

00:23:30.420 know but a lot of people can't level with and so when i go out in the world that i and i see

00:23:35.880 however the world i see right like i wonder why people people aren't taking their own face into

00:23:42.060 their own hands man like i i like i said uniquely enough i have this at 31 years old i have this

00:23:47.880 unique experience to live life again and realize okay this is what i'm not gonna do you know what

00:23:52.580 i'm not gonna do i ain't gonna work 40 hours a week dude i i it's in the sense of like working

00:23:58.260 for someone i'm trying to get out of that i'll pay my time cool whatever right but you got to

00:24:02.960 realize fast man like what is important to you and all these types of things man what is important

00:24:07.880 what do you want to do in life i never had a bucket list but i have things that i want to

00:24:10.960 achieve right and now i feel like i have that ability to do so regarding the attention i don't

00:24:18.460 feel like i receive it in a way that i can process and feel it man it's just it gets hard i don't

00:24:28.340 think that they come from a perspective that that maybe is relative to mine and it gets hard it's

00:24:36.300 why because you like people just can't understand what it's like to feel like you like your life

00:24:41.660 might be ending or like like why like what do you mean ah you know when i i mean it's a hard

00:24:46.700 question to answer when i really think about it man i think it's just because the fact that i get

00:24:51.200 a lot of people trying to solve my problems or talk about theirs and again being in the perspectives

00:24:56.580 i'm like dude i can't talk to you about your at&t boo right you know i can't talk to you i can i'll

00:25:01.560 sit there all all okay you know i'll have the small talk right right but but what there's bigger

00:25:07.700 fish to fry it's it's just that but people don't realize that you know what if i can can i cuss on 0.99

00:25:12.840 this shit man like dude who the fuck cares yeah that's what i'm saying about your att bill or 0.99

00:25:17.180 or whatever's going on dude like why do you care so much yeah because i'm gonna tell you this man 1.00

00:25:23.100 when you live on the cusp of that when you face your mortality every single day oh yeah you'll 0.98

00:25:26.800 start to realize real fast this shit doesn't matter dude your traffic jam at work man it's 0.99

00:25:31.980 so this is so cliche and so stupid i apologize for saying it you're lucky you could be that 1.00

00:25:36.080 traffic jam dude there are people in the hospital right now dude who are having a hard time there 0.99

00:25:40.700 are people in bumper to bumper with between the lord and the devil they don't know what's going

00:25:44.340 on right man that's a jesus that's uh but but yes man and it's crazy to think of life like that i

00:25:50.600 know we can't all think like that but to step out of ourselves i think that i just have a lot of

00:25:55.860 friends who aren't able to yeah you know i have a lot of loved ones well a lot of people probably

00:26:01.360 just can't it must just be that we're not wired then to do it that way you know we're just wired

00:26:05.960 to you know see it how we see it in the perception that we're in you know and once we get into

00:26:11.660 another position then we can see it it's like i can only see the earth the way it is but if i'm

00:26:15.640 an astronaut or something if i'm out there buzzing you know or aldrin or whatever then you can see

00:26:21.420 then you get a glimpse of the earth it gives you a whole different perception of what's going on

00:26:25.580 so you get that by being able to you know kind of go to those depths of not knowing what your clock

00:26:31.080 is but a lot of the rest of us we just don't get that sister fibrosis it gave me that man yeah but

00:26:37.340 how do you get but but does that start to affect you more because people can't relate to you now

00:26:42.080 because you're coming from a place where you're like you know you know you're at the you're at

00:26:47.840 the post office yelling we don't need to be doing this and other people are just trying to get their

00:26:52.260 mail out you know v is crazy like it doesn't matter you know like i mean is there is there

00:26:57.300 a tough is it tough to like re-enter society kind of a little bit it's interesting you say that man

00:27:03.840 i will never talk about it like i know what this is like what i'm about to say but i can see how

00:27:09.080 it would be relative to someone coming someone coming out of the penitentiary for a while oh

00:27:12.760 wow i mean i again or maybe coming back from war yeah you know um maybe not having ptsd in a

00:27:21.580 different way man i've had to let you know a little bit about my story theo man um and i've

00:27:27.420 had like i grew up with nine other cystic fibrosis patients you know i was in and out of seattle

00:27:34.280 all siblings no no no yeah back and i mean you'd call a little brotherhood okay okay i see but a

00:27:41.320 but a club right right right we were all sick in that generation in seattle wow i spent probably

00:27:47.080 about three years in and out of the hospital at seattle children's and would they date to a lot

00:27:51.480 of the cf kids it not i mean close close man i mean my best friend would you know he's my best

00:27:58.180 friend but i did have another two that i knew that they wouldn't want to date due to i mean we can't

00:28:05.240 man we can't commingle too well if my bacteria learns yours then our antibiotics kind of cancel 0.97

00:28:10.720 each other out you can't even have sex with someone because hell no man if they have your

00:28:15.360 cystic fibrosis could meet up and and teach each other about the other one's defenses yeah yes yes 0.94

00:28:20.920 as well as create new defense it's bad it's crazy man but on that note though theo man check it like

00:28:26.780 it's like game of thrones i'm in game of thrones season one right now oh jesus man so yeah yeah

00:28:31.340 well you gotta catch up it's very similar dude are you ready for that we'll talk about that it's

00:28:35.360 like are you really ready for that commitment is eight seasons dude with game of thrones i don't

00:28:38.840 know okay i don't think i am actually it'd be the most commitment theo's ever had yes like i'm

00:28:45.180 already scared of season four i'm already wondering how i'm gonna get out of season four

00:28:50.140 um look can i speak on that real fast though uh on the on the yeah definitely so you can't even so

00:28:56.360 so there's a danger of even mingling so can you right right can you touch each other and stuff

00:29:00.620 you're not supposed to but we do right right but but the thing is this man you're meeting someone

00:29:05.240 for kind of maybe the first time in your life it's oh my holy shit this person knows what i

00:29:09.740 deal with oh it's interesting and you're like nine years old yeah the the subconscious takes 0.55

00:29:14.320 a crazy toll right we're like oh man i gotta do all these treatments i gotta cough up all this 0.99

00:29:18.540 stuff you know is that what you cough up bile mucus oh wow it's in the lungs right um damn 0.94

00:29:24.540 sounds like if you don't have cystic fibrosis i would love that i love coughing up something 0.85

00:29:28.240 spitting it oh yeah man swartzen was talking a lot about bile maybe he has cystic fibrosis and

00:29:33.020 we don't know i could see nick swartzen having it he's something seems he looks like he i mean

00:29:38.040 something's wrong with him i don't know something's wrong with him but it also makes him very special 0.99

00:29:42.960 and sweet yeah yeah yeah it looks like his diarrhea like right under his shit in his pants 0.98

00:29:47.100 all the time that's true as as i was growing up with these eight or nine and i'm glad that we 0.98

00:29:53.180 could keep it light because the the bomb drop is this by 20 years old by my 20th birthday all of

00:29:58.460 them are gone no way passed away all of them have died wow and you know i i don't like the disease

00:30:06.200 or from other stuff randomly from the disease wow from the disease and and um i i don't i don't like

00:30:11.460 to say because it feels weird but i'm kind of the the one guy who got out right the one kid who

00:30:17.440 survived and then when my time to to go came right yeah that for whatever miracle on miracle it it

00:30:26.260 eliminated that and now here i am man right and because it's such a now were those people kids

00:30:32.320 on the list too a lot of them transplant these days for lungs have have advanced greatly within

00:30:39.240 the past 10 years yeah so i mean i'm 31 now back when i was 20 they were already all gone

00:30:43.860 and so no man i mean none of them were even maybe even eligible for transplant dude it's just it's

00:30:52.200 so it's so harsh to say man that's crazy man that so so those so did you start to feel like

00:30:59.260 was there a superiority complex

00:31:01.540 that happened to some

00:31:02.560 because you know

00:31:03.560 the ego is very dangerous

00:31:04.620 and I even notice

00:31:05.440 sometimes it's like

00:31:06.220 you know

00:31:06.440 things will start to make you

00:31:07.520 it's hard for you

00:31:08.580 not to think

00:31:08.920 oh I'm special

00:31:09.740 as well

00:31:10.520 you know

00:31:10.840 in addition to the other feelings

00:31:12.280 you can have

00:31:12.660 I'm lucky

00:31:13.220 I'm blessed

00:31:14.100 I'm fortunate

00:31:14.760 and I'm staying in the action

00:31:16.700 of helping others

00:31:17.300 but there's also times

00:31:18.220 where you feel like

00:31:18.740 oh well

00:31:19.160 I'm the man

00:31:20.600 you know 1.00

00:31:21.120 I'm the fucking 1.00

00:31:21.680 Ralph Macchio 0.99

00:31:22.400 it's interesting you say that

00:31:23.620 I don't

00:31:25.180 I don't look at it

00:31:26.320 as a superiority

00:31:26.900 as far as that goes

00:31:27.960 but I do say

00:31:28.760 why me

00:31:29.240 oh why me yeah and not in a guilty way but like like quite literally you know i i why am i what

00:31:37.120 why why am i like why am i still here out of these eight or nine like what did i do to deserve

00:31:41.720 living continuously what did i do deserve going back to our previous uh thread of conversation

00:31:49.620 there was one other person in the transplant man like when i before i got the transplant there was

00:31:55.760 one other person in the hospital that was contending

00:31:57.860 with me. They sent him home,

00:32:00.120 dude. Wow. And I'm

00:32:01.980 hoping that he got lungs and he'll cross our fingers

00:32:03.760 or whatever. But

00:32:05.020 there's a why me aspect

00:32:07.820 and... It's like the contender, that show, The Contender.

00:32:10.020 Remember that? Sylvester Stallone and...

00:32:11.660 I loved it. You think of that? It's so good.

00:32:13.700 Sergio Mora. He won

00:32:15.500 Manfredo. The snake? I didn't like him.

00:32:17.680 I like Manfredo from where? New Jersey? Rhode Island, baby.

00:32:19.740 Rhode Island. What was his name? Peter Manfredo. Peter Manfredo Jr.,

00:32:21.860 right? And then Gary Belletto Jr. There's two

00:32:23.740 guys from Rhode Island. Peter Manfredo, I watched.

00:32:25.520 couldn't he yeah he hated manfredo was like yeah but he kept losing he lost a lot i cried like

00:32:30.920 every episode of that show it was incredible um the the fight scenes were like they did them all

00:32:35.440 cinematic like but just this weekend coincidentally daniel cormier and sergio mora got into it on

00:32:39.880 twitter uh because of how sergio mora was commentating the canelo fight they thought

00:32:44.760 they were fanboying out and they were going back and forth like wow yeah it was it got rough you

00:32:49.820 should check that out later so sergio mora is a is a commentator now yeah yeah him and brian

00:32:54.520 kenny did the canelo fight and they were just like even when daniel jacobs would land a shot

00:32:58.160 they'd be like look at the chin on canelo like everything was about him he's the 300 million

00:33:03.000 dollar man did they like ever put you guys together or like did you ever meet him and

00:33:07.200 or they try and keep you met him huh oh the contender oh no dude we up man because if we 0.91

00:33:13.340 did we try to kill each other would you really for sure absolutely dude i would dude it's liver

00:33:18.280 let live dude i ain't gonna let him live so both you guys are up for the organs yeah that's why 0.54

00:33:24.240 yeah and it's like and we're never gonna meet dude i never want to meet that guy because he's

00:33:29.120 gonna be because what if he's you know god forbid what if he's not here what if he's not here

00:33:32.980 but i mean he likely is um who knows but that uh yeah we knock on wood and we cross our fingers

00:33:39.740 and all that you know but that but that being said man that's crazy man again but you sleep

00:33:44.740 in the hospital you get the call okay i come in at 7 p.m i got my fresh haircut you know i'm trying 0.88

00:33:49.100 to get at the nurses right and so anyway um and that's real now are you real horny before you're

00:33:54.220 gonna die like that always yeah i could see that whether it's before death or after dude i'm 0.99

00:33:58.960 nobody's always i mean somebody will fuck you after in a hospital they might they always keep 0.99

00:34:03.540 busting people for you know uh making babies with the dead or whatever over there knock you know 0.99

00:34:08.560 they've always bust every now and then bust a black janitor from you know procreating with a 1.00

00:34:13.200 bunch of old senior women but my first girlfriend i'm not black janitor i should have said a black 0.96

00:34:17.500 janitor different all types of janitors black and white and beige so that's a universal thing

00:34:23.880 people want to right but um but so anyway you're in there let me get at this can i say this real

00:34:29.600 fast you were bringing that up dude my first girlfriend was a nurse and i was at the hospital

00:34:34.600 dude i was at seattle children's hospital she was a cna yeah and taking care of me and then we

00:34:39.880 didn't you know started dating but she got fired promptly after that yeah you can't do that and

00:34:46.180 did you guys ever like hook up in the hospital or no it happened wow yeah and is that is there

00:34:51.680 a lot of sex between in like these transplant wards probably probably more than we would like

00:34:58.060 to admit i kind of mean that it's like the olympic center it's like olympic village or whatever

00:35:02.080 you know i'm saying i think anyway if you're there and you got you know and you got the death 0.99

00:35:06.720 cathel on the next day baby i'd be fucking dude i'd fuck the little guy bringing the uh jell-a 0.99

00:35:12.740 cups you know dude we're all looking for some love and so that and i say that as a joke but 1.00

00:35:18.300 that's very mean like is it hard to have sex when you can't breathe that good oh dude but i always 0.96

00:35:23.120 found a way dude you always find it you can ask past lovers you can ask current lovers i'll always

00:35:28.460 find a way dude yes absolutely for sure i can make he's going longer than theo yeah oh i can't

00:35:35.580 stand it dude it was hard i you know what i would do theo this is a real power play that i would do

00:35:39.740 right before um right before it was all finished up yeah i'd pull out i'd place her hand on my

00:35:47.300 heart oh wow to show how much dedication i put into it because it was so rapid and but then they

00:35:55.240 like they knew they're like oh shit he's he really loves me this guy did it all this guy's at 7 000 0.71

00:36:02.620 fucking beats a minute wow bro it's intense but it's but it's fun though it's fun though like it 0.94

00:36:13.480 is because you don't know what's gonna happen yeah do you ever it's exciting is it do you ever 0.96

00:36:17.860 think your heart could stop and stuff like that there were times where because if you remember

00:36:22.760 i was coughing up all that blood oh yeah there were times where i would i'd be in the middle

00:36:27.900 of making love with a girl and start coughing blood up yeah and thinking i'm like okay i could 0.96

00:36:34.140 die from this and uh but i need to i need to finish i need to have sex first finish it up yeah 0.67

00:36:41.120 Yeah, dude, because we got life, we got duality here, life and death, and I will always choose life, always. 0.87

00:36:46.380 And you also, that could be, what's that group of kids in high school that go to watch that midnight Rocky Horror Picture Show, dude?

00:36:52.020 You could have, with that, you tell that story right there, you could have hooked up with any chick that is a big Rocky Horror Picture Show fan, I feel like.

00:36:58.720 Yeah, yeah, yeah, but I don't know if that's my type, but you're right, but I don't know if that's my type.

00:37:02.500 so so so you got the now once you get the transplant you got a bag you got a pair of bags

00:37:09.880 from a let's go here let's let's check out another video right here this is the first

00:37:14.740 first time uh we talked to mickey after the transplant let's hear it yo how's it going man

00:37:20.480 what up bro dude new hitters bro you got them new fresh air duffles huh baby boy

00:37:27.760 man god dang man life is so good brother it's so good to hear your voice man dude you too man

00:37:34.860 you sound like a day honestly do you sound like an adult now dude you know what's crazy

00:37:40.980 using real fast dude my diaphragm hasn't hooked up to my long flying god laugh right now

00:37:46.080 like literally i'm it's a silent laugh but i am an adult i'm an adult now man i weigh uh

00:37:51.300 dude i weigh 118 pounds but i'm still an adult dang you coming he's that light he's that light

00:37:56.840 adult but look out where were you at or before like out of 10 and where you at now out of 10

00:38:03.760 so it's it's really funny man you know when we talked what like three weeks ago i want to say

00:38:09.620 four weeks maybe um you know i was like i think i told you like maybe an 8.5 in life right yeah

00:38:15.880 out of 10 yeah this is like you know not to be all hokey or whatever man yeah it's like a

00:38:22.760 It's 10 out of 10, if not 15 out of 10.

00:38:26.580 Dude, every day is, man.

00:38:29.980 You're out there, huh?

00:38:30.860 Every day is beautiful, dude.

00:38:32.560 So, dude, let me hear.

00:38:33.580 So you got those new lungs.

00:38:34.720 Now, the person that donated them to you, that person was, they overdosed.

00:38:39.780 Is that right?

00:38:41.160 That's true, man.

00:38:42.100 Yeah, I said that over text, dude, in the sense that this was what was considered a high-risk transplant,

00:38:48.420 meaning that the donor had been using intravenous drugs

00:38:53.380 and also spent a little bit of time in jail.

00:38:56.380 Ooh, boy, you got a real G inside of you now.

00:39:00.600 Dude, my street credibility went up about 100%,

00:39:03.820 at least double what I normally had, you know? 0.95

00:39:06.220 Dude, you got them dirty, moist duffels living in your sternum now, dude. 0.95

00:39:11.700 This is gangster. 0.98

00:39:12.940 They overdosed, right? Tell us about that, man.

00:39:14.620 Yeah, man.

00:39:15.460 They don't tell me...

00:39:17.180 You got a picture of them or not?

00:39:18.200 no dude i'll tell you how it is yeah i'll tell you this man there's this thing called hipaa

00:39:24.320 which is basically a privacy act right and so they tell me what i need to know about the organs

00:39:30.220 so which is specifically this that let me know let me guess hold on let us guess what it sounds

00:39:36.300 like what year how many eight years old is the the bags here whistle a little dude dude i always

00:39:44.960 okay 27 hold on what about uh maybe sing a couple bars do a little bit of national anthem

00:39:55.760 dude what if i don't know that song we'll just do a couple bars

00:39:59.140 oh say can you see

00:40:05.180 pretty good yeah let me think i would go probably

00:40:11.720 i'm gonna go 23 year old uh i'm gonna go actually i'm gonna go with a 31 year old

00:40:18.780 gianni uh my original guess was 27 but um the national anthem was a little deeper so i'm gonna

00:40:24.960 go 30. you gotta get clues man yeah when i heard the national anthem i was thinking like

00:40:30.460 Pavarotti i'm thinking like 64 to be honest oh wow so nick's going with those old bags that

00:40:36.340 means you gotta gotta get them replaced in 20 years price is right for new organs yeah if it 0.61

00:40:41.860 is i fucked up i might one dollar bob i want that blender uh what are we talking here nick 0.97

00:40:48.120 yeah man it's uh i think that he was 31 to 32 years wow right gianni right on the freaking 0.98

00:40:54.740 long money and here's what they tell me man they tell me everything that i'm supposed to or need

00:41:00.320 to know right and which is this that uh that this was a high risk transplant meaning that the

00:41:07.020 patient or i should say the the donor had died and uh had been using intravenous drugs in the past

00:41:16.700 i believe x amount of hours whatever that is as well as and the big thing to take away is the

00:41:23.560 the recipient is that there's two different things that i got to watch out for um the two things were

00:41:29.780 this hey he's done ivy drugs lately and also he's also been had a history of a criminal record okay

00:41:37.140 and so they say that means there's high risk for uh you could have hiv wow you get hep c or hep b

00:41:44.440 and um yeah man so then they tell you that beforehand and then they say you still want them

00:41:50.700 wow

00:41:51.540 yeah

00:41:54.660 and you can say

00:41:55.580 yes or no

00:41:56.280 yeah

00:41:56.960 but dude

00:41:58.280 now if you say no

00:41:59.040 you're gambling

00:41:59.780 that you're gonna get

00:42:00.420 another pair

00:42:01.100 you already got it

00:42:01.880 you got it 1.00

00:42:02.560 another pair of fucking 1.00

00:42:03.700 chest socks 1.00

00:42:04.740 what do you do

00:42:05.120 do you take them

00:42:06.060 I mean you gotta

00:42:06.640 what do you think

00:42:07.700 what do you do

00:42:08.380 I don't know

00:42:09.300 I like to

00:42:09.840 I like to say

00:42:10.960 don't hit me

00:42:11.760 it's like price is right again

00:42:12.900 bitter pass

00:42:13.500 bitter pass

00:42:14.100 yeah

00:42:14.420 that's probably the toughest

00:42:15.940 game of 21

00:42:16.540 you've ever played

00:42:17.260 I know dude 0.97

00:42:18.520 it's ridiculous man 0.83

00:42:19.640 but my thought 0.97

00:42:20.520 Did you think about it at all?

00:42:22.240 Oh, dude, I called my best friend about it.

00:42:24.360 Oh, it's phone a friend.

00:42:25.280 This is definitely thinking.

00:42:26.180 Yeah, oh, for sure, man.

00:42:27.280 It's getting more complex.

00:42:29.160 I phoned a friend.

00:42:29.960 What did he say?

00:42:30.560 I love this.

00:42:31.280 Yeah, yeah.

00:42:32.260 She's all like, here's the thing.

00:42:34.340 Is it your friend Amy that we know?

00:42:35.960 No, no.

00:42:36.980 Amy, no, it wasn't Amy.

00:42:38.600 I didn't know Amy until after the show.

00:42:40.220 I've made so many connections after the show, man.

00:42:42.280 But it's my friend Deanna.

00:42:43.960 She's my best friend, and she actually is the one who made the GoFundMe page a while

00:42:48.600 back.

00:42:48.980 and so anyway

00:42:50.340 she just

00:42:52.500 she's a lawyer 1.00

00:42:53.280 she's smart 1.00

00:42:54.040 right

00:42:54.380 and she said

00:42:54.960 she goes

00:42:55.280 listen

00:42:55.680 I'd say take him

00:42:57.440 I'd say take him

00:42:58.340 because

00:42:58.800 you don't know

00:42:59.800 if you're gonna survive

00:43:00.480 yeah

00:43:00.920 so and I

00:43:01.940 and you know

00:43:02.360 I go

00:43:02.660 yeah you know

00:43:03.420 I suppose that's true

00:43:04.460 and even if I get

00:43:05.340 hep C

00:43:05.700 hep B

00:43:06.100 even if I get HIV

00:43:07.080 it's like

00:43:07.680 whatever dude

00:43:09.140 yeah

00:43:09.480 and I kind of mean that dude

00:43:11.720 so that's interesting

00:43:12.680 it's crazy

00:43:13.020 so at that level

00:43:13.880 so that's

00:43:14.380 see this is a really

00:43:15.060 good piece

00:43:15.520 because then at that level

00:43:16.580 I can

00:43:16.940 that's something

00:43:17.500 I can almost

00:43:17.980 kind of grasp

00:43:18.580 my head onto like man okay right now if somebody said hey man do you want hiv i'd be like nah i'm

00:43:24.420 good you know but if it was like hey do you want to live but also maybe have hiv it would be like 1.00

00:43:32.120 yeah undeniable right right gun to your head gun to your head yeah we'll shoot you in three weeks 1.00

00:43:37.840 you live your life but we're gonna get you or you're gonna have hiv and just will never come 1.00

00:43:42.600 again yeah we'll shoot you full hiv and you'll live so uh do you feel any different do you feel 0.98

00:43:51.480 like when they put new lungs into you that you develop any of the traits from the other person 0.96

00:43:56.280 if the person was a drug user do you start to covet dope do you start to you know do you ever

00:44:01.680 do you have any dreams you feel like aren't yours like does any of that kind of stuff go on after

00:44:06.180 you are a transplant recipient so like i told you man i got the call actually on may 6th of last

00:44:13.660 year and who called a man or a woman it's a man man a nurse at the at the hospital okay and how

00:44:19.740 do they phrase that to you literally saying dude um hey michael we have that's also my name

00:44:26.740 we have a uh well yeah we have we have a possible donor for you and barring again like i was saying

00:44:33.820 And barring that you are the recipient that is most ill and most fitting, then we would

00:44:40.800 be performing the transplant on you.

00:44:43.100 And that's that.

00:44:45.180 Getting back to what you were saying, though.

00:44:49.460 What were you saying?

00:44:50.920 I don't know.

00:44:51.840 All right. 1.00

00:44:52.200 Well, shoot, man.

00:44:53.560 Were you going to puff on some alburo?

00:44:55.240 You got some.

00:44:55.900 That's beclevent.

00:44:56.640 I used to use that, man.

00:44:57.860 Yeah.

00:44:58.040 This is flutacoside proponate.

00:45:00.860 Flumase.

00:45:01.100 So I do this every now and then.

00:45:02.780 Yeah, man.

00:45:03.200 you got cystic fibrosis from that what's going on no i have uh my lungs something happened with

00:45:10.340 my lungs the doctor said okay but if you if you developed any of the traits that oh like someone

00:45:17.520 who got a transplant you feel like you do things differently that aren't yours now like suddenly

00:45:20.720 you want to swim or suddenly you want to yeah you know have a oatmeal and this is this is not a joke

00:45:25.280 so where i was going thank you where i was going with that was that um the the donor had his thing

00:45:30.940 on cinco de mayo right so he i always looked at weekends like these are big things people die

00:45:37.600 during the weekends dude we party on friday and saturday you know we party we party hard sometimes

00:45:42.760 we party all the time but on friday and saturday that's when most people party and that's when

00:45:47.020 most people die and for him he got wild on cinco de mayo you know and he did his thing

00:45:54.440 Cinco de muerto, eh? 0.91

00:45:56.100 Was he Latino? 0.99

00:45:57.580 That's what I'm wondering.

00:45:59.200 Because I'll tell you this.

00:46:00.380 This is where I was getting at. 0.73

00:46:01.520 What I've taken from him, I cannot not date a Latino girl. 0.98

00:46:08.660 Really? 0.99

00:46:09.120 No, and I kind of mean that, dude.

00:46:10.980 That's not really even a joke.

00:46:12.180 I like a lot of Mexican food a lot lately.

00:46:16.300 You have a craving.

00:46:17.300 Yeah, yeah.

00:46:18.860 Well, it's like if you have a baby and you have a craving for certain food,

00:46:21.200 that the baby could be that ethnicity a lot of times.

00:46:23.520 and so i can't imagine that this would be very much different than that that's amazing that's

00:46:28.120 what if your desire for people you are attracted to is in your lungs you know it's such a crazy

00:46:36.400 thing when you think of a i don't mean to take it here but like almost a spiritual sense to me i

00:46:40.840 have another person's organs another person inside of me right now yeah and so there's just no way

00:46:47.340 in my opinion that you can't take on something this guy's dna is inside of me do you start

00:46:53.500 to feel things more interchangeable like what does that do for you physically having somebody else's

00:46:57.400 body parts in you you just realize at least in my part man it's it's just a wild experience

00:47:04.900 you know do you realize that first and foremost we're at a time where medical advances has made

00:47:10.980 this possible right without that i would not be here for one i mean secondly again i do really

00:47:16.880 imagine and wonder i'm i'm wondering who this man was who this man was what life he lived

00:47:23.280 because here's the thing theo many people who go through what i've gone through um they die

00:47:29.640 yeah after transplant they die man and because the organs get rejected right they do and you

00:47:36.240 have to take anti-rejection medicine i do yeah i um i haven't told you about this much but my

00:47:42.040 my recovery i was in the hospital post-transplant dude for 10 days right which you're supposed to

00:47:49.320 be in there for at least two weeks yeah that seems like way not that much there you are mickey lives

00:47:55.520 baby right there yeah dang look at you you look like al pacino a little bit in there dude

00:48:00.820 you look like uh al pacino you look much older there you look much younger now like yeah it's

00:48:09.620 crazy thank you i appreciate that man i mean that that has happened i i feel like there's so much

00:48:15.120 emotional stress and physical stress on your body i look at pictures from beforehand and i look i

00:48:21.140 look aged right and not not badly but yeah you can see a pain i feel you could see a pain like

00:48:27.620 what do you mean you can see a pain do you ever feel like that when you walk walking around you

00:48:31.360 see that somebody's just kind of like can just kind of feel their energy almost oh yeah definitely

00:48:36.900 especially if you've been fasting i could imagine if you're are on the if you're going if you're

00:48:40.980 getting sick um if you're on mushrooms things like that i feel like i can definitely immediately

00:48:44.780 tell if someone's what's going on with someone and sometimes even almost what it is what that

00:48:48.800 specifically is or you get an insight especially if you're fasting i feel like because you're so

00:48:53.900 hungry for anything that even a piece of information from someone is like uh appetize you

00:48:58.920 is like is like a nutrient yeah it's like uh it's something you get you know um what what are some

00:49:05.080 things that physically happen to you differently now that like that happen to your body differently

00:49:08.920 or that, you know, are suddenly or different now.

00:49:12.160 The one thing I smile at is...

00:49:14.500 Move this a little closer to you.

00:49:15.540 Can you hear him okay?

00:49:16.240 Yeah, yeah.

00:49:16.620 Okay. 0.68

00:49:17.000 It's so ridiculous that I bring this up 0.70

00:49:18.660 because it's been such a consistent topic. 0.98

00:49:20.760 Dude, my sex life is way better.

00:49:23.280 Really?

00:49:23.700 Like, enormously better, dude. 1.00

00:49:24.240 Oh, God, I need some fucking lungs then. 0.99

00:49:26.780 I need a couple lungs in my nuts, dude. 1.00

00:49:28.840 I need definitely some more. 1.00

00:49:30.260 I need some more. 1.00

00:49:31.700 I need my dick to breathe harder. 1.00

00:49:34.880 So that's a thing immediately that you notice? 1.00

00:49:37.280 Are you serious or not?

00:49:38.420 no i'm i'm very serious i um it's it's a blood flow thing i think i'm more oxygenated right

00:49:44.300 yeah that's so i do have i have like harder erections man yeah yeah it's and it's it's

00:49:51.000 like the first thing that i noticed that's awesome i'm other than the fact that yes that i can breathe 0.90

00:49:55.320 okay cool great i can breathe but also but we breathe to sometimes have sex right it's like

00:50:00.880 we breathe to do things right one of them that we do what have you learned as a mode like what

00:50:05.460 are some things that you now

00:50:07.600 like in insights you realize about life

00:50:09.660 or about being alive

00:50:10.900 or time or anything some lights

00:50:13.560 some insights about existence that

00:50:15.640 you think other people may not have

00:50:17.940 the ability to

00:50:19.760 recognize because they didn't have this

00:50:21.700 experience and they

00:50:23.720 can be good or bad yeah that's it

00:50:25.600 man I mean I would have first asked you how much time

00:50:27.720 we got right but I'd say

00:50:29.520 we got time to hear a couple

00:50:30.440 the biggest thing I would say man

00:50:33.460 is that

00:50:35.460 um you got to really look at life and understand you got to build an awareness to yourself to what

00:50:44.580 you want in life because it's not going to be it really is not going to be the status that you may

00:50:49.980 want to build whether it's a little empire whether it's money i'd say sure if you're going to do that

00:50:54.920 build it and knowing what you want in life because i'll tell you this on someone who's been after his

00:50:59.680 deathbed and now on a rebirth i would say the things that are biggest to me are my relationships

00:51:04.580 in life the passions that i want to pursue as well as the things that fulfill me right and i've taken

00:51:09.340 the time to understand these things and i would say you learn these things real it becomes every

00:51:16.700 it taints your experience you start talking with people you're like oh he doesn't he doesn't know

00:51:21.620 himself she doesn't know she's lost she's gonna keep going through this cycle over and over and

00:51:26.460 over again and you start realizing okay these are the big things that are in life right now

00:51:30.740 and again people get caught up in their stress it's too hard to look at and so i believe that

00:51:40.020 once you've come back from something like that that's all i'm going to pursue

00:51:43.820 you know build my little empire to the point where i want to get the resources to do what i

00:51:48.720 want to do right right but if anything exactly that do what i'm cliche enough meant do what i'm

00:51:57.280 meant to be here for right you know and maybe that i have a way somebody told me this recently they

00:52:02.760 said you know maybe you just being you and living your life is a testament of that someone looks at

00:52:11.120 and takes away from it yeah you know it inspires them and makes them want to do something more

00:52:15.880 yeah there's some calls man i've run in i've run into uh listeners yeah uh last week i was playing

00:52:22.700 basketball at a at a gym i started playing a pickup game with this other dude and uh he came

00:52:29.160 up to me i introduced myself as mickey and he goes hey man do you know theo vaughn he knew me

00:52:34.020 right away man that's great man i could tell by your voice really mickey no way dude man i got

00:52:40.060 so many and then you gotta have a jumper after that man you can't show up what was great and i

00:52:46.500 do want to make note of this theo is that i texted somebody about that and and i said you know

00:52:51.420 somebody recognized me from the podcast and she said how did it feel to be uh to be known i kind

00:52:56.500 of shrugged it aside because what i took from i said to her i said what was so amazing was his

00:53:01.440 big smile on his face yeah because the thing that he said to me was his name was jordan by the way

00:53:05.700 and he what he said to me was man you just got your transplant about a year ago you're playing

00:53:10.360 basketball like that because we did we we beat him not by much whatever but he's like wow you're

00:53:16.040 playing basketball you're out here you have this big smile right it is man and it's fulfilling

00:53:21.920 it's gratifying man and yeah that's a way where you're somebody else hears that and then they

00:53:26.560 inside of them it touches a part of them that cares and they get to see you in real life

00:53:31.060 suddenly playing hoops and they're like oh wow man that's so cool like i remember hearing about

00:53:35.620 this guy and then here i am here we are we get to play together and be around each other that's

00:53:40.540 cool and not only that doing something where you have to be able to breathe to do it you know 0.85

00:53:44.760 i mean if you guys were underwater some might be like oh who gives a fuck you know but you're out

00:53:49.980 there in a place where you got to really be able to you know use air it was wild man that's cool 0.97

00:53:55.020 man i mean even in the rehab my physical therapist unknowingly you know again i go my mickey's my

00:54:03.240 middle my nickname people know me as michael when i was getting rehab at the at the hospital

00:54:08.800 this physical therapist comes in my room and it says prefers to be called by mickey on my board

00:54:14.120 right he looks over he goes he points at me he goes are you you listen to theo von on your chance

00:54:19.640 i go yeah man why what's up he goes you trick long mickey huh that's funny he's my physical

00:54:24.300 therapist man is a tpw listener his name is jason what up jason trust that guy he's practicing

00:54:30.500 medicine he listens to theo the dark arts dude who knows what he put inside of you man dude and

00:54:36.040 so there there's these occasions right and i've connected man i've connected with a bunch of

00:54:41.120 people that and i wanted to to really state out man that the listeners have helped immensely wow

00:54:47.000 and i mean no i agree it's amazing people coming out dude so many people just just giving me their

00:54:53.320 support i had one dude give me give me a message he was like you know my son listens to the podcast

00:54:59.260 we've been listening i when we drive him i drive him to school and he listens and i listen

00:55:03.480 and he came in the door and he goes dad dad mickey got them new hitters yeah and i just was so

00:55:10.660 touched by it because there's this father and son somewhere out there i don't know like kentucky

00:55:15.000 alabama somewhere that that are are touched by this story whatever that that feel that man like

00:55:20.680 you've given me a platform on man and oh it's cool man i appreciate you saying that well it's

00:55:26.040 just funny man because i i don't know if i would ever care about transplantation unless my sister

00:55:29.460 would have went through it or i'd have been around it or you know i'd have had some experience with

00:55:35.220 it you know and then i remember you guys the skin tone was very much the same color it was this kind

00:55:39.960 yellowish kind of color a little bit you know and so and immediately whenever i saw you i was like

00:55:45.800 oh man that's so crazy it's like it just reminds me so much of my sister when she was a kid you

00:55:49.960 know right and uh and yeah i don't know it's just you know it's interesting sometimes how the power

00:55:56.760 of illness like how it makes other people it puts this impression on us of like of living of the

00:56:05.320 value of it so i can only imagine that being the illness having the illness and going right there

00:56:10.520 to the edge of like not existing anymore and then coming back from there like yeah it seemed like

00:56:17.060 you would have a sick sense as to like who's who's spending their time that you know well

00:56:22.900 who's doing things in a correct manner who's trying to who's confused who's not like it uh

00:56:28.840 i think it's probably why a lot of like you know different cultures and stuff over the years have

00:56:33.920 done things to you know whether it be fasting or whether it be sweat lodges like things where they

00:56:38.940 just try to go to the edge of their own mortality to see what's there you know to see what they can

00:56:46.560 actually learn because those are things that you used to have a lot more in everyday society before

00:56:51.380 we got so comfortable you know especially in the u.s i mean we really have a lot of comfort yeah

00:56:55.980 there's a wisdom there yeah there's a wisdom that you can't learn just by living life you get brought

00:57:01.840 to that edge man that's the crazy thing to me man it's like sometimes i'll be having a a time like

00:57:06.540 you know even just this weekend like you know i was just so tired this weekend doing doing shows

00:57:11.980 like i almost didn't want to get on stage i couldn't even feel myself talk i was like talking

00:57:15.700 but my words weren't connected with my thoughts i felt like i was just like putting on this monkey

00:57:19.580 thing on stage and then they had like this father son that had come down and just like they're like

00:57:24.260 man we're so excited like i've randomly found an email they sent me and just sent them some tickets

00:57:28.840 like at the last minute the other day like it was from like three weeks ago and i just hadn't

00:57:32.360 looked at my emails and i was like hey man why don't you guys come through and and they were

00:57:36.620 just stoked and it like gave me like a whole different it just showed me the other side of

00:57:41.760 the coin it was like oh there's you know like we just don't realize sometimes the places we are

00:57:47.700 or what we're doing the effect they can have on somebody else who's not even around you know like

00:57:52.780 whether if i'm even just you know in the morning i see like a you know a mom just give her son a

00:57:57.840 hug goodbye or the mom or the kid run back and like I love you you know just the little things

00:58:02.140 we don't see you know you see somebody pick up somebody something that they dropped that they

00:58:05.440 didn't even see and put it back on their cart didn't even know it's like just we don't know

00:58:09.220 what where the role we can play in other people's wellness you know or other people's comfort in the

00:58:14.400 world um and uh but I constantly get reminded by anyway I met the father and son after the show

00:58:20.180 and they were so stoked and it just was like oh well this is why you're here today you're just

00:58:24.480 here to help these guys you know get to spend some time together you know and then i live vicariously

00:58:28.780 it's like i get to be with my dad through that moment you know through them it's like wow wow

00:58:32.480 it's kind of i don't know we're in this little we're all in this web we're all so connected it's

00:58:37.300 it's it's it's crazy i feel like um yeah i think it's cool that like mickey got to uh share his

00:58:45.300 story with all our listeners because like lots of times when it just happens to you like that's

00:58:49.200 what you need to like take stock of things and reevaluate but these people didn't have to have

00:58:54.220 it firsthand they got to hear mickey's story and see his new lease on life and i think it kind of

00:58:59.040 just a reminder of people to live that way yeah without having to go through the suffering yeah

00:59:04.820 100 reminding people to do organ donation you know like just the value of that's thinking that

00:59:10.660 their lungs could have a chance to be here on tpw you know i'm just joking but still dude you're 0.99

00:59:16.620 here we have two guests in studio today i say we go for heart next yeah dog you gotta fucking 0.98

00:59:22.500 start doing drugs or something bore that heart out man get a kidney dude i might get another arm 0.99

00:59:28.640 crazy yeah don't get all crazy play the violin or something yeah be that juggler who's cheating 0.94

00:59:34.940 but your your listener base man are the people that support you theo that i mean there's a

00:59:41.620 special i i know you know this yeah it's a specialness yeah we got a special group man

00:59:45.920 there is i there's a there's a core principle set man i do think that it anybody that i've

00:59:51.260 met previously that knows me from the show

00:59:53.340 so to speak. Dude, I've had people

00:59:55.100 from my past, like an old

00:59:57.280 high school friend, just reach out to me

00:59:59.240 Hey, I heard you on Theo's thing, man

01:00:01.020 People that I've met. People ask about you

01:00:03.300 all the time. You and Riff Raff are probably two

01:00:05.240 people that people ask me about the most 0.98

01:00:06.760 You know, Riff Raff and fucking Breathe 0.99

01:00:09.300 Rough. That's what I called you 0.99

01:00:10.660 And here we are having them back to back weeks

01:00:13.200 Here we are, back to back weeks

01:00:14.880 this past weekend

01:00:16.640 We actually have some Patreon questions for Mickey

01:00:19.300 Good. That came in too. You want to?

01:00:20.800 That's awesome, and Johnny's going to start handling our Patreon questions a little bit more.

01:00:25.080 What have we got, G?

01:00:26.380 Okay, so we have, our first question is from Jacob Wells.

01:00:29.980 Now that he's got these new hitters, is he considering any other upgrades?

01:00:33.300 Maybe calf implants, so we just, yeah.

01:00:36.280 Calf implants.

01:00:37.920 Oh, man, dude.

01:00:39.380 I would think that I would go for some new one thing.

01:00:45.000 Dude, no, I know. 1.00

01:00:45.720 It would be some new testicles. 1.00

01:00:47.340 Really? 1.00

01:00:47.920 Yeah. 0.99

01:00:48.480 Do your testicles get smaller when your lungs get smaller? 1.00

01:00:50.260 like too big too big big testicles oh they get bigger yeah why again man i think that vasculation 0.99

01:00:57.860 it just happens man really i mean you know and that's that's a ridiculous notion i think that 0.99

01:01:02.940 i'm good with the organs i have but definitely if i were to switch one out it'd be testicles 0.99

01:01:06.380 you want bigger ones no i want smaller testicles testicles are a little too big i think overall 0.98

01:01:11.940 so that's jacob wells right there my boy i know him over from oklahoma city man i've met him at 0.99

01:01:16.480 a couple of comedy shows he has like nine brothers and sisters none of them can chop wood which

01:01:20.900 was shocked me usually somebody can if you have that many and in oklahoma oh dude definitely

01:01:26.840 all right we got our second one tommy for uh frederick and he says tell mickey congrats on

01:01:31.760 the double lung hitters uh does he have any plans for gnarly tattoo on that horizontal chest scar

01:01:36.980 oh yeah dude shout out to my boy billy marin he died actually he ate a bunch of pills and i think

01:01:42.340 died in a jeep grand cherokee which i love those cars but he um he got one of his lungs gave out

01:01:49.200 once and he got a shark like on the water coming up out of his own chest it looked like a shark 0.73

01:01:53.660 like breaching out of him into the universe pretty fucking dope and i think had like a uh 0.85

01:01:58.260 like a stripper on its back this is down near like florida you know west uh pensacola so that 0.90

01:02:04.020 kind of stuff is popular the the tattoo idea i've thought about a lot of things there's this is a

01:02:10.320 such a lame answer to say but you're not supposed to get tattoos after your transplant man what

01:02:15.640 specifically because are you jewish all of a sudden there's a lot of there's a lot of issues 0.84

01:02:20.600 that come with it man do certain things that i can't do and it's the idea that there's ink

01:02:24.640 poisoning within the blood i see so the idea and if i were to get anything it sounds super cheesy 0.82

01:02:29.560 i'm gonna keep it real in this not be stupid and silly but um i would get a rose on my wrist 0.76

01:02:35.160 and or something on my finger a rose the rose represents six cystic fibrosis it's also known 0.97

01:02:41.640 as uh i guess a lot of there's a story with it but it's also called 65 roses so the rose is kind

01:02:47.980 of a symbol to cf yeah and how many uh have we cured it yet or who's who's who's fighting it

01:02:54.000 right now cystic fibrosis how are we doing against it do you know question man we're doing pretty

01:02:58.500 well we're doing pretty well man i i know that there's always new medicines that are coming out

01:03:03.500 right now as we talked about man we've got an acquaintance named my friend amy and she's doing

01:03:08.860 amazing dude she's 38 oh wow really yeah i've met her at a couple of comedy shows she has cf i know

01:03:13.820 and uh she you know she's obviously been a big supporter of yours and she reached out a couple

01:03:18.380 times to uh and she said hey i was thinking about getting uh mickey a one-year transplant gift she

01:03:24.180 said and maybe haven't come to your shows in new york and i said well you know i know ridge actually

01:03:29.060 ridge had talked about you know them front pocket carries dude you know and there's no bigger front

01:03:35.100 pocket carries in your damn lungs and so uh and so we all discussed it and emailed back and forth 0.86

01:03:42.200 and then here you are yeah ridge made this happen today flew mickey out first class him and his 0.99

01:03:47.460 buddy from detroit came out and put him up in an airbnb gang gang man you know what i and you know

01:03:53.180 what's so funny is myself and the guy from ridge talked about that probably it must have been

01:03:58.880 50 weeks ago you know right after you got the transplant we talked about it and we wanted to

01:04:04.700 go skydiving and you and i talked about that but you can't do it yet or you have to wait oh dude

01:04:08.280 we can let's go dude you could do it now night bro what's up you can't do it at night okay well

01:04:14.660 i mean do tomorrow morning before i fly out bro look you're the lucky one you can do it whenever 0.76

01:04:21.000 you want you know i'm saying bro death's probably fucking waiting for me uh no man i yeah i'd love 0.53

01:04:27.460 to but i wanted to talk about that real fast dude ridge hooked it up did they oh ridge ridge is great 0.95

01:04:33.120 that's cool dude i mean people i told friends about it they're like ridge wallets for for the

01:04:37.580 holidays yeah and they're thinking that's seven months out but i mean if you really think no they

01:04:42.680 did man they flew me out here they got they they held up for lodging and dude he even came and asked

01:04:48.380 me for some spending money man every yeah man ridge ridge did me so well and uh i mean i'm so

01:04:54.720 i'm i'm so thankful for the opportunity no it's cool man and well they just kept their word it

01:05:00.200 was funny because he and i were talking about it and this was uh you know they were one of our

01:05:04.820 early sponsors who even was so supportive from the beginning and and and then we just reached

01:05:09.280 out to him randomly when it kind of it thought when you know a couple weeks ago and next thing

01:05:13.940 you know they support they were like yeah a hundred percent they didn't think twice pretty

01:05:17.600 cool yeah you know a lot of people you know all of us we just we get nervous we second guess we

01:05:22.640 don't know but they didn't do that at all um yeah we got one more patreon question okay um so megan

01:05:28.080 daly asked uh what did he figure out that he wishes somebody had told him about the whole

01:05:32.800 process that he would want people who are maybe going to have a transplant like he did to know

01:05:36.780 in advance that's a great question it really is oh man could you repeat it one more time yeah of

01:05:42.520 horse so she said um what did he figure out that he wishes somebody had told him about the whole

01:05:48.620 process that he would want people who are maybe going to have a transplant like he did to know in

01:05:53.300 advance i would say that that it's not it's it's i'd say about like 20 physical and maybe the rest

01:06:06.500 80% mental in the sense that regarding recovery right and I'm speaking of recovery right and

01:06:12.880 what I mean by that from the lung transplant from the transplant right man because like I said a lot

01:06:17.880 of people don't make it man it's hard it's hard on you your body what I've been told by the nurses

01:06:23.300 it's probably the hardest thing you can go through wow like you think like an amputee

01:06:28.700 amputee or something like that but once that's gone it's gone you cauterize it's tragic but

01:06:34.680 something like okay let's suture up these new lungs that are in you now you got to acclimate

01:06:38.780 again the new your neuro has got to attach to this it doesn't know what it's like i getting

01:06:44.420 back to it it's completely mental right the hardest thing i've ever done in my life was the

01:06:51.080 first walk with those new lungs it was it's excruciating man because you know you you have

01:06:59.980 you're relearning not just how to breathe but man you got these i got scar all sorts of scars man

01:07:05.340 i got like six different chest tubes coming out you know i've got an epidural i've got multiple

01:07:11.180 ivs i got a catheter and my you know everything man and you say let's take a walk because why

01:07:18.560 and why is that because we need this to get with this as soon as possible you need to work this if

01:07:24.420 you don't work this you know it'll it'll be just as good as the ones you had taken out and so again

01:07:31.760 it gets back to to realize okay that you can i know this about you man you said it before

01:07:37.580 sometimes you just need to be there mentally more than you need to be there physically right

01:07:42.960 i mean that in the sense of man i i will i i wanted to get up and go but it was my my friends

01:07:49.760 and my support that was able to say okay we'll we'll step along with you we'll do this with you

01:07:54.060 right as in to say i didn't want to start but you get me out the door and i'm out running right

01:08:01.000 yeah just sometimes yeah you got to get your feet moving and your thoughts will follow you

01:08:05.640 that's right wow okay that's so interesting it was 80 mental so you think that for some people

01:08:11.520 is just too much that some people it's hard it's hard man you know one of my best friends

01:08:17.040 is you know my best friend he's he actually took care of me he worked on the cardiothoracic icu

01:08:23.960 and he's the one he can't take care of because i've known him for 10 years his name is troy

01:08:28.100 and he he selected hand selected the nurse that would take care of me right and and getting back

01:08:35.180 to this man um he's talked to me a lot about patients that he's seen and you know everyone

01:08:41.160 has their own experience man but um a lot of it is a lot of it is just again getting that

01:08:46.960 wherewithal getting that fortitude just be like i'm gonna do this instead of saying you kind of

01:08:51.420 gotta go through a perspective of saying this right well man you know i hate there's this going

01:08:55.300 on my life i hate that in this case man i hate that i have to get this transplant i feel weak

01:09:00.040 and instead you say like how am i gonna get this transplant done yeah you know instead of get this

01:09:05.280 victimhood mentality out as fast as you can do that you know oh this is so hard how am i you

01:09:10.280 know what can i do i don't know i don't know if i can to how can i i see yeah you know what i'm

01:09:14.560 saying and that walk was so hard man now what about this you get a new piece of you know you

01:09:19.620 get a new interior these lungs right and you realize that these are interchangeable almost

01:09:25.400 between humans right not very easily because you got to have the drugs and all of that and you got

01:09:29.360 to have them you know them training wheel pills but did it give you a different perception of like

01:09:35.800 your mother your parents that you're part of like a higher that there's a higher power that's really

01:09:41.320 our parent or did you does that make any sense kind of yeah absolutely like when absolutely man

01:09:46.200 you know what i'm saying yeah does it or no well for real yes absolutely man when you're like oh my

01:09:50.280 my parents gave me life but there's any of us could have any part of each other's life and still

01:09:55.840 be yeah like this crazy did you have any did you have any philosophical or faith issues or faith

01:10:01.600 stuff that popped into you i guess the issue was that and you and i've talked about this about a

01:10:06.540 year ago about the spirituality aspect man the what came up to me now again i still lie on the

01:10:12.980 fact that i'm not very dogmatic but i've had personally i've had maybe you could say the same

01:10:18.660 for yourself dude i've had some too many coincidences in my life for me to be here

01:10:23.660 currently especially in the condition that i'm in now dude the year a one year out and i again i

01:10:30.180 don't i try not to say this from an egotistical standpoint but one year out and and having

01:10:35.240 something like what i'm looking like or what i'm doing in life man i got a day job like dude like 0.61

01:10:40.400 fuck that thing but whatever you know yeah but that's a means to an end man when it's not just 0.97

01:10:45.040 that but you know i'm out there we pay gianni in underwear so okay but we're all doing things 0.99

01:10:50.780 and he's in a new movie that's going to be in theaters in two weeks so but so that's how we do

01:10:57.140 it dude me undies actually yeah that's for life probably right no yeah this is a week-to-week

01:11:03.600 basis yeah i still haven't got my underwear for may yet yeah we need to look into that nick

01:11:08.500 uh okay sorry but but but yes man uh again getting back to it i just think that for everything to be

01:11:17.440 in place for me to be in live personally uh against subjective experience it's just too

01:11:24.040 close to comfort to say there's something out there that's gotta have me going on right because

01:11:29.160 again man yeah there's just so many people that die so fast after transplant and then there's

01:11:35.780 some rare crazy

01:11:37.740 thing like me where it's oh 10 days

01:11:40.220 and he's better yeah you know

01:11:42.160 what I'm saying wow

01:11:43.160 yeah does it feel like there's any real reason

01:11:45.940 to it or do you feel like it's like

01:11:47.760 uh

01:11:48.400 is it an added responsibility

01:11:52.200 yeah

01:11:53.740 I used to struggle with it

01:11:55.660 do you ever wish like man it would have been if I would have just

01:11:58.040 passed away it would have just been

01:11:59.640 you know it would have been like

01:12:01.940 you know like sometimes movies it's like

01:12:04.100 the person survives and sometimes they don't and sometimes the movie the movie's good either way

01:12:08.820 but it's a different type of good you know it's a different type of special it's a different type

01:12:12.660 of value did uh does that ever pop in your head no man i you know like not in an ungrateful way

01:12:19.200 i get what you're saying man i think that if anything um the big responsibility that i have

01:12:28.020 personally that i that i do undertake is to make the best out of these lungs and not just that man

01:12:33.900 But, dude, even from me to you, whether it's Nick, who I just met a couple hours ago, anyone that I've ever really come into contact with, that there's some sort of responsibility that I take within myself to say, okay, this person is rooting for me in some form or fashion, and I got this second chance.

01:12:53.600 And not only that, somebody died, and maybe he didn't die for me to live, but he died, and he granted me that way to live.

01:13:00.600 Right, he made that choice that he wanted to give his lungs up.

01:13:03.100 right right and now with that said man and i could do this later i want to reach out to the family

01:13:08.920 but i've got to say i'm like okay i i have to make the best of it and not just in a way of like oh

01:13:15.660 let's let's party in cancun all week or nothing but it's more of okay you know what i i use it

01:13:21.440 as an inspiration as fuel as to say okay you got to do your best now man because this is not just

01:13:28.160 your life at some point right somebody else somebody else is in you do you know did you do

01:13:33.900 enough google researching to kind of put the piece together and know who it is no that would be crazy

01:13:38.580 no i didn't i didn't kind of didn't want to know yet yeah there is a little bit of that right i

01:13:44.180 kind of i want to be able to reach out to the family one day because i just like to show and

01:13:49.920 have them be proud of their son kind of yeah right so you almost want to get to a certain like place

01:13:54.340 in your own life where you can be like hey that you know four years ago i got these from your son

01:13:58.500 it really yeah that'll happen i guess maybe i guess obviously it'll just happen when it's supposed

01:14:02.480 to you remember when you and i talked on the phone it was like that i was like dude the other one of

01:14:06.200 the reasons why i haven't reached out to you yet is because i don't feel like i'm at where i want

01:14:10.260 to be yet yeah and that's so crazy that you thought like that we wanted or that that was

01:14:14.280 some expectation you know you're kind of just like the mascot in a way or not just like the mascot but

01:14:19.140 i think you kind of took on that role yeah it was like you know uh and it's all i mean and in a lot

01:14:25.340 of ways it's you know this here and this today and and hearing you talk about just life and

01:14:29.280 everything it kind of like slows everything down a little bit and just kind of you know it's a 0.79

01:14:33.400 breath of fresh air as gay as that sounds and not gay and like a gay where if you're sleeping with 0.94

01:14:38.880 someone who has the same sex as you it's okay i have one last question for mickey okay um so do you 0.98

01:14:45.960 do you ever like allergies right now it's just for allergies no dude that's that's something

01:14:53.780 i didn't even see him squirted in though you know that's what this is uh i'm supposed to be on this

01:14:59.780 okay let's just be honest okay i think you just missed that heavy snort just oh i definitely

01:15:05.220 missed that part of it you know back in your coke days you know i think people got that from what i

01:15:10.400 said Gianni

01:15:10.880 look if Nick

01:15:12.320 wanted to

01:15:12.700 you know

01:15:13.240 if Gianni wanted

01:15:14.240 to keep his 0.99

01:15:14.800 fucking 1.00

01:15:15.120 his job 1.00

01:15:16.860 he fucking 1.00

01:15:17.820 you better watch 1.00

01:15:19.860 it dude 1.00

01:15:20.120 those threes 1.00

01:15:20.640 are coming off 0.99

01:15:21.340 real fast

01:15:22.000 oh no no

01:15:23.160 but my question

01:15:23.740 was like

01:15:25.060 do you ever feel

01:15:25.680 like now

01:15:26.720 obviously you feel

01:15:27.620 like you have

01:15:27.960 a new lease

01:15:28.540 on life

01:15:29.020 and things are

01:15:29.620 awesome

01:15:29.860 do you ever feel

01:15:30.560 like sometimes

01:15:31.180 that you

01:15:31.640 like a random

01:15:33.180 day that you

01:15:33.700 fall into like

01:15:34.700 not so much

01:15:35.480 a depression

01:15:35.980 but like kind

01:15:36.520 of like a

01:15:36.900 negative state

01:15:37.820 of mind 0.73

01:15:38.240 or like you

01:15:38.640 wake up and

01:15:39.020 you don't want

01:15:39.380 to get out

01:15:39.820 of bed 0.99

01:15:40.080 like do you still fall into that and be like fuck like i just don't want to do it today and you and 1.00

01:15:44.020 like or or same thing with like the at&t bill like do you think sometimes fall into like fuck 0.99

01:15:48.320 i gotta pay this bill like do you fall into that mindset sometimes there's a couple things on that 0.96

01:15:52.720 man um yes yes i do i i went through so many on and off depressions before the transplant that

01:16:01.080 what i realized man was that that this that my my sadness and my distress came from a circumstance

01:16:08.020 man i didn't realize now being out of it i realize how jovial how excited i am to live life

01:16:13.160 not because of the fact maybe that yes i get a second chance but i think this is always who i

01:16:18.320 was and to realize oh the reason why you felt that isolation the the sadness and always looking back

01:16:25.280 and never forward is because of a specific circumstance which is my health for one and

01:16:30.560 you know and secondly there was there was months man there were months when i i couldn't show up

01:16:37.380 i i had a hard time man i almost went to like a teenage state i played a bunch of video games

01:16:44.960 yeah you know and i think what was happening is as i was telling you theo man it happened so fast

01:16:50.240 in in two to three weeks time it's like a five week period you're on your deathbed and then go

01:16:55.120 relive life there's too much emotion that happens at one time and i think that that time where i

01:16:59.880 reverted back to this this status of you know when i was in early high school or something and

01:17:05.600 there was there was a second thing you noted there too that was that was really specific to me man

01:17:11.000 um i just i just feel as if again the the big thing that gets me out of the door is

01:17:19.780 man there's someone that died out there and i got i gotta make them proud

01:17:26.200 yeah and i and i try again i try to use that as a that as an inspiration there are times

01:17:32.980 where i falter man i think we all do but um but it's it's still like i i hold it for a second

01:17:38.640 let it go and then like let's get better at it yeah yeah that's awesome trick lung man

01:17:45.360 michael i didn't even know it was michael let's do trick lung mickey try to keep that one in the

01:17:49.700 back pocket man that one's like because mickey's got that like that well mickey's got some pizzazz 0.55

01:17:54.780 yeah it's got a flex to it right it's got a little kick ass mickey yeah yeah and i 0.66

01:17:59.440 we talked about it too how look italian dude oh yeah you might as well oh yeah you look way more

01:18:06.200 italian than i thought you were gonna look when i met you yeah i was like oh it could be anything

01:18:10.080 this guy could be slavic you know whatever anything could pop out of this guy you know

01:18:14.640 you have that bert like kind of bert from bert and ernie like could be a friend a cousin but 0.97

01:18:19.660 you know what i'm saying he's a handsome guy ernie look like shit remember ernie dude bert 0.68

01:18:24.840 was not that much better what are you talking about i think he was you bring up bert for us 0.97

01:18:29.080 He was the handsomer of the two

01:18:31.560 by far, dude.

01:18:34.140 They're both

01:18:35.220 ventriloquism, dude.

01:18:38.040 No, they're not ventriloquism, man.

01:18:41.060 Let's just...

01:18:42.020 Yeah, man.

01:18:43.140 He's got a full-on unibrow

01:18:45.020 compared to...

01:18:46.800 He does, dude.

01:18:47.820 Look at Ernie.

01:18:51.200 He has no brow.

01:18:54.260 Ernie can't even close his mouth, dude.

01:18:56.920 so he's going to need

01:18:58.660 a new lung soon probably

01:19:00.040 just because of the bad air he's ingested

01:19:02.280 yeah man

01:19:04.140 Bernie's got that

01:19:04.960 I look like Ernie a little bit more actually

01:19:08.480 now that I mention it

01:19:09.780 I'm trying to come out like Brendan Shaw

01:19:12.540 Mickey that new lease on life man it's inspiring

01:19:14.620 dude and I'm excited to see what you do

01:19:16.700 in the next year

01:19:17.820 yeah well thank you man

01:19:18.920 it's just so awesome thank Rich for bringing you here

01:19:21.920 and they didn't even

01:19:24.740 call and say that they didn't even call and say you got to thank

01:19:26.680 us or anything like that oh we had some gifts for are they we have that yeah yeah all right

01:19:30.080 you gotta be able to defend yourself right here yeah man i might put them two of them on my lungs

01:19:38.360 just to keep oh yeah that's a great idea so there's two bags right there you got a duffel

01:19:43.640 you got a backpack we got a couple walls for you can give uh your buddy uh sammy yeah that's right

01:19:49.220 sammy one of those and of course a knife in case you need to perform any of your own transplant

01:19:54.080 A knife? Ridge does knives?

01:19:55.780 They do knives, dude. Look, and they're sharp, bro,

01:19:57.640 so don't pierce one of your new sacks, dude.

01:19:59.700 You know what I'm saying, man?

01:20:00.840 Yeah, for sure, dude.

01:20:02.100 So you got that Ridge. Yeah, man, a couple front pocket carries there.

01:20:06.040 Dude, they got some good stuff, man.

01:20:07.240 I still use my Ridge wallet. I still have it.

01:20:09.120 It's in my bag, but...

01:20:10.060 Well, they did so well, man.

01:20:12.740 This place that we're staying at has been great.

01:20:14.800 Oh, nice.

01:20:15.260 Just the flight, everything.

01:20:16.580 They've just been so accommodating, for real.

01:20:18.520 It was cool.

01:20:19.220 They gave us their word, and they honored it, man,

01:20:21.160 and that's pretty remarkable these days.

01:20:24.080 oh man thank you bro dude i just needed to see you i didn't even realize i just needed to see

01:20:31.720 you and just kind of like just have a just a bit of a reconnection you know to what's going on just

01:20:36.380 with the podcast and just like on a lot of levels man let me if i can what does what do you get from

01:20:42.740 it i'm curious get from what just whatever i have to offer and the way that i say things man you

01:20:48.000 said you mentioned this right where you're like man i'd love to connect in this way what do you

01:20:53.060 receive from me and my story or whatever and what i'm talking about well i think it makes me think

01:20:58.280 it's a good question it makes me think about just being alive and stuff like that and reminds me of

01:21:02.800 just to have value you know reminds me to think like a little bit more in the space of gratitude

01:21:07.360 and that you know to see someone else and hear about their struggle and their journey

01:21:12.120 um it it reminds me of my sister some it makes me think about you know just recognizing that she

01:21:19.060 goes through more than i realize probably a lot of times and you know she still does a great job

01:21:23.340 as a parent and a nurse and i don't think about that a lot of times you know she's a nurse yeah

01:21:27.700 oh wow yeah because she spent so much time around him she just there was nothing else to be really

01:21:31.680 you know um and what else man it just makes me think about the community that's part of this

01:21:37.260 past weekend you know i mean so many times people will be like how's mickey doing how's mickey doing

01:21:41.960 um and and i'll be like oh you know i'll text it with them or we've kept in touch summer i haven't

01:21:49.160 talked to him in a few months i don't know we were thinking about you know trying to get him

01:21:52.720 down for the podcast and we talked about going skydiving a while back but the bags weren't ready

01:21:58.620 you know but now you know they're ready i don't know it's just it's cool man and it makes me think

01:22:04.560 okay good like you know we see you now at a year and then what will your life be like at two years

01:22:09.760 you know when you have this you know a little batch of reincarnation going on yeah you know

01:22:14.220 it's like a mascot i guess it just i think you kind of stand for kind of some of the stuff that

01:22:18.680 you know we think about and feel about in here yeah wow you know i'm happy to be a part of it 0.99

01:22:24.880 man yeah so go put some pressure on yourself and fucking get it done damn he's fast hands huh 1.00

01:22:30.460 yeah dude these fucking jujitsu are slap people bro you could slap people good because nobody 1.00

01:22:36.140 would see it coming you know yeah yeah yeah silent now with the breathing too are you really yeah 0.99

01:22:41.540 can you breathe silently i don't need to breathe sometimes and that's kind of real oh my god he's 0.96

01:22:47.140 saving those lungs do you ever hold your breath all like often wow what a psychopath 0.98

01:22:52.940 other people with cystic fibrosis must think you are a psycho no dude they're wanting to do what 0.83

01:23:00.700 i'm doing they are oh for sure they're like dude i breathe so hard all the time oh breathe so hard 1.00

01:23:06.500 motherfuckers trying to maybe let's not breathe 0.99

01:23:09.620 that shit yeah dude that's crazy yeah man no i mean i do i do i just kind of like 1.00

01:23:19.140 sometimes sometimes i'll just say what let me just try to hold my breath for as long as possible 0.99

01:23:23.460 i'll just do that for hours dude like oh that's a dark hang out just like

01:23:28.020 clock watch and everything

01:23:30.340 do it

01:23:31.280 that's the dark arts dude

01:23:33.440 you're here bro 0.99

01:23:34.480 the Larry Bird of fucking airbags right here dude 1.00

01:23:37.320 don't give up on him 0.99

01:23:38.280 Michael Jordan joining the wizards

01:23:39.860 trick along Mickey man

01:23:41.160 thanks for being here bud

01:23:41.940 thanks man

01:23:42.480 yeah thank you guys

01:23:43.360 Gianni

01:23:43.900 premature Nick

01:23:45.180 we'll see you guys next time

01:23:58.020 Oh, but when I reach that ground

01:24:01.880 I'll share this peace of mind

01:24:04.020 I found I can feel it in my bones

01:24:08.200 But it's gonna take a little time

01:24:13.860 For me to set that parking brake

01:24:17.720 And let myself unwind

01:24:20.480 Shine that light on me

01:24:24.480 I'll sit and tell you my stories

01:24:30.220 Shine on me

01:24:35.140 And I will find a song

01:24:39.380 I will sing it just for you

01:24:42.800 And now I've been moving way too fast

01:24:50.320 On a runaway train with a heavy load of my

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This Past Weekend with Theo Von - May 09, 2019

Trick Lung Mickey's One Year Transplantaversary Extravaganza ｜ This Past Weekend #197

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